#i love smt it's just hard i guess lol

[orcelito]

Ykno i hadn't rly categorized myself as that much of a Tales fan but here I am with zestiria, xillia, xillia 2, vesperia, berseria, arise, and a bit of the abyss & uhh I wanna say graces. Like OK I've only actually finished zestiria, xillia, and xillia 2. But almost finished vesperia (and put it down...) and almost finished arise (I am GOING to finish it). Never got that into the others.

BUT. it's like. I mean genuinely I love these anime games so much. Xillia 2 remains the only game that's made me cry twice. Zestiria was my first and Mikleo is SO dear to me. Of course Vesperia is sooo good (I will return to it someday...) and now I'm utterly in love with arise.

I think I've played more Tales games than fire emblem games, so lol. I do be a Tales fan huh

[patrophthia]

Congrats on 1k!!! ♡

I'm literally craving for Regulus × hufflepuff!reader so badlyyy, maybe like the reader is rlly hard on herself and she gets a bad exam mark or smt and then she like cries and reggie's just there comforting her? (Lol the reader is ME)

Orrr

Can you do like where the reader is a popular singer (kinda like Taylor swift) and they have an argument together (reggie and reader) before a big concert the reader has to attend to and she's like really sad on stage cause Regulus doesnt attend it and maybe midway through the concert he joins and then the reader just feels better and after the concert they make up!!

Lol you can choose whichever prompt you prefer<3

~♡~

i went the former (mostly cuz i didn’t know how to write the latter and) because same, i get you!!

a(cceptable) | regulus black

pairing: regulus black x reader

genre: established relationship, comfort, im no good at angst so this is me trying

part of my 1k celebration event !

Regulus can read you as easily as he can read a book. It’s in the slight pull of your brow, and soft pout that gives away your mood. 

You’re upset, about something he hasn’t figured out yet, but from the look on your face he’s able to make a wild guess that it has something to do with your test. The one you took last week and would be handed back to you by —approximately today. 

“What’s wrong, amor?” He asks you. In truth, Regulus knew full well what was wrong, but he wanted to give you the freedom to rant to him. To have someone be there for you, to listen and to reassure. “Did something happen?” 

You’re fully frowning when you look at him. “I got a failing grade,” you tell him, handing over your test paper. 

A glance at the paper tells Regulus what exactly he needed to know, you’re being to harsh on yourself. An A(cceptable) was not a failing grade, sure it was a huge different to your test marks but you’re only human and you’re bound to skip up once in a while. 

He could only hope you know that. 

He doesn’t tell you that this wasn’t a failing grade. You both knew that your grades were passable at best, it just wasn’t up to your standards; so he listens to you instead. 

“I’m so mad at myself,” you murmur, “why do I even try when this is the best I could do?” 

“You did your best right?” A nod from you has him continuing. “That’s all that matters, love. You made a mistake this once and that’s fine, everyone makes mistakes it’s a part of living. And for what it’s worth, this grade doesn’t change a thing, you’re still the smartest girl I know.” 

“Even if I got an A in muggle studies?” You ask him timidly. 

Regulus nods, smiling softly at you. “Even if you got an A in muggle studies,” he repeats, and —just for extra measures, he makes sure to tell you about how he’s only ever gotten a D(readful) on the subject. 

[fantomette22]

Alright let’s chat!! *pours tea*

What are your ideas on who Rom was and where she came from? Who was she mostly connected to? What was she like? <3

Alright it's time !! drink tea

I can talk about the Byrgenwerth girl yeah !! (finally lol) Sorry I have lot of thoughts but also I feel I'm still missing a few things XD sorry in advance if that doesn't made any sense or if it's too long.

Ok so let's go with my main/fic interpret it will be way easier. So Rom, probably a nickname of Roma but I really like CosmicTeaCat and OfSilentThings idea that it could came from Andromeda as well (it would made sense). And she's basically Willem biological daughter. So she's been around Byrgenwerth since like forever I guess XD but maybe there's a connection/ she had family at the hamlet (you know the one 👀) idk.

Still not fully sure if she have brown/black hair so basically curly dark hair. Got glasses and her eyes are either hm green-blue? idk whatever is generally the color of a lake is pick your color between brown-green and dark blue.

And hm I'm not sure ho to talk about it I know it can be a sensible subject but it's import for me as well. In my story she's autistic or got some sorts of disability at least. (I mean, there's at least 3 other characters I hc on the spectrum XD) but Rom is more in the middle of the spectrum. She's not "Asperger"/ high potential autistic (sorry I'm not familiar with the English terms). It's in the more "moderate/lower side" of it, with much more difficulties. I mean she can talk and all, she can be a bit autonomous and don't have to be with someone 24h/24 for ex. She probably managed to talk correclty really late too but hey it's totally fine ! And she became way more autonomous while growing up. There's thing and subject she excels and do really greatly but she need the right accompaniment for it and there's thing she really can't comprehend or do by herself without someone explaining first. She probably won't have a proper doctorate or a master degree but she still managed to have a licence/baccalaureate (+3/technician level, after many hard years of works) And you can't let her all alone in the middle of Yharnam and except her to be fully autonomous for exemple O_O' and similar to Caryll she need really calm environment.She's doing quite fine really it just smt you can feel she can be really out of the norm as well. I really have no idea if I did that on purpose or not, it just feel natural to me? Crazy how your own life & experience inspire you don't you think? Yes I think i heavily based her on my own little brother as well it's bit different too, yet it's the similar we'll say.

I love the interpretation where she's a super smart scholars but also really like the ones where Rom could be just a disable child that Byrgenwerth decided to turned into a great one ?! (I did a weird mixt of both ideas I guess)

She absolutely loves/hyperfixate on arthropods and gastropod ! And everything that came in between the nematodes and the chordata fishes (you know the ancestor of our spine) and in the Eucaryote/Metazoan side of the phylogenitc tree ! (I'm so sorry I think I just lost everyone who never did biodiversity in biology at the university XD). In short everything from worms, medusa, sponge, arthropods, gastropods, (to the simpler type of fish).

(you basically have the mushroom, yeast/levures? and plants before the metazoan. The chordata gave everything from the fish to us : mammals, marsupials, reptiles, birds, amphibians...) Hope it help 🫡 hey you know all this classification first appeared in the 17th-18th century too? :D

Anyway all of this to say she loves and is not afraid of spiders & augurs at all. 🕷️🐌

When there's big spiders everyone came find her to help them . She moves it somewhere else. And the day Gehrman and the prospectors bring back a giant spider from the labyrinth and she could come really close to it/touch it it was the best day of her life XD

She also loves the sea/ocean and the night sky, stars and plants ! She know many things about all of this too.

