#i love that they’re just having a little boys trip in japan

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Sobbing it’s so cute

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「 ✦ DADDY’S HOME ✦ 」

☆. # SHIP — gojo satoru, nanami kento, toji fushiguro x gn!reader

☆. # AUTHOR’S NOTE — the guys as the father of ur kids.

☆. # WARNINGS — mentions of puke

GOJO .

i could see him as a boy or girl dad. or both

tries to give his daughter cute hairstyles and fails miserably. crooked pigtails where half of her hair is still hanging down is the best he can do. but hey, he tries

definitely hangs his kids upside down by their feet. probably shakes them too.

the kids are definitely small gojo’s. sorry not sorry

every single day is chaos.

when he goes out with the two on his own, he loses one of them about 80% of the time (he always finds them again, don’t worry 😭)

let’s them have snacks before dinner and tells them not to tell you. they always do.

despite all of that, he’s a fun father

gojo has a lot of energy so he runs around with them all day and plays with them <33

(then he complains about how tired he is when they’re in bed :/)

lots of fun trips. to the playground, amusement parks, places in japan, different countries. the beach.

if his kids have hobbies, he’s always ALWAYS!! the loudest and most embarrassing parent there. he says it builds character and he needs to support his babies ‼️‼️

NANAMI .

girl dad. twin girls.

he definitely does their hair!! and he’s good at it too <3 nanami has done their hair since they had hair.

he spoils them TO DEATH.

the girls only want to eat the food he cooks 😒 they say it tastes better

he dances with them in the living room when no one’s home. ugh he’s so CUTE 🥴🥴

nanami’s a very very loving father but he’s also strict when it comes to certain things

example a: the girls will never not do their homework. he makes sure of it 💯

just imagine nanami sitting at a table with his two little girls while explaining math to them 🥹 he’s so so gentle and understanding but he will not let them give up

imo he really loves it when they wear cute dresses and look all pretty. he’s a girlie girl dad.

he will play with them no matter what they want to do. play dress-up? he will wear the tutu. want to play house? of course he’ll be the baby. the girls wanna do his hair + make-up? he’ll be the test subject no problem ‼️

he’s also never ever going to miss any special day his girls have. their first day of school, bring your father to school day, their dance shows — whatever their hobbies are, he’ll be there to support them <33333

also: a REAL father. never had a problem with changing diapers or cleaning up baby puke.

TOJI .

not the best father, but he’s damn sure trying

the child was definitely unexpected and not exactly wanted but once he came to terms with it, he tries his best to be there as best as he can

he doesn’t have the money needed to take care of a child, neither do you (not really)

but whatever his kid wants, his kid gets.

mostly, that includes fast food and cheap toys from the dollar store

but hey!! the kid doesn’t care where the toys are from (/gen)

definitely the type of dad to get one of those leashes for kids. he’s not risking losing his kid somewhere 💀 and he knows damn well what kind of menace that child is

he can and will bribe his son with candy to get him to stop crying or throwing a tantrum

toji cannot deal with his kid screaming or crying. honestly mostly leaves you to deal with those situations because he’s unsure how to handle them

will change diapers but not without complaining and almost throwing up 💀 it’s not his fault !!! it stinks okay?!!

acts like he doesn’t care about the kid but then shows up after a mission with a bag of candy. or pulls out some toy the kid’s wanted

cannot, will not & should not help with homework.

[anniebass]

baby don't be mad

1.3k word actverse ficlet under the jump rating: M tags: dialogue-heavy, beginning of the relationship, the boys are arguinggg, old man eddie's being a clueless slut, and also a dweeb, and steve's being... a person that rly needs therapy lol

Rapid catchups, they name it, though it doesn’t really need a name, it’s basically just talking. Early on Eddie realizes he doesn’t know all that much about his sexy old-but-new long distance serious boyfriend, that he possesses a fuckton of outdated information, that, duh, people change, especially in the long-ass time they spent apart. That the habits and opinions of a twenty-year-old shithead don’t necessarily last until someone’s forties.

That evening, they do the rapid catchups, starting off easy, prompted by the takeout dinner they have at Steve’s: best Asian food, go, at which without a second thought Steve says Chinese, while Eddie goes with Japanese, love me some sushi, yum. Later, when they’re full of kung pao and mapo tofu, lazily digesting on the couch, half-watching an old movie where Sharon Stone saunters across the screen and smolders at bad men, Steve says: you have to sleep with a woman, any woman in the world, dead or alive, go.

Eddie groans and slides down the couch, throws his hands up: dude, I don’t know! Uh, like maybe— Cleopatra? Or maybe one of those amazonian greek warriors with one boobie?

So, no one you actually know the face of? he says, with a little smirk.

Man, I don’t— I mean, there are some beautiful women walking this earth, like stunning stunning women I can’t get enough of, but that don’t mean I want to fuck them! My willy shrinks at the thought, he explains meekly, and shrugs, clicking his tongue: I dunno, maybe Eartha Kitt? She seems very fun.

Good choice, mutters Steve, and to Eddie’s your turn he tilts his head, scratches his nose: I don’t know if that question really applies to me. But if I had to have a sex list, it would be… Linda Evangelista? Or Sharon, she’s hot. Or— yeah, Monica Belucci, Jesus. Her, definitely. If not her then Cleopatra, that’s actually a great answer, she must have been good for all that shit to go down around her, he says with a smile, and Eddie sighs dreamily, oh, I’d love to watch. From the closet, imagine myself in her place. In a little egyptian wig, he adds, to which Steve snorts, rolling his eyes.

Alright, my turn. Best casual sex you’ve ever had, go, says Eddie, and Steve hums at that, leans back on the couch, rubbing his chin, mumbling under his breath, until he sighs and says: I actually didn’t have that much of it beyond my teens, and what I had back then was very… teenaged, y’know. And in that short gap between my first and second wife I slept with just three people, two dudes and one woman, and neither of those was mind-blowing. The guys were kinda disappointing, I thought after so many years of straight sex I’d be blown away, but it was just… okay. Actually—, he adds, shaking his head: it sucked. I was drunk, they were drunk, I don’t remember much of it. Or don’t want to. I remember stinky balls. So, I dunno—, he says, and sighs, and glances at him: am I a big loser if I say the best one was when we reconnected? Could say it was still casual back then, right? When we fucked in the church, or by the pool, or—, yeah, there was a lot of it, on that trip.

It really was magical, agrees Eddie, smiling at him.

So, uh, your turn, says Steve. Best you've ever had, go.

Oh, man, mutters Eddie. I know my answer to that. Japan, in the mid-nineties. We were on tour and stayed for a few nights in Tokyo, and I got to explore the city, research shit with the help of a very discreet translator, and finally, on our last night there, I ended up in a gay bar. Very hush-hush, a basement place hidden away in some grimy back alley, he says, lowering his voice into sultry tones of gossip. Met a guy there, this… slightly chubby middle-aged businessman type, suit and tie and briefcase, wedding ring on his finger, very regular looking guy, and we drank sake through the night, sang some karaoke, and ended up in some seedy by-the-hour love hotel. He didn’t know who I was, didn’t speak a lick of English, I was obviously drunk, but I still remember that night like it was yesterday. God, just— the way that guy fucked me, the way he seemed to know every inch of my body without having seen it before, the way he just knew what I wanted without any language, it was insane. We did it a few times that one night, practically without stopping, and never saw each other again. I actually jerk off to that memory to this day.

To this, Steve lets out a small hm, purses his lips and leans back, crossing his arms, and Eddie clicks his tongue, leaning closer, touching his shoulder: aw, don’t be jealous. That was casual, but out of all people, of course you are my number one, no contest. I just— remember that one time in Japan, because it worked so well without language, and that’s always kinda hot. Language of love, all that cheesy stuff. Up to that point and following it, it'd mostly happen with some hot Brazilians.

Okay, he says.

Eddie sighs, watching his face: Steve, you know that’s what my life was like back then, this neverending barrage of hookups. And most of those weren’t even that good, like, you talk of stinky balls? I met dozens, slobbered over them anyway like they were fucking Ferrero Rocher!, he says to a small groan in return, then sighs, speaks softer: being with you is a completely different quality from that, even from my previous relationships. It’s way different. With Marcell, we both slept around, there wasn’t much that we had in common beyond, like, incredible attraction at the beginning, and the fact that we work in the same industry, could endlessly talk about that. And with Zu, we— we really loved each other, but we weren’t a good fit. It was this weird thing where she needed someone more masc, but also I needed someone more masc, he says with an amused scoff. We were two bottoms in love, and it’s hard to make it work in the long term, without fucking other people. We’re way better off as friends. And the other dudes I dated, it was just— me being a drunken asshole, most of the time. I was a very shitty boyfriend for a looong-ass time.

There’s a stretch of silence, and Steve slides down the couch, still frowning: man… I just wonder why you asked that question in the first place. Because it seems to me like you wanted to brag a little about this incredible hookup you had in fucking… Japan. Do you miss fucking other people, Eddie?

He sighs, rakes a hand through his hair: Steve, I literally just told you I don’t. I might romanticize it, the— the way I might romanticize being on drugs, but I don’t want to go back to that. I asked because I want to know everything about you! I dunno, I— I guess I like Japan. It’s such a weird place, I really want to go back there, he says and inches closer, placing a calm hand on his thigh: come with me. Like, for two weeks or something. We’d take the girls with us, go in the summer or for the spring break. Would be cool to just wander around, shop, sing karaoke, eat tons of good food. Go to Kyoto, see the geishas, tea ceremony. Go to hot springs. Japan’s truly like no place you’ve ever been to.

I didn't know you liked it that much. A trip does sound nice, says Steve, with a small smile. Emily would go crazy, she loves those cartoons. Chels would like it too, I think.

Eddie smiles and squeezes his leg: sounds like a plan. Also, just to— get it out of the way: from the moment you first kissed me, I stopped thinking of us as casual. I was, like, fully fully back in love with you in point two seconds. Even before that, to be honest. If I ever for a single moment considered that a hookup, it’d totally blow that businessman out of the water. If you want, I could show you, uh, how I blew him out of the— fucking—, he falters, then snorts: sorry, failed metaphor. But you catch my drift.

Yes, please, says Steve.

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Alice in Borderland characters at Thanksgiving

I am aware that this is incredibly dumb because Japan doesn’t have Thanksgiving lol but I just thought this would be funny. So enjoy!

