#i love kafka 💝

[fantimati]

I'm so sorry Dan heng fans. I could not get obsessed with him

WLW in me won out against the MLM in me for the first time ever.

[bamgyw]

soobin in six nights is so hot... the way he smiled HAS ME THINKING THOUGHTS... like HOW did you write him in a way that's so unsettling yet attractive at the same time to me??? i love it sm

(i love the way you write btw!!! scrumptious, yummy, delish 😋 and your rambles on yeonjun's character too!! would love more six nights rambles or rambles in general 🥹🫶💝)

well i love rambling so. here we are.

anyway. soobin being hot.

first nuance to this is that soobin is hot because he's soobin lol. i feel like if this hadn't been a fic and soobin was an original character, some people might have thought he's hot, but many more would've found him just unsettling and kind of scary, a potential agent of danger and betrayal.

but it's soobin and he's obviously so pretty, so he's hot in our sickened minds to begin with. like, that's not on my writing.

but. soobin in the text.

first thing's first. he's so cool. for no reason.

i didn't even intend to make him cool, i just wanted to make him suffer (sowwy). he's the sacrificial hero of the story, arguably the one who's had it the hardest. the shinji, the kafka tamura.

he has this herculean mental strength type of quality. someone who is broken and has endured great pain, but is still good at heart.

but he's so mysterious and reserved that he comes off as always knowing a little bit more than everyone, always being a step ahead, even if it's not true. (he can't know for sure that beomgyu and the mc are fucking around, but he's smart enough to guess it).

because he's very intelligent, too. he dismisses the nietzsche book like it's self-help for losers, when even beomgyu finds comfort in it. soobin suffered so much in his life that he defeated the final boss of the philosophy game (that is nihilism).

soobin thinks, that's all he does. he can't even sleep because of it. he's a thinker rather than a talker like yeonjun, or action-driven like beomgyu.

yeonjun is a blabber with no filter, and beomgyu's feelings are so intense and all over the place that he just can't help to act impulsively, no matter the consequences.

but soobin just remains quiet, jaw clenched, and thinks. that gives him a lot of power, but also makes him a little creepy. you never really know what side he's on.

he's against his stepfather, for sure, but from the moment he confronts beomgyu it's not clear if he's genuinely worried about his stepsister's safety or if he's just jealous.

so what are his priorities, then? not letting the mc get hurt or not letting beomgyu fuck her? even the mc herself doesn't really trust him.

so he's mysterious and cool and he's emo, and even though we know he has so much hate inside and he could snap any moment, we all wish him well because he's been through so much.

and then there's the smile. you horny bitches have been fixating on the smile.

you have this militaristically strict boy who up until now has been nothing but grim and gloomy. but when beomgyu tries to get under his skin by saying something outrageously filthy about his pretty little stepsister, he just smirks. like he has done worse things.

it creeps the shit out of beomgyu, too. beomgyu who was expecting him to get offended and snap like a loser. it's out of character, it shows there's more to him.

truth is, originally i meant it as a victory grin after the argument. the mc had been eavesdropping, and soobin had made sure that she would be wary of beomgyu's intentions from then on. like he told beomgyu, "consider her warned."

it wasn't meant to be something major, maybe the coolest thing about it (i thought) was hinting that mayhaps soobin chose to confront beomgyu at the corridor on purpose, so that she'd hear them.

BUT THEN YOU HORNY FUCKS READ IT AND YOU WERE ALL LIKE "HELL YEAH THEY'RE GONNA FUCKING RAIL HER BETWEEN THE TWO"

which made me laugh at first, but then i realised that your take was so much better than mine.

so the moral of the story is that you should always let me know what you think and send in a hundred thousand asks, because you're smarter than me. i believe in death of the author, the people knows best.

anyway yeah this was long i am so sorry.

[suugrbunz]

Hey! 💝anon here.. That was me giving tips earlier.. Been back on Tumblr for just a couple days, clearing out my old account, saying hellos to old online friends. Thank you, so much, for how you inspired my story last year. You motivated me - so much!

