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turtleblogatlast · 5 months ago

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[ cw: trauma / ptsd / violence / brainwashing / ]

I’m not done talking about Raph and Leo yet because you know what kills me? How the beginning of the movie with Raph very angry at Leo to the point of lashing out at him is paralleled with how the end of the movie has the Krang very, very angry at Leo and beating him horrifically.

Both Raph and the Krang are so much bigger than Leo, both have been very angry with him, and both deem him responsible for ruining their respective missions.

To make matters worse, Raph’s body was used to hurt Leo. So it’d make sense for Leo to just…flinch, sometimes. To have his body reflectively brace for a blow that will not come because Raph would see this and just be horrified. Their fights, their roughhousing, their existing together all have a newfound and unwanted extra layer to them.

And Raph? Raph is traumatized enough having been brainwashed the way he was, turned into a monster in a way he always dreads in general. To be made into the antithesis of a hero and instead be a villain’s pawn, made to hurt his own family…poor kid, to say the least.

Can’t imagine what it must feel like, the first time post invasion that Raph gets mad at Leo and they fall into their old dynamic only for Leo to see the Krang and for Raph to feel like he is the Krang.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise raph #rottmnt raph #rise leo #rottmnt leo #rottmnt headcanons #I mentioned this in the tags of my previous post but I had to make a whole other post for it because ow #imagine Leo being more responsible largely because he learned valuable lessons and grew up some…but also because a part of him is scared #and doesn’t want raph mad at him #not really because he doesn’t want to be afraid but because he doesn’t want to be afraid of RAPH #and raph? god raph probably is so terrified of accidentally hurting his brothers - especially Leo #not knowing if at any point he’d be taken over or lose control and ‘wake up’ to find his little brother beaten at his feet #he’d probably be simultaneously so SCARED of being separated from his family and accidentally losing himself…#…and also so scared of being CLOSE to them and not knowing if he may be used to hurt them #god these kids I think about them all the time #like the trauma of it is just…oof #Leo was very very brutally beaten by both the Krang AND a Krangified Raph #and no matter what he may want the body and mind remember these things #Raph’s body and mind were taken over and used to hurt those he cares about #he always strives to be someone his brothers look to as being safe but what can he do when he doesn’t even feel safe from himself?#god these kidssss

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youkaigakkou-tl · 4 months ago

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New key visual!! 🎉🎉

Premiering on OCTOBER 8TH!! 🎉🎉

For 2 consecutive cours!! (24 eps)

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Full voice cast has also been revealed:

