#i mean i think most of the other kids wouldve found it boring but only with that one teacher

[vamptastic]

i also just don't understand the neurochemical theory for ADHD i guess. i mean, as far as i can tell, stimulants have genuinely helped me a lot, especially with sensory overload and being able to activate focus at will more often. but they haven't changed the core part of me that just goes too fast, if that makes sense. when i was a kid, most of the adults around me were convinced that (and it sounds fucking stupid, sorry, i promise i am not making this up) i was like... so smart that i had excess neurons that fired so much it caused literally every symptom of ADHD you can imagine. sensory overload was because i had like, heightened senses and took in too much data, talking fast and on a train of thought was because i just thought faster than other people, stuff like that. it's definitely a lot better than being told i'm stupid and defective (though i got a fair bit of that too, depending on the adult), but pretty obviously pseudoscientific and also the reason i didn't get diagnosed till age 16 despite the extremely obvious flags i was throwing up. regardless, that explanation that my brain was simply structured differently, that i basically took in too much data too fast, always spoke to me a lot more than the idea that it's caused by my dopamine receptors only. i just don't generally link most of my symptoms to my emotions or adrenaline levels most of the time. certainly it plays a part, but the way i talk, the sensory stuff, and the way i learn and process new information seems to be largely unexplainable with dopamine levels.

[kondensaduhhh]

but imagine, maybe if kells were to be more fearless, more fearless but stupider and more delusional, what if kells just acts like em was more than his fuck buddy, em is cold but he lets it happen, so kells continues to act as such, just happy that em is allowing his affection. eventually though, because of course it will happen unavoidably, after some few weeks, em has had enough of kells’ gay shit, that theyre nothing, that they were supposed to just be relieving some tension in their lives through each other, and to stop acting like he, a straight man, could be in love with someone like him. kells tears only escapes his eyes once em was gone, he sobs on his bed, screams into the bedsheets, willing himself to stay mad, but his will wasn’t strong enough, so he ends up just crying himself to sleep.

but kells does stop though, the next time em comes into their room (they might as well call it their own with how long their arrangement has spread out), kells wipes himself, and himself only, instinctively tucking too short strands of hair behind his ears, his own body forgetting he had already cut it, and he leaves with a half hearted look over his shoulder to bid “bye, mathers.”

and em? oh marshall hated how his lips twitch into a swiftly aborted smile at seeing colson forget the length of his own hair, hated how he felt the blood drain from his body with the boredom with how colson said his farewell, was he getting bored with him? but before he could ask what was the matter, the blond has already left the room, not even in a hurried way, it felt more like a child exiting the dining room to retreat back into the comfort of their room. he hated it, colson usually was the one left in the room alone, his six-foot-four ass pouting, silently coaxing him to stay by gently scratching his scalp. and when he remembered what he had said. he hated that he hated it because it was within his control, because fucking up was within his conscious, sober control.

marshall missed how affectionate colson was, of course he does, it was one of the best things to happen to him, he was one of the best things to happen to him. he doesnt know whether colson is getting colder with him or he’s just experiencing withdrawal of his warmth. he cant reach out and tell him he’s sorry, or tell him he was wrong and that he can love him freely again and to never stop loving him, because god forbid Eminem admit he miscalculated. colson was a sad and cold for, at most, a week and a half, then something changed, he was still unaffectionate towards the older man but he was happy. he didn’t dare pry because what the fuck does he care about the kids life?

he got his answer when colson didn’t show up to their usual meet up, and ignoring all his phone calls and texts, his phone blew up about an SNL member apparently has come out of the closet as bisexual and has already found himself a boyfriend. it was pete. he was quite fond of him, he made him laugh easily enough, funny kid. he read the first paragraphs of the article before he was introduced to a video titled “Pete Davidson Comes Out, Bestfriend Turned…”, the title was cut off, and he didn’t even think about it, and click the video.

it was pete’s normal place next to colin jost for weekend update, “so i would just really like to let you guys know that i am bisexual, which means i like dudes and chicks, and apparently im fitting right in by being a stereotype among the community to fall for your straight bestfriend.” pete explained himself,

colin faces pete, looking apologetic, “aw im so sorry to hear that man, that must be so difficult for you,”

“huh? oh nah, i just thought he was straight, y’know? i mean i never asked, but y’know, he’s my bro, my best friend, of course im gonna tell him, i don’t wanna seem like a pervert, i already look like one” the audience laughs, pete gently laughs along with them, and colin just smiles his perfect teeth.

