#i mean i knew he was but now i KNOW. liek he actually said 'NO trans women are not women'

[birbfeeder2artisticboogaloo]

got complete confirmation that my father is transphobic just a few hours ago _(:3」∠)

this is great. this is fine. im fine _(:3」∠)

[evansbby]

OMGGMGG the new chapter of WG!!!!!!  You have out done yourself again girlie!! 💕💕 So I reread WG before reading UTI (HELLPPP it’s supposed to stand for under the influence😭💀💀) so I could remebe everything. We cna rlly see how much of a fucking bitch ari is I’m actually so upset. I love to be so main character when reading that I act out everything that’s happening while reading so i was crying so much bc I love angst sometiems even though it hurts. Ok so let’s Do a breakdown: Spotting Ari from across the room and he already has his sights on her. Getting the context about what went down after WG was kinda sad like making eye contact w him on campus while hes with Sharon and he has the nerve to look sheepish he’s so mean. And the texts from him when the last one said Fuck you. I have other options s. Just made me feel so unspecial. Like he was probably fucking other girls right along with reader. Curtis showing up🙈🙈 he made a fruity pink drink for her 😍😍 but I’m pretty sure he drugged it or laced it so we knew what he rlly wanted to do with her. When Ari said I’m your daddy  SKSJSKSJSK I WAS WAITING FKR THAT PARTTT!! I rlly hated how he made her take the drugs tho like come on if you cared abt her u wouldn’t do that 😕😕 and the guys in the background pointing out how intoxicated she is when they were fucking like no come on 😭😭 But that scene was so fucking hot I can’t lie 😈😈😈 and then I liked that he shielded her up to the bathroom. My favourite part was when Ari and reader were in the bathroom and laughing and tickling each other AND HE CLEANED HER UP!!! and it was so sweet like he actually cared and that made me so happy and then he switched and it made me so mad bc he was being so mean like if he didn’t like Sharon just break up liek you’re already cheating on her you idiot. And I would honestly be so fucking distraught if this happened to me and I am naive sometiems so I honestly feel like I would have fallen for this too 😔😔🙏 but losing your virginity to a guy who does not give two shits about u???  (Or does he??😏😏) But it broke my heart like he just left her there on the counter after she begged him to stay (when he said Sharon’s drunk and she said I’m drunk too 🥲🥲 and he just left) and she just sat in the tub and cried??  and then when she was outside and she met Steve I thought it would be so sweet he was so nice and he had such light aura vibes like I thought he would be a sweetheart (he was not 💀). And then when Sharon stumbled over that description made me so sad. Like she’s so beautiful obviously feelings of insecurity rise up in reader bc ofc Ari would chose her over me and I like to make things extra dramatic and Ik it’s reader insert so it doesn’t apply to everyone but I’m brown so seeing the guy choose the pretty blonde girl but keeping you as his semi secret side piece probably definitely hurts and makes you feel like you’re not good enough. I rlly wish Sharon threw up on Ari when she said she didn’t feel good😭💀💀And Ari ls such a fucking dick thinking that he had the right to still call her baby after that shit went down in the bathroom but it’s apparent that he kind of cares for her or is it possessiveness?? Idk I just wish he made her feel wanted like that’s so sad. And the battle of choosing to stay or go? I wanted her to go but I didn’t know Steve would pull that shit. And then when Steve seemed disappointed that they were going back to her place I just knew he was bad news. And slipping the cab driver money 🫢🫢 Making her call him daddy and choking her just like Ari did, déjà vuuu. But then he walked her to her door 🥰🥰🥰(the bar is on the floor). And then plugging her phone in and getting all those messages from Ari but just not having the energy to respond bc she know she won’t get anywhere like my heart felt like it was going through the wringer. I listened to that song Jacob and the stone during every single sad part and ugh my heart 💔💔 

Now for the questions:

Idk if I’m team Steve or Ari 😭 Ari def feels some sort of possessiveness over reader, and he doesn’t care for Sharon so what’s stopping him? He lied to her so many times and manipulates her a lot BUT HE CARESS. And then Steve, at first I thought he only sought her out for revenge against Ari but we learn that he didn’t know her and Ari were connected (side note: also reader still doesn’t know that Steve is the captain and not just a player on the other team and that Ari and him are rival rivals) so that means he did have some interest in her but that too seemed to be even more misguided after he found out abt them. Does he want her for her? (meaning her body bc did he ever actually care abt her for her and not her body bc I can’t tell after he seemed so disappointed in not heading back to his place) He’s really mean like meaner than Ari and he honestly makes me feel unsafe 😭😭 so actually I think I’m going to pick team Ari. Ari just has to change  but he’s daddy so I know he will😔🙏🙏. But I’m really excited to explore the love triangle so we’ll see but I rlly want her and Ari to end up together lik it just seems right. 

They’re rival team captains but maybe their families are super rich so they just grew up in the same social circle and they’ve been competing in everything since they were kids whether that be in who has the best marks, cars, girls, etc.

Ari has confused feelings for reader. (Also completely off topic I’m srry but I forgot to mention when he said that he never used condoms with Sharon and mentioned knocking reader up bc he always fucks her raw and comes deep inside of her (I loved that part) 🤭🤭🤭 and that he would always used condoms with Sharon, that means that reader is special 🤭🤭but yeah Ari def is confused maybe he’s never felt real feelings towards a girl befor and he likes reader? Loves her?🤞🏽🤞🏽I don’t trust Steve but also it’s understandable that he may seem like a better option bc he isn’t shy to show that he wants reader even tho he is just using her ☹️☹️

Okay so that concludes my rant. I am honestly so so sorry I know this was really long please forgive me 😭😭 but whenever I read I always have to write my thoguhts down and word vomit every single  thing that comes to mind so eveyrhinf is so all over the place and there’s probably typos bc I’m rambling I’m rlly sorry. This chapter was so good and I’m so excited for the next part 💃🏽💃🏽💃🏽 thank you so much for sharing with us hoes 💕🤍🤍

-🦕

DINO ANON OMFG?!? THIS REVIEW?!? AHHHHH THANK U THANK U THANK U🩷🩷🩷✨✨

OK FIRSTLY WHY IS IT UTI OMFG HELP I didn’t even realise that 😭😭

Omg Ari’s texts 😭😭 “fuck you I have other options” I mean he does but he’s texting reader obsessively multiple times so he obviously has a preference of who he wants to be with 😭😭 boys are so dumb fr fr fr

And omf the bathroom scene 😢😢 I deliberately made them have a sweet moment where they were laughing and he actually cleaned her up when before he never did any aftercare at all! Bc I knew that this way it would hit harder when he left her all alone in the bathroom. AND YES ahhh it broke my heart too when reader quietly said “I’m drunk too…” bc it’s like… he cares that Sharon is drunk but what about reader??? 😢😢😢😢😢😢

It’s so important to me abojt what you said about being a brown girl so it hits extra hard. Bc as a brown girl myself, a lot of the times this is how I feel 😢😢 They always pick the white girl… no matter how hard we try or how good we look for them… we’re always the secret hookup and never the girlfriend and now that you mentioned it, it kinda validates my feelings too LIKE DO WE ALL LIVE THE SAME LIFE FR 😢😢😢

BUT also it’s funny you mentioned how you hope Sharon threw up on Ari after Steve and reader left bc SHE DID! I actually wrote that!!! But it didn’t sound quite right so I cut it out and I meant to go back and rewrite it but I forgot!!! But Sharon DID throw up on Ari that’s why Ari didn’t immediately go after Steve and reader before they got lost in the crowd 😭😭😭😭😨😨😨

As for Steve, YES YES YES I dropped little hints throughout about him being a red flag… the way he was so forward, the things he was saying, the way he was acting, how he was so touchy when he didn’t even know her??? BABY READER NEEDS TO BEWARE OF THIS MAN!!!

And yes, he choked reader just like Ari did, and he even said the same line: “do it or I’ll choke you the fuck out” I think you and maybe two other people noticed this from what I’ve read!!! HMMMMMMM

Also yes the bar is literally on the FLOOR and that’s why I think people are thinking Steve is this sweet and nice guy when really… 🤭🤭🤭🥲🥲

I want to reply in more detail but my app is getting all slow which means it’s gonna crash any second but one last thing YES YES THE PART WHERE ARI SAID HE WOULD NEVER FUCK HER HOW HE FUCKS SHARON AND HE WOULD NEVER KNOCK SHARON UP AHHHHHH I LOVED WRITINF THAT PART THANK YOU FOR RECOGNISINF IT

[robotsafari]

i will literally never be over the kh pilot. everyone has already moved on. wow what a cool novelty. sucks that it got canceled. okay im just going to never think about this ever again lalala~ (or its weird. or the art is bad. or its got too many inaccuracies. whatever.)

but me? no. im insane. this thing is too insane and amazing to just end the conversation about it. i will always think about this thing. i will always think about the massive loss the kh community never even knew they had until recently.

while i will never know what the full creative vision was. this pilot tells us that THEY. WERE. COOKING. they lean into the fact that sora is just a kid, (SOME FANS FORGET THIS) and he now faces this burden of being a hero when all he really wants is to see his friends again. the !! even though its just a pilot and riku was probably put in agrabah just so they can introduce him to the audience. i would’ve LOVED more riku encounters. traverse town, neverland and monstro were great. but in my opinion? not enough! though the only thing i would fear riku’s more frequent appearances would do is distract from some of the disney stuff (you dont wanna get rid of it. but you dont want it to take over. its a delicate balance) so maybe use him a lil sparingly but god. put him in more situations, okay?

while kairi plays a more proactive role in kh1 and thats fine (shes not useless. i hate when people call her that) i still would’ve LOVED more scenes with her. whether it was in destiny islands or near the end of game. im just liek YES !! you go girl. prolong the heartless sora segment if ya have to. do it for her. it would’ve been fun to see kairi and sora hollow bastion hijinks. waauughh please kairi my good friend kairi. liek. what we’ve seen of kairi in the pilot was already awesome. kh2 hadn’t even come out but the energy has always been there guys. she wants to take an active role and she hates sitting back!! love that the pilot wanted to give you a glimpse of this by having her kick a damn shadow in the faceee!!! you will always be famous forever kairi god bless.

my good friends donald and goofy. wtf did nomura do to you. one liek = preyer for teh toons /silly. yeah so liked how their fighting was actually toony in the pilot. goofy literally beating all the heartless while knocked out and donald getting messed with by a shadow like a typical donald short is just perfect (THINKS REAL HARD ABOUT HOUSE OF MOUSE.) and ofc!! the heart’s there too!! donald and goofy are so sweet to sora!! THEYRE HIS DADS. they’ve done playful ribbing to sora in the games, and thats not exactly a bad thing.. but sometimes i feel like it gets TOO MUCH. ESPECIALLY IN KH3 GOOD LORD. donald and goofy are sweet. yes donald. hes only gets mad because people mess with him. if you’re nice to him hes super sweet. some playful teasing from donald is okay, but too mean or too much and then its not him. mickey has a pretty minor appearance in kh1 unfortunately but omfg. if i rant about how nomura writes him then we’d be here for a while. the real mickey would not have left aqua in the realm of darkness. just know this, okay? idgaf if you don’t believe me.

it’s confirmed maleficent possessed riku in that scene. you know the one. someone said riku was lying.. NUMBER ONE. his eyes turned completely white and idk about you but thats liek. the textbook sign of being fucking possessed. riku didnt know wtf was going on!! just just grabbed the lamp and suddenly things happened! im sure it was supposed to be interpretive, yes, but the dialogue and visuals suggested possession and also kearsley confirmed it himself on deviantart. (you can search it up yourself) NUMBER TWO. maleficent asks riku if sora believed him. implying that she wants to use riku to manipulate sora. imagine if she used this possession again, in more subtle ways. riku sounds like a sopping wet sad cat too, whatever he does anyway is just so that he can get everything back to normal and undo his mistakes. maleficent doing MORE active villainy would’ve been. SO GOOD. god bless.

oh wait this is the part where i start talking about ansem huh? teeheeeee weheheheee. yo imagine if he was in house of mouse. OKAY THATS NOT A JOKE BUT THIS ISNT SUPPOSED TO BE WHAT THIS PART WAS ABOUT. ERM. i just hope he would’ve still been voiced by billy zane thats all ask for. in this awesome alternate timeline where the cartoon wasn’t cancelled. i think ansem was perfect in kh1 i dont think they needed to add or change anything really.

in short. i have autism. goodnight.

[parfaitfever]

headcanons for ssomega characters i have!!!!!!!!!

this will be mostly justt how i see the characters and sexuality hcs here and there and just lil ramble for each characters!!!!!!!!

Pegasus koga

hes a clueless little guy in s1 maybe the little brother for everyone

after training shaina would probably let him play pokemon on his gba

he would accidentally see yuna bleeding on the ass and asked what happened not knowing anything (neither does his other 3 friends)

ate dirt ONCE shaina n tatsumi scolded him and he never do it again

after ep18 he never ever wants to touch spicy food ever again

i mentioned this and i'll mention it again, i lovee aroace koga cus whn it comes to love the first think he thinks was family love and says it something like "i love you as much i love saori!"

Lionet soma

like hyoga did in the classic, would somehow be able to drive cars and we never knew wether he had a license or not

im still wondering who the hell are those bitches in ep18??????? are those girlies his BITHCES??? SOMA PULLED THEM??? IS THIS REAL???

i think he'd flirt w someone and just failed miserably

besties w yuna since he arrived in palaestra (ep69) and gave her a childhood nickname and grew further from her a little when he starts to open up to more people and probs only got closer again cus of koga and the saori situation

he is anything but straight (hes pan)

his birthday is 23th of july (younger me said so)

Aquila yuna

been a favorite since young literally my role model when im 7 yiu dont undrstand shes just such a girlboss 4 me my cringeass tomboy asskicker phase back in grade 4 was her influence

for me, even though she kinda became the mother of the group and just hates on everyone, she actually super cared for thm liek koga or soma but shes just scared to get attached to them and it ended up something like her family or pavlin or aria ... so shes just scared she'll get attached to people > lose them at some point so she also tries to kinda distant them to try and not get attach this is also probably why in ep54 her cloth wasnt able to change for the first time bcus she fear if she goes back in to fight she'd lose someone dear to her again (i guess .... im not sure if this is right im js rambling lols)

also notice how riene (yunas childhood friend in ep25) looks a bit like raki and I CANT EXPLAIN HOWMUCH I LOVE EXPLAINING HER YOU GET WHAT I MEAN DO YOU?!??@!? (im just projecting probably, plz help) YOU KNW WHAT I EAMN WHEN I SAY EP25 OKAY LIKE SHE DOESNF EVEN CARE THAT WAS AN ILLUSION SHE'LL SAVE IT TO SEE THE PEOPLE SHE CARES FOR AGAIN YOU KNW WHAT I MEAN

imagine her in her bday not doing anything after she goes out for a meal so when she casually goes back home the maincast gave her a bday surprise :3 (projectig

i did a little redesign of her but its just adding ribbons and glasses bcus i do

arne would introduce her to precure and she discovered who cure moonlight is and now its her fave cuz she looks liek pavlin :3

did i mention how much of a girlboss she is she just onehitko a gold saint (cancer schiller)

bicon ... #1

Dragon ryuho

i used to think hes good at everything BUT cooking

i think he does most of the house chores while shunrei takes care of shiryu like dish washing, sweeping the house very diligent lil boy :3

he loves talkking about his dads adventures or just his family in general uaghegdha *sobs on the flor* he loves his family somuc aughe *chokes

haruto once asked why ryuho never showed up in his concerts and ryuho sweats so much n claims that "he doesnt have enough money to buy the ticker but that doesnt mean he didnt want to support hes just" and harutoo cuts him off and gave him a free ticket

would have like a collection of antique dishes or teacups (its a gift from dohko i guess?? this is a random thought) and he once like broke one and mourns it in his room for 3 days

i used to think he suck at cooking in someway or another unless hes supervised or following a certain recipe (i MENTIONED ths but i didnt notice oh well)

he plays with harutos hair end of story

as a kid i use to htink hes a girl until i heard his voice

gay. end of story

Wolf haruto

i probably still think hes stuck in the school jail for 6 months

episode 22

look listen i feel like i shipped him w an mlp character but i forget whether it was rainbowdash or applejack

