#i love seeing everyones different interpretations of the henrys

[lasagnaprince]

panel redraw of @kineticallyanywhere's amazing fan comic monkey's paw! please go read it!! your panel compositions and action scenes are always so exciting! i wanted to make fanart of this specific panel bc even the story alone could carry this whole comic, it's so good and i can't wait for more!

original panel for comparison!

[betryl]

Along with Camilla's and Bunny's, another pov I would love to see is Charles'. He had such a tragic development throughout the book, but we get to know very little about what he actually went through, and it makes it easy to put all the blame on him – of course, he was an abuser and that doesn't change, but it would still be so interesting to actually get his own opinion, without Henry, Camilla or Francis speaking on his behalf. Not to justify him, but just to see things the way he did and get yet another interpretation of the whole story.

We'd get to know what his and Camilla's relationship was actually like – and it would probably look even worse from his perspective. His encounters with Francis, too. He puts the blame on Charles taking advantage of him, even though they were probably both taking advantage of each other in some ways – but we never got to hear how Charles felt about the situation.

We'd get to see him slowly lose his mind to alcohol, and it would probably be even more subtle than how it felt from Richard's pov, making it even the more chilling. Him getting progressively more depressed, more irritable, more violent (and therefore, I believe, more guilty about his own behavior too), to the point of being basically drunk all the time, and feeling like a totally different person to how he was at the beginning.

And then we'd get to see him get more and more paranoid about Henry. I would have loved to see more of their dynamic, because while I've seen some people reducing it to a love triangle with Camilla (?), it wasn't just that, and Charles had quite a few valid reasons to hate him. Henry pulled Charles into the whole mess basically against his will – he was the only one who, more than once, tried convincing the others the murder was a bad idea, and no one listened to him and listened to Henry instead. He was depressed for Bunny's death. He got coerced by Henry to get involved with the police too, having to bear the weight of everyone possibly ending up in jail if he did something wrong.

He realized that all of this was mostly Henry's fault, but then the situation with Camilla came along, and Charles suddenly understood he had just become the next target Henry might have wanted to get rid of – and he even tried to. He had every right being scared of him, but the others barely even believed him. So the paranoia turned into genuine fear for his life, until he eventually snapped, and we know what happened next.

All of this was hidden behind Richard's pov, which definitely made it difficult to understand his actions or how he was feeling. As much as I don't like him as a person, he really grew on me and genuinely became one of my favorite characters. And seeing it all from his perspective would be terrifying.

[fazgoo-connoiseur-1987]

not an art request

but can we get a little bittle lore dump on your interpretations of our favorite bear? please :3

Henry... Henry Emily... I love him so much... I have a lot to say so I'm just gonna bullet some stuff down.

Henry's had depression pretty much his whole life, it's not something he develops after his life falls apart though obviously that does make it worse. Typically he calls Bill when he's going through it cus he's the only person he's alright being semi-vunerable around.

He's not a great husband or father (pretty bad at it actually). He's generally aloof and emotionally unavailable- he get's so sucked into his projects he doesn't even remember his family exists for extended periods of time. After his wife leaves him and takes Sammy he gets a little bit better with it for the sake of looking after Charlie but he still doesn't spend as much time with her as he should. He's pretty alright with kids when he's actually interacting with them, though.

He sees himself in William and he fucking hates it. They're very similar at the end of the day and Henry resents that, even before William does anything abhorrent. William's more well liked than Henry, his marriage is more sucessful, his relationship with his kids- he's a little jealous though you would literally have to torture that admission out of him.

This goes both ways though, obviously, and Henry's pretty aware of that. He likes knowing more about William than everyone else does. He can see behind his snake-oil salesman ruse and that makes him feel powerful.

This is partly why he covers up the MCI for him but also because, after Charlie's death, he threw literally his whole being into this pizzeria and these robots. It's why he keeps trying to open locations and why they're all shady as fuck; he wouldn't know what to do with himself without Freddy's and when the 94' location shuts down he gets sent down a 30 year long depressive spiral.

He takes his own life in 86' using Baby and Bill finds him, injects him with some remnant and fucks off. Henry is completly and utterly consumed by the need for revenge from this point onwards, it's pretty much all he thinks about.

He's the frightguard and that's a really fun experience for him. I think he's really really really weird about Springtrap. Lots of different ways weird.

He wasn't gonna tell Mike he was gonna set everyone on fire but they were talking mid-way into the week and Henry had his only good thought of 'oh fuck, yeah he should probably know, huh.'

He's Old Man Consequences cus I like that idea a lot. It is a sort of punishment for him, though. He spent his whole life thinking about William fucking Afton and now he's gotta guard him forever. Get the whole of you reflected back at you, idiot.

[gxlds-doodles]

was thinking abt how much i miss the 2014-2015 era fnaf fandom and it's interpretations of the characters (oh vincent purple guy how i miss you.) so new au alert!! lil chibis of my vincent n phone guy <3 designs are very much inspired by the popular designs for them around that time (originally popularized/created by rebornica i believe - though these are completely separate from their au i am not associated with them in any way shape or form) 🎉✧ SUPER COOL EPIC LORE INFO UNDER THE CUT!!!!!!! ✧🎉

general lore ☆ basically a whole rewrite - not because i have issues with the story (i stopped paying full attention after sister location tbh) just for fun!! again very much based on me missing 2010s fnaf fandom that was PEAK to me ☆ i still tie in some pieces of the lore but for the most part. forget what u know abt fnaf this is a whole rewrite (ex. animatronics are sentient but not possessed by children - not possessed at all in fact!! except for perhaps a few exceptions but i'm working on it) ☆ these two have quite a lot of canon lore tie-ins but beyond these two it's different LOL ☆ set in or around 2014, timeline is a wip vincent dorian (formerly afton) ☆ italian on his dad's side, armenian on his mom's side ☆ william afton's only child, born while freddy's was open but doesn't remember it rlly - his father and henry emily were co-owners/business partners but split ways (aka william got fired bc henry found out what he did. why he didn't bring this to the cops i'm still working out) soon after he was born ☆ raised by william as a single father ☆ was forced to help his father kill since he was like 12 this guy's got TRAUMA. ☆ still deciding on why he's purple (boy why you ourple.) but ik that it's william's fault. idk if i wanna go the walking corpse route like with michael in canon yet ☆ cuts off his dad when he's 18 - moves out on his own, etc. ☆ still kills for reasons i am currently working on however he does NOTTTT kill children ☆ starts working at freddy's at 27 as a way to 'rebel' against his dad, even if he hasn't seen him in yeeears by this point ☆ night guard at first, eventual day shift guard and sometimes a technician when needed ☆ his hair is naturally still black - he dyes it purple bc he thinks it looks cool ☆ his red scrunchie matches the red of phone guy's head <3 scott emily ☆ THE DRAWING IS OF A VERY SPECIFIC POINT IN THE AU I HAVE YET TO FLESH OUT it's not the most reflective of his character overall ☆ puerto rican ☆ henry emily's only child - remembers a tiny bit about william, remembers being scared shitless of him ☆ gets caught in a fire set by william when he's 16. he barely makes it out alive ☆ henry makes him the phone head mask thing. it can *technically* be removed but it never is bc it keeps the scars that never quite fully healed from getting worse ☆ head somehow works like a real phone... don't ask i just thought the idea of him ringing when he feels strong emotions is rlly funny (henry makes sentient animatronics in this au he can do anything. everyone say ty plot device dad!!) ☆ has some sort of contacts made by his dad that allow him to see through the phone ☆ grew up with the restaurant, his dad managed the location he's currently at until passing the business and the manager position onto him when he was 25 and henry was ready to retire ☆ henry told scott the full truth about william shortly before retiring - including that he set the fire that he got caught in. it's made him pretty paranoid that he's coming for him or something's gonna happen to him, even if neither of them have heard from william since then and he's essentially off the grid ☆ always at the restaurant during opening hours but rarely ever seen bc he doesn't want to scare any of the kids with his phone head vincent & scott ☆ yes they're dating. everyone cheer!! early fandom purplephone was my SHITTTT i love them so much ugh they r everything 2 me ☆ ngl they remind me of poolverine (deadpool x wolverine). vincent is deadpool (VERY accurate.) and scott is wolverine (less accurate but their dynamic stands) ☆ scott finds vincent annoying at first but eventually warms up to him and now he loooooves him. he's still annoying but he loooooooooves him ☆ scott doesn't know vince is william's son at first since he changed his surname and looks completely different ☆ they're just rlly cute and deeply in love and got some angsty shit going on later but that'll be a surprise oooo

[rosypenguins]

Hi!!