“but yeah, i told him, i liked him, and he said he liked me too, so of course i was like ‘no nonono like as a… homosexual, dude’ and he said ‘yeah man i know what you meant’ and here we are” pete lowers his voice then he smiles closed but genuine.

colin looks into the cameral for a split second then look to pete, “well, uh… are we going to meet who you gracefully confessed to?” pete lets out a small laugh and says, “ uh yeah, if it wasn’t obvious enough, machine gun kelly is my boyfriend,” pete puts his hands on his hips and strikes a pose, possibly to make the situation feel less intimidating.

marshall almost doesn’t believe it, almost convinces himself that that was just a skit, until low and behold, machine gun kelly walk into frame, shaking che’s and colin’s hand, their lips are moving but marshall didn’t understand what was being said, its almost like he isnt within his own reality, then colson goes over to pete, he hugs him, then pete stands up and they both lean in to kiss, pete’s arms around colson’s slim waist, colson’s hand cup petes cheeks, the other on his jaw. they smile, fuck, if that smile didn’t just felt like it was ripping his sternum in half, he wouldve thought was cute.

he’s finger instinctually turns off his phone, he stares at a wall, next thing he knows, he’s angrily crying, harshly wiping the wetness on his face.

[teeth-and-tea]

ANIME & MANGA I HAVE BINGED IN THE LAST MONTH: May 2021

I've Been Hunting Slimes for the Past 300 Years and Now Ive Maxed Out My Level: incredibly long name aside, cute af slice of life that suffers Same Face Syndrome. I'm still happy to watch it because of how feel good and fluffy it is though, Im probably gonna forget about it in two or three years tho. 8/10.

Don't Toy With Me, Miss Nagatoro: I found out this was a webcomic first and suddenly all the HORNINESS made so much more sense. A Femdom, Degradation, Humiliation, Dacryphilia Bullies to Lovers story disguised as a high school rom-com which, I'm not going to lie, misses SKEEVY CITY by mere inches on a regular basis. However, I'm a Dom/Switch and this entire relationship sets off my dom brain center like New York City just shy of midnight. So if you're into that sort of scene, this anime is for you. If not, it's still fascinating but you're probably gonna be a little put off by how mean the Girl!Bully is to the guy MC. Unless you find out something about yourself, in which case, congrats! Stay safe, sane, consensual, and learn about the traffic light system on top of safe words, I promise you'll have a better life in general after that. Still Ongoing, currently 10/10.

Fruits Basket: IM GONNA CRY I LOVE THIS ANIME SO MUCH???? The original anime came out when I was in... I think middle school and my parents were really strict on what I watched so I never got to experience the first wave and I never bothered to watch the show ever after I moved out of the house years later. However, now that I'm much older I honestly can say this is one of my favorite anime to date, and all the characters are charming, lovable, with their own problems that I can connect to or sympathize with, and I love the MC which is always a treat tbh. Except Akito. Akito can suck a sandpaper dick. I'm only on S2 tho so no spoilers! Anime 11/10.

Monster Girl Doctor: went in thinking it was gonna be a monster girl who's a doctor with a homoerotic assistant (her name is SAPPHY okay sue me for thinking it) and ended up watching the entire dubbed harem series. Honestly, I've seen worse and this one has consistent follow-through on interesting characters and backstory enough for me to shove aside the blatant under-monstrousness of the female monsters and the harem-ness of everything else. Dubbing is honestly really good, which is a treat, and the monster designs are not the worst and the MC is tolerable. Honestly, I don't mind having watched it! The mix of cgi and the traditional animation together work pretty strangely though, and it often doesn't flow super well. 7.5/10

So I'm a Spider, So What: Dubbed version which honestly isn't that bad. Took me a bit to get into it, but after realizing that it's got a mismatched timeline a la The Witcher, it made so much more sense. Heavily done in cgi, and you can definitely tell between the 2D and 3D animations, but not the worst in the world. I went in not expecting much but it ended up being an Issekai I can stand and even enjoy. On god has a decent story... with the spider. I'd be a liar if I didnt say I skipped some of the human parts just to get back to the best part of the show. 8/10.

Somali and the Forest Spirit: I'm so fucking nostalgic for this thing it makes me want to go and hug my dad. About a human girl under threat of being eaten with a monster-dominated world. Very obvious "humans fear what they don't understand" message but instead of the humans learning tolerance it's what happens when they get annihilated first so like, kudos for the mangaka for having the guts to do that. I cried like a baby regularly. It's really good, I watched the dub and ID WATCH IT AGAIN!!! 9/10.

To Your Eternity: Oh my god. O h my g o d. Fell in love on the first episode, ngl. About if an immortal being learned how to be a person from scratch. I love it. HOWEVER. Keep a box of tissues on you at all times because you're gonna need them. I'm only on EP7 because that's all that's out right now but just know. I love it. Not for everyone but certainly for my "what do we define as human and the human condition" ass. 12/10.

Those Snow White Notes: A sports anime without any sports. About shamisen playing which is cool because I never realized how cool this instrument was??? Its neat af. OP1&2 are by Burnout Syndrom so know theyre fire. Gonna be real, its pretty alright, but not extraordinary. You can tell they were using the characters as archetypes rather than actually characters which kinda kills a lot of the emotional value you could've had, but I'm still gonna watch it. It doesn't make me cringe as hard as other sports anime tho so I consider it toptier in that regards but if you're a big sports anime fan you might be bummed out by it. Every single musical performance is INCREDIBLE tho. A solid 8/10.