Arisu

I could see Arisu not even being there because his family sucks and doing a little Friendsgiving thing with Karube and Chota instead

But for fun, let’s say he does go

He’s become a master at finding places to hide and play his games and knowing when and how many times to resurface to make it seem like he isn’t hiding

Sits at the kids table

The kids definitely love him more than the adults

He encourages his cousins to steal money to pay for Fortnite skins

He ends up being the one the shyer kids open up to about their interests, and lets them because he of all people knows how it feels to get put down for your allegedly stupid interests

He (begrudgingly) lets his little girl cousins drag him to the bathroom to raid the makeup drawers and put makeup on him

He dramatically gasps and tells the girls he loves it to make them happy though

Doesn’t get involved in the family drama, but definitely loves to watch the shit go down

Avoids his more conservative relatives and their political conversations like the plague

Karube

Last to arrive, first to leave

Also sits at the kids table because they’re way more fun than the adults

He gets food with his shyer cousins so they don’t have to go by themselves

His designated contribution is the alcohol (he also brings pop for the kids)

Sometimes he’ll make a side dish and it’s always surprisingly completely eaten by the time the night’s over

Tries not to get involved in the political debates… but he almost always gets involved because of that one homophobic uncle

That one homophobic uncle always leaves with a black eye

He watches the family drama and definitely spills the tea to Arisu and Chota at their Friendsgiving

Chota

First to arrive and is immediately put to work in the kitchen

He helps cook everything and actually gets stressed out himself in the process

He texts Arisu and Karube that he’s a horrible cook everything will taste awful this is a disaster… then two minutes later goes “Oh ok the pudding’s thickening now nevermind”

His aunts love how helpful he is and always says he’s such a Sweet Boy for helping them

Also sits at the kids table (let’s just say most of these characters sit at the kids table lol)

Knows from being Arisu’s friend that some kids will hide by themselves for a while, so he tries to make sure they don’t miss out on dinner and dessert

Has become a master at guilt tripping his more conservative family members

If one of his uncles starts saying trans kids have something wrong with them, he turns to him with the look of a kicked puppy and tearfully asks him why he would say something so mean

He doesn’t get involved in the family drama and doesn’t know the context, but when the shit starts going down he texts Karube and Arisu live updates

“Oh shit Aunt Janet told Aunt Carol she’s jealous she doesn’t have a husband OH SHIT AUNT CAROL THREW HER DRINK AT HER WHILE I WAS TYPING THAT”

Usagi

Doesn’t like Thanksgiving because of both the history behind it and her family, but always decides to suck it up and go anyway

Arisu keeps inviting her to Friendsgiving, but she doesn’t want to impose on the guys’ little tradition

If nothing else, than at least she won’t have to cook dinner for herself for once

She quietly helps out in the kitchen

If she brings anything, she brings a side dish that’s not too difficult to make

Either sits at the kids table or sits by herself

She sadly becomes the relative that listens intently to everyone else’s stories and chatter, but gets cut off when she tries to talk about what she’s been up to

She doesn’t get involved in any political debates, but has become an expert at humbling relatives who have awful takes with Judging Looks

She does get a little vindictive enjoy from telling her male relatives that politics makes them really emotional and she doesn’t want to talk to them when they’re so high-strung

Shares the family drama that goes down with Arisu and they laugh about it together

Chishiya

Hates Thanksgiving and everything about it

Only goes for three things: the food, the wine, and the drama

Inadvertently ends up becoming the babysitter of his toddler-age cousins

He has no idea why or how, but at least the toddlers provide some entertainment

Never brings anything, except a bottle of wine that he exclusively keeps for himself

(And maybe his teenage cousins if he feels like being an enabler)

He could hypothetically destroy any of his conservative relatives in a political debate, but chooses not to because he thinks it’s a waste of time

If there’s one thing he does live for at Thanksgiving though, it’s the drama

He’s the one who keeps track of it all and fills family members in on the context of the powder keg that’s exploded this year

“Yes, Aunt Janet, we’re all aware of your devotion to essential oils. It’s too bad you couldn’t find one to keep Uncle Carl from divorcing you.” he says, calmly taking a sip of wine.

Hatter

He’s been designated as the one who brings the wine because he always gets the best

Always arrives fashionably late in a flurry of flashy yet tasteful clothes and cologne

He probably ends up drinking more wine than eating the food

Jumps between sitting at the kids table and sitting with the adults

He’ll sit at the kids table because he always manages to get the kids (or Little Gremlins, as he’s affectionately nicknamed them) to spill the hot gossip to him

He’s become the relative that the younger queer relatives feel the safest coming out to

Because this man is as pan as the day is long and you cannot change my mind

Listen I genuinely feel like if I came out as non-binary to him he would cheer loudly, ask me my pronouns, then get me a celebratory drink

If any of the kids accidentally get drunk on Thanksgiving, it’s entirely his fault

He LIVES for the family drama

He not only participates, but actively instigates it

“Tell me, Carol, is Ken having another affair or was it your bleached blonde head I saw blowing him in his car?”

Then he sends Aguni pictures of Ken’s face as he tries to explain himself to a fuming Carol

Niragi

Always makes sure to bring a main course dish to show off how good at cooking he is

If any of his relatives tell him his cooking sucks, he laughs and flips them off

The one all the other cousins are scared of

And yet the one the great-aunts and grandmothers all think is a nice boy

Somehow gets along with his youngest cousins the best (they’re not old enough to think he’s weird yet lol)

Eggs on their roughhousing

His four-year-old cousin is kicking his sister, his sister is kicking back, and there’s Niragi on the couch with them going “Fight! Fight! Fight!”

Could outdrink his uncles and does

Absolutely hates football games. Only puts up with them because he likes to make bets with his relatives and win every time.

Fuels the fervor of political debates by being a troll, just sits there and grins like he thinks Uncle Jim is so fucking stupid for having such incorrect opinions.

Eggs on drama from the sidelines.

Aunt Carol and Aunt Janet are squabbling, and he’s off to the side with a glass of wine going like “OHHH, are you gonna let her talk to you that way, Aunt Carol???”

Just contributes to all the chaos and does not help fix any of it lol

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three summers — kmg & yjh

Jeonghan thought it took three summers for Mingyu to fall in love with him. Mingyu thinks it took three heartbeats.

↪︎ kim mingyu x yoon jeonghan

↪︎ word count: 2.4k

↪︎ tags: friends to lovers, angst??, slow SLOW burn, mingyu is a serial yearner, mingyu's pov, jeonghan is perfect but a little slow lol, me being a serial yapper ...

[** dashes are for time skips; slashes separate independent conversations!]

–

“Mingyu, I told you, Japanese vending machines are just different. You can’t just shake them the way you do back home,” Jeonghan sighed, crossing his arms. 

While Jeonghan has always had his cheat codes in life, he scratched his head at the sight of Mingyu trying to trick his way into getting a can of soda under the sun’s scorching heat.

Mingyu, Jeonghan, Seungcheol, and Chan decided to go on a trip to Japan before their junior year of college started. After having worked more overtime shifts than one could possibly ever need, all of them were able to book their flights, eat decent meals, and see the most breathtaking views as they wandered around the city.

Being a four-person friend group, they would inevitably split into pairs — with Seungcheol and Chan bonding over partying until the morning, then sleeping in until noon, both Jeonghan and Mingyu were left with themselves, which happened quite often anyway. But Mingyu couldn’t help but think there was something about this particular summer. He’d spent summers with Jeonghan plenty of times before, having lived in the same town for nearly all of his life. But what do you do when your best friend’s in a stupid, cute little ponytail because he had grown his hair out too long, and now it was too hot to ever wear it down?

Regaining some composure from yet another onslaught of silly-thoughts-about-my-best-friend, Mingyu tried his hand at the vending machine once more. “I’m sure they’re all built the same, like with similar mechanisms and all, this one’s just extra sturdy but…” Mingyu cut himself off as he turned his head toward the boy next to him, his own lips forming the smile he clearly knew Jeonghan was trying to hold back.

“But what? Why are you smiling like that? Go on, keep on trying!” Jeonghan encouraged him, sarcasm seeping through his voice as he tried to keep his laughter at bay. “Or… we could just go to a 7/11.” Jeonghan quickly reached for Mingyu’s hand, lacing his fingers with Mingyu’s like it was a force of habit. Mingyu’s hand stayed loose — frozen, even — until he gave in. And that’s when he felt it.

Thump.

Surely, it must have just been how hot it was that day. Mingyu thought that anyone would have an increased heart rate under this much sun, and it must be another long walk to find a 7/11. That was precisely the reason why —

Oh. It was just by the corner, almost right next to where the vending machines were. And Jeonghan’s hand felt … nice.

–

Awoken by the smoke alarm — the smoke alarm — at 7:00 in the morning, housemates Mingyu, Seungcheol, and Chan sleepily found themselves in their shared kitchen, watching Jeonghan make what seems to be breakfast. It was the last week of summer before their senior year of college, and apparently, Jeonghan wanted to kick it off by cooking a meal for them.

“We pay all this rent and for what? For the smoke alarm to be going off when this is clearly normal for what I’m cooking?” Jeonghan said in exasperation. With a spatula in one hand, and, well, a fan in the other, the rest of the boys weren’t so sure if they could agree with Jeonghan. Not when they walked in on him vigorously fanning two pans at once.

“You burned it, Han, the smoke alarm detects that,” Seungcheol explained calmly, taking the materials away from the boy across from him. “We could just whip something up later, maybe at a more reasonable time.”

“No!” Jeonghan contested, looking at both Chan and Mingyu with the biggest doe eyes. “You’ll all go back to sleep, and then everyone will wake up at, what, 3 PM? Only for Cheol to leave the place immediately to get to yet another booty call! Chan will make some sort of protein shake again and rush to the gym, while I know Mingyu would definitely —”

“I mean,” Mingyu interrupted, “I could help cook now.”

Jeonghan took another look at the pans behind him, then turned his body to Mingyu’s tall, sleepy figure once again. Jeonghan meant to say that Mingyu would definitely help out, unlike the rest of the guys.

“Now that’s a friend right there!” Jeonghan announced, earning a scoff from Chan and Cheol. The two of them shuffled back into their rooms, leaving Mingyu and Jeonghan in the kitchen.

“It’s a bit unbelievable that you managed to burn bacon and pancakes, Jeonghan. These are pretty easy to make, you just --”

“We could just make an omelet,” Jeonghan said calmly, causing Mingyu to scratch the back of his neck.

“But there’s some batter left, Han,” Mingyu sighed, taking ahold of the bowl of pancake batter on the counter. He shook his head at Jeonghan with a confused expression, one Mingyu would usually make whenever Jeonghan opted for the easier plan, even if it didn’t make much sense at the moment.

“I know,” Jeonghan said, taking the bowl from Mingyu’s hands. “We can keep it in the fridge and use it up tomorrow. We could just make an omelet --”

“I can make the pancakes, it’s no big deal,” Mingyu smiled, taking the bowl from Jeonghan’s hold once again, even wrapping an arm around it, just so he could get on with the pancakes. Jeonghan heaved a sigh as he pried out the bowl from Mingyu’s arms, the smaller boy having a hard time against the grip Mingyu had on a bowl of pancake batter.

“Christ, Jeonghan, let’s just get started with these, please! It’s not like we can’t make it again–”

“Gyu, let go,” Jeonghan laughed, “I’m insisting on making omelets because, as I said earlier, Chan will rush to the gym by the time he wakes up. It’s easier to cook, we can wake him up in, like, fifteen minutes. A more reasonable time now. And I also think this is better protein. Compared to whatever he shakes in some bottle when he runs out the door every damn morning.” Jeonghan finally got to put the abused bowl of batter in the fridge, grabbing eggs and other ingredients afterward.

Thump.

Jeonghan, where does this tenderness come from? Mingyu can barely count the times Jeonghan was able to light up an entire place with words he’s sure Jeonghan could never understand the weight of. Sometimes, the words that slip out of Jeonghan’s mouth while washing some dishes or doing laundry get to be the same words imprinted in Mingyu’s mind. 

