#i might send myself an anon tbh if enough come in

[defiledtomb]

tell me something. put your heart on the table and let it stain. I won't tell what body it came from

[moonselune]

hiii it's revivify anon again (can I be 🐶anon?)

ahhhh your takes for the male companions reactions are so real!!

as a galemancer myself, I absolutely see him going the god route to bring them back. he's probably spin it as something like, "it was my ambition to bring you back. Therefore, i am allowed" (honestly, I could see him becoming so much darker if he brings back his fallen love. He'd probably keep them in a gilded cage of sorts. Always saying that he has their best interests at heart, that he's better and more reliable than all other gods. That no one, god or mortal, could love you better than him, so you should worship him just as much as he worships you... man... the potential.)

Thinking about astarion losing his love just hurts because like... they came and healed his heart only to shatter it all over again? If it was BEFORE the cazador fight, I think he'd definitely ascend himself. Why worry about losing your soul when you've already lost your heart? If it was after the cazador fight, I think he'd just kick himself for letting you convince him not to do it, and eventually circle back to the idea that he should've ascended. Maybe then, he could've saved you....

Oh, Wyll.... I get what you mean about not wanting to immediately go down that route of trading his soul to another Patron. I think if Mizora caught wind, she'd absolutely taunt him with it. Always hanging around like a bad smell, dangling the chance to bring his love back as long as he signs away his soul in a Pact eternal with her. I think as long as he had his friends around, he would be able to stand firm and remember that his lover would've shattered at the idea of him sacrificing himself. I'm not sure if I'm misreading his character or not, but I'm pretty sure he wouldn't take another lover. He'd probably 1) blame himself for the loss of their life, and 2) think he isn't worthy of love again, and 3) probably love them until he dies tbh. He wouldn't want another lover, because they wouldn't be his lost love :'(

DARK HALSIN!!! Girl... your mind.... you are so onto something. I could totally see him going shadow druid tbh. He'd probably stop and be like, "you know what? Maybe they were right. Maybe I should've embraced the shadows. Maybe I still should..." or like, if people venture far enough into the woods, they might come across a corpse perfectly preserved as if theyre just sleeping, reeking of druidic magic. There's tons of plants surrounding the body. Some consider it a holy site, some consider it cursed. But all agree not to linger too long, lest the beast that guards it finds you...

CW: Dark Content

Of course 🐶 nonnie !

Oh my god yes yes yes yes, I have done a galemancy run and it was one of my favourites. The way this man would be like "I am doing nothing wrong" and there's just a pile of bodies behind him because he keeps messing up this necromancy spell that requires a sacrifice. Oh my lord and when it finally works and you are alive, back and well. He is overjoyed and is like my love! You have returned! Don't look at all the blood and bodies, just come this way my love! No the outside world will harm you, my love, just follow me! Look at this room it has all your favourites! Those windows have never opened my love, here's your favourite tea!

And he is NEVER going to let it go that he brought you back- ever. You are his masterpiece, the fruits of all his labor, the perfect embodiment of his ambition. He is your creator, you, the perfect creation. You belong to him. You will watch him ascend and you will take your place below beside him.

Resisting is pointless, you wouldn't want to go back to that cruel afterlife. Maybe if you are being particularly ungrateful, you would like a taste of what he rescued you from? Sending you into a spiral of nightmares until all you can do is cling to him in fear. He strokes your hair as you cry and murmurs how all he did was save you from this and you want to defy him? Hurt him by saying all those cruel words?

Well shit this is gonna end up as a fic isn't it?

YES, pre cazador, definitely would ascend and I can go see him going after people who look like you but as soon as they do/say something that is out of character for you, he just murders them. Justifying it by saying if you don't get to live, then neither do the poor imitations of you.

If he didn't ascend I reckon he would make a deal for him to get some sort of power, as you said, his heart died with you, what does he need a soul for? And then that takes us back to his ascended behaviour.

Oh baby boy Wyll, I agree, I do not think he would take another lover, but he would move on, I can see him becoming Grand Duke and shaping Baldur's Gate into a City that you would have survived in. He would name so many things after you, you liked books? He would build a library in your name? You always said you wanted kids or a big family, he builds an orphanage for you, telling the children stories of you. I think eventually as Wyll gets older and Mizora still tries to tempt him, he eventually enjoys her presence - as every time she tries to lure him into darkness, he can hear his beloved guiding him back to the light, and that he would never give up. Mizora is like wtaf, fine, you will never see me again, and then she's bored and shows up.

Dark Halsin !!! We love you !! He would have such a guilt complex about the shadow druids, how they were right etc. AND YES OMG you read my mind, parents warn their kids not to play too deep into the forest and for those wayward ones they come back, trembling with fear as they say how the beast roared and swiped its sharp paw at them. (Halsin would scare them away, I can never imagine him being violent with kids). But for those trying to prove their strength and valour by rescuing the beautiful maiden - they are never seen again.

Oooooo I cannot wait to sink my teeth into this!

[collidescopeeyes]

Hey so I'm kind of in a tm-not-so-good place right now, so if possible can I get a Heartsteel Aphelios x reader who's dealing with a narcissistic/emotionally abusive parent? Or if possible it's Aphelios and their S/O but they also have the rest of the Heartsteel members and Alune to help them through it. As you can see by the request, I'm dealing with this right now and i kinda need the comfort, thank you!

As someone whose dealt with far too much of that myself recently, my heart goes out to you anon ❤️ hope things get easier soon.

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You have ‘hey, are you awake?’ typed into the chatbox, thumb hovering indecisively over the send button, for a good fifteen minutes before Aphelios messages you. You aren't expecting it–it’s almost midnight, and Phel might be a night owl, but he also has a job. Part of the reason you'd been reluctant to text him–he’s busy, and you'd hate to wake him.

‘You okay?’ the text reads. You spend a moment wondering why he'd ask that, and then realize if he was texting you this late at night he also would have seen your typing notification hovering there for god knows how long. Which also means pretending you're fine is probably out of the picture as well–even if he didn't know you were visiting your parents this weekend, he's always been had a knack for seeing straight through you. May as well be honest, then.

‘not really tbh’ you type back. ‘like I'm fine I'm just…….blehhh. y'know.’

‘Want company?’ comes the immediate reply, because Phel puts sugar to shame. Too sweet for his own good, probably, because he really shouldn't be driving around at fuck o’clock at night to keep you company– ‘I missed you :(‘ comes the follow up text, neatly defeating the argument you were just building up in your head.

‘...can I come over?’ you ask anyway. ‘i don't really want to be at home right now’

‘ofc. I'm already putting my shoes on, I'll see you soon ❤️’

You send a heart back, click your phone off, and stare blankly up at the fading afterimage of the bright screen against your dark ceiling. You have no idea what time you'd gotten home, but you'd had about enough energy to crawl into bed and not much else. As such, you're pretty much still dressed, plus you're pretty sure you have clean clothes at Phel’s place. Even if you didn't, you'd steal one of his shirts to sleep in and Alune would have something to lend you in the morning. You're pretty sure she likes dressing you up, or at least, she has a habit of leveraging her industry connections to get amazing deals on clothes she just happens to think you'd look cute in. Kayn likes to joke she's trying to steal you away from Aphelios.

A knock on your front door startles you to attention, followed by jingling keys as Phel lets himself in. How long had you been zoning out for? He lived like fifteen minutes away, and it felt like it'd barely been five. You drag yourself out of bed as he pushes open your bedroom door, and even in the dim light from the street lamp outside your window you see him smile when he sees you. Immediately, you're wrapped up in a hug, and you feel him press a kiss to your hairline. The anxious knot that's been in your chest ever since you left this weekend eases a little, and you clutch at his hoodie trying to absorb that feeling. He smells like fresh laundry and comfort and home.