After the separation Byrgenwerth/Church the scholars still kinda worked a bit with the church idk it's complicated. She ended working at the research hall, mostly with Caryll, Adeline & Maria when they looked for Isz but also with Mico afterwards before going more in separate ways and end up with the choir a huge while (before ultimately returning to Byrgenwerth maybe, idk if returning at Byrgen as a spider count XD). She became the "leader" of the Choir after Caryll (I guess Laurence is the actual true leader but he's like the big boss above the choir and religious/priest/saints). She's also the first one to become a successful lumen wood kin. You know this :

(imagined with super choir clothes)

And years after /probably after the beginning of the hunter's dream more experiments were done, she might have re work a lot with Byrgen too. She went to lower pthumeru with her team (young scholars she took care of too probably)... and they turned into spiders.

Vacuous spider, that title came after she turned into a kin. They asked her question about the cosmos, they thought she had ascend ! But she couldn't really answered... she was just 😐 well vacuous but hey she did save Yharnam from the apocalypse thanks to to veil of the blood moon. Because after they summon MP every month they were a blood moon and without the veil. Yharnam would have fallen in a few years/months instead of +2 decades later (when the hunter arrive) So during the Mensis ritual, that spiraled out of control she block everything. Her physical body died (altar in ebrietas arena but here spirits lived on in the lake!)

Connection with others :

Well Willem is basically her dad. I think he tried his best but he also work a lot and it could be complicated with Rom like I said before because of her condition. (As someone who grew up knowing people with a disability it's not always easy we'll say but they managed to found a balance in the end!) He always tried to include her where she could. When she was really little and when he was on his famous rocking chair looking at the lake he had her on his knees and he told her/teach her all kind of things.

So hm to not help thing her mom passed away when she was little. I haven't 100% decide yet. In my story, 15y before the squad meet at Byrgenwerth they were a huge epidemic and it kill at least one person (if not more) close to every characters. Rom, Maria, Mico Ludwig, etc were like 5-6y old or smt? maybe a bit older. But perhaps her mother died even before that. A scholar too probably.

Laurence was kinda adopted by Willem after his parents (who were friends with the provost) passed away because of this same epidemic. He's like 6 years older or smt? compared to Rom (and the others lil students). So they're quite chill around each others. It's not the ultimate sibling besties but they're kind around one another.

So Micolash now! He got bring back to Willem too XD but way after Laurence. When he was a teen maybe. They were really great friends at Byrgen (pre-healing church) and passed lot of time together + with Damian as well. The 2 boys decided to be there to hemp Rom. Mico and Rom were really, really close at some point. I am not entirely sure in which measure and sense but...you can guess. I mean there's smt sure but I'm still hesitating right now if he saw her as family or probably smt more. (Maybe they got in a relationship too! But parted ways at some point... you know it's complicated)

Caryll and Rom understand each other on a spiritual lvl at times XD sometimes they don't even need to talk to each other. It feel like they share a brain/braincells. So don't let them work alone unsupervised doing labs together they will have no idea what they were supposed to be after 10mins of daydreaming 😂. They got better the years after. I promised they worked well at the Research Hall XD

She was good friends with Maria too. They both share common interest and Maria is super kind too. they love talking about stars, nature and science and like each other calm presence. I mean depends if you include Caryll but they're the 2 girls of the original Byrgenwerth squad too! Oh and I forgot but one day Maria bring her back a hateful maggot (dead) from the forest. Rom loves it of course.

And Rom & Adeline are such a probably hilarious pair as well XD

Ludwig is really chilled too so idk they could vibe.

Others : Of course the staff at Byrgenwerth really like her. Dores actively tried to act the more nicely (&protectively) possible around Rom. She like really feral around everyone and show a more softer sides really occasionally to the person close to her so that tell a lot.

Of course Liam( gatekeeper) and Gehrman, really find her sweet too and I haven't much ideas of for now but I guess there's quite a few subject she could talk with the groundskeeper.

I mean even Patches (who secretly hate everyone lol) find Rom really useful to take care of spiders and insects he is supposed to remove (yes he just clean the school at the beginning then managed to become scholars & prospectors lol. And he even joined Rom team in the chalice expedition and research a few times)

Choir/orphanage : she was in charge for a while so she knew many scholars/choir member / some church members but especially the children who grew up in the orphanage : Amelia, Edgar, Iosefka, Imposter Iosefka?! (maybe??), Yurie etc She passed a lot of time with them and teach them many things. (So that would explain why Yurie would protect her!!) ("She tried to protect them from Mico bad influence and Mensis too)

Ok Kos. Or say Kosm I'm not entirely sure but there's quite a big connection at some point. I mean Kos gives eyes to Rom after all. She probably had lot of research on Kos too and was possibly devastated when they found Kos dead at the Hamlet. + I guess loosing a child/ mother made them closer too so rom might had managed to communicate/connect with great one and Kos accepted her.

OMG i almost forgot the most important ! EBRIETAS ! She passed lot of times with Ebrietas they were really close !! Maybe Rom even understand her ! (language wise) and I mean Ebrietas literally mourn her and seems to wait for her indefinitely. Did she consider Rom like a sister after she turned into a kin ? Gasp or even her girlfriend/wife ! Who knows ! (sorry I find it funny and so angsty at the same time.)

And I'm going to stop here I think 😅 Hope you enjoyed ! Thank you for finally allowed me to talk about it.

So yeah love the potato kin spider ! ❤️

[vtuberconfessions]

Honestly niji gave me weird vibes from the start.

I fell into the rabbit hole like idk 2 years ago now? Smt like that. And at first i was only interested in indies, then i started watching mori and got more into corpos.

I loved hololive (still do) and i despite never watching them, i liked vshojo too (i now do watch a few vshojo members and i rlly like vshojo now, like idk its kinda like my safe corpo beside idol)(ik theres sum stuf against them but honestly watching vshojo streams makes me feel so safe and happy lol idk y, das all beside the point tho)

I was hesitant from the start abt niji and i cant for the life of me explain why. Maybe its that i never came across niji jp clips or anything, so i only ever got to know niji en (unlike with holo, where i can name every single holomem besides those 2 from dev_is whos names i always forget lol), or maybe its just that niji always kinda felt more idk. Distant from each other. Idk if that makes sense lol.

In the end i only had 1 oshi in niji (rip pomu) because the whole thing just made me kinda uncomfy and i couldnt work out why.