FAKE GLASSES FAKE GLASSES HE BOUGHT THOSE GLASSES OUT OF INTEREST IYS FAKE GSUY

he learns those corny jokes froms soma (he fell for ut smh)

allergic to peanuts but he learned it the hard way. so like he got some food with peanuts in it and went to the palaestra infirmary for 2 weeks and when its eps22 harutos dad told ryuho hes allergic to peanuts but never got to tell him and then when ryuho told haruto about it hes liek ... "ah yeah right, thanks but i learned about it long time ago when i ate tofu and stayed in the infirmary for almost a month. "

he likes instant noodles

dyed his hair ends with black/red just bcuz (i kinda drew him like this sometimes hewlo)

Orion eden

hes like the silly dumb like koga but more ... quiet i guess??? like, someone would crack a dad joke to him like what do you call a fish with no eye? fsh. and hes like "i never knew thats how you call eyeless fishes" and took literally without him knowing

very very polite but if something just irritates/annoys him he wont hesitate to ZAP

looks at my old book ... *sighs* stso x mlp ships ... eden was one of the victims

i still dont completely understand why his hair turned grey i mean i dont mind the design doesnt rly affect much buut how I CANT REMEMBER was it cuz of aria or soemthig

foudn this in my school stso hcs notes, he secretly sneaks to arias room and plays piano for her but got caught by sonia and now hes forbidden to even touch the door w/o perms

bi :3

hes seatmates with haruto and so he needs to deal with haruto trying out his jokes he learned from soma and took most of them literally

soma fooled him with the "if you eat the watermelon seeds it'll grow in your stomach"

i keep crying whenever theres aria and eden scene and iys just very sad i just paused the video and cry first

aria

favorite food bread

i cant believe i never drawed her as a kid 3:

MY INNOCENT LITTLE AJHDDFSAHFSDKJH SOBS PKEAS

saoris daughter...

look look look i have a buncha hcs for her but i literally cant remember

twins with koga...... fight mw right now

yuna actually tries to teach her how to cook basic recipes and they also sometimes cook together but aria doesnt rly understand and ended up messing stuff up and eventually yuna gives up n aria would ended up apologizing a lotta times ... but yuna said "its ok!!! ure aria i wont do anything"

she passed those jfashion shops and stared at the store for 15mins

she actually has struggles with talking to people so every so often eden or koga did the talking for her

only thing she can bake is simple bread with yuna

she wouuld like clean n neat stuff so she often broom the house here and there and somehow made koga actually wants to clean

the flower decos all around their house is white, blue or lilly of the valley bcus its her

equuleus subaru

ash ketchum

[thebananwithaplan]

"Mud!"

I herd u liek early 2000’s internet memez.

Sorry. But it’s true, isn’t it, Banana? You’ve gotta admit, that’s an adorable little critter. Just look at that face! The Mudkip’s been following you around for a while, now. Maybe it mistook you for a walking, talking Nanab berry… then again, it doesn’t seem like it’s plotting to eat you. Maybe it’s just lost.

Hmm. Does this Mudkip have a trainer? Wait, how’d a Mudkip even end up wandering around the studio, anyway? Was this one of Gold’s Pokémon? He’s from Gen 2, not Gen 3, so probably not.

You can’t just leave it wandering around in the studio by itself, though. I mean, you could. But an unsupervised, potentially wild Water-type Pokémon, surrounded by thousands of dollars worth of expensive electrical equipment… yeah, maybe not a great idea.

(Randomly generated nature/characteristic: calm/scatters things often!)

. "Mud? Where??" Someone was tracking mud? In HIS studio? He hoped not. He still hasn't found any janitors. The host looked around frantically before looking below behind him to find the lil' critter.

. "......O.M.G." Hello? Silly little water fella??? Where'd ya come from???? It was clear from Banana's wide grin that he instantly recognized what Pokemon it was; as Mudkips were one of the fellow memes of his time. Even as the Wooper pretty much dominated as the internet's favorite 'baby water-type' at this point, the Mudkip still held a soft spot in his meme-ridden heart.

He never thought about wanting one before, but now that it's literally right in front of him...

. "...You don't have a Trainer, do ya?" Banana wondered. Looking around again, there doesn't seem to be any Pokemon protagonist in sight.

Did anyone here remember him being given an empty Pokéball before? Well, it was about time he finally pulled that one out. I mean, he also still had a Great Ball and an Ultra Ball, but those can be saved as surprise tools (that can help him later).

. "To be honest, I don't even know if it even works, so here goes nothing." He wasn't sure how hard he was supposed to toss the creature-catching device at said creature, but he hoped it wasn't too hard to hurt it -

Oh. There goes the red light, beaming it right in.

Bwoop. Bwoop. Bwoop.

★★CLICK★★

Gotcha! Mudkip was caught!

...EYO??? IT ACTUALLY WORKED????

. "...I mean, of course it was gonna work. I knew it was fully functional." Absolutely no doubts.

At least he can keep his cameras safe from any water damage... For now. Pretty sure something else might destroy them at some point-

. "....How about we call you 'Mud', huh? Keep it nice, short, and simple."

[basmathgirl]

Hi Basmathgirl!

No socks anon here. Sorry for my delayed answer. It took me a while to finally “force” myself to watch S4/E13. 😭

Thank you so much for your kind reply and the recommendations. Just finished “Best Laid Schemes”. And you were right, I very much enjoyed the entire story. I’m so used to rely on AO3 for fics, that I forgot that there are other/ older sources out there as well.

Like I said, I finally watched episode 13 of season 4. And I’m glad I knew beforehand what to expect. I mean I cried anyway, but if I had watched it without any warning, I would have been a mess afterwards. However as sad as the ending was, I truly enjoyed Donna’s part in the story. Plus the way they ended her story line, gave us all a great starting point for many brilliant fix-it fics. Of course I’m aware of Catherine and David’s return for the 2023 DW special at the ending of last year, so I’m super curious to see what will happen there. Kinda want to watch it immediately. Can I watch it immediately, or would I be completely lost?

Episode 13 included a scene, which confused me a little bit and I hope it is okay to ask for clarification, even though the question involves Rose.

When the Doctor started the alleged regeneration process, Rose cried she didn’t want him to leave her (paraphrasing here). However I always thought when the Doctor regenerates it is just his body, that changes, he still would be the same person (same memories, feelings, personality)? So she wouldn’t literally lose him, he would just change appearances. But maybe I’m wrong and I didn’t understand the regeneration concept correctly? Anyway I was a bit annoyed with her (as usual in my case), because my conclusion after witnessing her reaction was, that for Rose the outward appearance, at least when it comes to the Doctor, is the essential part of her attraction to him.??? Idk, it just irked me in some way.

(And as a side note: It’s kinda funny to me, that they gave Rose the “knock-off Doctor version”.😅

Although while watching episode 13, a part of me theorised for a while, if the Metacrisis Doctor will stay with Donna. But that would have been strange as well, I guess…)

I still have to watch the rest of season 4 though. I’m kinda putting it off again, because I know it is the end for David’s run.😢 Plus I read multiple times now, that the quality of the show will drop for a few seasons. Most people seem to agree that season 9 is the point when it gets better again. (What do you think?) So I’m somewhat cautious when it comes to season 5 and the introduction of a new Doctor.

And I wanted to let you know, that I found more blogs that share my thoughts on River Song, although for the most part they dislike her, because they are of the opinion that Rose should be the one who marries the Doctor. 🙄 I don’t actively hate Rose, for me she is just an annoying part of the show, I try to ignore.

...

I think in the end I’m just sad, that we didn’t get more seasons (at least 3...or 5 or….) of the Doctor Donna duo.

Thanks again for replying and I wish you a nice weekend.☺️

Hellon kind 'no sock' Anon! Good title although I'm worried you don't actually have any socks now...

No problem about any delay, because I've had to take my time to get here to answer you, thanks to a painful week full of migraines. *shrugs* Life just happens liek that sometimes.

Anyway. Yay that you liked the fic! I actually first started reading fanfiction on fanfiction.net; then went to Teaspoon [aka whofic.com], and from author bios on there, moved over to LiveJournal. Stumbling upon the Doctor/Donna com felt like finding a major treasure. So hopefully you'll give those older sources (and their older fics) a go.

Oooh, you have my sympathies about finding Journey's End (episode 13) an emotional event. 🫂It haunted me for ages. As for Rose, I'd always seen their relationship as "teacher-pupil" (and more "parent-child" when she was with the Ninth Doctor) so the whole "luuuuuurve" plotline shook me to the core; so you will have to forgive me for not believing in the Doctor/Rose romance. But she obviously fancied him and his duplicate like crazy - Rose!shippers have posted screenshots of her in that episode ogling the Metacrisis Doctor. It's such a fleeting moment I've never been able to catch it. The point is that many of them acknowledge Rose's flaws and love her anyway. That's true love.

Back to your question; Rose seemed to feel she was owed her prize of the Doctor after crossing dimensions and realities to find him. It must have been an awful lot of work to persuade Pete's World's Torchwood to provide the technology and technicians. Whether we think she should have done, despite being warned by the Doctor that to do so would destroy everything, is another matter. I saw her "You can't" outburst as indignation that she wouldn't get want she had strived so long for. It probably also means "I love THIS you and I don't want you to change"; and Rose often has her immature/selfish moments. Your typical 'only child' selfishness, when you think about it. All this is up for debate, and I might be completely wrong but I was going by the 20 year olds I knew, where everything is strong emotions and continual questions about yourself in the world.

Giving away another highly sentient being as her prize wil always be bizzare to me. If we had seen the Metacrisis Doctor give consent, or them talking it over, I'd have felt better about it. Otherwise, he's virtually handed over as a sex toy her pet human/hamster.

After that, we get the S4 specials. I've never rushed back to watch them again, to be honest. The Next Doctor is almost a Doctor/Rose Victorian AU; I detested Lady Christina in planet of the Dead, but loved Dr Malcolm Taylor (he gets a reference in The Giggle novelisation) and DI McMillan; The Waters of Mars was good and scary, so I recommend that one; and Catherine Tate was seriously underused (as were most of the guest actors) in End of Time. But that's worth watching for the interactions between the Doctor and Wilf. Honestly, seek those bits out. We won't mention that godawful wedding outfit they give Donna, because seriously, whoever decided she should have been put in that look needs shooting. They certainly went for 'ugly as possible'.

As for the 60th anniversary episodes, I'd say go ahead and watch them anyway. There are references to old companions (as you'd expect), a nod towards the last episodes of the Thirteenth Doctor, but you won't miss anything too drastic. The stories play out like any other Doctor Who episode, where you gradually catch up on the plot as you go. And there are loads of great bits.

Hmm. I was so ready to love series 5 and adore Amy. Well, I adored Amelia; the adult Amy was slightly worrying. Why did Moffat choose that job/outfit for her? WHY? Let's just that we weren't impressed by the acting choices. Then again, you might end up absolutely loving Amy - I know many do - but she leaves me cold so don't expect me to join that gang.

I had to double check what happened in series 9 because I'd forgotten *kicks migraines* and can say that's quite a good series. Missy was a great addition, plus Clara had rather outstayed her welcome by the time we reached this series, so I personally wasn't sad to see her go. The Christmas special, The Husbands of River Song, introduced us to the delightful Nardole, and I finally agreed that Doctor/River was plausible. Twelve and River were a pretty good combination, I thought.

Congrats on finding blogs to follow! Hopefully, you will gain loads of new friends along the way. 😊

I too wish we had had more series with Donna as the Doctor's companion; and CT did consider it, on the basis that if DT stayed, so would she. But it was not to be. However, they always say to leave them wanting more, so that certainly worked. I was gagging for thr 60th anniversay specials, and was not left disappointed this time.

It's always lovely to talk to you, despite the interruptions whilst trying to type this out (we had a sudden visitation from my grandsons to enjoy). I hope you have a wonderful weekend too! 😘

[curiouskurona]

 ( for context , this was originally a comment on this post but i tend to be long winded / i could tell it was gonna get long so i decided to just maek my own post bsdjhgfkjdhgja . also abuse discussion tw for tha following + tha post i linked to , as well as spoilers for Princess Tutu )  

 ive made my peace with rue and fakir-- well , not 100% completely absolutely , but ive come a long long way from where i was when i first watched tha show , where i hated fakir SO much , and i had more sympathy for rue but wasn't fond of her either . in fact , where before i was adamant that i hated fakir , i can say i actually liek him now . didnt think i would ever get to this point lol . and i liek rue as well , though her turn around came easier for me          

 i feel like i would have warmed up to them a lot faster if liek . they got ANY consequences for their actions . im not talking about either of them being sad / having other troubles , im not talking about cosmic punishment / karma , i mean direct consequences for the way that they treated mytho . ive heard people argue that " well mytho doesnt have feelings so it doesnt matter how they treated him " , but that argument falls flat fast when you point to tha fact that they both KNEW mytho was getting his feelings back , and they did absolutely nothing to change their behavior . hell , they might have even treated him worse , because of the stress of tha situation or whatever . fakir pushed mytho's face against the mirror and said " look at this repulsive face thats regained the feeling of loneliness " . rue backed away unsettled when she saw mytho smile . there is no argument of " well he didn't feel anything " or " well they didn't realize " . they knew what they were doing   

 and they kind of just ... get away with it . they dont really have to acknowledge the way that they treated him past an almost throwaway line from fakir in the end where hes liek " damn i was kinda mean huh "         

 i would probably be moar forgiving about it if they got ANY sort of consequences ( narratively or through fandom perception ) for their actions , but most ppl dont really care enough about mytho for that . and seeing his situation be largely ignored made me defensive and bitter towards them [ fakir and rue ] . as a trauma survivor myself ( who heavily relates to mytho ) it was a really high hurdle for me to look at them , fakir especially , in a positive light , regardless of whether or not i could recognize their own traumas / understand why they did som of tha things they did .  

  and yeah ppl change n whatever . wounds can heal , relationships can be mended . but fakir never even tried to mend theirs . mytho never got any closure or an apology or anything and it just sucks so much . i mean yeah he got to tell fakir off as r!mytho during that one battle . but most of him being all * evil laughter * at fakir wasnt even him , you can see he doesnt even consider himself that person when hes staggering back to his dorm clutching his heart going “ what are you , who are you , whats goin on ” . mytho got to be a lil scoundrel to fakir as r!mytho but thats not tha saem as any meaningful acknowledgement / apology on fakir’s part      

 and im just . idk . im hesitant to put this in any tags , i dont think i will . bc i know ppl love fakir . but liek . please . can we at least acknowledge what he did . or are we going to keep pretending that his worst offense is being abrasive / grumpy . im sorry to have to tell you this but fakir’s ( and rue’s * ) behaviour towards mytho is literal actual textbook abuse . they isolate him , control him , berate him , lock him up , get in his face and yell at him , manhandle him , tell him who he can talk to , tell him what he can read , tell him that he has to listen to them and no one else . liek . hello . i know you dont want to hear this about ur fave characters but theyre abusers . its not even subtext its just THE text    

 the fact that fakir grows softer after meeting ahiru is irrelevant . him treating ahiru better as the series goes on does not mean that he is treating mytho better as the series goes on . him softening up and growing into a better person is not equal to an apology or any kind of closure or comfort for mytho  

 and dont even get me started on how mytho and rue should not have ended up together . no piece of media is perfect , i do have some things is disliek about PT , and one of them is definitely the ending unfortunately . but thats another post . and its purrobably not even for tha reasons you might think i have    

 also , this is not to say that i think fakir or rue are evil , or that they dont care / never cared about mytho . i dont think its as black and white as that . fakir and rue arent such one dimensional characters , silhouettes laughing evilly to themselves as they take joy in hurting him . i dont think that the fact that fakir abused mytho means he was never worried about him or didnt care about him . i dont think tha fact that rue abused mytho means that she never cared about him either . its messy . they were all put into a very straining situation . ive talked in other posts acknowledging the strain fakir was under , and ive talked at length with friends about why rue felt the need to act the way she did , too . but that doesnt make what they did okay . and i just wish that mytho got any sort of apology , closure , or comfort . instead of everyone going “ well glad thats over !! lets move on with our lives while pretending we all [ sans ahiru ] didnt just abuse mytho this entire show “       

 anyways this post isnt very organized and i purrobably didnt maek any sense . i was just rambling i guess . this is something that ive thought about a lot    

