#i need to stop giving ppl the benefit of the doubt

[alcego]

gonna kms it’s been a week

[honeyviscera]

anyways i'm literally right about everything ever <-the drama they were having with this one person at work was literally the other person being shitty and immature

[snekdood]

I kind of had a fucked up realization about the SA my abusive ex put me through-- and its that they did it on purpose. and you might be sitting there like "duh, obviously" but no like this is an important distinction for my mind to make- unfortunately my mind wants to assume the best case scenario in a given situation even if the "best" is hardly better than the "worst". and i tend to lean more towards having good faith in people by default. but unlike what I was hoping, they didn't do it because they dont understand boundaries, or was just so overcome by lust about me being naked they couldn't control themselves or some shit- no, they wanted to see if they could do it and get away with it. and i know this because once when I said I wanted to fight them about this situation they said they "knew I wouldnt do anything". now why would they come to that conclusion? i'm very down to throw hands. must of been something they did to test me to see if I would...

well, it's no secret that they used the fuck out of me and my mom anyways- instead of seeing it as the natural generosity that comes with loving someone, they saw us being giving as us over giving, that they were using us, they saw it as them being able to do "whatever they want" and get away with it. I think they thought this situation was just sewwww funny bc they were totally using Poor Dumb People who Totally weren't just doing it because they thought you loved me or something... no surely its just because we're just Dumb and Dont Know better or whatever tf.

so they wanted to see what all they could get away with. they stopped paying their rent. they stopped paying for their own food and relied on me and we always bought pretty expensive vegan food for both of us- they wanted to see if they could get away with the ultimate crime and see if I would just *let* them. they interpreted my freeze response as me just *letting* them. not me having all this trust I thought I could have in this person instantly shattered and trying to recon with the fact that you were not the person you said you were fucking at all. its why it came literally out of nowhere, happened seemingly unprompted, and why they quickly shuffled out of the room when they were done. if it was an actual sexual oopsie, they would have apologized. they just pretended it never happened, until 2020.

one critical error they made- I might be nice to people I think I can love and trust- but once they betray that? I'm a force to be reckoned with. I see you its on sight you piece of utter waste of space trash shit.

[graevs666]

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[imwritingthefout]

A mask of my own face- the morning after

So this is basically a part two to a fic I made a couple of weeks ago bc ppl really liked the first one.

basically just more smut and a little fluff

as always this is the fic on ao3:

here's a link to the first part on tumblr:

part 1

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The morning after, you woke up to Ford between your thighs. Your underwear was discarded somewhere between the covers, along with your sleep shirt and shorts. 

The second after you realised what was happening, the pleasure hit you all at once like a tidal wave. Your muscles stiffen from the surprise, a sleepy moan falls from your lips when you look down and make eye contact with Ford. He winks at you and keeps going at it, using his tongue to circle around your clit. He brings his fingers to the edge of your hole and starts entering you slowly. He curls his fingers inside of you and you go over the edge.

What a start to the day.

Afterwards, Ford heads down to make you some coffee as you lay, soaking in your orgasm.

Something was definitely different with him. You had never woken up to him doing that . It was weird, but strangely… enjoyable? You need to confront him soon.

You head down to the kitchen and see Ford with his back to you, looking at some paper you couldn’t make out from where you’re standing. You decide to approach carefully, wrapping your arms around his waist gently from behind.

He seems surprised, flinches a bit in your hold, but a second after he softens and turns around in your hold. “Hi honey, good morning. How did you sleep?” now that was weirder. What does he mean? You decide to give him the benefit of the doubt; maybe he just didn’t get to ask you earlier, feels bad about it, and now he’s pretending it didn’t happen in order to ask you without feeling embarrassed. 

Yeah, that's it. Nothing weird is going on, just Ford being Ford.

“Oh, I slept well. Woke up even better. What about you?” you got up on your tippy toes to kiss his cheek, then lean back to watch as his cheeks become pink. He hides his face in the crook of your neck. “Oh I slept… well. How about you?” 

You chuckle a bit at his mistake, take his face in your hands and kiss him again. Before you get the chance to lean back, to breath, Ford deepens the kiss. It becomes more hungry, he becomes more hungry for you. His tongue enters your mouth and plays with yours, licking at your teeth -which reminds you of yesterday- so you try to pull away, but he grasps at your hips, pulling you closer. 

His hands travel up your body (which you only now remember is naked) and he squeezes your breasts. You sigh at the feeling of his calloused hands touching you, the fire from earlier in the morning reigniting in your lower stomach. He begins kissing down your neck while mumbling into your skin “i wanna do it again”

You try to regain control over the situation “Ford i- i just-” he doesn’t listen and just pulls you up to sit on the counter. “Shhhhh” he silences you with another kiss, and travels his hand down your hips and to your thighs. ”Now let’s see what we can do” he pulls away and looks down at your pussy. This behaviour confuses you, but the way he puts three of his fingers into your hole shuts your thoughts right up. You moan at the sudden stretch, leaning your head back. 

