#i mean not rly since i did this sketch in like

[lotus-pear]

HELLO BSD NATION IM BACK

[arolesbianism]

I found some more old eternal gales art today and it was bizarre in many ways but truly the most bizarre thing is how much joy and whimsy I gave Looser in this doodle. Why does he look so genuinely happy that's not allowed

[pbeltarts]

I've admired your work for a long time and personally love your art style, it looks so top-tier and professional! I'm trying to get back into drawing, do you have any tips on how to develop art skills? Maybe your journey as an artist?

My journey has been going since I was a little kid. I've always drawn, so a lot of it is self-taught stuff building up on itself. However, I think these things can really help speed up understanding art as a process: 1. Use references, please god. I did not use refs for a majority of my life as a self-taught artist and though I got there in the end, references saves a world of headache in both anatomy placement and just posing. You don't have to draw 3/4 standing poses for all your practice/sketching!

Gesture drawing is a rly nice way of also getting faster while learning to dissect a reference quickly. You understand what makes the pose readable in a few strokes, vs trying to nail down every muscle and bone placement. They're good to warm up to (which you should always warm up, be nice to your poor hands.) 2. Don't just admire, learn. When you see someone's art you like, take the time to think about why you like it. Why is it affective, what parts of it are clicking with you? If it's sketches and comics of someone's ocs or fanart, why is it resonating outside of being about a special interest you have? What about the ART is doing something? If it's a finished illustration or painting, there's usually choices the artist is making to get ideas or moods across. Being able to dissect and pay attention to art that we admire and like builds skills in doing it to our own. When we're unhappy with something, we can critically ask ourselves why instead of just saying it's bad. Just saying something is 'bad' or 'good' is ineffective in learning anything.

3. Be optimistic in learning! It's perfectly fine to enjoy drawing just as is, and not to constantly analyze what you and others make- but being open to studying, critique, and learning new and old concepts makes us better artists. Being receptive to knowledge is a good thing, always! So try, when studying, to enjoy the process of making the art and learning about art as much as the final product. If you hate making the thing, or just find it as a means to an end, you're gonna burn out quickly. Fall in love with the act of making something. Because it's a labor of love! Fall in love with learning about it, discovering new ways to do it, and so on because you can enjoy it more.

[rip-lee]

Oc Art and a ramble :)

Rockos modern balls was hilarious to me at 3am and I refuse to erase it. 🫶 Okay, so the guy above is my OC!! It’s really weird writing this even tho close to no one will probably see this because I never!! And I mean never!! Share my art but especially not my characters. I submitted a story to my schools lit mag and it gave me an anxiety attack for DAYS 😭

But anyway, this guys name is Roman Izyumov-Jones. I don’t want to say too much yet, but I guess key character points would be he’s very introverted, can be aggressive, introspective, and kind of a huge dork. He’s holding a guitar pick in the drawing, and he’s rly into cartoons (hence the Rockos Modern Life shirt). He’s not great with traditional school but worked in the trades since he was sixteen because his Ded (Russian for grandpa) owns an auto shop. He’s never really been good with people, and never instigated friendships but gets attached fiercely if another person creates a bond with him. So with this drawing I was challenging myself to just draw with an initial sketch and so that’s what I did!! Usually with my art is a struggle, because I have ADHD and OCD. The first means boring stuff like sketches drain the shit outta me and the second means I HAVE to draw with a sketch and make it absolutely perfect; so this drawing although kinda boring looking is actually pretty huge for me because I basically Lee Roy Jenkinsed the whole thing ☺️☺️

I wanna talk more about Roman and that particular Universe, but I’m not quite ready yet. I do have something I’ve been working on relating to them though!!

[starbberryblue]

I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS... MY SPECULATIVE BIOLOGY LOVING AUTISTIC ASS DID THIS FOR MY SCI-FI PROJECT BACK IN HIGH SCHOOL AFTER LEARNING ABOUT LAB GROWN ORGANOIDS!! I FEEL SO VINDICATED SEEING OTHER PPL TALK ABOUT IT!!! :D

anyway if this is how my mutuals learn that the ongoing sci fi world ive had since i was 12 which i sometimes post about has legitimate cat (and wolf) people walking around im sorry

these sketches are old as fuck but meet my beloved trans catboy, Adonis :3 he's a double (triple?) agent who works at a "cat cafe" (a host club where all the hosts are animods, which is what the dork ass scientists who first made catgirls called their creations) as cover while he tracks a soldier suspected of treason.

his real job is with the Big Bad Government, as an infiltrator / spy, but his REAL real "job" is spying on the Big Bad Government for who else but the fash-bashing rebel organization i put in everything i make!

he is a very very beloved oc to me who i made very early in my transition as a means of venting about trans sexuality, the infantilizaton of trans men, SWERFs and TERFs, capitalism, and honestly just to make a character with my ideal body* (i DO need to make an updated ref of him) who is seen as attractive and even worthy of love (wow!!) by other characters.

*not that my ideal body includes cat parts- i was referring to the fact that he is (by his own metrics) a fully transitioned FTM, but like i wouldn't mind having cat ears n stuff,

ANYWAYS!! apologies for the long ass derail of what is a very very cool post, this is rly just meant for the maybe 3 or 4 people who are regularly on my blog bc i haven't taken my adhd meds yet and i got really excited about an OC i haven't shared yet :')

like okay if we're talking about this anatomically the ear holes on a human skull and a cat are actually in the same spot it's a difference in the shape of the cranium. you can see what's happening if you look at hairless cats

ears is big. so you can put the cat ears wherever you want if you start them at the same point as where the human ears would go.

just like. pull the sideburns back a little and it's fine. it's fine.

it's the best way to catify your blorbos with visible human ears. but that's just my........ purrsonal opinion..............

