#i miss u jean moreau

[kevindavidday]

i be listening to desi songs pretending like they're talking about jean moreau everytime they say meri jaan...because he is...meri jaan

[dykekarkat]

thinking about jean a lot today and if he was ever jealous of kevin because he got to be partners with neil. like kevneil to him is what kandrew was to neil at the beginning of tfc. i think. maybe i should actually read the sunshine court

[kaleidoscopic-disaster]

ugh i get the usc fresh start but poor jean... cant even explain anything ever to his coaches. bc of the fucking mafia!!!

[zombiecowboy65]

Jean buff as hell Moreau incoming. All coiled strength and long limbs even after being sidelined for 3 months…. But once he’s back on the court … ohhhh ,,,, I need to know what he benches. I want the buff beefy arts. Hand them overrrrrr . Hand them over now!! He plays defense!!!! He relies on bullying and domination on the court!!! Beefy Jean come home the kids miss u

[humongousgothskeletonfarm]

TSC CHAPTER ELEVEN SPOILERS AHEAD

STARTING OFF THE CHAPTER STRONG AS FUCK DISASTER BISEXUAL JEAN MOREAU AWARENESS

picturing jean in a pair of raybans is good for my mental health

-

“Missed a couple spots. Need a hand?”

jeremy u flirt

-

do the trojans ever realise that jean is NOT IN FACT deaf and standing right in front of them when they are talking about him?

-

oh ok so chapter 11 is in fact worse than chapter 10

if anyone reading this has ever believed that they deserved the abuse, trauma/suffering they’ve experienced, i’m here to tell u right now that nobody deserves that and it is not ever ur fault, no matter what others might say or try to convince u. whatever happened to u is unequivocally not ok. please seek help from a professional if u are worried about urself or others in ur life.

if u have ever felt uncomfortable or violated in certain situations just know that no matter how ‘big’ or ‘small’ the situation may seem (i use these terms loosely because i do not believing in ranking peoples traumas), ur feelings are 100% valid and u always always deserve to be respected and heard.

i hope u know that u are not alone and never will be.

sending lots of love to all of u

-

wtff jenkins is a girl?? did we all know this or have i just read too many fanfics always thought jenkins was a guy?

-

It was sacrilegious even in the privacy of his head, and Jean hunched his shoulders against a blow that never came.

fuck that’s a good line. traumatic as fuck and makes me wanna cry for all these boys have gone through but god as an ex-catholic raised queer person i can tell u this line struck hard even though i cant relate to the specifics of the scene

-

Jean didn’t mind cooking, but he didn’t say that. This was the first time his room truly felt safe and right, and he was content to hold onto it for as long as he could. He closed his eyes again, but now his thoughts were snagged on Jeremy. At length he broke the silence to say, “Two beds would fit in here.”

jean moreau u are so loved

-

“You are not them,” Jean said. “Kevin would not have sent me here if you were.”

THE PARALLELS IN THIS BOOK ARE FUCKING KILLING ME PLS NORA LET ME LIVE IN PEACE THIS IS TOO MUCH FOR ME TO HANDLE

ANDREIL EXISTS IN EVERYTHING

-

Just because he had to meet with this man didn’t mean he had to speak to him.

jean, u diss aaron earlier in the books but really ur just the same as him

-

betsy dobson to the mother fuckibg rescue someone get this bitch a ‘worlds best therapist’ mug

and jean, dude do u know how fucking similar u and neil are, seriously like u guys should be besties like-

“It was not my choice,” he sent back in warning. “I do not need counseling.” He didn’t trust her at all, but there was no point spelling it out.

CHAPTER TWELVEE

dude wtf is it with me and napping while tryna finish this book, literally just accidentally fell asleep for 2.5 hrs when i could’ve been reading

-

“Imagine getting changed so we can practice,” Jean said.

king is fed uppp

-

“It’s not about size, anyway.” ​“Defensive,” Jean said, tugging his glove straps with his teeth. ​Jeremy straightened in indignation. “I don’t have anything to be defensive about.” Jean lost his grip and bit his lip, and Jeremy hurried on before either of them could think too much about that double entendre.

OKKKK JEREMY I SEE U

-

“That’s not—I do care. I want you to play with us, and I want you to have fun again. I want to see what you can do on the court and what you bring to our defense line. I want us to finally win this year after coming so close and failing too many times. But it’s just a game, Jean. Your safety and happiness will always be more important than our season.”

GOOD GOD ITS WHAT U DESERVE JEAN

-

“Every time you say that you take a year off my life. I’d really like to live to ninety, so please knock it off.”

now the trojans understand how the foxes feel when neil whips out his ‘im fine’ line,, also i’m never gonna stop saying that neil and jean should be besties it’s literally just a fact

“I do not believe you when you are drinking such filth,” Jean said, with a disapproving look toward her drink. Laila stared him down as she sucked a long gulp through the straw,

this book is so devastatingly depressing and explores some of the most horrible traumatic things that could happen to a person but it’s interspersed with some of the funniest scenes that it gives me whiplash

-

“Pat and Ananya have wanted to fuck Cody’s brains out for almost a year now. I really thought Cody moving in with them this summer was going to finally get that ball moving, but apparently not. It’s getting kind of pitiful.” ​“Pat and Ananya have been engaged almost as long as Cody has known them,” Laila pointed out as she fit herself against Cat’s side. “You can’t blame Cody for being scared of where they might belong in something like that.”

NORA GIVING US THE POLYAMORY WE DESERVE AFTER CUTTING KANDREIL FROM THE OG BOOKS LETS GO QUEER REP

YK THAT RUNNING JOKE THAT USC IS THE QUEEREST TEAM AND NOBODY HAS AS MANY GAYS AS THEY DO??? IM SO FUCKIBG HAPPY NORA HAS BASICALLY MADE THAT CANNON

-

CHAPTER 13333

jeremy is so hopelessly crushing on jean and that’s real of him

meanwhile jean:

Threat assessment, he told himself, and it was almost the truth.

sureee buddy

-

They’d arrived holding hands and dressed in matching cream-and-teal outfits. Even their gold-rimmed sunglasses and teal sneakers were identical.

well that is definitely an outfit!

