#i like it even more than his mom's recipe which is what i always had growing up but it's more complicated bc it uses lemon curd

[watermelinoe]

i feel bad bc i think my dad was disappointed in the schaum tortes... they were something his grandma used to make and we used her recipe but she probably knew a lot more things that were just common sense to her so she didn't write them down. but we looked up some stuff online and i think we can get it right next time

[munsonsmixtapes]

Give Me Some Sugar

This is 1000% percent based on the new episode lol

dad!buck x mom!reader

summary: Buck and your daughter, Sophie make cookies together

“Alright,” Buck tells your daughter as he puts her on one of the chairs from the kitchen table that he moved in front of the sink so she could reach it. “Scrub ‘em like I taught you. Count to twenty.” 

As Sophie’s washing her hands, he takes the hair tie he had on his wrist and puts her hair up in a bun the way he’s seen you do a million times and he can’t help but smile as he hears her counting under her breath. 

She looks just like you, but her personality is all her. Well, except maybe for the fun facts she’s always giving the two of you which she definitely got from Buck. He loves that little girl with everything that he is and he can’t imagine his life without her. The night you asked him to watch her because you had to work, he knew that they were going to be the best of friends. And they are, always attached at the hip and you can often never find one without the other.

“Twenty,” she says and turns off the water before Buck puts her down on the floor so she can dry her hands on the dish towel that’s hanging from the cabinet. 

Buck then grabs the chair and moves it to the island where he’s got all the baking supplies that the two of them had gotten out because she had insisted on making cookies and he just can’t ever seem to say no to his little girl. He knows it’ll be a problem later on, but for right now, he thinks it’s just fine since she really doesn’t ask for much.

“Daddy,” she says, holding her arms up and Buck turns around to see she’s making granny hands at him. 

“I thought that since you turned five that you were too old to be held,” he joked. He’s going to give Sophie whatever she wants and she knows it. 

“I want airplane,” she says and Buck lets out a sigh. He can never say no when she juts out that little lip. So he picks her up and holds so his arms are wrapped around her stomach and legs as she holds her arms out. 

Buck is making all the plan noises as the two of them move about the kitchen and into the living room, the most joyous giggles spilling from Sophie’s mouth and its music to Buck’s ears. It sounds just like yours somehow and his heart warms even more when he hears the two of you laughing together. His girls making his most favorite sound in the world is something he never gets tired of hearing.

“Prepare for landing,” he says like he’s speaking into a walkie talkie as he moves back into the kitchen, setting her back onto the chair, those adorable giggles still going. 

“Alright, princess, arms up,” he commands and she does as he asks, Buck putting an apron over her and tying it at the back. "So what kind of cookies are we making?" He asks, squatting down ever so slightly so they can be eye to eye. 

"Mommy's favorite," she replies and now he understands. Sophie wanted to make cookies for you. And he knows there isn’t a specific reason why, she just wants to do something she knows will make you happy. 

"Let's get started then." He reaches for his phone to pull up the recipe he knows you love since you've made it more times than he can count and then the two of them get started. “We want them to be done before she gets home from work, right?” 

Buck lets her do most of the work since she insists on it and only helps when she needs it, like turning on the stand mixer or measuring out the ingredients. And as the two of them make the dough, he can’t help but think about how a few years ago, he didn’t even think that this was a possibility for him. He thought he was going to be single forever and then you came along. 

You had met at the grocery store because Buck had been behind you in line, doing whatever he could to make the baby in your arms laugh. You had struck up a conversation and before you knew it, you had gone on multiple dates and then he proposed and then you got married and now he had adopted Sophie and you’re all living in the house that you bought together where you’re all living happily ever after. 

The cookies are in the oven and Buck is letting Sophie lick the beater from the stand mixer while he puts the dishes into the sink so he can wash them later. Sophie holds the beater out to Buck when he’s done and he takes it, licking the other side, nodding in approval at the taste of the dough. 

“Soph, I think you’ve outdone yourself,” he says as he throws the beater into the sink along with the other dishes. “And because you’ve been such a good little helper, I’ll let you have a cookie before dinner. It’ll be our little secret,” he winks and Sophie grins. 

“We should put on some music while we wait for the cookies to be done. Does the princess have any requests?” He asks as he pulls out his phone and Sophie immediately replies with the name of the movie she’s currently obsessed with and Buck is quick to put it on, the familiar music now filling the kitchen. 

Sophie’s singing along and Buck can’t help but join in, grabbing a wooden spoon and singing into it before pointing it towards Sophie and she grins, singing into it while Buck scoops her into his arms. The two of them dance around the kitchen as their voices get louder and louder, and when the oven goes off, they don’t even hear the front door close. 

You walk into the kitchen with the pizza you told Buck you were going to get for dinner and your heart melts as you watch the two of them dance around the kitchen, singing along to one of the songs that Sophie always made you play in the car. 

“What’s going on here?” You ask as you set the pizza and purse on the kitchen table and Buck and Sophie turn towards you, Buck setting the cookie sheet on the counter then turning down the music before setting her down so she can greet you. 

“Mommy!” She says as she hurries over to you and you’re quick to scoop her up into your arms before you give each other a tight hug. “We made you cookies,” she says as she pulls back to look at you. 

“Oh, did you?” You ask as your gaze moves to Buck who’s making a beeline for you. Your free arm wraps around his waist while one of his rests on your shoulders while his other hand is on Sophie’s back, the three of you in a group hug. “It’s been a long day and I think I need some sugar,” you tell them and they each lean in, pressing sweet, smacking kisses to your cheeks. 

You let go of them then set Sophie down as Buck grabs plates from the cabinet where they’re kept before passing them out. He then retrieves beverages, making sure that Sophie has her juice in her favorite cup and gets water for you and him. 

You all dig in, eating and making conversation like you do every night and once dinner’s done and the three of you do the dishes, you all sit on the couch to watch Sophie’s current favorite movie as you eat the cookies, deciding that there’s no place you’d rather be than right there with your two favorite people who made cookies for you just because they wanted to.

[i-love-ptv]

You Know Me..𐙚⭑

Pairing: Steve Harrington x Fem!Reader

Based on the prompt: “no, i’m not going to give you a bite because i know you’re not going to like it. then you’re going to ask me how the hell i like it, and i don’t want to listen to that right now.”

Wc: 915

No warnings! Just fluff tbh! :]

An: This is a random blurb I made today at 6am lololol

buttttt NEW CHARACTER UNLOCKED!!! It’s fall, and i’m missing stranger things rn 😣

ALSO!! I don’t know who made the prompt, since I got it from Pinterest, but if y’all know, tell me!!

Not proofread, i’m tired

feedback is ALWAYS appreciated mls <333

You truly think that you’re being discreet. Taking subtle glances at your boyfriend, and more specifically, what he’s eating.

Steve’s mom has this special tuna casserole recipe, and she made it on the off-chance she’s actually home.

Just looking at it makes your stomach turn a bit, it takes you back to the dinner you had at Steve’s house when he first introduced you to his parents.

You can’t remember what his mother made, but what you do remember is how after Steve dropped you off at your house with a kiss, you were in and out of the bathroom all night.

You blame it on the fact that you may have a sensitive stomach, it’s not uncommon!

But, a part of you felt bad, she put her time and effort into making a meal for you. She doesn’t even really do that for Steve himself.

So you couldn’t just reject it, besides, your mother always told you to ‘try everything first!’.

So now, that’s exactly what you were going to do.

Steve had only come back to your shared home with one plate, so you had to think strategically.

Maybe you could distract him, tell him something’s wrong with the bathroom sink. Yeah! That’ll work!

“No, I’m not going to give you a bite because I know you’re not going to like it. Then you’re going to ask me how the hell I like it, and I don’t want to listen to that right now.” Steve’s sentence catches you off guard.

You whip your head towards him, staring at him like a deer in headlights.

“..What do’ya mean, honey?”

“No, don’t give me that look. Baby, I know you, and I know you aren’t the biggest fan of my mom’s cooking. I’m not either.”

You jump up at this, nearly falling off the couch, which makes Steve grab your waist with his free hand. He tries to get you to sit back down, rather than kneel on the couch.

“What? I love your mom’s food!” You practically yelled, your voice picking up in pitch.

Steve gives you a look, in both disbelief and amusement.

“Sweetheart, you don’t have to lie to me. D’you remember the 4th of July?”

You cringe at the memory of that day.

Steve’s family, meaning his parents, two aunts, an uncle, his grand-parents, and like four cousins - two of which, were kids - had came together for the 4th of July.

Steve, of course, invited you. He figured it would be better for him to bring you so you could meet his family, and so that he didn’t have to be alone.

The company was great, you loved talking and getting to know everyone, especially his grandmother.

But when it was time to eat, you were a bit….Hesitant, to say the least.

Steve’s dad worked the grill, and to be honest, you didn’t think it was going to be all that good, but it was!

But your dinner was spoiled by Steve’s mom’s watery macaroni and cheese, her oddly sweet potato salad, and her rock-hard rolls of bread.

But you refused to cause a scene, so you shoved all your thoughts down, and ate.

…Which resulted in you barking at Steve, telling him to drive home faster so you could use the bathroom.

You shiver at the thought of how you spent the rest of the night, in and out of the bathroom.

“Yeah, but, I think it was cause I ate too much!” You stammer, before continuing. “I’m all good now, though! Let me try some!”

You try to reach over to the plate, which is being tilted away from you by Steve’s right hand.

Your hands are resting on the brunette’s shoulders, while your body leans in the direction of the food.

“Baby, please. You don’t have to eat my mom’s cooking, I know it’s not good. Please save us both the trouble.” Steve sighs, you know he’s not mad at you.

He’s actually anything but.

He admires how you’re pushing down your feelings, only to uplift his and his mother’s. But he doesn’t want you to think that you’re required to do so.

After another 5-ish minutes of you blabbering on about how you ‘want to try her hard work’ and Steve arguing back, you slouch back onto the couch with a huff.

“I know y’wanna be nice, baby. But you don’t have to.” Steve softy coos, while rubbing your stomach.

“I know I don’t have to, but I want to Steve.”

Steve hums at you, and moves your legs from his lap as he stands up.

You track his body, as he walks into the kitchen, scrapes his plate, then sits it in the sink.

Steve goes back to the couch, picks you up, and then lays you on top of him once he’s comfortable laying down. He puts a blanket onto the two of you, and then rubs your back.

Steve leaves a firm, but sweet kiss on your forehead. “My sweet girl, always so nice to everyone, huh?”

You giggle softly, your eyes growing heavy at the feeling of him drawing shapes on your back.

The last thing you remember is him briefly reaching over you, and using the tv remote to turn down the volume.

Steve doesn’t know how he got so lucky with you, but he’ll spend the rest of his life thanking any, and every god for you.

And you’ll never be able to lie to him.

Cause he knows you.

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[loveandleases]

What about the cooking skills of the other ROs? And is Jade cooking for Chris now?

I'll answer Jade's first. She's never had to cook for herself so she sees no reason to start now. She can boil water, or make toast. But if you ask her to fry an egg, expect it to be full of egg shell and extremely runny. If Chris wants a home-cooked meal, then they would need to go to their parent's house which has a personal chef.

❤️Cam is an absolute disaster in the kitchen. He tries, he really does, but it always turns out bad. Either things get burnt or under cooked. His cookies will always be chunky and raw, and his toast will always be charred to the point you risk a tooth. I will say that Cam will show interest in attending a cooking class.

💙 G - A good cook, thanks to their halmeoni (grandmother). She was very adamant about G learning to cook so that they could support themself, or if they had a partner. They're very organized in the kitchen and don't like to be bothered when cooking. But they would make an exception for the right person. You can usually find Kimchi Jjiga in their fridge in the colder months.

💚 Kara - There's a joke that the Clarke family is cursed and can't cook. The same can be said for Kara. The difference between her and Cam when it comes to cooking is Kara thinks she's a good cook. Many of her exes thought it was best to lie to her about her cooking skills, and thus she is quite confident when it comes to cooking…it's just misplaced.

💛 M - They're a foodie, so they can cook well enough. Adequate enough they don't starve, but they don't have the time or patience for complex dishes. M is more often than not stressed about a deadline so you'll usually find them snacking more than eating a proper meal. They could easily make MC some tomato egg stir fry, just let them finish editing first.

💜 Isaac - They're a good cook. Even though Isaac is health conscious, they're weak for comfort food. Especially recipes their mom used to make them. It's their way of staying connected to her even though she's no longer alive. Isaac sets two days of the week to just do meal prep, their fridge is normally stocked with various dishes. So, if MC wants, expect Isaac to be more than ready to teach them a recipe or two.

🖤 Ardent - Amazing cook, the best of the Ro's honestly. His parents own a taverna in Greece. Ardent was expected to help out when he was growing up, either with cooking or serving customers. So, he knows his way around a kitchen. He enjoys cooking for people in general, something about the control he can have in the kitchen while also ensuring people eat well. His baklava is 🔥.

[gyusrose]

➵ 5-star michelin -> p.js

⚠︎ smut (mdni) , sprinkle of angst

✎ teacher!jay x student, slight age gap (25 & 23), jay is kinda mean, dom!jay + sub!reader, jealous!jay, praising, dirty talk

summary: achieving your dream of becoming a chef is not easy, even worse when your teacher’s always up your ass.

{btw! i don’t cook like at all so bear with me 🙏}

(non!idol jay x fem.reader)

~ late christmas + new year’s gift *ੈ✩‧₊˚🥂*ੈ✩‧₊˚

wc: 4.2k

you love the kitchen, you pretty much live there day and night. it’s no surprise to anyone that your dream job is eventually becoming a real chef. that’s why you’ve spent almost your whole life perfecting the one skill you’re good at. most of the recipes you use come from your mom. before she passed she left a whole book of recipes in it and what a hell of a good time you had with it.

it helped you cope, that’s what drove it. you feel sad? make something yummy. you feel mad? bake something nice. you feel happy? cool something delicious. your problems seemed to fade away while your cooking.

over the last year, you’ve started attending culinary school. obviously, you’re not perfect and you still need some work on your dishes but you’re not doing too bad to say the least. now though, it’s a new chapter opening for you.

you’ve been wanting to get out of your hometown for a while and move to the city as there were more opportunities down here and to your luck, you got accepted into a (very prestigious) culinary school nearby your apartment, a win-win situation.

like anyone, you were scared, scared to make new friends, scared to meet new people, scared to start from zero, a new place, a new routine. but it’s all for the better.

you sighed as you tied your apron around your waist, almost heading out the door to your first day of school. boxes were still unpacked all around your floor, it was a total mess, you literally slept on the floor last night. it was definitely not the best case scenario for a great morning but eh.

you finally caught your breath trying to calm down grabbing your tote bag and leaving your messy apartment.

the school was no more than five minutes away walking. at least you’re gonna be on time.

your entered the glass doors of the huge white building. the receptionist noticed you, you quickly showed her your ID, which they gave you during your orientation last week. she gave you a nod and you headed into the elevator, pressing the number 13.

your hands were shaking and sweaty. coming into a new school in the middle of the year has got to be the worst scenario for an introvert like you. you finally reached the room where the class will be taking place ( i genuinely don’t know what culinary school is like pls) as soon as you stepped in, all eyes were on you. including the head chef’s.

“you must be the new student right? happy first day you’re late.” one of them spoke, your cheeks couldn’t have become any redder than what they already were. you hated all the attention on you.

late? didn’t class start at 7:30? you thought.

“class started fifteen minutes ago, take a seat and catch up.” almost like he could read your mind he responded.

you muttered a low ‘sorry’ before heading onto an empty seat trying to take as much attention away from you. of course his happens to you.

you gathered all the ingredients you were told to get and set them on the table in front of you. mimicking what the other students were doing. as you weee doing that the chef came up to your side, an evident scowl noticed on his face.

it was until then you realized how handsome he was, he looked very young as well, not someone that you would expect to be a head chef. his jawline was sharper than the knife on your hand. you shook those thoughts away quickly though, he’s your teacher! what are you thinking?

“i’m just letting you know, whatever you did today can’t happen anymore, attendance is very important everyday, this is a very advanced class so you might not want to be missing any of it, got it?” even though he whispered, it felt like he was yelling at you. it was very aggressive and harsh making you flinch.

you quickly nodded, now scared of him even more. suddenly you want to change classes with another chef. finally leaving you let out a big sigh which you were holding in ever since he came over, and resumed cutting your vegetables and stir frying them.

“you need more seasoning on that, it’s too bland!” the chef, which you now you know as ‘Chef Park’ said as he tasted your chicken. you were almost sweating, from the way he speaks and acts, you felt nothing but intimidated by his presence, even more when he’s tasting your first dish for him. throughout the whole lesson today, he seemed to be only picking at you, he didn’t taste any of the other student’s food, only yours. you found it kind of irritating but tried not to think much about it.

“i’ll definitely note that chef.” you smiled at him bowing.

“ i’m expecting a lot from you, ______” he said before heading back to his space.

you were confused. why you? you’re probably the least talented person in this room right now so why you? you had so many questions but decided that maybe you just needed a good nights rest and starting packing up your stuff on your bag.

jay sighed at the empty room in front of him. it was currently 1 am, and he couldn’t find the urge to go home. he was just thinking, thinking about you.

he was the one that read your application into the school, he read your recommendation letters from your past teachers. you were put into his advanced class for a reason.

what he didn’t expect was the glory of a woman that was going to get in that door. it was as if the universe slapped his type right in front of him. that’s what he saw. how could someone look so beautiful in such a simple uniform? he also wonders that.

he can’t let down his demeanor though. yes he finds you attractive, but he can’t soften up just for you, that’s unfair to the rest of the students that have to put up with him. plus he hasn’t forgotten that he’s the teacher and you’re a student, it’s unethical for him to even be thinking of you in that way.

it’s been approximately a month since you’ve started going to this new school and to be honest, it was eating you up. chef park kept nit-picking everything you did, which honestly is what’s. teacher should do but not to that extent. you saw the way he was always looking your way when you were cooking. how he would yell at you across the room when you did something wrong ( even if other people were also doing it) it’s driving you insane to the point that you’re about to actually request for a change of teacher.

you were struggling to cook the steak to chef park’s desired temperature when you felt someone tap your shoulder. you turned your head around to see a boy. if you’re not mistaken his name is jake.

“i see you’re kind of struggling with that, there’s a trick i do that always manages to cook the steak to chef’s park liking. may i?” he asked if he could touch the knobs of your stove. you nodded and he turned the heat to the maximum for a few seconds, turning the steak over on both sides while bathing it in butter , then he turned it to low heat, repeating the same action.

jay obviously noticed this and did not appreciate it. he should be happy seeing another student sharing tips with you but that wasn’t the case this time. without thinking he walked over the two of your laughing figures.

“sim! it’s very inappropriate of you to be talking with your little friend when you should be cooking..”

“oh sorry chef park. i was just giving her a hand. i thought you wouldn’t mind.”

you looked at chef park, noticing his glaring eyes on jake. is it that bad for a student to help another student out?

“well i do! back to your place.” he said not sparing you a glance while jake decided to not respond back and just gave you an apologetic smile before heading off.

“alright everyone, that would be it for today, but don’t forget that by the end of the semester you’re gonna have to cook something of your own, impress me okay? “

as students left you decided to have a word with the chef, wanting to know if he just truly just didn’t like you or if he had a problem with you being here, so you could change chefs.

there was another girl talking to him before you. he acted so different with her, so respectful, kind and smiley. his face sours up every time he’s talking with you, so you barely see him smile and you almost melted at it.

“is there a problem miss ______?”

you jumped out of your other world and looked at him. suddenly feeling shy. you felt your confidence slip away as he was now looking straight at you, waiting for you to speak.

“ well-uh i’ve been noticing how harsh you’re on me compared to the other students, did i do something to cause that?”

jay was taken aback from your straightforwardness, but he responded either way.

“ you just need more toughness out on you _____, do you want to be mediocre?” he was lying through his teeth. jay knew you were if anything, the best of the class, he couldn’t just say that out loud.

you on the other hand, were crushed. was mediocre all he saw in you? have you been lied to by your other teachers?

