#i only got six hours of sleep after being up almost 24 thats enough sleep right???

[tartagla-archived]

ok hello i will be here in a lil bit ima go shower bc i feel!! gross!!! i have to go tug my hair up into a bun tho bc i got it dyed today and then ill be here to do things

[wqk-k]

Obey Me Brother react to an idol!MC

 hi this is my first set of headcanons for the brothers  👉👈 i apologize if the brothers are ooc in this, though i tried my best jksajdufhj. i hope you enjoy!

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Warning(s): Cursing

Reader Pronouns: They/Them (4A)

Background: MC is a very popular idol in their world, best known for their impressive singing skills, music and the amount of rewards they have recieved because of their talents. Surprisingly, they aren’t only popular in their world, but in the Devildom and Celestial Realm as well.

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Lucifer

since lucifer didnt actually read who you were on the paper that had blown to his feet, he had no idea you were an idol at first

but after couple days at RAD, he noticed that random demons kept coming up to you in between classes and didnt leave until the next class started

most of them had come up to you with a pen and some paper asking for your autograph

he was just like ??? 

after a while of this happening luci decided to just ask you straight up why they were coming up to you like that and you had told him you were an idol back in the human realm

that explains it

he honestly doesnt mind

if people start hating on you in public, he’ll honestly just shoot them a death glare and it works

so damn well

he got too much pride to deal with those underlings

if you start working on music/mv projects that you left off on in the human realm (like shooting mv or singing) he will absolutely rent you a recording booth or fuck, even a whole ass theatre if you needed it

sometimes he likes to sit in the recording booth and listen to you sing for a bit before returning to his stacks of mammon’s bills 

v proud of you dont get him wrong

but he will make sure you’ve done all your homework first LMAO 🛌

Mammon

when mammon first found out you were an idol he started digging through boxes that had been in his closet

after what seemed like hours he finally found the box he was looking for and he started to dig through it

he pulled out an old camera that levi gave him a couple hundred years ago bc he said he didnt need it

mammon had the best idea ever, he could sell pictures of you to your fans for at least 10,000 grimm each.

surprisingly it worked

like really well

so well that you found out

you confronted him about it, saying that you find hella uncomfy with him snapping pictures of you at random times. not only that but it was an invasion of your privacy

despite him earning so much grimm, he agrees to stop but keeps some of the pictures to himself to look at when he misses you 

if you get hate in public he’ll turn into his demon form and scare the person away, maybe scaring you in the procees but apologizes right away if he does

if you start working on music/mv projects he’ll offer to help you shoot mvs or record you singing if you need the help

just make sure he gets some credit for helping you

but he genuinely thinks you look amazing in anything, like anything

you could be wearing a big bird cosplay and he’ll think you look breathtaking

gets you to model w him sometimes

Leviathan

wait you look really familiar

really really familiar

you almost look and sound like that one really popular human idol that hes simped for time and time again

wait

oh shit

v embarrassed when he finds out it is actually you and gets really nervous when hes talking to you

is the demon asking for your autograph

but you have no idea how much power you have over this man

you could tell him to come out of his room and he’d come out with ease, no protesting, no nothing

may ask you to record a ringtone for him for when he wakes up

even after months of you two knowing each other, he still gets flustered when you start talking to him with your stupid cute ass eyes and your perfect hair and your perfect voice and your perfect-

yeah you get the point AKJSDKLASFBG

if you get hate in public he will deadass growl at the person before escorting you to your favorite ice cream place

if you start working on music/mv projects he will be by your side 24/7

he wants to see the god/ess themselves at work

hes like your personal butler for the time youre working on the projects and its adorable

hes bby

Satan

when he finds out youre an idol he will 100% voulenteer to help you write lyrics for your next song

but besides that, like luci, he really doesnt mind

he hears some other demons talking shit about you after art class and he’ll be angy as usual, but after stomping off and accidentally bumping into you he just

turned into puddy??

idk what it was but it was something abt they way your hair was a lil messed up and looking at him like that wish a small embarrassed look

just wow

every ounce of anger just evaporated while you apologized over and over again because the face he was making made him look like he was angry for some reason 

when he snaps back into reality he says its cool but then asks if youd like to go to the library w him because honestly youre his safe haven now

sometimes he asks you to hum a tune for him when hes reading

if the demons start hating again, you may need to hold him back KJASNDJFG 

if you start working on music/mv projects, again, will voulenteer for helping with lyrics

if you already have the lyrics down he’ll review them and give constructive critisisim if needed

or he’ll just write every lyric himself and you can judge it after hes done

Asmodeus

is not surprised at all

hes actually heard some of your songs and damn id he doesnt have them on his “on repeat” playlist on devilfy

he thinks you have an outstanding voice, not only that but youre a gorgeous lookin thing

asmo likes to hit on you a lot because he likes to see that flustered look on your face but he would never over your boundaries

he wouldnt want to be over the internet bc he made one of the most praised artists in devildom (thats not even a demon) angry

asmo doesnt want to be cancelled yet JKSJKDGFUA

but seriously, he thinks youre amazing

like really amazing

there like no lust involved in his admiration for you he just geniunely thinks youre cool

but he does think you look amazing 24/7

will ask you to model things for him for devilgram

if you get hate in public, he’ll hold your hands and shower you with compliments and tells you to ignore them

if you start working on music/mv project he will insist on doing backup vocals or being a backup dancer

or like the head backup dancer or whatever theyre called

is like your personal stylist wherever you go as well

along with that he can also help you come up with a beat for your song if you need one, he is more than happy to help someone like you

Beelzebub

he honestly thinks youre really cool

asmo showed him one of your songs before and thought it sounded really catchy

not only that, you sounded beautiful, almost like you were actually from the celestial realm, consider him a fan

so when you showed up for the new exchange program he was surprised but got really giddy

was one of the demons who asked for your autograph

you gave him a sweet smile after he asked and he just- melted

man down man down

will want to spend lost of time with you and take you to ristorante six on fridays as his treat

you usually end up paying though which he feels really guilty about but you tell him its fine

youre an idol who is loaded to the chest, youve got nothing to lose KLSKADJHF

if you get hate in public he’s also the type to death glare but people dont really hate on you in public when youre w him bc he has a naturally scary aura

lowkey thought you wouldnt like him at first :(

if you start working on mv/music projects he’ll start cooking you meal and making sure you get enough water

will absolutely cook your favorite meal- or any meal in fact- if you request it

if you dont request anything he’ll just wing it and make something he think you’ll like kjskdhsf

