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Jump Then Fall CS55 Part 2
Pairings: Carlos Sainz x childhoodbff!reader
Summary: In which he realized that it has always been you.
Warnings: none, pure fluff
Part 1 Part 3
Carlos Sainz was just 7 when he met you for the first time, his new next-door neighbor. He remembered the way youâd stood there, small and uncertain, a hand clutching the hem of your dress as your parents introduced you. Heâd given you a big, toothy grin, thinking you looked a little lost. From that day on, the two of you were inseparable, spending every moment you could together. Whether it was riding bikes, playing soccer in the park, or inventing silly games only the two of you understood, Carlos knew youâd always be by his side.
One golden afternoon, the two of you were at the playground, taking turns pushing each other on the swings. Carlos could see the joy on your face as you laughed, your head tilted back, eyes shining in the sunlight. Something about that moment made him pause, a weird, fluttery feeling stirring in his chest. He didnât understand it, but he liked it.
âBet I can swing higher than you!â he shouted, hopping onto the swing next to yours.
You laughed, challenging him back. âNo way, Carlos! Iâm going to win!â
The two of you raced to see who could go higher, each laughing louder and louder as you tried to outdo each other. Carlos didnât care if he won or lost; he was just happy to see you smile like that.
But then, in the midst of all the fun, he noticed you staring at him with this faraway look. He waved a hand in front of your face, grinning. âHey, are you even listening to me?â
Your cheeks turned pink as you stammered something, and he couldnât help but laugh, wondering why you seemed so flustered. You werenât usually like this; you were usually the one to tease him! But he liked this side of you, too, even if he didnât understand why it made him feel⌠strange.
âCome on,â he said, reaching out his hand, âLetâs go get ice cream. Loser has to buy!â He grinned, watching you roll your eyes and accept his challenge. As you both ran off to the ice cream shop, Carlos felt that same warm feeling again, lingering, making him realize how much he loved moments like this. He didnât know it yet, but these simple memories would be some of his most cherished, ones heâd look back on years from now, as the start of something he couldnât quite name.
By the time high school rolled around, Carlos had grown accustomed to that fluttery feeling in his chest whenever he was around you. He told himself it was just because you were his best friend; after all, youâd been there with him through everythingâgood and bad. But there was something else, a longing he didnât fully understand, a wish he kept tucked away in the back of his mind. He was afraid that if he acknowledged it, it would change everything between you.
He didnât want to lose you. So he stayed quiet, kept his feelings hidden, and tried to be content with just being your friend. It wasnât always easy, especially when he caught himself watching you from across the classroom or noticing the way you laughed at his jokes. Sometimes, he wondered if you might feel the same, but he was too scared to ask.
One afternoon, the two of you were walking home from school together, chatting about nothing in particular. Carlos noticed the way you tucked a loose strand of hair behind your ear, and his heart did that strange flutter again.
âDo you ever think about the future?â he asked suddenly, not even sure why he was asking.
You looked at him, surprised. âSometimes. Why?â
Carlos shrugged, kicking a pebble on the sidewalk. âI donât know⌠I guess I wonder if things will change. Like, if weâll still be friends.â
âOf course we will!â you said, sounding so sure it made his heart ache. âWeâve been friends forever, right?â
He forced a smile, trying to shake off the feelings bubbling up inside him. âYeah, youâre right. Weâre like⌠inseparable.â
For the rest of the walk, he stayed quiet, lost in his thoughts. He knew he wanted to be more than just friends, but he couldnât risk losing you. So he buried his feelings, hoping that somehow, being close to you would be enough.
Carlos didnât think it would hurt this much, but the day he introduced his girlfriend to you, he felt an odd pang in his chest. Heâd met Isabela a few months ago, and she was everything he thought he wantedâconfident, funny, beautiful. But the moment he saw the look on your face as he introduced her, something inside him twisted painfully.
âThis is Isabella,â he said, trying to ignore the way his voice sounded too bright, too forced. âSheâs⌠well, sheâs amazing, isnât she?â
You smiled, but he could see it didnât reach your eyes. âYeah, she seems great,â you replied, but something about your tone didnât match the words. For a split second, he wondered if you felt the same way he did. But he brushed the thought away; it was probably just wishful thinking.
The weeks that followed were strange. He saw less of you, but every time he was with Isabella, he found himself thinking about youâwondering what you were doing, if you missed him, or if you even cared that things felt different. There were nights he stayed up, wondering if heâd made a mistake, if he was hurting you. But he was too scared to ask.
One day, as the two of you were walking home from school, Carlos finally worked up the courage to say something.
âHey⌠are you okay?â he asked, keeping his tone casual.
You smiled, but there was a sadness in your eyes he couldnât ignore. âOf course, Iâm just tired.â
He didnât believe you, but he didnât push. Maybe it was better this way, he told himself. Maybe it was better if he never knew how you really felt.
The breakup with Isabela hit him harder than heâd expected. One evening, he showed up at your door, feeling lost and alone. He didnât even need to explain; the moment you saw his face, you pulled him into a hug, holding him tight.
âItâs okay,â you whispered, your voice gentle and soothing. âIâm here for you, Carlos. Iâll always be here.â
Carlos clung to you, feeling a mix of relief and regret. Heâd been so focused on someone who didnât truly understand him, while the one person who knew him better than anyone else had been right in front of him all along.
As you comforted him, he felt something shift between you. He wasnât sure what it was, but he knew he was grateful for it. In that moment, he realized how lucky he was to have you by his side, even if he wasnât ready to admit the feelings bubbling up in his heart.
After the breakup, Carlos found himself looking at you differently. He started noticing the way you laughed at his jokes, the way you knew exactly how to cheer him up, and the way you always seemed to understand him in a way no one else could. A thought began to creep into his mind, one he couldnât shakeâmaybe, all this time, youâd been the one he was looking for.
But he was still afraid. Afraid of ruining what the two of you had, afraid of losing the friendship that meant everything to him. So he decided to keep his feelings hidden, admiring you from afar and hoping that one day, heâd have the courage to tell you.
Because deep down, he knew that love, the kind he felt for you, was worth waiting for.
#carlos sainz#carlos sainz imagine#carlos sainz x reader#f1 fanfic#f1 imagine#f1 x reader#formula 1#carlos sainz x female reader#carlos sainz x y/n#carlos sainz x you
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hi!! this isn't a hate ask, just a genuine question.
i have a quite a few jewish mutuals and my personal knowledge of a typical holiday season for jews is very limited.
i know i could go to google and stuff but i thought i would also ask a few blogs who are jewish.
i'm a minor and i go to a catholic school, so my lack of knowledge about judaism has a bit of a reason ^^"
tldr; the question here is how do jewish people celebrate around the typical holiday time? (november/december, sterotypical xmas season for people who celebrate)
So around the christian holiday time there's a single Jewish holiday- Chanuka.
The Jewish calendar is not consistent with the Gregorian one every year, but this year chanukah will be between 25th of December and January the 2nd
Chanuka is a Hebrew word that means "the celebration of the establishment of a new house, factory or other building"
In the case of the holiday, that building is the second temple
The story of Chanukah is beautiful, but if you want the TLDR:
After the conquest of Alexander the Great (refered to as Alexander from macadonia), the Selucid empire controlled Israel. At first they were tolerant of the Jews in the area, but when Antiochus the fourth came around, he imposed a much worse rule, including disallowing Jewish customs and Jewish bible learning, and making the temple Ta'meh (not kosher for sacrifice)
In the city of Modi'in, a resistance grew, and after many battles, they won the fight against the Selucid empire, even though their forces were much fewer and less trained, And established the second Jewish state
The legend says that when they got to the temple and tried to relight the Menorah there, there wasn't any oil good enough for the task anywhere there - only a single beaker of oil with enough oil to light the Menorah for a single day. Regardless, when they tried to light the Menorah with it, G-d made a miracle happen and the beaker lasted for 8 days, enough for new oil to get to Jerusalem
There are various customs of hannukah. Most refer to the oil beaker part for... Ancient political reasons we won't get into right now, but they include eating fried foods and lighting up the Chanukiya (which is a replica which is legally distinct from the Menorah so that it won't be a sin to make it)
There is an ambivalent custom - playing with a dreidel, which is a gambling game with rules I don't remember. On the dreidel 4 letters appear. In the diaspora - × × × ×Š which is an acronym for × ×Ą ×××× ××× ×Š×. - a great miracle happened there. In Israel the acronym is × × × ×¤ which is an acronym for × ×Ą ×××× ××× ×¤× - a great miracle happened here. In some places, that miracle is the establishment of the state, in others it's the oil beaker
There was a custom inspired by Christmas which is to share chocolate coins with the children on Chanukah. In the diaspora this becomes more and more like Christmas with gifts given on the holiday, while in Israel that custom is, as far as I can tell, slowly disappearing
There is one custom which is definitely war related and not oil related, which is children making re-enactments of the story of Chanukah. It's not very common, but I remember it fondly from my youth
Chanukah has many songs also, which I will translate in the coming weeks so stay tuned XD
If you have any more questions, ask away!