I watched TMF 2 days ago because of edits I saw (and gacha phase didn't really left me after 5 years). Then I watched it again yesterday just for Drew & Jake interactions, wanted to see their rights and wrongs

I'm mostly on Drew's side even if he was the bully one, I mean it's understable that Jake wanted to be in the club and was afraid that he will lose his friends (and maybe get bullied by them) that he knew for 3 years. BUT I'm honestly mad at Jake that he didn't tell his best friend that his girlfriend is cheating on him. He also ignored the messages Drew was sending or even their group chat. If it comes to Drew: he didn't want to loose Jake and even if his actions weren't perfect (maybe toxic some ppl would say), he had good intetions. At least for Jake because he really thought they are using him (I kinda think Drew could have been in situation like this)

While watching their final fight, I felt like watching break up: Drew's broken voice especially on "freak" part, dull eyes, I mean everyone even disappeared after like it was only their moment. Drew lost the person he didn't want to loose, and he obv had a crush on him too. And then Jake after losing his friends, he is just thinking about club like the other ones were nothing. I know Jake misses them, even on stage he thought he saw these three. But why does he gave up on them so easily - I kinda understand him sometimes but I also don't

I saw your headcanon post and Drew begin biromantic is just perfect and I love it cause it fits him perfectly and also me too and it just made me love him even more and I totally agree and it is canon end of discussion

I kinda agree about Jake begin straight but he could also have been bi (that also has no idea about most of the orientations anyway) and not knowing this because he only accepts his girl crushes (boys are only "I was just embrassed" or "everyone like complements alr" I won't forget this mini small blush when Henry wanted to watch anime with you)

Even if their fight was messed up it wasn't that bad yet. I mean: Jake was in worse terms with the club after the audio because of what he said. But they made up and were even closer later. Some scenes *cough* break up *cough* made me ship Jake and Drew and even if Jake was kinda toxic, he didn't mean it and I really want him to try better and fight for their friendship

I love juffering and druffering but I also really hope that it won't separate these two permanently (Drew deserves better but I know Jake can be better, he just need to work on this)

*thinking if I forgot anything* Sorry it's a little long btw! I wanted to put my thoughts about these two so much

First: Yes, I loved the Drakeup but I can definetly agree that Jake seemed to move on too quickly. And I think it’s implied he’s trying to mask, but honestly I think this is just a flaw in the overall story-writing. As much as I love TMF, it definitely leans more towards telling than showing, and this problem is especially apparent with Jake. We’re told Jake cares about the Jomies, but we never see it. What we see is Jake running off to the Music Club, ghosting his friends, lying to them, and hiding the fact his best-friend’s girlfriend is cheating on him. So that’s probably why it felt so quick. And I wish we had more scenes of Jake with the Jomies, showing that he actually does care about them. I wish we had at least one other moment of him feeling upset about losing his friends. Hopefully this’ll be explored more in S2, and I’m praying we get more showing and less telling in the future.😭

Second, YESSS I’M SO GLAD U AGREE WITH MY DREW HEADCANON HIS BIROMANTIC VIBES ARE CRAZYYYY but also I totally understand what you mean about Jake. To be honest, I’ve seen so many different interpretations of Jake regarding both his sexuality and gender, and honestly all of it makes a lot of sense. That’s something I love about Jake’s character from a writing standpoint: there’s just so much room for interpretation. I may see him as a clueless straight guy, but I’ve seen people headcanon him as bi, transmasc or genderfluid. We’re all just having fun coming up with our own little ideas for him and personally I think that’s beautiful.

And finally, OMG IF ROSY LEAVES DREW AND JAKE SEPERATED I WILL RIOT. But thankfully, I highly doubt this’ll happen. With how much Rosy’s been hyping up Drew’s character, there is no way their fight won’t at least be acknowledged. And as much as I’m hoping for Drew redemption, I also wouldn’t mind if we got a Drew villain arc either. Either way I’m super hyped!

And I also feel like Drew’s characters been way too built up to just mot be explored. Like they don’t even need to make up. I just want them to acknowledge what happened and their friendship. If they were just done the rest of the series that’d be such a sour note to end on. I’m so fucking excited for season 2 I’m praying for Drew redemption but if Drew decides to have a villian arc I’m certainly not gonna complain. I’m just overall hyped lmao.

Never apologize for a long ask, I had such a fun time reading through! Thank you so much for sharing with me.

[fictionadventurer]

Austen asks! 4-24

I don't know if you intended this to be inclusive, but I'll answer them all anyway (skipping over the ones that have already been answered).

6. Favorite movie adaptation

The 1995 Sense and Sensibility. To me, it strikes a good balance between being a good adaptation and making the story accessible to audiences that haven't read the book, and it's one of the few that seems to understand Austen's humor and romance.

7. Favorite Austen couple

Anne and Wentworth. Their personalities balance each other perfectly.

8. Least favorite couple

Colonel Brandon and Marianne are so frustrating to me, mostly because of how Austen writes them. They fall victim to the Marian Halcombe Problem--if you spend the whole book showing a man and woman having tons of conversations and developing a good dynamic as equals, I'm not going to believe that he's in love with her sister.

9. Most hated foe of a heroine

Isabella Thorpe is a terrible person, and I can't think of any redeeming qualities or circumstances.

11. Least favorite book

I gained a better appreciation for Sense and Sensibility on my last reread, but it's still definitely Austen's weakest novel.

12. Least favorite Austen heroine

Marianne Dashwood is a realistic teenager, but not someone that I can admire or sympathize with too much.

14. Favorite love confession from the books

Can any Austen fan say anything other than The Letter in Persuasion?

16. Least favorite film adaptation

I hold a grudge against the 2005 Pride and Prejudice, because it did nothing to make me understand the appeal of Austen, and it's a horrible adaptation, but it has such a huge influence on fandom's interpretation of the novel.

Also, every once in a while, I remember the scene in the 2008 Sense and Sensibility where Brandon gives Willoughby a "stay away from my daughter" speech, and I shudder over how creepy it is.

17. Moment that made you sad/cry while reading

Basically any scene of Fanny Price's childhood.

18. Moment that made you smile/happy while reading

Henry Tilney's introduction scene in Northanger Abbey is just pure distilled joy.

19. Moment that made you laugh while reading

I'll never forget the time I laughed out loud in class while reading one of Miss Bates' speeches in Emma.

20. Moment that made you mad while reading

I don't know if I've ever been so mad for a heroine as I was during the scene where the neglected poor, orphaned, outsider Fanny watches everyone fawn over poor, orphaned outsider Mary Crawford.

22. Favorite Austen female casting decision

I love Tamsin Greig as Miss Bates in the 2009 Emma, because I did not imagine her talkativeness as stemming from anxiety, but it was fun to see her played that way and to experience a different interpretation that still felt valid.

I'm also going to take this opportunity to mention that I love Mrs. Jennings and Sir John Middleton in 1995's Sense and Sensibility. I just grin through every scene they're in, and I especially respect them after learning that they were the only cast members that Emma Thompson didn't have to write random extra dialogue for in crowd scenes, because they just naturally knew how to talk like Regency characters.

23. Favorite Austen male casting decision

I love Johnny Lee Miller as Mr. Knightley in 2009 Emma. I don't know if he matches the character in the novel, but I love how he portrayed the dynamic with Emma.

Also, Hugh Laurie as Mr. Palmer in 1995's Sense and Sensibility is perfection. And Greg Wise as Willoughby is beautiful and charming enough to do his job of fooling you into thinking he could be the romantic lead before he proves to be an utter cad.

24. Favorite supporting character

Mrs. Jennings. Hands-down. So vulgar, nosey, and over-the-top, but beneath it all, so kind and friendly and helpful. I love her so much.

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I’ve always been aware that my relationship with our earth is one very intuitive and enlightening by nature. I didn’t realize how heavily this would tie into my future career and role as a nature interpreter until this semester. As a biology and business major (BAS), I enrolled in this course with interest from a scientific and academic approach; however, as I answer each weekly prompt, I realize the sacred views I have of nature are not inherently how everybody feels about it. I’ve always felt a sense of belonging and “oneness” outdoors, surrounded by the ethereal and whimsical elements of nature and wildlife. Similarly, this blog has become an outlet for me to reflect and connect with individuals who share the same love for the natural world. I wasn’t quite sure of what to write for this week’s open topic. I considered talking about the detrimental impact fast fashion has on our environment, as it’s something I’ve always been pretty vocal about. After some thought, I realized I’ve been excessively reflecting on and comparing the differences between my opinions and experience to that of my peers. I’ve asked myself the questions “is it really that deep?” and “is my perspective not scholarly enough?”

While browsing through the collection of my peers’ blog posts, I’ve read about various perspectives of “nature interpretation” and how those views were formed through different life experiences. I’ve been captivated by photographs and entries written by a wide range of individuals, each telling tales of their own unique encounters with the outdoors all over the world! I’ve noticed a decent percentage of my peers are in environmental studies and expressed interest in future roles educating the public in national parks and museums. It’s evident that majority of us aspire to have future careers immersed in nature, encouraging others to increase their awareness to current environmental issues and preaching appreciation for nature as a whole. Likewise, I also envision a future for myself educating the public, but my passion for nature has always been tied to wildlife conservation and raising awareness for all species on our planet.

I’ve resonated with and related to numerous entries in the past four weeks, specifically with classmates who’ve expressed a significant emotional or spiritual connection with nature. I agree with everyone that nature can be very healing and physically/mentally soothing, but it goes far beyond that for me. Nature isn’t something I view as a place to go to escape the busyness and stress of life in our society, but something I wholly identify with.