Now everythings blowing up, honestly feel like i dodged a bullet. I feel so bad for fans of niji, having all this chucked at them from nowhere.

I guess this was just a very long winded way of saying niji en fans, ik its hard but keep going, it'll be ok <3

(And if you are left oshi-less and are looking for a chill place without drama, rin is always an option lol. Wdym, ofc im not biased-)

.

[aprivateplace7]

(Finally) doing Natlan act 3

:3 rambling incoming~

Wdym Citlali is "old"???? Is she like Faruzan? Bc no way she's a human & older than Xilonen...

I've been avoiding spoilers, but prob heard smt anyway... so I think its true that Ororon is being forced to work w/ the Fatui.

So... Xilonen knows Mavuika, and argues w/ her??? Like she's just a normal person... the way that ppl interact w/ each Archon is so interesting. Its easy to forget that they're gods sometimes...

Natlan... friends w/ the archon...

OH NO PAIMON. PAIMON SHE'S RIGHT BEHIND U!!!

Not Citlali calling out the "ancient loli" trope... as if Genshin itself doesn't do it allll the time :v like i don't mind the "just looks young" thing, but tbh still not a big fan of Nahida's design...

Ah yeah, ok that's what i thought.

Uh... Citlali is kinda... nicer than i thought. She was going to apologize for being late. Idk, she seemed rly tsundere b4.

Ahhh, its the social anxiety mistaken for arrogance.

...i still think she's rly pretty x3

In a dream huh? We have exp...

Since i'm just starting, i don't know anything about Ororon, but i have to say... His design kinda ugly. I hate the ripped jeans...

"Only in his 20s..." "kid"... ok how old is Citlali rly??? Like i'm 23 rn.

Ahhh, Hoyo is so mean ;^; why both her & Mavuika in the same patch...

Btw, my Archon quest team is Xiao, Traveler (Lumine), Kachina & Furina :3

Ahhhh... i kinda don't wanna do this rn :/ but i need to write smt on this for tomorrow. Its hard to focus. I'm tired... college is kinda kicking my ass rn.

UM. Citlali? Can we heard ur thoughts...?

No, REALLY? Paimon...

Wait a min... is the Ororon "grandma" i heard about Citlali?!?

Omg 🤦‍♀️

Um... maybe we should like *tell* Citlali that we can hear her thoughts...? Like this feels weird...

Um, maybe its just bc i'm late, but how long has Ororon been missing? Like how is all this evidence still here...

"You little brat!" XD i kinda love that... i guess she is kinda tsundere.

Oh, Paimon is making sense. I didn't rly think about it, but both Traveler & Paimon r very weird... we have weird stuff happen to us all the time :v

THE NIGHT KINGDOM??? Ok quest is gonna pop off now...

...i do like Ororon's eyes tho. Genshin has very pretty eyes, i like the heterochromia thing. Lol.

Betrayal???

Idc about Childe, or the House of the Heart ppl... i still don't like or trust the Fatui organization.

Ahhh i feel so bad. I love Genshin, but i'd rather be playing like AC rn...

Idk what's going on, but Ororon working w/ the Fatui isn't beating the "edgy teen" allegations...

Yeah, i fon't trust the Fatui but i think its best to just wait & find out as much as we can.

"Like the wind and the clouds, we either move as one or not at all"- that's a cool quote!

💀💀💀

NOT THE REVERSE 100 YR OLD LOLI 💀💀💀

Oh, Ororon has eye bags. Like me.

Him protecting his "granny" is what i expected... but now idk what to think.

Pink hair and blue eyes... cotton candy queen <3

Oh ok. Makes sense, we tell Paimon like everything. Would be hard to sneak off w/out her.

"Sounds innocent but is doing shady stuff behind ppls backs"...

Capitano wants to avoid "clashing" w/ is? Why, scared to lose, bitch?

The "cost" for using the gnosis... i wonder what it is?

Is he like Arlecchino? He cares about, his(?) Nation, but it puts him in conflict w/ the Archon? I mean it turned out that Furina saved the day & Arle did like nothing in the end...

XDDDD GET WRECKED, GO GRANNY!

This is actually rly upsetting... like Citlali rly believed in Ororon :( maybe he's still being mislead by Capitano? He thinks he's right, but i kinda doubt it... the Fatui keep getting what they want, but they've never been in the right. All they've done is cause problems.

His voice? I'm playing w/ Cn voice, i fon't heard anything diff... oh.

Dude he rly is a brat, & not in a fun way :/

Citlali! Violence! XD

I still don't get the "old" thing but... aw Citlali. :( wdym useless?

Girly pop drinking to forget... or maybe so she can talk about that "duty" thing of Ororon?

Lol, they've gotten better at the "meme" faces.

This is a little sad...

I'm sure what she was saying is important but... mannnn is she drunk :/

Oh... i actually feel rly sorry for Citlali :/ she seems to be having a hard time... tho i still have no idea what's going on.

Yeah, i don't think we'd be very phased by getting trauma dumped on by someone we literally just met by this point... it happens to us a lot actually.

Huh so... its not just that Citlali hates ppl. She actually seems pretty lonely & upset...

Yes PLS. Still no idea what's going on here... explain someone pls!

"His soul is incomplete" ???

Human sacrifice? Genshin??? Huh???

SACRIFICING A BABY??? wtf...

"Probably" drank too much? Ma'am...

Idk guys, i don't rly have any thoughts. Just kinda confused... big set up quest i guess.

I say, right b4 shit happens :v

I like this. Srs ppl, just be direct. I hope that Mavuika will actually explain...

I see... i think i get it, to use the gnosis she'd have to sacrifice the souls of the dead. Idk... i can see how that could feel wrong. She considers souls "just another form of life"... idk how i feel about that. I feel like i'm not quite grasping the implications here...

Ohhh ok, spoke too soon :v erasing their history & culture... the memories... that makes more sense to me, i see why this would be the last resort.

And it might not even work

Mm, i see. She's not an "ends justify the means" kinda person... maybe, unlike Capitano she's also considering what could go wrong. As she said, its not a permanent solution anyway.

Oh yeah, i was just thinking- no, tribe has nothing to do w/ vision. Citlali & Ororon r 2 diff elements... idk, i guess Kachina & Xilonen just confused me. And also bc the rep 5*s for each tribe is a diff element...

Wait, why r we talking about Capitano??? I thought Mavuika told us to keep it a secret...? Do the plan TM ppl not count?