The story finished. I adidn’t do a huge amount with Maureen & Lyam’s relationship; they had a few more moments together, bonding & learning to trust & appreciate each other. Their final moment in the story was their first kiss! (I can send a snippet if you’d like?)

I turned 19 last year (so, a bit younger than you I suppose :)) It’s been good, getting offline. It’s given me more time to do other things; learn gardening from an elderly relative, do some singing (on my own lol), spend time with my family, learn about things that interest me.

Anyway. Hope you’re doing okay and taking care of yourself, and you can find ways to make life easier, whatever those ways are. 

I understand about the streaming service thing. My family usually just watch cheap second hand DVDs (charity shop sells 20 DVDs for £1!), and occasionally use the cheaper version of Netflix (with ads). I use Internet Archive (archive.org) for books and films (manly older, lesser known films), it’s free, so that’s a good option. 

And totally, get away from Instagram & TikTok! If you think you’d be happier without it, drop it! People online can be really nasty. I quit looking at Reddit, & basically all comments, last year after I suffered a deep depression (due to peoples’ extremely nasty comments toward a part of lgbt that I identify with) Doing a lot better now. 

IDK, and it’s not my business, but hope something works for you. The best people, the ones worth knowing, are those who appreciate character and kindness over consumerist beauty ideals (I say consumerist cause it’s in my belief that we’re pretty well brainwashed to think “perfect looking” people look good; a way of getting people to keep buying makeup they don’t need and the latest fashions)

Ahh, hope this isn’t too much, I write fast and am only basing this all off a couple posts I saw you made, so I’m real sorry if it’s too much! I’ve got a ton of spare time today so I’m just rambling. 

I can’t be coming back to online socialising like I used to, as it took up so much of my limited spare time last year, so this is a rarity, just to say hello. Hugs 🫂 

💝anon

i literally cried seeing it was you— i was noshing on a gyro, crying alone in the kitchen. I have hereditary depression, so it won't get better. It'll always be there. It's just worse than normal lately. Hoping it'll calm down, I wrote and edited some of my book today.

This is like writing a lovely old pen pal, ah, it's nearly therapeutic. I think of you often. I'm nearing tears as i write this because something about talking to you has felt so homeward bound. I love archive, that's how I watched the clash movie, Rude Boy! I have some unread books I wish to finish, one is kafka and the other is khalil gibran. You should see the khalil gibran book, it has such an ornate cover.

I adopted a cat since we've last spoken, she was beside my neighbours house during a storm. I had been taking out my dog and heard her meowing. When i approached her, she immediately came to me. Oh, her name is Laila, she's a tortoise shell.

I definitely have to agree, we are brainwashed constantly to see aging as a sign of lost beauty. Similarly, we are taught that our bodies are never enough because whatever the trend is— it isn't for a girl with an hourglass body. I told my mother the other night, through lots of tears i have never truly loved myself. I mean, around puberty is when confidence develops, at least in my opinion. I got bullied for my body developing into what it now is. So, you can imagine what eating disorder shit i go through because of it. Only fueled by my mother also having a fucked up perception of body-image as well. I am trying my best to understand that my value is an independent variable from the weight on a scale.

Please send me all the writing you wish to, I remember loving your writing. I started publishing my book, but it's completely different. I had to change everything; it was going nowhere. I couldn't get a plot to stitch together. I was nearly at the point of deleting it. Then, out of the blue, I woke up after some dream and was like— "what if I used tamino as a faceclaim? What if x, y, z?". Soooo, i ended up experimenting with it and i actually followed through on replacing nick (i want to implement him in the new book tbh, i miss him). Ah, i hope you find the time to read the chapters I have published... that is if you want to read them, truly there is no pressure there. Again though; please send me your work.