To me, nature is mystical and enchanting: It’s debatably magical. I feel validated and connected after reading that some of you also see it through this transcendental lense! My introduction to this philosophic ideology was the first time I had considered the significance of maintaining the harmonious aura that connects nature and mankind. I can thank my grade 9 English teacher for introducing me to Henry David Thorough: I even glued the quote “All Good Things are Wild and Free” on my high school graduation cap.

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[sugarywishes]

In your AU, what do you think originally made William do what he did? And more pressingly, how did his motivations and goals change over time, as he got spring locked and eventually burned later on? I am very curious, especially with all the different interpretations around. And I wonder if it was a small thing at worse made worse by Evan's and/or Elizabeth's deaths, or if he was long gone even before they occurred...

May I just say, I absolutely love every question you throw at me, it gives me time to flesh out my rewrite of FNAF a lot and I really appreciate it! Answer below as usual. Also I guess, spoilers for my rewrite?? (As if I haven't been constantly yapping about this)

His original motivation was indeed Evan. He was his most treasured valuable, and losing him was horrible for everyone, and also having your family slandered by everyone in the community and getting fired made things even worse. It made William become more unhinged than he's ever been before, and he kills Charlie as a result (it was accidental drunk rage)

Anyways he totally freaks out at this and drives away before anyone could see him. He tried his best to forget abt it and avoid the restaurant and Henry but he went back to the location eventually to take cash (cause yk he doesn't have money so he resorted to steal some because Henry never took Will's keys, and also he didn't change the locks) and then he notices something off about the puppet animatronic, it seems almost too alive. Out of curiosity, he checks the old Golden suits in the back and sees that Fredbear's suit seems weirdly twitchy for being inanimate. And he notices that a weird dark ooze spills out of the robots so he takes some of it to investigate more in his basement

Some library scouring here, some personal experiments here and he dubs the substance Remnant and deduced that maybe enough of this could maybe bring Evan back to life (so his plan was to pull a Victor Frankenstein, holy shit) so he originally killed the MCI to collect more remnant to eventually use for Evan's corpse to hopefully bring him back, it successfully brought back a rat he was testing (but he failed to see that the rat kept decaying even when it was still 'alive') So who's to say that Evan just wouldn't become some sort of zombie or something?

But he starts getting a little too into the killing children thing. When he killed the first three, he did it out of a necessity and didn't really have any feelings when doing so. But after Fritz and Cassidy he started to enjoy it (and as i said in the Cassidy post he didn't have to kill her but he did because he wanted to) it was the first time he's felt joy since before Evan's death. It actually kind of grossed him out, so for a while, he stopped killing. (Internal conflicts, he'll eventually completely embrace this horrible part of him, and also because it's to show that he could've just not done that but yk thats the consequences of his actions so...) But he still thought it wasn't enough remnant (it's an excuse for him to keep killing!)

But as I said before he likes doing things the easy way, and he thought maybe if I make robots to kill kids I just get remnant faster and uh oh. Liz dies. And he doesn't really like the fact that the children that he does tolerate somewhat keep dying so he ditches that idea. It also makes him even more crazy!

This moment kinda awakens a fear of death in him (as if he hasn't been surrounded by death by KILLING KIDS) so now he starts killing the DCI/KCI kids to get some remnant for himself (and also cause he likes killing kids) to live longer to 'keep working on his Evan project' (which he has been sidelining), then yk then he dies. And in my other posts I said he doesn't remember much of anything in his human life when he becomes Springtrap, so in his memories he killed kids just cause he thought it was fun and he wanted to be immortal. Same thing applies to Scraptrap and Glitchtrap (at least until he sees Gregory and it awakens the locked away memories he had of his family, but that's a story for another time!)

He's always had the potential to be evil (as it think everyone has that) but it took a while for him to fully become the monster he is deep down. Or something like that idk how to sound cool in text lmao

[tenpintsof-sundrop]

ASK GAME ! ASK GAME ! ASK GAME ! which as I chant out loud sounds like I'm saying "ass game" ... same difference honestly sksksksk

Hiii for the violence ask game (love being a hater) I wanted to know 1, 2, 3 and 23 for whatever fandoms you feel the most passionate about

I wouldn't say that I love being a hater, but I do love being right lmao

also I am feeling spicy so these are gonna be for different fandoms

1 - the character everyone gets wrong

JASON. MOTHER FUCKING. TODD

especially the fandom interpretation Titans version, but like damn

(even other canons get him wrong, and Titans did him so right and people refuse to acknowledge it)

(I could also say Lori Grimes, and Andrea Harrison, and Dick Grayson, and Michonne Hawthorne, and even Gar Logan tbh but this is the rant I am picking)

white cis fanboys just see him as the violent revenge perpetrator - distilled rage, 'the bad sibling', the criminal, the cool one, the gunslinger. fucking whatever

but I am not even so big on a lot of women's interpretation of comics Jason - as some big soft cuddle bug who just needs to be treated softly and cuddled uwu, someone who rip out the throat of anyone who looks at you the wrong way and basically acts like a big bad doberman guard dog in your life (someone possessive and angry and jealous in a love life). again - no

Jason is one of the most emotionally complex characters and the only people who truly understand him are me and Curran Walters.

Jason is a wreck. he was set up to fail - his backstory of poverty and sadness isn't just about giving him some revenge to seek or making him a more conventional criminal, it's his emotional core. everything that has ever happened to him in his life makes him who he is, and so many people don't understand those layers. (so many people don't even acknowledge the differences between him and Dick before Jason became Red Hood). Jason is depressed, he's insecure, he thinks that he's nothing but a problem in other people's lives.

he uses violence as a tool because it's all he's ever known. in a relationship, he would be difficult to connect with because no one has ever truly tried before. he wouldn't be instantly loving - he would be guarded as hell.

I could go on a long time, but anyway - Titans Jason is largely a thing that the show got right and so many people refuse to acknowledge it because they just want to mock Curran's looks and it makes me want to bash my head into things

2 - a compelling argument for why your fave would never top or bottom

I have to do it to em - Spencer Reid would never be a fucking dom. NEVER

(also I know that bottom and top aren't synonyms for dom and sub but I think this ask game was created with mostly mlm ships in mind, so I am talking about this in a dom/sub context because I mostly write and consume x reader fics with bdsm dynamics)

Spencer is a sub. anybody who says that he is a dom, even a 'soft dom' is fucking lying to themselves because they have a particular fantasy that they want him to fit into. even later seasons Spencer would never be a dom

just because someone has rage and acts intimidating towards someone they consider an enemy doesn't mean they would ever feel the confidence to actually be dominant and in charge in bed. that man is walked like a dog constantly by other people in his life, and the only time he 'takes control' of a 'romantic' interaction is when he is with Cat - someone he also considers to be an enemy, an unsub that he can psychologically control. see the pattern?

3 - screenshot or description of the worst take you've seen on tumblr

I have discussed this before, and I wish I had a screenshot because without proof it almost doesn't seem real

someone saying that Spencer loves Henry more than JJ does - in a massive post where they listed all the reasons that JJ 'ruined' Spencer's life (which just gobsmacked me)

that post was a huge inspiration for the JJ/Spencer friendship scenes in [REDACTED]

I just cannot believe that the fandom is so fucking detached and unrealistic about JJ

23 - ship you've unwillingly come around to

...Richonne

this is in large part from what I have seen about The Ones Who Live spin-off, and I recently realized that the title of the spin-off comes from a scene where Michonne punches Rick in the head in order to literally knock some sense into him, so I fucking love that (and it seems like that's what the whole show is - her literally forcing sense into him after he's become detached from reality due to being held hostage by whatever the fuck that group's name is)

and I think The Thrifty Typewriter really put their relationship into terms that I was struggling with. so many Walking Dead ladies were relegated to nothing but being 'the love interest' once they became a love interest to someone. and if they were struggling with what to do with a female character, they turned her into a love interest for someone

Andrea being paired with a Governor, Rosita not getting more interesting storylines until after she parted from Abraham, Sasha being with Bob and then Abraham and then dying (although I think Sasha has a lot of interesting emotional beats, I see the point in saying that), Jessie (who could have had so much potential outside of just being a love interest for Rick, especially when they clearly had Richonne in mind), Lori's entire existence, etc.

So my huge problem with Richonne is that Michonne was so interesting before she got with Rick. And after she got with Rick, she lost all of her interesting traits, and she was stripped down to 'Lori 2.0'. Pregnant housewife character who stays at home and almost never fights. Rick was spotlighted and she was almost never around until Rick drowned. And I think I loved The Ones Who Live because it gave her back a lot of her fire and her autonomy as well as adding more to the romance, so it was the best of both worlds. (And it really made me come around to the pairing.)

And another huge problem I had with Richonne is the same problem I have with Dickkory - people who ship them act like the entire show was created to drive the ship. And the shippers get really annoying because they act like all the other interesting characters and plot lines do not exist. They act like the producers and writers made the show as a vessel to carry the single ship when that is clearly not the case.

For Dickkory, people boil Dick and Rachel's entire relationship down to 'omg, she is Dickkory's child' - which is very annoying. And for Richhone, people act like Andrea just does not exist, when she pulled Michonne out of a very dark place - Rick did not do that. Michonne said so herself. Andrea is a very important character in Michonne's story.