“ is the yelling necessary though ? there’s way to effectively communicate without yelling.” you hated being yelled at. every time someone raised their voice at you, tears would just fall like a waterfall. thankfully, you’ve managed to hold in your tears during class so chef hasn’t seen you cry.

“are you questioning my teaching skills now? “

shit. now you offended him.

“n-no that’s not what i meant, i just-“

“you don’t think i’m a good teacher ?” he said getting up closer to you, pretty much standing inches in front of you. suddenly you felt your heartbeat fasten.

“i d-do chef, i just kind of find it unfair?” you said, trying to not stutter all your words.

jay smirked, now standing less than a feet in front of you, grabbing your chin and holding it up, making you look straight at him. jay could definitely see your rosy cheeks that you were so embarrassedly trying to hide.

“am i making you nervous miss _____?” you only gulped, you didn’t even know what to respond to that, even though it was bluntly obvious based on your state right now.

the both of you didn’t say anything for a moment, the two just stared at each other, waiting for one to make a move first.

you don’t know exactly where you got the guts to actually make the move. you engulfed your chef into a suffocating kiss. the kiss itself was enough to show how much y’all were yearning for each other. jay was dying to do this ever since he laid his eyes on you, but you on the other hand, didn’t know how much you actually wanted to do this until now. sure you found him handsome and smart and literally perfect but you never expected for him to think of you the same way to the point we’re he’s actually kissing you back and heating up the kiss you once started. his tongue grazed over your lip. his hands moved from your face to your waist, pulling you closer, melting into his embrace. your lips tasted so sweet, jay felt insatiable.

both of you forgot about the fact that this was very much not allowed. the world ceased to exist to exist at that moment. there were no boundaries, no constraints, just the two of you.

jay’s hand traveled down further and further, now down to your ass, giving it a light squeeze. the small action made you moan into his lips. even though your eyes were closed, you could feel him smirking at you.

your own hands travelled along his broad shoulders, down his shoulders. once again, confidence shot through you. your fingertips found their way to his belt buckle, about to undo it when his fingers wrapped around your wrist. stopping your movements.

“see you next class.” that’s all he said before gathering his things and leaving you there. high and dry.

that’s when you woke up. realizing what you were about to do, more like who you were about to do it with.

embarrassed. that’s what you were. he could literally lose his job what were you thinking?!

you let out a shaky sigh and left the empty room. all you need right now is a hot shower and sleep, you need to forget this ever happened. the worse thing is that tomorrow you still have to face him in class.

you knew showing up in the classroom that the two of you almost fucked in yesterday was going to be hard to show your face in. although no one noticed you, you just felt exposed. you refused to make eye contact with jay the whole time. jay definitely noticed this right away. he felt kind of bad in leaving you like that, but he knew that if he stayed there a little longer, he wouldn’t have controlled himself. he did think though, you looked kind of cute all shy and red, avoiding his eyes the whole class.

he took matters to his hands and approached you for the first time today, which was odd since he would’ve already yelled at you for something at this point.

“what are you working on miss ______?” his voice startled you, not even noticing he walked over to you.

“ just finishing the sauce for this.” you shortly said looking down at your food. jay’s stare didn’t leave your face once. and you could feel it very much. it felt hard to breathe at that moment. you have no doubt your face is boiling at his simple presence.

“ look at me when i’m speaking to you.” you didn’t want to. but he was still your teacher and the last thing you want to be is disrespectful so you looked at him. and god you wished you didn’t. those brown eyes have a world of its own. you found yourself staring at him shamelessly, forgetting he was speaking to you.

“are you even listening?” of course you weren’t yet you nodded assuringly.

“great then see you friday night.” you nodded but it took you a moments to realize what he said.

friday night? for what? this is what you get for daydreaming. embarrassingly, you asked him what he meant after you just told him you were listening to what he was saying.

jay chuckled and shook his head at your lie. “ i said if you were coming to the dinner i have set up for the class, since christmas is coming. and you responded yes, so you better be there miss ______.” he said with a smirk, palming your cheek. your eyes widened at his move. you looked around to see if anyone noticed, to your relief no one did as they were too focused on their food. “someone could’ve seen!” you whisper-shouted your chef. he just rolled his eyes and said “ just be there on friday, i have a gift for you.”

the last thing he said before walking away. you were left dumbfounded. what did any of that mean? you didn’t notice that you’ve doesn’t about 10 minutes just standing there thinking until you smelt something burning.

“your meat is overdone _____!!!” jake told you walking up to you turning the stove off.

shit.

you weren’t the one to like social events much. as a teenager, you barely went out with your friends. you were a proud nerd. always focused on school, that’s how you were thought to be, which explains how you’ve only made one friend (jake) ever since been here for months. now you’re gonna be forced to socialize for a whole evening.

you weren’t unprepared thankfully. you brought a couple of classy dresses with you, you could imagine that things like these were gonna happen. you eventually decided on a white silk dress. it was elegant yet comfortable for you. not too short or not too long as well. you decided to not do anything special with your hair and let it down.

you suddenly felt the urge to not go. the last person you want to see is your chef. you don’t see the point of going yet you kept doing your makeup, you just want to change into your pyjamas and lay in bed all night. a ding in your phone caught your attention, revealing a text message from jake.

-I’m here

it seemed like you have to go now. quickly you gathered your things and left your lot.

jay kept waiting and waiting. you was all he was waiting on. a bunch of people kept coming up and talking to him but he didn’t care. girls showed up trying to impress him, but nothing. he wanted you to come up to him, impress him.

what he didn’t expect is you coming in with some company. jake was obviously invited but not as your date, he thought. he could see his hand on your back as he said a few sorry’s for being late due to traffic. jay couldn’t focus on anything but you. what the fuck was jake saying to make you laugh so hard. was that on purpose? to see how he would react? jay couldn’t tell. it didn’t help how beautiful you looked tonight, more than usual. that fucker doesn’t get your beauty like he does.

the whole night jay kept quiet. stealing glances towards you and jake. when someone talked to him he kept his reposes dry. for a moment he could swear you stared at him.

jay didn’t miss when you stood up to go to the bathroom. he obviously took this opportunity to talk to you, if it wasn’t right now then it was never.

you left the bathroom, as a soon as you turned around, you were encaged. your breath hitched seeing who it was.

“c-chef?”

“oh please don’t act all innocent _____, i know what you’re trying to do.”

“i’m sorry..? i don’t know what you’re talking about?”

“coming in here with jake, wearing such tight dress showing off just enough to make me go crazy. do you realize how much power you have over me hm?”

you didn’t know what to respond to that. deep down you loved the way you made him feel. it was planned, at all, but it felt nice knowing how much little effort had an effect on him.

“ it’s not my fault that’s the way you think jay.” honourifics dropped. jay wasn’t expecting that response from you. the alcohol running through your blood was showing at the moment.

jay grabbed your neck and pulled you into a heated kiss. unlike your first kiss, this one was emerged in lust. both of your tongues entangled with each other. your hands rummaged through his hair pulling him closer to you.

all it took was a simple “wanna get out of here?” from jay for you to weaken in the knees, allowing your full submission to him.

“fuck jay, right ther-shit!” so much happened in the last thirty minutes, nothing could’ve prepared you to be eaten out by your teacher at that time.

you don’t even know how jay didn’t crash the car while driving to his house and completely stripping you in seconds. he ate your pussy like he’s been starving for months (which he was) your eyes rolled back, pulling his hair, engulfing him into you, wrapping your legs around his neck. jay was in fucking bliss.

“shit baby, you’re such a mess, so fucking sensitive.” he said pulling away from your cunt, earning a whine from you.

“such a desperate little brat. tell me, what do you want baby.” he said caressing your lips. you couldn’t stop biting them. from your angle, you could see everything of him. his sharp eyes staring down at you, his biceps, his chest, his abs, fuck you could cum right there.

“fuck me jay, i want you to use me.” unlike other instances, you didn’t break eye contact making him moan before grabbing your thighs and spreading them around his pelvis. your core was dying for his cock, it was noticible from how swollen it was.

jay rubbed his head along your folds before looking up at you for reassurance. you nodded, desperate written all over your face.

the first thrust in you was insane. the stretch felt like he was ripping up your insides. it was painful, a good type of pain. “fuck you’re so fucking big jay.” jay only groaned. he couldn’t even say anything, this was better than anything he could ever imagine.

once he was fully in he started to move in and out of your core, grabbing your waist, feeling himself in you. the crude sounds coming out of the both of you echoed throughout the house. jay’s hands played with your tits while you grabbed his waist, making sure he stays inside you as much possible.

“shit you’re so tight, that’s pussy’s all mine ain’t it?” his hand left your tits and started rubbing your clit while his thrusts turned very hostile you couldn’t even form words from the immense amount of pleasure.

“yes yes, it’s all your baby.”

jay didn’t think it could get better than this, but it did.

he flipped you over, now on all-fours, back arched. not wasting any time in fucking you from behind. he groped your ass, leaving his hand marks all over them.

you were about to explode when a ring could be heard, more specifically from your phone. you looked over it on the night stand seeing ‘jake’ displayed on the screen. shit you completely forgot that you just left him at the restaurant. you could call him back lat-

“answer it.” jay said from behind you sternly, fucking you even deeper.

“i don’t think i ca-“

“answer the fucking phone, it must be important.” as much as he didn’t like jake, it turned him on the way you could barely breath let alone speak while he’s fucking you restlessly.

you could barely talk but you managed to grab the phone and answer it, trying to sound as normal as possible.

“ sorry jake, i just wasn’t-hmp feeling well.” your hand went over your mouth to stop you from moaning into the phone. jay was just laughing in the background at your state right now.

“yea yea i-i’m so sorry, have f-fun though.” you nodded at his last sentence before hanging up and glaring at jay from behind you.

“fuck you!” you said then slamming your head into the pillow letting out muffled moans.

“i’m quite literally doing that baby.” you rolled your eyes in pleasure and annoyance. your orgasm was very close, even jay could feel the way you clench around him.

“fuck i’m cumming, so fucking close.” your weak voice said .

jay was on the same boat, he would’ve cum way earlier but it just felt so damn good, he wanted to treasure every moment.

“me too baby, c’mon cum all over my dick, do it baby.” that’s exactly what you did. your body twitched at the sudden feeling. your body going limp.

jay was also on edge, with a few more thrust he pulled out of you and came all over your back moaning in the process.

after the two of you balanced your breathing, jay laid next to you caressing your hair, the both of you were just giggling like little kids.

“so this was the gift you were talking about?”

[wonyowonyo]

Flavors of Love (M. Sana X M! Reader)

My first 3rd Gen Girlgroup oneshots, and it's none other than my lovely bias Sana! Nothing much to say here, and as always hope you all enjoy this one!

The bustling urban neighborhood was alive with the clamor of a thousand voices and the mouth-watering aromas of street food. Amid the chaos stood two food trucks, locked in a fierce battle for culinary supremacy. On one side was Sana's 'Sweet Eats,' a vibrant truck adorned with pastel colors and whimsical designs, offering the most delectable desserts. On the other side was Y/N's 'Savory Bites,' a sleek and modern truck serving up irresistible snacks that could make anyone's mouth water.

Sana and Y/N were the talk of the town. Their rivalry had become legendary, with each trying to outdo the other in flavor, presentation, and customer service. Sana's desserts were a symphony of sweetness, with intricate decorations and bold flavors that left customers in awe. Y/N's snacks were a carnival of savory delights, with perfectly balanced spices and innovative combinations that kept people coming back for more.

Despite their differences, the two had one thing in common: their unwavering passion for food.

It was early morning, and the sun was just beginning to peek over the horizon. Sana was already hard at work, preparing her famous macarons. Her assistant, Momo, a bubbly young woman with a passion for baking, was by her side.

"Morning, Sana! Ready to take on Y/N today?" Momo asked with a grin.

Sana smirked. "Always. We have to make sure our desserts are perfect. The customers expect nothing less."

Just across the street, Y/N was busy prepping his ingredients for the day. His best friend and sous-chef, Eunwoo, was helping him chop vegetables for their signature sliders.

"Think we can beat Sana today, Y/N?" Eunwoo asked, glancing over at the pastel-colored truck.

Y/N chuckled. "We don't need to beat her, Eunwoo. We just need to be the best at what we do. Our food will speak for itself."

As the day progressed, the lunch crowd began to gather. People lined up at both trucks, eager to taste the delicious offerings.

"Two chocolate lava cakes and a strawberry tart, please," a customer ordered at Sana's truck.

"Coming right up!" Sana replied with a smile, her hands moving deftly to prepare the order.

Over at Y/N's truck, a group of friends was debating which snacks to try.

"Those sliders look amazing," one of them said.

"Yeah, and I've heard the spicy wings are to die for," another added.

Y/N overheard and grinned. "Why not try both? I promise you won't be disappointed."

The friends laughed and placed their order, excited to taste Y/N's creations.

By mid-afternoon, the competition between Sana and Y/N was in full swing. The aroma of sweet and savory delights filled the air, drawing even more customers.

Sana glanced over at Y/N's truck and noticed the long line of people waiting. She frowned and turned to Momo.

"We need to step it up, Momo. Let's bring out the new recipe for the salted caramel cupcakes."

Momo nodded and quickly got to work, her hands flying as she mixed the ingredients.

Meanwhile, Eunwoo was helping Y/N plate their famous nachos when he noticed Sana's truck bustling with activity.

"Looks like Sana's got something new," Eunwoo said, nodding towards 'Sweet Eats.'

Y/N raised an eyebrow. "Interesting. Let's see if we can surprise her with our new truffle fries."

As the evening approached, the rivalry between the two food trucks became more evident. Sana and Y/N exchanged glances and smirks, each determined to outdo the other.

During a brief lull, Y/N decided to approach Sana's truck. He leaned against the counter, a playful grin on his face.

"Hey, Sana. Heard you got something new today. Trying to keep up with me?" he teased.

Sana rolled her eyes but couldn't help but smile. "In your dreams, Y/N. My salted caramel cupcakes are going to be the talk of the town."

Y/N chuckled. "We'll see about that. Just wait until you try my truffle fries."

Momo watched the exchange with amusement. "You two are like an old married couple," she said, laughing.

Sana and Y/N both blushed and quickly looked away, their competitive facade momentarily cracking.

Among their regular customers were Mr. and Mrs. Kim, an elderly couple who had lived in the neighborhood for decades. They were well-known for their friendly demeanor and love for good food.

"Good evening, Sana dear," Mrs. Kim greeted as she approached 'Sweet Eats.' "We'll have our usual, please."

"Of course, Mrs. Kim. Two lemon meringue pies coming right up," Sana replied warmly.

Over at 'Savory Bites,' Mr. Kim was chatting with Y/N.

"You know, young man, I think your sliders are the best in the city," he said with a wink.

"Thanks, Mr. Kim. That means a lot," Y/N replied, genuinely touched.

The Kims were just two of the many regulars who frequented both trucks, enjoying the delicious food and the friendly rivalry between Sana and Y/N.

As the day came to a close, both food trucks began to wind down. The sun was setting, casting a warm glow over the neighborhood. Sana and Y/N were exhausted but satisfied with their day's work.

Momo and Eunwoo were chatting nearby, discussing the day's events.

"Do you think they'll ever admit they like each other?" Momo asked, glancing at Sana and Y/N.

Eunwoo laughed. "Not a chance. They're both too stubborn. But it's fun to watch them dance around it."

Sana and Y/N exchanged a look, both aware of the unspoken connection between them. Despite their rivalry, there was a mutual respect and understanding that went beyond their competitive banter.

As they packed up for the night, Sana approached Y/N's truck one last time.

"Good job today, Y/N. Your truffle fries were amazing," she said sincerely.

Y/N smiled. "Thanks, Sana. Your salted caramel cupcakes were pretty incredible too."

They stood there for a moment, the tension between them easing. For now, the rivalry was set aside, replaced by a shared appreciation for each other's talent.

As they parted ways, both Sana and Y/N couldn't help but wonder what the future held for their food trucks—and for their unexpected connection.

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The annual food festival was the highlight of the year for the neighborhood. Food trucks from all over the city gathered to showcase their best dishes, and the competition for the 'Best Food Truck' title was fierce. Sana and Y/N had been preparing for weeks, each determined to claim the coveted prize.

The festival was in full swing, with music playing, people laughing, and the smell of delicious food filling the air. Sana's 'Sweet Eats' was a hit, with people lining up for her famous macarons and decadent chocolate cakes. Y/N's 'Savory Bites' was no less popular, with his signature sliders and spicy wings drawing crowds.

The rivalry between Sana and Y/N was on full display. They exchanged glares and snarky comments, each trying to outshine the other. But beneath the surface, there was a grudging respect for each other's talent and dedication.

The morning of the food festival was a flurry of activity. Sana and Momo were setting up their display, making sure every dessert was perfectly arranged.

"Make sure those macarons are front and center, Momo. They need to catch people's eyes," Sana instructed.

Momo nodded, adjusting the trays. "You got it, boss. We're going to knock their socks off."

Across the festival grounds, Y/N and Eunwoo were busy grilling sliders and arranging their signature spicy wings.

"Think we're ready, Eunwoo?" Y/N asked, wiping his brow.

Eunwoo grinned. "Ready as we'll ever be. Let's show them what 'Savory Bites' is all about."

As the festival progressed, the judges began making their rounds. This year, the panel included renowned food critic, Elena Martinez, local celebrity chef, Marcus Lee, and the beloved neighborhood mayor, Mrs. Robinson.

Elena was the first to visit 'Sweet Eats.' She sampled a macaron, her eyes closing in appreciation. "Exquisite. The texture is perfect, and the flavors are bold yet balanced."

Sana beamed. "Thank you, Ms. Martinez. We strive for perfection."

Next, the judges moved to 'Savory Bites.' Marcus took a bite of a slider, his expression thoughtful. "Impressive. The spices are perfectly balanced, and the meat is tender and juicy."

Y/N nodded. "We use a special blend of spices to enhance the flavor."

As the evening wore on, Sana noticed the judges heading towards Y/N's truck again. She frowned, feeling a pang of anxiety. Deciding to take matters into her own hands, she approached Y/N's truck.

"Hey, Y/N. How about a friendly wager?" she asked, her eyes sparkling with mischief.

Y/N raised an eyebrow. "What kind of wager?"

"Whoever wins the 'Best Food Truck' title has to treat the other to dinner," Sana suggested, a challenge in her voice.

Y/N smirked. "You're on, Sana. Get ready to lose."

Just as the festival was reaching its peak, disaster struck. The entire area was plunged into darkness due to a sudden power outage. Panic spread through the crowd, but the food trucks had backup generators that kicked in, providing some relief.

However, the storage tent where all the supplies were kept was not so lucky. Sana and Y/N found themselves trapped inside, surrounded by boxes of ingredients and supplies.

"Great, just what I needed," Sana muttered, folding her arms and leaning against a stack of flour bags.

"Yeah, because being stuck with you is my idea of a good time," Y/N shot back, rolling his eyes.

Sana shot him a glare. "You could lighten up a bit, you know."

"Me? Lighten up? That’s rich coming from you," he quipped, crossing his arms defiantly.

They stood in silence for a while, the only sound the distant murmur of people outside and the occasional creak of the tent.

After what felt like an eternity, Sana broke the silence. "So, why food trucks? Why not a restaurant or something?"

Y/N glanced at her, surprised by the question. "I like the freedom. No fixed location, no overhead costs. Plus, I get to meet new people every day. What about you?"

Sana shrugged. "Same here, I guess. I love the creativity and the challenge. Every day is different, and I get to make people happy with my desserts."

"Even when it means competing against me?" he teased.

"Especially when it means competing against you!" she shot back with a laugh.

They both chuckled, the initial hostility giving way to a tentative truce.

As the night wore on, they began to talk more freely. They shared stories of their early days in the business, the challenges they had faced, and their dreams for the future.

Sana leaned back against a crate, her eyes sparkling. "I dream of opening a bakery one day, a cozy spot where people can come and enjoy my desserts. Something special."