“...hi,” you offer after a moment, your voice slightly muffled from where you're pressing your face into his chest. You lean back, reaching over to fumble with your lamp so you can actually see him. “You got here faster than I thought, sorry.”

He shrugs. “I was at Yone’s, the bands having a movie night,” he signs. “We can join them, if you're feeling up for it, or we can just go back to mine and chill. It's up to you.”

You blink up at him. “What movie?”

“The mummy series,” he signs. “Ez is getting super offended, it's really funny.”

You huff a laugh. “That sounds…perfect, actually. You're sure nobody will mind?”

He waves a hand at you. “Of course not, the guys love you.” A smile curves your lips, and he pauses, a fond look in his eye before he ducks his head to press a kiss to your lips. “Not that I wouldn't be happy to monopolize you, but, y'know.”

You laugh. “I think Alune would have words about that.”

He shrugs. “Gotta flex my older brother privileges sometime. You good to go?”

You glance at your still unpacked bag, then nod–that was a tomorrow problem. Maybe the day after. His car is parked outside, still warm from the drive over–he must've cranked the heater for you, because left to his own devices Aphelios wouldn't feel the need for a jacket in a walk in freezer.

“Do you want to talk about it?” He signs as you pull out onto the quiet streets, one hand on the wheel.

You sigh deeply. “It's…nothing new, and I probably should've expected this because this is what always happens, but…I dunno, I was hoping we could have a mature conversation this time? But no, same old song and dance. Nothing is ever their fault, and if I get them to stop deflecting long enough to actually admit they did something wrong, I must only be bringing it up because I'm an terrible daughter who's just trying to hurt them, and then the whole thing turns into a big confrontation when all I wanted was…I dunno, some acknowledgement that ‘hey, that was a fucked up thing I did,’” you gesture vaguely at the dashboard, frustrated, and then deflate with a defeated sigh. He reaches over and squeezes your hand in wordless comfort. You offer him a weak smile. “It's fine. I'll be fine. It's just…exhausting, you know?"

He nods, and with a final squeeze you let his hand go so he can sign “I'm sorry. It's not fair, and you deserve better.” He glances at you, brow pulled together in worry. “If you ever need anything, comfort or company or help, I'm here for you. We all are. Doesn't matter how late it is or how far away you are, I'll come running.”

You probably shouldn't try to kiss him while he's driving. “Thanks,” you say instead, voice soft. “I…can't tell you how much that means to me.”

He smiles, but if he has a reply his hands are occupied pulling into Yone’s driveway. Still, he's not driving anymore, so that makes it fair game to lean across the console to kiss the life out of him.

--Right up until you hear Yone's door open. You break apart, only to see Alune standing on the doorstep, hands on her hips. She signs something too fast for you to catch in the dim streetlight, and then flounces back inside. Phel laughs, and you look at him curiously. “She called me an attention hog,” he signs, chuckling.

You laugh. “Well, we better not keep her waiting.”

The sound of the movie filters in as you enter the house and make your way to the living room, coupled with familiar voices and laughter. “--and codex style books weren't even invented until the Roman Empire!” Ezreal is arguing as you walk in, gesturing at the screen animatedly. “It would’ve been a papyrus scroll!” A chorus of greetings sounds over the tail end of his sentence, apparently dismissing what's no doubt the tail end of a long rant. They're scattered around the room–Alune and Ezreal on the long couch, K'Sante and Yone in the twin armchairs on either side, Sett lounging on the beanbag in the corner and Kayn laying directly on the carpeted floor, ankles crossed on the edge of the couch and watching the movie upside-down.

“He's been going on like this the whole time,” Sett informs you by way of greeting, grinning.

“Someone has to hold Hollywood accountable for their blatant disregard for historical accuracy!” Ezreal insists hotly, before fixing you with a pleading look. “Back me up here, you think papyrus scrolls are cool, right?”

“Pretty cool, yeah,” you agree. Alune animatedly gestures you over to two free spaces on the couch with a beaming grin, which you have no doubt she pulled rank to acquire. Kayn offers you a wave as you step over him.

“I saved some snacks,” she whispers as you settle by her side, Phel on your other. True to her word, she has a bowl of chips in one hand and a punnet of chocolate dipped strawberries in the other. Ezreal tries to sneak one of the latter while she's distracted, only for her to whip her head around and give him a narrow eyed look, to which he immediately begins to feign stretching instead.

“How was your trip?” Yone asks. You must make a face, because he frowns. “Ah. My condolences. Family matters are often... uniquely troubling."

You wince. “It was…not great, yeah. I don't...really want to get into it.”

“I'm just putting this out there, but if you want someone vanished you can just say the word, I know a guy,” Kayn offers from the floor.

You stifle a laugh. “Are you the guy?”

“Me or one of my siblings,” he qualifies. “Depends, how many people you want killed?”

“You cannot keep threatening to sic your family members on people you don't like simply because your father teaches all his foster children martial arts,” K'Sante points out dryly.

“It's not just because of that,” Kayn argues. “It's part of the pact–everyone gets one favor, no questions asked, everybody has to chip in if they can."

“And you…haven't used yours yet?” Yone asks skeptically.

“Nope,” Kayn says cheerfully. “I covered up my fuckups and achieved my numerous impressive exploits by my own merits, thank you.”

“I do not need anyone killed,” you confirm.

“Yet,” Ezreal corrects sagely, only to interrupt himself with an aghast gasp. “He's reading hieroglyphs in the wrong direction!” he cries, pointing accusingly at the screen. Phel puts an arm around your shoulder and pulls you into his side, and like this–snuggled up with him, surrounded by your friends and terrible movie–it was suddenly a lot easier to believe everything was going to be okay.

[poppitron360]

tbh i find you annoying but thats just my opinion. you're allowed to do whatever the fuck you want. good for you. my own opinion - based on petty standards and prejudice and a bit of jealousy - is not a reflection of reality and should not affect you. keep having fun.

also please don't block me because you're posting about something i like and it's not very well known and i just needed to get this out because id explode

… Okay?

This ask is fascinating to me and I have SO MANY QUESTIONS. Imma disect your comment like a lil bug real quick, if that’s okay with you?

If it doesn’t affect me why did you tell me? Like what was the purpose of telling me that you find me annoying? What validation does that give you?

Like you took all that time and effort to 1) seek out my blog 2) read enough of my posts to come up with a REALLY REALLY GOOD BURN LIKE WOW THAT IS SO CLEVER 3) Click on the ask button 4) write this comment 5) CHANGE THE FREAKING FONT- Like you went through the whole process of highlighting that line of text, clicking the “minimise” AND the “strikethrough” buttons and THEN 6) pressing send and you didn’t stop to think ONCE “hey… why the hell am I doing this?”

It always baffles me when people tell me these things like they think I’m not already painfully aware of it. Like I know that I’m annoying to some people THAT’S WHY I’M HERE!!! I have found the one community of people that find what I’m saying interesting!

I’m not posting for YOU I’m posting for THEM. You think I give a shit what you think about me? Are you THAT self-centred? Maybe my posts aren’t tailored to you, and that’s fine! Not everyone is making content specifically for your consumption, and might just be marketing to a different audience. If you’re not pickin’ up what I’m puttin’ down, that’s okay. Maybe I’m just not putting it down for your specific needs.

You know, before I joined Tumblr, a comment like this would have sent me SPIRALLING. But now I’ve realised that there is actually a place and a people to whom I am entertaining. I just gotta find the right audience.

One of my favourite inspirational quotes ever is by Einstein and it’s that “everyone is a genius, but if you judge a fish by it’s ability to climb a tree, it would think itself an idiot” or words to that effect. Yeah- my talent for spinning Leo Valdez round my brain like a candy-floss machine until it eventually turns into content isn’t necessarily “fun at parties” or useful for getting a job or good for… y’know… anything applicable to the Real World™️ but here I’ve found where I CAN put it to good use! And a year ago I didn’t have that.

