#i miss youy girl

[ennabear]

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oki so for the ask game if anyone hasnt already 14, 15. 60, 63

and u need to know I love and adore you beyond what words can articulate. or numbers. my palms are sweating typing this I LOVE YOUI LOVE YOU

MY RIGELBEAR HAIIII HEHEHE I LOVE YOU THE MOSTTTTT MWAH MWAH MWAH MWAH A MILLION KISSES!!!!!!

14. how do you write emotional scenes? do you ever feel what the characters feel? do you draw from personal experiences?

yes to both!!!!i usually write emotional scenes when i’m feeling emotional and 90% of the time i pull from personal experiences 😭 but i love it!!! it’s therapeutic hehe if i have to suffer why not make sevika suffer with me???? ok help that’s so mean i’m sorry sevbaby i promise i love you

15. how do you write smut scenes? do you get very visual or detailed? how important is it to be realistic?

well… let’s just say… i have no personal experience… so i kinda just fake it til i make it LMAO idk i feel like it’s not too hard??? i just describe the position and how they’re both feeling and what happens??? and idk about it being realistic, i genuinely can’t tell because my only experience is sitting in bed alone and thinking “wow i miss sevika i wish i could fuck her…” but i think i do alright…

60. have you had a writer you admire comment on your fic? what was that like?

YESSSS AAAAAAAAAA so many times i love all of my mutuals they’re all of my favorite writers (especially you hehehe) and it’s always an honor to see them like it or to get a comment or reblog 🤭🤭 it’s why i keep writing hehe i couldn’t do it without you guys

63. something you hate to see in smut

ok here we go… mainly what i HATE to see is ageplay/anything adjacent to that like huge age gaps and concerning plots and dialogue (sevika calling reader “little girl”, reader being young and mega innocent, not even knowing what sex is or how it works) ITS JUST SO GROSS TO ME 😭 also because don’t you want to be a 40 year old butch with her??? this is make believe and you’re choosing to be freshly 18 and innocent instead of 50 and slutty???? get out!!!!

i’d say it’s more of a writing thing than a kink thing??? i love all kinks i think they all deserve to be written about and i love even being introduced to things that i don’t know about, but WHY are we not doing that as adults?????? thats all hehehe

[steadyblazestrawberry]

Asking myself a basic question but: yes they have darlings and yes there are girls at the school, I just don’t have their photos ready

X is really secretive about his relationship at first, but once he realizes that the country that the yandere school is well removed from the same laws about hunting Yandere as where he lives, he tells them about his girlfriend:

Darling

X looks up to find Sean shaking his head at him, incredulously. “Dude, her name can’t actually be Darling?” He mocks, dodging a swipe from Sebastian. X blinks at him, unbothered by his mocking. “I assume your girlfriend has a better name?” Sean swallows but looks away. “Of course she does! It’s Star!” X raises a pale eyebrow, it almost blending in with his fringe.

Sebastian glares at his brother, knowing damn well he didn’t just say the name of Sebastian’s one true love;

Star Fields

“Uh, I think youi have your right hand mixed up with my girlfriend.” Sebastian quietly seethes, looking less like a puppy and more like a mad dog. Sean smirks down at his brother while backing away, “I know what I said, brother dear. Don’t be too mad about it, just think of it as her up- AHH!” Sean didn’t finish his taunt as Sebastian jumped on top of him, whaling away at his brother. X looks down at the two before turning to the silent figure in the room, Kurosugi, according to the nametag on his coat. “What about you? Do you have a lover?”

Kurosugi smirks, stubbing out his cigarette to pull out a wedding photo from his coat and hands it to X. Flipping it over, it reads ‘Kurosugi and Shiromiya, 2024” and in near handwriting underneath is the first name,

Aoi Kurosugi

“Oh wow, Kurosugi, I didn’t know you were married.” The twins, at the sound of X’s voice, stop fighting and turn to look at the photo. “The hell, how’d a mute get married before us?” Sean groans. Sebastian rubs the side of his head, “well he is in the yakuza, maybe he-“ Sebastian cuts himself off while eyeing Kurosugi’s missing finger, noticing his hand now fingering a gun holstered at his side. “Maybe she just loves him a lot!” Sebastian corrects himself, holding his hands up in defeat before his brother turns to chastise him. “Seb, we’re yandere. If she loves him, then I’m the King of England.” Sebastian bows stupidly at his brother before pointing out Kurosugi’s gun and Sean nods, understanding quickly.

“Well, this was… enlightening , to say the least. I definitely want to know more about you… X” Sean purrs and X sits up straight from looking at the feed of his apartment on his phone, watching Darling dance around the apartment as she cleans. “Huh? Sorry, she likes when I watch so I try to tune in a little bit a day.” Sean looks down at what he’s doing and glares at X, “she ‘wants’ you to watch her?” X nods, a little scared of how Sebastian started to back away from his own brother. “And you ‘try’ to watch?” Sean nods at X before backing towards the door, waving at Sebastian. “We’ll be in touch X.” With that, the twins leave, leaving X and Kurosugi alone. Before X can say anything, he gets a text from Kurosugi that sends a chill down his spine.

You’re not really a yandere, are you, X?

[macverse]

Denim & Mistletoe Desires

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JC and Justin have been separated for far too long during the pandemic. With the world slowly falling back to what can be considered normal, it's the holiday season and they finally are able to be with each other again.

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I know you like it

I know you like it it it

I know you like it

I know youI know you like it it it

When you walk in it’s as if the world slows down around me. Like magic, the sea of people between us parts, and all I see is you. Perfectly dressed as always; black on black with a hint of Christmas red at your breast. You wore your glasses that you hate because I love them and I asked you to wear them. My fine ass man that I haven’t seen in over a year because of the pandemic. 

We didn't need to stay apart but it was the best choice. When your dad injured his back for the second time this year and unfortunately needed surgery to help recover it was clear that you were the best person out of your siblings to make the sacrifice and go all the way to Florida to help your mom out. Although we knew we’d miss each other we ultimately decided that you’d stay put with family after your father recovered rather than risk contact trying to get back to each other. Trains were just as risky if not riskier than planes and I didn't want to ask you to drive the 42 hours between us. As the days turned to months then turned to years the 2,780 miles between you and me felt further and further away but finally tonight my eyes can behold you without the guise of a computer screen between us.

Don't know why, but girl, I'm feeling close to you

Maybe is this ocean view, I'm so emotional

And all these stars been dancing on my head

Too long, too long, too long

You haven’t seen me yet as you are greeted by the people you know closest to the door. I’m all the way across the room but I can still enjoy watching you from here. Almost everyone knows you; by association or by fame. The ones you worked with that beautiful year you spared to work with me greet you with surprise and exclamations. Mike from accounting who you used to talk about traveling with. Leslie, whose position you had temporally filled after she left to get married, hugged, and kissed you around her baby bump. It's been so long since anyone has seen anyone and everyone is a sight for sore eyes this year at the company holiday party. 

David, the one who you trained to replace you, hugs you warmly and his now almost three-year-old toddler grabs on to you with joy from his fathers’ arms although he’s never met you. This does give me a chance to see you in the rare but beautiful element of you with a child. Although you've told me time and time again that you never wanted to be a father it’s always been clear that you are the best with children. Even my son, now our son cracked through your iron-clad door to parenthood. A soft smile finds my lips as my heart warms to see you take the toddler in your arms with a soft toss in the air and hug him sweetly to your body. His giggles are like music even from where I’m standing and many heads turn to see the happy child.

I wrote a song for you, I wanna sing to you

But every time I'm close to you

The words wanna come out, but I forget

It's so strong, it's so strong, it's so strong

Moving closer to where you are I am stopped by Marcella and Johan. I lose sight of you as I stop to speak with them, passing along holiday wishes and hopes for the new year but the chimes of your laugh reach my ears through the cacophony of the largest group anyone has been comfortable to be around in a while. Thankfully we’re a small company and we were able to rent out a large space to keep everyone comfortable and stress-free. We’ve had a good year despite the total shift to work from home. Lots of other brands had suffered during the past two years but WilliamRast was thankfully not one of them. Our sales dropped slightly but this year we nearly cracked the hundred million so obviously, we had to celebrate. 

The other people in the group with Marcella and Johan ask me about my year, about our son but my answers come automatically because my mind is only on you. My heartbeat picked up the moment I caught a glance of your now long, gray-streaked hair. Bless your mother for keeping you from dying your gray away and keeping your luscious chestnut lock from getting too long. You look like something out of my dreams as I spy you now closer to me talking to a new group of people. We both gained and lost, and lost some more weight while we quarantined. Not that I could complain before but the return of your perfect strong, sturdy form had me wishing for your return more and more each day. Your back is to me so I take full advantage; eating up just how toned your already beautiful ass has become. 

