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Murder on the Dance Floor (part 2)
(from the When the Cat and the Mouse Go For a Midnight Dance series)
Part 1 | Part 2 | Marvel Masterlist
Pairing: Natasha Romanoff x F!Reader
Prompt: Vigilante!Reader x Agent!Natasha
Summary: Natasha isnât having the best of luck in trying to bring one of the ex Hydras general down. You however may be able to assist her. Will you two be able to cooperate? Or is it your fate to always stand on opposite teams?
Warnings: A tiny bit suggestive.
WORD COUNT: 2724
The pulsing beat of the music could be heard from outside the dimly lit street, matching Natashaâs tense state. She was usually calm, collected when handling missions, but this was the exceptionâbecause this time, she was working with you. Just the thought left a bitter taste in her mouth.
Honestly, if someone had told her a year ago that sheâd agree to cooperate with you of all people, she would have laughed right to their face. But that didnât matter now. She needed to get her hands on Horvat, and, unfortunately, you were her bestâif onlyâshot at it.
Adjusting her earpiece, Natasha willed herself forward, slipping past security and flashing one of her fake IDs to the bouncer. After a quick nod, she was finally able to sweep her gaze over the crowd moving around the dance floor. In her earpiece, Yelenaâs voice crackled. âSee her yet?â
âNo,â Natasha muttered, keeping her tone low as she moved toward a secluded spot by the bar. âSheâs late. And honestly, Iâm not even surprised.â
The blonde hummed thoughtfully. âHmm. She seemsâŚâ
âIrresponsible? Selfish? A brat?â Natasha interrupted, her words sharp as she shrugged off her vest and left it on the stool beside her. âThose are just on top my head.â
âI was going for interesting. I have never seen anyone getting under your skin the way she does.â The redhead rolled her eyes, tapping her feet on the ground as she was searching between the participants.
âThis is just unprofessional. I mean, who even isnât on time for their own plan?â She sighs. âI should've known sheâd pull something like this.â
Natasha remembers perfectly your encounter a few hours ago.Â
The two of you ended up meeting in a neutral spot to, as you put it, âchat things up.â It was weird for the two of you to just⌠talk. You were as teasing as ever when you explained that the way for you both to gain access to the Hydra operative was to do something as ridiculous as joining a dance competition.
âYou are joking.â Natasha repeated, baffled. But you made no move to correct yourself.Â
âIt is what it is, Agent Romanoff. Seems our friend is one of those eccentric typesâloves all forms of art, but dance is his favourite. The competition is being held here by him.â You handed her a slip of paper with a hastily scribbled address and a list of pairs. âThese are the couples registered.â
Natasha scanned it, her eyebrows furrowing slightly. âWaitâsome of these couples, I know them. Theyâre actual professionals, Raven,â she noted, using your codename. Not like she was sure that the name youâd given her was even your real one.
âOh, calm down agent. Youâve got me on your dream team now,â you answered with a wink that did nothing to reassure her. âAnd itâs not like we have other options. The winners get a super-duper exclusive VIP card that grants access to the elite party Horvat is hosting.â
Natashaâs reluctance mustâve been clear because you sighed in exasperation at the clear lack of enthusiasm. âLook, itâs the best I could do given your strict rules, alright?â
âI wouldnât say that not murdering or maiming anyone counts as strict rules,â she replied, unimpressed.Â
âOh, come on. Whereâs your sense of adventure? Arenât you the fearless Black Widow?â you teased, your voice low, just loud enough for her to hear. You leaned in, a playful smirk tugging at your lips. âAnd here thought you were this fearless superspy. But See, I have a different perspective. To these people, weâre just amateurs. Thatâs our advantage.â
âIs it?â Natasha raised an eyebrow, her gaze sharp, but something about the way you were looking at her made her uneasy.
You grinned, stepping closer, your breath warm against her ear as you leaned in conspiratorially. âAbsolutely. They wonât even see it coming when I take them down one by oneâŚâ
The intensity in your voice caught her off guard. There was something almost dangerous in your tone, that manic glint in your eyes that she couldnât quite ignore. Natashaâs eyes narrowed as she put distance and shot you a warning glare.
You slightly raised your hands in mock surrender, but there was still something in your smile that made her pulse quicken. âAlright, alright, no need for that. I promise, no murder on the dance floor. Besides, Iâm not here to show off.â
Her gaze never left you, knowing better than to believe that. You thrived on chaos, on the twisted thrill of it all. And she hated how it seemed to pull her in each time, how close you were making her feel to something she couldnât quite control.
âThis is the plan,â you continued, your voice soft but insistent. âWe get through a few rounds, win that VIP pass, and make it into Horvatâs inner circle. Nice and easy.â
You closed the distance even more, your face just inches from hers. Without hesitation, you pulled a card from your pocket, letting it slip between your fingers with a practised ease. âHereâs the address. Dress to impress. Preferably black and burgundy?â you murmured, your hand brushing against her chest as you slipped it into the pocket of her vest, your fingers lingering a moment longer than necessary. âThe color really suits your eyes.â You purred.Â
Natasha could feel the heat of your touch, every movement too intimate for comfort, and yet, she couldnât look away. You had a way of getting closeâtoo closeâand she watched every movement, every subtle shift of your body, all while her heart beat a little faster than she wanted to admit. It was like every single nerve on her body screaming in conflict whenever you acted this dangerously.Â
She is only bought out of her stupor when she notices a shift in between the crowd. For an instant, she thinks that the contest already started, but that thought quickly goes away when she saw the true reason for the multitude to part like melted butter.