"That sounds amazing, Sana. You’d make it a warm, inviting place," Y/N said, genuinely impressed.

Y/N spoke of his desire to start a culinary school, where he could teach others the art of cooking and inspire the next generation of chefs.

"Teaching is a big responsibility," Sana mused. "You really think you could handle it?"

"I could if I had a great assistant," he winked, causing her to laugh again.

To their surprise, they found that they had a lot in common. They both came from humble beginnings, had worked hard to get where they were, and were driven by a deep love for food.

As they talked, the atmosphere in the tent began to change. The rivalry that had defined their relationship started to fade, replaced by a growing connection. They laughed and joked, shared their hopes and fears, and found comfort in each other's company.

At one point, Sana reached for a box of supplies and accidentally brushed against Y/N's hand. They both froze, the contact sending a jolt of electricity through them.

"Sorry," Sana said, pulling back quickly, her cheeks flushing.

"It's okay," Y/N replied, his voice softer than usual. He could feel his heart racing.

Sana’s gaze fell to the ground for a moment before she looked back up at him. "You know, you’re not as unbearable as I thought."

Y/N smirked. "And you’re not as sweet as your desserts."

Their eyes met, and for a moment, the world outside the tent seemed to disappear. There was something there, something that neither of them had expected but could no longer ignore.

Just as quickly as it had gone out, the power came back on, flooding the tent with light. Sana and Y/N blinked in the sudden brightness, the spell broken.

"Well, there goes our moment," Sana said, her voice laced with disappointment.

"Yeah, back to reality," Y/N sighed, forcing a grin. They quickly gathered their supplies, the mood shifting again as they realized what had just happened.

As they stepped out of the tent, the festival atmosphere buzzed with life once more. But the tension between them had transformed; the fierce competition was now mixed with an undeniable chemistry.

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The days following the festival were filled with hilarious and heartwarming encounters as Sana and Y/N tried to navigate their new dynamic. They still competed fiercely, each trying to outdo the other, but there was a new layer to their interactions.

One afternoon, while setting up for lunch, Sana caught Y/N glancing at her. She smiled and waved. "Enjoying the view?"

Y/N chuckled, shaking his head. "You wish! I was just... checking on my competition."

"Right, keep telling yourself that," she teased back.

They found themselves thinking about each other more often, wondering what the other was doing, and looking for excuses to talk. Their banter became more playful, their glances lingered a little longer, and their rivalry took on a new, more personal dimension.

However, confusion and mixed signals abounded. One day, Sana might seem distant, focusing solely on her work, while the next, she’d be laughing at Y/N’s jokes and leaning in a little too close.

One day, as they both waited in line for coffee, Y/N caught her eye. "What’s it gonna be today, Sana? Another one of those fancy frappes?"

Sana smirked, crossing her arms. "Actually, I was thinking of getting a plain black coffee. You know, to fuel my superior baking skills."

"Plain coffee for plain competition?" Y/N shot back playfully.

Sana leaned closer, a mock-serious expression on her face. "Don’t underestimate the power of simplicity."

Y/N couldn’t help but laugh, feeling the familiar spark ignite again. But as they bantered, an undercurrent of tension lingered, complicating their every interaction.

However, confusion and mixed signals abounded. One day, Sana might seem distant, focusing solely on her work, while the next, she’d be laughing at Y/N’s jokes and leaning in a little too close. Y/N, too, found himself caught between wanting to keep things professional and feeling an undeniable pull towards Sana.

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Enter Mina, a charismatic food blogger with a massive following. Mina had heard about the legendary rivalry between 'Sweet Eats' and 'Savory Bites' and decided to feature them both on their blog.

"Hey, Sana! Hey, Y/N! I'm Mina, and I run 'Foodie Frenzy.' I'd love to do a feature on both of your trucks. How about a joint interview?" Mina suggested, a camera in hand.

Sana and Y/N exchanged a look, the idea of working together both exciting and nerve-wracking.

"Sure, Mina. We'd love to," Sana said, her competitive spirit shining through.

"Let's do it," Y/N agreed, a hint of a smile playing on his lips.

The joint interview turned out to be a huge success. Mina's questions were insightful, and their followers loved the dynamic between Sana and Y/N. The interview ended with a challenge: Mina asked them to create a fusion dish together, combining their strengths.

"Why not?" Sana said, her eyes sparkling with excitement. "It could be fun."

Y/N nodded. "Let's show them what we can do."

They spent the next few weeks working together, experimenting with different flavors and techniques. They argued and laughed, challenged each other and supported each other, and in the process, grew closer than ever.

But the closer they got, the more complicated their feelings became. Sana found herself getting jealous when Y/N talked to other women, and Y/N couldn't help but feel a pang of irritation when Sana seemed overly friendly with male customers. Their confusion and mixed signals reached a peak one evening after a particularly heated argument over a recipe.

"Why do you always have to be so stubborn?" Sana exclaimed, throwing her hands up in frustration.

"Me? You're the one who insists on doing everything your way!" Y/N shot back, his eyes blazing.

They stood there, breathing heavily, the tension between them almost tangible. Suddenly, Y/N stepped closer, his voice softer. "Sana, why do we keep fighting like this? There's something here, something more than just competition."

Sana's eyes widened, her heart pounding. She opened her mouth to respond but hesitated, the words stuck in her throat. "I... I don't know, Y/N. Maybe we're just too different."

Y/N looked at her, his expression pained. "Maybe. Or maybe we're just scared to admit how we really feel."

The following days were filled with awkward silences and longing glances. Both Sana and Y/N found themselves replaying their argument, questioning their feelings and what it meant for their future.

One night, Sana couldn't sleep. She decided to take a walk and found herself outside Y/N's food truck. To her surprise, the lights were on. She hesitated for a moment before knocking on the door.

Y/N opened the door, looking surprised but pleased to see her. "Sana, what are you doing here?"

"I couldn't stop thinking about what you said," Sana confessed, her voice trembling. "You're right. There's something here, something I've been too scared to admit."

Y/N stepped aside, letting her in. "I've been thinking about it too. Sana, I... I think I'm falling for you."

Sana looked up at him, tears brimming in her eyes. "I think I am too, Y/N. But what if it doesn't work out? What if we ruin everything?"

Y/N took her hands in his, his gaze steady. "We'll never know unless we try. I don't want to spend another day wondering what could have been."

With that, they leaned in, their lips meeting in a gentle, tender kiss that sealed their newfound connection.

As their relationship blossomed, Sana and Y/N began to dream of a future together. One night, as they sat in a cozy café, Y/N brought up an idea.

"Sana, what if we combined our talents and opened a place together? A bakery and snack shop where we can create amazing fusion dishes and share our passion with the world."

Sana's eyes lit up with excitement. "Y/N, that sounds incredible! 'Sweet & Savory Bites'... a place where we can be partners in every sense."

The next few months were a whirlwind of activity as Sana and Y/N poured their hearts and souls into establishing 'Sweet & Savory Bites.' They found the perfect location in a bustling neighborhood, renovated the space to reflect their combined styles, and crafted a menu that showcased their unique blend of flavors.

They worked tirelessly, supporting each other through the challenges and celebrating each milestone together. Their friends and family rallied around them, offering help and encouragement every step of the way.

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A year later, Sana and Y/N stood outside their brand new establishment: 'Sweet & Savory Bites,' a combination bakery and snack shop that had quickly become the go-to spot in the neighborhood. Their dreams had merged into one, and the community had embraced their unique blend of flavors and their inspiring story.

As they cut the ribbon, surrounded by friends, family, and loyal customers, Sana and Y/N exchanged a look that spoke volumes. Their journey had been filled with competition, collaboration, and connection, and it was only just beginning.

"Here's to sweet and savory," Y/N said, raising a glass.

"To sweet and savory," Sana echoed, clinking her glass against his.

And with that, they stepped into their future, together.

[nfr-girly]

You and Hasan separated and co-parent, but he still loves you // Hasan x reader

Summary: Hasan wants to convince you to give him a chance again

border by: @enchanthings-a

*this is a pt 2 but can be read on own* part 1

You set up the table as you wait for Hasan to arrive, you know what you two will have to talk about eventually but you don’t think about it

you hear fast footsteps running before a force is collided into your legs almost knocking you over

“Oof! Baby calm down” you pick up Theo and he giggles

“When is baba coming?”

“soon baby he’s bringing Kaya too!” He gasps in excitement before jumping down to go watch tv

half an hour goes by and all the food is prepared, you sit on the sofa with theo when you hear the doorbell ring

“BABA!!!” Theo bolts toward the door and tries to open it but is to short to reach, you chuckle and go to open the door.

you open it to Hasan, all dressed up with Kaya next to him, Kaya runs into the house before you can say hello

“BABA!!” Theo jumps up and down as Hasan picks him up, trying not to have his eardrum burst

“Hey big guy how are you? I missed you”

Theo starts rambling on about stuff, Hasan listens and chimes in now and then, but you don’t miss his glances at you

“Baby give baba a minute okay?” You laugh as he runs back into the house

You turn to Hasan to find him already looking at you

“Hi”

“Hey”

You two are silent for a second before you invite him in, he hangs up his coat before you lead him to the living room

“It’s really nice to have you here, i didn’t cook anything fancy we only planned this yesterday so..”

“Hey it’s okay, I miss your cooking anyway, you were always better than me” he chuckles

You two sit with Theo for a few minutes before heading to the table to eat

“I’ve prepared a special meal for Kaya too, I remember all her favourites”

“You’re kidding, after this she’ll love you more than me”

“That’s what I aimed for” you smile

Hasan helps Theo get on his chair as you hand the plates of pasta out

“Tell me this is with your homemade sauce because I could die for it” Hasan says

“It iss so you better like it” you joke

“You need to give me the recipe, you kind of owe me”

“For what?”

“Well I gave you a baby!”

“What so the morning sickness everyday for 9 months wasn’t enough?”

Hasan shuts up.

You all sit at the table and begin dinner

Theo talks about his time at school, speaking twice as fast so none of you could keep up

When you and Hasan can get a word in, you talk about small things that have happened in your lives, you didn’t realise how much there was that you hadn’t told Hasan. 4 years ago you two told each-other everything

Dinner flows by, and it feels like nothings changed. It feels like the dinners you would get before Theo could even talk, before all the arguments you and Hasan would have, before Theo had to go live with your mom so he wouldn’t hear the things you two said

You and Hasan never liked to talk about what happened, right now you two were friends and it felt better to stay that way.

You all finish dinner and Hasan helps you tidy up, Theo is worn out so you take him to bed

He gets changed and you tuck him into bed

“mama, is baba gonna stay?” You’re taken back slightly by his question

“No baby he has to go home soon”

“Whyyy I don’t want him to go, can he read me a story?”

“Let me ask him okay?” You go downstairs and ask Hasan, to which he agrees and you both go upstairs

“Hey bud, what do ya wanna read?”

“This!!” He pulls out a book and Hasan cosies up next to him

You’re about to leave when Hasan says “you coming mama?”

You think for a second before joining them, Theo lies in between you and Hasan

He begins reading softly to him, making sure to take his time. Near the end Theo starts snoring so you both know he’s asleep.

Hasan smiles and puts away the book, you both gently get out of bed and head downstairs

“I haven’t read to him in ages” he says

“I know, you should come over more often”

Hasan looks at you, longer than he wanted to

“So uh, are you and Kaya headed back home?”

hasan stops, “well, I was hoping we could talk about what I said yesterday”

Your breath catches in your throat - you were really hoping he’d forget

“I know that you don’t like talking about it, which is fine because I have a lot to say. I know that you and me didn’t work out, and I know that it was really bad last time. Believe me I’ve been scared myself, I don’t want that for Theo again”

“But it’s been 4 years, you and me worked it out, we broke up, we worked on ourselves and became friends again. And I’m happy we did that. But as soon as we both got happy again I felt so fucking miserable. Because I didn’t have the love of my life by my side which by the way you are, that’s never going to change. I just want us to be a family again, me, you, Theo and Kaya. so just please give me a chance, and if it doesn’t work out again then I’ll never say anything more about it.”

By now you’re tearing up, you have a million thoughts in your head and you don’t know which one to focus one

“Hey hey” he steps towards you, wiping your eyes

“Don’t cry okay? Please I hate seeing you upset”

“I’m not upset it’s just.. I’m so scared Hasan, Theo’s only just gotten used to the fact his parents aren’t together, but I know he still remembers our fighting. I just know, and I don’t want to put him through that now that he’s older”

Hasan takes in your words, he knows there’s a bigger risk than he realises but his need for you grows stronger

“I promise you, that I’m not going to let this ruin us, we’re better now, we’ve worked on ourselves. Nothings gonna change the fact that you’re the one for me, and I know you still love me.”

“Just tell me if you want to try again, I’m not going to force you but I don’t want you saying no just because you’re scared” Hasan pleads

You look up at him, you know you want to try again, and as much as you want to say no, you can’t help but wonder how things will end up if you try

“Okay” you nod

Hasan is taken back, “what?”

“Okay, we can try this out”

Hasan takes a moment before he smiles

“Really baby you mean it?”

You laugh slightly, “yes I mean it, but I want to take this slow, no rushing into things”

Hasan agrees, before thinking

“I know that you just said we can’t rush into things, but I really wanna fucking kiss you right now so can you give me that?”

You laugh and nod, Hasan doesn’t give it a second before he pulls you in and connects your lips to his

He holds your waist as you hold his face, all the worries you held wash away because all you care about now is him.

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guys call me shakespeare I wrote this in like 30 minutes

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(tagged people who interacted with part 1 in case they wanted to read part 2)

[skelliko]

Tokyo revengers |°- random head cannons that I had stored

๑ Hanma ironically and out of nowhere 'sang' twist by Korn next to kisaki to get his reaction which caused kisaki to immediately whip his head over at the doofus with genuine fear in his eyes, he took a step backwards from Hanna, hands up and everything. but after a few seconds of staring at the 'possessed' specimen he just annoyingly does a "what the fuck is wrong with you..."

๑ ran doesn't crack his bones/knuckles often but if someone's around him that absolutely despises the sound of cracking bones he'd do it continuously without a care and finds major enjoyment in watching the person's face scrunch up in discomfort, sometimes he snickers too

๑ while chifuyu was in his 'major delinquent era, thinking he's better than everyone else' he was walking down the school stairs all cool and trying to be intimidating but then slipped on one of the stairs and fell on his butt. only one person saw but the amount of embarrassment he got from that when they made eye contact made him want to disappear from earth -this caused him to always be slow and actually look out for the steps so that it doesn't happen again.

๑ seishu finds it hilarious to fake a laugh at someone's awful joke for a second or two but then immediately go dead silent and just stare at the person with no seen emotion at all

๑ seishu is amazing at cooking, he's like a chef. but where'd he learn all this from? he doesn't answer, it's basically a mystery. but in his room he hides written down recipes that he copied out from books and other places

๑ when Baji was younger he decided to try and cook his own food for himself but accidently set a kitchen towel on fire by mistakingly setting it on top of the wrong oven circle -out of panic he got rid of it by quickly throwing it out the window in a panic making it land on someone's car windshield

๑ kazutora is actually quite close with Baji's mom. at some point he slipped up when calling out for her and accidentally called her 'mom' and sure enough he got embarrassed real quick and by a lot. ryoko took pride into that title tho, knowing that she mistakenly got called mom by someone else other than her own son made her feel oddly happy - although she mentioned that kazu is fine in calling her 'mom' he never did it again cause he still finds it embarrassing

๑ kazutora secretly takes photos of his friends crushes and sniggers about it while showing it to his friend. it's basically his little thing whenever he's told that someone has a crush, he doesn't do it to a big extent but just one of two pictures and it's usually just from the back or the side. he's been told multiple of times to quit and delete them but secretly they all knows he's doing them a favour cause when kazu sends them the photos they don't delete 'em

๑ peh holds grudges against people just for the sake of it, if he met someone and they had accidentally done something like step on peh's shoe then the next time they see eachother he would death stare them until they walk past and out of eye view, sometimes he just randomly feels like making enemies even despite being on 'silent and mutural' terms with someone.

๑ when akkun first had the thought of becoming a hairdresser he attempted in cutting his own hair and it actually turned out pretty good, cause of this he ended up cutting makotos hair however akkun had purposely cut his hair badly out of revenge for leaving 'filthy magazines' in akkuns room where his mom had found- making him to be unintentionally framed by makoto

๑ kisaki has a shit tone of books about manipulation and how to read people, how to carefully plot plans and use everything and anything to his own advantage even if things don't work out

๑ the reason why shion get frequent stomach aces is cause he has a bit of sweet tooth, he doesn't get hungry often so he forgets to actually eat a propper meal sometimes but when he sees something sweet and colourful he can't help but take more than a peck at it.

๑ at some point mitsuya accidentally knocked over a massive jar of beads over at the sowing club and took 2 hours collecting each one

๑ when taiju first started mending to his restaurant he had a bit of a high temper and would crack easily to his new employees if they spilled something or cut up a carrot with incorrect sizes, but after getting used to owning a business he somehow became the 'best boss' and grew to be pretty chill even if someone does a mistake - unless if it's a continuous mistake, then he'll get pissed

๑ taiju had a massive fixation with sharks and cool, colourful looking fish when he was younger. going to aquariums on a daily basis and as a kid he had collected little figurines of sharks, orcas and killer whales that he displayed. up till now he still have one of the shark toys displayed on a shelf since it was his all time favourite.

๑ yazuha hates bugs (cannon) and at some point she saw a weird looking incest in the bathroom and was begging hakkai to kill it or simply get it away for her but even he was disgusted by it so they kept on going back and forth about what to do about it before they both decided to team up and tackle it together. yazuha put a cup over it but while doing so the cup got knocked over from her shaky hands causing the both of them to scream as the bug started to move about but hakkai quickly put the cup back over it. they had to take a small breather and relax a little from the nerves before following through any more.

๑ Hina has a small collection of cute keychains, some of them are small plushies and a few are her favourite characters and others are random, small objects. she has some hanging on many different bags, her keys and a few hanging on thumb tacks that are stuck in a cork board on display

๑ Hina is really confrontational about anything that bothers her for other people's sake, in class most people try not to say anything rude about other people knowing that she'll over hear and they'll get their ear bitten off by her. cause of this she's kinda like the school hero against the bullies.

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[xmattschainx]

A Feast of Passion

the one where it all starts when matt starts to play a little game of footsie with you all while being invited over to your parents' house for the first time for thanksgiving dinner (11.3K words)

Contains: smut, unprotected piv, fingering, oral (f receiving), overstim, soft!dom! boyfriend matt x very slight dom!fem but mainly sub!fem reader

The table was laid out with turkey, stuffing, and all the trimmings, as the warm glow of the candles reflected off the polished silverware. The smell of roasted turkey and mashed potatoes filled the house, and my heart was pounding faster than it had in a long time. I’d been jittery all day, and now that Matt was here, seated across from me for Thanksgiving, I was doing my best to look calm. This was the first time he was meeting my family, and even though I knew my parents would like him, I still couldn’t shake the nerves. We’d been dating for six months, and things were getting serious, but Matt, of course, looked calm and collected. He was discussing football stats with my dad and nodding thoughtfully as my mom explained her famous stuffing recipe.

I had expected Matt to be a bit more nervous, especially when he had told me a week prior how he was worried he wouldn’t be able to impress my parents and win them over. Which of course, I rolled my eyes at and reassured him that they would absolutely adore him. But instead, Matt was as smooth and composed as ever. He’d already gotten a laugh out of my dad with a joke, and my mom was practically hanging on every word he said about his work. Just when I started to relax, feeling like maybe I’d gotten through the hard part, I felt his foot gently slide over mine under the table.

I held my breath. He didn’t look at me, just kept on with his easy smile as he answered a question about his job to my parents. His foot trailed up, tracing slow circles over my ankle, then my calf. I shot him a warning look, but he didn’t acknowledge it, his attention seemingly on my dad, who was asking him a question now. My eyes widened just a bit, and I felt the heat rise to my cheeks. But now when I glared at him, he was casually nodding along to something my mom was saying, looking so completely composed it was almost irritating.