As you lean your head back, you catch a glimpse of something else in his eyes for a moment. It reminds you of yesterday, and now without the glasses blocking them you can kind of see what's wrong with them.

They were yellow.

For a split second, the whites of Ford’s eyes were yellow, and his pupils were just black slits.

That was weird.

Really weird.

You can’t ignore it anymore, you have to stop this and confront Ford.

…..

But then he touches your clit harshly, making tight circles with his thumb. Maybe you should let this play out for a bit, get some more information in order to make an informed decision.

Yeah, that’s a good idea.

You sink into the feeling of pleasure threatening to take over your mind. Ford continues his assault on your cunt, taking his fingers all the way out before thrusting back in quickly. He kept this pace up for a while before biting at your neck, sending you over the edge for the second time today. You didn’t even have breakfast yet.

You catch your breath before looking down at him “do you want me to help you out with that?” you grab at the flannel pants he's wearing, which were now painfully stretched at his crotch to accommodate his tent. “Yeah. i would like that”

You take off his pants, jump off the counter and go down to your knees. He looks down at you in anticipation. You slowly place the palm of your hand on the underside of his cock, wrapping your hand around it, and start pumping him. He groans from the feeling and humps a bit into your hand. He laughs a bit when he feels the dry friction of your hand. You start licking at the tip of his member, running your tongue along his slit. He shudders underneath you, and bucks into your mouth, disregarding your teeth.

In fact, it seems as if he enjoys the feeling of your teeth scraping against his sensitive skin. You gag a bit, getting caught off guard, but quickly gain back your composure, starting to hollow out your cheeks as you move your head up and down his length. You experimentally let your teeth graze his skin, and hear him moaning loudly, he then grabs you by the hair and pulls you closer to him, making your eyes water. 

You decide to sink your teeth into his skin, only a little, and with that he cums into your mouth. You swallow it all -or, at least try to- and get up from the floor, your knees now aching from the cold linoleum. 

Without another word, you start making breakfast side by side. Every so often, you try to catch a glimpse of his eyes, checking to see if they’re normal, but nothing odd appears. You start to doubt yourself. What if you imagined it? You were in the middle of sex, maybe the endorphins running through your brain made you see something that wasn’t there? It was only for a moment, and you were pretty distracted, so maybe the light just caught your eye in a weird way and made it look like Ford’s eyes were yellow? The light in the kitchen is yellow so it kind of makes sense.

You were so deep in your thoughts you didn’t even realise you finished making breakfast. You took your plates and went to eat at the breakfast table together. You chatted about nothing, updating each other on some stuff you found out recently, but your mind kept drifting to yesterday. What did he mean when he said “you’re mine now ”. You’ve been together for a while now so it doesn’t make sense. In the moment you rationalised it as a weird kink, but now, with everything else, it just doesn’t make sense.

“What's with that look? Do I have something on my face?” you shook your head, mostly to try to get the thoughts out of your head. “No! No it’s nothing! I’m just… glad you’re having breakfast with me. I’ve been worrying about your eating habits” his face softens from concern to appreciation. “Thank you, but you have nothing to worry about. If you want we can go to lunch together, then you won’t have to worry about me forgetting to eat for today” you smile at him softly. “Yeah, i would like that” he holds your hand across the table, squeezes it a bit then gets up to go to his lab. “I’m going to continue to work. I’ll meet you back up here at two?” you get up to kiss him softly. He holds you gently, -nothing like yesterday or earlier this morning- and goes to the door that leads to the basement.

Well, now you gotta find something to do until two.

You start drawing in the living room, imagining Ford underneath you again. You decide to try to draw him from memory, how he looked focused on you, lost in thought at what to do next to make you moan his name. You continue the sketch as something pops into your mind.

What if you try to draw what you saw? Maybe Ford would be able to explain it? He was here to study weird things after all, maybe he would have a perfectly reasonable explanation to what you were seeing! You need to tell him. You finish up the drawing you were working on and flipped to the next page of your notebook, where you close your eyes and try to remember what his eyes looked like in that weird millisecond.

You start drawing the eyes as best as you remember, the weird shade of yellow they had, the peculiar slit of a pupil staring back up at you. You go to pick up your colouring pencils, but as you do you see the current time. 1:50 pm.

Oh god you need to get ready! 

You run upstairs to put on proper clothes and almost trip on the way downstairs to meet your boyfriend, who looks like he also got lost in his work and rushed upstairs to meet with you. 

You stand for a moment in silence, then both of you burst out laughing. Ford comes closer to you and pulls you into a hug, still laughing at the similarity between you two. “This is why I love you!” you laugh and sigh into his chest “i love you too”. you give him a peck on the cheek and lead him out of the door.