-

“Speaking of happy endings, has Laila bought you a sex toy yet?”

EXCUSE ME

this whole scene was so fucking random but jean deserves great friendships

-

ANOTHER TRANS TROJAN LETS FYCKING GOOOOOO CONGRATS ON UR TOP SURGERY XAVIER

-

‘i’m sure the ravens wouldn’t have taken neil in if they’d known he was the son of a mob boss!!’

uhhhhh…

i don’t know how to tell u this buddy

-

dude i just cannot stop think about the whole new world of fanfics we’re gonna get now that tsc has come out like the aftg universe is expanding and becoming more detailed it’s gonna be crazy

chapter 14!!!

-

Jean eyed him. “For what purpose?” ​Jeremy looked to the ceiling for patience. “For fun.” ​Jean sighed as if Jeremy was the one being unreasonable.

oh jean we’ll get there eventually

-

Jean was a starving dog on a short chain who’d learned years ago not to bite back.

OH MY FUCKING GOD GIVE ME PEACE

MY CHEST IS ACHING AT THIS METAPHOR

-

SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP THE PARALLELS ARE DESTROYING ME I CANT FUCKING TAKE IT ANYMORE

“You are Jean Moreau. Your place is here with me, with us. I’m your captain. You’re my partner. We’re supposed to be doing this together, aren’t we? Stop leaving me behind. Look at me.”

-

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry that he hurt you, I’m sorry that you’re still afraid to talk about it, and I’m sorry that you think I’ll never understand. I’m sorry that he tricked you into thinking you deserved it. But I’m not sorry he’s gone. I can’t be.”

“Neither am I.”

TEAR MY HEART OUT AND STOMP ON IT NORA JESUS CHRIST

-

everytime one of the trojans says ‘we’re here to listen whenever your ready to talk and open up to us’ and then they go and demand he tell them every secret he’s ever kept

-

kevin and jeans relationship in this book is so fucking well written, it’s tearing me apart and giving me so much life

they have so much shared trauma and the relationship is so complex but they understand eachother so deeply

He is not used to having a voice, and he has never had power. I cannot promise he will ever talk to you.” ​“I will wait as long as it takes,”

“Be careful with it,” Kevin said. “Be careful with him.”

-

“Night practices with Andrew and Neil,” Kevin said. ​“Obsessed,” Jeremy

exy fiend kevin day representation

also

“No, Jean is fine. As fine as he can be, anyway. Yes, I know.” (kevin when talking to someone ‘offscreen’) i just know he was talking to neil

-

She crossed the room and leaned over, catching Jean’s head in her hands so she could plant a kiss to the top of his head.

this is the love jean deserves

chapter 15:

“Your fourth line has a smart mouth, Coach,” Jean said. “I was hoping he would bite his tongue off in the fall and save us both some grief in the long run.”

jean i love u

-

Jean wished he had the common sense to shut up,

he’s so me

-

“And keep Kevin’s name out of your ignorant mouth,”

THEYRE SO IMPORTANT TO ME UR HONOUR

-

i keep forgetting that jean only learnt english after he moved into evermore and that kevin probably taught him but i love the subtle little reminders every now and then when he has to clarify a word, like when he has to ask what a ‘floozy’ is and:

due to egregious injuries.” ​Jean didn’t recognize that word, but since Lucas was already running his mouth, he didn’t get a chance to ask.

it’s such a good detail that just adds so much more depth to his character

-

“Permission to break his face, Coach?” Jean asked. ​“Denied,” White said.

SCREAMING

THIS IS SO NEIL AND WYMACK CODED I LOVE IT

-

JEAN MOREAU ON A MOTHERFUCKING MOTORCYCLE HOLY SHIT

catalina alvarez u wonderful human i love u

-

jean realising how big the world is and the fact that he’s explored more of california than any other place he’s been before is making me tear up he never should’ve been kept trapped inside he deserves to see the world

-

So long as she existed as fractured memories, she was safe and small and sheltered.

oh god don’t do this to me

-

Jean gazed out at the endless horizon, feeling small and infinite from one moment to the next.

beautiful, just beautiful, absolutely immaculate

A cool evening breeze. Rainbows. Open roads.

A COOL EVENING BREEZE. RAINBOWS. OPEN ROADS

-

SECOND LAST CHAPTER!!! LETS GOOO

“He is not going to hit you. Okay? We don’t do that here. You said you’d try to do better and that’s enough for us.”

starting off strong

-

You’re one of my kids now.

don’t mind me i’m just sobbing

-

no no no no no no no no no

holy shit no what the fucking fuck

don’t do this to jean rn oh my fucking god i’m sick to my stomach on the verge of fully crying right now

actually dreading reading on right now

-

um ok yeah so i read it and to anyone who hasn’t finished the book yet beware there is a graphic violent scene followed by an intense panic attack in chapter 16 that’s is very difficult to read

i did cry and all i can say is thank fuck for lisinski’s timing

-

Jeremy’s response was low but unhesitating: “I will not look away.” ​“I do not want you to look.” ​It frightened him how much it sounded like a lie,

-

only redeeming part of this chapter is that neil’s back but i’m still in so much shock over what’s just happened that i cant properly appreciate him

chapter 17 the finale:

feeling incredibly somber as i reach the end of the book

please god destroy anyone who has ever hurt jean moreau

-

nora’s really filling in all the plot holes left from aftg - why did nobody question why neil’s hair was dyed after evermore ????? why did nobody question neil being at evernote in the first place???