Before Tumblr, my lil fishy body was struggling ‘er way up that tree. Here, I’ve found my ocean!

Not sure where this metaphor is going in relation to the topic of you finding me annoying… I guess fish me doesn’t feel like such an “idiot” now that I’ve found where I belong? Like I know that my talents are niche but SOMEONE likes ‘em. Actually quite a lot of people like ‘em, judging by my follower count. And I didn’t get this far by just having a cute cat pic as my pfp, but by actually building my skill and working hard! And I’m proud of what I’ve accomplished. SO FUCK YOU!!! HUZZAH!!!

I’m aware of how much of an asshole I sound like, but honestly? I am proud of myself. And my girl deserves her moment.

I feel a little bad responding guns-ablaze bc your hate comment was legitimately kinda nice and considerate?

But Also- how weird is this as a hate comment? Like you’re being insulting but you’re also saying you like my stuff? Geez, it says a lot about you that you can’t even send anon hate correctly.

If you wanna keep reading my stuff, go ahead! You just either gotta power through whatever weird complex you have about me, or just don’t read it. I don’t really see what good sending me this ask will do. Whatever gripe you have, put it aside. Like how I put aside your lack of capital letters in that comment, knowing that my stupid obsessive thing with Grammar shouldn’t affect how I treat other people, and that that is my OWN problem to deal with.

I’m being silly here. I’ve just never had the confidence to roast my haters before. I’ve never had haters to roast (online, anyway) so forgive my overzealousness. If you couldn’t tell- I was a theatre kid and still am…

In all seriousness, I like how self-aware you are that you’re being prejudiced and jealous. And I’m kinda curious as to what specifically you’re jealous of? But that’s just to boost my own ego.

I’m aware that I can be a little intimidating sometimes, particularly in a written form of socialisation. I like grammar, okay? I like rules and guidelines and careful, creative choices to show emotion and how you can break the rules in certain ways to give depth and nuance to the character and find the pattern of letters and characters to communicate what you’re feeling over a written format and-

If you couldn’t tell by all the fanfics I write- I also have a passion for writing.

Also, what specific prejudices? I’m genuinely intrigued. Is it specifically based off of one of the protective characteristics (under the 2011 Equality Act)? Or is it more just the way I behave? Or is it something I said? Like don’t be shy I don’t want vague I want DETAILS!!

And I realise that me writing a whole freaking dissertation on your comment just PROVES your point that I’m annoying but I. Don’t. Care. I’m having fun. I can’t help that I have a lot of Thoughts And Feelings about things. It’s just how my brain works. Also, it is currently 1:23am where I live, so brain go brrr. If you made it this far, anon, I salute you! Thank you for taking the time to hear me out even though you think I’m annoying. That’s honestly a good quality to have. Here, have a sweet 🍬

And I know that that was… intense, to say the least. Oh BOY do I know that I can be intense. But genuinely- GENUINELY- I’d love to sit down and have a discussion with you on this because it truly fascinates me how other people perceive me. And, if you’re comfortable coming out of anon (if not, that’s fine) I’d like to learn more about why you think these things. Not necessarily so that I can change- but it’d be a great opportunity to see what I can learn about myself through what you think at me. I know it seems like I’m mad- I’m really not! I’m just captivated by the world and how others look at me.

Anyway, thanks for hearing me out, and I hope to have good conversations with legitimate constructive criticism in many posts to come! Never stop being passionate. Just maybe direct your passion to something more positive. Thank you so much for the ask, this was a really good thought experiment for me.

[myobsessionsspace]

Regarding the Itaewon ask.

I think it shows how much people rely on kdramas and maybe even fanfiction when it comes to their thoughts on South Korea. Because as someone who did no research on the different districts in Seoul (yet), mainly because I'm not planning to visit soon or care about where BTS live (invasion of privacy, imo), I too thought of Itaewon as the party hot spot. Which it is but I guess as with all things SK it is a lot bigger and more diverse than just that.

But thanks to your post I'm now educated.

I think Bam might be the deciding factor, and I hope JKs mansion has enough outdoor space to satisfy a dog his size. Anything else would be bordering animal cruelty which is not who JK is at all.

Also, as you said, security is really important and I assume that there's a lot of protocols for both the general Itaewon and Gangnam areas to protect the many celebrities living there. That on top of the excellent security BigHit has given BTS puts my mind at ease.

My last point is that I don't really see JK being a club going person. Firstly, he's THE JJK and it'd be sadly very dangerous for him to just go out and be drunk in a public space. Especially since the idol image in general is so sterilised, and if him drinking a few beers last year at home caused an army-wide panic that he was a depressed alcoholic, I don't wanna imagine what leaked pics of him from clubs and bars would lead to. Their loss of normality is something all members have talked about repeatedly, and it's one of the saddest aspects of their reality we as fans have to understand. On top of that, the constant presence of saesangs and rabbid fans isn't something you truly forget about.

JK's privacy had been invaded way too often already. I hope the mansion has security that puts the White House to shame.

~Ask Anon is referring to~

Hi lovely!

I appreciate what you’re saying! Thank you for sending this in, I try not to answer just for the anon but for myself and anyone that wants to take the time to read my essays (I have a problem with talking too much 😩🙈). I’m so glad you were able to learn a little something new too💪. It’s difficult to say or show something that hasn’t already been said so that puts a smile on my face for sure.

Don’t even get me started about the different versions of JK people have in their heads of him,

if I start I’ll never stop, and tbh that goes for all of the members 😪

Please more secure than the White House 🥴

I too hope wherever he lives, after this pause in their lives is done, is more secure than The White House, The Blue House, The Kremlin, Buckingham Palace, I could go on! I NEED THEM TO HAVE AT LEAST ONE PLACE OF PEACE, PLEASE 😭

Nice talking to you.

💜

[bonesandthebees]

I'm really happy to hear that you're comfortable enough to write rose again. The break was definitely something I feel like we all needed and I'm looking forward to seeing rose return since I really like seeing you write politics and the whole vibe of the fic in general (Niki my beloved. I can't wait to see her again. My love).

I haven't read the scrap bin yet but I plan on it before going to bed as tlou is my shit and I love seeing other takes on the world as I have my own mini au of it (I only have like 1 scene actually written from tlou2 but the brainworms are real). Also I am one of the people who have never seen fullmetal alchemist before so I am curious as to what the scene is that it needed tws.

I am excited for what is to come and hope that I will not drown in the mountain of schoolwork waiting for me next week.

I will def be sending in more of my thoughts on priory because I need to scream about it but I hope all is going well in your life :]

Also your music taste is banger after banger. I would send one of those music note asks but I do not have emojis rn :[

-Shark anon

yeah I think we all really needed the break, me to feel comfortable writing the story again and you all to feel comfortable reading the character. I'm about halfway through the chapter now? maybe a little more? so hopefully it shouldn't be too long till I can post it, but I'm also not going to rush myself. I'm taking it easy when it comes to writing these days.

hope you enjoy/enjoyed the scrap bin snippets!!! tlou au one only existed for a brief time in my head while I was watching the show but it was sooo good. I knew it was never going to be an au I wrote out in full but I just wanted to capture a little of it with sandduo, just for myself.

also, uh, good luck with the fullmetal alchemist one. it's intense (and might not be very enjoyable if you've never seen fma??) but fun fact fma is about two codependent brothers one of whom is an angry blonde teenager who wears red and hates being called a child. edward elric is literally ctommy to a T.

good luck with all the schoolwork!!! I see you guys all talking about homework and exams and I'm just like thank god I'm out of school now

tbh I got more music asks but I felt like they were getting a bit spammy on the dash so I stopped answering them I didn't wanna annoy anyone 😭 glad you enjoyed seeing my music taste though!! I always love sharing songs with you guys

[nebulacollege]

Which nitro chiral game is your fave and why?