Meanwhile, my heart was beating out of my chest. I shifted a little in my chair, hoping it looked natural. I tried to focus on the conversation, nodding along with what he was saying, but the light pressure of his foot creeping up my leg was all I could think about. Every time I tried to move away, he found me again, his touch just firm enough to be maddeningly distracting.

When I desperately tried to find his eyes, I caught him smirking—just the slightest tug at the corner of his mouth—like he knew exactly what he was doing to me. His foot slid a little higher, tracing along my calf in a gentle tease that felt almost unbearable. I shot him another look, trying to warn him to stop, but he just kept his eyes innocently fixed on my dad, as he chuckled in response to whatever the fuck they were talking about now.

“So, Matt,” my mom spoke up, cutting a piece of turkey and through my thoughts. “Do you have any special Thanksgiving traditions in your family?”

“Oh, definitely the pie-eating contests.” he said, keeping a straight face as he glanced at me just briefly, a mischievous spark in his eye as his foot moved even higher. His voice stayed steady, smooth as ever, while my pulse raced. I could feel the heat spreading through my cheeks as I tried to keep my breathing even. Giving me the faintest wink, he added, “I come from a very competitive family.” He chuckled, and my mom laughed along, clearly charmed by him. He leaned forward, his voice dropping just slightly, just enough for me to feel the weight in his words. “I’m always up for a little friendly competition. Makes things… exciting.” His gaze flicked over to me, just for a second, and the look he gave me was full of that teasing, almost wicked confidence.

Meanwhile, I was desperately trying to keep myself together. It was like he’d perfected this art of being able to split his focus—having a genuine conversation with my family while somehow driving me absolutely crazy at the same time. It felt like he was daring me to react, testing how much he could push me without anyone noticing. Every brush of his foot against my thigh was a challenge. I bit down on my lip, focusing hard on not giving him the satisfaction of seeing me squirm.

Finally, I felt like I couldn’t handle it anymore. I gave him a little kick under the table, trying to stop him. He looked over at me with this mock surprise, raising an eyebrow just slightly, as if to say, Did you need something? But his foot didn’t stop.

I clenched my hands under the table, swallowing hard as he slid his foot higher, almost unbearably close now. Somehow, he managed to keep his attention fully on my parents, nodding thoughtfully as my dad launched into a story about a fishing trip, even throwing in a follow-up question, as if he weren’t completely tormenting me under the table.

I tried to shake him off, nudging his foot back with what I hoped was a subtle movement. He only smirked, leaning back with a look of perfect innocence. I couldn’t take it anymore. I shot him a desperate look, one that I hoped said enough.

But he just gave me that maddening little grin, barely a twitch of his lips, like he knew exactly the effect he was having on me. It took everything I had not to gasp when he pressed just a bit higher. I grabbed my water glass, hoping it would disguise the flush I could feel spreading over my cheeks. I could hardly hear my mom’s voice over the pounding in my ears.

After what felt like an eternity, my mom finally announced it was time for dessert. I got up so quickly I nearly knocked my chair over, hoping the movement would break whatever hold he had on me. As I passed him, he reached out, just barely brushing his fingers over my hand, sending a last little thrill through me that had me feeling unsteady.

When I glanced back, he gave me one more of those smirks. Leaning in close enough so no one else could hear, he whispered, “Couldn’t keep a straight face, could you?”

I felt a shiver run through me as I leaned closer. “You have no idea what you’re in for.” I whispered back, smiling sweetly, knowing full well that two could play this game.

I took a deep breath and tried to collect myself as I helped my mom carry the dishes to the kitchen. The cool air in there helped calm my nerves just a bit, but all it took was one glance back at Matt, still sitting at the table with that maddeningly calm expression, and the butterflies in my stomach stirred up again. The man was impossible.

As I reached for the dessert plates, I felt my mom’s hand on my arm. “He’s a good one.” she said quietly, nodding toward Matt. “You look happy, honey.”

If she only knew half of it. I forced a smile, managing a quick nod. “Yeah, he’s… he’s great.”

When I came back out to the dining room, Matt was leaning back in his chair, looking right at me. The second our eyes met, he raised an eyebrow, and there was that spark again, that silent challenge. This time, I didn’t look away. He wanted to play games? Fine. I could play too.

I set a slice of pumpkin pie in front of him, and as I leaned over, I let my hand brush just a little too close to his, making sure he could feel the subtle brush of my fingers. The corner of his mouth curved into that familiar smirk, but he didn’t say a word, just looked up at me with that knowing gleam in his eye.

Taking my seat across from him, I slid my foot out of my shoe, and slowly pressed it against his ankle, letting my toes trace along his leg under the table, inching up the way he’d done to me. His jaw tightened just a fraction, but his expression remained casual as ever.

“So, Matt,” I said, keeping my voice smooth. “What’s your favorite pie? Pumpkin, apple, pecan?”

“Oh, I’m not picky.” he said smoothly, his gaze intense as he looked at me. “I like anything that has a little kick to it.” His voice was soft, barely above a murmur, but the words sent a thrill through me. It was like we were having a completely different conversation under the surface, one that only we knew about.

I didn’t stop. My foot moved up his leg, my fingers toying with my fork as I looked him straight in the eyes, challenging him to break. I saw the tension in his shoulders, the way he paused just a fraction before taking his next bite of pie. My parents were talking about something—something about plans for the weekend—but Matt and I barely seemed to notice. All that mattered was the current between us, that electric pulse that made everything else fade into the background.

Then, just as he reached across the table to pass my dad the whipped cream, I gave a gentle but deliberate press with my foot, tracing up just enough to push him. His hand stilled, and he cleared his throat, that cool demeanor cracking just a bit. His eyes flashed, and I knew I’d finally gotten to him.

“Are you okay, Matt?” my dad asked, noticing his slight hesitation.

“Yeah.” he said, flashing a charming smile that looked a little forced, though only I could tell. “Guess I just, uh, lost my balance for a second.”

“Oh, I can imagine.” I murmured, trying to suppress a grin. He shot me a look—something fierce and dark and brimming with that quiet intensity that always made me feel like I was the only person in the room.

After dessert, as everyone headed to the living room, he found me alone in the hallway. He caught my arm, pulling me close enough that I could feel the heat radiating off him. “You think you’re clever, don’t you?” he murmured, his voice low and husky.

I tilted my head up, meeting his gaze. “I don’t think,” I whispered back. “I know.”

His eyes darkened, and for a second, I thought he might kiss me right there, consequences be damned. Instead, he leaned in, his breath warm against my ear. “Just wait until I get you alone.” he murmured, his voice barely above a whisper, but it sent a shiver through me that made my knees go weak.

I pulled back, giving him a sweet smile, one that I knew would drive him crazy. “Promises, promises.” I whispered, brushing past him rolling my eyes, leaving him there in the hallway. 

I felt a pulse of excitement rush through me as I walked away, feeling his gaze on my back, hot and unyielding. My heart pounded as I joined my family in the living room, and it took all my focus to act as if nothing had just happened. I could feel the lingering warmth from Matt’s words in my ear, and the promise that lay beneath them kept me on edge, like a live wire buzzing under my skin.

Matt took his time before joining us. When he did, he slid in smoothly beside me on the couch, his thigh brushing against mine, sending that familiar jolt through me. Every little touch felt charged, loaded with a tension I wasn’t sure I could keep handling in front of everyone. But I kept my face neutral, knowing he was waiting for any sign that I was flustered.

My dad picked up the conversation again, asking Matt more about his job, and Matt effortlessly launched into a detailed explanation. But his hand drifted, subtle and slow, resting on the back of the couch just behind me. His fingers brushed the bare skin of my neck, light as a whisper, but enough to make my pulse skip.

I gave him a small nudge, hoping he’d get the message, but he just looked down at me, an innocent smile on his face. “Something wrong?” he asked softly, his voice barely above a murmur. Only I could hear the teasing in it, the edge that made my breath catch.

“No, nothing at all.” I replied, my voice steady, even as he let his fingers drift down the curve of my shoulder. I tried to focus on my parents’ conversation, but every touch, every slight graze of his hand against my skin, made it impossible to think straight. He was relentless, testing my every boundary, making it feel like the room was ours alone.

At one point, his fingers trailed down my arm, his thumb brushing softly over my wrist, and I couldn’t stop the shiver that ran through me. He noticed, of course, and I could see the satisfaction in his eyes, that subtle gleam that told me he knew exactly what he was doing.

Eventually, my mom stood up and announced it was time to start cleaning up, pulling my dad with her to give us a little time alone in the living room. I shot her a grateful smile, even though I knew she had no idea what she’d just set in motion.

As soon as they were out of sight, Matt turned to me, his expression shifting from playful to intense in an instant. His hand slid down to rest on my thigh, his fingers warm through the fabric. “You’re a menace.” he murmured, his gaze never leaving mine.

“Am I?” I whispered back, the thrill in my voice undeniable.

He nodded, his hand inching higher, his eyes dark with that fierce determination that had me breathless. “Do you have any idea what you’ve put me through tonight?”

I leaned in, letting my lips brush against his ear. “Payback.” I murmured, barely able to keep the teasing tone in my voice. But the second I said it, he tightened his grip, his thumb tracing slow, maddening circles on my leg.

“Be careful with payback.” he said softly, his voice carrying that dangerous edge that made my heart race. “You might get more than you bargained for.”

I held his gaze, my pulse thundering, the anticipation building so intensely I could barely breathe. The air between us felt electric, humming with an unspoken promise. I could see it in his eyes—he was daring me to keep pushing him, to see how far I could go before he’d finally break.

Before I could respond, I heard my mom’s voice coming from the kitchen, calling us back to help with the dishes. I closed my eyes, exhaling slowly, trying to steady myself. When I looked at him again, he was grinning, that wicked look in his eyes making it clear this was far from over.

I stood, giving him a lingering look. “After we finish up here,” I said softly, just for him. “Then we’ll see who’s in trouble.”

His gaze turned smoldering, his expression promising all the things he couldn’t say in front of my family. “Oh, I’m looking forward to it.” he replied, his voice barely a whisper but heavy with intent.

The rest of the evening passed in a haze. We helped clean up, exchanged stories with my family, all while keeping that charged, unbreakable thread between us, pulling tighter with every shared glance, every accidental brush of his hand. By the time we were finally ready to leave, I was barely holding it together.

As we stepped outside into the cool night air, he turned to me, eyes blazing, that teasing grin gone, replaced by something darker, fiercer. He reached for me, his hand warm as it slipped around my waist, pulling me close. And before I could catch my breath, his lips were on mine, fierce and unrelenting, finally giving in to the tension that had been building all night.

When he pulled back, his voice was a low, rough whisper. “Still think you’re winning?”

I smiled, breathless, my fingers tangled in his shirt. “Maybe.” I whispered back, a thrill running through me. “But I’ll let you try to change my mind.”

And as he took my hand, leading me to the car, I knew neither of us would be holding back anymore.

We drove in a comfortable silence, the tension between us still humming just beneath the surface. Every now and then, I’d catch him glancing over, that familiar smirk tugging at his lips, but he kept his eyes mostly on the road. I wanted to say something witty, something that would keep our playful rivalry going, but the closer we got to my apartment, the harder it became to keep my thoughts straight.

When we finally pulled up, I barely had time to unbuckle my seatbelt before he was out of the car and opening my door, his gaze intense and unwavering. He took my hand, helping me out with a gentleness that contrasted with the tension still thrumming between us. It felt like every touch, every look was charged, the air thick with all the things we hadn’t said.

Inside, I closed the door behind us, the silence feeling almost louder now. Matt stepped closer, his eyes dark, searching mine. I could feel the warmth radiating off him, and my heart started racing all over again.

“Now that we’re alone…” His voice was low, that edge of teasing softened into something more serious, and he reached up, brushing a strand of hair from my face. His fingers lingered, his gaze tracing over my features as though he were memorizing every detail.

“You’ve had this planned all night, haven’t you?” I whispered, half-smiling, though my voice wavered just a bit.

He nodded, his thumb brushing over my cheek. “Maybe. But you didn’t exactly make it easy on me.” His smirk returned, but there was something softer in his eyes. “You’re sneaky, you know that?”

The playfulness between us faded into something deeper, a warmth that made my heart skip. I reached up, sliding my arms around his neck, pulling him down until our foreheads touched. “Well, maybe I like keeping you on your toes.” I murmured, closing the last bit of space between us.

This kiss was softer, slower than before. There was no need to rush, no need for the teasing push and pull we’d been playing at all night. It was as though we were finally letting down every wall, every layer of flirtation and rivalry, just to be with each other.

When we finally pulled apart, I felt myself smiling, my heart so full it was almost overwhelming. We didn’t need words. It was enough just to be here, in this quiet moment, with everything we needed right in front of us.

Matt held me close, his arms wrapped around me as if he never wanted to let go. We stood like that for a while, just breathing each other in, the warmth of his embrace making me feel safe, steady, like nothing else mattered.

Eventually, he leaned back, looking at me with a softness that I didn’t see often but that always made me feel like I was seeing something secret, something just for me. He reached up, tracing his thumb gently along my jaw, his eyes filled with so much warmth it made my heart swell.

“You know,” he said softly. “Meeting your family tonight… it meant a lot to me.”

I felt a smile tug at my lips. “They loved you, Matt. I could see it in the way my mom kept laughing at your stories and the way my dad kept trying to learn more about you. They don’t do that for just anyone.”

He chuckled, his fingers playing with a strand of my hair. “Good to know. I’ll admit, I was nervous… until I saw you.”

I arched an eyebrow, my smile widening. “You? Nervous?”

His grin was sheepish. “Yeah, well, maybe not nervous in the usual way. I just wanted to make a good impression, for you.” He paused, taking my hand, his thumb brushing lightly over my knuckles. “I wanted them to see how much you mean to me.”

Hearing him say that, so openly, made my heart skip a beat. I tightened my hold on his hand, feeling a mix of emotions I hadn’t expected tonight. “You’re good at making impressions.” I whispered. “Maybe a little too good, honestly.”

He laughed, the sound low and warm, and he pulled me close again. “Well, in that case, I’d say it’s mission accomplished.”

The moment hung between us, heavy and unbreakable. I could see it in his eyes—a simmering intensity that hadn’t dimmed, even after tonight. My heart raced, and my breath felt shallow, the air thick with something between anticipation and need. Without another word, he leaned in, his lips finding mine, this time fiercer, as if all the tension of the night had finally snapped and there was no holding back anymore.

He lifted me, his hands strong and certain, guiding me until my back met the wall. His mouth trailed down my jaw, his breath warm against my skin, each kiss sending waves of heat through me. I held onto him, feeling as though the entire world had narrowed to this moment, this man, here with me.

His fingers found mine, lacing through them, pinning my hands against the wall as he leaned in closer, his breath ragged. His eyes met mine, and I saw that same look he’d had across the dinner table—dark, unyielding, daring me, but there was something deeper now, raw and undeniable. It was like every look, every tease tonight had built to this, a slow burn that had finally erupted into flames.

I pulled him closer, feeling his heartbeat pounding as fiercely as mine, our breaths mixing in the silence of the room. Every touch, every kiss felt charged, and I was lost in it, in him, forgetting everything else, only aware of this intensity between us.

He whispered my name, low and rough, sending a shiver through me. And as we moved together, I realized I’d never felt this alive, this completely consumed. 

We stayed close, our breaths gradually slowing as the intensity between us softened into something warm, steady, and real. In that quiet moment, the passion between us gave way to a deep, comfortable silence. I could feel his heartbeat slowly calming under my hand, matching my own.

Matt placed me down on my feet again and looked at me, his hand gently brushing my cheek, his touch lingering in a way that made me feel grounded, secure. He held my gaze, his eyes softer than I’d ever seen them. “You really do mean everything to me.” he murmured, his voice barely above a whisper. The words hung in the air, simple yet carrying a weight that went beyond anything he’d said before.

I felt a lump form in my throat, warmth spreading through me. His vulnerability touched me deeply, making me feel like I was glimpsing a side of him he rarely showed. I wrapped my arms around him, pulling him close, and buried my face in his shoulder, feeling overwhelmed by a mix of gratitude and happiness.

We stayed like that for a while, wrapped in each other, letting the quiet speak louder than words. It felt like a moment that would last forever—a moment of pure connection, something that went beyond attraction or affection. This was trust, comfort, something that felt like home.

As the moment of sentiment faded, a charged silence settled between us again, heavier this time, thick with an undercurrent of desire. I pulled away, but my body was still molded against his and I could feel the heat radiating from Matt. His eyes darkened as he looked at me, a fierce intensity igniting something deep within me.

Before I could think, I leaned in, capturing his lips with mine once more. This kiss was deeper, more urgent, as if we were both aware of the unspoken tension that had been building all night. His hands slid to my hips, gripping me tight but firm, his touch igniting every nerve within me. I lost myself in him, the world outside fading away, our surroundings disappearing as we pressed against each other.

His mouth moved against mine with a ferocity that sent a thrill through me, a spark that ignited a fire deep in my core. I wrapped my arms around his neck, pulling him even closer as I felt the warmth of his body against mine. Every kiss was a promise, each moment drawing us closer, the intensity swirling between us like a storm.

Matt’s hands roamed up my back, his fingers tracing my spine, making me shiver with pleasure. I responded by deepening the kiss, my body arching toward him, craving more. His lips traveled to my jaw, then down my neck, sending electric sensations through me. I could feel the heat rising, my skin tingling where his mouth touched.

“God, you’re incredible.” he breathed against my skin, and I felt a rush of heat at his words, my breath hitching in response. The combination of his voice and the way he touched me sent me into a dizzying haze, leaving me wanting more.

“Matt…” I whispered, my voice barely a breath as I tilted my head back, exposing more of my neck to him. He took the invitation, his lips trailing back up, kissing and teasing as he moved back to my mouth.

Our kisses grew more desperate, as though we were both trying to capture the moment, to solidify what was happening between us. I could feel his heart racing against my chest, matching the rhythm of my own. The world outside ceased to exist; it was just us, lost in this embrace.

He pulled away slightly, looking into my eyes, his breath mingling with mine, his expression intense. “Are you sure?” he asked, his voice low and gravelly, filled with a mix of desire and concern.

I nodded, my heart pounding in my chest. “Yes. I want this. I want you.”

With that, he captured my lips again, his kiss deepening, his hands gripping my waist as he pressed me against the wall. I melted into him, every kiss igniting more passion, more urgency. He pulled me closer, our bodies fitting together as if they were made for one another. The intensity of our connection enveloped us, and I lost track of time as we kissed.

The kiss became more frantic, as if we were trying to consume each other whole. My hands tangled in Matt's hair, tugging him closer as his mouth moved against mine with an insatiable urgency. Each touch ignited sparks that raced through my body, setting my skin ablaze. I could feel the heat radiating between us, a magnetic pull that was impossible to resist.

As I pressed against him, I felt the firm muscle of his chest, the warmth of his body against mine, and it made my heart race even faster. He responded by tightening his grip around my waist, lifting me slightly as if to pull me even deeper into him, making me feel weightless and utterly alive.

His kisses trailed down my neck again, sending shivers coursing through me, and I gasped softly, my head tilting back against the wall. “Matt…” I breathed, feeling completely vulnerable yet exhilarated, every nerve ending on high alert.

“You’re so breathtaking.” he murmured against my skin, his voice rough with desire. It sent a wave of warmth flooding through me, and I pulled him back to me, needing more of him, wanting to taste that intensity again. 

As his lips met mine once more, I felt him press me harder against the wall, our bodies fitting together perfectly, the world outside slipping further away. I could taste the sweetness of his breath, the warmth of his mouth, and I lost myself in the sensations—each kiss was a new exploration, a new promise.

His hands roamed down my sides, exploring every curve as if memorizing every inch of me. I pressed myself closer, feeling the heat radiating from him, wanting nothing more than to close the distance entirely. He trailed his fingers by the edge of the sweetheart neckline of my dress, hesitating for just a heartbeat, as if checking in with me.