 * if youve noticed im leaning harder into fakir rn , its purrobably bc ppl are moar willing to acknowledge rue’s behaviour . shes loved as an evil gal girlboss or whatevar , even if its often joaky ppl are moare ready to go “ yeah lol rue was so fucked up “ , and have made a lot of serious fanart about the toxicity of her relationship with mytho too . but for tha moast part ppl shy away from putting fakir in any serious negative light . aside from a few posts ive seen ( that were a breath of fresh air honestly ) that talked about his actions , moast ppl portray fakir as someone whos grumpy and abrasive , kind of a jerk , maybe even a “ tsundere “ , but ultimately harmless . so i guess im harder on fakir for that . because im frustrated that ppl only care about shipping him with ahiru , and are more than ready to downplay how horrible he was to mytho so that they can pretend its all sunshine and rainbows with him or something . again it goes back to them receiving no direct consequences for their actions , narratively OR through fandom perception . rue is at least acknowledged as someone that doesnt have a totally great track record , in tha fandom                   

[imightgetbetter]

(babe, i dont know whats wrong with me, but i feel like youd like this bit, tbf i thin youd liek the whole thing when its done but im writing it rn so have snippets, oove you <3, sorry about this )

"Hmm you like that, don't you? Like it when i tease you, dont let you finish"

A soft mewl, looking away, desoerate to hide

“Do you like it when i keep you on the edge, edging you?”

No answer, im too prideful, i am not willing to give in so easily, wheres the fun in that? His hands grip my chin, forcing me to face him, squeezing my cheeks, 

“Answer me” he growls it, a command i cant deny,

"Yes" I was breathless and lightheaded, I felt like I would have floated away if it wasn't for the meticulous knots holding the ropes together, intended for my safety, turning me on all the more. 

Matty picked up the knife again trailing it up the my chest, swirling the point around a nipple, licking his lips as he saw the nub harden further, he looked like he wanted to devour me, no doubt he would, even if he did let me finish, that wouldnt be the end, we were home alone all night, and im sure he was planning to use the time best he could, afterall, he said he was going to ruin me. 

"Please"

"Please, what?" 

Begging was hard: it require letting go of my power, my control, something i never really liked to do, but for matty, i'd do just about anything, with him looking like that above me. 

"Please"

 Matty bent down, his thighs tightening on my sides, knees digging into my ribs, 

 "Please, what?" 

His lips caressed my ear with each word 

"Please, stop teasing me? Please, fuck me?" 

At every question, my panting got faster, more frequently interspersed with moans and little whines, the mere idea of him doing anything more to me enough to get me going, i couldnt answer him, i didnt know what i wa sbegging for anymore, all i could think about was him, hair falling in front of his face, lips parted, chest rising and falling quickly as he looked at his handiwork, 

“Your fucking perfect”, trailing the fingers of his free hand up the valley between my breasts “you sound so pretty, you’re like art incarnate”

Fuck, i- uh, shit, get your thoughts together. I buckled, a tortured noise leaving my throat as I used my leg for leverage to rub myself up against the man above me. 

I knew that if Matty hadn't been as careful as he was, the sudden movement could have meant finding the knife causing some actual harm. 

The flash of realization of just how safe I was with the him only made me more desperately aroused "Fuck me. Please" it would mean losing the touch of the knife but it was a good compromise: it meant getting Matty that much closer, feeling our skin stick together with sweat and cum and saliva, a level of intimacy I craved with him. 

"Hmm, do you think you asked nicely enough?"

"matty–"

"Only because you look too pretty for me to keep from fucking you dumb"

If I hadn't been bound,  I would have taken those words as permission to finally touch the him, surge up and kiss him breathless until all Matty could think of was the way our bodies were made to crash together, make him feel the way he had me, to have him begging like earlier - but I was bound, so I stared up at my temporary lover, pupils blown wide with desire. 

Waiting. I'd never been good at that. 

 Matty let a smirk play on his lips

 "If only you could see yourself right now…" 

"Take a picture"  I snapped "Didn't you just say you were going to fuck me dumb? Or was that an empty threat"

Matty laughed; in the end, not even being naked and tied up could break my spirit - and  Matty didn't even want to i knew that much, i knew he liked being resisted just a little, hating when he got what he wanted so easily, he liked to feel like he earned it, like he accomplished it, maybe that's why we had always gotten on so well, we complement each other well, neither yielding without a fight. He bent down, no hesitation as he kissed the brattiness off of his lips, smiling as I kissed him back just as passionately, biting his lower lip and leaning up into it, pulling lightly and he removed his lips from mine once again. 

He plucked at the ropes, shivering at how rough it felt against his fingertips - shivering more at the thought of the marks they were surely leaving behind on  my skin, i knew how much he loved the idea, of leaving marks on someone, claiming them, and honestly, who wouldnt love to do that? : I would remember this evening with every brush of my clothes against my body, bruises where his hands had gripped me, blossoming onto my skin, blooms of lavender and periwinkle that would slowly fade into sage green and saffron yellow, marking me, reminding me of the man hovering above me. Everytime i look in a mirror ill be reminded of his hands on me, teasing me, using me. 

“Lets see how much prettier you are crying”

well jesus christ oh my god

[stringless-arthur]

i sent that way too early oops fbvdgjsh

i'll put a readmoe cause this is going to be Long

anyway the first thing!! i was running to the building cause i thought i was late (i really wasn't) but i was running and this guy. is like trying to get my attention and i'm liek this is weird wtf cause i Do Not Know this person but anyway i stopped running and took out my headphones so i could hear them and??? they're like "the lady you ran past back there is my friend and she said i should talk to you and be your friend" and i'm like .what but also? ??? thank you i think?? and he thought i was really cool apparently jsdhfbgdjsdh and also he thought i was a girl so that was. kind of awkward i had to be like "oh actually. no i'm Not htat" but he was really nice??? he didn't have the right language (he asked if i was like a "man man" and i was like..well i'm trans if thats what you mean) but he was super polite and it was a very strange but nice experience ndhkj

the next thing was my friend's dad being there!!! which makes a lot of sense in hindsight given my friend is literally in the show and he's frequently backstage at things but i didn't have the hindsight. so. but it was really nice to see him and he was the first person there that i actually knew so it was super comforting :D and also he's very funny

OMG ALSO BEFORE I GOT ON THE TRAIN THERE WAS AKITTY AND I GOT TO PET THE KITTY AND I TOOK A PICTURE THAT I WILL SEND YOU LATER!!!!!

i was wearing a nametag (most of the props people were) and one of the people playing the parents referred to me by name and it scared me cause i forgot my name was on my arm i was like who a re you how do you know my name

when i was bringing some of the props out onstage my sister's friend waved at me from the audience and i saw my sister as well because my sister. was sitting next to her nbdgsjhd

also i saw my old teacher/the director and it was so nice to see her again omg

they changed some things which is to be expected cause it's been like. three years since i've been there but Still,,, like one of the dolls boxes is purple but it used to be pink (why couldn't it have been purple when i was in it. smh my head) and also they added a cannon in battle scene????

speaking of battle scene!!! they changed the rats costumes a whole bunch. they used to be like..ok so they were bodysuits? i guess? like uh

ok yeah like that but without the head, feet, and hands covered, and they had rubber masks with glowing red eyes. basically they were creepy as FUCK i loved them especially because the rats entrance is through the audience so you're just sitting there and the music is playing and all of a sudden theres GLOWING RED EYES in the aisle. fabulous. but now they're much cuter, like more like a rat stuffed animal than a rat that Wants To Kill You (except the masks whihc are still less scary than the old ones but don't have glowing red eyes) and it's also kinda sad because you can't see the dancer's movements as well? like the costumes are so fluffy it's hard to actually see what they're doing (not impossible, but still unfortunate)

when we were going over battle scene i was waiting in the wings and talking to my friend and someone comes up to her and asks her "hey have you seen a box full of santa hats?" which she had not. and i was very confused but also didn't want to ask. also i got to hold her sword (technically it's a sabre but whatever) and!! when they were running the other cast i held my old friend's sabre and while we were waiting for them to sort out the fog machine someone said something about a lighter? talking about clara's candle and we were like omg. what if instead of the candle clara just has a lighter and she runs around onstage with it and sets everything on fire. and it turned into us just making an au where clara is an arsoninst and kills everyone which was very fun <3

anway!! the most insane thing that happened. we were rehearsing snow scene after blocking it, and it was just before the blizzard part. actually i'll link the music because it's important (timestamped) and the music just stops. a literal record scratch. remember those santa hats? like a third of the snowflakes get up and 5-7 other people come onstage. and they're all wearing santa hats. the music starts playing again, only it isn't snow scene. it's the jingle bell rock scene from mean girls. they're all doing the dance from it. it's incredible. and they even do the part with the pushing and the music player breaking and then they all sing the rest of the song it was fucking incredible ndbhfdksdjn

most of the rest of rehearsal was pretty normal umm i talked to two of my old friends and we talked about sewing which was very fun cause their moms are the heads of the costume department and also one of them said i gave them gender envy <333

but yeah thats most of the things that happened i think!!! if i remember anything else notable i'll tell you njsbhd

dhewjfbrnsdh hes a little confused but hes got the spirit

AHJSDVSB OMG KITTY <33333

NHBSDSJ they have psychic powers called reading nametags

OH THAT SOUNDS SO COOL WITH THE GLOWNUG EYS

SABRE!!! and omg i love that au

holy shit that's fucking incredible

!!! slay

!!!! afsdhfbsdjhg it all sounds so fun omggg

[jessefandomunited]

Crush update

I've been a bit few and far between with my updates simply because I don't want to overwhelm my thoughts with him because it dosent seem healthy but this in particular was just a nice story it's long and rambly do heads up on that

I'm a gift giver , while I love getting things too I also love the same if not more giving them for this reason.

My crush has been having a really shitty year , and it was honestly probably the reason we didn't start dating yet, I say yet because I'm still hopeful but I'm not jealous or like mad at the thought of him dating someone else, I'm just manifesting okay lol. Anyways that's besides the point. His birthday was pretty soon after we first met, we're both cancers . And I had this idea for his birthday I ended up waiting to get because it seemed like a bit much for just meeting him. I got him a few movies and some candy instead. But this idea was too good and I ended up throwing caution to the wind and getting it for my Christmas party ,because at this party I got everyone else a present too around the same price range so I thought it was fair.

What was it? He told me pretty early into our friendship his favorite movie, he's also a pretty pretentious guy in terms of taste but doesn't act like the typical film bro guy ( trust me if he did I would have not talked to him anymore lol). But because of this I KNEW this bitch had a vinyl player ,he just had to. So I went on eBay, looked up the movie he liked and instantly found the soundtrack on vinyl. If anything he could just mount it on his wall. But as I said it was liek 40-50 bucks so while a bit much for new friend one that's a bit more connected, that was enough for me.

I was just hoping I'd be able to give it to him at the party because if I had to find another time to do it one on one I didn't think I'd be able to do it. He came , luckily.

I gave it to him a bit prematurely while he was putting his stuff down and had to grab it again for him to open. He was in my kitchen and opened it so it was me, my roomate and him apart from the rest of the people.

it had a protective box which eBay sent it in before the actual vinyl which I kept it in to protect it , but it made me even more antsy while I waited for him to realize what it was. When it clicked he was like floored idk even how to describe it but his eyes widened , his mouth dropped open ever so slightly and he quickly looked over at me and said " let me hug you oh my gosh! How did you find this!?"

It was honestly so great. And yes I may be more sentimental because my period is coming up but even now I can so perfectly see that scene play over and over again in my head. It feelt almost like a little box popped up saying that this was an important decision to make.

I know what you guys or one of you are wondering " well what did he get you???" This is the thing I love getting presents but I will not hold someone I don't know well to the same standards as my other friends, I don't even hold my friends to that standard anymore because I don't want to give things just to get stuff back. Thats a lesson I had taught myself this year , and it's one I will continue to carry because I should do things because I want to and out of love for others not for selfish reasons. I'm also valid though if I've expressed how much presents mean to me and they continually forget. I've never told my crush any of this and he's not my partner at this time so he has no obligation to do anything.

Now, if I told him I got him something, he would have gotten me something too. 100% facts , that is just how he is. But knowing he's been overwhelmed as it is I wanted to make things as easy and painless as possible for him so I didn't tell him. My roommate did get him present for the white elephant which was a book that , yes I will be taking from her and read lol.

Over all though I'm just so incredibly happy I was able to make a happy memory for him in the midst of everything that's going on for him. He really is the sweetest guy and I just want him to find all the happiness in the world.

[asoulofatlantis]

The game didn’t crash again, so we can relax now... just like Tidus here XD I mean, with my cheats and all this game is a cakewalk, but it normally would not have been this easy to beat that Machina thingy, so I don’t know how he can be so relaxed after this fight ^^’

This scene is always so amusing XD Tidus was looking like: “Uhm... should you really strip right Infront of me?” But he was also like: “Can’t look away, I could miss something!” XD But I guess he has that age ^^’

Rikku kinda brought something to the game that no one else could provide. First of all, as she was from Spira but an AlBhed, she - unline Tidus - was allowed to say the things we thought and felt about Yevon and the Summoner and stuff liek that. And second, she brought some nice young fun into the mix. (She was somewhat annoying every now and then... but I guess that is also part of having such a young team member ^^’)

I loved how everyone was so worried about the Al Bhed issue with Rikku and in the end Wakka stayed blissfully oblivious for most of the time, even tho it was freaking obvious by looking at her eyes alone and the way everyone acted around her in that moment. I guess it shows Wakkas naivety and... well... how he doesn’t always use his brain once more ^^’

Now that our team is complete... I will have to spend half an hour to get her to the others level... wohoo...

Gee. We already reached that part? I was worried that I was far too slow in my progress, but to think that we are already here... seems like I am not THAT slow.

This game actually deals a lot with deeper stuff. Different races, different believes and the misconceptions and problems that are born out of that. But it deals also with also what happens when those different races or people with different believes do intermingle... and the problems that come with that. Cid became distant from his sister, because she married a non-AlBhed. Seymore that to suffer, because his mother was human and not Guado. Different believes and the misconceptions that come with that are what makes Wakka hate the AlBheds. Tidus too, as he is from a different “world” then Spira, had trouble fitting in. On first glace, this is a bittersweet lovestory with some religious powerplay as your true and strongest enemy. However, at a closer look, this story is quite deep.

Kimari not the only one. Me too not like Maester Seymore. (I think same goes for Auron and Tidus...) Seriously tho, even before I knew what monster was truly hiding behind his fassade, I always found him... suspicious and never liked him much. The game isn’t trying to hide that there is something off with him... it just doesn’t throw it directly in your face either.