Belphegor

couldnt care less  🧍

he thinks your voice is pretty nice tho

hears beel listening to your music once and agrees w him on you having a really nice voice

lowkey sing him to sleep

like its super cute

plus he thinks youre gorgeous?? like wow you rlly pretty

once tried rubbing your face bc he thought you were wearing makeup but when nothing came up on his thumb he muttered a small “wow” and hugged you

it was the cutest thing ever ohmy god KJSJDSIF

ever since that day hes obtained a habit of rubbing your face when he finds you stunning or at random moments

if you get hate in public he will literally murder the person?? but in like an alleyway or something

he’ll say something like “wait here” and walks toward a dark area to do his thang

when he comes back he’s covered in this red shit and you worry for him but he just glosses over it and takes you into a pillow shop LMAO

he is v protective over you

if you start working on mv/music projects he’ll occasionally help out but most of the time he’s sleeping so he doesnt really care 

sometimes he’ll give beat/lyric suggestions or help flim the mv but thats it  🧍  

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[your-modern-shakespeare]

A Little Too Real (6)

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 4.5, Part 5

Summary: RealityTV!AU- You are a wardrobe supervisor for a popular TV network. The show is planning a reality TV show like the bachelor and Bucky is the newest contestant. But as the competition starts he realizes that he doesn’t like any of the girls…on the show anyway.

Pairing: Bucky x Reader (eventual)

Word Count: 5066

A/N: So I know that this is a long time coming but I hope that this is good. I’ve had a big writer’s block problem but I feel like I’m getting past it. Anyway, I hope you enjoy and Happy Halloween!

Warnings: angst, a little fluff, hospital stuff, mentions of injury, car crash details, I don’t know what else

Tags: @fangirl1802, @seargantbcky, @lust-for-pan, @38leticia, @barnes-and-noble-girl, @karipaleta, @capandbuck, @camillechan, @findacauseandserveit, @audasia25, @kendallefire , @alicerozenju, @snuggleducky, @mell-bell, @lifeasabookbutterfly, @the-red-world-of-jess-chibi, @iamwarrenspeace

Y/N’S POV

I remember the car accident, that wasn’t the problem. It was how bad I wanted to wake up, but couldn’t. The accident played in a loop in my head, over and over again and I had no understanding of what was happening outside of my head.

You know those movies where people get stuck in a coma and leave their bodies and try to figure out why they couldn’t get back and they look in on their loved ones and whatever else happens? That was not this. It was me and my head hashing it out for consciousness.

But just when I thought that I couldn’t take it anymore, I started to hear something else.

“She’s going to be fine. You heard what the doctor said.” Steve?

“It doesn’t make me feel any better, no matter how much he reassures me. I mean look at her, she’s bound to be in a lot of pain.” Hearing Bucky’s voice simultaneously made me feel calmer and more excited. He was here, waiting for me.

“We won’t know until she wakes up.”

“Yeah.”

“She is going to wake up.”

“I know.”

I don’t exactly remember when everything happened, like time of day and how long I had been at the hospital, but according to what Bucky had said, he had stayed up most of the night, waiting for me to wake up. And trying to think really hard about the order of things, I realized that I missed filming and his mother’s birthday party. So not only did I feel bad physically, but also bad emotionally.

It wasn’t until the next day that I woke up and honestly it was terrifying. Apparently it had been too early and I ended up panicking when I started to choke on the tube running down my throat. I don’t know what I would have done if Bucky hadn’t been there.

Very quickly did the nurses come running in to help me, but as I tried to pull the tube out myself, Bucky was there to hold my hands and keep me from hurting myself. I just remember him repeating that I was okay and I just kept my eyes on him as the nurses took out the tube. But also one of things that made waking up early harder was that breathing by myself still hurt like hell. But the nurses also saw that, so instead of just having the tube of oxygen under my nose they gave me a mask that gave me more oxygen to help steady my breathing. The nurses left the room and Bucky started to move away from me, but I grabbed his hand and held it as tight as I could, hoping that he could see on my face how much I needed him to stay by my side.

He moved his hand to wrap around mine and gave me a small smile.

“I’m not going anywhere.” He said. He let go of my hand just for a second so that he could move the chair back over to the side of the bed before sitting down and grabbing my hand again.

The nurses came back in, a lot sooner than expected, giving me some pain medication that made me very tired. As much as I didn’t want to go back to sleep it was too hard to keep my eyes open. Right before I passed out I wrapped my hand back around Bucky’s so that, hopefully, he wouldn’t leave me while I slept. I didn’t want to be alone.

BUCKY’S POV

I couldn’t get her terrified look out of my head. She looked so lost and scared and she, without saying anything at all, begged me to stay by her side, to not leave her alone. So that’s what I did.

Steve came and went, Peggy came by and dropped off a bag of personal items from her apartment, and my mom kept calling non stop wanting information about my “friend.” She didn’t really imply air quotes but it was the way that she said friend that made me think that she thought otherwise.

Anyway, though Y/N didn’t have the tube down her throat anymore they did have her hooked up to an oxygen mask to help her get air easier, hopefully put less stress on the torn lung. But the longer that she slept the more worried I grew. I just wanted to know that she was okay, I wanted to take her home and help her feel as normal as possible, help her get back to herself.

The doctor had come in several times to check in on her and he explained to me some of the things that I would have to help her with after her discharge.

For one, she would most likely be in a wheelchair until she had less chest pain, enough to use crutches. I would also have to watch her very closely after we left the hospital for any signs of distress, breathing difficulties, excess pain or anything else that seemed out of the ordinary for someone who tore both her lung and diaphragm, like I knew exactly what that entailed. But overall it made me nervous, not only because I was now put in charge of what happened to Y/N but also because I had to make sure that she didn’t die on my watch.

You know, I could handle the broken leg and helping her get around, I mean I had done it with my arm for a long time. But making sure that her lung didn’t recollapse or that her diaphragm doesn’t rupture was a big load to carry on my shoulders. One that I was happy to do, but very nervous about.