Toilet Bound Hanako-kun: THE ART OMFG IT'S SO GORGEOUS. Listen, if you took coptic markers and gave them an animation budget with some manga panel direction thrown in there, that's this anime. It's beautiful. Gorgeous. I'm in love with the aesthetic every second. Story? Really good. Characters? I love the MC and his evil little twin brother asshat. Demons? Not super imaginative but I'm carrying on happy as can be anyways. Dubbing? A bit shaky at times but I found the voices charming if a little off for some of them. I'm already waiting for the second season with popcorn at the ready. 10/10.

Prison School: I watched this directly after Hanako-kun and it was like I got slapped in the face by sweaty unwashed titties and some fedora wearing schmuck's piss kink. No character is likable or redeemable. I finished it, but at what cost? 2/10 and only because a character shit his pants and I laughed.

Sleepy Princess in the Demon Castle: watched this right after Prison School and it was NECESSARY tbh. Its so CUTE and honestly, im not even kidding you, the fucking funniest anime I've seen in months. I watched the dub and the VAs are having the time of their lives working on this anime not just giving it their all but literally just going ham. Its great. If I read this im sure id be bored outta my mind but the VAs giving it a joyous performance make it an insta fave for me tbh. 9/10.

Sk8 the Infinity: i watched the dub with my bro and I can confirm that its a spectacular show because we both loved it and we have vastly different tastes. Incredibly SUSPENSFUL AND STRESSFUL for an anime about skateboarding but we finished it in a single sitting tbh. The last episode is not dubbed for some reason but we still loved it. Like if Free! was less obnoxious but the only fan-service here is Joe ♡ a beefcake who owns my lesbian heart. I think there's exactly one named female character tho and I legit couldn't tell you what it was if there was a gun to my head. So, over all, 9.5/10.

That Time I Got Reincarnated as a Slime: I'm going to be entirely honest, I went in thinking it was going to be a boring isekai of no value. I was right about the Isekai part. It was honestly pretty interesting and focused on nation building like you're playing civilization rather than the usual "Get Stronger" narrative or "Get Some Pussy" narrative most isekais take which is delightfully refreshing. Granted there are flavors of that in this which means it doesn't alienate the big isekai watchers out there, but it's not the whole dish and it doesn't make me want to cringe the same way others do. You've got a slime MC just vibing and building a nation of monsters nbd. Does lose points for making the female monsters more humanoid than their male counterparts but makes them back by only doing perfunctory fan-service and nothing that makes me want to cry... except the butt sumo episode but in fairness it was all a terrible dream. Literally, the MC refuses to dream anymore after that. solid animation, decent voice acting, decent story, made me realize how HUGE this is in the Light Novel community???? There's like 18 fucking novels and that's WILD. 8.5/10.

MANGA:

Spirit Photographer Saburo Kono: a one shot special by the mangaka of The Promised Neverland! Honestly a really delicate touch of both super creepy and really touching, and I'm not gonna lie I'm bummed that this isn't a bigger project but the single chapter makes it a good taste for their style. I've been wondering if I wanna read/watch The Promised Neverland and now I think I will. 10/10

Deranged Detective Ron Kamonohashi: from the mangaka of Hitman Reborn comes this Sherlock and Watson derivative! Not even 20 chapters out yet with a sort of spotty schedule, I honestly love it even thought it's exactly as you expect. HOWEVER. Kamonohashi the "Sherlock" character uses mental pressure to kill all confirmed murderers and it's up to Toto the "Watson" character to save all those people before Kamonohashi kills them! It's just recently introduced a "Moriarty" family of crime lords (not a big spoiler don't worry it was obvious) so the tension surrounding Ron's past is amping up rn. Personally, I think the art is GORGEOUS, the characters engaging, and the story quick enough to keep my interest. Most mysteries are solved within a chapter or two so you're not stuck 20 chapters into one locked room mystery which is just peachy tbh. RN, 10/10. If this gets an anime, I anticipate a legion of fangirls who ship the two main characters along with their many friends. I've been alive too long to believe otherwise.

Don't Toy with Me, Miss Nagatoro: Yeah I read the manga after I watched the show. A slower build than the anime, but it works for the format, if theyd done the same with the show then I don't think it wouldve done as well. Honestly? Cuter tbh but just as horny. You dont start really LEARNING about your character until like, chap 65 tho and no real "drama" happens until like 75. A good chunk of the chapters are like 8pgs so its a breeze to get through. I love these slow burn idiots of the century. 9.5/10 because you can DEFINITELY tell the mangaka does hentai too.

Yugen's All-Ghouls Homeroom: one-shot by the mangaka for Food Wars, it's no wonder there's this constant perviness from the MC, a guy who can see and exorcise spirits. Takes place at an all girl's finishing school with KICK ASS monsters tbh, kinda bummed its not longer. The MC? Blatant monsterfucker who is also a CONFRIMED monsterfucker???? Idk i vibe with that single emotion. Everything else is hit or miss. 7/10 for monsters and cool concept, lost points for the MC very pointedly being okay with admitting he'd wait for the teenagers to be adults tho. Creepy af. Could live without that.

