#i love making art that looks like shit. straight up horrible.

[onesnoopyaday]

Breaking news: Neighborhood dog enjoys a peaceful summer night's sleep under the stars <3

Snoopy #15

16/10/2024

[northwest-cryptid]

I don't think people understand that you gotta make mistakes and grow from them by being educated one way or another about how to not make the mistake or why it was a mistake in the first place.

The internet is built around flash in the pan drama and unfortunately that has poisoned the minds of people who mean well on much more important topics.

You see someone sharing an opinion on a topic, that is just horrible; perhaps racist, sexist, or just generally bigoted. Your first instinct is to attack them, lash out; let them know how wrong they are, not why they're wrong; just that they are in fact wrong.

Make sure you really make it clear you want them dead, don't let anyone question that you might sympathize or seek to actually better this individual. They aren't worth it, they won't listen; you know this because the internet tells you so. Others "like them" have already poisoned the well and now you know the rules too well to give this one the time of day.

Prove to them that you are exactly what your enemies make you out to be, prove to them that you see them as nothing more than a horrible immoral person that doesn't deserve respect.

Sure they might come to resent you, they might in fact view everything you stand for in the same light; you may be a detriment to the very movement, people, or thing you stand to defend; but don't let that bother you... look the people on the internet love you, you get notes, you get the dopamine of knowing people think you're cool because you stood up to the bad man.

This is how we are now.

You know when I was probably just 16 I fucked up pretty minorly, like literally for context I'll just admit to this shit openly, don't talk about it much but I need you to understand the scope of this. When I was like 16 I wasn't artistically talented so I just casually traced shit, didn't know it was wrong to do so.

Tumblr however, made it clear I had fucked up, daily anon hate; mostly the generic "kill yourself" and the like; do you know what I learned from that experience?

I learned that I shouldn't listen to those people, who reacts like that? I was a kid, I still didn't know what I had done wrong, no one would explain. I was simply a target for hate; and when I'd ask for advice I'd only get further hate. I had "fucked up" online, and that was that. There was no allowance for growth. I was literally being told to fucking kill myself at 16 because I fucking traced over some deviantart shit. Can we just rationalize that for a second?

Now I need you to understand that this is how we respond to everything on the internet. It just feels far more justified when it's about something that actually matters. But hang on, let me go back a second; what did I just say I learned from that experience? Right, that I shouldn't listen to those people.

You realize the only reason I understood what had happened was because a very good friend of mine at the time sat me down, and I will never forget that the first words she spoke to me were:

"Don't listen to those assholes, it's not a big deal."

Before she ever explained to me what I had done, or why it could be hurtful; or the impact that it could have. Prior to offering me any guidance on how to actually learn art and such so I wouldn't repeat the same problem; the first thing she had to tell me was those people don't deserve to be heard.

And I needed to hear that before I was going to listen to ANYONE about anything at that point, because getting upwards of 30 - 50 anon messages telling me I was a waste of oxygen, that I needed to off myself and just do everyone a favor; that I was a mistake, every hour or so; well let's just say that really doesn't make a kid see your point of view and I don't think it works any better with adults for that matter.

Can you imagine if I didn't have someone like that to set me straight? Do you think I'd have learned anything positive from that situation? Do you think I'd have come out of it understanding what I had done wrong? Absolutely not, I'd have just thought everyone was too sensitive or some shit, whatever bullshit the people who picked me up after would tell me. Oh and that's the thing isn't it, if you make someone a victim; you've done half the work for your opposition to come in and convince this hurt individual that they are in fact correct; that you are in fact a bad person and that this individual needs to side with them because they wouldn't treat them this way.

It's easy to recruit someone who is starved of anything positive, who hasn't heard someone agree or even sympathize with them; someone who was trying to do something good and got burnt for not doing it right.

You know, I really do get it, I absolutely understand the want to just blow up and say some shit. It's fine to have emotional, speak from the heart kinda moments, it's fine. However when you're speaking on an issue that matters, when you're talking about the lives of individuals, when you're discussing what to do and the change that you want to bring you ABSOLUTELY, under no circumstances; lash out.

Because that's exactly what those who want to see you dead are looking for, you cannot afford to give them anything to work with.

It's why I lose my shit every time I see someone at those LGBT rallies screaming and causing a scene and being aggressive. Because that's the very thing people say we are, that's the very thing they use against us; and you're just giving them that, you're just letting them have that. Why? What does it accomplish!? Sure you get to feel like the big man right now, but you're hurting the very cause you stand for, and yea I hear you

"So what, do you want me to shut up and be quiet and do nothing"

NO I want you to conduct yourself like a fucking adult, I want you to show these people who might stand in the middle, who might not pick a side; that everything that a homophobic asshole has to say is wrong; I want you to prove to the world that we're just people, I want you to go forth and show people that, without being exactly the stereotype that's used against us! I want you to stop feeding people more to use against us, I want you to think before you act.

Because here's the truth, I might just be an individual to you, but to someone who sees Natives in a bad light, I could easily become an example of "see this is how Natives act" and you DO NOT give them that, you do not let them make that claim; you do not allow them to use you as an example.

If you are fighting for something, you represent the whole of that entity to those who oppose it, and you CANNOT afford to let them see you as something that isn't reasonable, that doesn't deserve the right to be heard.

You can't afford to be 50 anons in my inbox telling me to kill myself.

You need to meet people on a level they understand, you need to meet them halfway and explain it to them; you need to be willing to educate them even when it's not your fucking job. Because the alternative is being all talk and no action, the alternative is never seeing your goal come to light, the alternative is that we may as well just roll over and die.

When you can't conduct yourself with respect and dignity you act for the opposition. That's just the unfortunate truth. Trust me I've wanted to say some very choice words to some very specific people before, and I have had to remind myself that when I am in a situation where I speak for the whole I cannot allow myself to act on impulse and emotion alone; lest someone make an example of it and use it against everyone who stands with me.

This is why I say we need to educate people, this is why I say we have to approach even conflict with the idea of explaining to uneducated masses the truth about the shit they say.

If someone came to me and told me all Natives were savage killers who can't be civilized and all that shit; sure you absolutely bet I'd love to just knock em cold where they stand. Is that not exactly what they would expect from a savage? Is that not exactly what they expect a Native to do?

Sure I could cause a scene, I could fight; I could yell and scream and make a problem of it. It would only prove them right. Instead I could always educate them, explain things to them.

"But they won't listen."

Doesn't matter then, it's not for them then; it's for everyone who sees it; it's for the masses around us, who see this man approach me telling me Natives are all savages who can't be civil; because the sane among them will see a Native there who can be civil; and suddenly all that man has to say becomes nonsense.

You need to be able to disarm them with understanding, education, and fucking kindness. You need to understand how to make your enemy understand you until they're your friend, and then when it comes time for their actions to take a side, you can bet your ass they'll side with you because it would be insane for them not to; not when they know everything that you know.

We see on the internet, this constant bickering of elementary school kids; just on much more important topics.

We can't discuss shit like politics anymore, it becomes "yes" "no" "yes" "no" "yes" "no" instead of making any real progress one way or another. I know some people are VERY stupid, do you know how many times I've been VERY stupid? How many times I've been uninformed? It's a lot.

It's a LOT, and it's a lot more than I care to admit.

However I was lucky, because I was around people who actually cared about what they were saying, about the messages, about the causes they stood for. I was around good honest people who were understanding, and who taught me better.