Ok yeah. Idk. I wasn't sure where Capitano was from... cause if he's no Natlanian, why does he care so much? But Natlanians can't just leave either so...

Fatui being morally grey again... but they want it to be a secret?

Why r they sneaking around? This isn't that many Fatui... as a player. Maybe they're worried that the Fatui will try to hide what they're doing if they're caught?

U know... what does it even mean that Ororon's soul is "fragmented"? Esp since he was born like that...

Ororon's memories...

Citlali said she's done making excuses for Ororon, that he's an adult, but it still seems like she's blaming herself for him working w/ the Fatui. I can't quite see it. Idk. I don't think that Ororon is like evil but still...

Ororon talks to inanimate objects, just like me lol.

Ok i know that Genshin has powers & gods n stuff, but its still weird to hear them call things "spells". Like... Genshin is fantasy, but not quite that kind right? ...altho, just as i type this i remember that Lisa is straight up called a mage. So.

So... Ororon helped Capitano bc he wanted more info? He wasn't in cahoots until after his & Mavuika's fight.

Oh, no. Its kinda as Mavuika said... i think. Her keeping secrets is leading to doubts.

I feel like that hardly answered any questions at all...

As she should be.

Ok... ends w/ going to tell Mavuika what we learned... yeah this was def a set up quest. It was rly slow... idk maybe it was my fault, but i was rly bored & had a hard time paying attention the whole time. I've been here... for many hrs now. Like idk, maybe since 10:30 & now its about 1:30...

I don't rly have any thoughts. Capitano is weird. Its not the same as Arlecchino, he's not Natlanian so why does he care? Ororon & Citlali aren't exactly what i thought they'd be... actually, i'm surprised how little Xilonen was in here. It was almost all about Ororon & Citlali.

I have heard things... appearently it goes DOWN in act 4. So i'm kinda anxious to see what happens... but idk. My tv is raised from my couch, so my neck is hurting :(

[lilycovecity]

smt vv thread

more like i wanted to document this a little better than a usual twitter thread. also wanted to spend more time thinking about it.

i bought smtv on launch and started it, got a couple of hours into the first area and got freaking murked by a demon it completely shattered my desire to keep playing. which is really funny but also a testament to the smt way of saving every 2 minute because you never know when you're gonna get owned by a new moon demon.

in any case i went to target today on a journey for something else and smtvv was 20 dollars off so of course i copped it.

i think smtvv has such a strong aesthetic sense. it's peak kaneko except as interpreted by doi, which is insane because i feel like doi is doing kaneko more than kaneko has done. LOL. it's funny and cute especially when you compare smt iv/iva to smt v. i really love the school uniforms.

i was really surprised that they had like four variations on their uniform, including a sailor style and then a more preppy varsity type...i think nahobino's full gakuran with the lilies is so beautiful and i wish that we got a female character with the seifuku version because it's one of my favorite uniforms in the game.

the music in this game is also a lot of ambient noise which i love. lol. i dont know if the overworld stuff will be as strong as smtiv for me music wise but the big important scene music has been so delightful.

the first time i heard smtv stuff was at the concert and i was really floored by the instrumentals so ... i have my hopes.

in any case...

as you know obviously my favorite smt game is smt iv. so that's my baseline for comparing anything i consume re. smt. LMFAO i know the love of nostalgia blinds me but it is my everything.

so i find it really interesting that you're simultaneously painted as loser with no friends in your class but also you know the most popular girls in school. for some reason.

while i was typing this i went to go google what his canon name is and i guess it's kei amemura? which is cute. kei-san...

i'm already ready for the yuzuru/kei yaoi. a good demon hunter x demon set up.

i also think kei in general seems so...detached? there's something about him that's really whatever about the entire ordeal. kind of just being pushed along vs the other members that we've met so far.

also aogami/kei is kind offffff (pleasepleaseplasepleaspelaseplaese) lmfao

GUESS WHO DIDN'T LEARN THEIR LESSON ABOUT SAVING EVERY TWO MINUTES AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHI JUST LIKE LIKE HALF AN HOUR OF PROGRESS BECAUSE I WAS AUTOBATTLING TOO HARD FUUUUUCKASJDFKLASJDFLASKJDFLASJDFASLDFASDJFASLK;DFASLJ FMAN IM PISSED

ok. we are back again. finally at my first demon fusion and i got cait sith :) my kitty cat. i love the demon fusion for smtv lmfao. sick organ moment.

one of the things that sucks about smt in general is the inability to like. teleport to ur quest marker. like for sidequests. i grabbed what u needed dont make me go trek all the way over there

ok. finally at the first boss fight (tokyo tower) the minotaur if u will. after this we will see if i continue for the night...

[vixy-exists]

Do you have a ship for Yumiko?

I wish I had, Anon, I wish I had. I've been thinking about shipping her with many different characters. (Mostly crack ships since, you know, there are not many canon DDSMT characters around her age and alive. Unless you wanna ship her with dead classmate #1, Ohara, Loki or... Izanami. Of course, aside from Nakajima or, if you go even further, the NDDS books. Though I think the latter would just be weird.)

I remember I toyed around with the idea of shipping her with Rosanna way back when I was fairly new to the fandom. I would honestly go for it but my knowledge of MT2 isn't as good -- plus I'm not sure they would even work together as a pair well. (Though that's not to say I won't revisit the idea in the future, since I have some ideas of what I could do with them. I need to finish MT2 before that though.)

I also once thought about shipping her with Yuka (I guess a sort of reverse to KazNaka lol), and I think they would get along well, though I'm not sure... I think they would more likely be friends, and ehhh I wanna do something more interesting with the both of them. Not even mentioning how I think it would be just lazy of me to pair the two off just because I ship their canon boyfriends together.

I also once jokingly thought to myself that maybe I could ship her with Chiaki 'cause I think they could have great chemistry, but ehhh I don't know. Who knows, might just do some headcanons and ship art for it and see where it goes. We'll see, we'll see.

Not been too keen on shipping her with Nakajima, sadly. I do think they work together well, but I like to keep them as gay best friends rather than lovers. A lot of reasons why, but personal preference, I guess.

Though this all is not to say I don't wanna ship her with anyone, I really do, it's just hard deciding I guess. Mostly because I imagine her as bi with a high preference for women, projecting, projecting (but, I mean it makes sense if you consider her canon love interest looks like a woman). And there aren't many female, well-written SMT characters -- or ones I would know what to do with. I'm open to any ideas though!