Didn't I seem like I'm catching something

That's because it's true

I can't deny it, I won't try it

But I think that you know

I look around and everything I see is beautiful

Cause all I see is you

And I can't deny it, and I stand by you

And I won't hide it anymore

I don’t want you to find me too soon. I’m enjoying watching you work the room. Not one to spoil a good show, I excuse myself from the group that had pulled me in under the pretense of needing a refill. Unfortunately, I have to turn my back to you as I head off in the direction of the bar. Our son, now almost seven years old flys by me with his cousins on his tail. He’s been just as excited to finally see you as I have been and had barely wanted to sleep the night prior. 

He's not the only one that aches for you. My hand and lips were hungry to hold and taste you as my eyes were to see you. Each day we've been apart a dull ache has built inside of me that after all this time feels like it's meant to be there. For the first time in so long, it's gone and I almost feel lost without it. With each step away from you, my mind says ‘ turn around’. Accompanied with each heartbeat I hear 'he's just over there’. I'm going against my body's instinct to reclaim my place by your side but as you’d taught me the anticipation is just as sweet as the beholding. You've already been here just a few miles away from our home taking the appropriate time to self-quarantine after traveling back to me. Your last day of quarantine couldn’t have come sooner. 

Our son signaled to me that I was going the wrong way, that you were behind me but I placed a finger on my lips signaling to him to not say that he’d seen me to you. I sealed our silent agreement with a wink as he giggled and continued at high speed towards you. I heard his exclamation of joy as he careened into you. Peeking over my shoulder once I reached the bar I see you crouched down hugging him and gesturing at how tall he’s gotten. You’ve missed almost half a foot of his life all this while. Even from here, I can see the disappointment under the joy on your face. I feel a pang of sadness in my chest but quickly think that you still have at least his full body height more to go and there will be time to make up for the lost six inches.

Soon you're complimenting my nieces on their dresses and I see you twirl the youngest of the two causing the light to play off the sequins on her skirt. She’s pulling your hand, probably saying she wants to dance with you. You expertly swing her up into your arms and glide across the floor in your usual effortless way. We're all a family here and there are many children here tonight but the co-founders’ children are the center of the attention. Many eyes turn your way as you waltz across the dance floor with my business partner and best friend’s youngest to the music softly playing in the room; spinning and dipping her high and low causing her to giggle and the spectators to clap as they look on. 

You're in the best of moods tonight. I'm sure it wouldn't take me long to guess why...

Read the rest of the story on my AO3

[the-firebird69]

Halloween 6 (1995) - Kill Count

and we hear her she is pumped and psychotic and mean.  but hates tehm for hurting her. and tons of them it is ridiculous. she tried to help and got hurt.  tons dont do it right and no it is wors now.  says it and they try for her.  are evila nd dumb need to leave. tons of thlem.  trump too is an ass.  really the macs influence but ok wont stop then what. this continues ok.  tons of times.  and allover. and it is the macs inspiring it.

tonight you see leaders of morlock fall mostly no it is th em but some pseudo empire and tehy are sought.  adn by trumps.  he wonders who and i say it. me yes.

the one whos head exploded was here in pg and made fun of him today and my husband said no you dont do that. and they keep records.  use his mechanics suits adn tommy f face blame him.  are losers.  and he was the sherrif who made very rue comments is not dan or trump.  no. is not.  was a mac morlock not psuedo empire and one of bja and was known to my husband a pranzxter and a loud mouth. kept hollering at him.  form  a distance. and wont shut it. did not know him 

next guy was the bars and he is gone shortly.  woke up my husband ten times theis week alone. is a mean person and a bja.  is gone. shrotly. and by her hands is her fathers ppl.  is mean and about it i do it not you. and did not but ok.  tons of times she uses profanity on him has him but oother stuff. she fights them too.  he ws not known to my husband but weas a miscreant on him mostly all the time here. wont be back no. both are regants. and yes the area is seething with macs below not topside is a ddeception htey did it while aaron was ruling over him and later bill. re nuts.  and he said it e dont they do good.

the third is obscure. no. you see his face then no.  and it is into a mulcher. that is where. he dies fully.  and goodbye a trumpster and noisy my husband did not nknow him nor speak to him. yet the ahole follows him and blabs all day all night. is mean they rep bja and will be replaced but no dont do it as often and get hit more. tons need it too relief and are at the uk mostly and ohter but there they rule and use it.  and try for ships and tons hit them.  tons. are daft.

too hot reallly

others recover some not fully.  becka has had it fights hard. the russian woman survives and hits lily a lot. is phantasma. survives it and not too badly.  comes out swining lays her flat a lot is the starcraft warhammer lady and did a good job. does not deserve it. they are there to find macs. and she is berzerk.  hates her after.  and sees it im her no no wrong person and still hits.  then this you die and fires on her hard.  misses and oops out.  hits a lot after. she falls. and gets up. says it you two out no funds you out. and hates it but ok they continue.  losers ok.

fiinally he hits jason that is and a few die. it is costly.  tons say it you do it and ok. no.  he hits trump and son and cheese and all do ok all each night. then this this one out. and it is a bja and mean. follows my husband finds holes tries all day. is a bum.  and he dies trying.  and is on fire. burns fully. in  ahouse ablaze.

the next one is crushed by the camper no.  it is bg is injured badly his arm crushed and gone again.  each time.  and it is symbolic.  and  by macs too yes.  was off today already. went back up cme off again.

and youi two macs took it used others and fakd to be them too.  and they are there at the daimonds and huge there in saudi.  and are making the massvie laser.  it is a four fifty mile accross. and a hge beam at times 70 mles wide.  affectivee can disable fleets

and we use this. ok he tells us ok we hear it you die mac blab

Thor Freya say

to more fully by jason vorhees

the guy in the pic lost his head twie had it die stay out.  and squished it fully. you see it fall flattened. no.  not him

the three paintballers die. are generals and of trump dead as door nails discected. adn for revenge.  and the girl in the house alone  hit and ripped apart he ate all four brains.  and they are gone.

the crushed skull is dan.  lives. and has a crushed skull for a time then is gone 

andd yes the macs had them do it.  and jason knows who.  and hits them for stuff to hit the macs iwth  tons of times. and tons of idiots.  and my husband did not do it they said he  did.  and did not.  made it look it a bit. no we were forced to see macs take it.

the girl was the one from today no.  she is hot no. is a small girl and was bothering him n the bike and for months.  wont stop died. and was happy no way ok. her brain half eaten the ohter half popcorn.  had him eat it. a dn jason does not know to do it no he does to blame us. althoughh we need it ok

and the war is on at the rings. and they are at 20 and fight.  tons say it they fall elsewhere too now. and it is on and hit  thirty out there from here.  and are at it.  and ten out no. find the way mb. the say.  jason scott gobey and others around still yes.and my husband said it they out who do i know then and they laughed.  and nuranda laughed. and they all thought it was not good and it aint. it sucks here.

tons see it jason is in la.  and dies yes.  and hit there nope goes there to norht carolina again. a hrrid scene

tons die tonight and forever ok

Hera 

Zues

Olympus we see it too they are uppity if said they died. but heck ok you all are assholes to him and serve macs. we use it now and say it that way

we shall

Thor Freya

[that-angry-noldo]

Chatroom || M. Eledhwen, Hurin Thalion

Hurin Thalion is online

Hurin Thalion

18:46 hey

M. Eledhwen is online

18:46 i catched the wifi so i can text you again :)

18:47 how are you doing?

M. Eledhwen

18:47 I have a bad feeling about this

18:47 sorry

18:47 it's just

Hurin Thalion

18:48 hey it's gonna be alright okay?

18:48 it's gonna be fine

18:48 you won't even notice I left

M. Eledhwen

18:49 it's already empty without you.

Hurin Thalion

18:49 i know

18:49 but

18:50 trust me, okay?

18:51 we didn't want this war right? but somene got to show the bastards what are we made of

18:52 i'll be home in few months

M. Eledhwen

18:52 promise

Hurin Thalion

18:53 i promise with all my being

18:54 take care of turin alright? is he asleep?

M. Eledhwen

18:55 yeah

18:55 yeah i think so

Hurin Thalion

18:55 good

18:55 i have to go

18:56 love you ❤️

M. Eledhwen

18:57 i love you too

Hurin Thalion

18:57 :)

~

M. Eledhwen

10:47 hey

10:47 how are you?