Hell's Paradise: I finished the entire 127chps in 3 days and I was really enthusiastic about it 90% of the time thinking about how deep it was and then I actually thought about it and I ended up being very neutral about the whole thing tbh. The art is fantastic tho, but DEFINITELY deserving of the M rating. Tits. Tits everywhere. But not tits to be ecchi over, no, monster hermit tits on beautiful women-ish figures. Now generally I give that a pass but a huge theme in the story is that men and women are "no better than one or the other" but like, lady tits are what you see 99% of the time. Men tits are few and far between. I call bullshit on most of the "deep" themes is what I'm saying, so it's like the mangaka was trying for those deep thoughts but missed the margin a little too far for my preference. That being said, the MC is a married man who loves his wife which automatically makes him my favorite character so like... idk so many good things, so many misses, but overall really spectacular themes and imagery. Unique but classic all at once. It's getting an anime and I have NO IDEA how much censorship they're gonna be doing but they're going to be doing SO MUCH. Oh yeah, and one guy is a plant/human hybrid who fucks a 1000 year old plant-hermit which makes him a canon monster fucker. And one canon non-binary character who I, a nonbinary, actually like. So like... gosh I've got mixed feelings. 8.5/10.

Choujin X: From Sui Ishida, mangaka to the mega hit Tokyo Ghoul comes this brand new manga!... Of one chapter, lol. Not really binge-y because it's just the one chapter out right now but I'm already keeping my eye on it. The grasp on anatomy in the art is PHENOMENAL and you can see Ishida flexing his art skill which is great. Can't give a true rating but I'm giving it a tentative 9/10 because I'm excited to see more.

Shag&Scoob: technically not a manga, its an ongoing webcomic I binged an subscribed to in one day and I just think it deserves more attention. Starts off funny with "what if Scooby Doo had a gun" and has been led to "what if all cartoons are aliens that survive and receive their powers by the humans that love them in an epic war with Martians." On god, its good. I finished the current series in a couple hours so it's a breezy read, highly recommend it. 9/10.

To Your Eternity: Yeah I watched the anime and then finished all current 143 chapters in like 3 days. GOD IM WEAK. I don't buy physical manga unless I know I want to remember the story forever and I'm already budgeting for the current books out. Yeah, this is a good series. That being said, definitely not for the faint of heart or those who suffer under common triggers like suicide, molestation, death, etc. It's all framed as bad and necessary to the story don't get me wrong, but it's there and has lasting affects on the characters. Incredible story telling by the creator of A Silent Voice. Keep tissues nearby at all times. 12/10.

[holdinghandswithastatue]

my thoughts on the lorien legacies reborn series [spoilers]

i think it sucked

sorry

i loved most of the characters to bits and they all deserved better (in terms of characterisation, plot)

nigel. oh my god nigel i love him so much

ran takeda deserved SO MUCH BETTER im still mad

the way they hinted at a whole bunch of romances but only made the one i dont give a shit about canon

i really really hate white girl taylor cook

yes, having a white american girl as the main character IS diversity :))))))

isabela is cool as shit and i wish i was her

i love their fleshed out backstories but i wish i couldve heard more

THERE WAS LITERALLY NO DEVELOPMENT IN MOST OF THEM (personally i think the series was cut short bc they all had so much more room to grow)

(it gave off percy jackson movies energy)

it hurts me how the writing hinted that nigel would get his heroic moment but he literally never did 

and then nigel was left with what? his only best friend dead, his parents corrupt assholes and him still not having healed from his trauma- still the underdog

ALSO: NIGEL WAS THE ONLY CANONICALLY GAY CHARACTER (except for maybe daunphen but still that doesnt really count bc its only implied) but they just like. didnt give him a love interest. 

nic was literally right there- that homoerotic moment really hit me and i just read it over and over

ran’s death was really well done but also COMPLETELY PREVENTABLE

if isabela had just told einar to stfu and shoot lucas it wouldve all been over and ran and five would still be alive 

speaking of which, ran and five were a super cute couple/friendship i cant tell but i like their dynamic a lot

five saying that he “actually likes” ran is essentially a confession of love in his terms

caleb. i liked him. but he was so boring and straight. i think his development wouldve been great if they just DID SOMETHING WITH HIM

also idk whether to ship isabela with caleb or daunphen but personally i like to think of daunphen as trixic which is unrelated

caleb literally. had potential. troubled home life. not as bad as the others but he never really stopped being an uptight little bitch

if he had, i think he wouldve been great

I LOVED EINAR’S GROUP’S DYNAMIC

do they have a name? i feel like they do but i cant remember

like... what a mix of characters, i love how they work together

personally i think theyre just the gay friend group

on the topic of einar,

i KNOW i shouldnt love him the way i do but if you didnt want me to love him you SHOULDNT HAVE GIVEN HIM REDEEMING QUALITIES

(same with five)

literally einar’s final monologue hurt me so much even though he nearly did drown nigel in gen 1 but still