In the most mundane moments, he would find the remarkable. In simplicity and routine, he would find Jeonghan with his heart on his sleeve, while Mingyu had his heart lodged in his throat. Jeonghan, where does this tenderness come from? And will you always have some for me?

/

“I feel like I was a bad person. Like, locking myself up in my room like that as a teenager just because my dad raised his voice at me? Pathetic.” Mingyu laughed, wiping the rest of the empty glasses. 

“You weren’t a bad person, Gyu, you were fifteen. Those are entirely different things.” Jeonghan smiled in response, giving Mingyu a pat on the back. “I’ll go on my walk now! See ‘ya in a bit.”

/

“Cereal is so expensive now. If I could buy, like, ten of these boxes in one grocery trip, that’s when I know I’ve made it,” Jeonghan chuckled as he checked the price difference among the boxes of cereal in the aisle. Mingyu was in charge of pushing the cart, as always.

“Tell me about it. But I bet you’ll get to buy like .. twenty of these raw organic honey oats stuff. You’ll be that successful!” Mingyu cheered, turning back to give the other boy a playful punch in the arm.

“Hopefully you’d still be pushing the cart for me by then. That would be a lot of cereal.” Jeonghan responded, walking past Mingyu to look for, well, cheaper alternatives.

/

“Mingyu, d’you ever get that weird feeling in your chest when there are things you can say, but just … shouldn’t? Sometimes I feel like we’re too old to be holding back. There should be some other way to share at least a little bit of our feelings.” Jeonghan rambled, putting on his cap as he kept his keys in his pocket.

“Yeah… yeah. I get you. What’s this about?” Mingyu asked.

“Nothing in particular. Just a thought. I’ll get going now, this extra shift might just kill me.”

-

Three of the boys were in charge of the heavy lifting. And Jeonghan being Jeonghan, flashed a smug smile every now and then. Mingyu, Seungcheol, and Chan insisted that they didn’t need movers to help pack away their college apartment. Four – well, three – boys were enough. Jeonghan, on the other hand, kept reminding them that there were also four flights of stairs.

“If you could just help out,” Seungcheol huffed, glancing at Jeonghan, “That would be neat.”

Jeonghan nodded, taking what seemed to be the lightest box of them all.

“Man, I can’t believe we’re leaving this place,” Jeonghan uttered quietly.

“I know. You guys took me in like a fucking cult, you know that?” Chan laughed, looking at Jeonghan fondly as he followed Seungcheol down the stairs.

Jeonghan went back inside the almost empty apartment to check if Mingyu was done packing. The six-foot-two man houses a lot of sentimentality in him, he’d be surprised if Mingyu wasn’t putting every corner of the house into one of his boxes.

“Gyu, ready to go?” Jeonghan asked, knocking on the door to Mingyu’s room. He took a peek and found Mingyu lying flat in his bed, all of his boxes sealed and ready.

“Yeah, just… Just give me a minute. I realized something and I think I’m spiraling,” Mingyu grinned, looking up at the ceiling.

“What is it? Is it the post-grad anxiety?” Jeonghan asked with genuine curiosity.

“No, but I think that’s scheduled to happen next week,” Mingyu snickers. “I just realized this is summer is not a summer-before-anything type of summer. It’s literally just a hotter time of the year. Which is crazy to me, because all of our summers have always been something before whatever year of college.” Mingyu explained.

Jeonghan looked at him with the most caring eyes, clearly endeared with how Mingyu was already nostalgic about a phase of life that had just ended a week ago, when they all graduated.

“I get you. There’s not much to this one, but that’s also something,” Jeonghan responded as he looked around the room, earning him an even more attentive Mingyu, sitting up to look at the boy across his bed. “Like, this is finally a summer that doesn’t have to be anything. There’s just more sun and sweat and sunscreen, which isn’t all that bad too, you know.”

“Oh, good point. But aren’t you just a bit sad about it?”

“Of course I’m a bit sad about it. But then it’ll just get too cold eventually, and I’d always remember this as the summer when it was warm and that I’d want it back. If it gets too hot, then I’d think of the winter. It all goes on and on from here. Which I think is pretty nice. We just slow down as seasons change.” Jeonghan elaborated, taking a look at Mingyu who was in awe of his simple, yet profound thoughts. “I’ll head downstairs now. I’ll ask Chan to help you with your boxes.”

Thump.

It just goes on and on from here, but I’ll have this summer at my own pace. Hopefully, you could stay a bit longer, too.

-

In all those moments, Jeonghan always knew when to walk away. When to move forward, when to leave his words. Some were found in the shared kitchen in their college apartment five years ago. There were others nestled by the shelves in the grocery stores. A lot were just hanging by their doorstep, wishing Jeonghan would take them with him for once. His hands have always been empty anyway, what harm would a little love do?

“You knew, Han. Quit the act, you can’t do this to me. Help me out here,” Mingyu was practically begging. He hated it.

For the first time in his life, he demanded noise from Jeonghan. After loving and knowing him in the quiet, how does he prove to him that he’d love him in the noise, too? That he’d take in whatever Jeonghan says like skin on wet cement — there will be marks and they might last forever. And that he’d see it and hear it so often that it becomes second nature. But only if he’d speak.

“Mingyu, I don’t know what’s there to hear from me. I don’t think it would matter if there was anything that came to mind.”

“They will matter to me now as much as they would have mattered to me then. You knew I loved you. I’m sure.” Mingyu insists, trying his best to calm himself down.

“I didn’t know what to do with that love. I still don’t.”

“You accept it,” Mingyu says. “You accept it, and see if you love me back. I was just hoping you’d have an answer by now.”

“I loved you in the ways I knew how,” Jeonghan takes a breath in. “But probably not in the ways you wanted.”

Mingyu looks at him bewilderedly as he pieces Jeonghan’s words together. It’s true, Jeonghan’s love for him was a constant work in progress. Always rebuilt and destroyed and rebuilt again until another version of love existed. Jeonghan thought he never got it right. It’s been three summers after all.

“How would you know? You never asked,” Mingyu states. Jeonghan places a hand on his arm in an attempt to talk Mingyu through this.

“Even if I asked, do you think I’d ever get it right?”

Mingyu takes the hand placed on his arm, lacing it with his. Jeonghan, stunned by this display of affection, looks away from Mingyu. He almost misses the way Mingyu’s face softens at his avoidance. What Mingyu wants to say is that Jeonghan should stop fixating on finding the best way to love him because they’ll figure it out together anyway. He wants to say that Jeonghan should be brave about his feelings for once. He wants to question why Jeonghan never heard the way his heart thumped every time they held hands, including right now.

Instead, Mingyu kisses him. After three quick heartbeats and three quick summers. In Mingyu’s lips, there is patience; in Jeonghan’s, there is relief.

“You already got it right the first time.”

yay hi if you made it to the end! thank u for reading <3

[absolutebl]

This Week in BL

Nov 2022 Wk 3

Being a highly subjective assessment of one tiny corner of the interwebs. Organized by which ones (in each category) I’m enjoying the most.

Ongoing Series - Thai

Between Us (Sun iQIYI) 2 of 12 - an even better kiss this ep and some background on how both of them are broken and need each other, this is popcorn worthy melodrama, keep it up. WATCH ALONG HERE.

Big Dragon (Sat Gaga) 7 of 8 - musical montage boyfriends date for most of this ep. I’m not mad about it. Like a 50 min OnlyOneOf MV. Poor P9! I think I finally realized why I like this couple so much, they remind me (when they are at their best) a little bit of We Best Love. Oh do we have a Kdrama separation coming in the final ep? Please no. 

Ai Long Nhai (Mon iQIYI) 8 of 10 - Nhai’s dad is pretty awesome, and I don’t mind that we had all this time with him and Ai chatting. Tiny concert full of crumbs, but blessed no actual singing! And the nothing continues to happen, and it continues to be shirtless. So I’m happy.

Ghost Host, Ghost House (Weds YouTube) 7 of 8 - Even in a ghost story, if it’s Thailand we’ve got to go to the beach and frolic. Use of I/you pronouns is super interesting and cute. I think what I like the most about these two is that they are so easily and casually boyfriends.

Remember Me (Sun Gaga) 6 of 12 - LeoFiat are still the only thread that interests me, coincidentally they’re getting all the old school tropes too. Bus trip, earbud sharing, shoulder sleeping and everything.

I Will Knock You (Fri Gaga) 1 of 12 - This definitely has all the markers of a bully romance, not my personal favorite. SOTUS not withstanding. This can go into BohnDuen territory a bit too much for me. So far I don’t dislike this show, but I don’t like it either and it’s definitely one of those I wish I had the 10 second fast forward button on.

Ongoing Series - Not Thai

My Tooth Your Love (Taiwan Fri Viki) 7 of 12 - Enter the faen fatal and anxiety baby is jelly - doesn't look as good on him as it does on our dentist. But HOW does he still not realize how hard he is being flirted with? I take that back, this isn’t flirting, this is courting. Like ritual old-fashioned gentlemanly marriage-in-mind how many crowns do you want in exchange level courting. I can’t believe it’s gonna be over month before this show finishes. I’m tense now. 

Eternal Yesterday AKA Eien no Kino (Japan Thurs Gaga) 5 of 8 - This thing that Japan keeps doing with gay teachers killing themselves is not exciting to me. I really love how Michan is like “look after your own damn boyfriend and stop dragging mine onto ledges”... stupid teacher drama. But oh my goodness is this show achingly sad. This prevailing wistfulness between our leads about the future that they know they will never get to have. The way Michan is constantly listening and feeling for his Koichi’s heartbeat for a reassurance that is never going to come. The way he is reconciling himself with his own loneliness and returning to that solitary state, because he will never find a soulmate like Koichi again. It’s an aching extended wistful dry-eyed kind of yearning and pain. The counteraction to how good Japan is a thirst. This show is going to break my heart. In fact, it already has. 

Choco Milk Shake (Korea Strongberry Tues YT) 5-6 of 10 - It’s Strongberry so the blind date is with the boy. Yay! No bones about it (no boning either but hey-ho). Really this is a show about connection and loneliness, it’s kind of gut wrenching for something so silly. I got to say it, because no one else will, but how is uncle’s business staying in business? I’ve never seen a single customer.

Kabe Koji (Japan Mon Viki) 7 of 10 - The date was RIDICULOUS - couple’s keychains and everything. Gah. These two are too much. And then the classic penultimate ep of doom.

It’s Airing But I’m Not Watching It

War of Y (Thai Gaga) 20 eps - it’s just all too much for me.

My Roommate (Thai YT) 32 eps of 2 minutes each + terrible production values? - I’m not bothering.

Fahlanruk (Thai Sun GaGa) 12 eps - I cut my losses at ep 5. DNF

To Sir With Love AKA Khun Chai 16 eps - could be sad v worried

2 Moons 3 (Thai Mon ??) 10 eps - Possibly a future binge watch. Rumor is it’s banal.

SELF (Thai Thurs YT) - DNF

Love Bill  (Vietnam Sat YT) - Bah Vinh is back but I’m too distracted. Also there’s a lot of fund raising and stuff going on. I’ll wait and binge.

In Case You Missed It

I did a post on all of Strongberry’s offerings. 