Hurin Thalion

19:32 sorry just got the chance to get on my phone connection is horrendeous i hope this sends

19:33 i'm fine, i'm fine

M. Eledhwen

19:34 have you adjusted yet?

Hurin Thalion

19:35 yea yea think so. Sorry i gtg now take care

Hurin Thalion is offline

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M. Eledhwen

19:56 hurin?

20:12 i hope you're alright.

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Hurin Thalion

17:48 i'm still kicking don't worry ;)

M. Eledhwen is online

M. Eledhwen

17:48 thank god

17:49 don't die yet

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M. Eledhwen

16:25 Turin said hi

16:25 I was at doctor today. it's a girl

18:45 alright

18:45 love you.

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Hurin Thalion

04:32 IT'S A GIRL??? THAT'S AWESOME

04:32 i'm so happy

04:33 i'm sorry i can't text more

04:34 i love you

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Morwen Eledhwen

07:16 i miss you

07:16 love you too

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M. Eledhwen

03:24 f-cking *** i couldn't get a single night of sleep this week

03:24 i'm considering just moving to the bombshelter

03:24 you have my blessing to end them in the most gruesome way possible

03:25 alright, sorry. i love you. take care.

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M. Eledhwen

15:32 i hope you're doing alright

15:33 turin drew you a card

M. Eledhwen sent a file: i-love-you-dad.jpg

15:34 i miss you

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M. Eledhwen

02:34 Hurin?

02:34 i can't sleep i'm so sorry

02:34 i knew it'll end up badly i watch the news and it's bad isn't it?

02:35 hurin please i worry so much. please tell me you're still alive

02:36 will you make it out will huor make it out there's so little news but at the same time there's so much news

02:37 i'm so sorry i'm crying hurin

02:38 promise you'll come back

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01:56 +

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M. Eledhwen

07:04 i love you

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M. Eledhwen

13:46 the baby was kicking today

13:46 i just thought i'll share with you

13:47 be careful alright?

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M. Eledhwen

21:02 shellings are f-cking everyday i f-cking hate it

21:02 i hope all of them die

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M. Eledhwen

13:45 hi dad! its turin! i miss youy. mom has a belly wit a baby and i gonna be a brother again. can we name tgis baby lalaith too? mom sais we cant but i think we shoud. i think you should kill all tge orcs. and come back and we cab be together. you mom and baby. and me. mom misses yoy and sador still can't finish the chair. sador is silly. i love you. say hi to uncle. kill all the orcs. bye! i'll text you again when mom gives me phone. i love you 💜🤐🤔😇🥶🐖🦝🐻🦇🦚

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M. Eledhwen

12:56 hurin i miss you

12:57 there's not much else to say

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M. Eledhwen

08:32 Turin asks if you texted back every hour or so i think

08:33 it would be endearing if it wasn't heartbreaking

08:34 i miss you

08:35 please come back

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M. Eledhwen

15:13 they say we need to leave the city on the news

15:14 i will send turin away

15:15 but i'll stay

15:16 i don't have where to go

15:17 and i can't leave my home

15:17 not again

15:18 i'm sorry i know you said to leave

15:19 but i can't

15:20 i knew it'll end up badly

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M. Eledhwen

16:32 dad it's me turin i text you again. i will leave mom says so. i don't want to leave i have school and friends and sador is staying. mom is staying too and i don't want to leave but mom says i have to. i want to cry but big men don't cry right? you don't cry i think? mom doesnt cry. I miss you come back. i miss you and uncle. and mom is sad and i am sad. i don't want to go. say mom i don't need to go. and kill all the orcs. and come back. i miss you.

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M. Eledhwen

17:35 turin left. rian moves in with me.

17:37 i want to hope but there's so little hope left

17:37 i'm so tired

17:38 please. please stay alive.

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M. Eledhwen

07:08 hurin hurin i think they're entering the city

07:09 oh hurin

07:09 hurin hurin i'm so scared

07:10 please

07:11 please i want to wake up

07:12 hurin

07:13 hurin

07:14 hurin

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M. Eledhwen

06:44 they're in the city

06:45 they're cutting wires there'll be no communication

06:45 they're checking phones on the streets

06:45 hurin

06:45 hurin i'm so sorry

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[flyingpurplepeopleprogrammer]

So I read this post on my timeline (I won't @ OP) that mentioned - an as aside, even - that their past-trauma manifested at least in part as hypersexuality.

I know. It's a trope in its own right: "Hot girl is traumatised and that's why she's a freak in bed." There's a kernel of truth there, too: far too many people - especially people subject to misogyny - have past trauma relating to sexuality in some way, and some of us engage in kink and engage with that trauma through it.

(note: for this discussion, gender non-conforming folks are included in "people subject to misogyny. if you feel wrongly excluded, please shoot me an ask so I can fix it, if you want to argue the fine points of terminology around patriachal oppression, find another post)

Now, I ain't about to suggest that all kink or paraphilia is trauma-related, so let's banish that notion early. I do think there's something here of interest to those of us hypnokinskters, though.

How many of us got into or engage in things like mind control, behaviour modification, brainwashing, and so on to resolve a contradiction? Are you a staunch feminist but sexual objectification is just hot? Do youI struggle with gender but feminisation or masculination are so taboo that you could never ever* engage with them? Maybe you're just horny, but society teaches you that you can only be one of a woman or a whore? What if you're categorically opposed to power structures but want to be an obedient servant - or to have one? You might not like it, but a lifetime of living in a society that sells us on this look or that feeling and - well, it's not your fault you find it hot, is it?

The contradictions are endless, but there's one solution that fits it all: mind control. All of the fun of without any of the cognitive dissonance of having to achieve dialectic synthesis!

And yeah, we talk about it. Of course we do: it's fun! We incorporate it into our fetishism. There are even memes: Who's into dumbification? Fast-track students. Submission? Bosses. Hyperfeminisation? Feminists. And so on. There's plenty about how we reconcile our fetishistic taboos with our personal beliefs, our traumas with our desires, etc.

Sometimes we talk about the stuff that isn't fun, too: serious talk about reconciling contradictions. It's good stuff, and I think it's healthy for the community, but something's missing.

We seem to focus on the experiences of S-types: subjects, submissives, and so on. Even there, it's mostly perspectives of folks subject to misogyny (gender non-conforming folk included here, because that's still an expression of patriarchal abuse). Don't get mey wrong. It's nice to finally have an area where every dick (see what I did there?) with an opinion doesn't dominate the discourse. But.

I, at least, don't see posts about how people get into mind control kink because can't let go of their need to be in control. I don't read about the people how found hypnokink because they couldn't find another way to reconcile their desire for a mass-marketed servile plaything with any kind of healthy morality. There aren't stories of domlydoms accommodating for the agency they never seemed to have in the rest of their life, or lonely people who thought that maybe, if nothing else worked, they would make someone feel for them.

Now. If I were having shower thoughts, which I was this morning, then I might think that this is an expression of kyriarchy. That there are silly ideas about toppyness and domly dominance that make it so the Person In Charge has to infallible and is never ever contradictory.

Tops don't resolve their own contradictions with mind control, only the poor brainwashed bottom's! Stir in some toxic masculinity and patriarchal shame and you have a lovely picture of why we might not be talking about toppy folks' inherent tension. Which- well- yikes? Uncommunicative stoicism ain't great for the boys, and I don't see it working well for the toppy tops, either.

And hey, it's a lot easier to look inside yourself and let yourself see this stuff when you're not the only one talking about it. If we propagate stories about what self-awareness actually looks like, then maybe we'll help more people find their feet without running through a pile of mistakes first.

[fallin-flcwer]

MOON YOUI

Name: Moon Yu-i (Youi) Age: 19 (December 18, Sagittarius) MBTI: ESFP-A High School: Some wealthy private school in Seoul ft. Gallagher University: Liberty Studies: Music and dance Parents: Jiwon & Taehyun Faceclaim: Seo Soojin

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BACKSTORY:

Youi is second youngest of the Moon family, but she is considered to be the most popular of them all; being the Moon child the nation kept tabs on for years as she grew up, and the one people predicted would be in the spotlight whether they liked her or not. Like her siblings, she grew up in Seoul and spent most of her schooling life in one of the top private schools, naturally making her way into the popular, elite, rich girl clique.