“will you- will you finally listen?” yea kill me now 

i really hated how they brought the villain in in the final book. the fuck. who even gives a shit about lucas. no one remembers him

also it feels slightly political to make the main villain a radical christian who wants to convert the earth garde by killing them

listen i could talk about einar all day

i think he and isabela were a great friendship... of sorts

i mean did einar ever really let anyone close enough to him to make friends

but hes just so... S O F T

no hes not 

but he is to me 

ew

kopano really deserved a better gf than taylor

god 

also i wanted to see more of miki

again i will reiterate i think nic and nigel wouldve made a great couple

i keep forgetting theyre all just teenagers and thats kinda painful

einar was just a kid bro 

SO MUCH NUANCE TO HIS CHARACTER THAT WAS NOT EXPLORED

so much potential

hmm am i forgetting anyone?

lets talk about john smith

that man has a hero complex and its really annoying and part of me is really glad he wasnt the one to save the day this time but also i didnt want ran to die so

i think it wouldve been fitting if einar just ended it all since he kinda started the whole fiasco

fuck bea barnaby and her homophobic (and also mass-murdering) ass

the john and marina thing shouldve been forgotten completely no one ships them pls 

they had their one true loves just let them be without an s/o thanks

ella deserved to have more screen (? its a book) time bc she was my favourite character in the original series

OH MY GOD I HAVENT TALKED ABOUT NINE YET

hes the loml

also the part where lucas (in the body of john) rips off his cybernetic arm really hurt me

i kinda wish taylor died instead of ran

kill off the heroic white girl instead: the fifth wave style

john is such a stupid selfish bastard honestly but having a hero complex a valid flaw but still. i cannot deal with his bullshit all the time

writing one line on john and nine reuniting was cruel when you know most of the fandom ships them

also i like einar’s softening up near the end, and treating the group like they were his actual friends 

i wish we couldve seen more of them

i love myself a found family ragtag group situation

even though 2 of them died 

and the other has an inhibitor in his head, gets shocked every 3 minutes and took the fall for everyone

AS HE SHOULD THOUGH, MOST OF IT IS HIS FAULT

but hes just a kid

my thoughts are so scattered

omg stop i think i relate to einar... no..... not the literal mass murderer “terrorist” psychopath

he’s uptight and always needing to be in control

but he feels the pressure of having to be perfect to everyone else, and thus falls apart on the inside

gosh i wish i didnt love einar the way i do

final thoughts (but i’ll probably add even more): ran :’( nigel :( taylor >:( caleb :| einar :’( isabela >:) daunphen :D john :|

i hope no one reads this

[helmarok]

ww is kinda weird cuz both daphnes and ganon are wrong in some ways and it kind of leaves me thinking that neither of them were completely the good guy so here is my 10 page essay on why theyre both dumb old dudes causing problems

ganon isnt the good guy in ww, hes not a good person. he's more like a villain with depth i guess? as much as i love seeing him as some nice old man i gotta think about canon sometimes and hes kind of an asshole, but not just plain evil like he was in oot. i could agree with the fact that he wanted to revive old hyrule but then he ended up saying "give hyrule to me" which showed that he only wanted to bring it back so he can take it for himself.

that kinda bothers me tbh cuz its kinda boring that ganon just wants hyrule and thats that but thats just how he is i guess. i also wanna mention the time he said he wouldnt kill link, even though at the beginning of the game he told his helmaroc to throw him off to god knows where in the middle of the sea. maybe he didn't kill him but he definitely did it thinking he'd never come back. even though ganons dialogue is much more chill and sounds way less evil than in other games, hes not exactly good for the stuff he does and it kinda disappoints me that even though he did some terrible things, it wouldve been really cool if he did these things to bring hyrule back for not him but the rest of the world and his "give hyrule to me" thing really took away from that.

now its daphnes turn and hes different cuz hes supposed to be your companion. the reason i think daphnes isnt so good a person himself is cuz he took some random kid trying to save his sister and nothing more, then used the fact that he was willing to do anything for aryll to get him to kill ganon.

even after aryll is safe, daphnes still gets link to go through with the triforce hunt and kill ganon anyways. now i guess you could say that if he didnt kill ganon then aryll would still be in danger but he already found out that its not aryll who has what he wants so he'd probably just leave her alone. i guess this leaves tetra to be the one in danger, but even then daphnes put her in more danger than she wouldve been in anyways. i think daphnes biggest mistake here had to be giving the remaining piece of wisdom to tetra turning her into zelda. the whole zelda thing was weird on its own but what i mean by this is that by doing that ganon was able to have the complete triforce of wisdom when he took her. the piece of wisdom that daphnes held for all these years was safe with him and he just made the most stupid decision to give it to tetra only to show her that shes royal. add this to the fact that he left her in the most obvious spot, the basement of hyrule castle. and another thing to point out thats not so great, he left her in there with no food? he left her in there not knowing for sure when him and link were gonna come back and that makes me lose it every time like this poor kid just got turned into a princess basically had her life changed and got locked alone in a castle basement for god knows how long because some guy told her she was 💖✨goddess blood✨💖

daphnes was alright near the end when he used the triforce to wish a future for the kids who got caught up in this mess, and then told them to find a new land. he thinks its time for the old kingdom to be left behind for good and there needs to be a fresh start and new history. as great as it would be for the flood to end he does have a point especially if you think about the things the royal family has done in the past, using the sheikah and stuff like that even though thats definitely not what the game was going for but its still something to think about. hyrule has had a rough history and with both ganon and the old kingdom gone its finally time for something new.