You’ll have to bring up what you saw at lunch, but until then, you’ll just focus on having a fun time at lunch with Ford. Everything weird can wait.

[theespeakerboxxx]

obviously the focus should mainly be on lily but my god mikaila isn't innocent either. We did NOT forget you following a nazi (Cassandra_nya) on twitter just because they defended lily and LILY herself giving a NAZI the benefit of the doubt. "i won't be making that mistake again" girl stop

oh my god yeah if anyone has the post with all the screenshots please comment the link to it below, i dont have it anymore but like

WOW

that whole twitter account looks like some fbi fed account trying to spy on twitter users but no, its actually real.

lily likes to yell at ppl for liking the diamonds, saying they're nazi sympathizers, when she and her wife LITERALLY ARE

imagine your fanbase reeking of shit so bad that you go as far as to defend a nazi because they defended you...times are getting desperate

also yeah people need to look into mikalia as well, she's enabling lily's deranged delusions and has some very...apathetic opinions when it comes to humanity just like her wife

[starrylayle]

Ok so I just finished rewatching amc’s iwtv pilot for like the bajillionth time and I just want to ramble about the pointe du luc sibling dynamics for a moment.

A lot of people always talk about Louis & Paul, and I understand why coz their time together was short and Paul’s death was very impactful — but for me personally, Louis’ and Grace’s relationship will always hit the most.

You can tell that’s they’re very close and have been since they were children. I love how much louis takes care of her, and similarly I love grace’s #ally behaviour. I mean, it’s 1910 — it’s pretty much illegal to be gay and very looked down upon,,, and I don’t think grace ever knows for sure, but there are some lines that she suggests she guesses it, especially later down the line.

Even as Paul dies, their mother blames Louis, and Louis has distanced himself from the family, Grace still gives Louis the benefit of the doubt and supports him. Lmao when he turns up in those sunnys (which is basically a walk-in ‘I’m gay’ flag according to Florence pointe du luc lol) and talks about Lestat (who Grace clearly doesn’t like very much, as in her perspective he took Louis away from the family) she supports and confides in him.

It isn’t until Louis breaks down her front door and threatens her that she actively stops supporting him. And the grave scene where she shows Louis his gravestone makes me absolutely bawl every time I watch it — because from her viewpoint, both her brothers died that day.

And yes it is frustrating to see Louis self-sabotage this relationship like that but it does make sense. Louis has been in a toxic relationship, has to hide and deal all with all the new turmoil of becoming a vampire and is in a constant state of self-loathing. But Grace doesn’t see that, she sees a brother who abandoned, hurt and threatened her when she needed him most.

I think their relationship is reflective of the types of familial relationship (or rather lack thereof) a lot of queer ppl in that time had, especially queer black folks and poc. And it is written and acted so beautifully I love the writers.

[wejustvibing]

So I've been wondering why ppl think fans should be okay with the sideways and unnecessary coments about Lewis "because he's a grown man" however when it's one of his yt colleagues that are being "maligned" it's okay to speak up and defend them.

I've come to the conclusion that most ppl assume they aren't racist and therefor once they don't see racism it's not what's happening abd we're overreacting.

I'd like your thoughts on this angle because after this weekend my brain cannot fathom how in 2023 ppl cannot identify blatan racism driven decisions.

you're spot on.

they think all that is okay because it's lewis. yes, there's racism but isn't he successful? what more do you want? and that's the long and short of it. still i've rambled on.

i mean some try, but they don't realize that spotting the most obvious racism is thee easiest part. it doesn't end there. they simply do not realize the amount of mind space the color of one's skin occupies. of the person as well as the society and this sport. in case of lewis, just because he's a success story in places nobody's walked before, doesn't mean they've accepted him, in fact it's the opposite and they've proved it.

and people forget that. they will acknowledge he doesn't trust people easily but ignore where that stems from. he's a rich man why do you have to defend him? well because he's thee most successful in his sport and still not safe from bias and covert racism within his own environment? they keep missing that it's the undertones and assumptions. how they perceive him and his emotions & actions vs a yt man's. how they psychoanalyze him and stop at nothing but always end up giving benefit of the doubt to his counterparts.

i blame f1 pundits and ex drivers just as much though because they clearly set the tone with their borderline and sometimes overt racist comments, stereotypes and misgivings. the whole natural talent vs technically strong debate, the whole it's the car debate, the whole he's insecure debate, the whole he's bad for his teammates' mental health debate. these narratives have sickening undertones if you think about it. and eventually the fans pick them up and write their own fiction around it, in a way, weaponizing it.

