#i love it when yall promote yourselves

[heckitall]

Fic recs (I have a whole doc- many of these are simply on my to-read list lol) (these are all on ao3):

We'll meet again soon by chiangyorange

Like Father Like Son by eternalglitch

I may be invisible, but I still look good by Dandy

TMNT: Mystic Forest AU by AmevelloBlue and IbbyWondrous

The Dawning of the Hour by Faiakishi

Brother Dearest by Wardenov

The Neon Void by sugarpastels

and slightly shameful self advertisting:

Saviors of the Yokai by MostlyVoid_PartiallyStars (<- me)

BOOM even more added to the list!! ty ty, and ty for self advertising!

[winterchimez]

Nonsense | Jacob Bae

SUMMARY: never would you have thought that joining the music club is where you would develop an abnormal crush on your senior/club president Jacob Bae. so when the university's annual school performance is around the corner, you have decided to give a shot to confess your feelings in the most extravagant way possible.

PAIRING: senior!Jacob x junior g.n!reader

GENRE: fluff

WARNINGS: pg-13, kissing, yall this is just pure tooth-rotting fluff

WORD COUNT: 4,473

A/N: we're back with another fic for the emails i can't send fwd: collab that i'm doing with @heemingyu 😉 shoutout to both sana & @sungbeam for beta reading & helping me out with this one!! love you both loads 💕 also, lowkey this was written for you @zzoguri aka cobster's future, i hope you'll enjoy this (and may this somehow be a little something for you during your hectic times ily my moni forever!! ❤️)

It was finally the summer holidays, and you were ecstatic as you heard the sound of a vehicle driving right onto your front porch. You had been waiting for this moment since you got the news during the new year and counting down the days on your calendar without fail every day.

Once you heard the engine stop, you immediately ran out to the door to jump right into the person’s arms which were already opened wide, fully expecting your demeanour. 

“Yujin! I’ve been waiting months for you!” You shrieked as you hugged your cousin tight, rubbing your cheek against hers. 

Both you and Yujin were raised together by your grandmother back in Vancouver, and things took a turn when your parents eventually got a promotion up in Toronto, causing you to move far away from your family. Because of that, you don’t get to see each other often anymore, the most being once every 2 years when your parents will try their best to make time to attend the Christmas parties held annually at your grandmother’s house. 

Yujin was like your long-lost sibling; even though you were cousins, you both felt there was more to that. Ever since you both have gotten your very own mobile phones, you both promised that you would FaceTime each other almost every other day. You knew everything about one another—from each other’s darkest secrets to how much money you stole from your parents' wallets when you were younger to buy that vinyl you have been eyeing for the longest time. 

But lately, things have been a bit too chaotic for you both to keep up the promised ritual. Since you both started university, it was hard to make plans, especially when studying in different courses, which also meant different timetables and classes. During the weekends, the both of you would often be occupied with either school events or at your local pizzeria as your part-time job. Hence, texting was the primary source of communication between you two.

And besides that, something crucial had happened to you lately, and you couldn’t wait to spill the beans to your cousin. 

Once you had helped Yujin unload her stuff from the car and moved it up to your room, you quickly made yourselves feel comfortable by cuddling together on your sofa bed. 

“So, tell me. How has life been for you?” you asked, blinking your eyes, trying to give her a pleading face because you wanted to know about everything that had happened lately. 

“I’ve been promoted to being part of the student council at my university! Oh, and then there’s also me actually acing an exam that I clearly did not study for because I was up all night that past few weeks playing Genshin Impact. Oh, and then there was this adorable guy from my campus who I think kind of has a crush on me because he always glances in my direction, like you know? That stare? And then—” 

“Woah woah, slow down, tiger,” you had to pause your cousin because clearly, she was dumping all of the information without giving you time to process them individually. With that, the both of you chuckled, hands placed onto your stomach as you began to laugh a little bit too hard until it started to hurt. 

This was what you had missed so dearly, and you couldn’t help but put on this genuine warm, soft smile on your face as you looked into Yujin’s eyes. 

That was until she squinted at you. 

“Whatever you’re doing right now is creeping me out real bad, so I suggest you stop that.” 

You slapped her arm. “Rude.” 

“Fine. What about you then? I’m sure your time at the University of Toronto has been a wild ride for you.” 

“About that…I have something I need to consult you for,” you lowered your head and voice to a minimum, which got your cousin's ears perked up and was prodding your arms, wanting to know the details. 

“Oh my god, did you just finally have your first kiss?”

“W-what? No! I mean, at least not yet….” 

“What do you mean not yet? So do you have a special someone in your life right now?”

With a deep sigh, you took one of the pillows lying on the floor and threw it in Yujin’s direction, causing her to hug the pillow tight as she laid her head down gently to rest on it. 

“Buckle up, babe. It’s going to be a long story.” 

Flashback

“God, why do I have to sign up for this?” 

You stomped your feet to the ground as you looked at the paper, which read: “Applications for extra-curricular activities such as clubs are mandatory for all students, commencing on April 2023.” 

Your university had been pretty lenient over the years, and they had never once forced students to participate in clubs if they chose not to, understanding that some of them had make-up classes for their courses or were just busy with their thesis and side jobs. Most of the students in the university themselves took on part-time jobs, such as working in the school’s cafeteria and library, to earn a little bit of pocket money to survive.

So, when they decided to change the rules after the previous headmaster resigned and was replaced by a new one that everyone did not like, she chose that both coursework and extracurricular activities played a crucial role in one’s graduation. 

Left with no choice, you stood before the bulletin board, trying to find a club that suited your taste. 

“Screw Mrs. Kim.” You huffed. 

“Look, Y/N. It can’t be too bad. It’s just a club. After all, nobody said you have to be super committed to it,” Your friend Keeho sighed, looking at how you beat yourself up over such trivial matters. 

“You don’t understand, Keeho. This means I will have less time at home because I will have to leave to work my shifts at the pizzeria right after clubs. What is going to happen to my games and k-dramas?” You whined. 

“If you want to graduate from university, you’re going to have to choose one now.” Knocking some sense into you, he gave you a pat on your shoulder before walking away towards the opposite direction, heading to his club.

You turned to look back at the bulletin board once again, scanning through all of the posters and flyers that were scattered throughout. After a minute or two, your eyes finally landed on this one cream-coloured flyer, and you sighed before checking the location once more before heading to your destination. 

“This is the only option that will work for now.”

“Hello?” You called out, but the room was empty as you opened and peeked your head through the door. Thinking that you should try again, you entered the room and looked around. 

There was nothing here but a ray of sunshine shining through the glass window into the empty room, and the sunlight landed directly on the lone black piano at the corners of the room.

Maybe playing it for a while wouldn’t hurt at all.

You slowly approached the piano and opened it up as you made yourself comfortable, sat down, and got into the rightful position, gently laying your hands on the keys. Immediately, you started playing one of your favourite pieces of all time, Summer by Joe Hisaishi. Unbeknownst to you, your body began swaying along with the music, enjoying the moment you were in. 

That was until a clap made you stop your tracks.

“Wow, that was some excellent playing right there.” The male gave you a round of applause as he slowly approached you, causing you to jump right up, looking all flustered. 

“I-Umm—I’m sorry! I didn’t mean to play the instrument without approval—” 

“Oh no, no! The piano is free for anyone who wants to play, so you’re all good,” he reassured you, causing you to calm your fast breathing down by placing a hand on your fast-rising chest. 

As he finally reached where you were standing, he posed a question directly at you. “Is there anything that I could help you with?” 

It was there, and then you took in his facial features as the sunlight shone from his face. His soft fluffy brunette hair, those doe-like eyes, and how mesmerising it was as he smiled. Adding onto the fact that he keeps smiling in the best way possible, your heart starts to flutter. 

“Umm, hello?” He was now waving his hands over your face. 

Oh, right. You were supposed to sign up for a club. What on earth were you thinking, Y/N?

“Y-yes! I’m here actually to umm���sign up for the club,” you said reluctantly, a little bit too shy with your answer. 

That was when the male’s eyes widened, and he did a little jump to indicate how happy he was to hear that from you, and he quickly extended out his hands to you, giving you a handshake.

“But of course! We are always open to new members joining the music club! Oh, pardon me, where were my manners? You can call me Jacob.”  

“Y-Y/N.” You replied.

It has been around two weeks since you joined the music club, and everything has been going smoothly for you. Thanks to Jacob (who turned out to be the club’s president), he has helped you so much in trying to get you to blend into the crowd and with other musicians, creating a very safe and warm atmosphere for everyone. 

It was also then that you noticed what kind of a person he was. He was very gentle, yet suitable to be a leader. The tone of his voice and the way he handled things fairly and reasonably made everyone respect him and want to perform alongside him. 

From what you have heard from the club members, Jacob would lead the team to busk at the city centre once every two to three weeks, which was where they would earn some money that served as their reward as they went out to celebrate once in a while at the local party scenes such as the bars. 

Thanks to his guidance, the university’s music club eventually garnered enough audience from the school and the public to the point that they have been invited to perform multiple times throughout the year. You have heard that even local communities such as the orphanage and childcare facilities would often ask Jacob and his team to function for the underprivileged ones, and they would gladly volunteer, even if it were for free. 

There were a few times when you stayed behind to help Jacob close up the music room (more like you were trying your best to spend much time with him as much as you could), and it was when you decided to ask him about his thoughts and the way he did things around here. 

“Music just means so much to me, and I would gladly perform every day even if I had to. It’s not about the money; it can be great as a little side income, but what matters most is that I do this because I am passionate about it,” he replied, clearly stating his goals and reasons well. 

Ever since that conversation, you notice more in detail how he did things or even when he performed. Just as he said, he was passionate—it didn’t matter if things were hindering his way, he would still make way for it. 

No matter how burnt out he could be from his coursework or side job, he would always place the music club first, making sure that not only he enjoyed the whole process but also the club members as well. 

Slowly, you began to admire him for not just his good looks but also his personality. It was as if he was this fine perfect gentleman that had just entered your life easily, and you couldn’t stop thinking about him each day. 

It was the way he was always smiling with others, the way he would sometimes sit at the piano and play a duet with you, the way you both were guitarists, so one of you would either offer a fun little duet session after club hours, even up till writing song lyrics together. 

And how there was one time he unintentionally got his arms around your waist when you slipped from the wet, freshly-cleaned wooden floor from the club, and he caught you in time. 

That was something that you have thought about all the time ever since it happened. 

As the weeks progressed to months, the little spark in your heart for him eventually grew, and it just kept getting bigger each time you saw him in the same club room. 

And that was when you knew you were in big trouble.

End of flashback 

“Damn, you're whipped,” Yujin concluded after listening to your story. 

“I know. That’s why I’m telling you this, Yujin. I’m so screwed.” You buried your head in your palms, the slight headache becoming more prominent now. 

“Hey, what’s wrong with liking a senior? I’d say it’s your time to shine and confess to him.” She reassured you by gently rubbing your back before you slowly lifted your face up. 

“That’s because I think I might be in too deep,” you mumbled. 

“And how exactly did you come up with that conclusion?” 

“Do you ever start stammering and slur your speech when they get close to you like they’ve not done anything, but somehow you just can’t converse like a proper human being.”

“Oh.” 

“When they literally tell you how they absolutely love your eyes and loved making them roll?”

“Okay. Go on.”

“And that you actually finally got their contact number and literally named them ‘do not leave me alone’?”

“Hold up, let me see.”

Reluctantly, you fished out for your phone in your back pocket and scrolled through your contact list until you found Jacob’s. As you click into it, you nervously hand your phone to your cousin, praying internally that she will not drop another diss to make you feel worse than you already are. 

Do not leave me alone ❤️‍🩹. That was exactly what was written for the club president’s contact name on your phone. 

“Damn, Y/N. I never would have thought you would be so delusional. I’d like to think that you’re far worse than I am,” Yujin declared, turning your face into a bright red tomato again. 

“I know, Yujin! And I have never felt this way before. That’s why I needed your validation.” You were practically doing somersaults mentally right now, wishing that you could take it all back, but at the same time, you needed to let out your inner feelings too.  

As Yujin handed your phone back to you, she raised an eyebrow before posing you a question. “So, what exactly do you intend to do from here on?” 

“There’s this upcoming music festival at my university this weekend, and I will be performing on stage.” 