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I'm going to make fun of so many peoole who don't like veilguard. Because....
Veilguard is the spiritual successor to Dragon Age 2
Inquisition is more like Origins, and I would call it the spiritual successor if it wasn't sufficiently lacking in other areas
Now there are dumb fucks out there who only like origins or only like inquisition. It's their entire personality when it comes to dissecting the dragon age games.
I like dragon age a lot because each game is a different genre. Origins is depression melodrama. 2 is a comedy that loves to stop and punch you in the gut every now and then, and shows the prime time when your friends are more your family than blood is. Inquisition is... A political thriller that happens to have magic (and the ugliest graphics. Bruh why is everyone but like three people so deep in the uncanny valley. Why is combat boring). Veilguard is getting to see what it feels like to inherit a situation outside of your control, it's more like an underdog story.
"it has cringy dialogue" and you don't remember origins? You think bioware doesn't dish out cringy dialogue for each game?
"the art style-" is STYLISED. Origins is good looking for graphics that feel outdated for 2009. But it's not realistic looking. 2 had it's budget slashed viciously so it does look wonky especially with their cameo characters. Inquisition, as I've said, feels deeply ugly because there is nothing stylised about it. They went for realistic and now everyones inquisitor is kinda ugly, sorry. People enter the uncanny valley, they always look better in concept art. The three prettiest people we have is Dorian, Cassandra and Josephine. Everyone else enters the uncanny valley of WEIRD looking. It's busted and I'm sorry. Veilguard? Fuckin stellar stylisation. The art, the environments, the magic, is so goddamn pretty.
"you cant control your compa-" yes you can. You can make them attack. Why are you sad about missing out on inquisitions boring combat where you press R. Wow. Amazing.
People have rose tinted glasses for these games. Play them from the first to the last game and I'd say veilguard is FULLY one of the best. I saw some loser on tiktok scream about the iron bull's signature being EXPLAINED in text and not shown?? Saying 10 years and for what?
10 years for a play through, start to finish, took me 55 hours doing ALL of the quests and exploring. From the amazing character creator and the hair physics that inquisition, 2 and origins could never make work. From the beauty of the backgrounds, how each location feels deeply lived in, compared to inquisition where new environments felt plastic and not real. For a finale that had me crying for 20 minutes at the choices I made and knew would make again. For the reveals, for the conversations, for the natural ending for Solas. I only cried in origins after my warden died. I teared up at Hawkes mother dying. Inquisition got no tears from me.
I'm sorry that you're hung up on small details. I have complaints too. Maybe a better fantasy term for trans and non-binary, but honestly the conversations that we're able to have about them? Deeply lovely. I personally wish that one day we can go back to the origins start, where we spend around 20 minutes IN our origin and then go frolicking. I'd kill to see that with the mourn watcher and crow origin so we can be excited when we see them again when we revisit the important NPCS. Personally do want the Lucanis romance to kick off earlier in the game, but he is one of the hardest ones to romance for good reason and it made sense for the character. I miss importing decisions but to be fair, the choices I made in origins wouldn't have shown up that much in veilguard, except maybe Kieran being in the background of some scenes at a stretch, but mostly for inquisition and Hawke. Varric obviously sees a lot of Hawke in Rook (just look at the dialogue wheel) and I wish we got to hear Isabella talk about them.
But these are so little. I have way more complaints about inquisition but I will still play it. I can acknowledge the flaws but if you hold it, or origins on a pedestal, that's just embarrassing for you, that you're stuck on a game, instead of being stuck on the series, in an excellent fantasy setting that keeps being expanded on.
Veilguard let's us say goodbye to Solas in the best way. There was NEVER going to be a happy end for him. Stop deluding yourself that the inquisitor and Solas would have rode off into the sunset. It's frankly embarrassing that themes from inquisition and veilguard flew over your head if you beloved that.
I've seen this same anguish over a sequel and it was for 2, after origins. Now 2 isn't the perfect game. It doesn't even have a proper title. But 2, a decade later, is well loved. It's full of jank, it's got strange coding, but the story has a lot of love. But it wasn't origins, so fans wailed and pissed. But it's a fan favourite these days and Hawke is deeply beloved and remembered fondly to the point that the possibility of their death in inquisition made an impact.
So, basically, get over yourself. None of these games are perfect and yes it took 10 years but I love it. I get to play as a crow for the first time, a faction I've loved since Zevran was able to rizz himself out of being killed. You can play as a Warden again, for the first time since Origins. Griffins are back and they're adorable. Their quest is heart breaking and anxiety inducing. You can play as new factions, ones we didn't fuck around with before, the shadow dragons, the mourn watchers, the veil jumpers. We get several amazing romances, that feel in character. Everyone is bisexual again but have clear preferences. Bellara has a preference for women, Emmerich has a preference for men, Lucanis has Never being in relationship. Taash and Harding might get together, Lucanis and Neve might get together. We get a companion that's trans, we GET to be trans for the first time. In inquisition we have krem but the developers never thought we would want to be trans, so I will happily take what we can get. Could it be better? Always. But I'm not stuck in 2014.
Take off your rose tinted glasses and go fuck that old man and maybe you'll lighten up.
#hey#this#wasnt supposed to be this long???#i just saw shit that got me annoyed#oh well#veilguard is a good game deal with it and piss about not getting to play ur stupid inquisitor again somewhere else#dragon age#dragon age veilguard#dragon age veilguard spoilers#quinceyeasyspeaky
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Um. So. I may have gotten stressed and started transcribing FEHâs story mode. Might currently have all of book 1 written down. Perhaps a third of the way into book 2.
This started as a way to have the preface chapters handy since theyâre not replayable. But then I looked on the FE wiki and saw that they only have a small fraction of the chapters written down. And that scared me, because means that my hyperfixation has a nonzero chance of becoming lost media if the app were to go down one day. So now I have all of book 1 in my back pocket, including the preface, two intermissions, and the two relevant xenologues. Once Iâm further along and have a few more books accounted for, I have no problem making the document public. But until then I encourage others to also write some of its content down. Just in case, you know? Especially those prologues and Tempest Trials.
With that PSA out of the way, omg book 1 hi!!!! Itâs been forever!!!!
Apparently, I havenât reread book 1 in its entirety since I first played Heroes! Iâve gone back to look for specific scenes and replayed the levels on harder difficulties (self inflicted or otherwise), but I havenât done a thorough second pass before. Which was news to me, because that meant I was consistently blindsided by scenes and characterization that I completely forgot about! Did any of you remember that Zacharias was apparently Alfonse and Sharenaâs childhood friend? I didnât! But there it is, chapter 7 part 5 after battle cutscene, Anna specifies that aspect of their relationship. Thatâs crazy! How does the timeline even line up on that??? If he spent his childhood in Askr, how did he manage to have a strong relationship with his significantly younger sister? How did he find himself rubbing shoulders with enemy royalty? Could he have inadvertently met Peony? Iâm not changing my takes on his character, but I would love to know.
Speaking of character, apparently seven years spent writing a character naturally changes how they sound! Who would have thought. It made seeing the book 1 versions of our Askr trio a little jarring, but in an oddly nostalgic way! This was a phase of the game where the story, its characters, and its world existed with the singular purpose of introducing new players to what Heroes was trying to do. Which was, at the time, being a cute yet unobtrusive gacha app tie in with simplified FE mechanics to give you that gameplay fix on the go. And to its credit, it does do a good job of this! It ainât a masterpiece, but I was charmed by its emphasis on showing off all these cool characters you could go summon. Ryoma gets to talk for a few lines and you are going to look at his very pretty art! But that meant that the world and characters of Zenith take a bit of a backseat. Theyâre not here to be too complicated. The Order of Heroes are the friendly faces that go on adventures and meet these heroes that you can summon for only $19.99. But we all know where the game and its story is going to go from here. That emphasis is going to wane as FEH grows into its own identity (and also earn IntSys over $1 billion worldwide).