theres this edit by his own fan/s that i keep seeing, with a caption like 'the day lewis hamilton finally earned everyone's respect' and it's just that video of him sitting in disbelief in his car after the ad21 robbery. i know the intention isn't that but the ignorance from his own fans? so the most successful f1 driver, a black man, couldn't express what he felt after getting robbed and humiliated in front of the whole entire world and that's how he finally 'earned' respect? really?

and i mean, of course, he is a grown successful rich man. it's made his life easier and he does not have the same basic struggles as the rest of us anymore but that doesn't mean he needs to pay a price for it. doesn't mean he deserves excessive scrutiny, weird as fuck narratives, harsher punishments and superhuman status in exchange. and it's always in extremes too, he'll either be held at the highest standard or just straight up insulted for being in places he shouldn't have dared to be.

tl;dr: they're mostly ignorant

[rulerzreachf4n7]

Hi there! I would like to take a moment to point out a few flaws in your post. ^-^

1. No one is "normalizing" adult and minor relationships. The point of darkfiction is to explore problematic tropes safely without actually normalizing or hurting anyone!

2. You seem to misunderstand what "fiction" means. No one is implying minors should date adults in real life. Claiming that is false.

3. Trauma obviously doesn't excuse bad actions, everyone knows that! But there's nothing inherently bad about safely exploring niche kinks and themes isn't actually hurting anyone !

4. Implying people don't shower or are chronically online when you are yk, an avid social media user is a big hypocritical.

5. The girls in the slenderman stabbing with both later diagnosed with disorders on the schizo spectrum.. Yk the disorders that make it difficult to distinguish between fiction and reality. They were also young teens who should not have had access to that kind of media to begin with.

6. Going along with my last point, proshippers (at least those who aren't children) don't want minors in a space primarily made for NSFW and scary topics. We are not advocating for that. + most proshippers do generally say something along the lines of "view with discretion" because we're aware that yk.. this media could negatively effect people!

7. Just in general because I stopped properly reading the slop you posted. Pixels don't have feelings, real people do. So yk telling people to die is kinda mean LOL. You can't care to claim about the integrity of people and their feelings if you act like an entire group of ppl is subhuman

I'm giving you the benefit of a doubt that you're a kid. If so, do yourself a favor and get off the internet because its rotting your brain. And if you are an adult, you really need to act your age LOL. Very immature behavior.

Are you like...defending proshippers? First of all fucking disgusting as shit so who cares I'll share my opinions as well

Number one

Proshippers are normalizing adult x child relationships dumbass, they do it through fictional characters so they have the excuse to say "b-but the characters aren't real 😭🥺" as if that changes anything fucking dumb bitch, and as for darkship most proshippers aren't dark shippers as far as I've seen but that still doesn't mean that MAJORITY normalize abusive relationships, adult x child, and incest with siblings or parents

Number two

Like I said previously, proshippers do it through fiction so they can use the excuse that because fictional characters aren't real meanings it can't harm anyone which IS EXTREMELY JUST FALSE AND UNTRUE, I guess an example I can't use is porn comics using cartoons, sure they're using characters who are fictional characters and are ocs and sure they're not real but THAT DOESN'T GET RID OF THE FACT that they're SEXUALIZING characters which for most of the time from whatever cartoon they're getting it from ARE FUCKING MINORS, THAT IS LITERALLY CHILD FUCKING PORN and are making the adult and minor character for majority of the time NOT SFW THINGS

And if someone views it they have the idea from them and other dumbass proshippers that adults and kids ARE OKAY TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP EVEN THOUGH IT'S NOT THAT'S LITERALLY PEDOPHILIA

Number three

Exploring kinks at a young age IS FUCKING TRAUMATIZING FOR A MINOR, watching INAPPROPRIATE AND NSFW THINGS AT A YOUNG AGE LIKE PORN OR THINGS THAT INVOLVE KINKS IS SURE TO LEAD UP TO HYPERSEXUALITY, hypersexuality is when someone extensively has watched NSFW things and has had a LONG AND LASTING impact on their mind and has traumatized them so now they've basically turned to sexualizing themselves and becoming next time a porn addict, under NO FUCKING CIRCUMSTANCES should a MINOR EVER be exploring kinks EVEN IF ITS SAFE

Number four

Ima keep this one short and sweet since in assuming your a ugly ass proshippers, but the stereotype that "they don't shower" is based off proshipper beliefs and they're disgusting devotion to make everyone believe shipping minors and adults and literally every single bad and illegal thing is A OKAY, and people used the "proshippers don't shower" to symbolize that someone so focused on spreading borderline illegal and toxic beliefs dont take care of themselves

Also someone bekng avidly online doesn't mean they're stinky there's a difference between someone posting a lot and someone who posts to the point of neglecting their body's need to showering and brushing teeth ect

