#i love the way the characters spend time with each other when it isn’t focused on the lord of avillon

[oddinary4bts]

Chasing Cars | ch 10 (jjk)

☆summary: when your brother goes to study on a semester abroad, your life collides with his best friend Jeon Jungkook, who's coincidentally your roommate. Will you survive the collision, or will you crumble into dust?

☆pairings: brother's best friend!Jungkook x younger sister!female reader, Yoongi x Hoseok

☆rating: 18+ (minors DNI, this chapter contains mature content)

☆genre: forbidden love?au, college!au, slice of life!au, smut, angst (as usual a lot of it), fluff

☆warnings: side character breakup, jungkook is still a little jealous lmao, alcohol, curses, they both are anxious to lose each other tbh, explicit content: hickey, breast play, oral sex (male receiving), jerking off, fingering, protected sex

☆word count: 10.1k

☆a/n: fun fact, this is the chapter that made me choose the title for this fic!! and this is also where the angst starts :') I hope you still enjoy reading <3 and thank you to @moonleeai for beta-ing, you're the best <3

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If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Chasing Cars, Snow Patrol

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Monday, March 25th 

You hate college. More specifically, you hate having to turn in multiple lab reports every week. There’s just something about building a lab report that irks you.

You don’t know how researchers do it. You think you’d go insane if you had to write report after report after report but…

You’re already going insane after all.

You sigh, rubbing a hand on your forehead as you look at the tables you’ve been trying to make for half an hour. Yoongi, sitting across from you, raises his head from his laptop, an eyebrow cocked. You offer him a tight-lipped smile, going back to your report as he doesn’t pry, focusing back on his own work.

As much as he spoke to you at the party last week, Yoongi has been a lot more silent today. You reckon you might know why - Hoseok said in the group chat that he’d come to study too, and he’s yet to show up. It’s evening now, and you have a feeling he’s just not going to come. 

You don’t know if you can entirely blame him - it’s Spring Break after all, and most people are trying to forget about college for the week. 

But you can’t, because you’ve got that lab report to work on and a final to study for.

You blink a few times, trying to bring your laptop back in focus, and then you go back to work. You spend another thirty minutes fixing the tables, not caring that the titles clearly could be better. Nabi said she’d go over everything you’ve done, and you know she’s much better with titles anyway.

You’re lucky she’s your lab partner. 

“Are you hungry?” Yoongi asks all of a sudden, and you startle, looking up at him.

Right in time, your stomach grumbles, and you let out a small laugh. “Yeah, a little.”

“Want to order burritos?” Yoongi suggests.

You nod enthusiastically, and he chuckles, picking up his phone. The smile that was on his lips dies almost immediately, and he deeply sighs. You furrow your brows questioningly, glancing outside of your study rooms.

Jungkook isn’t working today, yet you find yourself looking for him all the same. 

“What’s wrong?” you ask Yoongi, pushing Jungkook away from your thoughts.

Even though every thought of him makes you warm inside, giddy like a teenager with a crush.

“Hobi,” Yoongi simply replies.

You purse your lips, picking up your water bottle to take a long sip as you search for something to say. You settle on, “You guys talked after the party?”

Yoongi nods. “Yeah.” He pauses, sighing deeply again before handing you his phone. “Just choose which burrito you want.”

You grab his phone, quickly choosing what you want to eat as he remains silent, typing away on his laptop. You’re aware he’s avoiding the question, but you have a feeling he needs to talk. It’s in the way he worries at some dry skin on his bottom lip, an anxious tell you recognize all too well for having it too.

“How did the conversation go?” you ask as he finishes up the order, putting his phone back down on the table.

“It went okay,” he admits, yet he looks defeated. You understand why when he adds, “He told me he doesn’t want to be with me anymore.”

You widen your gaze. “Oh.”

“Yeah.” Yoongi laughs bitterly, slightly shaking his head. “I feel blindsided. We were all happy before the party and now…” He shrugs vaguely, letting out a choked sound that almost passes as a chuckle. “It just came out of nowhere.”

“I’m really sorry…”

He shrugs again. “What can you do? I really just jumped in too fast without realizing that he was reluctant. I was stupid.”

“I don’t think you were stupid,” you say, trying to sound reassuring. “You’ve had feelings for him for a long time, and it felt like you were finally getting something in return. Anyone would have been blindsided.”

“I should have known when he insisted we take it slow and not share a room though,” Yoongi insists. “And though the sex was great there was a lot of stuff he was uncomfortable with. Not that I ever did anything without him wanting to do it but…” He wets his lips, glances your way before setting his gaze on his keyboard again. “I was his first guy.”

“Yeah, he told me,” you admit.

Pink dusts Yoongi’s cheeks, and you can tell he’s embarrassed by the turn of the conversation. So this time you don’t pry, letting him figure out what he wants to say next.

“I think he realized that he’s not into guys all that much,” Yoongi eventually says. “Like… he wanted to try it out and turns out it’s not as nice as he thought it’d be kinda thing, you know?”

You nod. “It sucks that it had to be with you though. You didn’t deserve that.”

Another shrug, like it’s all Yoongi knows to do right now. “Yeah, I guess.” He chuckles, a sad sound that makes you want to get up and hug him, though you know Yoongi’s not big on physical touch. “I don’t know if I should be mad or sad,” he admits a few seconds later.

“You’re allowed to be both.” He cocks an eyebrow as if not convinced. “I’m serious,” you insist. “You like him. Obviously, it’s going to hurt if he decides he doesn’t want to be with a guy. And obviously, you’re allowed to be mad too, because to you it can feel like he was leading you on.”

Yoongi meets your gaze. “Have you ever thought about becoming a therapist?”

His statement surprises you, and you laugh, scrunching up your nose. “No?”

“I think you’d be good,” Yoongi says. He sighs deeply again, picking up his phone. “Food’s on its way.”

You’re technically not allowed to eat at the library, so you end up eating on the steps outside when the food arrives, the fresh evening air welcoming after being stuck in a small, stuffy room for a couple of hours. Yoongi keeps pouring his heart out to you all along, as if he’d been holding everything in for too long, and the dam finally burst.

You’re happy to be there for him. Even though most of it is the same thing as at the party last week, you’re happy he’s comfortable enough to confide in you, and you try to cheer him up. 

“If you want,” you say after a time. “I could try to speak to Hobi. See what he really thinks about this all.”

Yoongi holds your gaze for a few seconds before looking away, his eyes shifting to the cloudy sky. “Nah, I don’t think it’s a good idea,” he says. “I’ll just have to move on.”

You don’t know what to say to that, so you just nod. “Your choice. I’ll be here for you.”

He smiles, sighing. “I know. Thank you.”

On that note you return to your study room and to the lab report awaiting you. Yoongi busies himself with his composition as you work, and you finally finish taking care of the text for the results about half an hour later. Nabi said she’d do the discussion, so you send her the link, asking her to tell you if she wants you to fix anything, and then you close your laptop, folding your arms on top of it.

“Done?” Yoongi says, pushing his headset down so that it rests around his neck.

You nod, dropping your face on your arms. “And I’m dead.”

“When do finals start for you?” he asks.

“Next Tuesday,” you admit.

“Isn’t that early?” Yoongi asks, gaze widened in surprise.

It might be. You only have one then though, and you still have two weeks of classes in your other courses before the rest of your finals. You’ll still take it - it means one less final during the true final week.

You tell so to Yoongi, who admits he doesn’t have finals, instead having projects in three classes. It leads to a conversation where you compare biology to his music major, and another fifteen minutes go by in comfortable silence when the conversation dies of its own volition, as you scroll on your phone and Yoongi keeps on working on his music composition.

You startle when someone knocks on the door of the study room. You glance that way, eyes widening when you notice Jungkook on the other side. Yoongi lets out a small laugh at your expense, and you get up, opening the door for Jungkook. 

“What are you doing here?” you ask as he walks in, two coffees in hands. 

“Thought you might need this,” he says, offering you one.

You take it with an eyebrow cocked quizzically, and then you watch him as he drops in one of the empty chairs at the table. He’s got a backpack with him, and he pulls out a laptop and a notebook from it while you and Yoongi are just stunned silent.

“What are you doing?” you ask again as you sit back in your chair. 

“Figured I’d come study here with you guys,” he explains simply.

You glance at Yoongi, who shrugs.

“Oh?” you let out, settling your gaze back on Jungkook.

“Unless you guys don’t want me to?”

Yoongi saves you by replying, “No, you’re all good man. I was leaving anyway.”

He clearly wasn’t, as you’re the one who finished writing your report and he was still in the middle of his composition, yet he still gets up, closing his laptop and putting it in his backpack.

“Text me if there’s anything,” you tell him as he’s sliding one of the straps of his backpack on his shoulder.

His Adam's apple bobs as he swallows, and he nods curtly. “Will do. Thanks for everything.”

You offer him a small smile, and then he’s walking out, not once looking back. 

“Did you really have to come here?” you ask Jungkook, and it sounds far more accusing than you meant it to be.

“What?” he lets out. “Just wanted to see what the hype is all about when it comes to the library.”

You offer him a no-bullshit look. “Were you jealous because I was studying alone with Yoongi?”

Jungkook frowns, a crease appearing between his eyebrows. His lips jut out in the hint of a pout, and something melts inside of you, like it always does when it comes to him.

“He’s the one that left the second I got here,” Jungkook points out.

“Because he’s going through a hard time, dumbass,” you say, punching Jungkook in the shoulder. 

He rubs at the spot, his pout intensifying, if that’s possible. “He still could have stayed, I wouldn’t have minded.”

Jungkook isn’t wrong, and though you really want to be there for Yoongi, you know he’s the kind of person that needs space a lot. Or at least that’s the impression he’s given you in general, and you really hope he didn’t leave because Jungkook showed up.

“I was done though,” you admit, patting your closed laptop. “I was thinking about heading home.”

Jungkook flicks your nose, taking you by surprise, and you sit back in your chair as you shriek. It earns you one of his bunny grins, and you truly are melting like snow in the sun. “Well then you’re going to have to stay with me for a little longer, mmh?”

You tilt your head to the side, though you can’t help the smile that tickles the corners of your lips. “And do what?”

“Study?” he sarcastically lets out. “Do whatever it is that you bio majors do.”

You end up doing so, rereading your notes for your first final. It’s boring, and you don’t think it’s really productive when Jeon Jungkook is sitting next to you, stealing quick glances in your direction. 

You catch him for what feels like the tenth time, and you roll your eyes. “Stop looking at me.”

“Why?”

“Because,” you offer as an explanation. “We should go home.”

He narrows his gaze at you. “Why?”

“People could see us here.” And go and tell Taehyung about it.

“I’ll handle Tae if he gets upset, don’t worry,” Jungkook tries to reassure you, but it does the opposite.

Indeed, a drop of lead forms in your stomach because, what if Taehyung learns?

You don’t want him to know. It’d complicate everything, ruin everything. 

“Besides,” Jungkook adds, “I’ll have to handle him in April anyway.”

You frown, a confused crease streaking across your brow. “Why?”

Jungkook meets your gaze. “I’m going to Paris with Jimin to see your brother at the end of the semester.”

Your heart starts racing in your chest, anxiety flooding your blood. “Oh?”

Jungkook toys with his piercings, scanning your features carefully. “Yeah. It’s been planned for a while.”

“You didn’t tell me.” You’re aware you once again sound accusing, but you can’t help it.

Not when you see the expiration date of your relationship with Jungkook flashing in your mind.

“Sorry,” he apologizes. “I just didn’t think to tell you? I thought I mentioned it when we Facetimed Tae the other day.”

You can’t blame him for not explicitly telling you - the trip has likely been planned for a while, and it’s not like you speak about your brother a lot. Though you mention him once in a while, you’ve both been good at avoiding talking about him. Now that he’s mentioned the Facetime call though, you do recall, and it’s like a hand is squeezing around your heart some more.

“No worries,” you say, and you offer him what you hope is a reassuring smile. “When do you leave?”

“April 29th, I think? I’ll check.”

You nod, and you look away from Jungkook to stare at your laptop instead, though your gaze loses its focus as your brother invades your thoughts. You think about what he’d say - you know he’ll be furious, and he’ll likely kick Jungkook out of your apartment. 

Jungkook will never be able to handle Taehyung. Not when he’s being an overbearing asshole like only he knows to do.

“Peach,” Jungkook says in a small voice that almost sounds whiny. “Why do you look so upset?”

“You can’t handle Tae,” you say. You worry at your bottom lip and then take a deep breath. “It’s really better if he doesn’t know.”

Jungkook remains silent for a few seconds, though he nods his head. “Okay.” He nods again, offering you a tight-lipped smile. “Do you want to head home then?”

“Yeah,” you answer without a beat of silence. “Yeah, I think we should go home.”

Jungkook’s gaze drops to his laptop, and you feel bad. You truly do - he looks defeated, much like Yoongi looked like earlier.

“Can we watch something when we get home though?” you quickly ask.

You can’t help it. You can’t stand the sight of Jungkook upset - it’s just wrong to you.

He immediately brightens, a small curving his lips upwards. “Yeah?” 

You nod. “Yeah, definitely. Should get some cuddles in too.”

His smile widens, and he meets your gaze, the usual mischievous twinkle back in the depths of his eyes. “Sounds like a plan.”

And it really is. You think, you don’t need more with Jungkook. You don’t need the relationship to change, don’t need anyone to know. Because it’s simple right now, and there’s beauty in its simplicity. 

Wednesday, March 27th

“Don’t!” you shriek, but Jungkook ignores you, stealing the TV remote from your hands.

“We’re not watching your reality TV show,” he says as he plops down on the couch into a lying position.

You glare at him, frowning as you fold your arms on your chest. “You like it.”

“Sometimes.” He flashes you a bunny grin that makes you gulp around a sudden lump in your throat. “But right now, I’m in the mood for a movie.”

You look up to the ceiling, searching for salvation yet finding none. “What movie?”

“Just come here,” he says, opening his arms for you.

You can’t resist. His gravity is too strong, and he pulls you in, like he’s the sun and you’re the comet. 

Though you might come from the Kuiper Belt, you know you’re bound to crash into him anyway.

Once you’re nestled in his arms, Jungkook resumes his scrolling on Netflix. 

“What about this?” he asks.

“Extraction?” you say as you eye the movie he stops on. “I’m not in the mood for action.”

“Then a romantic comedy it is.”

You chuckle against him, pecking the mole on his neck. He chooses the movie Always Be My Maybe, and then tightens his grip around you.

“I like that movie,” you say.

“You’ve seen it already?”

You reach for his hand before he’s able to change it. “Yeah, but I don’t mind,” you reassure him. 

He nods, and that’s how you end up watching the movie, slowly dozing off on his chest. You’re in and out of sleep, watching the bright screen whenever you wake up, and when the credits roll in, Jungkook yawns over you.

“Were you sleeping?” you ask, faking offence.

“You were,” Jungkook points out, flicking your nose as you raise your head to look at him. 

You move your face away, resting your head on the couch. “Barely.”

Jungkook cocks an eyebrow, and then you both burst out laughing. 

You like this. You like the intimacy of being with Jungkook in your own home, like that in between these walls you get to call him yours. It’s treacherous, but oh so inebriating, like he’s summer wine you’ve become addicted to.

