#i like spiralling into the abyss actually

[demonic-mnemonic]

The thing about all my insane Good Omens ramblings is that it doesn't even really matter if I'm wildly off base. Season 3 could come out and prove me wrong on every single count, but in the meantime I am still having the time of my life going completely off the rails

[lauranalanthalasa]

Thank you for writing this out so expertly!

That's exactly what I think happened, as well. I'm still rather convinced that Aziraphale did suppress an "I love you" before hitting Crowley with his forgiveness.

I'm not entirely sure about why he does it though (to be honest, I'm not sure about any of my speculations, but it's fun). Maybe he wants to lessen the heartbreak for Crowley, because he has already decided to accept the Metatron's offer (not that Crowley's heartbreak could get any worse). Or maybe he just can't bring himself to say it after having to stay quiet for (at least) 6000 years.

My favourite theory though is, that it is because the Metatron / Heaven is watching somehow. Aziraphale's eyes dart to the window for a fraction of a second shortly after Crowley breaks the kiss (I still haven't figured out if Muriel might be standing there, seeing everything). I think, Aziraphale aches to tell Crowley that he loves him here, but once again, it's too dangerous (and too late of sorts) and he would get Crowley and possibly himself as well in real danger.

This breaks my heart all over again. 💔😭

All previous times Aziraphale offered forgiveness to Crowley, it was always spoken softly and with love, but this last "I forgive you" is laced with pain and anger. Aziraphale WANTS to say something else after his choked out "I..." but then he settles for the words he thinks he SHOULD say. His heart screams "I love you" and his lips say "I forgive you". He chooses obligation over love, and words of forgiveness come out with anger simply because he does not mean them and it is not what he wants to say.

[existential-dread-in-the-am]

The bad feeling has not worn off from yesterday

[mondaymelon]

AAAAA

MELON

I LOST FURINA TO DEHYA

I DIDN'T EVEN GET A DILUC CONSTELLATION :(((

NOOO CIRCY NOOOOOO !!!! its... o- yeah. its not okay. we need to hold a funeral. for both furina (lmao after the archon quest this makes a silly amount of sense), for your primogems, and of course, you. because i assume you are dying right now.

ID SAY ITS OKAY BUT CMON WE ALL KNOW ITS NOT>.. I MEAN DEHYA IS COOL RIGHT. HER KIT IS A LITTLE... MM... BUT HER IDLES AND VOICELINES ARE REALLY COOL !!! HER DESIGN IS SUPER PRETTY !!!! YOULL... YOULL MAKE IT OUT OF THIS....?

[electric-plants]

me: hmm it’s been a while since i tried the spiral abyss and im all the way up at AR 54 now so maybe i can handle it

me immediately failing floor 7 again:

[rubys-domain]

i kinda don't want to play genshin tbh. i just want to play minecraft

[sanguine-tenshi]

Serious question, but does anyone actually care about beating the abyss anymore?

Because I'm just finding it annoying at this point.

Floors 9 and 10 are laughably easy to beat, the only way to make it interesting is to pick random characters you haven't played in a while and seeing what happens.

Floor 11 is easy but annoying to finish.

And floor 12 is just a boring waste of time and energy.

Like I'll pick teams and try it once. Because that's what it's worth at this point, one try. You don't even get a full pull from beating a whole floor, why would I waste time? Especially with the current chamber 3. Like oh yes, I just love running from one end of the arena to the other to hit the stupid worm a few times. Such engaging game play, peak stuff, truly.

[aha-chuu]

I slave away artifact farming for melt Ganyu when apparently abyss only requires seven characters, dendro and some hope & dreams.

[lauranalanthalasa]

Reading this after season 2 makes me feel unwell.

Does Crowley - Aziraphale - Heaven count as a love triangle?

Heaven is like a toxic (ex-) partner, so I guess it does.

Google suggested an article for me titled "Good Omens season 2: Michael Sheen teases romance between Aziraphale and David Tennant’s Crowley".

That's... That's just the show. That's it. That's the whole thing.

