#i lovw ranting so much

[caught-the-lovebug]

Sometimes, it feels like I'm not able to perform gender well enough for gay people to date me.

Like, I am perfectly comfortable dating lesbians if they include nonbinary in their attention. I don't want to be seen as a woman but lesbian doesn't invalidate that. But I do feel like I might be robbing them of wlw experiences because I'm not femme enough. Like if I was dating a lesbian, some people would see us as straight and I wouldn't be able to relate on the girl experience.

And like, I'm perfectly comfortable dating a gay guy if they include nonbinary in their attention. I don't want to be seen as a man but gay doesn't invalidate that. But I don't have a dick and I'm not masc enough to visually appear like a guy. Like if I was dating a gay guy, they would be missing either the parts or the guy experience.

And I usually ignore these feelings because it's not up to me to decide what makes someone comfortable.

But I've been thinking about it. It's kind of frustrating. Because I feel like I want to date a guy in a gay way or date a girl in a lesbian way but I'm missing the foundational part of the gender experiences there.

Like a trans guy may not have the parts but if a gay guy is fine with vulva's, they still have the man gender connection. And a butch lesbian with a femme can be mistaken for a straight couple but they still have that woman gender connection.

I don't know. It just feels like I'm stuck. Like I want to be both at once but am stuck doing gender in a way that fits neither.

[guard-en]

got sentimental thinking about van gogh's "If I am worth anything later, I am worth something now." quote and went down a line of thought that. even if it was just a funny story retold by my dear friends to their children and their children to their grandchildren years past my death, in some small way I would live. Even if the story was misspoken or forgotten or parodied upon I would be alive in the eyes and smiles caught in a laugh. and I just. man.

[bredrawz]

what is your opinion on tmnt mutant mayhem

i adore the animation

I LOVE MUTANT MAYHEM. I LOVE THE ART STYLE AND HOW IT LOOKS LIKE ITS 3D BUT ALSO DRAWN. I LOVE THE DOODLE SEQUENCE WHEN THE BOYS HAVE THEIR IMAGINARY SCHOOL SCENARIO. THE MUSIC IS YES. THE CHARACTER DESIGNS ARE LOVELY. I LOVE THE MINI DETAILS AND HOW THEY LET THE VOICE ACTORS FOR THE TURTLES DO IMPROV DIALOGUE SO IT SOUNDED MORE REALISTIC. THE VOICE ACTING IS AWESOME SAUCE. LOVED THE WRITING. SOZNSJKSNSEJSJSJSJJSJSEJWJWJWJWKWJWJ

I LOVE IT SO MUCH IVE WATCHED IT SO MANY TIMES AND HAVE COLLECT MERCH FOR IT AS WELL AS JUST TMNT IN GENERAL. I HAVE A FEW MUTANT MAYHEM SHIRTS IN MY TMNT CLOTHING COLLECTION. I LOVW TALKING ABOUT IT AND IM GONNA GET THE TMNTMM ART BOOK AT SOME POINT WHEN I HAVE THE MONEY.

went on a rant but talking about tmnt makes me happy, thanks for askin :3

[transbeeduo]

Also your lore rant is giving me so much catharsis rn like YESSS ALL OF THISSSS this is what I've been sayin! It probably would have been better to just be honest with not having motivation for the character anymore instead of... whatever the heck happened here. Just release lore docs so people have closure and be done with it yknow?

PLEASE FOR THE LOVW OF GOD RANBOO RELEASE YOUR FUCKING LORE DOC YOUVE MENTIONED HAVING IT FOR FUCKING YEARS NOW AND CLEARLY YOU DONT CARE ABOUT C!RANBOO ANYMORE JUST RELEASE THEIR FUCKING LORE SO PEOPLE CAN FINALLY KNOW WHAT HIS LORE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE

Also yeah I DEFINITELY think Ranboo shouldve been more open about no longer wanting to continue C!Ranboo. At least TELL US instead of teasing us with more lore that you have no intention of making GOD

[cloudstongue]

OMGA YOU WATCH TALLY BALL TOO?

-📟

YES I LOBW TALLY BALL <3

i watched the uh the newest video and i kind of got a little paranoid so i ranted to @desklamper and told him that. i told him too much, out of the blue,,, sorry about that

SHSHSHAHDBFBSJSJFJSHSBSB ANYWAY I LOVW HAIKU ITS SUCH A GENIUS SONG THE LYRICS ARE SO GENIUS i cant write haikus either chz they turn out incorrect and supposedly EMO….