[jadedrrose]

ooo i see i see and dw for smt go at ur own pace,, you might just rage with it if u play it yourself cause it's kinda hard lol

aoc IS A PREQU3L i didn't know it was!! OH MAN THE SCENES WITH THE CHAMPIONS 😭😭 I WISH I COULD PLAY IT i wanna play totk but. i cant since my switch is broken and if aoc is on that too then 🥰🥰🥰 yay.

i'm guessing it's in the same style? oh god that'd be even better i'm like ripping a present with each ask i send,, i really liked botw so stuff related to that does get me and yeah I'll definitely enjoy the fics because u alwasy deliver <3 sadly i don't have the time rn so tomorrow or tonight it shall be yayayay— and dayum its a 6 hours difference from here lol but same for me nighttime is always better

AND i just read the. thing about feeling nervous with the fictional crushes and s a m e i thought i was the only one YAHAHAHAHA then it goes away (for me at least) as if i knew them for really long lmao. though sometimes it comes back for some reason i feel it more with the images rather than the fics (depending on the fic,,)

Dude I hope you can fix your switch soon 😭 but yeah age of calamity is in the same art style as botw, and I don’t wanna spoil anything but you get to unlock almost every single “important” character and it’s just so fun!! I love playing as Impa (she’s young in this game) and Urbosa (and then obviously Sooga but you have to get the DLC for him). Oh and then each character has little mini mission things to level up their abilities/hearts (you just supply materials you get from playing missions) and each one has a little “story” with it and some of them are so fuckjng cute omg 😭 But whenever you’re able to play it PLEASE send me updates (especially whenever you see Sooga for the first time, even if you end up not liking him LMAO) I love seeing people react to things like this lol

Also dw about rushing to read anything!! The fics aren’t going anywhere lol

Also yes with the going away and coming back 😭 like it still hasn’t gone away with Sooga yet for me, but with Law it’s like. Never there anymore. However with Levi it did come back a few times even though it’s been… 8 ish ?? years since I started liking him lol. Actually now that I think abt it seeing videos of Law in universal Japan does it?? I think that’s just bc I know it’s a real person so it feels different lol

Anyway good luck fixing your switch, I hope you can play AOC and TOTK soon <3

[toystoryfan]

Oh wow umm hi!! Thanks for tagging 🥰🥰

three ships: Byler (ST), Birdflash / Wally West x Dick Grayson (DC), Chrobin!!! Chrom x Robin (Fire Emblem: Awakening)

first ship: uhhh idk. Ever? Chrobin I guess?? Ngl I have a terrible memory I don't recall much of my childhood (in a sense of when what happened). Also I didn't invest into ships much back then? Oops. Didn't really think much about ships as a kid. Maybe naegiri (DR) or percabeth (pjo) instead

last song: Waves by Dean Lewis bc I uhhh am planning an edit for it (but I just have the audio done so far and it's been in my drafts for a while... I'm not good at finding audios) (if anyone has ideas... 👀👀)

last movie: the Gray Man? (It was mediocre but I enjoyed it). Also Glass Onion (very good) + Bullet Train (also very good!). I had a movie marathon where my family watched these movies in 3 days or smt over the weekend but I can't remember what order it was in. I think I watched the gray man the most recently?? I have a terrible memory, if you can't tell. I watch a lot of things with my parents when I'm home so idk

currently reading: nothing 😭😭 it's hard for me to find a book that I'll like it's just easier reading fanfiction I'm sorry,,, I'm currently in between fics ngl. Everything I wanna read is uhhh sad so I'm just. Not sure yet. I might finally finish I Know Better (by @/andiwriteordie) but I also might cry instead lol

currently watching: Shakespeare and Hathaway: Private Investigators! I love Sebastian. Idk if anyone else knows this show ngl?? I enjoy murder mysteries what can I say lol. (Literally obsessed with Death in Paradise!!) It's fun so far! Also watched gbbo + Witcher blood origins too

currently consuming: Godiva Chocolate lol. Also chocolate covered macadamia nuts (I don't even like macadamia nuts??? Lmao oops)

currently craving: french toast bc my dad said we could make it for breakfast TMR... 👀👀

I don't usually do these things bc I'm so bad at tagging ppl (also I don't usually get tagged lol)

No pressure tags!!! @hopelessromanfic @livsindelusion @tearsofsaudade @booksandpaperss ((I'm. Sorry if any of you did not want to be tagged I will leave and melt into a puddle in the oblivion)) I don't have enough ppl to tag so that's it! Haha. Other mutuals if I didn't tag you, it's bc I am anxious nervous and dying inside ✌️✌️✌️

tag 9 people you’d like to get to know better

thank you @louwhose for the tag!!

3 ships: zelink (who else), victuuri, midzel specifically twilight princess

first ever ship: me and link tbh i was like 9 and just discovered twilight princess

last song: orgy for one by ninja sex party

last movie: not sure if this counts as a movie but the documentary “fantastic fungi” on netflix

currently reading: various fanfictions, but just started rereading Alone With You by the lovely @deiliamedlini

currently watching: whatever game grumps compilations come up in my recommended on youtube

currently consuming: idk if this means food or media so i’ll answer both. for food i just got a sausage and egg breakfast burrito (no cheese i dont like cheddar cheese) that i’m about to demolish. for media i’ve been playing minecraft like it’s 2012 and they just added ocelots

currently craving: breakfast burrito so like good thing i just went and got one

tags: i don’t know 9 people so @cityofperpetualgloom @feralratkid @niobiummm and anyone else who wants to participate!! <3

[cant-taemout]

[neomedievalist]

sorry for being a rando popping into your inbox but wrt your posts about smt5 and the acnh effect, as a lifelong fan of animal crossing i hard agree on nh and it's kind of depressing to see so many people say it's the best animal crossing when it isnt even CLOSE. id say the downfall of ac started with new leaf since thats when they started lobotomizing the villagers, but acnl actually had tons and tons of content that kept me playing for literal years. meanwhile with nh i only popped in to check out the new updates then stopped playing. i could write an entire essay on how they completely gutted the original tone that animal crossing had with its writing and overall vibes and basically sanitized a fun, unique quirky little game into being The Relaxing Game.

with smt5, i think the problem is something different though. if you read the interviews from very early in v's production, the devs mention things they wanted to be in the story--namely, they wanted v to touch on themes of extremism in modern society and how in the face of the world being on fire gen z and millennials feel utterly hopeless and like they have no future. none of that was in the final product. granted, i have very little knowledge of game development but since v was in production prior to and during the pandemic, i have a theory that there was meddling on the part of corporate that really messed with the development process with the pandemic on top of that. according to a friend of mine, someone data mined v and there were a ton of unused assets and concepts, which seems to support my idea that there was a huge shift mid development that squandered v's potential.

one thing though, is that new people getting into smt though v means that they're more likely to play the other games in the series and see what it's like when smt's potential is realized, whereas this doesnt really exist for animal crossing since animal crossing is generally the same all around where each smt game has a vastly different story and tone from the other games.