There you are, walking as if you owned the place with a confidence that bordered on arrogance. Seemingly ignoring all the eyes landing on you like dominoes and yet preening under the attention like a lazy cat basking under the sun. Your smile was deceivingly innocent, gentle yet cocky in the subtlest of ways.Â
Her eyes couldnât help to take you in.Â
The dark red dress you wore hugged your body perfectly, like a second skin, as if melting with each of your movements. The dress was seamless, held up only by thin straps that dipped into a daring neckline, exposing just enough to make anyone want more. The shimmering sequins embroidered along the curve of your hips glinted teasingly under the retro disco ball, casting a mesmerizing array of shimmering reds. The lacy fringe of the hem stopped just shy of your mid-thigh, blending with the flowery skirt that revealed both your legs in tantalizing glimpses.
As embarrassing as it was, she was just another victim that couldnât seem to take her eyes away. Try to regain composure, she did her best to maintain a bit of her dignity, not wanting to give you any leash for you to tug on.Â
Taking a steadying breath, Natasha forced herself to fold her arms, straighten her spine, and lift her chin, trying to cloak herself in her usual calm and untouchable persona. But her eyes had a mind of their own, betraying her as they lingered on you, watching every movement despite herself.
When you finally reached her, your gaze met hers, and Natasha had the unsettling feeling that you saw right through every barrier sheâd put up. That awareness sent a chill of discomfort down her spine. Stepping closer, you set your purse down on the stool beside her with slow, deliberate movements that she couldnât help but follow. Without breaking eye contact, you smirked.
âEnjoying the view, Agent Romanoff?â you purred, each word slipping from your lips as if laced with honey. But Natasha knew that the sweetness could be someoneâs poison just as easily.
She scoffed. âYour arrogance is staggering.â
Feigning a pout, you tilted your head, feigning hurt. âIs it so wrong to give a lady a compliment once in a while?â Then, with a playful glint in your eyes, you leaned in, letting your gaze trace over her in a way that was unmistakably bold, yet foolishly innocent. âWell, Iâm not scared to admit that you look gorgeous.â
You complimented while taking her in.Â
Her hair was pinned up into a tight braid that left her neck exposed. The dark red shirt she wore clung to her perfectly, the satin fabric being comfortable and hinting at the lines of muscle and curves beneath. Sleeveless, it exposed her toned arms. The neckline went straight into a tight V, just enough for showing the delicate, pale skin of her sternum. Opting for practically, she paired it with paired with sleek, tailored trousers in a matching deep redâalmost black in the low light (not that she had in mind your previous recommendation when choosing this of course). A polished belt cinched her waist, the silver buckle slightly off centred. There was no doubt in your mind that she wore a strapped in blade attached to her ankle, ready and waiting.Â
The thought did nothing but send a rush of excitement up your spine.
A blur at the corner of your vision catches your attention, and the teasing persona you reserve for Natasha vanishes abruptly. As much as you enjoyed being the cause of her losing her composure, you had a job to doâand youâd be damned if you failed.
Without giving Natasha a chance to react, you catch her shoulders and pull her against you, manoeuvring both of you closer to the bar. Natasha flinches slightly at the sudden movement, instinctively placing one arm around your waist and the other on the counter to steady herself. Her eyes widen as she meets your gaze up close, the rich scent of vanilla filling her senses.
Your cool hand resting on her bare shoulder makes her breath catch in her throat. âWhat do you think youâre doing?â she manages to say, intending it to sound like a reprimand, but the words come out soft and breathless, betraying her surprise.
âJust trying to avoid starting at a disadvantage,â you replied smoothly, as if the lack of distance between you two wasnât affecting you in the slightest. Natasha hated thatâhated how unbothered you seemed. If anything, you leaned in even closer, your lips hovering just shy of her ear. Natasha heard a muted complaint of disgust, followed by her sister saying something about âThis is worse than Papa and Mama.Cutting off now.â She wasnât really paying attention.
âOver my shoulder. One of the three judges,â you murmured, voice low and soft against her skin. âTheyâre not just ranking our dancing skills, but the⌠chemistry between partners. So if you want this to go smoothly, Iâd suggest pretending you donât hate my guts for a while.â
The last sentence dripped with a teasing mockery, and Natasha clenched her jaw, willing herself not to react. The word "hate" echoed in her mind, though, twisting uncomfortably as if not really settling in. Hate wasnât exactly the word sheâd use to describe herâŚcomplex feelings about you. Sure, you were frustrating, irritating, and always knew how to push her buttons with an infuriating ease.Â
But did she really hate you?
She shook her head. This was exactly what she couldnât stand about youâthe way you made her doubt herself, fall into chaos in her own mind. She couldnât afford to debate what she really thought about you now. Closing her eyes briefly, she exhaled, letting her professional persona handle her next movements. This was a mission like any other. And Natasha Romanoff always succeeded in her missions.
Just as she was about to locate the judge youâd told her about, her eyes fell on three men across the dance floor, next to the snack table. There was no mistaking the way their eyes draped all over you, watching you with no shame as their mouths likely ran with sick and degrading comments about what they would do with someone like you.
A tightening feeling in her chest struck her, taking root until the infection controlled her next actions. Strengthening her grip on your waist, Natasha pressed further into you, subtly spinning your bodies so that her taller frame shielded you from predatory eyes. Noticing the change in her demeanour and the way she glared at something behind you, you tilted your head slightly but decided to not comment on it. As much as you liked to keep her on her toes, you knew when to refrain yourself.Â
âI assume you got the judgeâs backgrounds?â she muttered, leaning in closer, taking a page from your book. Her hand slid over your waist, caressing your side while maintaining a firm, almost possessive grip. Lost at the moment, you opened your mouth to answer, but hesitated, caught off guard by the soft, deliberate touch. You couldnât decide whether to feel relieved that she was listening to you or startled by how her fingers seemed to burn against your covered skin.