That’s an unusual question! Thank you, Anon. My apologies to everyone waiting for my Nebula answers, right now I’m a little not in the state or mood of replying to them.

Before I proceed with answering, I want to ask anyone reading this to send these types of questions here: https://katsunori.straw.page/ for the asks that are not Nebula-related, but I understand why my certain replies might raise “unrelated” questions. I’ll post them on my page. And to anyone reading: don’t worry about the symbol limit, I’ll use images to make sure I talk about everything. Sorry for making you use a different site to read replies, but I figured it’d be more convenient... for me. <D If you don’t have an acc there, maybe the fact that I post Nebula-related sketches there much more often (and complain too tbh) will make it more worthwhile.

Now back to the question! It’s a hard one. I’ll talk about all of the games, if you don’t mind.

If you asked me this question about 15 years ago, I’d say in an instant that it’s Togainu no Chi. I loved the game. It was edgy, brutal, it had a post-apocalyptic setting that I fucking loved back then, and the atmosphere was amazing. The reason why I got into this game was Gunji’s design – he was a crazy blond with hidden eyes (guess my fav Reborn character from back then lol), so of course I needed to know where he came from. I even installed the game, I have no idea how I managed to make it run – you needed to install Japanese first on your PC, and it was a quest in itself, and I’m proud of my teen self. When it finally launched, I had no idea what was going on (it was in Japanese, after all), so on my first choice I made a mistake and got a gameover with... Gunji himself. No idea how, but I remember sitting there after the rape scene and thinking “Wow. I got what I wanted from the game in the first 10 minutes, what’s the point of playing it anymore” lol But my real fave was Rin. Boy I loved my blond shota so much... I wouldn’t even look at him now tbh lol Without yapping too much about details, I played through the entire game without understanding shit about what was going on the entire time, I was super hyped about the anime coming out (they announced it around the same time), it was honestly amazing. I planned on talking a lot about TnC in this reply, but changed my mind because it’d be too much. Sorry! I really don’t mind, but it’d be a reply on its own. When I replayed it in English many years, I still liked it a lot, but after I grew up a bit, I started having problems with some characters. A lot of them, if not all, are very nice concepts and ideas, but by that time I was spoiled by Ryu and myself and they weren’t enough. Also, love the bad endings.

Lamento was the game I saw and heard of a lot back then too, but I never played it. Not sure why, I like neko-boys, but it seemed boring at the time. Maybe I’m just a hater because it seemed super popular to me back then and I was a huge TnC fan.

Then there was Sweet Pool. It wasn’t really popular, but the idea of shitting meat and blood seemed so funny to me that we finally played it once! I don’t remember a lot, heck, I don’t remember much at all tbh, but I enjoyed it? To a certain degree. The main character isn’t exactly my type, but it doesn’t really matter. I loved how brutal it was, and actually? I fucking loved Shironuma. I didn’t expect to like him so much, but I guess the fact that we were just into Hetalia again (hi Sweden) left its impact on me. I loved a lot of bad endings, and Makoto’s one is the most memorable one, as you can see – since I mentioned him in one of my replies about Ned not getting this ending (it can still be considered canon tbh, idc). I honestly hope to replay it one day to check it out again, but it’s not really my favourite, as you can see.

Dmmd... oh... This is the one that I’m going to call my favourite, but there are a lot of things I don’t actually like about it lol Not because they’re necessarily bad, but because they really aren’t my cup of tea. But there are some things that are! First of all, Aoba isn’t really my type of character (my preference is Akira and Towa), but he was enjoyable as a main character. But? Sly Blue takes the cake. I’d rather play the game with him as a lead character (that’s why Towa was the next MC lol). He’s so fucking good even if he’s edgy, he’s your perfect victim-like, slutty and cocky bottom. He fucks around and finds out alright. The fact that he got two endings? (The Mink one and Shiroba.) Immaculate. I only wish there was more of him.

I also love Noiz, but I can only see him as a bottom. He checks every single box in my bottom list, so it’s hard to see him as anything but. He’d be both good with Kojaku and Mink, he’s so nice.

I also love bad endings. They’re great in DMMD!  Every single one of them, actually. Even characters that I don’t really like get fucking incredible bad endings, like Clear. I’m super happy they got explored a little bit more in the Re:connect game... The more I like bad endings, the more I dislike good ones there lol

And speaking of bad endings? We get to the cherry on top... to two cherries, actually. I can’t express how much I actually love Virus and Trip. The best sick fucks you can find, and they were only defeated by Jade and Floyd, because Yana actually managed to do them better! It’s hard to believe, but she did. Still, I respect their roots and origins, and a special thank you gets all the techno bestiality from the game. Their concept, their ending, their behaviour, motivation – great. They’re the reason why I replayed the game so much, and I love their flashback with Sly Blue – oh how I wish it was its own game... No wonder they fell for him and were disappointed to find only Aoba in his place. Mood.

This is the reason why it’s my favourite game.

Then there’s Slow Damage... that I haven’t played, actually. I love Towa a lot, he’s a perfect mc for me, and I think his main fuckman (Fujieda) can be my type too (that’s a weird type, I’m sorry...), and their story is actually something that is close to me. It’s so bizarre, but I would enjoy it so much as a teen, they’re so close to home. And I’m also curious about Towa’s ex (he’s so dumb and edgy lol), but the rest of the cast? I’m so not invested.... that’s the first time where literally I don’t like a single one of them, and they even managed to fuck up a sexy duo this time (only downhill after Virus and Trip, and after I was introduced to Jade and Floyd it’s a lost cause), although the fucking otaku guy is hilarious. I have mixed feelings about it, but since I’ve never played, I can’t say more than that. It has a nice amount of violence (a lot of it...), but our dating options sour my desire to play it lol

[vro0m]

Now more than ever I think EVERY f1 fan needs to just eat pasta😭 the takes I’m seeing after just 3 races in a new car?😭 the contract is done! There’s nothing anybody can do about it. I wish one of the parties involved would just come out and say we’ve made our decision! Deal with it!😭

I know it's not what you came here for, but I'm gonna highjack your ask to express something tangentially related.

Because I think it's too early to say this season is a failure for Mercedes and/or Lewis, I find myself constantly denying people who send me asks to claim that it already is.

I don't think I've made it clear enough before despite my attempts, so once and for all : I'm also not saying it is NOT gonna be a failure. I'm just saying it's too early to say. It might be a failure. The anons would still have been wrong to call it so early even if it ends up being a failure, but it might very well be a failure. The car might be bad to the end, Lewis might never gel with the ground effect era, it might not get better at Ferrari, etc.

My real point is : even if it turns out to be true, it's not the end of the world.

Yall are getting so very anxious about things you have no control over. Sit back, accept it, watch it unfold, there's nothing you can do, and if it doesn't pan out the way you would have wanted it to, you'll survive anyway. Tbh it applies to all areas of your life but this one? This one is literally just F1.

[magma-club-kinhelp]

Heeeyyyyy! Welcome to the Magma Club kinhelp :D

You may call me Mod Voidling or Mod Bo (pick and choose, I don't really care much), I use most neopronouns!! (currently I'm enjoying gi/gift, camp/fire, and snap/snaps) I'm the only mod currently, but if anyone wants to help, I'll probably take it haha (no promises tho)

Here at the Magma Club, we offer the following services:

Names and/or neopronoun suggestions! (only for well known sources, sorry!) - what it says in the tin, I'll give name and/or neopronoun suggestions based around a theme!

Kinfessions, come on in and feel free to just talk about stuff from memories or experiences

(or just pop in and talk about random stuff, I love chatting with people!)

Timelines questions (only for better known sources, sorry!) - 5-10 questions about your timeline to help you sort out mems!

Canoncalls/sourcecalls - find people from your source/canon and compare mems and just chat!

