#i missed painting in this style okay i may do all 8 dogs then

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Kakashi's dogs 1/8: Akino 😎 🍯 Commissions open! Pls dm me about new art!

[sope-and-shine]

Christmas Special: Day 8

-> Pairing: Taehyung x Reader(ft. Yeontan) -> Neighbor!AU // Kinda childhood friend!AU but not really // Fluffy but kinda sad -> Word Count: 1.8k -> Summary: You just want to paint the snow like always, but your next door neighbor playing in the snow in practically nothing is distracting you. -> Warning(s): Character death - not a major character death// grief 

A/N: Definitely my shortest but most wholesome so far

When you were little, your grandfather would sit you by the back porch window with him when it snowed, and he’d make you both hot chocolate while you would paint the falling snow together. His pieces were always so beautiful, and he never ceased to amaze you with his talents every year that you’d work together. The way his colors worked so well together, how they complimented his style no matter who or what the subject was. He embraced his skills, and always encouraged you to do the same.

Your grandfather made you realize that nothing is more beautiful than falling snow. Nothing is more serene than the light droplets of white that rain down from above in soft flurries. Gentle, delicate, and not one the same as another. Each were genuinely unique, and came together to create such beautiful landscapes. They kept you entranced every time you saw them, and it made winter your favorite season. He made the cold inviting to you, and the way the night would fall so quickly began to draw you in as the years went by.

But as you got older, so did your grandfather. He’d started to have problems getting up and down the front steps, he’d started calling you to ask if you’d known where he’d left something when you were out of the house, and he’d even forgotten to lock the front door on numerous occasions. You and your parents were starting to become worried with everyday that he seemed to be getting worse. Each year that the two of you would paint together, made you worry for what year would be his last.  

Unfortunately, this last spring was it.

They say that April showers bring May flowers, but no flower could fix the heartbreak and the pain you endured from your grandfather’s passing that year. He was someone special, a beautiful soul that can only be found in the rarest of places. The one person who always encouraged your dreams and your beliefs, was suddenly gone like that. It changed you, and suddenly the cold was the only friend you had anymore as the winter months rolled in. They kept you snug in their embrace everyday that you spent by your window, looking to the stars in hopes of the first snowfall. Hoping for the one thing you still shared with your grandfather. 

And as nature would have it; it came.

That’s how you find yourself with the old easel your grandfather bought you on your 8th birthday, right in front of your bedroom window with your paints beside you. Your canvas sits untouched on top of the wood, with you just staring out of the window behind it. You’d been waiting all year for this moment to come around again, but nothing about it felt right to you. The weather was cold, your hot chocolate was piping hot, and the snow was falling softly against the side of your house. It was the perfect view for a painting, but your mind was everywhere but the painting you had wanted.

Would your grandfather have made a joke about your head being in the clouds by now? Of course he would, that’s what he did best. He’d probably scold you for not drinking your hot chocolate while it was still hot, and then he’d take a sip of his own and burn his tongue! Of all the silly things he was known for, his insistence of drinking or eating when they were still hot was his most redeeming quality. 

You missed it the most...more than anything.

A male voice yells from outside your window, “Tannie! Stop jumping on my snowman!”

You pull yourself out of your thoughts to look around the easel, seeing your next door neighbor, Kim Taehyung, with his small Pomeranian Yeontan. He was the last person that you wanted to see at the moment. He’s been your next door neighbor since you could remember, but neither of you have really talked since you were in middle school and he still wore big bulky glasses and tried to catch Pokemon in your backyard. He still tried to catch Pokemon on the occasion, but now he looked like he should be modeling for an agency while doing it. Now, he was one of the most popular juniors in your high school alongside the rest of the Bangtan Boys. 

It wasn’t that he was a jerk or anything, but everywhere you turned there were girls following him and his friends. Art class? Girls. Lunch time? Girls. Bathroom? They shouldn’t be there, but yes, there are girls. He wasn’t safe for your small circle, so you tried your best to stay clear. You’d talk at the occasional block party hosted at the Choi’s house, but it was just regular conversation to get you through the few hours you were stuck there those three days out of the year. There were some parties where the two of you would ditch and just chill together, but that was it.

“Tannie!” He whines again.

You giggle as you watch the small dog run around his owner without a care in the world, just enjoying the falling snow around him. That’s when you finally take notice of what Taehyung is wearing; or lack thereof. He’s wearing what looks to be a pair of jeans with a simple t-shirt and sneakers. No jacket, no hat, no gloves, and not even a scarf. He was just playing in the cold and the snow with no protection at all from the forces.

“Kim Taehyung, I swear…” You mutter to yourself. You shake your head and return to your easel, staring at the blank canvas before you to get back to work. Only the thought of the boy outside keeps you from working as he’s probably freezing from the cold without anything to protect him. The more you try to ignore it, the more you keep looking to your left to see what that boy is doing that’s so important he couldn’t put anything on. It got so annoying that you eventually just gave in. You slip on your snow boots, grab a thick jacket, and two hats from your closet, grabbing another jacket from the hall closet on your way to the front door. On your porch sniffing one of your Christmas decorations is the small puffball that insists on ruining snowmen in their progress. He obviously got tired of being scolded and wandered off while his owner was busy.

“Hey, there Tannie.” You bend down to pull the dog into your arms, earning a small yip and an attempt to lick your face in response. You look at him and without shame start using your baby voice, “Did Taehyungie yell at you too much? Is he just a big meanie?” You continue on and head into the falling snow, getting closer and closer to the unsuspecting boy throwing snow around. You shake your head, “Taehyung!”

He jumps in surprise but quickly breaks into a smile when he sees you with Yeontan in your arms, “Hey (Y/n)! Did you come to enjoy the snow with us?”

“Actually, I came to make sure you didn’t get sick,” You set Tannie down and pull your father’s jacket from under your arm and the extra hat from your coat pocket. You hold them out for him to take, “If you don’t put on at least a jacket, then both Seokjin and Hoseok are going to beat the crap out of you.”

“I’m just playing in the snow.” He argues. Despite his argument, he still accepts your jacket and hat, pulling the pink cap over his own pink locks. He gives you his boxy smile after adjusting the clothes, “Thanks for worrying about me.”

You shrug, “Yeah, well, you were distracting me from painting.”

“You’re still painting?” He asks. His shoulders have dropped, remembering the day he saw the coroner arrive to your home. He remembered the way you tried to follow after them, but your mother kept you in place with her and your father. He felt bad at your loss, especially knowing what it feels like to lose someone that close to you. He noticed your change instantly at school, but with the following he has never got the chance to check in on you. 

That was something he still regrets now.

Seeing your shoulders drop at the mention he tries to quickly defend his words, “I’m so sorry! It’s just-...you’ve been a little different since your grandfather passed.”

You nod, giving him an encouraging smile, “Well, he meant a lot to me.”

“Well, if you ever want to talk or you just need someone to paint with you, I’ll do it.” He offers. He seems genuine, but you know better, “You don’t have to do that Tae.”

“I know, but I know how it feels to lose someone really important to you.” He says. He had lost his grandmother the year before, a similar situation to yours. He had been just as heartbroken as you, maybe more! Either way, he knew how you felt, probably better than anyone else. That’s probably why his smile felt more comforting than others, “Don’t be a stranger okay?”

You nod to him and return to your home, removing your snow gear and returning to your room. By this time, your hot chocolate is definitely cold, and the view from your window still isn’t any better. Taehyung was still out there, but at least he was warm now. His response to why he was out in the snow actually made you think a lot about your grandfather. He was one to go out into the snow without a care in the world too - You can still hear your mother yelling at him to not teach you bad habits. He always told you as you got older that your bond with him was a special one, and that when he couldn’t paint with you anymore that you’d have to find the best replacement. 

He wanted you to find someone that would bring him back to you.

Without even really considering what you’re about to do, you open your bedroom window to the snow. You clear your throat, “Taehyung!” He looks to you from his baby snowman confused. You smile, “Can I take you up on that painting offer?”

His confused look turns into one of his beautiful boxy smiles as he picks up Tannie from beside him. He races towards your first floor window and passes the small dog to you, taking his turn to pull himself up and fall onto your hardwood floor. Just like that, you had another person with you. You had someone willing to paint with you, someone willing to get sick to spend some quality time in the snow, someone who believed hot chocolate should be devoured when it’s steaming hot.

Someone that when he smiled, and told you jokes about his friends being crazy, made you think back to your grandfather every time.

[lovemesomesurveys]

Have your parents ever tried to control your relationship? I’m single, but no they’ve never done that in the past. My parents aren’t like that.

Have you ever had to give someone directions before? Yeah. I’m the absolute worst, please don’t ask me.

Speaking of which, are you good at understanding driving directions? I don’t drive.

How many people do you text daily? I don’t text daily. I don’t text much at all, but if I do it’s with one of my parents or my brother.

Do you have an iPod or an MP3 player? Which brand? No, I use Spotify on my phone, which is an iPhone XR.

What was your favorite television show as a child? I’ve been asked this a few times recently. I enjoyed a lot of the kids shows of the 90s.

Do you play any instruments? Which instruments do you play? No.

Is there anyone who you call by their last name? Nope.

What did you do on your last birthday? Went on a weekend vacay to one of my favorite places. This year I’ll just be at home.

Which of the Seven Deadly Sins do you commit the most? Sloth.

Has anyone ever told you that you’re incapable of whispering? No.

What is your least favorite subject in school? I’m done with school, thankfully, but I always hated math.

Have you ever been involved in a custody battle before? No.

Do you know a couple who constantly sucks on each other’s face? No.

Who was the best kisser you’ve ever dated? Joseph.

When was the last time you watched a YouTube video? I am right now. Have you ever babysat a newborn baby before? No, but I helped out my parents a lot when my younger brother was born.

How many times a week do you usually see the person you love? I don’t love anyone in the romantic sense, but I love my family and I see them everyday. 

When was the last time you held someone’s hand? I hold my doggo’s hand all the time, ha.

How many meals have you eaten today, so far? Just one so far. 

Do you think it’s stupid for people to call others “hot?” No?

Do you personally think Wikipedia is a reliable source? They can be, but I wouldn’t just use that and that’s it. I’d check other sources.

Are you someone who listens to more girl or guy bands? More guy bands.

Have you ever shopped at Wet Seal before? Did you like it? I have. Some of their stuff was okay, but eh.

Do you care about spending money if it’s someone else’s money? I absolutely care.

What is your favorite Disney movie of all time? Alice in Wonderland, Winnie the Pooh, A Goofy Movie, and Toy Story. 

When you were a child, did you ever want to become a wizard/witch? No.

What are the color of your walls? Do you want to repaint? White. I’d love to paint them, but we rent and it’d be a hassle to do so.

Would you rather have hardwood floors or carpet? Hardwood.

Do you have any siblings you neglect you? No.

Who would you say is the most selfish person you know? I feel like I’ve been selfish these past few years in a lot of ways. :/

As a kid, did you ever go to camp? I went to science camp (it was a thing 6th grade classes did where I’m from, not sure about other states) and Girl Scout camp.

What were the last three movies you watched in theaters? The Invisible Man, Fantasy Island, and The Rise of Skywalker. I do miss going to the movies. :(

Have you ever made out in a movie theater before? Nope.

Are you currently trying to learn to play any instrument? No.

Do you believe in ghosts, spirits or demons? I believe in spirits and demons.

What is your favorite breakfast meal? Scrambled eggs with shredded cheese and spinach, hash browns, country gravy, and coffee.