But thatâs a later development. Before that fundamental shift is where book 1 sits. Itâs in this fascinating position where these characters have yet to solidify into their recognizable forms. And if you donât believe me, chapter 9 part 4 has a scene where Sharena and Alfonseâs roles have reversed. For once, Sharena is posing the cautionary âwhat if the information we are getting from this total stranger is a trap?â, to which Alfonse responds ânah Iâm getting a vibe that itâs fine and that we should believe him whole heartedly.â Like??? Huh???? Itâs Bruno, but still, thatâs hilarious! Alfonseâs pragmatism bordering on paranoia hasnât established itself as a massive driver of his character yet. Nor has Sharenaâs role as trusting emotional core and moral compass of the group. It was very easy to borderline Mandela Effect it into being there, but it isnât. Not quite. There are hints, sure, but once again these characters were initially made to be simple at the time. The depth doesnât quite exist yet.
It wasnât until I was writing this very paragraph that it finally dawned on me why the Askr trio voice lines, especially Alfonseâs lines, are such a big deal. That's where Alfonseâs character arc with trusting Kiran resides. There's the pragmatism we know and love! Itâs not super present in the text of book 1, but the depth of these characters can be found in the voice lines you unlock from building them and earning the crown jewel level 40 conversation. Thatâs where Alfonseâs arc with his self isolating behaviors crumbles at that sight of one silly tactician. Thatâs where Sharena finally wins a fight against her own loneliness by forming genuine friendship with this stranger form a strange land, who is appreciative of her loud eccentricities. Thatâs where Anna apologizes about her initial underestimation of Kiran, thanks them for being more reliable than she could have ever hoped for, and swears that whatever hell may come their way, theyâre in this together. The books themselves donât seem to reflect this characterization until book 2, where they overall act more in accordance with the rest of the narrative. Itâs as if they're taking from the voiced linesâ example and extrapolating more on the story they imply.
The one standing in slight contrast to all this is Bruno, as he's the most interesting character in book 1. It's blaringly obvious he's Zacharias, but it's genuinely amusing how deep he is in his own gaslighting. He can't manipulate, mansplain, manwhore his way out of this one folks, but he's certainly going to try! His lies aren't even that good, but it honestly contributes to how at wits end he is. Like, sure honey, I totally believe you that you just killed Zacharias. I bet he has an eight-pack too. Just take a nap for two minutes. But then everyone believes him because our protagonists have yet meld their group braincell. Overall, an amusing time.
I don't have a particular point I'm trying to make with this one. Just having a fun and pointing out the things I've noticed. Might give a little update for every book I complete. However many that will be.
#feh#fire emblem#fire emblem heroes#Feh Ted Talk#alfonse#feh alfonse#fe alfonse#fe anna#fe sharena#feh anna#feh sharena#feh bruno#fe bruno
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Ok so first of all - this is crazy that it was about 50/50 all the time. Sadly it shows how much Security Breach fucked up (I have watched the interview with Dawko - it's still sad that they don't do something to fix it (the story) up still). Like, I'm not gonna make a pool about it but there are probably as many people who think Vanessa has a twin when to me it's just when Glitchtrap takes control?
Now, what do I think about it? To me, he's not William.
From the beginning (Help Wanted), it's been intentionally unclear: is he William? It's a trickster, a malware for sure. But then somehow it seems that a lot of people missed that his keysmash talking is actually copying the tape girl's voice (thanks to an-archaic-archivist for showing me this video???). Which is the first hint that he is the mimic. But then from Dawko's interview, Scott speaks as if Glitchtrap & The Mimic are two different characters - which I really don't like the idea of because they have the exact same motives and capacities. Putting two different villains one after the other with the exact same characterization is.....not a good horse to bet on? It's confusing and unnecessary. (DISCLAIMER. When I talk FNAF, unless specified I'm only talking from a game point of view I am never talking about the books and I will not.)
But anyways!!! Here's my theory from when I tried to crack Glitchtrap!! :)
If you know me, you know I love Princess Quest Glitchtrap. It is a very particular form to give to a character that is a malware mimicking, isn't it? The Princess Quest games all depict floating rabbit heads as enemies, and in the end, you meet an amalgamation of them, with one head that is more aware and in controlâGlitchtrap.
And, you know, to find answers you're just gonna go looking at the stuff you've already seen, already know, that might be similar in one way or another. I don't remember what exactly made me think about the Funtime Animatronics but that's where I went. The question of why Circus Baby is also Elizabeth but the others aren't.
When you get under the desk on Night 3, you hear Circus Baby talking and not Elizabeth. You can notice they're not always speaking as one. Circus Baby telling you how Elizabeth died: "I would always count the childrenâ Iâm not sure why. I was always acutely aware of how many there were in the room with me. [...] A little girl, standing by herself. I was no longer... myself, and I stopped singing. My stomach opened, and there was ice cream. I couldnât moveâat least, not until she stepped closer. There was screaming for a moment, but only for a moment. Then other children rushed in again, but they couldnât hear her over the sounds of their own excitement. I still hear her sometimes. Why did that happen?"
Elizabeth as Baby in Pizza Sim: "You played right into our hands, did you really think that this job just fell out of the sky for you? No. This was a gift, for us. You gathered them all together in one place, just like he asked you to. All of those little souls, in one place, just for us, a gift. Now we can do what we were created to do, and be complete! I will make you proud daddy! Watch, listen, and be full."
But Funtime Freddy and the others don't do that. You know, it almost feels like... they're alive. Well that was the point, wasn't it? They're alive but stuck under their coding. Just like when Baby could not disobey the rule of counting the children. From Pizza Simulator we find out what exactly the SCOOPER is and with that, that the Funtimes were all brought to life with remnant, some sort of amalgamation of children's souls, to snap more children's souls.
In Circus Baby's case, 1. she was brought to life by remnant and with this many souls it seems that they all lose their consciousness to one the robot's coding, adopting the robot's coding as their personality. But then 2. when, she killed Elizabeth, this one went to haunt the robot creating a """two people one body kind of situation""", they're both aware as Circus Baby and Elizabeth.
And yeah, this makes me think a lot of Glitchtrap in that case. Because Glitchtrap might be just that. Remnant. An amalgamation of souls. But this one didn't get a robot to 'get their personality' so to speak. So they're dormant. Until they get awakened by being accidentally put into a VR game. They don't know who they are, or what they are. Their whole world is literally just FNAF games at this point. So they get to choose. They don't have a sense of right and wrong. They're choosing the most powerful figure in there: William. They mimic him. They don't realize what is wrong, they're proudly guiding the player on their own level (Pizza Party) to show them their crimes (William's crimes that they reclaimed as part of the mimicking).
They're in a game. When you die, you restart the level. Until Jeremy. They realize the beta testers can actually 'log out' and they have a way bigger world. So they want out. But those beta players get away and never come back (because he's dead). So they gotta step up the tricking game. So they mimic a voice.
And then it works! So they pretend to be Vanessa. They get to be Vanny. They order Vanessa around. And it fails! They get trapped and need to attract someone from the outside - they mimic Gregory. The plan almost succeeds. They mimic Roxy.
When I posted this piece, I saw some people with DID thought this was about DID, and I was not thinking of it, I was thinking of my theory - and I did say (afterwards or before can't find the post) that I'm honored my art gets interpreted in some ways I didn't think of it before. It's actually very nice but most importantly good for you. You deserve to feel linked to characters you like.
Anyways..Scott hit me up I have ideas I can share if you ever feel like you're stuck.
im curious, actually
(rb for a better reach pls)
#fnaf#fnaf theory#glitchtrap#i hope everything makes sense sometime i have an hard time putting my thoughts into words thats why i draw more than i write fr
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The Boys in the Band
ok... I am extremely sick and extremely stressed about the current state of the world so I wrote a few things to make me feel better. also if you think of a better name for the girl's band lmk cause I am not entirely sold.
Summary: the boys start a band called The Marauders
cw: sorry i am not good at these but there is swearing, drugs/smoking, and mention of vomit
Word count: 2.6k
James was quite hung over. More hungover than he had been in a long time. He felt as if someone cracked one of the many bottles he finished last night over his head. He needed a cigarette, possibly another shot.
He made his way through the mess of a hallway, bottles and plastic cups lying around, he was sure someone's puke was streaming down the wall. He canât remember half of the party, he remembers playing Sirius in some drinking game and losing, snogging some brunette whoâs name he canât recall and her being eager to go back up to his room, and lastly, he remembers Lily walking into the kitchen, her friends in tow, not seeing James or maybe just pretending not to see him.