“Oh, that’s great—”

“And I’m going to perform a song I wrote specifically about him,” you blurted out. 

That made Yujin shut her mouth as she tried to process what she had just heard. “Wow, Y/N. You are literally going all out on this.” 

“I just need a way to get this off my shoulders somehow, Yujin. And it’s now or never,” you said. 

“Will he realise that you are trying to serenade him, though?” Yujin asked as she placed her hand on your shoulder. 

“Success or not, I will still do it. And then I’ll completely forget that I’ve ever written this song ever again.”

It was finally Friday night, and the auditorium hall was filled with students, lecturers, and outsiders. Peeking from the backstage, there was this nervousness in the pit of your stomach, and you were now trying your best to rethink your actions. 

What exactly had made you even decide to sign up for the concert in the first place had remained a mystery for you, and looking back now, you swore you would’ve thrown a cold bucket of water over you to wake you up from your insanity. 

But it was too late to turn back now, as it would be your turn on stage in a few minutes. After the previous performer finished his chosen song, the MC briefly introduced you and your contributions to the music club before finally inviting you onstage. 

As you entered with the white guitar you had gotten for Christmas a few years prior, you tried your best to search for Yujin amongst the crowd—sure enough, she was sitting right at the side, waving her hands enthusiastically to cheer you on. You couldn’t help but flash a smile back. 

And finally, you decided to find the man of your dreams, and he was sitting right in the middle section along with the other club members. He gave you a clap just like the rest of the audience did and mouthed out a few words that you couldn’t grasp. Perhaps he was just saying “all the best,” as one would as they support their fellow members.

When you finally reached where the microphone stood, you adjusted yourself before positioning your fingers along the instrument's strings and introducing the piece you were about to perform. 

“This song was written by a special someone in the crowd tonight, and whoever that it may be, I hope this song speaks to your heart and that you mean a lot to me. Without further ado, enjoy.” 

With a few strums from the guitar, you gathered enough courage to smile before singing into the microphone. 

I’ll be honest.  Looking at you got me thinking nonsense. Cartwheels in my stomach when you walk in And when you got your arms around me Oh, it feels so good 

Instantly, you noticed several people from the crowd starting vibing along with your song as they naturally swayed their bodies from left to right, enjoying the melody and rhythm your song produced. 

I had to jump the octave I think I got an ex, but I forgot him And I can’t find my chill, I must’ve lost it I don’t even know, I’m talkin’ nonsense  I’m talkin’, I’m talkin’ 

When you peeked from the corner of your eye, you noticed how Yujiin practically stood up, clapping her hands along with the rhythm. Naturally, the people around her joined in, as did the crowd from the middle and far left section. 

God, were you so grateful for that, so much so that you were trying to hold back your tears. 

I’m talkin’ all around the clock I’m talkin’ hope nobody knocks I’m talkin’ opposite of soft  I’m talkin’ wild, wild thoughts You gotta keep up with me I got some young energy I caught the L-O-V-E How could you do this to me?

I’ll be honest.  Looking at you got me thinking nonsense.

With one final strum, you ended the performance with a bang, and you got the crowd to give you one of the loudest cheers you have heard throughout the night. Some have even given you a standing ovation, and you swore that tears were about to form in your eyes. 

You quickly redirected your attention to Jacob, and he did the same, standing up while giving you that sweet honey smile that you’ve grown to be obsessed with, clapping along with the rest of the audience. 

Thank you for existing, Jacob Bae. I hope you can hear my thoughts through this song written specifically for you. 

With a final bow, you quickly exited the stage.

You were sitting on a bench at a park near campus, opening the bottle of sparkling water you had gotten from one of the nearby vending machines.

You met up with Yujin right after the show and told her how you wanted some time alone just to wind down and digest everything that had happened. You reassured her that you wouldn’t be gone too long and would return as soon as possible. Thankfully, your cousin understood the message and agreed so long as you did not venture far away nor leave her alone too long exploring your campus. 

With a sip of the water, you couldn’t help but smile as you looked up into the skies filled with stars on a clear night like today. The secret was finally out, and a burden was lifted from your shoulders, so you could just sit back on the bench and relax a little bit. 

That was until a voice brought you back to reality.

“Mind if I join you?”

You jolted up from the bench to see the man you were trying to serenade, and immediately you felt the heat rise towards your cheek, and you began stammering again. 

“Y-yes, o-of course!! Umm..g-go ahead!!”

As he sat next to you, you naturally shifted slightly away from him and ducked your head down as you began to rub your palms around the water bottle you were holding back and forth. Jacob noticed your demeanour, and he couldn’t help but giggle as he saw the redness of your face becoming more prominent.

Because he had always known how you have been having a crush on him.

To break the ice, he devised a simple conversation to help you loosen up a bit and break off the tension. 

“I really like your guitar, Y/N. It’s just the right shade of white, and seeing it reminds me of elegance and simplicity but in an attractive way.” 

“U-uh, thanks! It was gifted to me as a present—”

“Just like you, Y/N.” 

Wait, what?

Did you just hear that right? Or is your mind playing tricks with you? Maybe the after-effects of adrenaline from the performance got you thinking nonsense. But you had to make sure. 

“I umm…I beg your pardon?”

“I said what I said, Y/N. I know you have a crush on me.”

Oh no.

“How I make you feel all giddy and excited every time I talk to you.”

Oh, hell no. 

“And I’m going to guess that the song you just performed was directed towards me.”

Lord Jesus, take the wheel. 

At this point, you felt as if you were receiving dozens of arrows shooting right into your heart one at a time, and you were just about to pass out. What you thought was a simple crush became way too apparent to the point that your love interest has already known since day one. 

This is the most embarrassing shit ever. 

You quickly recollected yourself by sitting up straight and clearing your throat before responding properly. 

“Ha-ha, I guess I-I was too obvious!! I-I’m sorry if I might’ve made you un-uncomfortable in any way—”

That was when Jacob interrupted you. “What makes you think I was uncomfortable by all of this?”

Jacon now inches a few spots closer to where you were, and your butt was glued shut on the bench because if you were to move any further, you would end up falling straight onto the grass. 

Oh, good lord. 

“I’m actually grateful for you, Y/N. I think it’s the first time anyone has ever felt that way about me,” he smiled. 

That was when you blinked your eyes. “W-what, really? How can people not fall in love with you—” You clasped your hands over your mouth as soon as you said the “L” word. 

He chuckled. “I don’t know. People have always seemed to view me as a good friend but not a potential love interest. I haven’t had one since a long time ago, and that made me rethink if I could ever date again.”

Gently he laid his hands onto yours that were situated on the bench as he turned his full attention to you now. 

“And funny enough, I’m pretty sure I have feelings for you too. The moment I saw you playing Summer on the piano that first day we met, I knew there was something different about you. And I am so glad that eventually we got close to one another.”

After that, Jacob finally took in a deep breath before turning his direction back to you, which made you gulped for a second. “I think it wouldn’t be fair for me to not give you a proper response to your confession to me, no?” 

Oh, god. It’s here. “S-so…what are your thoughts, Jacob? Was the song okay?”

“Y/N. It was far beyond just okay. It was a masterpiece, and I loved how quirky you are with the lyrics. It was something else, but it suited my taste.” 

As he finally intertwined his fingers with yours, he inched his face closer to yours until they were centimetres apart. 

“I accept the proposal, Y/N.” He smiled.

“Y-you…you do?” You asked weakly as if you were already not melting enough from the tension and heat. 

“Will you give me a chance, Y/N?” There was this glistening in his eyes, and he looked exactly like Puss in Boots from the animation that both you and Yujin loved watching when you were kids.

“If you’re ready to deal with me, of course,” you stammered. 

He gave you the biggest smile before pulling you into a warm embrace. “More than ready, Y/N.” 

As you sunk into his embrace and took in his scent, you rested your chin upon his shoulders and stayed just like that briefly before Jacob broke off the hug and gently grabbed both of your shoulders, his eyes now landing on your lips. 

“May I?” 

Without giving a proper answer, you immediately shut your eyes, indicating that it was a yes in your books. Jacob chuckled at that for a while before leaning in to give a peck on your lips. 

The sweet moment was then ruined by a ruffling noise coming from behind as both you and Jacob turned towards its direction. Sure enough, you found your cousin Yujin emerging from one of the trees with her phone in hand, recording the whole session. 

“Now, that is what I call a successful indirect confession!” She exclaimed. 

“Miss Ahn Yujin don’t you even dare—” you quickly threatened her before you took off running towards where she was, and she did the same but ran away from you instead. 

“You will be sleeping on the streets tonight!” You yelled.

“Try me, Y/N!” She replied. 

Jacob watched as the two of you began chasing each other around the park, and he couldn’t help but giggle as he laid back and propped one arm on the bench, just admiring everything about you. 

“Little did you know Y/N, that you also got me thinking nonsense about you all day every day.”

emails i can't send fwd: series masterlist

main masterlist

taglist: @deoboyznet @kflixnet @k-films @flwoie @zzoguri @kyusqult @tinkerbell460 @cheonsafics @sulkygyu @jaerisdiction @vernyangel @fylithia @stealanity @lngwayup @snowflakewhispers (join my permanent taglist here!)

[golbrocklovely]

this is about luke newton and the fans/bridgerton fandom

i'm very new to all of this so i'll be honest up front, i don't know everything. so maybe that alone is why i shouldn't say anything, but i feel like i gotta add my two cents since everyone else already is too lol

i keep seeing over and over again that for some fans, luke "ruined" part 2's airing bc he was seen out with his gf. how some have worded it, bc he was seen out the night of it's airing, he had the attention, the six months of pr and promotion that he and nic spent go down the drain all over a couple pics of him and his gf somewhat holding hands.

and to that i say…. are yall fucking nuts??

respectfully, the average viewer, which is the majority of ppl that watch bridgerton, don't give two flying fucks about the actors or more specifically who they are dating. so if you personally feel like the season or part 2 was ruined bc he was seen out with someone - that most have you have known about since like new years, if not before - i need you to come back to reality. luke is not colin. he did not betray pen or nic by having a love life that doesn't consist of either of them. if you genuinely feel like him being spotted a couple hours after the premiere of part 2 with his gf somehow destroyed all of the work he and nic did (along with the cast and crew), i need you to explain how any of that is possible. the show still exists. part 2 still aired swimmingly, and is getting record breaking numbers.

i think some of you got so lost in the sauce of nic and luke and them possibly being a couple that when part 2 came out and they didn't announce that they were together and in fact the complete opposite happened - yall didn't know what to do with yourselves. so instead of just taking a step back and realizing that maybe you read this situation wrong, you are now blaming him bc you decided to pay more attention to his love life rather than the show you guys spent two fucking years waiting for.

and look, i love nic and luke. and i would love for them to date. but reality is that's not what THEY want, as of right now. if that changes, awesome. if it doesn't, also awesome. if you can't handle two real life ppl making decisions for themselves that have absolutely no impact on you, go outside and TOUCH GRASS.

luke is not an asshole for dating someone. luke is not an asshole for having the friends he has. he's not an asshole for not promoting bridgerton as often as nic. he's not an asshole for wanting his life to be private. and on top of this, yall know literally nothing about his gf. everything that is known are conclusions or assumptions you are jumping to bc god forbid he might be happy with someone that isn't nic.

imma need yall to parasocial your ass to a therapist rather than luke. consider doing that. bc to all the outsiders (like me), you sound fucking CRAZY lol

[mafaldaknows]

Honestly, agree with Armie calling yall a brood of vipers. How quick are yall to throw him away when another man you deem more worthy, be it Troye or Jason Momoa or Hugh Grant, interacts with your saintly timmy. Having fans that only care about you when they can vicuariously live through you ther kinky fantasy about fucking your costar, no wonder he exploded and told that to the bulgarian weirdo.

We are not the ones in the everyone but armie train, you "charmies" are. If you can call yourselves charmie and not timothee shippers, that's the more accurate term.

Hello, Anon:

Are you lost again, darling?

When did I ever say anything about throwing Armie away?

BTW, The plural form of “y’all” is “all y’all”. “Y’all” is singular. If you’re attempting to disguise your identity by using a ubiquitous American Southern colloquialism, at least use it correctly:

“… agree with Armie calling ALL Y’ALL a brood of pit vipers.”

