#i make oc's and then they get thrown into the void which is my gallery

[claudtrait]

wait she actually has lore and a backstory??? denny gives one of her many oc's ACTUAL LORE????? *NOT CLICKBAIT*

[rielzero]

Cleaning up my deviantart gallery can go from a quick organization task, to an addictive ‘’ok lets just do a lot’’ task.

I basically remove old pieces from gallery, by deleting them. No worries, I still have the original files on my drive. I don’t permanently delete my own work, I just remove old and outdated stuff from viewing, to make my deviantart more recent looking and presentable.

Since I do love these 3 particular pieces, I just wanted to make a blog post about them.

The 1st Image, as seen above is called ‘’Looking for ghosts’’ its from June 2019, late in that year I managed to draw again. I literally hadn’t drawn from around summer 2018 to somewhere in May 2019, all though I did draw FAIRLY little, and mostly sketchbook doodles.

I had been on hiatus as a result of depression reaching its peak. I do not remember 2018/2019 very well, unfortunately. But honestly, its also peaceful not remembering it. It was a very dark time for me. And I feel much better not living in the past of it.

I still need to redesign Moon, the OC depicted in this piece. I made this when I was still figuring out photobashing for backgrounds. It was the first of its kind, I think. Hence, its importance to me.

Most 2019 drawings are gone from my deviantart by now.

This drawing is titled ‘’No Suprises, Kenshin.’’ Which was supposed to be a cover image of a short comic I wanted to make to practice drawing comics. It ended up being thrown into the trash as my lore was still being developed for their world, and it is shelved for the time being as I’m working on Man Made Fire.

It was made in late 2019, when I had my confidence back. And published in late january, 2022. I still think this shows some of the things I should practice more today. Which is character interaction and reactive expressions. The idea of the comic was to explore a character gimmick, were Kenshin’s lip would curl if he was hiding something. Usually a surprise or gift, which annoyed his girlfriend. Mizuki has the sixth sense to detect if someone is being dishonest. She’s not a living lie detector by any means, but she can sense something is up or being kept from her. It sets off her alertness, and as a wilderness demon, Mizuki being on high alert is stressful for herself.

I do need to redraw this sometime soon. On the to-do-list you go?

The last piece is, ‘’Double edged blades that talk for you’’ which is a piece based on one of my ‘’poems’’ They’re not really poems, but more written like song lyrics. Unfortunately since I have neither a voice, or a musical talent of any sorts, that is what it remains to this day. A lyrical poem that is not sung.

I like this piece. This was the first? Drawing I did of ‘’vampire riel’’ or just an alternative more pale version of my persona that looked more tired and had red eyes. The Halloween doodle I do every year.

He does have his own separate gallery and refsheets now: https://toyhou.se/7705074.riel-zero/8703178.sven-salvatore But in 2020 he was just a doodle of my OC persona looking quite different.

One particular note of this drawing is that I was starting to improve on the chin/ear parts of my facial anatomy. I was slowly starting to get a better grasp on hairline and eyebrows. My style does look quite different now. I was still using design doll for a lot of my artwork in 2020. I haven’t used that software after getting used to clip studio’s 3d models better.

That’s about everything I have to say, I think. It’s good to empty my mind and just write. I feel relieved? Or some sense of peace. Perhaps Tumblr will be a good place for these kinds of posts. If not from someone else, mostly for myself. Like an online diary in the internet void. 

Perhaps people will look at it and and see some kind of ghost of me in the far future. Dunno. I just want to leave some of my thoughts online. Somewhere. I fear being myself openly, because I info-dump and have too many thoughts.

The poem has the same title as the drawing, below.

''Speaking in Blades'' (by me)

Worry later, for the night is made for dogs Soundless they’ll sniff you out Tugging on your clothes Have you got the gold? Ask me how, ask me when I’ve got nothing on me but silver knives Meeting death glares in their eyes

Entranced, but never here to last Stick around, surely next morning its gone Wonderful melodies that don’t sing quite along They’re talking lonely, speaking in absolute Like Double-edged Blades that talk for you

Crush on the moon, crush on my very soul Lie to yourself and take a pill Oh so innocent, something you’ve got to kill Before it underestimates everything you own Everything you are, everything you will-

Oh, oh no

Worry for naught, worry for no wonder Playing in the dark, dance underwater Swimming in drags, drenched with their livelihood Bloody brides and torches alight Cross the border, we’ve got ghostly dreams Asking for things, oh so many things But I’ve got nothing but my silver knives

Entranced, so many that never last Stick around till dawn has left its only hour Wonderful melodies that you can devour They’re speaking lonesome, singing in absolute Like double-edged Blades that talk for you

Crush on the moon, my lonely soul Lie to myself, it's a choking mood No one’s innocent, murderers in disguise Take it all, leave nothing alone Before you can’t even keep all you own Isolated, leave nothing alone Singing songs, very desperate ones

Keep me tied to the ruse, the lies, the coldest blues I’ve got nothing but silver knives, threatening Jade eyes Like double-edged Blades that talk to you

Lonesome Melodies, and tales of blood