Back in the day, this was quite an impressive scene, I tell you. Of course, these days it can not hold up to the likes of FF7R, but I think it still looks very impressive.

Did you know that the overall room that was used here was later reused for Leblancs bedroom in FFX-2? XD By the way... Seymore said they collected that through the memories of people in the fareplane, but Lady Yunalesca and Lord Zeon had been here alone, so who had seen this? Zeon was the first Final Summoning, not sure what happened to his soul after the next final summoning took his place. But I am not sure if it so easily could wander into the fareplane, given that there was (unlike with Jekkt and the Aeons later) very likely no proper sending.

Yuna looked away shy and embarrassed when Lord Zeon and Lady Yunaleska embraced, showing her innocence and pretty much also showing how unfair Seymore was, requesting her hand in marriage, given how she had obviously not much experience with love. And to top that off, given her future, she should not have had to marry for political reasons, after all, time was running out on her, so she should at least have had the right to marry someone she loves. Of course, Yuna isn’t selfish enough to see it that way and Seiymore likely knew that.

I get why Auron stayed out of the fareplane and I get that for the game it looked less suspicious if Rikku stayed out too... but it still seemed weird that she did. Its not like you have to think of someone, if you go in. She could just have gone in there for moral support.

It always seemed like Lulu had faced and accepted the fact that Chappu was dead and wouldn’t come back. But if you listen to her here, she really hasn’t fully faced everything that comes with that harsh truth until then.

[hausofmamadas]

YOUUUUUU GUYYYYYSSSSSSSSSSS SHES BACK COSITAPRECIOUSA IS FUCKING BASAAAAAAACK AND WITH PAPICHULO CHEPE AND READER CHARACTER SO FUCKING BULLET PROOF AND SELF POSSESSED, ANDALE EN CHINGA!!! LETS GET INTO THIS SHIT

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a/n : - Yo Élise, where were you all this time? Were you dead?

cue to picture of that dry-ass taxidermy fox seasonal depression my dude

SKSKSKSKSKS SORRY DO YOU MEAN THIS ONE? BC IF SO I AM CRYIIIIINGSJSJS

✷ You had been reselling for him for a few years now, never once coming to a dollar short and definitely raking in the profit. Probably the best card you got in your deck, Santacruz, am I not?

uuuuhhhhhh okay, first off 👏🏽 CAN 👏🏽 WE JUST 👏🏽 with a sassy fucking Reader who knows just what tf she’s worth?????????? because you know how I always love a woman who could step on me wksksks

✷ Greed, envy, lust. It had crawled in your veins fast, venomous, pumping in your blood. Still, just enough to always buy your favorite, to-die-for, 90$ red lipstick every time it ran out, but never enough to get cocky, stupid, reckless.

Oh I love already how the lipstick is becoming like a conduit for like Reader’s criminal spirit??? Like there really is something to be said for putting on a red lip when you’re feel like your need to just fucking armor tf up, and like meeting with some of the most hot dangerous hot international hot drug lords like Chepe def seems like a situation where you’d want to be armored up ssksks

✷ You loved luxury, lived in it, smelled like it, but you always remembered how red your blood was, how easy it could be spilled.

OKAYSKSKSKSKAKSKSKSKJSJS BUT THE USE OF RED THROUGHOUT LIEK I AM REAAAAAALLLY ALREADY LIIIIIVING FOR THE THEME OF THE WHOLE RED LIPSTICK LIKE OKAY, YES WE CAN HAVE A GOOD TIME, ENJOY THE MONEY WE’VE MADE THAT WE’VE WORKED HARD FOR BUT LIKE LET’S NOT FORGET THAT THERES STILL A SOFT GOOEY CENTER HERE no not that kind, get your head out of the gutter …… i imagine that comes later at some point skskskskskkskskskskskkejejsj LIKE IM JUST AS EASILY ANOTHER FUCKIN DEAD INTERMEDIO OUT HERE LIKE SO SMFUCKIN SAVVY. UGH IM JUST, ITS ALREADY COMING TOGETHER

✷ You saw the way the government was knocking more and more doors down, came for the smaller ones before fishing for the big sharks, but all the others didn’t.

SKSKSKS so sorry but what’s that one line Walt has about this exact thing not me scrambling for Netflix to see if I can find the exact line and pretend I just knew it off the top of my head like some kinda savant where he’s like, ��yeah, find some dumb underling you can flip till you make your way to the top,” yeah, I know that’s not the line, netflix was being fucky, sometimes we just gotta improvise sksksks but like ONCE AGAIN, the fact that this is something Reader’s even aware of is like just a testament to her savviness and even calculating nature, like I fully believe they are one of the top at this level of the biz bc it’s so clear theyre thinking in like 30 different directions, 10 chess moves ahead skskskssk like lo que quieran llamar, la chingoná está mostrando su pinshe geniooooooooooo

✷ Teeth filled with gold, snorting all types of white powders, guns-a-blazing, cuffed and judged by justice just as fast. There’s a quiet side to riches that those men never understood.

ooiohhhhhhsiajsjsjsjssjsjsjjssjjs okay, wowowowowoowwowoow so a number of fuckint things here sksksks first, the wording of everything here is actual magic. Like the “cuffed and judged by justice just as face” IS SO LYRICAL im fucking mad I didnt write it. Legitimately. Mad. But then. THEN. YOU HAD THE NERVE TO TURN AROUND AND SUCKER PUNCH ME WITH “There’s a quiet side to riches that those men never understood.” LIEK SHEEEEEEEIIIIIT DUDE LIKE THIS IS SOME REAL FUCKING CHARACTER WORK RIGHT FUCKING HERE, because it reminds me so much of like the conversation with Pablo and Miguel where again, not me shoving people out of the way to open Netflix to find the line Miguel says something about how if you don’t take control, the world breaks you. Like when I think of him, that’s what comes to mind, whereas with Reader, here, it’s set in opposition to that entirely, totally diff criminal mindset. GODDDDGODGODGOD I LOVE IT

✷ … or maybe it was just the start of the hardest fall of your life.

OH DF THE WAY THIS SNAPPED ME TF TO ATTENTION SO FAST skskskskskksskskjsjj I legitimately just squeaked like a small rodent

✷ Chepe knows all of this, the facade that goes in the character you play. The survival instinct, the street smart. You made it this far didn’t you?

that’s because Chepe k n o w s talent when he sees it and appreciates woman who can run him, lbr. Refer to IsaChepe vid for further evidence

✷ ‘’ Well, I’m more of a bachata dancer myself, but I can make salsa work. ‘’

NOOOOSKSKSKSKSKWBUTOKAY BC I ALSO PREFER BACHATA, BUT I COULD ACTUALLY FUCKING KISS YOU FOR THE FACT THAT YOU PUT IT IN A FIC SKSK LOKE IDK WHY JUST WHEN WE START TALKING LATIN DANCING I WANNA DANCE AND GET ON MY CHAIR AND TAKE MY SHIRT OFF AND WHIP IT AROUND LIKE IT’S MY FUCKING BACHELOR PARTY

✷ You had fucked him once. When his wife had been away, doing whatever she did when she went on those trips of hers. All teeth, handfuls of flesh, bent over the balcony.

SIISISISSIIIIIIWWWWWWWWKKKKKWKWKWKWKWKWKEOZOSOWOWIWIEHUWIW91833848282992:!:!39:&;9@‘naosjejwoow THE SOUND I JUST MAAAAAAAAAADE BC THE WAY I JUST DIDNT SEE BENT OVER THE BALCONY COMINgsjksjssjsjjse like you would think I’ve didn’t know about the birds and the bees sksksksksksksk the reaction I just sskskskss had but LIKE SKSKSKSS I JUST WASNT EXPECTING TO BE BLINDED BY SEXY SO SOON

✷ Maybe it had been more than once. Maybe you didn’t feel so bad because you knew she most likely did the same when she claimed she was going on shopping trips with friends.

PPPPPPPDFFFDDTTTTTT MAYBE?????? MAYBE IT HAD BEEN MORE THAN ONCE SKSKSKSKSKKS SORRY DO WE JUST NOT REEMEMBER PERHAPS BC WE WERE JUST TOO COCKSTRUCK TO EVEN KNOW WHAT DAY IT WAS KEKW OKAY BUT ALSO moment of silence so we can all appreciate the mob wife who refuses to sit at home while her husband is off plowing his sexy asf coworker and decides “actually? You know what??” Who says only your husband’s allowed to dick you down when your married??? Who fuckin says?”

✷ You could see it in his too, how he had always known. If he cared or not was still the missing piece.

DO I SPY WITH MY LITTLE EYE MAYBE SOME SKSKSKKSKSNS LONGING THEEEEEEEREE like despite the cool-as-a-cucumber exterior, underneath all that is actually maybe a sweet baby angel who likes Chepe for more than just that sweet, sweet, Big Daddy DILF D sksksks like i just feeeeeeeeeeeellllll like this is??????? Maybe????!??! Perhaps?????? Mayhaps????????? A bit telling?????????

✷ Still, his hand is steady, not a bead of sweat on his forehead, his usually heavy coat switched for a striped shirt. Colombiano born and raised. You did tell him stripes looked good on him once.

OOOOOSHSJSSMYGOOODDDDSTTOTOOOOOOOOOOOPPPPPP BC IMJUSTSOMFSORRY BUT NO ONE WILL CONVINCE ME THAT CHEPE ISNT THE MOST SENTIMENTAL ASS MF WHEN HE LIKE REAL FORREAL HAS GOT IT BAD like I can 10000000% see Reader just mentioning in passing, not even super sexy or suggestive, just like leaving a meeting or a pick-up or something, and it just like filling him all warm and fuzzy inside and like he’s getting dressed to come pick Reader up here all like, “She did tell me that stripes looked good,” and picking out the one other striped shirt he owns from a pile of like all plaid flannels and plain Ts sksksksks like i just, it’s canon. It’s canon mans dresses for his nena

✷ The ride to civilization had been bumpy, long, and trying your best to understand your driver with the thickest Costeño accent you had ever heard.

ooohhhhhhhh okay, come through College sksksksksksksksskksksks incidentally, the Costeño accent treats the letter “s” like it doesn’t exist as much as the Nica side of my family does and that’s the only reason why I know wtf Costeño is

✷ ‘’ I trust those two with my life. I’ll pick you up at the hotel tomorow ? ‘’ All teeth, handfuls of flesh, bent over the balcony. ‘’ How else am I supposed to empty the mini-bar then? ‘’ Hands gripping your waist, pining you against the shower wall.

I de…………………………..

me: trying to mind my own business, being all literary and shit, thinking about canon-consistency and character themes and costeño accents

you: BODY SLAMMING THROUGH MY GODDAMN WALL FUCKING INCREDIBLE-HULK-STYLE WITH THESE SEXY LITTLE SENTENCE SNACKS AND THEN JUST GETTING UP AND WALKING AWAY LIKE YOU DIDN’T JUST FUCKING DECORATE MY ROOM WITH PLASTER AND DRYWALL

✷ Jetlag is busting your ass, and your concealer is working hard to keep it unnoticed.

oh I really just skksskskskks fucking snorted so loud at this line, my cats both looked concerned skskksskk

✷ Chepe is dressed up for the occasion as always. Chains, gold rings, a nice striped long-sleeved shirt. Maybe you’ll take all of it off tonight. He’s driving this time, one hand on the wheel, the other on your thigh. You’re not sure if you like how familiar the move feels. Domestic. Wrong and right at the same time.

YOU CANNOT CONTINUE TO ASSAULT ME WHILE I’M OVER HERE JUST MINDING MY OWN FUCKING BUSINESS TRYING TO JUST READ AND COMMENT ON THE TOP NOTCH QUALITY OF THE FIC WITH THISDFASDFA;LSJDF;ALSKJDF;ALKJSD AGASSDLKFJS FUCKING THINGS LIKE “ONE HAND ON THE WHEEL, THE OTHER ON YOUR THIGH” OKAY?????OKAY????????? AND THEN FOLLOW IT UP WITH WRONG AND RIGHT AT THE SAME TIIIIIIIIIIIME?????????? YOU JUST ALSDKJFALKSDJFSKJFSK CAN’T

✷ He maneuvers his between two bright red-looking expensive ones. His toothpick rolls on his lips, leaning back against his seat, one hand on the wheel, as he changes gears. He couldn’t care less if he scratched one. Pocket change.

Sorry but this bit is just fucking writing gold, again there’s always a moment when I come across shit that I love so much, I get mad that I didn’t write it and likeweeeeee fucking pocket change. Jesus your mind, like idk why but I really do love this bit so much.

✷ You always appreciated how he could understand those moments, never feeling like he had to fill it with words.

NOOSOSKSKKSKS BC I ALREADY REFERENCED THIS IN ANOTHER REBLOG SKSKSKSKSKS but this reminds me, once again, so much of that line in Pulp Fiction about comfortable silences trips while running to give it a Goog again, even though I just looked it up like a week ago, but again, pretending like I just had it at the ready so you think I’m like sooooooooiiiii cultured and sooiiiiiii cool sksks “why do we feel it’s necessary to yak about bullshit in order to be comfortable? That’s when you know you’ve found somebody special. When you can just shut the fuck up for a minute and comfortably enjoy the silence.”

✷ He leans toward you and you don’t understand why you feel nervous all of sudden. Anxious. Homesick.

OH WHATTTTTTTT SKSKSKDK THE FUCK IS IT ABOUT THIS particularly the addition of “homesick” at the end????????? Idk why but it just compounds the sense of like nervousness like it really just imbues the whole thing with such a degree of like “I need to flee, get me the fuck out of here” and idk it just– something about this really fucks sksksksks

✷ You don’t believe easily, and you know what happens to the other women who naively listen and nod. You have seen it happen time and time again.

ON?CE AGAIN WE STAN TF OUT OF A SAVVY READER. “You don’t believe easily,” like???????? There’s something about this that is so discerning it’s almost like ??????? Dangerous in a way??????? Like it’s lethally cunning that way this is phrased but you can also tell there’s an element of like, idk even like …. Longing??? Like Reader wishes they could believe, wishes they could be one of those other women who naively listen and nod but there’s too much wisdom under the facade, it’s impossible GODDDDDDDD JUST ASKDFJSKDFJAL THE CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT IS TRULY SOME A+, PUT-ME-IN-AN-EARLY-GRAVE MATERIAL HERE

✷ ‘’ I like you a lot, Chepe.‘’ Weirdly enough, in one of the most dangerous countries in the world, in an unknown garage, in a village you have forgotten the name of already, next to him, you feel safe. You don’t feel like you should tiptoe around his feelings, yours for that matter … ‘’ A lot. ‘’ you scoff, you realize.

I think it’s so fucking fascinating that during this moment of vulnerability being honest with Chepe about where she’s at, how that vulnerability and honesty are liek tied up with/equated to control and agency in a way?????? Like there is SO much of Reader’s identity tied into the facade that she has to maintain in her professional life but the facade still isn’t her identity if that makes sense???? God I really am just fucking obsessed with ehr skskksksksksks like this really does seem like one of the few women Chepe would genuinely fucking leave his wife for imoksksjssksksk along with for Isabella ofc kekw BUT THEN ALSOASLDKKSSKKS THE WAY SHE’S LIKE JUST NOW REALIZING HOW BAD SHE HAS IT FOR HIM LIKE AS IF IT’S NEVER REALLY OCCURRED TO HER LIKE SKKSKSKS “OH FUCK, CREO QUE ME GUSTA MUCHISIMO ESE PENDEJO TAL VEZ” LIK GORL SKKSKSSKKSKSKSKS

✷ Y yo a ti, his silence means.