Instead of watching another movie, Jungkook goes to his room to retrieve his speaker, and he puts a random playlist on while you fetch a rosé bottle from the fridge, where you’ve left it before watching the movie. You’d decided to spend the evening in despite both your friends and his friends asking to hang out, and so you’d gotten a bottle earlier today.

That, and the board game Ticket to Ride, your favourite board game.

“That’s not how it works,” you complain a while later, when you’re one glass in and Jungkook grabs a locomotive and wagon card from the five on the side.

“What?” he lets out.

“If you take a locomotive you can only take one card,” you remind him.

It’s his first time playing, and though the game is fairly simple, you’ve noticed Jungkook has a tendency to try and cheat his way to the win. You’re tempted to let him keep the two cards when he offers you puppy eyes, yet you stand your ground, holding your hand out.

“Give me the wagon back.”

“Take it from me,” he teases, lips stretching in a smirk.

“Oh, you want to play this way?” you reply in the same teasing tone, and Jungkook toys on his piercings.

“Maybe?”

You get up from where you’ve been sitting on the floor, walking to the other side of the coffee table. Jungkook watches you, an apprehensive yet excited look in his eyes, and he laughs the second you drop behind him, hands aiming for his sides.

He leans against you, his large frame almost enough to make you crumple to the floor, and you wrap your arms around him, holding him close.

“Give me the wagon,” you repeat.

“Or what?”

“Or I’m not playing the game anymore.”

He looks over his shoulder at you, a pout on his pink lips. “Okay then, take your wagon back.”

He gives it to you, and you smile victoriously before pecking his cheek. “Thank you.”

You walk back to your side of the table, though you stop halfway, eyes brightening.

“I love this song!” 

Jungkook leans back on his hands, tilting his head to the side as Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol starts playing.

It was your favourite song growing up. You used to listen to a different version of it you’d heard on Grey’s Anatomy, and you’d listen to it whenever you felt sad. Whenever you needed to feel like you weren’t alone in the universe, like someone was waiting for you, somewhere.

And as you look down at Jungkook while the lyrics start, you know someone was waiting all along.

“Sing it for me,” Jungkook says, smiling softly.

You can’t help the blush that creeps on your cheeks. “I don’t know how to sing. But you do!”

He chuckles, yet immediately starts singing as you offer him a hand to pull him up to his feet. He obliges, and he rests his large hands on your waist as you wrap your arms around his neck, holding him close. He sways you to the music as he softly sings, cheeks dusted in pink, and you pull him even closer, resting your head on his chest.

Simple intimacy. That is what you and Jeon Jungkook are made of, and you think, if he’d ask you to lay here, in this moment, you’d lie with him until eternity took you in its hold. Until you’d be nothing more than dust between the stars - remembrance of what was once great. 

But April is looming closer, a giant towering over the both of you, one step away from crushing you under its boot.

“You know,” Jungkook says while the song continues in the background.

“Mmh?” you let out, looking up to meet his gaze.

His eyes are heavy with emotions, and you swim in them, bathe in them. You feel complete, cherished, and you hope he knows you feel the same way.

You hope he knows you’ve been falling in love with him despite the odds.

“I’ve never been like this with anyone before,” he admits, his voice gentle. “I’ve had situationships, I guess, but nothing like us.”

You smile softly, your heart racing in your chest. “Me neither. You’re the first.”

It’s true. Though you’ve sort of dated Sam Hwang for a few weeks during the summer, it was nothing like it is with Jungkook.

Sam Hwang never looked at you the way that Jungkook looks at you.

Jungkook leans forward, resting his forehead against yours as he keeps on swaying you both to the music, the song nearing its last chorus. Your eyes flutter shut from the proximity, and your breaths mingle as you fall silent for a few seconds.

“I love having firsts with you,” he whispers.

You almost reply that you love him. The moment calls for it - the atmosphere is that of romance,  the music is close to your soul, and he… He’s the blood in your veins and the oxygen in your lungs. Yet you can’t say it - you’ve never told anyone you loved them before. And you’re not even sure you truly love him. Yes, you have feelings, but everything is overshadowed by the knowledge that you’re bound to end.

You don’t want to tell him you love him and make it too real only to have him slip from your fingers the second Taehyung learns.

“Me too,” you instead reply. “I love spending time with you.”

It’s as close to the truth as you’ll get, and he allows it, pressing a soft kiss on your lips. It’s slow, patient, like the whole universe will pause for you two. He pulls away when the song ends, bending to grab his phone on the table. 

He restarts the song, and the second his phone is back on the table again, you pull him back in, tiptoeing to kiss him again. He wraps his arm around your waist, holding you tight against him, and you sigh at the pillowy softness of his mouth, at the way his piercings feel just right pressing indents in your lip. His free hand cups your cheek, holding you in place as he deepens the kiss, tilting his head to the side.

His tongue swipes at your bottom lip, almost hesitantly, but you open up for him immediately, tasting the rosé in his mouth as he kisses you deeply, languidly. The kiss never accelerates, yet it’s infinitely passionate.

Much like that first kiss you’d exchange, during the power outage on Valentine’s Day.

You think you knew then - he’d kissed you so softly, like you were fragile, just a flower petal a second from being blown away. Even then, he’d cared for you, and it’d scared you.

But there’s nothing scary about this. There’s nothing scary about the way he gently hikes your shirt up to slide his hand underneath it, his fingers tracing idle patterns on your back, leaving goosebumps in their wake. There’s nothing scary about the way he sighs when you run your hands through his hair, gently tugging at the soft strands. There’s nothing scary about the way he backs you towards the couch, spinning around at the last second so that he can sit down.

There’s nothing scary about him pulling you in, always, so that you straddle his lap, connecting your mouths again a second later. No, it’s only natural. He’s the wind and you the leaves. He’s the sun that shines on you, his moon.

You were always meant to collide after all, and though the aftermath might be terrifying, all you can do right now is enjoy it while it lasts.

Jungkook tentatively grinds up, his arousal evident as he presses against your clothed self. You let out a breathy sound that makes him push his tongue in your mouth, and you suck on it, earning a grunt from him as his hands drop to your hips to drag you on him again. You grab at the hem of his shirt, disconnecting your mouths just long enough to pull the fabric off him, and then you’re kissing him again, crashing your lips on his hard enough that you think you taste blood, though you don’t care.

You just want him. Need him, so viscerally you think you’ll combust.

“Peach,” Jungkook lets out as you move to his neck. 

Unable to resist, you suck a hickey on him, a bright purple mark on the spot where his shoulder connects with his neck. He groans, leaning his head back against the couch to give you better access as you lick at the spot, soothing the sting.

When you straighten, Jungkook meets your gaze, his chest quickly going up and down. You’re just as out of breath as him, and when he reaches for the hem of your shirt, you let him take it off you, leaving you in only your black lace bralette. He looks at your breasts, cupping them in his large hands as he sighs appreciatively.

“Every time it’s like you get more beautiful,” he murmurs, and he looks up at you then, his eyes crinkled at the corners in what you can only call adoration. 

“Kook…”

His hands return to your waist, and he wets his lips, playing with his piercings. You grind against him, and his eyes immediately flutter shut.

“You think we can fuck out here?” you tease, rolling your hips.

“On the couch that your brother bought,” he replies, and there’s something so sinful about the thought that you know you’ll do it.

It’s not like Taehyung is around and will know.

So you bend forward, capturing Jungkook’s mouth in another languid kiss while you unbutton his pants. When the button comes undone, you straighten, standing between his legs so that you can pull the jeans down his legs. You leave the boxers on, eyeing his length as you kneel, hands resting on his thighs.

“Can I suck your dick?” you ask.

He chuckles. “Yes. But please be quick, I want to be buried inside of you.”

You narrow your gaze at him, but let out a laugh despite yourself. 

You focus on his dick again then, on the wet spot at the top where his purple underwear has turned darker. You bend forward, littering small kisses along his shaft, and you tentatively lick at the wet spot, the taste of his precum filling your mouth. And though you’d planned to tease him, to be the brat you know he likes, you give in right away, pulling his boxers down just enough so that you can lick at his slit.

He lets out a breathy sound that has you bite your lip as you look up at him through your lashes. He’s got his head thrown back, eyes closed, and from this angle, all you can see is his sharp jaw.

You pull his boxers down more, and he helps you by raising his ass for a few seconds. His dick springs free, already rock hard, and you immediately grab the base to hold it up as you finish taking off his boxers, letting them tangle around his ankles. You’re quick to lick a long stripe from between his balls up to the tip of his cock, and then you take him in your mouth, hollowing your cheeks around him.

He bucks his hips, fucking up into your mouth, and you moan when he hits the back, your eyes immediately watering. 

He lets you lead after that, hands lost in your hair as you bob your head up and down, working him closer to his high. You love the feel of him in your mouth, love the way he grunts and praises you under his breath, and you think you’d be able to come from just hearing him, pleasuring him. 

It doesn’t get to that though. When Jungkook truly nears his high, he pulls you away from his dick, and you meet his gaze to see his pupils are blown wide, filled with so much lust all you can do is obey when he says, “Go get a condom in my room, mmh?”

You nod, and you get up to walk towards his room, feeling his gaze burning on you as you pass the threshold and head to the night table. You pull a condom out, and you walk back to the living room to find Jungkook jerking himself off, his grip on his dick tight enough you know it has to hurt a little.

“Put it on for me,” he says, and he stops jerking off, holding his dick up for you. 

You sit next to him, pulling the condom out of the tinfoil package, and then you roll it on his dick. He hisses as you do so, but the second it’s on he pushes you back until you’re lying on the couch and he’s hovering over you. 

His hair falls in his eyes, and you quickly push the strands back. He leans in, pressing his lips on yours for a kiss far softer than what you expected, and you smile against him.

He grins when he pulls away, eyes shining with lust and adoration again, and then he’s taking off your pants, taking his sweet time. Kissing every inch of skin revealed, from your inner thigh to a spot below your knee. He stops after that, instead eyeing the wet spot on your underwear, and then he pulls at his piercings, sending you a dark look that makes you go molten.

“I want to fuck you in this,” he says as he finishes taking off your pants, his free hand going to your hip where he traces your underwear. “Want to ruin your panties.”

“Do it,” you challenge him.

He doesn’t need to hear more before he’s returning over you, and his hand pushes your panties to the side so that he can run a finger between your folds, and then circle your clit. You grind your hips, seeking more friction, but Jungkook doesn’t oblige, instead pulling his finger away from your pussy.

“Be patient,” he whispers, and then he kisses you again.

The kiss is feathersoft, gentle, and you lose yourself in the very essence of him. You don’t care - you just want this moment, forever. A scene constantly replaying, away from the atrocity of the world, with your favourite song as the background music.

“Please,” you beg in a soft murmur when he pulls away from your lips, and this time he obliges, returning his hand to your pussy. This time, he pushes in, and you sigh against him as your walls clench around his digit.

“You’re already so wet,” he says, and then he’s kissing you again, his tongue lapping at yours. 

You moan in his mouth, hands lightly scratching his back as he adds a second finger. You can hear squelching sounds between your legs, and you’d be embarrassed if it didn’t feel so good that you can’t form a single coherent thought.

“Fuck,” you curse, and Jungkook chuckles, pecking your cheek.

“You take my fingers so well, peach,” he praises. “Will you take my cock just as well?”

You moan again, and you nod your head yes. “Yeah. Please.”

He smirks, pulling his fingers out of you. You both eye them - they’re covered in your juices, and it’s decadent, sinful.

Even more so when Jungkook puts them in his mouth to clean them thoroughly, drinking in your juices. 

“So sweet,” he whispers after, and then he shifts, straightening between your legs so that he can align his dick with your entrance, your panties still pushed to the side. He meets your gaze, his own dark with lust. “How do you want me tonight?” he asks, rubbing his dick on you slowly.

“Just fuck me, but come near,” you say, pulling on one of his wrists so that he leans over you again. 

He smiles, infinitely soft despite what you’re doing, and then he pushes in, ever so slowly. Inch after inch, Jungkook spears you with his dick until he bottoms out. He stills there, and you wrap your legs around his dainty waist to keep him as close as possible. He obliges, stealing a deep kiss on your lips, and he slowly pulls out before slamming to the hilt again, and you moan in his mouth.

The rhythm he establishes is slow and steady. Deep, in a way that makes you see stars in his gaze. Or maybe that’s just the way the light reflects in his eyes, or the emotions still swirling in the depths of him. You don’t know. All that you know is that you’re falling and falling, with no chance to ever stop now.

You’ve crossed too many lines to ever be able to stop. So you’ll enjoy it while it lasts. Chase all the cars around his head until you can’t anymore, until the last nail is in the coffin and you have to say goodbye to this, to him.

But for now, you enjoy. And you enjoy as best as you can, eyes fluttering shut as he slightly picks up the pace, whispering sweet nothings in your ear. You hold him close, arms and legs tight around him, and you moan as he makes love to you.

At least that’s what this feels like. And you wouldn’t want it any other way. You just want the warm proximity of his body on yours, of his lips kissing your mouth. Jungkook gives you all, and you hope he knows you’re giving all to him in return.

Everything. You’ll give him everything until you have nothing left to give, if he so takes it.

“Fuck, peach,” he whispers. He slows down his rhythm, meets your gaze. “I’m really in love with this pussy of yours.”

You know why he says it that way. Know exactly what he truly means but can’t say, and you take that too, keep it locked up in a safe corner of your heart.

“I know,” you whisper, cupping his cheek, and he rests his forehead on yours again.

“I’ll fuck you like this every day,” he says, and it sounds like a promise.

A promise that maybe you’ll make it past your brother’s return.

“Please do,” you beg, and then you’re kissing again, and he’s pounding into you harder, seeking completion for the both of you.

You come before him. Nails digging in his back while you arch yours, walls pulsing around him. That’s what sends him over the edge, and Jungkook climaxes, his head falling in the crook of your neck as he comes and comes.

He’d paint you white if it wasn’t for the condom, and the thought makes you grind your hips instinctively. He kisses your neck in retaliation, and you moan softly, tilting your head to give him better access.

When you’ve come down from the high, you glance towards the coffee table and your abandoned game of Ticket to Ride. The sight makes you laugh, and you press a soft kiss on the mole on Jungkook’s neck as he asks, “What’s got you laughing?”

“We never finished the game,” you remind him.

He lifts his head just enough to look at the coffee table. “Damn,” he lets out. “I totally forgot about that.”

You can’t blame him. When you’re together, you forget about everything, too - he becomes the center of your universe. And you wouldn’t want it any other way.

“Should we finish it?” you ask.

He meets your gaze, pecks your forehead once. “Shower first?”

You can’t say no to those big doe eyes, so you follow him to the bathroom.

And while he washes your back, you hear the clock ticking, your expiration date looming closer with every second that passes.

Saturday, April 13th

The movie theatre is packed. 

You’re waiting in line for popcorn with Nabi, Namjoon and Ria, while Seokjin, Hoseok and Yoongi go to the bathroom. The hall of the movie theatre is loud, and you’ve been standing in silence with your friends as you wait for your turn, though you’ve been eyeing the menu as you’re trying to decide what to order.

You settle on a medium-sized bag of popcorn to share with Yoongi, and Namjoon and Ria grab different candies and chocolate bars for themselves and your other friends. You’re walking towards your movie room when you notice an all-too recognizable tattooed boy, who stands taller than the group that surrounds him.