So as she slept longer and longer I just watched her and prayed to anybody listening that she would be okay soon. But seeing her like that, just so lost to everything happening, made me kind of into a wreck and I’m pretty sure Steve saw it. He never said anything but he did little things to help me out. Like he brought me clean clothes and coffee and food and every couple of hours he would try to convince me to sleep but I never listened to him.

With that, I never had any reason to leave the room, so I had a lot of time to think about things, especially my latest revelation.

I loved her.

The longer I sat there, the longer I thought about how stupid I had been. Ever since the moment I had met her I knew that there was something special about her. But I had pushed everything down because I had been scared that my feelings would get in the way of us working together. Still, despite my best my efforts, I was hopelessly in love with her and there wasn’t anything I could do about it. But I had almost lost her...I couldn't imagine my life without her and I had almost lost her.

So how would I keep someone as important as her in my life and not tell her that I love her? How would I keep her safe and make her happy without her being mine? How do I move on from here?

I was torn away from my rampant thoughts when I heard a labored intake of breath.

“Y/N?” I called out and moved closer to her side. She was messing with her wires and trying to pull the mask off of her face, she was clearly disoriented.

I grabbed her hands to make sure she didn’t pull anything out, but she pulled her hand out of mine and moved her mask down so that I could hear her better.

“You’re here.”

“I wouldn’t be anywhere else.” I moved the mask back down over her nose and mouth, making sure thats she was breathing again.

I sat by her bedside and told her everything that had happened since I found her in the hospital. So far she hadn’t said anything to me, just listened to everything I had to say, welcoming the distraction. But as I reached the most present instant before her waking up, she took her mask off again and took in a deep breath.

“I’m sorry...I missed—”

“Don’t be sorry. I’m not upset that you weren’t there.”

“You’re a liar.”

“How do you know me so well?” She smiled just a bit before she moved the mask back on her face. “I admit that I was a little upset, but knowing what I know now...I’m just glad that you're okay, because honestly I...I don’t know what my life would be like without you in it.” She grabbed my hand and looked at me like she was happy.

As the next few hours passed she started to breath better and better. She said that there was still some pain in her chest but the doctor said that that would be normal as she healed. And then he got to the good part.

“Mrs. Y/L/N, you’re surgery was very successful and it looks like you’re recovering a lot faster than expected. That being said, your father has asked your friend Mr. Barnes to help with your post-op care.”

“Is there a lot?”

“Well we could keep you here in the hospital and have you under 24/7 watch for the next week, make sure that what we did sticks. Or you can go home and have your friend do it.”

“Is there a lot?”

“I don’t mind helping.” I said to her.

“It’s not that I don’t want you to help, I just want to know much he would have to do.” She said to me and then the doctor.

“He will need to watch you and make sure that you’re breathing. We’ll give you a portable oxygen tank just in case you have any need for it but if something does go wrong, he will be the one to bring you back to the hospital and we will operate again. Other than that, you will need to be in a wheelchair until we can confirm that your diaphragm and lung are healed enough to use crutches. So he will be helping you get around and you may get tired of him being everywhere because he will be for the next couple of weeks. But in six to eight weeks you will get your cast removed. Until then you will need help, so you can not be afraid to ask for his help.”

“I’m not afraid to ask for help.”

“Y/N, I’ve read that people who have major surgery, tend to sink into themselves. They don’t want to burden their friends because they’re scared that they’ll lose them. You’re scared that you’ll ask for too much. So you may not be scared to ask but you’re scared that I’ll turn away from you when you reach that point.” I grabbed her hand and held it in mine. “You have done so much for me, more than I could ever repay, please don’t push me away. I want to help you.”

“You won’t run away from me?”

“No.”

Y/N and I spent the rest of the day hanging out around the hospital and she seemed to be growing stronger and stronger. She was still hooked up to oxygen but the doctors said that there was a big chance that she could go home tomorrow morning.

Steve and Peggy brought by some non hospital food for dinner and the four of us talked and Y/N laughed, even though it was little and it hurt. But it was fun...until the talk took a turn. I’m not sure how we got so serious but it brought up some good points and things that I needed to talk to Y/N about.

So when Steve and Peggy left I got Y/N’s attention and brought up what had been going through my mind.

“I think you should move in with me...during the recovery.” I blurted.

“What?”

“I’ve been thinking about this a lot, kind of like making a mental pros-cons list, so just hear me out. I’m going to have to watch you very closely over the next week and this is serious. I’ve been talking to the doctor and he’s shown me things to look out for and there's a lot that could happen to you and I need you...to be okay.”

“Bucky do you know why I was hesitant at first when the doctor said that you would be the one to help me with my recovery?”

“No, why?”

“You are my best friend. My best friend. I was so excited to see you here because I was hoping that you would do what you did when I woke up. You told me what was happening with everyone, you talked to me like we were at work and while you talked to me I forgot about the images flashing through my head. And then the doctor comes in and starts talking about my recovery and you disappear. I know that you’re worried but I don’t need whoever that was earlier, I need my friend. What’s about to happen...I’m scared.” She took in as deep a breath as she could as the tears started to form in her eyes. “I can feel where they cut into me...what they did to me and I’m scared by what the doctor said because I don’t want anything to happen again. So I don’t need you to be my doctor or my babysitter, I need you to be my friend. I need you to make me forget the accident, I need you to not treat me differently and I need you to support me and keep me breathing. You said you needed me, but I need you, I need you Bucky.”

She had a few tears running down her cheeks and her breathing was ragged, she was clearly upset by what I had said and I felt terrible about it. I grabbed her hand and made sure she was looking at me.

“I'm here for you, whatever you need from me, and I’m sorry if I freaked you out. I’m not trying to change what we have and if you want me to talk your ear off, I’ll talk your ear off. But I’m worried too and I’m scared that I’ll do something wrong and it helps me to think about this as if I know everything that could possibly happen to you. The doctor wants to release you in the morning and I really wanted to get all of this doctor talk and the medical preparations done here so that I don’t have to bring it out of there. Your recovery shouldn’t be about that, so I’ve been preparing now so we don’t have to deal with it later. I know that we are going to be okay because once we get out of this god forsaken hospital everything will go back to semi-normal. We’ll figure things out as we go and we’ll keep everything fun and easy. But most importantly I’m always going to be you’re friend and I’m always going to be here for you. No matter what, I’m not going anywhere.”