Restart After Coming Back Home (formerly Restart After Come Back Home) is now available on Gaga! Go and watch it, it’s wonderful. Now they just have to get Seven Days and my life will be complete and my subscription love for them eternal. 

OnlyOneOf is really doing a BL. 

I did my GMMTV 2023 predictions. 

TutorYim (Cutie Pie crumbs) have been cast as the new leads in Middle Love (formerly Jimmy Tommy). 

I think this is a really good choice, actually. 

GAP the series (Sat YT) 1 of 12 has started, office set GL. WATCH IT! GL and this studio needs our support! (Also, the stairs are back!)

Coming to Viki: Love in the Air, ITSAY & IPYTM, Remember Me, and 2 new KBLs: The New Employee & Happy Ending Romance. 

Next Week Looks Like This:

Starting this week:

Nov 24: Happy Ending Romance (Korea Thurs Gaga) 8 - stars Karam (The Boss), Ha Jong Woo, and Leo (VIXX). Formerly Happy Ending Outside the Fence - thank fuck they changed the damn title.  

Nov 26: 609 Bedtime Story (Thai Sat WeTV) 11 - another OhmFluke vehicle that’s rumored to be a good story. A one night stand leads to a series of mysterious premonitions and a possible parallel universe.

Nov 2022 still to come?

Nov ??: My School President (?? GMMTV YT) tester trailer here - it’s Love Sick + Korea & Japan's influence.

This week’s earworm: Hello Hello FT Island, doing the blog post about Kdrama actors who’d never do BL made me think about Lee Hong Ki, which made me go back to their back catalogue. I forgot how fucking killer they are. 

(last week)

[toyama-division]

Kensaku’s Thoughts on Hakodate Division

Kotan Anchikar

“An Ainu village chieftain? That’s really something I never expected to see… I can’t really joke about him because I’ve had to study some of their culture. The medicinal practices of the Ainu people specifically. A lot of their practices might be considered to be outdated, what with their beliefs being disproven by modern medicine. But they did have some basis in their choices in plant remedies… Only a couple though. I’m sure a handful of my coworkers would like to talk with any healers in their village for new ideas. Personally, I might want to pass… Mostly because I’d rather we didn’t try and steal their longstanding traditions just to market them to the rest of Japan. Might upset this little chieftain more than help them in the long run, haha...”

Ted Bridges

“Pfft…! You’re telling me… This guy’s name is Ted, his MC name is Teddy, and he’s in a team called Kuma no ie? Oh, this guy isn’t going to hear the end of my un-bear-able bear puns! I’ve got enough jokes to break the sound bear-ier with them. I’m paws-itively ready. Do think he’s the type to get em-bear-assed? Hahah, I’m killing myself here. I need a second to get my bear-ings for the next member, hahaha!”

Kokomi Morozov

“My stomach is killing me from laughing… Last one here is… Kokomi Morozov? Another Olympian like that Nerima girl. She’s much older though, so I’m sure she’s in Japan to practice. Hakodate has a big ski resort up on Hakodate-Yama, I just can’t remember what the name of the place was. I’ve only been there once anyway as a part of a business trip. The marketing team apparently loves skiing so we gave it a try. Let’s just say I was less than graceful out on the snow. The cafe at the peak was great though. After a long ride up to the summit, a hot cup of coffee was great to drink… Wonder if the other two would want to go. Not necessarily to Hakodate, but just skiing or snowboarding in general. It would be fun to watch the boys give it a try.”

Kuma no ie

“Aside from Teddy, I’m wondering how exactly the bear motif fits into the rest of their group. I suppose Kotan-san could have a bear as a spiritual symbol that’s important to him. But Kokomi-san? I don’t think a bear really fits her. She’s much too… How do I put it? Soft and innocent looking. I suppose some people who aren’t as familiar with bears might see her as a little teddy bear. Pfft, that’s funny. Teddy, Kotan-san, and Kokomi-san lining up as the three bears from that kid’s story… Oh, is that why they’re called Kuma no ie?! If so, that’s a hilarious story for why they picked the team name!”

[itsstraykids]

Here's A Little Get-To-Know-You Tag Game!

Tagged by: @noonaracha thanks for tagging me!! *waving from the other side of a bridge* (link to their post)

Name(s): june (on here and at coffee shops. i have a Weird Name in normal life)

Pronouns: she/her

Star Sign: capricorn (i’m a christmas eve baby!)

#of Siblings & Fun Facts About Them (if you have any): I have one younger sibling, this isn’t exactly a fun fact but we took a siblings-only trip to japan last year and they aren’t necessarily interested in japanese media or anything but they absolutely loved it because they love cute tiny things and that’s definitely a specialty of japan lmao. they bought like thirty souvenirs to give to their friends back home. it was adorable.

#of Pets: I have a big ‘ol black cat I love dearly. He lives in Wisconsin now due to various factors. I miss that chonky boy but he’s happy there chasing bugs in the backyard (under supervision)

Fandoms: Just kpop bands, skz, txt, and xdh mainly. And recently mamamoo.

Favorite Color: greeeeen

Favorite Song: Recently infatuated with J Christ by lil nas x, he's such a visionary. also Big Lizard by the dead milkmen lol

Favorite Author: Jasper Fforde, I’ve carried all his books through every apartment move because they’re so funny.

Hobbies: too damn many. guitar, writing music, drawing, collage, studying korean, and getting my ass kicked by the ocean (aka surfing)

Favorite Holiday: christmasssssss

Do You Have Any Partner(s)?: yep! we just had our 6 year anniversary in october :D

Fun facts about you/anything extra you wanna share!: To continue @noonaracha's Mariah Carey theme, I met Mariah Carey’s personal Santa Claus (like the guy she always hires to be santa i guess?) on Christmas in 2021, while stuck in a blizzard in a ski lodge deep in the mountains of Colorado. He was a really great santa lmao. Incredible magical aura.

Tagging: @abiaswreck @agibbangs @snug-gyu @skz-maybe-incorrects sorry if u were tagged already!! hehe i enjoyed this

[shmothman]

pacing alone in my room talking to myself (posting my entire story for my mushishi SI on tumblr dot com)

They are… more or less a cryptozoologist, although they’d never call themself that. They’re a biologist, it’s just that not everyone believes the species they study are real. It doesn’t help that most of the literature on them is at least a hundred years old, and now is relegated to the sphere of rural folklore and folk medicine—and the occasional eyewitness accounts of strange phenomena, not unlike cryptid and ghost sightings. The paraphyletic group known as mushi are just undescribed fungi and protists, they insist, and are repeatedly laughed at by every institution they pitch their research to. (They’ll show them, they think.) Angry and running out of options, they take a field trip on their own to a rural mountain in Japan. They’ve always been described to appear in areas less touched by humans. (They can’t see the mushi all around them, but they’ve accidentally stumbled upon a large branch of the light vein.)

They aren’t expecting to more or less trip and fall into it.

As if in a trance, they walk toward it, step into it—until a voice calls out for them to stop, a hand pulls them back. He has white hair and an eye of pure darkness.

And when they wake up, he’s still there, telling them to wake up, coaxing them out of strange dreams.

(Mushi can totally make time travel happen. Shhhh it’s magic.)

Now, missing most of their memory (at least about who they are, they remember things about the world in the 21st century as a whole) they have to adjust to life in Meiji-era Japan, and as interested as Ginko is to figure out how this happened (he’s a nerd. he’s a big fucking nerd be honest with yourselves), he’s a little less stoked that he’s stuck with a brash, confusing, time traveling idiot until the two of them can figure out how to get them back to their own time, or until they can figure out a way and a place to stay as he moves on. (I think you can see where this is going.)

There’s a bit of Gender Stuff that goes on with my SI, and they end up deciding to “pretend” to be a boy bc they don’t want to be seen as a woman, and also it makes it easier to believe that they’re his “apprentice” (which ends up being their go-to excuse), but Ginko’s take on all that is “well, none of my business.” And he doesn’t really care, anyway. Doesn’t stop him from falling in love, at least. You’ll pry my demisexual headcanons out of my cold head hands, as per usual.

Despite pretending to be his apprentice, they can’t… actually see mushi. They didn’t gain that ability by falling into the light vein. They do come to be able to feel them, in a vague sort of way, though they’re always asking Ginko to draw them for them. Luckily, dealing with unseen things is basically what a microbiologist does (though they can’t even see mushi under a microscope, damn) so they can fake it well enough when they need to. And Ginko can’t help but feel quite a bit proud when they start being able to identify mushi by description, and sometimes even by feel.

They travel together for months, become close friends, and against their better judgment, they both get attached. Fall in love. But they can’t… they’ll both have to leave sooner or later… My SI falls first. They know it can’t be, and they know he can’t see them that way, but that doesn’t stop the feelings, the hopes, the imagining. And then he goes through the same thing. He’s much better at repressing his feelings than they are, though 🤣 And he’s much quicker to figure out that they like him. I mean, it’s pretty goddamn obvious. To literally everyone. (Well, anyone who doesn’t think my SI is much younger than him—I HC him as 34ish and I do have. A baby face—and also a boy. Although… even then. If You Know, You Know. There were gay people back then too.)

So cue the Sef-mandated months of mutual pining while they gallivant around japan solving mushi mysteries together and generally getting into Will-They-Won’t-They scenarios until even I, the real life version, am sick of the slow burn.

Until they come to a village where my SI just… fits in. Even in the couple days they’re in town, it’s clear that the villagers would accept them, help them make a life there. My SI is having a great time, though they have no actual intention of staying; it’s just nice to make some friends. Attend a little village party or something.

And they wake up and Ginko’s gone.

No note, no nothing. He just left.

They’re hurt beyond words, but at this point they know him. In his own way, he’s trying to give them the one thing he can’t have or provide: a normal life—or, as normal a life as they could have now. But of course he didn’t ask them what they wanted. (He knew what they’d say—after all, he knows them, too.)

Angry and hurt, they run after him, but they choose the wrong way at a fork in the road, and they lose all hope of finding him again.

And they know they should cut their losses: he left for a reason. But they’re stubborn and mad and quite frankly, he’s the one thing they have in this goddamn world and they’ll be damned if they’re gonna lose him without doing everything in their power to make him see reason.

So they find their way to the town where Adashino lives. Sooner or later, Ginko will show up there.

It’s still many months before he does.

Months for them to rehearse what they’re going to say to him, months to grieve and try and try and try to get over him. (They end up spilling the whole thing to Adashino too, bc the two of them end up being buddies, and even Adashino is like. C’mon Ginko.) And they think they’ve got it all figured out. They’re going to yell at him. They have every right to!!

And then he finally shows up at Adashino’s doorstep, and they look at each other, and my SI just starts to cry.

Let it be known that Ginko is also angsting the entire time they’re apart, some real sad boy hours. This cover is playing in the bg the entire time, basically. But this is how his life has to be. They have a chance to be happy, so he has to make sure they take it. And now he’s staring them in the face again, and he hates that the only thing he can feel is relief. Thank goodness, you’re back. Thank goodness, he doesn’t have to wake up and get disappointed that they aren’t there. Thank goodness, he can pretend it’s a nuisance when they sidle up to him in the cold even though it’s all he wants them to do. But they’re crying. And he knows he hurt them. He just… he assumed they’d chase after him, then lose heart when they couldn’t find him and return to that village to go live their life.