-

i’m laughing at neil’s map print-outs he’s so uncool, also i keep forgetting this is still meant to be 2007

-

jean-yves moreau oh my fucking god

-

“says who?” Stuart asked. “The dead kid?

stuart hatford u are so funny, is this where neil inherited is sarcasm from?

stuart hatford says fuck riko and so do i

-

Neil shrugged. “Do you have anyone who can take on local work?”

NEIL JOSTEN U ARE MY HERO I LOVE U U BADASS MOTHER FUCKER

-

Neil offered her a disarming smile that would never sit quite right on his face.

devouring these scraps about my boy

-

YOOOO WTF NORA RLLY JUST WANTED TO GIVE JEAN THE WORST FUCKING DAY HE COULD POSSIBLY HAVE HUH?? JUST DROPPED THE FACT THAT HIS SISTER IS DEAD MY POOR BOY

-

Neil filled in the finer details with an ease that would have been impressive to listen to any other day

- yes neil is incredibly smart, thank u jean for confirming to us

-

The only thing left to ask for was something he barely understood: “I want to go home.”

oh the complicated nature of home and one’s sense of belonging that persists throughout these books will never fail to make me feel absolutely everything. nora knows exactly what i want in a book

-

“I can see the kitchen. There should be a door out to where the dumpsters are. We can make it back to the garage from there.”

to be loved by neil josten is to be offered a way to evade the fbi together

-

“Tedious,” Neil said. “I’m trying to eat.”

my hero

Neil waited until he was done before deciding he wanted to finish his drink. Neither agent was impressed with their absolute lack of urgency,

i love u neil josten pls give me ur autograph

Neil, being the person he was, pointed at the fire hydrant adjacent to its front bumper and said, “That’s illegal, just so you know.” ​“Shut up and get in the car.”

i wish neil josten was real

-

He couldn’t fear a government who was so easily infiltrated and manipulated

FUCK THE GOVERNMENT

-

Neil flipped his takeout box open and started eating. “I’m allowed to visit people.”

he’s everything to me 🥰

-

“You’re one to accuse others of intolerable attitudes,” Browning said, and Neil only shrugged indifference.

and—for once—without any of your usual bullshit.”

- browning u love him just like the rest of us don’t lie rn

-

ngl i’m never getting over the fact that jean and neil are the same age like this is crazy to me nora whyd u have to do this i cant cope

-

“The more people I hold onto, the less of a threat I am, because I won’t want to endanger them by acting out.”

oh neil look how far uve come, i’m so proud

-

“Lock your door tonight if it will help, but Grayson will never bother you again.”

THANK U LORD FOR THE BRILLIANT NEIL JOSTEN HES ANSWERED MY PRAYERS U BEAUTIFUL WONDERFUL HUMAN IM SO THANKFUL FOR UR PRESENCE

all my favourite bamf! neil fics have him taking out a hit on someone for the benefit of the people he loves and i’m so glad that’s canon

-

i’m going fucjing crazy i didnt think it was possible to love neil anymore than i already do

best friends ❤️

-

jean tearing up and throwing away the notebooks and realising he trusts the trojans and the four of them going to eat one of cats new recipes after they waited up last midnight for him

A COOL EVENING BREEZE RAINBOWS OPEN ROADS AND FRIENDS

!!!!!

I CSNT BELIEVE ITS OVERRRRR I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS HOLY FUCK

[meyhew]

Seed 😭😭😭😭 I’m back😭😭😭 I was last here crying about one day. I’m back to cry about all for the game OHMYGOD.

I read the books and TSC all for the first time over the last week and I’m… unwell. I’ve been scrolling and deep diving on here and have so much fomo of missing out on when this was an insanely active fandom cause it looks like everyone was having such a great time omg. But just. OHMYGOD. My heart. Neil 😭😭😭😭 Andrew!!!! Kevin!!! Jean omg I’m truly never gonna be over this. The Neil and Jean parallels I’m gonna be sick.

I came across mentions of lessons in cartography and how it’s based off the extra content Nora shared. Soooo might jump into that next 😅😅😅

Just wanted to come cry to you and see if you had any thought and comments to share 🙂

hii SORRYYY this has been sitting in my inbox for days…. i’m so sorry but omg. isn’t it CRAZY to read for the first time??? i remember reading the trilogy three times back to back bc i just could not get enough. and then i devoured all the extra content (which isn’t on nora’s blog anymore but u can find here). im not even gonna lie bro it was such a blast to be on here back in the heyday of it all. nora was so active, there were so many fandom wide jokes. i highly recommend searching up neil’s jortventures on youtube and watching all of them in order.

i thought i might be normal about it all now but then i read tsc and i was 18 all over again. jean moreau… oh his extra content bits had already ruined me and he’d held a special place for me but reading his story… watching him struggle… i wanted to sob. he’s just a boy :( eagerly awaiting my rainbow crate aftg box so i can read from the hardcovers

i never read lessons in cartography but i know everyone raves about it. it was THEE andreil fic of all time for a very long time, i just never rly got into fic for the fandom. they’re such uniquely fucked up characters i fear no one will ever Quite get them the way nora writes them so i shan’t venture past that. but god… what an insane story

[twisted-tales-told]

hi arik!

Favorite classical literature? Favorite unfinished book series?

sending you and your cat much love rn <333

Hello my lovely!! Thank u sm I’m very excited to bring her home

This ask game

I am a Dorian Grey girlie until the end of my days! I also Love little women & any Shakespeare play!

As for unfinished book series The All For The Games series —by which I mean I’m clawing at the walls until the sequel to the sunshine court comes out! Like!! I miss them. I miss them so much. I didn’t know how much I missed them until this book and there’s a cavern in my chest with Jean Moreaus name on it.