“Really?”

“Really.” She took in a deep breath and wiped the tears off her face.

“I’m sorry for exploding like that.”

“It’s okay. All of this is overwhelming, I should have gone a little slower.”

“You’re just trying to help.”

“Yes, but what you’ve been through is traumatic and it will take you some time to adjust. I know for a fact that trying to operate with one leg will be difficult, so at least I know something about that.”

“I’m lucky that you’re helping me.”

“I’m happy I finally get to do something to pay you back. Not that I���m trying to get even but it’s nice to be able to do something for you.”

“You do a lot more than you think.”

“I would love to hear what.”

“It’s my secret.”

“Well, maybe one of these days I’ll get you to tell me. I know that you may not want to think about this right now, but I would feel more comfortable if you would move in with me for the week. I mean, logistically it would be easier to get your wheelchair through my apartment door on the first floor than your door on the second...so that’s the biggest thing. Not that I wouldn’t carry you up to your apartment but I thought it would be easier.”

“That’s fine.”

“And Peggy brought you some clothes so you should be good for at least a couple of days, maybe after work we can swing by your place if you need some more stuff.”

“You guys are too good to me.”

“We’re all here for you. We’re going to get you through this.”

“I know.”

The following morning, Sunday, the nurse helped Y/N get changed into her pajamas and gave her some tips on how to keep her cast as clean possible but as she got ready I left the hospital to get us some real food. Y/N would have to eat before she took her medicine so I figured she would want something other than gross hospital food. So as soon as she was dressed I gave her her food and I loaded my car while she ate. 20 minutes later we were out of there with discharge papers and a very doped up Y/N.

She was pretty quiet the whole ride home but I just chalked it up to the meds. She would usually take these at night so that she could pass out afterwards but the doctor said that she would make it home before that happened today.

I pulled up to my apartment and looked over at Y/N...who was completely passed out against the window. So instead of making a big fuss of the wheelchair, I just decided to carry her in and set her on my bed.

So I walked around to the passenger door, made sure she didn’t fall out when I opened the door, and picked her up. But as soon as I got up to my door I realized that I had no way to open it, so instead I kicked it really hard and hoped my mom would be home.

The door opened and she went to say something but I think she was shocked to see me standing there with a woman in my arms. So she just moved out of the way and let me inside.

“What are you—who is this?” She asked.

“This is Y/N, she’s staying with me for the week so I can make sure she doesn’t die.” I kept walking back to my room and she just followed.

“What?” I kicked open the door to my bedroom and placed Y/N on the bed. I grabbed a few pillows, propped up her leg and put the covers on top of her, making sure that she would have no reason to wake up. As soon as I got her comfortable I met my mom out in the living room where I knew I would hear either harsh words or overexcited personally invasive questions. I figured more of the second.

The first thing to come out of her was a complaint about me not calling her with enough updates but pretty much everything after that was her grilling me about Y/N. Apparently I hadn’t told her enough about Y/N because to her this “obviously seemed like something more.” It took me a while to convince her otherwise and I’m still not really sure she believes me but I needed to focus on Y/N.

So I grabbed my phone and went to sit in the chair in the corner of my room, that way I could keep a close eye on Y/N and so my mom couldn’t walk in and yell at me anymore.

So I just sat and waited, waited for her to wake up...again.

A couple of hours had passed and Y/N had woken up. She was still kind of fuzzy but...she was beautiful. She hadn’t showered, her hair was a mess, she looked exhausted but she was the most beautiful person in the world.

I moved by her side and we talked most of the day. I made her food and I introduced her to my mom...which was very nerve wracking for many reasons and yet they seemed to be getting along greatly. Y/N apologized profusely for missing the party and said that as soon as she could she would make a new batch of birthday pies for us to enjoy. But my mom made sure that she understood that we both didn’t expect anything other than her taking as much time as she needed to heal.

“You know, Bucky didn’t tell me that you would still be here, but I’m glad you are, I wanted the chance to meet you before you left.” Y/N said.

“He didn’t tell you? Yeah I’m staying over for a few days. He works too much and I don’t get to see him enough.”

“So if she’s staying in the guest room and I slept on your bed, where are you sleeping?” She asked me very accusatory.

“I am taking the couch.”

“Bucky—“

“Don’t be like that. I don’t mind.”

“Well I do.”

“Well don’t, I volunteered to help you out and luckily my couch is very comfortable.”

“And if it wasn’t?” She said now amused.

“Well of course I would have to throw you out on the street and just hope that you would make it home.”

“Oh okay, because that sounds exactly like something you would do.”

“Oh yeah.” We were both smiling at the turn of the conversation and I risked a peek at my mom who was just as if not more happy at how the two of us had reacted to our disagreement.

So with that, I tried to make the most out of the time we had left in the day and gave Y/N as much normalcy as possible. We moved out to the living room and just lounged around watching movies and laughing and later my mom made us some dinner. Of course she had a secret agenda but I think I missed her home made food so much that I didn’t even bother to bring it up.

When it was time to go to bed I moved Y/N back into my room, propped her leg back up on the pillows and brought her her new nightly medication.

“So, I will be on the couch if you need me, just call out, I’ll leave the door open.” I turned to leave her for the night but she stopped me.

“Wait, Bucky?” She grabbed my hand. “I don’t want this to be weird but, will you stay with me?”

“Sure. Is everything okay?”

“Yeah..I just don’t want to be alone.”

“This isn’t about me sleeping on the couch is it?”

“No.” She almost looked scared.

“Okay.”

So I walked around to the unoccupied side of the bed and climbed underneath the covers right next to her. She moved so that her head was resting on my chest, her arms wrapped around me, and I couldn’t help but wrap my arms around her, feeling like she needed me to hold her.

“Are you sure everything's okay?”

“I remember everything.” She took in a deep breath. “I don’t want to.”

“I’ll stay as long as you need me to.”

“Thank you.”

“Good night Y/N.”

“Goodnight Bucky.”

STEVE’S POV

It was days like today that I loved. I had the day off, got to spend all of my time with Peggy and we actually fell asleep at a reasonable time.

We were both in a dead sleep until the loud ringtone of my cell woke me up.  I quickly picked it up hoping to not wake Peggy.