Stim headcanons - a selection of headcanons based around stims your kintype might have done!

Gender finding - send in some themes and I'll do my best to find between 4-8 xenogenders that might fit!

So yeah, not a lot but it's what I can do! (I am looking for another mod who could do stuff like stimboards/moodboards, send in an ask or dm me if you want to help!)

I am also unable to provide/use images currently, as my laptop is a bit weird about it. If this changes I will let you know.

Sources I can do (well known ones are bold! favorites are bold+ italicized):

Hermitcraft (mostly season 7 onward!)

Traffic Games (3rd, Last, Double Life)

Empires SMP

Dream SMP

Other Minecraft SMPs

Minecraft (base game)

BATIM (I know less about the books but with enough info I can probably do stuff!)

FNaF

The Magnus Archives

The Owl House

Magnus Chase (all three books!)

Non-canon/OCs (you're all good in my book :])

Sally Face

Little Nightmares

Warrior Cats

Wings Of Fire

How To Train Your Dragon (films and books (and games!)

If a source isn't listed, feel free to ask about it! I'm pretty good with most things tbh :D

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Tagging system: <Let me introduce myself> - Mod posts <Welcome to the group!> - Request accepted! <Fires. not my thing> - Request denied :( <Come get your snacks :D> - Request completed!

(will update as tags become necessary!)

Anon List:

(nothing yet!)

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DNI/Disclaimer:

I am an aroace minor who is still in school, and as such I am asking people to not interact if you're going to bring nsfw things into the blog and to not rush me, as I am doing this during my free time.

I am a singlet and I do not have a stance on syscource, as it does not affect me nor is it my place to say anything.

Following that, discourse of any kind is not allowed. You will be warned as a first offense, and after that you will receive a block.

I do not have a set blacklist, but I will not be doing requests for any Harry Potter media or intojects/factives of real people. Other then that, I will handle requests as a case by case basis. (Note: just because I am not doing requests for factives/introjects of real people does not mean they cannot interact, I just personally do not feel comfortable filling those requests at this point. You are still good to interact!)

[tadpolesonalgae]

helloooo, i hope this isnt weird at all.

u really inspired me to start writing one of the wips ive had cooking in my head for 10,000 years with CBMTHY (i love your interpretations of all the characters across everything youve written, even dark! versions of everyone).

but how do you get the thoughts in your head onto the page :( its a little demotivating to not be as good of a writer as I'd like. so im terrified constantly that the story isn't coming off correctly. it certainly doesn't help that I've been stewing on this fanfic concept since i initially read acotar and tog, (crossover shit woo!) but the scenes are so vivid in my imagination that everything i can actually type out seems to fall flat or seems jumbled with the amount i try to include.

like, i posted a part last night after having it ready to go for months (there are several more im hiding 😭) and have reread it 3 times and have to remind myself its fine and i dont need to delete it. but idk if im just being crazy tbh. Im also very much the same type of person who needs feedback in order to continue with creative projects. however the idea of even asking about it here is intimidating, especially after your stories helped push this lil amateur to write. But any help would be so greatly appreciated, especially becsuse theres no one ik personally who enjoys the series who would be willing to chat about it 😅

again, i hope its not weird that im not sending anything in directly related to ur work and asking for advice 😅😅 but i hope you have a good rest of ur day/ night !!

haha, don't worry about it! I'm not sure I'm the best person to offer advice on this since I'm just kind of writing what I want to write though, but I'll try and help.

What you mentioned about struggling to get thoughts down on the page - I think an element of it is probably feeling comfortable enough to put them down there in the first place? That and also having the words to know what you mean? Read around, listen to music, chat with people if you can and see if you can find stuff you resonate with and then pay attention to what it is and try to figure out why. And it can take a while to find the right words, so let yourself breathe.

Suddenly jumping into a project you've been hyping up in your mind won't come out pristine immediately, it might be a case of writing paragraphs once, then writing them out again beneath that but trying to improve on what you've already written with a thesaurus in hand. It might also be a case of listening to music that simulates the emotions you want to write out and then trying to articulate them in the moment. Also writing without thinking can help. Or writing exactly how you're thinking, I guess? It doesn't always work though, so I'd sincerely suggest trying to write some smaller things to start with or have on the side to help practice.

In terms of trying to find people to give feedback, I think interacting with other writers can help. I'm not the best person for this since I like being away from my computer/phone as much as possible, but chatting to writers off anon, or if your writing blog isn't your main one then switching to your writing blog to leave a comment or reblog and leaving notes in the tags is a really great way to show other people you're interested in acotar/tog and writing. If the idea of coming off anon to interact with writers is (like I find it) absolutely terrifying, you can always keep anon on but sign off using a specific pseudonym or emoji that will be recognisable! That way you can get used to chatting without entirely compromising your anonymity and hopefully become comfortable. Asking other people what they do to help them get their thoughts down too can help since you'll be more likely to find someone similar.

I'd also recommend that if your story is long to try planning it out roughly as chapters or bulletpoints so you don't have to store it all in your brain. Have playlists on hand or boards on Pinterest to look over.

I think it's great that you've posted a chapter though - if you have a project you want to do well it's so easy to get caught up in wanting it to be a good as possible that you never actually get around to posting it, so I think what you've done is a great start. If you're unhappy with it after a few months or so you can always edit, nothing's written in stone.

And if you want to write in again please feel free to! I promise it doesn't have to be about my writing and I would think other writers would feel the same. If you want to turn off anon that's fine, and if you want to use an emoji as a sign off that's cool too, you can work your way up to chatting more openly about the stuff you enjoy :)

Also, if anyone else thinks they have some good tips for writing, getting thoughts down, keeping up interest/motivation with a project please add them!

And anon if you want to send in a link to the first part of your story feel free to, or if you want to chat with me directly I'd be interested to have a peek at what you're writing? I love acotar but tog still has a special place in my heart so I'd love to read more content around it too. I know how scary it can be sharing stuff you've worked hard on :)

[grahamcarmen]

Just wanted to tell you that whenever you vent, I feel so heard and seen, like someone was literally listening when I was ranting in my brain.

Also how many asks do you have in your askbox right now ignoring this one.

you and me ranting and venting forever XD ha!

i'm glad my venting is not in vain I have so much weary complaining in terms of why i do not understand. like . always under duress and always in the disclaimer corner , but ???

i'm just more tired than angry...still angry but :/

overall?

6

not much but like the first 2 i probably won't answer because one is a hornet nest i mostly agree with /and the other one was telling me that apparently the fandom said something so. freaking. dumb. a lot of dumb somethings actually, that i just 1000 yard stared into space that I had someone asked me irl if i was ok [the rest is so sweet and made me happy that they like this blog and i wish that they had a nice day/months too, and that part i do wish i'd answered because i do hope that they manage to find their feet on this website and in general. it can be disheartening but try to remember that this is for you to have fun so try to carve a corner for the things that interest you!]...

anyway it still feels like kicking hornets nests and giving input to wild stupidity that i'm not all informed about its current form, i am annoyed but i don't know the fandom like that tbh to just be hearing that it still is just ...hmmm, why are you guys...why... why are you guys the way- and address it like its not a recycled fandom issue or even new stupider evolution of issues that i don't have first hand knowledge of because i really do...not know those people.

i felt like including one of the stupid somethings on the ask about dumb arguments against rc but i don't actually know the intricacies of why they even feel sure enough to say that. like its just deadass wrong. its insultingly wrong. like anon. that was like top worst accusations like the actual mention in the ask is like a few words and i literally went THEY SAID WHAT.

and for that i am so sorry because it is a very sweet and heartfelt ask that made my day and in the grand scheme i could just address that and not the rest, i just like absolutely did not see that part coming and can't keep myself from addressing it but then i also want to know where the audacity came from to properly do so and then im like...there are other fandoms [to myself]...