Your preteen pretzel logic has apparently drawn the erroneous conclusion that we have abandoned Armie Hammer, which is wholly contradictory to this specific fandom (obviously), and that anyone standing next to Timothée Chalamet in a photo or video that’s blogged or reblogged in this fandom space on tumblr automatically MUST means we “ship” them instead, even when there’s nothing written or even implied in the photo to indicate anything of the sort in the blog or reblog. Not in any of mine, anyway.

Taking delight in the magical alchemy that comes from excellent casting in a production is not at all the same thing as your implication of wanting Tim and any and all of his current co-stars to live out your specific kinky fantasies. That’s where YOUR mind wants to go, Anon. Not mine.

Armie is quietly rebuilding his life in peace and privacy after the trauma of a calculated character assassination over the course of the last three years, beginning shortly after the announcement of his ugly divorce from the perpetrator of that specific crime. He thankfully still exists, despite her best efforts, even if we don’t see him with the same frequency as we once did. Understandably, he is staying out of the spotlight to focus on the things that truly matter to him.

Tim is working hard right now to promote various projects so he’s automatically just that much more visible. He happens to be featured in some of these projects with fellow actors so he will naturally be associated in some way with them in the media. These promotional events are noteworthy to Tim’s fans so photos and press regarding these events get blogged and reblogged, and he may indeed be seen in close proximity to one of his co-stars in these photos. If your brain equates any of that with “shipping” Tim with his other co-stars, that’s on you.

For me, there is only one co-star with whom Tim has a deep connection worthy of my attention in this space. One.

However they choose to define that connection is up to them and none of my business. I’m just happy for them that they found each other.

Love is what brings us together in the Charmiesphere.

Love is love is love.

That’s it. That’s all.

Thanks for your comment. ✨💚🚢💙✨

[nolita-fairytale]

still into you | carmen 'carmy' berzatto x fem!reader | chapter one: thursday

summary: you, syd, marcus, and carmy return to where it all began: new york city, prompting you and carmy to think a lot about your past... and your future together. (four part series | follow-up to 'make my heart surrender)

warnings: lots of swearing, tooth-rotting fluff, use of she/her pronouns, the lightest of smut, no use of y/n, second person pov

word count: 5k

listen to: 91 - bleachers | now i'm in it - haim | bewitched, bothered, and bewildered - ella fitzgerald (playlist here)

a/n: re: the poll -- yall really said 'let this man be happy please!' and i love that for us. if you voted for the other fic, i want to reassure you that i will be writing that one right after this! please enjoy all of the fluff and joy of this four chapter fic. i also feel like i potentially robbed us of a smut scene so... anyone interested in a bonus smut scene as a companion to this chapter?

Thursday 

“Alright, guys. We only have a few hours to get our day one prep done. I’ve outlined a schedule for today so that we’re as efficient as possible. Tomorrow’s gotta go smooth, alright?” Carmy instructs, laying out the day. 

You listen intently, marveling at your boyfriend in-action. He’s so fearless when he’s in his element, and being back in New York just seems to bring back all the memories of how you met. It’s like you’re twenty seven again, huddling up for a pre-shift meeting, led by recently-promoted wunderkind CDC, Carmen Berzatto. 

Only, you’re not twenty seven anymore and Carmy is the love of your life. 

“I’m gonna start with the mise for our beef dish, so Syd, can you get working on our signature veal stock? I think we should work with one in the pressure cooker just in case we get short on time and have a back up,” Carmy directs, an intense determination filling his eyes. 

He looks from Sydney to Marcus, before continuing his orders. 

“Marcus, I need you to start on the ice cream today, chef. I ordered us some liquid nitrogen if we need to make more on the fly, but I’d really prefer not to.”

And then it’s your turn, and boy, do you love to watch him work. You have to fight the corners of your lips from curling into a broad grin because you know now is not the time. 

“And lastly, I’m gonna have you work on the pasta. My goal is for us to get all of the agnolotti assembled today, so I’ll jump in when I wrap up with my mise to help you with that, yeah?”

“Heard,” the three of you answer in unison. 

Everyone’s got their game faces on because this is a big deal. 

The biggest, actually. 

Representing The Bear at the James Beard House is more than a big deal – it’s an honor. Only a handful of chefs get invited to cook here per year, and after a little fancy footwork in terms of scheduling, the four of you were finally able to agree on a date with the famous organization. You’re more than elated to be a part of the team, even if you aren’t working at The Bear anymore. 

The four of you quickly busy yourselves with setting up your stations. You only have a few hours to accomplish a whole lot of prep, and the pressure sits heavily on each of your shoulders. Tickets to the dinner had sold out within the first hour, which, after all the press, accolades, and media attention the restaurant had earned over the last few years, hadn’t been a huge surprise.

“Think you can keep up, chef? Don’t tell me you’re gettin’ rusty on me,” Marcus quips, already starting the playful trash talking early.

You let out a laugh, before challenging him in jest.

“Damn, Marcus. Hasn’t been that long. Bet I can still kick your ass on a ‘beat the clock’ mise, chef.”

“Oooooh. Shots fired,” Sydney calls out, joining in on your friendly banter.

“Challenge accepted,” Marcus shoots back, almost instantly. 

And then you’re scrambling to get as many prep containers and a kitchen scale, as you race your friend and mentee, all in good fun. 

You’ve missed this. 

It’s only been a few months since you started your new job – a culinary education director at a startup intent on building more sustainable food systems. While your heart would always be at the restaurant, you’d been ready to take on new challenges. The salary pay and benefits didn’t hurt either. You were happy taking a grown-up job, craving a little more stability and normalcy – and so that you and Carmy could stop paying out the ass for health insurance. Besides, you were still working with food. It just looked… well, a lotta different these days. 

You’ve missed the fast pace of the kitchen, your people, and Carmy’s desire for excellence, but it’s not like those things have left your life either. You still have them. 

After you’d left the restaurant, Marcus had taken over as the head pastry chef. In the last few months, you’ve watched him mentor and inspire a new group of wide-eyed, green, chefs-in-the-making, which had made you prouder than you’d ever have the words for. 

You can smell the sharp-allium scent of onions, as Syd quarters them for her stock, and while you have several cartons of eggs and 00 flour, Marcus has gathered all the milk that you’d just purchased for today’s prep.

“Behind,” Carmy says. He passes you by with a few 5 qt storage containers stacked, as he hugs them to his body with one arm. 

You feel his other hand place the gentlest touch on the small of your back as he leans in and whispers in your ear, “It’s good to have you back, chef.” 

You smile, turning your head just enough to lean back to look at him. 

“It’s good to be back, chef.” 

He presses the gentlest, slow kiss to your lips, and it feels like time stops for a moment. As he pulls away from you, there’s a small smirk on his face as Sydney shouts, “Oh get a room, you two!” 

“If we had the time…” he murmurs quietly, planting one more soft peck onto your lips. His face is still only inches away from yours. You giggle in response, the tender moment filling your heart with warmth. 

“Speaking of time… I just bought Marcus a head start,” Carmy teases, your jaw dropping as soon as you realize what he’s doing. 

You pull away from him, your head snapping towards Marcus’ direction to see that he’s already filled a 5 qt container to its capacity with one portion of the milk. 

“Seriously? Damn it, Carmy!” you cry out, shaking your head. “This is sabotage!”

You hear Marcus laugh in the background and as Carmy walks away with a cheeky feeling of accomplishment. You shake your head in disbelief. 

“Sorry, babe. You can deal with a little hazing, yeah? Since you’ve been gone for so long. Gotta give my guy a head start. ‘S only fair.” 

“You’re such a dick,” you scowl, scrambling to catch up. 

Oh it is so on. 

*

By the time you’re done with your day one prep, the four of you head to the hotel. Luckily, it’s only a five minute walk away, and you’re grateful that the James Beard Foundation chose to partner with one so close. The four of you pull your suitcases down the streets of Greenwich Village, before arriving at the luxurious, vintage-inspired hotel. 

You’re eager to get up to your room, as you haven’t had a shower, nor a time to take a break since you all arrived. 

“Woah…” Carmy says, his brilliant blue eyes scanning the high end hotel room. “You sure we can afford this?” 

You chuckle, “I think uh… they have a partnership with the James Beard Foundation, which is the only way I can answer your question with a ‘yes’ without having to tell you that we have to sell an arm, a leg, and our first born.” 

He shoots a half smile in your direction before letting out a whistle as he looks around. The floor to ceiling windows feel way outside of anything you could afford, as Carmy spots the French doors that lead right out onto a terrace. As you continue to explore the rest of the room, you spot a huge tub in the bathroom – something you’re very eager to take advantage of. 

“Power nap?” you ask Carmy, setting down your suitcase in the middle of the room. 

You’ll put your things away later.

“Fuck yeah,” he agrees eagerly.

You’ve barely put your book bag down before you’re both stripping off your jeans and climbing into the perfectly made hotel bed. After spending the morning traveling, you, Sydney, Marcus, and Carmy had gotten off the plane at JFK and gone straight to the James Beard House in Greenwich. Not only had Carmy been antsy to see the kitchen and get a head start on prep, you hadn’t been able to check into your hotel till this afternoon. You’re both spent, and you know that Carmy’s been running himself ragged preparing for this once in a lifetime opportunity. He hasn’t been sleeping all that well either– his thoughts consumed with nailing down the perfect menu, while paralyzed with indecision.

His quest for perfection had made him irritable over the last few days. You could see that the pressure was getting to him. His appetite was down, he was picking fights with you about small, unnecessary things at home, and pushing Sydney (sometimes a little too hard) at the restaurant. 

But today, he seems a little more in control of his feelings, and it puts him a little more at ease now that you’re finally in New York. He knows he’s been driving you crazy all week, and now that you’re all here, he’s hoping he can relax a little. 

Now that you’re here, in the city. 

Now that the dinner is only a day and a half away. 

You’re hoping he’ll slow down at some point too – give himself a little time to enjoy how big of an accomplishment this is. At least by the end of the weekend. Frankly, you’re glad you’ll have Saturday to enjoy the city without any pressure. 

For all of your sakes. 

You’re surprised that Carmy falls asleep with you during your late afternoon nap. He’s been so wired, so high strung lately, but you’ve just been waiting for him to come back down. Now that it seems like he is, there’s no way in hell you’re going to wake him up. You’re curled up together when you wake, your back pressed against his chest, his arms enveloping you. It feels almost impossible to pry yourself out of his arms without waking him up, but his deep slumber confirms your suspicions and you’re more than willing to let him continue sleeping. It takes a few tries to slip out of his embrace, but you do, and it’s off to the bathroom to get ready for dinner.

You try to make as little noise as possible, but by the time you're out of the shower, and your hair has been blown dry, Carmy’s up. You can hear the hotel TV on as you exit the bathroom and see he’s put his jeans back on. He’s perched on the edge of the bed, still rubbing the sleep from his eyes. You notice that the dark circles under his eyes that have accumulated over the years seem to sit heavier this week, as his eyes flicker over towards you.

“Damn, my girl’s got style,” he compliments, checking out your all black-ensemble. “We really are back in New York, huh?”

You nod, grinning at his sweet compliment, as you sit down to slip your white sneakers on. 

“You meetin’ up with Liz and Maya tonight?” he asks you. 

“Yeah. Syd’s gonna join for a bit before her thing. She should uh… be here any minute, actually.” You begin tying up the shoelaces of one of your shoes, before slipping the other one on. 

“You sure you don’t want to come?”

“Nah I-, I'll see ‘em tomorrow right? But tell ‘em I say ‘hello’.”

“Of course. I think they’re both really looking forward to seeing you.”

You check the time on your phone making sure you have enough time, before you make your way to where Carmy sits on the edge of the bed. 

“What’re you going to do tonight?” you ask, curiously, stopping so that your body is right in front of his. 

“Well Marcus is staging at per se so… I’ll probably just hang out. Order room service or pick up a sandwich across the street. I wanna run through all this shit so tomorrow goes as well as it can,” Carmy answers, waving his notebook at you. 

He’s like a man possessed, but it’s one of the many reasons you love him. You pull the notebook out of his hands tossing it somewhere on the bed behind you. You place your knees on each side of his hips, before settling down on top of him. 

“Think you can relax a little tonight?”