What does the lead singer of your favorite band look like? Look up Chester Bennington. RIP. </3 :(

Who was the last person to compliment you? >> I don’t remember the last compliment I got. <<< Same. I don’t receive a lot of comments.

How old were you when you got to go on your first date? My first date wasn’t until my early 20s.

Would you call your parents over-protective or under-protective? They’re protective like loving, caring, supportive parents, but they’re not controlling or overbearing. 

Did your parents ever let you play in the pits of those multicolored balls? Yeah. Gah, why was that ever allowed at all? A germ and bacteria cesspool. 

What is the best movie you’ve seen in the last five years? I couldn’t choose just one, especially in that long of a span. There’s been several.

Has anyone ever called you a good kisser before? No. ha.

Have any of your siblings ever had a crush on your significant other? No.

Are you the jealous type? I can be. I haven’t felt jealousy in a very long time, though.

When was the last time you felt like you were high on life? I don’t know what that feels like. Must be nice.

Do you know someone who cares about themselves more than their child? Not currently I don’t think, but I probably have before.

Do you still watch cartoons on television? I still watch Hey Arnold, Doug, and Rugrats sometimes on TeenNick.

What do you usually order at Taco Bell, if you go there? Bean burrito--no onions, extra cheese, extra sauce and a couple Doritos tacos with sour cream and guac. I haven’t had Taco Bell in like a year, but man I was obSESSED for awhile there. Some of you may remember that, haha. I’ve actually been wanting it lately, but gahhh.

Is there anyone currently annoying you? No.

What’s your favorite hairstyle you’ve had so far? I like my long, red hair. I just wish I actually styled it and maintained it better.

Do you have freckles? Yes.

How many dogs do you have, if any at all? One.

Have you ever witnessed someone being beaten up? Yes. :/ I’ve never been someone who likes watching fights, whether it be in person or a video. I don’t understand that. I remember in elementary and high school everyone would rush over and crowed around a fight and I just wanted to get as far away as possible. There’s also people who like watching fight videos. I just can’t. I don’t enjoy watching people get hurt.

Do you think biting is weird or sexy? It can be either one depending on the situation.

Would you rather be called hot or beautiful? Beautiful. But I’m not.

Have you ever had a pet turtle before? No.

Do you still sleep with your parents when you’re scared sometimes? Uh, no. A 30 year old grown ass adult crawling into bed with their parents... lmao.

Have you ever met someone with two different color eyes? No.

Have you ever felt like someone was following you? Yes. 

How many surveys on average would you say you’ve done in your lifetime? Oh jeez. I couldn’t even try to figure that out. I’ve been doing surveys since like 2005.

What color shirt are you wearing at the moment? Black.

Do you enjoy going school shopping? Not in school anymore, but yeah I loved back to school shopping.

Do you think Pug dogs are adorable or just plain ugly? Aww, they’re cute. 

Have you ever met someone who completely resembled their pet? lol no, but I’ve seen photos of pet owners and dogs who looked alike.

Has anyone ever knitted you something before? Yes.

What was the worst substance you’ve spilled on yourself before? >> I don’t recall ever spilling anything heinous on myself. Alcohol can be bad because then you smell like booze and that’s just not a good look. <<< Ugh, yeah I’ve spilled alcohol on myself on more than one occasion and just smelled awful.

Have you ever made out with more than one person in one night? No.

What three words would describe the person you love? I don’t love anyone in the romantic sense.

Do you think their is a soulmate out there for everyone? I don’t think there’s one person meant for you, but I think there’s people out there compatible for everyone. 

Do you like short or long surveys the best? Long.

Do you think hairspray is more helpful or annoying? I don’t use it.

Have you ever bought fake money and tried to make it pass for real? No.

Are your siblings nice the majority of the time? Yeah, they are nice. My younger brother and I bicker sometimes like siblings do, but we’re very close. He’s not mean, just annoying at times haha. And I know I most definitely am.

How many uncles do you have? 8.

What would you say is the worst movie you’ve ever seen? I’ll just pick one that I saw recently: Fantasy Island. It was awful.

Do you freak out when a thunderstorm comes along? >> I freak out in excitement, lol. I did freak out pretty badly when I was a child, though. And then one day in adolescence the switch flipped. *shrug* <<< Hahah same. I love ‘em now.

What is something you’d consider yourself obsessed with? ASMR. I watch several ASMR videos every night. 

How often do you shower? Every couple of days.

Have you ever had to sell something for a school fundraiser? Yeah, like those catalogs that had candy, cookies, and other random stuff. And candy bars.

What is the absolute worst thing about high school? I think it’s mostly the time that it occurs in. Teenage years are a very difficult time. You’re going through puberty and everything is changing and you’re trying to figure out who you are. There’s also the added pressure of being expected to know what you want to do with your life. I think it’s also a time when you really figure out who your friends are.

How many sodas do you usually drink in one day? Zero, now. I used to drink a soda a day for several years until a couple years ago.

What kind of cheese do you like the most? I’m not listing all the cheese I like again, I just did that recently. I like a lot of different cheeses. Cheese is delicious. 

Have you ever met someone who was completely weird all-around? Yeah. I’m sure people think that about me, too.

Have you ever met an annorexic pregnant woman? No.  What is your favorite lyric of all time? How can you possibly choose just one favorite?? 

Do you know someone who has made their Xbox their best friend basically? I don’t know any big gamers, no.

Do you ever watch any soap operas? No. From what I’ve seen, they’re really, really bad. Like cringeworthy, secondhand embarrassment bad lol. Just the plot and acting is bad. Have you ever met someone who was mean to everyone? Yes.

If you had to get a tattoo, what would it be? I’ve wanted ‘free bird’ for several years.

If you have any piercings, who did them? *shrug* I got my ears pierced when I was a baby.

Have you ever simply looked at someone & could tell they were homosexual? I’d be lying if I said I never looked at someone and thought that they might me.

Do you have the ability to read someone without even knowing them? You could form some opinions and ideas, but you can’t really know.

Would you rather eat or sleep? Sleep. 

Are you one of those die hard Twilight or Harry Potter fans? I used to be when I was younger.

Have you ever cried while watching a movie trailor? No.

When was the last time you changed your hairstyle? It wasn’t really a change since I’ve been doing it for the last 5 years, but I got my hair done again this past February. 

Do your parents ever force you to talk to your grandparents? No,  I was always very close to my grandparents.

If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Gray. Do you think long surveys are broing or entertaining? Depends.

Have you ever learned that someone had lied to you all along? Yeppp.

When was the last time you had a physical injury? Hmm. It’s been awhile.

Have you ever wanted to be a lawyer? Nooo.

Have you ever had to bail someone out of jail before? No.

Is there anyone in your imediate family who was adopted? No.

Do you know anyone who doesn’t have any common sense? Not personally, but there are certainly people I’ve encountered/witnessed/heard of who seemed to lack it.

When was the last time you bought something? Yesterday.

Do you think you look anything like your parents? Yeah.

Who is the skinniest person you know? Is it because of a disease? Me. I’ve always been naturally thin with a fast metabolism, but I was at a healthy weight. A few years ago I became too thin and underweight due to health reasons and I haven’t been able to put on any weight

Do you know someone who is discustingly obese who wears G-strings? What’s *disgusting is this question.

Do you know someone who insults themselves to get attention? I feel like there’s some YouTubers and social media influencers who do that. I’m very self-deprecating, but believe me I don’t want the attention. I just really don’t think much of myself. 

Is this year the best one you’ve had so far? Uh, no definitely not. I can’t imagine anyone thinking that. This year has been an ongoing nightmare.

What are your plans for this weekend? Nothing. 

What color is your significant other’s hair? I’m single.

Have you ever applied for a job at Walmart before? No.

Do you know anyone who does drugs currently? Yes.

Would you ever become a foster parent? No.

Are you ashamed of anyone in your family? No. 

What jobs do your parents have? My mom is a supervisor at Walgreens and my dad works at a car repair shop.

Would rather talk to someone on a landline or a cell phone? >> I’d rather not talk to anyone on a phone, period. <<< Hahah, SAME.

Have you ever had a Tumblr account? Are you devoted to it? What’s this Tumblr you speak of? Should I check it out?

Has anyone ever given you a psychiatric assessment? Yes.

If you got pregnant right now, would you abort the baby? I wouldn’t get pregnant to begin with.

Speaking of which, are you for or against abortion?

What is your favorite amusement park? Disneyland! What was the best Christmas gift you’ve ever gotten? All of them.

Has anyone ever called you jealous of them before? Only jokingly.

Did you ever have braces? Yes, but not for my teeth. I had them for my back and my feet when I was a kid.

Who is your favorite actor or actress? Alexander Skarsgard.

What is the most important date in your life so far? There are several significant dates in my life.

How many people your age do you know who are pregnant? Just one that comes to mind.

What is cuter: kisses on the forehead of the cheek? I thought forehead kisses were cute when Joseph did it.

Do you believe in evolution or creation? Creation. 

Would you rather take a bath or a shower? Why or why not? Shower.

What group would you say you’d normally fit into the most? The survey community with you guys.

As a child, what game did you want to play the most? I loved playing house and school. 

When was the last time you did something sexual? Virgin here.

Where was the last place you went on vacation? Disneyland.

Do you collect anything? What? Giraffe stuffed animals and key chains. 

What kind of Pringles do you like the most? The pizza flavored ones are good. I haven’t had Pringles in years, though.

Are you better at hand-drawing things or painting? I’m not an artist at all. I have no talent.

Have either of your parents ever called you a failure before? Nooo. I call myself one, though.

What do you think is the grossest taste in the world? Wasabi is definitely one of them. To me it tastes like how shoe cleaner or nail polish remover smells.

[haleyfangirly]