Abe Haruaki: Ryouta Oosaka

Sano Mikoto: Ryouta Suzuki

Maizuka Mamekichi: Reo Tanie

Hijita Koutarou: Taito Ban

Zashiki Beniko: Akari Kitou

Nyuudou Rensuke: Akira Takano

Utagawa Kuniko: Hana Ayasaka

Akisame Tamao: Yuki Sakakihara

Yanagida: Tomokazu Sugita

Mujina Yakumo: Takao Mitsutomi

Fuji Touya: Saku Hyuga

Renjou Yuri: Nanako Mori

Miki Rintarou: Shun Horie

Hatanaka Izuna: Ryouta Iwasaki

Principal: Jun Fukuyama

Takahashi Akira: Shouta Aoi

Yamazaki Makoto: Tomoaki Maeno

Marshmallow: Chitose Morinaga

Little man: Tetsuya Yanagihara

#youkai gakkou no sensei hajimemashita #a terrified teacher at ghoul school #yohaji #anime news #WAHOOO 2 COURSSSSS (PUNCHES HOLE THROUGH LAPTOP)#canada ramble time:#now u may wonder. why do i go surname-given name for characters but given name-surname for real people #i guess its bc theres precendent for the real ppl for it to be that way??? like on wikipedia and on the news and stuff #real answer im just a indecisive little bitch #morinaga chitose congrats on being the one returning va from the drama cd!! and being promoted from regular mandragora to marshmallow lmao #ALSO SHES A TAKAHASHI GIRLIE SHES SO FUCKING REAL. SHE GOES TO THE POP UP STORES FOR TAKAHASHI MERCH #fujis va does crossdressing (or like androgynous-dressing) thats so cute........u gotta check out his instagram #renrens va: (talking abt how reliable renren is)... but even he has a lot going on... i was shocked when i read it in the manga... (ehehe)#also u may be wondering why ive been radio silent. its bc whenever i think abt translating the va comments i immediately pass out #and then i wake up and find out 3 new va comments have been released and then i pass out again

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aethersflood · 1 year ago

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-- "It's plain she cares for you very deeply." -- "And I her. Which is why I had to let her go."

#joshua rosfield #ffxviedit #final fantasy xvi #jote #ffxvi #i have so many feelings!!#i think it's really interesting that jote and joshua have never had an equal dynamic in their relationship #jote has been a protector of joshua's since she was little #even before he regained consciousness she was caring for him #the undying weren't sure he would ever wake up and when he did they must have been so afraid to lose him again #the undying in general are really fraught with their approach to the rosfields and the phoenix/the all-too-willing self-sacrifice #joshua never stood a chance of having a normal childhood regardless of where he grew up #and presumably jote also grew up in the undying so she has never truly experienced a peer to peer relationship with joshua #as soon as joshua woke up she was helping him to stay well and accompanying him on his journey #and in this scene she can't imagine not being by his side #she's scared for his safety but also probably very lost #what does she do with her life now? where does her energy go if not to protecting the phoenix?#i wonder about how jote and joshua feel about each other romantically #i know that they may not feel that way toward each other at all #the romantic shipper in me would like to think they do #it's just such a complicated and special and tender dynamic between them

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sadlynotthevoid · 5 months ago

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I'm not sure if I told you guys about the time I dreamed that 20ish Jason Todd died yet again and Death was pissed off because "really? Again? Wtf Batman. The universe doesn't keep reviving your son just so you can see how much he lasts!" And "He has a work to do you know?!". Besides, she's fond of the bright young soul.

So, she calls her uncle to help him. And what you know? Her uncle is the God of Death (because yes, my brain is like that sometimes). They sit to talk and come up with a solution.

First, taking advantage of the effects still present of the last time-space crisis and the spirits protecting the soul, they regress the time of this universe to when Jay had just left All Caste, way before he had came back to Gotham.

Then, Death places Red Hood!Jason's memories on the soul of his younger self. Not too harsh to force his soul to crack, but not too light to let them fall. Just deep enough so he finds them when he meditates.

And by last, God of Death tells the spirits where they should guide the boy to. The perfect place for him.

Where is the best place for a soul who craves for home and safety? Of course, that's with someone who has the heart to care and accept a new loved one and the determination to protect them.

That's how Jason Todd, teenage assassin in an existential crisis, ends up waking up in the softest bed he has ever been in some foreign country. At his side there's a redhead teen sitting in a sofa, a book in his hands and other boy— this one with black hair and pajamas— lying on his lap.

The redhead— Cale, as he presents himself— is mysterious but kind hearted guy. He also knows things. So much so that if he weren't as he is, Jason would suspect. As things are, he knows he's just used to collect information. A bit like a bat, but not quite. A bat would plan how to use it against the possible enemy. Cale? Well, he doesn't even bother to hide what he realized about him. He's also ridiculously casual about it.

Who offers an assassin if they want their hidden weapons back? This guy, apparently.

Jason only knows he's not totally unconscious because at one point an old guy entered with tea and pastries for the three and Cale, the little shit, choose that moment to reassure Jason.

"Don't worry. My butler is an assassin too and we don't treat him different for it."

The old geezer almost let got the porcelain teapot to the floor. Though, points for him for recovering so fast.

"Young master? May this Ron know who you would be talking about?"

"Hm? Who do you think? Hans? The only thing he can kill is Rok Soo's humor. It's you, obviously."