He should’ve known better. He knows them.

They… talk. And then they kiss. And then they fuck.

And they leave together.

There’s trust that needs to be healed, and feelings they both have to work through, but… they can do it together. And continue to get each other out of mushi-related scrapes constantly. And keep each other warm as they hike through the snow in winter.

There’s no way back to their time, but even if there was, they wouldn’t take it.

Anyway this is my ginko selfship playlist PEACE

[spectralsleuth]

Can you give us some headcanons for your LSoW au pretty please 🙏 Also what are the Japanese public and government’s view of Yoshi and his turtle kids?

SURE I love talking about headcanons! Japan loves the turtles, both because there are some famous historical Hamato’s (the family is the subject of many conspiracy theories on the internet) and also because they’re turtles!! Especially when they were babies I feel like they would have been insanely popular in Japan. The country loves cute things lol and the boys are VERY cute.

I want to write a fic where they go on a family trip to Japan because I would die from cuteness, but it’s a tall order for someone who’s only traveled a little bit in East Asia, and North America! I’d have to really do some research. But I do imagine everywhere they went in Japan, they were given so many little gifts and trinkets and food that Yoshi was hard pressed to get it all shipped back to the states.

And another fun fact- or more like something I haven’t gotten around to covering yet? Xanders family!

As of A Short Season:

Xander McLoughlin’s (22/M) family:

Mom/Dad: (58/61) Nurse/Firefighter respectively. Mom still works at the hospital, not the same one as Dr. Heo. Dad is retired after a work accident and missing an arm. Does a neat trick where he can swivel his eye freely after the same accident gave him a head injury that had some neurological repercussions. Got decent compensation from the city though and paid off their townhouse. (Still had two kids after though, let's go king.)

-Oldest Sibling: Liam (36/M) Herpetologist/Conservationist works for some small local natural science museum/botanical garden. Married, has 1 kid.

-Second Oldest Sibling: Aisling (32/F) Paramedic, single.

-Third Oldest Sibling: Shannon (30/F) Writer. Lives with parents. Single.

-Xander (22/M) Most trans guy name I could think of his siblings roast the fuck out of him.

-Youngest: Amelia (18/F) Deaf, dogwalker, still living at home and in no rush. She’s the babyyyy.

Last fun fact for right now- I named Xander after… Jacksepticeye… I didn’t think he’d be this popular I just wanted to make a good Irish American lad and needed a good last name…

[pumpkinpie59]

ok so if leonardo and lotus had a child (like idk they found a baby on the streets) what gender would they be and what name would they choose?

so i actually have some next gen babies for them lmao.

first born is nicholas (or just nick; named after the renaissance artist known for painting miniature portraits, nicholas hilliard). he was conceived a few years after the series’ end, when leonardo and lotus were in their early-ish twenties. it was right before lotus went on a year-long trip to japan tho and she was unable to contact leonardo or go back to new york, so leonardo didn’t meet nick or even found out about him until nick was 3 months old. he was shocked but very accepting of nick tho, and he ended up becoming very protective of his son. nick is kinda spoiled by both parents and also his uncles and aunt april and splinter, but lotus is the main offender bc her love language is gifts so yeah nick gets pretty much anything he wants until leonardo is like omigosh lotus my love pls slow down. nick is very close with kat, donatello and jhanna’s daughter, who is two years younger. they’re besties. also he ends up wanting to be a reporter like april and he enjoys photography. personality-wise, he’s a lot like his dad, minus the anxiety. he’s quite the life of the party tbh. happy and friendly and a genuine boy scout xD

leonardo and lotus’ second child wasn’t conceived until after they got married when nick was 8 (yeah they are the last to get married in my hc). they have a daughter named risa (which is a japanese name that means crystal blossom (using the right kanji ofc)). since leonardo was actually present for the pregnancy and birth, risa ended up being daddy’s little girl and leonardo was even more protective of her than he ever was for nick. this didn’t bother nick tho bc he was so excited to be a big brother and he just ended up being protective too xD

[pixeldistractions]

After his climbing for the day, Jordan went to his favorite spot to take a rest. It wasn’t the first time he’d sat here so quiet and still beneath this tree that people didn’t even notice him. It was especially awkward when couples started making out in the nearby hot springs, and he just had to sit through it because it would be even more awkward to get up and leave.

But Jordan didn’t hold that against them. Everybody had to live a little.

This time, it was just Jack. “Wow, what a view. Oh, hey, Jordan! Can I join?”

“Sure,” Jordan said.

Jack seemed like a decent guy, so it wasn’t fair to hold his talents against him. It only just occurred to Jordan that a healthier choice might be to ditch the jealousy altogether and ask for some pointers.

The two of them had quite a lot in common. Jack had two boys and a little girl. He loved being in nature and he was the leader for his kids’ scouting group. He played basketball in high school. He was decent at it, but definitely not good enough to go pro. He’d tried plenty of sports in his life, but he never guessed that this one would be his true calling. Rock climbing? Who would have thought?

“Man, you gotta tell me how you climb like that,” Jordan said.

“Oh. Well, my dad, I guess,” Jack said. “He was a climber. Or, he wanted to be. He had all these books and he was always watching videos about it. I’ll bring the books in next time, you can borrow them. It was all he ever talked about. He climbed some in gyms, but he never got to do this.”

“Sorry for your loss,” Jordan said. “Uh, your wife told me. Maybe I wasn’t supposed to know.”

Jack nodded, not surprised. “It’s okay. Everyone knew him around here, everyone knows. It’s why I’m here, really. One of the last things he said to me was, ‘Do what really matters. Do it now, not later. You never know when your time will run out.’ Not that I’m dying or anything. But I guess that’s the point. You never know.”

“That sounds wise. I can’t remember the last thing my dad said to me,” Jordan said. It had been years, almost a decade now, but sometimes, in the most random of moments, the loss hit him fresh. “Sorry, that was too heavy.”

“No, it’s alright,” Jack said. “How long ago?”

“Almost seven years.”

“Damn, you were just a kid. That’s too soon.”

Put that way, it hit harder. Jordan hadn’t thought of himself as a kid when it happened, but all these years later, he could see how fresh and hopeless he had been then. Still was, maybe. He sure wasn’t done with his dad when he passed. He needed so much more.

“But it’s never long enough,” Jack added. “I’m lucky I had my dad for as long as I did, but it’s never long enough. You can borrow my dad’s wisdom if you want.”

“Thanks. I’ll keep it in mind,” Jordan said. “So you’re probably going to summit in January?”

“Ha, that would be fun. But no. Nessa said no.”

“She did? Why?”

“She doesn’t trust it. She thinks it’s beginner’s luck, better safe than sorry. Fair enough, I don’t need to rush and leave my wife a widow and my kids without a dad. Right?”

“Yeah, for sure,” Jordan agreed.

“I’ll summit next year with you.”

“Cool.”

“But I’m still going on the trip this winter, to support the team. I’m bringing the family, taking the kids sledding in Japan. Are you coming?”

“My kids would love that, but that’s a little rich for me right now. I need to put my deposit towards the spring training session. Next year for sure. I’ll start saving now, take my kids sledding in Japan. Sounds wild.”

Colette wouldn’t even let the boys come to Nevada; what were the chances she’d ever let him take them to Japan? It seemed so far out of reach. But maybe. He wanted to believe.

“Who’s got the meat?!” Tyler whooped from the picnic area, so loud the whole park probably heard it. The air smelled of chargrilled burger and sounded like community.

“Better go grab those burgers before they’re gone,” Jack said, so the two of them got up and rejoined their team.

— from “boxes and squares #4.3: then fall in love” (2/5)

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[izukuisbaby]

Omg imagine being a pro hero as well and being married to Izuku 🥺🥺 I love that man so much

Imagine him being needy and missing his partner while they’re away for a mission 😭

⊹˚.⋆ PRO-HERO HUSBAND HEADCANONS - IZUKU MIDORIYA

℘. flora's notes : HOW COULD I NOT ANSWER THIS ? hello to u fellow izu simp 👀 sorry it took a while but I kept adding stuff- IM STARTING MY COURSE TODAY IM TERRIFIED

scheduled post im sleeping bro

℘. female, male and gn reader friendly ♡

℘. bonus : I'm ranting about the wedding planning 💀💀 I AM NOT POSTING AT PEAK HOURS, PLEASE REBLOG 🥲

m.list | comment or reblog if you enjoyed !

℘. i see pro hero izu as very buff, taller and much more confident with himself ! he works out a lot to keep up with the 1st pro hero lifestyle and he has jaw-dropping muscles (im gonna drool)

℘. and he loves to engulf you in his strong arms and give you a teddy bear hug ORRR have your back against his chest with his arms wrapped around you when you two are watching a movie on the couch

℘. he isn't home much, he has to maintain peace in Japan, you're worried and so is he about his hero work. he loves his job so so much, it's his dream. but sometimes he just wishes he could spend more time with you

℘. but you're a lucky babe ! his co-workers and friends Shoto and Katsuki force him to take breaks so that he can spend time with you. they are soooo understanding of your relationship and so supportive too !

℘. when izu told katsuki he was going to propose to you he went like :

"THAT'S MY BOY" and hit him in the back🥲 but that's his way of being supportive

℘. TAKES A DAY OFF EVERY WEEK FOR YOU and he will cook for you every single time ! izuku loves cooking so as soon as he gets the occasion he will make u a little something <3

℘. when izu has his lunch break, he makes a list of things he wants to watch and do with you, his favs are 8-10 episodes netflix series because he can binge-watch them on his free day with you in his arms

℘. officialized his relationship with you on socials quite quickly, he knew he was going to marry you. you are now the most liked tweet-

℘. he talks about you in interviews NO DOUBTS. he tries not to say too much, he likes his privacy but he has a bad habit of rambling and kind of spills more than he wishes to sometimes 🥲

℘. "i am so grateful to have a wife/husband like y/n. they are always so patient with me. i mean, dating a pro hero is obviously not easy but they're so supportive. i know i am making them go through a lot and i hate that they have to worry about me. i love them so much really, i wouldn't be here without them"

℘. SPENDS MONEY ON YOU. there's not a week where you don't have a bouquet of flowers, or a cute cake he saw at the bakery or something that he thought would like nice in your flat !

℘. he always gives you his card when you go shopping with your friends. HE LOOKS FORWARD TO YOUR HAULS and he loves seeing you in clothes he bought for you.

℘. BUT if you want to pay for your stuff he will 100% support you, he just doesn't know how to make you happy so he gives you everything he owns-

℘. you're his #1 fan, he is so flattered to have an s/o that's so supportive. he always makes a little trip to the marketing wing of his agency to get you the upcoming products.