Bonds that Heal the Wound (A Brother Bear Fanfic)-Chapter 2

When Halona and Mai reach the top of the hill, Halona takes note of all the people setting up the main stage for the ceremony. Two men are working together to paint a mountain on the stone wall. This mountain that they are painting is of great importance to the tribe. They refer to it as “The Mountain where the Lights Touch the Earth.” It’s a long name, yes, but it also describes it perfectly. This mountain is where the spirits of people’s ancestors come down from the heavens. The sight of the lights represents hope and guidance, the people knowing that their ancestors are watching over them. This painting is placed center of a great skew of red handprints that cover most of the wall. The handprints belong to those that have reached manhood or womanhood. Once a member has proven that they have followed their totem, their handprint is place upon the wall. Halona glances down at her hands. One day, her handprint will be on there. She’s excited to see what the world will have in store for her, but at the same time, she knows that Kenai and Sitka will not be part of the world that she will become a woman in. “Halona! There you are, sis!” Halona snaps out of her train of thought to see a man wearing blue deerskin clothing walk towards her, arms spread out to give her a hug. He grabs her and ruffles her hair. What was once kept and neat now has fly-aways. “Think you can wait until I put these sticks down, Denahi? My back is killing me!” Denahi backs up by a foot, allowing Halona to slip the bundle of sticks tied to her shoulders off. She places her hands in the center of her back, cracks it and sighs. “Better now?” Denahi smiles. “Good,” he then forcefully grabs her with a smile and continues ruffling her hair, “Ready to finally become a woman, sis?” Halona laughs and tries pushing the older man off her. Although Denahi refers to her as sister, or sis, the two are in fact not related by blood. When Halona was just a toddler, she had been found in the woods by Tanana. She was on her way to retrieve a totem for a soon-to-be woman at the time and came across her. Halona was alone, wrapped in nothing more but a few pieces of cloth. She babbled and squealed at Tanana, almost begging the woman to take her into her arms. Tanana saw this is a sign from the spirits and indeed took the girl in her arms. With the girl in arm, Tanana made her way to the mountain top where the spirits took a small stone and transformed it into an elk. Tanana wrapped it in a small cloth and placed it in the pocket of her shaman cloak. Before she could leave, the lights of the spirits wrapped around her. As a shaman, Tanana can communicate with the spirits in a way that the other village members cannot. They told her that the child should be placed in care of the three brothers Sitka, Denahi, and Kenai. They gave no reason to Tanana as to why those three brothers specifically, but she has never been in any place to doubt the Great Spirits. When Tanana arrived back at the village that afternoon, her first stop was to see the three brothers. Sitka was more than happy to take the young girl, a smile on his face the moment she was placed into his young arms. Sitka was only about 16 at the time, but he had proven he was more than capable of raising her as he had already raised the other two brothers for most of their lives. Denahi was around 8 and he was a little unhappy at first feeling even more as a middle child than he already was, but soon grew to love as if she were his sister by blood. Kenai was probably the most thrilled considering that he would no longer be considered the true youngest child. Kenai was about 4 at this point, approximately a year old her than Halona. Kenai took her under his wing and the two were inseparable. The brothers were Halona’s whole world and up until a few months ago, she had no idea what she would do without them. “As ready as I’ll ever be dog breath,” Halona punches Denahi’s arm, causing him to step back a little bit, laughing as he rubs his sore arm. Denahi lets out his last breathy laugh before becoming a bit more serious, his smile becoming a bit more tight lipped and eyes softening as he looks Halona in the eyes, “I know you wanted Sitka and Kenai here for this, but I know that they’re both ecstatic for you, even if they’re not here to say it in person.” Halona frowns a bit, cursing Denahi mentally for bringing up her two brothers. They’ve been brought up once already, she’d much prefer the thought of them not being here to stay away from her thoughts. “I know. It just hurts, you know? Everyone was here for Sitka’s totem, yours, and even Kenai. But for me? Everyone’s either dead or not even human,” Halona rubs her eyes, trying her best to not let the tears she had tried to force from coming fall. Denahi wraps his arms around her, nuzzles his nose into her hair, “I know it sucks, kid. But things will get better. Things will be okay, I promise.” Halona sniffs and smiles a bit, her words cracking as she speaks, “Funny, that’s what Mai told me earlier.” Suddenly a yell is heard from the bottom of the hill, “Tanana’s back! C’mon!” Denahi parts from Halona and bends down to grab the bushel of sticks. He smiles once more and says, “Let’s get these sticks set up for the fire. You’ll see. Once you get that totem, everything will be fine.” Denahi and Halona work together to place all the large sticks and branches inside of the stone of circles placed in the center of the stone floor. They’re paced teepee style. As per tradition, a large set of antlers, probably from a giant elk, is placed at the very top of the teepee for decoration. Once everything is set into place, Denahi and Halona find their placed among the first row of villagers who have already sat down, waiting for the arrival of Tanana. “Ooh good! I didn’t miss anything!” Halona jumps as Mai plops herself down next her. “Do you really have to scare me like that?” “Not my fault you’re jumpy,” Mai shrugs. She receives an eyeroll from Halona in response. A series of hushes are spread across the platform as all eyes are sent to the entrance. An older woman with a fur cloak and long white hair placed into two braids, one on each side of her face, walks towards the stack of yet to be lit wood. This is the shaman woman Tanana. Tanana pauses for a moment for one of the village men to hand her a lit torch. Every face in the room is lit up with a large smile as they watch her walk past them. With the torch in hand, she pulls her arm back and tosses it fervently, yet gently into the teepee stacked sticks. The teepee lights up in a roar of flames, causing the room to erupt into their own roars of cheering. “Welcome, my friends. As we all know, when one of us comes of age, the spirits bring us a totem that represent what we must do in order to become a man,” Tanana teasingly pats Denahi on his head as she walks about the room, giving her speech, “or a woman.” Mai’s hair is then ruffled by Tanana. Both Mai and Denahi give the shaman woman a friendly smile as they chuckle softly. “Halona,” Tanana calls out her name and sits in front of the fire, being cautious enough to keep a good distance as not bring harm to herself. Halona stands up timidly and walks over. She carefully sits down and let’s out a worrisome sigh. “Nervous?” Tanana asks. Halona is met with a quick sense of déjà vu from that question. She responds with, “Just a little.” “Don’t be. It’s a good one!” There’s that déjà vu again. “Halona, I have been to the mountain where the lights touch the Earth, and the spirits have revealed to me your totem,” Tanana’s words are warm and full of hidden excitement. She reaches into her pocket and pulls out the totem, wrapped in a small cloth, the animal carved in it hidden underneath the cloth. “Your totem is,” everything moves in slow motion for Halona as Tanana carefully pulls back the top layer of cloth that’s hiding the carving in the totem. The excitement in the room dies before Tanana can even say what the totem is. The second Tanana pulls back the cloth, Halona feels her heart stop. Denahi and Mai have the same feeling in both of their chests. “Love!”

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The Mist

@dilldaydreamer @ohgodIforgotKanaya’sURL

Percy (06/Death)Last Wednesday at 1:55 PM

Death frowned at his phone as Ace appeared... then went silent. A brief glance was given to the fog outside, looking it over as if he was searching for something to come stumbling out of it, before finally turning his attention to Pembrooke. "Do you have any idea how to find her? Ready to go?" (Short and sweet because don't wanna do long)

👑Lissa☂ (Paint/Feferi/Kanaya)Last Wednesday at 2:41 PM

Kanaya glances at her own phone. "It appears she turned on her location as the inspector requested. So unless the fog decides to fuck with that it shouldn't be all that difficult," you say. She then finishes cleaning off her chainsaw, plucking bits of gore out of its teeth. She would treat her equipment with care to ensure it will last. She looks back to him and simply say, "Ready." The troll can deny, she has some anger against the nurse for losing her brother in this place. But perhaps that isn't reasonable since it seems to be taking people in and somewhere else as it pleases.

Mabs (PI/02)Last Wednesday at 6:35 PM

Pembrooke nods and finishes packing some supplies into a side bag.  Just in case. Never know. "Alright. Looks like there is a lot of talk on the chat about keeping an ear open since well...the fog is keeping us from being able to get a good look.  Let's go." The inspector steps out to take point...it didn't feel right to have Elliot and Kanaya out front. Something something gentleman, something something his duty to protect.

Percy (06/Death)Last Wednesday at 6:42 PM

Arguably, the one with the melee weapon should be in front but... Death wasn't going to argue. He knew the two of them knew how to handle themselves, and he was willing to follow. "Should we run? Not sure how long we want to linger in the fog. Or... house jump. I'm not sure what will keep us safe honestly, I've only had to face dogs so far and they weren't the roll over and pet the belly sort."

👑Lissa☂ (Paint/Feferi/Kanaya)Last Wednesday at 6:44 PM

"House jumping could be risky with this fog. It makes everything a little damp. Running could attract attention," you say, thinking over the options. You hold your chainsaw, not running just in case the noise would bring monsters to you, but ready to go if needed.

Mabs (PI/02)Last Wednesday at 6:50 PM

"I think a slight hustle would work...but yes...running could attract attention or worse, make it easier for us to lose one another in the fog.  I know most of these streets. Well, as long as stuff hasn't changed in this city and changed the roads."   The inspector looks around as he begins a steady stride, listening to the silence around him.

"If anything we should try to find Paint before night falls.  Karkat too if possible.  I do not want to imagine what things are going to be like come nightfall."

Percy (06/Death)Last Wednesday at 7:50 PM

Death's steps barely make a whisper as he follows. He nods to their cons in regards to his suggestions, not about to argue. "If it even turns to night. It may just stay grey and dreary. A silver lining to this massive cloud, hm?" He winces a bit, rubbing his temple. Why do these keep setting in?

👑Lissa☂ (Paint/Feferi/Kanaya)Last Wednesday at 7:57 PM

You keep side by side with the Inspector. After all, you're the one with the best night vision and sense of smell if Elliot and Pembrooke are like most humans. Glancing at the inspector and Elliot, you ask, "Do you have anything to defend yourself with? What about you if you run out of bullets or lose your gun?" In times like these, you are all allies against this nightmare. You'd protect them almost as if they were Crew.

Mabs (PI/02)Last Wednesday at 8:09 PM

"I have a few tricks up my sleeves. Though...admittedly I'm not exactly as experienced when it comes to slicing and dicing I suppose..."  Pembrooke gives an awkward chuckle as he pats at his trenchoat as if to indicate there is something underneath the fabric.  "But I'm making a guess that nonlethal force is pointless..." He pauses as they reach an alleyway to listen before heading into it.  Sort of the gamble...not sure what is on the main roads...not sure what is in the alleys. But the alley would be a faster route to Miss Paint. And truth be he was feeling more brave dealing with something small than risking encountering something big.

Percy (06/Death)Last Wednesday at 8:17 PM

"I'm good at running! I ah, funeral directing doesn't exactly require 'familiar in fire arms' on the resume.  And the dead usually do not require force to keep them laying down. Sorry for er, being the dead weight, perhaps we should have found the appointed 'safe haven' to keep from being a liability. ...Hhnf--" Death winced again as his head throbbed. The bells sounding in his ears hardly helped it and... were they getting louder? "Do forgive me but... does anyone else hear that?" Was it just him? This was too ridiculously loud to be just a him thing. However, it was indeed just a him thing.

👑Lissa☂ (Paint/Feferi/Kanaya)Last Wednesday at 8:22 PM

You pull out a knife from somewhere though use flare making it seem to appear from thin air. You press the handle into Death's hand and listen when he asks if you hear anything. "I don't..." you says softly and attempt to try catching a scent instead.

Mabs (PI/02)Last Wednesday at 8:27 PM

The inspector goes quiet as he presses against one of the alley walls, also listening.  Other than the sounds he and the other two were making, the air seemed to almost muffle any other sounds...and the city seemed lacking entirely in noise which was it's own form of unsettling. He looks back to Elliot and Kanaya to see their expressions, frowning as he notes Elliot's expression.

Percy (06/Death)Last Wednesday at 8:51 PM

Oh good. It was just him. Death wasn't sure if he was okay with that or not. The knife was appreciated, though the words to express his appreciation were lacking as Death paused all together to lean against the wall as well. "O, one moment. Somethings wrong." Kanaya could easily pick up something in the air, and it wasn't long before Pembrooke could as well. An unpleasant, pungent smell of bile laced with one too many drinks and left to ferment. Something loomed before them, a  dark silhouette hidden in the mist. Whatever it was, it stood several heads taller than the rest, however from the end of the alley where the form swayed came a soft, feminine voice. "Hello?"

👑Lissa☂ (Paint/Feferi/Kanaya)Last Wednesday at 8:56 PM

Not good. You opt for more knives over the chainsaw in case this thing was alone and could be delt with silently. You prepare to throw but look to the inspector as the 'leader' of your merry band. You have trained for combat but clever assassination was far more you're style, so you'd defer to the man who's been in more fire fights.

Mabs (PI/02)Last Wednesday at 9:07 PM

Pembrooke frowns...ohhhh no he doesn't like that.  From his trenchoat he pulls out a Halligan Bar as he puts his pistol away.  That...well he doesn't want to attract too much attention from gunshots. Also...ammunition is precious.  Hgnn...then again perhaps the best tactic was to simply embrace avoidance and take the longer route.

He glances over to note Kanaya with a blade ready to throw.  Turning to Death, he whispers. "Lets try to...double back...but if it advances do you feel confident in your aim Miss Kanaya?"