[rawrmeansilyindinosawr]

2 Nonbinarys, 1 Milkshake

I yam survivng getting my Rite titty smacked by a bony boy at Hoyt Schemmorhone n trying to get my power back by txting club promotors to giv meh more than just a table but to secure the Bag bitch!. n within the Last 2 weekZzzz i Did coke w a person named Smiley in the Bossa baffroom then followed a stranger to a supposed afterparty tht didnt rly exist like 5 blocks down then got scared N ran away :-D !!!. K holed and became a metallic lilac crayon who had the zoomiezz. also saw a bunch of Froggie paper macheys holding handz. now it my favs things in tha world n being dramatic to ppl i don’t know in a white pedo van outside of a wegmansz n Being on set again n lending ppl my journal to use as a hard surface to sketch n Do art but feeling mistrustful if they gonna peek inside N read my unedited poems i feel insecure ab idk why cuz i feel like so transparent all the time but also the feeling of wanting to hide myself constantly at the same time but also fighting the FeelIng and Fe sr of being a wallflower n Musterd ing up courage to Just share n la la la la la la so i don’t know how to stop turning my head back a million times cuz im anxious ab it all n I love vanilla coke !!!! I hav a crush on someone in seattle and i feel sad that whenever i talk to them i talk really fast n get embarsssed.

“technicolour radiostatic heart

moonchild warm illumination .. reaching for sweet milk with the long fingernails , green sunbeams,” randdoooo phrases of stuffs i hav scribbled down / A poem ab someone i love.

i H8 waking up to long paragraphs from Nyu studentZ?.!!! just Kall me or continue to mutually ghost meh!! even then i regret screaming when i shuld hav just been liKe confident n held my tongue knowinG i invented Wickbush .

Im writing this while sitting in a popup cinema snack bar in greenpoint n still amazed i walked here with only 20 min of sleep n absolutely no stimulants n a big blister on my left foot from my $18 wooden leather jeffrey campbells Chaffing against my shmexy twiggy baby cow cows (calves ). Wait i meant shins. Which rhymes w double chin . =} Which i don’t hav but i wish i did . ! There is keylime cheesecake n Redd Velvet Kake here n Mayb 1 day i will b able to eat desserts again.. mayb 1 day i will be able to eat in restaurants randomly with my friends , and not have to plan it out or decide whether or not to eat based on how big i feel or how bad my stomach aches for it or not. Cuz it’s not ab deserving to eat or not it’s just about eating simply Knowing tht when ur choosing to eat u choose to live . i Wanna share 1 milkshakes w two straws w my Nonbinary crush N know that Tis Gonna B OKIE

I luv when ppl share their porn addiction with me when we just met n i really luv feeling like a cardboard box aka safe space . :3 n i literally don’t know what to think ab the snowrain rainsnow. No one can understand meh sppecchh rn cuz ive been chaknsmoking since Chinese lunar yr cuz i felt like hurting moiself :-] yay!

I love sweating w my friends on drugs n i love when they sweat on meh beCuzz they have a uncardiovascular disease Condition on their hands i forget the name of it but i think it’s KewL . i Luvv hangin out n being popular n cool n also wishing for many wishes in one wish on a shooting star Green Comet except i forgot but i prayed the morning of for

- a less fat pussy

- be able to hold my breath for 86.6978738 seconds under water

- Lobotomy (as a verb and noun)

- B able to b cool enough to say “i smoke weed” by actually smoking weed again .

i got married dis week with ringpop n planned my wedding . Tiz will take place at olive garden where everyone will have a mandatory dress code of “bread stick . “ Then throw italian wedding heart shaped rice in my face . All i want on my honeymoon registration is pink heart shaped Bubble wrap from Etsy . Rsvp NOW!!! What does it mean to be someone’s bossa nova?? All i kno is i found Comfort in my friends farts when they refuse to withhold them from meh N smelling their insides . N holding each other in the afternoon after blacking out the nite b4 n kissing each other’s itchy tattoos itchy kisses w pierced lips in crowded and small bathroom stallz at Bushwig ice house in non bushwick / East Williamsburg. Snorting n feeling unashamed n blissfully unaware promising each other things we can’t Promise ourselves n Vocalizing our drug preferences and chatting ab prison n heaven n long lives n last lives .

hElped style for Bella hadid shoot last wk cuz og stylist for the shoot couldn’t make it or whayytevvzz n i had to change my tiktok name for Vidz credit . rip “renny69247” :-[[[ n Heyo just cuz u fuck cis men does not mean ur less queer n i Found the queen kunty book while walking in nyc stopping wickbush n i think it’s a sign from god . I luv my hood n knowing i am emotionally intelligent just as much as i am street smart . I luv staying up all nite kholing w moi friends n having dance partties tht r EPIC N SWAGGY n baking brownies 4 pplz n having sleepoverzz n having SO MANY CRUSHES!!!!! i also LOVE ECZEMA!!!! YAH i’m a profesh mouse catcher not so much releaser tho N i wanna thank all service tops 4 their service esp doubly if they r real veterans . and non monogamy with a underscore and italicized “n” cuz im like red gelatinous jelly .?