“Please.” I whispered, my voice barely above a breath, the single word filled with all the longing and trust I had in him.

With a low, growling sound of approval, he pushed the sleeves past my shoulders exposing my skin to the cool air and his warm hands. The contrast sent a jolt through me, and I gasped, my body arching instinctively into his touch. He leaned down, pressing soft kisses against my collarbone, trailing his lips down to the delicate curve of my shoulder, igniting my skin wherever he touched.

The heat between us intensified, wrapping around us like a blanket, leaving no space for doubt or hesitation. I felt alive in a way I’d never experienced, caught in the swell of passion and the deepening connection we were forging with every kiss, every touch.

His hands moved with purpose, exploring, caressing, and I could feel every heartbeat thudding between us, our desires intertwined as he lifted me slightly, my legs wrapping around his waist instinctively. He held me firmly, his breath ragged against my skin as he took a moment to look at me, his eyes dark and filled with an intensity that made my heart race.

“Just tell me if you want to slow down.” he murmured, his voice low and steady, grounding me even as my body felt like it was on fire.

“I don’t want to slow down.” I replied, my voice filled with certainty as I shook my head. I wanted this—every moment, every touch—and I was ready for whatever came next.

With a deep, primal sound, he captured my lips again, and everything else faded away. In that moment, nothing existed outside of us, our hearts and bodies entwined, lost in the depths of our desire.

I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him back, letting him dictate the pace as our mouths moved slowly but passionately against each other's. Matt groaned quietly against my mouth when I ran my fingers through his hair and then he pressed me closer to him when I tugged at the roots just a little. His tongue slid inside my mouth, and it was me who moaned against him this time, my body feeling hot up against his own.

My chest ached, as my lungs fought me for any intake of oxygen, but I didn't care. I pulled him by his shirt and kissed him with everything I had, making sure he understood how badly I wanted him tonight.

Matt groaned into my mouth once more, his hand at my cheek moving towards my neck as his thumb brushed against my jaw and his tongue slid sensually against mine. His kiss was skillful and confident much like the man himself that I very much loved.

Matt suddenly pulled away from me, not before tugging at my bottom lip with his teeth and letting it bounce back. We both breathed heavily, with our foreheads touching and our eyes closed as we held onto each other. His hand at my waist burned through the material of my dress, his touch welcomed and wanted desperately at this point.

Matt's lips brushed under my jaw and followed in a teasing glide down my neck. His tongue pressed down against my sweet spot just as he sucked down onto it. My hand at his shirt gripped hard and I bit my lip as a shallow breath left me as he used his hand to slide up and down my waist.

I wanted him so badly.

"Your skin is so soft." he rasped against my neck and I shivered, my lips parting into a breathless moan at the sound of his voice. God, his voice could turn me to mush when he wanted it to and right now was definitely one of those moments. "I can't get enough of you..." he whispered, his breath warm against my throat as his thumb swept across my bottom lip.

He carried me effortlessly, his strength evident as he navigated through our apartment, my legs still wrapped around his waist. The thrill of it all sent shivers down my spine, each heartbeat thrumming with anticipation. I shamelessly began to rock my hips against him, creating the most delicious friction between us. A whimper left me as I felt myself get ignited from the spark that my movements had caused. Hearing Matt groan in response, made me grow more desperate by the second to quickly remove the barrier that our clothes had become, keeping us from being skin to skin.  We reached the bedroom, and he kicked the door closed behind us, cutting off the world outside.

The dim light casted shadows across the room, but it was enough to illuminate the intensity in his gaze. He set me down gently on the bed, but the moment I felt the cool sheets against my skin, he was right there, leaning over me, his presence overwhelming in the best way. His eyes locked on mine as if he was searching for any sign of hesitation. But there was none; all I felt was a deep, throbbing need for him.

“I need you.” I breathed, reaching forward to hook my finger onto his thin silver chain that dangled above me, pulling him closer, confirming that without any doubt I wanted him to devour me tonight.

With that, he captured my mouth again, his kiss igniting something primal within me. My fingers found their way to his hair, tugging gently as he leaned into me, his body pressing against mine, heat radiating from him. The kiss became a dance of urgency and longing, each movement intensifying the fire that burned between us.

Suddenly, I felt a bit daring. With both hands, I pushed him back slightly causing Matt to look at me with a raised eyebrow. When he saw a sly grin spread across my lips, his expression relaxed and he licked his lips waiting to see what I had planned. I got up from the bed and pressed down on his shoulder so he could sit down on the edge of the mattress instead. He stared up at me as I stood between his legs, his hand on my waist firm but soft as he touched me across my hips in small circles. I held my hands against his shoulder, my eyes locked onto his as the tension between us continued to grow further with the only exception to silence being our heavy breathing.

I leaned down and cupped his jaw as my thumbs stroked across his skin as I brought my lips against his and kissed him, with the same passion I knew he felt between us too. Matt breathed in sharply, his soft call of my name against my lips echoing in my ears as I moved my lips against his. His moaning doubled the ache inciting between my legs when I slid my tongue in his mouth.

We continued like this, our mouths never stopping from kissing the other as the heat between us continued to grow to scorching levels that had us panting against each other's mouths. It was like we were both in a race that we didn't want to finish.

Matt's hand slipped under the skirt of my dress, and came up to the back of my knees as he trailed them up teasingly slow. I shivered at his touch, a moan leaving my lips as the cool touch of the metal around his fingers came into contact with my heated skin.

"Damn those rings." I whispered breathless and Matt arched a brow as he smirked knowingly at me.

"I know you like them." he said quietly, his tone adding to the desire present within me as he now trailed both of his hands across my thighs, those fingertips gradually and dangerously reaching close to where I needed him the most. He ran his tongue over his teeth before taking his lower lip between them as he continued to stare at me.

I had to pull away and take a step back because it was overwhelming being watched by Matt like this. But he seemed to have not liked the space I left between us even for a mere moment, because he stood up almost immediately and grabbed the zipper of my dress, and before I could fathom or blink properly, he molded his body against mine just as the fabric slipped past my body and pooled around my feet. Matt’s hands roamed down my sides, exploring my curves as he took his time, savoring every moment. His tongue darted out to lick his lower lip and I felt my body warm up from the appreciative way he looked at me. 

As his body pressed into mine, the heat rising between us felt electric. The cool air sent goosebumps over my body, and I could feel his gaze raking over me, a mix of desire and admiration that made my heart race. “You’re stunning.” he breathed, and the way he said it made me feel more than just beautiful; it made me feel cherished.

He trailed his fingers over my waist, down my thighs, and then back up, creating a wave of sensation that left me breathless. I arched into him, craving more, wanting to feel every inch of him against me. With each kiss, each caress, I could feel the heat pooling in my core, a delicious ache that demanded release, and I pushed against him, wanting him closer.

He broke the kiss, his lips moving down my neck, kissing and nibbling along the sensitive skin, eliciting soft gasps from me. “You’re so beautiful.” he murmured against my skin, and the sincerity in his voice made my heart flutter and my eyes well up. I felt vulnerable yet powerful under his gaze, every touch electrifying.

Still with my lust for him still raging inside of me, I eased him back down onto the bed and crawled on top of him until I straddled his hips with my thighs. My hands inched their way up to his chest as I pressed a sensual kiss under his jaw that made him groan against me. I began to work the buttons of his shirt open, my fingers tugged at each one until I was halfway there and his skin came into sight.

As our bodies were pressed together, I felt a rush of exhilaration mixed with a hint of nervousness. The connection between us was electric, and the anticipation of what was to come sent shivers down my spine. Matt's hands roamed my sides, fingers dancing over my skin, igniting every nerve as I leaned into him, craving his warmth.

With a playful smirk, I kissed him again, this time slower, teasingly. I could feel the heat radiating from him, his body responding to every brush of my lips, every soft gasp I released. Our breaths mingled, creating a rhythm that matched the pounding of my heart.

“Okay, it's your turn to keep up.” I teased, a mischievous glint in my eyes.

Matt grinned, his hands gripping my waist as he pulled me closer, our bodies perfectly aligned. I could feel the heat of his desire against me, and it only fueled my own. His lips found my neck, trailing soft kisses that made my breath hitch, and I leaned back into him, surrendering to the sensations flooding my senses.

“Fuck, you’re so intoxicating.” he murmured against my skin, his breath sending shivers down my spine. I felt powerful, caught in this beautiful moment of shared vulnerability and desire.

With renewed confidence, I began to explore him. I was so into him, his body, and his mind that I knew before I even did it, he was just as desperate as me, for me to touch him. My thoughts were confirmed correct the second my lips touched the center of his chest. A sharp hiss left his mouth and his body tensed underneath mine, setting off a fire inside me that made a groan of my own leave my lips as I continued to travel my way down.

I drew in a sharp breath as my tongue flicked out to trace down his stomach, the soft muscle tensing against me as I peeled away Matt's shirt, so it's out of my way. I heard him groan quietly, his chest rising and falling quickly as he propped himself up on his elbows to watch me kiss him reverently. Each kiss of mine was a silent gesture, showing how much I loved him and how much he meant to me.

My hands moved down his chest, tracing the lines of his body. I reveled in the way he responded to my touch, each sigh and moan pushing me further into a whirlwind of sensation. I could feel him tightening beneath me, the heat radiating from him becoming more intense.

“Matt.” I whispered, my voice thick with desire. “I want you.”

He bit his lip and with his eyes locked on mine, he removed his shirt the rest of the way with his upper body now completely bare. 

I proceeded to gently bite down onto the top of his pants as my hand slid up his thigh and before I reached forward to touch him, he yanked me up by my arms and crushed his lips against mine in a fierce kiss that made my head spin, and my breath rushed out of me. I moaned against his mouth as I was brought back onto his lap with his hand pushing down on my lower back, to bring me flush against him and to have our chests mold together.

I could feel the tension building between us, a sweet ache that threatened to consume me. The way he held me, the way he kissed me—it was as if we were both trying to bridge the gap between our bodies and souls. And in that moment, nothing else mattered.

I cupped his jaw with one hand and used the other to pull at his hair as he used his hands to stroke across my lower back, his touch being so soft and gentle which made an indescribable emotion swell inside of me and my lips part away to release a gasp.

As I shifted my weight, feeling him beneath me, I took a breath, ready to take the next step. I could sense his anticipation mirroring mine, an electric current flowing between us. Our lips stayed near each other's, the both of us breathing heavily as the seconds ticked by and his hand finally reached the clasp of my bra. With his eyes locked onto mine and with a subtle nod from me, Matt snapped his fingers against the lace constricting me and it gave away, leaving my breasts now free for him to do as he pleased.

"You're so beautiful." his warm breath hit my neck as he whispered into my ear. His tone gentle, but laced with desire.

"Matt." I whispered back, swallowing the dry lump in my throat as I stared back at him. My hands rested on his chest as I tilted my head to brush a kiss under his jaw. I had also begun to trail my fingers down slowly, until I was met with the button of his pants.

My heart thudded hard inside my chest and my breaths kept getting caught, but I still continued to kiss him taking his soft grunts as the green light to what I was doing, was right. Matt groaned again when I lowered my hips and felt his bulge press against the apex of my thighs, as I gently rocked my hips against him. His hand grabbed my hip to guide me on him, while his other hand moved forward to cup one of my breasts to tantalize it with his thumb.

"Oh God." I breathed out as my body tingled with pleasure due to the touch of his hands on me. "Matt..."

He wrapped his arm around me, one arm banding across my hip while the other continued to touch me across my chest, tugging and teasing until I was panting and rocking my core steadily onto the growing bulge straining against his pants. My lips parted as I moaned softly into his ear when his tongue traced across my breasts, his touch being light until he drew each of the stiffened peaks on my breasts into his mouth and sucked on it. The feeling of his tongue gliding across my heated skin, sent the pulse between my legs to grow into a fierce ache that made my thighs clench against his hips.

I was panting with need, my hand now tugging at his hair to hold him close as I continued to stroke against him through the material of his pants. My hips rolled to their own accord with each groan he let out, spurring me further on as he lavished each of my breasts with equal amounts of attention.

I wanted to scream at the feeling of his mouth against my body, but I remained quiet and instead enjoyed the way he worshipped my body with his lips and hands.

Tension gripped his body underneath mine, his skin being feverishly hot. Matt growled against my skin when I attempted to undo the button of his pants. In mere seconds I went from being on top of him to being underneath him, his body now hovering above mine as I wrapped my legs around his hips.

"You don't know how badly I want you." he whispered above my lips, silencing me with his mouth pressing onto mine. His need for me was clear as he slipped his tongue into my mouth and kissed me deeply, with his own breaths mixing with my own and filling my lungs. My senses heightened and my mind spun as I angled my head and kissed him sincerely.

I wanted him so much too, that it began to hurt to.

Matt's hands ran up and down my spine, his touch trembling and restless. When he groaned against my neck, my sex clenched in response, and I bit down hard onto my lower lip as my head tilted back and my hands clenched at the sheets.

"Touch me… please." I moaned softly, my back arching when his hands gripped my hips and smoothed across the hem of my underwear, his fingers scorching hot against my skin. Matt's mouth kissed a path under my jaw and down my neck. His tongue licked across the sensitive spots and sucked down wherever he could as he pressed himself against me and rocked his hips over my heated core. We both moaned at the contact, the undeniable chemistry between us never ceasing.

He sank to his knees at the opposite end of my bed and spread my legs apart, with his fingers trailing up and across my inner thighs until he was touching the edges of my underwear yet again. I bent my elbows and watched him, my throat constricting at the adoring look in his eyes when he watched me. "Let's take these off." he murmured and I nodded in response, lifting my hips for him to pull the lace material down my legs and toss them across the room. "Fuck..." he breathed out, his eyes latching onto the newly exposed area of my body.

I blushed from head to toe, feeling exposed and raw as I laid there naked underneath his gaze. Still, I opened my legs a little more, my body so aroused that I felt myself tremble at just the slightest touch of his hands. One of Matt's hands fell across my hip and he began to rub soothing circles onto it.

"You're so wet for me." he murmured, his gaze lowering to between my legs as he licked his lips.

"Shut up." I whispered, scandalized by him and his words despite the tender edge laced into them. "Oh." I suddenly whimpered when his fingers slid between my legs and rubbed at my center. My own arousal made me slick for his touch that it made my eyes close tightly and my lips tremble.

Matt groaned against my inner thigh and his finger slid into me nice and slow. He pulled out and then thrusted back inside me gently as my back arched and I clenched around him. He didn't say anything but heavily breathed against my sex as he continued to pump into me steadily, and drove my insides alight with pleasurable tremors.

This man had amazing hands and I hated them and loved them, all at the same time.

I was panting for him, my hips pushing against the force of his finger pushing in and out of me as his thumb circled against my center, slick and hot. "Matt... Oh my God."

I had never been so turned on in my life to the point where I felt mindless, as if I was floating in a cloud that would suddenly evaporate and drop me into a crushing orgasm that would break me apart.

He quickened his pace slightly, his finger now pulling out to push back in with a second finger. I moaned louder, my hips seeking and rolling into his hand as I cried out his name breathlessly. I was trembling as I was reaching the brink of my orgasm.

"Come for me sweetheart... let go." he breathed hard, his thumb rubbing across my center at the same time his fingers curled inside me and scissored against each other. My legs shook, my back arched, and I cried out as the rush of an orgasm hit me hard, an intense wave rolling across me as I found my release.

Searing pleasure pulsed through me and beyond my own moans, I heard Matt mumble something about me being beautiful and loving how I came for him so helplessly. My body softened once he helped me ride through my orgasm and through the haze in my mind, I noticed him standing up before me and unbuttoning his pants as he slipped out of his shoes.

"Come here." I said to him. Matt's hands at his zipper paused and he nodded, moving closer to me. His hands were replaced with my own as I peeled off his pants and his underwear in one swift pull, revealing all of him to me.

My mouth dried up and my tongue darted out to lick my lips. Matt watched me as I took his length in my hand and stroked him from root to tip gently, my hand caressing his silky hot skin as he hissed out a sharp breath. My thumb rubbed against the top and I swiped the clear drop of arousal over him and my hand at his hip tightened. "Wait… stop." his breaths came out strained. He closed his hand over my own to stroke one last time before he pulled my hand away and started to move forward and towards me.

I moved back onto the bed, my head now hitting the pillows as he settled himself against me, our throbbing sexes barely touching. His hands slid up my body after he pulled my shoes off of my feet, until he cupped my cheeks and pressed a soft, tender kiss onto my lips. His weight pressed down upon me and I could feel the heat radiating from him, the hard muscles of his body juxtaposed with the softness of the sheets beneath me.  His lips met mine again, and the kiss turned urgent once more, a primal hunger building between us.

With a newfound intensity, he began kissing down my body, trailing hot kisses down my neck, along my collarbone, and further still, igniting my skin with each touch. I gasped as he reached the swell of my breasts once again, his hands exploring every curve, making me arch into him, craving more of his warmth.

“Matt.” I whispered, my voice shaky with need, pulling him back up to me, wanting to feel his weight against me once more. He obliged, capturing my lips again, but the urgency in his kisses was palpable, a wild, untamed hunger that sent shivers down my spine.

The moment hung in the air, thick with tension and anticipation. Matt's kisses deepened again, the urgency between us growing more desperate, more fervent. My fingers tangled in his hair, pulling him closer as my body instinctively pressed against his. The heat radiating from him was intoxicating, every touch igniting a fire within me that demanded more.

With a soft growl, he pulled away just enough to look into my eyes, his gaze dark and filled with a hunger that mirrored my own. "This okay?" he whispered above my lips and I nodded slowly, swallowing thickly. There was no holding back now; everything we had built tonight led us to this moment. His fingers moved to touch my opening again, and his fingers circled against my center.

I began to tremble from the sensitivity still there, but my body burned for him with desire. He groaned at the same time I did when he took himself in his hand, to rub the tip against my slick sex, the friction making my legs tremble at his hips and wrap around him tight.

With his lips pressed against mine and his kiss deepening further, he eased inside of me, him filling me slowly as I cried out his name into his mouth. Matt moaned loudly, his own restraint tested when he pushed in inch after inch all the way until his hips were flush against mine.

With careful deliberation, he began to explore me again, trailing his lips down my neck and across my collarbone. His hands moved with confidence, caressing every inch of my body, igniting every nerve. I arched into him, the heat pooling deeper, and I felt every sensation magnified, every kiss, every touch sending me further into bliss.

“God, you feel amazing.” he murmured, his breath hot against my skin as he took his time, savoring the moment, exploring every curve and contour. I felt like a canvas he was painting with his touch, his kisses, and I reveled in the attention, the intimacy.

I tugged him back up to me, pulling him close, my heart racing as our bodies connected fully. He responded instantly, shifting his weight to press against me, the heat between us palpable, electric. The urgency returned, and our kisses grew deeper, more frantic, as if we were both trying to lose ourselves in one another.

"Look at me." he breathed out a deep groan as his lips pulled away from mine, his forehead resting on mine. The rising and falling of his chest echoed against my own as he cupped my jaw and made me look at him. I arched my back and dragged myself across every inch of him as he pulled back and then pushed into me slowly, but hard at the same time.

Loving the feeling of him inside of me, I wrapped my arms around his tense back and scored my nails across his skin with each deep stroke he rolled his length inside me with. His breath was rushing out of his mouth with every plunge of his length, and I moaned at the feel of him.

I arched my hips, moving them in sync with his movement, savoring the pleasure he gave me slowly. My thighs, stomach, and core tightened with every lift of my hips and every clench of myself taking him deeper.

"Oh... fuck." I gasped into his mouth that hovered over mine, my nails digging into his lower back and I pushed up whilst he thrusted into me once again. His breath hissed out and he lifted his hands above my head and held onto my sheets tight as he rocked himself further into me, each inch stroking my sensitive sex from the inside out. "It feels... so good." I moaned quietly, my hips arching and grinding against him as he kept moving, his pace never changing.