For her last couple of years in high school, she decided to change it up and move to Gallagher for an exchange program, where she ended up in the mean popular girls clique. While she personally wouldn't consider herself mean, she definitely made some comments off the top of her head that have come off a bit strongly, whether she meant for it to be that way or not. Known for being smart, sassy and to some extent funny even if you hated her there's at least one thing she's said or done in class (probably humanities) that'll stick with you.

LIBERTY AND G-IDLE // POSSIBLY GOING SOLO??

Youi auditioned and enrolled into Liberty as a member of G-idle. Thanks to her reputation in Seoul and Violet Springs she earned the title of the most popular member fairly quickly, reeling in most of the fans, being the most memorable in performances and solo projects. What a lot of people don't know is that Youi is the driving force behind the music as well, and that is because her name has been completely wiped out of the song credits and instead replaced with the group's leader.

Since the start of this year, she has privately been in a dispute with the leader of the group as well as the rest of the company board. After months of building her case, she is prepared to leave the group, taking all of the song credits with her except for the songs she didn't like because she'd be petty like that LMAO. While she is more than ready to drop the announcement for her departure she wants to be calculated in when she does, making sure that she has stuff to fall back on, and not wanting to be the cause her own downfall.

PERSONALITY

Youi is a mix of things depending on who you ask. She tailors herself to fit the bill of wherever she goes and somehow manages to do it while still being true to herself.

In Seoul, she is a person for the people. Due to her being in the spotlight since the age of 11-12, people know exactly who she is and her character. Even though she wasn't anywhere near as outspoken as she is now, people at home seem to enjoy her bold attitude as they've seen her grow up to become the witty, successful, and almost intimidating person she is today.

Outside of Seoul, moreso in Violet Springs and the fame unis, Youi takes on more of a domineering persona. Though it may just be because the rest of the world missed her growing up and had to jump straight into meeting teenage Youi, she's definitely comes off more strong and intimidating, but she likes it that way.

Despite being seen as an it-girl all round, she is very loyal, and almost sweet to her friends and family. She isn't one to show a lot of emotion to anyone except her family unless it's shown to her first, and while she can be blunt and hard to approach, most of the time people that have been around her long enough will find a good friend in her if she likes them.

[theinsiderrp]

LIBERTY AWARDS CEREMONY: FRIDAY

on friday, we’ll be wrapping up the tour with an award ceremony hosted at liberty hall. be sure to attend, come looking your best and get ready for a night of well deserved celebrations! (if i’ve missed anything, it’s probs bc it wasn’t in the tag) 

MUSIC 

BEST SINGLE  baby one more time - addy coleman  drivers lisence - violet carson  come and get it - yasmine hernandez can’t be tamed - salem quinn  kill this love - blackpink  señorita - (g)-idle without me - amelia collins  lie lie lie - roman sloan  la di die - emmett x maeve 

BEST MUSIC VIDEO  deja vu - violet carson  potential break-up song - haley x ally  judas - luna aarons  i knew you were trouble - lottie bradford  kill this love - blackpink  all the good girls go to hell - lily sinclair  WAP - sabrina x mila 

BEST GROUP  blackpink  (g)-idle  straykids  itzy  mcfly  the neighbourhood  pussycat dolls  paramore 

RISING ARTIST nicolai montgomery  pippa carmichael  maeve hamilton whitney cruz  aliyah haven  nicolas castillo 

BEST FEMALE  addy coleman  lottie bradford  lily sinclair  haley cortes-smith  violet carson  mila woods  sabrina wilson  luna aarons 

BEST MALE  avery winslow  roman sloan maverick wilson  noah aarons  BEST LIVE PERFORMANCE honey, honey (mamma mia) - amy sinclair  everything i wanted - amy sinclair  red - lottie bradford  la di die - emmett x maeve  airplanes - amelia x maverick  savage - sabrina wilson  daddy issues - the neighbourhood 

ACTING 

BEST TELEVISION SERIES  high school musical the series enola holmes  she-ra  doctor who  umbrella academy  ginny & georgia  outerbanks 

BEST FILM  emma teen beach movie  me before you  to all the boys i’ve loved before 

BEST SUPPORTING ACTOR  flynn thompson (euphoria) bianca rosini-harrington (euphoria) kai powell (enola holmes)  lennox quinn (she-ra)  maddie barham (she-ra)

BEST SCREEN STAR (1 female vs 1 male) roman sloan (hsmts)  violet carson (hsmts)  kitty-lee henshaw (euphoria)  maeve hamilton (euphoria)  louisa carmichael (dr who)  august gomez (marcus barker)  phoenix kim (umbrella academy)  freddie eccleston (umbrella academy) sofia higgins (she-ra)  aimee sinclair (tatbilb) 

ARTISTIC VISUALS 

ARTISTIC VISION AWARD  dylan powell victoria carmichael  brie ramsey river henshaw 

BEST ARTISTIC COLLECTION  2 sides, 1 city - dylan powell los angeles art collection - victoria carmichael  stupid fucking bitch - brie ramsy  on tour collection - river henshaw

FASHION 

RISING MODEL ally cortes smith delena dawn  delilah calloway  luna aarons  BEST MODEL AWARD  perrie calloway  harlow carmichael  fleur carmichael  kendra mayfair 

BEST DESIGNER AWARD  callie castillo aurora kingsley  dixie carmichael  fleur carmichael

FUN/PERSONALITY/JOKE AWARDS

HEART-THROB AWARD (female)  daisy romano  grace romano delilah calloway  tilly cruz-mendoza  victoria carmichael  sofia higgins  dapne coleman

HEART-THROB AWARD (male)  jay hamilton lennox quinn  ethan harwood  jihoon kang  kit powell  dawson castillo peter romano 

GHOSTING AWARD nila lin tomos smith dylan powell   odin napier  thea cruz-mendoza  joshua kinglsey  maddie amari-barham  carter romano

CHART TOPPER AWARD - 10 lowest rankers violet  louisa  lottie addy  haley  avery  amelia youngmi  brie  yasmine

CHART TANKER AWARD - 10 highest rankers  aiden peter c sungjin san rowan alana eric carter dominico judah 

ULTIMATES

RISING STAR AWARD 

perrie calloway emmett hamilton  flynn thompson daphne coleman  freddie eccleston  whitney cruz  minhyuck heo  nate harwood 

STAR QUALITY AWARD 

louisa carmichael   addy coleman   avery winslow  roman sloan   aliyah haven   youi moon  elodie gwan fleur carmichael 

[alcssandralopez-ar]

mix tape

apologize by one republic - “you tell me that you need me then you go and cut me down, but wait you tell me that you're sorry didn't think I'd turn around and sayThat it's too late to apologize, it's too late i said it's too late to apologize, it's too late”

miss u more than u know by sofia carson - “Yeah, i know that i said you'd be easy to forget but i know i'll never get you off my mind and i know that i said that i'd wish we never met but it's only 'cause you let me go i miss you more than you know”

wrecking ball by miley cyrus - “i never meant to start a war i just wanted you to let me in i guess i should've let you winDon't you ever say i just walked away i will always want youI came in like a wrecking ball i never hit so hard in love all I wanted was to break your walls all you ever did was wreck me”

die for me by post malone, future, and halsey - “Settle down, I spell it out, it's simple enough i came around, i figured out, should follow my gut i don't play anymore, i went through your phone and caught the girls in your DM's and took all them home and I know it's been a while since the last time you heard from me grew into a savage and that's why they gave this verse to me turns out at shows 'cause they turn out at shows i sold 15 million copies of a break-up note brought some strangers in our beds and now you lost your right to privacy spilling all our secrets when you thought they'd probably die with me know you fucking love it on the low and you don't have to say I'm crazy 'cause I know nothing's changed”

without me by halsey - “gave love 'bout a hundred tries (hundred tries) just running from the demons in your mind then i took yours and made 'em mine (made 'em mine) i didn't notice 'cause my love was blind”