Natashaâs eyes glinted as they dropped onto you, a flicker of satisfaction crossing her features at the rare sight of you losing your so well maintained composure. You never stuttered, always remaining a step ahead, but for once, it was you who was caught off guard. If only for a fleeting moment, Natasha couldnât help but take the moment in, greedily absorbing your hesitation. Is this what you felt when you got under her skin?
For anybody who glared at you two, it would seem like an intimate couple, flirting and rendering each other speechless with seductive flirtation and close touch. If that's what you demanded of her, then thatâs what Natasha will deliver.Â
Sensing this shift, you cleared your throat and did your best to regain control. To return to your sleek persona that you always maintained. âYou assume well. The first one is Ethan Cole, a dance professor on a wealthy university. Had big dreams for Hollywood, but her addiction to gambling and alcohol closed those doors for him. Owes Horvat some numbers.â
Deliberately, you moved your hand to her jaw, redirecting her face to the right, then leaned in as if you were whispering something inappropriate in her ear. âThe grey-haired man, Richard Harper. A self-declared âman of the arts,â you stated dramatically. âMore like a man of perversion. He owns several sex clubs, most of which donât follow safety regulations and serve as covers for prostitution rings.â Natasha clenched her jaw ever so slightly, the feeling of it under your fingertips making you sigh in satisfaction.
âPerhaps when weâre done with this I ought to pay him a visit,â you taunted, making Natasha turn to face you with a warning glare. Before she had time to respond, you silenced her with a gentle but firm motion.
âRight behind me, just a few stools away. The woman with glasses and uptight lips. Leah Montgomery. Our biggest threat to win the competition. She was in competitive figure skating, pretty good, too. Until tragedy struck and she ruptured her ACL. Clearly, she hasnât got over it yet as she now spends her days tormenting her pupils, âencouragingâ them in partaking into illegal substances to win her titles.âÂ
Just as you finished, the low bass music cut off, a call for all the participants to gather on the dance floor resonating through the walls. As everyone started to move toward the centre, Natasha eventually released her grip around you. Just as you were about to tease her about the reluctance, she placed her hand on your lower back, guiding you through the crowd.
Surprised, but not wanting to reveal your true feeling, you hummed pleasantly, masking the unexpected stir in your chest. Finally reaching your spot, Natasha extended her hand to you. Her eyes look down on you, the green of her irises going a few shades of green darker. But this time, you can't find the anger. NoâŚit was something else that you havenât quite seen before.Â
Accepting her offering, you place your hand into hers.Â
This will be interesting.Â
#nat x f!reader#fanfic#mcu#natasha romanoff#avengers#marvel series#natasha x reader#natasha romanoff x reader#vigilante reader#shield agent natasha#marvel
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well i threw up!! time to eat an ice cream sandich
#im so used to puking now its insane#i never thought id get used to it but i did#i can recover from puking in like 0.5 seconds now#just desperately trying to get fat and calories into myself because im definitely malnourished and its terrifying#its so stupid how i wanted to lose weight before. not like this. never like this#i wanna be fat again and i mean it#im not healthy#sorry editing again MY CLOTHES ARE FALLING OFF. MY PANTS FALL OFF.#i lost 30-40lbs in a COUPLE WEEKS.#im scared. im actually scared im gonna die. save me ice cream sandich
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you know i used to think it was weird how sora and roxas have such different personalities for supposedly being 'the same person' but after playing a few games i sort of realized that they do have similar personalities, because roxas acts how sora does when he's under extreme stress.
compare roxas to sora in, say, kh1. that's where a lot of peoples idea of sora's personality comes from. sora is generally very upbeat and optimistic in that game. not very similar to roxas, right?
but let's switch the game and talk about a game where sora is ABSOLUTELY GOING THROUGH IT. chain of memories.
sora's resting state is melancholy in com. he only ever cheers up in short bursts, usually when he's joking around with friends. just like roxas.
he's quick to anger, and tends to lash out at the organization members. best example of this is when larxene makes him 'remember' namine, and he swings at her repeatedly, even after she's gone. he only stops when jiminy is able to snap him out of it.
you know what scene that resembles?
sora, while a bit more on the angry side and less sad, continues to act like this in kh2 when he's in stressful situations. (he also has a tendancy to insult people which, while it's not very related to the point, is very funny and sora saying 'gonna cry?' to xigbar is great.) i cant comment any further than that about kh2 off the top of my head.
so, roxas acts like sora does when he's stressed, right? but why is roxas always acting like that? to which i say, he isnt!
he only ever acts like that when he's also in fucked up and stressful situations, which happens to be a CONSTANT in his life. but when he's hanging out with axel and xion, a decidedly NOT stressful situation, he's a lot more like sora. he's teasing his friends and insulting his coworkers and joking around and acting like a normal kid. not really important, but unless i misremembered some sora lines which is VERY possible, both roxas and sora respond to friendly insults with "oh thanks!" a lot. just a funny little detail that felt relevant.
the biggest differences between roxas and sora boil down to environment and... i dont know how to put it besides volume? roxas is very quiet and tends to keep most of his thoughts to himself, while sora is very loud and expressive in comparison.