He pulls you in, his arms moving over your hips. Carmy leans in, placing a small kiss against your glossy lips. 

“Think you can help me with that?”

You giggle in response, twisting your fingers into the curls at the nape of his neck.

“I think… that could be arranged.”

Before anything too spicy can happen, there’s a knock at the door and you know it’s Syd. Carmy groans as you pull away, falling back onto the bed with a sigh of defeat. You climb off of him, heading to answer the door. 

“Hey, you ready?” Sydney asks, as you greet her. 

“Yeah, let me just grab my phone,” you reply, stepping aside to let her in. 

As she enters the hotel room, Carmy’s sitting up. With his feet planted firmly on the ground, he leans over, resting his forearms on his legs as he runs a hand through his messy curls. 

Sydney looks from you to a somewhat pouty Carmy, as if she knows she interrupted something. 

“Staying in tonight, Carm?” she asks him, as you gather your things. 

“Yeah,” he grumbles, and you can’t help but notice how tired he looks. 

Sydney rolls her eyes in response, “Don’t worry. I’ll have her back by nine.”

“Alright, I’m ready,” you say with a smile as you address Sydney. 

“You guys have fun,” Carmy nods, with a half assed wave.

“Don’t work too hard, boss,” Sydney adds, as the two of you turn to leave. “Oh and Carmy. You’ve got a little…” She gestures towards the lipstick you’ve left on his face. 

You laugh in response, and as you close the door, Carmy can hear Sydney’s ‘oh my god, you two are like rabbits’ comment in the distance. 

Carmy allows himself to fall back on the bed, reaching above his head to grab his notebook again. He’s honestly grateful to have a night to himself. He’s never been much for going out, or big social events, so having a night in feels like a good kind of calm before the storm – especially because the next few days will be full of social interactions. He’d always found New York City a little overstimulating. 

Between the dinner and the reception on Saturday, Carmy felt like he was collapsing under the enormous pressure – his only out being excellence. It’s not just the fact that being invited to cook at the James Beard house was a once in a lifetime opportunity, but there’s important business to announce here too. And then there’s the social aspect of it all, and he can’t help but feel like there are high expectations: from the food world, his reputation, your old friends from New York. And he wants to make everyone happy – he wants to impress them all. 

Something about being back here, and being back here with you, has him caught up in his head about it all. This is where you’d met. It’s also where he’d been at his lowest – right before Mikey died. So much has changed, and Carmy feels too large for his old battlefield.

Because that’s what it had been for him: a battlefield. 

A battle for his mental health, to rise to the top of the New York City fine dining scene, fighting with his feelings for you. 

Over the last two years, he had learned that he didn’t have to fight every single damn day. Some days he could just… be – be himself, whatever the fuck that meant, be a friend, and be with you. It felt strange – familiar and unfamiliar at the same time. Being back here makes him somehow feel like the total loser he was six years ago when he first arrived in NYC… and a completely different person at the same time. 

While he was over the moon when he got the call from the James Beard Foundation, he also couldn’t fight this uncomfortable feeling that’s been sitting in his stomach all week long. Carmy had never quite been able to come to terms with the whole ‘celebrity’ aspect of the food world. He knew what he could do in the kitchen. That was unquestionable. But the rest of it – the networking, the celebrity chef circles – was the part he felt most unsure about.

Ever since Sydney’s Rising Star win, he’d let her take center stage with her rising visibility in the culinary world. Actually, he’d been grateful that she was so good at it – that it seemed like she enjoyed the part of the job he hated. There was someone to take the pressure off of him – someone who thrived in front of the camera so that he didn’t have to. But he knows at some point this weekend, he’ll have to face the music. 

There were big changes coming to The Bear. 

*

It didn’t take long after the initial introductions for your friends to fawn over Sydney. They were more than happy to meet your friend they’d heard all about, and the incredible chef who was shaking up the Chicago food scene. 

“Well I’m glad to hear that some things have changed and that working with Carmy’s not a total nightmare any longer-?” Liz concludes your conversation about the restaurant, earning an eye roll from Maya and a laugh from both you and Sydney.

“Oh no it’s still tough sometimes,” Sydney says back. “He has his days. We all do.”

“Liz!” you protest, in regards to the Carmy-bashing.

“What?! You didn’t have to work directly under him back then!” she defends herself, before clarifying with Sydney. “And in his defense, Sydney, it was really our exec chef who was the real nightmare.”

“Oh she works directly under him, alright,” Maya jokes, raising an eyebrow at you. 

“And sometimes on top of him, and also-,” you quip back, ready to play along.

“Oh my god, you’re out of control and I am sick of you!” Sydney exclaims with a laugh in reference to your crass comment.

“So tell us more about the new restaurant,” Maya prompts, refocusing the conversation back to Sydney’s previous reveal.

Sydney tells your friends about The Bear’s plans to expand, and shares ideas she has that even you haven’t heard from Carmy yet. As she wraps up her story, she realizes what time it is, meaning that she’s gotta head uptown soon. She really only was supposed to stay for a glass of wine, but meeting your friends has been so fun that she’s lost track of time. 

“Shit. I have to head out,” she says. “But I’ve really loved meeting you guys. You’re coming to the dinner tomorrow night, right?”

“Wouldn’t miss it.”

“Absolutely.”

“And the reception!” you add gleefully, so glad you get to see your best friends three days in a row. 

“It’s been really great meeting you, Sydney,” Liz says, shooting you a look of approval. She squeezes your hand under the table momentarily, before saying, “Thanks for taking care of our girl. She speaks so highly of you.”

“Where are you off to next?” Maya asks, excitedly. 

“Syd’s got dinner plans,” you answer, waiting for Sydney to provide more detail.

“Yeah, I uh-, I got invited to one of the To Be Hosted events and it just worked out that we’d be in town for this the same weekend,” Sydney replies, a glimmer of excitement flashing through her eyes as she shares.

“Damn, you got invited to a supper club?” Liz marvels. “Okay!”

“Yeah because she’s a rockstar,” you cheer your friend on, saying it so matter of factly that even a stranger would believe you. 

You all say your goodbyes to Sydney before ordering food. It feels so good to be back in the city, back here with some of your best friends. Maya and Liz had been the friends that held you up, and you them, when you lived here. While you had met Liz at your last job, a sous chef under Carmy’s leadership, Maya worked in fashion and the two of you had become fast friends after meeting through an ex-boyfriend. Once you introduced the two of them to each other, the three of you had been inseparable ever since. 

They had always been your biggest cheerleaders – especially when it came to you and Carmy.

“She’s great,” Maya says, in reference to Sydney. 

“Right? I’m so excited for her. This is a huge deal: create her own menu, a chance to run kitchen without Carmy…” you agree, feeling deep satisfaction over the amazing people you have in your life. “We’re announcing the big news at the dinner tomorrow.”

“Speaking of, how is our favorite guy? What’s he up to tonight?” Maya asks, guiding the conversation back to Carmy. 

“I told him he could come but I think he wanted to stay in tonight. I think he needs some time to decompress. He’s been pretty high strung all week,” you answer. 

“Carmy? High strung?” Liz asks back sarcastically, earning a laugh from you.  “I’m kidding! I really am looking forward to seeing him tomorrow. 

Maya shakes her head, before taking a sip of her glass of wine. She’s always adored Carmy, but knows that Liz has a different relationship with him, having worked as a line cook. 

“You guys are… getting serious, huh?” Liz asks, glancing over at you. 

“Um.. I think those two were married after their first coffee date,” Maya adds. 

“It was not a date!” you insist, shooting her a look. 

Liz lets out an unconvinced laugh, and you accept defeat because you know they’ve always been right about you and Carmy. 

“Maya, don’t forget. Our girl is and has always been the Queen of Denial,” Liz adds, winking in your direction. 

“Oh ha-ha. You guys are so funny,” you reply dryly. You nod, thinking about you and Carmy’s relationship over the last few years. “Yeah uh… it’ll be three years in the Fall so… you could say it’s getting pretty serious.”

Your friends are beaming back at you in response to your admission, and while you’d love to spend all night talking about how head over heels you are for Carmy, you’re also kind of ready to shift the attention off of you and your relationship. 

“Enough about me. What’s going on with you guys?” you change the subject. 

It feels so good to catch up with your girl friends. You all agree to make it an early night. While Maya’s husband had agreed to put their kid to bed, she wants to make it home in time anyways. Liz has a date later, and before you know it, you’ve wrapped up dinner and are walking back to your hotel. You send Carmy a quick text, because you’re only a few blocks away. 

You: On the way back. 

New York City has always been so inspiring to you. The city itself feels alive – like there’s an electric undercurrent that always makes you feel so full. There’s never a dull moment, and it feels as if the potential for a wild adventure is always around the corner. It’s also the place that you and Carmy met, all those years ago. It’s funny. The version of you that met him six years ago never could’ve predicted this: that you’d actually get to be here together, after almost three years of loving each other fiercely. 

Your friends were and always have been right about you. 

Back then, you were Queen of Denial and even then, Carmy had been your king. 

But you’re here now: in the city you met in, stupidly in love with the man you’d met six years ago who had seemed terrified to merely have a conversation with you. 

Your phone buzzes in your hand, interrupting your trip down memory lane, as you peek at the text you just received. 

Carmy: Went out for a walk and a smoke. 

You type back a quick, yet short reply. 

You: Love you. 

When you return to the hotel room, you enjoy the quiet of the evening. It still feels like spring in NYC, so you open a window because it just feels too damn good outside. No wonder he’d gone for a walk. You kick your shoes off, placing them gently by the door, before stripping off your jacket and heading into the bathroom. 

As you pull your hair up and out of your face, piling it into one conglomerate on top of your head, you eye the large bathtub you’d admired earlier.  Not only are you in need of a relaxing soak, but you’re hoping you can persuade Carmy to join you – maybe even help him destress a little. You don’t think twice about it, as you strip off all of your clothes, sliding on one of the fluffy robes that the hotel has provided. You flip on the hot water, the sound of rumbling water against tile hitting your ears.

There’s a bath soak in a glass jar that you find on the bathroom counter, before adding it to the increasingly hot water. While it looks like a mixture of some kind of soak and epsom salt, large bubbles begin to form underneath the rapid stream of the faucet, and you inhale deeply. 

Lavender. Vanilla. Chamomile, maybe?

The smell puts you at ease and you can feel your shoulders melting away from your ears. 

It’s not long before Carmy returns, the bathtub is almost at its capacity and the bath soak that you put in the hot water has bubbled up and blossomed into large, sudsy configurations. You’ve put on a jazz playlist, the sounds of Ella Fitzgerald filling the small space as you hum along. 

“Babe?” Carmy calls out to you, as you hear the front door close behind him. 

“I’m in here,” you call to him, turning the volume of your phone down a few levels. . 

You hear a shuffle of shoes, before he’s peeking around the door frame, his eyes lighting up as soon as he sees you. He knows it’s silly. It’s not like he’s been able to be very present over the last week, and it begins to dawn on him that he’s missed you.

“How was your walk?” you ask softly. 

“Good.”

He looks around the bathroom, the air thick with humidity from the hot water. You turn the faucet off, as you’ve now filled the tub to its capacity.

“You look comfy.”

“I am. It’s a very comfy robe.”

You wait a beat before preparing your ask.

“Big tub,” you entice him, gesturing towards the bubble bath that awaits you. 

“Yeah?” he asks, a half smile on the edges of his lips as he takes a step towards you. 

“Big enough for two,” you nod, making your case. 

It’s all the convincing he needs. You’re removing your robe, leaving your bare body on display for him to see, and soon enough, he’s stripping down and climbing into the bathtub with you. You share an awkward laugh as the two of you clumsily figure out how to position yourselves for optimal comfort. Your back is pressed against his chest, and you’re truly in awe of the large bathtub that somehow holds the both of you.

It becomes progressively easier for Carmy to relax. Between the hot water, and your naked body pressed against his, thoughts and worries about tomorrow begin to slip away. The two of you enjoy the quiet intimacy between you, the soft sounds of your favorite jazz standards, and Carmy’s lazily dragging his fingertips across any bit of exposed skin that he can.

You lean your head back against his shoulder, and Carmy buries his face in the crevice where your neck and shoulders meet. 

