#i know im posting this again but it has better quality lol

[slutpoppers]

Holydramon and Seraphimon

[girl-named-matty]

Answering 100 ship questions about Ambrollow

Tags: Fluff, relationship stuff, mentions of intimacy (nothing graphic), all characters are above 18+. This is literally me just answering the questions from this post because I like all of them and I also like Ambrollow so I'm going to torture everybody by blabbing about them. And buckle up because this sucker is LONG.

-Who fell first? Who fell harder? Imma have to say Sebastian for both. He fell harder because it took Matty a while to realize that she was in love with him. Her anxiety told her that maybe she'd mess up the friendship if he didn't feel the same way. However, once they're dating she's entirely infatuated with him.

-Who is the one who fusses the most? Does their S/O mind very much? It really depends on what it is. They both kinda fuss about stupid stuff sometimes LOL.

-What's their love language? Matty: Quality time. Sebastian: Physical touch.

-Has either ever gotten a hickey off of each other? What was their reaction? I'm sure it'll happen eventually, however certainly not in school LOL. But there was this one time in seventh year where Sebastian bit her neck because he's a little crap and wanted to be annoying. But he didn't know how much she hated mouths around her neck so she accidentally slapped him so hard it left a handprint. So his cheek was red and she had a bitemark on her neck 😂

-What's something they like to do together? Anything really. Sebastian doesn't care as long as he's with her. Usually Matty want's it to be something enjoyable, but again, she doesn't really care as long as she's with him.

-Who would ask the "would you love me if I were a worm?" question? How would their S/O answer? Sebastian 100% asks it. And Matty tells him yes.

-Who likes forehead kisses? Who likes hand kisses? Who likes neck kisses? Well we already know Matty hates neck kisses. She will flail around if he even tries. 💀 But she LOVESSS forehead and hand kisses. Sebastian likes all three. He doesn't care as long as she's kissing him LOL.

-Who is the big spoon? Who is the little spoon? On average, Matty is usually the little spoon and Sebastian is usually the big spoon. But if he has a hard day at work or something, he's usually the little spoon because Matty want's to cuddle him and make him feel better LOL. -If there wasn't enough seats, how would they sit? One on the other's lap? One on the armrest? One on the floor in front of them? At that point Matty is just flopping on Sebastian no matter what, just to annoy him LOL. Eventually she'd end up situated on his lap but that's AFTER he's like "pls help I cannot breathe."

-Who plays with whose hair? Usually Matty plays with Sebastian's hair. Sebastian LOVES it but he also LOVES to play with hers. However, Matty is partial to that. It feels great, HOWEVER, she has curly hair and it takes forever to style so if he messes up her curls she gets mad.😂

-Who is clingy? Both of them HAHA. However Matty is more "emotionally" clingy and Sebastian is more physically clingy. Sebastian needs physical reassurance while Matty needs more of an emotional reassurance.

-What is something that their S/O does that makes them flustered? For the entire time Sebastian has known Matty, the simplest gesture of her biting her lip when she's concentrated has always gotten him flustered for some reason. In class, he'd look over at her to see her looking at her paper with her bottom lip in between her teeth trying to figure something out and his cheeks would go red. He has know idea why, it just happens.

Matty gets flustered when Sebastian just exists. IM KIDDING, kinda. She's 5'8" by they time she's 18 and so she gets used to being pretty tall. However, Sebastian hits a growth spurt too and he's 6'2", so the mere fact that he's that much taller than her gets her a little flustered whenever he's standing over her.

-What is something they find hot about their S/O? Matty loves Sebastian's hands and forearms. She doesn't know what it is, she just loves his hands. And she thinks his dimples are cute.

Sebastian loves Matty's eyes. He finds them very attractive. Or just her face in general because he just thinks she's hot. Enough said LOL.

-What is something they argue about constantly? Is it a deep-seated issue or small? When they first moved in together, they had a plant named Barnaby in their house. They took turns taking care of it but it eventually died and they argued about whose fault it was. It was on both of them but they still argue about it even when they're old. 😂

-How do they comfort one another when the other is upset? It entirely depends on the situation tbh. But usually Matty is more consistent in the way she comforts Sebastian, usually because Sebastian only gets upset over serious matters, or things that really mean something to him. So usually there's a lot of solid communication, her reassuring him, etc...