there is one other huge difference i noticed, which is less character based and more story. sora wanted to get off destiny islands and explore with his friends, but roxas just wanted routine. sora wants adventure, and roxas wants things to stay the same, for days where he gets off work and eats ice cream with his friends to last forever, to keep having conversations about nothing and watching the sunset. roxas wants normalcy, sora wants excitement. it's just interesting seeing their contrast.
not sure if this is very well said or anything i just wanted to talk about my boys
#random thoughts#its been a while since i got to use that tag eheheh#i bet theres a few people following me who didnt even know i did analysis posts#the fact that sora and roxas grew up in very different environments is pretty important btw#roxas was already a bit quiet and being in a cult where any expression of emotion is immediately shut down probably didnt help#we'll probably never get a good idea of how roxas would be if he was in a normal situation#id say some of the twilight town stuff might be a close estimate but even that doesnt really fit considering all the shit going down#even from the very start hes being accused of theft hes Not doing the best#anyways. sora and roxas are different obviously#but theyre a lot more similar than people really talk about#kingdom hearts#roxas#sora#not rereading this so it might be a little weird and hard to read sorry
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the supreme court is so comically evil like you really have to vote blue across the board they made it legal to criminalize homelessness, overturned chevron which means the extremely conservative courts get to override health officials and environmental regulations
like infant mortality has increased by 8% in some states post roe, they will avoid the trump immunity case as long as possible, they essentially shielded all the jan 6 rioters
if biden loses we could be stuck with 6-3 or 7-2 extremely conservative judges for decades!!! that could mean 40 years of social rights regulations and health codes thrown out the door!!! look how much weâve lost in 8 years?
and what about pack the courts? you canât pack the courts with this split congress you canât pass roe laws with this split congress you really have to vote blue all the way
#us politics#presidential debate#supreme court#I HATE THE SUPREME COURT I WANT THEM GONE SO BADLY#itâs so easy to lose everything at once!!!#yall we canât do this again!!!!!!!!!!!!#ALITO AND THOMAS WILL QUIT#AND TRUMP WILL APPOINT FRESH ULTRA RIGHT CONSERVATIVE 30 SOMETHING YEAR OLDS#WHO WILL BE THERE FOR EONS#trump is so much worse than biden in like every way dawg#i feel sick guys LOOK AT OUR LIBERALS#thought the democratic party did this to themselves#fucking idiots! shouldâve let biden step down#like we can go all the way back to RBG and Hillary Clinton like SHIT#this year i did a huge project on feminism in the us and to think all of those policies could be lost within my lifetime#we just got those#biden sucks he sucks a lot but trump is the devil#this country is not organized enough for 3rd party especially not with trumpâs cult of personality#republicans will vote for him no matter what!!!#we shouldâve done more about those damn courts uggg my head#this is why i can never be a politician id get a terrible headache and just start knocking shit over#one of my friends is voting green cause the democrats disappointed her an i agree they suck they suck so badly but#but the last thing iâll do is let this country move any further to the right#iâll take shit piece of trash liberal than i think people shouldnât have rights conservative
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i dpnt want to go hoooome
#i miss drawing but thats it#talkys#at rainforest cafe we had a really nice funny upbeat server#who ended up chatting with us and saying he is 26â was FINALLY able to leave home from his home state (not Texas)#to be here (Texas) and he gets to be out of the closet and stuff and its like I feel this could be me too like I Get It. ive been having Fun#being away and chatting with strangers and such#i want to be away...my voice being hurt today had me dreaming about being on T again#bjut also i rly dont know its hard to see a future myself even now that my friend is continuing to help me find it ykwim#like as a kid i never looked forward to any of it. puberty high school driving college career#i thought id get over driving once i Got There but ive been driving and all i can think of is how i wasnt born to drive at all. i hate it#idk how i cld survive away from home if the driving is so difficult. the driving we did today was so stressful. i cld not have maneuvered#it at all. idk. i wanna live away but idk that its feasible and even when it seems more feasible (employment out of town) it doesnt#(the driving. the living. the sustaining self and making sure he eats the maximum 1 meal per day. the Fear. ykwim)
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sorry if you've already mentioned but what (re?)ignited your love of comics/x-men/cherik? curious because there are so many different adaptations of them
i think im gonna speak for a few (or a lot of) people when i say that TL;DR the wolverine x deadpool movie that came out this summer is what pulled me back into comics and i COULD leave it there but i will go into excruciating and unnecessary detail instead because i love an origin story and i love oversharing.
under the cut tho because im nice sometimes (there's also wxdp doodles in here. if you want to see that)
ironically (and probably commonly), growing up i was more of an avengers kid. Kinda. Loosely <- binge watched the cartoons and movies and read copious amounts of comics and fics and i am hoarding fanart in my old dresser as we speak ok 'loosely' is a modest lie.
embarrassingly i remember getting into discus cause of captain america LMAO so yeah needless to say i was a Humble Fan- me joining my school's comic class/club didnt help either (shoutout to my teach from that she was the realest one out there for. A Multitude of reasons). she definitely is was inspires me to even draw still and make comics and i often think bout the tips i learned from her class tbh she was great
back to the movies t and comics tho, i got into em because my brother would offer to take me and that's how we'd hang out (i rarely saw movies in theaters and i even more rarely went anywhere as a teenager. still kinda like that today tbh ooops) and yk. it just snowballed after that.
