#i loved the older seasons so much more and shawn was always my fav character on the show
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topanga hated to see the way that shawn thought of himself. he was so much more than this. so much more than what he thought was true. because in her opinion? it was the absolute furthest thing from ever being true. at all. topanga wouldn't know what he was going through because she, of course, didn't live it. or live with the abandonment he faced day in and day out. the way he felt was not his fault in the slightest. it came out of what he'd been put through. he should've never had to go through this from his parents. the people that are supposed to love you the most in the world. only to toss you aside and make you feel so little. shawn deserved to be given a better life. a stable family who only wanted to see shawn succeed and do good. because he was capable of it. even if he didn't think he was. topanga saw that deep within him it could of been possible. if only he'd been given that chance. ❛❛ you know shawn. . . i think you may only be doing that to protect yourself. to keep yourself entirely away from the possibility of being hurt from those around you that you care about and that care about you. ❜❜ topanga watched and intently listened to shawn speak to see if there was someway she could help him ─ maybe even offer him some sort of comfort. ❛❛ shawn, you're not pathetic. you were put through a lot. more than anyone should have to go through in their life. you're not the one in the wrong here. you know that, right? you're just trying to figure it out all on your own and it's hard. you don't have to go through it alone, either. ❜❜ topanga didn't want shawn to feel like he had to continously blame himself for the abandonment he faced. for going through things a child shouldn't have to go through because of a parent not knowing how to be one. oh, it was okay. she knew that cory was his best friend for years. and knew she mattered to him. she loved how they cared about each other. there was never a time where she'd come between it. topanga cared for the both of them which meant that he'd always have a friend whenever he needed one. maybe her words did feel like anything but the truth but a lot of the things she said she wouldn't of if she didn't mean them. shawn deserved a lot more than what he was given to deal with. and she wished so badly that there was a way she could've gave him that. he wasn't responsible for the actions of somebody else ─ let alone his own parents. chet was going to do what he was going to do and it wasn't shawn's doing. ❛❛ it's not your fault. it's not your fault that your dad couldn't stick around for you. it isn't. if he wants to miss out on the children he has and their lives? that's his decision to make. if you ask me? he's making the biggest mistake. ❜❜ topanga's heart felt like it was about to break as she heard his voice suddenly crack. ❛❛ you never deserved this. . . you didn't. you are more than enough. you're enough for me. you're enough for cory and the entire matthews family. and if anyone has anything to say about that? well, you can just tell them to get lost. ❜❜ topanga voice turning quite fiesty and annoyed for him; but never at him.
shawn knows that topanga is just trying to help him feel better . maybe even trying to help calm his racing thoughts or shield him from the self hatred that plagues him on a daily basis . it's no secret to anyone that loves and cares about him that he thinks so little of himself . but on the other hand , he truly believes that not a single one of them could fully understand what he's going through because they haven't personally lived through it . least of all jack , who didn't have to grow up with chet hunter as a father and had a normal , stable family to come home to all those years . jack , who had parents who loved him , and supported him , and cared enough to stay and be in his life . parents that wanted the best for their child . shawn never got that .
" no , but i am ! i'm him . i — i — i hurt everybody that i care about . i push them all away . i can't keep a stable relationship to save my life . i run when shit hits the fan . i'm my father and i let him mold me into this — " he stumbles over his words , hands motioning towards himself in clear disgust for the guy he turned out to be . " . . . this pathetic person that i don't know how to unbecome . topanga , i — i don't even know who i am anymore . why am i like this ? why did i ever think this was just okay to be ? "
of course it matters , he wants to say . shawn needs topanga to know that she means just as much to him that cory does ( okay , maybe cory won out a bit more ) . she is one of his best friends and she's an important part of his life . that remained true , even as her words felt like anything but the truth to him . but then she says it and it hits him like a ton of bricks to the chest , knocking the air from his lungs ; you are not responsible for him leaving time and time again . you never were . he'd spent night after night as a child just wondering if he'd been the reason his father would never stick around . he's always known it to be his fault . " how do you know that ? " shawn's voice cracks , betraying the tough exterior he's been trying to maintain despite his crystal clear oncoming breakdown . " why wasn't i enough for anybody ? "
#( muse: topanga lawrence )#c: shawn hunter#parental neglect cw#parental neglect tw#self hatred tw#abandonment cw#self hatred cw#no omg pls#youre totally fine!#i totally get the long replies bc sometimes muse just really gets on in there and its hard to stop typing once youve started#so dont even worry!!#but omg yes#i loved the older seasons so much more and shawn was always my fav character on the show#literally shawn breaks my heart i love him so much and he deserve d way better i could absolutely cry pls
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my fav girl Eva (I probably wont read it rn because of spoilers but i will save it to read later). I really like Eva as the protagonist, I feel like she is such a real feeling character and just so fun, she is a fresh of breath air, I love the sibling duo and I love her.
Yesssssssss I LOVE Eva!!! She’s probably one of my fave characters of all time and such a role model. Also don’t worry, I understand you haven’t seen much of the show so I shall try not to spoil anything for you to the best of my ability!