i think both daphnes and ganon have good points but things just went wrong like daphnes pulling in some random kid to do what he wanted and ganon wanting hyrule for himself. neither of them are perfect but its ok cuz i think theyre both cool characters anyways 😭✌️

[ecotone99]

[SF]Aberration: Ruue (unedited)

About six years ago he showed up at the university I was attending in the great city of New Orleans. I don't really remember anyone knowing too much about him at first. He was new is all, and kind of just appeared out of no where. I only ever saw him in the courtyard in the middle of the school always doing something random like lazily playing a guitar, or bouncing a hacky sack. The kind of stuff that begged for attention but no one ever actually wanted to pay him any. He always looked like he was ready to give the most perfect answer to any question anyone would ask him. He held himself with confidence. The only thing is that the busy student life never permitted anyone to muster up the courage to talk to him. At first I thought he was attending. After some time passed and he was only ever in the courtyard I came to the conclusion that he was one of those people that lived close by and just hung out around campus because he didn't have any friends or anything better to do. Late one Wednesday night I found myself outside walking back to my dorm after spending too much time at my friends place drinking and playing video games. Our finals were over earlier than most students so we didn't have much to worry about except waking up for class the next morning while everyone else was still stressing over studying for tests. The peculiar part was when I walked across the grassy courtyard I saw him. He was still sitting off in the corner. This time laying on his back staring at the sky with a cigarette in his mouth. In my drunken state I finally decided to ask him his name. Stumbling over myself but not with any less courage I watched him blow smoke out of his mouth without even taking the cigarette out. "Whats your name?" I think I said, probably slurring a little bit. For the first time I saw this guy make actual contact with another human being by acknowledging my prescence. Without moving anything except his neck and eyes he looked at me lazily then continued to look at the sky. There was about a five second pause between my question and him saying, "Im Ruue" I wasn't sure if Ruue wanted anything to do with me and if I werent drunk I probably wouldve then said goobye and went on my way, but instead I just laid next to him. I looked at the sky for a minute or two. You couldnt see any stars. It was just a pale black up there, but Ruue seemed like he could see something so I asked, "What are we looking for Ruue?" Another pause, "Nothin man... I'm just really high..." Ruue knew I was drunk. I wasnt expecting him to say that and honestly I think he said it just to throw me off but after a slight hesitation we both burst out in laughter, laughing at our selves laughing at each other and laughing at the fact that there were no stars in the sky. That night Ruue told me a hard to believe story about how he woke up one day in a dorm room without knowing how he had gotten there or why he was there. He spent a few days in the room before even exiting and discovered the campus. He explained how the courtyard had the most flow of traffic and he waited every day for someone to approach him because obviously there had to be a reason he was here. If anyone was going to find him it would be in this courtyard. I asked him if I was the person he was supposed to be meeting but he didn't know. The only way he could tell is "If time begins moving forward again." I had no clue what he was on about but I felt like there was a meaning behind what he said, he just didnt even know it yet. That night we shared a blunt and went up to my dorm room, a tiny little flat with enough space for a single bed and a person to lay on the floor. I insisted he sleep in the bed after begging him to stay the night, but he wouldnt have it. We stayed up and talked for hours. He told me about the vague memories he had of his home and his roommates. The girl he loved. I told him about cliché college stuff like final exams and girls I'd never get. I wasnt sure about his intentions with me but when we finally began resting our heads I reached my hand up from the floor where I was laying and I gently grabbed his. He didnt recoil. I was happy. The next week consisted of us spending almost all of our time together. Eventually he got bored of the courtyard and joined me for my final couple of classes. That week was surreal. All the otherstudents had left. My friends bid me farewell for the break and went home to their families. Me and Ruue stayed together for the break. The school became an empty shell with us as its playthings. The peculiar night happened next. The one I'll never forget, solely because of the look of pure horror on Ruue's face that's painted in my memory until the day I die. We were still fresh and enjoying each others company. There was so much more I didnt know about him, but we were doing our routine for the past week's nights. We left the cafeteria with fattening snacks and shitty drinks, to sit at what I liked to call our picnic table in the courtyard. If I had known what was going to happen next I wouldnt have made such a connection. I wouldnt have ruined the memory of that school for myself for eternity. I wouldnt have even made eye contact with what seemed like this precious soul. But lo the following took place. A thunderous explosion and great blue light took place behind us in the center of the grassy field. My initial thought was lighting had struck but as my vision