"..."

Rok Soo, the sleeping beauty complex guy pretending to be asleep on Cale's lap, was sweating badly. If everyone in the room weren't already aware he was clearly pretending, someone may had thought he was ill.

Later on, he realizes there was a reason Cale had said that at that moment.

He's looking at the butler subtly terrorize the boys to behave, treating the siblings like two particularly mischievous puppies. Then he turns around and uses the same tune to advise him to be careful with his wounds. And that's when he thinks 'Oh. He doesn't see me as a menace'.

Of course he doesn't. His employer just confirmed he's aware of his identity— at least partially— and his own nature. The biggest advantage of an assassin is their secrecy. After their identity is exposed, the only reason they won't attack is if the assassin believes the risk is worthy. Telling the assassin he knows he's an assassin was his way to show Jason's own intentions: none.

Jason didn't intend to end up in that field where these teens find him. He didn't intend to be brought in their vacation house. He definitely didn't plan that the people to found him passed out would be whoever these rich guys were.

But he didn't have anything against all of this either.

Well, maybe the wound. He could make it without the blood loose and the soon-to-be scar to add to his collection.

Either way, at least he had a safe place to stay and think. Just think. Because, the memories he saw— what is he supposed to do now that he has his answer?

His da— Bruce. Bruce didn't care for him as much as Jason does for Bruce. Bruce obviously didn't love him as he thought. And certainly, Bruce was way more willingly to harm him than he believed.

And Jason— well, Jason couldn't waste a second life on a man who didn't put hin even at the same level than the Joker of all people. But maybe his expectatives were too high? He hadn't planned what to do if his life was meaningless to him.

So, Jason needed time. Time to ponder and heal. Those things are better done in a safe place.

That's what Jason has in mind when Cale offers him to stay with them.

#lcfxdc #jason todd #original cale henituse #og cale #og cale henituse #kim rok soo #ron molan #Jason Henituse AU #jason gets adopted eventually #the day jason tells them about his death is the day og cale calls ron #“hey. i have a job for you if you're interested”#“young master cale. this ron is not your butler anymore”#“who said anything about that? i mean your other profession”#choi han alver and everyone in the background: shocked pikachu face #“the joker. do you know about that bastard clown? i need him dead”#next day jason wakes up with gotham on the news and cale looks suspiciously pleased #alver pretends he knows nothing #because that ugly circus slender man sounded like a living nightmare #killing what? he doesn't know #don't you think the air feels fresher today?#choi han helps distracting batman #most suspicious distraction ever #and where was rok soo? you may ask #dumbass got injured and had jason looking over him #the spirits are like shining colorful balls of soft light #or bubbles #jason didn't know they were there until his trainment with all caste #but they tend to follow him and the other two around #rok soo is a henituse too #he was adopted when he was young and the Henituse (deruth/violan+the kids) traveled to korea

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lokh · 2 days ago

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also i think if roleswap laios and canon laios met theyd immediately start fighting.