℘. the marketing team LOVES you, your reviews are always the best, they know you want the best merch for the best husband 😇

⊹˚.⋆ THE WEDDING PREPARATION (i got carried away so I had to make a whole separate part for this)

℘. shoto and katsuki had to reassure izu at least 20 times :

katsubabe : "they love you dumbass, can't you see it ? you've been together for like eternity and they put up with you every day, that is a great act of love"

sho : "i think that you should propose to then midoriya. don't doubt it, and if they say no my sister knows how to use tinder, I'll tell her to teach you"

katsubabe :"that's not what you're supposed to say half shit"

izu : "YOU'RE BOTH GONNA BE MY BEST MEN, I LOVE YOU GUYS"

℘. the whole wedding process caused izuku so much anxiety. he installed pinterest and made a board "wedding <3"

℘. he really really tried to handle it himself but he gave up, too much anxiety. you were tired of seeing him sacrifice his sleep for the wedding and hired a wedding planner instead 💀

℘. izu was relieved, he wanted it to be perfect and who can make it more perfect than a professional ?

℘. he wanted the wedding to be private, it was about 30 people and no media was allowed HOWEVER he posted the wedding pictures on his social media and broke the internet

℘. izu showing u off on socials 💥💳🥲🥲

© izukuisbaby. comments appreciated ! although do not modify, translate, copy, claim as your own or repost on any app/platform/social media (this applies to all of my content)💓

[lovely-angst]

number ‘x�� fan

a/n: um, this was a good idea in theory until i started writing it and then suddenly i wanted to trash this fic lol

genre: angst to fluff

pairing: hawks x reader

summary: a trip to Hawks’ agency gone wrong when a crazed fan runs their car into a pregnant you and your two young sons

word count: 5k

05.05.21

-

If there was something the nation of Japan adored more than Pro Hero Hawks himself, it was his wife and the little family he had with her. His family was something he always talked about when given any opportunity.

To think it had already been five years since Hawks introduced you to the world still baffles you.

When he had come up to you that one day, bringing up the dreaded question of finally bringing you and the kids into the public and media for all of the world to see—you were very nervous, to say the least.

You knew how terrible the media could be with all of the gossip and drama. You weren’t sure if you could handle all of the attraction so suddenly. But your husband Hawks was always so reassuring and in the most nonpressuring way possible.

“If you’re not ready, that’s totally okay! I just thought it would be more beneficial for us if the whole world knew who you guys are,” he said gently as he brought his gloved hand towards your cheek with the softest smile. “I just want the world to finally know about my beautiful family. I don’t want to keep you guys a secret anymore.”

You couldn’t help but melt into his hand, bringing your own to rub those cute little avian features on his eyes gently. “I know, you sweet bird,” you coo, watching how his lips curve up the slightest. “I just don’t know how this could benefit us.”

“Honey, the world is going to love you. They’re going to love our boys. From the pro heroes to the supportive fans I have, we have, they’ll want to protect you too. Trust me.”

Staring up into those comforting golden eyes, you took a deep breath before nodding. Of course, you’ll trust him.

And soon, the fated day of your “debut” was finally here. In your arms, you held your sweet one year old boy, Yuto, while your three year old, Kazuto, clung onto Hawks’ legs adorably.

Though you were very nervous with all of the photographers and news outlets all around you when you turned to glance over at Hawks and saw that proud and genuine smile on his face, all of your fears washed away.

Thinking back on the memory, you let out a content sigh as a smile grew on your face. Thankfully, those last five years flew by quite smoothly with the occasional rough bumps with his angry fan club, nothing that worried you terribly.

And while life was going great for you and your growing family with Hawks, it was going terrible for a self-proclaimed number one Hawks fan.

Clutching the newspaper tightly, their eyes reread the words on the front page for the hundredth time.

‘Pro Hero Hawks shows his seven-month pregnant wife some PDA!’ with a photo caught by the paparazzi showing the two of you sharing a kiss while holding hands.

The violent grip she held on the paper caused rips before letting out an angry scream, tearing the thin material into thousands of pieces letting it pool around her like snowflakes.

Hearing Hawks’ voice coming through the television, she finally snapped out of her thoughts and tuned in focus again, turning to face the television behind her. Her eyebrow irked in irritation as she watched how he wrapped a hand around her waist lovingly and securely.

“I don’t know what I would do without her,” Hawks beams to the reporter who had asked about you, “I mean, have you seen her? She’s the prettiest lady I have ever laid my eyes on and the most amazing wife and mother to our kids!”

“People say she is blessed to be married to me, but I can say for sure I am extremely blessed to be married to her”

Roughly turning the television off, the fan stormed into her bedroom before slamming the door shut behind her, causing the walls to shake. “How could you do this to me!” she screamed as she ran up to tear at the photos of Hawks she had glued on the walls of her bedroom, causing the covered walls to become bare again. “I thought you loved me! I showed you unconditional love! I’m your biggest fan! Everything was going great until that—that wench showed up!”

Boxes and figurines were tossed around, swung off shelves, quickly turning the room into a mess of Hawks merchandise.

It wasn’t until she finally looked over at her makeshift Hawks shrine that she let out a sigh, a smile growing on her lips. “Hawks, I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean it,” she cooed, walking up to the Hawks shrine before kneeling down in front of it. Reaching over to brush her finger gently over the photo of the two of them—a photo she managed to obtain at a VIP fan meet.

Pressing onto the photo where Hawks stood, she continued to stare at it lovingly, “I know you love me, Hawks. I’ll make sure that it will be just us again.”

-

“Yuto, Kazuto, hurry up and get dressed so we can visit papa at work,” you say from in the kitchen as you finished preparing lunch for the four of you—five, if you include the baby growing in your belly.

“I can’t find the Endeavor doll papa gave me!” Yuto cries, running into the kitchen with tears. Turning around, you offer the boy a gentle smile before brushing your hand through his soft blonde hair.

“Yuto, we can bring the Endeavor doll another time, okay? What if he gets lost today in papa’s big work building? That would be very sad, wouldn’t it?” You prompt and Yuto looks down before giving you a nod.

“We can find him together when we get back, okay? Right now, papa is waiting for us to come see him and he’s going to show you all of the cool stuff he does! We can wear our Hawks jacket instead to match papa. Doesn’t that sound fun?” Hearing your words, the bright red wings on his back fluff up and flutter in joy before he runs back to his room in joy. “Okay, mama!”

Placing the fried chicken into each container neatly, you covered the lids on them and placed them in the bag nicely before Kazuto walks in and takes the bag, hauling it over his shoulder. “I got it, mom.”

“Oh, honey, it might be heavy,” you try, but Kazuto shakes his head, “Don’t worry, plus your belly might make you tired, so I’ll carry this for you.”

Quick little platters rang in the air before Yuto popped back into the kitchen beside his older brother, “I’m ready, mama!”

You couldn’t help but smile at how cute they were, looking so handsome, just like their dad.

“Okay boys, put your shoes on and let’s head out the door to papa’s agency.”

And it was such a beautiful day for a walk. The sun was out with little to no clouds and there was just the right amount of breeze that helped keep the three of you cool during these summer days.

Even though Hawks’ agency was just a 20-minute walk, he kept insisting on calling you a cab so you wouldn’t have to walk so far with the boys while pregnant. Of course, you declined, saying how it would be healthy for you and the baby to get fresh air and to walk around—to which he finally and hesitantly agreed on before adding a “call me when you get here.”

It was a normal occurrence getting greeted by Hawks fans on your outings like today. Most of them along the lines of, “(Name)-san! You look great today!” or “Love to see you and the boys healthy!” and not to mention, “I love you guys!”

It was sweet seeing supportive fans that your hard-working husband has.

“Ah, look! There is papa’s agency!” you say, pointing to the large and tall building, watching how your sons’ eyes lit up in awe. “Wow!” Yuto exclaims, turning over to you while fluttering his wings. “Papa works there?” 

“Yep! Let’s go and give him a surprise!” 

Walking over to the crosswalk just in front of the agency, you held Yuto’s hand in yours as the three of you waited for the signal to change to allow you to cross the road. “The roads are empty today, but we still need to watch for cars,” you point out to your boys as they began to look both ways. 

Everyone was busy at work, so no one was on the roads besides some parked cars. The crosswalk signal changed and played a tune while you and the boys began to cross the street towards Hawks’ agency to meet up with your dear husband. 

The sound of squealing tires from beside you had caught your attention and once you turned your head, it was already too late to dodge the oncoming vehicle speeding towards you and the boys. 

Gasping, you tried your best to push your boys out of the way as much as you could, but it wasn’t enough. 

The corner of the car was still able to hit Yuto and Kazuto, sending them crashing a few feet away from you. 

Unfortunately for you, the vehicle slammed head onto you. Rolling onto the hood, your head crashed into the windshield, smashing it and rolling off. A small pool of blood forming underneath your head as the car sped off. 

Your head rang as your vision slowed significantly. Turning your head, you see your boys on the ground more than an arms length away from you as they struggled to get up. 

Placing a shaky hand on your belly, you just hoped and prayed your baby was safe from the impact, but it wasn’t looking too good for you, you noted. 

It was surprising to you all the thoughts and information were able to process through your head after such an event. 

A crowd quickly formed around you and the boys as the voices began fading into the background as your conscious state was beginning to fade.

“My boys...” you say weakly to the stranger, eyes fluttering shut as your attempts to stay awake failed. “Ma’am! Keep your eyes open! Someone call for help!” 

“Get H-Hawks,” you tried once more before you succumbed to the drowsiness. Suddenly, it clicked in someone’s mind. “That’s Hawks’ wife and kids! His agency is just down the road! Someone get him!”

Kazuto slowly sat up from the rough fall, looking down at himself to spot any injuries. Spreading his wings, they seemed to be in mint condition, although his hip throbbed and his leg was slightly bruising from the impact. It wasn’t until he heard Yuto sobbing that he turned to check on his younger brother.

Yuto was beside him, face scrunched up, shaking and sobbing as his eyes met those of his brothers. “I think my wing is broken,” Yuto informed, turning to give his older brother a glance of his droopy wing. 

And before Kazuto could turn to check on you, a stranger stepped in his view, blocking him from the gruesome scene where his mother lay. “Hey there, friends, it looks like you both got a little bit hurt. The ambulance is on it’s way to take you and your mom to the hospital, so don’t worry. I’ll sit here with you guys and keep you safe, okay?” 

The two boys could only nod.

-

Hawks spun around in his swivel chair eagerly as he waited for his wife and kids to arrive. Sighing, he took out his phone for the hundredth time in the last ten minutes, glancing at the last text message you sent. 

From: wifey <3

‘Be there in five minutes! see you soon papa bird! <3’ 

But it had already been half an hour since your text. He knew that sometimes the boys took a little bit longer to get out of the house, but this was a bit off. Maybe he was just being a little impatient.

Suddenly a knock came at the door and he immediately got up to answer it, wings fluttering with excitement. But when he opened the door to find his assistant looking all frazzled, he raised a brow. “What’s up?” 

“Hawks, your family,” they stammered, out of breath from running around the large building. “They’ve been in a bad accident in front of the agency. A car-”

Before they could even finish, Hawks had spun around and jumped through a large open window from his office before flying down towards where they had mentioned. 

His eyes darted around quickly before catching sight of a large crowd. Sending his feathers down, his heart froze when he recognized you and his boys down there.

From the height he was at, he could already tell it wasn’t looking good. He could spot his boys’ wings from here, thankfully, shooting down towards them. 

He just wanted to see his wife and kids and they end up getting hit by some low life?

Hawks landed quickly at the scene before rushing over towards his boys, who immediately noticed their father’s large wings. “Dad!” 