NO BUT FUCKSIGNSKSJDFKS ALSO ALSO ALSO EVERYONE SHUT UP because the entire time I’ve been reading this and marveling at the use of 3rd person omniscient in a way that’s like super poetic. I feel like a lot of times 3rd POV omnisc can sound super clinical, like it’s so easy to fall into a strictly telling-not-showing but the way you have been throwing in these little poetic flourishes like GDODDDDDD THIS REALLY JUST IS SOME FULL FUCKING PROSE MI GENTE

✷ ‘’ Talk to me. Tell me.‘’ The truth, he means, how you really feel about this, ‘’I’ve got all night.‘’

AGAINSAKDFSKDFJS WITH THE POETIC 3RD POV OMNS LIKE THESE LITTLE INTERPRETATIONS OF WHAT EACH OTHER IS SAYING IS REALLY SENDING ME BC LIEK THE WAY IT REALLY ILLUSTRATES THE SENSE OF INTIMACY BETWEEN THE TWO OF THEM LIEK I REALLY BELIEVE IT

✷ ‘’ I want it. ‘’ you begin, toes wiggling inside your heel, trying to keep your knee from bouncing, ‘’ When you say you want to introduce me as yours. ‘’

Skskskskskkskskskks the way I fullllllllyyyy fucking snorted so loud at the toes wiggling to keep your knee from bouncing because SWEET FUCKING CHRIST I FELT IT IN MYOWN BODY SKSKKSKSSK LIKE THAT DETAIL, I HAVE BEEN THERE, I HAVE DONE THAT, SKSKKS TRYIGN TO CONTAIN THE NERVOUS ENERGY BUT LIKE YOU CAN’T TOTALLY KEEP IT IN, LIKE FOR EVERY ACTION THERE’S AN EQUAL AND OPPOSITE REACTION, LIKE THE ENERGY HAS TO GO SOMEWHERE SKSKS GOD IT’S JUST TOO FUCKING REAL

✷ It takes all his being not to surge forward to take your face between his hands. Then let me, let me.

ONCE A-FUCKING-GAIN THESE LITTLE INTERNAL MONOLOGUE GLIMPSES OF LIKE WHAT HE’S THINKING. LIEKE HE’S NOT SAYING IT OUT LOUD BUT SHE AND THOSE OF US UNHINGED HUSSIES READING CAN FUCKING FEEEEEEEEELLL HIM SAYING THIS WITH HIS BODY SWEET FUCK DUDE. JUST FUCK.

✷ ‘’ I wouldn’t mind if you did. ‘’ you admit, ‘’ I’d let you. ‘’ You don’t feel weak for telling him like you thought you would. Chepe brings your palm to his mouth, kissing the skin softly.

Oh this is such an interesting turrrrrrrrnnnn here and god, why do I love the “you don’t feel weak for telling him like you thought you would” LIKE WHAT IS IT????? WHY???? I liek cannot articulate what it is about that admission that’s causing me to squeeze my face but like godddddd I am experiencing some FUCKING FEEEEEELINGS ABOUT IT. Like it’s just a really interesting admission especially after earlier Reader thinking about she’s not naive, she’s not sitting at home waiting for Chepe to call and sweep her off her feet but there is a vulnerability and then power in that vulnerability of actually admitting that even if she knows it’s unrealistic, she still would like for it to be a thing and like OHHHHHH!!!!! OH I JUST FIGURED IT OUT!!!!!! THE FUCKING SELF-AWARENESS, LIKE IT’S BEYOND SAVVY. IT’S TOTALLY SELF-AWARE HOLY FUCK THAT’S WHAT IT IS OH I AM LAUGHING SKSKKSKS AT THE WAY I RAMBLED MY WAY THROUGH TO FIGURING THAT OUTSKKSKSS LIKE IN REAL-TIME. WHATEVER I’M NOT DELETING IT

✷ Breathe, smile, shake hands, repeat. Chepe’s hand reaches blindly for you behind him, and you grab it, just like he expects you to do.

OHASHDFAKSJDFKJDFKSJDFKAJ NOOOOSTOTOOTOTOPPPPPPP BUT THE WAY THIS JUST SPEAKS TO THE ROUTINE, HIM ABSENTLY REACHING FOR HER HAND LIKE I CAN SEEEEEEEEEEEEE THE WHOLE GODDAMN THING LIKE I’VE ACTUALLY FILMED IT MYSELF. AND AGAIN WITH THE THREADING OF JUST LIEK TRUST AND INTIMACY BETWEEN THE TWO OF THEM, LIKE THIS SUCH A SWEET LITTLE INTIMATE …. WHAT’S THE WORD … NOT GESTURE, BC A GESTURE IS MORE CONSCIOUS….. EXCHANGE??????? I DONTEVENFUCKINGKNOW AKSKSKSKS WHAT I DO KNOW IS I LOVE IT

✷ Blood is pumping in your ears, so loud that it is almost overtaking the music around you. This is exactly where you want to be, precisely what you planned. Inhale with the nose, and exhale through the mouth. It doesn’t come as fast as you would’ve liked, but slowly, air fills up your lungs. It is a weird feeling, really, how after only a few breaths you can feel your body tingle, calm and lightheaded. Revigorated. All part of the facade.

SKSKSKKSKSKSSKSK not me just full copy/pasting this entire ass paragraphs ksdkfskkskskss but I can’t not because like once again, I’m in love with Reader in a way I am rarely in love with a Reader character and like her voice is so distinct it really could be an OC that’s how concrete and well-thought-through she is. But like first off, the pure prose of “blood is pumping in your ears, so loud that it is almost overtaking the music around you,” like okay, literature. I see you sksksksks but then the way Reader almost has to like psych herself up after sort of getting real with Chepe in the parking lot and the car, like I can literally FEEEEEEEEELLLLL the active process of the armor going up as it happens in real time. Like GODDDDDDDDD THERE’S SUCH A SENSE OF COMPARTMENTALIZATION THAT I AM TRULY MARVELING AT, IT’S SUCH A THREAD THROUGH THE WHOLE THING. Like psychologically, shit you not, one of the most interesting Reader characters of all time

✷ Chepe is beaming, all laughs and handshakes, like a true socialite, a fish in water.

OH BUT THE WAY YOU FLIPPED THAT FUCKING IDIOM “A FISH IN WATER” yet another instance of like just a thing being so good, it brings me to despair because I didn’t write it and now I never can

✷ Staying civilized in this jungle is harder than you would have thought.

JUST SUMMORE FUCKING PROSE SKKSKSKS I SWEAR TO CHRIST YOU ARE REALLY ON ONE IN THIS ENTIRE FUCKIGNSKF THING although ngl, given that Reader es que tan chingona al máximo, si alguien puede hacerlo, ella lo puede. Sin duda.

✷ It happens merely minutes after Chepe excuses himself to fill up your drink, the shift in the room … Here they are. The lions.

THE DREADKASKKSKKS THE WAY I CLUTCHED MY CHEST. HERE THEY ARE. THE LIONS. Like my silly fucking mind literally just picturing 3 anthropomorphic lions slowly descending on Reader skskksksks but like they still look like Pacho, Gilberto, and Miguel, like if they were drawn as lion king characters tbh, Pacho would look act and look like Scar just without the scar skskksksksskskk skskskkssk but all Disney tontería aside, this really just changed the entire tone, like put me on edge so much because like that’s exactly how you’d feel in that position if you weren’t regularly riding the hobby horse with one of their lifelong business partners skskskksks so like the fact that Reader is just like skskskksskscompletely compounds the dread.

✷ You see Pacho first, in the corner of your eye. You can tell it is him, from his silk shirt to his waxed brown shoes, from Chepe’s stories, there is no doubt in your mind.

SKSKSKSKSKSSKSK in any fic, Pacho really needs no introduction does he skkks that’s the elite tier that he resides in, in the fandom

✷ Pacho’s smile mirrors your own, like an old friend, a deadly trap. You like him already, you decide, not so different from you, you can tell. Cunning. Smart.

THAT CONTRAST BETWEEN LIKE AN OLD FRIEND AND DEADLY TRAP BUT LIKE THE WAY THOSE TWO SEEMINGLY CONTRADICTORY THINGS CAN TOTALLY BE TRUE AND I CAN ABSOLUTELY SEE IT SO CRYSTAL CLEAR IN MY MIND’S EYE– I AM TRULY JUST SKSKKSKS GAGGGED RIGHT NOW. I NEED TEN THOUSAND MORE WORDS OF THESE TWO INTERACTING PLS.

✷ You don’t know what burns more, his warm fingers pressing gently into your skin or how Pacho’s eyes catch him doing it.

SKSKSJSDFLKSJDFLKSJDKLFJ;AKJSD;LFKJA;LSKJDF;ALKSJDF;ALKJSDF;LAKJSD;FLKJ IMJUSTSOSORRY BUT WE ALL KNOW THE CORRECT ANSWER IS PACHO’S EYES, CATCHING HIM DOING IT, SLAPS HARDER, BURNS MORE KSKSKSKS LIKE I AM CLUTCHING MY FACE, PEEKING THROUGH MY FINGERS SKKS LIKE I’M WATCHING A HORROR MOVIE

✷ You don’t miss how Pacho’s eyes flicker back for a second on Chepe as he leaves. Pacho clears his throat, looking at you over his whiskey, ‘’ So, ‘’ he starts, ‘’ Favorite partner, favorite reina. ‘’

Not two minutes in and Pacho already READING THESE TWO LITTLE PAJARITOS ENAMORADOS SKSKSKKS like it really feels so much sksksksk like an old fashioned duel almost, like such a challenge and reader is lowkey losing already

✷ ‘’ You take care of him good? ‘’ You get it then, why his handshake is so strong, why his eyes are sharp and serious, menacing. Brotherhood.

‘’ I do. ‘’ you stand your ground, hand unmoving, arm strong and chin up, ‘’ As he does to me. ‘’

oh wow ….. wowowowowowowoow I am really just :lebron tear: at brotherhood. Bc like that’s really what it isisiiisiisisisiiskskkskssksksk OH AND I’M FLIPPING MY DESK OVER BC PACHO REALLY IS JUST LOOKING OUT FOR HIS HOMIEST OF HOMIES, LIEK THAT’S HIS CHEPE AND HIS CHEPE MUST BE PROTECTED. Okay but then also???????? I think it’s so fucking brilliant and interesting the way Pacho phrases the question, “you take care of him good?” as like a, “how are you treating my homie,” which however intimidating, is also not the paternalistic way he could’ve phrased it?? Like tf am I even trying to say skskksk I don’t even know… like I feel like if Pacho had phrased it as, “so is he taking care of you,” it would be the more cliche route, sort of like implying that Reader’s some kind of gold digger or taking advantage of Chepe in some way. But it’s NOT phrased that way - it’s very much, “how are you treating him,” and like?????????? god this really is the most rambling of rambles imsorryforeverything there’s just like more implied agency afforded to Reader in just the way the question is phrased and idk why I just feel like that’s actually what Pacho would say?????? I’m sure that’s complete fuckign gibberish but to put it plainly. Yes. JUST YES.

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MANAAAA, you best be continuing this shit or I will full revolt bc like…

Meeting Chepe in New York and him bring you back to Cali for a party/meeting the rest of the gang 👀

Red lipstick

Chepe Santacruz x female!reader (infidelity/cheating, mention of Y/N, mention of drug use, the usual for the show), 3679 words

a/n : - Yo Élise, where were you all this time? Were you dead?

- *cue to picture of that dry-ass taxidermy fox* seasonal depression my dude

As always it's the fictional, not the real deal, enjoy xx

You can see it as a business meeting, an opportunity for you to go bigger.

That is what Chepe had said to you one day as you met him for your usual drop. Offering you a trip to Colombia, to meet the big ones from overseas, those that completed his inner circle. You had been reselling for him for a few years now, never once coming to a dollar short and definitely ranking in the profit. Probably the best card you got in your deck, Santacruz, am I not?

You never were looking to make it big in this type of business. Selling just enough to be sure to stay afloat, pay your mortgage, feed the people you love, and buy those pieces of jewelry, that a year ago would have been for you a rent’s worth, just because you liked how they shined when you passed the counter display. Greed, envy, lust. It had crawled in your veins fast, venomous, pumping in your blood. Still, just enough to always buy your favorite, to-die-for, 90$ red lipstick every time it ran out, but never enough to get cocky, stupid, reckless.

You loved luxury, lived in it, smelled like it, but you always remembered how red your blood was, how easy it could be spilled. You saw the way the government was knocking more and more doors down, came for the smaller ones before fishing for the big sharks, but all the others didn’t. It’s a war, sweetheart, Chepe had called it, a war on drugs. Teeth filled with gold, snorting all types of white powders, guns-a-blazing, cuffed and judged by justice just as fast. There’s a quiet side to riches that those men never understood. It was what had separated you from the others who had climbed the ranks with you over the years, you had realized. Maybe that’s why you are here today, setting foot down a jet on Colombian soil, or maybe it was just the start of the hardest fall of your life.

As you looked at your shoes, already full of dust, you wondered if there was a time you had ever seen so much dirt on a landing strip before. You don’t have much time to think about it or to worry about the wind pushing your hair or the dirt in your mouth, that Chepe is already in front of you, arms wide open,

‘’ Bienvenido en la capital mundial de la salsa, sweetheart. ‘’

Your smile is bright, pulling at your cheeks, lips painted red, welcoming. A deadly trap. Chepe knows all of this, the facade that goes in the character you play. The survival instinct, the street smart. You made it this far didn’t you?

‘’ Well, I’m more of a bachata dancer myself, but I can make salsa work. ‘’

You had fucked him once. When his wife had been away, doing whatever she did when she went on those trips of hers. All teeth, handfuls of flesh, bent over the balcony. Maybe it had been more than once. Maybe you didn’t feel so bad because you knew she most likely did the same when she claimed she was going on shopping trips with friends. You could always tell with those women for some reason, you could see it in their eyes, it wasn’t hard to miss. You could see it in his too, how he had always known. If he cared or not was still the missing piece.

You take his extended hand to jump off the last step. The heat is heavy, weirdly humid, and dry at the same time. Still, his hand is steady, not a bead of sweat on his forehead, his usually heavy coat switched for a striped shirt. Colombiano born and raised. You did tell him stripes looked good on him once.

This is it, you thought, no turning back, the top of the ladder. The top of the food chain. You just have to shake hands and smile.

.

The ride to civilization had been bumpy, long, and trying your best to understand your driver with the thickest Costeño accent you had ever heard. A fair price to pay for landing on an illegal dirt patch in the middle of a Colombian jungle.

Chepe had left you with his driver and a bodyguard back at the landing field, slipping you in the passenger seat, making sure your hair didn’t get stuck in the door as he closed it,

‘’ I trust those two with my life. I’ll pick you up at the hotel tommorow ? ‘’

All teeth, handfuls of flesh, bent over the balcony.

‘’ How else am I supposed to empty the mini-bar then? ‘’

Hands gripping your waist, pining you against the shower wall.

It's later that day after he's been gone for hours and your lipstick has been reapplied, that he calls your room phone. You press your lips together, spreading the color evenly, as it rings some more. You take your finger up to your mouth, swiping the excess stain with your nail. Done. Your heels click on the marble floors on your way out of the bathroom,

‘’ Miss me already? ‘’

It's a party, he had said, near the water, you’ll love it.

He scoffs, as you disconnected the call. The more 6 o’clock gets near, the more all of your being screams at you to leave, clawing at your mind to run, not to look back. You know you should, that he would let you call it off and go back home. But the more you want it, the more you itch to open the safe where your passport is locked, and the more you realize you can’t.

You won’t.

The ride over there is less bumping than when you first got here. Jetlag is busting your ass, and your concealer is working hard to keep it unnoticed. Chepe is dressed up for the occasion as always. Chains, gold rings, a nice striped long-sleeved shirt. Maybe you’ll take all of it off tonight.