[gangrenados]

✔️ & ❌ : for X-Men ; Deadly Class ; MCU --- elaborate why woman! we wanna know the tea lol 👀)

Uhhhh I was gonna do it anyway lol 💓

Deadly Class:

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•Saya Kuroki: Saya is one of my favorite characters for so many reasons: she's cool and strong, also doesn't fear to fight when the situation needs it.

But Saya can be pretty cold and distant, manipulative even. I guess it's a side effect of the harmful environment she grew up with.

•Willie: He was just an innocent kid in the wrong place. Willie tried really hard to appear tough, without fearing to pull the trigger but we all know that was lie.

He was much more than that, but King's Dominion consumed him before he could do anything to get free...

•Maria: Another victim (but all of them are, right?) I find her way of trying to have fun and forget about her horrible past intriguing, she's just trying to survive the day and not breakdown.

Maria is a sweet girl with a burning desire of running away from her hellish life and have some peace. I just adore her.

•Marcus: He has been through so much, the death of his parents, the abuse in the boys home and his time in the streets had made him what he is today a manipulative, pessimistic boy and with a lot of unsolved traumas that consumes his head in such a painful way.

But even with his twisted mind he tries to connect with others and have friends so he won't feel alone again, the sad thing is that he always end up pushing others away.

•Zenzele: My favorite of new bunch. She a literal angel, but hellish when pushed too far.

She just wants to have a good future for her parents and have a decent life without breaking the rules of God (which is ironic considering the place she's living) I think she's the most pure of them all.

❌

•Master Lin: That old man is just creating weapons without caring about his kids health (physically and mentally), he tortures them and puts them against each other.

Fuck! The test to pass to the other year is killing each other like if it was the hunger games, that man is a monster.

•Shabnam: That pig can choke. He's a little bitch with such low self-esteem that he makes people to stick to his side by blackmailing them or threats, it's pitiful.

Also, he claims that nobody cares about his sorry ass,but he will not hesitate to betray a friend when he can benefits from it.

I hope he dies.

•Petra: I don't hate her, I rather feel sorry for her, however I'm still bitter about Billy's death.

Petra was a lonely girl who was just trying to fill that void with friends, but her need of survive surpassed her in such a horrible way.

The days after the juniors finals she was a complete different person, trying to pass as one of the lagacies and completely losing herself, also I think she was off meds (if I'm not wrong, I think she was schizophrenic)

I am happy shad found some peace of mind with Helmut, I think it benefited her and made her more happy. It's sad that didn't last long :(

X-men:

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•Peter: Peter is a carefree guy who just runs around wrecking havoc and avoiding responsibility, which is pretty harmful cuz he still have a teenage mindset when he's in his thirties.

But he's the first character I fell in love with, his personality and scenes were to good to not fall for him, but I'm sad he didn't grew as a person and that he didn't told Erik he was his son.

•Warren: He was so intriguing in the movies I couldn't help myself. The short screen time hooked into adopting this character.

It's heartbreaking all the horrible things he had to face just to suffer a gruesome death.

•Jean: She's a powerful girl ready to protect her loved ones, but at the same time is pretty broken because of it. It's interesting.

I like her personality and the way she's all smiley when her friends are near or when she's with Scott.

•Ororo: The old Ororo was my role model when I was a kid. I mean, this strong woman controlling the weather with glowing eyes while looking fabulous? Fuck I wanted to be like her even I didn't knew what the hell was going on!

She's strong, protective, witty, compassionate and so much more...yeah, I still want to be like her 🤷🏽‍♀️

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•Raven: She's a horrible person, she threw Kurt into a river when he just a baby, is a horrible mother, I mean, she really doesn't care about her kids.

Her movie version isn't like this, but I found her annoying, especially in Dark Phoenix; the only exception I have towards her is in First Class because her presence was important to the plot.

•Charles: I think he has his low and highs as the average person, but I find it extremely hard to accept that he has put the X-Men towards risky missions just to prove the humans that they were friendly and capable to bring in hand anytime they needed it.

Also hiding Jean's past was a horrible mistake, telling her about how she get to the mansion and what happened with her parents could have prevented a lost of unfortunate events.

MCU:

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•Wanda: I found her story interesting, it's really sad when you finally know all the things this girl had to face, so much loss and so much pain had caused her mind to break.

But she let herself love and be loved, her relationship with Vision and Clint it's a prove of this. To not mention she's so powerful, that is slightly scary.

•Gotg: Yeah, I know this was supposed to be just one character, but I really love this family because that's what they are.