. Im dyke spongebob and lesbian Hash slinging slasher who hangs out w ppl with alpaca hair teddybears and german shepherd Border collie Mix coats cuz Peta is actually not as cool as We all thought in our spiritual vegan Cali Wave . n a vegan who eats chikkin. it’s BRICK OUTSIDE n i kant wait to go to coHeed n cambia cambria concert in may SOOOOO Stay fergalicious defanicious Make dem boiZ Go L0c0!!!.!!! which rhymes with h0L0 kind of . i luv holo! Kant wait for denim party n clown core vday party n remember if u placebo urself to believe ur hi on addy u ARE high on adderal :-D o and ! i am cum and my situation ship is lube!

Xx, renny =} <3

[ganondoodle]

I only just found your fancomic and art now and I’m really curious as to where Farore, Nayru and Din fit in with your AU, and where Courage fits in with it all too; is the first Link/hero that Hylia chose supposed to be the reincarnation of Courage?

Well, you see, i kinda took the zelda lore and remixed it until it tasted good to me uwu

actual answer is i rewrote the lore .. or put it in a different context so it might be confusing at first and i dont know just how much into detail you want me to explain bc .. theres alot .. like ALOT

to sum it up rly shortly:

in my AU/comic the gods (here a rough sketch i did last time i redesigned them, tho this is only nayru, actually all three are one entity but also not, like three bodies melted together at the hips down)

-each created a world, and once life started to thrive there they chose a mortal to call them to come to them, the gods then killed them and used the mortals spirit to create a deity, not mortal, but no god either, as their servant

"Courage" (not actually their name, just a word to call them since their language is long lost) is the first one to be created, but fails the purpose the gods had intended for them rather quickly; so they abandon them and flood the world until nothing but Courage survives, out of madness/desperation Courage then destroys the ancient statue of the gods and promptly discovers a path to another world through it

and that is the second world, in which "Demise" (also not his actual name) resides, he is the deity of that world and has so far succeeded, although not quite like the gods intended; he was told essentially the same prophecy we hear in the intro of skyward sword (invasion of a monster etc.) this monster is in this case Courage, who attacks Demise, who in turn seals Courage away quite easily, which isnt how the prophecy went, he was supposed to die, which makes him doubt the whole plan and starts intentionally delaying working further on it, so long in fact that Courage, now mishapen (similar to the imprisoned) and mindless, breaks free of the seal Demise then kills them, but loses one of his blade spirits in the fight (he used to have two here in my AU), now that the gods plan is not doable anymore (since Courage is dead) they abandon him and his world alot of stuff happens here, inclusing mortals turning to war, then against him, and him destroying his version of the triforce as he saw it as the source of the conflicts; but in the end his world dies a slow death by drought, just like Courage he destroys the ancient statue of the gods in his world and woop theres a path there

which is Hylias world, so, Demise is taken by wrath and grief as this world was allowed to thrive while his own died seeks to reach the the gods in revenge by all means necessarry but is quickly stopped by Hylia, who instead of sealing him like she was ordered to, spares his life, bc who she encountered was not what she was told, and wishes to know why that is, why the gods would lie to her

this is where the comic itself starts, the first encounter of her and demise is the first chapter :3

it is a theme that courage is very similar to link and demise to ganondorf (tho my hylia not that much to zelda hmmmm) but here it has no ACTUAL connection, and the triforce trio as we know in canon has no actual great lineage, no reincarnation, just mortals manipulated by the gods to make them do their bidding after all three deities revolted against being used as the gods puppets

as you can see, im very bad a summing anything up, i hope this didnt sound too lame or something, there is alot of thought and heart put into this story (i even have the background stories of each deity from before they were deities, even tho it doesnt come up in the comic) and i hope i will keep my motivation and passion for this giant project alive enough to get at least more than one chapter done (i have a bad track record of failed comics, im horribly afraid of abandoning this one too bc i put so much more work and love into it already, i guess it depends on the support from you guys how far i will be able to go qwq)

feel free to ask me anything about it, cant promise to respond right away but i cherish nice asks to a point that i dont want to post answers bc then its gone from my inbox lmao

anyway, its 3 am, goodnight and perhaps ... hopefully this gave you a rough idea of what im going for >o<

[skunkes]

its like generally the anthropomorfisation (big word AUGH) of the animals i wanna use? for example my friend rly likes cows and i wanna make a cow furry oc for them but i cant for the life of me make the thing have.. cow features ??? do you know what i mean? ;-; i feel the same way u do abt my humans if it helps hdunsbdd (im cow anon now incase i keep coming back tysm for taking the time to reply!!)

oh i get yu! I think it takes some time to get there depending on how your brain works, i had to mold cow al into looking actually cowish in nature over a year or so of drawing him not very cow like

(+ also studying actual cows as well as other ppls stylizations. even today ill see a dif way someone stylizes bovine furry snout and steal it for myself)

the good thing is there's a few good resources for drawing creachers (depending on the creacher) but ppl rlly rlly rlly like cows a lot recently, so theres cow every day and cow every hour twitters, as well as happy cow gifs subreddit. lots of cows at different angles for you to access!

(semi related but im so happy the smunk every hour twitter is like. active. just snagged this new ref today)

other than that i kind of just wing it t_t bt i did learn a lot from this little ref by mcmadmissile. keeping that in mind + a ref of The Animal close by if i cant visualize the angle (cow snouts are especially hard!!! what is up with them jdgfhk).