With a sudden boldness, I pushed him back slightly, flipping us so that I was straddling him again, the power shift igniting a new wave of exhilaration within me. I looked down at him, my breath quickening at the sight of his eyes filled with surprise and delight. “Now it’s my turn.” I declared, my voice low and sultry.

He chuckled, a deep, throaty sound that reverberated through me. “I like the sound of that.”

I leaned down, capturing his lips with mine again, but this time, I took my time, kissing him slowly, teasingly, savoring the way he responded to every touch. My hands roamed over his chest, feeling the dips of his muscles beneath my fingertips, and I couldn’t help but smile at how powerful this felt.

Matt’s hands found my waist, guiding me as I continued to maintain the momentum we had going. Our connection deepened with each passing moment. Every kiss felt like a promise, every caress a commitment, and I was lost in the whirlwind of it all.

The world outside faded further away, leaving only us and the passion that enveloped us. I could feel his heart racing beneath me, and I knew we were both caught up in this intoxicating dance, every movement a testament to the connection we were forging.

In the heat of the moment, I leaned back slightly, giving him a sultry look that made his breath hitch. “You have no idea what you’ve gotten yourself into.” I whispered, feeling empowered by the tension that thrummed in the air between us.

His gaze darkened, and I could see the challenge in his eyes. “I think I have an idea.” he replied, his voice low, filled with promise.

With that, I lowered myself against him, my body pressing into his as I felt the heat radiate between us, a force pulling us closer, deeper into each other’s warmth. The fire ignited again, and I lost myself in the moment and to Matt.

As our bodies moved together, the intensity of the moment swelled between us. I could feel every pulse of desire coursing through my veins, and the world outside had completely faded, leaving just the two of us entwined in this passionate embrace. Each kiss grew more urgent, more desperate, as if we were both trying to memorize every sensation, every sound. I could see the intensity in his eyes, a burning desire that mirrored my own, and it sent a wave of exhilaration through me.

Feeling his heat radiating against my skin, sent a thrill through me. He moved with purpose, the tension between us building to an almost unbearable degree, each kiss and caress drawing us closer to the edge.

Every time I sank into him, I felt the weight of our desire, rushing of warmth enveloping me. The sensation was electric, sending shockwaves through my body as we pressed against each other, each movement igniting more fire. It was as if we were two bodies, but one soul, lost in the rhythm of our passion.

With a sudden surge of boldness, I leaned down, kissing him fiercely as I felt him shift under me, his hands gripping my waist, guiding me closer. I could feel the heat rising between us, a heady mix of urgency and intimacy that left me breathless.

“Matt…” I gasped, the weight of the moment settling over us. The anticipation hung in the air like a charged storm, ready to burst into something beautiful and raw.

He captured my gaze, a look of fierce determination in his eyes. “Let’s take this together.” he said, his voice low and filled with promise.

With a nod, I felt a rush of excitement and vulnerability. As we moved together, the sensations wrapped around us, every touch igniting sparks of pleasure that shot through my body as we explored the depths of our desire.

As the intensity built, we lost ourselves in each other, our bodies moving in perfect harmony. Every caress, every kiss, pushed us further into bliss, the connection we shared becoming deeper with each passing moment. I felt alive, every nerve ending heightened, the rhythm of our bodies synchronizing in a dance that felt both primal and beautiful.

Matt’s hands roamed my body, exploring every curve, every inch, making me feel cherished and desired. I lost myself in him, the sensations overwhelming, the heat radiating between us sparking a fire that felt as if it would consume us whole.

“Fuck, you’re incredible.” he whispered, his voice filled with awe as he gazed at me, and I felt a rush of warmth at his words, a mixture of exhilaration and vulnerability. “Look at you.”

Matt’s hands gripped my waist, his strength grounding me as he kissed me deeply. With every touch, the air ignited around us, electric and consuming. Then, with a sudden surge of urgency, he shifted, rolling us over so that he was on top, his weight pressing down on me in the most exhilarating way. The change sent a thrill of excitement through me, the feeling of him above me only amplifying the heat that radiated between us. I could see the fire in his eyes, the mix of desire and something deeper, and it made my heart race. He leaned down, capturing my lips in a fervent kiss, and I could feel the intensity of our connection deepen, becoming something raw and beautiful.

“God, you’re amazing.” he murmured against my mouth, his voice low and filled with need as he began to move against me, each thrust igniting more heat between us. I could feel the way he filled me, the sensations cascading through my body, pushing me closer to the edge.

As he leaned down, his lips trailing kisses along my neck, I lost myself in the moment, surrendering to the pleasure building within me. His body pressed into mine, the heat radiating from him sending shivers down my spine. Every movement felt like a dance, a rhythm that drew us closer together.

He worked me slowly but deeply, as each of his strokes were hitting spots inside me that I never knew I had and my toes were curling pleasurably as he did so. Our bodies were slick with sweat, our kisses were messy and rushed, but together we continued to move, our bodies in tandem with the pleasure each of us caused the other.

I cried out at the pleasure of him taking me, myself clenching at him pulling out only to push back in harder than before, stealing my breath right out of my lungs. Matt's breath caught on a muffled groan as he rubbed himself across every inch of me from the inside, the pleasure of it was so fierce and so consuming that I could barely breathe throughout it. My nerves were on sensory overload, each touch added to the pressure building inside of me, the threat of another intense orgasm looming as he continued moving.

My eyes fell closed and I bit my lip. Sweat misted my hairline and heat flushed across my body that was molded tightly against his, as he continued to push inside me at the same pace. My stomach coiled, my hips tenses, and my legs trembled as he rolled his hips and changed the angle of his thrusts.

"Eyes, baby..." Matt husked into my ear just as he turned to look at me, his jaw clenched tight and his eyes staring into mine intensely. His hands reached for mine and he pulled them above my head holding them down, with our fingers now intertwined together. "Watch what we do to each other." he panted, his voice making my body shiver against his as I threw my head back and moaned.

"Yes." I gasped, my body tight with anticipation. The pleasurable ache inside me doubled with the roll of Matt's hips aligning to my center, his body creating a burning fire within me that was ready to combust at any given moment. "Don't stop." I moaned against his mouth, as I stared into his eyes which bored into mine as our bodies moved against each other's hard, but slow.

We moved together, the intensity building with each passing moment, every kiss deepening our connection. I could feel us teetering on the edge, the anticipation electric, and I surrendered completely to the moment, ready to embrace whatever came next, together.

“Matt,” I gasped, feeling myself about to snap. My fingers were tangled in his hair, pulling him closer as he began to kiss the length of my neck. “I can’t–”

He looked down at me, his gaze dark and filled with desire, and I could see the determination in his eyes. With every thrust, he pushed me closer to the brink, building a tension that felt like it could burst at any moment.

“Let go.” he whispered, his breath hot against my skin. “I’ve got you.”

And with those words, I surrendered completely to the sensations swirling within me. As he continued to move, the pleasure built higher, each pulse sending shockwaves through my body. I felt the world around me blur, the only thing anchoring me was the feeling of him above me, lost in this moment we had created together.

Matt grunted a curse, my name spilling from his lips as he continued to massage his length against the sensitive walls of my sex that trembled against him, as he kept the same pace over and over. Our mouths pressed against each other as we kissed feverishly as the rise of each of our orgasms came at a frightening speed. Every nerve felt alive, and I couldn’t hold back any longer. He held me close, his body pressing down as I felt the waves of pleasure roll over me, the connection between us deepening even further. I could see the satisfaction in his eyes as he guided me through it, and the intensity of the moment wrapped around us like a warm embrace. The shower of pleasure cracked against us so hard that the moment he felt me convulse around him, his own release followed seconds later. 

I came with a whispered cry of his name, as I had surrendered to the tide of ecstasy that enveloped me. My entire body shivered as I watched and felt him tense within me and slow his thrusts, as we rode out our highs together with every part of our bodies pressed intimately and our eyes locked onto each other's.

As the waves began to subside, I pulled him closer, my body still tingling with the remnants of pleasure as I spiraled into bliss. Our foreheads rested against each other and our eyes were closed as we breathed in and out heavily. We were entwined, our breaths mingling as we settled into the afterglow, the weight of the moment hanging in the air between us. The both of us were rocked to our cores by the intensity of what we had just shared.

Matt leaned down, capturing my lips again softly, and I melted into him, feeling cherished and alive. It was more than just a physical relationship; it was a bond that felt deeper than anything I had ever experienced. Then he said something so softly in my ear, that I almost missed it before I crashed into a deep slumber.

“I’m so thankful for you.”

fin.

[braxlrose]

maybe hcs about Bill's childhood and a bit of Tom's (twins in general)? I wonder what they liked to play and what damage and chaos they caused (☠️) it can also be somehow connected with the reader who is their friend and partner in crime! in the devilish era sense (if u can its would be nice if reader was Bills love interest/ i sm love childhood friends to lovers trope☠️😭) i love ur hcs and fics!!! lmao all those fights with bill would be so much fun😭 also the guy would definitely make a fake wedding with the reader..i know that🤷🏻‍♀️ besides the very concept of living with horny boys growing up lol.. Dayum ☠️ (srry 4bad engilsh)

↑wtf why Bill look so tall.. anyways they all look soo CUTE 🫡 baby GUS oh my ????🤭 and tom LMAOO 😭

a/n: they were adorable as children and I love this idea!! I haven't read Career Suicide yet, so some of these may be inaccurate, but again most are just headcanons that I don't have much to back up on besides their personalities

devilish headcanons

1996-2000

• you became friends with Bill and Tom when you were seven years old and bill had the biggest crush on you. he thought you were so cool and was even more happy when he found out you played guitar so he asked you to join Black Question Mark. you obviously said yes and you had so much fun rehearsing and hanging out with them

• one day at school bill asked you what your favorite cookie was and he practically begged his mom to help him bake those cookies for you. when he brought them in the next day he was so happy when you got excited for them.

• as you guys got a little bit older, you and tom would protect bill from bullies even if you got bullied too. but before you guys knew about what they were doing to bill, you would always clean up his cuts and kiss his bruises. after that, you would always walk with him, holding onto his hand tightly and try not to pay any attention to them.

• bill would pick flowers for you on valentines day because him and tom would pick them for his mom, and now that you were around, he'd get you some too

• when tom and bill looked more alike, you'd help them switch places in class and then act all surprised and be like "What do you mean? That's tom, Frau Schiller."

• they were little menaces, so when you were brought into the mix, they teachers all hated you. but they couldn't actually prove you were doing anything, which made it 10x more fun

• you and tom would always laugh about getting better grades in singing classes than bill and bill would just sit there like "🙄".

• you and bill had skipped class together (its like 4th grade, yall are like doing 4x8 idk why yall so lazy 🙄, but anyways), you guys did Stein, Schere, Papier (rock, paper, scissors) and Tom lost so he had to stay in class and pretend to be bill 💀. you and Bill were just walking around the halls when bill got the brilliant idea to pull the fire alarm. you two almost got caught but you were quick enough to run outside and get in line with the rest of your class.

• you and their mom are like best friends so you bake recipes with her all the time. like Puddingbrezel, Apfelstrudel, Apfelkuchen, Käsekuchen, Pfefferneusse, etc.

• you and tom tagged a couple buildings with spray paint

• you, tom and bill have sleepovers all the time and you guys would make a pillow fort and watch tons of movies.

• bills a very cuddly person, so he'd always end up wrapping his arms around you after you guys fell asleep in the fort

• you guys went CD shopping all the time and get tons of cds for your collection

• you would take nail polish from your moms collection and help bill paint his nails

• you moved to Magdeburg just around the time Bill and Tom's dad moved out. Bill wasn't as upset as tom was, but you still comforted the both of them. if your parents were divorced to, you'd also be able to empathize with them

• Bill and Tome step dad would invite you to go fishing with them on a boat on the lake whenever they went. you were basically apart of the family because you hung around so much so he didn't want to leave you out

• you and bill would play with his mom's makeup all the time and give eachother makeovers

• you, tom and bill once got caught trying to sneak a beer can out of the fridge and you guys all had to sit in time out. honestly, that just helped you guys be more sneaky about getting it

• if you have long hair, bill begs his mom to teach him how to braid hair so he can braid yours. he did this in the first place because you laughed at tom for not knowing how to braid hair and you were all like "you know how to braid hair, right bill?" and he was just like "😃😄😃 yeah."

• you three all used to have bonfires in the backyard. you guys would throw in paper and wood and all that shit and then go steal a lighter from the house. then you'd all grab some marshmallows and roast them

• when you guys were eleven years old, you walked in on him jerking off and you had literally no idea what he was doing at first so you just opened the door and stood there like "wtf 😀"

• you stole some cigarettes from your dad and you, tom and bill all smoked them outside of school for the first time. you were all coughing your asses off because you guys have never smoked before

• you three would all go to weddings together and play music for them.

• you and bill would play dress up all the time and you'd scream at anybody who said something to him about wearing a dress

• at nine years old, you and bill had a wedding and after that, he would always call you his wife and he was your husband. like if a teacher didn't partner you two up together he'd be like "but she's my wife!"

• his mom and your mom became friends too, since you guys spent so much time together and they'd be like "if those two don't get married one day, I'm losing faith in all love."

2000-2004

• you were up on stage, playing on the guitar with Tom and Bill on the night when Georg and Gustav came to see you guys. you were a bit hesitant at first, since you were used to only bill and tom, but you guys needed a bassist and drummer, so you agreed.

• after that, you guys all became a friend group pretty quick. even though at first the age difference was weird, you guys got past that and kind of forgot about it

• you five would go to the corner store all the time and would sneak candy in your clothes. even if you had enough money 💀

• movie nights 24/7, and you guys had to watch labyrinth. it was a must and bill would force you guys to watch it

• you and bill were already super close, but the older you got the more close you got and the more your relationship progressed.

• you had to be careful when walking around the house at first because you didn't know if you'd be fine, or you'd turn the corner and one of the four boys would be sitting there jerking off

• the more time passed, the more you got used to it and it got to a point where you'd just walk into a room looking for something and if one of them was jerking off you'd just walk right past them.

• they're literally saying the dirtiest, nastiest jokes all the time and you'll just be sitting there like "🙂 wtf man"

• they're a bunch of horny, pre-teen/teenage boys so hanging out with them can be a handful but they always treated you like one of the guys and never made you feel any different.

• even bill, even though you were his gf you were still his bestfriend so you guys would roughhouse and do dumb shit together and all that kind of stuff

• you sat and listened to bill all day while he practiced singing It's Raining Men for Star Search and always helped him out with stuff

• you went to Star Search with Bill, his mutter and his Oma and was so excited to see him on stage. when he came out you were smiling and cheering and clapping your hands as loud as you can. his singing voice is amazing

• you held him for a long time after he got second place. he was really sad and bawling his eyes out because he promised you and his Oma that he'd win for you guys

• you made sure he knew it was okay, and that second place is still amazing. but he still moped for days once you guys got home.

• you and gustav would make food together too. like cookies and milkshakes. it was tons of fun baking with him

• when you first got your period, the boys were super confused because you were holding your hand in front of your intestines (and yes its actually where your intestines are, your stomach is way higher than you think 😨 but back to this) they didn't have any idea what was going on until Georg was like "she probably got her period."

• the rest of them all looked back at him like "wtf is that?" and georg was like "it's where girls bleed out of their vaginas." after that, tom and bill thought you were dying or something because georg did a terrible job explaining what a period was 💀

• once their mom got home and say they were freaking out and she asked what was wrong and they were like "Georg says Y/n is bleeding out her vagina! She's dying!" and their mom just started laughing her ass off and grabbed you a heating pad.

• tom and bill were mad at their mom for a bit before she explained what was actually happening because they thought she was just gonna let you die. but then she explained it happens to all women and its just shedding the lining of a woman's uterus. and that you were laying on the couch like that because periods cause awful cramps that can hurt as much as heart attacks.

• they were extremely nice to you after that

• bill went to the store and bought you some chocolate and then rubbed your back for you. his mom was just standing in the doorway of the living room as you two sat on the floor watching a TV show with a bunch of pillows and blankets as bill rubbed your shoulders.

• you guys got high on weed all the time and you'd be laughing your asses off while bill would just be sitting around, super fucking paranoid about everything

• you and tom were little assholes in school, especially in science class💀 you two would fuck things up on purpose when doing experiments and your teacher hated you guys so much

• you, bill and tom once started a fire at school and you all got grounded for 2 weeks and suspended from school for 3 days

• you and bill would get matching clothes together

• when tom had sex for the first time at 13, he told all of you right away and you just started laughing 💀 he was super offended and was like "uhmm..wtf bro?!" and you were like "I just feel bad for the girl who had to sleep with a guy with a 3 inch dick who still has voice cracks." and his jaw dropped and went on a rant about how his dick was huge and that he didn't have voice cracks. his voice cracked like 6 times during that rant btw.

I hope you enjoyed this!!

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[sunflowersandsapphires]

Congrats Sapph 👏 How about a Sunflower for Matt where Matt surprises Reader with a baked treat (store bought or homemade is up to you) after an awful, terrible, no good, very bad day?

Trudging towards your apartment door, your feet ached terribly. You’d been running around all day, mimicking a chicken with its head cut off no doubt, trying to meet your employer's impossible standards as you approached the end of the quarter. The stress of the month was palpable within your office, keeping you and your coworkers huddled in cubicles--ready to snap at any passing distractions.

You'd forgone many simple comforts in order to meet deadlines this week, which had steadily worsened your mood. Morning coffee with Matt. Slow, ambling walks to work, stopping for a pastry or a bagel from the corner deli. Even the pleasure of taking time to eat your lunch, rather than wolfing it down at your desk while tediously reviewing an Excel spreadsheet.

Your mornings were starting earlier than ever, forcing you to press a hasty kiss to Matt's cheek before you dashed into the dawn-lit city without him. Nights had become equally unsatisfying, tension at work leaving you so strung out you shoveled a slapped-together bowl of leftovers into your mouth before collapsing into bed before Matt even left the office.

Matt, always the loving boyfriend, hadn't complained once--instead leaving supportive messages on your phone and stocking the fridge with take out. Being forced to neglect your criminally compassionate partner was slowly breaking your heart.

A few more days and the madness would be over. The thought made you want to sob; the light at the end of the tunnel still seemed impossibly far away.

Sliding your rusted key into the lock, you unlatched the bolt and shouldered into the apartment. Toeing off your shoes, you inhaled shakily, tears building on your waterline. With dragging footsteps, you rounded the corner into your studio and gaped.

”What..the..fuck?“

The exasperated question meandered through the destroyed space as you stood staring at the mess. Your kitchen was in ruins. Flour and sugar coated your counters, used mixing bowls were strewn across every flat surface, and there was another pile of dishes in your sink. Eyes flitting around the room, you verified that you hadn't somehow broken into a neighbor's place.

As far as you knew, your place had been comfortably disheveled this morning. Chaotic but organized. What on earth had happened when you were at work? Had the pilsbury dough boy been murdered in your home?

Rage tangling with the confusion in your chest, you stalked towards the mess, swiping a finger through the residue on your countertops. Before you could decide whether to laugh or cry at your own misfortune, the door opened, making you jump.

Down the hallway, bearing a bashful smile, was Matt.

”I am so sorry, sweetheart. I lost track of time.” Pacing over to you, Matt extended his arms, letting you fall against him. The paper bag in his left hand crinkled as he tightened the embrace. ”I will clean all of this up, I promise.“

”Um, what..what are you doing here?“ You settled on a less frustrated question, knowing Matt's explanation would probably wash your anger away.

”I was hoping to have a snack ready for you when you got home. You've been having such a tough few weeks, I wanted to do something for you. So I called your mom for that pumpkin cake recipe you like so much.“ One hand kneading your back, Matt unwrapped the parcel with his other hand. ”But your nutmeg was expired and I wanted it to be perfect so I--“

”You're making a pumpkin roll?“ You asked in surprise, your vision blurring with tears as your emotions overwhelmed you.