[kulaiyin]

(content: world 2 main story quest, world 2 city exploration, simulated universe world 5)

i feel like i sang many praises about xianzhou luofu’s environment already but the fact that it’s a ship and you can see so far below and it’s just clouds... i really love it, it feels very liminal. same chills as nagazora... (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ) 

this entry is heavy on world 2 content! if i were to give vague hints regarding what it covers... maybe from “diting” to “fu xuan”? 

onwards! 

AYO ITS THE SEVEN SWORDS VN GANG

YOOOOOOOOO ABYSS FLOWER?! (looks like it still has those powers over life and death...!)

OTTO-- i mean luocha-- IS SO CHILL HERE! i haven’t gone through the seven swords VN very closely but as far as i’m concerned, the personality checks out. really enjoying the parallels on how they meet

it’s also really cool that they’re previewing future character kits in the story! first kafka and silver wolf, and now luocha. i hope they keep this up!

already loving sushang’s countrygirl character... 

i just want to point out that this npc is actualy the npc from bailu’s character stories!!! i can’t believe she’s an actual npc in the overworld?! it makes the world seem so fleshed out!

for those who don’t know and want to know, i remembered reading that bailu once treated an incredibly young vidyadhara girl who kept undergoing the molting/reborn process every couple of weeks. i originally visualized it as an infant who kept reverting back to a newborn state (which was honestly scary) so it was a nice shock seeing her as a full grown woman here!

most of all, i never expected jinyu to be a romantic/heartbreaker! it’s such a surprising but understandable direction for her character to go in. grrr i love this worldbuilding... this is why i love talking to npcs 😤     

really love that they acknowledged the gay lions

i thought these two npcs were arguing at first but they’re a manzai/funny man straight man double act!!!! i immediately support 🙌

THIS IS SO PRECIOUS GYAAAAAA WHO KEEPS PUTTING ADORABLE DOGS IN THIS GAME-- 💞💥💥💥

this kid sounds like he got isekaied straight out of a chinese legend, it’s so funny... why does this kid have so much lore?! 

xianzhou luofu grows their ships?! HUH?!

IT LOOKS.... SO GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

ONLY ONE AVAILABLE...? NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

how dare they keep making banger environments for a place barely anyone will pass through (i really enjoyed the npc in this area by the way. vidyadhara species continues to be really intriguing)

huh... 😨

the dialogue options are so funny

... I GOT ARRESTED FROM THAT ALKFJLAJDLAWHJDOHANJKANCBABN I DIDN’T KNOW THAT COULD HAPPEN 😂😂😂

but... they got a police station here?! i went through the entire city and never noticed any building i could enter... there’s a lot of read-able material here so this can’t be a one-time thing, right? (unless you can get arrested multiple times...)

oop--

it’s straight up an area i haven’t even unlocked in the story GYAAAAAA

it looks so metropolitan... i guess i could explore but i’m intimidated about exploring a map i haven’t unlocked 😂 i don’t want to break some events, so i teleported outta there!

the proof...

BY THE WAY, LOOK AT THE DESCRIPTION... 

HUA?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? 

MARSHAL HUA??!?!?!?!

IF... IF THIS IS FU HUA... I’LL SAVE FOR YOU 🤧🤧🤧💖💗💓💞💝💖 WAIT FOR ME!!!!!!

AY SHE HAS A GUN NOOOO SHE KEPT TARGETING BAILU TOO

THAT’S A CHILD MA’AM!!!!

HOLY F FU XUAN IS SO COOL 😳😳😳

i remember seeing this screenshot a long time ago when they did a dev talk or a preview of the next closed beta testing... she still has that elegant air about her! this is truly the battle of those who see the future... 

after this, i got formally introduced to that new city area from before! (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧ glad to finally roam the streets... a free man...

this is so funny... 

big fan of this npc who is crushing on his homie and doesn’t know it... i support you... 