Seeing how other ppl stylize stuff helps a lot too!! (but then it still also helps to know how the original animal looks. like i give my cow al a nose bump and lips for characterization, he also doesnt have the bump on his head where the horns wld be bc i dont want his hair/head to Look too big etc so using just my work for help wldnt be Too Great esp since id draw any other cow character visually different....ykwim)

sorry i cant be of much help t_t im still learning and its more "adjusting parts until it looks right" vs "i have a very clear idea of how to sketch and structure and piece a furry face together before i line it :)" its literally luck atm 😭

[leewonkyeom]

everything is a competition between dk and jeonghan at least🙄🙄 literally the reason we made out that ONE time was bc dk wanted to see how long we could go on before jeonghan would comment on it😭 sorry you got roped into it as well by sitting next to us, but if you and jeonghan were sitting next tl each other y'all literally would've been worse🙄🙄

omg the lego ones are so cute😭 i'd rather have those cause they actually last forever and that is so cute!! (still going to chew him out)

lmao don't call us disgustingly in love when you spent the night listening to a man talk about "rebrumlums" or whatever😭 but i must admit that is so cute😭 the man was so ready to spent the rest of his life with you when you were in hs🥺🥺 hold on to this man (still going to chew him out dw !!)

oh my god!! i can finally see that?? lmao if you guys play the video of jeno and dk at our wedding, i think dk will literally cry😭 but so excited to see those omg!! esp since i wasn't there during middle school! like i need to see middle school simp deluxe tsundure jeonghan😭

like the fucking perseverance of that guy is insane😭 i had to cave i had no other choice. besides he looked good af, even i must admit that😭 meanwhile i was stuck with fucking long haired aquaman dk😭 not his best look, but i can survive🤧 and i slayed like ursula, just proved that she could've been pretty if she wanted to😌 like i did a mix of human her and octopus her cause i still wanted to look good for dk so i didn't want to go all in😭😭 but the fact that pranking me literally meant pranking dk by extension, cause the look on his face when he realized...😭😭

i know!! like it was that costume rly🤧 and my first matching one with dk i believe? cause unlike jeonghan he didn't have the guts to ask what i was dressing up as and matching😭 and lmao this was before chan was properly a part of our group, so i told him he could only come if he dressed up as meowth😭😭 i still feel kinda bad about ir, but i ended up buying him lunch for a week after that cause i genuinly felt bad😭 mingyu as brock was perfect though, i love whoever planted that idea in his head!! still mad maek didn't go as ash, cause he would've been perfect😭

ohh nice!! 🫶🫶 not nice that you're grandpa is moving, but nice that the house is available!

omg starfire and raven is our most iconic😭 i honestly want a repeat!! i looked so good that night i have no idea how dk survived tbh🤧 oh my god this sends me down memory lane😭 i remember the year y'all did fight club me, dk and shua went dressed as the powerpuff girls😭 simply iconic i am afriad. and when y'all did mean girls i literally have no idea how i convinced jeno to dress up as the grinch while i did cindy lou who😭 i have NO IDEA how you convince vernon to dress up as wednesday and chan as pugsley😭 but iconic i'm afraid😭😭

well since you snuck in the alcohol, i needed to do my part?? i even sold it "cheap" but whatever, i probably saved some lives that night😌😌 lmao even i was tired of you in the end, but we ended up finding our DREAM DRESSES omg they are fr so gorgeous😭 i still wear mine from time to time.

as someone who experienced you in hs and have now read those fanfics... scarily accurate😀 just praying mine and dks weren't as accurate cause ?? y'all really saw us like that😭🤡

okok i'll literally be there soon!! keep the hot cocoa scalding, like the tea i'll be serving😭 glad i can serve up some misery tbh🥰🥰

don't ask me😭 i was new and no one ever corrected me. but who hires a student as a soccer team coach??? like😭😭 lmao sketch me and dk sometime as well!! i'm tired of just looking at charles🤧🤧 y'all were the greatest band this school has ever seen though!! you were so good, i'm convinced i was your biggest fan!

no cause cha eunwoo is so fine, i don't think i've ever admitted my crush on him out loud before (except to my diary)😭 i needed some alternatives in case me and dk didn't work out😭😭 it was a dark time

oh my god!! we should grill cheol as well!

lmao i'm nor that good at basketball, but i can outrun you any day😌 so it's on!!!

he looks good i'll admit it😭 but he's YOUR MAN, do you really want me to simp for him? besides... headlocks and arms are way hotter🤭

ofc i lobe you, but i see you all the time??😭 i never see them anymore. besides, they were literally here from day one😭 i'll bake you something dw!! tha's in the love and happiness genre! but i couldn't possibly make something for everyone?? do you know how many people are coming home this christmas?

anyways👀👀 after we walked in on you and hannie is when we stopped doing it, cause a light when on in our brains and we realized how stupid it was. i'm sure that didn't stop y'all though

nooo i don't even want to listen to those😭😭 i'm sure i said the most batshit things ever😭 but also... can we play those at christmas? all our embarrassing secret have seen the light anyways

like i'm sorry😭😭 we didn't invite dk either if that helps??? or anyone for that matter. just me, mark and wonwoo lmao it was the only time i was calm tbh😭 and that says a lot cause video games rly gets me heated

WDYM HE CAUGHT ON FIRE HOW DID Y'ALL EVEN???😭😭 if y'all clean up properly in two hours i'll bake y'all some actual cookies that not only keep y'all alive, but also taste good😭

like the way i am extremely afraid of birds (like no. 1 fear), but i can deal with pigeons now and i think part of the reason why is dokyeom and his stupid impression😭😭😭 made me realize they're not all that scary

[ending-the-cycle-ask]

hey mello, i was wondering what tools you use to draw and animate with? i've been trying to find some animation program with a line tool like paint sai's, and im hoping whatever it is you use might have something like that? (i got rly shaky hands so i pretty much HAVE to use the lineart tool if i want nice looking lines...)