came to I saw several people standing in the spot of the explosion. There were about twelve men dressed in all black looking almost like a swat team but there were no letters on any of their uniforms. Directly in the middle of the men stood a woman. I remember her bright purple hair and long white trench coat. The most frightening bit was that all of the people who had miracioulsly appeared before us were each holding a gun. The men each had an assualt rifle and the woman in the middle held a handgun. All of which were pointed immediately in our direction. The entire scene illuminated by the dim hallogenic lights of the courtyard at night. The moment Ruue turned around and witnessed this phenomenon I could hear him say, "Here we go" I looked at him and asked, "What is that? What's going on?" I suddenly became concerned. Ruue then turned to me and said with big eyes, "I'm sorry, but the truth is you're not the reason I was brought here. Please. Please!" he begged me. "Do not cry. I have very much enjoyed our time together." When Ruue said that I became even more concerned and also frightened. I said hastely, "What is going on?" but before he could say another word the woman with purple hair was directly behind him and iterjected. "Ruue. You're not supposed to be here. I know this probably wasnt you're fault but there was a slip up and well, we have to fix it. Ruue then pleaded in a way I hadnt known him. "Please" he said. "I wont change anything. Its going to be alright." More questions flooded my head but no one was even looking at me. The woman grabbed Ruue by his arm very easily I might add. He was lanky. I couldn't imagine much muscle on him but he still struggled fruitlessly. His efforts did nothing as she began dragging him towards the other men. I jumped across the picnic table and screamed, "Hey!" At this time two of the armed men in black came towards me pointing their guns at my face. "This doesnt concern you young man. If I were you I'd get very far away from here quite soon." One of them had said in a strong voice. There wasnt much I could do. I asked what they were doing with Ruue but the other man then screamed for my silence and slammed the butt of his gun into my jaw. I felt several of my teeth fall out as I hit the ground but I kept my consciousness. Blood filled my mouth and ran down my cheek. I made the decision to maybe not say anything else, but Ruue was being held down by four more of the other men as the rest pulled out a large long piece of wood I hadnt noticed earlier. It took about six men to finally impale the piece of wood into the ground how they intended and when they cleared away I felt horror flood my body. It was a cross. The men in black had staked a huge wooden cross into the ground of the courtyard right in front of Ruue. I could here him screaming right about this time. He was scared. The woman stood next to Ruue with her back to me about twenty yards away and her gun pointed at him. She said, "You are sentenced to death by the Galactic Interdimensional Federation." and then backed away. The men in black then hoisted Ruue up above their heads and held him to the cross. His legs kicked as he cried and pleaded, "Please dont do this! Please! I don't want to die!" The men in black said nothing and if I could have seen their faces under the masks they would have been emotionless. One of the men pulled a hammer out of a bucket and at this moment I thought that they had to be kidding. Two men held Ruues right hand to the cross as another hammered a nail through it. Ruue shrieked. I'll never forget that first scream of pain. I tried to stand but they just knocked me back down to the cold grass. TAP! The man swung the hammer again. Screams. TAP! The last swing of the hammer. By this time Ruue was hyperventilating with cheeks glistining under hallogens. The men let go of his right side and let the nail hold it up. Screams. They then began the whole process again with his left hand. Ruue seemed to become numb. He was out of screams and just whimpered as they nailed his other hand down. As they let go of him he kicked one man hard in the face knocking him to the ground. To which resulted in three more men in black holding his feet to the vertical piece of the cross. The man with the hammer then pulled out a thick metal stake. I nearly fainted. They peirced both of Ruues feet to the cross with the stake. Blood. It took several more swings of the hammer than it did when they nailed his hands and strengthier swings at that. Ruue seemed paralyzed. He locked eyes with me as the men finally stood back from him. There was a moment of complete nothingness. Everything just stopped and the only sound was Ruues cries. He said to me, "You are what I was supposed to find here! Time began moving the moment I met you! I'll never forget you! Thank you so much friend!" Two of the men in black promptly tossed a liquid dousing Ruue while the woman in purple hair tossed a lit match at the base of the cross. The courtyard brightened. Ruues screams filled the air. I watched his skin bubble and turn black. His screams became a gurgle and cough until silenced forever. We all sat there for what seemed like an eternity. They all watched his corpse burn out until it was just a skinny black clump. It was dark again. The woman came to me. She said, "Whats your name?" "D-David" I stuttered. "Are you going to kill me now?" "No." she said with peirced lips. "We are here to prevent changes. Not cause them. You will never see this again." Then, they just left. The woman with the purple hair and the men in black armor, they disappeared into a flash of blue light. I was left alone in the dark courtyard with the charred corpse of Ruue, crucified before me...