His eyes light up when he sees you, and he grins broadly as he waves at you.

Four pairs of eyes turn to look at you - Jimin, Sera, Lisa and Eunwoo - and you smile at them, though your gaze quickly shifts back to Jungkook.

You’d told him you were coming to the movies with your friends before going out for drinks. You’re not surprised he’s decided to pull up - despite everything you’ve told him, he’s jealous of your friendship with Yoongi. Which you reckon is funny - Yoongi is trying to fix things with Hoseok, and all you’ve been doing is offer help to him when he needs it.

You don’t think the relationship is fixable, but you haven’t had the strength to break it to Yoongi yet. Not when they had a moment last week, and he’s been far too happy about it since then.

You walk over to where Jungkook’s standing, your friends in tow. It’s hard to stop yourself from hugging him, but you manage to do it, instead greeting everyone and smiling at Jimin as he asks what movie you’re going to see.  

“Dune 2,” you reply. 

Jimin snorts, saying, “Thought so.”

It sounds ominous, and you slightly furrow your brows, glancing towards Jungkook. He only shrugs his shoulders as he purses his lips.

And that’s how you end up mixing friend groups for the movie. You’re not surprised when Jungkook manages to sit on your left - he’s clearly been scheming for this all along. Yoongi, entirely oblivious, sits on your right.

“I haven’t even seen the first movie,” Yoongi says as he leans towards you. He quickly glances further down the row, where Hoseok sat with Namjoon and Nabi.

Jungkook mirrors Yoongi, and he’s so close you catch a whiff of the detergent he uses to wash his clothes. “It was practically a walking simulator in the desert. Not much to miss.”

Yoongi nods, sitting back in his seat. He offers you a knowing look, and then turns towards Seokjin and Ria on his other side, joining whatever conversation they’re having. You purse your lips, before sliding your gaze back to Jungkook.

“What are you doing here?” you ask through gritted teeth.

“My friends wanted to see the movie,” he says, shrugging his shoulders. “Thought we could go at the same time.”

You look up to the ceiling, though a smile is playing at the corners of your lips. “What a coincidence.”

He grins. “What a coincidence indeed.”

It makes you chuckle, and before you can say anything else, the light of the movie theatre dims, leaving you in only the glow of the screen as it comes to life.

You eat your popcorn as many movie trailers pass on the screen, Yoongi taking some once in a while. The movie starts when you’re halfway done with the bag, and soon you’re lost in the scenes, too focused to eat.

That’s when Jungkook strikes, stealing a handful of popcorn from your bag.

“Hey!” you whisper-shout, and he winks at you as he eats a mouthful of the snack. 

“What?” he whispers back once he’s swallowed.

“That’s mine.”

He flicks your nose, leaning closer to say directly in your ear, “What’s yours is mine, and what’s mine is yours, peach.”

You narrow your gaze. “You haven’t even bought any snacks.”

He shrugs. “I knew I’d steal yours.”

You roll your eyes, slightly shaking your head as you look back towards the screen, and he chuckles softly. Scenes flash in front of your eyes, and you get lost in the action. It might be an hour later, or just a few minutes, when Jungkook pokes your knee, attracting your attention.

You glance at him, but he’s focusing on the screen, his skin looking honey-like in the light. You furrow your brows in question, but when he doesn’t say anything, you shrug, looking back at the screen.

He does it again thirty seconds later, and this time he’s stifling a laugh when you glance at him.

“What do you want?” you whisper as you lean closer to him.

“You,” he replies simply, his eyes darkening as he meets your gaze.

You gulp. “We’re in the middle of a movie theatre with all of our friends.”

“I know,” he says, shrugging. “I’ve just been thinking of how you feel around my…”

You punch his shoulder before he can finish his sentence, and Lisa throws you a look that makes you sit back in your seat, folding your arms on your chest.

“Just focus on the movie, Kook,” you mumble.

He chuckles again, but before he can say anything else, Lisa nudges him. He glances at her, leaning closer when she whispers something you can’t quite hear. 

His whole demeanour changes after that, and he sits back in his chair, a slight pout on his lips. Gone is the playfulness, but you think it’s safer that way. He’s way too obvious when you’re in public, and though Taehyung still hasn’t said a thing, you know it’s bound to explode in your face soon.

Jungkook is leaving for Paris in just a few weeks after all. 

It douses you, and you finish watching the movie with a lump in your throat, one that doesn’t disappear even when you’re at the bar later, your friend group mixing with Jungkook’s far too easily. Of course, Jungkook notices, and he sits next to you, nudging you.

You glance at him, noticing the concern in his eyes.

“Is something wrong?” he asks.

“No,” you lie, but he sees through it immediately.

“Is it your cramps?”

You’re on your period. Obviously, he knows, and he’s been sweet about it, buying you snacks and putting his hands, always warm, on your lower stomach while you cuddle. 

You purse your lips, shaking your head. The concern doesn’t disappear from his features though, and you feel bad. Enough so that you say, “I’m just…”

You trail off as Lisa appears, sitting on the other side of Jungkook with two beers in hand. She gives one to Jungkook, who thanks her quickly before setting his gaze on you again. Yet she lingers, and you find yourself unable to speak, shrugging your shoulders.

“If there’s anything, just let me know,” Jungkook says, and he offers you a small smile that does nothing to tame the worry in his gaze. “I don’t mind heading home earlier.”

You nod once, and the conversation dies as Hoseok appears on the other side of the table, cheeks red with the shots he’s already downed.

“Not drinking tonight?” he asks you.

You shrug. “Not really in the mood.”

Hoseok narrows his gaze in his suspicion. “I’ve never seen you not in the mood to drink.”

You chuckle. “Well, now you have.”

You’re relieved when he lets it go, especially as you sensed Jungkook tensing by your side, an indication that he was going to intervene if Hoseok didn’t drop it. There’s a short silence, during which you notice Hoseok looking at Yoongi where he’s drinking with Namjoon and Seokjin, a few tables over.

You glance at Jungkook, motioning towards Hoseok. Jungkook frowns, not understanding, and you quickly pull out your phone to text him.

[10:37 pm] You: i want to talk to hobi about yoongi but not in front of you guys

Jungkook pulls out his phone to read your message. He doesn’t reply, yet he nods, turning towards Lisa. “Where are Sera and Jimin?”

“Ordering something at the bar,” Lisa replies, entirely unaware. “Why?”

“Want shots?”

Lisa beams under Jungkook’s gaze, and you taste bile in your mouth as they get up and walk away together, Jungkook shooting you a quick glance over his shoulder.

You can complain all you want about Jungkook being jealous of Yoongi, but you’re just as jealous of Lisa after all.

“What’s up with you and Yoongi?” you ask when they’re out of earshot, gaining Hoseok’s attention.

“Man…” he trails off. “I don’t know. I don’t know how I feel.”

“Is that why you’ve decided to switch universities?” 

You’ve been asking yourself that question for weeks, but Hoseok has been good at avoiding you, clearly realizing that you’ve grown closer to Yoongi.

Hoseok widens his gaze, and the blush on his cheeks deepens. “No? I said it’s because I’m following a professor.”

“What professor?” you ask, cocking an eyebrow.

Hoseok shrugs, his eyes dropping to a knot in the wood of the table. “Why do you care?”

“You’re my friend,” you remind him. “No matter the history that we have. I’d be sad to see you go.”

He chuckles, and it’s a lot more bitter than you ever expected to hear him. “Listen, I don’t really want to be questioned. Is Yoongi the one that asked you to ask me this?”

“No,” you say. “Not at all. I’m just worried about you.”

“About me?” he repeats. “I’m all good, Y/n.”

He doesn’t sound convincing at all, so you say, “Just make sure you don’t do something you’ll regret.”

“I already did,” he admits, and his glance towards Yoongi is far too telling. “I’m not into him like that. I don’t even know if I’m into men like that.”

“Have you told him?” 

He shrugs. “Here and there. I think he knows.”

You think so too, as Yoongi had mentioned it when you’d studied together a few weeks ago. 

“Just make sure you’re honest with him, and honest with yourself,” you say after a few beats of silence.

Hoseok purses his lips, nodding once. “Will do.”

The air turns awkward as Hoseok just keeps on staring at the knot in the wood. You feel bad - you used to be a lot closer to him, and in just a few weeks, your relationship shifted. But you think it might be for the better - you can’t imagine how Jungkook would feel if you were close to someone you used to sleep with, considering he’s jealous of a friend you’ve never done anything with.

Not that that would stop you from being friends with someone. Especially not when April 29th is coming soon, and with it, your situationship - you’re not sure you can call it a relationship - will end. 

“Where are you moving?” you ask.

“San Diego,” he replies quickly, and a shy smile appears on his lips, like the thought excites him. “I can’t wait to not have to deal with winter anymore.”

“I can imagine,” you say, chuckling. “Though winter wasn’t too bad this year.”

“If there was an inch of snow then it was bad.” He says it wisely, and this time you laugh as he breaks into a smile.

The conversation is easier after that. Still heavy, because you both know the friendship likely won’t survive the distance, but you still manage to have fun as you speak about classes, about life, and about what he’ll do once he’s in California. Half an hour passes like that, and then you move to the bar, agreeing to grab a single drink.

You settle on an Amaretto Sour, and Ria and Nabi join you at the bar. You end up doing Lychee bombs with them, and then you follow them all back to the table where the rest of your friends are, along with Jimin, Sera and Jungkook.

You’re relieved to see Lisa isn’t there. Not that she’s not nice. She always is, despite her obvious attraction towards Jungkook. And though she clearly senses that something’s happening between you and Jungkook, she’s never said anything, and you respect her for it.

You sit between Nabi and Ria, and Nabi quickly melts against Namjoon next to her. You snort at the sight, turning to say it to Ria, who seems to be in a staring contest with Seokjin across the table.

You don’t really know what’s happening between the two. Ria mentioned that she’s not interested in him, saying he’s just gotten out of a relatively long relationship, and you’re not close enough to Seokjin to know his opinion.

You’re just observant, and you know just how much the air fills with electricity when these two are concerned. Lightning is bound to strike at some point, and you just hope it does so without hurting anyone.

You wonder, is that how the people around you perceive you and Jungkook?

The evening unfolds, calmer than your usual outings - you find yourself going home just a little after midnight. Jungkook’s with you, and he unlocks the door as you slowly walk up the stairs, shooting you a glance.

“You sure everything’s okay?” he asks as you finally reach the top.

You purse your lips, meeting his gaze. The streetlight down the stairs reflects in his gaze, and he looks angelic, innocent like this.

“Yeah, I’m just…” you trail off. “You’re leaving soon.”

His features soften, and he opens the door for you to walk in, following behind you. “I know,” he says once he’s shut the door.

You turn the lights on, meeting his gaze. Unable to help yourself, you cup his cheek, thumb swiping at his skin. “Want to share a bed tonight?” you ask.

As if you haven’t been sharing a bed for weeks already.

“Yes, of course,” he immediately agrees, and he covers your hand with his own, tugging you closer. “If you kiss me first.”

That makes you smile, like only he knows to do, and you tiptoe, pressing your lips on his in a featherlike peck.

“That doesn’t count,” he complains, lips jutting out in a small pout.

“Then kiss me,” you challenge. “Kiss me stupid.”

You don’t need to ask twice - he closes the distance between your mouths, lips ravaging yours, and you lose your hands in his hair.

Later, after you’ve sucked his dick in the shower - you don’t like having sex on your period, but you still wanted to make him feel good - you lie down in your bed, the fairy lights making the atmosphere far gentler than it should be.

It’s treacherous, and you lie with your head on Jungkook’s chest, listening to his steady heartbeat. Chasing Cars is playing on his speaker, and you hold him tighter, putting all of your love in the act. He kisses the top of your head, mouth lingering against you.

“I’m happy you came tonight,” you admit. Indeed, despite the anxiety of Taehyung learning, you like hanging out with Jungkook. Like spending as much time as possible with him right now - the clock is ticking after all, and the sound resembles that of a bomb about to go off.

“Me too,” he whispers. 

You lift your head, meeting his gaze. “Have you talked to Taehyung recently?” 

The question takes him aback, and his eyebrows knit together. “I speak to him almost every day, why?”

Because you’ve been avoiding your brother like the plague. Because you know the second you speak to Taehyung, you’ll blurt out the truth, and you’re not ready to face his reaction yet.

You doubt you’ll ever be ready.

“How is he and the girl doing?” you ask. “Ariane?”

“Good,” Jungkook answers. “They’re pretty much official now.”

Your lips stretch in a thin line, and you rest your head on his chest again. 

You don’t want him to see the jealousy in your gaze.

“Good for him.” It sounds just as flat as you feel - like a tire pierced with a nail, emptied of all air.

Jungkook must feel it too, because his grip around you tightens, like he’s trying to fuse your bodies together. As if it’d save you from the looming heartbreak.

“We’ll figure it out,” Jungkook whispers a while later, when you thought he was asleep. 

You hope he doesn’t take your silence personal - you just don’t think you can figure it out.

Taehyung would never let it happen. So silence is what you offer Jungkook, and you wonder if the beat his heart skips is an indication that he’s breaking, much like you are breaking too.

Sunday, April 28th 

Time goes by fast. Sometimes, you think it’s even faster when you’re trying to hold on to something - like sand slipping through the fingers of a fist held tight, time has been slipping away.

The end is near. 

You’re sitting on Jungkook’s bed, watching him as he packs his suitcase. He’s been lazy, stopping often so that he can kiss you, hold you. He’s been clingy lately, much like you’ve been.

Like you’ve been trying to fit a whole relationship in just a few weeks. 

Jungkook lifts his head from his sock drawer, meeting your gaze. He smiles, but there’s sadness behind his pupils, lurking in the depths of his eyes. You want to take it away, but all you manage to do is smile a weak smile.

“I wonder if they’ll want to go to the Catacombs,” Jungkook says.

He’s been saying random stuff once in a while as he packs, grasping for a conversation you haven’t been able to join in. But you try, you always try, and you know he’s not mad at you for it.

Jungkook could never be mad at you. 

It’s strange how he changed in the last four months. You think back on the Incident, that dreaded Incident you had believed to be the most embarrassing thing in your life. Today, you know it wasn’t. It was the start of something great, something you wish never had an expiration date.

But nothing gold can stay, or so they say.

“I bet they’re creepy,” you answer. “Not sure I’d go if I were you.”

“I assume you’re the kind of person who gets scared while watching horror movies too, huh?” Jungkook teases, and he walks towards you, hands full of socks.

He drops them in the suitcase at your feet as you slightly shake your head, a teasing smirk growing on your lips. You doubt it meets your eyes, but it’s the best you can do.

“Says you, who prefers watching romance over action,” you tease.

Indeed, the first few times you’ve watched movies together, he’s suggested going for action first. But he never once appeared disappointed when you chose a romance movie, instead beaming at you as he nodded enthusiastically. It was adorable, endearing, like everything is when it comes to Jungkook.

You can hardly believe he used to sleep around, used to be the most renowned fuckboy in your college. Nowadays, Jungkook appears more like a hopeless romantic, and it’s easy to figure out why.

As someone who never received love from his family, he’s been craving it his whole life. At least you think so, and you’ve been giving it to him, pouring it to him, by actions rather than words.

“Nothing beats romance,” he declares, and you chuckle as he plops down on the bed next to you.