If you want clean linework, I would not recommend using my animation program/set up 😅 I use Flipaclip to do most of the animation portion of my animations. By this I mean, I sketch out everything in FlipaClip, get all the movements down, then move all the frames into Procreate, where I line over them and color them. While Procreate is a fantastic art program, it is very obviously that, an art program, not an animation program. It has animation features, and the line stabilizing is very nice, if you get the right brush, but it was not made for animators to use exclusively. The main thing is that Procreate has a limited number of layers per canvas, 250 max, meaning a limited number of frames per canvas, and it doesn’t have audio support, meaning lip syncing is impossible. (I did most of EtC’s original animation in Procreate, then added the audio in post, but the part in ‘Box’ where the guards talk had to be sketched in Flipaclip first so I could do the lip syncing. Each scene of the animation/each fail had to be made on a different canvas, since 250 layers/frames is literally nothing working at 12 fps.)

On the other hand, FlipaClip is generally pretty okay as an animation program, but it’s very rudimentary. There’s no stabilizing on the brushes, so shakiness is practically guaranteed, and you get 4 brushes total. You also need to pay for Premium if you want to do literally anything. Without it, you have no audio support, ads, and you can only animate about 3 seconds before you’re stuck behind a paywall. You also can’t export any of your videos without watching an ad, I believe. It’s definitely okay, for a mobile animation program, and it does its job well enough for me, but if you aren’t stuck with exclusively using an iPad for your art and animation, I’ve heard Clip Studio Paint Pro is a much better alternative to this. It has audio support, 999 layers, depending on the canvas, which is much better than Procreate’s measly 250, and still has a bunch of brushes and stabilizing and everything you need to make the animation/art look nice and clean, since it’s still an art program first and foremost.

I’ll vouch for Procreate as an art program all day long, I absolutely adore it, and the animation support is definitely nice, but it’s obvious the program wasn’t made with animation in mind. Procreate’s animation feature is meant for making quick gifs, and that’s about it. And while I have been using FlipaClip since I was like 12, when it was still in beta and didn’t even have audio support yet, it honestly isn’t that great of a program in general. It just does it’s job, and that works well enough for me, since no other mobile animation program I’ve tried will even function in comparison, but that doesn’t mean it’s worth your money or frustration.

-Mod Mello ✏️

[cloverpurr]

hi hullo been drawing more Things without sketches lately n wanted to show off these lil guys................. cherrybloom (left) and alderdusk (right)! more stuff abt them under the read more bc GOD i have a tendency to ramble . sorry not sory deal with it <3

these two are the kits of mistyleaf/mistystar (i keep using her warrior name sicne i dont wanna say mistystar and have ppl be like "MISTYSTAR like the CANON CHARACTER????" bc all i think of when i hear mistystar is. That Mistystar. but this is, in fact, an oc, and not the canon mistystar <3) and sedgepelt, they may or may not be canon bc sedgepelt is supposed to die but. if he doesnt then misty and him will have 2 litters of kits instead of just one : hawkeyes and willowshade in the first litter and in the 2nd litter they'll have hollytalon, cherrybloom, and alderdusk. all named after various other acharcters : cherry and holly are named after cherrycloud and hollyflower, who are adopted sisters (cherry's mother is a kittypet but her father is a clan cat so he took cherrycloud and gave her to another queen who was nuring hollyflower at the time) and also! cherrycloud is sedgepelt's mother so hollyflower is his aunt! they're amed after them. meanwhile alderdusk is named after mistyleaf's aunt and former clan leader, alderstar!

hollytalon was born 3 legged and because of that her apprenticship started late, but alder and cherry were never Mean To Her or anything. they just patiently waited for hollykit to finally be apprenticed. and although alderpaw seemed jealous of the attention and pity that hollykit got, he didnt seemed to be bothered by it all that much

however hollykit on the other hand.... wasnt as patient. and in a moment of desperation she decided to try and prove herself to her clan, a way of her bein like "i CAN be a warrior actulal;ly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just wathch me!!!!!!!!!" so she snuck out of camp and follow alderpaw on his warrior assessment. but. all of a sudden out of Nowhere came a fox, and it went straight for hollykit. alderpaw heard the fox and heard the yowls and was liek "is that hollykit??????" and so he dashed towards the noise with his mentor and saw hollykit being chased by the fox so alderpaw Leaped at the fox and attacked it but. he ended up. being attacked by it, causing him to be Scarred and Partially Blinded. hollykit was attacked too but she didnt suffer nearly as much damage as alderpaw did

alderpaw was. Angry. angry that he got attacked by the fox and angry that his warrior assessment had to be postponed - he COULD have become a warrior at that moment but. he was in such poor condition that if he became a warrior itd take him moons for him to recover and get back on his feet. plus he had been punished for attacking the fox head on instead of going back to camp to warn the others, so even if he did pass and wasnt injured he'd still be in big trouble. unable to direct his anger at anyone else, he put his anger on hollykit. if hollykit hadnt snuck out she wouldnt have been chased by a fox, and if she hadnt been chased he wouldnt have gone and attacked it, and if he didnt attack it he wouldnt be partially blind. to him, hollykit was the one thing keeping him from being a warrior. cherrypaw on the other hand passed her assesment with flying colors and became a warrior right then and there : cherrybloom.

after many many moons of rest and healing, alderpaw was finally able to become a warrior by the name of alderdusk. during the time alderpaw was healing hollykjit had become an aprpentice, hollypaw, and the two became warriors alongside each other with hollypaw being named hollytalon. cherrybloom hoped that since they were all warriors now that alderdusk wouldnt be mad anymore but he was. still upset.