He couldnât blame her really, he knows he fucked up. He knows that she was angry with him, and that she may never speak to him again. And that would be fine, if thatâs what she chose. His head started spinning, he couldn't be thinking about all that right now.
He decided to seek Sirius and Remus out. He shared this grungy, tiny apartment with his two best friends, and they were quite happy indeed. All three of them scrounged up every penny they could to pay for the place, living from paycheck to paycheck, but he wanted to do it with them. He would rather struggle with the people he loved most than sit comfortably in his familyâs wealth alone.
He entered the living room to find Sirius laying face down on the couch, not moving. Remus was in the armchair next to him, hunched over his knees, hands over his eyes.
âNice to see Iâm not the only one who looks as shit as they feelâ James announced to the room.
Sirius, face still in buried the couch, mumbled back âSpeak for yourself, loverboy.â
James rolled his eyes and threw his gaze to Remus who leaned back in the chair and shrugged. James knew it was Remus who invited Lily last night, he knew they were still friends. He couldnât blame Remus for inviting her, but it would feel a lot better if they wouldnât then bring it up the next day.
He shook his head and made his way to the balcony, opening the door and stepping out into the refreshing cold. He brought a cigarette to his lips and flicked the lighter once, twice, three times. Why the fuck wasnât it working? He heard the door open and close behind him, then Sirius lighting his own cigarette and tossing the lighter to James. Thankful, James lit his cigarette and took a long drag.
âHow you fairing?â Sirius asked from beside James, looking out towards the city beyond.
James chuckled âI feel like Iâve been hit by a train but no worse than last time.â
Sirius smirked, now looking at James âI meant about seeing her, mateâ
James would rather be anywhere else right now, with anyone else, talking about anything else. This is not what he wants to be confronting while trying not to throw up or pass out. He just shrugged. That is all he could manage to do.
Sirius nodded, understanding that he didnât want to talk about it but there was more to talk about. New revelations were made at the party last night.
âWell uh⌠I have some great news, and some not so great news. Which would you like to hear first?â Sirius asked, taking another drag of his cigarette.
James groaned. Too early. Too hungover. Too emotionally drained for bad news. âThe great news please.â
Sirius smiled. âWell, we have a gig tomorrow night at The Common Room. A couple bands were selected for a sort of festival for local bands and artists.âÂ
Jamesâs mood instantly lifted. This was amazing news. They had amassed a good sized fan base who were very loyal and dedicated to The Marauders. When he performed, he really felt the rockstar live that they were chasing. Needless to say, the gig will be a success if they are able to reach other fan bases as well as their own.
âThatâs great!â James exclaimed. He was ready to rehearse and prepare for the upcoming night. What could the bad news possibly be? âAnd⌠the other news?â He asked Sirius.
Sirius turned and took another drag of his cigarette, delaying the news. âWe have the final slot, weâll be the last band to perform.â He said. James was just waiting for the bad in that. That's actually great news. Headliners.Â
âOk?â James said, confused.
âThere's a band going on right before us,â obviously, James thought. âAnd uh⌠it's a new girl group that Lily put together.â Sirius finally got out.
Oh⌠he was going to have to perform right after⌠Ok well, he wanted to be a professional didnât he? Things like this happen all the time. He just, never expected that she would actually do it. They talked about it a few times but he never⌠he never took her seriously. Perhaps this is just another hobby that she wants to take up that she will inevitably get bored of like painting or knitting, she has a habit of that. Or maybe⌠she's doing this to get back at him in some way. Great.Â
âAlright well, itâs fine. Iâm just excited to headline. Right?â he said to Sirius who was relieved. James wasnât a wreck or angry.
âExactly mate.â
⌠. ăâş ă . ⌠. ăâş ă . âŚ
The boys were ready. They had practiced all day yesterday and today, not to mention all the gig experience they already had. Mind you, they were mostly used to bars or parties or the occasional opener for another small local band, nothing like this so far.Â
They walked in through the backdoor entrance of the venue. The Common Room was on the older side, but a lot of people had performed here, it was sort of a local legendary spot. James was ecstatic. He remembered coming here with his parents when he was little to see live shows. He saw his first real concert here with Sirius and Remus when he was about 14. This place held so many memories for him, and he felt that it was quite a full circle moment.
They walked through the halls backstage to get to their dressing room. They opened the door and saw countless guitars and cases. Hair curlers and products scattered in front of the mirrors, makeup tossed everywhere, clothes strewn about the entire room. The boys looked around, but they were the only ones in there.
James found the one area that seemingly wasn't already taken. All the bands must be sharing the room.Â
Sitting on one sofa in the back corner, the boys rolled a joint and started smoking it, their pre-gig ritual.Â
Remus passed the joint to James and looked to Sirius. âDo you know the other groups performing tonight?â he asked
âNo?â Sirius replied. âI donât actually know everyone ya know. Just a lot of people.â then took the joint from James.
âI just mean,â Remus paused. âI donât know if your brother is here or not.â
Siriusâs brother Regulus, was also in a band. Another quite popular local band. Their style was more indie and underground compared to The Marauders' bold rock style. The snakes, they were called, something that drove Sirius up a wall for some reason. Everything Regulus did affected him like that and vice versa.Â
âHeâs not.â Sirius said a bit too fast. Trying not to sound jealous.
âBut Lily is here? Right?â James asked, trying to take the attention off of Siriusâs brother and maybe make him relax. Remus just nodded and looked to the floor.
âWhat are they like? I mean⌠would they even be good?â Sirius asked.
Remus sighed, feeling uncomfortable for being but in the middle of Lily and James. âThey're pretty good I think, I mean they're here too right? Just like us.â
âI didn't know any of them sang. Lily is pretty good but Mary and Marlene? They don't strike me as singers.â Sirius said matter of factly.Â
âThey have a new girl with them. Sheâs the singer.â Remus replied.
A new girl? With them? Lily, Mary, and Marlene had been attached at the hip for as long as James could remember. That's why it was so hard to ask her out in the first place, he could never get a moment alone with her.
âShe was at the party, I talked to her for a few minutes. She seems pretty cool, I just don't know what direction they are going to go.â
âI guess weâll see.â Sirius said smugly, there was no chance that they were going to come close to The Marauders tonight.
⌠. ăâş ă . ⌠. ăâş ă . âŚ
The boys decided to watch the other bands for a while in the wings. There was some great talent, and each group had a small following there at the venue. The boys already recognized some of their fans in the audience.
They were going to watch the rest of this bandâs set, then make their way to start getting ready for their own. That was the plan anyway, until James couldnât move. The current band finished and walked off after taking a bow. James just had to catch a glimpse of Lilyââs new band. He stood firm even when Remus was trying to pull him away, saying they needed to go.
The lights turned to a fluorescent pink and red, and some fans started cheering. James just needed that one look.
And there she was. Lily, Mary, and Marlene took their places on stage at their instruments, and following was⌠you.Â
James had never seen a more confident and vibrant young woman. He had of course seen Lily, but something about you just screamed performer, entertainer, star. The whole vibe of the audience seemed to have shifted at your presence. All of you were wearing short black sparkly shorts with tights verrying in rippedness, and black Doc Martens. You all were uniform, except in the color of your bralettes; Marlene in black, Mary in pink, Lily in purple, and you in red. You all looked feminine but with an edge.
You waved to the crowd. âHello Common Roomâ you drawled. The crowd cheered and screamed, waiting to hear your music. âI am so happy to be here and share our very first performance with you lovely people.â you were charming the crowd, almost unintentionally, but there they were waiting for what you would say next. âBefore we begin, Iâd like to introduce you to some of my friends. Here on guitar, we have the lovely Mary MacDonald!â The crowd cheered and Mary played a little to show off her skills. âNext we have Miss Lily Evans on bass!â again the crowd cheered and she too showed off a little. âFinally, this is the beautiful, the extraordinary, Marlene Mckinnon!â She too received a round of applause and showed her skills on the drums. âAnd I am Y/N and we are The Pixies!â
You went into your first song of the night and the crowd was loving it, they were dancing and enjoying the set. The same could be said for your second and third songs. You had the crowd going, the energy bouncing around the room. You changed to a ballad for your fourth song, showing off your vocal range.
Your fifth and final songâs intro started and you decided to work the crowd a bit more. They were seeming happy with your performance so far, so you decided it was time to poke a little. Have a little more fun on stage.