[whatmack]

jeremy knox: I’ve never worn long pants in my life and I’m not about to start now!! jean moreau, currently carrying jeremy thrown over his shoulder like a sack of grapefruit: you are not, and I can’t believe I have to tell this to you of all people, going to wear board shorts to a funeral

[mar1on3ttes]

Haha this is a fic I’ve been working on for a few months and recently started writing again. I usually get really embarrassed about my writing but this has been really fun for me and watching people’s reactions to it has been really encouraging lol. It’s totally a self-service fic featuring kandreil, black kevin day, and raven neil, but I don’t think it’s half bad! Give it a read if u wanna <3

Short excerpt of chapter 1:

Nathaniel parked himself in front of baggage claim just as the carousel alarm went off and the doors to the revolving conveyor belt opened. He successfully fought off the flinch pricking under his skin at the strident beeping and clamoring of impatient passengers.

He fiddled with the handle of his hardback carry-on as the travelers around him scampered about the carousel, like vultures. When the space had cleared out a bit, he made his way up and grabbed the black duffel he had been tracking in its circular path of the belt. He felt safer with his belongings in hand.

Nathaniel hadn’t left with much. He’d packed about half of his wardrobe of black clothes, the smallest pieces of his equipment, and his binder of contacts, now flattened from years of safekeeping under his box spring at the nest. It had been hard to leave the photographs and racquets, memories of his now past life. There was no way he could return now. Not alive, at least.

He cradled his casted arm and thought about Jean Moreau. Jean, who would always be there to put Neil back together after Riko attempted to tear him apart, limb by limb. Jean, who would whisper reassurances in French when Neil fawned over his bruised and broken body on the court. Jean, who was never a fighter, never a leader, but who’d slung Neil’s arm across his shoulder and carried his weight as they limped, together, toward the stairs out of the nest. Jean wasn’t supposed to be the last one left.

It was all painstakingly familiar. A fervent reminder of their ex-teammate. Nathaniel took in a deep breath and felt phantom drops of water bleed into his nose, down his esophagus, asphyxiating him.

After a crippled Kevin Day fled on the night of the Winter banquet, Riko shoved Nathaniel into the bathtub of his and Jean’s shared hotel room, ran the water scaldingly hot, and held his head under the surface until he’d thrashed and begun to slip into the welcoming throes of unconsciousness. He brought him to the edge of blacking out over and over again, clearly unappreciative of Nathaniel’s insistence he had nothing to do with Kevin’s disappearance, until Nathaniel could do nothing but gargle apologies and shake his head.

With a sniffle that proved that he could, in fact, breathe, Nathaniel threw the weight of his canvas bag over his shoulder and wandered the airport in search of a payphone.

None of them at the nest had been able to reach Kevin after he’d gone and dipped. Nathaniel knew for a fact that Riko and Jean had tried, and he’d heard that Thea was being left in radio silence too. He had expected something. Perhaps not even a call, but some kind of effort. Anything to show that the decade they had spent together, maybe not always as friends, but always allies, had meant anything to him.

He dialed and hoped that the local area code would be enough incentive for Kevin to finally answer one of his calls.

He didn’t realize how much he’d missed his best friend, until he heard Kevin’s low, gravelly morning voice on the line. “Hello?”

“Hello, Kevin.” Nathaniel could hear Kevin adjust over the phone as if shifting to an upright position.

“Neil? What the fuck.” Kevin sounded confused. In the past, imaging that doe-eyed, furrowed brow face that Kevin was definitely making right now would have brought a smile to Nathaniel’s face. Kevin probably had never expected to speak to him again, he thought. At least not until Nathaniel made the starting lineup in the Fall. Given that Kevin hadn’t really asked Neil a question, he didn’t feel inclined to say anything. He let Kevin simmer on his stupid half-questions until he remembered how to speak in complete sentences. “Neil, how… Whose phone is this?”

“The airport’s. I’m in South Carolina.”

“Are you kidding me?” Kevin sounded like he was scrambling around his room. “What the fuck, why?”

Suddenly aware of his public surroundings and the suspicious bruises scattered across his skin, Neil pursed his lips and switched to French. “I need you to come get me.” Kevin’s inhale sounded painful like he was wracking his brain for a way out of this. As if Nathaniel being here, and what that meant for both of them, was a dream Kevin could will himself away from. Nathaniel stole a glance at the phone call’s elapsed time. “Kevin, now. I will explain, but not over the phone.”

“Meet me at departures.”

South Carolina was a breath of fresh air. Edgar Allen was nestled between the Elk and Kanawha rivers, about 20 miles south of Charleston. Besides the capital, he hadn’t actually seen much of West Virginia. Harper’s Ferry once or twice, when he was younger and unmarked. He’d run a few Appalachian trails, but never without supervision.

He didn’t need to see much to decide he didn’t like it. It was land-locked and hilly and lonely. As much as the Moriyamas tried to convince the world that he did, Kevin didn’t belong there.

He belonged here, where he could take a day trip to the sandy beaches of the mid-Atlantic, where his brown skin would bronze in the seven-month summers. He belonged with his father, even if only one of them knew it.

[dayzone]

perfect court/dark academia aftg au

so if u know me u know I love crime aus and rich kid dark academia aus SO

kinda perfect court au where the ravens + neil (nathaniel) + kevin + andrew all attend a v posh private boarding school in a town where all the residences know that the boys who wear those uniforms mean trouble but no one does anything bc 1. their daddies are rich as fuck and 2. their trouble tends to be mostly harmless to those outside of their school

 (ft. kevineil, jeaneil, + kandreil (kinda))

 kevin, riko, and nathaniel have been joined at the hip ever since riko’s uncle adopted kevin when he was like 5

 riko and nathaniel already knew each other but they had their tempers, even when they were toddlers, so it was hard for them to get along until kevin came in to play middle man between the two of them and nathaniel and riko still get into petty little fights but kevin smooths it all over