Anyway - I do like Richonne a lot now. More than I ever expected I would

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How do you think Charles would’ve gotten along with Trapper, Henry, and Frank?

SHAKES YOU!!! I have so many opinions on Charles interacting them!

I’ll start with Henry because I have the least amount of headcanons about him and Charles.

I do love Henry a lot but to be honest I just think a dynamic between him and Charles would just be a watered down version of what he already has with BJ and Hawk. Or at the very least, just Charles thinking that Henry is a bit incompetent and neglectful of his duties, but like charles already thinks everyone is pretty incompetent so like?? There’s not a lot there. Though I do think that Charles would appreciate the craftsmanship of the desk lmao. If Henry was CO during the time that charles got there I’m sure that charles would take waaaay longer to warm up to camp. Only because he would see Henry as someone who enables the shenanigans.

Now with Trapper, I actually believe it wouldn’t be too similar to how he treats bj. BJ, to Charles at least, is a decent man, a jokester and annoying especially if he and hawk are up to something, but a kinda of respectable family man when it comes down to it. Oh but trapper! Tapper John is Hawkeye’s perfect mirror and OH what a wall they would drive Charles up. I could go on a 3 hour rant about Trapper and Hawk being the perfect comedic duo on the camp, but this is about Charles. I think Charles would have a hard time merely being in the same room as trapper at times. I think trapper would act way better then Charles to get on his nerves, like act like he knows way more then he does about culture and opera and stuff like that, and that would drive Charles crazy. NOT TO MENTION that they’re both from Boston. Imagine Charles first coming to the 4077th and finding out Trapper was from Boston. Initially I think Charles would try to confide in him only for trap and hawk to pull a prank or something. I know in the early Charles episodes the show likes to laugh at Charles misery but oh well, can’t be helped I suppose. Another note, if they actually interacted in the should I could honestly see myself shipping Charles and trapper for a time. I think their personal dynamic would have been really really fun, trapper being overly flirty and Charles just being like “oh someone help me.” Though I don’t think they would be able to work long term, as trapper imo really likes to be ‘adored’ and taken care of in the relationship, and I don’t see Charles wanting that in someone, and especially cause of their economic difference it would make Charles feel kind of used? Idk. That’s just the Hawkchester part of me going off tho.

Okay okay, now Frank. I think, that this would honestly have been peak comedy for the show. ESPECIALLY if they were the same rank during their screen time together. If Frank was there I think that Charles would have very quickly gotten along with Hawk and BJ, especially if they were doing something to spite Frank. I can definitely see Charles, out of everyone hating Frank the most. I’m sure, it’s been said before, but I think it would be very funny if like Charles have a backhanded insult that frank is just too dumb so he interprets it as a compliment. Only for Hawkeye to add on. I think half of the dynamic between Charles and Frank is just Charles being bewildered by Franks incompetence. But also on a side not I can see him being like a wingman for Margaret like “honey you can do better then that.” Frank would definitely think there was something between Margaret and Charles, and he would get mad over that and ask Hawk and BJ for help only for them to laugh their asses off cause Charles and Margaret are MLM WLW solidarity.

Those are my basic thoughts on them, sorry for taking so long to reply I had to get my thoughts in order.

Also sorry for any spelling mistakes, writing and being coherent is hard lmao.

More asks about mash are always welcome!

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would you be up to explain the differences between canon Henry and your headcanons for him? Fandom interpretations are always so different I never know what’s common knowledge and not lol I’m intrigued

Hello! I'm not good at explaining stuff, so excuse any mistakes I might make. I might also misinterpret canon as I am only human, and my memory can fail me at times.

Also, with my headcanons I'm going to get deeper with some events and plotpoints instead of just giving general personality analysis.

The most important thing about canon Henry - for me - is that he is possessive - in a way.

You can kind of see it reflected in Charlie, who herself is pretty possessive of her things, memories and experiences.

Henry cannot let go of things and people he lost, it's natural, but his obsession is off putting even to his loved ones. He never lets go of Charlie, the diner, or the pizzeria.

He might have left Fredbear's, but the building remains where it was, the stage still inside. The springlock suits remain, allowing William to go on with his crimes.

He moves and opens another pizzeria. He makes a robot replica of his daughter, whom he cannot love properly anymore but clings to selfishly. He makes himself believe that she is still alive, only to rage when he realised she is��� not. He can be somewhat cruel in his entitlement. Negligent, distant and utterly miserable after the tragedy.

He must have known it was William who's commited the crimes, police knew, after all.

But I don't think he would ever say anything against him.

He wouldn't want to lose anyone else; anything else, after all.

In the games, though, he is equally depressed but seems almost vindicitve. Driven. Quite literally, he spends the rest of his life hunting William down, possibly not even sure if it makes any sense.

To be honest: it's even possible that he knew all along that William was alive inside the suit, that he was the one to lock him in that place for 30 years, behind a wall. Maybe he wanted him to suffer; maybe he wants to be the one to decide whether and how William is to die after what he's done.

After William gets out, Henry lures and hunts him and the others. He doesn't even care that he is hurting his daughter in the process.

He drags all the Aftons, as well as Charlie, into his big suicide mission. He cannot be sure they will pass; cannot be sure that Michael wants to. But he makes the decision for everyone.

I don't think he considers the spirits human at all - he is much more concerned with his vengeance as much as he likes to talk about setting them free (he fails, after all).

I think Henry resents the whole Afton family, using Mike as a tool.

As calculating as William, what a match.

In my own headcanons - yes, Henry's got that violent streak and low empathy - he doesn't get people.

He's big, strong and loud - can be intimidating.

He's way more social than my William, but people still fing him mostly unpleasant to be around. He is nice; a real family man, loving and trying. But he is ultimately just as awkard as his book counterpart and similarly single-minded as the game one.

Awkward around kids, distant at times, mainly concerned with things he seems to enjoy.

I imagine that Charlotte loves him a lot, and he loves her too, but as she grows up, so does the gap between them.

In my personal aus and headcanons Henry was in love with William and got his heart broken by him multiple times but clings to those feelings, and even after getting married, he cannot let go.

He and his wife get a divorce soon after having Charlie - she stays with her mother but sees him on weekends. He was supposed to have her over for a week every 2, but he is burying himself in his work.

He is overwhelmingly unhappy.

The diner and working on the animatronics brings him joy - he loves it - but he needs to deal with seeing William every day of his life, getting mixed signals and his hopes up, before being rejected again and again. Ironically, William thinks he is the one being rejected. Henry is possessive of his work (his whole life) afterall, so he excludes him, leaving him to the paperwork.

Anyways, his whole life is work, work and more work. He is much more invested in the Afton family affairs than his own, spoiling William's children as much as he does Charlie, wanting that life - wanting a big, happy family.

When he doesn't stay late at work he drinks alone at home.

He meets William outside of Freddy's at times. Sometimes, they go private. It's nice, and it hurts to be toyed with. It hurts that the man he loves seems to treat it as entertainment, from Henry's perspective at least (Later, I have to write down William's take on things).

He drinks until he knows that Charlie is coming home, and then, he tries to be fun and a good father, and he is.

But Charlie is smart and notices things.

Charlie likes William; they're very similar personality-wise.

Henry drinks more, considering what could be.

After William loses his wife and is left with the kids, Henry is ashamed because he's considered going to him, asking if they could try again.

He doesn't, instead helping with the kids, being particiularly close with Michael.

Just like Charlie is close with Will, Mike is close to Henry.

And Mike talks, and Henry sees what William is going through and what he does to the kids.

He tells William right away that he shouldn't worry about work and should focus on the kids (should not speak of her in present tense) and their well-being.

They argue.

Henry considers breaking their partnership up just to force him to actually focus on his family, he thinks William is being ungrateful, irrational.

He wishes he could punch him.

When 83' happens, it gets worse.

Everyone is off.

William's parenting gets worse. Henry feels forced into this decision. William doesn't talk to his kids, he is consumed by work, and when he isn't, he does God knows what in the privacy of his office. He makes mistakes, is messy. Smells of alcohol even at work. Snaps at clients, barely talks to Henry at all.

Henry considers breaking it all off.

Charlie dies.

Henry feels stupid for ever considering firing William - distancing himself from him - as he cries into his shoulder.

They cling to each other, and Henry thinks he knows. But who else does he have left? His ex wife, who looks at him with disgust? Whom he never felt close to at all? She blames him; Charlie died under his care, in his restaurant, and so soon after Evan's death, too!

She is right, of course.

He is disgusted as well.

When Elizabeth dies, he is sure that William is behind everything, and he confronts him but ultimately doesn't do anything with it. Doesn't tell anyone or go to police.

Only after William disappears, leaving Michael under his care, Henry grows hateful of him. Processes everything and turns bitter, vengeful.

Michael looks like William, and Henry lets him live under his roof, but they are not family anymore.

Henry drinks more - his days are a blur.

He feels pathetic and cruel, but doesn't care. Mike is in and out of the house, clearly not apprieciating his company.

He gets it, but he resents him for it.

He is just like his father.

He wants William, wants him dead, wants both William and himself dead.