The story behind the guardians of the galaxy is heartwarming in my opinion, a bunch of outsiders finding safety and comfort in each other. They have trough so much, loss, pain, anger, but those things just had made them stronger and closer.

I love this family more than any other found family.

•Peter Parker/Miles Morales: They're both innocent kids who wanted to make a difference and that's pretty cool.

I love them both, they're personality is so bright that you're happy when they're happy on screen...it's crazy.

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•Thor: Thor is strong, humble and positive. I don't hate him by any means, I find him rather cute, but there's something about him that just doesn't sit right with me.

Maybe it's because he can be so happy go lucky with everything and everyone, a trait that it's really nice to have ,but let's be real a person whose like that all the time will explode in the worst way possible when everything crumbles...

•Carol Danvers: She's just meh for me, not great, not bad just meh.

Her personality was too cocky for me, in a way that it seemed that she was trying to appear better than anyone and I dislike people like that.

However, an scene I really liked was when she was with her bestfriend because to me it feel more natural, just two "friends" (cuz to me it seemed more than that ngl) finding each other again. I must say, it was really cute.

•Bruce Banner: For me he always was a crybaby, and I get it, being the Hulk must be hard, but there was so many times he was just being plain rude to others.

I'm happy he grew as a person, but I still don't like him that much

[dottores]

243 spoilers

before i rant about waka and benkei i just-

LOOOOOK AT MY FUCKING MAN HES SO FINE I LOVW HIM SO MUCH HELP IM LITERALLYNO ON MY FUCKING KNEES I WANT TO SUCK HIS DICK SO BAD WANT HIM TO FUCK ME IN THAT UNIFORM IM DOWN SO FUXKIN HORRENDOUS IM LIRERALLT GONNA CUM HES SO PRETTY HARU FUCKIN RAIL ME RIGHT NOW IM LITERALLY BEFGING ONNKY KNEWS FOR YOU

[bastionkeeper]

oh ill die if you write drunk kravitz!!!!!!!!!! i lovw him and your writing both so much A

“Listen, I’m...m’avery powerful reaper,” Kravitz drawled half in cockney as Taako escorted him down the street. 

“I know babe,” Taako said. “You fucked Merle’s arm up, I was there.”

“M’the will of...shit...what’s her name...m’the will of the bird queen! I’m darkness!” Kravitz continued to rant, stumbling slightly and falling into Taako’s side. The snow was falling lightly over a late Candlenight’s Eve, probably well into Candlenights morning Taako thought. They had left Lup’s house pretty late, and for once it was Kravitz that had gotten completely sloshed.

“You’re very scary, baby,” Taako assured his boyfriend.

Kravitz nodded seriously. “M’terrifying. S’there anymore of that stuff Lu’ gave me?”

“No, no more rum for you.”

“Awwwwww, please ‘Ko?”

“No, not even if you gave me the best blowjob of my life,” Taako said with a smirk.

“I can do tha’,” Kravitz sank to his knees suddenly, grasping at Taako’s thighs.

“Whoa, not here, Krav,” Taako laughed, pulling Kravitz back up to his unsteady feet. “Remember how mad that miltia man was when he caught us last Valentine’s day?”

“I don’ even ‘member my own name right now, ‘Ko.”

[caepaecaesurae]

> CC+Nad : Healthy Quad Talk

trolljacksparrow hey, you ok? is the hope shit actually a hella dowwner? caepaecaesurae It's not, though people keep trying to distract me wvhen I start thinking about it. I think you're helping honestly.

trolljacksparrow ^/v/^ ...honestly, you dont /seem/ ok wwhen you start thinking about it, thats probably wwhy caepaecaesurae Maybe it's because I let myself showv emotion, though this doesn't tend to happen wvhen I go on a rant about typography. trolljacksparrow you really need to showw emotion more though i think its because you seem upset, and your friends try to help vvia distraction? caepaecaesurae It's admittedly frustrating sometimes, wvhich is usually wvhen I tend to get wvorking on a particularly tough knot of wvhatevwer the hell hope is. I'm not entirely sure howv I'd go about showving emotion wvithout being accused of lying.  ..Or, wvhy I'd try. trolljacksparrow wwithout being accused of lying? caepaecaesurae Any time I say something out of my ordinary it tends to be taken as an attempt to manipulate. trolljacksparrow by wwhom? caepaecaesurae Depends wvho I'm talking to?