my brother and i have always liked comics- he just more than me for a while (though he still very much loves comics and As We Know From My Posts we still talk about them whenever i see him To An Exhausting Degree)
durin then i was really into stony and i have a few surviving doodles i made but those are between me and god. and anyone who asks tbh LOL
'snap can you make this related to x-men again this is long' ok so fast forward to This Summer again I Still Don't Really See Movies but my brother offered to take me and this was the first time i'd actually seen an x-men movie in full
as a kid i only remember seeing the 'perfection' scene between erik and raven in first class while i was channel surfing. pretty sure i changed the channel after seeing mystique naked cause i was scared my parents would get mad at me if they caught me watching it LOL
BUT MOVING ON As A Kid i think it's also natural you'll sometimes watch 92 if it's on And I Did though evidently it didn't stick too hard (i do remember really liking beast and gambit though.... still do really): my knowledge of x-men was. INCREDIBLY sparse. like diabolically so so i didnt have too much expectations (aside from the fact i vaguely liked deadpool beforehand).
tbh i dont know why my bro never took me to see any of the x-men movies. it's not like he doesn't Also like x-men (90% sure nightcrawler's his favorite but my brother will be caught dead saying he has absolute favorites like that)- he owns a bitch load of deadpool comics/omnibus sets too (of which ive read over the years and reread this year) but Shrug moving on
Much Like Most Of The Internet i fell down the rabbit hole that way. i have some doodles i made a couple days after seeing WxDP that i now have an excuse to throw at all of you Look And Perceive
and so. As I Do. i got curious and told myself i'd binge watch all the x-men movies the week before i went back to school And Then I Did ft. My Brother Sometimes and then i said i'd binge watch all of '92 and And I Did That ft. My Brother Sometimes But Less So and now we're here. currently watching Evolution...
once i got to school i realized i lived near a comic shop and started getting into the comics that way (the first ones i got since going down this rabbit hole was Magneto Was Right!, The Resurrection of Magneto, and The Trial of Magneto. if you were curious !!!!! clearly i didnt care too much about context i just needed to see My Guy jelvejlkvj i have no regrets and Evidently ive read more since)
i'm pretty sure what dragged me into cherik specifically was the fact i saw a clip of The Famous ending to 92 where erik's aghast at the notion jean even has to question his love for charles. i think that was what officially had me refocus my lens on them: not a single poolverine thought after that LOL (all the cherik posting i saw on twitter definitely helped too but that was the nail in the coffin for any other interests i had: i was locked into cherik and x-men in general now)
that clip specifically, i was surprised at the fact they- frequently even- have the x-men franchise say erik loves charles and vice versa so bluntly. even if it's not meant to be romantic, i fear im just a fan of how casually the word's thrown around with them two and i got tender bout it all. Then Yk. i just live for the drama. the hilarity even. the sincerity .... they make me sick if i think of them too long so im gonna end it here
before i go tho ironically enough, the first x-men issue i owned was This one (story a this is that while stuck in some wacko dimension charles accidentally gets himself trapped in logan's mind while utilizing his astral projection. if you were curious). pretty sure i got it for free with another comic set i got years ago since our old comic shop loved to do that, but it's poetic aint it. maybe ill doodle something referencing it..
i should probably look into finishing this arc someday im Dummy curious to even know how it started and how it ends.....
#snap chats#usually this onea them posts i ramble bout in the tags but i have photos and this is Long long so .. i use the main body for once ...#sorry i gave a biography but i never talk to people and i also love typing. im one of those party can-of-worms i fear#i feel like i could talk about this forever because x-men itself has never been super prominent in my childhood#it was just kinda there in the background BUT comics themselves have always been with me. theyre a keystone to me i think#but yeah. x-men definitely sticks a lot harder than avengers does now OOPS this is not me taking shots i am just SAYING#i have a lot of old marvel doodles tbh .. i found an old deadpool one i remember drawing with my bro during a car ride#kinda funny how much my bro and i bond i dont think of it much but I Guess thats another reason why comics are special to me#we dont bond much- i dont bond with my fam in general tbh we're kinda. Isolated in a way LOL so its cool we're tight at least#if you wanna go deeper bout Comics And My Family my dad really liked comics growing up- more dc tho maybe#apparently he used to draw hulk a lot but if he did those drawings are loooong gone.. at least i know who to blame for me drawing#he loves superman tho. i remember id get embarrassed watching superhero cartoons and superman was on screen when he was around#for some reason i thought id get in trouble if he caught me watching superman but when he did once he was real happy so. tf wrong with me#he loves to say hes superman a lot and id be like Dad... Stop... LMAO but in the cheesiest way possible he do be my hero so. accurate ig#but yeah thats my origin story for why i like comics again thank you for reading if you actually read all that#and sorry it got all sappy Unfortunately i be like that sometimes. i am very emotionally constipated and i over explain a lot#ok i fr gonna end it here im gonna keep going by accident if i thinka any longer and i have stuff i still have to do
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I haz ask... HOW THE QUACK ARE UR LINE'S SO PERFECT- SO RELAXED???!? I have never seen a stiff drawing from you, and everything looks so good.. I just Wana nibble on it! ToT
oh that! that means a Bunch <3 thank you so much <3<3
#ive always thought my art was too stiff & the lines too severe#when i did traditional i left Grooves in the paper from how hard i was pressing#so its good to know that my efforts in Relaxing My Grip have paid off!#im a little emotional now ngl!#a few days ago a certain someone described my art as 'kind' which took me the fuck out once i registered it#kind... relaxed... i never thought id get to this point!#the euphoria of going from 'constantly rigid' to 'never seen a stiff drawing from me'. im healed <3#oh if younger me could see us now!#rambles from the bog#as for How... yeah i just relax lmao#i dont press too hard and i use longer brushstrokes instead of a bunch of small ones. swoopy#honestly i think my custom brush does half the work...#i doubt my art would be half as gentle Without it!