STEVE: Hello? I whispered.

WINIFRED: Steve?

STEVE: Hey Winnie, what can I do for you?

WINIFRED: Can you come over here?

STEVE: Is everything okay?

WINIFRED: Yeah I just need you to come over here, if you don’t mind.

STEVE: Sure, I’ll be there in a bit

WINIFRED: Thanks

STEVE: No problem

I hung up the phone completely confused about what was going on.

“What did Winnie want?” Peggy asked.

“She wants me to come over to Bucky’s.”

“Is everything okay?”

“I don’t know. She didn’t say.”

“She does know that it’s like one in the morning.”

“She wouldn’t have asked me to come if it wasn’t important.”

“I know.”

“Just go back to bed, I’ll see what’s happening.”

“I’m already awake, it could be something good. I don’t want to miss it.”

“Maybe you're right.”

So we both got dressed and headed over to Bucky's apartment. Winnie must have been waiting for us because we didn’t even get a chance to knock on the door before it swung open.

“It’s about time you got here.” She said, leaving the door open as she marched away.

“We only live ten minutes away.” Peggy said.

We just followed Winnie and she walked towards Bucky’s room...okay, I knew what this was about.

The three of us moved to stand in the doorway of his bedroom, seeing that Y/N and Bucky were sleeping together, arms wrapped around each other, just like a couple would do. Yeah, we definitely knew what this was about.

“What is happening with him? First he tells me that they’re friends, then she is moving in for the week, and now they’re sleeping together.”

“They are friends.” Peggy started.

“But he has feelings for her.” I continued.

“And she has feelings for him.”

“Then why this dance? We should just tell them.” Winnie concluded.

“Well there are some other things that have happened.” I said.

“Like what?”

“Well…” I looked at Peggy and she shrugged. “They kissed at my birthday party, but they don’t remember.”

“Okay.”

“And they work together so I think they’re both trying to keep things professional, you know, because he’s on a reality tv dating show.”

“But if he likes her, and she likes him, then why can’t we tell them? It’s pretty obvious that this is not just friendship.”

“I decided not to tell him.”

“Why?”

“Because of Nat.”

“She was all wrong for him and Y/N—“

“I pushed Bucky to see Nat. He was hesitant about seeing her and I told him that she was good, that all of the doubt that he had about her was just nerves...but he was right. And I pushed him and he was the one who got hurt...badly hurt.”

“But she isn’t Nat.”

“No but he needs to be the one to make the move from friendship to something more. I can’t push him again, give suggestive hints yes, but I can’t do that to him again. I know that he likes her more than he ever did Nat, so I want what they have to last even if it takes a while for them to get there.”

“Well you're sweet to worry about him, but don’t think that I won’t stop trying. If anyone can get through to him it’s me.”

“I wouldn’t expect anything less from you.”

We didn’t stick around much longer after that. Winnie had made some sweets earlier in the day and loaded us up before we left, apologizing for waking us up. But after that we went back home curled back into our warm blankets and thought that maybe Winnie was right, maybe we did need to do something about this.

Y/N’S POV

The nightmares weren’t that bad last night. Having Bucky with me made me feel less alone, he made me feel less like a victim.

I remember the crash. I remember the song playing on the radio, I remember what I was thinking, who I was thinking about… I remember the feeling of the crash, I remember the crack of my leg, I remember the breath leaving my lungs as if it were impossible to ever breathe again. I remember the pain but most of all I remember the one face I would have given anything to see just one more time.

And I did, I did see him again. That was the first time that I felt relief, the second I opened my eyes and saw his eyes looking right back at me. I tried so hard to talk to him to, to speak around the breathing tube with no luck. But seeing him there was enough.

And then he stayed. He took care of me while I recovered in the daunting room, he spoke to me as if the accident had never happened. For a second I thought that everything was okay that I could handle staying friends with him, despite the thoughts I had had of him before the crash.

And then he changed, he started to talk about taking care of me and he started talking about things that could have fooled me into believing that he cared for me more than he did.

My response to his talk was some of fear, not because of his intentions changing towards me but because I was scared that my intentions would.

Before the crash I knew where we stood and honestly I would do anything to go back there, because I didn’t want to mess this up.

So when Bucky asked me to move in with him I was scared and when I asked him to stay with me last night I couldn’t do anything but hope that my growing feelings wouldn’t break my heart.

But the nightmares...yeah they weren’t bad last night.

Despite the sleep I got, I was still up pretty early. I didn’t dare move though, I wanted the good feeling to last a little longer. I waited and listened to his lungs moving, his heart beating and I couldn’t help but feel that I wanted to stay here. Something had definitely shifted when that car crashed into me, I just didn’t know if it was for the worse or the better.

PART SEVEN 

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[notamaced]

The 5th of May I did not get my soul back that I left with B.A.P last year, instead my heart was stolen as well. Frankfurt boom baby party y'all let me tell you about it 😍

So I arrived Germany in the evening Thursday where @sparklechanup picked me up and because we had to get @hana-bunny at another airport and so on we weren’t at Laura's place before 2 am. No sleep for Nate okay that happened.

4 am rolled around and we got ready to leave, tho we didn’t dress up or all that since it was still 16 hours or so until the concert started. Then I decided to write my letter for Jongup which ended with a poem that I hope no one takes serious, least of all Jongup lmao it was 4 am and I hadn’t slept for almost 24 hours.

“Dear Jongup

Please don’t hangup 

You know whats better? This is a letter. you dont have lot of sass But a really great ass Can you let me touch Since I like it so much Even if I am gay I think you are pretty okay Jeg elsker deg (norwegian for I love you)”

I’m proud don’t hate me lmao Anyways the queue life was nice and since I got the DIAMOND ticket *cries* I got rly close to the stage ;; I also were like number 17 in the diamond queue! Ofc I met awesome people in the queue plus had Laura and Hana to stay with! And I also met my mate, my brother @jongupupandaway ;;

I got first version A of the album but traded for version B and I got Youngjae photocard! Originally i got Himchan postcard but got Youngjae from the one I traded albums with aka my mate ;; ~ And got another Youngjae card from Laura mein engel hehe~

Then the time came for diamond to go inside and they let us into this lounge where we got snacks and drinks while watching B.A.P mvs! We turned up when it was close to go to the stage and was singing to the mvs while waiting by the door to be allowed to go.