He’s driving this time, one hand on the wheel, the other on your thigh. You’re not sure if you like how familiar the move feels. Domestic. Wrong and right at the same time.

‘’ If this is about my wife, ‘’ he had said, with his arms around you, his chin in your hair, ‘’ I’ll leave her. ‘’

You had mentioned stopping everything when he had dropped by earlier. If I actually do this and meet them, I don’t think I can keep fucking you if I want to be taken seriously. Panic clawing at your chest, the reality of your work, the constant threats. There was no way for this to end well for you. For him.

‘’ Ask me and I’ll do it. I’ll call her right now. ‘’

He smelled like cigar and cologne, his palms sneaking under your shirt, warm on your stomach, soft, grounding,

‘’ This is not about her, ‘’ you had explained, head falling on his shoulder as he nuzzled into your neck, ‘’ This is about me, Chepe. About my work. Credibility. ‘’

His other hand pulled at your skirt, feeling the lace underneath. He molds you to him, unbelievably closer now. You felt him shiver against you, felt his breath behind your ear, the goosebump on your arms,

‘’ Tell me, ‘’ he had started with a groan, bringing the material over your waist, his other hand gently wrapping around your throat,

‘’ Tell me whoever dares, and I’ll make sure myself they never speak again. ‘’

You don’t doubt his words for a second.

The automatic light illuminates the garage as soon as Chepe drives the car in. You’ve never seen a garage this big. Cars lined up left to right, every one of them shinier than the other. What a waste of space.

He maneuvers his between two bright red-looking expensive ones. His toothpick rolls on his lips, leaning back against his seat, one hand on the wheel, as he changes gears. He couldn’t care less if he scratched one. Pocket change.

‘’ I probably should have stayed in my room and gotten another 8 hours of sleep. ‘’

He laughs, hearty, loud, deep, as if you’ve just told him the funniest joke of the night. His thumb rubs your thigh,

‘’ Are you going to stand me up? At your own party? ‘’

His attempt at lightening up the mood. In a way, it does, pushing your insecurities and anxieties to the side for a second. He can tell you hesitate, putting off the moment you step out of the car and have to do the grown-up illegal things you have gotten yourself into. You’re not that tired, caffeinated for two, and ready to throw punches if needed. Not that you would have to, with Chepe hot on your heels wherever you go, but it feels like it could calm you down, give you back some control maybe,

‘’ Oh, you’d do just fine I am sure. ‘’ you try to smile back.

You stay silent for a while, more like seconds really, but it feels relaxing and comforting. His hand is still warm on your skin. You always appreciated how he could understand those moments, never feeling like he had to fill it with words.

His thumb presses slightly on the inside of your thigh, bringing your attention back to him. It is darker now in the car, the automatic light having shut off seconds ago,

‘’ I wish I could introduce you as mine. ‘’

You can make out his side profile, the way his fingers drum on the wheel. You sigh,

‘’ José- ‘’

‘’ Ya, por favor, ‘’ he pleads, annoyed, ‘’ You always do this. ‘’

His hand comes up to scratch his stubble, moving down to where his neck meets his shoulder. He massages the skin, before his arm drops, defeated. Chepe moves in his seat, knees turning slightly to your side of the car. He leans toward you and you don’t understand why you feel nervous all of sudden. Anxious.

Homesick.

‘’ I know you think I’m not genuine. That I’m only saying this to make you happy. ‘’

For the first time in months, you don’t know what to say. He is right. Absolutely and utterly right. You don’t believe him when he says it. When he promises you travels, family parties, a career, a ring. You don’t believe easily, and you know what happens to the other women who naively listen and nod. You have seen it happen time and time again.

You sigh, falling back into your seat, trying to disappear inside the leather behind your back,

‘’ I like you a lot, Chepe. ‘’

You sigh, you don’t know where you are going with this. You can’t seem to be thinking ahead, about what you should say or not. Weirdly enough, in one of the most dangerous countries in the world, in an unknown garage, in a village you have forgotten the name of already, next to him, you feel safe. You don’t feel like you should tiptoe around his feelings, yours for that matter.

Your head rolls to the side to meet his gaze, your fingertips raising to touch his face. His brown eyes are on you, pupils blown from the darkness. Sharp nails follow his cheekbone softly, moving up to his freshly cut hair, pushing the loose grey strands back into place. His hand is on your wrist now, going up and down as he caresses the skin,

‘’ A lot. ‘’ you scoff, you realize.

So do I, he wants to say, Y yo a ti, his silence means. You want to lean in, break the space between you, kiss him, end this conversation and force him to bring you inside. You meet his eyes again as your nails roam behind his ear. You know he would let you, but here, today, you don’t think this is what you want,

‘’ We are being honest here, right? ‘’ he whispers, like a secret being shared between you two. You nod softly,

‘’ Talk to me. Tell me. ‘’ The truth, he means, how you really feel about this, ‘’ I’ve got all night. ‘’

You know he means it. Chepe would stay in this car all night if you decided to, he can tell how different the moment has gotten. Twenty minutes ago you would have laughed to tears, reapplied your lipstick, and gotten out of the car. The facade that goes in the character you play. He is still not sure what changed, but it makes him want you to be honest with him, to be true to what you know. Goosebumps spreads across your arm, following the warmth of his palm,

‘’ I want it. ‘’ you begin, toes wiggling inside your heel, trying to keep your knee from bouncing, ‘’ When you say you want to introduce me as yours. ‘’

It takes all his being not to surge forward to take your face between his hands. Then let me, let me. Your breath comes out shaky when you exhale as if you had been holding it for the last minute,

‘’ I am being honest, ‘’ you reassured, he knows you are. You had had deep conversations with Chepe before, nights spent sitting on your balcony, smoking and talking about life and all the things in between. His past, yours. Colombia, New York. Your hand falls to his neck, gently stroking his stubble with your thumb. It’s rough and it’s keeping you grounded, in the car, with him,

‘’ I wouldn’t mind if you did. ‘’ you admit, ‘’ I’d let you. ‘’

You don’t feel weak for telling him like you thought you would. Chepe brings your palm to his mouth, kissing the skin softly. Saying anything else would ruin the moment, and you are thankful he stays silent again. You can hear the music inside, voices laughing and screaming behind the closed door, and you know it is time for you to go and join the crowd. Do what you came here to do in the first place.

You lean between the seats, the cup holder pushing painfully against your ribs, and your hand falls from his lips as you rest your head against his shoulder. His shirt is coarse on your cheek and his fingers soft when he intertwines them with yours. Your thumbnail traces shapes on the back of his hand while you speak again,

‘’ I don’t think I’ve ever been this anxious in my whole life. ‘’

‘’ I wouldn’t have brought you here if I didn’t think you were up for it. ‘’

You hmm, and he can feel the sound vibrate through his shoulder,

‘’ It’s what you do back home, but here. Your Spanish is great, you’ll fit right in, mija. ‘’ he reassures,‘’ I’ll take care of you. ‘’

He emphasizes the words by gently squeezing your joint hands. You know he will, he always does. You know lots of things about him and that lying, to you at least, is not something he would do. We are being honest here, right? You reluctantly let him go, motioning to him to go ahead, body pulling away, your hand sliding back to your thigh. As he gets out of the car, the lights illuminate the garage again. Bright, blinding. Your eyes follow him around the hood of the car until he reaches your door, pulling it open,

‘’ Let’s do some work now, hm? ‘’

He presents his hand to you, his heart skipping a beat when you accept it, pressing yours against his while your swing your legs to the side to get out.

One step after the other, your heels click on the cement as you walk towards the door that leads inside the house. Breathe, smile, shake hands, repeat. Chepe’s hand reaches blindly for you behind him, and you grab it, just like he expects you to do. Blood is pumping in your ears, so loud that it is almost overtaking the music around you. This is exactly where you want to be, precisely what you planned. Inhale with the nose, and exhale through the mouth. It doesn’t come as fast as you would’ve liked, but slowly, air fills up your lungs. It is a weird feeling, really, how after only a few breaths you can feel your body tingle, calm and lightheaded. Revigorated. All part of the facade.

Your smile doesn’t falter when you meet the first few people, low associates, executants. It is bright, all white teeth and red lipstick. They make no comment, no sarcastic remarks about Chepe’s hand on your back, you let him lower it, let it curve around your waist. His eyes burning and threatening enough that no one dares to look for too long.

Your cheeks hurt, jaw a bit sore from speaking Spanish for the past hour, but the wine feels good and bitter down your throat, helping make those meetings bearable. Chepe is beaming, all laughs and handshakes, like a true socialite, a fish in water. You enjoy watching him more than you do partake in this whole thing. It is different for him here, and you can tell. You thought you would have been the last one arriving at the house, and as much as Chepe shuts down any remarks about the time you spent in the garage and as much as you pretend not to understand what they imply, you know words have already spread in the villa. Staying civilized in this jungle is harder than you would have thought.

It happens merely minutes after Chepe excuses himself to fill up your drink, the shift in the room. How everyone stands taller, pushes their shoulders back, sobering up. Whoever supplier Chepe left you with does not have eyes for you anymore. Here they are. The lions.

You see Pacho first, in the corner of your eye. You can tell it is him, from his silk shirt to his waxed brown shoes, from Chepe’s stories, there is no doubt in your mind. You have to bite first, you think, use this fake confidence to your advantage, and make this meeting yours. Your new wannabe-gangster friend had already abandoned you the second they entered the room. You have no choice but to stand your ground and stay tall too.

You force a smile on your cheeks as you turn to him, charming and warm. Pain and Chepe’s absence be damned. Pacho’s smile mirrors your own, like an old friend, a deadly trap. You like him already, you decide, not so different from you, you can tell. Cunning. Smart.

Your glass of wine is quickly put back in your hands, splashing around in the cup, as your man pushes at the guests around you to meet Pacho’s embrace with a laugh. They exchange quickly in Spanish, how are you doing, how’s the weather over there ? You let them catch up, soaking in how easily the moment flows, perfectly happy to stand on the sideline.

Chepe half turns to you, still going on to Pacho about this plane story of his that you have been waiting for the punchline for a while now. His hand finds your waist, absently bringing you closer to the two of them.

‘’ Hermano, ‘’ he begins, ‘’ Let me introduce you. ‘’

You don’t know what burns more, his warm fingers pressing gently into your skin or how Pacho’s eyes catch him doing it. You had agreed to this, but still, stares and looking eyes make you feel uncomfortable. He leads, you remind yourself, he knows, let him.

‘’ This is Y/N, ‘’ Chepe smiles, chest puffed out, proud, ‘’ My favorite partner in crime. ‘’

Pacho’s eyes are back on you, not on Chepe, not on his hand on your back. You let out a breath you didn’t know you were holding. The air feels lighter, your fingers regain color around your glass. You let yourself fall back slightly into Chepe’s embrace, putting some of your weight on him. You share some stories about Pacho’s favorite clubs in New York, how you have to change entry port from now on after the last DEA bust, and how the margins are still going up even though.

‘’ You want another? ‘’ Chepe leans towards you, softly speaking the words in your ear, nodding to your empty cup,

‘’ I’d love that. ‘’ you say back, turning, nose almost catching his, ‘’ Maybe white this time, please? ‘’

‘’ Por supuesto, reina. ‘’

You don’t miss how Pacho’s eyes flicker back for a second on Chepe as he leaves. Pacho clears his throat, looking at you over his whiskey,

‘’ So, ‘’ he starts, ‘’ Favorite partner, favorite reina. ‘’

You nod, sending a smile his way, playful, trying to keep it civilized,

‘’ I’m his favorite lie detector too. I’m never wrong.‘’

Pacho laughs, thank god. He holds out his hand to you, and you put yours in his, giving it a nice shake,

‘’ You take care of him good? ‘’

His hand is firm in yours, he makes no move to withdraw, standing there, a step closer now. You get it then, why his handshake is so strong, why his eyes are sharp and serious, menacing. Brotherhood.

‘’ I do. ‘’ you stand your ground, hand unmoving, arm strong and chin up, ‘’ As he does to me. ‘’

He lets go of your hand as he turns to discard his drink, switching it for two champagne glasses that he swiftly takes from a nearby waiter,

‘’ Good. Good.‘’

You watch him look around, almost bored, unimpressed by all the festivities. Pacho takes a sip first, nodding in approval before holding up the second flute toward you for you to grab,

‘’ You know what I think, Y/N? ‘’

He smiles at you, knowing, sincere. He toasts the rim of his glass against yours, making a stream of bubbles burst from the bottom,

‘’ I think you and I will do great things around here. ‘’

[imaslutforremusandsirius]

Ik you've done something like this but can u pls do a smut were me, remus and Sirius are in a relationship and I'm remus's good girl and he's a soft dom with me but he's all strict w Sirius

Good girl and bad puppy

Or

Sirius getting wrecked and you treated like a princess

Enjoy darling <3

Warning: 18+

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“You do know he loves me more right?” Sirius asked slowly, as if he was talking to a daft toddler.

“Shut up Sirius” you hissed, “I know you‘re doing it on purpose.”

You hid your head behind your book again, desperately trying to block out his annoying face.

“He loves me moreeee” Sirius sang, his voice breaking midway and you snorted.

“Yeah right, especially with that voice.”

Sirius grinned, his tipical eye-crinkling, teeth showing grin. It let you know that he did not mean anything he had said earlier. Both of the boys loved you just as much as you loved them.

“It wouldn’t hurt for you do behave every once in a while though.”

Sirius’ face fell, as if you just said the most ridiculous thing in all those years you’d know each other.

“And why would I do that?” He looked genuinely spooked.

“Because he would be nice to you as well?” you said slowly, this time him being the daft toddler.

His face was horrified as he yelled out with utter disgust in his voice. “That is absolutely outrageous! Why would I want Moony to be nice? Ew! You take your vanilla shit and leave me out of this mess-”

“Alright I get it! Jesus Christ, you need anger management!” You cut him off, angrily turning back to your book.

“Vanilla shit, huh?”

Sirius closed his eyes, silently cursing under his breath. Putting on an exaggerated smile he turned in his chair, hugging Remus around the waist. 

“Moony!” he said, overly cheery, “Oh I’ve missed you! Sit, sit.” Sirius ushered him to sit and gave you a pleading look. Caving, you put your book down.

“Hi Rem” you smiled and he leaned over to kiss you after he kissed Sirius.

“Hi sweetheart, what were you talking about?”

You shrugged, cheeks tinting pink. Fuck, you are a terrible liar.

“Oh um nothing. You know, the usual...” Your voice trailed off and Sirius nodded ethusiastically. 

“Exactly!”

Remus smirked and turned to Sirius, raising a brow. “So you were discussing how vanilla I am?”

Busted.

You immediately responded. “I didn’t say that, Sirius did!”

Sirius gaped at you, mouth opening and closing a few times before he spluttered, “You - You utter bit-”

“Padfoot.” Remus warned, expression turning strict instantly. Remus hated insults out of the bedroom.

Sirius turned to him, a pleading look in his eyes. “Moony, I swear I didn’t mean it like that!”

Remus tilted his head to his right. “How did you mean it Sirius?“

Now it was Sirius‘ turn to blush. „I just said that I like you being“ he cleared his throat and rushed the last part “um- roughwithme.“

Remus smirked at Sirius and nodded to himself.

„Bad puppy.“

Sirius melted.

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„Moony?“ Sirius stuttered as Remus looked him up and down, a thoughtful look on his face.

„Can‘t decide if I want you to fuck her or if I want to fuck you...“ Remus said with a coy smile.

You bit your lip when you felt your cunt clench at his words, already wet from the way Remus was staring at the both of you. Like he just wanted to wreck you.

„I certainly wouldn‘t mind fucking her“ Sirius smirked, but Remus just hung his head and chuckled.