There are two main ways Sebastian comforts her. If it's about something serious, he's usually trying to reassure her about things, gentle touches, calming words yk? However if she's upset about something less serious or silly, he's usually trying to crack jokes to make her feel better. Or just doing silly things to distract her from the fact that she's upset lol.

-Who is the better caretaker? Does their S/O like being taken care of? They are both equally good caretakers. Matty stems from the fact that she has lots of cousins or just younger children around her in general, so she grew up taking care of them. She also grew up taking care of the sick in her area. Sebastian is a good caretaker because of how much he had to take care of Anne when she was cursed. Or just in general throughout their childhood. So Seb and Matty take care of each other a lot and they both love it.

-Who steals whose clothes? Does their S/O mind. Because of the obvious size difference, Matty steals Sebastian's clothes more often. He LOVES it though so he doesn't mind.

-They've had a major blowout. How do they handle it? (Assuming that this means an event with massive impact, whatever it may be). Matty and Sebastian have both already dealt with things like this over the time that they've known each other. So they're pretty good at handling it already.

-How good are they at communication? Pretty decent, to be honest. Sometimes it takes a while for them to open up about things but because they were good friends before their relationship, it was much easier to open up. And Matty also becomes and Auror so she understand that doing something without proper communication is basically useless. So she's keen on communicating with her husband.

-Who handles spiders? Who scream's directions in the background? Neither of them are afraid of spiders, so it's actually turned into a competition of who can kill the spider first. 😂

-Who typically tends to initiate intimacy first (this can be a conversation, action, or anything)? They're both really good at it, to be honest. They both start conversations, acts, etc... They love each other and so they have no problem initiating anything most of the time.

-What is something- either character - does not like about the other? Sebastian forgets details about things he's not 100% focused on ALL the time. Matty doesn't hate that about him, however it does get her frustrated since she retains a LOT of the information she's told. So she usually has to remind him about things a lot.

Sebastian does not like the fact that she reminds him so often LOL. He swears he doesn't forget nearly as much as she says he does, but in reality he does. 😂

-Who said I love you first? Platonically? Matty. Romantically? Sebastian.

-Who kissed who first? Technically it was both of their first kiss and it was a mutual thing, however Sebastian technically initiated it because he asked her if he could kiss her.

-Do they have any pet names for each other? Outside of the usual ones? No, not really. Unless you count Matty's name as a nickname in general LOL. There are sometimes where Sebastian will call her by her real name and it feels like a nickname lol

-Who gets jealous more often? How does their S/O deal with that? Sebastian is naturally the more jealous person. He hasn't had much in his life, so when he has something he never wants to let go of--like his literal wife--he gets possessive over that. But it's not in an unhealthy way. He's not weird about it or anything. However he is decently protective over her.

-Who tends to drive on long journeys? Who navigates? Sebastian drives, Matty gives directions. Sebastian can stay awake for longer, hence why he's the designated driver for long drives. And Matty's sense of direction is much better than his LOL.

-Do they trust one another? Are they comfortable discussing their fears with one another? They trusted each other a lot WELL before their relationship ever started. So yes.

-What's an insecurity they hold about their relationship? Sebastian: That he's not a good husband/father to their kids. He hardly remembers his father. And although his father was a good husband to his wife and a good father to seb and anne, Sebastian hardly remembers it. Merlin knows Solomon was a terrible guardian, so he's always afraid that he's not being a good enough husband or a good enough father to his kids. Clearly, that's not the case, but it's a fear he has.

Matty: That she's not doing everything she can in her relationship. Matty is a perfectionist and the type of person to take on others challenges so that they won't. She's stuck in constant loop of thinking she's not doing everything she possibly can for her loved ones or that she's not helping enough. Clearly, that's not the case, but it's a fear she has.

