#i miss so many people from old ra tumblr haha

[aseikh]

Hey! Saw your latest post. Man, I used to run gilan-davidsson back in the day, and being part of the RA fandom like 10 years ago is such an integral part of why I think tumblr is great and why I’m still here. I’m so glad I still follow you and see you post, it’s like a little reminder of being in high school and having fun interacting with strangers online over something so special.

oh my GOD DUUUUUDE gilan-davidsson was THE blog back then, it's so good to hear you are still around. i honestly think nostalgia is why i keep this blog around, but i've also met so many wonderful people through RA and i wouldn't be who i am today without them.

it's always been a treat to be able to come back here and see that other people still have the party going, even if i'm not on this blog every day anymore.

[zaxxusu]

Happy Mother's Day

(a monologue, a kind of letters - originally published in 2014 on my old RP account that has been deleted by Tumblr, reposting here in modified a bit)

𝟣𝟧 𝓎𝑒𝒶𝓇𝓈 𝒶𝑔𝑜

Mom, you scare me! No ghost under my bed, I know it! Okay, okay, I'll go sleep. Mom? You still there? Well, I have a dream... I wanna be a hero I'm gonna save the world! Hey, don't laugh! I mean it. I wanna make you smile and proud. Mhh... love you too, Mom. Good night.

𝟣0 𝓎𝑒𝒶𝓇𝓈 𝒶𝑔𝑜

Sorry, Mom, but I must go. I wanna achieve my dream, and it can't be attained only in this small village. I wanna see the world. I wanna make many friends around Gaia! Bet you'd be all worried. Just pray for me and I'll do my best to make the goals. ...Wait! What's that? Come back with my wife? Hey, hey... I'm just 13! I'm back after I'm success. I promise... See me!

8 𝓎𝑒𝒶𝓇𝓈 𝒶𝑔𝑜

How's Gongaga? Pops still alive and kicking? Is he seeing mushrooms from below already? Sorry for writing only now. I meant to write earlier but work stuffs here really extreme. Either you do nothing at all, or you do too much. But let's face it, there's never too much for me, anyway! Nah, I'm SOLDIER now. Already 2nd Class and gonna make it 1st soon! Which should be easy, hehe. I met a few great people. The great Hero Sephiroth gives me few trainings. Have you ever heard his name? He's the Hero of Wutai war! Soon, I'll be dispatched there and be a great hero too! But Angeal is my mentor, he's 1st Class too like Sephiroth! And I'll always be remembering his words, that if I wanted to be a hero, I have to embrace my dream and honor. He's on vacation right now. He said hi to you, Mom. And Kunsel! He's my friggin' stalker... but in a positive way! I mean... we're best friends! Well, he knows what he does, and I have a feeling he purposively remains in 2nd Class to have an eye on all that happens inside Shin-Ra. So yeah, I get along great with everyone. How's Sotetsu by the way? Tell him I don't forget him.

6 𝓎𝑒𝒶𝓇𝓈 𝒶𝑔𝑜

Mom? There are so many things happened, I wanna help my friend. But I'm not strong enough to do. It is complicated... Though, not gonna give up and it'll be alright. Just like Pops always says: "If it's not alright, then it's not the end yet!" This one, Mom, praise your son! Well, I met a girl... at the church in the city slum. She's like an angel. Her hobby is tending flowers--bet you'd love her! I bought a pink ribbon for her, for a memento. She said she'll always treasure it. Then we went on a date! My first date! I also met another country boy! He's from Nibelheim and a Chocobo. ...No! I'm not talking to animal, not anymore! >////< His name is Cloud and his hair looks like Chocobo--all spiky and messy. He should try my shampoo or visit you, letting you mingle with his hair. Afterall, it's you who make me look the way I do haha.

5 𝓎𝑒𝒶𝓇𝓈 𝒶𝑔𝑜

It's been a while, Mom. New season, new responsibility. I made 1st Class, but somehow, I'm not happy with it. I command an army now, rookies, so I can't let it make me down. And Sephiroth is my partner now, he trusts me. In short, I'm doing my best as SOLDIER--just as Angeal taught me, embrace my dreams and protect my honor. He's gone, Mom, but he's always in my heart. By the way, remember the girl I met in the church? It's a next level. I'm serious with her, Mom. Her name is Aerith. Well, she is... A bit spoiled, picky, clumsy ...and also can't cook. But I love her! Pretty is just a standard and normal is overrated--I love her with all of her quirks and flaws. She matches my energy. Whenever I spend my time with her, I feel respite. So, I can always keep up straight thanks to her. Will pick her to meet you, but not in the near future, I guess. Still working hard, saving money, building flowers wagon--she and I start this business. You must laugh but I'm selling flowers as a side job. We have a dream to fill Midgar with flowers. This city is opposite of Gongaga. I miss the greens, water, fresh air. So yeah, gonna make everyone here happy with the flowers!

𝐹𝑒𝓌 𝓂𝑜𝓃𝓉𝒽𝓈 𝒶𝑔𝑜

Dear, Mom. How many seasons have passed? I wish I could knock your door, see your face right now, and apologize for everything. Sorry for not being a good enough son for you. Ha! A bit melancholy suddenly? I'm not homesick or so! Home is... where the heart is, isn't it? Just so you know, I still have my friend, Cloud. I won't abandon him whatever happened. I'll be fine, don't worry. Because if I wasn't, then how could he? I'm still in the road to be a hero. I'm not giving up in this rough and dire. I finally find a meaning and purpose. I think it's because of you and pops raising me--and my late mentor, honor to him. So, thank you, Mom. Pops, too. Say hi to him. PS: Oh, and... I dunno what Cissnei--that girl in the black suit--told you, but she isn't my fiancee! I still have my heart for my flower girl. And I'm on the road to fulfill her 23 wishes. Just to make that sure.