„I don‘t care if you mind Sirius.“

Whenever Remus said your boyfriends actual name you knew that the scene was starting. It was a warning, if you will.

You pinched his hand to make him shut up and for once he listened.

„What do you say pup?“ Remus looked at you, a gentle smile on his face when you shyly played with your fingers. „Tell Remmy what you want.“

„I want-“ you licked your lips exitedly „I want you to watch us fuck, Remmy.“

Remus‘ smile widened and he nodded his head. „If that‘s what my baby wants...“ He opened his arms and gave you the signal to start, leaning back on the chair to watch you. His two precious subs, both the most gorgeous beings in all of Hogwarts.

Sirius took the reigns and pulled you on his lap, lips eagerly smashing on yours and he kissed you sloppily. Your hands wandered under his shirt and you traced his soft skin with your fingertips, savoring his soft moans and shivers. He flipped you over, craling between your thighs and continued to kiss you soundly, hips grinding on yours. He slowed down, his clothed cock grinding over your bare cunt, slow and teasing.

“Stop showing off and fuck our girl.” Remus said between grittet teeth and Sirius smirked at the dom. Turning back to you he put your hands on the waistband of his boxers.

“Undress me” he drawled.

You tugged his boxers down and his hard cock sprang free, already flushed and leaking. You tried to wrap your legs around him and pull him close, but he blocked your attempts and forced you into a different position.

Your were on your hands and knees with your fae towards Remus when Sirius pushed in with a hard thrust, not even giving you a second to adjust before he pounded into you. You fell forward and let out moans and shrieks when he hit that spot inside of you over and over again. God, it felt so good. The veins of his cock were rubbing at your sensitive walls, his balls slapping your ass. The sight was obscene, being watched by one boyfriend as the other one just watched with a self-satisfied grin. Watching you get fucked like a slut.

Remus made his way over after a particular loud cry from you and took your face in both of his palms, thumbs smoothing over your flushed cheekbones. Your hands instantly clasped on his wrists for some stability.

He chuckled. “Look at my darling girl, getting fucked by our puppy, hm?” Both of you groaned at that, Sirius starting to get aggressive, fingers digging into your hips with one hand on your clit. 

“Ah there!” you gasped, thrusting back against him “Right there Siri please!”

Sirius growled low in his throat. “Oh? There?” He pushed so deep your eyes rolled back, mouth falling open. 

“Make my good girl cum, puppy.” Remus barked out, leaning in to swallow your moans.

“Yes, Sir.” 

Sirius pushed you further down with one hand between your shoulder blades and kept you there, adjusting his hips and oh. Hit punded your spot over and over again, his sweat dripping on your back as he fucked and fucked. 

“Is my beautiful girl gonna cum for her Remmy? Yes?”

You were gone at this point, babbling absolute nonsene as your desperately clawed at the sheets for some stability. 

“Cum, baby.”

You screamed out when your release hit you like a brick wall, your entire world turning white. Legs trembling, fingers shaking and your cunt clenched so tight Sirius was forced to stop moving. So full, you felt full to the brim. 

“Out, puppy.” Remus commanded and Sirius pulled out, sitting back on his knees, cock steadily leaking cum. Fuck, he had been so close. 

“Princess” Remus turned to you “Prepare our boy.”

You grinned and crawled over to the bedside table, pulling out a dildo. Sirius hated lube, the masochistic fucker said he loved the burn of the stretch. Remus sat down and pulled Sirius up until his back was resting against his chest and spread his legs, holding them up for you.

Remus kissed the side og his head and nipped at his ear harshly. “Don’t you dare cum, puppy.”

You pushed the dildo against Sirius lips and he spat on it, taking it in his mouth until it was completely wet. The dildo wasn’t exactly big, only a preperation before Remus fully stretched Sirius with his own cock.

You rubbed the tip against his tight hole and watched as he began to open up. Remus put his hands around his cock and bally, squeezing hard to keep him from cumming. Sirius let out a loud groand whe the tip slipped it, back arching with the delicious pain of the stretch. 

“You fucking slut” Remus mocked “Getting fucked with a fucking dildo like a whore. Thank her for pleasuring you!”

“Thank you!” Sirius cried out when you fucked him in a steady rhythm, the dildo gliding in with difficulty, making it feel oh so better.

You kissed his legs, biting at the flesh of his ass and went faster. You fucked him until his legs trembled and he couldn’t talk, before you ripped the dildo out. He chased you with his hips and begged shamelessly.

“Please no! Please Moony, please! I’m a good boy!”

Sirius was crying, his cock fucking hurt and his prostate throbbed with irritation of being yet again robbed from another orgasm. 

“Come here baby and wet my cock. Wanna fuck my little puppy.”

You took Remus in your mouth, suckling gently and wet him with your spit. He twitched at pulled away, too sensitive from watching you both the entire time without touching himself once. 

“Sit on his face.” Remus told you gently and you quickly straddled Sirius’ pretty face, effectively shutting him up by pressing your cunt on his mouth. Remus spit on Sirius’ hole, a degrading sight but Sirius relished in it, watching Remus push inside his tight clench.

Sirius nails scratched your thighs and he gladly tasted your pussy, his groans going straight to your clit. His tongue was everywhere, in your hole on your clit, sucking and slurping liek a starved animal. You were maoning loudly, your huips grinding on his face with sharp movements, hsi nose catching on your clit and making you cum for the second time. 

“Yes! Yes, lick it all up!” You cried out and gushed all over his mouth and Sirius whined, truly like a puppy, and lapped everything up diligently. You felt another pair of hands on your waist and Remus pulled you back, your tits pressed against Sirius chest and Remus fucked you.

Sirius was crying now, his third time being denied to cum, while you were getting your third in a row. 

“I can’t Remmy!” you shrieked “Please! Too much!”

Sirius and you were holding onto each other as Remus made a mess of you. He knew exactly what he was doing to reduce you to a blubbering mess. Giving Sirius nothing and you too much.

Sirius tugged you down to press a punishing kiss on your lips, angry that Remus treated you so gently and him like a slut. His teeth sunk into you bottom lip and you came again, falling against his chest. Remus growled and pulled out, jerking Sirius off in a fast pace and fucked into him deeply. With one hard thrust he came deep inside of Sirius, and Sirius shouted, voice raw as he finally came for the first time. His cum coated your fronts and Remus fucked his release inside of his tight clench, making it leak out from the sides.

“My precious loves” Remus cooed and kissed your cheeks. “So good f’me. Love you so much, c’mere.” 

Remus laid down in the middle, pulling you both to his chest and stroked your hair softly. You were a sticky mess, dried cum and sweat, but you didn’t care.

[animesllut666]

-UNMENTIONED BIRTHDAYS-

Style: Headcannon.

Characters: Tsukishima, Yamaguchi, Kageyama

Anime: haikyuu

Summary: You never told them when your birthday was, due to having a birthday when school was never in session. And these are the reactions, of when they find out.

Request from @blue-asher: about headcannons of some Haikyuu characters reacting to you not telling them it was your birthday? Like, they could found out from your classmates that same day or reader mentioning it days later.

A/N: Requests are currently open! Go to this post for reference! Thank you for requesting this, I can relate too it since my birthday falls when school is out of session so no one never knew unless told otherwise.

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TSUKISHIMA:

First thing

He would gentle slap you up the head

In an .. enduring kind of way

But also a "hey what the fuck?!" Kind of way

He found out by your friends asking and pestering him what he was doing at the practice gym on this day

He replied back with "What are you doing here? I'm not the only one here,"

And they just stand there like "... He has a point"

But then one blurts out "We already visited Y/N ! And gave her gifts and told her happy birthday! What have you done?!"

Of course

He gets hit right in the face from the ball bouncing off the wall

Realizes that it is practically almost the end of the day and that you never even told.him when your birthday even was

So while standing there, and getting bombarded with questions and scolding by your friends

You walk in

Unbeknownst to the whole conversation

"Y/N-chan! You want us too beat him up?! "

"YEAH HE FORGOT YOUR BIRTHDAY!"

"WHAT KIND OF BOYFRIEND WOULD DO THAT ?!"

They all start shouting and hollering their distaste for the whole thing

And you very calmly

Just walk over, grab his hand and lead him out of the gym.

"I.. I didn't know, I'm sorry, but you never even told me"

*que the light slap up the head

"Well, I never really see it as a big thing. I'm just getting older, and it's just a day of the year. My family and I never really do much anyways, it's not much of a big deal "

He is just standing there 🧍🏼🤦

"Just cuz you or your family don't do anything big, doesn't mean that others feel the same, now come on"

"Where are we going?"

"We are going to celebrate your birthday, now come on. Let's go get food, go to the arcade, and watch the stars above us "

Turns out Suki is a huge birthday person

He did exactly what he said

Got food, went to the arcade, won you a few gifts, and then on the walk home sat at a bench at a park, watching the stars. And pulled out a little cupcake with a candle on top.

SUNG YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY

And he made sure that once dropping you off at home

He marked his calendar and made a mental note of your birthday

YAMAGUCHI:

This shy

Honey bun

Y'all been dating for a while now

Almost a year

11 months

And your birthday was actually the day you both started dated

Thing is

You never said anything or mentioned it 🙃 and it didn't really cross his mind

Till it was your guys one year AND your birthday

He is going over to your house, getting ready, asking Suki if the gift is good enough and if his outfit looks good

And of ALL PEOPLE

ALL PEOPLE

SUKI KNOWS ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY

"Did you get them another gift?"

YAMAGUCHI JUST LIEK " WHAT YOU MEAN ANOTHER GIFT?!"

"Its their birthday today dumbass "

he died right then and there

😀😅😐🙃😱😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Starts crying and panicking

"What.. no ... No ... It can't be .. omg that's why there were birthday cards in THEIR BAG WHEN I ASKED THEM OUT!!!!!!!!!!"

Suki is LIVING FOR THIS

Cackling in the background

"aren't you late?"

Cut to him tripping and fumbling on his way out, completely forgotting about the gifts and card

Gets to you place

And is ASHAMED

Knocks on the door

A very weak knock

You barely even heard it when walking by

"Oh babe! Happy aniv- are you crying?!"

He is practically sobbing trying to hold back the tears and snot

"I forgot your gifts, and the card and food I made. Not to mention, I ... I didn't even know it is your birthday."

Ya got to reassure him that it's okay

You never really liked to celebrate your birthday anyways.

Plus it was during holiday break, so everyone was already doing their thing with families and celebrating

"It's NOT fine, I should have known, I should have asked"

It legit took your parent to tell him that's it's fine and it doesn't bother you one bit

He still wasn't convinced but both of you went back to his place to pick up the things he forgot

"I may not celebrate birthdays that much, but... You've made this one the best. That and we started dating on this day, that's the best gift of all."

His heart exploded and he died right there on the street

Kageyama:

Hear me out

I feel like he would KNOW the month and date

But be forgetful of it at times

He gets so in his head and with volleyball tournaments going on

And that damn flatiwaka in his thoughts

He thought your birthday was NEXT week

Not this week

So imagine his surprise when he is getting some milk

And your classmates rush over too him and start to ask him questions left and right

"What did you get them?!"

"They don't seem none the wiser that you've forgotten"

"God your such a terrible boyfriend"

"I bet it's something romantic, and he just is putting up a facade"

"what are you guys on about?" He asks taking a sip of his milk, eye brows furrowing at them

"God you guys are annoying"

It takes Hinata coming behind him

For him to realize

"Isn't it Y/N-chan birthday today?!" Hinata whispered died in his ear, having him spill his milk everywhere

Even on the classmates

"T-Thats next week ... Right?!"

Their faces

Just dead pan

"So he knows the date ... But he forgot.. "

Que you walking over and man's does a whole 360 change

Grabs you and just straight up starts apologizing

Hinata is living for it but so shocked by how his classmate and teammate just .. is begging for forgiveness

"Tobio.. what what are you talking?!"

"YOUR BIRTHDAY, I DIDNT FORGET I JUST THOUGHT IT WAS NEXT WEEK."

Que Hinata "Doesn't that mean you forgot"

Que flames coming up around Kageyama "What did you say... You little orange head ass!?"

Ends up chasing after Hinata, leaving you standing there with a small smile on your face

"Aren't you upset he forgot?"

"No, I know he is just forgetful and has been planning something nice for next week."

"But your birthday is THIS week."

"Actually it was three days ago, so everyone is wrong. But it doesn't bother me, my family forgets it as well."

Que the classmates Lossing their SHIT

As their losing it

Hinata and Kageyama are running around, Hinata jumping out of his reach and Daichi coming over

"You really don't care?"

"No, but I'm going to go help Daichi before Tanaka gets involved... I can feel him circling around... Waiting."

After Kageyama was scolded and you both walked back to the classes

His head hung low, that pout on his face

"I.. I'm sorry I forgot, I'll make it up"

"It's fine, I'm used to it. My birthday was three days ago anyways, and I got to spend it with you and watch your game and totally destroy the team!"

"Oh yeah, we really di... THREE DAYS AGO?!"

Que you running away giggling

[misanthropiczombie]

Thirty mothafuckin SIX ITS THE END

he's so angry. he lost his sister and her dumb man and wkx is in a coma (who is arguably the only person I think could convince him to chill but he's pissed so he wont) and now he knows zzs is on his last days by his own hand

which brings up SUCH a good point. If he actually dies (which is sort fo doubt for reasons, but) it becomes a Romeo & Juliet story. He posioned himself thinking his lover was dead in a very permanent way, only to find wkx was not dead.

anyways theres something to think about lol

poor chile there is SUCH GOOD found family vibes

im lost again its fine

Oh we're going to Lie about our state of alive-ness again I see

Chengling orphan part 50

eye of sauron??

did he ever find the key tho? asking for a friend

or is he going to demolish them in their moment of glory?

??????????????????????????????????????

He knew it was fake???? He did a whole monologue with his father about it being fake? I am intensely confused

i mean of course he lied to you? you backstabbed him too. There's no truths between liars

its the hairpinnnnnnnn

he mulan's them boy what

WKX as always

TOLD YALL MOTHERFUCKERS

lmao 'of course it was the hairpin you idiot' i love him he's so mad

You're an immortal, the idea is for everyone to die before you, but as always YBI coming to the rescue of everyone else making bad decisions

hes mad that he was going to die alone lol hes so cute

also i feel like you should be able to get the key back. just saying.

why are there scrolls everythere tho. like on the ground

does nobody look at the ground?

the real question is why the fuck is the library kept so messily????? who flung scrolls around everywhere???

oooooo everyone is a sacrifice

new dual cultivation method just dropped: Torture

All The Trust in each other. also this is basically marriage. we get that right?

life for life the actual yin yang method thing

goddamn ybi dont couch that any. your bedside manner sucks lmao

i mean "one bad thing" was like 15 years of being an assasin. thats reall ymore of a long string of bad things?

did YBI also do that but only partially re: his one stripe fo blonde/grey hair? hm

are we cutting to liek multiple years in the future???

IT WAS CHENGLING lmao also i know those arent all his kids but funny to think it

alsoalso how does HE know this story. someone had to come down from, the mountains to tell him.

SORRY WAS THAT THE END? :LKDJF;LSDKFJ:SLDKFJ:SDLKFJ

EXCUSE ME???? WHAT IN THE MERLIN

okay someone said secret last episode so i guess i need to find that now

Word of Honor Liveblogging pt 3

OKAY PART THREE

Episodes 1-16 ⪻⨀⪼ Episodes 17-26

I realized I need to stub out everything if I actually want to make these directional and a new reblog for each episode. ITS FINE.

Anyways, onto Episode 27 and through the last episodes of the series. I'm so goddamned obsessed already.

dramatic xiao playing again. He doesnt eat his emotions, he plays the xiao.