âAlright for this text one, I want to see all the girls, gays, and theys dancing and letting loose!â The crowd went wild. âAnd I wanna see all the boys go to the back of the room.â There was cheering mixed with some confusion. âIâm serious, I wanna make a dancefloor for all my friends so⌠shoo.â you said, determined. There was a lot of cheering and giggling while the crowd shuffled. âThat is much better. This next one is called Red Wine Supernova, I hope you like it.âÂ
You stared walking and dancing around stage while singing;
She was a Playboy, Brigitte Bardot
She showed me things I didn't know
She did it right there, out on the deck
Put her canine teeth in the side of my neck
I'm in the hallway waitin' for ya
Mini skirt and my go-go boots (uh-huh)
I just want you to make a move
So slow down, sit down, it's new
I just wanna get to know ya
Guess I didn't quite think it through (nah-uh, girl)
Fell in love with the thought of you
Now I'm choked up, face down, burnt out
Baby, why don't you come over?
Red wine supernova, falling into me
(Let's pick it up now)
I don't care that you're a stoner
Red wine supernova, fall right into me
You walked up to Lily and started to sing with her and she would reply:
I like (I like) what you like (what you like)
Long hair (no bra) that's my type (that's right)
You just told me, want me to fuck you
Baby, I will 'cause I really want to
I just wanna get to know ya
Guess I didn't quite think it through (nah-uh, girl)
Fell in love with the thought of you
Now I'm choked up, face down, burnt out
Baby, why don't you come over?
Red wine supernova, falling into me
(Okay, y'all, let's pick it up now)
I don't care that you're a stoner
Red wine supernova, fall right into me
And now, You Mary, and Lily were all centerstage singing and dancing your hearts out:
Well, back at my house
I've got a California king
Okay, maybe it's a twin bed
And some roommates (don't worry, we're cool)
I heard you like magic
 I've got a wand and a rabbit
So baby, let's get freaky, get kinky
Let's make this bed get squeaky
Baby, why don't you come over?
Red wine supernova, falling into me
I don't care that you're a stoner
Red wine supernova, fall right into me
The applause that followed, you never would have imagined. This performance went off without a hitch, Mary rushed over to you bouncing up and down, saying how well you did and how proud of you she was. You four bowed and waved to the still cheering crowd and left the stage. You all immediately broke into conversation about how well it was, you lovely you all sounded, the atmosphere, mostly talking over each other and running from sentence to sentence, but you all felt like you just ran a marathon, there was so much electricity surrounding you.
The giggling and excitement lasted another few moments until you heard the last group enter the stage. They had just as much support as you if not more, there was a lot of screaming and cheering. You wanted to see what the deal was.
You made your way to the wing of the stage and peeked out to see three boys, taking the applause. They were what a typical boy band looked like to you; young, attractive, fit boys who played their instruments very well. You lingered, listening to them warm up on their instruments, showing off for the crowd. You definitely caught some girls in the crown blushing and flirting with their eyes. Who were these guys?
âHello ladies and gentlemen, we are The Marauders.â
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Revisiting Catelyn's chapter, and I've been finding the way that she reflects on her childhood in Riverrun (and while *at* Riverrun, watching over her dying father) rather interesting, in particular her relationship with Brandon. When Jaime speaks to her about his death, and she begins to tell him of how Brandon was on his way to Riverrun when he heard about Lyanna, she notes that "telling it still made her throat grow tight, after all these years." And later, after Jeyne comes to her for advice, we have this passage -- âTell me what I should do. Catelyn might have asked the same, if her father had been well enough to ask. But Lord Hoster was gone, or near enough. Her Ned as well. Bran and Rickon too, and Mother, and Brandon so long ago. Only Robb remained to her, Robb and the fading hope of her daughtersâ -- where she counts Brandon as one of the people lost to her, along her mother, and children, and Ned.
What level of depth of feeling, of emotion do you think there was between Brandon and Catelyn during their betrothal (speaking from Catelyn's end of things)? I find these passages a bit curious and they seem to hint to me love, though her POVs also don't quite give us glimpses of any sort of emotional or physical intimacy between them (by physical I mean even something at the level of the kissing games she played with Lysa and Petyr)?
Thank you for taking the time to share your insights with us!
Catelyn was betrothed to Brandon for around five or six years during a significant portion of her young life. As the dutiful daughter of a House whose devotion to duty is literally reflected in its dynastic motto, Catelyn was raised even at 12 to â[thank] him [i.e. her father Hoster] for making her such a splendid matchâ when this betrothal occurred. While I doubt Catelyn and Brandon met very frequently during their betrothal period, his apparent companionship with Jeffory Mallister may suggest that Brandon traveled in the Riverlands in the years before his death, and consequently spent some time with his fiancĂŠe during this time; I doubt Brandon and Catelyn would have been left unchaperoned or allowed to engage in any remotely indecorous conduct, to be sure but these may have been opportunities for the two of them to exchange some courtly pleasantries. Brandon was also personally good-looking, wild in both rage and mirth in a way the young Catelyn clearly found attractive.Â
Given all that, Iâm not surprised that Catelyn would have developed some level of romantic feelings toward Brandon, and would have held onto those feelings for the rest of her life. Brandon had been her politico-dynastic destiny from the age of 12 until roughly about the age of 17 or 18, a man she had been encouraged to love as her future lord husband. Moreover, to Catelyn, Brandon may have seemed quite the catch - the handsome, dashing young knight or de facto knight, heir to a great castle and title, who dueled in her name for the honor of her hand. With Brandon dying young and tragically from Aerys IIâs tyranny, Catelyn never had the chance to become disillusioned with Brandonâs infidelity (and almost certainly never knew of his sexual relationship with Barbrey or his potential bastards), or to have to manage his emotionality day to day; Brandon could remain idealized in Catelyn's mind as her first fiancĂŠ and love.Â
Which is not to say, of course, that Catelyn never loved Ned. If neither Catelyn nor Ned had been raised to anticipate marrying the other, both understood the politico-military necessity of doing so during Robertâs Rebellion; more importantly, each also came to understand, appreciate, and ultimately love the other on a deeply personal level. Catelyn might have always remembered Brandon, but Ned was "her Ned", her husband, "the man I loved, the father of my children".
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Gods I feel you I'm only 10 hours in after having received the game as a gift and I REALLY try to like it but it just ... doesn't feel like Dragon Age. Characters know stuff they shouldn't know about, the game keeps talking down to me, nothing I did in the previous games mattered, the tone is completely different, the mature storytelling of the previous games seems to be missing so far & what I heard so far of how the lore and the characters from previous games have been handled is honestly the worst part and breaks my heart. idk even if i wanna finish the game at this point anymore, I'm just kinda ... sad.
I'm so sad and disappointed, too, I remember our conversations, fics, and headcanons about DA! We were so excited and happy, because Inquisition, DA2, and DAO were genuinely well-made and aimed at pleasing the fans, despite their faults.
DATV is a good action game, no doubt about that. The combat is fun, there is a lot to explore and discover, and many locations are beautiful, even though some are terrible to navigate (Dock Town's structure makes no sense). But that's it - it's a good action game with the name "Dragon Age" pasted on it. It doesn't feel like it's part of the series, it constantly treats the player like an idiot, some references to past games and characters are literally hidden in the brief descriptions of the mementos, and there is even a Glossary to make sure the new players don't get frustrated.
Everything is safe and aseptic, cleaned of every deep piece of lore that could have scared new fans into buying or continuing the game. Even the banters lack the depth of the previous games.
A good game company should lure new players in not by rejecting their past entries, but by making them look even more interesting with their sequels.
Bioware wasn't afraid of offering piece of lore after piece of lore in Inquisition - it was a game set in a precise moment, whose prologue was directly tied to the events of the previous game, and new players had to accept this if they decided to buy it and play it. If they liked that premise, all that information and those details, then they were more than welcome - they were encouraged! - to go back, try the older games, and see how it had all started. It was a game made for the fans the company had already managed to win over, not for possible fans who may or may not bring new money in.
In DATV the new players can jump right in after quickly learning who Solas is and what he's trying to do, and old fans are left with an empty shell, with minor references that are supposed to make us feel happy and accomplished peppered here and there, while all our past choices and our favorite characters are forgotten or brought back with a terrible case of amnesia. It's lazy, infuriating, and very sad, and it smells of reboot, because the new devs probably realized they couldn't keep up with the amount of lore and choices the series contain, and they needed to start anew.