-Describe how the one would cheer up the other after a hard day? If Matty was having a hard day, Sebastian would be really tentative to her, constantly reassuring her since she has a habit of blaming herself when things don't go right. When Sebastian is having a bad day, Matty usually has to ground him through things like physical touch since he's prone to letting everything get to his head. And eventually when he calms down, they have a chat about it. Cuddles are definitely a must for both.

-How would they describe each other? Seb abt Matty: Energetic, outgoing, pretty, loud, kind, empathetic, and a leader. Matty abt Seb: Outgoing, attractive, intelligent, a lil annoying sometimes, empathetic, understanding, and a lil bit of a nerd (but she finds that hot).

-Can they communicate private thoughts whilst in company? If so, how? They've mastered it by the time they are actually married. Quick lean ins to whisper stuff, hand signals. They're like masters of it LOL.

-Which one of them gives "that look" when the other is acting like a fool? Matty 100% gives Sebastian that look HAHA.

-How do they address problems in their relationship? Maturely and forwardly. They don't wait around to talk about it, or beat around the bush. If one of them has an issue with something, they're gonna say it. Being secretive never helped anybody.

-How does each S/O view any exes from former relationships? They both never dated before each other, so there was never any exes. However Seb used to have a small crush on Violet McDowell and Matty likes her. So there's never any hard feelings.

-What is something that would break their hearts? If Matty knew about how insecure Sebastian felt as a husband and father sometimes, her heart would definitely break. She always talks about how lucky she is to have him in her life so if she ever heard that, her heart would shatter.

If Sebastian knew how much Matty belittled herself, even for the smallest of things, his heart would break. He knows she does it a lot, but he doesn't know just how much she does it. In his mind, she's the closest thing to perfect (even though she's not), so if he knew, he'd be sad that she doesn't see herself the way he sees her.

-Who is more likely to avenge their S/O if they were hurt or killed? Both of them, but in different ways.

If it happened while Matty was working as an Auror, she'd definitely use the fact that she has the law on her side. The person would probably get thrown in Azkaban for life. Sebastian-- Well we've seen how he reacts. That person would definitely no longer be alive. 💀

-What would be their ideal evening in? Cuddling and reading to each other. It's soft, intimate, and just the two of them.

-Do they dance? If so, who's better? Matty is 100% the better dancer since she's been dancing ever since she was young. Sebastian SUCKED at dancing when he first tried it, however he's gotten better through the years and you can often find them just waltzing around the kitchen together like a bunch of saps.

-What is a song that reminds you of the OC's relationship? "Like real people do" or "Work song" By Hozier both remind me of them!

-Who sings to the other? Are they any good? Matty grew up in a musical family, so yes she sings quite a bit. To Sebastian and just whenever really.

-Who teases who? What about? They both tease each other but I'd definitely say Sebastian would tease her more often about anything, really.

-Who gets up early? Who stays in bed late? Matty gets up at the freakin' crack of dawn while Sebastian usually sleeps in if he can. This is because he's a night owl and so he's late out of bed. Matty conks out at like nine pm if she can and wakes up at like four HAHA.

-Who's more likely to bring the other coffee or breakfast in bed? Matty, purely because she's just awake first. However if Sebastian wants to do it for her, he's going to make it a priority. He IS going to get up before her and he IS going to make sure she stays asleep till its ready. 😂

-What's the worst thing the other can say to one? Matty: Probably any jokes regarding his parents death. Obviously she would never, but it'd probably be the worst thing she could say. Sebastian: Jokes regarding anything she had to go through while at school. Sometimes they joke about it together, because laughing helps them get through hard times. But if he seriously made any jokes about serious things that happened to her, she'd be really hurt.

-If they were ever in a life or death situation, who risks their life? Both, however Matty is more prone to risking her life all the time simply because of who she is. However Sebastian would gladly die to protect her any day.

-If it ever came down to it, who's turning to the dark side to save the other? Y'all, we already know the answer. It's Sebastian lol.

-If they ever had less than five mins to tell their S/O something before never seeing them again, what would it be? For the both of them, they would tell each other how much they loved each other and how much they are going to miss them. To be strong, and to hold out hope that they will one day reunite.