“Why don’t we do this more often?” he asks, in between leaving a few slow-paced, soft kisses across your shoulders. 

“Hm?” you hum in response. From the way his mouth and hands move across your body, and the silky feeling of the hot water, you barely have a thought left in your head.

“This whole… bath thing,” he clarifies, exhaling a deep sigh. 

This may be the most relaxed he’s felt all week and he likes that you seem to be enjoying this too.  

“Probably because we have a tub that I can only assume was built for a small show dog,” you joke. 

He laughs dryly. 

“Fair enough.”

Carmy waits a beat before speaking again, enjoying how his mind has quieted for the first time in days.

“Let’s put it on the list… for when we’re ready to move to a new place,” he suggests, quietly. 

“Somewhere with a big tub?” you ask, only sort of surprised by his request. 

“Yeah.”

You turn your head to look at him, as Carmy presses a searing kiss to your lips. You feel his hand snake between your legs and you begin to understand exactly why he’s enjoying this whole bath thing. 

“As much as I’m enjoying this…” he whispers against your lips. “Think you maybe want to get out of this tub…”

Another kiss.

“… dry off…”

You slide your tongue against his as his fingertips move higher up your inner thigh, earning a hiss of pleasure from you. 

“…not put our clothes back on?”

And then he’s swallowing your moans in his mouth, as he continues his exploration. Your head is spinning, and it’s not just the hot water that makes you feel as if your soul was set aflame.

“Yes.”

*

The next morning, you wake up alone. On the bedside table there’s a note in Carmy’s scratchy handwriting that reads:

Couldn’t sleep. Went to Chelsea Market. Love you.

You let out a frustrated sigh. Last night had been incredible but you also knew it’d be back to the grind today. While you’re excited for him – and for tonight – you’re also kind of ready for this to be over. You’re ready to have your boyfriend back.

read: bonus smut scene | chapter two

taglist: @allthefandomstogether @gaysludge @sobshoney @harrysmatcha @starbritestarlite @tpwkkmila

[bubble4u]

Merrier the more

Summary: Your friend takes you to a new club to check out

There's gonna be a part 2 this fic will be too long

Characters: Uzui tengen , Makio, Suma, and Hinatsuru

Pairing: mako x reader, suma x reader, hinatsuru x reader

This fic has: NSFW, polygamous relationships, woman x woman, mentions of drinking

You trusted your friend and while in the midst of getting ready they kept going on and on about this new club they went to recently and you won't lie your curiosity peaked everytime they kept describing the place and top it off "wall to wall fuckable club goers" in their words not yours so fuck it you weren't working this weekend why not go and hook up with a random it's been a hot minute anyways.

When yall arrived it was in a weird area near the back of another building there was no sign or anything to tell you that this was the club but you trusted your friend they knew where it was they wouldn't steer you to danger.

When you walked inside the main entrance the lighting was low but not to the point that you couldn't the bouncer behind a desk she smiled "hello it's 20 for both but we have a special if you show that you don't have underwear on then entrance is free plus 3 free drinks" you froze what the fuck kinda place is this before you could comment you turned to see your friend had already lifted their dress to expose their bare pussy to the bouncer.

Your jaw dropped the bouncer then looked at you waiting to see what you wanted to do you contemplated for a hot minute. You brought enough money for drinks and entrance but, free is free there's nothing better than free you looked at your friend then at the bouncer you sighed reaching under your dress to take off your lace thong and tossed it in your clutch.

The bouncer giggled then handed you two 3 red tickets when yall entered the music was booming, lights were beaming and your friend was right there was no bad looking person here even the bartenders were hot before you two made it to the bar you pulled your friend aside. "where did you find this place" "I applied here for the bouncer position and when I saw what happened inside I figured it would be fun" you were confused you've been to many clubs but none that had showing your body parts as an entrance fee.

"Uzuiiii come on dance with us pleeeease it isn't the same" tengen chuckled as suma clung to him they've only been here for an hour and already she was getting antsy "you three go enjoy yourselves ok I'll join you in a minute" she huffed and walked off with makio and hinatsuru he couldn't help but gaze at his wives how lovely they looked in their outfits each of different taste and style but still complimented one another while he wasn't much of a club goer he couldn't say no to them when they begged to come back to their favorite spot to celebrate his promotion in the VIP section. He just chuckled to himself watching them grind and carasse one another he can't blame the various eyes staring at them and he can't lie to himself he was getting kinda tight in the pants watching them this was gonna be a fun night.

At the bar your friend had already used all three of her tickets you on the other hand weren't trying to get too drunk just yet, plus whoever was making the drinks had a very heavy hand so you babysat your 1st drink a bit as you waited for your friends third free drink you turned to look around and take in the scenery everything seemed like your typical night club but that not wearing underwear to get in for free bit is still slightly bothering you plus you didn't notice it now but towards the back there were two tall buff men standing in front a velvet rope and behind them were a curtain of sorts as you watched you'd see groups of people go in some of just two people and some as big as 6 theyd show off a wristband and the two men would let them in then the groups would disappear behind the big curtain.

"It's a cool isn't it" you looked at your friend confused "the club.... it's cool right" "oh shit ...yeah it is..sorry I was lost in my thoughts for a minute" she slightly giggled "it's ok sorry for that whole thing with the bouncer part if it made you feel uncomfortable-" you waved your hand "it's ok it was interesting but hey that's an extra couple of bucks we didn't have to spend so cheers to that" you both clinked your glasses and took a swig of your drinks. "Why don't we go dance we didn't come all this way to just stand here come on" you nodded and yall two interlocked hands so you wouldn't lose one another while navigating the crowd of bodies to enter the dance floor. You two slowly started dancing until eventually yall got more comfortable and danced more freely feeling the music and just vibing with one another not caring about the outside world.

As tengen ordered another bottle of champagne so his wives would have something to drink when they come back as he peered back down he noticed that they moved from where they were originally he scanned the dance floor and saw that they were now talking to another pair of females and by the looks of it his wives were very much enjoying their conversation.

"I really love your dress!" Suma got your attention you looked around to see if maybe she was talking to someone else but she no she locked eyes with you and when you motioned if she meant you suma nodded and got closer to you and your friend. "I'm sorry but I just wanted to say you look really pretty and that I like your dress" she slightly yelled cause it was hard to hear anyone with how loud the music is "thanks I actually got it online I can show you the place hold on" as you were typing away at your phone you heard two more voices approach. "suma you can't just walk off like that" " yes,please tell us when you're going somewhere we got worried"you looked up to see two more woman had appeared one with duo hair color and one with long black hair that had a beauty mark om her left eye they each were gorgeous you almost forgot what you were doing. "I'm so sorry I got carried away" they both smiled "it's ok as long as your fine that's all that matters" the one with duo hair patted suma head "I'm sorry to cut into you and suma conversation but let me introduce myself my name is hinatsuru uzui" "and I'm makio uzui it's nice to meet yall" you and your freind shook their hands "and I'm suma uzui sorry for catching you off guard" you smiled at the short haired woman "no it's fine it happens".

As you fived talked tengen couldn't help but eye you up and down your outfit was very nice hugged every curve of your body like the dress was made just for you and the way you carried yourself like you knew you were pretty but you also let others shine as well. Ooooo and that dress my how it hugged you nicely also, he couldn't put his finger on it but you had this pull feeling like he wanted to get up and head down there to talk to you he couldn't help but smile as he witnessed his wives having a good time seeing their smiles and laughing along with you and your friend yeah he needed you here. Within in an instant he pulls out his phone an texts hinatsuru telling her to invite you and your friend up to their VIP area when he was done he looked out and witness hinatsuru feel her phone vibrate and pulled it out she looked at it for a bit and tapped makio on the shoulder to show her the message she received and while suma was talking to you makio whispered in her ear suma then stopped her conversation and looked at makio.

"Is everything ok?" Your friend asked hinatsuru nodded "yes, actually my feet are kinda hurting if you want we have a VIP section you two are more than welcome to join us if you want. You looked at your friend who shrugged you agreed and as you grabbed your things makio noticed you still had drink tickets "you can throw those away if you want there's champagne waiting for us" you couldn't be more happier cause the mixed cocktail was starting to taste gross the more you babysat it. As you and your friend followed the trio upstairs you couldn't help but feel this certain feeling the woman had like they had a connection not individually but all together there was this certain safety and love that they gave off it was nice you didn't understand it but it made you happy that you met them.

As you made it to the top where a row of closed off sections were seen you saw suma bolt towards a white haired man who as you witnessed was definitely excited to see her as well he had kissed her for a couple seconds only to make eye contact with the other two women he smiled and gave the other two their shared kisses. It's safe to say you and your friend were caught off guard, you two weren't ones to judge alot of people are in polygamous relationships actually, you thought the three woman were related in a way cause they all shared the same last names you didn't stop to think they were married to one another. Tengen then noticed you and your friend "I'm sorry I'm so rude it's nice to meet you my name is Tengen uzui" you and your friend do a small nod "please, come join us I ordered champagne and I know you two must be tired from being on your feet" you and your friend walk towards the closed off seating area sitting opposite of the 4 person couple.

Tengen was no ordinary man no he stood at 6'6" muscles and all he was built and you can tell he took pride in his appearance from his skin to his hair he looked like he had a better skin care regiment than you could ever imagine he looked well off and not in a "this is my parents money" no he gave off that worked my ass off to get where I am and you'd be lying if you didn't find him attractive. "I'd imagine my wives talked yall two ears off" he started setting everyone's glasses down proceeded to grab the champagne and twisting the cork you were gawking at him not hearing what he had just said your friend noticed and slightly nudged your arm "uhhh yeah no it was cool we were just enjoying each other's time"

He smiled as the cork popped he had poured each glass even you and your freinds "enjoy please also partake in the strawberries also my suma always says champagne taste better with them" you looked and saw that all three woman were drinking and taking bites into the red fruit. You and your friend didn't need to be told twice the strawberries were slightly darker that means they'll be sweeter and they were as you bit it made you giggle they were perfect like specifically hand picked. As you drank your glass you did give suma credit champagne did go well with the strawberries "I'm curious tengen was it?" Your friends curiosity got the better of her "how did all of you meet?" He couldn't help but chuckle a bit he went to go sit back down between his wives "well.. my family is pretty old school very much into arranged marriages and so when they picked several woman for me to choose and I couldn't" he wrapped his arm around makio and suma then kissed makio head "these three made me feel like I didn't have to hide behind anything, they assured me I can be myself, they pushed me when I couldn't and picked me up when I was at my lowest" suma moved to kiss his cheek he looked at her lovingly at her little gesture "and without them I don't think I would be where I am" he looked at all three of his wives holding a few second eye contact when he said this "does that answer your question" he went back to addressing your freind who nodded her face slightly feeling hot you on the other hand everything he said made your heart race you felt a slight flutter on your stomach he wasn't even talking to you but damn did his words make you wish he did .

"That can't be THE uzui tengen I see!!" Everyone turned to see a blonde/red haired man approach the group same build as tengen but was shorter. He came around to the side where you and your friend were sitting "well if it isn't the famous kyojuro rengoku how are you doing?" Tengen rose up to give the other male a brief hug " good now that we closed this deal a few colleagues are here with me but they're down stairs in the paradise room" "so you'll be here for a minute or two" the two men laughed in merriment. "Now I see the usual bunch is together but I must say there are two new flowers I haven't seen before, tengen how many more wives must you have? save some for the rest of us" the one called rengoku looked at your friend and you "I'm only kidding it's nice to meet you two I do hope my friend is treating ok?" You two nodded "wonderful!" He was a loud individual "why don't you join us kyojuro if I know what it's like I'm the paradise room your colleagues aren't gonna wann leave anytime soon" tengen motioned for his friend to sit you and your friend scooted down to make room for the other person it didn't go unnoticed by you on how your friend slightly tried to press up against the blonde judging by the way her eyes are looking at him you're guaranteed she's either gonna wanna go home with him or get his number. She gave you a look in response you gave her one back like a telepathic high five kyojuro isn't bad looking if it weren't for you wanting to ride tengen into next week and probably have time with his wives you'd ask kyojuro if any of his colleagues wanted to hang out but, you pushed the thought aside the champagne is giving a little bit of liquid courage so out of nowhere "hey why don't we play kings game?"