Falling onto his knees, his hands roamed around their smaller bodies, checking for injuries before bringing them both in for a hug, relieved to see them alive and breathing. “Are you two okay?” Where does it hurt?” 

“My body hurts a bit and Yuto’s wing might be broken,” Kazuto informed before Hawks immediately checked Yuto’s wing before he let out a sigh, “Just a sprain. Don’t worry, birdie.” he replies, pressing a kiss to his youngest’s head. 

“Stay here, I’m going to go check on mom. These nice people will help you two, okay? I’m here now, don’t worry.” Hawks said firmly to the boys, giving them one last embrace before the stranger before stepped back in to stay with the boys as Hawks ran over to find you. 

Once his eyes spotted you, he felt like his heart had stopped and died there and then. 

To put it plainly, you looked dead—blood soaked clothes, unconscious and limp on the ground as the paramedics prepared the stretcher for you.

“(Name)!” Hawks called out, running to your body only to be stopped by a paramedic. “I’m sorry Hawks, but it’s best if you leave the rest to us.” 

“W-where is she going?” Hawks asked as he watched them gently place your injured body onto the stretcher, following beside them and peeking at you the best he could. “We’re going to transport her to the nearest hospital. We have to check and make sure we don’t lose the baby. We don’t have time for any more questions,” and with that, they carefully lifted you into the ambulance and drove off, leaving him there with a million unanswered questions. 

He wished he could be by your side, but right now, his boys needed him.

It didn’t take Hawks long to arrive at the hospital with Yuto and Kazuto. Reaching the emergency desk, Hawks immediately asked for you before receiving an answer that stopped his already shaking heart.

“There has been complications with her pregnancy, so they have to conduct an emergency C-section to try and save the baby,” they inform, Hawks’ blood turning ice cold.

“C-Section? But she’s only seven months along! The baby isn’t ready!” He cried, wings even more frazzled than before. “I understand your concern. That is why we will do our best to make sure the baby is as healthy as possible.”

Hawks could only stare in shock before turning to his two young boys, who looked up at him worried.

“Is mama going to be okay?” Yuto asked, his wing still drooping behind him. Hawks offered a small but weak smile, “the doctors are doing their best to make mama feel better. While they help mama, we need to get you two checked to make sure you’re doing okay,” Hawks continued, lifting Yuto into his arms.

“How’s it going, Kazuto? Does your leg hurt too much?” Kazuto shakes his head, “It hurts, but I can still walk slowly.” Hawks nods before reaching over to push his son’s hair back as the three walk to get the boys checked on.

-

“Hawks?” hear a soft female voice, Hawks quickly turned to see Fuyumi walking towards them with a small smile. Hawks quickly stands to greet the friendly face, “Thank you for coming on such short notice, Fuyumi.”

“Don’t worry about it, dad seemed worried when he told me about your situation. Anything to help a friend, right?” she says and Hawks couldn’t help but give her a relieved smile. 

“Well, these are my boys. Kazuto is my oldest and Yuto is youngest. Well, with our new baby, Miyako will be the youngest,” Hawks explains as the two boys stand beside him, looking up at Fuyumi.

“Hi,” she starts, bending down towards their level, “My name is Fuyumi, I’m going to take care of you while your mama is getting better, okay?” 

Yuto clings onto Hawks’ legs, “I don’t want to go.”

“You know, my dad is the number one hero, Endeavor. He’s kind of scary, but I’m sure he’ll teach you a thing or two about being a hero.” That caught the boys’ attention, their wings raising up. 

“Your papa is the number one hero? My papa is the number two,” Yuto says and Fuyumi smiles at him. “That’s cool, huh? Your papa and my papa must be great friends.” Yuto couldn’t help but give her a cheeky smile, scrunching up his nose. 

“Well, let’s say goodbye to your papa and let’s go to my house and we can eat, okay?” Gently taking their hands, Fuyumi brought them over to her side before the two boys wave goodbye to Hawks. 

“Take care of mama, okay?” Yuto says as Hawks gives him a wink and a thumbs up. “I’ll tell her about how cool you two were being such big boys and not even crying.” 

Hawks stepped closer towards Fuyumi, cupping his hand around his mouth, “Yuto’s wing has a sprain, so make sure he doesn’t use it and doesn’t sleep on it if he can help it. Kazuto’s left hip and leg is in bad shape and is pretty bruised, so please keep some ice on it.” 

Pulling away, Fuyumi gives him a determined nod. “Thanks, see you in a few days.” and with that, she left the hospital with Yuto and Kazuto in hand. 

Letting out a sigh, Hawks carried on over towards the waiting area while he waited for your operation to finish. It had been only an hour since he had gotten here, but it felt like forever while he waited for some sort of news. 

After some time, he finally received news, great news. 

His daughter Miyako had been born via c-section and had no underlying health issues. Unfortunately, because she was born premature, she would need to be monitored at the hospital until she was strong enough without the help of the equipment to finally go home. 

That was fine by Hawks, of course, anything to help his baby girl. 

Walking down the quiet halls of the hospital room, Hawks nervously made his way into the NICU, where his baby girl, Miyako, would be staying for some time. 

“I’m here to see Miyako, I’m the dad,” he states before a nurse leads him over to her quiet room filled with the background noises of the equipment keeping her alive and healthy. 

Gently walking over, Hawks peeked over where the little girl was being incubated, his heart swelling at the sight of his third child and first girl. 

“Can I touch her?” Hawks asked the nurse behind him gently and nervously, seeing that she was tiny and barely over five pounds. “Of course, just wash your hands with soap.”

Doing just that, he made sure to take his time with cleaning his hands and forearms before drying them and making his way back to Miyako. 

Sticking his arms into the small openings, Hawks brushed the back of his fingers across her small yet still chubby cheeks. A smile blossomed onto his lips when she stretched out from his touch and that’s when he finally noticed the little wings perched on her back.

“You have wings, baby girl,” Hawks commented as his fingers ran across her fuzzy grey wings. “That makes three of us, huh?” 

He spent whatever time he could with her talking about himself, her brothers and her amazing mother before the nurse politely told him to leave so that Miyako could rest some more.

With all the terrible things that had happened, Miyako finally arriving was a good that broke the hardship. 

Before he could visit your room, he was stopped in the halls by a detective who flashed him his badge, “we found the culprit behind this attack.” Hawks frowned at the detective, “Let’s go to a more private setting,” he replied as the two made their way into a private room. 

“What did you find?” Hawks questioned, mirroring the detective who pulled out a chair to sit in. “An obsessed fan of yours,” he simply stated, tossing out a photo towards the winged man, “found this in the vehicle she was driving when she hit your wife and kids,” I assume you recognize the girl?” 

Staring at the photo in his hand, Hawks let out a groan as he slumped back on his chair, “I should’ve never suggested bringing (Name) and the kids out into the public,” Hawks sighed.

“This would have never happened.”

-

“Keigo?” 

“What is it, sweetheart?” he hums, fixing the vase full of your favorite flowers before walking over to you and sitting in the chair that sat beside your hospital bed. 

“How are the boys doing?” you asked, rubbing your thumb on the back of his hand gently when he slipped his hand into yours. 

It had been a day since you woke up, but three days since you had been admitted to the hospital, Hawks being one of the only people you had seen, including the doctors and your bedside nurses. 

“Well, they miss you that’s for sure,” he smiles and you offer one back. “Are they injured? I wasn’t able to check up on them before I—well, you know,” you try, but Hawks shifts your thoughts away when he leans over to press a kiss to your forehead.

“Yuto just has a sprained wing and Kazuto’s a little bruised, but they’re being cared at, at the number one’s house,” your eyes widened, “Endeavor’s?” 

“Well, technically, Fuyumi is watching over them,” Hawks continues and you relax once again with a smile, “Fuyumi has always been good with kids. They must be having a good time with her.” 

“And Miyako? How is she?”

“She’s cute and small and has these cute grey fuzzy wings on her back,” Hawks says with a small giggle, “her nurse says she’s doing just fine and should be able to go home in a few weeks. They still want her to cook a bit in the incubator.” 

You smile at him before closing your eyes and resting back on your pillow with a relieved sigh, “I’m glad that they’re all okay. I miss them so much.”

Hawks brings a hand to your cheek and you open your eyes to look up at him, nuzzling into his warm and large palm, “What’s wrong, honey?” 

“I just feel like this is all my fault,” he starts, bringing his hand back as his gaze drops down to his lap, “I should’ve never asked to bring you and the boys out into the public. It was selfish of me, you guys would’ve been safer and this would’ve never happened.” 

“Keigo, it’s not your fault,” you say, placing a hand on his cheek, but your movement was restricted due to the IV needle in your arm. Hawks brings your hand down to your lap, opting to hold it in his larger ones instead. 

“We didn’t know this would’ve happened, plus it was just a crazy fan! Instead of you being mad, I should be mad because someone thinks they love you more than how much I love you!” you exclaim and Hawks couldn’t help the small smile on his lips. 

“Trust in yourself,” motioning him closer, you pressing a kiss onto his lips before a teasing smile formed on your lips “I love you more than you can ever imagine, you dumb bird.” 

And Hawks tucked your words into his heart and decided to trust himself on his next bizarre idea—visiting that crazy fan of his in prison.

Sitting in the cool, metal chair, Hawks waited patiently in front of the barrier for the guards to bring out his so called, number one fan—the person who tried to take out his whole family. 

It wasn’t until she came into view and noticed him that her eyes seemed to light up in shock and joy. Throwing herself on the chair, she grabbed the phone as fast as she could, bringing it up to her ear. Hawks doing the same.

“H-Hawks? It’s really you! You came! You really came to see me!” she cried, and Hawks did not give her a spec of emotion. 

“I’m only here to tell you a few things,” he started and she nodded excitedly. “You are a fan of mine and I adore and cherish my fans,” Hawks states, her cheeks turning rosy at his words. “I would expect you to do something as simple as respect me as a person, as a pro hero, and to respect my family—my wife and my kids.”

“I only did what I did because I love you!” she shot back and Hawks glared her down with his sharp eyes, “and because of that, I’m disappointing that you even have the nerve to call yourself my fan. I’ve blacklisted you from attending any of my fan meets or events.”

Her eyes widened before she began to shake her head in disbelief, “No, no, no...You don’t mean that! Hawks no!”

“But I doubt you’d be leaving prison anytime soon for attempted murder on three cases,” He shoots back, her sobs and wails audible through the thick barrier between them.

“But I love you!” she cries desperately, “don’t do this!”

Hanging up the phone, Hawks turned around as the wails from the unfortunate girl filled the air behind him, leaving him feeling lighter than ever.

And it seemed as if things continued to get better from thereon. 

You sat in your hospital bed excited yet nervously as the nurse carefully transported Miyako into your arms for the first time. As the infant shifted around in discomfort, you gently cooed at her, Miyako recognizing your voice. 

“Miyako, it’s mama. I’m sorry it took us so long to finally meet,” you say with a large smile as she turned to face you—her poofy and fuzzy wings resting over your arms warmly.

Hawks watched in adoration of the sight of his two favorite girls finally together in each other’s arms. Miyako no longer needed any medical assistance and you, finally bandaged and needle free. 