You turn your head towards him as he lies down, one hand on his chest.

“Is that why you cry in every movie?”

He frowns, a pout adorning his lips. “I don’t.”

You cock an eyebrow, because obviously he does, and you both burst out laughing at the same time. 

No matter how dreaded the circumstances are, the chemistry between you and Jeon Jungkook is undeniable. And as you look at him, you wonder if there’s a universe out there where you’re allowed to be with him. Where older brothers aren’t a thing, and where you get to call him yours, to scream it from the rooftops.

It douses your enthusiasm, and your smile falls as you look away. 

Jungkook sits up, cupping your cheek to force you to look at him again. He scans your features for a few seconds, and you stare at his eyebrow piercing, as if that will keep you from crumbling.

“You know…” he lets out. He sucks on his lower lip piercings, pulling at them so hard you think it has to hurt. “I’ve been thinking.”

“Yeah?”

He nods. “I really want to make us work.”

His simple sentence empties everything in your head, in your soul, until there’s just him left. 

“But how?”

“I’ll speak to Taehyung,” he says, for what has to be the thousandth time. Indeed, you’ve had that conversation before, but you never once agreed. “I’ll speak to him in Paris, and then when I come back this doesn’t have to be over.”

“This?” you repeat.

“Us.”

You sigh, and you look between his eyes. Hope lights his gaze, and you think there has to be a museum out there to exhibit such beauty. 

Jungkook is breathtaking in every way that matters.

“Tae will kill you,” you say, and the hope slowly withers like flowers in the fall. “Try to have a nice trip instead.”

“Then we can talk to him when I come back,” Jungkook suggests. “Together. I can use you as a human shield if he tries to kill me.”

You snort, and the hope reignites in his gaze. “What if it doesn’t work?”

“Then he’ll be mad,” Jungkook simply states. “I don’t want to lose you, peach.”

Fuck. You’re in love, and you’re in love deep.

“You might lose his friendship,” you say, but your resolve is melting away far quicker than you expected. Because he’s offering you a silver lining, a life vest in the storm that’s been raging inside your head for weeks.

“I honestly don’t care,” Jungkook says, but you see it in his eyes: he cares, and he’d be hurt. “I’m sure he’ll get over it.”

You highly doubt so but… what if he does? What if he forgives Jungkook, forgives you?

Then you wouldn’t need to travel to another universe. You’d have this one, and you’d have Jungkook.

Maybe you should try.

“Are you sure?” you ask, voice smaller than the atoms holding your body together.

He nods vehemently. “I am. 100%. I don’t want to lose you when we’ve barely just started.”

“Kook…”

He kisses you then, as if he needs to show you with action instead of words. You end up tangled in his bed, your bodies connected on a level deeper than the physical, yet you wouldn’t dare say it. And he doesn’t either, not even when you inevitably go to bed later that evening. 

You’re nestled in his embrace, a few minutes after he’s turned his LED lights off, when you say, “Kook?”

“Mmh?”

“Don’t talk to Tae in Paris,” you say. “We’ll wait for you to come back. And we’ll talk to him together.”

“Okay,” he whispers. “Okay. If that’s your wish, then I can do it.” He’d said so earlier after all.

You nod. “I think it’s better if it comes from us both instead of just you.”

“Makes sense.” Jungkook kisses your forehead, and a soft smile spreads on your lips. “And peach?”

“Yeah?” you murmur.

“If you miss me too much, feel free to sleep in my bed and wear my clothes, okay?”

“Okay.”

He kisses your forehead again, and despite the words exchanged, you fear it might mean goodbye.

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no but why did I forget how sad this chapter was? Help, they are so afraid to lose each other :') anywayyys what did you guys think about this chapter? Did you like it?? Please let me know:)

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could you write friends to lovers shauna shipman x reader headcanons?? i love how you write her and i think is so accurate!! thank you, hope you have a an amazing day ☺️☺️

Friends to Lovers With Shauna Shipman Headcanons! (Pre-Relationship) [1]

A/N: Thanks, Anon! I always try hard to make sure the stuff I make about them is in line with their canon counterparts, but it can't be helped that some will just be out of character for them anyway. Moving aside from those, this was a bit rushed but I still hope you devour and enjoy it!

You were probably in one of her classes or friends with Jackie. At first, she doesn't really acknowledge your existence—too busy focusing solely on Jackie.

It isn’t until after a party that she and the rest of the Yellowjackets team are invited to that she does begins paying mind to you. What you did wasn't a big thing, to be honest!

You probably just, like, accompanied her for a while and complimented her outfit while she was moping over Jackie leaving her for Jeff again or something.

To your surprise, instead of being told to just leave her alone, Shauna actually lights up and starts talking to you; she thanks you for your compliment before talking about other things.

You guys don't even notice how much time passed with how invested you both were in your conversations with each other before someone from her team came to get her.

From then on, Shauna starts waving at you whenever she sees you around. She starts giving you these small (really cute) shy smiles when you two pass each other through the hallways.

It isn't long until it evolves to you guys striking up a conversation whenever you guys catch the other somewhere. You listen to Shauna, and she feels heard. She feels more seen.

Slowly but surely stuff changes between the two of you as you both get closer to each other. Shauna starts sneaking out of her house at night to meet you after dark, just hanging out with you in her car and talking for hours.

The conversations are just about whatever, school and gossip, the usual. But gradually it goes from that to Shauna spilling a lot of stuff she normally would just never tell anyone and keep to herself.

You guys start glancing at each other a lot, brush hands more often than friends should, and find a TON of excuses just to be physically close to each other.

When you guys are around the team, you both have to play it really cool. I mean, the team knows you two have been getting way too buddy pals with each other, but no one knows more than that.

Tai and Van has this vibe with you two. Natalie has this hunch. Jackie is oblivious to it. Laura Lee, Lottie, Mari, and Akilah feel like something's up with you guys while Misty is just in her own world entirely but she's like Nat too. She suspects something is going on between you guys.

You bet your ass that with how close you've become to Shauna, you get pretty good at reading her especially when she's hiding her emotions. You can tell when something's bothering her, and you're the one she immediately turns to when stuff blows up with Jackie or Jeff's existence pisses her off again.

As Shauna's feelings for you get deeper, she kinda starts pulling away from Jackie. Not just emotionally but also physically. Sure, Jackie is all wrapped up in her relationship with Jeff and her image. But when she starts noticing this? Oh boy, you are toasted. She lowkey starts controlling and preventing Shauna as much as she can from being with you anymore further than she likes.

This doesn't stop Shauna though. In fact, it just makes her spend more time with you. When it's just the two of you, her behavior completely changes. She's relaxed and affectionate (platonically 👀), more free and herself around you.

[dlavend3r]

Hellooo!!! Don’t know if you have a limit of characters, but what about the Hazbin characters with a hopeless romantic s/o?

Hazbin Hotel Characters With A Hopless Romantic S/O

My very first headcanons, I hope you enjoy! : D 🌙. My requests are open!

Alastor

- Being a hopeless romantic for the radio demon, have you lost your mind?! Maybe!

-When you fell for Alastor, oh you fell hard. You didn’t care about the million of red flags you got from him. All you care about was him. You knew once you fell for him that he had a very huge baggage but that didn’t matter.

-Once you fell for Alastor, you’re mind only wanted one thing. For your love to be reciprocated. And that meant by any means necessary.

-You did errands for him even when he didn’t ask. You was stuck to his side, you gave him gifts. You complimented him. You did everything in your will to have Alastor set his eyes on you and you only.

-Oh imagine the joy you got when Alastor remembered your order of coffee. : D. That had the butterflies in you stomach spinning.

-And the bigger surprise when you found out that Alastor actually enjoys you doing the things you do for him. You knew he loved you, and he been knew you loved him.

Lucifer

-You, falling for the king of hell. People called you crazy, psychotic. Nope, you was just in love.

-You loved how Lucifer was a softy once you get to know him. You loved his little quirks and flaws.

-You loved how he tried to gain a relationship with his daughter.

-So you knew the only way to try and get his attention in hopes for him to fall in love with you is doing things he liked.

-So whenever you went to the arcade you always try to get rubber ducky’s for him. You spent a lot of time with Charlie getting to know her and her to know you. And you especially made time to hang out with Lucifer.

-You fell even more in love when you found out that Lucifer made a sucky resembling you. You kept on you at all times. And I mean at all times. You worshipped it every single day.

-And how happy you were to find out that Lucifer feels the same towards you too! If it wasn’t obvious with Lucifer’s attention almost always either being on you, the hotel or Charlie.

Husk

-With Husk it’s very hard for anyone to have their eyes on him. But here you are, like a cartoon character with heart eyes focused on the winged feline.

-You fell hell over heels for the kitty, especially with how he encouraged Angel. You love a man who embraces who you are.

-You did anything to get him to notice you, you helped him by the bar. You tried your best to not annoy him. You get him drinks (which is the action of yours he loved the most). And you obviously getting him a bunch of kitty related gifts! :D

-In return to your actions you noticed that Husk has been warming up to you, and that you’ve both has gotten closer. You even heard him purr once. You never said anything about it but oh my fucking god that was adorable.

-In the end, husk grew to love you not because you got him gifts, but because of the intention of it. All you ever did was try and help husk and love him so of course he fell for you. How could he not.

Sir Pentious

- Oh this man fell for you first. You both are hopeless romantics and that made it even more worth it.

-You just love giving Pentious your love and gifts. You always wanted to spend time with him while he makes his weapons and Pentious love spending time with you as well.

-Pentious would always have his egg bois watch after you if he isn’t able to be there with you. And you just love the egg bois like they’re one of your own.

-How adorable it is for Pentious to see you asleep with his minions cuddled up close to you.

-If you’re warm blooded, you and Pentious would cuddle so much.

-Overall you both love each other so much that nits just you both one upping each other with gifts, compliments and just anything doing with love or sharing love!

[sleepingdeath-light]

cuddling hcs ; stanford pines

requested by ; a common simp (02/08/23)

fandom(s) ; gravity falls

fandom masterlist(s) ; here

character(s) ; stanford ‘ford’ pines

outline ; “...

Now I wanna cuddle the fuck out of Ford.

LET ME CUDDLE THE SCIENTIST WITH PTSD!

(Aka, cuddle headcanons?)

-A Common Simp”

warning(s) ; none, just fluff!

ford isn’t the biggest cuddler in the world for a number of reasons, not least of which being that he’s spent most of his life being too focused on his research to even consider engaging in casual displays of affection like that, but he’s far from opposed to cuddling with you if you suggest it (and if he’s not in the middle of something extremely important / that can’t be delayed or ignored)

when you ask it will always take him a couple of seconds to process what you’ve said before he turns his full attention to you and asks you to repeat yourself just so he can make sure he hasn’t misheard you somehow

then, once he’s 100% certain that you did indeed ask what he thought you did and his hearing hasn’t failed him, he’ll rather sheepishly agree and let you lead him somewhere more comfortable for the two of you to sit — which usually means one of three places: your shared bed, the living room couch, or the seating outside if the weather is nice enough or he’s been spending too much time in the lab

ford has a few distinct cuddling ‘positions’ that he leans into and if you cuddle for long enough in one sitting there’s a good chance you’ll see him cycle through them with you as you both make yourselves more comfortable on whatever surface you’re on

the first is the tried and true, somewhat old fashioned, arm-around-the-shoulders when you’re sat side by side — bonus points if you lean into his side, wrap one of your hands around his waist, and interlink your spare hand with his — which is his go-to for when you’re sat outside and cuddling whilst half keeping an eye on whatever chaos his family is getting up to as it isn’t super intimate and makes it easy for him to lean over and whisper to you about anything and everything that come to mind (usually something science-related) no matter how loud everyone else is being in the moment

the second is a smidge more intimate and is usually reserved for the living room couch when you’re home alone or when everyone else in the shack is asleep, where you’re both curled up against each other in such a way that you’re still able to watch whatever’s on television — bonus points if he’s leaning against the end of the couch and you’re half-laying against his chest, playing with his fingers, and you’re both playfully commentating and criticising whatever late night crap is on screen

the third is something that he prefers to keep exclusively between the two of you, ideally confined to your bed or to the couch when everyone else is out for the day, and involved him laying down with you curled up on his chest whilst he wraps his arms loosely around your middle — it’s rare that the two of you have the time and space to cuddle like this, but he can quietly admit that it’s nice to be able to slow down and appreciate the intimacy of falling asleep with you in his arms and your hands messing with his hair

its also the ideal position, he finds, for being extra disgustingly sappy in expressing his love for you in ways that he wouldn’t ever dream of doing elsewhere — partly because having you there with him like that makes it feel as if the rest of the world has faded to nothing so he’s more comfortable being vulnerable with you, and partly because you’re usually either half or completely asleep by that point so you won’t remember enough to tease him about it later

bonus: when you cuddle, regardless of what position you’re in, ford finds that he’s equally as comfortable sitting in silence with you as he is filling that silence with conversation and corny jokes — which is something he’s never really experienced before with a partner and is something that he comes to cherish

[dee-writes-anime]

The Simple Kind of Love, The Love that is Effortless

FEATURING Megumi Fushiguro x Asexual Reader

SUMMARY Some Megumi x asexual reader headcanons requested by a sweet anon.

CONTENT WARNINGS mentions of sex, CHARACTER IS AGED UP, talk about fertility (both nonconventional and conventional), not edited (I'm running on hopes, dreams, and zero hours of sleep), good luck!

AUTHORS NOTE please remember that these are my own headcannons, you do not have to agree with them in any way, shape, or form, but you do have control over your response. Friendly debates and constructive criticism are welcome, hate and rude comments are not, thank you and enjoy! <3

Honestly, when I first watched Jujutsu Kaisen, I headcannoned that Megumi was asexual for a while.

Even if Megumi isn't asexual, he said it himself in the show, "as long as one's character is unshakable.." so I doubt he would mind much when considering a partner who isn't interested in sexual intimacy.

I like to think of Gumi as very introspective and thoughtful, he feels things deeper than most, and because of that I don't see him ever treating an S/O negatively in general, let alone over something substituable like sex.

Megumi is someone who deeply respects others’ boundaries, especially those of a partner. Upon learning that you’re sex-repulsed or on the asexual spectrum, his first instinct would be to listen and understand. He would never pressure you into anything you're uncomfortable with.

He doesn’t need sex to feel validated in a relationship and is more focused on emotional connection, trust, and mutual respect. If you explain your feelings, he’d support you without judgment and adapt to your needs.

Megumi isn’t the type of person to view sex as a necessary part of a relationship. While he may have some curiosity about physical intimacy, he values emotional closeness more. What matters to him is the bond you share, not physical desires.

Remember those abandonment issues I mentioned last time? Yeah, I feel like he treasures an emotional connection a lot more than a physical one because of that.

The closer he is with someone, the less likely they are to leave him.... right?

Tying in my earlier claims of him being on the asexual spectrum, I feel like Megumi would almost be relieved to not have to worry about pressuring himself to open up in such a vulnerable way. Not that he doesn't trust you, simply because he would be nervous to be put in a situation where his body was so vulnerable and out of control.

Megumi would be comfortable finding other ways to express intimacy and affection. He would prioritize physical closeness through non-sexual acts, like cuddling, holding hands, or simply spending quality time together.