(sory thats rly all i have to say DBHJSBHKDSBKHHJK i havent rly developed the story much past that point but. if i come up with anything else ill update this lolololol <3)

[with-the-same-tattoos]

I love Sirppi!!! Can we get more stuff about them and Brahms and how they interact with each other?

A-hh,hhhs;;;; (´｡• ᵕ •｡`) ♡ t-tysm... GLADLY. I'm planning on trying to write a lil first draft level thingy based on radio brahms as an exercise when my summer break starts (dunno if ill post since itll be just that, first draft, just a way for me to practice how i work stories in that world & how i might one day tell my own full stories w/in it), so I'm VERY happy to talk abt it & any questions can be very helpful.

I think I have to mention about radio brahmses personality in this a bit b4 i get started on the interactions !!! In GENERAL i depict Brahms a bit more mature than the standard, more as a dad jokes kinda guy who just has no socialization. Same applies here. He is actually very wanting and willing to be an adult, but he is just incredibly bad at it (or parts of it), and he thinks it has to be all kept a secret. Yada yada. In radio, Brahms is the one who comes forward after getting over his nerves. He is incredibly bad at understanding his flaws and recieving critisism, but also incredibly bad at expressing his emotions / what he wants / etc. Has some serious social anxiety. Is still severely nasty.

So when it comes to interactions, I'll jump directly to when Brahms has shown himself. Before that, Sirppi has begun to chat with the doll and actually get kind of comfortable. When they find out Brahms is... well, Brahms, they're kinda in shock, and at first, they just try to Stay Safe for the first few days "until the shopkeeper stops by". They almost completely ignore Brahms, and make clear that they are taking care of a child, the doll Brahms. They keep up the routine. Similiarly to when Greta returns to the house and uses that parent voice, expect Sirppi, who has gotten kinda comfy talking with the doll, talks at brahms the doll, and Brahms the lad kinda is just. A) weirded out b) so used to following this routine c) doesn't know what else to do so he just. Follows along at first, but this time, staying around Sirppi, coming out of the walls more. He just sits there, awkwardly, staring, not knowing like. What 2 do.

did some quick warmup sketches before i start work too so >:)

It scatters from there, Brahms starts to kinda slowly gather the nerve to do things, and Sirppi slowly realizes that he rly is just like a dude and warms up to him.

Some small bits n pieces of interaction scenarios I'm thinkinh sbt;

Sirppi is not a good cook, they just try to get things done as fast as possible. They start by Sirppi making Brahms food, but one day Sirppi wakes up to Brahms very upbeat at their door, following them to the dining room, where they find a full 5 star filling breakfast for the two of them, and that's the first time they eat at the table at the same time, together (however, Sirppi doesn't like that Brahms didn't make a plate for the Brahms doll, and gets one themself for it) (Brahms id confused but is like fine)

Sirppi started out reading more childrens type books to the Brahms doll, but slowly Brahms starts to give them like fr fr poetry books and stuff and they actually kinda slip away from their lil game 2gether when they have a lil convo abt some poem and its meaning. Sirppi gets flustered and book time is over.

Sirppi is quiet and soft voiced, but they raise their voice one time when Brahms gets too close, and he is very cranky and annoyed by it and whines and complains in his head and questions and questions but. He respects their personal space still, afterwards. And he's angry and annoyed every time he wants to be close but can't, but he still tries his best to not make them uncomfy, and at some point he realizes that it's bc the comfort of others is actually pretty important to him. And he starts to question what his own comfort includes and limits. He one day tells Sirppi off about smth he feels is uncomfortable, and Sirppi respects it, and that day they eat 2gether in a happy, meaningful silence :')

Uhmmm OK I WONT RAMBLE MORE FOR THIS ONR I GTA GET TO WORK BUY.... THANK U FOR CARING IT MEANS A LOT TO.ME

[boy-above]

i haven't really talked about myself Too Much lately and i wanna fix that bc i enjoy talking to u guys abt my life n stuff.

anyway recently i've just been playing the fuck outta the new pokémon game and doing. not much else. i've been doing housework tho which makes me feel productive, i fully bleached out all three of my cats litter boxes which can be a lot of work especially considering one of them is a giant bin. i also completely reorganized my room and did some spring cleaning i guess, except it's winter lol. i don't dust very often bc i'm allergic to it so it makes me cough a Lot. thankfully my room is like the least dusty room in the house for some reason. but it's nice to dust especially since my living dead dolls are like, collectors items, and i really shouldn't be letting their coffins get too dirty.

i've still been doing my sketches every day, there's been maybe twice where i forgot to do one because of my weird sleeping patterns but i always draw two sketches the next day to make up for it. i've been feeling kinda not good and out of it lately tho, which means having pokemon to envelope myself in is good, keeps my mind busy so i don't think too much about how i hate myself AJDJDJFJ. just had the doctor increase my lexapro dose tho, i take multiple pills and lexapro is the one i consider my "it makes me not wanna die pill" ahshfhg

even tho i've been sketching every day i haven't been working much on my digital projects which kinda sucks, but i've been doing them a little at a time. i have fnaf2 gijinkas that have been a work in progress for like months but i finally only have shading left to do so 👀 way back when fnaf2 came out i had gijinkas for all the main fnaf1 and 2 animatronics and i still love them dearly even tho i haven't drawn them in a very long time. so i'm excited to show you guys them, all updated n stuff! i also still have a glambon angst comic i've been working on, progress has been slow but i still rly wanna finish it.

also fun news, i caught a shiny wurmple!