#canon laios would blurt out 'why do you look like our dad' and fisticuffs ensue.#shuro........ is a little more complicated #if canon shuro doesnt think too hard about it and just treats the other him like a stranger then theres no problem #on the other hand i imagine he holds himself to high standards and if he sees his other self doing things he considers improper or uncouth.#i imagine hed only speak up if he saw it happen A Lot like hed pull him aside like hey... what the fuck #thered be a bit of 'holy shit i woulda turned out like THAT??' on both sides #roleswap shuro would often get frustrated but i think hed understand that like. thats how the culture is like he lived it too #but i think similarly hed watch laios steamroll og shuro and eventually be like. DUDE. just say something #shorter fuse lmao. anyways still turning this AU over in my head #how much more forward can shuro be before hes unbelievably out of character...#and what if they switched universes!!!!#if laios switched. it would be immediately obvious something is up in the og universe but it may be chalked up to like #a weird mood..... though maybe the party starts to wonder 'hey... is it not possible this is a shapeshifter' 😭#but og laios in the roleswap universe...#tbh havent thought too hard on what the party dynamics in that universe might be like assuming all else is the same save for the roleswap #i imagine chilchuck would still get on alright as long as hes being paid upfront and laios is still attentive/ recognises his abilities #and limitations also. marcille................................... hmm #she might treat him more formally and be less close.... may perceive him as more threatening at first meeting #(in terms of like. 'taking falin away' i mean if that makes sense)#but well. u kno how in canon laios Does notice a lot of things about his companions and has a very pragmatic view that surprises them #and they dont tend to notice until he says it aloud because its often overlooked cos of his. everything else.#well. id imagine roleswap laios still notices things but simply would not say it aloud.#the party would also be like .. dude... did he hit his head #if SHURO swapped...................... well it depends when exactly it happened #i imagine it could be a bigger issue with the retainers #im losing steam cos my lower back hurt so bad adgfsdfg i cant get a good position on this chair #but for shuro himself i imagine it would be nightmarish lmao.#roleswap (henceforth RS) shuro would wake up as an adult with the retainers like. ??? was that all a dream?? did i never make it out #meanwhile og shuro ending up god knows where..........#if he ended up with the retainers again he might not immediately realise somethings amiss and try to act normally

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uncleardyn · 3 months ago

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(alan wake-gravity falls crossover) man i love that character. you know, the deeply paranoid author who made a pact with a dark entity that ultimately ended with him stranded in another dimension separated from his loved ones for years at a time? takes place in the pacific northwest? has twin imagery associated with him and a reoccurring specific piece of symbology related to the unfortunate situation they're in? doesn't ever explain the reasoning behind his actions and instead just kinda goes "bro trust me"? yeah he also wears an outer layer of clothing with elbow pads on it, that one.

#my art #stanford pines #alan wake (the man)#ford pines #gravity falls #alan wake #remedyverse #SAtT au #i am. normal about the crossovers i make up.#what do you mean the esoteric weird horror game about stories and the disney cartoon about family dont have a shared audience. sounds fake.#anyways the comic on the right is in honor of a joke i had to scrap in my fic wip due to a perspective switch.#rip that joke i thought you were pretty funny. i like the idea of alan critiquing his own manuscript pages upon the events happening.#oh i should probably do a warning since theres that crunchy image of the aw2 alan death screen huh. uh #blood #aw2 alan death screen my beloved. literally made me go ''oh god'' out loud in shock and horror when i first saw it #anyways did you know theres an au to this objectively already an au crossover. i call it ''bill cipher gets sent to the shadow realm''#bill doesn't show up a lot in this au he gets one scene where he taunts ford abt alan being a danger #with the implication that the dark place/presence genuinely freaks him out. but in this self indulgence of a self indulgence #alan essentially manages to trick bill into swapping places with him and bill ends up trapped in the writers room/the dark place.#lmao get yötön yö'd idiot. YOU are aleksi kesä now.#also i like the idea of zane and bill meeting as well as door and bill meeting. i think they might scare bill a little bit.#just like how zane scares me <3 what a cool character what the fuck is his deal #also you may be wondering why alans in his aw2 look and not aw or awan look despite the fact that lines up closer #to when gravity falls happens-ish. well the answer to that is 1: the crossover uses a lot of the elements from aw2 #and 2: i like alans long hair and suit and beard. i like the pathetic sopping look when his hair is in his face

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clotpolesonly · 9 months ago

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Blue Lily, Lily Blue ch 31 // Mister Impossible ch 19