Favorite thing about them:
I love how her character loves science and introduces STEM to the younger generation. How even though she would sometimes get made fun of for it she doesn’t care, she lets herself be free with her curiosity and love for science and astronomy. How she can immediately start a conversation about it is just so fascinating.
Least favorite thing about them:
Hmmm this one is hard but I guess it’s how she would sometimes wouldn’t notice when she’s a little too harsh on Ruben. Like she would most of the times want to time travel to see JJ but then tells Ruben that he can’t time travel for his own reasons. Ngl it’s funny but also wrong since she too has her selfish reasons 😆. I understand though that it’s a typical sibling lol. Completely get it.
brOTP:
Her and Mercedes!!!!! Mercedes is a literal sweetheart and I just love how supportive Mercedes is of Eva and same thing of Eva to Mercedes. I find their friendship mutual and full of love. I love her friendship with Delaila too but found her and Mercedes to just feel a little bit more special. Mechi acted like a best friend and even a mature older sister/mom too all in one, it was very adorable and I love their bond so much.
OTP:
Jeva for life!!!!!! Aurek and Tiago are cool characters and all but JJ and her are just so so so so cute!!! (I know I’ve used the word ‘cute’ too many times but it’s my favorite word to use 😆). JJ as a character literally gets better and better throughout the seasons. I love how respectful, empathetic, sweet, and caring he is. You can tell literally how much he loves and truly cares about her. How he easily worried about her and always thinks about her and she always thinks about him. They’re soulmates 😌
nOTP:
Her and a specific character named Danilo. That’s a spoiler but don’t worry cause I only mentioned his name and it was only part of a minor change from a timeline. Either way I felt bad for the poor guy and it was just so random. 😆
Random Headcanon:
Eva probably didn’t believe in love much. Like she did since she would want a love like her Nono and Nona but didn’t think she would find one especially since she doesn’t feel like she fits much into this era. After discovering 1957, when she finds JJ is when she realizes that it was part of her destiny, in the cards for love to find her and that’s JJ. She probably wasn’t expecting someone to truly be in love with and neither was he till they met each other.
Unpopular Opinion:
So this part isn’t really a spoiler, just an opinion since instead of there being Aurek in season two there’s Tiago. I personally feel that yes Tiago is a great guy but doesn’t fully appreciate Eva, love and appreciating are two different things. I don’t doubt that he loves her but I don’t think that he appreciates her. I noticed that he didn’t really have a crush on her till later on while JJ no matter what, is always there for her. He would go to the end of the world for her. He has an internal commitment to her and I just find that special. Her and Tiago are cool and cute at times but her and JJ feel like the real deal.
Song I associate with them:
Happier by Olivia Rodrigo
Look Up at the Stars by Shawn Mendes
Today was a Fairytale by Taylor Swift
Favorite pictures of them:
#don’t worry Ink I tried not to spoil anything so you can be able to read it now ☺️#also of course I added our duo Eva/delaila picture in there 😌#love this queen!!!#definitely one of my fave characters of all time#club 57#nick club 57#evaluna montaner#Camilo#evamilo#Nickelodeon la
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niche interests list
okay sure yes this is fun! i havent posted a thing like this in such a long time. thank you new gal pal @scottspack for tagging me!
pigs????
alright first lets throw it back to preschool! my fav childhood toys were my baby doll (snookums) and a plush pig that my grandma got me that i just called ‘pig’ ...i watched the babe movies countless times, and piglet? that anxious little guy GETS ME bro. when my preschool did a nativity play and my class got to choose an animal to be in baby jesus’ manger, my mother recalls me saying that i would be a pig because jewish people (jesus christ) wouldnt eat me. she has no idea how or when i learned about kosher foods. ironically despite my namesake i was too afraid of the movie charlotte’s web to watch it more than once because the scary farmer tries to kill wilbur for being small and the pretty spider dies.
sugar creek gang
OKAY this is a book series from the 40s-70s about a group of christian little boys in indiana who went on adventures in the woods and helped people. my dad read a LOT of chapter books to me as bedtime stories when i was little (see also the mandie series, nancy drew and the hardy boys, little house on the prairie) but sugar creek gang is one that really hit. i read all 36 books with dad and at least once again on my own. there was a series of 4 or 5 movies in the early 2000s when i was the Perfect age to have a crush on most if not all of them. this might be too much detail but i have to tell you about these boys. we WILL not be revisiting the heavy religious themes.
the narrator is bill who is Good and Kind and wants to be a doctor when he grows up. his best friend is a chubby boy nicknamed poetry because he memorizes and quotes poems, he is the Detective of the group. BIG JIM is the leader of the group who is supposed to be like, 14, which was very cool and hot, to me. and yes there is a little jim, who is the baby of the group. then there is CIRCUS who is known for his climbing and acrobatics, and his FIVE SISTERS AND BEAUTIFUL SINGING VOICE. dreamboy. i’m almost done listing boys, i promise. a boy called dragonfly who is allergic to everything and hella superstitious. later in the series a new boy named tom moves to town and tom has an older brother bob who is NOT A CHRISTIAN (bully)
tangentially, the buttercream gang, a movie from 1992 that was almost definitely made by some christians who grew up reading the sugar creek gang series which i’m guessing on vibes alone. will spare you Good Boy details but scott is in love with his best friend pete who moves to chicago and falls in with a bad crowd and scott just refuses to stop LOVING HIM. very gay christian film in retrospect.