FIRST ROW BITCHES 😍 And let me tell you something. JONGUP WAS SO MUCH IN FRONT OF ME! Which i knew he would woops haha 😅 We placed us on the side we knew he would be a lot on ^^

The dj B.shoo was amazing!! And he hyped us really up, everyone was screaming and jumping! I also became deaf already then, please children wear earplugs. I didn’t and all I could hear was ringing tbh haha, but it was worth it anyway. Then this video of B.A.P came on of them in the backroom and how they walked on stage, I screamed until I tasted blood in my throat!!! The moment I saw them it felt so surreal and it’s just this amazing thing to see how real they are. When I saw Jongup I instantly smiled really big and I couldn’t stop! I was smiling so much, was so happy and just because I was watching Jongup live with my own two eyes! (I KNOW I SOUND LIKE A CRAZY FANGIRL BUT I LOST ALL CHILL)

It was so amazing when they came out to the intro because the crowd was singing along to it and was so loud! It was wild from the beginning!

Anyways I didn’t film much or even take pictures, I was too busy screaming my head off and jump until my body couldn’t take it anymore then jumped and danced even more!

So I had a few goals, one of them was catching Jongup’s attention and let me say: Mission accomplished. Multiple times lmaooo poor boy. I sent him so many hearts and first time he saw, he simply smiled and waved, then he did it again to someone beside me 😍 the cutest! He returned it the second time around! I was screaming my head off okay I died! And I know he saw me and ignored me that bastard lmao, and you know how bad his sight is? I was in front and he had to squint to even see me lmao the cute squint, he even squinted to read whatever was on the screen they have on stage or something.

So okay I am an awful person and used any opportunity to yell at Jongup (when he was in front of where I was) and scream how I love him, someeetimes when another member were speaking 😅😅😅 I tried to not do it tho haha but no chill. I see Jongup and all reasonable thoughts leave 😂

Anyways during one of the talk sessions before check on I think they came out on stage and Himchan got a towel which he used to dry himself so my no chill ass instantly waved at him to throw it at me and he saw because I screamed HIMCHAN PLEASE, I swear he did contemplate for a second before putting it back on the floor, waving his finger at me 😂 not that that stopped me and I kept trying to make him throw it so he shook his head SMIRKING! Then Jongup caught my attention again 🤔 during when they learned us the dance for check on I filmed Himchan, AND HE LOOKED DOWN AT ME AND SMILED WHEN HE SAW I FILMED HIM AND I CAUGHT IT IN THE VIDEO I’M LIKE OKAY THANKS FOR WRECKING ME.

That was the ten seconds I was Himchan biased, but Jongup got me good. During his solo I was right in front of him when he did one of the hipthrusts moves, i dont think i filmed it bcs hey I wanna enjoy it 😂 but his solo was soooo good and honestly better live than any fancam can give justice to it.

We also got Youngjae solo and he had a chance to actually win me back, because damn his solo is so beautiful I want the studio version plsss! And he is so beautiful and I kinda regret not paying much attention to him and how he is demoted from the bias spot to bias wrecker lmaooo but Jongup man

The third time Jongup looked at me, while I again screamed everything I could that I love him and reaching towards him doing a heart halfway over the barrier, him doing the little squint and then smiling BRIGHTLY ;; Then he did a heart back and I PRETENDED TO TAKE IT AND BROUGHT MY HAND TO MY CHEST! I also wanna think that he did those big hearts with both his arms bcs of me because I was doing that so muuuch during the concert whenever I thought he looked down to our side! Ofc he didn’t but he did it during Be happy I think and ending speech, it wasn’t directed at me but I think he noticed me doing that and that’s good enough 😭 If you don’t know yet I am fully Jongup biased, youngjae who lmao, no I love them all but Jongup stir some feelings and make me do things that I NEVER IMAGINED ME DOING!

Gotta hand it to German babyz and any other nationality that came to the frankfurt concert, we were so loud! Hella hyped and how we kept chanting Saranghae and B.A.P so they just stood there in silence and smiled! That was so precious and I am so happy to have been a part of it! When they asked us to make some noise we sure delivered. Even got a 2nd encore and when they were having their ending speech we were singing to wake me up playing in the background and Youngjae just stopped talking completely! They seemed a bit surprised and listened to us. Then we failed at a part and they started laughing and we laughed too, it was so lovely. Jongup was having a lot of fun dancing on the stage the whole time and I genuinely believe they were having a good time and that makes an amazing concert even better!

The hi touch was too quick and I have some regrets but Jongup was first so I gave him a letter with my awesome poem about his butt. which was awkward because I didn’t know how to hand it to him so I wanted him to take. I looked at him and was like “jongup” and looked at my letter, he went “oh” and smiled, took it in the hand he was doing the hi touch in and he had like the other behind his back so there was an extra moment with him bcs he had to take it in the other hand and he awkwardly laughed and then we did hi touch. I looked at him one last time before I went over to Daehyun. Then i lost my voice I just stared at them all. It was Jongup, Daehyun, Yongguk, Youngjae, Zelo and Himchan. I remember Youngjae saying okay after doing it like what haha, but I was mute and just watched them lmao. I tried linking hands with Himchan but just awkwardly wiped my hand over his lmaaaao

Now what we all have been waiting for aka me

THE FUCKING PHOTO GUYS LOOK AT THIS CUTIE AAAAAAAAAAH HIS SMILE AND OUR AWKWARD HEART AND THATS WHEN HE STOLE IT 😭😭😭

Okay so after hi touch diamond were showed into another room to wait for photo. They told us to go in group of ten and I went with my queue buds and two others, so first we were six when it seemed like no one else was left, then two other came but we still were the smallest group and only were 8, plus no one was Jongup biased so guess who got to stand by their bias 😍😍 So we basically run to go to our biases, I looked at Himchan briefly before I joined Jongup’s side. He smiled and said hi i think, and then almost looked away when I said his name and he instantly leaned in so his ears was right by my mouth when I asked if we could do a heart. He nodded and said yes and so we did. I FELT SO AWKWARD SMILING WHILE DYING BCS I DID A HEART WITH HIM ;; Then the moment they said it was done it was the time for my last mission of the night. I turn to him again saying “Jongup.. Can I get a hug?” And kinda raised my arms a bit and he kinda glow up when he understands and nods again, smiling slightly. He wrapped an arm around me and hugged me 😭😭😭😭 I think i said thank you, but I had barely turned and looked at Zelo when security pushed and dragged me by the shoulder to go lmao, like okay chill I am HAPPY AF 😂😍😍😍 I AM SOOOO HAPPY AND I HAD SO MUCH JONGUP MOMENTS YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH I LOVE HIM AFTER THIS!!!