[artistkoo]

This is how it ends | 1

a jk drabble series

Summary— Jungkook's thinking of ending things, and you're thinking of ending it with him too.

Inspired by bts universe story JK, bec i rly felt for him when he was drawing the car that would hit him 😭

Tags: angst, fluff, dun worry im a fluffer for happy endings so dun lose hope 😉

TW: talks of suicide, smut etc. Might be triggering to depressed/suicidal ppl like me 🤡 but yk, don't do it hoe it's not worth it i promise. Let's not do it, let's not give up. Even tho life sucks, maybe it won't always- let's stay alive just inc it gets better. And hopefully it will get better someday.

The following story contains scenes that some readers might find disturbing and/or inappropriate, including depictions and conversations related to self-harm, suicidal thoughts and actions. If you or anyone you know are suffering from depression and suicidal thoughts, there are resources available to you such as the National Mental Health Crisis Hotline 09178998727 / 989-8727) and Hopeline Philippines (0917-558-4673/ 09188734673 / 02-88044673/2919) Your suffering is not permanent and you can get help.

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Jungkook's pov

It didn't look like it, but Jungkook was bored and tired, so very tired with everything. Though he greeted his classmates enthusiastically, like everything was okay, like he was okay. He's always been a professional actor, he'd often wonder why he hasn't won a grammy yet. He'd been pretending forever now that everything was fine, that he was happy- when in actuality he wasn't. He was far from happy.

He'd been thinking about ending things for quite a while now, he was still in college but it was whatever. It's not like anyone would care if he ended things, if he ended it? His hyungs… His brothers were his only friends, but were they still his friends? Would they care if he was gone? They don't even talk anymore. He had no one anymore.

He decided to take out his frustrations by sketching on his notepad, or more like drawing and planning his imminent death. He was leaning by the windows of the classroom, it was break time and there were only a few students inside the room- most students went out to eat anyway. He was highlighting his drawing of a car running him over and leaving him dying.

After that he was bored again. He decided he'll just have to finish the drawing anyway, since he had nothing to do. He didn't even notice you popping up by his side, suddenly intruding and invading his privacy.

"You want to get run over by a car? That's a messy way to die. Might hurt a lot too." you started. He was taken aback by what you said. "Excuse me but who the hell are you? And why are you judging me?" was the only thing he could think of to say.

Actually mayhaps he did kind of know you, you shared a few classes but you were kind of noticeable, in a way at least. You were shy and silent like him, you were kinda weird too but there was something about you that was kinda cool too. Anyway, he just wanted to taunt you that's why he pretended to not know who you are.

"It doesn't matter who I am you know. What matters is that your chosen way of death is quite disturbing- well wanting to die is already disturbing, but you get what I mean. Can I suggest something?" You inquired. "I don't really care about what you'll say, but sure what do you suggest?" Jungkook answered.

"Wouldn't you like to die another way? Less painfully? A little peacefully even? I could help you, ya know?" you suggested.

"I don't need your help or anyone else's. I can do it myself, so no thanks." he bit. "I meant that I could help you think of a less painful way to die. There's so many ways to die ya know? And I kinda wanted to suggest maybe doing it together?" you awkwardly said, seemingly shy.

"Wait, you want to die at the same time as me? Like do it together?" he stated the obvious. "Duh." was your only reply.

"Why? Do you like me or something?" the audacity of this boytoy. "Ew no. Maybe I just don't wanna feel alone…" you confessed.

"Oh." he was kind of embarrassed for implying you had feelings for him.

"We could just drink cyanide you know? Or suffocate ourselves, or… Wait- I wrote it in my notebook." you said, looking for the said notebook in your bag.

Jungkook never thought there was something really wrong about you, he thought you were just weird. It turned out he was wrong.

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Thanks for reading! Pls reblog & comment if u liked this drabble n if u want more! 🥺 My praise kink would be satisfiedd~ also im opening commissions again so if y'all wanna 👀 just message me here!

[starvels]

Inspired by your AI Tony post! Makes me wonder about an AI Tony in the vein of JARVIS or FRIDAY in that he’s not a “real boy” replica of Tony, he’s an OS, a helper AI to use with a suit or a house or a ship, a sketch of Tony, a SIRI/ALEXA Tony, to use with your phone. And he’s kinda a joke option, who would want an AI based off of Tony Stark LOL when you can select any other in the database? But Steve does pick him, to hear his voice maybe? To make his apartment less lonely or the powersuit he’s using atm less claustrophobic?

Or maybe he is a “real boy” who’s letting Steve use him for Helper Bot purposes? Steve was just supposed to pick out of the Helper AI pool but since he has basically all access to Tony’s files he kinda oops grabs AI Tony (my god Steve did you not realize this from the file size!?!)