Number five

I'm not really sure how to go about this given I don't know very IN DEPTH about the case but just because someone has a mental illness doesn't excuse that those two girls literally killed someone...them having a mental illness doesn't change my view on how I perceive them, sure it gives me some what of a clearer understanding but at the end I don't really think we should just forgive in excuse of saying "b-but they have schizophrenia 🥺🥺🥺", and at the time when creepypasta was very popular kids their age, 12-13 presumably were very into it so yeah it wouldn't be weird that they liked things like slenderman or Jeff the killer

Number six

Out of everything that didn't happen that hasn't happened the most, although never being a proshipper I've been in some proshipping places unintentionally while scrolling the internet, proshippers don't give a fuck if you're triggered AT ALL, no warnings, no triggers, if you wanna be a proshipper then do it in fucking private and have some fucking self awareness, I do understand that most proshippers are around 12+ but at that age I've literally never been more self conscious and self aware than I am now? What's they're excuse? Just because they're "kids 🥺🥺" and they "dont know better 🥺🥺" isnt very valid in my eyes, they go on to spread they're problematic beliefs and get confused when they start receiving death threats and harassment as if they don't know the whole internet as they're asses out on banning them all

Number seven

Fiction can have an impact on reality, an example I'm gonna use is representation, I'm Hispanic and as a kid I've barely seen any character that looked like me, one of my favorite shows, the owl house, has a female lead that's Hispanic, her being that has an impact on reality meaning that, yes, there are cartoon characters that can look like you and are the same race as you, same gods for characters who or black or Asian and are mixed, same goes for character who are bisexual or lesbian/gay, are pansexual or on the asexual spectrum, was it hard to understand you basement dwelling bitch?

Number eight

If you're a proshipper please do it in fucking private, youre rotting your brain by believing these probelmatic and illegal beliefs over potential pedophiles and incest supporters on the internet, and yes I'll be cross tagging this as well cause I like seeing all these brain dead basement dwellers upset cause it's kinda funny but sad cause they have nothing to do with their lives other than spread hate and negativity to younger generations and groom them to be terrible people in the future

[radinabluemoon]

you are clearly young and inexperienced and traumatised so I'll give u the benefit of the doubt and a word of warning: this rhetoric you align yourself with is nothing more than t/erfism. excluding trans people in your feminism is not the take you think it is. you have my sympathies as you've clearly been indoctrinated young and you're also autistic (me too) which I sympathise with. but hate is not the way to go and you ARE hateful

stop weaponising my identities against me in attempts to silence or diminish the worth and validity of my arguments u freaks

what does my age have to do with anything? a girl my age can get a double mastectomy but i cant post on tumblr dot com about feminism? you sound stupid

what does me being autistic have to do with anything? are autistic ppl incapable of critical thought or independent learning suddenly? maybe ur the bigot ur so worried about

i dont need ur sympathy i need u to stop telling lesbians we are cruel for not wanting to date males or have sex with male bodies

[tauforged]

like the thing that i think a lot of ppl gloss over is that a large majority of the talon aligned heroes have little to no interest in the actual ‘goals’ of the organization (to the point where we still don’t entirely know what talon wants or why they exist, lmfao) so much as it just being a means to an end. like we can all conceptualize that sombra is pretty much just there because it gives her access to more resources she can use towards her own goals, moira is there for research opportunities and funding that she’d never get elsewhere due to the nature of her work, i can only imagine that ramattra’s alliance with talon (and thus null sector’s as a whole) is purely situational because it provides advantages he considers useful, reaper is pretty much just there because they’re against overwatch therefore he can use it as an avenue for his revenge, even doomfist doesn’t really seem to hold as much stock in talon as an organization as he does use his position as a tool to achieve his goals, if it stopped being useful he would likely just walk away.

in opposition to the overwatch aligned heroes who all seem to be coming together solely for the sake of this like, ideal of Overwatch as a concept being this paradigm of good and justice and doing what’s right, and rallying behind their faith in the organization and what it symbolizes… i genuinely don’t think any of the talon operatives really care all that much about talon at all. it’s just a job. like, sure, we’re doing cartoon supervillain shit, but the pay is decent and we’ve got benefits and i can continue to do my own thing on the side, no questions asked. it’s honestly a pretty sweet deal.

all of that to say i really don’t see why people seem so averse to the idea of sigma having that same mindset. like yeah, he’s not exactly thrilled to be using his research and abilities to assist in acts of violent terrorism, but does he have many other options? he says it himself in that interaction with baptiste, talon gives him everything he needs - funding, resources, something to fall back on after being in total isolation for decades and coming out with absolutely nothing. it’s a guaranteed safety net — so long as he’s with talon, there’s absolutely no chance of anyone dragging him off or locking him up again, and so long as he contributes when he’s needed, he’s free to pursue his research to his heart’s content. does he regret it? sure, sometimes. i think they all do. i doubt there’s a single talon-aligned hero who genuinely believes what they’re doing is genuinely morally correct and sound. but ultimately in his mind he didn’t have many options left, so he had to settle for something he knew would at least guarantee his safety and continued freedom. it doesn’t really mean he’s being manipulated or held against his will any moreso than most of the other talon heroes, imho. he’s not proud of it, but hey, it pays the bills.