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I opened a fnaf card pack and got 3 fnaf ar skin cards one of which being liberty chica
#đ#i never thought id own something liberty chica#i did get fnaf 1 bonnie and chica tho so thats good#i did want more security breach ones tho#all my luck was used up in my first pack i got all sb except for golden freddy#and i also had glamrock freddy in that pack#flashlight duo realness#pandas.txt
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hii can we smoke together but i'm a beginner and dont know how to use a lighter so you laugh at me (softly) as you light it and show me how to take a hit before handing it off to me....... can we....
#embarrassing and silly but this did hapen to me once. the one time i smoked JFKSJD#but like in my defense .! i am like. a boy who does not get out much and doesnt do dr*gs or anything#censored in case the tumblrs will banish me for it.#so a high school friend (but like we were in uni atp) lit it for me and liek. had me take a hit#head spinny thinking abt it a little like. weh#they were so nice abt it too n talking me through it like. deep breath... hold it#smiling n laughing a little bit when i coughed bc id never smoked before!! or even like. vaped or anything bc im a COWARD#n then going like. do you want to try again? :)#and then i snuggled w them and their bf and we got italian beef afterwards and watched hells kitchen which is like. so nice#but also like who the hell designed lighters i still don't know how to use one. like real#my hands are too weak to use lighters im a weenie#but also also like i would do it again. i am a boy w too much anxiett and brain thoughts and it was so nice to not have thoughts for a bit
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"fnaf is the scariest game ever" "no its silent hill" "well i think its resident evil" everyone shut up!!!!!! youre all wrong. its actually zack & wiki quest for barbaros' treasure (on the nintendo wii) but only the level "keeper of the ice". that level scared me so bad as a kid and you can tell because its the only individual level i remember the name of off the top of my head. like there is nothing scarier than a) being chased and b) being on a time limit. and you know what this level has? BOTH OF THOSE. this level is still scary to me im like AHHHHH!!!! and then i die
#i had to google horror games after i thought really hard for silent hill and fnaf#because like. resident evil is just not a horror game in my mind... its just cool zombie game...#to be fair though. the only one i actually played a portion of was re6 which is probably the least scary one in the whole series#anyway do the kids still find silent hill and fnaf scary. i dont know.#well the former id say yes given how prevalent ps1 horror has been in recent years#fnaf i have no idea. im a massive wuss so its scary when i play it for myself#but watching someone else play them especially when i know them well isnt scary#and ive watched fnaf videos for YEARS#so i dont know. (old man voice) these damn kids... back in my day we watched markiplier scream at freddy fazbear and we LIKED it!#anyway its objectively a horror game and thata literally fine thats all i needed for this post#MY POINT HERE. my point here#IS THAT HIT ZACK AND WIKI LEVEL KEEPER OF THE ICE. IS SOOOOO SCARY#its not that scary but i see tjat level and im like 3 years old making my mom play this level for me again#and for the record yes me and my sister really did make our mom help us with z&w#she remembers helping us with frost breath the most because we like did notttttt get that one at all#and she could never remember how to do the mirrors based on what combination of stands is there (because tjeres like a few variations)#so she always had to look up a guide đđ#my poor mother on fucking gamefaqs or something in like 2010... legends only#anyway if you have no idea what level im talking about (any of my oomfs reading this that isnt end) (hi end) PLEASE look up this level#and i need you to think of like a 5(?) year old making her mom play this game.#this aforementioned child is still a massive wuss as an adult btw. some things never change#anyway watch that level and think about how someone like me. whos already a scaredy cat!#imagine how someone like me felt at age 5 possibly younger playing this level#I WISH I COULD LIKE CONVEY EMOTIONS OVER TUMBLR. why cant i attach a .emotion file to this post#anyway ramble over <- hes said that like a million times today#scariest level in a game ever...!!!!! FUCK that keeper of the ice bitch im GLAD he died#muffin mumbles
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raincode ending spoilers. kinda
also makoto is such a great antagonist. he has consistently been a fantastic character from his first appearance until the very end. the twists, the tragedy of him, the motives. all of it is so good it all makes sense and in the final showdown i was like yknow what hes right!!! i literally sided with him so much he makes me so fucking sad i love him.
#speaking of the ending#i was a tiiiny bit disappointed?#like i already knew they were just gonna use the emergency exit cuz they mentioned it and never used it#and dont get me wrong i love yuma and this isnt another âplz kill him that would be so good for the storyâ type thing like i had with yakou#buuuut i feel like id be more satisfied if he did sacrifice himself after all that talk and shit#but idk i also JUST now finished it so i might change my mind after i give it more thought#gadanie#rain code#mdarc#makoto kagutsuchi
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i really wanna tell you guys about something horrible that happened at work today due to a protest but i cant because ill completely doxx myself worse than usual. all i will say is im scared but im safe at home now, and we're trying to get some security for tomorrow. authorities had to get involved. we're literally being bullied by massive groups of grown ass men just for existing, people putting their hands on us, people screaming in our faces.
#im like actually not good#i didnt think id die but there was a clear chance of getting hurt and they did hurt our store#i have to go back tomorrow. you know. on the day. it's going to be worse. they purposely targeted us and i have it on video. i really wish i#was exaggerating. i never thought this would actually happen to me.#im probably gonna be on the quieter side here for a couple days and im posting a fic update now for the meantime#lessons of the hand and the mouth
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one time i was talking to my american online friends about stuff and i was like "haha yeah people always say i look ambiguously european but cant place what i am specifically" and they were like "i dont think europeans have a look though." what do you mean. you dont believe different ethnic features exist...?