...rants are a-ok to send [im probably venting at that moment too about something] but like ajdfnaskf this is probably what it will do to me

hornets nests i will avoid kicking because at the end of the day this blog is the corner i carved out for what interests me and i would like to not have too many of those posted when i scroll through it to get my daily rc boost

and it is the sweetest ask for real but also wtf csfandom. WHY.

and in general loop de loop arguments i simply do not know what new thing i could say to get across stupid argument is stupid...we could be making text posts about how they should kiss instead

3- i did write for rc week! it was a small note at the end of the third one which also has something that feels like it needs a proper response but like i feel VERY snippy on that subject so like its probably gonna wait for a bit i'm so sorry but i did, i wasn't planning to but i did

4-acme...i am thinking about just answering it with the meme

i find all the acme members interesting as individuals and what they contribute thematically to the show

vs.

i do not care for ACME

but like again i do feel like putting like more of an effort since i didn't have any thoughts for the first part of the ask but i would like to make 1 for each part and i don't hate any of the members for real i promise and understand how big ACME is to this show and the franchise in general T,T

5- a fic request! :D im looking forward to working on it? it probably will be short but i'm happy one of my ideas got requested

6-might answer it soon...might be a little rambly but it concerns the boy gray and a nerve that i'm ACTUALLY ready to poke at a little...a little

so again not many but i do feel bad for not answering ASAP (due to many things) when i am very happy to receive them

and then spending my energy on making rc stuff first because thats usually what i have energy for

Like I really am happy whenever I see that there are other people who do enjoy rc and this blog enough to send asks [sometimes very passionate in their defense] . So thank you. very much.

^^

[destinyc1020]

For Confession Corner Sunday

I, for one, feel it's disrespectful to discuss TZ's sex life. What they do in public or what is shared on a public forum is fair game for discussion, but their private intimate moments are off limits imo. Other than simple public affectionate gestures and the pap pics of passionate kisses in their vehicle, we are not privy to their intimate life. And rightfully so. Knowing how TZ felt about those pap pics, and knowing they keep their relationship sacred, I feel extremely uncomfortable discussing and/or speculating about their more intimate moments.

Unpopular opinion?

*Taking a deep breath so that I can fully prepare myself to answer this ask without ruffling any feathers*

First of all, thank you so much Anon for your confession. 🙂 As you know, today is a judgment-free zone when you send things in for confession corner lol. I actually appreciate you bringing this topic up, because I don't think this really gets talked about enough in the Tomdaya fandom tbh. 👀

Before I dive in, I'll just put out a ***disclaimer*** and say that my opinions and feelings on this topic are just MY personal feelings, so you all don't have to agree. 🤷🏾‍♀️

With that said, I'll just say that I actually agree with you 100% on this. 👏🏾 I think maybe in years past I didn't really see the "big deal" about speculating about, or openly discussing assumptions about Tom and Z's sex life (just harmless fun, right?), but as time went on, I started noticing that SOME fans in the fandom seemed to have a bit of a fixation about what Tom and Z's sex like must be like in the bedroom (even being graphic about it 🥴), and I just started to get a bit creeped out by that... no offense. 🥴😬👀

I agree that there's definitely a very fine line btwn fans finding a couple adorable and cute 🥰, vs fans conjuring up multiple wattpad-level fanfics about Tom and Zendaya's bedroom behavior, and no offense, but to me, the latter is just kind weird. 😵‍💫

I don't really like speculating about ANY celebrity's sex life (obviously, we KNOW they ALL have sex 😅) in great detail like that. Even small jokes can be a bit weird. It's like, you don't know them!

Plus, I find ppl to be a little WEIRD just in general when it comes to Tom and Z and sex just period. From the fans/trolls who think Z is "cheating" on Tom anytime she interacts in a romantic scene with any of her male co-stars🙄, to male fans making weird, sexually-explicit gay manips of Tom in his Spider-man/Peter Parker character (or just Tom himself).... idk... it's just really gross and weird to me, I'm sorry. 😞 They've been doing this stuff for years! Even when Tom was like 21. 🥴

Believe me, after 6 years in this fandom, I've definitely seen some things lol. 😵‍💫

I can't police what other ppl discuss or choose to post on THEIR blogs (nor would I ever want to 🥴), but I just know that for me on my blog, I usually try to be relatively respectful of TZ and their rlshp, and I think we pretty much keep it fairly PG-13 in here when it comes to stuff like that lol. They seem like such a sweet couple 🥰 that just wants to be private, and so I usually try not to go down the rabbit hole of their "intimate" life, or make any assumptions, cuz the truth of the matter is, we just don't know a SINGLE THING! 🤷🏾‍♀️

All we can say is that they seem extremely happy, and just leave it at that lol 😅

But anything beyond that is just speculation, and I guarantee you, their real life intimate details are probably not even as "exciting" as fans make it out to be anyway rofl 🤣 That's the problem with fanfics lol... They put out this idea about a person that might not even be true! 👀

Idk, maybe it's just me, but I agree with you.... speculating about anyone's (celebrity or NOT) intimate sex life is just kinda gross to me, and is kind of crossing a very fine line imo. 👀😬

I just love TZ together, and I think that over the years (especially after they got outed) I've just gained so much more RESPECT for them, and I just feel kind of protective over them in a way, ykwim? ❤️

Idk... Maybe you and I are the ONLY ones who feel this way lol 😆, but I'm actually glad you brought this topic up! Because I have secretly felt for a long time that there are some in the fandom who may go a bit too far in their sexualization of TZ, and it just starts to become a little ick. 🥴

[katyspersonal]

hello again, i'm the anon from the waifu/blorbo thing just checking in. it was quite surprising to see the ask i made when i was feeling sorta petty would spiral in all that lol

to answer why i stay anon, its because I'm just a "filthy lurker" tbh. im not really sociable or talented enough that i feel like interecting directly in the fandom, and i'd rather avoid the headaches that come from exposing myself to its more annoying parts lol. i understand its different for artists tho, you guys do us a great service

but Holy Shit your situation was quite bonkers. it is kind of funny that i might have helped you out with this apparently lmao. all it took was the right ask at the right time, crazy how that works

best of luck to you and thank you for being based lol. it isn't easy with such persistent haters but i hope you keep it up

Thank YOU for being based, the moment I read what you said I knew EXACTLY what you were talking about! And yes, it is a reliably stable way to piss that person off enough to 'act' by poking the holy dogma of "Maria is a masculine lesbian and everyone with a different interpretation is a bigot" with a stick in any way shape or form. Imagine being easily caught just because you can't stand bisexuals or women that can combine badassery and tenderness?

I'll have you know though, that fanart or fanfics are NOT a "rent" you have to pay to be considered a "valid" part of the fandom! You say you don't feel like you belong here... but you do, as long as you love BB and want to interact with other fans and support them. I am not the most fantastic artist either; my anatomy is still a long way to go and I finish my works very slowly, but it is my passion why I am here! :)

As for the annoying parts of the fandom,...

Honestly, you don't need to worry, at least not on Tumblr. Redditbros tend to stay away in their own circles and all you have to do is to not go on Reddit for sharing things like headcanons, drawings, ships etc. As for the bullies (oh, pardon, the completely civil people that are not encouraging harassment but simply spread "awareness" in order to excile people they dislike from the safe wholesome fandom uwu); they will typically do you a favour if they drop your name as "yiiiikes this person is nasty for [reason] block them girlies!", since this way the fake ones will self-isolate from you as a result and YOU won't see THEIR bad takes! And toxic Maria fans usually function by one 'main' guy vs their simps that got easily influenced. Before the current guy (you know who by now) it was someone else spreading bad takes about "misogynist" Gehrman and "violated masculinity" of Maria, boasting about how they ignore all lore and (mis)translation evidence against their One True interpretation. That person matured though, and the simps they influenced dissolved and became nuanced. The current guy is chronically unable to mature, learn and admit mistakes; but at the same time, popular accounts popularised a "compromise" take that portrays Gehrman as missing the mark but having good intentions that get way more traction and toxicity is overshadowed by them 🤔

What I am saying is, you can avoid annoying parts reliably easily! You probably are seeing like same two people starting controversy every time from your "corner"... and it is BECAUSE there are not that many. They are just loud. If you are in the room with 20 people, 19 of which are adults minding their own business and 1 is a screaming baby, who will you pay more attention to? I'd love to see you make an account, tbh, but if you really don't want to.. Well, still feel free to send me asks, gripes or headcanons or questions or whatnot!