i feel like he regards it with a similar level of resentment/annoyance as i felt towards my horrible soul sucking corporate retail job of several years - like don’t get me wrong, the company i worked for absolutely sucked and i HATED how they operated, policy was bullshit and so much of it was unnecessary and needlessly counterproductive. but i also really connected with my coworkers in the same situation AND i got to get paid to do stuff i already would have been doing on my own anyway, and ultimately the experience i got and connections i made were really helpful in pursuing what i actually wanted to be doing with my life. it’s like if your shitty day job required you to kill people but they also like, got you hooked up with a place to live and a healthcare provider and all that shit and paid for all of your living expenses no questions asked AND gave you a decent budget to screw around with so long as every now and then you showed them what you were making and maybe used it to kill people more efficiently sometimes. i wouldn’t exactly feel any amount of loyalty to the company paying me but i wouldn’t exactly be in a hurry to quit either

[limpfisted]

so. fun facts about the blood war! and devils vs demons, and how the distinction is important!

the blood war is this huge thing in dnd. demons are from the abyss. all they want is to cause chaos and eat the whole fucking world. devils are lawful evil, their entire economy and existence is war profiteering souls and afterlives as slaves to FIGHT the demons. the devils hink theyre doing the world a favor fighting demons, and are even “allowed” to corrupt souls bc theyre a necessary evil to fight the blood war. without the devils, demons would take over the universe. without demons, devils would have no purpose, as law has no purpose without chaos. devils in gen are p much forced to fight demons witnout fail, and the ONLY place they can really die and lose their immortality fighting demons in the blood war and like. there is nothing after their death as a devil. its a genuine sacrifice theyre making, putting themselves in danger!for the good of the realms.” and unlike devils—demons can never die, they just pop back up in the abyss. war, endless war, suffering, endless suffering. an economy of making more devils, even more devils, cant stop making more devils, cant srop profitting off of the war, even devils suffer, and anyone can become a devil thru deals or just being evil enough. (and the deals are never fucking FAIR but you get exactly what you pay for.)

zariel was once an angel. she wanted to get involved in the blood war so bad that she took wlturel’s hellriders down to the hells. they betrayed her and left her for dead and never told a SOUL, where asmodeus foundher under a “mountain of enemies she herself had slayed.” instead of killing her, he offered her the chance to fight demons forever

while zariel has literally done nothing right in her life, ever.

the devils in dnd 5e are incredibly sympathetic. (so is, imo, lolth/drow, shar, the druegar, orcs.) and zariel is not evil without reason, shes not some kind of pervert that is sexually abusing anyone. she tortures people SPECIFICALLY to make them better soldiers. i doubt she understands them anymore as slaves than she is to asmodeus. she wants to wipe demons off the map. she wants to end the war.

devils are reasonable to a fault. they are gendered and only by human expectations. they live and want to live full, rich lives of selfishness, but they are bound by the needs of an endless war they can never stop-#they have mansions, pleasure islands, they have jails, they have courts and paperwork. they are bound to the souls they corrupt, they are bound to each other and a hierachy of bureacracy and backstabbing and torturing each other all within the confines of evil unjust laws they themselves uphold.raphael and mizora are outliers in their amount of power, most are little more than slaves, “soldiers” like karlach who were once human, who sold their souls and lost their humanity and FREEDOM—but also examples of how they have to humiliate and debase themselves playing with mortals and “more powerful devils” like zariel who they hate who they must believe are beneath their station. (they have no shame, of course. but they have pride.)

it would be far easier to be a mindless demon. at least they would be free!

imagine you are judged by human morals, because you dare to give someone what they ask for in turn for them simply committing their service to the SAME war you did. that benefits THEM. that benefits their FAMILY and their CHILDREN, its not like theyll be a lemure forever. fight in the blood war, risk ur immortal life, bow to ur superiors, get tortured a bit by them like every devil is tortured and humiliated, ull get promoted, and then u can deal with whining humans talking about how evil and unjust you are for existing. even tho u may have been one of them, once.

i imagine raphael and mizora think wyll and karlach are the most exhausting ppl in the world

necessary evils, baby! and if u think devils ARENT necessary. well. look up dnd demon portals. and what happens when demon portals take root.