(i might be misinterpreting but one criticism i have of your addition to that one post if you describing this phenomenon as Kirby On The Switch when as a lifelong kirby fan the most recent kirby game was unironically a near perfect game and most people seem to be in agreement on that and it was clear that hal labs put a TON of love and work into making it. but sadly kirby and the forgotten land is an exception to what you were talking about on that post)

sorry for the essay lol i just have Thots

HI YES thoughts appreciated! everyone always welcome to drop essays about video games in my inbox i love writing them and i love reading them

i wouldnt call myself a lifetime ac fan but i played the FUCK out of new leaf, i think i got it in 2014 and i have about 1000 hours in it, which is why i was so dissapointed with NH...and ive heard and understand peoples criticism of NL so it must be really really rough for old ac fans to see NH just double down on all that.

that's really interesting about smtv though, i hadn't heard that about the datamining and stuff? and i guess the original interview i hadnt seen because i wasnt into smt then LOL. i actually am gnna go look at that because it really does feel like a game that went thru development hell and had to rush things, i remember before release being really worried that we hadnt gotten any story trailers or english va announcements...esp since the game was announced at the same time as mario odyssey LOL

and yes thats very true that people might get into smt thru smtv. i definitely agree with that point but at the same time, someone is equally likely to not really click with it then drop it and not touch the series again... but well. not the point.

about kirby i was honestly thinking about that when i was posting it, i havent played the forgotten land but every kirby fan i know loves it (i was actually thinking of picking it up myself as a 3d platformer fan) so yeah i can def see how thats an exception. it is true that really good games with passion behind them still can come out which is really heartening, i wish it wasnt such a surprise when it happened!

but yes i think animal crossing really embodies this point. the way its become a cultural icon and people dont know what the series USED to offer so they think that NH is good and what they're all like is so dissapointing, especially as a life sim that youre meant to put tons of time into... it frustrates me to no end when i see people joking abt AHh i have no motivation to go back to my island its so much work i havent played in so long.. like this wouldnt have HAPPENED if the game wasnt shit!! i never had "no motivation" to play new leaf because it was an actual game and not a halfway between life sim and sandbox game that is the worst of both worlds! i checked in on new leaf EVERY. DAY. after school when i was in high school and id play for an hour each day. i dont think i missed a single day in maybe three years.

in new horizons i told myself id go back to it if they ever added cooking. then they added cooking and i went back to it and it sucked so i stopped playing again

there is literally no reason to play it other than customizing your island as a sandbox game but the sandbox elements are so fucking miserable to play that you have to be, excuse me for saying this, unemployed to actually find the time to make your island look good. the game coasted on the fact that it released right before the pandemic and everyone had the free time to play it.

[batslime]

i am a big huge ghost fan and i really . like the new song and am a little unsure of why it’s so controversial bc its like. its different i guess but it’s different bc it is literally referencing the rhythyms of the 1920s in a 2022 metal song. i think it rules lol . im just saying this to u bc youre my only ghost mutual . anyway im very excited for impera

WELL there’s multiple reasons people have mixed feelings on it. In this video Tobias talks about the inspiration for the sound being this really aggressive sounding Brazilian musician and how he wanted to try mixing the sounds with different instruments and how he was just really captivated by it, that he’d never heard smt like it before. There are so many weirdos who are already on Ghost’s heavier, more metal music complaining that it’s “not metal”, so I know they have a field day when it comes to their more diverse stuff like Twenties, Missionary Man, Kiss the Go-Goat etc despite them clearly not meant to be metal and not claiming to be.

Fans definitely had apprehension too because of the way Tobias described Twenties and based on the lyrics before it dropped. I’ll have to dig up where I saw it said but in an interview he described it as something like “a mix between Missy Elliot and Slipknot” (can’t remember exactly what heavier band he used in his example) and that it would have “unorthodox articulation” so a lot of is thought he was going to rap lol. The sound is definitely still out there and hard to swallow at first but it’s BECAUSE it’s so different and weird that I love it tbh.

And of course since it’s making fun of Trump there’s dudes who have a fit to throw over that. Some weirdo even drew Papa IV as Trump because he didn’t like it. Overall I just see weird comments about it from people who don’t like it, the other day on twt I saw some guy say he “can’t forgive fans for praising it” like hello???

lol like I def get not liking the song but Ghost haters are really so weird about their hate for the band. And ME TOO I keep checking my email obsessively to see if my order has shipped yet!! I’m so excited to see the art book and hear the vinyl for the first time ❤️❤️❤️ and I got some of their older albums to listen to in my car, an Impera shirt, and they threw in a pin since I spent so much lmao

[spicy-ology]

𝙖𝙨𝙩𝙧𝙤 𝙤𝙗𝙨𝙚𝙧𝙫𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨 ~ 𝙥𝙩.1

☽ hellooo! these are just merely my experiences and observations with the signs. also i'm new to astrology so don't take anything too seriously :)

❄︎ starting off with Capricorns. these people are literally crazy, and by crazy, they really out here doing the most like wtf. they have one of the best work ethics i've ever seen and they possess strong leadership skills, especially when there's fire in their chart. they are always so busy which makes me wonder how they manage all their time doing everything yk?

❄︎ i see a lot that Aquarius moons are always detached and closed off but i find that to be the opposite with Aquarius suns. they tell me WAY too much. things that probably shouldn't even be shared ifykyk.

❄︎ Libras always got tea LOL. i don't have that many libra friends but they always come to me whenever they got tea because they trust me with all these secrets and i'm a good listener :P. Most of the libras i know look pretty intimidating so it's hard for me to approach them but when they approach me first, they're actually very sweet people.

❄︎ Geminis are funny and we understand each other in deeper levels ? (if that makes sense AHAH) and i don't have that many gemini friends either but the ones i've talked to, we had good short conversations but they lose interest very quickly or they also give me feelings of inconsistency like 😫.

❄︎ Leo = crackhead energy. I love being around Leos like they're the type to have crazy ideas all the time or they be getting high in the school bathrooms idek. They're always down to do anything and you'd always catch a leo staring at themselves in a mirror OR basically ANYTHING that shows their reflection LOLL. these people have such big egos but are actually really insecure about a lot of things that doesn't necessarily have to be about their appearance.