Not as someone who was bad and needed to be fixed, but as someone who didn't know any better because I was never taught in the first place.

I was given respect, I was shown kindness, and as such I was better for it.

People talk about "converting people to your cause" and all this shit, that's not it; you don't need to convert someone, once they know what you know they will make up their mind.

If you show them that you are someone worth fighting for, that your cause is in the right; they will fight for you.

I used to be homophobic, it kept me from understanding a lot about myself, it kept me from making some very good friends; it made me a pretty awful fucking person. I didn't know, I had no clue, I didn't understand the scope of what I had been taught. That didn't change until I grew up and met other queer individuals like myself who were able to show me that everything I had known was all homophobic lies.

Not by demonizing me, or "proving me wrong" but by just being good honest people, who meant well; and acted with kindness.

The internet has unfortunately poisoned the way people engage with real social issues; and as I get older it becomes harder and harder to stay quiet about it.

There's a huge difference by the way, between this; and punching a nazi.

You should absolutely punch nazis. I'm not going to say they deserve kindness.

And by that same token, there's a time and place for that sort of militant aggressive push-back. You need to learn where to draw that line, and how to draw that line before you go making an ass of yourself and smearing the name of the cause you stand for.

[mackachu1212]

@violetenjoyer

This probably won’t be the most organized and well written because I'm better at explaining through casual conversation and better at storytelling through more formal writing. But this is explaining a character so it might not be super formal or it will change tones randomly. 👍

Content warning for mentions of trauma, sh, eds, and drug use

A little info I wrote for Fritz’s art fight page:

“A kind guy who lives with his friend and “platonic buddy”, Walter after being in a drinking and driving accident, unable to support himself after witnessing his dead friends and his mental health declining. He is willing to try and take care of himself and Walter to make him happy. He decided to un-associate himself with his family's last name and shorten his birth name. He typically hates it when people call him “Friedrich”; you are lucky if he lets you call him that.” 

(Violet you can call him that)

So uh

Fritz is German/American and his family isn’t so great. His American father was verbally abusive whenever he was around and his mother did somewhat love Fritz, but tended to be physically and even physiologically abusive towards him. He was a well behaved child at home and tried to let out his energy outside the house

They expected him to participate in sports and be a straight A student (despite not caring enough to make sure he gets the support to do so), but that never was for him. He ended up quitting football when he was a junior and his grades started going from high A's to B’s and C’s. But he started to feel happier despite his home life not being the best. 

But of course some days were worse than others. Some of the football boys (immature little shits) would occasionally tease him about his weight and the fact he kept to himself majority of the time. This was one of the big reasons why he quit, but they wouldn’t leave him alone until the next year. He did unfortunately result in hurting himself if things were horrible for him that day. 

He had a really close friend while he was in high school though. Damian. They met for the first time during their freshman year while they were watching a game. Damian decided to sit next to him and after that they were inseparable.

(Until, of course, Damian dies 👍)

Fritz had an eating disorder for a long while, resulting in pre tormenting about his weight. He’s still a pretty strong guy and he is tall👍👍👍👍 (6’1) 

Fritz is Aromantic Asexual but tends to be very cuddly with people he’s close to. He doesn’t see being friendly and “overly” platonic as something that shouldn’t be shared between friends. 

(If y’all ever see art from me of Walter and Fritz being super platonic THEY ARE FRIENDS NOT DATING 🙏🙏🙏)

Ok uh pre main lore lore time 

Before the incidents, Fritz never really talked to Walter. He knew who he was, but never bothered talking to him more often because he seemed like he preferred no one talking to him anyways. He occasionally asked about him to people who knew more about him (main gang), and they even didnt really know too much. Damian has Walter’s number for the purpose of asking him questions for a class they are in and gives it to Fritz just in case he “needs help or somethin’.” (this stuff is important later I guess). 

Damian introduces Fritz to some of the other people he talks to (that being Amia, Jessie, and Rose), and they grow to be friends. This gives him an obvious reason to be concerned once they begin to go missing.

Fritz can’t take the fact they all went missing within the span of a few days. He tries not to assume the worst, but he can’t help but think something bad happened to them. He remember’s the gang's plan to clean up a little abandoned restaurant for a secret and special date for Amia and Rose and plans on looking there first. But before he travels there, he calls Walter to at least have someone know where he’s going so if there was a chance that something happened to him, someone could try and help. 

Quote: “If I dont call back in like… 30 minutes, maybe assume something happened and come look for me? Hahahah…”

He finds the building and begins to search, only to hear laughing from behind a door. The sound of his friends. He finds someone standing. He calls out. 

“Oh, is that you? You found us just in time. We are about to play a game.” A voice that sounds like Amia’s, but something is off. It's too dark to see, but once she turns around, there's an off feeling to her presence. She looks braindead. 

“You’re not Amia.” 

“You’re a smart lad.” a different voice tells him.

Fritz is forced to see the aftermath of SKREEN’s actions to his friends. He has to escape. Fritz ends up getting hurt on his way out, being covered in dust, blood, and other mystery substances, but makes it out in one piece. 

(random off topic thing important for the next part. My boy. He does some not so legal stuff. At the time hes 17, but even before then he would drink and erm… eat NORMAL brownie)

Anyways

Fritz is desprate to get away and forget everything he saw, he does something really, REALLY dumb (drinks and drives 👍). He begins to hallucinate his dead friends in the car due to hysteria and begins to lose control due to the alcohol. He ends up crashing out of drunkenness and fear.

Walter begins to grow concerned. It’s been longer than 30 minutes since Fritz last called. He goes out to search for him, ending up finding Fritz in his totaled car. 

Thank god Walter knows CPR and how to treat wounds ammiright?

Fritz, once somewhat conscious, hears Walter mention a hospital and totally freaks out and begs not to go because he knows he will get in trouble. 

Walter takes him to his house instead. 

And yeah that's basically all I can think of right now for important lore. If you have more questions about him or other characters ask me and I'll happily awnser!!

[vickyvicarious]

Here I go, unto the breach. 3 October reactions, part 1

Oh shit, right from the very start this is intense

I love how he says he will be extremely precise and then specifies "lying on the floor on his left side"

Renfield :((((

The noise in the background, almost like a horrible wind

van Helsing: "I need to get dressed" *runs off to get his medical AND vampire-hunting supplies*

no one is getting any good sleep still. that's... probably not gonna get better after today

Quincey expressing compassion for Renfield, thank you! I love how he says "poor, poor devil"

"He went at once and sat down on the edge of the bed, with Godalming beside him;" They Are Holding Hands

RENFIELD'S GASPING. GOD.

I wanna cry already. listening to his breathing is so hard

"glad surprise" "a sigh of relief" followed by him asking to be freed from the straight-waistcoat AAAAAAAGH

the way he says "I've had a terrible dream" FUCK

"How good it is of you to be here" he doesn't even like van Helsing, I think he's just happy not to be alone. to have people willing to listen. I WANNA CRY

the quiet little "thank you." and rough gasp. AUUUGH

peace came when he heard the dogs barking

~hand holding of support~

"laughing with his red mouth" I HATE HIM I HATE HIM

the pained laugh on "promising me things"

"just as he used to send in the flies when the sun was shining." this makes me want to look back at the timing of when Renfield got flies and see how they line up

Dracula I love to hear your voice. I want you dead.