[a-vulnerable-writer]

a letter to you...|break up series|

I relapsed a bit on the healing front. I had a car therapy session alone by myself that just involved a lot of crying and screaming and venting. I imagined you in the car and asked “are you happy now?” and I just spoke to you as if you were there. I told you my life is shit now yours must be great. My life hit a downfall and you just keep on going up. right? That’s what it looks like at least. I was so mad that you looked so happy. But, I was glad that you were happy don’t get me wrong I am happy for you if you are glowing up and killing it in life. But, then I think is it me...was it my fault. Do I just bring people down. Do I just give people sadness and anger. Am I the problem because if I am should I even exist. But, then I also thought of everything I did for you and just in general for the people I loved and left. You’re the one who left and I’m the one who looked like a fucking idiot. I talked about you so highly. I talked about you as if you were it. As if you were the one. And like, I looked so stupid because I feel like everyone knew that this girl was going to get hurt and why is she trying so hard for a guy that won’t even take a step towards her. Because, sadly that’s what it was. You made me look like a complete dumbass for falling in love with you. I don’t want you back and I don’t want anyone in my life right now but if you came up to me and I told you everything literally everything that has happened after you left I don’t know if you’d feel relief because you left before things went to shit or if you’d feel worried if there was anyone there for me. Because, I can wholeheartedly tell youI have been having the hardest time telling anyone anything. My walls are slowly being built and I’m slowly isolating myself from everyone and everything because I’m tired of getting hurt and I’m tired of everyone leaving and rubbing it in my face that my life got great without you because maybe I am the problem. Maybe I am the toxic one. Maybe I’m the bitch you know? But, I feel like if I was then these things wouldn’t hurt so bad but they do. I think I’m just going through a depressive episode right now because there haven’t been many positives happening or distractions lately so I think I’m just going through a wave. I just can’t wait to say I’m finally over you. I can think about the situation or I can look back at this part of my life and be like “yes I fucking did that.” Because even so, I know what I said I looked like a damn idiot loving you and we had our flaws but I also know this is part of the process and that’s okay because I was just upset on where I stood with my life and like seeing you be able to move on whether that’s for the pictures or actually I’m just happy one of us can do it. One of us can move on or just try to be happier instead of falling into the shittiness of what my reality is. But, I am happy for you if you are happier and that’s all I ever wanted for you and I mean that genuinely I know what I said in this post is contradicting it’s just I’ve been going through it. But, I hope when you do see me post something I hope you think the same like she’s happier because I don’t think I’ll be on social media for awhile at least the ones you follow me on until I know I’m good because right now I’m not. I miss you and I hope you’re doing well.

[mermain123]

Adrienette April Day 20: Hamsters

My only contribution to Adrienette April

Marinette was excited. Now that she lived alone and out of her parents’ bakery, she could finally get her first hamster.

She always loved going to pet stores to just look at the cute little critters ever since she was a little girl. Now that she could she was finally going to get one!

When Sshe entered the store, and without hesitation she immediately went to the hamster tanks. She looked at them all and was slightly torn between all the little cuties. Eventually she saw a big, cream -colored one, with a big white stripe going under her belly but that didn’t quite reconnect at her back. She was looking around all curious with her little black tipped ears perked straight up. Marinette’s heart melted. She found a staff member and told them her that was the one hamster she wanted and said she’d pick it up after picking out the supplies from the part of the store that sells that stuffshe needed.

She took barely Marinette browsed for less then 5 minutes to fill her cart before picking out the items she needed and then wentheading right back to her new little baby. She was practically skipping.

She reached the tanks and froze. Because hHer little hamster wasn’t there anymore. She quickly flagged down another employee.

“Excuse me, but what happened to the hamster in that tank over there?”

“oOh, you mean the little gold and white one? It was just taken by that gentleman over there.”

“What? But I already reserved that one 5 minutes ago! yYou can ask the other employee who was at in this area!”

“You did?  Hold on I’ll go stop him and we’ll sort this whole mess out.”

The lady clerk hurried over to a man who was about almost at the cash register and quickly explained to him the situation.

They both walked back to where Marinette was beforeand the employee clerk left them walked off to find the other employee who Marinette had talked to earlier. Marinette looked up ready to get mad at the personboy who tried to steal her new little baby.

aAnd then her eyes met his.

Okay, this guyboy was handsome. Hise had golden hair that seemed to shineshone like sunlight, his eyes sparkled like emeralds while and he looked extremely apologetic and embarrassed.  His big hands held on tightly to the box that contained the hamster. And his peach lips were perched pursed in a slight frown.

Marinette found her face was getting very hot. Dang it! wWhy did he have to look so good?!

“I’m sorry miss. I didn’t mean to take the hamster you had already picked out. You can have her back.”

Well now. How could Marinette be mad after that?

Marinette smiled and gently took the box from the man. “Thanks for being so understanding. I’m sorry you got caught up in this but I didn’t want to lose my first hamster before I even bought her.”

The guy smiled. “I get that. And I can see why you wouldn’t want to lose her. She’s a very cute little hamster.”

“Yeah she really is,! I love her already. Anyway, where are my manners?, I haven’t even introduced myself. My name is Marinette.”

“Oh, right! My name is Adrien. It’s nice to meet you Marinette!”

“It’s nice to meet you too, Adrien.”

The two clerks came back over and the clerk Marinette talked to earlier did confirm Marinette’s story about picking the hamster out first. Adrien nodded in response. As the two clerks walked off, he then turned back to Marinette and the little box she was holding.

 “I’m already going to miss this little girl. She looked so friendly.” Adrien’s smile had fallen disappeared a buit as his emerald eyes dulled. Marinette felt a little guilty.

“…. Okay this is weird to ask, but do you want tona come over and visit her sometime? You seem very attached to her. but I don’t really want to give her up…. but I also don’t want to make you sad either. Youy seem really nice. And your taste in hamsters is already obviously very good.” Marinette smiled holdingheld back a nervous giggle. Oh man that was so unfunny. He’s gonna laugh in your face and you’ll be humiliated and he’s a stranger too. I shouldn’t be so willing to let a stranger over to my place.

But Adrien let outbroke out into a big grin. Those His eyes were now sparkling more then the sunglittering.

“That sounds great!! Let’s exchange numbers! Here give me your phone!” h

He was already reachinged into his pocket to take out his own phoneas he said this. Marinette did the same. The two of them quickly exchanged numbers and gave their phones back.

“Now for the big question. What will you name this little one? It’s not very effective to call her “her: ‘little guy’, or ‘little one’ all the time.” Adrien’s grin was blinding now.

“Hmmm. I like the name … Poppy. She’s so seems perky and I like the way her little head just pokes out. I also love gardening so, of course, I have to’ll name her after a flower.”

“That’s a great name! Well Miss Poppy, I can’t wait to see you again! Meanwhile I better go find a new hamster for myself. Goodbye Marinette I hope to see you again soon——I mean, I hope to see Miss Poppy again soon!”

Adrien turned away quickly to head to the hamster tanks so that Marinette didn’t see him blushing. And with that Adrien went back to the hamster tank and Marinette proceeded to the cash register ready to adopt Poppy officially. Both of them excited at the prospect of seeing each other again. Did he really just say he wants to see ME again?

[pastelpastryblog]

DEAN  scenario- What on earth did I do to deserve this?

Requested: Dean looks like the guy you see at the gas station at 3am after the club that you trynna fuck but you cant tell your friends cause they gonna judge you. Sooo many bad but good decisions. Someone should make a scenario out of that lol. via @icygrrlnat by @otheruponrother I really hope that you like this scenario. It was a bit hard to make but I hope it turned out good for you :)

Word count: 3,473

Genre: Angst,Mature, strong language, suggestive content

*Wednesday*

Its F/N birthday in 2 days but I really don’t want to go out clubbing with her and the other girls. The past 2 months has been very rough for me. Whether it is my personal life and my professional life, both was rough for me, but this week has honestly been the worst of it all. My high school bully, Yucky hyuky…. I mean Kwon Hyuk, has now been appointed as my new supervisor since June and he has been putting me through hell. He always tells me to do the team’s dirty work and he always takes his anger out on me when someone else in our team messes up. All the women at work find him attractive and they all flirt with him. If only they knew him personally. I also feel so depressed lately and Friday and Saturday are my only days off this week, so I want to spend my day in bed, and have my phone switched off because I also don’t want to go out with my co-workers Friday, because they are all going to watch Kwon hyuk perform at an event. I honestly don’t want to be reachable. Like honestly, what on earth did I do to deserve this type of treatment from him. Like, the only bad thing that I have ever done is have a crush on yucky hyuky when I was like what? 16? 17?

My friends never let me live down the fact that I had a crush on a school bully that looks like he bathes in mud. All my friends hate him because he used to bully them too, but not as severe as my bullying. He was known for being the first guy in our grade that lost his virginity, was always fighting the older boys of our school, known for sleeping around with the older girls from different schools and older women from universities. He was also popular for leading on the girls in our grade and giving them false hope. He even had an affair with one of his girlfriend’s mom. There even were rumours of him having an STI or an STD, and him getting a married university lecturer pregnant but those rumours could be fake. But in other words, he was a full-blown hoe, a dirty one. If you were associated with him, you automatically became a dirty hoe by association, so everyone that had morals, tried to stay away from him because he was trouble.