(Max angst, an AI Tony, helper or real, helping to power Civil Warrior Steve’s armor. Together forever traveling to multiverse trying to undo what they did in theirs? Or DARK Steve a different way, is Steve ever tempted to tweak any AI Tony’s code???)

"who would want an AI based off of Tony Stark LOL when you can select any other in the database" this made me sooo sad out of nowhere LMFAO thanks nonnie.

these are suuuch good prompts, all of these thoughts i love them ty.

steve picking AI tony would be really lovely and poetic, i think! maybe in one side of this delightful situation you are describing, it's a much future AU where steve got pulled from the ice 200 years later. and either this AI is a copy of the OG one that lived 200 years previously, oooor its a copy of the current one, but either way tony becomes very enamored with this weirdly sincere, sad boi that keeps asking for help learning quantum encryption. they fall in love, but its 200 years in the future, SO. when steve discovers the og tony is dead - its like love continues past the grave and everything different bc AI can feel touch, can have their own bodies and agency, etc. OR! steve/ai tony fall in love and then steve learns about the alive tony after something catastrophic happens to the AI tony, and he goes to find/rescue real tony, but TONY DOESN'T REMEMBER HIM ooooof

i would absolutely read SO MUCH civil warrior steve, ty for this premise. it sounds delightful. and a dark steve that codes AI tony is so malicious and horrible and dead dove, it would be very visceral. does remind me a lot of that hydra steve w AI tony that kiyaar did here which is described as 'a fairly sadistic turing test' oooof. [it's quite brutal, pls mind the tags!]

but yes so many ways to explore!! so little fic!! :(

means we gotta write more :) i rly enjoy AI/transhumanist tony so you can probably rely on me to continue exploring that, ha.

[lucky-draws]

Hey!! Your art is awesome :) Where did you learn to draw? Did you go to school or are you self taught?

Hello!! Thank you so much!! :D

It's a bit of both really, I mean I studied art at gcse and A level (which I guess is basically the UK equivalent of us high school level?? Idk how to describe it since school systems are different in every country lol) but I've not studied it at university level or like a proper private art school kind of place or anything.

But also, and I this is gonna sound cliché or whatever, I guess I've been drawing since I was little so aside from school lessons I've had many years of practice of just kinda figuring stuff out for myself basically.

(LOL and I would also say that sometimes school art lessons weren't always that useful, especially for a couple of years when we had rly bad teachers lmao. We did some stuff that was beneficial like life drawing classes and such but in my experience so much of our time was spent writing a load of fake pretentious bullshit instead of actually being taught how to draw LMAO but that's just my feeling...I could write more abt the way art is taught but I won't xD)

Right now I'm not studying anywhere, so I'm working on getting better at drawing by myself. I only really post my fanart on this blog but sometimes I do other stuff like exercises and anatomy studies that I don't post, which are helpful,, maybe since I'm already waffling I'll mention a few things I find useful to do in case it's if interest to you or anyone else? Under the cut tho, since this is getting long LOL

Observational studies/drawing from life is something that's very useful I find; just in terms of generally training yourself to look at something and try to represent it accurately and learning more about what things, textures, shadows, etc actually look like. Lately I often take a sketchbook out with me and do things like sketches of people or buildings or studies of plants, flowers etc. None of them are masterpieces, but it's just the activity in itself that's fun. Sketching people or animals forces you to be quick, because you don't know when they might move positions or leave or whatever, and being able to quickly and confidently get down the basic lines and forms of something is a good skill to have and to practice.

I also enjoy human anatomy and figure drawing so I'm trying to get better at that. Anatomy is a huge subject and it's too much sometimes to get hung up on trying to learn all the bones and muscles; a while back I got myself a textbook and found videos with that object in mind, but eh. I realised it's kind of a little ambitious when there are still so many things abt drawing in general I still don't know how to do, so I'm going to leave properly teaching myself detailed anatomy until later. Running before you can walk kind of thing, maybe.

That said though, doing a few studies now and then is still very useful, just learning a bit at a time and gradually getting used to remembering certain aspects about drawing the human body is progress enough.

In school, life drawing classes were pretty useful but I don't have access to any rn sadly. However, and this is not a #spon or anything jfjffj it's just what I do, I like this website called line of action which has photo references for artists to use; obviously there are countless sites like it but I like this one because it provides you with a timer tool kind of thing, so you can set it to 'class mode' and it will give you images to draw from in stages of 30 second sketches, then moving to a minute, then longer 5-10 minute studies and so on.

Even if you don't know shit about muscles and whatever, just observing the human figure from the outside (via images on the Internet if you understandably do not have access to real humans to pose for you lmao) and drawing it a bunch of times is still beneficial. The other I day I realised that ab muscles were confusing to me, so I literally just googled male abs and copied from a few pictures, just noting how they look, what basic shapes to remember etc.

Another good exercise that I haven't done for a while actually is to do some continuous line drawing, which means drawing something without taking your pen off the paper. For a subject you can use something/someone from life or just a picture on your computer or whatever, but basically just focus on keeping your pen/pencil on the page without lifting it, it's really useful in building up, like, confidence in your line work I guess, and it can look pretty cool actually, because it makes this kind of squiggly effect.

I'm just answering this on mobile right now and don't have time to post any pictures, but I'm thinking I could always post some of my studies and practice work now and then. Some of them will be messy LOL but I guess it might be a good thing to show this kind of stuff instead of finished, polished pieces all the time idk?

Anyway this got long and you didn't rly ask for it sorry chjfnfkf but thank you so much for the ask!!! Hope you're having a good day :-) ❤️