-Is there a word or gesture that makes either of them melt? Matty: When Sebastian takes the time for her. She's an only child, so she grew up with her parents always taking the time for her, that's how she knew they loved her. And she still keeps that and every time Sebastian goes out of his way to make time for her, that's how she knows he really loves her. Sebastian: When Matty listens. Throughout his childhood after his parents death, Solomon would never listen and he was often ignored. So when Matty listens to him about whatever it may be--his interests, his plans, his feelings, etc... He absolutely melts. It always reminds him of just why he loves her so much.

-Who's the romantic? Both of them, but I'd arguably say Sebastian is a little more romantic than her. She grew up reading romance so although she's a very romantic person, because she grew up reading romance and Sebastian knows that, he goes out of his way to be the romantic one and to make younger matty's dreams come true of being loved so dearly.

-Are there any characters who ship them? Just about their entire friend group 💀

-Who cooks? Who does the dishes? They both help out. They cook together and clean up together. But they usually split it as Matty cooks and Sebastian will clean up after. It's just a system that works for them. Obviously that can change at any time.

-Who eats healthier? Who has the sweet tooth? Matty is not a huge fan of sugar, actually. And because of her job she needs to be in peak physical condition all the time. So she definitely eats healthier. Sebastian is the one with the sweet tooth. He stays healthy since his job requires physical labor too, but he does enjoy sweets more than her.

-What's something that they don't really care for but tolerate because their S/O has interest? Matty: She could hardly care less about the books about the Muggle world that Sebastian reads, only because she grew up thinking she was a muggle for fifteen years. She knows a lot of it. However the muggle world fascinates Sebastian so she tolerates his obsession with it LOL. Sebastian: He does not care for all the boring details that go into Matty's job at all. He thinks the amount of paperwork you have to do as an Auror is atrocious. But since Matty is an auror, he'll tolerate hearing about all of it.

-Who tends to be the level-headed one? Who's feral? It depends. Out in public Matty tends to be the more level-headed one. At home? She can be herself, even if its a feral little gremlin LOL.

-Who reminds the other to wear a coat when it's cold out? Matty definitely reminds Sebastian, especially since she HATES the cold.

-Do they hold hands? Yes, all the time, anywhere and everywhere.

-Is there a spot they tend to kiss or caress habitual? they kith on the lips 🤠

-Are they willing to show PDA? If not, is there a reason? They have no issue showing PDA to each other. But they also only do it in times or places when that's okay.

-How would they describe their S/O in one word? I can't even describe either if them in one word so I have no idea lol.

-How would outside characters describe their relationship? Healthy and long-lasting.

-How would they describe each other in bed? In the simplest way I can put it, they love each other very much and are passionate. That's all you guys get to know HAHA.

-Would they ever answer the above question if it was asked to their face? How would they react? No. They keep their private life private. Now, they might joke about it with close friends but they wouldn't just give graphic details about it.

-Who tends to take the lead in intimate encounters? It depends.

-Have they ever been caught in the act? What would be their reaction if they were? Nope. Because Matty isn't stupid enough to do it places where they might lol, she's made that VERY clear to Sebastian. Its in a room alone or nothing.

-Have they ever done it anywhere questionable? As said above, nope.

-Who is more vocal? Who is more experienced? Neither of them have any experience before each other. Do what you will with that information.

-If they were to go shopping, who holds the bags? Who decides where they go? Matty's not really a shop-y person, and I doubt Sebastian is too. So they'd really only go if they needed to and Sebastian would probably hold the bags and let Matty do everything else since he has no idea what he's doing.

-If they were to go out to dinner, who is paying? Would there even be any discussion? They both have their own source of income and they do their finances together. However Sebastian is always insisting on paying for things. Early on, Matty would fight him on it but at one point she just let it happen.

-If someone were to insult their S/O, how would the other handle it? Matty would be upset, to be honest. She'd tell the person that they have no idea what they're talking about and that they should just shut up and keep their harsh words to themselves. Sebastian would instantly get angry, someone would definitely have to stop him before he did something stupid.