👑Lissa☂ (Paint/Feferi/Kanaya)Last Wednesday at 9:15 PM

"Of course, Inspector," you tell him in a quiet whisper in return.

Percy (06/Death)Last Wednesday at 9:34 PM

The shadow sways dramatically before taking a staggered step forward. "Hello??" Comes the voice again, pitched with distress and quivering with fear. The frantic, plead of a sound comes again, but the second syllable comes deeper, a little warped. Death is fine with taking a retreat, he's practically gagging on the pain that pulls tears to his eyes. There's a tight pinch of a feeling before blood drips from his nose. He gives a nod in response to whatever words he could make out from Pembrooke's mouth, stumbling back out into the streets as the thing came towards them with a drunken gait. "Hello?? Hello!? HeLLO, HELLO!?" The near sobbing greeting darkened, as if demanding an answer, a far more masculine, angry shout bellowed down the alleyway.

Mabs (PI/02)Last Wednesday at 9:43 PM

Yeah...no. There was a time to fight, but in a small alleyway against something nearly twice their height...Pembrooke had a hunch that would probably take most of his bullets and who knows how much of Miss Kanaya's fuel in her chainsaw.  And right now resources were limited. "Hnng. Fall back."  you quickly hiss as you start to retreat back towards the entrance from which you three came.  The point of the alley was to take a shortcut...but it wasn't much of a shortcut if you all ended up injured or trapped in an alley with a monster.

October 25, 2018

👑Lissa☂ (Paint/Feferi/Kanaya)Yesterday at 12:05 PM

You follow the inspector though you don't take your eyes off the creature. If it attacks, you will be ready to retaliate. If it springs, a knife to the face should buy you enough time to get the chainsaw going. Ideally you all will be able to back out without incurring its notice.

Percy (06/Death)Yesterday at 1:07 PM

Its pace doesn't pick up as they retreat, but it does sound angrier as they do, calling after them before its voice breaks into a sob and softening once more to the scared voice it was. The knife Kanaya had so kindly given Death had been discarded, the man was far too busy clutching at his head and panting harshly to fiddle with something so sharp. Despite the pain, he didn't retreat too far, standing outside of the alley and waiting on his moirail and the other even though the entirety of him wanted him to flee. The farther they got, the more distressed the sobs grew, higher and higher until they turned to a shriek. A sudden gun shot crackled down the alley-- and all grew silent once more, with nothing but the whisper of the fog covering an unpleasant memory.

Mabs (PI/02)Yesterday at 1:18 PM

Pembrooke wraps his arm around Elliot to help balance the mortician as they made their way down the street and away from...whatever that was.  As the sound turned back to the feminine wail, he deduced perhaps it was maybe some sort of angler style predator? A plea of distress until one gets closer to i- The gunshot echoing far behind them does make him jump, both physically and from the mental train of thoughts.  Turning around, he looks back to see...well its just fog. More fog. The three of them alone in the street.  Pembrooke takes a moment to listen and calm his heart. "I...is everyone alright?" he finally manages to speak, turning both to his morail and Kanaya as he pulls out a handkerchief for Elliot's nose.  "That was. Hnn."

👑Lissa☂ (Paint/Feferi/Kanaya)Yesterday at 1:43 PM

The sounds made by the creature are disquieting enough, but the gunshot puts you more on edge. With no idea whether it was creature related or person, you find it worrying. "Yes," you tell the cop quietly, still wary of speaking too loud.

Percy (06/Death)Yesterday at 2:51 PM

Death jumps right along with Pembrooke, and later he'd wallow in the shame it brought, but the gun shot going off had him jerking in front of Pembrooke to put the inspector between him and the noise. With the wailing went the pain throbbing in his head, and the ringing ebbed to a low, constant chime as it once was. He was thankful for the arm keeping  him upright, even if he did jump about in the hold. "MmhmMmhH." Came the shaky response, the only sound he'd be able to muster for now outside of the quiet whimpering. Death took the handkerchief, pressing it gingerly over his lower face with a shaking hand. He'd... deal with actually cleaning once he calmed down more.

Mabs (PI/02)Yesterday at 3:50 PM

The inspector nods and hurries them along until they reach an empty newstand...papers scattered and torn asunder with foreboding messages and ominous headlines that Pembrooke had a hunch was probably something to the effect of this world's morbid sense of humor. Still though, it offered a quick shelter for the three to hunker down quietly out of sight.  Give Elliot and them a chance to take a bit of a breather. He hops the counter, before unlocking the doorstand to let the others in, hunkering down behind the counter.  "Seems like a good time to check back to make sure everyone else is doing alright..."

👑Lissa☂ (Paint/Feferi/Kanaya)Yesterday at 3:54 PM

You nod and take a position to keep look out for them. "Right. I'll make sure nothing creeps up on us."

Percy (06/Death)Today at 5:04 AM

Death followed suit, eager to drop to his knees then into a sit to hide beneath the counter. His eyes closed and head tipped back to touch the wall of behind him as he focused on easing his sharp pants. In the meantime, also cleaning the blood from his face. "S, sorry... About that. I don't know- don't know what was going on there. What--" he took in a shaking breath, before deciding he didn't want to know what that was, "are you two okay?"

[docholligay]

Silverleaf 8: The Big Bang

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The lights hung in hazy contemplation in the darkness of the wine bar, warm and intimate, glowing like stars against the ceiling. Haruka wanted to say something about them, about they reminded her of Van Gogh, of the way everything was filtered through that unreality of beauty. Haruka wanted to tell her being around Michiru was like that, sometimes, that the world got a little more beautiful, and a little less real, in the halo of her presence.

“I have a cat!” was what she said. “His name is Mouse.”

Michiru looked across the table at her, her head tipped in that slightly bemused way. “An interesting way to begin to tell me about yourself, but I do love novelty.”

“I’m a gym teacher.” You teach at the same school, idiot, “I majored in Phys Ed,” shocking. You’re so brilliant, “Uh, I used to run a lot?” It’s a wonder you’re single.

“May I assist you with the wine list?” The waiter asked.

“Oh please god yes.” Haruka burst out.

Michiru reached over and touched her hand, the feel of her electric on Haruka’s fingers. “Oh my, is that the source of your nerves? No, please, allow me.” She nodded knowingly. “Something midrange, of course”

Her eyes glanced quickly over the wine list, gracefully as a cat leaping upon a mouse, only a moment until she selected her prey. “The Sea Smoke pinot, should suffice, I think.”

Haruka felt her eyes widen, and she tugged at her tie, looking off.

“So your running is all in the past tense?” Michiru handed the wine list back to the waiter, not even glancing up. “I daresay that comes as a surprise to me.”

“Oh, I still,” Haruka looked at the food menu, suddenly now wondering if any of this was going to be fine enough, or if she should just have Michiru order, “I still run, I like it, but, not like I used to. I was pretty good.”

“We all tire in our,” she laughed, “old age.”

“I got hurt pretty bad in college.” She said, not even thinking. Therapy had given Haruka a number of things for which she was very grateful, but she had also been horrified her discover the tap her own of personal disclosure, once rusted shut, had a way of leaking upon its repair, in a way that caused her personal offense on more than one occasion.

“Oh? I’m terribly sorry to hear.”

Not as terribly sorry as my father was to hear. ‘That’s all she’s good at!’ he told the doctor, and I don’t think he knew I could hear, but he was just in the hall outside my room, and I knew he meant it. I was supposed to go to the Olympics for him, but now I’m just…

“It’s okay.” She shrugged, simply happy she hadn’t said it aloud. “Long time ago.”

Way to go, you brought down the whole night, Haruka, one side of her said. Shut up, came the quiet but firm reply.

“So how’d you come to Silverleaf?” Haruka perked up, smiling as she set down the menu, “and let me know if anything on here sounds good.”

“Oh,” Michiru looked over the food menu, “I was an alumna of Silverleaf, and when I found myself back in the country, it seemed as good a position as any. I believe the general idea is order several small plates, as they do in Spain.”

“Did you go to Tokyo College of Music?”

Michiru laughed as she looked over the top of the small menu. “You must not think much of my playing. Japan does not have even a top 25 conservatory in the world, no,” she put the menu down casually, “I went to Julliard, in New York City. Toured a bit.”

“Missed home?”

“That presumes this is home.”

“So New York was home?”

Michiru looked up at her and folded her hands neatly in her lap, her eyes studying Haruka. “So tell me about your search for home. It must be quite bumpy, perhaps even ongoing, to hear your interest in the concept.”

Haruka recoiled a little with the lash of honesty, and quietly looked at the menu, unsure of what to say.

Michiru looked for a moment, off into the night, where people came and went, the low glow of the streetlights falling upon them as they slipped underneath, in and out of the light. She knew them, she felt, the same way she slipped in and out of sight, never staying under the harsh judgment of the light for more than a moment.

She looked back at Haruka, at her golden gaze. Haruka was nothing like her, she saw that, had seen it from the first. One of those girls, Michiru knew, who had tried to be something else when she was younger, tried to be tall and tough and brave but underneath there was the light, and no matter what they put over it in could only be as effective as a colander, points of bright piercing through.

The effect was about as honest as Michiru trying to contain her own darkness, the shadow that swallowed stars.

“I think this is home for me, now. ” The warming sunlight of dawn poured from Haruka’s mouth as she shrugged. “I guess.”

Michiru smiled her closed mouth smile. “It’s an interesting concept, is it not? Seeking some nebulous idea we’re told about from childhood, with no idea of what it might be.” She peeked out into the light, just a hair, “My parents were anxious for me to return. I imagine they were concerned about what I might get up to, in the world. The name, you know.”

Haruka laughed good-naturedly, happy to have the awkward moment pass. “I think my parents stopped worrying as soon as the Olympics were out.”

The waiter stopped by, saving them from themselves and each other, presenting the bottle of wine.

“I think you should just order,” Haruka set down the menu, “I don’t really ever know what to get.”

“The secret of course, my dear, is to know what you want.” She looked at Haruka with a sly and predatory look. She appraised the waiter as he served them, swirling the dark wine in the glass and taking a sip. “Yes, that will do nicely.”

There is a strange quality to dates, Michiru had often observed, somewhere between ballet and poker, trying to suss out anything about the other, while hiding your own hand, all while making it as romantic and beautiful as possible, music swelling in the moments where one might meet against the other, and the hands might delicately touch, still only showing the other the painted maze of your true cards’ back.

Dates were weird, Haruka noticed, the way that people tried to get to know each other without knowing each other, just nervously sucking down too-expensive wine and wondering if your hair looked alright, and if your cologne smelled okay. Sometimes, there felt like a real spark, but Haruka admitted to herself that sometimes it was tough for her to tell the difference between electricity and static. They were sort of related, weren’t they? And it could be faked for awhile.

United in these feelings they could not possibly show to the other, they shared the plates as they were served, hands brushing by each other like curtains in the breeze, gently sliding past.

“It melts on the palate,” she spread a thick layer of the roasted marrow on the slice of bread, “butter, but so much richer than butter could dream of being,” she set her knife down across the plate, and looked at Haruka, “it gives way beneath one’s tongue, responsive to it, almost, releasing the pleasure in a sudden burst.” She opened her mouth and enveloped the edge of the bread in, her tongue leaving her mouth just enough for Haruka to see the soft pink of it as it accepted the unctuous delight of it all, her eyes never leaving Haruka.

Haruka stared, her mouth open, and then dropped her knife on the ground with an involuntary shudder of fear and desire, mixed into its own vinaigrette.

Tonight was full of new flavors.

Michiru giggled. “I apologize, that was overly fawning of me over a simple plate.”