#da:tv critical#andauril#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#and at this point i also agree with those who criticized the art style#because while some zones are indeed beautiful#the style is absolutely nonsensical#the Grand Necropolis looks like a Disneyland theme park#the characters' facial expressions are even worse than inquisition's#everyone either smirks even when talking about death or stands holding their hands on their belly#the qun symbol and main colors are present in minrathous' architecture - why???#the dalish are suddenly okay with their gods being tyrants and no one is ever called a shem#oh and their magic is also magic technology now#all electricity and 'pathways'#the warden fortress in rivain has fereldan and chantry banners - why???#the wardens aren't associated to either of them#taash's mother makes no sense#there are no parents under the qun#she is her tama at best#but even then since she's a follower of the qun she shouldn't let taash call her 'mother'#also taash saying the qun isn't a prison#my sibling in andraste... if you try to leave you're declared vashoth or tal-vashoth and seen as a traitor#the elven uprising implied in trespasser also never comes to pass#'when the slightest unite a giant will rise'#uh-huh#where are solas' agents? abelas and his sentinels? why aren't they panicking over solas' sudden absence and his failed ritual?#what a mess
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Lucanis Romance Spoilers Ahead
Okay, I thought I was done ranting about this but the more I think about it the more frustrated I get.
I understand that Lucanis' romance was supposed to be a slow burn. I am a die hard slow burn girlie. But this was not slow burn.
In order for something to burn, there has to be a spark, or a flame. 99 % of the time when you pick the heart option when trying to romance Lucanis, it's more of a general expression of concern towards a friend, and it's not reciprocated with anything that could be considered romantic either (usually).
I am FINE with the fact that there isn't a kiss scene until the end, I don't care about that at all.
They said in their promotional material that Lucanis is a romantic. I didn't feel much of that to be honest. Yes he makes you dessert and remembers your favourite drink, that is sweet, but there's very little going on in that department besides that.
In contrast, I just watched the scene where Neve and Lucanis admit their feelings for each other and TELL ME WHY I had to grind away for 50+ hours of this game to get even a trickle or a hint of romance and in a 1 minute scene another companion gets more overt romantic interest from him? (This is not a Neve hate post btw I love her character). You see more of his personality and awkward charm in that one scene than with any when it comes to Rook until the very end of the game.
You're telling me a romantic assassin from ANTIVA doesn't have a single scene where he even calls you 'Amor' or 'Cara mia' or 'Tesoro'. Like, homie... what?? They made the Necromancer from uptight and bureaucratic Nevarra more romantic than the ANTIVAN ASSASSIN? (as a side note I am loving Emmrich's romance and as I'm playing through it it just reminds me of how badly Lucanis got shafted).
Not to mention on the battle field he doesn't change any of his dialogue in combat to reflect the fact that you're in a relationship, in contrast to Emmrich telling you things like 'well done my dear!'
Idk man, this on top of having no real conversation after him being made First Talon and the stuff with Caterina that feels like you're in a relationship and not just his good friend.... just so disappointing.
Sorry guys.
I love Lucanis. He's still my favourite character. I don't hate his romance. I just feel like there wasn't enough there for it to be satisfying.
The ending scene was lovely, and it's probably one of the very few scenes were I feel like Rook and Lucanis are together and not just friends.
I'm going to go write bad fanfic, make some shitty drawings, and make gifs of Madeleina and Lucanis to cope.
#datv#datv spoilers#lucanis dellamorte#lucanis x rook#I'll stop ranting about this one day#but the hurt is very fresh right now lmao#dragon age veilguard#dragon age the veilguard
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A while back I've been made aware by a fellow tumblr user(I'm so sorry I don't remember who) that in Hades II Odysseus has "a weakness for women" and has had many affairs during his journey home AND is divorced with Penelope.
And I just wanted to say... WHAT THE FUCK SUPERGIANT GAMES I was so happy with what you did with the story of Achilles and Patroclus, Orpheus and Eurydice as well. Why did you have to fuck up so bad. And also he's romanceble apparently???
Like what the hell
Odysseus is one of very few greek mythology men who's been loyal to his lover. It would've been so nice if in Hades II it was talked about how Odysseus was very much s/aed and used by those in power. We need more male s/a representation especially when it's women doing the s/aing
I will be playing Hades II anyway for I already own it however I will not be doing ANYTHING romantic with Odysseus if I can help it. I would be very happy if we could get Penelope in Hades II and be able to reunite them as we could with the previously mentioned couples
And I just wanted to say
Supergiant games
Do better
#supergiant games#hades supergiant#hades 2#hades game#odysseus hades#angry rant#i'm so pissed#complaining#do better
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@gilgys-ring: thank you, for your contribution, friend. You made some interesting points. Iâm replying through here because Iâve already answered to some of the ideas you gave, above, and it will be relevant to what Iâm about to write here.
I also agree that some binding probably happened but I donât think it necessarily HAS to be on purpose because someone wrote that Sauron might have stabbed her with the crown knowing that he wound would suck her into the Unseen world but he didnât stab her fatally and so giving her time finally yield to him and hand over Nenya which he could have used to heal that wound as a reward for joining him. He wasnât above trying literally every tactic in the book to get her to âdecideâ to join him but since she refused every trick he resorted to violence and the fact that he took the 9 but didnât take nenya looks to me like he desperately needs this picture to hold that when she joins him he âconvincedâ and not outright controlled her to do anything because he wants her to yield to him âof her own willâ. Â
If the blood binding happened, it has to be intentional: this has been Sauronâs desire ever since 1x06, when he was still Halbrand (aka âRepentant Maironâ). This was what he proposed to her in 1x08; you bind me to the light, and I bind you to power. He wants this; giving Galadriel his power, and harvesting her light for himself. Â
And, yes, Galadrielâs soul would go to the Unseen world, no matter Sauronâs true intention with this (this is a confirmed fact by 2x08):
As for Nenya, we still donât fully understand how the rings of power work. From what we saw in 2x01, Nenya chose Galadriel as its ring-bearer; this can be a clue that the Three rings of power might have a âwill of their ownâ like the One ring has.
Meaning: Sauron knows that Nenya belongs to Galadriel, and only her can surrender it to him. And this is most likely the reason why he just didnât take her off her hand (like he did with the Nine).
Galadriel surrendered Nenya to Elrond in 2x04 for safe keeping, and Adar was able to retrieve the ring by force in 2x07, only he was the one who ended up returning it to Galadriel. We see this dynamic with the One ring, and how much it wants to return to its master, Sauron, in âLord of the Ringsâ trilogy. What if the Three work in the same way?Â
I have a hard time believing that he actually puppermaster-controlled her to do anything because he wants her to yield to him âof her own willâ. Â Also I donât remember if we ever saw him puppetmaster-controlling anyone to a point where they changed their thought, just deceiving with multiple people and then puppetmaster-control with the guards stabbing each other for example. But deceiving Celebrimbor was also never about puppetmastering him but showing and telling him stuff that changed his perception and the guards seemed terrified when he puppetmaster-controlled them right? Unlike Galadriel when she was about to give him Nenya. Â
You are correct, because Sauron isnât a âmaster-puppeteerâ; what he does is âplanting seedsâ on peopleâs minds. Heâs like a demon whispering in your ear, giving you hints on what to do. Celebrimbor explained this to the audience, in 2x05: âIt is a game you play, is it not? Sowing seeds in others' minds and then convincing them that the fruit is of their own thought.â Â
However (and this is why this reblog is important), the concept of âfree willâ is a major theme in Tolkien lore. Sauron might âplant these seedsâ, but itâs ultimately other beingsâ choice to follow what he says, or not. Sauron is a personification of evil in the legendarium, which means others have the choice to either follow him (evil), or turn away (good). Thatâs why Sauron tells Celebrimbor âyou chose thisâ; because he, indeed, has. He has chosen to follow evil. Â
âThatâs why I think he just though she finally got it and gave a shot and she played along to idk fuck with him?âÂ
Like I said in my OG post, this is underestimating Sauronâs power. Heâs one of the most powerful Maiar in existence. Galadriel doesnât have the power to deceive him, even if she wanted to. Â
Another thought was that he stabbing with the crown was symbolic for him whether he knows of any binding power of the blood or of the magic. Heâs petty and angry in that moment and he doesnât use the sword but stabs her with the symbol of his earlier proposal to elevate her above everything else in Middle-earth to show her how hard she fucked this up for herself and what she forced him to do to her if we know one thing about that guy itâs that heâs melodramatic as fuck. Also I agree that he obviously didnât want to kill her because if that was the case he would have just done it. Maybe he learned from his fuck-up with Celebrimbor to try and control the damage even in anger.Â
Sauron knows blood magic, indeed; heâs been a master of it for thousands of years (probably for longer than Galadriel herself is alive). This is why blood binding theory is the one I subscribe to.Â
Morgothâs crown was a symbol of Morgothâs power and his desires. I talked about this on this post. However, Morgothâs goal wasnât to rule only Middle-earth, but the entire world (Arda) by corrupting it. Had him stabbed her with any other crown, maybe, but with this specific object, I donât think so. Because Sauronâs offer wasnât to make Galadriel queen of Arda, but queen of Middle-earth.