tho this is all. to play. devil’s advocate. lol

slavery is obviously wrong and u shouldnt torture people…. like… duh LOL

[kaftan]

hi it's me lea, you don't have to publish this İ just wanted to tell you that seeing you speak on transmisogynie and having apologised really, idk, fixed something in me? having these callouts come back incessantly like waves with seemingly no amount of argument and analysis changing anything caused a certain bitterness to grow in me, but you returned to me a certain, İ don't want to say faith in humanity, but reassurance that there's ppl not only able but also willing to unlearn transmisogynie and to fight it. it's good to see that transmisogynie isn't quite as insurmountable and all-encompassing as it feels sometimes. thank you for that ❤️

Hi lea ❤️❤️ thank you dearly for sending this ask; it’s definitely worth publishing. (Quick context for newer followers: my last rodeo with the transmisogyny callout industrial complex was about two years ago, and directed against lea: at the time, I was stupid enough to give benefit of the doubt to transmisogynists where none was deserved, cowed enough by people in my circle to accept anti-kink, thought-crime-is-real rhetoric, and cowardly enough that despite my misgivings, I didn’t publicly speak up against it or reach out to lea before she deactivated her account at the time. To put it mildly, much has changed in the two years since — I got to know many more trans women, developed a political backbone, familiarized myself thoroughly with the meaning and manifestations of transmisogyny, and also, crucially, stopped being 18. Anyway, I recently came across lea again, reached out, extended a much-needed and much-overdue apology, and we are once more mutuals and friends.)

I think, like you said, there’s a lot to be gained in acknowledging that the factors responsible for people believing transmisogynistic callouts are unlearnable and not intrinsic (in my case the key was rejecting the false premise that people’s real-life moral conduct can be reliably deduced from their erotic fixations — people will argue until they’re red in the face that the leveraging of this thinking against primarily trans women is pure coincidence, and until you reject their premise, you are susceptible to their bullshit), but also, just as importantly: prioritizing friendships with trans women above any and all intracommunity transmisogyny is its own reward, on a level I find it difficult to express. “If you know you know” type thing.

Anyway, I want to also say that this ask is so, so heartening — it means the world to me that I can make some kind of measurable positive impact by putting my mouth where my politics are, and especially for you! Sending you so much love, forever. 🧡

[fallen-faerie]

you shouldn't be smoking when you have a child. depending of the degree in which you allow yourself to, that's bad parenting to put it bluntly, and if your unwilling to drop habits you shouldn't have kids.

first of all, its not bad parenting to smoke in general. i smoke for multiple medical reasons. and i dont even smoke that much because i don't want to be high most of the time. i just need to function. its not a "habit" its something i do because i can't eat without getting nauseous, and i have a debilitating stomach condition so i use marijuana for stomach pain instead of taking painkillers for the rest of my life. i had a medical marijuana card but i didnt renew it because i grow my own weed now. i'm not addicted to weed. i have never had a problem quitting it before. i rarely ever smoke recreationally unless its a social setting or special occasion. weed is medicinal for me.

and you sound like such an ignorant douche bag sending this kind of shit to someone you don't even know, talking about children that aren't even yours and are none of your business.

also, every single human being has some sort of bad habit or something they need to work on. you don't need to be a perfect person to have children or there wouldn't be a human population😹 nobody is perfect. and smoking weed doesn't make you a bad person. just like drinking once in a while doesn't make u a bad person if you do it responsibly.

every parent has bad habits. but my smoking weed isn't a bad habit. its a choice between being a functional person or someone who is in constant pain and throwing up 24/7. OR being on pain killers all the time. i wouldn't be able to do much at all for my kids if i couldn't function.

i don't owe you an explanation for MY life and my decisions but ur anon is so ignorant and so far from the truth that its actually pathetic. 😹 u don't get to decide if someone should be a parent or not. i highly doubt u even have children. and if you do, then you should worry about your own kids instead of MY personal life. i don't need parenting advice or life advice. i'm a damn good mom.

my smoking doesn't have anything to do with my kids. i don't smoke around them. it doesn't affect them at all. if i didn't smoke they would be affected negatively by the health problems i'll have for the rest of my life.

and if a mom chooses to smoke recreationally, that doesn't make her a bad mom either. nobody bats an eye if a mom drinks wine or ppl drink a beer in their free time. so why do ppl make dumb comments like this about weed? alcohol is so much more harmful than marijuana and doesn't even have the many benefits that smoking provides to ppl like me and others who use it for medicinal purposes.

educate yourself and stop giving out unsolicited parenting advice because you sound like a dick. "to put it bluntly" and this topic isn't even about being a parent. its a personal choice. 🖕🏻

[chim-chim1310]

Have you seen the new jk ck ad and to which jkkrs are using the rhetoric that he is gay and doing this as a rebellion to scooter braun's made up persona of het global star in seven and I'm here be seeing these same ppl say that tae wearing these type of queer in his first solo release is not a big deal bc he's proven straight and dates jn ( I don't doubt but he's not even given the benefit of bi/pan ) but just bc jk acts like this in a contractual ad that has no personal thoughts or ideas (and as a queer person, I see what they're trying to do bc they've done this type of thing for other make stars like HS) and for his first release he still went with the het agenda just for his global superstar male and deleted his thirst trap for his boyfriend just last week for this same agenda (again the theory of these jkkrs) but this week his back to his rebellion era which make me think if he has some type personality splits but whatever..