[kay-selfships]

HELP I’VE ONLY HAD CHILDE FOR A FEW HOURS AND HE’S ALREADY DONE THE STRONGEST SINGLE STRIKE IN THE SPIRAL ABYSS

(tbf i prefarmed wicked hard for him but it was still surprising to see lmao)

[shuicheese]

Y;ALL THE KOMAEDA NENDO IS REAL I';M LOSING IT .

[mimi-cee-genshin]

Neuvillette really loves to remind me to "be sanctified." LOL. As a Christian, I found it hilarious the first time I tested him out in the character trial.

[rainswept]

Crow, please tell me a story about your time in Fontaine? Any story will do.

this one time i was hanging out w my friend, we stumbled across a hydroculus that i had not been able to get for the life of me (with only 5? hydroculi left), and he unlocked it for me in like 2 seconds. i was elated and very upset

[gachaparadise]

did genshins little anni card generator, i fucking love statistics and numbers.

[eggplantbun]

returning to my roots... melt ganyu best girl

[lauranalanthalasa]

Aziraphale was who kept him wanting to go on. To do as much good right things as he can, without getting punished (too much) by Hell. To fight for his angel and himself. For their side (our side). For his love of creation and especially for his love for with(!) Aziraphale!

But now Aziraphale is gone. He has abandoned him. And not just for anything or anyone. No, for the same system that made Crowley feel so unworthy, unloved, unforgivable and unlovable in the first place.

Don't get me wrong, I'm NOT blaming Aziraphale here in any way. Like God, I don't have favorites (okay, maybe I'm a teeny tiny bit more on Crowley's side). But for Crowley it's DEVASTATING! It's HEARTBREAKING and MIND SHATTERING. It fucking HURTS! SO MUCH! It makes him feel worthless and undeserving of love AGAIN! At least for a little while, maybe just a moment, Crowley will feel like the worst, most undeserving and unimportant being in all of existence. Unworthy of anyone's love, ESPECIALLY Aziraphale's.

And maybe, it will nearly break him.

But we, the watchers, have an advantage! We know, that this demon ist the most loved being in all of time and space! Because never has anyone ever been loved as deeply and unconditionally as Crowley is loved by Aziraphale.

He'll just have to see it himself eventually.

crowley loves so much and so deeply, and while there can probably be made an argument that parts of that love are entirely selfish, i think it's more than that.

he sees creation as a way of giving things live, be it stars and nebulas or humans or plants, they all exist and thus have a right to live. i think the thought of his nebulas and the entire universe being shut down after 6k years didn't just make him sad because of the effort he put into it. he sees it as a living, breathing creature that deserve to exist on its own terms.

that is why he asked questions, it certainly played a role in why he fell, and it also puts him right in the moral grey zone because there's no way of thinking that humans deserve free will without questioning the black/white moral system.

having to play his part as a demon is entire counterintuitive to who he is as a person, and it's imo the reason why he barely has relationships with humans (and if he does, they go deep). the constant loss would kill his soul and in a way it already has.

"what's the point" is him having reached a point of depression and an impatience that has morphed into bitter resignation.

look at him returning to the bentley after his fight with aziraphale in episode one. he isn't just upset, he is tired.

what's the point in loving and trying to save those that he loves when over and over again he is told that no, everyone else matters more than you. fixing this is more important than finding the peace we deserve. helping someone who literally tried to kill us matters more than our love for each other. the universe will be created and then destroyed for nothing, you are breathing live into empty spaces and none of it will matter. in the end, the logical conclusion he undoubtedly came to is that he does not matter either.

he tried to find a purpose for his existence in aziraphale and their arrangement, in trying to be kind and do good despite everything - and see where that landed him.

rejected and alone because compared to heaven, he is worthless, and well if that isn't a familiar feeling.

i think aziraphale in 1862 has picked up on that and he isn't wrong when he thinks it's a suicide pill.

season 3 is going to be very, very interesting because i don't think crowley will go down some kind of rage and revenge path, he will just fall deeper into his depression until it threatens to swallow him whole.