The concert was so amazing even if I almost ruined my hearing, my voice and went overly crazy while being sleep deprived (I was up for almost 2 days, how did I survive) and barely had eaten 😅 We did all the no nos and managed through the concert like HOW???? I HAVE BEEN TOUCHED BY THE B.A.P GODS CLEARLY I FEEL SO LUCKY ;;

[thetiquettebitch]

so like

What were you doing at 11 last night?

-Watching “The Circle” on Netflix.

Do you think you and your best friend will be friends in 10 years?

-What is this “best friend” concept you speak of?

What could you eat any day of the week and never get tired of?

-Cheese. lol.

What's the craziest thing you've done?

-I honestly don’t know.

Someone knocks on your window at 5am, what do you say?

-Well, first of all my bedroom window is on the second floor so freak TF out..either way freak out and have a heart attack!

Funniest thing that happened in the last 24 hours?

-lol I was brushing my teeth and meant to lean over into the sink to spit but instead just spit right where I was standing and almost got it on my clothes lol.

Do you have any plans for the weekend?

-No I’m a loser lol.

Would you change yourself for the person you love?

-If it meant positive, healthy changes for myself then yes I’d try my hardest.

Let me guess, your last incoming call was from the opposite sex?

-Guess again, my mom.

Would you kiss anyone you have texts from in your phone?

-I delete my texts almost as soon as I’m done with the convo.

Do you find drinking unattractive?

-If I did I would be a hypocrite.

When was the last time something bothered you?

-Idk. I guess a while now.

Do you know how to work a computer well??

-lmao who doesnt this day and age.

To who did you last give the finger to?

-people still do that?

Is it more common for you to follow your heart or your mind?

-its a mix of both.

Six months ago, can you remember who you liked, who was it?

-i didnt really ‘like’ anyone.

Do you like to hold hands?

-sure.

Anything embarrassing happen today?

-nope.

Would you ever go on a game show if you were offered?

-depends which show honestly.

What does your phone do when it receives a new text?

-jumps up and dances! it rings like every other phone haha.

Has anyone ever done mean things to you while you were sleeping?

-well damn i hope not.

Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?

-honestly, kindove.

Would you rather be at the beach or lake?

-the water is still nasty either way lol.

Last thing you spent money on?

-foot bath.

What are you doing after this?

-probably make a quesadilla and continue watching Stranger Things.

Your song of the week?

-”Diamonds” by The Boxer Rebellion.

Have you ever cried from being so mad?

-its almost the only reason i ever do cry.

Are you happy with the choices you've made?

-some, not all. im only human.

I bet you miss someone, huh?

-my late aunt.

Would you rather be forced to eat 100 bananas or 100 apples?

-cant i just put them both into the blender and make a smoothie??

Have you dated the person you texted last?

-No.

Is good grammar attractive?

-Oh hell yes. I love it.

Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago?

-yeah.

Is there anyone you know with the name Mike?

-yes.

What is today's date?

-January 14, 2020.

Who was the last person to call you baby?

-an ex.

Has anyone ever sang to you?

-Mhmmmm.

What is your favorite color?

-Pink.

What color are your eyes?

-Blue.

How tall are you?

-5′5 or so.

What do you have planned for tonight?

-Chillax.

If you could have one wish right now what would it be?

-For 3 more wishes ;)

When is your birthday?

-September 16th!

Do you want to get married and have children one day?

-I don’t honesty know anymore haha. I thought maybe marriage one day, but people these days are so sketchy. Never felt strongly about having children.

Who is the 9th contact in your phone?

-Too lazy to look.

Ever liked someone who treated you like crap?

-Everyone has at some point.

If you could spend more time with someone you used to be very close with, would you?

-YES. WITHOUT A DOUBT.

Could you go a day without eating?

-Easily and I have many times.

Did your parents force you to go to church or let you make the decision?

-We weren’t a religious family.

What are you excited for?

-Good question, hmmmm.

Did anyone see you kiss that last person you kissed?

-Naw.

Do you still talk to the person you last kissed?

-Yes I do.

Would you date an 18 year old at the age you are now?

-Ewww just seems too young. im 30 now. they arent mature enough.

What are you listening to now?

-”Ordinary World” - Duran Duran.

What woke you up today?

-My grandma talking loudly on the phone (nothing new there)

Would you take someone back if they cheated on you?

-Thats a hard topic. its all relative.

Have you ever dyed your hair?

-I just dyed it like, a month and a half ago and you cant even tell. :( my hair was brown and tried to dye it a medium blonde and only i could tell it was slightly lighter haha.

Who was the last person you have a missed call from?

-my uncle.

Where was your default picture taken?

-my bedroom.

How many windows are open on your computer?

-Just one.

Anything you really want?

-A million dollars?????? would be nice.

How many pillows do you sleep with?

-2 always at least.

Can you have more than one best friend?

-Of course.

What was last thing you drank?

-Sprite.

How many pets do you have?

-Just one. Coda my dog.

What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider?

-MMMMMMM. both are delicious.

Who last texted you?

-Brenda, my uncles girlfriend.

Who did you last text?

-Brenda back.

Do you know anyone whose pregnant?

-Yea?

What do you want right now?

-Again I refer back to the million dollars...hehehehe.

[performingtheartsrp]

We received a fantastic application for Madison McCarthy, and we’re really excited to have Brie  join our family. Please take a moment to go over the New Member Checklist, and send in your account within 24 hours.

OOC:

NAME: Brie

PREFERRED PRONOUNS: she/her

AGE: 24

TIMEZONE: CST

ACTIVITY LEVEL (1-10): 6-8/10. My activity depends on the day tbh. I have a full time retail job, which means inconstant work schedules, but usually when I’m not at work or sleeping I’m on my computer and rping.