'Come in, Lord and Master!' noooooooooo

Dracula immediately reneges on his deal, of course he does

"he went on as though he owned the whole place, and I was no one." the pain of this for Renfield, constantly dismissed as a madman

"I thought that, somehow, Mrs. Harker had come into the room." oh shit

""When Mrs. Harker came in to see me this afternoon she wasn't the same; it was like tea after the teapot had been watered." OH SHIT

the way he says "it made me mad to think that he had been taking the life out of her!!!! honestly how he builds to that by getting faster and faster too

"and I grabbed it tight" the growl in his voice!!!

"ay, and he felt it too" YES YES YES "I didn't mean him to take any more of her life" auuuugh his voice is so so so good

how slow he says "flung me down"

Quincey this is not the time for propriety GET IN THERE

the crash of the door

FUCK HERE IT COMES

I love the music

Jack's voice shaking as he gets to Dracula. THE MUSIC

this is so terrible. agh i hate it agggggh

OH GOD MINA. NO NO NONONONO and her voice breaking even as she sobs and screams fuck

Art seeing her and probably thinking of Lucy as well. godddddd

"His wife was aroused by the quick movement, and turned to him with her arms stretched out, as though to embrace him; instantly, however, she drew them in again, and putting her elbows together, held her hands before her face, and shuddered till the bed beneath her shook." NO DON'T STOP YOURSELF

fuckklkj the way he says "Mina dear, what is it?" and his "my god" his gasping "help her, help her" adkslfjakdjsflk;dj

"you must not leave me!" I CAN'T

the way say sobs "Unclean!" breaks my fucking heart

"May God judge me by my deserts, and punish me with more bitter suffering than even this hour, if by any act or will of mine anything ever come between us!" that's it. I'm crying. fuckkk oh my god

"the hands tenderly and lovingly stroked the ruffled hair" THEY ARE SO

"We want here no more concealments." YEAH, YOU FUCKIN BETTER NOT

"I looked into Renfield's room; but there was no trace there except——!" Again he paused. "Go on," said Harker hoarsely; so he bowed his head and moistening his lips with his tongue, added: "except that the poor fellow is dead."" I can't remember right now who first suggested it but I insist upon believing that Art got there while he was still alive and was with him when he died. I refuse to let Renfield die alone

the music getting so gentle as van Helsing asks Mina to speak

~handholding~ god oh god this is so painful

god her voice so resolute, pushing through to sound calm and tell all details, but repeatedly waviering so badly

"that same white mist that I had before noticed" nearly losing her voice on the last word

her voice stuttering "o-on the windows of St. Mary's Church" oh god I hope that's not the guilt over Lucy again

'Silence! If you make a sound I shall take him and dash his brains out before your very eyes.' he shushes her. he is speaking GENTLY. you can hear the SMILE goddamn him

'First, a little refreshment to reward my exertions. You may as well be quiet; it is not the first time, or the second, that your veins have appeased my thirst!' I AM PUNCHING THE AIR

Jonathan groaning when she says Dracula's lips on her throat.

"a long time must have passed before he took his foul, awful, sneering mouth away" the hatred and disgust in her voice

THE DRIP SOUNDSSSSSS oh god I was not prepared for that

I love the echo/distance on Dracula's voice

oh I love the beat and music during Dracula's speech

the profanation of wedding vows

the savage joy in his voice, the triumph...

she works so hard to keep her voice controlled but she cannot say she drank his blood, she breaks down. oh god ohgod

Jonathan's hair turning white during Mina's story as the sun rises...

[sleepycricket]

there's some stupidly hilarious shit going down on vivid bad squad twitter right now, and while i don't want to give space to and feed into "drama", i don't have anyone to tell the hot gossip to, so. you get it.

fair warning, fandom bullshit past the cut

ok...so. the fandom was upset cause someone edited an official art piece of two female characters, an and kohane, to be f/m. pictured below, the original:

the piece reflects the characters' relationship in the story, with an (red) being jealous of, but still loving kohane (blue).

below is the edit that was made:

it ignores the meaning of the original piece, but it's well made and pretty harmless. people ship what they ship.

lots of people were made uncomfortable by the edit, reasoning that, at best, it erases an and kohane's friendship and complex relationship, and at worst, it blatantly erases the queer coding present in the piece (queer coding that mostly takes place in the story itself, and makes more sense with additional context).

i could see both sides here. like, on one hand, it's just a harmless edit, and on the other, it's overwriting a female friendship, one that many read as queer, in favour of a straight romantic dynamic.

but today things got INFINITELY worse.

you see, this edit was made on request from the editor's friend, who felt it best to speak up and defend their friend who was getting slammed. but what they SAID?!

they said they requested the edit to be made because the original piece MADE THEM UNCOMFORTABLE, BECAUSE IT WAS ROMANTICALLY CODED

their tweets, quoted:

"The reason i asked for this card specifically is because [the an and kohane ship] is a HUGE discomfort to me. I was unable to enjoy the card set or the event because of it. If it was another card that wouldn't have fixed my problem at all.

"This isn't saying that i hate kohane, and it's certainly not saying i hate lesbians (jfc 💀)

"The meaning behind the card being "a metaphor" does not interest me. Because at the end of the day, with no context, it looks romantic, and that upsets me personally. What would be the point in editing a different card?"

WHICH IS AN INSANE FUCKING THING TO SAY???!@????

saying that you don't hate lesbians in the same breath as saying "the card looks romantic, and that upsets me personally" is FUCKING INSANE. IS THIS PERSON OUT OF THEIR MIND

it's so comically horrible of them to say that it's HILARIOUS. like occasionally i forget that people like this fucking EXIST and i wish i could KEEP FORGETTING

[udunie]

15 questions meme

I was tagged by the wonderful @sadpearonmars, thank you!

Are you named after anyone?

Yes, I'm named after one of my aunts. Our family has a thing of naming people after family members (my older sis is named after our mom, and if we were born boys we would have been named after our dad and granddad)

When was the last time you cried?

Ugh... I think I cried about an animal video? Those always get to me... Like dodo videos and shit...

Do you have kids?

No, thank god. I have nephews I love, but I'm would be a horrible parent. I'm way too impatient and like my own private space etc too much.

What sports do you play/have you played?

I had a lot of health issues as a kid, so I didn't do any sport, but I did end up doing fencing for a little while when I was 18-ish and I loved it, but the fencing place was too far and I couldn't make it work with school unfortunately.

Do you use sarcasm?

I don't think I use sarcasm? Tho I do like writing sarcastic characters on occasion. I feel like I'm a very... straight forward person? Which probably makes me pretty boring company, but them's the breaks lol

What is the first thing you notice about people?

I... have no idea? I do appreciate pretty eyes on people, but I think my first impressions are usually more about body language??? I have no idea if that makes sense lol

What is your eye color?

Gray-blue, on the darker side. Not very impressive.

Scary movies or happy endings?

Eh... happy endings, maybe??? If I had to chose. Then again, those usually bore me a bit... But mostly because I'm a huge chicken when it comes to blood/gore/etc which is funny, cause I do on occasion write gory stuff, and explore very dark themes. I like them in theory. If I like the idea of a horror movie I will read the plot on wikipedia rather than watch it 🤣

What are your talents?

According to my coworkers, my secret superpower is being able to slice up a loaf of bread with a bread knife evenly enough that it looks like it was sliced by a machine :D

I do like making art - like crochet and watercolors, but I'm not really good at either.

Where were you born?