why they kiss me... 😳

this is THE absolute most busted simulated universe random event 🤯🤯🤯 i’m not going to spoil too much on what it does but... basically i was thinking “if i don’t beat world 5 with this, i have severe skill issue”

thank you... i’ll remember your name, ruan mei... (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ)

so yeah spoiler alert... she gave me ALL THE ABUNDANCE BLESSINGS... yes, the SAME aeon i just unlocked... GODLY OCCURENCE!!!

we are STACKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (look at the buffs)

i rolled over the world 5 boss but regrettably forgot to take a screenshot... i think you can see my blessings in the enhancement screen screenshot anyway

i am a ruan mei believer...  💪💪💪

i think it’s also highly implied that the woman in the geniuses’ repose lightcone next to herta and screwllum is her and she has a lovely design... I’LL SAVE FOR YOU TOO

i ran into the punklorde mentality curio, and i wonder if this is just like how silver wolf’s weakness implant works! 

very excited to see... i’ll be pulling for her next! (/≧▽≦)/ i hope everyone else rolling for her gets her early! 

(at the time of writing, silver wolf’s trailer and extra information came out and uuuuh i might be obsessed with the found family dynamic that the stellaron hunters have... I WANT SILVER WOLF 💥)

[mechazushi]

I....I just....

🎶Blood on my shirt, heart in my hands... Still beating.....🎶

In all seriousness, I have some questions.

Dragon line??!?!?!!! (In the translation that I've found which I will take all translations with a grain of salt now) it say that Kafka's little pet was left to marinate in a dragon line. Is that implying that there are different lines of energy in the earth that mutate organic material into different kaiju?

Related to that. ARE WE SERIOUSLY GETTING THE SPIDERMAN 2 VENOM LEVEL UP!?!??!? I am going to be seriously disappointed if this rebirth doesn't give Kafka wings. (And if we DO and it looks f*ckin dragonFLY shaped, I'm going to go nuts. In a bad way. Unless they're the length of tokyo tower or something, then I might be okay. )

Anyway, with that out of the way, some personal feelings.

*God I am in inner turmoil right now over Kafka. On one hand, I do love a fit man AND he is in the military so he does have to trim up a little bit, but on the other I am mourning over the loss of the spare tire. Justice for Beer Belly ✊ Either way, gotta love it when a man bleeds from the face, it's so hot.

*The moment where Kafka kneels down to pet the f*cking larval kaiju and empathizes with it !🥰😘💘💝💖💕❣ Kafka, you adorable man, there's isn't anything that isn't friend shaped in your eyes, is there. (I am aware that it's not going to happen, but it would be hilarious if he could ride that thing into battle)

*For a split second there, I thought he suddenly developed Narumi's hair highlights. Now I wanna know what Kafka would look like with Narumi's dye job.

*About the lack of Mina in that "Breaking Friend's promises" part, I have a little bit of a theory for that. 1) Matsumoto, now that he knows he has an anime, is planning on letting Production I.G. carry Mina's weight. What I mean is that he's writing scenes with the intention that Production is going to edit it later and add more scenes after the manga panels release, so he's just going to imply what's supposed to be there and have us wait for the scene to get fully fleshed out. So Mina is going to show up alongside Hoshina/Reno/Kikoru, but only when the chapter gets animated. 2) Kafka/Mina have some weird restrictions on how they regard each other relationship-wise. Lately, I've been wondering if Kafka doesn't consider himself to be Mina's friend anymore because he's not by her side and inadvertently broke their first promise by not showing up. So now he's only going to start to see himself as her friend once he fulfills that promise again and is by her side. (even though at this point, I think Mina's would just be happy he's still alive and would prefer him to be himself)

Either way; Called it, not sure if I'm happy about it, hope to see Kafka with a new Kaiju form (hopefully with a tail and maybe some wings) And, uhhh....

Damn, that's rough, buddy.

@iceclew Hey, saw you like this already, but unfortunately I panicked posted without fully fleshing out the post. So I tagged you so you could check out the full thoughts okaysorrybye.

Oh, BOY! There's a new chapter out?!?!? Let's see what going on,!

Shall we?