“Miyako’s been doing perfectly fine without any of the medical equipment and should be able to go home in the next few days,” your nurse says and your head shoots over towards Hawks’ excitedly. 

“Honey, honey,” you chirp, “We can finally go home in a few days!”

Hawks couldn’t help the chuckle and smile that formed on his lips, especially from how excited you were. You had been in this hospital for nearly a month now and eager to see your boys and to finally be home. 

Leaning over, Hawks pressed a warm kiss onto your lips before running his finger over Miyako’s plump cheeks. 

“I can’t wait to have you home and in my arms again.” 

And did that day finally come. 

You and Hawks made your way around the hospital with Miyako sound asleep in a stroller, thanking all the doctors and nurses for their help. 

And to your surprise, Kazuto, Yuto and Fuyumi were at the main doors waiting for the three of you. 

“Mama!” they cried before taking off towards you. Yuto wrapped his small arms around your legs as Kazuto, who was just a bit taller, wrapped his arms around your waist gently, pressing his face into your side. 

“My boys, I missed you both so much,” you cried, pressing kisses all over their faces, seeing them light up with joy after being separated for so long. 

“Would you like to see your little sister?” You ask with a curious smile, watching them suddenly turn timid, but slowly, they made their way to the stroller and found a little baby girl sleeping comfortably.

“She’s so small,” Kazuto notes, glancing back up at you with his proud big brother smile. “Hi, Miyako. You’re so cute,” Yuto giggles, watching her stir.

You couldn’t help but lean into Hawks at the sight. Everything was right. Even when you finally had the energy to check your phone, you were surprised to see how all the support from friends, family, and fans alike.

“The agency called and said we have like a million gifts from the fans to pick up. A lot of them are ‘get well’ gifts for you and the boys and some are baby gifts for Miya,” Hawks states with a smile and you tilt your head at him teasingly. 

“Miya? You already gave her a nickname?” you tease and he couldn’t help but look away with a blush which made you laugh. “Well, Miya is going to have the best papa bird and brother birds in the world.” 

But the feeling of being at home, away from the world and just with your family topped everything else. 

You were in Hawks’ arms, resting comfortably and watching as your two young boys watched Miyako in awe, commenting about how cute she was or how cute her small grey wings were every minute. 

“Keigo, I’m so happy,” you state, leaning into his body more as you let out a content sigh. “Thank you for everything,” glancing up, his gold eyes were already on you before the two of you connected with a kiss.

“I should be saying that to you, dove. You’ve given me a whole family to love.”

And for all the bad that had happened, being able to rest in the love of your life’s arms with your newly expanded family, seemed to wash all of that away.

[searenbound]

Okay, hear me out... SERO X SPANISH FEM! S/O HEADCANONS! I only--- My Spanish a$$ need it (sorry for my english)

Mi amor, you don’t know how happy I am to deliver because I’m Puerto Rican and Dominican, unfortunately I didn’t learn much Spanish growing up so my attachment to my culture is based around the little cultural practices I was taught so this is pretty surface level but I’m still so happy to talk about it. Also don’t worry I understood you you just fine.

Warnings: Hispanic! reader, fem! reader, written with chubby reader in mind, Hispanic! Sero because I can

Pairing: Hanta Sero x reader

- First things first, he practically worships the ground she walks on

- Has from the moment they meet on his family trip to visit extended family

- She was his Tía’s neighbor’s daughter and he spent a lot of the trip hanging out with her

- At first it was just he was a bored 19 year old boy who found a cool and cute girl his age to pester and get showed around town by and his flirting was just innocent fun

-Up until she flirts back and teases him for getting nervous and flustered about it

- “Ay bendito, do girls where you’re from melt so easily that you’re not used to this? You’ll have to try harder for me ok?”

- All said with a smile and pinch of cheek before she turned to keep going on like she didn’t do anything to his poor heart

- He took what she said to heart though, trying his hardest to impress her all summer long

-Trips to amusement parks, going dancing, inviting her to family barbecues, even using cute little nicknames like mi vida, princesa, and mi amor with her

-They never technically had an official get together, they just spent so much time together that it felt completely natural that by the end of the night they’d be salsa dancing

-Him whispering in her ear and her giggling at his sweet words which lead to a kiss

-By the time he went back home he’s promising to call every day and facetime as often as possible

-They’re already making plans for her fly out to visit him so she can meet his friends and see what Japan is like

- She often sends care packages of hard to get items and little keepsakes that reminded her of him

-He sends back things he thinks she might find interesting and love letters he wrote when missing her

-The days leading up to to her visit is insufferable for his friends because he acts like a lovesick puppy the whole time

-They understand when they meet her and one of the first things she does is scold and then threaten Bakugou for his attitude and won the argument because Bakugou knows la chancla well and knew what it meant when she took off her sandal

-She’s Sero’s perfect type, someone who demands nothing less than respect and is loyal to a fault

-They’d honestly be obsessed too

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This Week in BL

July 2021 Wk 5

Being a highly subjective assessment of one tiny corner of the interwebs.

Ongoing Series - Thai

Golden Blood Ep 6 - SunSky’s pronoun/honorific use forced me to add them to the dialogue I’m having with the world on the subject (did you catch that when Sky talks directly to Sun he uses informal but when he talks to imaginary Sun in a romantic way he uses formal?) Anyway, lots of kisses this ep. I love that they’re uke initiated and seme pull back. NICE twist on expectations while also being perfect for a narrative this soft. Also, how cool is it we’re are getting so many uke communicators right now? (Waves at my baby TaeKyung.) And when the semes won’t talk? The uke reactions are on point. Bank is like “I will not humor your identity crisis.” (My boy is teaching a course in how to train your sunshine seme.) While Sky won’t allow Sun to help/care for him. Sun is like “what, now you speak my love language?” Meanwhile, how did I get so invested in PitchBank? Sudden onslaught of side dish addiction. GAH! (Tropes included: face touch, fast & bicurious, lie on ground.) 

Love Area Ep 1 - I think this might be REALLY GOOD.* Cafe setting, cute characters, great story start (it feels like an adaptation), early inciting dramatic meat cute x2, plus a possible love triangle (wound tending for seme 1 this week, for seme 2 next) and some familiar faces from Friend Forever. This also has better production values than normal for a pulp. There was even an adorable little argument about formal address to soothe my linguistic soul. * HOWEVER there are no eng subs. MDL comments say it’s not airing internationally and they don’t expect hard subs for months. I’ll keep an eye out for them and let you know if anything drops. (V weird that the credits are in English? Right? That’s weird. I think it’s weird. Maybe they had international distribution and it fell through?) I’ll keep watching it without subs. 

Top Secret Together Ep 12 - how much do I love that TST is using CopyNampu to explore ideas around unequal/one-sided love? Even though Copy is just having identity struggles and expresses affection differently. It was a good choice for this pair, as the actor playing Nampu is great at emitting emotional pain to contrast a sunshine disposition. Also we stan the supportive female bestie, thank you for the rep TST. Finally, these two got a neck grab kiss (personal favorite - and the BTS for this scene was v interesting). Other pairs: Is it weird that I just want Eak to be the confused straight boy and not end up with Phob? (I’m thinking about Big Eden a lot with this story arc.) They shoehorned in a beach trip trope (although I was DELIGHTED to see many of them can actually play volleyball, Nampu is GOOD). This cast should do a sports romance volleyball team BL. 

The Yearbook Ep 3 - oof, it’s awful slow. The story is being precious with its plot, ostentatiously not telling us character’s reasons for doing major things which means I was left feeling manipulated (by the director, not the narrative) and also I don’t feel sympathy for the characters because I have no idea why they do anything. It reminds me of My Bromance 1 & 2, so I’m not sure if I should stick with it. I’m not into the Fault is In Our Stars meets ITSAY thing. 

Ongoing Series - Not Thai

Be Loved in House: I Do (Taiwan) Ep 12 fin - as expected they nailed a sweet if somewhat odd ending. We all thought this would stay soft, but Taiwan brings the high heat regardless of whether story calls for it. I don’t actually think it was necessary here, but I appreciated it anyway - thanks boys. Also another marriage equality flex. (I don’t know if that was a nod to Thai BL at the end with the Rama VIII looking bridge or not, but imma pretend it was). A cute classy little BL with some plot flaws but no other concerns. It gets a 9/10 from me, I loved it. HIGHLY RECOMMENDED.  

Given (Japan) Ep 2 - first ep I really loved their music choices but Mafuyu is supposed to be THE most amazing singer and he just isn’t. That said, if you like your boys dark and traumatized with secret sorrows and communication issues this is Japan so we getting that gothic angst party started! Whoop whoop. We are probably all going to need saké to make it through. The way the director is using the instruments they carry on their backs as part of the yaoi style framing is super clever. I’m VERY taken with the style of this BL. Full thoughts so far here. 

Light On Me (Korea) Ep 9-10 - the best love triangle we love to hate is fracturing. The pain of it all. TaeKyung is every seme’s dream uke: sweet, innocent, pure, yet communicates his feelings honestly. Korea is teaching a master class in using tropes to manipulate audience expectations and I am here for it. I don’t even care how this ends at this point (so long as no one dies). I have a lot to say about this drama so I’m sort of running a long form analysis post. Finally, the fact that DaOn would rather be liked than be gay is so f-ing relatable. It’s intense stuff. OH and next week is episode 11, we ready? Tropes included more wound tending, a confession scene, side eye, ownership/claiming discussion, head pat + characters TALKING about tropes! Sr! 

BL News & Gossip

Viki is airing & hard subbing A Man Who Defies the World of BL AKA Absolute BL AKA Zettai BL ni Naru Sekai VS Zettai BL ni Naritakunai Otoko. I love this show more than is reasonable or healthy. I kind of got unhinged over it, to be fair. Then I changed the name of this blog. I’m waiting for them to finish the subs and then I plan to do a rewatch. I’ve gotten into when warring hards subs happen (like with Color Rush) it’s fun to tunnel into the style of the subbers, and I find they give different depth and understanding to the story.  

In Case You Missed It

Korean movie, Made In Rooftop, is finally available. But the eng subs are machine made and incomprehensibly TERRIBLE. Maybe it will end up on Viki or something with hard subs? I speak no Korean but I gave it my best shot. It’s clearly not BL - no tropes and the main story is about loss not love. It’s a gay drama - more themes self discovery and identity than romance. But It does have a cute romance thread (buttoned up man + manic pixie dream boy) and sweet central friendship. RECOMMENDED if you like that kind of thing and understand Korean. 

GMMTV YouTube account was hacked on Tuesday July 27. Every single video they ever uploaded vanished. YouTube showed them as grey + [Private video]. As of last check they were still down. Here’s a video explaining why they were hacked (someone thinks). The content should be recoverable (we hope) but you may have to rebuild your playlists. Here’s a list of completed Thai BL series that you can still watch on YouTube that I recommend while we wait.  

Next Week Looks Like This:

Some shows may be listed later than actual air date for International subs accessibility reasons.

Upcoming 2021 BL master post here.

Links to watch are provided when possible, ask in a comment if I missed something.

This week’s best moments? 

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We support uke with agency! You go boys, COMMUNICATE! 

(Oh right... if I remember I’ll be participating in the Tumblr boycott next Friday so next weeks update post will be a day late.)