”I was trying!“ Matt chuckled, planting a kiss on the top of your head. ”I'm so sorry about the mess. I didn't mean to stress you out.“

”You didn't.“ You sniffled, tears falling in earnest now. ”I mean, maybe at first, but I don't care about the dishes now. You're just...“

Reluctantly allowing Matt to step away from you, your eyes fluttered shut as he brushed the damp trails from your cheeks with his fingertips. ”I'm just what?“ Matt smirked, clearly holding back an affectionate laugh.

Diving back into his chest, you nuzzled his shoulder with a sigh. ”Perfect, Matt. You're perfect. I love you.”

“I love you too, sweetheart. Why don't you go turn something on the TV while I finish in the kitchen?”

Nearly groaning at how heavenly Matt's suggestion sounded, you pecked his lips before pulling away. “Sit with me once it's in the oven?”

“Of course, love.” Pressing a final kiss to your forehead, Matt whisked off to finish what he'd started, leaving you to stare after him with a look of gratitude.

[aliveinacoffin]

Miguel O'Hara fluff

A spider-reader has the fattest crush on Miguels fat ass.

And maybe he does too.

Have a crush on your ass, not his.

Also more than likely ooc but we both know if you're here you don't mind. (I'm so sorry)

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"I do not!" You huffed out, throwing your arms up.

"Oh come on, literally everyone here has noticed your thing for Miguel." Jess laughed, setting her hip on the table while she looked through her watch.

"Even if I do, he one hundred percent doesn't feel the same." You sighed, setting your feet down from the metal table. Your spider eyes wide and to the sky, your mask hid the deep frown you had.

Jess looked up to you, and even though she couldn't see your face, she could tell that you were upset. You didn't bounce back to your usual positivity and silliness, instead replaced by silence.

"I didn't mean anything by it, I'm just teasing you." She rubbed your shoulder affectionately.

"I know, thanks mom." You brushed her hand away, chuckling airily. Getting up you leaned over the table to oversee all the science-y papers that had accrued.

"On the tone of mom...."

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"It's so cute! Jess is really excited to have a baby. I just wished she hadn't told me her and her husband have been trying for awhile." You said.

"Good for her! I'll have to ask her more about it later." Sun spider, or Charlotte as you've come to know her, said. She already had been jotting everything down in her notebook for the Spider-Weekly, a weekly magazine made for the spiders in the verse, by the other spiders.

It wouldn't make front page, maybe somewhere in the drama section.

"Yeah, she's really excited to be a mom." You had your back turned, your attention focused solely on following the recipe to make more web. You didn't notice the door open to the private lab, or Sun-Spider panicking to do something 'important.'

"Whose excited to be a mother?" A deep voice growled out, commanding in the way the question was asked.

"Jess! Haven't you-" You turned around, the smirk you wore dropped when you saw him.

Miguel.

Miguel O'Hara, or Spiderman 2099 stood towering over you, serious face and a deadly look in his eyes.

He was always so deadpanned, Miguel always wanted spiders to focus on missions and missions only. He never liked gossip, and any time you came in to spill the tea, he did everything in his power to ignore you. Which is why recently you had to go to new avenues, like Sun-spider. It wasn't like she wasn't your friend, you two just weren't that close.

"Uhhh, Jeeeeess???" You winced out. You weren't really I'm the mood to get scolded at, especially not with company. But leaning over, you saw that Sun had abandoned you.

Miguel's eyebrows went up a fraction, such a fast and small movement that if you hadn't been staring at him you wouldn't have noticed.

"I wasn't aware of that." He simply stated, looking over to see what you were doing. He called out your name, quickly taking the vials you were holding.

"Hey! I was working on that." You leaned over to see what he was doing, encroaching on his personal space, his weird hologram suit fizzing gently against your felt one.

"Well, you were doing it wrong, mensa." Miguel said, annoyed. So annoyed that he had to help you doing such a simple task.

"Hey! I may be a no sabo kid, but I know what that means, pendejo." You huffed out, you watched him quickly mix together a variety of liquids and chemicals. Quickly transferring and stirring each step of the way.

"Of course you'd know all the curse words." His brown eyes met yours, a bored look on his face.

"I do not! I know like, simple shit. Yo comprendo un pocito tambíen, cara de caca." You cackled, turning around to hang up your lab coat.

You missed the way he hung his head and smiled, holding back a silent chuckle.

"¿Sí? Veo que eres bilingüe." Miguel straighted his hunched over form, looking to you over his shoulder.

You stared at him, slowly piecing together what he said. "Hey kiss my ass!" You threw a random manilla folder at him.

He caught it before anything could spill out, surprisingly fast for a man with no spidey senses.

"I'd rather not."

You rolled your eyes at his serious response, and came over back to the table. "Thanks! Though, could've totally done this myself." You shrugged, putting out an overconfident personality.

"Yeah, that's why it wasn't on the verge of exploding. How you managed that is beyond me." Miguel shook his head, rolling his eyes. Watching you refil your web slinger.

Silence filled the room while you completed the simple task, the air tense.

"You haven't come to me in a while. I thought you went AWOL." He said, simple words you were waiting for him to utter.

"W-well. I've been turning in my reports on time. Just as long and descriptive as always." You shrugged, not meeting his intense gaze.

"That's not what I meant."

He meant the fact that you hadn't come to his office to complain the the printer wasn't working, or that the morning was horrid as always, or the drama in the office.

The truth? You started to look forward to speaking to him, seeking it to quell the loneliness that was left after the butterflies. You started to avoid the feeling of your fave heating and the speed of your heart, knowing that the stoic man would literally never feel the same.

"I just-got...busy?" It was more of a question than a statement, unsure of your answer.

"How? You've done nothing but prance around as usual."

Okay, um wow, ick.

Just kidding, his ass was too fat to get the ice.

"Hey! I'm a busy spider person! I have many, spider things to do." You were waving your hands around. You turned on your heel, going to walk out before a strong hand literally covered your shoulder.

"Wait, did I....do something?" Miguels voice drastically changed, stern to soft in seconds. His eyes were searching yours too.

"I-no, it's just. I don't know man, I'm sorry." You admitted, eyes looking down while you played with your hands.

"If-if I did something, you should come to me to fix it, as your superior you should always report to me." Miguel said, sliding his hand off your shoulder, and his usual face of stoicism came sliding back on.

That as well, Miguel was technically your boss, the man you scouted you out and now that you work under.

"I know. That...this doesn't have to do with that."

"Then what-what is impending your work." He was stretching, you knew that, but you couldn't just tell him, hey I'm totally in love with you but I know you don't feel the same so that's why I'm avoiding you!

Things don't work that way.

"Nothing it's just...it's nothing really, it's fine." You turn back around, missing the way Miguel reached out to stop you.

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A ding made Miguel O'Hara look up from the feed he was watching. He turned behind him, looking at the new report that just came in. It was from you.

Miguel filed it away from later.

He had once complained to you how long they were, and how he didn't need to know every detail. You made a point after that to make them even longer and lengthier.

He would never, never admit it out loud, but he liked to read them just before bed. He loved your writing, how he could just step in and be there, like he was there with you, fighting alongside you.

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"Miguel?" Your voice was unsure, timid. You couldn't see the platform he was usually brooding on, and you stepped out to try and find him.

Your face dropped to an annoyed when you saw him slowly descending from his throne.

"When are you gonna make that thing faster?" You called out.

"I do it so it so my work isn't disturbed further." Miguel said pointedly. You climbed up the platform when it got close enough, pushing away the floating screens from your face.

"I brought you lunch! I didn't see you at the cafeteria so..." You shook the box, and put it down on his desk.

The awkward silence hung on the air again, before you couldn't bear it, but the beating of your heart made you falter.

The sight of Miguels' handsome face and built body made your heart pound and stomach twist.

You mentally slapped your face before you took a deep breath in.

"So did you hear about plush spider-man and Toy Spiderman?"

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"You should return to your universe." Miguel had waited until the two of settled in silence to say something. Usually, you ranted for awhile before you were called into a mission.

But this time, nothing pulled either of you away. And Miguel listened while you talked, it was mostly you anyway. At first when you started to bug the older man, you didn't know if he was listening or not, but you saw how his ears perked up and how he'd subtly remind you of details of stories that you'd told.

"Woowwww, you're kicking me out? I'm not that annoying, am I?' You looked up at him from where you were hanging, a fake hurt look coming to your face.

"You are, and you should leave." He didn't even look back to you, only reading some article or report.

"Miggyyyyy." You called out for him. He hated it when you used that nickname, but you loved watching him shake his head.

You wrapped your arms around his neck, and watched what he was doing with your head on his shoulder. A massive shit eating grin decorated your face as he tensed and glared at you. You ignored your racing heart and hot face just to see the look on his.

He didn't push you off there, merely pausing for a moment before resuming his work. "You know I hate that nickname, it's annoying and unprofessional."

"Unprofessional? Because we're all a super serious business, a super legit business too." You laughed.

Miguel rolled his eyes, they constantly flick from your face to his work.

"Whatcha doiiinn." You rested your chin on his head, quickly getting bored.

"Working. Like you should be doing." He said, exasperated.

You made a fart sound, "Working is for nerds, me? I'm a cool guy." You walked away from him, getting ready to jump off the platform before you looked back at him. Shocked to see he was staring at you.

There was silence, again. Something so unusual for you two, for you.

"Yeah?" You asked, timid.

"Theres...." Miguel stood up, turning to you fully. "Lunch, tomorrow. Would you...like to go out for lunch tomorrow? There's a special going on at some place downtown, and I thought it'd be something that you'd enjoy."

You blinked owlisly at him, this was so...out of character for him. And he seemed apprehension, like every word he said was like pulling teeth. His fave seemed more red, his skin making it more apparent since he already had a reddish undertone.

"I-I'd love to! I mean," You cleared your throat, and stood up straight, putting on a serious persona, "Yeah sure its whatever." You snifged, wiping your nose to try and look cool.

Miguel gave you a blank stare, but unlitmatly rolling his eyes to let out a chuckle. The sight was something to behold, especially from your serious leader.

"I'll see you tomorrow! And I expect you to be wearing people clothes, since we'll be going out as people!" You laughed, jumping down and running from the platform.

Miguel just let out a fond sigh as he watched you leave. And he turned around to Lyla giving him a smug look.

He scowled, "I don't want a word from you."

She mimicked zipping her lips closed, smirking.

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[ikemenomegas]

Megumi is not good at cooking. Not the way that Tsumiki is. He remembers how she used to stretch their meager meals. To this day, he cannot perfectly recreate the warm kakitamajiru she'd made, powdered ginger, thin sliced scallion, white pepper. But she always could. She tells him there's no secret ingredient, but there has to be, if only that it's his sister's hands which made it.

That is not to say he cannot cook. He's good at following recipes. Gojo's more than once ruffled his hair in the morning, thanking him for the leftovers in the fridge (and despite his denial Gojo-san is picky). But it's never the same.

At first, you'd thought it was some weird, chauvinistic holdover and had been fully prepared to absolutely tear into Gojo about it. Megumi's a bit embarrassed about that (one of the few almost-fights he'd witnessed between the two of you), but he exhales softly as you wrap an arm around his shoulders, patting his hair as he leans against you in the kitchen.

You now think that it's funny, but it's also cute because when Megumi really wants to eat something that tastes better than mine, he'll do literally everything up to and including prep, and also dishes after.

He's young with time to learn, but it's considerate while also being sad. You do appreciate it, but before you all moved to campus, Megumi kept his own room tidy, made plenty of his own meals, avoided asking to do any kind of extracurricular which could cost you and Gojo either time or money. It was difficult to teach him to be a child and you'd never quite managed it with either Megumi or Tsumiki - both of them resistant to being taken care of, both of them too early acquainted with the reality that some people read care and saw burden.

Megumi leans against your shoulder as you stroke his hair, fluffy soft, a smile on your lips as you wait for a couple tomatoes to blanch.

You don't tell him he didn't have. You grin, remembering the adorable little growl he'd made last time. It's good to see him being a bit of a brat, comfortable with it.

"Thanks," you say instead, and he leans heavier for a second before standing straight, freeing your arm to dish out the tomatoes into a bowl. He even takes them to the sink, peeling the loosened skin, the mealy inner portion getting under his nails.

You are so grateful that Megumi has already sliced up the onions and put them in water just how you like them.

You're slicing the tomatoes into wedges, Megumi standing back at your shoulder like him watching you do this for the seventh time will finally give him the answer, when you start talking.

"You know, my mom used to make this for me. They've got a garden." Lots of people in the countryside have gardens. "And we got tons of tomatoes every year. And it doesn't matter how many times I make it. I think hers will always be better."

Megumi looks from your hands to your face and then slowly back again as you scrape the cut half up onto the flat of the knife and into a bowl and then start on a new one.

"She says the same thing about her parents' food," you smile. "Her dad's gyoza. She's very sure that filling is better than anything she ever made for us growing up."

The look on your face is so soft it makes Megumi's face warm and something comfortable-uncomfortable wanted-unwanted twist in his stomach.

You nudge him. "Save about a few slices for the salad?"

He nods and gets you another bowl to set the sliced tomato aside.

You set about putting together the rest of the meal while he trails behind. Blanching thinly sliced beef, pointing out what needed to be mixed for a gingery vinaigrette, stir frying tomatoes, eggs, onions, chicken, lotus roots, napa, noodles...

He mumbles an apology when his stomach growls as he's setting out two places. It's an awful lot of food for a night when Gojo-san isn't coming around, maybe he just had big eyes when he was pulling everything out.

You just laugh. "It's almost done. You can start, don't wait."

But he does, carrying plates from the counter to the table for you and giving you such a puppyish stare when you don't sit down fast enough it makes you abandon wiping down a spot of flour to pull off your apron an sit across from him.

"itadakimasu," he murmurs, politely pressing his palms together as you do the same.

He closes his eyes a little longer than necessary to savor.

"Yours still tastes better."

If you could reach him, you're pretty sure you'd be happily making his hair even more of a mess than it already is right now. There's a secret, complicated look on your face, although he's sure it's mostly happy. And in the end you just say,

"Thanks, Megumi."

"Mm," he replies, holding out his bowl as you offer him another spoonful of noodles.

[twinklelilstarkey]

Tutor: Long Overdue

Words: 3k+ Type: Some angst, but fluff Summary: The days after the argument. Warnings: Rafe is the softest boyfriend in the world. Y/N has some problems with overthinking and anxiety here. Mentions of alcohol. Mentions of narcissist friends. A filler chapter for you to take a breath in the middle of the angst.

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You wish you could say that everything went by smoothly after that conversation. But you would be lying if you said so.

When you got out of that car, your hands were visibly shaking. It was out of your control. It was a mix of all your emotions just building up inside you and wanting to come out all at once. It was the frustration, the anger, the disappointment, and the sadness. You hated every single second of that conversation. How helpless you felt at times. The way your supposed friends looked at you as you spoke. It was as if you had gone insane.

Thankfully, when inside the house, Wheezie had run upstairs for a quick shower before your tutoring class, or else she would’ve seen you cry your eyes out in front of her brother. You felt weak for doing so, but you still did it. You cried the entire time you told Rafe everything about what had happened. You noticed how he had no idea what to say or what to do for you, other than give you comfort. And you let him do it, as that felt like what you needed too.

When Wheezie had come back downstairs with her things - since she wanted to study outside this time - you had already wiped your tears clean and didn’t feel like you would cry at every sentence that left your lips. To your luck, your eyes didn’t appear too puffy when she laid her eyes on you, which spared you from many questions.

By the time you were helping her study, Rafe still kept a close eye on you. He would never disappear from your view for too long, always either sitting on his phone on the porch or coming out to the table near the pool, where the two of you were. He made you and Wheezie laugh from time to time.

It lifted your mood ever so slightly, but deep down you still were filled with worry and hurt. How far could this go? Could the girls go further than this? Maybe by telling other people, or simply talking to their other friends about this. Was there a possibility this could get to your parents before you even had the chance of finishing high school as you had planned?

All these questions, they made worry bubble in your blood at the most random of times during that afternoon. By the end of it, Ward and Rose eventually came home. Rafe was by the island of the kitchen when Rose stepped out of the kitchen to get you your monthly paycheck, and Sarah Cameron stood in that kitchen for a single second, and the first thing she said to you was: “Are you okay? You look… down.”

If that did anything to you was to force yourself to put on a better act. You were just about to go home as Ward had asked for Rafe to drive you. You didn’t want your parents to see you and ask the same things. It would be harder to lie to them than to Sarah.

You two sat in the car in silence for a bit, and you could feel Rafe’s eyes on you. Silence only gave you the excuse to want to cry more, even when you still felt ridiculous for it. You tried to hold it back, but whenever a tear would slip, Rafe was there. He calmed you down and held your hand or sometimes said something that would make your heart hurt less.

At home, you forced yourself to make conversation with your parents - knowing that if you didn’t, they would’ve followed you to your room to find a reason behind your silence. All of it was forced and unnatural small talk, but your parents didn’t seem to notice. Your mom was too focused on making a new recipe for dinner, and your dad was too focused on his reading to look up from the book in his hands.

The rest of the day wasn’t any easier. Rafe asked if you wanted to come over, but you know that it wouldn’t make anything easy. It would simply make your feelings go temporarily numb. You didn’t need that. You needed to just face it for what it is: a stupid confrontation that you saw coming from a mile away because it had to happen eventually. It just came sooner than you expected.

Sleep didn’t come easy either. By the time you finally fell asleep, there weren’t many hours of rest before having to get up for class. You hid whatever hints of your exhaustion with make-up, as well as put on a happier expression just so you could make your way through the house and to school without any questions coming from your parents.

Breakfast was uneventful, just like dinner the day before. And your dad drove you to school just as you had planned beforehand.

In class, if you were used to the girls' looks before, this day had been another level of staring. And given the fact that you share every class with each of them, your sadness and worry quickly turned into anger by lunch hour. They didn’t try to speak to you or even ambush you all at once again. They just sat there at their little tables watching you as if you were some experiment about to go wrong.

Kristy wasn’t in school. She missed every single one of her classes. And all that made you think was how thankful you were for the lack of her staring too.

By the time you were done with classes for the day and inside Rafe’s car, you were still in your depressing bubble but more annoyed than anything else. And that is when a call from Patty came in. There was going to be a party tonight.

You're not ashamed to admit you didn’t even think twice before answering her. You wanted to go to that party. And you did.

Not that you remember much from it now that you lay on Rafe’s bed, silently contemplating your life choices, but you like to think that you had fun.

You remember how you got to the party with Rafe, and quickly found Patty, who made sure to give you as many drinks as you wished to have.

Rafe stepped away to find Topper and Kelce only after he made sure that Patty was going to actually stay by your side the whole night and entertain you enough.

You drank cup after cup of different concoctions made by Patty herself. Some were actually good, others… she just told you to drink it all in one gulp.

You were able to disconnect from reality while sitting in that kitchen with her, drinking and listening to her talk you through the process of making another drink. You two talked for a long time, or at least for enough time until the both of you weren’t exactly speaking in obvious and comprehensible sentences but in slurred words filled with giggles.

And you remember that you went off to find Rafe at some point. You remember that he was very much sober at that time. You remember flashes of sitting on that couch with him and his friends. Patty would eventually join you on the couch and start a conversation that would make a lot more sense than any of the guys' around the table. You also remember that it was way funnier at the time than now.

Also, at one point into the night, you decided that playing, or better, patting Rafe’s buzzed head was the best idea you could ever have. Your drunk mind must have been blown to realize how weird it felt to touch his short hair and feel it prickle your palm. Rafe didn’t seem to mind it too much - even though he must have told you to stop at one point because you remember being dramatically hurt by something he said to you.

Maybe you had exaggerated by deciding to numb your thoughts with alcohol when you know that hanging out with these people would simply do the job. You didn’t need to get that drunk. But you still felt like it was the best time to do it, as well as with the best people.

Hanging out with people like Patty and Topper is nice. They were never your type of crowd, but even when drunk or high, last night, they did listen to you when you talked about what happened. It happened when some of you decided to step outside for some air, while others, like Rafe, decided to stay back. You told them everything, and they listened. And they also offered to help, in any way possible.