(page break bc this got long)

 despite what their popularity and old money might suggest they were... pretty much just like every other kid their age and were kinda nerds 

 of course, at this age, nathaniel already knew how to wield knives and his skin was littered with suspicious scars, riko had been attending therapy for his anger and such since he was 8 years old, and kevin’s anxiety could rival that of a college student during finals week but no kid is perfect in this town

 so they would do silly things like make up their own intricate coded written language to leave each other messages in their hidden treehouse that they built themselves, that even their parents don’t know about

 when their school started offering latin in middle school they took to it like a house on fire 

 not only could they have a secret written language but they could learn an obscure speaking language together, they were so excited 

 going back to where it was mentioned earlier, they built a secret treehouse back in the woods that separate the wesninski and moriyama households that neither of their parents know about

 they go there constantly, to study, to hang out, to get away from their parents when nathan is too heavy handed, mary is too overbearing, tetsuji is disappointed, when kevin hasn’t been able to get his mother’s death out of his head 

 kevin tells them irish folktales that kayleigh told him when he was younger, and the three of them start to collect books about the tales that they leave in their hideout. whenever one of them is upset or having a panic attack, one of the others will hold them and tell them a tale they've memorized to help ground them

 kevin told nathaniel that he wished he could send a far darrig after nathan when nathaniel came to the treehouse with the burn of an iron on his shoulder

 (nathaniel always tells kevin that this was when he knew he loved kevin)

 they meet jean in their freshman year of highschool

 his older sister lives in the area and eventually he tells the three boys that he was sent to america from marseilles because his parents got tired of their fifteen year old child getting in trouble for street racing all throughout france when he was supposed to be attending galas and yacht parties; he was the middle child anyways, and he knew his parents cared more for his sisters which was fine by him (“honestly, nat, I don’t care about their approval anymore, stop threatening to eviscerate them.”)

 nathaniel is a little bit in love the first time he makes jean smile, and a little bit enamored when he makes jean laugh

 kevin knows the dangerously smitten look in nathaniels eyes from experience; hes grown up with those sharp blue eyes always pointed his way. kevin just rolls his own knowingly before nodding at nathaniel and hiding a smile

 theres nothing official going on between nathaniel and kevin or even nathaniel and jean but everyone knows and no one talks about it

 everything is good and well until the summer of their senior year

 the four of them spent their highschool years so far sneaking around cops, evading the law, eating ice cream at 3 am at the overlook above town, jean taking them on joyrides and using tetsuji’s money and nathaniel’s smile to get whatever they want; theyre all a little bit in love with each other, even riko

until kengo dies

 thats riko’s final breaking point

 kevin day is the one who eventually files a missing persons report after finding their hideout soaked in blood fresh enough to smell and jean no where to be found

 nathaniel wesninski is the one who finds kevin curled up and shaking, silently sobbing at the base of the tree, blood and dirt smeared over his hands and clothes

 riko moriyama is the one who gets mysteriously shipped off to a different boarding school on the other side of the coast without saying goodbye

 andrew minyard is the one who starts to decode messages that are being left daily in a seemingly abandoned treehouse that he found in the woods at the beginning of senior year when he was trying to escape his new foster brother, the wood of the structure stained a suspicious red

 jean moreau is the one missing

YEAAH tell me how u feel about this and if u think I should elaborate on this more,,,

part 2

[maybe-i-dreamt-u]

Some Jean Moreau Headcanons that nobody asked for because I love him so so much and I miss him and his grumpy face

Buckle up cause this is a long one oh my god

He can draw, like, so incredibly well, he can sketch anything in a matter of minutes and it looks so good

Once Jeremy notices he leaves him a nice lil sketchbook on his desk with only an anonymous note ((because I can fucking BET  that he’s as bad at receiving gifts as Neil))

Anyway. Once he gets that sketchbooks he starts carrying it everywhere and draws everything that catches his eye- it’s a nice distraction from his thoughts and memories + he wasn’t really allowed to do any of that with the Ravens, so he’s enjoying it as much as he can now

Jeremy’s heart swells whenever he sees him drawing, but nobody needs to know about that

within a month the sketchbook is full of drawings, mainly the trojans, stray cats he sees on the street and pretty places in California

also like half the drawings are of Jeremy

it’s not his fault, they live together, of course he’s gonna have a lot of drawings for Jeremy, sTOP JUDGING HIM 

nobody really gets to see what’s in the sketchbook, he’s very good at keeping it closed, and nO NOT BECAUSE OF HIS DRAWINGS OF JEREMY AND HIS HANDS GOD DAMNIT

he still keeps all of them though.

yes, all of them, as soon as the first one is finished, he somehow finds a new one on his desk

hm I wonder how that happened

anyway

he also likes writing

not necessarily writing stories or anything he just

likes writing

by hand

he used to have really pretty handwriting

it was cursive and it looked amazing

he was so proud of it

but it’s kinda hard to have pretty handwriting after having broken 6 of your fingers

but he’s getting there again

slowly, but surely

he gets himself a journal and a fountain pen or some fancy shit

and he just decides that he wants to have pretty handwriting again

and so he starts writing about whatever’s on his mind

whether it’s some Exy strategy, the specific colour of Jeremy’s hair in the sunlight, or a new card game Laila and Alvarez taught him, he writes it down, as writing exercise

well, partly as writing exercise

in part he also wants to document the beginning of his new life and his newly found happiness

By the time he goes pro his handwriting is as beautiful as ever

everyone envies him for it

and don’t even get me started on his signature

also, I might have said this before but consider

Jean Moreau wearing rings. silver or black bands around his fingers

I fully believe that if aftg was from another era, Jean would wear those short, black gloves, you know the ones I mean. as it is though, he’ll settle for rings the colour of his eyes, that add a little bit of shine to his mostly black outfits

if he’s feeling particularly rebellious he might add a chain around his neck, but it’d take a while for him to get comfortable enough around the trojans to do that

while rooming with the trojans he gets to witness them play a bunch of video games