“No, I--” she scrambled to retrieve her knife, just as a new one was set on the table by the waiter, “I’ve just never had it before.”

“Well then,” Michiru nodded, “aren’t you in for a treat?”

___

“This is home,” Haruka motioned her in the door,“It’s not like your place or anything, but I like it.”

“It’s terribly charming,” Michiru said, surprised to discover that it was not a lie, delighted that she had charmed her way into being invited up, “quite comfortable.”

Her appraising eye fell across the apartment, across the soft lumps of its overstuffed couch, the bundle of afghans piled in a basket under the side table, the posters framed on the wall, fictional locations done up in faux-retro styles. It was a simple place, and it was, as Haruka said, nothing like her own. There was nothing for anyone else here. It was all Haruka’s, with all of the same honesty held in her eyes.

Haruka rocked back on her heels and clapped her hands together. “I like it. It’s convenient too, next to the bus and subway lines.”

Mouse came out of the shadows and meowed at Michiru’s feet.

“Why, hello,” She looked down at him, “the master of the house, I presume.”

“Yeah,” Haruka chuckled, “he’s the most important man in my life.”

Haruka picked him up and held him to her chest, scratching behind his ears, and he regarded Michiru carefully. It was a bit silly, to feel judged by a cat, appraised as if she were on the block at Sotheby’s, and yet the feeling was quite unmistakable.

“Anyway,” Haruka shrugged, “I have some wine in the fridge. It’s not as good as what we were drinking tonight, but I like it okay. There’s a dog on the label.”

“That would be lovely.” She looked around the apartment as Haruka walked to the small kitchen, open to the rest of the apartment. They had doubtlessly left it open to hide how small the apartment was, but Haruka had made a fair use of the space, a small rack under the cabinet holding wine glasses in suspense, watching for Haruka’s next move.

“So,” Haruka asked, “You like working at Silverleaf?”

Michiru took the wine from her hand. “It suffices.” She took a step toward Haruka as Mouse watched carefully. “You? I realize it is somewhat of a different environment for you.”

“Yeah,” Haruka took a drink and set her glass down, “It’s a little--”

Michiru kissed her deeply, Haruka leaning against the edge of the countertop as the heat across her body grew.

There was something warm to her, something that seemed like it might be the home that Michiru did not even think existed, something in the shabby comfort of her home that seemed real. She reached under Haruka’s blazer, pulling at the buttons of her shirt, snaking and sneaking to the soft cotton of undershirt, and Haruka pulled back, her hand on MIchiru’s forearm.

“I--”

Michiru stepped away from Haruka, smoothing her hair. “I certainly never intended to make a nuisance of myself. I was not aware my advances were unwelcome.” She nodded politely, and started to the door.

“No, Michiru!” She outstretched her hand, “I--I really like you--but--”

But this is my first real thing since Yuki left me. I’m out of practice.

“But--”

I never was that kind of girl even when I pretended to be. I’m too old to pretend to be anymore.

“But--”

Everyone only likes me for a little while and it scares me. It must be something about me. You’re too good for me. Your apartment--god I can’t even call that an apartment--it scared me.

“I--”

The butler knew my name and your name’s on the elevator and you’re so beautiful and what if you just like me for a little while, if I let you touch me, like that, I’ll fall in love, Mina says it’s my most pathetic quality--

Michiru slipped her coat on, her back turned to Haruka.

Haruka, SAY SOMETHING, for fuck’s sake.

“Now, now, I have mortified myself quite enough for one evening, I think we can all agree.” Michiru picked up her purse. “I had a lovely time, thank you so much for the invitation to dinner.”

“Michiru, can I--” she stopped her at the door, “--can I call you later?”

“That depends, I suppose, on whether you decide upon what you want.”

Michiru turned and left out the door, and even for Michiru’s graceful way of veiling her feelings, and even for all of Haruka’s well-meaning obliviousness, her hurt and rejection still echoed in the open hallway as she stepped quickly away.

Haruka closed the door and slid down against it, forehead pressed to the wood, wishing  she was anywhere else, or anyone else. She fished her phone out of her pocket, Mina’s number already at the top of her messages.

This isnt going to surprse you but i fucked it up with michiru

She hit send and tossed her phone to the side, sitting and leaning her head against the door as Mouse crawled into her lap and bumped his head against her chin, purring and rubbing against her.

“Mouse, why am I like this?”

He answered by kissing her face, and rubbing against it again, purring louder this time.

Outside, a black sedan pulled up to the sidewalk, and Michiru slid inside, the only purr she heard that of the engine taking her further away from the embarrassment of reaching for home.

[garamondemagazine]

Artist Profile: Avia Rose Ramm

In May of 2019, Avia Rose Ramm held her first solo show at Weird Hues Gallery in Chula Vista, CA. The show was filled with emotion and captivated the audience viewing. You could sense the powerful energy encapsulated in her work that touches on the relationship between religion, vulnerability and sexuality through symbolism. Her style draws inspiration from the Baroque and Rennaissance periods, with a contemporary context. I wanted to delve deeper behind her work.

Garamonde Magazine: What is your background, and a little about yourself?Avia Rose Ramm: I was born in San Diego, went to a Christian school for most of my life, I had 8 rescued dogs growing up, and my name comes from aviation because my parents fly planes. I’m also 5”1 since apparently, people think I’m taller?

GM: Your artwork surrounds the topic of personal experience. How did you mesh your experiences into your artwork, and was that a challenge for you?

ARR: I don’t know how to summarize this because I’m not that good with words, but in a nutshell, I just paint how I feel and what I see in my head. Unfortunately, growing up I never had a safe person to talk about my feelings and my parents don’t believe in therapy. And lately, I just don’t like to talk to my friends about that stuff. When you don’t talk about your feelings it builds up in your head, so these paintings are that release for me. I don’t know how to write them down so the images just make sense. It’s kind of natural at this point for me to kind of mesh these together. It has gotten easier for me to talk about my feelings and personal experience, but I think I prefer to just stick to the painting. Paint doesn’t judge you or try to give you advice when you just want to be heard. Paint doesn’t invalidate you or tell you to get over it. Paint doesn’t pretend to listen to your feelings for a fuck afterward.

GM: What do you draw inspiration from the most?

ARR: My biggest inspiration is the Baroque art period. Baroque was a rejection of the earlier Renaissance artwork. Artists like Caravaggio « kept it real», and didn’t idealize as much. I want to do that with my work. Personally, I do not resonate with art about depression n suicide that’s colorful and flowery. Just as how Caravaggio did not idealize the virgin mary’s death, it was sad and dark. Thinking about killing yourself every day isn’t all too bright and I want to show that, it’s something I don’t want to idealize for a viewer. Sheep too. Random photos I come across of sheep, ones dead on the floor and the flock just looking at them, for example, is something I oddly resonate with. Did you know there are like over 100 breeds of them?? And that in New Zealand sheep outnumber humans? The texture of them is so fun to paint too. Lambs have been a symbol for the catholic church and for innocence. When I paint them dead and gutted I guess its symbolic for my rejection of the church and my loss of innocence growing up. Sometimes I miss the comfort of religion, and I miss being young and not knowing what being sad was.


GM: What emotions do you want the viewer of your artwork to feel?

ARR: Whatever they want. I say first thought best thought. Whether they are weirded out or feel something that’s all valid. I do say if a viewer doesn’t understand they should ask questions and start a conversation. I have had people come up to me and say that they understand it and that they see themselves in it. I really appreciate when people come up and tell me that because it takes a lot of courage to say you’re are going through the same thing. I feel alone a lot, if people feel less alone by looking at my work it kinda gives me a greater purpose to keep painting I suppose.

GM: What is your process when making work?

ARR: It usually starts with me seeing a piece of artwork I like, or randomly, an unusual picture of an animal, and recreating it in my own style. And I always paint something that’s going on in my head or life, to cope. Oil paint is a process, you can not do it in one day. So from there, it’s a matter of me doing a layer a day until I just think it’s done. Usually, I stop when I have let enough of myself out onto it if that makes sense. No need to overwork something or overthink it in my head when I have essentially moved passed it mentally.

GM: Each painting has such attention to detail and texture. What materials do you work with?

ARR: Oil paint is my true love. The science and mediums that go into it are incredible. My favorite mediums to use with it are Gamsol and Galkyd. I also use dirt, I think it makes the painting fun to look at and sometimes I want people to touch it because dirt under oil paint feels so unique. I also like to use it as a separate thing to represent the pain that I have in my stomach, head, heart, and vagina, spearing it over those body parts and painting over it—it looks rugged. I encourage other painters to do the same, use a texture from nature or objects you have as I think some painting texture mediums are overpriced and a joke. It’s a lot of patience though. I would say the minimum it takes to finish an oil painting with layers and glazing is three days. I think that’s a good thing though, I am an impatient person, and this has taught me to be more patient or work on multiple projects at once. You never get the same richness or presence in acrylic as you do with oil.

GM: Do you have any current or upcoming projects/works?

ARR: In the spring I have a couple shows planned up at some local and amazing galleries that I haven’t even started making pieces for but I know it’ll come together haha I’m looking forward to them! I know I talked about being said a lot here but having something to work towards has made me super hopeful and excited.

GM: If you could tell the world one thing, what would it be?

ARR: Be okay with embarrassment, don’t overthink that awkward conversation and be comfortable with silence among strangers, friends, and yourself.

You can view more of Avia’s work on

https://www.aviaroseramm.com/

or on Instagram at

https://www.instagram.com/piggish666/?hl=en

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Arplis - News: My 22 Goals for 2019