Budapest. Recently known as eastern europe's crusty asshole filled with the putrid shit that is Victor Orbán

What are your hobbies?

I would say writing, if I wasn't aware of the painfully long time it's been since I typed out anything meaningful... I've been playing a lot of stardew valley, but that hardly counts.

Do you have any pets?

Yes, I have a cat called Misu who is currently playing loaf next to me.

How tall are you?

162 cm, that would be about... 5 feet 4 inches? I think?

Dream job/career?

I have a pretty okay office job right now that I'd been doing for like... 15 years. It's not my 'calling' or anything but it pays the bills and gets me to talk to people. I have no idea what my dream job would be... Of course, I would love to say being a full time writer, but let's be honest, I don't think I have the self-discipline for it, sadly.

And I'm tagging... @laughingcatwrites and @gemstonewriter803! (only if you want to, of course!)

[thatonechocogirl]

storytime that nobody asked for but

when i was in 8th grade, i had an art teacher who for some reason made it her job to destroy her students love for art. i remember one time that she saw me draw an owl that looked cartoonish. she then told me that "cartoon art isnt art" and said it had looked bad. it honestly made me feel horrible because i was just a beginner, and that was the first year i was actually trying in art. she continued to make remarks about my work; the thing is she wouldnt even critique it or say like "thats good, but heres how you can make it better", she would just straight up say "i dont like that" and tell me to try harder, not even telling me what i needed to fix on my art. again i was a BEGINNER, so obviously it wasnt gonna be some michealangelo shit (because i swear thats what she expected from us). and ultimately, i just stopped drawing for a while.

4 years later, although im still learning, i do cartoon fanart for fun

get recked ms. e

[fortheb0ys]

No I think the nickname puppy is so cute wtf 😭😭 I love it frfr, I love nicknames sooo much

I love that tho, I don't think that's embarrassing at all. My boyfriend and I make ocs for I favorite fandoms all the time. We have cod ocs, Minecraft ocs, dbd ocs, and even Supernatural ocs ✊😭 I'm so fucking autistic fr, and I got more than those ones

My cod oc and our Minecraft ocs were huge hyperfixations, we talked about them for months. I even have Pinterest boards dedicated to them

Two years ago for my birthday he actually drew my Minecraft oc and posted it on Instagram

Now that I'm looking at his page, a lot of it is oc art and lore for the both of us

(because I think he deserves way more love on his acct and art than he gets, so if you want to see his @ is bones_the_cannibal_ but you DID NOT hear that from me)

I straight up used to cosplay a lot, I was Ticci Toby for Halloween one year, and I was Virgil from Thomas Sanders personality things 🥲 and with how big the cod fandom is, I think cosplaying a cod oc is the least embarrassing thing you could do in this fandom (unless you're one of the weird straight guys that just want girls attention and are shirtless half the time)

I think unmasked Charlie was very silly (/pos) and I love him ✋ tbh, I didn't even really watch your videos in full, just skimmed a few here and there, enough to see your knife skills and lil Philly, so you don't have to be too embarrassed, I didn't see much

Very glad I got to see him 💪huge L to everyone who didn't

-🥭

I do love nicknames :3 They were gonna nickname me Mutt���� which Puppy's definitely better in hindsight.

Awww making characters with your bf is sooo cute😭😭 People in relationships who share the same hobbies/interests aaaah its adorable🥺 You guys sound so cute😭 THE CHARACTERS, PININTEREST BOARD AND THE DRAWINGS?!? *kicking and screaming* IT'S SOOO ADORABLE🙏 I LOVE WHEN PPL ARE IN LOVE🥹

I'll be sure to look at his account🫢

My siblings and I always were into the whole character making for fandoms. My earliest memories were my brother going on about his Resident Evil characters so it's no surprise I became the same. Pretty much every fandom I'm into, I have a character for it too😂

I used to cosplay more but adult life kinda took that away. I wish I could do it more often. I just liked making things. Trying to get back into it but it's so expensive🥲

Honestly when I see those straight guys who do the weird phone thrusting vids make me feel sick and the way they're catering to these girls toxic fantasies. Like wtf💀 I've seen SO MANY vids where they're glorifying abuse and people eat that shit up!

The cosplay/cod community kinda freaked me out with all that shit. Like I wasn't even a big creator nor did I do any sexual content and people would still say crazy shit to me. Like nope I can't so this🙅‍♂️

I just did tiktok cause my friends pressured me and that I could share my cosplays with them.

Lol you were the lucky winner to see that side of me and my horrible knife skills😅 Got to see my autism in full swing.

[sepyana]

Jjba Diamond is Unbreakable Ep. 8-16 Thoughts

Ep. 8-9

Yukako has so many issues god bless

I've taken a liking to her design. Her color scheme goes together well, her hair has a lot of character and I do like the rose emblem on her outfit.

Her stand, Love Deluxe, plays the prehensile hair trope straight, other than her ability to control her hair even when it is not attached to her scalp. I like the name but I find this type of stand boring to be honest.

I'm not really interested in Yukako as a character, unless she gets something more later on. The funniest thing they can do is pair her and Koichi together. "Me and my girl don't argue, she tells me to shup up and I do" and such.

Josuke and Okuyasu were nice this episode. We learn that Crazy Diamond can't bring back anything The Hand deletes. Just goes to show how opposite their powers are.

Koichi is not really my cup of tea. I appreciate him being part of the group but solo episodes with him don't really interest me. Plus his voice is incredibly grating in both sub and dub. It's interesting that he set up that rock so that Yukako wouldn't die, you gotta be really confident that you'll win if you are worrying about the safety of your opponent.

Hey, Koichi with the new hair kinda looks like... No I shan't say it.

Let's talk about Echoes. My boy. My lil man. Look at his lil smile :) My favourite stand from part 4 so far. It seems to emote on its own sometimes, like Star Platinum who smiles every time it gets a chance to beat someone up. I like it when stands emote on their own. The fanworks do this a lot but jjba itself rarely does it. Which is a shame.

Ep. 10

This is just 20 minutes of Okuyasu having nice things happen to him and I think that's just great. If I had so say my one gripe (and be a killjoy), it would be that it doesn't tell us much about Okuyasu and Josuke that we don't already know. The best thing about filler is that it gives us characterization and I don't think this episode has enough of that.

Okuyasu and Josuke fighting reminded me of the Death 13 episode except Polnareff was infinitely more stubborn

Also this is a great time to just give the VAs the biggest shout out cuz wow I love them. Especially Okuyasu I love the way he says Josuke. It brings me joy. They are perfect fits for the characters they are playing. I can hear Tonio's accent but I know fuck all about Japanese so It might be horrible, not my problem tho.

Ep 11 - 12

I think Tomoko is one of my favourite female Jojo characters so far. The bar is on the ground, but, you know. Take what you can get.

I don't get why they added that scene with Josuke at the start. It doesn't really add anything.

I think the funniest thing in episode 11 is Koichi and Okuyasu just going through it and the Jojos not giving a shit. I hate the Joestars so much it's unreal. It did struck me as a bit weird. It's not at all weird for Jotaro (Have you seen the stardust crusaders? They told Polnareff they lied about Avdol's death to him and then they had the audacity to go "I didn't think you'd be this hurt"), It does feel a bit off for Josuke though.

Jotaro smiling as he says Jospeh could die is amazing. Of course he would.