❄︎ Scorpios have such an intriguing aura to me? like they just fit anything that has a dark aesthetic but once you get to know them they're almost the complete opposite? these people are really funny and creative. always spitting bars and they have crazy ideas too.

❄︎ My relationship with cancers are kind of on and off. i can interact with cancers and have a good time with them but that energy is so short-lived. i'm somehow attracted to cancer men but thEY are very DRY texters. like they can't match my energy, sorry not sorry. female cancers on the other hand are super sweet but problematic and i'm not one to be swarming into other people's problems 😭.

❄︎ There's something about taurus people that just radiate fake energy. i feel like they are trying too hard to be a "perfect" person or a person they're not to the point where talking to them doesn't feel genuine? but these people are very pretty and charming imo. also they give off big sub energy LOL.

❄︎ Virgos are weird. They can have crackhead energy or be so boring as in not wanting to be down to do anything. (ok i wouldn't exactly say boring but idk what the word i'm thinking of is sjsjs). ALSO idk why bUT I'M ALWAYS ATTRACTED TO VIRGO MEN LIKE?? take for example my kpop biases: jungkook from bts, yeonjun from txt, jisung/felix from skz... you get the gist. Virgos are kind of like outgoing introverts yeah.

❄︎ Sagittarius ha ha idk what to say about these people. these are the ultimate clowns of the zodiac signs and you can't say i'm wrong 😤. these people are actually intellectual but their work ethic is kind of all over the place. very blunt and super honest. always has good roasts ugh. it's too hard to fight a sag so we just end up clowning each other in the end.

❄︎ Aries just have this powerful energy surrounding them. they're good at insulting people and roasting others for fun. my ultimate roast buddies LOL. also they LOVE to flirt with their friends. they're the type to have strong opinions and would fight anyone who hurts their friends or family and i love that.

❄︎ The Pisces i know are so dramatic. They give off energy that thinks the world revolves around them or smt 😫👊. they also could be really random at times and can easily switch from topic to topic. these people are fun to talk to but similar to my experiences with scorpios, they're kind of intimidating for me to approach them first. i also noticed that my pisces friends eat a lot but can maintain their weight? they all probably have fast metabolism or smt good for them 😭

☽ yeah that's about it for what i have to say. this doesn't have to resonate with you but pls let me know what you guys think and if you could relate. (side note: if you can guess one of my big 3 signs that'd be kindly appreciated LOL)

[rodem]

I started Smt5 on friday. it honestly feels kinda surreal considering how long it took to come out, wasn’t it first announced as like a switch launch title or something????? Well all the delays were obviously a good thing because the game seems really polished and the global release is amazing (and no one day patch, lol). I haven’t seen any spoilers beside the official pre-release stuff either so going into it mostly blind is really exciting. It’s the first smt where I didn’t do extensive research on “what build should I give the mc?” beforehand. (I’m doing magic because that’s always the safest bet for early game, which is usually the most difficult due to lack of good skills/demons. Though based on the Aogami essences I’ve collected so far it seems like the build the game wants the player to choose is more phys/support orientated...)

I guess here are some of my jumbled thoughts/impressions so far (I just finished the school and got to second section of the Netherworld)

When I first started I was like "omg the menu sounds from DDS are back." Gotta love those menu sounds.

The atmosphere of the Netherworld is soo good. The environment, the buildings, the music (having special sounds to notify the player of new/full moon was such a smart touch. and the full moon sound still gives me chills), the demon sound clips that play, demon npc placement, etc. all top notch. I feel like that desolate and isolated post-apocalyptic atmosphere that smt is known for (and prev best done in nocturne imo) has been perfected here. And the ability to like run and climb through mountains/dilapidated buildings really adds so much to the atmosphere. Like I really feel like I'm stranded on some demon infested post apocalyptic wasteland with only myself and demon allies to rely on! Such an amazing atmosphere!! It's strong enough to overpower the mc's very silly design that I have a hard time taking seriously lol.

And there's so much to explore and so many hidden things to find! I love climbing high places and then jumping straight down to an area only accessible through jumping down. There's actually so much to explore it gets overwhelming. And I'm def still needing to get used to it. Which makes me glad the world map icons are so helpful. I feel like I'm spending way longer in certain areas than I should because I keep getting lost or stuck or accidentally backtrack to somewhere I already went, lol.

So many good qol things were added to the battle and fusion systems. It's really helpful being able to see enemy weaknesses and health bars when you hover over them. And learnable skills being fully visible with even the level they are learned is one of the greatest new additions. (no more having to look up online what skills a demon learns and when!)

SMT games usually aren't that hard by endgame (for me, and on normal difficulty, at least) because you can just abuse buffs/debuffs. But those have been so nerfed this game. Even though I like doing tons of damage and not taking barely any due to buffs/debuffs, the re-vamp was for the best. Also do they only stack twice now? Because I've only seen two up arrows next to the icons. Though it seems the re-work of (de)buffs is balanced by the addition of the magatsuhi meter and new skills. The magatsuhi meter took a bit to get used to because at first I either kept forgetting it existed, or assumed it would take up a press turn. But it's really useful to have and it seems like fun strategies can be played with the magatsuhi skills. And there's always the sense of danger when the enemy is absorbing magatsuhi....

Essence fusion and miracles are also fun to play with. I was surprised fundamental stuff like demons begging for mercy had to be unlocked, but hiding stuff like that behind miracles makes alot of sense. Def the most useful miracle (besides like skill/demon slot increase), is the one that gives your demons bonus exp/levels depending on the exp/levels gained of the fused demons. Very useful for unlocking skills on new demons quicker and also doesn't make me feel bad for not fusing my demons as soon as they learn all their learnable skills. (Which is what I usually do).

The best moment I had so far was getting my revenge on that big bird for ambushing and killing me earlier, by changing my affinities to block force. (Which luckily was perfect for the Nuwa fight as well). The boss battles so far have been really tense. I feel like usually in these games my character is overleveled because I do a lot of backtracking to go back to save points. But since enemies are usually easily avoidable here, my character has been around the same level as the bosses. As my mc is like the only damage dealer I have so have, I keep having to use chakra drops during boss battles and my collection is being depleted. Which is honestly fun because I'm an item holder so I usually never use mp restoration items. Another function I've been using alot so far that I never used a whole lot before unless it was necessary, was swapping demons during battle. I usually do so if a demon I'm using runs out of mp.