Goal #1 — Spend More Time Doing What I Love Just look at that forecast! Fall has finally arrived and before you know it I’ll be wearing my beloved puffy coat and snow will be on the way! I couldn’t be more excited. And those nighttime temps! I’ll need to bring Miss Lemon in. Goal #2 — Garden, Garden, Garden The HH broke out Manny yesterday after he dug up a beautiful 18″ planting space for my baby gem boxwoods and muscari border. We added a few bags of compost to the spot to help the plants get established. We will probably need to expand the planting space in a few years once the boxwoods get a little bigger, for now, scale wise, everything looks as it should. I’ll do a proper post later in the week and show you the new boxwood border. If you haven’t ordered your spring bulbs yet, I ordered 400 tulip bulbs and 500 muscari bulbs from Van Engelen Wholesale Bulb Company and the bulbs were fantastic. The bulbs arrived in about a week and were packaged very well. I highly recommend them. Goal #3 — Plant an Orchard {Calling it Quits on this one.} Lemon is about ready to have babies!!! Two of the Meyer lemons have gone from a dark green to a pale lime green color over the past few weeks and I don’t know for sure, but I think we have another week or two to go until it’s time to harvest our first two Meyer lemons of the year. HOW EXCITING! It will have to be a home birth though {as opposed to an outdoor one} because temps are dropping below 50 tonight {and for 6 of the 7 days in the upcoming forecast} and the lady at the nursery told me when outdoor overnight temps are consistently below 50 degrees at night, that’s when you know it’s time to bring your citrus trees in for the winter. Luckily we have the perfect sunny indoor spot plants, so all is well. Goal #4 — Gussy Up the Potting Shed Done! Goal #5 — Grow Enough Extra Vegetables, Eggs and Flowers to Earn $1500 at my little roadside vegetable stand. It was totally my intention to grow a ton of fruits and vegetables to sell at the farm-stand when I made my list of goals for 2019 last winter, but then we moved. So, that whole goal was sort of a bust. The new peeps wanted the vegetable stand, and we were happy to leave it for them since it was made specifically to match the front of the house, so hopefully the tradition will continue. Goal #6 — Finish Every Single Unfinished Rug Hooking Project in My Pattern Bin + 10 Things from back Issues of Magazines/Books I’ve Been Meaning to Make.  I was able to hook 3 small pieces last week {2 from my pattern stash} and once I get the backing on the make dos and finish the back of the rug I’ll add them to my Etsy shop {hopefully in the next two days}. 73 rugs in my pattern bin {now down to 32} 183 hooked flowers {finished 133, now down to 51} 10 “things” from back issues of magazines {finished 0} Goal #7 — Create 12 New Rug Hooking Patterns {with at least half of them being large ones} DONE! So far this year I’ve added 12 new rug hooking patterns and 13 beginner rug hooking kits to my Etsy shop. New rug hooking patterns I’ve created and added to My Etsy Shop this year: Tullia and Thomas Turkey Double Nantucket Whale Runner Miss Henny and Penny Miss Penny Simple Kitty Primitive Flowers 2 Fat Cats Annabell’s Big Day Old Fashioned Double Tulip Fat Brown Hen Busy Little Bee Queen Bee Rug Hooking Kits Busy Little Bee {in 2 different colors} Folk Art Heart Small Nantucket Whale Primitive Crow Miss Robin {in 2 different colors} Simple Kitty Primitive Flowers Sunflowers A Basket of Spring Posies Fat Brown Hen Chicky’s Garden Goal #8 — Split and Stack 2 Cords of Wood for Next Winter  All that firewood! We sold it. 😉 Goal #9 — Do Something with the 5,002 Photos on My Phone Current number of photos on phone is 11 million. Goal #10 –Lose the Muffin Top Actually doing well on this goal and fully expect to fit into my pants by the end of the year. Apparently living in the city and walking for pastries is an excellent workout regimen. Who knew? Goal #11 — Run, Walk or Crawl a 5k, 10k, Half Marathon and Marathon I have signed up for both a half marathon and a 5k! 🙂 Looks like this baby will be checked off around Thanksgiving. Goal #12 — Read or Listen to 26 New Books {17 down, 8 to go} This past week I listened to I Feel Bad About My Neck by Nora Ephron. It was okay. The first half was basically a {funny} list of complaints, but the second half was much better in my opinion. The audio version was short {around 3 hours I think} and so it passed the time as I painted a closet. If it was in paper form would I sit down and read it all the way through? Probably not. I did enjoy her book, I Remember Nothing much, much more. Currently on Request: Mr. Churchill’s Secretary by Susan Elia MacNeal The War That Saved My Life by Kimberly Brubaker Bradley Books I’ve Read or Listened to So Far This Year: Marilla of Green Gables #1 Still my favorite The Great Alone #2 The Aviator’s Wife #3 Before We Were Yours #4 Secrets of a Charmed Life #5 Where’d You Go, Bernadette #6 Carnegie’s Maid #7 The Gown #8 Unbroken #9 The Alice Network #10 The Shape of Mercy #11 Will’s Red Coat #12 Big Little Lies #13 I Feel Bad About My Neck Bunny Mellon  {Doesn’t count because it was my second time} On Writing {Doesn’t count because it was my third time} Walden Finder’s Keepers Delicious! Following Atticus Goal #13 — Try 52 New Recipes. 24 down, 30 recipes to go. OCTOBER. October is going to be my month for cooking! Goal #14 — Clean Up 52 Old Recipes on the Blog 9 down, 44 to go. I’ll get crackin’ once fall {and cooler temps} come around. Goal #15 — Fill 100 Canning Jars 48 down, 52 to go. Anyone ever canned quince jam before? Using quince from an ornamental bush rather than a tree? Gaaaa. These suckers are ROCK hard and tiny {1″ – 2″} and I’m not even sure I’d have enough to make the effort worthwhile. {I’d need about 2 pounds of quince for a batch of jam}. I mean I like jam and all, but I’m not sure I want to go through all the trouble. Any advice would be AWESOME. So far this year I’ve I canned: 7 jars Peach Jam 7 jars of Strawberry Jam 15 jars of Carrot Cake Jam 15 jars of Spiced Pear Jam  4 jars of Almond Pears. Goal #16 — Finish Furnishing Our House A couch and two chairs have been ordered! Once we get those in place I’ll order a rug {I’m not 100% sure on the size we need yet} and then I’ll paint the walls and create some artwork to hang up and we’ll be good to go. I am SO looking forward to getting the family room all done up in a beachy, nautical theme. Classic New England, that’s what I’ll be going for. Weeeeee. Goal #17 – 52 Dates with the HH {29 down, 23 to go} Bakery dates are the best! Goal #18 — Take One Adult Education Class Done {I’ve taken 3!} I’m keeping the first class I took with my neighbor top secret for now {Mel know’s what it is though} 😉 Spoon Carving Class with Heather. Mini pottery lesson {I loved it! and now I want to sign up for a full class} Goal #19 — Secret {for now} Holiday Project The big reveal will be on Friday, November 1st. Goal #20 — Create 12 Wowie Zowie Party Platters 5 down, 7 to go. Cooler temps mean CHEESE. Right? 😉 I’m looking forward to making up another platter this week. Goal #21 — Visit 12 General Stores 8 down 4 to go. So far this year we’ve visited: Chase’s Daily {I think it should count} Squam Lake Marketplace Harrisville General Store Dodge’s Store in New Boston, New Hampshire Zeb’s General Store in North Conway, New Hampshire Dan and Whit’s in Norwich, Vermont Hussey’s General Store in Windsor, Maine Goal #22 — Compete with Carole….. Get on My Front Door Game On While I currently have a bundle of Indian corn hanging on the front door, once we get closer to Halloween I’ll hang Mrs. HB’s beautiful wreath she made me up on the door. Have you ever seen the movie You’ve Got Mail? You know the part where Meg Ryan is walking through the downtown area in the fall with her pumpkin and just soaking up the city? Well that’s how I feel right now. I still cannot believe we bought a home in a walking downtown area. I’ve think we’ve met at lest 75% of our immediate neighbors already. The house is much smaller than we’re used to, the lot is small too, but I can walk to the bakery, to the farmer’s market to buy a pumpkin and get an entire garden section planted in a day. And you know what… I kind of like it. I don’t even mind all the people walking their dogs past my door {probably because there is no HOA}. Man oh man, what a difference that makes. Change is good. Front Door Bling I’ve Made So Far This Year to Compete with Carole: Late January : Valentine Heart Late February : Shamrock Late March : Giant Carrot May: White wave petunia hanging basket June/July: Tin Star and Flag Bunting August : Sunflower September: Indian corn and pumpkins ************** How about YOU? What are your goals for 2019? If you told us about them HERE, check in! We want to know how you are doing. Because seriously, it’s so much easier to get those goals checked off your list when you have people rooting for you! 🙂 Have a great day everyone, Mavis You can read more about my 22 goals for 2019 HERE. Have a Great Day! The post – Week 39 of 52 appeared first on One Hundred Dollars a Month. This content was original published at One Hundred Dollars a Month and is copyrighted material. If you are reading this on another website it is being published without consent.          Comments Mavis Congrats on the move! 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The same to you - all of them 🎃

200: My crush’s name is: Ryan, Eli, Claire, several others I cant name for complicated reasons 

199: I was born in: 1997/a hospital 

198: I am really: Intense weather in my calmness or excitement 

197: My cellphone company is: T-Mobile

196: My eye color is: Light green

195: My shoe size is: 9 1/2 wide (i usually have to do like a 11 for high heals)

194: My ring size is: ??????? probably big I have chubby fingers

193: My height is: 5′ 6″

192: I am allergic to: nothing unless you count idiocy 

191: My 1st car was: A blue 2007 Ford Focus and I LOVED her

190: My 1st job was: A server for Cheddar’s Casual Cafe 

189: Last book you read: How to Ruin Everything by George Watsky 10/10

188: My bed is: A king with lots o’ pillows and blankets and is very comfy

187: My pet: 2 cats, 5 kittens, 6 dogs, 2 snakes, 1 bearded dragon, 1 leopard gecko, 4 turtles, 1 bullfrog tadpole, and bunches of fish

186: My best friend: is a boy i met a month ago because i have intimacy issues

185: My favorite shampoo is: Dead Sea’s Argon oil shampoo is so good to my poor dry curls

184: Xbox or ps3: I use an Xbox to watch Netflix but I don’t play video games

183: Piggy banks are: Cute decorations but go unused

182: In my pockets: $2, some lint, a rubber band, and something weird i took out of my dog’s mouth earlier

181: On my calendar: I have nothing written in it but it has cool pictures of bears

180: Marriage is: Cool because of the financial benefits but other than that unnecessary to prove one’s love. I want a wedding though because I want a pretty dress

179: Spongebob can: Make me hate my life a 3am

178: My mom: Died of breast cancer and smoked a lot of pot

177: The last three songs I bought were? I can’t remember ever paying for music but the last three i listened to are: Cherry Wine by Hozier, Strong As An Oak by Watsky, and San Cristobal by Mal Blum

176: Last YouTube video watched: A slam poem by Neil Hilborn called Liminality

175: How many cousins do you have? I have no clue? At least 10 on each side, but i’m sure there’s way more than that

174: Do you have any siblings? 2 older brothers, 2 older sisters, ans one younger sister 

173: Are your parents divorced? They were never married

172: Are you taller than your mom? Nope! She was like 5′10′

171: Do you play an instrument? I can play hot cross buns on the recorder and thats the best i can do

170: What did you do yesterday? I slept and ate beef jerky[ I Believe In ]169: Love at first sight: No, but i do believe in lust and infatuation at first site. I think  love takes time to grow.

168: Luck: Yes like, as in karma

167: Fate: Catch me in the right mood and i do

166: Yourself: NOOOOOPE

165: Aliens: Yes

164: Heaven: No

163: Hell: Yes, it’s called Texas

162: God: Naaaaah

161: Horoscopes: I think they’re accurate generalizations

160: Soul mates: Yeah but not like the traditional; kind of way, i think we have lots of people we’re meant to be with in various ways

159: Ghosts: Yes and No i go back and forth

158: Gay Marriage: 100%

157: War:0%

156: Orbs: Idk what this is talking about but sure, ill root for them

155: Magic: No, Im a science gal[ This or That ]154: Hugs or Kisses: Hugs

153: Drunk or High: High, drinking gives me a tummy ache

152: Phone or Online: Online

151: Red heads or Black haired: Red heads

150: Blondes or Brunettes: Brunettes

149: Hot or cold: Cold

148: Summer or winter: Winter

147: Autumn or Spring: Autumn

146: Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla

145: Night or Day: Night

144: Oranges or Apples: Apples

143: Curly or Straight hair: Curly

142: McDonalds or Burger King: Mcdonald’s

141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: White Chocolate is the key to my heart

140: Mac or PC: PC

139: Flip flops or high heels: HIgh heels even though i cant walk in them

138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: Sweet and poor

137: Coke or Pepsi: Coke

136: Hillary or Obama: Obama

135: Burried or cremated: Cremated, the idea of rotting creeps me out

134: Singing or Dancing: Dancing but im bad at both

133: Coach or Chanel: Idgaf

132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: ??????

131: Small town or Big city: Big city

130: Wal-Mart or Target: Wal-Mart

129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: I hate Adam Sandler

128: Manicure or Pedicure: Manicure

127: East Coast or West Coast: West Coast

126: Your Birthday or Christmas: Christmas all the waaaaaay

125: Chocolate or Flowers: Flowers, preferably potted

124: Disney or Six Flags: Disney i’m scared of roller coasters

123: Yankees or Red Sox: I dont sports[ Here’s What I Think About ]122: War: Its stupid and bad and i hate violence 

121: George W. Bush: Okay, looook, i dig his paintings, okay???