He only starts caring again when, years later, Mike comes back home, no longer human, and with new information regarding his father.

It's then that Henry fully commits himself to revenge.

The rest is usually pretty similar to how game Henry functions but his obsession with William is both hatred and longing. He hopes they will burn in hell together.

Usually, in my aus, they somehow get back together: they cannot get rid of each other, but in the main thing, yeah, it ends up just like in the game. With a blaze.

In short, he is gay, sad and cannot handle human interaction. Also dependent on William to the point when he cannot function.

Sorry for the text being so long and somewhat incomprehensive. I might be wrong and I might be cringe, but I am free, and these are my takes!

Hope you enjoyed anyways.

SO

Book Henry: loving but sad, possessive/obssessive, distant and negligent. Somewhat selfish. A broken man.

Game Henry: Mad and tired, vindictive and cunning. Will do anything to fullfil his goal, willing to hurt innocent people (for example pizzeria guests) to get his revenge.

Au/Hc Henry: Depressed, dependent and angry. Cannot make a connection, something in between both book and game one with some additional spice.

[corpseybun-old]

Well, you've asked for prompts, so here I am. If you've read the Silver Eyes, could you tell me your take on the journals and the whole theory in the willry fandom that Will said: "Oh...you're something beautiful because of her dad vs because he knew that she was a robot and thought of her as such, since it was because Henry made her.

As much as I love Willry, I feel like in The Silver Eyes canon, it wouldn't happen. Those journals are directly described as being "full of raving paranoia, passages about Henry that ranged from wild jealousy to near worship."

That doesn't really come off as love to me. In my opinion, it comes off far more like an immense jealousy, like a feverish want to have everything Henry has, to be Henry.

Granted, it is just a single line. I've seen so many different interpretations of those journals and of William and Henry's dynamic as a whole, and I can't say I have a singular favorite interpretation of them. We get the smallest little scraps of how William truly felt about Henry. It can lead to such great ideas from fans, and I love it.

On the topic of Charlie being fascinating to William, I cant help but think that's because she's a robot.

William lost his daughter, just like Henry did. He (debatably) tried to bring Elizabeth back too, and yet she came back wrong. She wasn't his daughter. She's her own person, yes, but she isn't the person William wanted back. And yet here stands Charlie, a metaphorical middle finger to all of William's experiments on immortality, the fact she has complete autonomy and is able to live even after Henry's passing is of course going to be beutiful to William. Henry did what he couldn't: he truly made something alive, and that's beautiful to him.

Granted, I also like the idea of her being beautiful to him because of her connection to Henry. She's Henry's final gift to the world, of course he'll see nothing but beauty in that. Charlie is everything he's ever wanted to create, she's seemingly the very embodiment of the thing he's trying to create with his remnant research: life.

Charlie was created because of suffering, yes, but unlike everything else William unintentionally helped create with his killings, she isn't stuck in that suffering. Unlike Elizabeth, Charlie is able to move on from her death and truly live in spite of that.

I know not everyone believes that was Charlie that John saw at the end of The Fourth Closet, but I personally believe it is. I love the idea of Charlie still living with her beloved, of her processing and moving on from not just her own death, but of everyone else's.

I'd love to see fanworks of her processing Jen's passing, of her eventually coming with the fact she will outlive her friends. If you have any to recommend please send me them! Thanks for reading this far, by the way. I hope this answered your questions.

[megalony]

A man named uncle- Part 2

Here is the second part of my new, different Henry Cavill series that I hope everyone is going to like, feedback would be appreciated.

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Summary: (Y/n) and Henry have a house of girls and they are guardians of their nieces who they think of as their daughters. But looking after their girls isn’t easy when (Y/n)’s pregnant and their fifteen year old niece starts to resent (Y/n) and is fighting for Henry’s sole attention.

Enjoy.

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"You're not taking us,"

(Y/n) couldn't decide whether the words were meant to be a question or a high demand but however they were supposed to be interpreted, they made her heart lurch down into her stomach. She knew better than to take the words to heart but it didn't stop her heart from reacting to them in a deeply upsetting way.

Hitching her bag higher up on her shoulder, (Y/n) snook a glance over at Henry before she raised her head and forced a smile on her lips.

"I'm not taking you, I'm coming with you." (Y/n) continued to try and keep a smile on her face while she held her hand out towards Alice who came running through the gates and bypassed Jamie immediately.

It was their day for contact with their mum and they were allowed to leave school just over an hour early to go and see their mum. Neither girl wanted to go, they would rather stay in their classes and finish the day at school and then go home. They didn't want to go to contact but they didn't have a choice in the matter when a judge said they were too young to decide for themselves if they wanted to see their mum or not.

She wasn't truly their mum anymore.

She had been in and out of Jamie's life since the moment she was born and she had barely been around at all for poor Alice. The moment Alice was born, she was pawned off on (Y/n)'s parents before (Y/n) and Henry decided to take her in. She didn't want to see the woman who always promised to take her out or visit her but never did.

"No... you promised you'd take us." If Jamie were a few years younger she may have stomped her foot on the ground or resorted to a scream to show his she disapproved of (Y/n) coming with them. But instead, she clenched her hands into fists and folded her arms over her chest when she looked at Henry.

He said he was taking them, neither of them said anything about (Y/n) coming too. They were supposed to go out after contact, Henry promised they could do whatever they wanted, whether it be going to the cinema, out for something to eat or bowling. They could do something fun and relax with time alone with him.

"Carry on being rude and you're not going anywhere." Henry tilted his head to the side and rose a brow with a dangerous tone to his voice that made Jamie internally shiver.

He wasn't impressed.

"I need to talk to your mum so I'm coming to contact but after that, I'll get the girls and take them home. You're still going out after, I just need to see her. Alright?"

(Y/n) slowly looped her arm through Henry's crooked elbow and pulled his bicep across her chest in a small gesture to tell him to calm down. She knew if Jamie's attitude continued, Henry's temper would also flare. He was a very mild-mannered, laid back man but he wouldn't have any of the girls say or do anything rude to disrespect (Y/n). She was their mother and deserved their love and respect.

She could feel his arm tensing and relaxing against her but his expression stayed the same while he waited for Jamie's response.

They both knew how much it meant to Jamie and Alice to have time alone with each of them. They didn't get much attention from their real parents and they craved love and attention so badly. It's why they made sure to give the girls at least one day a week alone with either Henry or (Y/n) so they could be together and have some time alone. The girls loved their time alone with each of them and since Henry had been away for two weeks, they had spent more time with (Y/n). It was their turn to go out with Henry now.

"Okay... sorry." Stuffing her hands in her pockets, Jamie moved over to Henry's other side and the four of them got in the car for the ten minute drive to the family centre.

If it was (Y/n)'s choice, she wouldn't be coming to contact. Three weeks ago she had taken the girls to their last contact session and it was Henry's turn, but (Y/n) needed to talk to her sister and contact was the best place to do that.

She had all but given up on her sister now and her antics and bad ways.

There were many times (Y/n) had forgiven her big sister, such as all the times she screwed Jamie over in her life. Each time Jasmine dumped Jamie back with their parents and floundered off somewhere for weeks at a time, she had been forgiven. She had been seventeen when she gave birth and she didn't want a baby but at the same time, there was part of Jasmine that just couldn't give away her baby either. Not when her parents graciously offered to help bring Jamie up if that's what she wanted.

Each time Jasmine promised to do better and do right by Jamie, (Y/n) forgave her. She forgave her sister for pawning her child off on her or for how she treated her girl.

Even the time when (Y/n) had been on a date- which Jasmine had crashed whilst being drunk, and told her date that (Y/n) had a two-year-old waiting for her at home. (Y/n) had only been sixteen and safe to say, no one else wanted to date her when that rumour went round college.

Or the times when Jasmine would tell everyone Jamie was (Y/n)'s and turn up in the middle of the night and hand her over to (Y/n), crying and sobbing that she couldn't look after her right now.

Or when she had been pregnant with Violet and was horribly ill during the last month of her pregnancy and Jasmine turned up and dumped Jamie on the doorstep. (Y/n) had been in no fit state to look after Jamie and Henry had been shooting his film during the night and was barely home either. (Y/n) forgave her for that too.

With Alice, it wasn't so easy to forgive. Jasmine wasn't cut out to be a mother and she barely tried with Alice, she just gave her to anyone who would have her. By choice, (Y/n) wasn't talking to her sister much anymore but today she needed to see her and that meant tagging along to contact.

"Baby, we're here," Henry reached across and rested his hand on (Y/n)'s leg when he noticed she seemed to have zoned out.

"Dad..." The moment they got out the car, Alice wrapped her arms around Henry's leg and tugged to the point his jeans almost came down. She didn't want to be here, she didn't want to see the woman she barely knew try and pretend that they were a loving family. She didn't want to sit and hear Jasmine ask about school and what she was doing and then suddenly ask how old she was like she did last time.

"Alright sweetheart, we won't be here long." Leaning down, Henry gently untangled her arms from his leg and scooped her up to sit on his hip. If it were up to him they wouldn't have to come here. They were old enough to know their own minds and they knew whether they wanted to see Jasmine or not.