peter pan
so i know liking disney’s peter pan isnt niche, but it was the way i liked it. tinker bell stan from day one, i watched all of those disney fairies movies, even the ones that came out after i was definitely not intended audience. there was an online pixie hollow game where you could design your own fairies and play mini games where you gathered dew drops or something. had a HUGE CRUSH on jeremy sumpter in peter pan (2003) then i got really darkly obsessed with the idea of growing up when i was 12 or 13, and everything peter pan was deeply My Shit for my entire adolescence. i read the original book and every other twisted version of the story i could find and seriously freaked myself out about wasting my youth.
shug
you’ve probably heard of jenny han now, or at least the netflix adaptations for to all the boys i’ve loved before and the sequel ps i still love you (always and forever, lara jean, coming soon?) but before she wrote THOSE, she wrote my first ever Favorite Book, about annemarie “shug” wilcox, a girl in the summer before starting middle school. it is SO engraved on my heart i cannot explain. i felt so incredibly understood and cant even tell you how many times i read it. thinking about all of the ways it made me feel SEEN is actually making me very tender so i’m gonna go on.
the summer series
on the subject of jenny han, since she was now my Favorite author, when she came out with the summer i turned pretty in 2009, i was ALL IN. it’s not summer without you, and we’ll always have summer were published the next two years. a coming of age series about a girl isabel “belly” conklin who stays at her mother’s best friend's house at the beach in the summers. i really could talk about it forever yall. i actually dont know how to be succinct about it. i will try. her mom’s friend has TWO BOYS. one brother, jeremiah, is the golden boy and her best friend who is in love with her! the older one CONRAD is her childhood crush who's just sort of around while belly is firmly getting over her childish feelings and going out and experiencing teen beach life with jeremiah for the first time and figuring out who she is and wants to be! by the end of the summer he admits he feels differently about her (hence belly internalizing this as The Summer I Turned Pretty) and they get together. this is already too much so i will just say that the next two books deal with a PROFOUND LOSS and the selfishness of grief and the SELFLESSNESS OF CONRAD and i will absolutely lose my shit if netflix picks it up for a second jenny han series adaptation.
pappyland
this was a kids show in the 90′s that features a character named Pappy Drew-It, an artist dressed like a 49er who lives in a magic cabin in pappyland. there’s tons of characters and music and life lessons but the meat of every episode is a detailed drawing how-to (pappy is actually a cartoonist, michael cariglio) and i have a hard back cover sketch book from my grandpa that i FILLED with drawings that pappy and DOODLEBUG taught me to do. there is a running gag that pappy always breaks his crayons.
boy meets world
i KNOW this is beloved by many but i’m counting it because i’m simply too young to have such an obsession with it! the show ran from 1992-2000. i was born in 1996, but reruns on the disney channel and abc family cemented it as one of my favorite shows. cory and shawn, closer than brothers, shameless homoromantics, shawn is cory’s first wife!!!!! truly showed me what a best friend can and should be!!!!!! the great love of your life!!!!! TOPANGA, the og weird feminist girl who said stop shaving your legs and start speaking your mind, ladies! the characters are so richly developed that they are real people to my heart. YES every character on this show is in their late 30s-early 40s and YES i feel like we grew up together. in season one they’re in the 6th grade and we follow them all the way to COLLEGE. countless poignant life lessons, often literally dictated by the wise and hilarious MR. FEENY, cory’s next door neighbor and somehow one of his teachers for YEARS. my love was only solidified by the 2014 girl meets world reboot, centered on cory and topanga’s daughter and her best friend. (which was literally cancelled because disney didn’t want to transition from a kids show to a teen show, something essential to the original. also because that teen show would have had CANON LESBIANS. extremely shameful move in 2017!) boy meets world lives rent free in my heart and i will never evict it!!!!!!!
i consulted my mother when i got stumped for more and she reminded me that i had obsessions with the impressionist art period and babies and ANYTHING fairies or pixies, and i was way too young when my love of the canadian teen after school special degrassi began. she also said bob ross, which i was hesitant to include because he’s been super ~trendy in recent years, but to be fair (To Be Faaairrr) she’s right! i don’t think people really watched the joy of painting as much as i have throughout my life. best sick day show of all time.
lastly i could honestly list anna herself as a niche interest, my mom actually metioned that ive always hyperfixated on my girl friends (gay) but i’ll just note that YES friday night lights, YES barry lyga novels. love to share so many things with you, niche or not, they’re niche in Our Mind.
#with the baby obsession came an obsession with adoption#my aunt and uncle adopted and when i learned that there were ORPHANS whew#i was in preschool judging people for getting pregnant when there were SO many babies without mommies#she had a good point!#also does being a niall girl in 2012 count
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