Laila and Alvarez do twitch streams and you cannot change my mind about that

and sometimes they invite him and Jeremy to their streams

Jeremy is happy to obliege, Jean not so much

but even if he doesn’t appear on camera or whatever, his commentary is almost always audible in the background

and everyone loves his wry jokes and plain rudeness towards the protags of the games

they’ve gotten him to play with them a couple of times

but one game that he hates with a passion

one game that he feels has personally offended him

is Minecraft

you will never see him play Minecraft and he will always degradingly stare at anyone who mentions playing or enjoying the game

he doesn’t have a reason, he simply hates it and that’s it

also, he hates american shows and movies

you’d say he’d have gotten used to it in what, 10 years? but no. if he ever watches tv, which he rarely does, but if it happens, it’s either european ((see: French)) movies, or anime

he likes anime because it allows him to practice his Japanese without thinking of Riko and the master, he can think of the language and not immediately think of pain and suffering

his favourite is Tokyo Ghoul 

also, sometimes when Renee visits, they watch hxh together

speaking of Renee

they always go on picknicks together, and it’s always somewhere with a lot of flowers

I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again, Jean loves flowers

he loves looking at them, he loves smelling them, loves taking care of them, drawing them, journaling about them, everything

he loves how you can say a million words with a single flower

and also, how delicate and elegant they are

say what you want, but I feel like Jean is actually very delicate and gentle to his core

like yea, ever since he was sold to Moriyama and forced to become a raven, he had to be more violent

he had to be violent to be a raven and he had to be violent to play Exy and to be by Riko’s side

but I feel like if he could, he would do a totally different sport, like figure skating or something like that

as it is though, he has to deal with Exy and its violent nature

at least he’s a trojan now

he can relearn to be himself

be the person he wants to be, the person he feels he is at the bottom of his heart

because he’s finally with people that love him and he’s finally free

or well, as free as you can be, while still technically being the Moriyama’s

anyway that’s it for now

sorry, this got a lot longer than I intended it to be

uhh if you’ve come this far thanks? and I hope u enjoyed:))

[zombiecowboy65]

Don’t mean 2 drop in like this randomly, but I feel like you’ll appreciate what I’m about 2 say. (Not sure if anyone has said this yet but🤷🏻‍♀️)

So we know that Warren made Leo choose between a fuckass car and Jeremy and that cunt chose the car🙄

But I was thinking about book 3 and jerejean getting closer 2 being together and Warren inevitably finding out. I was wondering what he would use to bribe Jean 2 leave Jeremy🤔

I was thinking that somehow Warren learns more about Jeans past and how he was human trafficked and is now owned by the Moriyamas. (He’s hella fuckin rich and is in politics so he has connections to figure this out somehow idk)

I was just thinking how fuckin crazy it’d be if there’s an interaction between Jean and Warren and he offers to pay off his debt just so he can leave Jeremy alone. (Far fetched considering the fact that Jean has to pay a percentage of his earnings until he dies)

I’m just imagining Jean being faced with having 2 choose between being free or being with Jeremy😭😭

Obviously we know what Jean will choose (bottle blonde boii😛) cuz it wouldn’t b real freedom, he’d actually b owned by Jeremy’s fucking stepdad at that point😬

But it makes me tear up thinking about how often Jeremy is just thrown away by people around him and he thinks that’s what he deserves, but then Jean “I will choose you every time” Moreau shows up and decides that he’d rather b owned by the Japanese mafia forever than ever even THINK about giving up Jeremy😫😫😫😫😫

U are ALWAYS allowed to drop things at me randomly. And also I appreciate this SO MUCH. Jeremy not getting chosen by literally anyone and then getting the most loyal mf on the planet is literature. Shakespeare wishes he had what miss sakavic does.

I DESPERATELY need Warren to try to bribe Jean and I need Jeremy to witness Jean picking him 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ . I am unsure the logistics of buying his freedom would work out, but I trust the man to find something to bribe the guy with. Maybe info on elodie ? (That feels cruel) (but I would feast)

[dayurno]

i DO wait on dayurno posts!!! i honestly don’t use tumblr much these days so i really just come on every few hours to check up and see what ive missed about kevin or jean or just see what u have to say. i was not kidding when i said ur my morning newspaper

THIS IS REALLY CUTE i feel like my kevin audience understands my overall jean unwellness pretty well but if i were to actually cross borders and make my posts towards a jean-centric audience the fans would have my head by the morning. all that dog calling you know? of course there's nothing wrong with wanting your favorite character to heal and be well none at all it's just that i'm aware the average jean moreau fan does not speak so lightly about his suicide attempts. even if they were hilarious and deranged. like the man himself.

anyway ah this is really cute thank you i'm shy..... i'm glad i've been of entertainment to you sometimes it's still crazy to me that people find my esoteric kevin day bird posting interesting

[humongousgothskeletonfarm]

tsc thoughts while reading (beware of spoilers) starting with -

david wymack my fucking beloved

also i never rlly liked/cared for thea but her scene with jean and her nickname for him was cute

chapter 3 thoughts:

jeremy being in awe of neil and the foxes is giving me life

fanfics with alvarez in them gonna go crazy now that we actually have a first name for her (and don’t have to invent one)

oh they rich rich (in reference to jeremy’s family butler?!)

jerejean first interaction!!!!