~2 days later, Friday~

It is F/N birthday today and they all pleaded me to come and celebrate F/N 25thbirthday. I really didn’t want to, but then I remembered that she always comes to my birthdays, even when I don’t do anything on my special day she manages to bring me a birthday cake and a present. So technically, I HAD to go out. We pre-drink as we get ready, and we have a pre-party before the turn up at the club. We all dolled up for our girl’s 25th. Everybody looked like they could be in movies, while I opted for a lowkey option, a black strapless pvc bodycon dress, off the shoulder denim jacket, and black barely there heels with a small black clutch bag. I even wore makeup for the first time in months, a light Smokey eye with dark plum lips and I even took my messy bun down and straightened my hair. Basic but cute.

~

It’s 1am right now but we have been in the club since 10pm. Some of the girls are drunk, and some are one more shot away from being completely drunk, like myself. I guess hanging with my girls is like therapy to me. I get to just let loose and have fun, I feel like I deserved this. I deserved to not think about my love life, debts, my bills and my demon supervisor. This club is too lit and so are the people that I am surrounded with, the birthday girl is getting all types of attention because she looks beautiful with her face full of glam makeup and her sparkly dress and her figure 8 body shape. Its so good to see everybody having fun and enjoying themselves. 30 minutes into sitting and sipping our drinks at our VIP booth that we had reserved for the bday girl, the DJ stops the music and announces that an upcoming R&B singer is about to hit the stage so me and my friends head off to the stage to see the show but for some reason I see my co-workers, so I try to hide from them, but they see me and I get approached by them.

“hey Y/N, what are you doing here? I thought you didn’t want to go out “

“Hi, um…. its my friend F/N birthday today so were celebrating here. Why are you guys here? I thought you guys were going to see Hyuk, I mean Mr Kwon perform somewhere. Did you guys not go?”

“LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, UPCOMING R&B SINGER, DEAN” says the DJ.

Oh boy…….

“yeah we ARE here to see Mr Kwon, DEAN is his stage name.”

“Ooh, he’s starting. Bye Y/N see you at work”

“We’ll tell him that you were here, say happy birthday to F/N for me. Bye!”

F U C K.

“Erm, wait. Is that fucking Yucky Hyuky on stage? Says friend #1

“WTF, isn’t that Hyuk? The dirty one from school? Hes trying to be a singer now? Wow” says friend #2

I honestly did not expect to see this beautiful demon slut here. I came out with my girls to have fun, to forget about all the shit that is troubling me. Not for me to hear his angelic voice.

Pause. Did I just call this man beautiful? Angelic voice? Pfft. As if!

Seeing Hyuk on stage was, well… different. He is very charismatic on stage and he looks and sounds like he knows what he’s doing, which is a great thing for him I guess. I don’t know why but seeing him on stage is kind of making me feel some type of way and I really don’t like it. 30 minutes into his performance, while me and my girls standing in front of the stage, I notice that Yucky Hyuky kept looking in my direction, but I kept brushing it off. Maybe he was looking for the other co-workers, maybe he’s trying to identify and remember my girls, maybe he’s thinking of more ways of ruining my work for me tomorrow. No way is he staring at me because he thinks I’m cute. It can’t be. But for some reason, this look was one that I have never seen before. It was a soft yet sexy look. I don’t know, maybe the drinks are hitting my brain right now.

So, at this point, me and the girls split up to do our own thing while still being on the dance floor. I was vibing to hyuk’s music with a drink in my hand, while also ignoring the long stares that he is giving me from across the stage. All of the sudden, I get bumped into. Somebody accidently spills a drink on my dress (thank God, it’s a pvc dress so no damages were made), I turn around and I notice that it is my ex-boyfriend, Juno. I froze, I didn’t know how to react, so he just pulled me by my hand and took me out. He takes me to the unisex bathroom starts wiping the drink that he spilt on my dress.

“I’m so sorry for spilling my drink on you, Y/N. You look beautiful by the way” he says as he looks me up and down while licking his lips.

“why are you doing this to me? And what do you want from me?”

“I’m just trying to get you clean Y/N, I spilt my drink on you. Did you expect me to leave you like that?”

“spilling a drink on me is nothing compared to what you put me through. “

“I just wanted to check up on you, to see how you’re doing”

“You broke my heart, you damn idiot. How do you think I’m fucking doing?”

“look, I’m sorry Y/N. I didn’t mean to hurt you. “

“Save it Juno. You used to cheat on me whenever I wasn’t around, especially when you went on tour. Then you cheated on me with your so called “best friend” Hyorin from college and got her pregnant. Whenever Hyorin did something bad, you would always stick up for her and put the blame on me instead. Whenever I would confront you about it, youy would always say that shes been your friend since day 1, so you had to do what you did. You never had my back. The reason why I am in debt is because of you. You made me feel horrible about myself by body shaming me, always lying to me and you were just verbally and mentally abusive to me. So, what do you mean by saying that you are sorry and that you didn’t mean to hurt me. You are not sorry, and you definitely meant to hurt me. You knew damn well what you were doing, Juno”

“Y/N, look, I’m so- “

“Oh, shut it Juno. You know damn well you don’t mean it. What? You’re Sorry? You didn’t mean to hurt me? Are you fucking kidding me right now? You’re only apologising because I look good tonight. You’re only apologising to me RIGHT NOW because you want to take me home and get in my pants. But guess what Juno? That can never be me. Not anymore. I am not falling for your bs again. You are the worst. Thank you for ruining my night Juno. Have a great life, bitch.” I started to walk off and then I turned around to him again and I say “Oh, I forgot something. Congratulation on your baby by the way, and tell your side bitch, oops, I mean tell your baby moms that I said hi”

I walk out of the bathroom and leave Juno in there, but I notice that Hyuk was standing outside the bathroom, but I don’t care. I don’t care if I’ve missed him performing his last 4 songs. I don’t care if he finished his performance. I don’t care if he heard us.  I don’t care if he thinks that I look stupid right now. In fact, since when did he ever think I was not stupid? I don’t care at all.  I need to get out of this club asap. I head back into the VIP booth and I grab my purse, go to the bar one last time and I get two glasses of henny and a shot of Vodka and I gulp it all down in one go. After that encounter with Juno, I really needed that.  After I finished my drink, I leave without finding my friends anything because I didn’t want my girls to fight Juno. Its F/N special day after all, no need for her day to get ruined by me.

~

I get out of the club and I walked to the nearest gas station so that I could wait for my uber there. I get a notification on my phone and the Uber driver says that he will get to me in 55 minutes. So out of nowhere, tears just start falling down my face. I was having such a good day today but out of nowhere, I see my co-workers from work, hyuk, my ex and now my uber basically cancels on me. How can my life be so messed up? What did I do to deserve this?  

Its been 20 mins and I’m still at the gas station crying. But this time I’m crying, curled up in a ball on the side curb and I took my heels off because they were hurting my feet. Out of nowhere, a car pulls up, but I had no energy to look up. Someone finally opens the car door and yells my name. still crying and still not looking at who the person is, I feel someone’s big, warm hands putting my hands away from my face and I notice that the person is Hyuk. He then goes inside the gas station store and comes out with a packet of tissue paper that he just purchased. He approaches me and doesn’t say anything. He just wipes away my tears with the tissue paper and out of nowhere he picks me up and puts me in the passenger seat of his car. We get in the car and he covered my legs with his jacket and places the packet of tissues that he bought for me on my lap. The car ride was not silent at all, because all I did was cry and sniffle. I cried so hard that I ended up falling asleep during the other half of the car ride.

I wake up when I feel Hyuk placing me on something and covers me with something warm and fluffy. I get up and I see that I am in a clean yet modern studio apartment.

“where am I?” I ask.

“you’re at my house, so don’t worry. But are you okay?” he asks me as he is taking pillows and comforters out of his wardrobe and placing them on his sofa.

“I’m a bit dizzy and I have a pounding headache. I feel a bit nauseous too, I think I’m going to vomit. Are you moving the bed?” I say as I sit up from his bed as I place my arms around my stomach.

“No matter how hard a situation is, you should never drink that much for you to be feeling the way you feel right now. How much did you even drink?”

“A lot”

“that’s very irresponsible of you, Y/N”

He quickly runs into his kitchen and gets me a bottle of cold water and some pills for me to take, while he got himself a Jack Daniels bottle.

“here, take it”

*giggles* “thanks” *giggles.

“Don’t ever drink like that again and wonder off yourself. what if a creepy man was to put you in his car instead? Do you know how dangerous that could have been?