OLD ROLEPLAY ACCOUNTS: RFP

ANYTHING ELSE: RFP

IC:

CHARACTER’S NAME: Madison Danielle McCarthy

CHARACTER’S BIRTHDAY: August 7

CHARACTER’S SEXUAL ORIENTATION: Bisexual, Demiromantic

SHIPS: Madison/Chemistry

ANTI-SHIPS: Madison/Forced, McCarthycest

MIDGAME SHIPS: Rydison, Kittison, Sam/Madison, Marlison, literally any as long as there is chemistry

CHARACTER TWEETS:  This is especially important because you’re playing a celebrity, and they will definitely be using social media.

           @missmadimccarthy: so @mrmasonmccarthy and I just got some ah-mazing new guys! we got cast in a pilot! you should all def tune into @performingarts once it airs

           @missmadimccarthy: there’s no better way to spend a sunday then with a pair of purple fuzzy socks, a puppy, and all six Bring It On Movies #bejelly

           @missmadimccarthy: currently taking auditions for my new bf/gf. Looking at you ryan gosling. Oh, and you k stew. #idontdiscriminate

BIOGRAPHY: Madison McCarthy likes to say that performing is in her blood, so it’s no surprise she and her brother were cast on a tv show after only one audition for the part. You see, her parents have been performing since before she and her twin were in the womb. Both performance majors in college, Mitchell and Melissa McCarthy were quick to join the musical group Up with People after graduation and were apart of the traveling cast for six years, until Melissa eventually fell pregnant with twins. Planting roots in the great state of Texas, the couple decided to continue on with their love for performing and buy and renovate an old space in downtown Dallas. Eventually it became a pretty popular theatre company, one that produced many a shows written by Mitchell. Of course, due to her parent’s busy schedule, it meant that Mason and Madison were often neglected as children. At first she tried to understand. It must be insanely difficult to not only build an entire theatre company from the ground up, but then find talent and produce shows. But as the twins got older and their nannies started to disappear due to their parents being unable to pay them, she knew she and Mason weren’t even on their radar. The only time Madison or Mason seemed to shine in their parents eyes, was when one of twins were lucky enough to book a commercial. Madison hadn’t been too keen at first to follow her parents footsteps in becoming an actor, after all she had seen what it did to them, but the second she was booked in her first roll their attention didn’t leave her for the entire filming process, and she decided then and there she could do this for the rest of her life. There’s only so much you can do in Texas though, and when Madison started to notice Mason’s frustrations with the job as they entered their teen years, she went to her parents and begged they move them to LA. It wasn’t too hard to convince them, not when you had a color coated flow chart and pros and con’s list to back up your slide show. Some might say it was a bit over the top, but that was Madison. She came prepared. For everything. She enjoyed order and was the first to seek out a better opportunity. And, once she mentioned the fact that her parents would probably have better luck with their theatre company in a town like LA, they were packing up and moving out maybe a week later. LA was different from Texas, thats for sure. And it seemed her parents changed once they moved there as well. Her father continued to work on the theatre company, writing screenplays in his free time, but her mother had found an agent almost two months after moving there. He’d come to one of their shows, and soon her mother was a fresh face on a daytime soap. It meant Madison saw her mother even less, and the abandoned feeling she felt meant she held on tighter to Mason. Auditioning for shows and pilots as much as she could, she would drag her brother along for roles in the same show just to hope they’d get something and his mood would lighten. When she heard about Performing The Arts, she called her mother’s agent instantly and demanded she and Mason be given scripts for the audition. And, it seemed like fate, because not even a week after her audition, she and her brother received their calls letting them know they’d been cast. Now things are starting to get serious. She’s gotten the script. She knows her character. She’ll meet the cast soon and then it’ll be time for pre production and eventually shooting. Madison hopes and prays that things will take off, and that the pilot will be picked up. She hopefully, obviously, I mean, she’s in the show. Why wouldn’t it do well with not one, but two McCarthy’s as regulars? But it’s still nerve wracking, and it’s her first big chance after numerous nameless roles on shows like Greys Anatomy and Criminal Minds. But, just like every part of her life, Madison has a plan, and she’s not going to let this one fail. She’s sure once the pilot has been picked up, and the show starts to gain it’s fanbase, she and Mason could find enough money to buy their own place. It’s not like her parents were around much anyway, and it’d be a much happier place if it was just her and Mason. Maybe then they can focus more on themselves, and Mason will start to smile more. She knows it’s not her job to fix every problem her brother has, but she wants to try, and she really thinks that moving out and just worrying about each other will help not only her, but him too. Right now though, she’s going to focus on the current task, Lola. Her new character. Her currently child. She was going to do everything she could to not only make this character real and raw, but loved by many.

YOUR CHARACTER’S HEAD CANON FOR THEIR CHARACTER: Madison finds Lola to be quite the interesting character, and that’s because there a parts of Lola that Madison doesn’t understand, and she knows that once she starts playing the girl, it’ll be things she’ll start to discover through the course of the show. Lola Daniels is someone with the perfect life. Both parents are psychiatrists, and spend all day meeting with patients and trying to get to the root of their problems. And because of this, they tend to bring their work home, and try their hardest to council their daughter. Except Lola doesn’t want to be another patient for them to study, she wants to be their daughter, and she wants them desperately to notice her. They’ve become so hell bent on finding deep problems with their daughter -���Honey, you haven’t been eating your food. Is there something you want to tell us?” “Sweetie, is that smile? You know you don’t have to hide around us”- that they’re so oblivious to the truth. Lola isn’t bulimic, or manic, she’s just tired. Tired of her life, and the mundane activities she goes through. She’s tired of her family and the way her parents are looking so hard for a problem that they’re blind to the fact that she’s just depressed. And when she attempts to talk to them about it, all she gets is a suggestion to try showering, or working out, or eating healthier. They just don’t get she doesn’t even want to get out of bed most days. She’s started to distance herself from people too. People like Miller, who had once been self appointed best friend, or Zane, a cute boy who is clearly interested in her, but someone she just doesn’t want to try with. Aware that something is wrong, Lola has decided she wants to change. She’s sick of feeling like this, and has found an after school group for kids with mental health issues. While her’s is self diagnosed, it’s nice to be with a group of kids who not only validate what she’s feeling, but understand what she’s going through without trying so hard to fix it.