Sauron doesnât stab Galadriel in anger; in fact, we see him stopping for a bit, while heâs looking at her, and then he goes for it. This means this was something he did on a conscious and intentional way, and not on a fit rage (like with Celebrimbor). Â
Blood binding and Sauronâs intentions
My pal @rey-jake-therapist and I were in one of our usual friendly discussions about this topic in one of her posts, but since the theme digresses so much from her original intent and Iâm pretty much spamming her OG post by now, we decided to move the debate to here, and invite the fandom to join in.
As customary, Rey always presents good and challenging counter-arguments to mine. Because it's possible to disagree and keep it civil and friendly. This is good fandom etiquette, and this is the point of debates, after all: sharing different ideas and perspectives on the same topic. We usually end up agreeing on disagreeing and itâs all good in the end.
What were Sauronâs intentions and goals in stabbing Galadriel with Morgothâs crown in 2x08?Â
2x01 / 2x08 parallels: âOnly blood can bind.â (Adar; 1x05)
1) Binding/Enslaving Galadriel to his Will
Rey made the case for Sauronâs intention of possessing and dominating Galadriel using Morgothâs crown. And that we should focus on present intentions, and not lose yourselves in âwhat ifâ scenarios (with this I totally agree, so, let's focus on the present time).
This theory states that Sauron wanted to enslave Galadriel to his will, by having her handing over Nenya, in submission. This would explain why Galadriel seemed âbewitchedâ while removing Nenya from her finger, and almost surrendering it to him. Â
This means Sauron has âoutgrownâ his intentions from 1x08, when he wanted to serve Galadriel (due to his Maia nature; he was created to be a servant to a Vala). Now, he wants full power, and heâs not willing to share it with anyone else (Galadriel included):
Sauron only wants to dominate/possess Galadriel now: she humiliated him when she refused him in 1x08, he developed an obsession for her, so he punished her with physical pain (the stabbing), and attempted to possess her so she would follow him.
And so, if blood binding theory is true, this would work like the Nine and the NazgĂťl, with Galadriel not only being a servant, but a slave to Sauron. This theory can also imply she would have, indeed, become a Ringwraith herself, as her soul was entering the Unseen world (âShadow realmâ) when Gil-galad and Arondir found her.
This is a very strong theory, and I think many fellow fans share this view, as well. Would it pass Sauron to do something like this? Absolutely not, and it would not be OCC for him to have this intention, at all.
So whatâs my problem, you might ask?
This facial expression right here:
Unless Charlie was having a case of fatigue eyes due to extensive use of contact lenses (speaking from personal experience), thereâs no explanation for Sauron getting all teared up when he believed Galadriel was about to join him, if his intention was to enslave her to his will, and thatâs what he was doing here.
And no, Galadriel canât deceive him. This is underestimating Sauronâs power: heâs the âgreat deceiverâ, and only he can deceive himself, really. And if they are, indeed, blood bound, Galadriel couldnât possibly hide anything from him. And I already made the case for how Galadriel was about to join him, freely, in another post.
2) âYou bind me to the light, I bind you to powerâ
Speaking of Sauronâs intentions, we need to remember the creator of this character and what he says about him. Tolkien tells us (in Letters 131, 153 and 183) that âAnnatarâ still has âfair motivesâ: heâs a reformer who, truly, wants to rebuild/heal Middle-earth, and heâs genuine in this endeavor (nevermind his methods, thatâs why heâs a villain). Rey counter-argumented this does not translate in a desire to serve Galadriel, and sheâs correct.
However, what was his intention in 1x08? Â
And if Sauron still has a genuine concern in healing Middle-earth, what if his intention with Morgothâs crown was giving Galadriel his power, while harvesting her light for himself, just like he wanted in 1x08? And if this was his intention, why would he keep her soul âtrappedâ in the Unseen world? What if he wanted to make her queen of the Seen and Unseen world? Not a mere queen of Middle-earth, but as nearly as possible to a literal Goddess he could serve?
Because Sauron/Mairon canât escape his nature, he was created to be a servant, a Maia to a Vala. And, right now, he doesnât want to serve Morgoth. Even though he does it, unconsciously, and perhaps he recognized this after he killed Celebrimbor in a rage fit (something thatâs completely OCC for him, because thatâs not who he is; Sauron is a control freak, a mastermind).
This scene with Galadriel happened after that; and Sauron cried because, when he looked up at Celebrimbor, all he could see was Morgothâs bounds on him reaching the surface. And that chaotic destruction is Morgoth, not Sauron. And he doesn't want that at this point on his character arc in Tolkien lore. I think this is when Sauron makes the decision to bind himself to Galadriel, one way or the other.
I absolutely disagree with the idea that Sauron stabbed Galadriel to punish her or kill her: if that was his true intention he would have used Morgoth sword (he was already using it in his duel with Galadriel the entire time), not a powerful dark magic object infused with own blood (because Adar used it to destroy his previous physical form), nor he would have carried that thing around the entire time while mentioning "binding" twice (âI never believed I could be... Until today. Fighting at your side, I... I felt... If I could just hold on to that feeling, keep it with me always, bind it to my very being, then I...â (1x06); âThe door is still openâ).
âBindingâ (usually connected with âblood oathsâ) and âenslavingâ are two different kinds of blood magic. Because the Nine rings of power are pieces of jewelry meant to be worn by ring-bearers, with a small dosage of Sauronâs blood (along with other specific spells). Morgothâs crown not only has a lot of Sauronâs blood on it, but we also donât know what kind of dark magic it actually contains: we only know it was made to hold the Silmarils and it can destroy Sauronâs physical form (implying that, maybe, Sauron doesnât have much control over this object?).
Sauron accidentally sharing his power with Galadriel is nonsense to me, as well. He's ancient, has been around since before the world existed (he helped create that very world), has been a master in blood magic and every sort of sorcery for thousands of years, and heâs one of the most powerful Maia in existence, but isnât aware he would be giving Galadriel some of his power by binding himself to her? When he clearly mentions this in 1x08? "I bind you to power". Because Galadriel appears to be seeing the world in a whole new way in 2x08 epilogue (and even her eyes look off):
Besides, Galadriel is suppose to be a powerful sorceress of her own right in Tolkien lore, mastering several powers. In the legendarium Galadriel own power was amplified by Nenya, yes, but this isnât the case in âRings of Powerâ, because we havenât seen her displaying any magical powers in Season 1. She wonât have any other powers in the show (besides healing and foresight/visions), completely cutting off with Tolkien legendarium? If the show keeps it true to the lore on that bit, where did her powers (look into othersâ hearts and minds, and communicate telepathically) come from? Will they âmagicallyâ appear out of nowhere? When and how? But, if these powers came from Sauron itâs because he wanted it to happen, and that was his intention. And if that was his intention, what was his purpose with this if not to serve her?
And Sauron does share power: he does share his power with those he wants to enslave; via the rings of power. Thatâs why Celebrimbor tells him heâs their prisoner, and not their master. However, these are two very different kinds and degrees of magic. Because with the rings ("enslave") he can control how he wants it to go; while sharing his actual power with another living being ("blood oath") is uncontrollable. He canât possible know the end result of it.
I know thereâs a popular theory that Adar was blood bound to Sauron, but I donât think so. Adar not only doesn't have any magical powers, but he wouldnât be able to kill Sauron himself, if that was true. Blood binding is a blood oath, and itâs forever, unbreakable, and it prevents beings from harming or acting against one another (physically) in any direct way. Thatâs why âRings of Powerâ introduced the clue that Sauron might be blood bound to Morgoth in 1x03; and thatâs the reason he could never leave nor forsake his master even when he came to resent him.