I didn't think about what Red Hor Chili Pepper's stand user would look like but I am definitely not dissapointed in Akira. Personality wise he is insanely boring but I do like his design.

Okuyasu looking at his own hand as he thanks Koichi was a nice touch.

I like how they handled Joseph. Obviously Josuke is not gonna be amazed to see him but It wouldn't go with his personality if he was antagonistic either.

Ep 13

I don't like how different the japanese VA of Joseph sounds when he is yelling. English VA doesn't have this issue but it's also was the weakest of the sdc cast imo. No winning with this one.

Ep 14 - 15

The first episode is just set up. It does that job pretty well though. Really makes Rohan seem insane. I mean, he *is*.

Rohan relating everything to art and writing isn't even that off from how most artists think tbh. Writers will see a documentary about the most disturbing shit they have ever seen and they will go "That will make my writing about this part more accurate".

And Rohan'a advice is actually pretty good. Like, draw with references. Draw from reality. Base your characters on people who you know, instead of like, just taking from your favourite artisans. Anyways,

Rohan's stand is called the Heaven's Door. Firstly, It's a really cute stand. Secondly, this thing is busted. It'd be one thing if looking at a draft was the only way for it to work but touching you with his stand also works. And he can knock someone unconcious when unfurling them. Add on that the insane speed he has for no reason and honestly we should just be glad this guy isn't a villain. He is just weird and offputting.

I fucking love episode 15. The pay off is amazing. I love that Okuyasu and Josuke notice something small like a cut on his hand and immediately help him. I love that Rohan opens Josuke's eyes by insulting his hair. And then he just. keeps. going.

Josuke being literary so blinded by rage that he doesn't see the draft? Amazing. He absolutely destroyed that place. And threw a fucking chair at Okuyasu and Koichi. This show is pretty funny when it wants to be.

The story of his hair was really sweet. The guy helping them seems to be a student like the current day Josuke too.

Ep 16

The art style for this episode looks different from normal and I have no idea why. The style is ussually pretty consistent. You can see the gums in their teeth it's strange.

Jotaro gets a slight outfit change. I like the colors and the tilted belts. I'm not sure on the new jacket. I liked that they used the collar of his shirt to give the same vibe as his part 3 outfit insead of just giving him a jacket exactly like his old one. His new jacket is a bit dissapointing. I like dolphins. I'm not sure what they were trying to do with the triangle and the sun. Overall, I like the older one just a bit more. I would love it if he kept changing outfits like this tho.

It's something that Jotaro can't seem to seperate Star Platinum's time stop ability from Dio. Like, that's Star Platinum's power.

As funny as seeing Jotaro get his ass beat by a Twitch looking ass rat is, It's also shows what I like about stands. I know Jotaro is holding back here, but that doesn't change the fact that this is a bad machup for him. So you don't need to nerf him in ordert to create conflict. Stands are good against combatting power creep, is what I'm saying.

Love Crazy Diamond popping up out of nowhere just to look sad. Don't look at me with them big ol' eyes.

Ep. 17

I think one thing part 4 is good at is the character dynamics. Rohan and Koichi was fun to watch. Rohan grinning at Koichi getting flustered was great. Reimi being really friendly with Rohan cuz she knew him when he was a kid is a nice bit of writing.

I made a joke post about where Kak went after death, a few people mentioned how ghosts were real and he could be like Reimi. Now I know what they are talking about.

Reimi has a nice design. Especially the choker with the hands holding on it. Speaking of hands

I know I shouldn't be laughing at the guy whose only trait so far is that he kills young girls to date their hands to satisfy his stupid fetish or something but

what even is that music. Why did they make it like that.

To close this off, I am currently on vacation with little internet access. It's a rural area so there isn't much to do. I've been spending my time writing these, slowly. Gonna take a hot minute to finish this part.

I've been also wondering if I should watch Stone Ocean before Golden Wind and get the Jotaro story over with. I'll decide that later, I dunno.

[runningwithfangs]

Vampire Chronicles Book Review/Rant #3

The Queen of the Dammed

Wowowow congratulations to the world’s worst polycule on saving Vampirekind. 

Another super fun romp where so much happens, yes there is nonsense, but the nonsense is nicely paired with a lot of intense drama and high stakes. I like how Anne got around her own premise that the vampires are writing their life stories by it still being Lestat who writes it, but he’s gathered all this information from the other vampires that were actually there, even when he was not. 

The chapters being mini-stories and the many characters we meet, everything coming together in the end, it’s not just fun but so immersive. Anne doesn’t hold back in expanding her universe. At no point does it feel like too much too soon, or like the universe and characters are expanding faster than the story or getting out of hand. Anne is a fantastic writer.

In this book we start to see the world outside of our main vamps, the fledglings (Killer and the Fang Gang 🤯), the vampire bars, the Talamasca, the vampire cult followers, and so many new characters! 

Feminist Icon Akasha (is trying to kill most men). See kids, that’s what happens when you watch TV for 50 years straight.

This is one of my favorite books from the series, maybe one of my favorite books ever. 

Favorites:

It’s hard to pick! Jesse’s story is great, the dreamlike drunken nights at Maharet’s house with the vampires asking her about chocolate, the Great Family and the care and love Maharet has for them, her records and her family tree of lights, the attention and advice she gives them all, it’s just so sweet.

Devil’s Minion! I’ve been seeing fan art and posts about Armand/Daniel since I started this blog and did not get it until I read this. Now I GET IT, holy shit, it's chewing-through-drywall material. The horror of Daniel running for his life, being hunted, then suddenly they’re bonding, hanging out and doing all these cool things, Daniel admitting he loves to cuddle a dead thing?! The experiments, the smoothies, the madness from hanging around a vampire, the “I love you too much to turn you” vs “I love you too much to let you go on without me.” Insane. Horrible. Beautiful. I could rant about this section alone for so long. Oh, and learning how the book was published was neat too.

Getting little bits about the twins from everyone’s dreams, that repeating imagery of the cooked body, the heart and the brain on plates. I got really invested in this mystery, and once it all came together it was horrible but so captivating. It’s a great vampire origin story. 

Vampire road trip and vampire roommates at Night Island! I wish this part was longer and that vampires could stand to hang out with each other more, I want my vampire friends to hang out damn it! Jesse and Gabrielle became friends! Louis wants to know about his daughter’s ghost! Grandpa Khayman telling stories! Uncle Marius accepting that Lestat is gonna be little shit and no one can stop him!

Least Favorites:

The violence enacted on Maharet and Mekare, I know it’s to show Akasha’s cruelty but damn.

Smutt:

Lestat’s permaboner. Thanks, Anne.

Lestat and Akasha pinning each other back and forth on the bed and drinking from each other was kinda hot tbh.

Armand and Daniel in Pompeii when they start their romance, if you can call it that. Armand making Daniel have sex with other people while he watches 🙈

Nonsense Meter:

4/10 nonsense again. A bit of nonsense in the Devil’s Minion, and a bit in the Lestat training montage/kidnapped by Vampire Mommy part, but not a ton. Maybe it’s a bias because I liked this book so much and every story was full of drama, high stakes, and complex morality. 

Misc:

I can’t help but wonder what kind of research Anne was doing, I looked up some of the cities, artifacts, and locations she mentions and it checked out. Was she taking ancient history courses or just living at the library?! Gotta give that woman credit. 