In terms of story/characters, well I had like 0 expectations for the storyline going in so my view is already biased. The premise is very funny and probably requires the most suspension of disbelief out of megaten premises so far, imo at least. I do wonder if the whole "we, members of a secret gov organization led by goddamn angels and the prime minister, are relying on hs students to risk their lives and we don't feel bad or weird about it at all" premise will like actually lead to some sort of social commentary/critique. But based on experiences/knowledge of anime/otaku media in general it's more likely just meant to be played completely straight.

One thing I noticed is that the whole "my other half" thing has been brought up by three separate (demon) characters so far. So I'm guessing that concept will play a big role in the story. (and now that I think about it, I guess the mc is Aogami's other half or something....) Well I hope whenever Amanozako finds her other half she gets a new form that's less hideous. Like Amanozako from actual mythology looks so cool, and then the smt one is just "pixie 2.0."

In terms of the human characters. I expected the streamer dude to be really obnoxious and self centered, and he turns out to be the most down to earth one. His whole thing of wanting to fight demons and be a hero and not realizing the gravity of the situation until he's actually fighting and then he chickens out, felt very realistic and relatable haha. His "huge loser" background reminds me of the smt1 chaos hero, which makes me theorize he will be the alignment hero for whatever the chaos faction equivalent this game is (i have 0 idea if they are doing the traditional law/chaos/neutral stuff this game too, but so far that seems to be the case). Though I think his design already looks "chaotic" to me, so I'd prefer if he went against my expectations and become the law representative to me. Worst human character so far is def megane's sister. I disliked her since the pre-release info and she so far seems to be exactly how I expected, a very generic shy, frail girl who is entirely dependent on her "onii-chan." Though hopefully as the game goes on that perception will change and they will give this girl some kind of agency.

Also, I loved the cutscene where mc and Aogami first split and none of the other kids like make notice of or even react at all to Aogami just silently standing there at all. amazing stuff.

[semi-imaginary-place]

started playing octopath traveler. i like the visual design, music and general aesthetics. thk it is hard to tell where you can walk and where you cant. im not sure if the xp to next level means exp in this levels bin, like progress so far, or how much exp is need until the next level up. ui weirdness. sunshade section is real uncomfortable between orientalism, sexual coersion and worker exploitation! yall should unionize. oh it really is sex slavery. yikes. this is uncomfortable.

at least i got to kill him. was thinking why did primrose end up a sex slave if she really wanted to kill her father’s murderer why didn’t she train as a assassin or warrior like olberic for 15 years. but then i thought about it and posing as a dancer is exactly the stupid sort of thing a child would think up and then the slimebag tavern owner probably trapped her in a mile of debt and exploited someone vulnerable.

i started with tressa and went counterclockwise around the sea so now im done with everyone’s chapter 1. there’s was no real reason for choosing tressa, her’s seemed to be a less serious story and a soft intro to the game. and now that i have a party of tressa, therion, and alfyn its all about that economy. alfyn has powerful item based abilities and tressa and therion have abilites to get items so i hit the item cap (99 stack per item) before i hit level 20. I also got like a 120 atk bow before level 10 lol. money money money.

can’t believe shinto-catholic girl’s story got to me. h’aanit’s story is the one i find most compelling and the ch 2 i want to see the most. i like cyrus. he reminds me of miles edgeworth. comedically super serious walking sherlock holmes reference. also is it me or are there a lot of pop culture references in this game. my favorite character tho is alfyn. he’s a good boy. he also reminds me of one of my highschool ocs. what a good boy, i love him.

octopath traveler is a weird title. why didn’t they go with like the paths of eight travelers. or eight traveler’s paths. and what’s up that cat burglar enemy

overall i think the ch 1s were decent. there were some tropes that just seemed to be there because they are genre staples instead of doing anything with them, but its also only the first chapter. i said it already but the music is really good.

i ostly picked it up because time limited input games aren’t really enjoyable for me and there are so few games these days that aren’t like that. gameplay is like halfway between goldensun with its character based puzzle solving and the nds era smt games with the elemental weaknesses being a major part of battle. some of the ui stuff is clunky. the transition to battle screen is just bad. also idk if i missed it but weird that i can’t find the protags’ ages anywhere given how you learn the ages of every random npc. i mean i can guess based on the ages of people in their starting town. like alfyn, primrose, and ophilia are all like early twenties like. not quite as sure for h’aanit and therion but probably early-mid twenties too. tressa seems like typical jrpg protag age so like 17. olberic seems a bit older like mid thirties? the blur effect is too strong for my taste, i do like how it puts into focus where you character is at, but just a bit too much. some of the glittery effects seem to be based on where you are on the map so if you run around the white dots move super fast and i don’t like the look. i think there were trying to go for like a  boko or whatever and its fine if you take a screenshot of it, but in motion its really annoying.

oh yeah and i haven’t even started any ch2s and its already been 20+ hours so... im going to be here a while. (i keep getting lost!)

went and spoiled myself on secret classes. primrose deserves warmaster. i dont even play her (i dont get the summoning mechanics) but its what she deserves. read about how making cyrus a sorcerer is redundant, but have you considered, i like big numbers.

so party comp. i can’t get rid of tressa but i always need money anyways. therion is there for the same reason. and alfyn is there to use all the items and because he’s my fav. the last spot cycles between cyrus and h’aanit. i also really like h’aanit but cyrus’s ability is usefulf for finding weaknesses because i struggle to remember which elements i’ve already tried out and its such a bad time for me without cyrus. also big numbers. give me the explosions.

[olympiansally]

what's your journey of self discovery about lol if you want to share, and how has it been?

This is about the curious anons ask game

Hi sweetie!

Yeah, I’m always happy to share and it’s nice of you to ask :) So basically, I have recently started working on my application for a master’s degree and idk much about how it works in other countries but here I need to submit my thesis idea when I first apply. However I have no clue what I want to research about so I’m doing a whole journey of going “what the fuck do you even like???” at myself and trying to figure myself out in what moves me most and what compels me to write and such.

But I have a bit of a hard time defining myself, let alone doing it confidently so it’s been kinda stressful lmao so recently I’ve made it a journey to try and analise my writing and the things that are important to me in other narratives and just try to figure out smt I’d like to specialize in that doesn’t make me sound totally insane

I think it’s enough to say that it’s not going very well and it’s driving me even more insane trying to narrow down the things I love so i’m just a bit 🥺😵‍💫😨😭 rn jsiwksaksikaosa

But that’s the short version I guess, thanks for asking anon <3 hopefully I will get some inspiration and direction soon lmao