120: Gay Marriage: gimme that shit i want that shit

119: The presidential election: I could be down for violence against trump

118: Abortion: everyone should have safe access to abortions, they save lives

117: MySpace: I never had one? Does it still exist? I may make one for fun? 

116: Reality TV: i dont ever watch it, i avoid it like the plauge

115: Parents: Mine were grade A shit

114: Back stabbers: What goes around comes around

113: Ebay: I use Amazon

112: Facebook: Its filled with my racist family, i avoid it 

111: Work: I watch my niece and nephew (twins) and i love it

110: My Neighbors: I don’t interact with them ever

109: Gas Prices: why so expensive pls give me break

108: Designer Clothes: catch me in wal-mart clothes i bough 4 years ago

107: College: I want but cant afford halp

106: Sports: no

105: My family: I love them but they fkn annoy the shit out of me with their political views

104: The future: stop.[ Last time I ]103: Hugged someone: My niece yesterday

102: Last time you ate: I am eating a bowl of mac n’ cheese right now

101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: I saw my sister’s in-laws last week and i loooooove them! I made slime with the kids

100: Cried in front of someone: When i found out my ex was cheating on me like two months ago

99: Went to a movie theater: Went on a date with a cute boi like a month ago and w saw Baby Driver it was so good

98: Took a vacation: The only vacation ive ever took in my life was with my ex and his family to Florida last summer

97: Swam in a pool: Less than a week ago

96: Changed a diaper: Yesterday, i change them for a living

95: Got my nails done:last summer

94: Went to a wedding: My oldest sister got married last week!

93: Broke a bone: when i was like 3????

92: Got a peircing: two weeks ago i got my nipples done

91: Broke the law: this morning when i got high

90: Texted: Im texting cute bbs  right now[ MISC ]89: Who makes you laugh the most: My boi Ryan who is a fkn idiot i love him

88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: I already left home and only miss having someone else cook and clean because my roomates are hopeless

87: The last movie I saw: The Last Five Years

86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: When i can move far north and start a loving and respectful communist sex cult

85: The thing im not looking forward to: Getting up for work at 5 in the morning

84: People call me: lame

83: The most difficult thing to do is: exist

82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: i sure haven’t i’m Safe

81: My zodiac sign is: Libra

80: The first person i talked to today was: Ryan

79: First time you had a crush: i liked a boy named Antonio in second grade

78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: no one? 

77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: Ryan last night when we said a stupid Ricks and Morty quote at the same time

76: Right now I am talking to: my cat Beatrice 

75: What are you going to do when you grow up: probably cry a lot

74: I have/will get a job: working with kids!

73: Tomorrow: I will be very tired

72: Today: I am very tired

71: Next Summer: I will be very hot

70: Next Weekend: Im going to tie ppl up with rope

69: I have these pets: see 187

68: The worst sound in the world: A baby crying because they’re hurt or sad

67: The person that makes me cry the most is: my ex inbox me for his url so you can tell him hes a meanie

66: People that make you happy: My nieces and nephews and also my bff

65: Last time I cried: last night because the damn dog was so cute

64: My friends are: amazing and deserve the world

63: My computer is: slow and bad but i still love her

62: My School: was down the road from a prison, which my mom was in years ago

61: My Car: is old and smells like my mom’s cigarettes 

60: I lose all respect for people who: are racist, homophobic, sexist, trans-phobic, Islamophobic, anti-semetic, ect. 

59: The movie I cried at was: the beginning of Guardians of the Galaxy

58: Your hair color is: Auburn

57: TV shows you watch: Game of Thrones, Criminal Minds, Sense 8

56: Favorite web site: tumblr.com

55: Your dream vacation: stargazing in Alaska 

54: The worst pain I was ever in was: when i fucked up my siatic nerve in a car wreck in January 

53: How do you like your steak cooked: medium-well

52: My room is: cold and messy and covered in kittens

51: My favorite celebrity is: Harry Styles

50: Where would you like to be: on a beach in Iceland with a person playing a ukulele 

49: Do you want children: Only if i have more than one long term partner living with me 

48: Ever been in love: Yes 

47: Who’s your best friend: see 186 its Ryan

46: More guy friends or girl friends: no

45: One thing that makes you feel great is: when my cat comes to me and just lays where shes barely touching me 

44: One person that you wish you could see right now: My best friend from high school who committed suicide 

43: Do you have a 5 year plan: no

42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: no

41: Have you pre-named your children: I want to name my kid Coraline but id also like to do something not defined by a single gender?

40: Last person I got mad at: My sister because she left the dogs inside all day while i was at work even though shes a stay at home mom and so the poor things had accidents and no one was happy

39: I would like to move to: Canada

38: I wish I was a professional: mom[ My Favorites ]37: Candy: white chocolate truffles 

36: Vehicle: vintage beatles 

35: President: Alexander Hamilton

34: State visited: Florida

33: Cellphone provider: ?????

32: Athlete: ?????

31: Actor: Nat Wolf

30: Actress: Maise willams

29: Singer: Radical Face/Hozier

28: Band: Bad Books

27: Clothing store: Wal-mart

26: Grocery store: Joe-V’s Smart Shop

25: TV show: Game of Thrones

24: Movie: Swiss Army Man

23: Website: see 56

22: Animal:  Monitors 

21: Theme park: i dont do theme parks

20: Holiday: Halloween

19: Sport to watch: does Yuri on Ice count?

18: Sport to play: no

17: Magazine: i don’t read magazines but i heard Teen Vogue is doing wonders

16: Book: The Kite Runner

15: Day of the week: Wednesday’s Child is Full of Woe

14: Beach: wherever i was in Florida 

13: Concert attended: Warped Tour 2015 there was a band called Onwards ect. it was so good

12: Thing to cook: homemade flour tortillas 

11: Food: Cheese enchiladas

10: Restaurant: This cute little place named Marianne’s thats down the road from my house she makes the best tamales 

9: Radio station: 94.5 The Buzz

8: Yankee candle scent: Clean Linen 

7: Perfume: i dont

6: Flower: Lilies 

5: Color: pink

4: Talk show host: Steve Harvey

3: Comedian: John Mulaney

2: Dog breed: Pit Bulls

1: Did you answer all these truthfully? 100%

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1. Coffee or tea? Tea. Tea comes in flavours, coffee kind of only comes in strengths, so I gotta go with my tea.

2. Black and white or color? Black and White with one or two vibrant color accents like yellow and green.

3. Drawings or paintings? Drawings

4. Dresses or skirts? Dresses 

5. Books or movies? As a writer i should say books but Hello Depression Called and wants me to Only Watch Things due to less Effort

6. Pepsi or Coke? both of them when flat or frozen.

7. Chinese or Italian? Chinese if you mean food.

8. Early bird or night owl? I’m the unholy combo of both. 

9. Chocolate or vanilla? Vanilla. Chocolate lost my respect for it when it made me vomit.

10. Introvert or extrovert? Introvert with dependency issues and unrivalled levels of affections with almost no one to give it to. 

11. Hugs or kisses? Hugs are purer but kisses are nice if you mean the smoochy kind and not the Hello Mouth Sex kind

12. Hunting or fishing? Neither? 

13. Winter or summer? fuck them both, Spring and Autumn is where its at?

14. Spring or fall? Both?

15. Rural or urban? Urban for the sake of utilities and shopping but rural because I like to breath and sleep in peace.

16. PC or Mac? PC but i’m doomed with an outdated Mac currently. 

17. Tan or pale? Like, i’m naturally tan - what is this pale stuff of which you speak?

18. Cake or pie? Pie. Meat pie.

19. Ice cream or yogurt? Frozen Yogurt

20. Ketchup or mustard? Mustard

21. Sweet pickles or dill pickles? Sweet

22. Comedy or mystery? Mystery because comedy is lacking in quality these days

23. Boots or sandals? Boots

24. Silver or gold? Silver 

25. Pop or Rock? Both

26. Dancing or singing? Singing

27. Checkers or chess? Chinese Checkers to be specific

28. Board games or video games? Both

29. Wine or beer? Beer

30. Freckles or dimples? Freckles

31. Honey mustard or BBQ sauce? Honey mustard

32. Body weight exercises or lifting weights? 

33. Baseball or basketball? Since i hate both i’m gonna rank this by ‘which anime have i seen of it and cared? And so, the answer my friends, is basketball.

34. Crossword puzzles or sudokus? Crosswords are okay, but Word Searches are amazing

35. Facial hair or clean shaven? Clean shaven because i don’t like ripping my lips on yours? is that so much to ask?

36. Crushed ice or cubed ice? Crushed.

37. Skiing or snowboarding? I’m the person who sits in a halfassed and half built igloo and just glares at people from it’s icy comfort

38. Smile or game face? I look like this typically:

39. Bracelet or necklace? Necklaces but... rings are where it’s at

40. Fruit or vegetables? Fruit

41. Sausage or bacon? All those both do is give me gas, but i don’t mind crunchy bacon for garnish.

42. Scrambled or fried? scrambled. i put sugar and cinnamon in mine sometimes.

43. Dark chocolate or white chocolate? If i MUST pick a chocolate it’s gotta be dark and filled with mint OR it has to be milk chocolate and filled with fruit or nuts or both.

44. Tattoos or piercings? Piercings

45. Antique or brand new? Both

46. Dress up or dress down? Fucked if I know baby, i just spin a wheel and toss a dart to decide.

47. Cowboys or aliens? Space cowboys

48. Cats or dogs? Both don’t Make Me choose

49. Pancakes or waffles? Lately, waffles.

50. Bond or Bourne? Who? What? I don’t know.

51. Sci-Fi or fantasy? Both with a tendency towards fantasy

52. Numbers or letters? Letters

53. Harry Potter or Lord of the Rings? ... The Hobbit.

54. Fair or theme park? Both are excuses for me to make people hang out with me and not sleep all day.

55. Money or fame? Money because fuck fame, damn like, i want friends and affection not a 24/7 security team protecting me from stalkers and papparazi 

56. Washing dishes or doing laundry? I mean I love both but lately laundry since i hate being forced to do other people’s dishes.

57. Snakes or sharks? Snakes

58. Orange juice or apple juice? Orange juice 

59. Sunrise or sunset? Sunrise

60. Slacker or over-achiever? Both. I hate life.

61. Pen or pencil? Pencil because I’m a mess.

62. Peanut butter or jelly? Peanut butter

63. Grammys or Oscars? I stop watching both when the red carpet segment is over.

64. Detailed or abstract? Detailed 

65. Multiple choice questions or essay questions? Multiple choice.

66. Adventurous or cautious? Cautious but ambitious. 

67. Saver or spender? I have no choice in this matter as a broke person.

68. Glasses or contacts? Glasses

69. Laptop or desktop? Laptop may be convenient but a whole Desktop and monitor is kind of hard for a little bitch to steal from me in the middle of the night with all the millions of cords and accessories.

70. Classic or modern? classic or modern what? probably ‘both’ for the answer.

71. Personal chef or personal fitness trainer? Chef. but only to be taught how to cook alongside them so i can end up cooking things for them too.