That memory alone made your heart squeeze in your chest. Maybe, yes, this is how real friends are supposed to be if they are able to. But it still felt good when they told you that if you ever needed to run away from life’s problems for a bit, they would be there for you, along with Rafe.

And to think that conversations like these resulted only from you choosing to date someone with a bad reputation. 

Since the beginning, you had a feeling that you would need to talk to someone about it - you and Rafe. Simply to let them know before they find out from someone else, and everything turns shitty. And, now, all you can do is acknowledge that you missed your opportunity and everything is indeed shitty. 

Your friends found out before you could even warm the waters with some information or subtle hints first. Maybe you could've told them about all the times Rafe hadn’t been like the awful cookie-cutter shape they all seem to find him fitting in at all times. You could’ve told them about how he is not bad and how he is indeed good. But you missed the opportunity to do so. You let them find out by themselves, and now they think you are in bed with a psychopath only for the thrill of it. Not with your boyfriend, who has never done a bad thing to you and is always putting you first.

Yet, even in the ocean of guilt, you can’t help but feel the anger that has begun to rise by itself. Yes, you had missed your opportunity, but your friends had also failed. They failed to speak to you in a civilized way. Failed to be there for you as they believed you were in a manipulating and abusive relationship. Failed to understand you. And failed at being your friends at the end of the day. They didn’t seem to care about your feelings that day, and they didn’t seem to care about anything but their fury toward you this week. They failed, even if you did so too.

And, as much as you hate it, there is still fear inside you. It has been pushed deep into you, hiding in a corner of your brain, stored away with other worries on top of it so it isn’t noticed by you any time soon. And that fear has a shape and name. Your parents. Because if your friends had their suspicions and found the truth, where does that put your parents?

They are a pair that believes in every word from the neighbors, as well as any word on the streets. If someone were to whisper about Rafe murdering a crocodile in the middle of the street, they would believe it - even when there aren’t any crocodiles near any roads in the OBX. They would believe it, every word of it. Maybe make theories of their own too. Imagine Rafe as this cartoonish supervillain, now wearing the skin of his victims as new shoes. It is ridiculous but absolutely believable to them.

How would they react? What would they do to you? You are of age, but still a student and living under their roof. What would they even think of you?

“Scoot over, you’re taking up the whole damn bed,” Rafe says while standing beside his bed.

You snap out of your horrible thoughts - with your mind still trying to envelop your heart with its dark and painful realities - and throw the pillow closest to you at him, hitting him in the chest. He doesn’t respond. He throws the pillow away and makes you move with a hand on your shoulder and another on your leg, pushing you further into the bed.

The coldness of the sheets under you make your body react in an uncomfortable wave of shivers, and you turn to face Rafe, who is lying on his back beside you now. On the bedside beside him, you can see that it is still early in the morning, meaning you still have a few hours before being dropped off at your house and then at school. And also, everyone in Rafe’s home is still very much asleep.

“Looking at the time won’t make it go by faster,” Rafe says, making you look at him.

“I want it to go slower, not faster.”

Rafe meets your gaze, and he holds it for a bit. A slight bit of a headache hits you right in the temple, and you try not to react by snuggling closer to the pillow under your head. Seems like you were never truly someone blessed with no headaches while hungover, just lucky on that one time.

“What’s wrong?”

“Headache.” You groan into the pillow, closing your eyes to escape his gaze for only a bit.

It takes a few seconds before he talks again.

“What else?” His tone is soft and worrisome. When hearing his question, you don’t move; not even an inch. You just lay there for a bit, listening to your own heartbeat with your ear buried in the pillow. You let some heartbeats go by in your silence, but Rafe waits for you. Never pushes you. He just waits.

“I’m… worried, I think.” You whisper so softly, you almost don’t hear yourself.

“About your friends?”

“That too,” You open your eyes as you talk, “But more about my parents.”

“Why?”

“They’re strict. Very strict,” You explain, even though you know that Rafe already knows that, or else he hadn’t been climbing your window and whispering in your room for months. “They always reacted badly to dating. And they never liked you or your family.”

“Many don’t,” he says with a small curve on his lips.

“It’s different,” you try to explain in as few words as you can, “They’re worse than Kristy or any of the girls would be.”

Rafe simply looks at you, silent. You look at him and let out a breath. 

“I don’t know what they’re going to do when they find out...” You tell him, sincerely. “I just want it all to be after graduation.”

He still doesn’t say anything, so, he simply lets you talk.

“I think that’s what I’m so scared of… The fact that I don’t know what to expect from their reaction.” You sigh, “And that is why I wanted it to be later. So I can- I don’t know, run away before they get to do anything.”

“What’s the worst thing they can do?”

“I’m not sure…” You whisper, your eyes meeting his again. “Kick me out, probably. Never speak to me again,” You try to say it with a positive tone, one that doesn’t seem to consider those options to be true, when, in reality, nothing ever felt more possible than this.

Rafe makes a face that doesn’t seem like he’s convinced.

“I can’t be that bad.” And that earns him a smack.

Rafe’s laughter fills the room, and a small involuntary smile appears on your lips.

“Be serious,” You tell him, turning around to lay on your stomach and prop yourself up on your elbows. You groan with the slight headache pounding on your head, and Rafe’s hand soon lays over your head, trying to soothe the pain away.

“I’m sorry,” He says.

“I’ll think about it,” You say while meeting his eyes. Some sort of humor comes out with your words, and Rafe notices it. He grins and simply looks at you for a moment.

You two stay quiet for a little longer before you start letting more words out, explaining your worries to Rafe while he simply listens. He just lays there and nods, giving you his utmost attention.

And, as expected, you two talk for so long that time does the opposite of what you want it to. It just speeds past you two, and everyone in the house begins to get up and get ready for the day. 

While listening to the doors opening and closing around the house, as well as some screaming about breakfast from one floor to the other, you two lay in Rafe’s bed in silence. Rafe’s hand is on your pillow, fallen from your hair, and now under your cheek, softly caressing it with his thumb while you lay there, hugging your pillow with your eyes closed.

Rafe stares at you for a bit. There would be no way of you catching him doing it, with your eyes closed and body ready to go back to sleep. You are laying on his bed, lacking clothes, and with only a soft white duvet over your legs all the way up to your waist. Your back is uncovered, and your hair is a mess, but the scenery is perfect. Rafe’s heart tightens at the memory of the tears you’ve spilled in the last few days. He can’t help but feel guilty over it, even when you remind him that he has nothing to feel guilty about. 

You’ve told him time and time again. Whatever has happened has nothing to do with him. It has to do with control. Control that some of these people want to have over you or have had for so long - even when that control was disguised as love and worry of you ever getting hurt. Truthfully, it would’ve been indeed love if they wished to speak to you calmly and got to know Rafe. But your friends never dared to.

And Rafe knows how much you wish your parents to be different. Even when you teared up while saying it just now, Rafe listened as your tone was thick with hope - the hope of your parents to be on your side when all of it comes out. And still, all he can do is be there for you until all this ends, whenever that will be.

Rafe leans over and pulls you closer to him, which you let him with no hesitation. Your head lays over his shoulder, and your arms go around him. Rafe hugs your body close to him and kisses the top of your head, cherishing the small breath you let out as he does it.

“I love you,” you whisper to him, your breath warm against his skin.

Rafe leans his head in closer to yours and kisses your hair. There is no surprise for either of you to say it. No fear of the love not being reciprocated. No fear of rejection because all of it is obvious, even in the midst of all this mess. Those words were long overdue.

“I love you too,” He whispers, making you lean in closer to his warmth.

- - - - - -

*Giggles in 'shit is about to hit the fan but I am making y'all suffer in anticipation'*

[thebearer]

ok but imagine inviting boyfriend Carmy over for dinner at your parents home and your parents being so nervous to cook for him but Carmy loves the food and ends up asking your mom to teach him the family recipe 😭 I just want chef carmyyyy

god he would be a wreck. only because he just assumes all families are insane and hectic like his is... but your isn't????

your mom is so nice, sweet, inviting. she offers him a drink, thanks him for the side dish he brought, something over the top but not obnoxious. he stressed for days about what to bring. wanted something that was impressive but not arrogant.

she asks him all about being a chef, showing that she proudly owned the magazine he was featured in after winning his james beard. "isn't that so funny? i have a subscription to these cooking magazines. i love to cook. i mean, i'm not as good as you are."

"no, no, i-i'm sure you're good. better, really." carmen blushes, anxious and a little overwhelmed. he had prepared himself for anything but this- nice, homely. "i had to go to school for it. you're good all on your own. this is delicious."

you beam because they're getting along so well. it sends your mom into an ego boost of conversation, sure she'll flaunt to all her friends about how your boyfriend, the infamous young chef, said her food was good. "darlene will never be able to say her cannolis are better because this young man right here just said mine are the best!" she's smitten at it really, and carmen is blushing.

they get in the kitchen and it's over, swapping out recipes and secrets. your mom shares with him your favorite meal, which is juvenile at best, so you get a little embarrassed. spaghetti and meatballs, it's so basic, you knew it was, but it was always your favorite.

"but she likes penne noodles, carmen. don't ask me why. i don't know." your mother waves her hand, scribbling down the recipe.

"mom," you groan, cheeks flooding with heat. carmen is more than amused, grinning back at you.

"and don't you dare leave a tomato chunk in that sauce, carmen, or god help you. oh, this child." she points at you, shaking her head, her tone exaggerated and dramatic- just like her. "i tried to do something different with my sauce one time. once. and this one throws a fit!"

"i was like seven, mom." you huff, rolling your eyes.

"yeah, and you threw a fit like a seventeen year old. it was crazy." your mom scoffs playfully. "anyways, i never did it again. never changed the sauce." she slides the index card over to carmen with a grin. "you might need it one day, carmen."

and he did. one day, when you had a bad day, just everything went wrong, on the brink of tears. carmen followed your mom's recipe. it was close to mikey's, a few minor changes like... sugar in the sauce? he wasn't sure, but he'd do it for you. rolled the meatballs out. even bought the penne pasta, even though every atom in his chef body was screaming at him at the abomination of it.

you walked in, smelling the all too familiar aroma on the stove, carmen- having a day off now that business was steady and established- just gave you a small smile.

you wanted to sob, but you didn't. sitting with him instead and letting him fuss over you. he stood, watching you take the first bite excitedly. "good?" he grinned.

you nodded. "better than my mom's. don't you dare tell her i said that." you smiled back.

he beamed. "don't you." he smirks, pressing a finger into your side playfully.

you do tell your mom what he did, and she is beaming. brags on him the next time she sees him, even throwing in a playful, "heard you've outdone me." with a wink.

carmen is a red, blushing mess. "i told you not to say that!"

"it was just a joke, carmy. she's teasing you."

[ghoul-bonez]

~When Feelings Feel Like Too Much~

(Platonic! Jake Sully x Daughter! Reader)

Summary: Depression can be suffocating, and suck you into what feels like a pit nobody can help you out of. Except for your dad. He will always be there for you.

Word count: 2k

Author's note: Literally just a vent story yeehaw? Not very well written I just needed to get shit out and why not turn it into an angsty fanfic for others to enjoy???

Warnings: Suicidal thoughts, self harm, depression

~Masterlist~

When Feelings Feel Like Too Much

Sometimes life feels like it’s too much. Everything is too much.

The sounds of the forest and highcamp that you love so much begin to hurt your ears, and give you a headache. Birds chirping which would usually bring you joy made you feel like your ears were being stabbed by a knife. Every slight noise hurts, making you increasingly more and more irritated.

The light from the sun seemed too bright during the day, and the fires at night burned your eyes. The feeling was unbearable, like you would rather be blind than have to deal with the overwhelming pain the bright lights brought you. You were always squinting, trying to keep the light as low as possible, and your eyes were starting to pay the price, they stung when you would close them.

Smells were sickening, to the point of gagging. Even flowers you used to love the smell of were making you feel sick. It made you sad you couldn’t enjoy them anymore, but it seemed like there was nothing you could do to help.

Your favorite clothes made you itchy. They made you feel like your skin was burning, like you were set on fire. Nothing was comfortable to wear. On top of that any touch from your family felt like burns too. Every hug from Tuk, every gentle touch from Kiri, anytime Lo’ak would smack you jokingly, Neteyam’s pats on the head. It all burned.

Your favorite foods started tasting off. Some foods would taste too spicy, some fruits tasting too sweet, some foods just tasted gross in general. The off taste made you lose your appetite every time, like your mom had somehow messed up the recipe.

Your mom, Neytiri. She was always there for you, she loved you more than anything else, just like the rest of the family. She would do anything for you, sacrifice her own life to save yours. You loved her, but sometimes you couldn’t stand spending time with her. She never did anything wrong, but your mood was just too sour and you didn’t want it to rub off on anyone else.

Your dad was the best of all. You were one of his baby girls, and he would never let you forget that. You were so special, irreplaceable, but you felt replaceable. You didn't feel special, not in any good way at least. You felt special in the fragile way, in an anything could hurt you way.

You felt like you couldn’t share your burden with anyone. Nobody could know. Your brain told you nobody would even care if they knew, although you knew that was just the negative thoughts in your head. As those thoughts nagged you you sunk deeper and deeper into the depths of your emotions.

Most nights after you were supposed to be asleep you would sneak off to have some alone time. Some time to process your emotions, on your own. You couldn’t process them around other people.

When you were overwhelmed, everything about being around people was too much. Even the sound of their breathing would be enough to cause a breakdown.

So you sat in your special place, alone.

It was beautiful, and if you weren’t so upset every time you came maybe you could admire it a bit more. A small pond was hidden in a particularly dense part of the forest, where nobody really went. Little fish swarmed your feet as they dangled in it from where you were sitting.

You didn’t really cry, not anymore. It felt as if you had cried all the tears you had, leaving nothing left besides sorrow and sadness, with no way to express those emotions. No way to release them into the world.

You felt numb, maybe that’s why you couldn’t cry. Maybe numb wasn’t exactly the right word, you felt things, but they were bad, and you couldn’t feel anything good. You were never happy, never excited. Everything good was just numb, not there.

You had tried to get yourself to feel something in many ways, but the only way to feel something was by hurting yourself. By running a knife along your forearms. Even then the feelings were short lived. It was like a high you couldn’t stop chasing.

You wanted to feel excited and happy but nothing would evoke those emotions inside you. You used to be so positive, and every little thing could bring your sour mood up. Now it was different.

You know your parents were trying to help with that, bringing you your favorite fruits, or telling your favorite stories from when you were little. They knew something was wrong and you’d be dumb or in denial if you didn’t realize that.

Since they had noticed you had started becoming a better actress, pretending everything was fine. They couldn't know the extent of your problems. They would be mad, sad, and worst of all disappointed. You didn’t think you could take that disappointment.

Even when you realized your parents noticed you were off, something that you didn’t notice was your dad’s actions. He had been trying so hard to help you, from the sidelines, where he was most comfortable.

He had begun following you around more, watching you to make sure you were okay. He felt weird watching you from a distance, but his fatherly instincts to protect and make sure his kids were okay overpowered the awkwardness.

He had even noticed your habit of sneaking off at night. He brought it up to Neytiri who said she wanted to follow you, but he felt it needed to be him. Tonight he set his plan into action, following behind you as you made your way through the forest. He stayed far enough back that you wouldn’t notice him, slinking through the shadows.

When you arrived at your destination he hid behind a tree, observing you. When you didn’t move, or do anything but stare at your feet in the water for a while he decided to make his move. He needed to figure out what was wrong, what was going on.

Your dad approached you carefully, slowly, like if he made any sudden movements you would scatter away, “What’s wrong baby girl?”

You were startled by his presence, but quickly turned your body away from him as he sat down next to you, “Nothing. I’m fine.”

He sighed, taking a deep breath afterwards, “I can’t help you unless you tell me what’s wrong. All I want to do is help you.”

Tears built at your waterline as you thought about what to tell your dad. You could tell the truth, bring forth all of your emotions and admit you had a problem, a big problem. A problem you couldn’t solve on your own. A problem you desperately wanted help with, but just couldn’t seem to ask.

You breathed in, then out, deciding it was best to tell your dad, “Dad, I hurt.” He can’t help you unless he knows what’s wrong.

Jake was still turned towards you while you faced away from him. He moved slowly, gently placing a hand on your shoulder, trying to be comforting, but it was enough to make the tears start streaming. Finally something to make you cry after feeling like you couldn’t for weeks.

He asked, “Where baby girl?”

You sniffled, exhaustion from your pent up emotions was starting to make you groggy, making your body feel heavy but you picked up your hand, and pointed to your head, “Up here.”

Jake didn’t make you look at him as he spoke to you, your responses were enough for now. It hurt you were hiding your crying from him, but he understood you might need some space.

He continued to be careful with you, using broad questions, “Okay, where on your head.”

You mumbled, “Inside.”

He hummed, “A headache?”

You sighed then, turning to him for the first time where he could see your tears. The sight of the liquid streaming down your face, and your little sniffles and hiccups from crying, hurt him more than anything he had ever experienced before.

He brought you into a hug as you spoke, “No my emotions. They don’t feel good. I never feel happy and I feel like everyone’s eyes are always on me. I’m paranoid that the RDA and Quaritch are always right around the corner. I always feel so overwhelmed. It hurts and the only way I can stop it is by hurting myself.”

Jake took a second to think, forming another open question, “So you’re depressed?”

You shrugged as good as you could in his arms, “I guess…”

He just squeezed you tighter for a second, and for once a hug felt nice, not too overwhelming, “Oh sweetheart, I’m sorry. Can I see where you’re hurting yourself?”

You shook your head quickly, “No. You’re going to tell mom and she’s going to be upset.” Pausing, thinking before you speak, admitting your biggest fear, “You’re going to be upset.”

“I promise I won’t.” He hummed for a second, an internal battle going on. He wanted to be open with you, to let you know you weren’t alone, “Let me tell you something, I’ve felt how you’re feeling right now. All of it. I was depressed when I was on earth, nothing seemed like it was able to help me, and I used unhealthy coping mechanisms. I’m also always paranoid that Quaritch is right around the corner. I have nightmares that he’s gotten you or one of your siblings. So I feel your pain. All of it. I just want to help, so please show me and I can help.”

After hearing all of that, your fathers admission, and that you weren’t alone in this you couldn’t stop the sobs that wracked through your body. They were harsh and strong as you breathed heavily and quickly, almost hyperventilating.

Jake didn’t know what to do, it felt like he was paralyzed all over. So he just held you, trying his best to be comforting as he took deep steady breaths for you to copy as you began to calm down after a few minutes.

“Are you ready to show me?” He asked.

You simply nodded, yes, before baring your wrists to him. They were covered in thin lines, some older and more scabbed over, but more were new and red, still barely crusted over by blood.

Jake’s breath caught in his throat, it felt like it was closing up. He couldn’t bare to see them anymore so he grabbed your hands, flipping them back over and holding them.

“I’m sorry.” Is all he could say. Too many thoughts were going on in his head to say anything else. His mind was jumbled, thoughts scattered around, wound around each other.

You sighed, “Why are you sorry? I should be the one saying sorry.”

Jake shook his head, “You have no reason to say sorry. I’m sorry you didn’t feel comfortable enough to come to me with this.”

You sniffled, trying to hold back more tears that wanted to fall, “I didn’t come to you because I thought you would be mad at me… disappointed.”

He squeezed your hands that were still held in his, “I could never be mad at you for this.”

A small smile tried to rise on your face, “So, you’re not upset with me?”

Jake sighed, thinking, “I wish you would have come to me sooner, but no, I’m not upset.”

“Okay…” Was your simple reply, but it was enough.

Jake couldn’t stop himself from pulling you into another hug. As he held you he muttered, “I love you.”

You let out a content sigh, a smile really coming to your face, “I love you too dad. Thank you.”

Now when feelings feel like too much you can go to your dad. You have someone to lean on, and that seems like enough to start recovering from your deep depression.

You will start recovering. You will feel better.

It will get better.