I mentioned last time that he wasn't much of a PDAer, but I feel like with an S/O who is on the asexual spectrum, he would feel more called to entertaining pinkies in public. (what a stinkin' cutie)

He might enjoy quiet moments, like sitting close while reading, cooking together, or just lying next to each other. The intimacy for him comes from knowing you’re both safe and comfortable, not necessarily from physical acts of passion.

Megumi is naturally patient and would never push for anything that makes you uncomfortable. Even if he had moments of curiosity or desire, he would always prioritize your feelings and boundaries.

He’d appreciate clear communication from you, no beating around the bush (especially when something he does makes you uncomfortable), and in return, he’d always be open about how he’s feeling, but with the understanding that your comfort is paramount.

As someone who has grown up with a complicated family dynamic, Megumi likely doesn’t place much value on traditional expectations like marriage or having children. His focus is on the present and on the relationships he builds.

He would be perfectly okay with not having children, as he’s more concerned with your happiness and well-being than conforming to societal expectations. If you express that you don’t want children, he’d accept it without hesitation, likely sharing some relief given his complex feelings about family life.

I think that Megumi might not have even wanted kids before he knew about your feelings on the matter. Megumi would struggle a lot and get caught up in his head about being a deadbeat like his dad and it would eventually drive him up the wall.

I feel he would be relieved to have you both on the same page.

Speaking of pages, he would enjoy bonding over shared interests or spending quiet time together rather than relying on physical intimacy to feel close. (like reading!)

To circle back to conception, If you ever wanted to consider non-traditional methods of having a family, like adoption or simply being each other’s family without children, Megumi would be open to it. He doesn’t need biological children to feel fulfilled and is happy as long as you are both on the same page.

The idea of having a small, close-knit family with you—whether that includes children or not—is more important to him than meeting societal expectations about reproduction.

Megumi would be protective of your boundaries in other settings too, such as with friends or family who might not understand your asexuality. He wouldn’t let anyone make you feel uncomfortable or pressured and would always have your back.

If anyone questioned your relationship or why things might be different, he’d calmly but firmly shut them down, making sure you feel secure and validated in your decisions.

What he treasures most is the emotional bond you share, and he’d always focus on nurturing that rather than worrying about aspects of the relationship that don’t come naturally to either of you.

[astra-galaxie]

Hello astra! Can you do a headcannon for Giulietta? She's my favorite character 😍

(you can take some time, I know you have some other stuffs to do)

Thank you ✨

Because I love being extra when making headcanons, here are a few of my headcanons for Giulietta!😊

She kept all of her sister’s jewelry following Lucrezia’s death. While most of it isn’t her style, Giulietta always wears a piece to feel like her sister is with her. Whether it’s a ring, earrings, brooch or hairpiece, Giulietta finds a way to incorporate a piece of Lucrezia’s jewelry into her outfits

She loves fashion! This girl’s got one of the biggest wardrobes in Concordia! She’s even tried her hand at making/altering her clothes. Giulietta needs more practice to make them look cleaner, but her skills are slowly improving

Giulietta is a skilled artist. She has notebooks filled with sketches and even made a few paintings. She and her sister used to spend hours together drawing and colouring pictures, and Giulietta is grateful that she kept many of Lucrezia’s masterpieces

Giulietta would like to visit Italy one day. Her parents always spoke highly of their home country, and she longs to see it for herself

She and Seamus managed to have lots of fun secret dates. Their favourite ones were when they would sneak away to Elysium Fields and visit the beautiful places in the districts. Away from the districts under the control of the Irish and Italian gangs, the couple felt free to be themselves and to love each other

Giulietta taught Seamus how to dance. The Irish man had never been to a formal dance, so he wasn’t as graceful as she was. Seamus practiced every chance he had so he could impress his girlfriend, and he did so by dancing with Giulietta under the stars along the shores of Elysium Fields

After Seamus died, Giulietta took to wearing a locket with his picture in it. She misses him dearly but knows he would want her to stay strong and keep living until it was time for her to join him in the afterlife

Giulietta stayed good friends with Enzo Jonas after the fall of the Justice Corps

Thank you for the request! I’ve hit some writer’s block with my next chapter, so I’ve been having fun answering asks while I take a break from focusing on my story!

I hope you’ve enjoyed my Giulietta headcanons! I love her character so much and am excited to write about her again!✨

[chaikachi]

Do you think part of the reason why Ruby was so upset at Blake and Yang in particular isn’t because she’s genuinely mad they got together (or homophobic as I’ve seen some people joke) but because she’s /jealous/ that they were able to take enough time for themselves to even think about their own personal relationship, when meanwhile Ruby has been fighting for her life since the end of volume 3? Like maybe Ruby would love to stop and talk to her friends and sister about her potential love interests (as a girl her age should get the chance to) but she doesn’t have /time/, and seeing Yang and Blake kiss just made her realize what she’s been denying herself in order to be the Heroic Leader. idk I’m in my rosegarden feels and I bet watching Yang and Blake be so close just makes her feel more alone than ever.

LMAO I'VE SEEN THE HOMOPHOBIC JOKES 🤣🤣 how anyone actually believes that allegation is very funny. But yeah I agree. Since the very beginning of the show, Ruby has just wanted to be a normal girl with normal knees who can "paint her nails, try on clothes, and talk about cute boys" with her friends (Note: Oscar has been called cute twice already in show). And Ruby has not had the chance to do so at all because she hasn't stopped moving. Even leading up to v9, everyone else had other things they were focusing on and she's just been trying to hold everybody up. Never taking time for herself to sort out her own struggles. So she's feeling alone and left behind. I went over it a bit in the Treasure Analysis about the framing at the end of v9e6 where the Bees are warm and cozy by the fire, Weiss is warm with her cup of tea, and Ruby is sitting cold by herself by the window across from an empty chair. All alone in crowded rooms without the one person that makes her not feel that way.

The volume starting with Oscar as the very first illusion that Neo uses - and RG being the only pair that was split up in v8 that didn't end up reunited in v9 - sets up his absence very strongly right out the gate. And that absence just seems to grow with each episode.

As much as I do love RG, I don't know that Ruby necessarily knows she likes Oscar or has reached that point. At least not yet, but distance makes the heart grow fonder (as we have seen with Renora and the Bees) and I have a feeling we're not ready for how close they're going to end up when everyone is back in Vacuo.

Part of her upset here in the Ever After, is that she is crushed under the weight of so many things that she doesn't even have time to entertain such an idea as a crush. In any other circumstance, Ruby would have been elated about so much of what they're experiencing. She would have been excited for the bees just like she had been in v6 and she would have been all over this fairytale nonsense in the Ever After.

But she's tired. Weiss is snapping at her every other hour, Jaune is a broken husk of himself and needs their help more than he can offer it in return, and the Bees got to spend time sorting out their feelings and find comfort and support in each other... while Ruby is just dealing with all of this on her own.

She doesn't feel seen. She doesn't feel wanted. She doesn't feel prioritized. The only person that ever asked 'what about Ruby' is in another dimension and the only one in Ever After that noticed before she broke was Little (who has VERY STRONG PARALLELS to Oscar as I just brought up in a recent ask).

This volume is very rough emotionally on our characters, but I'm really optimistic for Vacuo being an arc of resting, rebuilding, and recovering for all of them. But especially for Ruby. Because there ain't no way all of what was brought up this last episode can be resolved in the 3 we have left until the season is over. But at least Oscar is waiting for her with open arms once she gets there. 🌲💕

[loveless-arobee]

The answer to the question whether I will start writing now or spend more time drawing more characters is that I’ll draw another fanart for the Rook and Rose series. This time my boy Vargo, and his friend Iascat.

Vargo getting his long needed rest. He deserves it. And so does Iascat tbh.

I’m a very focused and hard working individual /j

And I am very normal about Vargo and Iascat and their relationship. You can see just how normal I am about them below the cut.

Spoilers ahead, obviously.

So, for those who wanna hear about what I have to say without knowing the context: Vargo, one of the main characters, is AroAllo and in a sexual relationship with Iascat. While their relationship starts of mutually using each other for getting what they want (sex and touch in Iascat’s case, and information for Vargo), they do become more like friends over the course of the books (especially the last one) while still keeping up the sexual side of their relationship.

And damn was it refreshing to see a sexual relationship that isn’t treated as a bad thing, or something that has to change to include romance later, or stop all together. No, it was treated as something completely neutral–just something that is there. At times even positive, dare I say!

And it is so awesome to see a relationship that’s based in sex, that only happened because of sex, represented as something good.

While Iascat’s sexuality is never confirmed, I like to think of him as AroAllo, too, for multiple reasons.

I think his wish to have a romantic relationship, while at the same time doing nothing to get one, is a very aromantic experience. And I assume a lot of this is coming from his aunt who has a very deep desire to have a romantic relationship, while her cursed medallion makes her basically unable to keep one up, while also making her desire for a relationship even stronger.

With how the medallions work, Iascat is probably also influenced it that same way, and his "desire for romance" is actually not really his own, but an extension of his aunt’s (because, well, Iascat is mostly treated as an extension of her by his aunt.)

The second reason is his actions. When his aunt is put under house arrest and he becomes head of his house, so is basically able to do what he want and seek out the romance he apparently wants, the first thing he does when he has time is fuck Vargo, of whom he knows that there’s no chance of romance.

That doesn’t shout alloromantic to me tbh.

And the only times he ever says or thinks anything about wanting a romantic relationship with Vargo, or anyone, is when he’s under the influence of his Tuat medallion.

Story-wise, he lets go of that desire and wish by destroying his medallion, yet keeps the sexual relationship with Vargo.

I like to think that after all the shit in the books goes down and there’s something like peace, Iascat takes the time to think about what he actually wants without being controlled by magic; because his actions show something much different from his words, and he could see that he’s actually a lot like Vargo and likes what they have, and doesn’t actually want a romantic relationship like his aunt always demonstrated.

So, to conclude, he’s AroAllo to me and I won’t take any second opinions on that. It’s fact now. I’m definitely not projecting onto the man. Leave me alone /j

But yeah, I really enjoy that a sexual relationship is portrayed in a positive manner, and that an aromantic character is allowed to exist without constantly having to explain or defend himself. Vargo isn’t ever questioned, the people who know him a bit closer just learn rather quickly that he isn’t up for romance. And I love that.

It’s probably also what makes alloros so unable to understand that he’s aromantic, because he doesn’t have to outright say it constantly, or even ever.

What might have helped with that would be the conversation that Vargo and Iascat have about their relationship being on page. Though that would fuck over the pacing, and seem quite out of place, since it’s in the third book and they kinda have other problems to solve. The conversation is once referred to, and it becomes quite clear (to me, at least, as an aro), that during that conversation Vargo has made it clear to Iascat that romance wasn’t on the table, and Iascat accepted that.

So. While It’d have been cool to read how Vargo directly describes his emotions, and how Iascat reacts to that, it wouldn’t have fit the plot and pacing of the third book. I get that.

I cannot imagine that I only read these books because I wrote a rant in some TikTok comments about the lack of AroAllo rep and someone told me about it. I am forever grateful for that person, but also hate them because this book is occupying my mind so much more than any other book I’ve ever read. Normally books aren’t in my mind like this months after I read them. I cannot read a different book even if I want to.

So. Yay, AroAllo rep.

Thanks for reading my stupid rant, ig?

[daydreamerdrew]

I decided to start watching Superman & Lois with the final 2 episodes of season 3 because that’s where Lex first appears in the show. I’m really into how he kept this picture of his daughter with him and that part of what he’s fixated on is that he lost years with her because he was sent to prison. Specifically, she was 14 when he was sentenced, he spent 17 years in prison, and “Now she won’t talk to me.”

This fixation reminds me of comic Lex’s fixation on Lena when she was a baby. For example, first and foremost, in Lena’s first appearance in Superman (1987) #131 he had her mother put in a medically-induced coma after giving birth so that “you will never compete for my daughter’s affections.” Then Lex tried to handle as much of her care as he could because, as he says in Superman Red/Superman Blue (1998) #1, “I use underlings for every other aspect of my life. But there will be no intermediaries between myself and my beloved Lena!” He wanted Lena to only be attached to him.

He does still use underlings at times. One example is that in Adventures of Superman (1987) #555 there’s a scene where Lex gets very upset when he’s interrupted while he’s working, and he was gonna kill the guy for that, but then that’s interrupted by him being told that Lena woke up, which is not only expected, but he gets similarly upset because he wasn’t told exactly when Lena woke up, so she spent some time with the nurse instead of him. But then Lex calmed down to pick Lena up and talk sweetly to her.

There was a lot of talk in that era about how everything he did was for her, that he was going to take control of all of Metropolis and then give it to her. He specifies in Superman’s Nemesis: Lex Luthor (1999) #1 that that’s because, “My own parents gave me nothing but pain and fear. But life will be different for you, sweet Lena.” Also, there’s a few baby Lena appearances where she’s not relevant to the story, it’s just that Lex was holding her while he appeared doing his villainous thing.

I really hope that the portrayal of the relationship between Lex and his daughter in season 4 is influenced by this all of this. I like that there’s already the element that he’s upset that Lois Lane, who he blames for him getting sent to prison, was able to have and raise children during those years he lost with his. But in the comics there’s the specifics that he wanted Lena to love him more than anyone else and that he wanted sole control over her life. I think it would be interesting to contrast his parenting style and motivations to Clark and Lois’ in this family-focused show.

The phrasing that his daughter “won’t” see him stands out to me. Comics Lex was very possessive of Lena, but show Lex, at least in the first 37 days after being released from prison, didn’t force her to spend time with him when she didn’t want to. It’s ambiguous as to why Lena won’t talk to him. It may be just because she knows about his true character now, his crimes, but it may be for the more personal reason that he was like the comics Lex when she was a child and she didn’t like that, and she was able to grow away from what he wanted her to be while he was away.

It’s briefly mentioned in episode 12 that Lex was married and that his wife took over Lex-Corp after he went to prison. And then in episode 13 the head of Lex-Corp is referred to as Del Portenza. Comics Lena’s mother is the Contessa Erica Alexandra del Portenza.

Comics Erica was first introduced as the person who took over Lex-Corp while Lex was having legal problems, and he married her to get back into the company, and then they had a behind-the-scenes power struggle over the company up until Lena was born, when they began their behind-the-scenes custody battle over her. Lex and Erica were never really in love, but they were well-matched for each other, and their characters played off of each other in interesting ways.

Obviously the show isn’t going the route that Lex had Erica placed in a medically-induced coma after giving birth to keep her away from Lena, and then that she had to fake her death and attack Lex while in hiding. And I assume they’ve simplified her character and won’t have her been an immortal from ancient Roman times. Also, notably, their custody battle over Lena concluded in Superman: End of the Century (2001) when Erica decided that, as an immortal being, she could wait out Lex until he died and then destroy Lex-Corp from behind-the-scenes, which Lena would have inherited from him, and then Erica would swoop in as Lena’s savior and win her love that way.

I’m hoping in the show they keep that Lex didn’t love Erica and saw her as a competitor for the love of their daughter. That in the scene after he’s released from prison Lex is holding his wedding ring, instead of wearing it, along with Lena’s picture gives me that impression. I’m also hoping that Erica’s characterization is influenced by her comics portrayal, as well, because she’s also interesting as a character. It was ambiguous at the end of season 3 whether Lex was going to try to reclaim Lex-Corp from Erica or not, which if so could result in another power struggle between them. And there was no indication whether Lena has a relationship with her mother as an adult and if she’s affiliated with Lex-Corp at all.