72. Internet or cell phone? Internet

73. Call or text? Text

74. Curly hair or straight hair? curly would at least mean i don’t have to fucking brush it or style it, this fuck ass mop on my damn head

75. Shower in the morning or shower in the evening? Oh god, whenever i can muster the energy tbh.

76. Spicy or mild? Spicy 

77. Marvel or DC? both but also i’m kind of neutral?

78. Paying a mortgage or paying rent? Ugh UGH ugh UUUUGH UuuuUuUUuUuUGH

79. Sky dive or bungee jump? See previous answer ^

80. Oreos or Chips Ahoy? Chips Ahoy since they don’t sell that brand in my country and i miss them

81. Jello or pudding? Both.

82. Truth or dare? Truth

83. Roller coaster or Ferris wheel? Ferris wheel

84. Leather or denim? Denim

85. Stripes or solids? ...fandom merchandise and prints.

86. Bagels or muffins? bagels

87. Whole wheat or white? multigrain. i’m a bird bitch.

88. Beads or pearls? Gemstones

89. Hardwood or carpet? Hardwood because fuck???? vacuuming????

90. Bright colors or neutral tones? this fluctuates with my gender presentation.

91. Be older than you are or younger than you are? younger

92. Raisins or nuts? Both, preferably in small doses with a thin layer of milk chocolate.

93. Picnic or nice restaurant? Both are nice but a restaurant has more options

94. Black leather or brown leather? Black

95. Long hair or short hair? this also fluctuates with my gender presentation.

96. “Ready, aim, fire” or “Ready, fire, aim”? Okay so like, why the hell would you fire before you aim, like for real people? (in other words: “Ready, aim, fire”)

97. Fiction or non-fiction? If it’s written well and well founded then i’ll read anything

98. Smoking or non-smoking? Non-smoking

99. Think before you talk or talk before you think? Both? it depends on the situation

100. Asking questions or answering questions? Answering because i have a million things to share but no almost one to talk to 

I was tagged by @crystxlrxses i think. I’m tagging:

@cecil-the-hooligan 

[barcaavengers]

So I've seen a couple of people doing a list of what they have been doing these quarantine times, so thought to do some of my own as well. Mostly because while I'm holding off just fine, most of my friends are going crazy and running out of things to do. I was normal until last week I got Lay Off at work and now I have extra time for everything. So here are a couple of my own suggestions and how I'm holding up.

1. Read Books. Even those you have already read, go back to it. Read that book you have been postponing.

2. Movies Marathon. Watch all those sagas, watch them in order now that there is a pause in movies. If they have series, add them too. You got suggestions? Add them below! Some ideas:

Star Wars

Harry Potter

Twilight

Pirates of the Caribbean

Predator

Marvel

DC

Jurassic Park

Terminator

Bad Boys

Toy Story

Matrix

Shrek

Star Trek

Lion King

Disney Movies

Saw

Purge

Indiana Jones

3. Clean your room. Throw away/Donate those things you don't need or use anymore. Check all those clothe if they still fit. Organize and redecorate. Change the layout. Organize drawers. If you haven't done it in a while, find out how you'd like to paint your room. Go a little bit more and go for your house.

3. Don't stop in your room, go to the kitchen, laundry room, etc.

4. Learn drawing, do some sketches, practice!

5. Watch Series. All those series in your Netflix List? Take some time to watch them. Got suggestions? Add them below!

6. Write a fanfic. Best way to spend time because your mind will keep giving you scenarios at some point.

7. Board games! Cards! Try doing a card house. Play with your family.

8. Play games online. Download apps. There is a bunch of games to play and one can test your typing skills and race against others. https://play.typeracer.com/

9. Spa Day! Treat yourself! Feel good! My resource has been Pinterest. And good thing is that you start looking for something and find somethinf else that calls your attention and its like "Oh I should check that later".

10. Play Stop with your friends either if its conference or video call. I did it through video call and it was a blast. For those of you who don't know Stop, it a game in which you do a table of several columns with the titles od Name, Last Name, thing, animal, place (country or city wise), food or fruit, color, and you may keep adding on. Do it your own! After the table, someone says "A" outloud and continues the rest of the alphabet in their mind. Someone else says stop and they have to say in which letter they were stopped at and said letter will be the one to use to fill the table.

11. Nails! I am a person that loves to try new designs and things with nails. Mix colors, find idea, try doing a theme based nail art on your favorite movie or series. If you like it? Upload it to give ideas to others! My current one is something easy for Pirates of the Caribbean. I watched the movies the other way and still got two left to get ideas. You don't need a whole nail kit. I started with toothpicks and broken pens.

12. Talk with friends. Just a quick passing by to see how they are doing.

13. GAMES! If you have a console, go ahead and play. Have fun. Meet people. Finish those levels. Start a new one. Start a new game. Do it!

14. Look for crafting ideas. You can do things with newspaper. Just with things that you have home. Youtube can help with this and just Google in general.

15. Find fun ways to do your hair! I am one that my hair is what they call "dead". If I curl it 20min after I got nothing. Find different hair styles to rock for when this is over!

16. Cook! I don't cook at all, mom either (at least not in a daily basis, more like 2 week basis), so I don't think a good outcome would work. But try it!

17. Play. With. Your. Pets! Give them love! Shower them. Train them. JUST LOVE THEM!

18. Learn a new language! I have Duolingo and it has been quite productive. I do it in a different way though. You have an unused notebook? Take it and put it to use. You know how Duolingo divides what you learn? Ex. Pronouns, past, present, basic, etc.? Divide your notebook like that. Write the word, write the translation in your language (or another language if you want to spice things up), and write how you hear it/would pronounce it. Go up the highest level in each or try to do them in the same level a.k.a. Pronouns level 3, Nouns level 3, etc.

19. Learn something new! So the University of Harvard has a page where they have small courses of different topics. Best of all? IT IS FREE! Take one and learn! I'm currently doing one of the Pyramids of Giza! Super interesting! Page to view them: https://online-learning.harvard.edu/catalog/FREE?page=4

20. Plan your next or first trip! I have one planned for London, Paris, Spain for November this year. I still have my hopes up cause I have planned this so well. I don't want to give it up, I'm in denial. So what I do is check the places to go. It doesn't have to be for this year, but plan it out! Check places to visit and plan your budget! I might open a blog for trips (honestly a little bit of everything) so I'll keep you updated but if you have any questions on planning, hit me up! I do it in a way that even mom's friends trust me to plan everything for them.

21. Call your relatives! At least those you get along with. Make sure they are alright. Even if you haven't called them in a while I'm sure they will love to hear you are doing okay!

22. From the newspapers take out the Sudokus, Crosswords, Word Finders, have fun!

23. Write your future goals! Reflect on them!

24. Exercise! But do it in a fun way! Walk the dog. Go to Youtube and check those Dance Central, Just Dance exercise routines with your favorite songs!

25. Plan your next plans! What upcoming events you want to go to when this is over? Write them in the calendar and check information and follow up!

26. Read Comics online! There a few sites that have them free, the old ones and some of the new. Look them up!

27. Learn new games!

28. Sleep!

29. You miss sports? Rewatch your favorite matches.

30. Funny videos on Youtube! I found with my manager Shark Puppet and we couldn't stop laughing so find funny videos to watch by yourself or with friends, family and coworkers!

If anyone wanta to add ideas or suggestions or comments do so! If I find more I'll add them as reblogs. ❤

Stay safe everyone! Stay Home! Have Fun! ❤

[iamahufflepuffhearmeroar]

Bizarre Questions & Answers

1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you? All the time. 2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you? 5 3. The person you would never want to meet? Satan. Feel like we'd have some issues. 4. What is your favorite word? Random 5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be? A pine tree. So I can shit pine cones and make you question if it's a pine cone or a turd on the sidewalk. And then watch you sidestep it anyway just to be safe. Downside: High fatality rate during winter. 6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought? Is that really my hair? Jesus. 7. What shirt are you wearing? A black shirt that says 'Love me, love me not. Whatever.' 8. What do you label yourself as? A weirdo 9. Bright room or dark room? Depends. When I'm sleepy? Dark room. When I'm happy? Bright room. 10. What were you doing at midnight last night? Uhhhhhh. Sleeping. 11. Favorite age you’ve been so far? I miss being 8. 12. Who told you they loved you last? My friend Marissa 13. Your worst enemy? My heart 14. What is your current desktop picture? The beach 15. Do you like someone? As in a friend way? Yeah, I like loads of people. As in romantically? No 16. The last song you listened to? 'Seven Nation Army' by The White Stripes 17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up? My aunt who lives in Montana 18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face? Every single person who's ever broken my heart. This one's for you lot. 19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do? Eddie Redmayne. He'd have to love me. 20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional) My neck 21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do? I'd have dirty blonde hair that looks brown, with product in it to spike it softly, but there'd be a slight curl in it to make it evident I have curly hair. Blue eyes, pale complexion, dark rimmed glasses. I'd wear a plaid shirt with converse and boot cut jeans, because skinny jeans are horrible. Stud belt. Black watch. Rings on hands, silver, not gold. Tattoos. 22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it? I do watercolor paintings and actually won an award for a watercolor painting in school 23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of? Holes 24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal. Oh. Um. Tuna with pickles on toasted Italian. Sorry, I'm lame with sandwiches. 25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it? I wouldn't want to. I'd feel too guilty. I'd try to find the person who dropped it, and if I couldn't, I'd probably put it in a box on top of a shelf and never touch it because the guilt would be too great. I'd eventually donate it to charity. It'd be for a good cause. 26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go? That gives me anxiety. But England. 27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be? I've never liked beer. Um... Mike's Hard Lemonade. Yeah. 28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place? If you're a fuckboy/fuckgirl, you're drowning first. 29. What is your favorite expletive? Fuck 30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno? Uh. God. My purse. 31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? There's so many. Probably... my first true, honest to god, I-want-to-die heartbreak. Just take that out of there. 32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world! Okay this is the coolest superpower ever. Can I marry Eddie Redmayne? I'll move to England and be with Eddie Redmayne. 33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back? Shit. I don't know. My sister. 34. What was your last dream about? My ex. 35. Are you a good….[insert anything you’d like here]? I'm a good artist, particularly with water colors. 36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital? No 37. Have you ever built a snowman? I have. It was a disappointment. 38. What is the color of your socks? I'm not wearing any 39. What type of music do you like? All sorts of kinds. Give me a song and I'll listen. 40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets? Sunsets 41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor? Chocolate, but I also love vanilla and strawberry. I'm sorry, I just love milkshakes. 42. What football team do you support? (I will answer in terms of American football as well as soccer) Seahawks (can't help it, I live in Washington) 43. Do you have any scars? Yes, several 44. What do you want to be when you graduate? Successful 45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? I'm already physically beautiful. I would say... any insecurity. 46. Are you reliable? On some things 47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be? 'Are you happy?' 48. Do you hold grudges? Yes 49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create? A dear (dog bear) 50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had? A conversation with a coworker of mine, in which case he apparently was attempting to woo me by telling me he was psychotic and I was sitting there looking for an escape route 51. Are you a good liar? Only when I'm feeling like I want to die. Ironic, no? 52. How long could you go without talking? A couple of hours 53. What has been you worst haircut/style? That time when I was a kid and I cut off one side of my hair to the point I had a bob 54. Have you ever baked your own cake? Several times 55. Can you do any accents other than your own? Uhhhhh. Very poor British that turns into Scottish that turns into Australian. 56. What do you like on your toast? Butter 57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of? A man with half his head exploding 58. What would be you dream car? 1967 Chevy Impala 59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain. Yes. I sing along to Adam Lambert and do the Salsa. 60. Do you believe in aliens? Oh yeah 61. Do you often read your horoscope? No, I choose my own path, but it's occasionally interesting to read as a piece of fiction 62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet? R 63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons? Dragons 64. What do you think about babies? They're cute until they puke