Ye bai ye? oh its both of them lmao

and there's the drop but he really dont look that surprised

BECAUSE HES SMART AND IF WKX HAD JSUT TOLD HIM IT WOULD HAVE BEEN FINE

The fight WKX has been ITCHING for

YE BAIYE so stronk

Man i know im like a fucked up little gremlin, but Wen Kexing looks real nice with some bruises lmao

wkx's devastated look is making a lot of appearances and A) its so good like acting wise B) it's SO GOOD emotional wise

~sword glare~

Anyways I just want to say one of my least favorite things in cdramas thusfar is the plot armor/plot nerf. wkx and zzs both down from one singular blow? for a guy they've fought a few times? ((the wens eradicating all of lotus pier with ZERO casualties on their side?? im still salty)) anyways they definitely could have lasted longer.

ZZS going for the 'i'm not mad, i'm disappointed" route. Fatherhood has agreed with him

EHEHEEEEEEEEEEEEHEHHDF me, hyperventallating into a bag: HE HELD HiS FACEa;lsdkfj no notes your honor

helpless child act lmao i love them i love them brat4brat i love this zhou zishu

she is trying so hard to keep it together just TELL HIM

good for him for sticking up for her.

Nut Bar

br u h is he in the bath. surely they have restored the manor enough for some more individualized rooms. there used to be 81 of his generation

DAMN ZZS "im not good at lying like you"

listen STAB HIM Zhao Jing fucking sucks and you deserve so much better.

KILL HIM KILL HIM KILL HIM KILL HIM i believe in you so hard kill HIM

ope we have vocalized lyrics, something Important is going to happen. MAYBE HER SECRET WILL BE OUT THERE CHRIST

lmao wkx getting chengling (presumably) drunk what a fucking gremlin. ZZS just letting him

gremlin wkx and zzs is doing that dramatic sigh like he hates it except he absolutely does not

[stop-breaking-my-heart-telltale]

hi I’m here to review the Clementine comic. it’s not good.

Does this even need an introduction? You know why I’ve gathered you all here today. You know the comic exists, and you probably know that it’s not great and we’re all upset about it. 

Myself included. I am not okay. At all. 

Skybound could’ve literally spit in my face and I’d come out feeling better than I did reading this comic, because this comic is an insult to the original Telltale games and Clementine as a character. 

This comic is a fancy fanfic. Glorified fanfiction. It’s not canon, and Skybound and Tillie can pretend that it is, but it’s not. Bold of them to assume we’d just accept this from people who didn’t work on the original games and never wrote for Clementine before, and based on this comic alone, any chance of us taking it seriously is gone. 

I’m gonna go through every single page, every panel, of this comic and give you my review. So I guess if you’re worried about spoilers [though at this point why would you?] then be warned, spoilers for the entire comic ahead. 

I also wanna add that I have nothing against Tillie Walden. I know a lot of dingdongs are harassing her on insta over this comic and that’s not okay. You telling her how much you hate her isn’t going to change anything. If anything, you keep being assholes to her and she’s just gonna block everything out, even things simply critiquing her work in hopes that it helps her improve. 

You’re allowed to be upset about the comic and share your feelings about it, but don’t take it out on the actual human being like that. Besides, like I’ve said before, if Tillie wasn’t gonna make the comic, Skybound would’ve found someone else to do. This was coming no matter what because Skybound wants that coin. 

That being said, I’m not going to hold back my opinions on this comic. Skybound and Tillie made this comic, they put it out there and asked for money for it, therefore I’m allowed to explain why it’s garbage as well as ponder over the questionable intent and whether or not Tillie actually has played these games. Y’know, it’s like how I have nothing against Kent, but sometimes he says things I disagree with and well, y’know how it goes. 

Alright, this is gonna be long, so let’s go--

The first few shots we get are of the school, two people sleeping, and Clementine’s empty bed. Nothing super note-worthy, we have no idea who is sleeping in the beds, it’s just there to establish that it’s early and everyone’s still asleep. 

The drawing of the school looks fine? Not super accurate, but I can give it a pass since it’s a few years later, I assume. What I can’t give a pass is how you managed to already mess up on the first page of your comic. 

Because..... why are you implying that Clementine’s room is upstairs? First of all, seems kinda dumb to put Clem, who has only one leg and has to walk with crutches, upstairs. Also, if you’ve played TFS and paid any attention to where her room is actually located [the dorms] then you’d know there isn’t any stairs leading to their floor. It’s the side building next to the admin building, you walk through the door, go down the hall, take a left and their dorm is right there sooo..... 

Oh right, it’s probably done this way so that we can have such a suspenseful moment where Clementine is sneaking out while the others are asleep and her foot makes a creeeeeeakk that could wake everyone up, thwarting her plans of abandoning everyone quietly so she doesn’t have to deal with any consequences. 

Because yeah, Clementine is sneaking out with all of her supplies because apparently, she’s been planning an escape from this place for a while. 

And just look at how gosh darn happy she is about it. You can’t see or hear me, but know that I’m laughing. Don’t worry, I will talk about her abandoning everyone later.

But first, I have a gripe with Clementine's design in this comic. It doesn’t look like her. This art of her right here is the most accurate we get throughout all 12 pages, and it’s the best looking, too. 

Moving on, she slams the door shut while this walker changes faces and hair between panels, so that’s cool. I will say, I like the idea of the Ericson crew putting spikes on the door. That’s fun. 

Though Clementine slamming the door shut while trying to sneak out seems counter productive but it fits with the theme this comic has of inconsistency, so it works. 

Next we have Clementine going to what I believe is the fishing shack by the river, and she’s going through some things that she’s stashed away, telling us that she’s been planning this escape for a while. 

Oh good, she has a map. Well at least now she won’t get lost out there in the woods while she makes her escape... also that last panel with her profile.... why does it look so funny? Like this page of the comic doesn’t look too bad, but there is something off putting about her eye there and how she has zero expression. 

And it turns out that rustle was a walker, and Clementine is super inconvenienced by this and gives us our first piece of witty dialogue.

Yeah you dumb walker, can’t you see Clementine is busy running away from home and abandoning all of her loved ones without a single goodbye so she doesn’t have to witness the consequences of her selfish actions?? Gosh, so rude.

Just a heads up, the dialogue in this comic is stilted, emotionless, and bland. The words have no flow, no charm, and never feel like they should be coming out of Clementine’s mouth. Then again, the upcoming graphic novels this is tied to are for young adult/middle graders so I guess we have to dumb everything down so their baby brains can process it. 

.....Why does her face look like that? Also, interesting that she decided to move her ponytail to the other side of her head.... which is a thing that happens throughout this comic, her hair will randomly change sides. 

I believe it’s a metaphor for her changing and inconsistent personality. 

So yeah, Clementine is just making off with the supplies she gathered [I’m sure Ericson doesn’t need ‘em anyway] and she’s just so gosh darn annoyed at all these small inconveniences bothering her.... because it’s just too early for this. 

.....Again, why does her face look like that?

I’m sorry, like I get it, Tillie’s style is supposed to be purposely messy yet minimal but it doesn’t work. When you do a comic in a more messy style, usually it has charm and heart put into it. Effort goes into the messy look, and when things are minimal, that usually means more clean, yeah? So you put them together and just..... that is nothing resembling Clementine’s face. 

Can we just--

Look at canon Clementine’s face. Look at the way her eyebrows are shapes, how wide her eyes are with her eye lashes. The dirt on her skin, the lines-- there is so much personality in her features. It doesn’t matter if she’s wearing a neutral expression or she’s expressing anger or joy or sorrow or whatever. 

Now, is it fair to compare a model of Clem from the games to the Clem in this comic? Well, I assume that if Tillie is doing this comic, she would use references from the game to ensure that Clementine is recognizable, especially now that she’s no longer wearing her signature hat. 

So why does she look like this? Why do I look at these drawings of her face and see nothing but a pair of eyes, a nose, and a mouth? You might as well draw me a simple smiley face. And I get that it’s a comic, and it’s a lot of work to draw the same character over and over again and you gotta cut corners somewhere, but maybe put some effort into the close up shots of her face so that we can actually see it’s her? 

Other fan artists have made comics in their styles that shine bright with Clementine’s personality, so what happened here? 

Anyway, surprise..... it’s not a walker annoying Clementine. 

........Why does AJ look like that??? I’m sorry, I hate to do the same thing I just did but--

Just because you put Clementine’s hat on AJ that doesn’t automatically make it him. I just.... wow. This feels like there wasn’t a single reference involved, like if someone gave Tillie a basic description of AJ and she just did this. 

But appearances aside, what is AJ saying? He says that he knew it, that Clementine’s leaving and I cannot stand this dialogue. It’s unnatural. Again, I know you wanna dumb it down for all of us because I guess we dumb.... but this conversation does not feel natural. 

“I knew it. You’re leaving.” “AJ....” “I’m coming.”

Even if you changed it to, “I’m coming with you.” it would sound more natural. Hell, he doesn’t even question WHY she’s leaving, he just stands there like “I’m coming” like??? I’m sorry, have you ever heard a single word this murder baby has said? I assume you have because I assume you actually played TFS, right? Soooo.... what happened here?

.....whY DO THEIR FACES LOOK LIEK THAT KSAJDLKJAS:LKDJLKASJD:L--

So now we’re getting into it.... into the bullshit. 

Clementine tells AJ to go back to the school, and AJ says that she wasn’t even going to say goodbye..... and then more bad dialogue that sound unnatural when you try to fucking read it. 

First off.... AJ’s reaction to Clementine attempting to leave is barely anything. Again, I hate to keep questioning if you actually played TFS, but AJ would throw a fucking fit if he caught Clementine out here ALONE like this, attempting to leave. 

And then he says “Like last time? You were going to come back?” this sentence makes my brain hurt. I just.... “Like last time, right? You’re coming back?” UGH

Wow, I feel nothing. 

I’m sitting here watching these two imposters with fucked up faces who are supposed to be Clementine and AJ and I feel nothing. 

I’m not even going to comment on the faces anymore. You can see it. You know. 

So yeah... AJ tells her the #1 rule, and reminds her that she promised.

Y’know.... she promised that she would never leave him again? Remember? At the McCarroll ranch? That flashback that was in TFS? The one you would watch if you played the game? 

Why is she looking straight at me when she should be looking at AJ as she says this? Is this Clementine’s way of telling me she’s sorry for what a shitty direction this is taking? I wouldn’t know because her face isn’t doing anything. Just because you draw a couple of tears that doesn’t mean I’m feeling the emotional heartbreak you’re attempting to convey. 

I don’t have enough middle fingers for this.

Well, my hat’s off to you. Ya did it. Ya fucked up everything single part of Clementine’s character in the span of two pages, I’m almost impressed. 

First off, the baby thing is weird. Why is she calling him that? She’s never called him that, which you should know.

Second, she’s not happy and that’s why she’s leaving. Clementine isn’t happy, and AJ can’t make her happy. Ericson can’t make her happy. So she’s going to go out on the road to.... what, be unhappy by herself? 

I’m sorry, but apparently we need a few reminders here of who Clementine is, because this isn’t her. 

This is Clementine. 

Clementine fought for years to find a home, something she hasn’t had since she was an eight-year-old girl before the apocalypse. The motor-inn wasn’t a home, the cabin wasn’t home, the ski-lodge, Howe’s, Wellington, Richmond, Prescott, none of them were home. 

She struggled for years, dealing with trauma after trauma while out on the road. She went from group to group, watching people she cared about die and she was powerless to do anything about it. Whenever she let her guard down and become comfortable, it bit in her in the ass and left her heartbroken.

She was there when AJ was born. She grew close to Rebecca while she was pregnant, she let herself do that even after everything she went through with Christa. Clementine had a bond with AJ even before he was born, and after Rebecca died, she did what she could to keep him safe, despite play choice. 

She cried when she thought AJ died and when she found him in that car again. She swore to protect him, to raise him right and love him. All they had was each other. 

And when she joined the new frontier and AJ got sick, she risked everything to save him and she was devastated when they took him away from her. When she found out he was alive, she is willing to go as far as helping Lingard overdose [INJECTING HIM HERSELF IF SHE HAS TO] to figure out his location. She did shitty things to find him, she killed people at McCarroll Ranch to find him again. 

Clementine raised him and he is her family, do you understand that? She went to hell and back for him, she taught him how to protect himself, and even though she made mistakes she sacrificed everything for him. She promised him that they would have a home of their own one day, she talked about how much she wished for a world where she didn’t have to worry about fighting and killing and AJ could just be a happy kid. 

She fought for Ericson, she watched her friends die or become mutilated by someone from her past. She allowed herself to be vulnerable enough to pursue a romantic relationship with Louis or Violet because she felt safe with them, felt safe at Ericson because it’s their home now. 

And when Clementine was bit, she thought she was going to die but she still fought to make sure AJ would be safe and happy without her and it was heartbreaking. She’s dying and the only thing she cares about is AJ. Not herself, not what’s going to happen to her after she dies or turns... no, she tries to make AJ smile again, she makes sure he remembers the rules, and she tells him that she loves him. 

Then he cuts off her leg, and she survives. AJ saved her fucking life, and she got to wake up at home and live to see her family again. She got to push AJ on a tire swing, she got to eat a hot meal and laugh with her friends, she got to make plans with her lover/best friend for what’s next for Ericson, and she got to talk to AJ and tell him the truth... and she asked him if she did a good job, and he’s honest with her right back. 

Hell, she tells him to keep her hat. Her iconic hat. The one thing she has left of her father, possibly her more cherished item. She lets him keep it. 

The last time we see Clementine, she’s happy. She’s sitting on the steps by herself, staring at her family with such fondness in her eyes and a smile on her face because she finally did it. She finally found a home where she can breathe. She has a bed to sleep in, she has AJ with her, she has a boyfriend/girlfriend who loves her and who she loves back, she has friends she can rely on. 

Clementine smiles, and lets out a small laugh. 

She doesn’t have to run anymore. 

And now you have the balls to tell me that AJ and Ericson don’t make Clementine happy anymore. 

She abandons everything to go back out on the road again, and that’s proof enough for me that you don’t understand a damn thing about Clementine or her journey. 

“ I don't even know the person I'm talking about... It's like all we have in common is the same name.” 

....Anyway.

Wow, Clementine found a car and kept is stashed. How lazy and convenient for this bullshit plot. 

And this is the part where I have to tell this comic to fuck off. 

What, you think if you throw in an incredibly inaccurate flashback next to a current pair of hugging Clem and AJ that I’ll feel anything but anger? That flashback is a slap to the face. It’s snowing, but the only time we’ve seen snow is in S2 when AJ was a literal new born, so why is he that big? Is that supposed to be from ANF because that ALSO doesn’t look like that AJ, and that’s not the outfit Clementine had on... AND there was no snow. This is cheap and meaningless. 

Any fan of the series who has played through the games could tell you this. 

So.... AJ runs into the woods and then we get this garbage.

This comic is awful. It misses the point of everything TFS, and the rest of the series, stood for. There is no heart here. I feel no happiness in reading it, and I don’t detect any passion behind it. It’s a lifeless comic that retcons everything in order to throw AJ away and start fresh with a new adventure for Clementine that makes no sense because the cow isn’t profitable unless it’s milked. 

This isn’t canon, and it won’t ever be canon, and honestly? At this point, I have no faith in the graphic novel trilogy. It will take a lot to do a turn around from this, and I don’t even know if that’s possible. 

Again, to reiterate, I don’t have anything personal against Tillie Walden herself. She’s just doing her job, and from what I’ve seen of her as a person, she seems like a sweetheart. I don’t want anyone giving her shit because I think the comic isn’t good or that you agree with me. All of my anger is directed at the comic itself, her work, not specifically her.... and a little bit at Skybound, because they’re the reason this is even a thing in the first place. 

So yeah.... there ya have it.