[sapphicscholar]

9, 12, 48? (If you’re still up for it)

Oh hey! Yeah, why not?

9. what’s one show you thought you’d hate but turned out to really enjoy?

Ted Lasso! I saw the show description and went: oh. no thank you please. But then in a single week I had about a dozen people tell me to watch it, plus all the people I follow on Tumblr who had totally fallen in the fandom rabbit hole, so I gave it a shot and was sold in the pilot! It's not my all time favorite show, but I really did enjoy it

12. have you ever watched a show just for a specific actor? did you enjoy it?

Many times! Most recently I watched Watchmen for Jean Smart and Regina King and totally loved it. I had been reluctant for a while not because it didn't sound interesting but because I hadn't read the graphic novel and worried I'd be missing a lot of necessary context (I think it probably helps and ended up looking a lot of things up online as I watched, but it was still great)

On the flip side, I also tried watching the iCarly reboot for Poppy Liu in a queer ship (thanks tumblr gifs!), but couldn't make it past the first episode. Admittedly I hadn't watched the original outside of a few episodes the kids I nannied for would watch (so I didn't have any nostalgia selling me on it), but it felt like the writers didn't know what their brand of humor was or who their target age demographic was (or even how old their own characters were). The only actors selling it in the first ep (imo) were Laci Mosley and Jerry Trainor.

48. are there any shows your friends love but you aren’t interested in?

Oh, so many! She-Ra, GoT (tbh most shows that are violence/action heavy, no matter how critically acclaimed), Critical Role (if that counts as a show - it's all over my TL haha)... the list goes on!

Questions from this TV ask meme!

[itsanidiom]

Tagged by both @pb-nj and @deepwoundsandfadedscars~<3 <3

1. why did you choose your url?

It’s from an argument I had with my sister once LOL she mixed up the idiom ‘under my belt’ and said ‘I’ve got that behind my belt’. A lot of people get that idiom wrong and me being a little shit was like ‘um actually...’ LOL anyway the argument ended with me shouting ‘IT’S AN IDIOM’ ...but also I just really like idioms in all languages <3 

2. any side-blogs? if you have them, name them and why you have them.

QUITE A FEW: Luxor City book blog: @the-empires-of-luxor-city Music blog: @pianissimomezzoforte Future book aesthetic blog (VuX): @vanguard-unit-x Future book aesthetic blog (Swan Lake): @lebedinoeozero

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

According to my mass post editor April 2011 but I know it was actually summer 2010 so I probably deleted a lot of old posts LOL

4. do you have a queue tag?

No~ I think I just queue things sometimes and don’t mention if it’s a queue or not LOL I am on here at random times all the time anyway so you’d never know XD

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

I graduated HS in 2010. I got into a summer art school program to learn about First Nations art because I’m like 1/8 Seminole. A friend in class was like “have you heard of tumblr?” and I was like “No” and thus I was sucked into this place and doomed to spend eternity wandering the...

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp?

Because Oscar Isaac is BAE and Disney did him dirty (along with everyone else in The Force Awakens)

7. why did you choose your header?

Because TOG is one of the best action movies I’ve seen in a LONG time and I love it and I need 2 Old 2 Guard NETFLIX PLEASE STOP CLOWNING ME (;A;)

8. what’s your post with the most notes?

Ah yes~ Les temps de ‘Les Misérables’~ I miss that fandom haha 

9. how many mutuals do you have?

I dunno! Quite a few over the years, but many are not active anymore.

10. how many followers do you have?

too many...I love you all but why are you here? lol <3

11. how many people do you follow?

201

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

Yes...but not too often...cause if they blow up i must suffer the consequences

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

Your honor...I plead the 5th

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

This also harkens back to the Les Misérable days. I got into a lot of fights with people who thought they knew French and the works of Victor Hugo better than me (fyi: they didn’t). I will always remember this one because it was so stupid and made me SO mad. They were arguing with me about how to pronounce something in French. I have shitty French now yes but I grew up going to French school so I know how to pronounce shit. It was literally Enjolras’ name (“Ahn-Jol-Rah” vs “Ahn-Jol-Ras”). I was like the ‘s’ is pronounced if there’s a vowel starting the next word after it but it’s not pronounced if you just say his name like “Il s'appelle Enjolras” vs “Enjolras a quitté le café”. Anyway they were like “YOU’RE FUCKING STUPID MY GRANDMA IS HALF FRENCH AND SHE SAID...” I just blocked them... LOL (^^;) Anyway enjoy the mini French lesson and rant

15. how do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

I usually don’t reblog the post...guilt tripping isn’t my schtick...

16. do you like tag games?

Yeah! I like answering them but sometimes I don’t like thinking about who to tag (see question 20)

17. do you like ask games? 😊

Also yes~!

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

Well, I’m still somehow mutuals with @brilcrist​‘s side blog @brilandsurrounding​ (LOL let’s remind her she has a side blog again after like 5 years XD) her art is freaking amazing though she’s mainly migrated away from tumblr during the great purge (follow her on IG you won’t regret). 

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

Ehhhhh...no...

20. tags?

No tags~ we end here like kings~ XD