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how i knew he was my soulmate.

so i developed a crush on my boyfriend (obvi. before he was my boyfriend) circa late 2011. he was the first love of a friend of mine at the time. she used to tell me and this other girl things that occurred during their subsequent on/off relationship. it sounds really fucked up but i honestly found him cute, the middle school i went to was a few blocks away from his home. so whenever i got out the train station to get to school, i'd see him walking past me. when i tell you he was the cutest guy on earth to me, i am not lying. he looked like a typical mixed bad boy, yet he seemed so mysterious. his inky black curly hair that used to fall right on his face made my heart skip beats. despite him being a sophomore in high school, and me a senior in middle school; his piercings, plump lips & obvious array of tattoos was a turn on in my freaky teenaged 13.75 year old mind. i knew it was wrong to like him because of my budding friendship. and i knew i would be the last girl on earth he'd ever want to date due to my thin hair (due to perming yet it was still at good length), my braces, my glasses, my thin frame, small breasts and most of all my bushy eyebrows. looking back at it, it's all so ironic. in my opinion, irony played a huge part in our relationship because i always wondered.... what if one day in some strange universe, it was me & him in a loving relationship?, what if he has a crush on me too?. before then he didn't even know who i was except his ex's nosey friend. guessing because i used to ask a lot of questions abt their relationship, when she was just ready to spill it out. i never used her friendship to get to him, it all just happened in some weird miraculous way. as my crush on him developed, we would have short decent conversations on facebook. he would ask me a certain question frequently too when do you wanna chill?. i would be so nervous to answer, telling him soon & that i'd just lie to my parents abt where im going. i told my friend about our conversations not to start an issue but to just tell her. maybe he just wants to be my friend. one day when my friend was absent from school, i was sitting with my best friend and a mutual friend of ours at lunch. come to find out that my so-called friend was talking about me behind my back. stating numerous things, and one of them being that i was a liar stating that her ex did not want to hang out with me, and he never said that. i grew so tired of her shit, and disrespect for me so one day i blew up. we got into what almost would have been my first fight. not giving one fuck anymore, i was happy i got rid of that drama... so that i thought. a week or so after the chaos, i wanted to hang out with an old friend from elementary school, but she didn't respond. so guess who i asked? you got that right. him, the cutest guy on earth. not even caring who's ex it was. i decided to hit him up and ask if he wanted to come with me to get a few things from the clothing stores near my house. we met up at the train station, and when i saw him. oh my god. i was frazzled, i was anxious, and i was shaky as fuck. he was so cute in his black leather jacket & short curly cut. i didn't know what to say, or else he would think im too boring or too weird ya know? we ended up having good conversations, and laughing. at the end of our time together and we said our goodbyes, i was happy because i gained a friend, a very cute one. later on that day, i never would have thought our new found friendship could possibly change. with one message made my whole day. yeah lol i think your cute too. when i tell you i was so happy? ugh i was happier than spongebob when him in patrick found the key to the patty mobile in the very first movie. i was jumping for joy, i even started kissing & hugging my sister because i was super happy. after that we started hanging out more and more, and our conversations got more personal. eventually i shared my first kiss with him and my innocence. we started dating, and five years, five months & 3 days later, i never could be more happy with the person im with. i never been in love with someone as much as i am him. he irks my last fucking nerve but he is truly a gift from god. he opened up to me as much as i opened up to him. we share secrets, and with those secrets we try to understand each other more than we did before. with help and worldly advice from his mom and grandma, we try to work through or issues. although sometimes it goes through one ear and out of the other. i literally grew up with this guy as he's seen me through my worst and my happiest. he gives me tough love and even though i don't show that i do, i really appreciate it. his advice and tough words have helped and sometimes haven't lol. he is the only person in this whole world that can make me so angry but with one stare i instantly start smiling again. we have our issues, like any person does. i say things i don't mean like he does, we argue, we cry, we laugh & we love. i realized christopher marty was my soulmate the day that he really opened up to me. we were in his room at home and his just let everything out. i looked at him and just thought wow, he really loves me just like i love him. he pisses me off sometimes where i think is it worth it anymore? its just gonna get worse. i pray and i think "no because thats gonna just leave you sad and depressed, you know you dont wanna leave so stop it" the way he stares at me with his big brown eyes, its so remarkable how handsome he is. he's my personal teddybear, so soft and cuddly and so strong 💕 when i look at him i see a future. a nice apartment in the city, me and him dancing to songs, smoking pot in our bedroom watching funny tv shows, or just talking about our goals when we reach 30, or even what we would name our kids, and the type of weddings we'd have. so many people commend me on the length of our relationship, asking how do i do it... how do we both do it. and honestly i never wouldve thought in my wildest dreams i would be with someone for almost 6 years of my life when i could be out doing god knows what. it all happened in an instant. when your happy with someone times flies. we sometimes sit and reflect on our relationship. "wow five years". he is honestly my guiding light in a world of darkness, he's helped me through depression and distraught thoughts more than anyone else. i am honestly head over heels in love with him. the thoughts of him being with another girl tend to enter my mind but he shows me that he would never be unfaithful. as ugly as i feel at times, he can always cheer me up saying "you so sexy baby", "your so beautiful". the next day after i came home from college, he seen me & said "wow i forgot how good you looked, like wow its been so long" being that it was may and i only seen him in march, january, december and november. he is a diamond in the rough, and the older he is, the more mature and he honestly makes me the proudest girlfriend ever. even though i may not show it at times, he really does make me proud. he is so kind, and puts others before himself, although he may seem like a smart ass at times. hes sensitive but strong and tough at the same time. im glad i got to know him and be with him on such and intimate level. god really blessed me and i hope he keeps on for years to come with christopher marty.