[chanstopher]

I don't want this to come off as rude at all,I'm just curious as to why you get so much interaction. your posts always get notes and you seem to answer a lot of asks everyday. I am also a cc in the fandom (I'm on anon because I don't want anyone to judge me for this) and my content flops pretty constantly. I'm just wondering if there is a secret to success I'm not learning or if my content is just garbage. Any advice would be nice!

Hi, I definitely dont think you're being rude, I totally understand being frustrated by numbers on here. i wish i had secrets to share but i really dont. i have a lot of followers so my content is pushed further. using tags properly and becoming friends with other ccs is really good for getting your content seen. ive been lucky enough to have ppl like me for some reason so ppl support my blog when i post things most of the time. i do also have some flops, thats just how tumblr works and some ppl wont agree that your content is good and ignore it.

its harsh to say that and i know that ive had terrible content get a lot of notes because of my blog size. but you just have to keep working at it. try changing up how your content looks (more or less grain, sharpening settings, try unique coloring or try to really work on color correction instead of just making things more vibrant or darker) if u write find other writers, no one supports content like content creators.

as for the asks, i have literally no idea. i am confused as to why people would talk to me constantly abhdjs I just try to be kind and keep my negative opinions to myself unless theyre about ppl stepping over bounds or being mean or rude to skz. i try to just be unapologetically myself tho, posting about chris like a rabid dog or just weeping over how much i love him. it is apparently very relatable lmao

i am not good at making friends, all of the people who i am friends with on here have come to me seeking friendship, but going on anon and talking to ppl or just showing up in tags with fun comments or thoughts or just compliments on the content will make you friends. a lot of ppl have reached out to me just because i was kind to their work.

the only real advice is to not give up. i think blog growth is always slow until you just hit a certain point where for one reason or another you become more known and then it will grow more rapidly, but it can take a while. and it can take you finding what youre really good at, you might have no idea how well you are and gif blends or graphics or even just being someone who updates on activities happening with skz (this site is absolutely lacking a proper skz update blog fsjniss) if you ever want to vent about it i'll listen, and if you ever want to send me your content and ask for critique i can do that too (but it will just be my opinion and im not anything special fhbdjs)

above all else you have to enjoy making things or it is never going to be worth it. no number of notes is going to make u better at any kind of art. only time and effort and enjoyment will.

I'm sorry this is so long and i wish any of it was truly helpful, but tbh i think i just got lucky with tumblr and how much interaction i get :/

[babymorte]

Hey, sorry for taking ages to reply to your answer to my anon, I had a very long day yesterday, so I didn't really get much chance to come online.

Zombies is always fun to play, I sometimes play the bo1 zombies woth my little brother, the older ones just seem so much better than the newer black ops zombies, the new one just feels a little boring, the old ones were actually hard once you get passed a certain round😅 cod World at War zombies was probably my favourite tbh.

Haha well at least you were just happy to be there and enjoy the game though, games take a little while to get used to playing anyway, plus the more you play the better you'll be at the game. The halo games were so good back when everybody used to play them online, nobody really seems to play halo anymore though🤷‍♂️ the online games were always so good!

You're doing well at the game then by the sounds of it! The new movement takes a little getting used to, doesn't it?😅 you're nearly 10th prestiege?👀 fair enough haha. The ranked is probably gonna be very competitive, but it'll probably be even more fun to play because of that! Do you play warzone? That's pretty good too! Yeah, i might have to give it another go🙂😅

That's messed up that the people you've trusted have done those kinda things to you, i seriously don't get why some people are all so fucked in the head tbh, just shitty people everywhere these days, and it makes it so hard to trust anybody🙄 Having defence mechanisms and beijg a private person is a good thing though seeing as how the world and people are these days, that's good that you don't really give a shit anymore, but it's not right that you've had people you trust do those things to you!

Being selective with who you let in or let get close to you is definitely a good thing! And honestly I can both understand and relate to all of that, being manipulated, used, lied to, and played for a fool has been my whole experience with ever person I've ever let get close to me, and the ones I cared about and trusted the most are the ones that were the worst🙃 people are shit😂 Thats fair enough haha and okay, well in that case you'll be able to understand my ramblings😂

Yeah, that does make sense. Obviously it's gotta be nice that people hype you up, but I get that upholding convos can be hard at tikes and seeing as you get a lot of messages and asks, that kinda just puts pressure on you to reply, ut you don't have to reply to anybody unless you want to, what you do is your business (the dickheads that send the horrible anons need to understand that your business is yoir own, and if they can't be nice then they should just leave you tf alone, i saw soke of the anons you get and these people have screws loose to think that it's okay to talk to anybody like that!). Yeah, i can get that haha, makes it easier to make conversation if you're talking about interests and stuff that you enjoy talking about!

Haha no that doesn't make you sound cunty at all😂 feeling like it's better to keep to yourself is relatable haha. Yeah it can be really nice when you come across someone who's just easy to talk to and make conversation with, most people are just judgemental and hard to talk to, but not everybody haha, it helps if the person has common interests and stuff to talk about too, i find 90% of people hard to talk to myself ngl😂 That's good to hear that you're enjoying the convo too😊 i think we might be taking up people's feed with our long asks/answers though🤣 Annoying me? No, that's definitely not that case, you can ramble away as much as you like😂

I can see why you'd have a hard time trusting people easily after being manipulated like that, that's kinda why I find it hard to trust people, everybody screws me over eventually🤷‍♂️😂 That's good that youre quick to realise when you're being manipulated and that though! And yeah I have a thing with pattern recognition too, i think that might just be the tism though, idk if it's the same for you🤷‍♂️😂 Yeah, i can understand that, actions definitely speak louder than words, and that's good, you shouldn't share anything that you're not comfortable with people knowing/seeing, people just tend to use whatever information they can get to screw people over these days, there are reasons why I'm more of an animal person than a people person😂

Yeah we have bats over here haha, and the bat cave in the zoo is so good! The first time I went there a bat landed on my head😂 going to the zoo after dark to see the nocturnal animals sounds so cool! I'd love that😍 that's cool that you got to hold a bat and tarantula! I've held both of those myself, the tarantula creeped me out a little at first though ngl😂 I'd rather hold a bat or a snake haha.