“Wait. Since when did you ever care about my wellbeing, Mr Kwon? And why do you look so sexy tonight?”

“Since forever. Huh, wait what? Did you just call me sexy?”

“huh? What the fuck?” I chuckled as he looked at me.

“Look, when I was on stage performing, I was so shocked to see you in the crowd. I was not expecting to see you because you told all of us at work that you had other plans.”

“Great, this whole situation is going to get me in trouble on Monday isn’t it? I’m getting fired” I sigh.

“No Y/N, when I was performing I kept staring at you because you looked beautiful today. In fact you look beautiful every day and – “

“Look Yucky Hyuky, you still are the same, aren’t you? Are you saying all of this just to get my hopes up and laugh at me at the end? You used to do that to all the girls in our grade. I had a crush on you for like 2 years but thank goodness I didn’t confess to you or you would have embarrassed me in school”

“Y/N, did you just say that you used to like me?

“I used to but then I hated you but seeing you on stage kind of changed my hate for you. It kind of made me have a crush on you again”

“Y/N, I think its time for you to go to bed, you’re still drunk”

“No, I really mean it, Yucky. I was the ONLY girl that you never asked out as a joke or led me on. That made me feel really weird and top of that, you used to bully me for no reason!”

“the truth is that I have always had a crush on you. I have always had a crush on you, Y/N.Infact, I still do. I made you feel that way because I thought that you would never ever like me and you are just to good for me. You made me want to be a better person so that I could finally approach you, but I was unconfident and scared of being rejected by you and that is why I started to sleep around with a lot of girls, it was to get my mind off of you, but it never worked. You have always been on my mind. When you joined the company, I was really excited to see you and I wanted to show you an upgraded version of myself, but you didn’t like me from jump which is totally understandable for the way I have treated you in the past. My immaturity got in the way, and I messed up again. I am really sorry for making you feel worthless and miserable. This information may not fix what has happened between us, but I just really wanted to get this off of my chest. I really hope that you can forgive me.”

“Wow, I don’t know what to say”

After hearing all of this, I honestly know how to react. Like should I be happy? Should I cry? Be angry at him? Like what should I do?

So, I ended up getting out of the bed and walked past him on his sofa so that I could go into the kitchen and throw my water bottle in his recycling trash.

While you were in the kitchen recycling Hyuk’s bottle, Hyuk had just finished his bottle of Jack Daniels. After hearing your confession to him, he really wanted to get another bottle in the kitchen. You finally finish sorting out his other bottles, so you start walking back to the bed, Hyuk was walking towards the kitchen to get himself another bottle. Without looking were you are both walking, you both bump into each other pretty hard, so hard that you tripped, and he caught you in his arms.

While still being in this awkward position, Hyuk would not let go of me. He was looking into my eyes and he was giving me the same look that he was giving me at the club. I honestly don’t know what it is about that look, but it drove me crazy. So crazy that I got closer to his face and kissed him on his lips. His lips were very plump but also tasted bitter because of him drinking the Jack Daniels earlier on. He kissed me back and out of nowhere we were making out in the middle of his studio apartment.

You and Hyuk both started to get carried away while making out and before you knew it your hands started to wander on his body. You started to unbutton his silk shirt, while he was taking off your jacket, your hands caressing his chest while he unzips your dress. Both just left in your underwear, Hyuk pushes you on the bed while still making out and says “we don’t have to do this Y/N. I’ll fuck you if you let me”. You nodded in agreement to what he said to you and you proceeded to let him do what you wanted him to do to you.

~ 8 hours later~

“Morning, Y/N”

“morning Yucky-“

“Okay, can you quit calling me Yucky Hyuky now? All of those rumours of me having STD’s and STI’s are fake. Same goes to the one about me having multiple babies by older or any woman at all.”

“I am so sorry, I’m just so used to calling you that. I didn’t mean to hurt you by that”

“its fine Y/N. Look, I’ve been thinking. Do you want to go out on a date with me? I want to make you my girlfriend”

“Yeah sure, I would love to go out on a date with you. “

I ended up going on a few dates with Hyuk and me and him ended up becoming boyfriend and girlfriend after 2 months of dating. I was ashamed of telling my friends because they all hated him and because of all of the things that he has done but because he became my boyfriend, I can’t hide him. I ended up telling my friends about everything and for some reason, they reacted more positively but it took them a few months to fully approve of Hyuk. Mine and Hyuk’s relationship improved throughout the months and my friends were always supportive of me too. Honestly, what on earth did I do to deserve this?

The end.

[cybertronsjewelalexis]

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// Journey is one of Alexis’ favorite old time rock bands! She adores the antique charm of the old songs and their simplicity, as well as their impressive compositions. Lyrics beneath the Read More

Here we standWorlds apartHearts broken in two, two, twoSleepless nightsLosing groundI’m reaching for you, you, youFeelin’ that it’s goneCan change your mindIf we can’t go onSurvive the tide, love dividesSomeday love will find youBreak those chains that bind youOne night will remind youHow we touchedAnd went our separate waysIf he ever hurts youTrue love won’t desert youYou know I still love youThough we touchedAnd went our separate waysTroubled timesCaught betweenConfusion and pain, pain, painDistant eyesPromises we makeWere in vain, in vainIf you must go, I wish you loveYou’ll never walk aloneTake care, my loveMiss you, loveSomeday love will find youBreak those chains that bind youOne night will remind youHow we touchedAnd went our separate waysIf he ever hurts youTrue love won’t desert youYou know I still love youThough we touchedAnd went our separate waysSomeday love will find youBreak those chains that bind youOne night will remind youIf he ever hurts youTrue love won’t desert youYou know I still love youI still love you, girlI really love you, girlAnd if he ever hurts youTrue love won’t desert youNo, no

[hyp-oh-critical]

Easy by graves, Duskus ft. joni payne

Listen on Soundcloud / Spotify

I wish it was easy But it's not easy Letting you go I hate what you did But I miss how you love

Another hour passes. A car drives by, its tires cycles over the wet pavement outside. The wind coming through the slight crack in the window pushed the navy blue curtains around. There was a dull stream of sunlight filtering through, but her eyes remained stagnant on the popcorn ceiling above her.

Her ears rang, a muffled voice trying to break through. She turns her head slowly to find the origin of the noise.

“You gotta get up dude, he was a douchebag so don’t waste another second thinking about him.”

The girl blinks, confused and also a little offended. Without much of a sound, she returns her gaze to the ceiling above her.

“It’s really not that hard to move on,” her friend’s bony grasp peeled her arm from within her the pocket of her hoodie, but she resisted.

“It really is,” her first words in the last forty-eight hours. Her voice was scratchy and low from all the crying previously. 

“It’s not easy to just let go of him. We spent three and a half years together, what makes you think...” her voice cracks, “What makes you think anything about that is easy to just get over?”

Fingers go slack at those words, she takes this chance to bring her sleeve up to wipe at the bottom of her eyes, “But sure, just let go yeah?” 

I got my vetements hoodie and my Vans onLooking like I ball, gotta play alongLooking like I might not make it homeI wish it was easyAnd everything that we went throughIs leaving my mindI don't need to be with youWhen I'm feeling alive…Why you calling me though?Why you calling me, don'tWhy you calling me, no, I'm not picking up the phone

A chorus of laughter echoed as she let her feet move about beneath her. The music was loud but her friends’ cheers were even louder. Her scuffed, blue Vans scraped against the cement floors of the garage, LED lights that lined the edges of the ceiling flickered to the beat of the song. 

The digital clock on the wall turned two, but that wasn’t stopping anyone. A familiar hand tugged on hers as her friend encouraged her to keep dancing, arms flailing and bodies moving out of sync but it was a good time. 

“See! There’s way more to life than just him, look at us!” 

With the slight buzz of alcohol in her system, her only response was throwing her head back in laughter, slight agreement but with little protest and for the first time in a few weeks, she could agree with her friend. 

Her ringing phone remained unnoticed. It stopped briefly, displaying three missed calls and two voicemails from a number that no longer mattered to her. At least not in this very moment…

It's not easy in this empty house without youI keep looking back at the feeling of being gladWhen I found youI read the note you left so I knowYou do not regret letting goAt least that's what you saidBut I don't believe youAnd everything that we went throughEverything we did wrongI got angels and demonsSwaying me but

Another hour passes. A car drives by, its tires cycles over the wet pavement outside. The wind coming through the slight crack in the window pushed the navy blue curtains around. There was a dull stream of sunlight followed through, but her eyes remained stagnant on the opened box in front of her on the carpet. 