You gathered and marked 7 straws 6 are marked with numbers and one marked king all in a cup you jumble them up and have each persob grab a straw with their eyes closed whoever gets king can command a random number or numbers to do any tasks if not they must drink shots of the number they've drawn. "Now remember it's whatever command the king wants and since we're all adults let's have fun" you smiled excited about the party game, you looked down at your straw and saw that you had the number 3 everyone else looked at theirs and samu face light up "I'm king!" Eveyone chuckled at the bob haired woman "hmmm ok number 5 I want you to sit on number 3 lap for the whole night" you're face felt warm when you saw makio get up "ok whose number 3" she looked around until she saw your hand slightly raise she smirked and made her way towards you. You couldn't look her in the face even though she sat pretty and her arms was draped around your neck you couldn't look her in the face she nuzzled up on your neck and place her head on your shoulder "you smell really nice" you felt like you wanted to combust was it always this hot you slightly fanned yourself makio couldn't help but giggle.

You drew again this time you got 2 you couldn't help but peek and see makio got 4 when she noticed you staring then she cuddled closer to you "I'm king" your friend announced "I want 6 and 4 to kiss for 10 secs" you looked at makio who couldn't help but smirk at the challenge when everyone announced their number you stayed silent it was then that you noticed a shadow casted down on the both of you, as you looked you saw tengen "well everyone else isn't 4 is it one of you two?" You shook your head, you raised up your straw to show your number. "My dear makio playing tricks you should've just said you wanted a kiss" you could feel her heart race a bit it didn't help that when their lips met she was still on your lap. You gave them some privacy by averting your eyes but, every now and then your eyes would fall on the couple damn this is a long 10 seconds you looked away again hoping maybe they didn't feel your gaze but when you glanced back at the couple you felt stuck, within that split second you saw tengen look your way eyes locked in on you.

Another round, this time you drew the king you smiled to yourself thinking now what task to assign.While you were busy lost in your train of thoughts, Makio had looked over and noticed your straw. “You’re the king?” You nodded at her question, not quite understanding where she was going with this. “That’s no fun, I was hoping we could do something together.” Damn it, why does she have to say things like that - did she want to send you into cardiac arrest? “Y-yeah, hey.. did you want to help me decide on a task?” Her eyes lit up and sparkles with joy at your request, she found it quite endearing how shy you were. “Ok, how about you get someone to do a lap dance, or even a strip tease?” She smirks, sending you a playful wink. You wrap your arms around her waist, giving her a light squeeze. “That’s a good idea. thank you!!” In return she shot you a genuine smile, before saying she was happy she could help.

"I got king! And I want 6 to give a strip tease or lap dance to 3 for a whole minute" rengoku clapped his hands together "Alright! Whose the lucky person to witness my new moves" your friend nudged him "well, hurry up big guy I got a few ones I don't mind giving you" the cheering grew louder this little exchange made Rengoku get up from where he was sitting to then he came back with random chair in tow everyone knew this was gonna be good he looked at your friend as he patted the seat she didn't need to be told twice and before you could start the timer rengoku was already dancing/grinding to the beat of the song playing throughout the club everyone in the group was whooping, and hollering hyping up regoku even more that he had unbuttoned his shirt. Holy fuck was he built very deeply cut and well-grooved 8 pack he didn't even need to flex rengoku would grab your friends hand to touch up chest making her feel every toned muscle on his body even though he was sweaty your friend didn't care "Alright 30 seconds left make it count it!" rengoku got even more excited he grabbed your friends arms and wrapped them around his neck before he did anything he whispered to her "hold on tight" he picked her up wrapping her legs around his waist your group lost it by that point after rengoku had hoisted your friend up to grinded a bit in mid air your friend decided now was the time to kiss rengoku who in turn deepen the kiss you couldn't help but cheer for her even louder to the point that you're standing up "Alright you two times up" everyone cheering the two on for their performance. As rengoku did a little bow he had placed your friend on his lap nuzzling into her neck to lightly kiss her nape looks like youll be leaving home solo which you're not mad at. After a few more rounds with a few more embarrassing tasks like you having to fish out a dollar from hinatsuru cleavage to having suma give you a hicky which you won't lie you enjoyed as things were calming down to the point that everyone was in their own little world.

Makio still didn't move from her spot on your lap she had leaned back with you in the couch you noticed how comfortable you started feeling it wasn't until you two would then whisper to each other and giggle about things that you realized how relaxed you felt. While in the midst of talking with makio you felt a tap on your shoulder you turned to see your friend who was hand in hand with rengoku as he was on his phone texting "were gonna head down stairs" you waved to her knowing she was probably gonna leave soon "have fun" she then leaned into your ear making sure no one else heard "he said he has a pass for the curtain room" your eyes widen but  before you could say anything your friend was already headed down stairs. What is the deal with that room? Besides the fact that it must be an exclusive thing you didn't notice it until later but everyone even rengoku had those bracelets. Was it like some powerful people cult thing? Oh you hoped not that would mean you'd have to go and save your friend you were already slightly buzzed plus you were sure you couldn't fight that many people you groaned thinking about the endless terrible possibilities makio noticed your sudden change "you ok?" You nodded but then stopped your worrisome thoughts "hey makio" "mhmm" "that bracelet.... is it like a pass or something?" She perked up at your question "something like that, why do you ask?" you cursed yourself hoping you didn't just dig yourself a grave "cause you all have one even rengoku, plus when we were heading up here I saw some groups of people show those bracelets off and then went into that room that's hidden" tengen couldn't help but smirk at your curiosity this must've been your first time here oh this will be fun he thought "well, it's a room yes...but.. well" suma was stumbling over her words trying to figure out a PG way of telling you what's behind the curtain "there's areas in that room, many in fact" tengen announced locking his eyes with you "some where you can be watched, another where you do the watching, then there's one where people can live out fantasies then towards the back theres beds so big at least ten people can fit on one" though slightly vague your curiosity peaked a bit tengen couldn't help but notice this "wanna see?"His question caught you off guard "I'm sorry?" He gestured downstairs "wanna see what's behind the curtain?"

Why did your curiosity get the better of you? why did you open your mouth? You kept asking yourself these questions while waiting in a small line for the curtain room. Hinatsuru noticed your change in demeanor she layer her hand on your shoulder feeling you slightly flinch "hey, its ok if you don't wanna go in hows about we stay out here, we'll go back up to the booth order more drinks or even some food ok? Just the two of us" You slightly calmed down you really didn't wanna damper the mood for everyone plus you've made it this far "no, I'll be ok I am curious and I did bring it up I won't lie i am bit nervous...sorry" she waved you off "no it's ok, this is all new to you" she looked around seeing that no one else was paying attention go you two "I must confess though I was the same when I first came here I was so nervous I made my nose start to bleed" you couldn't help but fund that very cute. To you hinatsuru exudes graceful so to know that she even had moments like nose bleeds due to nerves made you slightly feel better especially since she told you like it was a deep dark secret. You took some deep breathes as you all made your way to the entrance you must remind yourself to repay tengen for your bracelet you for sure know it wasn't cheap considering when you went with him to purchase it there was no discussion of price just tengen pulling out a metal sleek black card that lead to the bracelet aroudn your wrist.

everyone in your group including yourself flashed your bracelets to the bouncer who nodded he unclipped the velvet rope of the entrance as you walked in your nerves started to kick up again which triggered your fight or flight response as if on command Hinatsuru grazed your hand to hold hers "come on I'm right here with you".

Tengen description of what was inside was spot on there were multiple areas with various coming in and out of various rooms. You won't lie this was kinda cool why did you get so nervous just looks like normal rooms as you wondered around like a child in a toy store you saw a room where people were sitting and looking at a window "oh I never took you who was into this" you jumped a bit holding your chest realzing it was only tengen he just smiled at you"im sorry to have scared " you shook your head "you just caught me off guard is all but what is it that you said earlier?"

"Oh that I'm surprised i never took you for someone who into this" he aimed his sights on the room but that confused you "tengen it's just people looking into a window what's there to be into?" He couldn't help but chuckle at your innocence that's right this is your first time "oh my dear it's what's inside the window that's got everyone's attention" you were still confused you would look at the room to then look back at him "why not go see what's inside" he suggested. You walked inside trying your best to not disturb anyone even though whatever it is these people are watching was more interesting then you "oh fuck!" As if time had stopped you paused where you were. You heard that correctly right you swear you weren't that drunk "more! Fuck please more!" your eyes felt like they were gonna pop out of your skull as you made eye contact with what is it everyone was watching you noticed a familiar figure one that had told you earlier theyd be in here with a certain blonde.

Your friend was lost in her own world of pleasure you can tell that the only thing on her mind was the dick drilling into her you saw she was holding onto rengoku while he fucked her mid air you couldn't help hut notice some deep scratches adorning his back which also flexed with every thrust you can hear her moaning her head off damn, whatever rengoku was doing it was driving her crazy. You watched in shock that you didn't even notice the other people surrounding them also having sex some were with one person and some were with multiple partners all in various positions all not caring that people were behind the big window watching them. "Isn't it amazing" tengen had made his way next to you letting you take in the scene in front "not caring that everyone can see them at their most vulnerable fucking like two animalsin heat" while he was talking he had shifted your body to straddle one of his muscular thighs still facing forward watching the various people having sex he leaned forward near your ear, pushing you down so that your clothed cunt was soaking even more due to the pressure his breathe was so hot you couldn't help but whimper "are you enjoying this?" You can hear the slight teasing in his question he moved you hips forward a bit and that caused you to grab onto his wrist he can't really be serious. "you know my wives like to go into that room to play and I must say watching them make love is like seeing someone create a master piece everyone sees the end results but never the process I feel like that's the most interesting part" you shivered a bit fuck why were you getting wet by his words. He could tell you were enjoying this cause once he moved you a bit you eventually started moving on your own. Damn,  you looked sexy like this if he had his phone and your consent he'd wanna record you right now stupid no phones behind the curtain rule. Just a bit more you thought you kept moving your hips trying so hard to hurry up and get off "are you gonna cum soon sweetie" you couldn't hold it in anymore you drenched tengens slacks "awww uzui your pants were gonna need to take them for dry cleaning again" you heard three separate high giggles "is she ok" you met with makio chest in front of your face who for someone reason now seemed to have lost her bra you kept staring at her hard nipples that were peaking through her dress "eyes up here baby you can taste them later if you aren't too tired"

@festive @novaresque @mianavs @aasouthteranoswife @danni-k @bontensucker

[lostbbygorl]

CELEB LEVI X CELEB READER:

✨ So Levi is a singer and a dencer and you're a famous actor popular for your roles in American Horror Story, Gossip Girl Reboot, Bridgerton and New Girl (imagine the uber popular celeb life yall)

✨ You and Levi met at an award ceremony, and it was obvious even before yall met youd get along well

✨ You both fangirl over each other (you do it more expressively). Levi always goes off about how much he likes your roles in AHS (I hc hed love that show in a modern au), and you recommend his songs a lot

✨ Let's say yall met at the Met Gala. You reached out to him first. Yall complimented each other's costumes and work and yall were interested in each other since day 1

✨ Levi was super comfy with you, and you two chatted the entire Met Gala event

✨ The rest is history

✨ Levi as a celeb keeps a lot of his life private, and would want a secret relationship. You respected his choices, but you wanted to go public

✨ So you two compromise. Youd date secretly for a while and then go public, but even when you do, it wouldn't be an extravagant relationship

✨ TOO FUCKING BAD! The fans notice right away when smth seems different with Levi and I feel like Levi's fandom had some of the most eagle eyed fans

✨ Levi drops his first ever romantic song in all his years of being a singer and it's so heartfelt and deep ppl raised eyebrows. Naturally, everyone came to a conclusion that he has a secret lover

✨ Ofc, you were moved that your precious boyfie wrote a song for you and hyped it tf up on social media, which reminded the internet about how chatty you were at the Met Gala, and so, the shippers and the rumors fly

✨ It wasn't the biggest Hollywood rumor of the year, but ppl did discuss it

✨ You and Levi didn't confirm any suspicions, but you winked at them. There was no PDA on camera, but you were always at the same table during ceremonies. You followed each other on social media and promoted each other's projects. Whenver you were out with your friends, Levi would be tagged cuz he's welcome in your friend group

✨ What made the rumor blow up? When ppl noticed yall wearing the same shit. Why does Levi have the same bracelet as you, and why do you have the same shirt as him?