#ronanedit #trcedit #Ronan Lynch #TRC #quote posts #if it didn't happen all the time BEFORE it certainly does AFTER #which is a deeply deeply disturbing thing to just get dropped casually in the narration and then never mention again #where did he put all of these corpses? what did he do with them?#is there a back field that serves as a graveyard?#what tf does this do to him emotionally? when he dreams about his loved ones (which we know he does frequently)?#you're telling me just.....kills them??? and then sometimes wakes up with their fucking doppelganger corpses???#when the line between dream and reality is so so thin for him experientially #he may know it's not real technically sort of but it FEELS REAL that's the whole dreamer shtick #that it HAS to feel real in order to BE brought back #these are real corpses #seriously i cannot get over this i don't understand how this can just be tossed in there and never mentioned again or followed up on #it's genuinely horrific and disturbing

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sn0wbat · 1 year ago

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well what family doesn't keep a secret vampire family member hidden deep in in the basement /s

EDIT: Rest of the comic is now under the cut!

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BONUS:

#first fullpage comic in my new sketchbook woooo 🎉#poor rune. accidentally hibernated for 20 years and he didn't even do it on purpose.#you can tell by the fact that he went to nap in his freakin pajamas #as you do when you go to sleep #but then this time he just. didn't wake up. and his family assumed it was on purpose. so they just let him???#oops?????#yes munch is a surname that's been used in norway - especially in towns that had historically had contact with german merchants. fun fact #so while his dad was originally literally a windenburg townie from the sims 4... it still works #oh yeah the way i am handling language in this comic. do keep in mind it is set in norway and the canon language is actually norwegian #so while any dialog usually gets masked with english so you may actually understand wtf people are saying #text on objects do not get translated. because they're a part of the world and stuff. it's the way people see them. that makes sense right #(don't even get me started on my complex relationship with written norwegian. long story short: it is a pain)#EDIT: now with the full comic under the readmore

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scalproie · 10 months ago

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Kazuya's ending was amazing firstly bc Look At It but also bc it validated a thought I've always had in the best way possible for me.

Sure, Jun wants to save Kazuya, she wants to free him of his devil gene and I'm sure she wants for him to stop fighting his own family and to stop causing so much pain in the world, we can assume as much bc Jun is a Good Person™️. But other than that? I don't think she wants to change, let alone "fix", a damn thing about him.

"How can she love Kazuya? He's a monster" Very easily actually. I should know bc I love him.

"So she's just as bad as him then?" It depends. Is Jun actually a bad person for loving someone who causes pain to others? Or is she actually an angel incarnate for still loving and wishing better for the one person that everybody else has given up on? Kindness to some is cruelty to others after all, and vice-versa.

"It feels very unbalanced and one-sided" She indulged him. She caught the statue and smiled at him. Do you not believe she is strong enough to handle him? That because of how she is and how she looks, she cannot hold her own against him? That because she is kind and he is not, they do not stand as equals? Why is that?

"So they'd just fight? He still threw a statue at her" He also keeps a framed picture of her in his office. Why would Kazuya keep a memento to think of her when she's away if he didnt enjoy her company? She indulged him, but he also indulged her with this little bit of sentimentalism.

"Why would Kazuya even like her?" He literally said why. His life is nothing but conflict and battle, and he detests weakness. Conflict is familiar. So how could he not enjoy the presence of the one (1) woman who challenges him in every way, physically and morally, from the very first moment they met? And Jun doesnt just "keep up" with him, she is his match in everyway. The literal Yang to his Yin. She is strong.

"She still deserves better." Yes she does. I dont think she'd want better though.

Also ever since my friend said they have the same smile my life has not known peace.

#boss make a dollar I make a dime I write kazjun essays on company time #also if we also take jun's ending in consideration. even in her dream-that-may-be-real he still suckerpunched jin #and when she wakes up in the cold. she has a g corp blanket. and g corp has only ever been associated with kazuya #anyway hi jun is amazing i love kaz so much and i do nothing but win #tagging later #tekken

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fiveredlights · 2 months ago

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this might be the post surgery drugs talking but i believe everyone will get what they deserve and max will be showing up in australia for christmas this year with at least 12 dirt bikes for daniel and they’ll live their best aussie summer holidays forever and daniel will be so so happy and we will also be so so happy