A small smile worked its way onto (Y/n)'s lips despite the headache forming behind her eyes when she felt Jamie move closer to her side when they walked in the building. She knew Jamie hated this place and every time they left, she seeked out some sort of comfort and solace.

(Y/n) looped her arm through Jamie's after speaking to the receptionist and they headed down to room number three. She could feel Jamie tensing beside her and her steps were becoming slower and more sluggish before (Y/n) took a deep breath and opened the door.

There she was, sat in the usual armchair beneath the window.

With a swallowed breath, (Y/n) took in the state of her sister as she and Jamie walked into the room and moved to sit on the sofa. She could feel Jamie tightening her hand around (Y/n)'s arm, a small but desperate plea for her not to let go just yet and she wouldn't.

Her sister looked a little better than the last time she saw her. Her hair was more stylish today, pinned back to the side and curly as if she had taken the time to put curlers in. It was still a mix of pale hazel and dark brown from a bad hair dye but she looked more alert today, a nice pale blue dress with a belt round the middle and some flat shoes.

Sometimes Jasmine looked like she had been caught in a hurricane when she came to contact or like she had just come from a street fight, at least today it showed she was trying to make a little effort.

"Hi sweetie,"

"Hi," It was clear Jamie was refraining herself from calling her mum by her first name. She hadn't called Jasmine 'mum' in years but she knew every time she called her Jas, it cut deep and it made the air in the room too thick to breathe. She didn't deserve to be called a mother but at the same time, Jamie cared just a little too much to really hurt her.

"Alice, baby, come give mummy a kiss." Jasmine held out her arms with a wide smile that slowly slipped away when Alice stood near the coffee table, unsure which way to move.

She became stiff as a board when she finally moved towards her mum and her body shook from how tense she was. But when a kiss was placed on her cheek, she turned and retreated back to the armchair where Henry was sat and scrambled up onto his lap.

"So, how have you both been, what have you been up to?"

"I've joined gymnastics after school on Thursdays," Jamie looked down at her hands as she spoke. Part of her wished the gymnastics club was run on a Tuesday so then she wouldn't have to come here. But she knew if it was, they would just change contact day anyway and she wouldn't have a choice, so it didn't really matter.

"You're not very, athletic." Jasmine chose her words carefully but she smiled nonetheless.

"Yeah well, I'm gonna be."

"What about you, Ali?"

"I like art, I did some pictures for mum." Alice stayed tucked up in Henry's arms and didn't bother to look over at Jasmine when she spoke.

She knew she shouldn't really call (Y/n) her mum in front of Jasmine because it always made things awkward and last time she did it upset Jasmine, but she couldn't help it. She wished (Y/n) was her mum and she always said it was okay if she wanted to call her mum. Jasmine was more of a distant auntie she never really got to know and she didn't want to know her either.

"Will you draw me a picture?"

Biting her nail, (Y/n) looked across at Henry before she shrunk back in her seat, feeling a shiver running along her spine when Jamie rested her head on her shoulder. The hour they spent here each time always seemed to drag on forever and it never seemed to end. There was nothing they wanted to say to each other and the girls didn't know what to do or how to interact with Jasmine when she could be very tempermental.

One week she might look disgruntled and get snappy at anything they said and the next time she would be happy as ever, kissing and hugging them and pretending everything was just fine. It was off-putting for the girls and whenever Jasmine cancelled a visit, they were both unsettled and relieved all at once.

After about twenty minutes of mismatched conversation, (Y/n) patted Jamie's arm and tried to force a smile.

"Why don't you take Alice to go get a drink from the machine?"

Reaching into her bag, (Y/n) handed her purse over to Jamie who was quick to jump up and hold her hand out to Alice. It was clear Alice needed a small break and Jamie would do anything to get out of this boring conversation for a few minutes. She knew how to drag her feet to draw out the seconds so when they came back they wouldn't have long before it was time to go.

"Have they been okay, Alice looks a bit under the weather." When the girls left the room, Jasmine moved to sit down next to (Y/n), blind to how her sister moved an inch away when she got close.

"She's fine, they're both doing good... listen, we're going to talk to someone next week about these sessions."

"Why?"

"The girls aren't happy, it's off-putting to come here every week and they don't want to."

(Y/n) didn't know how else to put it and she hated the way her sister pulled back as if she had been slapped in the face. But it was the truth, she and Henry were going to find out of these sessions could be cancelled because they were making the girls worse rather than improving their relationship with Jasmine and it wasn't fair anymore.

"Of course they want to see me, (Y/n) don't be like that they're my daughters."

"And I have custody of them. If you really want to keep seeing them then why not come to mums and visit them? Somewhere they feel safe and relaxed and maybe we could take them out for ice cream if you can commit to it. Anything's better than this place."

It was too formal for the girls, Jamie didn't care as much about where contact happened she just didn't want it in general. But if it had to continue then they could meet at their parents house, somewhere the girls were comfortable and could be around other people and leave when they wanted to. And if Jasmine could commit to regular visits they could take the girls out somewhere, only if the girls wanted to though.

"I have been committing to seeing them, I've turned up to these visits-"

"Jas, you've missed five this year. They don't want to meet you in this place, it's not fair on them."

"And you think letting them call you their mother is fair?"

(Y/n) could feel a headache forming behind her eyes, but maybe that was because of how sick she had been feeling lately. It was so much easier when the girls were younger, even though everything always seemed to go up in the air and things kept going from bad to worse, somehow it was easier than the stability they had now. The girls being stable meant that Jasmine felt like she was being pushed out and forgotten but she couldn't have it both ways.

Sometimes (Y/n) wondered if it was better back when Jamie was a little girl and she and Jasmine would take her out to the park or the play areas. They always caught the bus into town and took her out.

But then again, (Y/n) couldn't handle going back to that part of her life where she was looking after a toddler that wasn't hers in her parent's house. And then when she moved out she barely got time alone without Jamie coming in and out of her life and Jasmine bustling in and ruining everything.

Meeting Henry and having the girls changed everything, he helped (Y/n) raise the girls and now they were slowly becoming a family. (Y/n) would never be able to go back to how things used to be.

"What else would they call the woman who raised them?"

Henry rubbed his hand over his chin but his other hand stayed balled up in a fist on his leg. He could never quite control his temper when Jasmine was in the room and she was the only person who ever managed to rile him up and ruin his calm persona. He never understood how (Y/n) could be so calm and collected when her sister used and manipulated her and tried to ruin everything she had, intentionally or not.

He couldn't count the times Jasmine had made (Y/n) cry or feel bad about herself when she was doing everything she could to raise her nieces. If Jasmine couldn't take responsibility for her life then Henry didn't want to be around her and hear her blame everyone else for her mistakes.

"Henry..."

"Jamie's fifteen now, she can choose whether she wants to meet up with you for a coffee or if she doesn't want to see you and that's her choice. And I think Alice might give you another chance but you'd have to really try with her which you never do. If they don't want to see you I'm not gonna make them."

(Y/n) pressed her face into her palms and took a deep breath. At least Henry could say everything she couldn't, even if he never sugar coated it. They weren't going to do this anymore, it wasn't a debate it was a decision that had already been made.

"Daddy," Alice pushed past Jamie and made a beeline for Henry and was just about to scramble up onto his lap when he stood up. His hands held her sides and he settled her on his chest like she was a toddler again, letting her arms cocoon around his neck and her head burrow into his chest. They had been here long enough, they all needed to leave and calm down now.

"If you want to meet up and see the girls and they agree, ring me and let me know."

(Y/n) could see the relief in Jamie's eyes when she realised they were leaving now and she reached out for (Y/n)'s hand as if wanting to drag her out to get away a little quicker. She let Jamie loop their arms together and practically pull her along to follow Henry and Alice out the room.

"Jamie, slow down," (Y/n) pulled her back a little when the speed she was walking made (Y/n)'s head spin faster.

She could feel the hallway stretching out into eternity and and the more Jamie pulled on her arm, the more she became unbalanced in herself. The room they had been in for the last hour had been sweltering hot even with the window cracked open and (Y/n) felt like she was a boiled egg by now. Added with the fact that she hadn't eaten yet today and wouldn't be able to eat until she got Violet and Minnie back home just made her feel worse.

The moment they got outside, the fresh air and the cold breeze hit (Y/n) like a tidal wave knocking the air out of her system. Her previously burning skin now felt like it was prickling with frostbite.

She needed to sit down.

"W- what's wrong? Uncle Henry," Jamie's head frantically looked between (Y/n) and Henry when (Y/n)'s weight suddenly leaned on her and she bent her knees and went down to the pavement. Leaning down, Jamie tried to be gentle and help (Y/n) sit down without falling with a bang but the moment she sat down, her head flopped to rest on top of her arms.

She kept hold of (Y/n)'s hand but her eyes focused on Henry who handed his car keys to Alice and gently told her to get in the car before he turned round and jogged over to them.

Something inside of Jamie wished that look of concern in his eyes was meant for her.

"Baby, you okay? Talk to me," Kneeling down in front of (Y/n), Henry gently pressed his hands to her elbows and rubbed soothing circles into her skin. She felt hot to the touch and he knew she had barely managed to eat anything today. He knew he should have tried to get her to eat something before they came out. "Baby?"