Today at 3:01 PM trolljacksparrow wwhat, vveryone does it? ://( caepaecaesurae I can't think of anyone wvho hasn't off-hand aside from possibly Arlequin and Horuss.  And trolls I don't knowv wvell. trolljacksparrow that...fucking scucks cuks sucks im awwake is wwear but howw much in the past wwas it ? caepaecaesurae wvell.  I can think of twvo examples this perigee. Havwe your coffee lovwe. trolljacksparrow are they from people naturally prone to being suspicious? caepaecaesurae Yes. trolljacksparrow wwell there you havve it ...did said people keep you at a distance evven before that because they feel you not emoting means you arent trustwworthy? caepaecaesurae Tentativwely reaching towvards friendship, but yes. trolljacksparrow i think that that wwould be the exception rather than the norm then like, some people are gonna be paranoid and untrusting, and that sucks, but ovverall people tend to connect more to others wwhen they can empathize wwith them or sympathize? or...one of those -ize wwords definitely caepaecaesurae Better to soldier on, then, you'd say. Ignore the "haters" and do as I please. trolljacksparrow ..wwhat are you getting to wwith this caepaecaesurae It's... a question. trolljacksparrow oh, yeah, it wwas just phrased wweirdly you cant please evveryone, you can only look at their complaints to decide if they got vvalue to them or not, and act accordingly, but some people arent evver gonna be happy, and fuck them caepaecaesurae Ideally not literally. trolljacksparrow yeah eheheh caepaecaesurae Pardon the frustration. trolljacksparrow dont wworry about it babe trolljacksparrow wwhy dont you emote anywway? caepaecaesurae ... I guess I wvon't wvorry then, at that.  Thank you. It's an old habit.  I think. I wvas like this all the time, no exceptions, in the dreambubbles. trolljacksparrow its a frustrating situation so no wwonder youre frustrated oh ://( jeez thats fucking awwful are the bracers helping any? caepaecaesurae ... I havwe to take them off to be online, at least until I get my hands on a legitimate computer again.  But.. aye, it's nice to havwe the control.  I'vwe been sleeping in them lately. ...Take off, turn off, you knowv wvhat I mean. trolljacksparrow youre surrounded by captors you could just ask for a legitimate computer, but hell yeah for that! caepaecaesurae I remember the bubbles being terrible, but I don't think the emoting wvas part of the problem.  I do knowv Kankri has a bit of a reaction to me being that wvay. He acts differently, anywvays. trolljacksparrow acts differently? caepaecaesurae It's hard to describe.  I think he sees me as a slightly different Me wvhen I don't emote. trolljacksparrow howw does he act, then? caepaecaesurae You've probably seen the wvay I vwary, if you think about it -- "Chief, Dude, Hey nowv, Come on," vws, for example, the tone I use for poetics and givwing ethical or strategic advwice. trolljacksparrow ya! caepaecaesurae ..Doesn't it make sense that one wvould relate to vwery, vwery different modes in a slightly different wvay? He can tell, and I knowv he can tell.  He might wvorry, I'm not sure. trolljacksparrow youre still the same troll evven if you act a tad differrent youre not sure? wwhy not ask  him? trolljacksparrow he might wworry - its kind of wworrying though because a lack of emoting points to someone being in a bad mental state, like, it points to a problem caepaecaesurae That wvould explain wvhy three or four people havwe asked if I'm alright. trolljacksparrow shutting in like that isnt healthy chief trolljacksparrow they havve? ://O wwho? caepaecaesurae You.  Kankri.  Xanthe.  I think Psii wvas on the vwerge of it. Sugary, That wvas a bit baffling. trolljacksparrow ....im honestly amazed she can tell wwhat other people are feeling wwoww. damn. caepaecaesurae I'm impressed and flattered, and she honestly helped wvhen I wvas feeling a bit dowvn. trolljacksparrow !! im glad to hear it trolljacksparrow are you doing okay noww? caepaecaesurae ... You knowv, if fivwe people havwe commented on something, to include twvo quadrants, one alternate of a quadrant, someone wvho has fought me recently, and Sugary havwe all noticed and commented on something, Maybe I should consider prioritising doing something about it. That is a broad spectrum of life perspectivwes. trolljacksparrow yup!! caepaecaesurae I'll see if I can wvork my wvay out of this mood and back to normal.  From there, wve'll see. trolljacksparrow !!!!! i am cheering you on caepaecaesurae I lovwe you.  Thanks, chief. trolljacksparrow i lovve you too wwould passivve hope-boosting help any? caepaecaesurae That sounds impressivwely like cheating. I'll run it past Kankri. trolljacksparrow pirate okay good