#im achieved a beautiful state of delirium right now i think my third eye has opened #as chappell roan said my kink is karma and may everyone get what they deserve #my third eye also is saying somewhere matthew and callan are real and i do believe that #there something post canon that isn’t in the fic but does happen afterwards that will make so many people feel feral and that’s my goal #i never claimed they were smart i mean look at them matthew grew up on max and daniel he was screwed from the beginning #okay i will sleep now and when i wake up in the morning i have a feeling i will be so confused

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call-me-pup2 · 2 months ago

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On the train zooming! Might as well have wore a scuba suit with the weather though, going to go charity shop hunting for a cute waterproof trench coat so with me luck!

#Soo technically I didn't wake up till 9pm yesterday so the lack of sleep isn't a huge issue buttt I may have drank a bottle of wine #😶#technically with me sleep being flipped it isn't bad right?#tispy pup on an adventure!#imma be so sociable in the shops which is so off for me 😅😂#my dad would be proud #(my dad's an alcoholic)#is a joke #you can laugh #dark humour ahahaha #sort of grump i hid back in myself when i wasnt single #now i feel like i can post silly stuff again #what the heck brain #he did indicate he was a lil controlling (a reason i yeeted out of there) but he didnt outright say i couldn't post stuff #pup brain in a scramble egg #may haps have a lil drinky drinky with me in a bottle #im a big kid #im safe #a lil reckless behaviour is fine right?#i say out of all the things i could be doing to cope this is pretty tame right #ooo pups really going off showing that mental health side huh?#ahahah #im so normal and definitely not the problem #also yes he was the abysmal dicking but no that isnt way i yeeted myself out of there #well the lack of noticing i wasnt enjoying it/begging me to give consent again sort of was but shhhhhh #if you read all this i understand if you decide to unfollow 😂#also why do i feel more me in genral again #like i love being called they/them but he only ever called me she even after i talked about why i like they #sort of shitty he did but why did i just accept it and forget how comfy they them makes me #she is fine too but i pup not just a she

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tetzoro · 4 months ago

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happy sunday friendz ෆ may you rest up today ! drink lots of water, unclench your jaws, & be gentle with yourself as this week comes to a close (✿ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)⁾⁾

#as much as sundays scare me ( usually later in the day ) i just love waking up in bed without a lick of plans #sat is always busy no matter what but sunday truly is the calm before the storm + i love it #(again. i will not be saying this around 7pm LMAO)#anywaaaay !#lounging around the house today and working on my mootie sleepover ! !#i used to do so many lil games on my old blog + id like to bring that energy here #taps chin #also …….#i kinda wanna redo my tagging system #is that crazy #LMFAO #i built one for my personal blog and they are 10x cuter than these and i’m like :T ! !#so i may slowly update them over the next week + i’ll reblog the tag post when it’s done in case anyone needs to block certain ones #finally will make my daily yap one cute + aesthetic . FINALLY !#i almost said may the force be with you (qimir on the brain) but LMAO #may you all have a wonderful + peaceful day #sending out much love #₊˚⊹ ᰔ xoxo aims #ヾ( ˃ᴗ˂ )◞ — ✩ daily yap.

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fallenrain40 · 5 months ago

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im like, nonbinary in an agender way. agender in a "im actually just a canine" kind of way. genderfluid in a "well I don't always 100% identify with the label, but since my identity is constantly changing it fits me in a broader sense"

#gender #its confusing to explain to others but it makes sense to me #i WOULD use agenderfluid but the problem is SOMETIMES i do have a gender. but like 95% of the time I am probably agender #that other 5% is fight between nonbinary in the sense of “secret third thing” 100 different xenos and a girl.#nonbinary #genderfluid #agender #xenogender #like genderfluid i think is the most important one to TELL other people i am #so they wont be confused when i wake up going “mmm yes this is a Rock day i identify as a rock today”(they may still be confused but yknow)

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itachanta · 2 years ago

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