I will also say now that I hope there’s nothing with Brainiac in season 4. I want to see a Lena story that shows her life unaffected by Brainiac.

[be-the-glenn-to-my-maggie]

Longass Crop Circles Notes (I Don't Think I've Changed Chapter Two):

I don't want to talk about how many weeks these notes have been sitting in my notes app because I couldn't bring myself to go through them yet. My sincere apologies @spicymiilk

-Ah that incredibly relatable feeling when you want to get to one part of your story and you have to force yourself to slog through to get to it. It happens to us all.

-KIRI AND LO’AK GOING TO SPECIAL SCHOOL WHILE NETEYAM IS REGULAR IS SO FUNNY TO ME. Poor Lo’ak I’m being so mean to him. But you really want their asses GONE gone.

-Calling Jake a white man and saying he can’t understand their hair is so funny. Dude NEVER helped with ANY of his kids hair ever??? He’s never done Neytiri’s for her because he’s her bitch? Come on Jake, I expected more. Even I’ve done my cousins hair a few times. Maybe Spider will fare better?

-Obsessed with the way Neteyam is about his morning routine and solitude, it jives so well with my opinion of him. He’s got to have things his way, and under his control. Taken care of well. He’s going to have a field day with Spider. I see we are already leaning heavily into Neteyam’s "I can fix him" complex. Even when he wants to help Jake, which I know is something wheelchair users don’t often want if it’s something they do all the time themselves. It’s the innate feeling of standing by and doing nothing while watching someone struggle, when it’s their day to day life. And if that isn’t Neteyam’s whole thing? I’m obsessed with how he just cannot handle anyone else’s bad vibes without trying to fix it right away. Speaking of;

-If there is not a moment where Jake allows Neteyam to help him when he needs it, I will throw myself off a bridge, Andrei. ~growth~ the opportunity is there and it’s ripe.

-JAKE AND NETEYAM BANTER, I did not realize I was in a drought until I got a little bit of rain and I realized I was DYING OF THIRST. PARCHED FOR THEM.

-Jake “Detective” Sully: You are gay, son, try not to be too gay to the new foster kid you stalk at the local Micky Ds.

-I am literally obsessed with My Father Jake Sully who was neglected and hurt as a child being the most desperate man alive to connect with and heal kids in the same situation he was in. It fits so so well in his character for me. I feel like he spends most of his life trying to heal old wounds and make up for the past, in a way.

-Neteyam “I thought this kid was named Miles for years but I guess legally on his birth certificate it def must say Spider because it couldn’t be a nickname, that’s for sure” Sully

-I am CACKLING at them both lying to each other about McDonalds as though they both don’t know exactly how often the other one is there because they both find the other hot I’m dead.

-Spider mad at Norm for enforcing child labour laws has me wanting to make memes about it. The children truly do yearn for the mines.

-All the tiny little details of how Spider focuses on the people around him, on their moods and their movements and the way his brain works is so well done. That survival mindset takes years and years to unlearn, if you ever can fully. It’s well done as always.

-OH MY GOD EVEN NEYTIRI ALSO THINKS NETEYAM IS BEING TOO GAY THIS IS AMAZING.

-Justice for Jake, I will get him one of the cars paralyzed people can drive. Also his joke about driving Neytiri up the wall? HE’S A COMEDIAN. GET HIM A NETFLIX SPECIAL.

-Spider can’t look at Tuk because he was close with a little abused foster girl, where is the nearest bridge. NO REST FOR US, ANDREI?? ALL THE PAIN AND TRAUMA POSSIBLE CRAMMED INTO ONE EPIC.

-God the line about Spider’s therapist saying that his habit will lead him down a dangerous path, but he doesn’t understand why because he only ever hurts himself because he doesn’t see damage to himself as damage because he doesn’t see himself as worthy? Not worthy of the phone, of food, of attention or love? Truly my fav paragraph of the chapter. You are a master at establishing a character in a few subtle lines. It's a tactic that I only get after a few rewrites; instead of saying "Neteyam wants to fix everyone" you show us him in a situations where he wants to and can't help. Instead of telling me Spider doesn't care for his own safety, you tell me he's confused by his therapist saying his coping is dangerous. Instead of saying emotion, tell me something that would make me feel that emotion. Writing 101, and yet so hard to pull off properly.

-I laughed out loud at Neteyam trying not to look at Spider’s muscles I am dying. Neteyam should ask him out loud.

-EVEN TUK HAS IT ON LOCK, SHE SAYS NETEYAM HAS A THING FOR PEOPLE WHO SOUND A LITTLE SAD. This is so not funny but so funny because it’s all specifically for me.

-Neteyam later in life is like that dumbass gum commercial where the guy reveals he’s been keeping the gum wrappers every time the girl gives him one and drawing on them when and where she gave it to him? That’s Neteyam when the piles and piles of smiley face receipts fall out of his trench coat pockets.

-“I didn’t realize that was you” filthy liar. Spider’s smiley face drawing rizz is crazy. You bet your ass he wasn't doing that to every fuckers receipts.

-WHAT ON EARTH IS LO’AK DOING AT SMART PERSON SCHOOL, EVEN YOU DON’T KNOW ANDREI.

-THE CUTE BOY AT THE WINDOW ASKED FOR HIS NUMBER? AS IN, SPIDER, PHONELESS SPIDER, OR ANOTHER SNEAKY BASTARD BUTTING IN.

-Also these people have real memory problems, I’ve never forgotten any awkward interaction I’ve ever had in my entire life, especially not with a crush. I couldn't hear my crush at a party last year and I just laughed and said yeah and she was like "no I asked what you think" and not a single day goes by it doesn't play behind my eyelids like the DVD in The Ring. So, unless Spider has asked every single man at McDonalds out, he remembers when he asked a guy out and the guy sped off like he had a warrant out from Dominic Toretto.

-Oh my god, it was Spider. And this man sURVIVED that encounter? This man who can’t survive a strong breeze rn? What was he going to do with number, call him from phone booths? Send smoke signals to the write telephone wire? I am cackling at the idea that he had rehearsed this so many times and yet never actually thought through not having a phone.

-The smiley face on the paper. That revived Spider from his death post awkward encounter. There will be smiley faces on the invitations to their wedding and only Tuk will understand.

[quartings]

My Top 4 favorite manga of 2024!

And here we are again! After I had so much fun curating my picks from last year, I thought I’d take the time to highlight and appreciate my top 4 favorite manga series that I’ve started reading this year!

#4: Okashi na Elf to Joshikousei (Sweets, Elf, And A High School Girl) 16 Chapters- Complete!

Genre/Themes: Light-hearted fantasy, baking, comedy

Premise: An elf named Alice is in debt running her departed mother’s bakery when she gets whisked away to the apartment of a Japanese schoolgirl named Ruri. Ruri, wanting to help Alice out, teaches her all sorts of quick and easy dessert recipes (that the readers can try out too!) and the pair soon form an unlikely friendship!

I love baking and things that teach me about it, and while the most popular cooking-themed manga may not offer much in the way of real recipes, I’m really glad this one does!

It’s got a great art style, cute and cozy premise, and an all-round wholesome feel to it! And the desserts it teaches you to make often come with alternatives and backups, really carrying home the whole Bob Ross style “happy accidents” tone of the series.

A brief and simple manga, and for those whom it may concern, the light Yuri themes only stay as themes for the series. Unlike our next pick…

#3: Nengan no Akuyaku Reijou (I Got My Wish and Reincarnated as the Villainess (Last Boss)!) Currently ongoing at 44 biweekly chapters!

Genre/Themes: Otome Isekai (Female-focused video game style fantasy), Yuri (Lesbian romance), Overpowered protagonist comedy

Premise: A sickly girl named Elizabeth is reborn into a fantasy world as the arbiter of evil- but Elizabeth is a kind person at heart, and is so grateful for her new lease on life that she only uses her overwhelming sinister powers for personal fitness! And things get even more out of hand when she falls in love with her classmate- a sweet honest girl named Karen and the “chosen one” of this world. Follow Elizabeth and Karen on their magical adventures as they bond with each other, fend off obnoxious male suitors, and hopefully prevent Elizabeth’s destiny to destroy the world!

Never thought I’d have an Isekai on here, let alone another Yuri, but here are some key differences that sold me on this series- maybe they’ll sell you on it too!

The protagonist isn’t aware this universe functions like a game- she’s not an otaku using her outside knowledge to manipulate those around her. She’s just happy to be alive and loves exploring (and massacring) her way through this magical kingdom!

Conversely, I like to see a Villainess character with an actual “Villainous” theme and story to her. I’m not a fan of “Villainesses” who are just mean rich girls- that’s just called “being a bitch”, haha. And the more malevolent Elizabeth’s powers seem, the better they contrast against how friendly she is, which makes the story even better!

The art has that nice solid shading that I like to see in manga- not that overly light airbrushing stuff.

Like I said about some of my top picks last year, I love a romance story where the couple actually enjoys casually spending time with each other- No melodrama, no petty arguments, no pining, no yearning, no rushed enemies to lovers, just two people who really care about each other, and this is that

As someone who loves One Punch Man and Mob Psycho, it’s just fun to see an overpowered protagonist express their simple and wholesome outlook on life as they beat down close-minded antagonists!

It’s really funny- this was the out-of-context panel that convinced me to read it!

I’m not particularly familiar with concepts like “doomed Yuri” or warning signs of queerbaiting, so if you know better than I do, let me know! Otherwise, this series is still tons of fun even without the romance, so that’s cool! I will say though that the most recent chapter as of me typing this, Ch44, is the first to have overly egregious fanservice, so that's a mild letdown.

#2: Replica Datte, Koi wo suru. (Even a Replica Falls in Love) Currently ongoing at 17 monthly chapters!

Genre/Themes: Highschool drama, mild thriller themes, mild supernatural elements, romance

Premise: Sunao Aikawa looks like a normal high school girl, except for one small detail- she’s a Replica. A temporary duplicate conjured up by the real Sunao to run the errands she’s too depressed to do in person. The real Sunao can will away her replica, Nao, whenever she’s served her purpose, erasing her from existence until the next time she’s needed. Despite all this, Nao wants agency as her own person- she wants to live life outside of Sunao’s orders, to find hobbies, friends, and maybe even fall in love. But she’s completely powerless to do so as things are.

I never thought a dramatic series with next to no comedy, action, or colorful fantasy elements would wind up so high on my list! It’s a great story about trying to find your identity in the face of those who try to suppress you. I really like how it follows a serious subject matter with lots of dark themes and implications, but neither the visuals nor the story take things too far by making it overly edgy or grim. There’s just enough tranquillity and joy to make the tense parts stand out, and vice versa. It’s gripping but not depressing, and that’s really really impressive!

On top of all that, this series has some crazy twists and turns! Obviously I don’t want to spoil exactly what they are, but rest assured there’s some absolutely mindblowing reveals throughout the story!

#1: Houkago Kitaku Biyori (Journey Home After School) Currently ongoing at 33 biweekly chapters!

Genre/Themes: Highschool Romcom, wholesome, very cute.

Premise: As he recovers from a sports injury, high school freshman Shun is caught up in the “Hyper Go-Home Club” by its sole member- an eccentrically positive girl who goes by Chokki-chan. The goal of the club is just to walk home, find cool stuff along the way, and appreciate the small “romances” of life we often overlook. And naturally, Shun and Chokki develop a strong bond with each other through these wholesome adventures!

I only just got into this series a few months ago and no joke, it’s already claimed the spot of my favorite manga of the year and one of my favorites of all time! Chokki’s personality of wanting to find the beauty in the small things in life makes her really endearing, and her chemistry with Shun is great! No bickering, no fanservice cliches, no rivals subplot, just two people wholesomely bonding through cute shenanigans like in Pseudo Harem (My #1 manga of last year)! I really really really hope this series gets an anime adaptation next!!

Pros:

·        Cute art style- VERY well drawn!!

·        Great humor (Can’t have a romcom without the com!)

·        Good and cute chemistry between the couple

·        Good pacing and progress (For 33 chapters so far)

·        Fun side cast

·        No need for fanservice

Cons:

·        I really can’t think of any! I just don’t hope they drag out the “will they won’t they” for too long, and that the couple getting together will be just the halfway point of the series, like with Pseudo Harem.

And that’s it! If you check out any of these series and like them, let me know what you think! I’d love to have more people to discuss them with! And truth be told, there were definitely a few other manga series in the running for the top 4, but their lack of publishing and/or slow translations put me off mentioning them- I don’t want anyone to suffer because I recommended them a series on hiatus, haha. If they ever get published/translated better next year, maybe I’ll recommend them for 2025!

[thenugking]

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✨Which is your favourite platonic BG3 dynamic and why?

Hmm. Based on purely in-game stuff, it’s got to be Wyll and Karlach. Enemies to BFFs in like three days. Out of game, I love my Durge Lee with Astarion (they are like when you have two pets or perhaps siblings who sometimes just slap the shit out of each other for no reason before going back to chilling together) and my first Tav, Val, with Shadowheart (bitchy goths who don’t care about people except actually they care So Much). Would love to get around to writing them someday.

Also the dynamic I’m writing between Orin and Ketheric in No Highly Esteemed Deed. This is Ketheric’s emotional support surrogate daughter figure with zero red flags!

For my favourite dynamic not in the game or made up by me… we’ll get to that in question four!

🌊What moment in the game had the strongest emotional impact on you? 

Karlach’s breakdown after killing Gortash gets me every time. And I was sobbing in my Shadowheart Origin playthrough when I saved her parents. That storyline is so comforting to me, especially when, if you’re not playing as her, it’s Arnell who goes, “Ohh you don’t want to go by your old name anymore, of course we’ll love you for whoever you are now.”

🌸Rec one of your fics and tell us what you like about it!

My series No Highly Esteemed Deed Is Commemorated Here is my baby at the moment. So I’m actually reccing two fics but look I spend half my time thinking about this series and I want some validation. But, uh, warning for incest and every relationship here being at least toxic, if not downright abusive. If you like your doves dead, come and give me some validation, if you’re not into that shit, understandable, have a nice day.

What Is Here Was Dangerous And Repulsive To Us: Gortash and Durge take a nice romantic carriage ride to Moonrise Towers except that lol no they don’t, Orin Is Also Here, and gortash isn’t positive she wants to fuck her sibling but The Vibes Are Fucking Rancid.

Super proud of the slowly building Well This Is Fucking Uncomfortable in this one! And that multiple people have told me “damn how did you make me feel for Gortash here?” He’s still very much a bastard and I loved writing him hating the whole world, but he’s fucking Going Through it.

One of my favourite reviews: EXCUSE ME ORIN> MA’AM. THIS IS A WENDYS

This Place Is Not A Place Of Honour: The multichapter sequel that I’m currently working on! The events between the gang arriving at Moonrise and Orin stabbing my Durge in the brain (and the aftermath of that, if I ever get there). They’re all doing their evil plotting in the background, but it’s mostly focused on the relationships between Durge, Orin, Gortash and Ketheric, and the various ways in which these characters are deeply fucked up.