"I- I'm good, just went dizzy for a moment." Lifting her head, (Y/n) managed a small smile when her eyes came back into focus and she could see Henry's lips quirking up into a lopsided smile.

He leaned forward and pressed his lips to her temple before he wrapped his arms around her waist and slowly helped her up to her feet. His arms stayed tight around her middle, keeping her pressed up to his front and (Y/n) rested her palms on his chest, relishing in the touch for a few more seconds.

"Are you gonna be alright to pick up the girls? I won't leave you if you don't want me to." Henry moved his hand to cup the back of (Y/n)'s head and he spoke quietly with his lips an inch away from her forehead. He didn't want to leave her at the school to walk home with the girls if she was going to have another dizzy spell. He would rather take her home and make sure she was alright than risk leaving her and worry she might not be okay.

When she opened her eyes, (Y/n) dared to sneak a look to her left to see whether Jamie had heard Henry's words or not. She looked rather put-out but she didn't look like she heard, if she did then (Y/n) was sure she would have added her own input by now.

(Y/n) couldn't upset Jamie, she was desperate to go out to the cinema and just have some time to herself and be out with Henry. It wouldn't be fair for (Y/n) to make them all come home when she knew she would be fine after eating something and having a sugary drink.

"No, you take the girls out, I'll be fine. I promise."

"Can we go now?"

Henry leaned his head back and rolled his eyes with a small smile, he could see the anticipation in Jamie's eyes. She was done with this meeting and she wanted to go out now, she wasn't waiting around for anyone. Deep down Henry would feel better if she showed a little more compassion towards (Y/n) but he knew a lot of the time Jamie would just shut down and focus on what she wanted to do.

"Yeah, we can go."

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A soft hum vibrated at the back of (Y/n)'s throat in a melodic tune as she slowly swayed her upper body from left to right. Her cheek was nuzzled softly against the top of Minnie's head and her hand was rubbing soothing circles up and down her back. She could feel her little girl making a few small noises of contentment as she stuffed her thumb into her mouth.

Turning around, (Y/n) started to slowly pad along the dark red carpet while her gaze drifted from looking at her youngest girl to looking at the far wall where her mural wall was. It was a cherry red room but the wall behind Minnie's bed had a black Minnie and Mickey Mouse sticker taking up the majority of the wall with her name in big Disney style letters underneath.

Another melody hummed against (Y/n)'s lips and she closed her eyes, smiling to herself when Minnie snuggled further into her chest. She wouldn't be able to do this in a few months with a bump in the way.

Her eyes remained closed but her lips curved up into a soft smile when a pair of strong arms gently curled around her frame. A hard chest pressed up against her back and she could feel soft breaths tickling against her ear.

Henry slowly wrapped his arms over (Y/n)'s arms and brought his hand up to to rest on the back of Minnie's head, dragging his fingertips through her curls.

Leaning down, he pressed a soft kiss against (Y/n)'s neck, smiling into her skin when he felt her shiver at his touch. He couldn't resist joining in on such a calm and quiet moment with two of his girls, especially when he hadn't seen much of Minnie today with her being at school and him taking the other girls out. He kissed his way up (Y/n)'s neck until he was nipping at her cheek and his arms tightened around her, squeezing her against his chest.

"Are you feeling better?"

"A little," (Y/n) knew having something to eat and drink would make her feel better and she did manage some dinner with the girls. Her head still had a dull throbbing behind her eyes but she felt better compared to this morning.

"Good,"

Henry moved his hand to rest on Minnie's back when she shimmied a little higher up on (Y/n)'s chest and snuggled up to her neck like she was already in her bed getting comfy. His other hand slowly tickled down (Y/n)'s side until the palm of his hand was resting on her lower stomach. In just a few short months he would be able to feel their next baby kicking against his hand. Henry remembered when they were expecting Minnie, she was forever sending kicks his way like she automatically knew when Henry was around.

"I love you." (Y/n) couldn't help the smile that broke out on her face when he whispered those little words in her ear.

A rumbling bubbled up at the back of Jamie's throat and a burning sensation errupted in her chest as she hovered behind the door just over the threshold of Minnie's room. She leaned a little closer towards the door and peeked her head round to try and get a better look but looking only made the fire inside of her burn brighter and made her nose burn with the threat of tears.

It wasn't fair.

Why did (Y/n) get everything? She had the girls with Henry, she even had Alice who was now practically one of their daughters too. She had Henry who was the absolute best person in the world, he was funny and caring and loving and adoring and worshipped the ground she walked on. He held her like that and cradled her to his chest like he was trying to stuff her into his heart and keep her safe forever. He kissed her neck so sensually and he held her close and he adored all their girls.

And now she was pregnant too, (Y/n) had everything and Jamie had nothing in comparison. She wasn't their daughter, she wasn't truly (Y/n)'s which hurt more than she cared to admit and Henry wasn't hers, he was (Y/n)'s.

Why couldn't they swap places?

[elipheleh]

The truth is every queer person has the right to come out on their own terms, and on their own timeline. They also have the right to choose not to come out at all. The forced conformity of the closet can not be answered with the forced conformity in coming out of it.

-Alex, Red White & Royal Blue (2023)

i want to talk about this quote. full disclosure, it’s because i keep seeing some really frustrating takes (some of which veer into queerphobia) and i am getting a bit annoyed with people and rather than directly addressing it with them & appear to be picking a fight im going to make an analysis post in my space. (tbf. its mostly on twitter and i have a priv account so that limits me)

disclaimer; this is my interpretation, im not saying its the only interpretation just something to consider. i am queer & cognitively disabled - don’t assume malice and dont be cruel. i will ignore and block freely.

tl;dr/very simplified summary: it doesn’t mean “dont ever speculate about other people’s sexuality” but rather that ‘coming out’ in the way society understands it shouldn’t be a necessity for queer people to exist openly as queer. full context under the cut & self-exploration questions at the end.

so lets start with the context. alex is talking at a point in time when the world has read their emails and so knows both are queer (bi & gay, specifically), but neither alex/the white house or henry/the palace have commented. so more simply - alex and henry are known to be queer, but have not come out. alex uses the speech to come out as bi, and as being in love with henry. he also uses it to imply that he & henry should have the right to choose not to do this formal coming out alex is doing.

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okay. lets get into the quote analysis.

The truth is every queer person has the right to come out on their own terms, and on their own timeline.

reasonably self explanatory. each queer person gets to decide their own timing for coming out, and the way that they want to address their sexuality.

They also have the right to choose not to come out at all.

this is where problems with interpretation have started to appear. fundamentally yes, this means people are allowed to not be openly queer/‘out’ if that is what their decision is. but it also means that they can be visibly queer - for example being in a visibly queer relationship; signalling with their aesthetic (e.g. someone being butch, someone who wears only ‘girl’ clothes despite that being at odds to their assigned gender); casually posting about queer things on social media etc - without addressing their own sexuality to others.

it does not mean that you should assume everyone is straight until they explicitly tell you otherwise. and quite frankly insisting that it does mean that is veering into homo-/bi-/queer-phobia because you are insinuating that being not-straight is a negative thing.

The forced conformity of the closet can not be answered with the forced conformity in coming out of it.

some people seem to be interpreting this as ‘you shouldnt force people out of the closet’ and i don’t think thats quite to the nuance of what it means. yes, i do think that is part of it - in much the same way as the previous sentence - but it is not really the whole of it. in my opinion this is actually addressing - at least to some degree - the concept of ‘we should assume people are straight until they explicitly say otherwise’.

the ‘forced conformity of coming out’ addresses the idea that to be “out” you have to follow these steps; that you have to make a public statement that ‘this is my sexuality and i am [queer/bi/gay/pan/ace/etc]’. you are conforming to this precedent of “how to come out” that countless queer people have followed. there’s nothing inherently wrong with doing so, but actually there are different ways to be queer - and even being “out” as queer - that don’t involve following that playbook.

here’s a hypothetical to demonstrate my point. two men, who have never dated any women, live together & spend basically all their time together over 5-10 years. they holiday with each other’s family, they’re always together at events (e.g. weddings of non-mutual friends), but they’ve never told you/the public that they’re queer and/or dating each other. at what point does one start to assume they’re together? and does the answer change if its a man & a woman rather than two men? if a man & a woman did that, people would assume pretty early on they’re probably dating. but yet when it’s two men suddenly it’s invasive to speculate. this is where this concept of the forced conformity of coming out comes in - along with the veering into homophobia i referenced earlier - why must they say the words “i am gay” for it to then be ‘okay’ to consider that they’re together? (the homophobia comes into play because if you think being gay is morally neutral (which it is) then you shouldn’t have any issue with the speculation about people being together regardless of their genders.) the idea that straight is the default is where this forced conformity starts to really kick in.

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i guess the main things i want people to ask themselves are these (and i have been asking myself these questions, there is no judgement or censure just self examination):

1. do you think people can be openly queer publicly without explicitly sharing that they are queer? (by this i mean in an announcement or in casual conversation. can you be openly queer without ever addressing it explicitly?)