Her ears rang, a muffled voice trying to break through. She turns her head slowly to find the origin of the noise coming from the ad playing in between songs on her phone. 

She returns her gaze to the box, a stack of letters and notes in varying colours called out. Her hand reaches to pull them out, revealing scattered photos of the two of them from events and vacation spots. 

For the next while, she remains in her spot on the floor by her bed, eyes blurred by tears as she went through each and every handwritten message he had given her over the time they spent together. 

Soft words and inside jokes. Confessions and I love you’s, the reminiscing feelings… 

She missed him. 

She missed his touches and the soft kisses exchanged behind closed doors. The way his arms wrapped around her waist during embraces and time spent in bed cuddled up as they caught up on television shows and movies. Friday nights were spent dancing in the living room as he put on his favourite songs, and Sunday mornings in the kitchen with breakfast on the stove and tea brewing in respective mugs. 

Now her Fridays felt like some sad attempt to numb the ache in her heart with cheap liquor and shitty music, Sunday mornings passed in the blink of an eye as she tried to recover for her Fridays.

The song switches, drawing her attention to her phone sitting on her nightstand. 

She missed him…

I'm not calling you, no I'm not calling you, no I'm not calling you so why'd my hand reach for the… 

Originally posted to my secondary blog in July 2020. Now rewritten and published as part of my Relocated Writes Series.

[killingmebtob]

Scammer // Jung Ilhoon

Author: @killingmebtob // Chi

Title: Scammer

Characters: Ilhoon and Reader

Author’s Note: Blame it all on Baesisi. Oh try to listen to it while reading. Such a good song!

Summary: Ilhoon secretly loves his best friend. Will he finally confess?

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Your name: submit What is this?

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BAESISI – in the state of smiling lightly and quietly with one’s mouth slightly open (Source: Naver Dictionary)

You know that sudden feeling when your lips automatically smiles at the mere thought of someone?

And seeing their smile puts a smile on your face too. Like there’s this warm feeling that grows from your stomach. Yes, the stomach. Then it grows and spreads in your whole body and it envelopes your heart and you just thought to yourself “It feels good to see you. Everything will be okay.”

The first notes of the new song filled the whole room.

Ilhoon closed his eyes and leaned back on his chair.

He listened to every note of the new song he drafted as he relaxed in his music room.

He wanted to come up with a sweet song that will make people’s heart feel warm. He already has the right music, but the hardest part in composing is finding the right words to go along with the sound.

There are tons of sweet love songs already released and almost all the words are already used to describe how one feels about the love of their lives. It is a challenge to use words, combine it with another, and touch the heart of the listener.

He clucked his tongue as he tries to conjure the feeling of being in love.

It wasn’t hard to do that. He just had to think of her.

Just as he was getting the feeling, his phone interrupted him.

A text message.

Hey, scammer! Wherre are youi?

He immediately smiled at the first sentence. He didn’t need to check who it was. Only (Y/N), his best friend, calls him like that. She kept on telling him that he should try being a salesman because when he buys stuff and describes to her about those things, she suddenly wanted to buy one too. But when she already bought the stuff, she will not get that same description that Ilhoon told her. At the end, she will say that he lied and that he’s just a scammer.

He replied: I’m at my studio. Working. You should stop calling me that.

Why do you think birds chirp? Can’t thye just bark?

He was confused for a bit but he realized what’s happening. He knows her. They’ve been best friends since grade school. Since that time she let him borrow her calculator during Math. They’ve been inseparable since then. Now that they’re both grownups, their friendship still continued.

Are you drunk? He replied back.

Noooo.. I feel alive!

What? Where are you?

Ilhoon waited for a reply. Minutes passed and still nothing.

He got worried as the minutes passed by and finally he decided to give her a call.

Two calls, she missed both.

The sickening worry grew from the pits of his stomach as he thought of terrible things that might’ve happened to her. He tried to calm himself and think. Where could (Y/N) be at this time?

Just then, his phone rang. His best friend’s name on the display.

He quickly grabbed his phone and answered.

“Ya! Where are you?” he shouted.

“Oh.. Uhm. I—I-..” the voice on the other line said. It wasn’t her voice. It was a man’s.

“Who are you?” he immediately asked. Thoughts flashed in his mind with milliseconds. Was she with a man? A boyfriend? She never mentioned that she has one. Not that he needs to know. But still.

All kinds of emotions mixed inside him.

“I’m the bartender of this pub.” The man said. “She’s so drunk she fell asleep already.”

“What? Where is that?”

The bartender gave him an address and without second thought he got his coat and cap, and called a cab.

 // 

He found her at the bar sitting on one of those high chairs.

She was slumped on the bar with both her arms in front of her. She was wearing a really short skirt which already revealed most of her thigh which is gaining a lot of attention from the men in the pub.

He approached her quietly.

He took his coat off and put it on her shoulders.

“(Y/N), wake up.” he quietly tried to wake her up and shake her a bit.

She was facing him and he got to see her sleeping face.

He tried to shake her again. This time, she slightly opened her eyes, looked at him and smiled.

“Hey, handsome.” She said drunkenly.

“You’re really drunk.” he shook his head. She looked like a mess. But still…

“I’ll take you home.” he said.

He held her shoulders to support her as they went outside to call for a cab.

 //

After the many struggles and stumbles and drunken shouts from her, he was able to take her to her apartment.

Fortunately, he knows her pass code. She gave it to him as she asked him to pick up things from her house and bring it to her. Ilhoon would always complain and tell her that he is never doing it again. He is an idol! But she just smiles and tells him that she’ll just cook something for him in return.

She got him there. He was a sucker for anything she cooks. He once told her that she should try opening a restaurant, but she just sighed and will always say “maybe someday”.

He took her to the room and put her on her bed.

She was on her back with her feet dangling from the bed.

He took her sandals off and fixed her position. Since she was wearing short skirt, he took a blanket and covered her lower body with it.

He looked at this mess called his best friend and sighed. He wondered what happened to her.

She wouldn’t get this drunk for nothing.

He went to one of her drawers and got a clean towel. Then, he went to the kitchen to get warm water.

Within minutes, Ilhoon came back to her room and found the blanket tossed to the side again and this time, she was on her side.

He fixed the blanket again and placed the basin of warm water on the bed side table.

He sat on the bed beside her and dipped the towel on the basin. After draining the water from the towel, he carefully dabbed it on her forehead to get rid of the drunkenness.

She’s going to be feeling a great hangover tomorrow.

It didn’t take long for him to get a reaction from her.

She groaned and stirred a bit.

“What on earth are you thinking?” he said. Not sure if she can hear him. But he continued. “Getting drunk like that while wearing that?”

She stirred again as he dabbed the towel on her forehead.

She mumbled something but he wasn’t able to hear what it was.

He can’t help but to laugh. She’s like a kid.

“Ilhoon…” she mumbled.

Did he hear it right? Did she call his name? “Are you awake?”

But her eyes are still closed and she doesn’t look like she’s awake.

He placed the towel back in the basin and brushed the hair covering her face.

How long has it been since the last time he looked at her? Like really look at her.

Her features changed a lot through the years. But somehow, in his eyes, she’s still that girl who he met at school; the good hearted girl who encouraged him when the teacher asked them to run in the fields. Ilhoon wasn’t a fan of sports. Basketball is okay, but for running, not really.

In his eyes, she would always be that girl who will listen to him as he goes on about wanting to be like his sister, a singer.

In his eyes, she’s always going to be that girl who encouraged him to audition to be an idol.

In his eyes, she’s always going to be that girl who went to the company to give him food she packed and have him eat it to give him strength for training.

In his eyes, she’s always going to be that girl who went to their first outdoor performance where only a few people came and not everyone knew them.

In his eyes she’s always going to be that girl who called him screaming happily when they got their first win after years of working hard.

This girl. This woman. She will always be the inspiration of the words he put in his songs. She is the reason he smiles.

He looked at her with a warm smile on his face and whispered. “I love you. I wish you knew.”

She slightly stirred and mumbled, “Scammer…”

Ilhoon smiled.

Maybe someday.

[soupacool]

Baby you know that I miss youI wanna get with you tonight but I cannot baby girlAnd that's the issue, girl you know I miss youI just wanna kiss youBut I can't right nowSo baby kiss me thru the phone (kiss me thru the phone)I'll see you later onKiss me thru the phone (kiss me thru the phone)See you when I get homeBaby I know that you like me, you my future wifeySoulja Boy Tell 'Em, yeahYou can be my Bonnie,

Soulja Boy tell em!