What really makes me angry is jm is seen as some panicked/ashamed gay by these shippers just bc he stopped giving moments to their ship and this guy as some rebel just because of his pandering to these shippers but when you see that jm released art work that can be seen by many with many sexual and gender queer references without involving other ppl is what a rebellion queer is but I have yet to see other members especially jk in this case to do something mild to even allude that they're in the queer side like all these ppl have are magazine/ads and jm with them to mostly make them gay but jm is seen queer even without mentioning these ppl, which makes me think of why I never see jkkrs discuss jm's solo queer moments to argue he's queer but always insisting jk's gay (& don't get me wrong bc he can be gay/bi/pan or even get but these ppl's dumb reasons are just really stupid) once every two weeks that it now seems like they're just manifesting it to happen but yeah and I'm sorry this ask is all over the place like I just don't understand this panicked gay jm when that barked for usher in a live for millions of fans..

Jungkook is literally doing his job. Like what's so hard to understand for these people. The ad requires a certain kind of look and he's going for it. He's not the one who plans it. And he had the chance to express his sexuality in his art and he portrayed himself as straight. So there's no point in arguing.

Even if anyone else was gay in the group they wouldn't have enough guts to do what jimin did.

What jimin has been doing in his art need some solid guts. People don't talk enough about how brave jimin is to express himself in a homophobic country especially when his career is on line.

I don't know about jk. But I'm sure other members are straight. And i believe yoongi is queer. But still he didn't have enough guts to express himself. I'm not saying they have to. They don't have to because it's a homophobic country and it can jeopardize their career. But we should acknowledge and praise how brave jimin is for doing something like this.

Jikookers love to make jimin some damsel in distress who needs jungkook to help him(I swear it makes me so mad) and they think jungkook is some rebel. But what's exactly his rebellion? Coming live at ass o clock at night. You call this rebellion? Oh he came live without company's permission. How brave. He's rebelling against the company to protect jimin when there's literally zero connection to jimin.

And for clothes. It always makes me laugh. How can wearing a certain type of clothes make you gay? That's just stereotypical. Men can't always wear boring suits. What's the point of fashion if it's not changing?

They were even calling taehyung gay because of his clothes in the mv. Dumb people.

But what can we do? They're always gonna think what they wanna think. No matter how dumb and stereotypical they sound. They don't care.

[daz4i]

I'm having some thoughts regarding posts I've seen on my dash both recently and like, years ago, bc this is far from a new phenomenon. this isn't @ anyone specific nor am i going to give specific details bc it really is an expansive thing so like. to whoever needs to hear this ig

stop engaging with things in the worst faith reading possible. start giving people the benefit of the doubt i am begging you

9/10 of times, the person you see who might be slightly insensitive, or enjoys content you find harmful, or is using the wrong term for smth, is doing it out of ignorance on the matter

and most of the times it isn't smth they can just google to figure out. bc sometimes you really gotta do mental gymnastics or ignore every redeeming quality of a thing to find the harmful part. and usually unless a person is directly involved in activist circles or knows abt the history of a particular community etc they will never make that connection and I'm sorry to tell you, but that's most people you will encounter, both irl and online

9 times out of 10 there is no malice involved. attacking strangers because you think they are attacking you by doing a very normal thing (like quote a meme or enjoy a movie) isn't the way to gain anything, and you're more likely to cause antagonism in that person

it's good to inform others, but doing it by accusing them of harmful behavior isn't the way

also on a less deep note, you're just gonna become an incredibly unpleasant person to be around if you keep doing that shit. if you keep looking for the bad in everything you see others enjoy, you will keep seeing it. you will become extremely bitter. you gotta give people the benefit of the doubt for your own sanity fr

and before I'm taken out of context: no that doesn't apply to actual bigots (my whole point here is that most ppl just aren't informed and aren't actively hateful). no this isn't me telling you to be nice to your own oppressors so they hate you less. no this isn't me saying you have to let slide media that is genuinely harmful (I'm talking more about the people who consume it who are average and don't hold some secret ill intentions). yes I'm aware a lot of times people ARE bigots and just try to hide it which is why dogwhistles exist, which is exactly why i think it's important to remain informed and inform others so we stop engaging with these people or their content (i just think that doing it in combative ways is bad for everyone involved). ok i think that covered all my bases

tldr just. remember that people are people. and people can make mistakes. and you gotta let them grow from it. and sometimes, you are the one who makes the mistake, by assuming the worst of someone you don't even know