I don’t want to get into a long discussion of Akasha’s idea that killing most men would allow women to bring about world peace and fix all our earthly problems, but as someone who has mostly existed as a woman in the world, I may have fantasized once or twice about Thanos snapping a bunch of men, sure, I get it. I don’t agree, I think money, isolation, messed up priorities, and lack of checks in power have more to do with *waves hand around vaguely* everything, but it makes for an interesting premise. “Tell me, my prince, what is the primary use of men now, if not to protect women from other men?”

[airborneice]

btw if anyone is thinking abt changing art programs i'm here to declare my new undying allegiance to clip studio paint. i was taught on photoshop at uni so it's what ive been using for the past ~5 years, but they've now pivoted to AI and have been shoving ads about it in my face for months while i try to use their shit to make something original sooo i very anxiously switched to CSP!! and i have not regretted it!!!

from what i've seen so far CSP does all the things i used photoshop for and has a few more really helpful functions besides, like i can finally move around parts of my sketches without cutting them to a new layer and re-merging it each time and it makes things sm faster!!! i can mask and re-colour lineart more easily and not get horrible stray pixels left over. it's great!!

also it turns out that unlike psds, clip files show you what's inside, so i don't have to open up all my extremely heavy canvases to find out wtf i was working on which makes it sm easier to remember what i was doing and finish it lmao.

i've converted all my canvases now and look at all this stuff i straight up forgot i was working on bc it was just a blank square with PSD written on it before. its neat!!!!! i love it!!!! in this house we stan CSP thank u for ur time

[sonicphobia0601]

Honesty time on artificial intelligence.

So I recently watched a video about someone cloning Michael Kovach's and Gooseworx's voice using artificial intelligence (Apologies in advance for any spelling errors). It was terrifying. Like someone could easily clone my voice and make my voice say hideous things. I have a distinct vision on the current use of AI. There's the benevolent: safe for work roleplay and using it to get inspiration for original art that YOU make. Then there is the malevolent: using a character's voice to say horrible things, using it to make art designed specifically to embarrass someone, and NSFW roleplay.

I myself would not be comfortable using artificial intelligence to clone my voice. This is a serious problem because the bad person cloning my voice could make my voice say homophobic, racist or even antisemitic things. Or say something disgusting. And that's a huge problem since I myself am pansexual and a Jew. And I really don't like seeing children hurt because a stranger impersonated me. And do not make me into a Character on Character.ai. I've seen what happened with my personal favorite shit-poster pukicho here on Tumblr.

It's also problematic in school settings. Literally, my second day of English class, I found a section in my syllabus on plagiarism dedicated SPECIFICALLY to artificial intelligence. I have a personal rule regarding artificial intelligence that I apply for myself: never use it for work. Look at what is happening with Duolingo. I try to learn French (I'm already very proficient in French and brushing up), and I found French errors that would make my own French teacher in high school vomit.

There's a way to check if something is plagiarized. You either copy paste the things you hear in Google/Bing/whatever browser you use or (in Michael Kovach and Gooseworx's case) head straight for the source and ask.

There's a good reason why I am generally against AI. But I can see the good in it too. I'm not saying don't use AI ever, but for the love of Scott Cawthon, I advise heavily AGAINST using AI for malicious purposes or to make money off of someone else's work.

Sorry for the rant.

[twilightmalachite]

MIRAGE - The Most Beautiful Mirror in the World 6

Author: Akira

Characters: Yuuta, Shinobu

Translator: Mika Enstars

Proofers: Bella

"(Who can I even talk to about this? My parents? God? Is there anyone who can make this right?)"

Season: Winter

Location: Back Alley in Downtown

That day, after school…

Shinobu: …

Yuuta: …Look, Shinobu-kun.

I just told you. Stay out of this. It’s best for the both of us.

I’m not gonna hold back from spitting in the industry bigwig’s faces anymore. You wouldn’t want to be on my side anyways.

You might end up ruining RYUSEITAI’s reputation of being allies of justice, y’know. If you become a bad boy like me, everyone in RYUSEITAI might even start looking down on you.

You don’t want that. Who would? Nobody likes a bad kid.

Go home.

Shinobu: …Ninja art: hiding technique!

Yuuta: What?

Shinobu: Yuuta-kun has successfully fallen for my ninjutsu, and is speaking in the wrong direction!

What he doesn’t know is that he is only looking at a mirage, my real self being in the shadows of the convenience store—

Yuuta: Hiyah.

Shinobu: Oww. I-I’m against violence…

Yuuta: C’mon, I didn’t hit that hard. If you had been Aniki, I would’ve done a jump kick.

Shinobu: The degree of violence doesn’t matter, de gozaru! Hitting others is bad no matter what!

Wait, ahh, not that I’m here, or anything.

Hehehe, that foolish Yuuta-kun—he’s striking in the wrong direction. All right!

Yuuta: What are you doing? Look, this is starting to really get on my nerves. Can’t you go and disappear already?

Y’know, with your oh-so-amazing ninjutsu and shit. Go poof.

Shinobu: Ninjutsu is used when you must escape from your enemies, de gozaru.

However, Yuuta-kun is no enemy of mine.

Yuuta: Aren’t you using a hiding technique right now, though? Since you’re using ninjutsu, doesn’t that mean you think of me as your enemy?

Shinobu: Ah… W-Wrong! Hidden techniques don’t count. You can use those against your allies too. Yes.

Yuuta: You’re kidding me… Guess I don’t know anything about ninjas.

Shinobu: If you’d like, I can teach you, de gozaru! About ninjas! I love them so much I could go on about them for a week straight!

Yuuta: I really don’t want to be stuck listening to your senseless, endless otaku ramblings…

Shinobu: Ah, he ran away, de gozaru! Yuuta-kun, wait!

Heheheh, if you think you can escape the pursuit of a ninja, you are naive indeed~!

Yuuta: (…What the hell?)

(Why is he chasing after me? Even though I said things so harsh it makes me want to throw up from self-disgust…)

(Why won’t he leave me alone? Because he’s a friend? What even is a friend?)

(Is this something someone normal would know? A normal kid who is loved by his parents, goes to school normally, and is able to make friends normally?)

(I just don’t get it…! Why was I born as an abnormal kid who can’t even understand something so normal?)

(Who can I even talk to about this? My parents? God? Is there anyone who can make this right?)

Location: Downtown

One hour later…

Yuuta: (Phew… I got away, somehow.)

(Shinobu-kun’s been chasing me persistently, and it’s put me through a lot of trouble… He’s surprisingly fast and is really good at tailing others. As expected of a ninja, I guess.)

(But, I’ve got my share of chasing! I’ve been playing tag with Aniki ever since I was little!)

(Every time Aniki would do something stupid, I’d get angry and chase him—)

(And while doing so, I’d be able to forget about all the things I hate. Even if nothing would get solved, once I’d catch Aniki and punish him, I’d feel much better.)

(…I’ve been using Aniki as a punching bag for so long.)

(By turning Aniki into the embodiment of all that is bad in the world, I was able to find peace of mind by beating him into a pulp. Ahh, and I’d say I was the good kid compared to him.)

(The more righteous one.)

(But, that was sick of me, and I regret what I did to “Hinata-kun”.

(It’s me, now. I’ve become the demon.)

(No… From the beginning, the most horrible one of us was…)

Shinobu: Yuuuuta-kuun! ♪

Yuuta: Hyaaahhh!?