#just was reminded of it lol#one i no longer talk to used to insist that i was british because of my not-british accent and would not believe me when i said#no... i dont live there#id told them i was aussie. they didnt believe me though. like they thought i inexplicably had a brtisih accent despite never#having been there ever#another i said i didnt get a SSCoE for HS but a diploma. thats not what diplomas are here but they kept insisting i was wrong#like i have the certificate....its not a diploma.......... thats not what it says.#but they were like just call it a diploma : / its basically a diploma#i know AU isnt that different to the US but at least we are usually a little less annoying#i did see that asshat who was like 'uhhhh climate change means you dont have snow? not for us australians a-durrrrr X D' or w/e#what a twat. even from a purely selfish perspective we still also have climate change. its very noticeable. come on#anyway for a full decade i basically never met anyone online who wasnt USamerican....................#so. i do have some amount of frustration.#they got mad at me for saying bikkie or pressie as slang even tho theyre super easy to figure out from context. also it doesnt matter#'STOP using slang you KNOW us americans WONT UNDERSTAND'#we were talking about christmas!?!? pressie is straightforward!?!? even if not...why are you so indignant#on a more awful note i knew one sheila (white) who was like very vocally/performatively into blm#but then one time when i mentioned aboriginal australians she was like 'what...ive never heard of those before...'#youve known me for years even if you never looked at anything in your life ever id definitely mentioned them before#pretty fucking important. both for my country and when caring about indigenous/first nations peoples. oldest surviving culture on earth#but she was like how was i supposed to know about them : /#because i thoguht you cared about these issues!?!?!??!? also just generally ohhh my god#how could you be vaguely aware of AU history as being similar to your own and then say you didnt know we had indigenous peoples#like. what do i even say#do you think... only america has indigenous peoples??????#its fine not to know a foreign countrys history in depth but just...the absolute basics....about an issue you claim to care about...#sigh. ok this is too long. i feel that last one is justified to complain about tho
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3.40 i woke up bc i was cold and needed to pee and now i can't fall back asleep i keep thinking of the people i accidentally ghosted. is it ghosted if there was no intent to ghost? i feel so bad and it's not even like i don't think about them i often do think "i should really reply to them... once this is over ill properly sit down and write them... " and then i don't bc something else happens and im dealing with that and the longer i leave it unanswered the more difficult it becomes because i feel so guilty and therefore want to do things properly not half assed but bc i feel so guilty a part of me also tends to avoid it even more. if i do this to you just know i'm really sorry and ill get back to you i swear
#i have this friend i didn't reply to him for 6 months and then i did with lots of apologies he replied no worries haha AND I WENT AND DIDN'T#REPLY TO THAT FOR ANOTHER 6 MONTHS and the thing is when i had texted him in january i was falling ill and then i was ill for more than a#week so i wasn't really in a condition to reply. and since bc of the illness i had missed some crucial classes and was in the middle of#exam session and i was really struggling so then too i delayed texting him. and then the second semester started and it was such a shitshow#and then i fell ill again and i thought to write him hey i was first ill then send i didn't reply to you and im ill now and im replying to#you đŤ . but then i didn't again#anyways last week i finally texted him like ''hey. how are you ? im really bad at keeping in touch im sorry. can i offer you lunch or dinne#one of these days to apologize and so that we can catch up a little?'' and he hasn't replied yet which is like obviously fine. id get it if#he didn't reply for 6 months or a year i'd pretty much deserves it id say. i'm just worried that he'll never reply bc i have fucked it up#entirely. the truth is all my lifd ive been used to seeing many people i care deeply about like once or twice a year without barely any#contact in between and when we're together again it's like time hasn't passed at all. we just pick up from where we left#the same goes with long distance friendships. to me#anyone ANYONE can tell you how little i reply. :(. still. i know it's not good. @ friend i hope you'll find it in you to forgive me and let#me treat you to lunch#god. side note there is something in this house that is triggering my allergy so bad whether its dust or cat blanket im having the worst#time#good night ill try to sleep again now#it took me one hour to write this post yes
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need to know when exactly hw2 is taking place so that i can work it into my headcanons cause right now its just not fitting at all. a lot of "..unless?" but i wont know until i get the timeline (more under cut i guess. spoiler territory ahead đ¨đ¨)
also i had 6 hours of copium for my sleeptime. if youre a hater just take this as if i was pulling this out of my ass, unless you agree, in which case youre welcome to comment or. nod in agreement.
so how does this help wanted economy affect the fazcoin?
but no for real now. to preface im very forgetful when it comes to fnaf lore and i sometimes miss some plot points and many times they affect my headcanons (once i remember them) but i cant check everything. im just forming my own little timeline with my own ideas i guess, but i still want it to be canon adjacent So!
i believed that its taking place post SB, pre Ruin. which i was super happy with as i was worried it would be pre-SB and not give enough lore that i crave. however, just as ive seen some people say, this didnt help with the lore much, and it just got more confusing for me. still a fantastic game but from a lore point it doesnt give us anything too big or a conclusion (well. maybe one) i also saw people say its post ruin, which i dont agree with but i would agree with during ruin. (when ppl say cassie is the player, i dont think so, need more arguments) its unclear once people bring in other arguments than the obvious roxy's mask or the state of the pizzaplex. but basically as an afton believer its hard for me to work around this, but i will try. never back down never what?