✨ What was the last straw that made yall reveal yourselves? When ppl heard your voice for a like 5 secs in Levi's insta story

✨ Levi was both impressed and annoyed at his sharp eyed fanbase

✨ You two revealed yourselves in an insta story where you held hands

✨ CONGRATS NOW YOU'RE THE NEXT POWER COUPLE

✨ Levi holds your hand in public and you're always super close to each other. He smiles the most around you, and though he never uses pet names, he refers to you as "his S/O"

✨ You guys make fun of each other cuz cmon man this is Levi ofc hes mean to his lover

✨ You two >>>>> Beyonce and JayZ

[preciosaangelbby]

Tarotscopes

♡Intuitive channeled messages from me to you ♡

Aries-

You're probably thinking about starting a new business or creative project. Something you can start from your house. You need to do some research and gather all the information you need and set everything up so once the time comes to present this to the world it will take off. This project is your destiny and will somehow connect you to your life purpose or life partner. People will be very supportive once they see what you got going on. Someone has been spying on your social media a bit thinking if they should come forth or not. They will most likely come running forth once they see the success in your project...this could give you the wrong idea that this person might want to use you but they come running back because they don't want to loose you even though you both are in the 3d acting like yall don't know each other.

Taurus-

I see yall updating your wardrobe maybe some new hair or aesthetic procedure. Probably kinda going on a diet kinda eatting healthier. All this is adding to your high vibe which is attracting people towards you. New and old people tryna slide into the dm. One person in particular is obsessing over you in secret wishing they made different moves but ya know they ain't good enough for you. Just watch out this person don't pop up later on to start some drama because they are super immature. Its extra important to focus on work right now because there's some kind of extra payout coming like a bonus check or a promotion! Oooo and for some of you there's someone thats been thinking about you who lives at a distance that wants to marry you which will make you an instant millionaire. 🤑🥰

Gemini-

Yall are trying to improve yourselves completely. Some of you are getting new better jobs and going back to school! Stay focused and take care of your mental health. Stay clear of problematic people especially these next few months because I see a nasty tower moment that will take you off your good path right now if you don't. Let go of all the toxic people in your life its not worth not being alone. I see yall meeting a more stable mature grounded partner soon when you're doing your own thing focusing on your growth when you least expect it. SPIRITUALLY CLEANSE yourself daily. 🧿

Cancer-

You're definitely going to get a message from an ex soon. Lol I see them tryna flex on you! They wanna win you back with a gift🎁. The way they are going to message you is going to be acting concerned about you working right now during a pandemic and are going to offer to take care of you. But oooooou I see some of yall already moved into a fresh connection. If you go back into this connection you may become depressed but at least you'll be well dressed. For male cancers who are well off, careful that a pretty face don't come back around to use you for money.

Leo-

Multiple people want to be in a committed relationship with you. Someone's gonna pop the question and this is going to be an over the top flashy proposal. I see an age gap. And there's jealous bitches talking shit. I see someone who pretends to be your friend talking shit about you with your persons ex. Cleanse yourself 🧿🧿🧿!

Virgo-

Watch out for two faced friends or like a masculine energy family member. This person is giving you some bad advice. I see yall waiting for something that you have to go out and look for yourself. This person giving you bad advice clearly doesn't have or know how to get what you want. Whatever advice they give you it benefits them some how. Could be advice towards purchasing something they can use instead of putting that money somewhere else first. They want you to feel stuck to control you or make themselves feel better. If yall are interested in learning something new or getting a certification for something, it will benefit you greatly. 🤓

Libra-

Ok I see yall started a new business venture some months back. You're just starting to see some profits coming in! You've been consistent growing this even though many people are discouraging you. Deep down inside these people are jealous and wish they weren't so lazy to do what you're doing. Don't get discouraged cuz obviously you're onto something and this was the right time...you'll see why very soon. There's going to be expansion at the right place right time. But lay off the fast food and take your vitamins! You're going to need all your energy cuz you will be so busy. 🏋🏻

Scorpio-

Yall are going back and fourth in your head about reaching out to someone you haven't spoken to in a while. It could be a love interest or an old business associate. For those of you working on a creative project, its stressful but will be so successful. Like next level successful. So many people will praise you for this. Its all great but I see yall living in your head a lot because something feels like it's missing. I see yall very determined to get whatever this missing thing is. I heard the words in my head "ain't no mountain high enough."

Sagittarius-

There's like a business deal with someone in another state or country that may be delayed or a deal that does not benefit you. Becareful of where you go and what you sign. You have a lot of social media stalkers too sending you evil eye. Cleanse yourself and surround yourself with good people that you know you can trust. I see you making good money during these next weeks! 🤑🤑🤑

Capricorn-

You're a little confused about taking a chance on something or someone. Go on the date...you're not broke. What are you going to waste? Not time because this person interests you. If a relationship doesn't come out of this you still had a date with an interesting person. Oh ok I see some kind of work drama or fued you had finally coming to a close and of course in your favor because you have some kind of a background in business law and words that cut like a knife. 😅

Aquarius-

There's a past person coming back around. This person has been obsessed. You're always on their mind. Someone you don't even think of anymore. They are loosing sleep over you! I'm getting low vibing Cancer or Capricorn vibes. Be aware of your surroundings cuz this person seems like they could do something crazy. 🤨🤔

Pisces-

Oooou making money moves and its paying off! Yeah like you have a new attitude towards work or doing something like what you were doing but tweeked it to perfection. Whatever you're doing is helping you find balance and making you look super attractive. You're glowing and people are noticing👁! I see mutual attraction between you and the person on your mind. 🌟❤

[thecelibateshoewhore]

Dating in the Church (Part 1)

“But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you” (Matthew 6:33 NKJV).

 “You have been raised to life with Christ. Now set your heart on what is in heaven, where Christ rules at God’s right side. Think about what is up there, not about what is here on earth. You died, which means that your life is hidden with Christ, who sits beside God. Christ gives meaning to your life, and when He appears, you will also appear with Him in glory” (Colossians 3:1-4 CEV).

Happy Valentine’s Day to all those who’re celebrating! If you’re familiar with my writing, you know that I don’t take the typical approach — basically, the worldly viewpoint — regarding love, dating and celibacy because I’m committed to using my spiritual gift to serve God and His people. That said, be sure to read my previous posts about love and dating if you haven’t already: On Marrying the Wrong Person and On Love, Loyalty & Less Than God’s Best.

This series was inspired by a retweet that came across my timeline, which attempted to address why dating in the church is difficult. First, understand that there’s no biblical position on dating — at least not in the formal sense. There’s no particular scripture or passage that addresses how single believers should date. However, there are godly principles in scripture that can be applied to dating. It’s natural to want companionship, but many believers overlook the necessity and blessing of being single. This is the time to give God your undivided attention and allow Him to mature you in your faith and in your spiritual gifts. Y’all know I’m longwinded — I could write a book on this subject (in fact, I am)! Pull out your Bibles, as I’m going to assume that you’re familiar with the scriptures referenced. The first point listed was:

“We keep promoting this misnomer that marriage is more spiritual than natural.”

 Uh, since when?

 My first thought reading this was, why would any church, which is a spiritual institution, ever downplay the spiritual aspect of marriage? To do so would imply that God isn’t needed for or within a marriage, which is essentially a carnal standpoint. And perhaps that is the problem. Taking on this “natural” approach has led to many believers choosing the wrong spouse or getting married to simply appease their physical (as in sexual) and/or financial needs. God also never intended for us to desire marriage more than we desire Him.

I’m not negating the natural component of marriage. I’m negating that a church should promote marriage as more natural than spiritual, and counsel believers under this notion. To do so isn’t biblically sound. In fact, it’s counterintuitive to the ministry of marriage. (Yes, marriage is a ministry and I’ll explain why later on). Due to the laws that now govern our society, marriage has become a business transaction because Uncle Sam wants his cut in the same manner as if we were to start a business or purchase real estate. That is why when a government institution performs a “marriage ceremony” in accordance with the laws of its jurisdiction, it is known as a civil marriage or a civil union. Many secular marriage proponents believe that it’s not a spiritual or religious institution at all. For them, marriage should be attainable by any person(s) who wish to apply for a marriage license regardless of spiritual affiliation and compatibility.

 For this reason, it’s important to note that there’s marriage and then there’s marriage God’s way. If your desire is for a godly spouse or marriage, then you must understand and adhere to God’s principles regardless of what society is doing. A church that promotes marriage as a natural institution is promoting idolatry. Why? Christ is removed as the center or focal point and replaced with worldly rules and expectations. As Christians, our relationship with the Creator is the crux of our faith and should govern everything that we do, including how we date and who we marry. For believers, it doesn’t make sense that our spiritual component is the core of our lives (and human experience), but not the basis of how we learn marriage inside of the church. I’m not saying that unbelievers shouldn’t marry because it’s a vital aspect of human society. I’m also not saying that only Christian marriages are successful. I’m saying that as believers, we can’t fully experience marriage the way God intended unless He is the foundation and inspiration on which it stands. If we start to condone or accept the world’s ways, which contradict God’s truth, then we risk applying a distorted standard to how God wants us to live.

Furthermore, Colossians 3:1-4 reminds us that the basis of our faith is the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ. It connects us to Christ as our foundation by guiding us with a basic ethical response to living in modern times. Set your mind on Christ! We are living in times where people profess faith in God, yet promote ideologies that are against His word. God is not the one confused. His word was, is and will always be true. Any church that proclaims to be the body of Christ should know not to conform to the expectations of society. God doesn’t lower Himself to meet the desires of man. Instead, we rise up to the standard that Christ set for us. When people state that churches aren’t effective because they’re “out of touch,” the solution isn’t to water down the message so that it’s easier for the masses to swallow it. The solution is to cultivate an environment that promotes real discipleship, healing and deliverance that is also built on sound truth! We don’t have a dating problem in the church, we have a discipleship problem. (Tweet This!) Before the church can minister to your dating needs and grow you into somebody’s spouse, you first need to master being a disciple of Jesus Christ.

 Before we can address dating in the church or “godly dating,” we must first understand why we’re dating in the first place. That is, what is the end goal? For most, marriage is the end goal. That is why it’s important to understand God’s purpose for marriage. For starters, God established the blueprint for marriage as a {spiritual} covenant (contract or agreement) between God, man and woman in Genesis 2:24. There were no courthouses or marriage licenses in the Garden of Eden. In fact, Genesis 2 outlines God’s design for marriage, as well as the governing principles that we should apply to it:

(1) God designed marriage as a covenant. Like most things, in order to understand how something works, the best source to ask is the One who created it! The foundation of a godly marriage involves daily communication with God. If praying and reading scripture isn’t a part of your daily life during the dating phase, chances are you will have cracks in your spiritual foundation that will impact your marriage. (2) God designed marriage to meet our need for companionship. Eve was created as a companion or “helper” because after naming all the animals, Adam wondered why there was no suitable companion for him (Genesis 2:18-20). Also note that God first gave Adam a purpose and a responsibility, and then gave him a wife to support his needs. In. That. Order. (3) God designed marriage as a depiction of our relationship with Him. Simply put, marriage is a ministry. Although He is pleased with sexual harmony between a husband and wife, that’s not why God designed marriage; He created it as a testimony for Him. If you’ve never witnessed a godly marriage, this might be hard for you to comprehend. Witnessing a union between a husband and wife who’re under the submission of Christ is the epitome of what it means to know God and know Him intimately. God created us for purposes that are larger than ourselves to serve Him and His people. In the same manner, He created marriage to illustrate the spiritual relationship between Christ (the bridegroom) and the church (His bride). Just as a husband and wife join as one flesh, we also join as one spirit with the Lord (1 Corinthians 6:18). Just as the church yields to the authority of Christ, the wife yields to the authority of the husband who’s also submitted to Christ. And a husband is to love his wife in the same manner that Christ loves the church (Ephesians 5: 21-25). Finally, just as a husband and wife produce offspring, believers are called to go out, multiply disciples and bring people back into the body of Christ as joint heirs.