Shinobu: Whoa, what a scream. No way, did you not notice me? I was behind you this entire time, de gozaru…

Eheh, it seems like my hidden arts are more advanced than I had thought!

Yuuta: …Seriously, what do you want?

Seriously, even though I was disguised as Aoi Byakuya, you still recognized me.

Shinobu: Hehe, you can’t deceive the eyes of a ninja! I could tell at first glance!

Yuuta: And yet the first time you ran into me like this, you panicked and said “Who!?”

Shinobu: …Yuuta-kun, do you want ice cream?

Yuuta: Huh? In winter?

Shinobu: Eating ice cream in the winter is also exceptional, de gozaru! Around this time of year, people are always lining up at convenience stores for new flavors—

I get all excited every year as well!

Yuuta: Uh-huh…

Shinobu: …I’ve always wanted a friend with whom I could talk about the little things to.

Yuuta: If you wanna talk about those things, why can’t you just talk to the other kids in RYUSEITAI…

Shinobu: Because there, we have allll sorts of problems going on…

It’s always talk about things like work and the future of the unit. My stomach ends up hurting to the point I couldn’t get ice cream if I wanted, de gozaru…

Yuuta: I get that. For me, it’s not too much an issue anymore, but… Before, my friends, family, and colleagues were all Aniki. So if we got into a fight, it was the absolute worst.

The entire world would turn pitch black. When a moonless night falls, I can’t see anything.

Shinobu: Mhm!

I want you to be able to talk to me about those things, important or not, de gozaru. I want to know more about you, Yuuta-kun.

Yuuta: Does… that mean you’re going to become a bad kid with me?

Shinobu: No. I’m a part of RYUSEITAI after all, I can’t take part in anything bad.

Yuuta: Then this conversation is over.

Shinobu: Don’t say that. If one overlooks evil deeds, they’re disqualified as a hero, but if one abandons a troubled friend, they’re disqualified as a human being.

I’m a coward, so I don’t think I could get in the dirt with you, Yuuta-kun. I’ve never really wanted to take revenge on someone who made me upset, so I can’t empathize with you.

Yuuta: …

Shinobu: But even still, I might be able to at least help you in another way. To fight the enemy—the evil that’s tormenting you, Yuuta-kun. And for that reason, I’ll put my mind to it and do whatever I can!

Whether you want it or not, this is what I want to do. No, this is what I (boku) will do.

That’s what I’ve decided.

Yuuta: You really are selfish. Just like everybody else around me.

But maybe it’s alright if I’m selfish, like you and everyone else too, y’know! But when I oppose my father and other people in higher positions, I get scolded for being a bad kid…

I shouldn’t have to be the only one forbidden to do what everyone else does normally.

Shinobu: Nobody’s trying to forbid or condemn you for anything, though.

Yuuta: Right… …I’ll have one of those ice creams as well.

I don’t really like sweet things, but seeing you eat it made me really want one too.

Shinobu: Sure, but it’s not on me, de gozaru. You’ll have to pay me back!

Yuuta: Jeesh~, you’re so stingy, Shinobu-kun.

Shinobu: I’ve told you again and again, I’m kinda broke!

Yuuta: …♪

Shinobu: …♪

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[anotherdaveyjacobs]

sorry for the late reply on this but, romeo time!

- First off big headcannon is that my boy is Aro/Ace! i can just. see it so well

- Romeo is still a scruffy dirt poor newsboy but he does have some looks and has seinfeld he’s been a kid; picture getting all those weird “oh you’re gonna be a heartbreaker” one day comments comming to him a lot

- He’s always been very insecure about this and has been nervous about looking too badly or eating too much despite it tiny source of food income

- Back to the aro ace headcannon bit him being in a world where being gay or not straight is illegal and there is zero lgbtq community, figuring out that he doesn’t like women, but also dosent like men is horribly confusing.

- He’s a flirt, a complete egomaniac. But the fact is this is because he sees it more as a defense mechanism, something that gives him control and makes him feel somewhat normal. It can make nobody end up turing around and questioning him on his utter lack of Actual game.

- As mentioned Flirting is something he’s mastered to give him control. Even as a little kid when he was still with his single mother she controlled so much of his life out of fear, and when she either abandoned him or died being put in an orphanage and then later the lodging house made him feel as if he had no control over himself or his life. but being able to play with someone’s emotions where he’s in control is a near soothing power trip that lets him know he still has something going for him, at least. If all he had in a touch world is a nice face and smooth voice, may aswel let it be your weapon

- this man is an idiot but he’s a persuasive idiot. He can butter you up into jumping into a pool with all your clothes on but can’t lie for shit. He’s always been found out on anything he hides or lies about but usually the poor shmuck who finds out ends up getting roped in somehow.

- Modern au headcannons; Loves shitty romance Tv finds it the height of comedy

- also really loves horror

- Deapite his difficulties in the past with food he loves to bake goods when he’s stressed out and packages them all cute too.

- Has two cats named Juliet and Michealangelo (His favorite TMNT charater)

- He loves art but can’t paint for the life of him. not an artist. Jack has tried; Botth have ended up crying hysterically at 3 am over wine glasses because Ro, What The Actual Fuck Is That Dude. What the Fuck.

- Adores animated shows too, especially older ones

- Constantly steals specs glasses. Says them make him look cute but actually just enjoys watching specs stumble around yelling at him to give them back

- Despite only having cats romeo is an huge dog person.

- He enjoys reading thriller novels or fantasy no in between

- Was either a PJO or Warrior cats kid sue me

- Loved maximum Ride too

- Any and every time someone flirts back at him he’s a blubbering uncomfortable mess if it’s not one of the fellow newsies. If it is, they’ll banter for all time but otherwise, he shuts down faster than a mac PC

- Listens to taylor swift. i said it.

okay thanks for letting me talk about my guy my funky dude my good time boy my-

im so sorry i didn't reply to this before now it has been a Time

I LOVE these oh my god. romeo, nicknamed for being a flirt, is 1000000% aroace i love him. and cannot flirt back so real

you know what listen i just love this whole everything

everything you've said is so true

[abookwasallittooktomakemeacrook]

okay, so, I too am an aromantic (probably bi/pan/abrosexual) queer person. if you look at my blog you will find that i love love love queer (sapphic/achillean) takes on media, i love metas and symbolism and all extreme depth people go to make their characters queer (sapphic/achillean), and i just love historic queer (sapphic/achillean) characters and people.

i also very much hate historians who go to great lengths to not make people gay. it is extremely ridiculous and harmful and i condemn it very much. in fact, i actively try to research and try to bring into light queer (sapphic/achillean) people from my own culture to my friends and family.

also, what i called amatonormativity was not the historic relationships being romantic to the point of obviousness and the historians still denying it, but the quickness of today's society to see any two people close to each other make them in a relationship, whether that's straight or gay. “ooooh they held hands, ooooooh they looked at each other in a meaningful way, oh my god they see each other as family, these two characters have got to have it bad for each other because no friends ever do that.” that is the basic gist of most meta nowadays about literally any media with a hint of queerness, mostly about sapphic/achillean couples. i feel like casual sapphic/achillean inclusive aspec erasure is more commonplace than the aspec-inclusive sapphic/achillean erasure you claim i have engaged in.