chapter 4:

omg sunshine court mentioned

having the sudden realisation that i can never read fanfics that have jean’s perspective or anything about the how the ravens work, raven!neil/aftermath of the kings men in the same way again

my neighbours are having a party and while i’m loving the music and absolutely jealous i’m not there, it’s really distracting me from reading

ngl i rlly miss neil and andrew and the foxes please let me see my family soon

‘ what you hold onto is less important than the act of holding on itself’ nora sakavic shut the fuck up you philosophical genius i’m gonna cry this is so real to me

renee i love u

WIT WTF JEAN IS NINETEEN I DIDNT KNOW THAT OH MY GOD BABY HE JOINED THE RAVEN LINEUP AT SIXTEEN WTF

i’m drinking red wine while reading and i think that’s appropriate… also i’m listening to that jean moreau playlist someone made and it’s mega depressing https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5zlPt63Ap0AjJQ1Ff5OKrd?si=75oEzLE8SO-bfJwewM8Evw&pi=a-ge04jIlVTJGY

this is so funny to only me but i’ve been hyperfixating on one direction again and zayn just dropped new music so everytime i read about jean’s raven roomate zane i think of one direction and confused myself a bit about what fandom i’m reading rn

fuck riko u sick fucking fuck u put jean into a box with a singular hole for air and left him to die u fucking cunt

KEVIN ASKING JEAN TO PROMISE NOT TO KILL HIMSELF AFTER NORA WROTE COUNTLESS DRAFTS IN WHICH JEAN KILLED HIMSELF WHILE ON THE PHONE TO KEVIN AND THE ONLY TIME SHE DIDNT KILL JEAN OFF IS THE VERSION SHE PUBLISHED AND THE REASON WE GET TO HEAR HIS STORY TODAY IM SO BROKEN

jean’s ‘gift’ from the ravens with his broken magnets, blacked out postcards and angry letters is making me cry he deserves so much better

slowly realising that this book is gonna be super triggering lol whoops

a cool evening breeze 🥲

THAT CREEPY LITTLE GOALKEEPER IS MY FAVOURITE GUY OK

‘kevin saw nothingn but the court, but jean had stopped hoping for more than that years ago’ shut the fuckkkk uppppp i cant do this anymore kevin/jean relationship is so deeply important to me (i say this about everything)

chapter 5:

SECOND NEIL/ JEAN INTERACTION OF THE BOOK IM SO FUCKING EXCITED

‘of course it’d be you, you tedious malcontent’ ‘good morning to you too’ is so ‘morning sunshine’ ‘fuck you’ coded (neil and matt bromance confirmed)

the amount of mitski on this jean playlist is making me sick

FUCKING SCREAMING OMFG THIS IS THE JEAN/NEIL CONTENT I YEARN FOR

‘abominable cockroach’ aww jean u say the sweetest things 🥰❤️ neil loves u too babe

literally devouring every last scrap of information jean feeds us about neil - his slow, hungry, hateful smile and the madness in his eyes (neil baby i love u never change)

oh jean don’t diss aaron, do u know how many fanfics have been written about u two

tsc is confirmation that jean moreau will come into ur house and judge u based on the contents of ur fridge (and then throw out ur stash of lollies)

‘to have a real match as a palate cleanser’ jean is really trying to win my favour by borrowing neil’s sassiness huh (no wonder i love them so much together) ((and yes i know he’s BEEN sassy ok))

jean reaching for the tv screen as if he could save neil and describing andrew running for neil as if hell was on his heels is making me absolutely giddy idk whether to scream or cry i’m doing both and i’m giggling

I bet on losing dogs is so jean moreau coded omg

holy fuck nora, the moments after the raven/fox match when riko tries to kill neil is fucking amazingly written. reading from jean’s perspective as he watches the game on tv, the tension, the breathless anxiety and confusion of the scene is palpable i coukd fucking taste it, my chest is tight just reading it

JEAN SAYING ANDREW WILL BE COURT IS IMMACULATE

[foxsoulcourt]

Can I? HELLO?!!! I’m guessing you already know JereJean is one of my fave AFTG fic categories, yes? So, the short answer Y E S I absolutely can…and will. Longer answer: I want to get @djhedy‘s + my convo in Ch 9 of the Podficast up + finish beta'ing an original work by @i-h8-u-no-u-dont (that is SOOOOO good + I’m almost done!) But, I can’t leave you w/out something so here are 2 looooong ones I adore to help you stay sane during the quarantine. Have you already read this? Read them again! They.are.that.good. Look for things you missed the first time around; comment w/extra care. There’s always something to notice in re-reads.

Remember my caveat: any time I recommend works, the expectation for you dear readers is to lavish these writers with your complimentary comments!

Don’t know what to say? Use keysmashes + emojis!Tell them where you are/what you’re eating/what music you’re listening to when you’re reading! Use short phrases to tell them how their work is helping you stave off boredom inside your room/apt/home during this pandemic! What you say doesn’t matter; the act of showing appreciation does.

 playing on by flybbfly (M, 142k, 2018) - There’s a reason this is one of the most recommended JereJean works: it’s so damned good. @wilsherejack writes Exy games exquisitely well, her writing is economical + she knows how to write a slow burn, that’s for sure! Plus, there are playlists for the work and...another favourite aspects of her writing...most of the characters are people of colour.  "Who knew California Golden Boy Jeremy Knox could play dirty?”Jeremy grins. “Best kept secret on the west coast. Told you there was a western division striker who could dispossess you.” “On a practice court, maybe," Jean says. "Try to get it away from me during a game.”Jeremy leans back, bracing himself on gloved hands. “Luckily, I won't ever have to.” In which Jean Moreau and Jeremy Knox play exy, share a dorm room, and accidentally insult each another a lot.

a bicycle made for two (or three) by lazarusthefirst (E, 99k, 2018) -  When artist Jean + his daughter Maddie move into their new apartment, they get be-friended by one of their neighbours, a guy who works in a bar + feels a little lost in his life these days. I fell so hard for this fic that I completely embarrassed myself by gushing at the author who is @thetrojeans on Tumblr. In hindsight, attempting to move into a new apartment on January 2nd had been optimistic at best. For one thing New York was four feet deep in snow, and even the neighbourhood kids with nothing better to do than shovel it for dollars couldn’t keep up. The other hindrance was due to the fact that Santa had been very generous this year, which left Jean standing on a patch of sidewalk he’d kicked clear himself, holding his four year old daughter’s hand and wondering how he was going to get all of their stuff plus the Pink Unicorn Princess Dream House up four flights of stairs without something breaking.