 For believers who’re married, it becomes the primary, permanent, exclusive and intimate relationship between the two people who took those vows. No person or thing comes before either spouse (Matthew 19:6). It takes a lifetime to understand this level of commitment, which is why marriage isn’t required for everyone (1 Corinthians 7:7-9). Marriage isn’t a requirement for heaven or salvation. But, for those who choose marriage, choose to pursue it God’s way.

 If you’re a believer who’s not ready for marriage, you might be “casually dating” (not to be confused with fornicating). Casual dating is defined as any relationship where a couple is not exclusively dating each other. It doesn’t mean having sex or one-night stands. Even without sex, however, this kind of situation can bring unnecessary complications. My opinion is that casual dating isn’t inherently a bad thing if both parties clearly define their expectations and maintain boundaries, but I believe it increases the likelihood of misunderstandings and disappointment because as people evolve spiritually and emotionally, what they desire in a mate often changes. Sometimes this occurs at the other person’s expense.

 I purposely didn’t cover sex in great detail because I plan to address it later in this series. If you enjoyed this post, please leave a comment below, and let me know that you’re ready for part 2.

 “Don’t change yourselves to be like the people of this world, but let God change you inside with a new way of thinking. Then you will be able to understand and accept what God wants for you. You will be able to know what is good and pleasing to him and what is perfect” (Romans 12:2 ERV).

 I love you.

 xo,

thecelibateshoewhore

[chocolatecupcakesandlavender]

An open letter to the Boku no Hero Academia fandom:

Y'all are fucking nuts. You are a toxic cesspool of shipping wars and over the top sjw antics. You hold the innocence and purity of a bunch of fictional characters higher the lives of actual real people. And what is you justification? Because the real people like something you don't or have a different opinion. Y'all are willing to bully and harass people with death threats and toxicity until they delete all social media and never return or until they actually kill themselves.

You take shipping wars to a ridiculous degree. I thought the age old NaruHina & SasuSaku vs NaruSaku or NaruSasu were ridiculous. I thought the dumb IchiRuki & IshiHime vs IchiHime & RenRuki was exhausting. Y'all take that to an even more inane degree with your anti culture. In the good old days it was just taking manga panels and slanting them in your ships favor and over analysis of something inconsequential and yeah, trashing a particular character that you didn't like as a way of justifying why that ship shouldn't happen.

Now? Y'all send each other death threats and harassment and call the people who ship certain things horrible terrible people that deserve death. Why the actual fuck are you children on? Why do you dedicate so much of your lives to bringing other people down? Why are you bringing so much hatred in the world? Its annoying, its dangerous, and its completely pointless.

Yet for all your screaming about character development and canonicuty, you don't even pay attention to what's going on in canon. If its not a direct interaction between your ship, it doesn't matter apparently. Y'all are taking a look at Kacchan vs. Deku 2 and calling it a shipping episode? When its actually a crucial point in Bakugo's fucking character development and the beginning of his and Deku's relationship healing because he can finally understand that Deku was never looking down on him. This is the crux of his inferiority complex and y'all are calling it a shipping episode for BakuDeku shippers. Are y'all fucking blind? Stupid?

Stop fucking whining about the fact he didn't go to Kirishima. Kirishima isn't relevant here. He isn't important. What? Would you rather Baku beat the shit out of Kiri instead? No I bet most of you just want Kiri to talk him down and hug him or some shit. This was never about romance, its about Deku stepping up and proving that he is Bakugo's equal and Bakugo letting go of that inferiority complex fueled rage at Deku.

Stop making everything about ships and actually take a moment to appreciate the character development.

Speaking about ships... Y'all harass the creator and the animators for canon ships in a shounen manga despite the fact the manga isn't even focused on fucking romance. More than that, you want canon gay ships. Listen up you entitled brats: the chances of that happening are incredibly low and that's not Horikoshi's fault. You think his publishing company would let him make TodoDeku canon just because its the most popular ship? Y'all think the very heteronormative partriarchal society of Japan with a low birthrate crisis on their hands would ever allow such a popular media as BNHA promote such a 'deviant' and nonconformist lifestyle/relationship just because yall think KiriBaku is cute?

Get over yourselves. Hate to break it to you, but when all is said and done, BNHA is most likely going to get a married-with-kids typical ending chapter just like Bleach and Naruto, and you'll be lucky if there's one obscure gay ship that's left half confirmed or implied.

Get the fuck over yourselves.

With Love,

-A bitch who is utterly exhausted by all your shit

[thelocalshooter]

The Local Shooter Vs. KORRUPT

(LS ) Hello thank you guys for allowing me to interview your group! If you guys can all introduce yourselves and where you guys are from? 

(K) WERE KORRUPT WE HAVE 10 MEMBERS IN OUR COLLECTIVE:

NOHOESSTEPH - GLENDALE, ARIZONA

CRISTIAN PEREZ - GLENDALE, ARIZONA

PANCHOR3VENGE- PHOENIX, ARIZONA

GAMDEVII - CHICAGO, ILLINOIS

RUDEBOYURL - HOUSTON, TEXAS

VRO4K - DOWNEY, CALIFORNIA

VINTAJ- BETHESDA, MARYLAND

SCAM - DETROIT, MICHIGAN

WHOKILLEDROI - PHOENIX, ARIZONA

ZEUS - GLENDALE, ARIZONA

(LS) How did korrupt come about? And how long have you guys been a collective? 

(K) THE IDEA OF KORRUPT CAME ABOUT LATE NOVEMBER EARLY DECEMBER. HOWEVER THE BEGINNING OF FEBRUARY WAS WHEN EVERYONE CAME TOGETHER AND THE NAME WAS INITIALLY FOR A CLOTHING BRAND THAT NOHOESSTEPH HAD BEEN PLANNING, BUT SCRAPPED IT. WHEN THE NAME WAS BEING THROWN AROUND IN THE STUDIO AND WHEN VRO WENT IN FOR HIS VERSE ON THE FIRST TRACK OF THE ALBUM HE SAID “WE KORRUPT” WE ALL KNEW RIGHT THEN THAT WAS THE NAME.

(LS) Does korrupt come with it's own sounds or do you guys think you're individual sound is what makes you guys great as a collective?

(K) KORRUPT HAS BEEN A COLLECTIVE FOR ABOUT A YEAR NOW. KORRUPT SO FAR HAS TACKLED THE RAGE RAP SOUND FOR OUR FIRST SELF TITLE PROJECT “KORRUPT VOL. 1” HOWEVER WE ALL ARE VERY DIVERSE IN TERMS OF SOUND. MOVING FORWARD THERE WILL BE NO CATEGORIES AND NO LABLES. IF WE FEEL LIKE WE CAN MAKE IT THEN WE WILL. WE WANNA BE ABLE TO MAKE ALL TYPES OF SOUND.

(LS) What's the next move for you guys as far as visuals or shows? Is there anything special planned now that the pandemic is slowing down?

(K) THE MOVE FOR NOW IS TO DROP AND PROMOTE ALOT OF OUR SINGLES THAT WE HAVE READY TO GO. WE ALSO WANNA GET SOME VIDEOS DONE FOR THE FIRST PROJECT BECAUSE THE PANDEMIC SLOWED THAT DOWN. WE ALSO PLAN ON GETTING SOME SHOWS GOING SOON AND COLLABORATING WITH LOCAL ARTISTS.

(LS) Do you guys think there's any other group or artists you guys would collaborate with in the city or outside the city?

(K) WE ARENT REALLY LOOKING TO COLLABORATE WITH BIG ARTISTS BUT WE WONT PASS UP THE OPPORTUNITY IF IT COMES. WE ARE INTERESTED IN WORKING WITH LSG. THEY ARE A LOCAL COLLECTIVE OUT HERE IN AZ AND WE FUCK WITH THEIR STYLE AND MUSIC.

(LS) Have you guys thought of making a collective tape? Like on some cozy boy vibes?

(K) AS OF RN A BIG COLLECTIVE TAPE IS NOT IN THE WORKS. WERE SAVING “KORRUPT VOL.2” FOR THE RIGHT TIME. WE ARE JUST FOCUSED MORE ON SINGLES, MIXTAPES AND DUO EPS. WE WANNA TEST WATERS WE HAVENT SWAM IN YET.

(LS) As far as the arizona music scene do you guys think you guys get the recognition yall deserve for being such an underground group you guys don't get mentioned in the lil Prado convos or the freddie kev convo why's that ?

(K) WE BELIEVE WE DESERVE ALL THE RECOGNITION WE ARE GETTING AS OF RIGHT NOW AND WE DESERVE MORE. WE BELIEVE WE ARE ENTITLED TO THAT. WE ALSO BELIEVE WE NEED TO EARN OUR RECOGNITION AND RESPECT. WE ARE STILL VERY NEW AND ARE LEARNING ALOT ABOUT OURSELVES AS A COLLECTIVE AND WE ARE GROWING ALONG SIDE THE ATTENTION WE ARE RECEIVING. PRADA AND FREDDIE ARE VERY TALENTED ARTISTS AND EARN EVERY PIECE OF RECOGNITION THAT THEY GET. WE TIP OUR HATS TO THEM. THEY WORK HARD. MOST IMPORTANTLY THEY PUT ON FOR THE CITY AND WE WOULD LOVE TO BE A PIONEER FOR THE AZ SOUND AS WELL.

(LS) How can an artist join korrupt if they'd like to? Or is the team set in stone? 

(K) AS FAR AS NOW KORRUPT IS NOT ACTIVELY SEEKING MEMBERS. KORRUPT IS ALOT OF THINGS. A BRAND, A COLLECTIVE BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY ITS A BROTHERHOOD. WE ARE ALL LINKED IN SOMEWAY. WE ALL KNOWN EACHOTHER FOR A WHILE. THRU DIFFERENT SCHOOLS AND DIFFERENT MEMBERS IN THE GROUP. WE ALL HAVE LOVE FOR EACHOTHER AND WE BELIEVE THATS WHAT MAKES US SPECIAL. HOWEVER KORRUPT ALSO DOESNT JUST HAVE RAPPERS. WE HAVE FRIENDS THAT BEAR OUR NAME AS WELL. AS FAR AS THE MUSIC ITS PRETTY SOLIDIFIED FOR NOW. BUT FOR OUR MAIN SUPPORTERS, OUR FANS AND ASSOCIATES LIKE: ENGINEERS,PHOTOGRAPHERS , VIDEOGRAPHERS ETC. THEY ALL HAVE THAT BRAND TO THEM AS WELL. IF THEY BELIEVE THEY ARE KORRUPT THEN THEY ARE. ITS AN IDEA. ITS A WAY OF LIFE.

(LS) Can we expect anything new coming from you guys very soon or do we just got to keep our eyes peeled?

(K) LOTS AND LOTS OF SINGLES ARE ON THE WAY. WE HAVE BEEN WORKING NONSTOP. “VRO$TEPH” IS ON THE WAY! A COLLABORATION EP BETWEEN OUR TWO MEMBERS VRO4K AND NOHOES$TEPH. WE ARE VERY EXCITED TO GET THE BALL ROLLING. ONCE THE MOST RECENT DROP HAPPENS WE PLAN ON ONLY TURNING IT UP FROM THERE!

(LS) Where do you guys see yourself in the future? Are you guys looking to sign a deal, stay independent maybe even start your own label some day? 

Thank you for allowing me to interview you guys as a collective is there anything else you guys would like to mention? Shout outs? Music links? Social Media? 

Please drop below and until next time ...

(K) AS FAR AS SIGNING ANY DEALS WE DONT THINK SO. WE WANNA STAY INDEPENDENT FOR NOW. A LABEL IS DEFINITELY THE GOAL IN THE FUTURE BUT FOR NOW WERE STAYING INDEPENDENT. THERES 10 OF US SO A LABEL WOULD NEED TO THROW A LARGE SUM AT US TO GET US SIGNING ANYTHING.

Twitter: https://twitter.com/wekorrupt?s=21

Instagram:

https://instagram.com/kkorruppt?igshid=ql7wb59wcw40

Soundcloud:

https://soundcloud.com/kkorruppt?ref=clipboard&p=i&c=0

Apple:

https://music.apple.com/us/artist/korrupt/1518702195

Spotify:

https://open.spotify.com/artist/0jgC6QRqAUyyG3VtxhmRGi?si=gaOXhdgDR-uoV0Ij-nPwZg

The Local Shooter Vs. KORRUPT