Haha well at least they know and are understanding about you being bad with replies😂 its the same for me though tbh, I talk to like 5 or 6 people on here, but sometimes there's like a week between each message both on there end and on my end😂 thats just how conversations are though I guess, i mean people are busy with their lives and stuff haha. Ngl I don't think I'd like that, to just have my notes at 99+ all the time, id end up wanting to delete them all, id get annoyed at seeing that😂 "a fuckhead magnetic of all sorts"😂🤣 nah, to be fair, there are so many of those 'fuckheads' out there so I doubt you're a magnet for them, they're just creeps/pests🤣

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oh no like legit do not feel the need to reply to me but thank you for the consideration 😭🙏🏻 im sorry your day was long though that’s rough 😓

wait really?? in my old friend group we would play custom maps and zombies in WaW! i mean i was terrible at the customs but i played a lot of timesplitters 2 as a kid and the zombie minigame came in clutch 😂 but bo6 zombies is so so good!! like i liked cold war zombies cuz i want an open world resident evil a la the division but i want treyarch to do it cuz they nailed bo6 zombies like its round based like the old ones and theres two modes: standard and directed. im shit so i cant play standard without being carried a lil bit towards the end cuz the rounds are unlimited in standard and it gets chaotic in the high high from what ive seen 😅 the highest i got was 42 and it was insanity. if you play it in 3rd person it feels super arcadey plus its just so satisfying just mowing shit down 😂

yes!! i honestly had a blast it was basically like watching a movie 😂 i grew up playing CE and all i had were private matches with family but i didn’t play any of the others until last year and i hate myself for it. i wanna read all the books too 😅 but i still play! not online cuz i would get my ass bear but i’m currently playing through infinite 🤩 it’s one of my ‘i don’t know what to play to pass time’ games cuz you can just grapple around and fuck off it’s honestly great i just wish there were more enemies 😓 i do wanna try halo online but i think i wanna see if i can play through 4 and 5 first cuz im not sure i can handle it 😂

ahh im doing better than i was 😅 i do okay for my lobbies but as soon as someone else joins i get fucked 😂 it’s still such a blast playing in the harder lobbies plus it helps me learn so i can get even better 🤩 its frustrating being a perfectionist 😓😅 ah yes! i hit 10p last night im so hype. i only went up 8 levels today though cuz i was playing in a harder lobby but league is this weekend so i’ll be mindlessly playing while i watch that n hopefully i’ll hit max 😂 oh my gosh no kidding the only shooter i really played before this was fortnite and cod is very much not fortnite 😂 it just takes practice so im sure i’ll get there eventually 🤩 oh i can only imagine it’ll be super competitive 😓 it’d be nice to have a squad to play with n go up the ranks with but i already asked a friend who’s really good at cod but hasn’t played ranked yet n they were just like nahh 😂😂 i know i’d be frustrating to play with i get stressed out easily n i simply cannot do search i will cry. but you really should! look up some gameplay maybe~ it’s very much not like old cod though i will say that but the omnimovement is so much fun i think it’s worth it just for that 😅

ahh no it’s really okay i didn’t mean anything by it just the reason the walls are adamantium 😅 but it is what it is you know? you can’t control how people treat you, you can only control how you react~ so i lock it all away so i dont have to deal with it 😂😂😂 no but jokes aside yea it does make it hard to trust people but that’s my problem i give too much benefit for my own good and people take advantage of it but that’s okay because i know they’re only treating me like this because they’re unhappy and that has nothing to do with me ��

yes! honestly i think having a small circle of ride or dies is so much better like the only people i keep in touch with ive known since school and we’re like actual family but like i just have a permanent side eye to everyone else 😅 im sorry you’ve had to go through anything similar to me that’s awful 😔 i dont understand how people can do that you know? like ive lost friends ive known for loads of years because i found out they were mind fucking me the entire time like you gotta be some kind of fucked to be able to do stuff like that to people 😩 and yea those absolutely hurt the most 😓 especially because you just never expect it you know? it’s wild. ah yea no i totally gotchu ✌🏻😂

ah it is appreciated! i never expect it though i’m just grateful that people are so kind. but keeping up with everything does get overwhelming i can’t lie 😅 but like i don’t like ignoring anyone so i really do try to respond so long as i have the mental capacity but if i don’t i still will try 😅 but no yea the anons ohhh the anons 🥲 im certain it’s one person that just doesn’t like me and their sole purpose is to bring me down. the only reason i reply to those is because i think it’s the same person and i think i know who it is so if im bored fuck if they can have a little dopamine boost from my attention since it’s clearly what they’re after 😂 like i don’t lose sleep over that stuff it’s just words you know? oh that’s very true 🤩 especially on the internet yea like there’s communities for everything 🤩 but also sometimes the vibes just there too ya know?

oh well that’s a relief 😅 yeaa if you keep to yourself you don’t have too many worries 🤩 ah really?? i don’t understand judgemental people like you can dislike something but don’t judge someone off it what do they gain? i find most people that gravitate towards are mad two faced and it’s just so icky like it takes zero effort to not be a bad person 😅 but it is nice isn’t it? some people just mesh well. ahh yes it’s been nice~! ah that’s true i have my replies hidden in a continue and i’ll tag it with a lil bat so they can just block it if they want. or they can unfollow me either one is fine 😂 oh my gosh do not give me those permissions because i do not have an off switch 😂😂

ahh yes i really am a magnet for those people it’s quite unfortunate 😓 awwah no i get that and im sorry people are constantly fucking you over you deserve better than that you know 😔 people can be so heartless can’t they 😓 ah yes i think that absolutely explains it 😅 and like i like being able to do that because behavioural patterns are so interesting to me like once you know the patterns people really do become so predictable it’s strange. oh absolutely words don’t mean shit if the actions don’t match. that’s something i was told recently and it’s been my new like motto of sorts? like even im all talk sometimes but constantly reminding myself that keeps me accountable 😅 oh my gosh seriously everything should be kept on a need to know basis like no one needs to know anything about you because people will use that shit so fast you won’t even see it coming and it’s just such a gut punch 😓 im definitely more of an animal person i literally just chill with my dog 90% of the time 😂

i really had no idea that’s so dope 🤩 i can only imagine !! did it really that’s honestly so adorable bats are so adorable 😭 ah it was such a dope experience n i’ve been twice and the second time was more recently and they had owls just chillen in the buildings 😂 oh have you really?? that’s wild! but tarantulas are so fuzzy ! i can totally see how it can bug you out though they can get pretty huge too 😅 oooo i haven’t held a snake since i was a kid! snakes are so chill they’ll just coil around whatever you put em on 😂

ah yes! everyone’s super sweet and understanding i adore them to bits~ oh yea you do keep a small circle huh it’s nice you’re all able to keep in touch often~ ah yes people have their own things going on. having friends as an adult is hard hey 😂 oh it absolutely frustrates the shit out of me 😂 i just have too many dms to get rid of from all the years before i made it so not everyone could message me so i just kinda deal 😅 ahh that may be true but i can guarantee i am an absolute fuckhead magnet i can probably count on one head the people i know who aren’t n im sure the ones that haven’t found me yet have me on their trackers though 😂😂

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Hey, me again lol. I'm too shy to send any message off anon, I'm sorry. I hope good things keep coming/ are coming your way. ❤️ I know this is a bit weird and could be too much again (warning ⚠️☣️☢️ lol), but I'm sorry for you not really asking for help, too... I hope some day you'll have, at least, a friend who'll make you wish to ask for help and then ask for help... You deserve a better life and I don't think the life you are living now is all there is for you out there. Thank you for your kind answer, feeling like hell and being kind is not easy. At least not for everyone. Thank you so much. ❤️ :)

It might seem that way but I don't totally hate my current lifestyle.. I mean yeah it's completely isolating and depressing and I hate myself like 80% of the time but like I do enjoy my own company (at least at a certain level.. and when I'm high on weed, which I'm having a tough time quitting. I'm sober for a week and a half now so it's going well I guess). What can I do I am by nature a loner and a geek so I spend almost all my free time playing video games and watching shows etc etc.. I do love every second of my "hobbies". I know it might be claustrophobic or a toxic way of life for some people but it works for me... What I hate about it is that I wish I wasn't so fucking alone.. I had someone at some point who completed me. And what sucks about that is that I'm one of those people who don't really love someone new a second time. I mean not that I have tried tbh, I'm not in a healthy mindset or have enough money to support a relationship, so I stay away. And it's been 5 years now since I broke up and I just can't fucking save myself. So no help from friends (the few that I have left and not pushed away) or family can do anything if I myself can't figure myself out. 2024 so far has been my best year since 2019 and it's only getting better..

You're not being weird anon, you're just a genuine good person who send someone a wholesome message!!

Trust me the last years I've been way way worse so at least things are improving =)))