2. if you do, why do you think that talking about the possibility someone is queer is something that should be hushed up? is it because there is an internalised concept that being queer is something abnormal and/or negative? if it was a straight couple would you feel the same way?

3. what does “coming out” mean to you? why does it mean that, what have you internalised to get to that conclusion & is it something that always works or are there other ways to be openly queer (or ‘out’ if you prefer)?

4. is it possible that there are queer people living openly and happily as themselves without explicitly addressing their sexuality to the wider world, who don’t want to address it publicly? does this make them closeted or ‘less’ queer to you? if so, what makes you think that?

[payattentiontothescreen]

Bridgerton Rewatch S1E4 - An Affair of Honor

Here we go with episode 4! Just as a warning before getting into this one, I was kinda high when I watched this episode so my notes are pretty incoherent. I’ll do my best to interpret them.

When Daphne and Violet go to the palace, there are those upper-crust dumbasses calling Daphne a commoner. Obviously that’s a pretty crazy thing to say about the Bridgertons but that’s how everyone at court sees them. Once you get to the absolute top of society, the family of a viscount is basically destitute. It just proves how Daphne would never have fit into this part of society.

I’ll talk more about the necklace later but for now I just need to say that it looks insanely uncomfortable.

Alice Mondrich comes in swinging during Simon’s pity party before the boxing match. She’s so great, I can’t wait to see more of her in season 3.

It’s funny but also sad that everyone is so confused when Mr. Finch comes calling for Philippa. It’s like no one actually believed in the girls’ abilities to attract anyone. It’s not unfounded, but it still sucks.

Some of the greatest dramatic irony in this show comes when you watch the first season after learning Lady Whistledown’s identity. Eloise talks about how much she admires LWD because she doesn’t spend her nights “simpering at the edge of a ballroom” (not the exact quote but still). Little does she know that LWD/Penelope does exactly that almost every night, which is why she has the information she does.

I have a feeling that there’s gonna be one really strange outing per season. This season was the boxing date with Daphne and Friedrich. Like, it makes sense in context but imagine having a conversation about kids and what kind of family you’re looking for in the middle of a boxing match.

Daphne staring at Simon’s forearms will always make me chuckle. Those forearms got my girl dizzy, it’s hilarious.

I will be saying this a lot but I think Benedict and Henry should have kissed. I remember watching the show for the first time and being very disappointed that they didn’t kiss. Every time I go back, part of me hopes that it’ll be different this time but I know it won’t.

The art of background acting is so underrated. I had this noted at the point when Anthony tells Daphne that Friedrich asked for permission to propose. Claudia Jessie isn’t technically a part of the scene but she is still in character, acting her heart out as Eloise. The facial expressions are killer, it’s amazing. 

The scene where Daphne admits to Violet that everything between her and Simon was “fake” is so good. You can tell that Daphne is trying to convince herself of everything she’s telling her mother as if it’s fact. The hurt and desperation is so present, it’s crazy.

I have a lot of thoughts on high society racial integration part of Bridgerton’s world but writing about it here would completely derail this post. That’s gonna have to come later.

The mood whiplash coming for Benedict after Henry tells him that second sons have all the fun is gonna hit him like a freight train.

I get so much secondhand embarrassment from Eloise confronting Mrs. Wilson about Lady Whistledown. I take my headphones off during that scene, the cringe is too much.

Colin is so in love with Penelope and so clueless about it. I am so looking forward to him finally realizing his feelings.

So we have made it outside of the Trowbridge Ball and here is where I talk about the necklace. This gift absolutely had to be a necklace. Nothing else would have shown how suffocated she felt by Friedrich’s affections. When she took it off, she breathed like it was physically choking her. That imagery is so powerful, especially with Simon watching Daphne release herself from the grasp of the prince.

Simon here bugs me because he’s practically talking Daphne out of marrying Friedrich when he knows it’s the best course of action. He’s getting in her head while ignoring the fact that he will refuse to marry her. Like, what was he actually trying to accomplish? I understand that this is why Simon and Daphne get married but he gets under my skin a little bit here.

Quick little side note, I don’t know if this is a cinematography thing or weird direction that didn’t play out on camera but Simon and Daphne getting it on in the garden looks so awkward and uncomfortable? To me, at least. I didn’t find it very sexy, just awkward.

And thus begins my favorite part of season one, the wild melodrama of the duel. I don’t know how they managed it because the situation is bad and the stakes are real but it still plays out very over the top. I love it so much.

We have made it to the point in the first season where Marina becomes kind of shitty. It gets worse later on but here is where we start to see it.

“Not everyone can be a pretty Bridgerton” may be harsh, but it’s true. It’s more present in the second season but Eloise doesn’t actually understand her position. She is a member of the family with some of the most social capital in the ton and it is largely because of their looks. All this to say that the Bridgertons are pretty privilege incarnate.

Something I love about Simon and Will’s friendship is how much is said without words. It shows how well they know each other in such a great way.

This is what I wrote down: “Addiction is a disease but Lord Featherington is a fuckhead.” I don’t think I need to elaborate on that one.

I’ve been trying to avoid talking too much about Siena because I’m not a fan of her storyline but it’s wild to me that she gets upset when Anthony leaves for the duel. He literally told her that he was dueling at dawn. That’s why he was there, that’s why she let him in. Why is she making a face about it now? This is something else that I could be misinterpreting but it just stood out as I was watching.

The duel is so good. It’s so extra and overdramatic. I know it wasn’t meant to be but let’s be honest, no one was gonna die. So it just reads as so over the top to the outside observer. At least to me, it does.

I don’t know how much there actually is to say about it but something that stood out to me was the way the conversations with the seconds went. Anthony has very clear instructions for Benedict and makes sure that he knows them, even once they’ve already gone through the whole thing. When Will asks if Simon wants him to make any arrangements, Simon tells him that his affairs are in order and nothing else. If that doesn’t say a lot about their family lives, I don’t know what does.

Something that I always notice when I watch Daphne getting shot at is the reactions. Simon runs for her as soon as the horse bucks. Anthony runs for her when she falls. There’s a lot of things that could say but I’m not gonna assign a specific interpretation here because I can’t decided on one.

My final note on this episode was “gaslight, gatekeep, girlboss” and I think that’s a very fitting end to this notes session.

As we get closer to season 3, I'm concerned that I won't be able to watch the whole thing beforehand but let's see.

[happiness-of-the-pursuit]

Get to Know Me

Hi! I got tagged in two different getting to know people tag games so I am combining them into one :) thanks will be at the bottom :)

Tags below the cut :) but also everyone that I tagged in an answer is welcome to play!

First Set

Last song: Dear Theodosia (@user-anakin, @saintlynomenclature @read-and-write- and I were being emo about all the Hamilton and RWRB parallels, listen to this song & think of Burr as Ellen/Oscar and Hamilton as Arthur)

Last film: Ferrari

Currently reading: Fic, lol, rn I am not chipping away at my tbr and instead slowly rereading Made the Right Selection by @clottedcreamfudge b/c @affectionatelyrs and I love cheerleader Alex/football player Henry

Currently watching: i don't really watch TV besides sports, but I guess Percy Jackson counts ???

Currently consuming: the last thing I ate was a ton of crunchy seasoned chickpeas

Currently craving: dark-chocolate covered honeycomb candy from Sprouts and also cheeto puffs. always, to both.

Next Set

1. Were you named after anyone?

birth name, no, but Rhys is a family name

2. When was the last time you cried?

i literally never cry but listening to dear theodosia in the car and thinking about the rwrb parallels made me tear up???? wild

3. Do you have kids?

nope

4. What sports do you play/have you played?

soccer, basketball, lacrosse, swimming, volleyball, softball, track, cross country, tennis, kickball (I come by sporty spice nickname honestly). tbh I feel like I'm missing some, but I have played all of these at some point

5. Do you use sarcasm?

yeah (and then follows the anxiety that people think I'm being serious)

6. What’s the first thing you notice about people?

their smile, probably, and general facial expressions

7. What’s your eye color?

grey/blue/green to be interpreted by others based on what I'm wearing or the lighting lol

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

sucker for love stories so probably happy ending, but scary movies are fun in big groups

9. Any talents?

see 4 aka sports, I'm kind of a jack of all trades master of none athletically. i can also do a pretty good array of voices or impressions, but not on command as much as when I'm reading something (when I was teaching kids would beg to me to read aloud, which was cute)

10. Where were you born?

this feels doxxy so I shall go southern USA

11. What are your hobbies?

writing, reading, watching basketball or f1, falling down a youtube spiral

12. Do you have any pets?

two dogs, two cats

13. How tall are you?

5' 4" i'm just a little guy

14. Favorite subject in school?

history or english, but i also love ap calc lol

15. Dream job?

i mean i'd love to just be a writer and get to travel/work from anywhere, but also people say making a hobby your job can be dangerous so maybe it's for the best (that's what I tell myself)

This was fun! Thanks for the tags for one or both of these @myheartalivewrites @firenati0n @cultofsappho @suseagull04 @14carrotghoul!!!

In addition to those already tagged, tagging @littlemisskittentoes @inexplicablymine @rockyroadkylers @hgejfmw-hgejhsf @gayrootvegetable @gay-flyboys :)