This means, that, in "Rings of Power", Sauron, most likely, only has Morgoth as a reference to blood oaths. And he probably thinks this will go the same way with Galadriel, and heâll keep her light to himself, allowing him to keep Morgoth at bay. Only her âlightâ is merely aesthetic, really. The light that shines on her hair and eyes is the light of the Two Trees of Valinor, and it shines on every Elf that was born during the Years of the Trees (and not only her). Because Galadriel is a complex and nuanced character, and ticking bomb that can turn dark at any minute. Â
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You gave those wounds to your god, Enki. Did you think they would heal so easily?
(Uh Oh! Someone gave the priest catholic guilt!)
#fear and hunger#enki ankarian#fear and hunger enki#funger#digital art#csp#illustration#my art#pixel art#enki#hiiiiiiiiiiii so fear and hunger is great!#played it for 4 hours last night for the first time and I love it 𼰠Iâve made a half hours progress lol#I keep losing the save coin tosses#I canât believe this is what it took to make my art brain turn back on smh itâs patho all over again đ¤Ł#not surprisingly enki is my fav immediately a sickly rude wizard priest? yeah thatâs my number lol#fun fact I edited a wiki for the first time while making this#his page didnât have his crucifixion dialogue and I couldnât find a transcript anywhere#so I had to go find a video with the scene so I could transcribe it myself#and I was so annoyed by the end I added it to the wiki đ hopefully I did it right I copied the format of the rest of the page#(note that I didnât even own the game at this point akkajdksdj)#also! this is partially based on a fic I read! it got me thinking about how heâs walking around w stigmata#also part of why I even knew there was crucifixtion dialogue#Iâll link it in a reblog I donât remember the name rn#oh wait should I tag this for blood? idk#tw blood#insects
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nothing makes me activate like a sleeper agent faster than hearing any noise or music from TF2. i literally have them imprinted into my brain i've heard and memorised them so many times
#context: i literally got sleeper agent'd 3 times this morning because someone's watching SMG4 and i heard TF2 music#it's kind of insane how instantly i recognise it though. i bet i could literally pick out any of the sfx in a sea of nonsense sounds#that's how well i know them. like#the source engine sounds are really iconic too#i remember i was watching JJBA part 3 and i was up to the episode where kakyoin has to play video games against this puppet maker dude#and there was a bit where the two cars rammed into each other and literally made one of the metal impact source engine sounds#and i was so caught off guard i got distracted by it and was like ''DUDE THAT'S THE. THAT'S THE METAL BAT IMPACT SOUND FROM TF2''#source sounds are so instantly recognisable it's crazy#they've gotta be up there in a list of the most recognisable video game sounds. surely. they have to be#tf2#team fortress 2#team fortress two#source engine
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my brother can make me laugh without moving at all. he can make me laugh on command, just by existing, and there is no physical tell or indication that it is about to happen. itâs like he can will me to laugh and i will. of course weâre not telepathic, but we do speak in unison sometimes. we improvise like no oneâs business. we could fool anyone into believing we are psychically linked. when i try to explain it, i sound silly saying it out loud, but i really CAN tell what heâs thinking. we exchange so much information just with a look. he can make me cry laughing and he doesnât even have to move
#i miss him so much i need him back i need him to live next to me again. i need to mooch off his wifi from my porch and invite him over#i miss him so much.#heâs only 2 minutes younger but he feels years younger. and yet i think weâre two halves of one soul#iâve always babied him not even in a mean or diminishing way but i felt this need to protect him#because he tends to be so naive and so shy#but. i am so proud of him. i need to show him off to everyone and i need everyone to understand how funny and charming he is#it feels like i grew up and left him where he will remain 11 forever. i miss him more than moving back home can fix#i miss him in ways that have nothing to do with the distance between our locations#but. it would certainly help to be able to see him every day#i keep smelling the carpet in his room and itâs so vivid. i remember the countless hours we spent developing huge wood block cities#and we would drive hot wheels over the wooden raceways we had made. we were actually quite coordinated and autistic about it#we were always building things together#just recently me and him talked on the phone about an old mlp au we came up with. all original characters and shit#it was super extensive and very clever#i STILL think it would make a really cool book series or something#i remember watching him play army men RTS gamecube on the wii. i STILL listen to the soundtrack to that game likeâŚ. daily#i remember walking into my room once where he was watching a show. and he was crying#and he NEVER cries over tv#but he was crying because his favorite character had resigned from the organization that the series was based around#and he was so distraught that she was leaving.#i remember when all 3 of us slept in one room. i remember when me and him were in bunk beds across the room#and we would sneak out of bed right as the parents left and stayed up playing by the light of the nightlight#the way we raced back into bed when the parents were approaching đ#my mom always says sheâs sad that i seem to remember so little of my life. like every story of my youth is news to me lmao#but i feel like i remember the most important parts? i think so#i remember how mom woke me up in the night to ask me to roll over because my bro could see my face from where he was sleeping#and he was scared because there was a weird shadow cast on my face that made it look like a skull which was making it hard for him to sleep#it was. so funny. i begrudgingly rolled over#i donât know. itâs just that there isnât a single instance i bring up that my brother does not also remember.#no matter how tiny or specific. we shared everything growing up
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Do any of you remember a Youtube video about Re:Kinder talking about how the game is seen and percieved by some people (mostly touching upon and arguing against how it has been treated insensitively as some sort of weird legend like "ooo disturbing game with a hidden truth behind it" due to it's creator being dead), as well as talking about the charm of the game (even mentioning it's art at some point) and sadness of the themes without spoiling anything at the same time?? I remember the video avoided saying any spoilers at all and only touched on the literal plot as the kids being stuck in a dire situation in the town with all the adults dead without really getting into the why (it didn't even say one of the kids themselves was the causeâ as thus, spoiler free), other than that it just touched on the emotional side of it and vaguely mentioned some scenes.
i also remember at some point the later half (at the very least if not in all of it) of the video, music by Siinamota was playing in the background. Does anyone remember seeing a video like this?
I can't seem to find it anywhere and don't even remember the exact year I watched it.đ It was the way I found out about this game a while ago, which eventually ended up in me playing it, and I really wish I could watch it again. I thought it was a deleted video by someone called hazel as it was mentioned by a lot of people, but I found that one and it isnt it.đ I'm wondering if anyone remembers watching something along the lines of what im describing and knows if it's still up.
#re:kinder#not art#posting this because naw i am desperate ive been looking for this video for months#i genuinely thought it could be the hazel video but it wasnt and now im back at where i started...đ#if its still up i cannot find it on youtube#but i wonder if anyone even recalls watching this at all because im worried my memory is playing with međ#itd be rather weird though because i do recall it very vividly. it struck with me in a way i managed to remember the game by name later on#looking back on my memory of it it was a really nice video. i do agree on what it said of how people seem to treat this game#the video was really trying to make people see and appreciate the game and the themes itself instead of the glorified urban legend idea ofi#because it is true that people treat it as some âdisturbing fun factâ that someone died as if it was all his legacy wasđ#i dont remember it being the high quality standard editing known of video essays nowadays#oh thats all i can say i dont recall much its been a while and i dont know how much a while is ...đ#id be very happy to know if anyone can recognize anything at all. that video really got imprinted into my memory#it left me very emotional even as it didnt even tell me much about the game it still managed to express the feelings of it#ou shoutout to this video forever i love you thank you for informing me of this awesome game while letting me go blind#i was up for a ride#i wish i could see it again#really showed me one of the ending scenes and i had NO IDEA I HAD NO IDEA#oh my god what a good video i had no idea yet i was so devastated#thats all i can convey im not sure if saying âit made a deep emotional impression on meâ is a good descriptor to find a video i cant find#i dont know if anyone who has seen it would have felt as emotional as i had but im not sure how else to put it
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Bloxburg hyperfix again does this I GOT THE FUCKING. DIMENSIONS WRONG IT FOESNT LOOK LIKE NO BRAKESSS
HELP YOUR LOCAL MINOR BUILDER ASS NEEOOOWWWW silly
#no id#kei screeches#all caps#IM GONNA SHIT MYSELF THE FRONT IS WAY TOO FUCKING WIFDE#okay so about bloxburg I developed a stupid amount of appreciation for architecture cause of the silly rp game as well as Had My Wedding#in it I like. love building and creating little funny things for me to play inâŚ.. yeah#I want to arcticulate why itâs so freeing having a medium that isnât one I was like Explicitly used for#I remember. how drawing got so stale for me and I could never look at anything I made with pride Fummy sims ripoff suburban house however
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