THANK YOU for asking after myself + my loved ones. I’m grateful to report rn all 4 of us are healthy in body + usually in mind too. Starting last week Mr FSC began working from home. Daughters C + H are finishing up college classes online + well-situated in their homes, 2 + 3 states away. Who knows what’s happening for their respective graduations, but they are optimistic, music to a parents’ ears + heart. Weekly FaceTime family dinners are a saving grace. Ditto gardening + seeing birds, kids, cats, dogs + neighbours from inside the house or our yard. Yesterday,  using the magic of FaceTime, I “went on a walk” w/my 98 y.o. Auntie who lives in CA. When I started to ReaLLy FrEaK out dear @pomponia nudged me to write a list of things I cannot control + those I can. It’s helping. I’m sleeping 8-9 hrs a night + worrying not a whit about that. Sometimes I take naps too. Thank goodness for Discord which helps me stay in touch w/dear fandom friends around the world. 

Yes, there is much to fear. 

Yet, as always, there is much to be grateful for. 

I do my best to focus more on the latter + remain steadfastly joyful.

Sometimes it is easy; other times I am frozen on the couch. 

Mostly, it’s one foot in front of the other.

Let’s encourage one another, shall we?

Love to you dear one! ~Cory

[svrpcntined]

here is my lil hobgoblin #2 aka my girl stevie whoMSt i love v dearly and she’s a new muse and also a lot of it is me being gay for emma mackey so0o0oo0 we out here laid ease !! some bits of info are down below and pray 4 me to push through lincoln’s jfnkds

( emma mackey, cisfemale, she/her ) ↷ hey, that’s STEPHANIE “STEVIE” ROUSSEAU who’s originally from SCEAUX, FRANCE. i heard they’re TWENTY-THREE and have been working on the ship as a BARTENDER AT CLUB H2O for SEVEN MONTHS. other passengers seem to say they’re DELPHIC and APATHETIC, but are also known to be RECEPTIVE and CHARMING. when they’re missing home, i heard WATCHING THE SUNSET & READING can always cheer them up. ↷ 

statistics:

full name: stephanie amélie rousseau  / nicknames: stevie  /  birthday: may 12th  / sexuality: bisexual / birthplace: sceaux , paris , france /  spoken languages: french, english, german, & italian  /  hogwarts house: ravenclaw

tidbits of info:

stevie was born as the result of a last ditch effort to save an already failing marriage between clara rousseau and louis moreau and u know … spoiler alert it didn’t work bc it only took louis six months following stevie’s birth that he dipped with only a half assed note as an apology and left clara with stevie and their older three year old daughter 

though stevie doesn’t remember her father at all , she knows he Ain’t Shit from what she’s been told by her mother even though it’s v clear that her mother still is very much in love w her father despite all the shit he pulled and the turbulent relationship that they had

but a silver lining to it all was stevie’s mom took her newfound single-hood and decided to get back into teaching which was smth she put on hold when she married louis and then eventually stevie and her sister came along so she got a bit of cabin fever from being in the house so often while louis was out managing a popular restaurant ig

while stevie does kinda wish she could’ve spent more time w her mom , it meant that she had a certain level of freedom to do as she pleased when she was growing up when her mom got hired as a history and archaeology professor over at sorbonne université .. so stevie explored the depths of paris when she was able to escape her suburb of sceaux with her older sis

so bc of that she’s a bit of a free spirit and letting herself be led by whatever she’s feeling in the moment , but that’s doesn’t mean she easily bounces between whatever manages to pique her interest , she’s a tad of a polymath in liking to dabble in each thing and dedicates a lot of her time to fully understanding and being good at smth before she feels like she’s knowledgable before moving on

also .. pls call her stevie bc if she hears u call her stephanie she might blow a gasket bc she hates her name jdnflkjas plus her mom is the one person she allows to call her that even if it gets on her nerves .. p much she just thinks stephanie is a bland name and thinks stevie has more personality behind it , no shade to any stephanie’s out there djsfkjds

bc i’m Garbage for maeve in sex education , a lot of stevie’s vibes are her’s with her newly dyed blonde hair w pink towards the end and nose ring .. naturally a brunette but when stevie decided to dip out of france and to horizon she thought it was time for a New Look ., she def has that parisian flair to her sense of fashion with cute lil neck scarves but also the maeve look of doc martins w ripped stockings and denim skirts

stevie is a mix of embracing her femininity with her fair share of babydoll dresses, blouses w peter pan collars and turtlenecks under strappy dresses , but also fluctuates to her more grunge looks of plaid, ripped skinny jeans and loose shirts . she doesn’t really mind it ?? views it as her sense of style and chooses to wear whatever she’s vibing w most

despite her easy going n seemingly carefree personality , stevie is actually v intelligent and her lips know how to drip honey when they want ,, she graduated v high up in her class and went on to study fashion design and technology at ifa paris where she got her bachelor’s degree

she learned a lot there and definitely solidified stevie wanting to start up her own self ran boutique so that’s been her dream for a while now .. but she got tired of paris and decided to dip and she found herself as a bartender on horizon at club h2o bc she figured she could finagle tips out of drunk ppl dnalkd

tbh stevie jumps from hookup to hookup w/o ever really desiring a relationship bc her mother hasn’t been w anyone since stevie’s father so she doesn’t see herself as needing a significant other to help ground her or fill some hole bc she’s happy with her life and where she is ?? maybe one day she’ll change her mind but she’s also a but ehh bc her father dipped so there’s a small part of her that thinks everyone eventually ends up leaving so there’s not much of a point

stevie’s main goal is to save up enough money so she can get her online boutique off the ground where it’s v cute and has parisian flair to it and she has designs she’s working on but wants to save up before she goes any further