Like I mentioned, I’m really enjoying writing Orin and Ketheric’s weird fucked up friendship. Ketheric imprints on Orin as his New Daughter Figure after Isobel runs away from him (just because he told her that her wife who he is currently torturing was dead so Isobel should get over her) and that’s going about as well as you’d expect. Ketheric is trying to fix Orin while ignoring most of her underlying issues, Orin’s worrying that she’s going to lose Durge to the Gortash and the Absolute plot, Gortash is determined to Win his relationship with Durge despite the constant red flags, Durge is causing problems on purpose.

Another of my favourite reviews: i went into that scene like "hehe the horrors" and i went out like "OH DEAR GOD THE HORRORS"

🌿Rec someone else’s BG3 fic and tell us what you like about it!

here there be dragons by shadowfell

13 year old Orin ends up the ward of the BG1/2 protagonist and under a geas stopping her from murdering people, and becomes friends with 14 year old Wyll. Two Weird Theatre Kids with no other friends hanging out while Orin puts a lot of effort into drawing Wyll’s thematically appropriate gruesome death. They work so well together and their dynamic fucking delights me. And I love getting to see my two blorbos who fandom often doesn't give the love they deserve fucking shine.

There’s also a multi-chapter sequel of the two of them as adults going through the game plot. It’s still early on, but chapter four got posted last night and that’s my read for this evening, once I’m done killing Orin in my current BG3 game and need to go and read a kinder AU for her.

[shxtodxroki]

Match-Up Exchange

These are some match-ups done for @milkteaandanime as part of a match-up exchange we agreed to! Hi hi again, it was so nice to hear from you again and get to do another exchange, I really hope you enjoy all of these match-ups! I did my best especially when it came to a series I wasn’t as familiar with, so I really hope it turned out alright and somewhat accurate at least, and I hope these make you smile! You were so sweet again throughout all of this and I really enjoyed talking to you so pls feel free to DM me again whenever you feel like doing so :D Also these haven't really been proofread so apologies for any spelling/grammar errors! :]

For My Hero Academia, I’d Match You With:

Shoto Todoroki! :)

Reasoning:

So as you read these you’ll probably notice a bit of a theme with the characters I chose for all your match-ups this time around lol, but honestly I just think the two of you would really mesh well together. You have similarities but also unique differences, and I think you’d be able to support one another and help each other grow and flourish a lot which is why I think you’d make such a great pairing together.

Headcanons About Your Relationship:

- First of all I think Shoto would absolutely adore cats omg he loves them so much, before he got with you his phone wallpaper was a picture of an adorable little black cat <3 (ofc its you now though hehe) Needless to say once the two of you move out of the UA dorms and into a place together, he’s quick to suggest adopting a cat together. Not only because he loves them so much and sees how much you would enjoy it too, but also because it makes him so happy to feel like the two of you have your own little family together

- Shoto isn’t always the most observant person, but he always takes the time to recognize the ways in which you look after him and take care of him and thank you for doing so. He appreciates you so much and can’t go a single day without letting you know, and whenever you do something sweet for him or buy him a lovely little gift, he always thanks you and proudly displays any gifts you get for him in his room

- Now, Shoto would happily spoil you and buy you everything you could ever dream of if you asked him to, but he also recognizes that that’s not the kind of person you are. He knows you don’t like materialism, so instead of financially spoiling you he opts for affectionate gestures, heartfelt gifts and just actions in general to show his love for you, as he wants to make sure he makes you feel loved in the way that speaks to you <3 

- And he’s not shy about it at all, all of his friends know how much he adores you just because he never stops bringing you up no matter what the conversation topic is lol. You’re just always on his mind because he loves you so much, and he has to make sure everyone knows how wonderful you are and how lucky he is to have you

- All he asks for in return is for some cuddles sometimes whenever you feel comfortable doing so, though he’d never pressure you for physical affection at all. You’re just one of the first people he’s ever felt comfortable enough to be physically affectionate with, so if you ever feel up to holding him or cuddling with him or even just playing with his hair, he’s practically melting with how much he enjoys it 

- I think he’d also love your style! He loves how casual it is and the baggy clothes you often wear, I feel like it would work well with his own style. He’s not super focused on style in general, but he thinks you look amazing in the clothes you love to wear (or anything really) and it always brings a small smile to his face whenever people tell him how good the two of you look together

- He finds your drawings and your fantasy maps so incredibly fascinating, he loves staring at them and with your maps in particular he can spend hours exploring them and seeing all of the detail put into them/the story behind them. He really admires how talented and passionate you are, and he often asks you about your creative process when it comes to either of the two since he’s not a particularly creative person himself but loves the creations you make. And he can tell how much it excites you to share your effort and process, and he’s happy to listen in order to share that excitement and passion with you

- Though he doesn’t like to show it often, Shoto obviously has a lot of trauma in his past, and he hasn’t had the opportunity to work through much of it due to how fast-paced his life at UA has been. So while he’d never abuse your kindness or empathy, he truly appreciates having someone he can talk to when something triggers him in relation to his past or when he’s feeling particularly angry at his father. It makes him feel so safe to know that he can go to you and share these feelings, and that you support his healing journey at his pace, when he’s never had that kind of security and empathy before

- Though he’s no genius in the kitchen, Shoto would be able to at least make a simple onigiri, so whenever he sees you feeling sad or just in need of a bit of a pick-me-up he likes to make one or even a couple for you and bring the food to your dorm for you. Once he’s there he’s more than happy to spend time with you doing whatever you’d like, and it becomes a little ritual of sorts for him to bring onigiri to your dorm and then settle in for a movie or something along those lines

Second Choice:

I really strongly considered matching you with Izuku instead here, it took a lot of back and forth for me to eventually settle on Shoto as the better match. Izuku could definitely be a good match for you as well in many ways, as I think he’d meet many of your needs in a partner super well and he’d also understand you as a person a whole lot. I just think that you and Shoto would blend a bit better and be able to grow more together, but I think both could be good choices for you :>

Song For Your Relationship:

Somewhere Only We Know by Keane <3

For Avatar: The Last Airbender, I’d Match You With:

Zuko! :)

Reasoning:

I was honestly pretty certain on matching you with Zuko the second I sat down and started thinking about this match-up. You two would be so perfect together, you’re different in many ways which would create that “opposites attract” pull, but you also align where it matters most—when it comes to things like your values in a relationship and in life in general. It’s a relationship that would take time to grow comfortable and relaxed, but I think the two of you would truly be so happy together once you had settled into the relationship and it would be easy to grow comfortable with one another 

Headcanons About Your Relationship:

- First of all, Zuko would think you were so so pretty from the very first moment he saw you. Your dark, curly hair, adorable button nose, long eyelashes and the way you glasses just accentuate your dark eyes, he absolutely loves it all. It takes him a long time to actually confess how beautiful he’s always found you, just because he’s shy and your relationship takes time to develop, but once he’s comfortable with you he frequently tells you how pretty you are or how nice you look in a specific outfit with an adorable grin and a slight blush on his face

- Now, obviously your relationship would move slowly. Given his past, and the fact that you’ve likely been part of the Gaang since before his redemption, things were tense between the two of you for quite a while even after he joined the group. And you’re opposites in many ways, you’re a waterbender and a healer while he’s a firebender with a past of hurting others. You’re gentle and kind, he’s still learning to understand others and cool his temper

- He can see very well why you might be afraid to grow close to him, so while he’s drawn to you from the moment he joins the group, he never tries to push you and takes his time because he knows it’s his only hope of getting closer to you

- And as he proves that he’s no longer a threat and you start getting more comfortable with him, he actually ends up opening up to you as well, which is a big part of getting you to really trust him even if he doesn’t realize that at the moment. Your relationship evolves gradually from platonic to romantic, and even once he’s confessed it takes some time for him to settle into the relationship and stop being so anxious about messing up or worrying that you’ll decide you can’t handle his past and leave him. But eventually you become one another’s safe space, and because the relationship moved so slowly and carefully, your bond becomes practically unshakeable as it was cemented with so much time and effort from both of you <3

- Zuko is always, always showing his love and appreciation for you once your relationship becomes more established. He’s grown both as a person and as a partner since the two of you first got together, and while he can still occasionally be shy with things like PDA, he gives you all the acts of service and spends all the time with you that you could ever want. Of course, he gives you space when you want it, too, but I think he would truly be happy spending like 90% of his time with you if you asked him to, because being around you just makes him feel so warm and fuzzy and safe after all this time. And whenever you mention a task of yours that’s stressing you out, he’s quick to quietly take care of it for you, because he never wants you to feel stressed or overwhelmed when he’s there to take care of whatever’s the source of that stress

- When he was younger, Zuko never really had to learn to cook due to his prince status, and even after being banished he didn’t really pick up the skill beyond doing what he needed to in order to survive. But when he sees how much you enjoy cooking and baking, and you let him taste your delicious creations, it gets him curious to learn, too. And he also wants to be able to cook for you in return and make sure you don’t feel like he’s taking advantage of you, so you two have cooking date nights where you teach him your favorite recipes and he loves getting to learn from you. And the feeling of pride he gets the first time he cooks something without your help and you enjoy it is unlike any other, he’s beaming from how good it feels to be able to take care of you in that way

- Lucky for you, Zuko’s palace has a beautiful observatory, and just a general stunning view of the sky both overnight and during the day. And because Zuko knows how much you enjoy the sight of the sky, he frequently either brings you on a little picnic in the castle garden (where he also shows off his new cooking skills lol) or to the observatory and just watches the sky with you. He loves the content, serene expression on your face in moments like that, so he does this often because all he truly ever strives to do is to make you happy

- He’d definitely get into video games if you showed some to him! I feel like he probably played some when he was younger but then didn’t have the time to do so anymore once he was banished, so you get to show him all the best games that came out in that timeframe :> He’d like a wide variety too, you could probably get him to play anything with you at least once

- Though he’s much less quick to anger or confrontation now than he was during the beginning of the series, Zuko is still not at all shy with confrontation when it comes to you. He knows you don’t like confronting people who have hurt you, and he’s more than happy to use his status as firelord to his advantage and makes it clear to anyone who hurts you that they’ll have him to face if they don’t apologize (or preferably grovel) to you and make sure to never hurt you again

- Through his time with Iroh, Zuko has become somewhat a tea expert despite his own opinions on the matter, so whenever he goes and visits his uncle he brings back a cup of milk tea for you since he knows it’s your favorite :] He’ll likely never be a fan of tea himself, but he knows you enjoy it so he’ll always get it for you, and he’s more than happy to bring you to Iroh’s tea shop to introduce the two of you whenever feel comfortable

- And of course you’d quickly grow comfortable with the old man and listen to his wisdom and stories, and it makes Zuko’s heart swell to see the two most important people in his life getting along and bonding together <3

Second Choice:

I know he’s not a very major character, but I think Haru could be a good match-up for you! If you don’t remember him, he was the earthbender who Katara helped to find his dad in season 1, who came back to fight with all the rest of them later on. I didn’t pick him partially because he’s just much lesser known, but also because I think you and Zuko would have a very interesting dynamic and I just feel that your personalities would bring out the best in each other overall.

Song For Your Relationship:

Cornelia Street by Taylor Swift <3

DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OFFER GENSHIN IMPACT MATCH-UPS ON MY BLOG. I do not play the game, so I don’t feel I could typically fulfill a Genshin Impact request well. I did this one because it was for an exchange with a mutual and I had the help of my sister, but I do not accept other requests for Genshin match-ups at this time!

For Genshin Impact, I’d Match You With:

Albedo! :)

Reasoning:

He seems like the kind of person who would get alone well with you, being quieter and more reserved. But he’d also be willing to work to meet your needs and be a good partner to you, and you would really help him grow and flourish in a lot of ways that he only felt able to look into once he met you

Headcanons About Your Relationship:

- I think in a relationship, he’d definitely be a fan of simple quality time spent together. If you’ve heard of the concept of parallel play (basically where you do two different things but you’re still in the same room enjoying each other’s company) I think that’s something he would really enjoy, just spending time with you without any specific goal in mind.

- He specifically enjoys reading when around you, you make him feel at ease and comfortable and he’s prone to reaching for a good book when he’s in your company. And if you’re open to the idea, I think he’d enjoy reading with you at some point as well, so that the two of you can enjoy the book together and talk about plot points as they happen

- In your relationship he doesn’t seem like he’d be much of a talker. Not because he’s uncomfortable, it takes time but eventually he’s willing to open up to you much more than he would with practically anyone else. But he still tends to just be on the quieter side, and because of this, he’s an excellent listener and will often encourage you to vent to him whenever you need to get something off your chest. He’s especially good at just giving you a listening ear without trying to “fix” things for you, though he also offers you comfort and/or advice when he can see that’s what you need

- He seems like he’d also be quite fascinated with the sky, and he’d be partial to the starry night sky in particular, though really he’s happy to just lay with you and stare up at the sky whenever. This especially calms him when he’s feeling stressed or upset or overwhelmed, as being with you and getting to stare up at a tranquil sky manages to ease his mind and take his focus away for a while

- I think that, while he’s never been very curious about video games on his own, he would at least be open to trying them with you when he sees they’re something you enjoy. And though he likely wouldn’t be particularly good at video games, and thus wouldn’t be as interested in games with a focus on “winning”, I think he’d really grow to enjoy playing simpler co-op games with you, like Minecraft or Animal Crossing

- He’s also very appreciative of gestures and gifts from you, no matter how small or large you may be. It really lifts his spirits to see how you actually pay attention to little details about him and how you remember things he offhandedly mentions when it comes to your gifts or the things you do for him. It makes him feel seen and heard, and that feeling is pretty irreplaceable to him, so he strives to give you that same feeling in return as he now knows how much it means to have a partner like that

- He seems like he’d also enjoy sketching/drawing, and while it may take some time for him to feel comfortable sharing his art with you, he eventually does open up as he wants to share this interest with you and wants your honest feedback. It’s easier for him to become comfortable if you share your art with him first, as it shows him that there’s no judgment coming from you 

- It’s possible that he may struggle with communication at first, due to his mindset towards himself and also his general more closed off/secretive nature. But once he’s really fallen for you, he’s quick to see how a lack of communication on his end hurts you and makes you feel less secure with him, so he would work incredibly hard to improve in this aspect and learn to better communicate for the sake of you, your happiness and his relationship with you

- His gestures of affection aren’t bold or extravagant, they’re often small and more simple/easy to miss on the outside, like waking up early to make breakfast for you. But because you know him so well, you catch the small gestures he does to show you his love and affection and are able to see the love and vulnerability he showcases through them. And he also occasionally finds the words to tell you just how grateful he is for you, as he never wants you to forget just how much you mean to him

Second Choice:

After consulting my sister and Google, we settled on Wriothesley! He’s not harsh or overly egotistical, and could get along well with you and meet your needs in a lot of ways. But he’s a little rougher around the edges in comparison to our first choice and may not mesh as well with you/the relationship may have a few more bumps in the beginning, so it seemed like first choice would be better overall. 

Song For Your Relationship:

Labyrinth by Taylor Swift <3

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Do you mind if I ask your top 10 favorite characters (can be male or female) from all of the media that you loved (can be anime/manga, books, movies or tv series)? And why do you love them? Sorry if you've answered this question before.....Thanks....

Oh this is so fun to answer! Since this is my anime blog I’ll stick to anime/manga.