so my hc is iykyk, scraptrap->man in the room->ghost/amalgamation->latching onto tech and the mimic in the form of glitch and burntrap->mimic "shedding" him->wills ghost forming mxes; it also works without the frights books but the afton amalgamation and everything around it is too cool to not use. i fucking love ruinborn afton graaaaah *tears shirt apart* i also liked the idea of his spirit shattering and a piece of it forming glitchtrap for years, and i believe it can coexist with mimic, i think burntrap was real and is both mimic and afton.
now. this game. really messing it up for me as glitchtrap existing post or during burntrap just doesnt make sense, i dont want -trap multiples or something (sounds like the years old 2-3 purple guys theory lmao) but i will look into it as glitchtrap and mxes connection..? honestly, i really expected getting to see burntrap here (or at least mimic shown). was burntrap like retconned or something for real??? also still dont understand when people say burntrap isnt the mimic or whatever. no, it is, just with something a little extra on. and that extra is again, wills ghost or remnant or whatever you wanna call it, symbolized by the bonnie parts on his endo, but theres also flesh so yeah, as funny as it sounds i fuck with the afton homunculus growing over mimic theory. its stupid enough, he would do it.
but i wanna focus on mxes, i knew we wouldnt see the entity in the game, didnt expect it. but i also didnt expect the system to show up, which it did, but obviously not the entity yet as i believe they were formed only after burntrap has been "scooped" by tangle (comparing the scooper mimic ending and the burntrap one as a parallel) i just dont understand how glitchtrap is in here. thats the thing i cant figure out! this is 100% post SB so at that point glitchtrap is just gone. how did we get him back now? only ends up with me reaching with like MEGA SPOILERS the vanny ending crushing glitchtrap being a metaphor of her locking away or deleting the code. extreme reaching would be stuffing it into the mxes system where glitch would turn into the entity. but thats way too loose, but ive seen many people call the mxes entity glitchtrap, which doesnt even work with their theory that glitchtrap is mimic, because the entity is obviously not the mimic. like you have to consider this too, not just mimicmimicmimic but then agree that a glitchy rabbit is similar to another glitchy rabbit
lost my thread of thought. and thought of how this all is just, an end to glitchtrap era and only mimic in the future. well.. without an evil rabbit, fnaf will lose its charm for me, i dont know if vanny!cassie would save it for me, i only want wiwi. more wiwi, no mimi *starts glowing red and then explodes* anyway its not that bad. as long as i get to see the mxes entity again i will be good. and as long as im right about the clickteam game, i will be happy :D
also im intrigued by the fallfest showing up again, i really want to see how the maps look and look at all the details.. but in general the area is either underneath or next to the pizzaplex, the body of water in curse of dreadbear imo is the same as the underground water in ruin and hw2 to me confirmed that it truly is all in one place (goes nowhere with this). i love how the hw2 hub is in the pizzasim building. also, another thing, need to check it out again but i want to see if scrap baby is in a vr level or reality so i can theorize about scraptrap, as in, if at least tangle and scrap baby are still around and real in the plex, it would make sense for scraptrap to not show up because he has gone through digitization /j you know the whole pipeline. and so on and so forth
anyway im gonna pet my dogs and maybe read tse and then get back to hw2 in the afternoon. just getting this out of the system and my brain
#i love how when i write these thoughts my english just devolves into a 7yo writing an essay#but yeah. im like 7 and im writing about my favorite character :]#sorry i never have better words or think of better sentences i just translate my thoughts. bare minimum#crunching#gave up on writing more actually. would be longer but im facing reality đ#i also accept counter arguments if youre civil#but id rather just stay in my daydream and think that bnuyy wiwi :]#thatse it#waffling about william 2#<- will use this tag to find my rants later and laugh and lmao at them because i always get shit wrong in these#the one i did about the fnaf movie and my expectations for it was hilarious to look back at. what a naive little guy#wrote this in like an hour. maybe two. time well spent (lie)#long post
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I just think if Natsuki Naoko was transported to Re:Zero instead of Subaru, we'd have a very different - but also funny and now a slice-of-life - story
Everything she says doesn't have any hatred or weight behind it, it's all sounding like the airy speculation of a child going "Ohhhhh"
(About spirits, whenever they show up) "Well, I hate small, round things."
Somehow managing to walk away from the alleyway without a problem, the trio just bows awkwardly and apologize for standing in her way like scolded children
"S-Sorry.."
Since I (personally) wouldn't want to subject Mama Naoko to Return By Death, I think everything would magically work out for her and she'd throw around life lessons that no one understands... at first
"That's why you should always label your mayonnaise bottle."
"Um... Mayonnaise?"
Just a nice mother, clapping her hands with a happy smile, unaware to the small crowd of the cast she's amassed behind her, all Team Protect Mama.
#id write this but i would have to think about how to get through the first -im never going to see my family again- depression#but the amount of mommy issues leaves SO many clingy children#and her patience is like the void (i hope im using that phrase right)#just a nice fluffy comedy#all they know is she had a son named subaru and she wont stop talking about him#shes somehow befriended everyone when no ones looking#even on good terms with the priscilla camp. priscilla doesnt know how to talk to her#but she likes her#just getting called mother by everyone#shes in her late 30s+ and considering Marcos Gildark- shes GREAT for her age#i would absolutely write this because the concept is wonderful#natsuki naoko#rezero#re zero#re:zero#fanfic#idea#serving everyone mountains of peas and theyre all staring in slight horror at their plates#naoko doesnt even realize- she just did it because she thought everyone and their child hated peas like she did#its just peas for breakfast and shes the only one getting jam on bread#edit: i have found my solution
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