i am very sorry about the wordings of the tags, and i understand how it can come across that i do not equate queerness with sapphic/achillean characters or romances. it is actually quite opposite, and even implying that would be stupid. the thing is that my brain is the most active and comes up with the most creative shit 10 minutes before i fall asleep, and many times my posts are made at such time. however, at that time, my body is not very cooperative, and it does not very well carry forth the instructions my brain gives. that is why you can see that i have spelled ‘amatonormativity’ as ‘amatonormatively’, a mistake i would not usually make as i am very particular about these kind of spelling issues. what i meant to say was that, for ME, in MY MIND, “i am going to make all the relationships queerPLATONIC”. i am extremely sorry about how that might have come across, i will go and correct that asap, and i sincerely apologise for that.

i am also sorry for your relative erasing your lesbianism. as a queer person, it too hurts when a person erases a part of you to accidentally support the other. in my case, it has been quite the opposite: the people in my local queer community do not understand how i cannot want to be in a relationship, and embrace my other queer identitities to make up for that.

however, i am not at all sorry for making this post, nor do i think any aspec person should be for liking it. i am not asking for any queer (sapphic/achillean) person to relate to this post, because it was not made for them; just like how romance-positive or sex-positive posts would generally not be liked by aroaces because they were not made for them. i am not going on a blog that is about positivity for queer (sapphic/achillean) people and sending it into their asks or spamming their reblogs with this. i am not going up to a homophobic person and telling them to shout this out loud to be as horrible as possible. i am not declaring that every historian was right all along and every person that was most likely queer (sapphic/achillean) was not and all the possible gay couples in history were actually best friends and nothing more.

i am just here on my little blog, liking things, reblogging art, posting my silly thoughts and ideas. i am carving my own niche, and if a passerby comes and likes it because it feels good to them then in my opinion it is worth it. I have about one aro/ace positivity post behind forty or so posts full of queer (sapphic/achillean) people being in love. if i create a post that's about aro/ace positivity, that does not erase the literal hundreds of thousands of posts on this site that celebrate queer (sapphic/achillean) positivity. me creating a space for myself and other aro/ace people like me does not reduce the space available for other queer (sapphic/achillean) people. they can and they do create their own spaces.

i have no problem with you calling the historic characters/people queer (sapphic/achillean). in fact, if you tell me about it, i will most likely wholeheartedly agree with you, because i fucking love historic gays. but then i am also allowed to celebrate the aro/ace part of me, i am also allowed to make those historic people/characters aromantic and/or asexual. while yes, there were no words for homosexuality back then, there also were no words for aromanticism/asexuality. and if you can call them gay today, then i can also call them aro/ace. and no, do not keep it broad at queer, nobody is going to care then. call your historic queer (sapphic/achillean)s gays, faggots, dykes. if you do not make them your own your way they are going to remain cishet. but while doing so, do not forget that i can do so too, that i too have a right to interpret them in my way. if you can say “fuck yeah GAYS” then i can also say “fuck yeah QUEERPLATONICS”.

tl,dr: 1) my experiences as a queer aromantic person are a little different but vastly similar to yours. 2) amatonormativity does not refer to obviously queer historic people/characters but to the conclusion today's society draws everytime they see two characters be close to each other. 3) i am very sorry about the tags, they were wrongly typed out and i will correct them. 4) i am not sorry for creating this post because aro/aces creating a space for themselves does not reduce the space for queer (sapphic/achillean)s nor causes their erasure. 5) do call your historic queer (sapphic/achillean)s gays to make them your own, but please remember that i can also make them aro/ace for me and those who like that; you do you, let me do me.

“"They were best friends, actually" is not the revolutionary pro-aspec statement you think it is” — i agree. IT WAS A FUCKING SINGLE LINE JOKE I THOUGHT OF AND POSTED TWO MINUTES BEFORE I FELL ASLEEP (but which i am not sorry for, because it is a joke).

"and historians said they were bestest of friends" they were. they were both aro/ace and in a qpr

[tarotmander]

Pretentious 

By Sal Engle

The one thing I hate most about my work is that it's pretentious.

It assumes things about the world without rhyme reason or evidence.

Art is the antithesis of reason, 

As a psych student I was always told to think in facts.

If it isn't falsifiable it is not fact and therefore I should not give it the time of day.

But art is not evil,

It is only biased.

Inside of every poem is the experience of an artist who had no other way to say “this is me”.

So I guess what I'm trying to say,

When I pin my work to the wall and scrawl upon it my critiques,

Is that I hate myself.

My experiences are my own and if my art is only a mirror being held up to it then maybe my prose isn't the problem.

I've been thinking a lot about life lately.

How maybe I've been victimized my whole life because I liked the feeling of having somebody tend to my wounds. 

I know I didn't actively choose to be abused but I sure as hell tried my hardest to hold myself under the water to feel the air leave my lungs.

All because I liked the feeling of taking someone else's breath.

And I know I never meant to hurt anyone but myself but isn't the whole point of making yourself the main character putting your loved ones in danger. 

I am selfish.

I never realized that the knife in my hand was double sided and that our arms were tied together.

And to some degree I can blame ignorance but that only goes so far.

Sometimes you have to accept that you are the problem.

If you are constantly finding yourself under someone else's shoe it might be time to stop making yourself a doormat.

For years I have called the world evil.

Assumed that I was some kind of hero in a graphic novel,

But I'm not that significant.

The world is not evil,

I just have a talent for finding the bad in it.

I have hunted for reasons to abandon this life like a poacher looking for ivory.

I have wasted nearly two decades trying to find a reason for living,

When the answer was beating inside my chest this whole time.

I convinced myself I was alone because it's easier to kill yourself if you believe that nobody will stick around to mourn you.

And that is the most pretentious shit anyone has ever thought. 

Of course you will be mourned.

Of course you will be missed.

You may not have a reason for being here, 

But fuck all that noise you exist.

You are someone.

You are.

I am.

I am alive.

The biggest mistake I ever made was forgetting that fact.

You are alive.

That's why your heart hurts,

Why your head aches,

Why your blood pumps,

And bones break.

To feel pain is to be alive. 

Each sting is another reminder that you are here. 

It's your body screaming out to you that you can feel.

Too many people hold their scars in their mind as a reminder of all of the bad times.

But in a perfect world they would see their skin as a scrapbook.

One where every cut, every scrape, every little dent in the topmost layer of dermis would serve as a reminder of all of the times that they were alive. 

That time you got in your very first fight over that one girl you and your friend both liked,

That other time you ate concrete trying to make sure you confessed to her first.

The time you made yourself bleed because she said no to you both,

Because she was straight and as a seventh grader in Iowa you had a horrible gaydar.

Our scars,

Our bodies,

Our memories,

All of them serve one purpose.

Telling our story.

I’ve spent so long giving away my last nickel and dime that I forgot I’m not owed a refund on my kindness.

I have been selfish,

I have been cruel,

I have spent so long wondering why no one was saving me that I didn’t realize I was only drowning because I refused to learn how to swim. 

At the beginning of this I said that the one thing I hate most about my work is that it's pretentious.

And that it assumes things about the world without rhyme reason or evidence.

What I meant by that is that I have judged the world based upon my own tainted experiences.

Like a Karen yelling at the minimum wage employee at Dairy Queen for forgetting to tell her that, 

Yes ma’am,

The peanut buster parfait may contain nuts.

For this I am sorry. 

I cannot promise that I will always be better.

I will falter, 

I will fail,

But I will promise you this;

I will try.

Try to be better,

Try to be kinder,

Try to be around longer, 

I will stop trying to excuse my present with my past,

And I will stop being so pretentious.