10. Kageyama “Mob” Shigeo

Mob Psycho 100 is not only weird and fun, but emotional with highs and lows. As goofy as Reigen is, Mob is the heart of this show and his growth is wonderful to watch. He struggles with his powers and emotions but the fix isn’t changing himself as much as it is accepting himself and the relationships in his life. At his core, Mob is incredibly caring—that’s what makes him so special. He’s not a self-sacrificing hero of the prophecy, he’s just Mob. He’s kind just because he is.

9. Olivier Mira Armstrong

I love badass female characters and Major General Armstrong does not disappoint. She’s calculating, cold, and incredibly good at her job. Sometimes, I feel that when writers introduce “strong women” in their stories, they either take a masculine character type and slap it on (the brutish tank, lone gunslinger, etc) but don’t shape their personality outside of “being the tough guy—but a woman!” Or they let a strong woman be feminine but have to emphasize that’s she’s not like the other girls, she can keep up with the guys. Major General Armstrong doesn’t suffer this mistreatment. She is strong, she is fierce. She is a woman. These things don’t affect each other. She is her own character with a personality developed outside of just being a role subversion. Also she’s pretty and has a sword (on one hand I don’t like using a saber, on the other hand saber looks so cool).

8. Roy Mustang

Another Fullmetal Alchemist character…this will be a theme. I think FMAB has some of the best written characters of all time, including Roy Mustang. He could’ve just been a goofy-but-badass charismatic boss and I would like him, but he’s so complex. Mustang is a product of his environment who realized it too late. But instead of escaping his sins, he trusts in his support network to help him rise to the top and ensure that what he did never happens again. Mustang spends the series hiking back from hell up a pathway of good intentions and not without stumbling. He has blood on his hands and he risks the lives of his team and children under his command (Ed and Al)—is that worth it? Mustang’s ideal society would execute him for his crimes. And yet, that’s what he wants. Oh I could talk about him so much more. What a good character.

7. Alphonse Elric

Despite spending most of the series as a suit of metal, Al is incredibly expressive. He balances Ed, but they still bicker like brothers and have their disagreements. He cares and it shows in the little things—the cats he hides in his armor, the support for his friends and respect for Mustang’s team, the willingness to hear out an enemy with a reason. He’s also a traumatized kid who encounters alchemical horrors—the scene with Martel’s death holy shit. What a scene!! He’s not always sunshine, he has trauma and he reacts in sometimes unhealthy ways. Like all FMAB characters, he’s written really well.

6. Alluka Zoldyck

Alluka! Am not gonna lie, a lot of it is that I think she’s just so cute. And despite being hidden away for most of her life and focusing on more childish things like games and hugs, she’s not completely naive. She navigates living with another being sharing her body and mind, an abusive family, and violent lifestyles. Unlike characters like Neon Nostrade or Zushi, she’s not gullible or oblivious, and doesn’t accidentally sabotage her brother’s efforts like child characters sometimes do. Also she’s so sweet when she loves Killua and Nanika! She’s also a canon trans girl who isn’t sexualized. Go Alluka!

5. Denji

As mainly a Chainsaw Man blog, Denji has to be on here. He’s grown on me so much since I first read the manga. I don’t think I can explain why I like him in such a short paragraph. He’s a dumb, broke, horny teenage boy with magical chainsaw powers from his dog. He’s been manipulated all his life. He got a good life and a family that he was made to kill and revealed to be set up so he would suffer their loss. And yet, he adopts Nayuta, he follows his promise to Pochita, he acknowledges how much his platonic relationships mean to him. He can be an asshole but at the core he’s a good person and doesn’t push boundaries to get what he wants.

4. Riza Hawkeye

Roy Mustang can’t be on this list without his queen. The reason I like them both is pretty similar. They both are fighting to atone for what they’ve done. Hawkeye is special in the way she supports Mustang’s every step. She doesn’t have to act the same as him, she’s definitely her own person with her own struggles, but the reasons I like her are just like Mustang’s. She’s also a badass. But when I think about why they are my favorites, I think of them together. Their relationship, whether you see it as romantic or not, is what makes them such incredible characters. They are the true ride or dies.

3. Power

My reasons for Powy being one of my favorites is not as deep as others. Yes she has great character growth as well in learning to care for others, but she’s feral. She has demon horns and blood weapons as is feral. She cackles when she laughs and she speaks like a 12 year old trying to write a medieval novel and doesn’t eat her veggies. She bites to show affection and her brothers style her hair for her. Her cat is named “Meowy”. She’s a mess and I love her.

2. Edward Elric

How can I talk about Fullmetal Alchemist without the Fullmetal Alchemist himself? I love this short king for his character design (badass coat, auto mail, braid with the anime hair vents). FMAB would not be a cohesive story without Ed, not just because he’s the main character, but because of how curious, smart, reckless, and loyal he is. Ed brings the cast together. His character growth is great for a child soldier. He’s powerful but still learning that the world is more than black and white. He’s insanely talented at alchemy but not for being born with it, but his passion for and experimentation even when it fails (and boy does he fail!). He has moments where he struggles with his disability and prosthetics but it does not hold him back. And he loves his friends and family so much and shows it in ways that matter to them! The Winry gun scene…. Anyways I love Edward Elric.

1. Killua Zoldyck

Hunter X Hunter is the one of the earlier anime I watched and it holds a special place in my heart. Killua is great throughout. You meet him and you’re like “sick! 12-year-old white-haired anime boy on a skateboard” and then he rips a serial killer’s heart out. He alternates between being tortured (literally) by his past and being a goofy kid who spent 1.5 million dollars on chocolate during the 4 years his dad made him fight MMA matches for a living. And then you find out he’s desperately fighting for free will to stay by the side of the only person he’s ever loved who is another self-sacrificing preteen boy who he has a suicide pact with. And then when said boy almost dies from overusing his magic rock paper scissors power, Killua breaks his sister free of their assassin family to heal him.

His magic shounen power is using electricity because he was electrocuted so much as a kid he’s immune to it. He makes (*ⓛ ω ⓛ *) cat faces. If that doesn’t tell you why I love him idk what does. He’s everything. And he’s extra special to me because he’s a tragically sad gay kid with a crush on his best friend. Hits a little close to home. The “Gon you are light” speech makes me cry. I don’t think I can actually put into words what he makes me feel. He’s just like his theme song. Listen to “The Silver Haired Boy” and you’ll know exactly what I mean.

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okay i don’t want to sound like a hater because that scene with kauri was beautifully written and like his trauma response + fucked up coping was so so real

but i guess i’m wondering if you feel there’s a difference in how different characters are “allowed” to feel and respond to things within their relationship dynamics . like, sure antoni gets mad at kauri, but minutes afterward when jake walks in he’s already forgiven kauri and they spend the whole conversation talking about how to make kauri apologizing easier on kauri. it just makes me sad and makes me feel like antoni isn’t allowed to fall apart in the same way kauri is because he’s thinking about how he’s affecting kauri, but kauri doesn’t have the same concern for him.

or, he may have it, but he still drives unsafely with chris in the car, actively scared of him/his driving, out to a bar to take drugs and get drunk, and the thought of how it will affect his husbands doesn’t stop him. where i feel like antoni and jake would never do the same type thing to him or each other, you know? they wouldn’t indulge their worst impulses because they just don’t get to let themselves go to that degree because they’re aware of the people who love them and the people who rely on them.

idk if all that makes sense, but it just made me a lil sad cuz as much as i love hurt kauri this specific storyline makes me feel protective of antoni and the way as soon as he rationally can, he’s shaping his trauma response to be as gentle as possible on kauri, and kauri doesn’t or can’t do the same for him :(

You are not incorrect, Anon. And I did try to write Kauri being more understanding but it wasn't true to how he would react in the immediate moment. I had to let Kauri take his fear and pain to its logical conclusion. Just like Antoni went to his - trying not to think about himself at all, instead turning it around into caring about someone else. They're both handling this terribly, in their own very different ways. Antoni's looks better from the outside because it seems selfless, but they're each committing a kind of self-harm. Antoni by pulling into himself and Kauri by making it his own fault and proof he is fundamentally not worth loving.

I don't think it is about allowance, so much as two men having very different trauma responses. Like, Kauri isn't more sympathetic here. He is arguably far less sympathetic, because he really did take Antoni's pain and make it all about him. And Antoni was right to realize he wasn't able to deal with that and end the conversation until he has some time to think.

Kauri does have the same concern but he can't access it through the very self-focused pain and shame he feels right now. I should note that Kauri is ALWAYS a terrible driver and being upset only worsened it like 20%.

A huge difference between Jake and Antoni and Kauri is actually... impulse control in general. Kauri's emotions overtake his sense of logic. His impulses drive him to do stupid shit first and realize he did stupid shit later, and he doesn't really have a voice inside him that speaks up about it until it's too late. Jake and Antoni don't struggle with that to that level. Antoni actually has the opposite problem. He basically never lets impulse carry him even when it would help.

I think, when I have the time and inspiration to write when Antoni and Kauri talk next, you'll see how they actually can complement each other when things get tough, they just have to each come out of their respective trauma responses enough to do so.

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Can I request The hex characters with The reader who easily gets flustered on Valentine's Day hcs

Hex Characters with a Reader who is easily flustered on Valentine’s

hc’s

[Author’s Note: I am fashionably late 😅]

Lionel: 

Doesn’t care much for Valentine’s Day but that’s because he hasn’t celebrated it with many people before you. 

Lionel was never one to actively seek out a partner as he was focused on his work.

If Valentine’s Day is important to you then it’s important to him. If he’s still friends with Carla he would ask her for advice. 

Gets you the usual flowers and chocolates, maybe even a teddy bear. He originally planned to get you something more expensive but he wanted to keep it simple. 

When he sees how flustered you are he feels proud, even if you’re flustered over something simple.

Carla: 

This girl takes Valentine’s Day’s very seriously. She calls off work for the day and takes a month to plan. 

Carla probably gets you one of those Valentine’s gift baskets. 

She loves how flustered you are and will tease you about it. 

Despite her teasing it is very easy to flushed Carla and if you get her something she’s going to treasure it forever. 

She’d like to do something out during the day and then snuggle up to you at night. But if you prefer a calm Valentine’s Day at home she doesn’t mind.

Reggie: 

Even when he wasn’t romantically involved with someone Reggie still loved Valentine’s Day because he’s a hopeless romantic. 

He’d spend countless nights thinking about his future partner and here you are! 

Reggie knows how to fluster you but he is impossible to fluster. 

There isn’t much that can be done in the inn but he still tries his best, he makes origami flowers out of paper to make a bouquet for you. 

He’d prefer to spend his time with you just talking about how much he cares about you. 

Jeremiah:

At first Jeremiah isn’t sure what to do for Valentine’s and he starts to panic. He knows you’ll be happy with whatever he does for you but he wants it to be special. 

He goes to a bunch of different games to get you presents and such. If he finds a game that has no danger he’ll take you there. 

Both of you are probably too flustered to talk to each other and it’s funny. He has no clue if he’s doing things right so he’s incredibly nervous. 

I hc that he writes poetry so he’ll definitely write some poetry for you. 

It doesn’t matter what you get or do for him he’s going to think about it for the rest of his life. The next day he’s still smiling. 

Chef Bryce: 

Cooking is a must but he doesn’t cook for you, the both of you cook together. Bryce prefers to cook with someone and he’ll be happy to teach you. 

Both of you make so many pastries and you’re probably not going to eat all of them but they’re fun to decorate. 

He’s going to fluster you by lightly smearing frosting on your nose or throwing a bit of flour at you. It may even turn into a play fight and by the time you’re done cooking both of you are covered in frosting and flour. 

Bryce is a lot more casual about Valentine’s Day so you don’t have to worry about it being stressful or overwhelming. 

After giving away some of the pastries you made both of you just relax together unless there’s something you want to do. 

Lazarus: 

Lazarus wants to be on the same page as you so he’ll ask what you want to do for Valentine’s Day in advance. 

He’s constantly tired so he would prefer to do something more casual but he still puts effort into it. 

He goes out of his way to make himself look nice for the special day. He’ll wear something other than his armor, brush his probably knotted hair, stuff like that.

He doesn’t mean to fluster you but he does anyways. He loves to hold your hand or lean on you. On the outside he doesn’t have much of a reaction to you being flustered but he thinks it’s amusing. 

The only thing he wants to do is stay in bed and hold you. 

Chandrelle: 

If both of you are still in Secrets of Legendaria she’s going to take you sightseeing. She hates the game but it does have some pretty scenery. 

To most people she seems closed off but she’s a lot more open than people think she is and she won’t hesitate to tell you how much she loves you.

She probably flusters you with her words. Chandrelle is no poet but she has a way with worths in a casual sense.

She does whatever she can to impress you. She practices her sorcery  just so she can see the amazement in your eyes. 

Also if something or someone ruins your special day together she will not be merciful. 

Sado: 

Valentine’s Day with her is going to be the most chaotic thing imaginable. Chances are that Sado doesn’t even have a plan and is just doing things she thinks you’ll enjoy. 

You are going to be so spoiled by her. You’re going to have so many gifts from so many games. 

“I appreciate it Sado, I really do but I don’t even know how to use a sword.” 

“It’s okay, I just thought it matched the color of your eyes.”

She flusters you on a daily basis but on Valentine’s Day she does it a lot more.

Irving: 

He’s so clueless. Chances are that you’re his first romantic partner so he’s still learning how to be romantic.

Irving isn’t great about opening up about his feelings so he’ll get you a card and try to write how he feels about you in it. It’s actually really sweet. 

He flusters you with a lot of cheesy pick up lines and every time you laugh he says another one. 

I can see him slow dancing with you. It’s the complete opposite of fighting but it’s still something he enjoys, especially if it’s with you. 

Since it’s his first Valentine’s with someone he does stress out about it at first but you’re a big comfort to him.

First Person Perspective: 

Gets flustered very easily as well. 

Because he can’t really talk you’re probably the one who makes the plans for Valentine’s but if it were up to him, he’d prefer just to lounge around in bed with you. 

He wouldn’t mind stargazing or doing something as long as it’s on the calmer side of things. 

He’s an amazing artist so he’ll definitely draw you as you are his most favorite thing to draw. He loves drawing you with a smile because you’re the light of his life.

Very physically affectionate with you and he would love to be in your arms for the whole day.

Rust McClain: 

Because he spent a lot of his life in a wasteland with minimal supplies, Rust is great at crafting things. Give him a few pieces of scrap and he’s going to make you something amazing for Valentine’s. 

He’s big on compliments and it increases tenfold on Valentine’s Day. He’s also great with making you feel better about your insecurities. 

Doesn’t mind if you want to do something specific for Valentine’s he just wants to spend the day with you. 

I feel like he’s a happy crier so if you do something really sweet for him he’s going to give you a hug while shedding a few tears. 

Rust may also play some silly pranks on you just to see you laugh. 

Rebecha: 

Rebecha has been all over the game world so she can take you to any game you’d like. 

For once she takes a day off because she wants to dedicate the day to you and her. 

She might have a lot planned as there’s many different games she wants to show you but she’ll make sure you aren’t overwhelmed. 

She’s aware of how easily flustered you get but she actually doesn’t fluster you on purpose. It just happens because she’s a very direct person in both her actions and her words.

Gets you a small but very colorful bouquet of flowers. If she could she would grow her own garden.