-If someone flirted/showed interest in their S/O, how would the other react? Matty: "That's my husband.... 👁️👁️" She'll leave it at that. The person will get the message. Sebastian: "My wife this," "My wife that," and by the time he's done talking, the person gets the gist that Matty is his wife and they'll leave it alone LOL.

-Who knows the other better? Why is that? I'd say Sebastian knows Matty better purely because she talks more about herself than he talks about himself. She retains more details about him, but she just simply talks more about herself than he talks about himself.

-Who is more likely to bail the other out of jail? Would they give the other sh*t for it? Matty is 100% bailing Sebastian out and yes. He would not hear the end of it.

-Which -if any- other famous ship's vibes do they emulate? I have no idea actually. But for the sake of it Imma say Rapunzel and Flynn lol.

-Are they soulmates? Do they believe in that? Yes.

-What is something that they would never forgive the other for doing/saying. Cheating. It would never happen, but if it did, there would be no forgiveness. They both know their worth and a cheating partner does not deserve them.

-Who has memorized the others medical history? Matty.

-Are they each others first contact in an accident? Yes.

-What tropes could be applied to this relationships? Friends to lovers, idiots in love, *exists* x is obsessed (if u really wanna go that way lol)

-Did they have a meet cute? Or was it a train wreak? They met dueling. Take that as you will LOL.

-Make their relationship a list of AO3 tags. Friends to lovers, idiots in love, chaos, everybody knows they like each other, idiots, mutual pining, happy wife happy life, etc...

-Who gets frustrated more easily? How does the other calm them down? Sebastian definitely gets frustrated more easily. Matty usually waits till he's calmed down a little himself so he's more sensible to go in and calm him down all the way.

-Have they almost lost one another? If so, how does it effect their relationship? They've almost lost each other many times, due to everything that happened in school. And even in their adult life. It makes them grow closer, to be honest. To cherish every moment they have with each other because the other might not always be there.

-Their S/O is tipsy. How do they handle it? Sebastian would have to be really patient with Matty since she can hardly piece anything together when she's drunk (I have a one-shot abt this coming out soon, hopefully). Matty would probably have to pry Sebastian off her if he was drunk. He's very clingy.

-Who gives the best gifts? Who gives the more thoughtful? Who goes for expensive? It depends. Neither of them are material people, so both of them lean more into thoughtful gifts.

-If they ever lost one another in a public place, how do they find each other? Matty would just wait in the same place. She knows Sebastian well enough that if they ever got separated, he is DETERMINED to find her no matter what. 😂

-What's the darkest secret they have ever told one another? They experienced what would be their "darkest secrets" together, so. Nothing to say there, really.

-Would they ever consider marriage? They are married LOL. Engaged at 19 but waited till they were 22/23 to get married so that Matty could have her last name on her Auror certificate. (That was Sebs idea btw, love him <33)

-Would they ever consider starting a family? Yes. They have five kids.

-Who likes kids more? Who can't stand them? Matty likes kids more, naturally because she grew up around them or took care of them when she was growing up. Sebastian likes kids as well, however he has less patience for them than Matty does.

-There's a puddle in one's way. What does their S/O do? Sebastian just picks Matty up bridal-style and carries her over. But there has been occasional silly pushing each other into the puddle occasionally hehe.

-One has hurt their leg on a hike. How does their S/O carry them? Sebastian: Carries Matty bridal style. Matty: also carries Sebastian bridal style (until he gets embarrassed and then he just rides on her back lol). She's stronger than she looks.😉

-Their pet has caused destruction. Who puts the pet in jail? Who defends the pet? Sebastian is unfortunately the bad cop. He knew if it was up to Matty the pet would never be told no LOL. So while he's putting them in "pet jail", Matty is telling him that "they're just a baby" and that they can't do no wrong. LOL.

-Who gives flowers to their S/O. What sort of flowers do they like? They both give flowers to each other! Matty doesn't like the idea of the first time a man gets flowers is at his funeral, so she gets Sebastian flowers quite a bit. She gets him Common Yarrow, as he's always said it reminded him of his home back in Scotland when his mum used to plant them out front. Sebastian knows Matty loves Azaleas, so he gets them for her quite often. And once they move into their home in Godric's Hollow, he plants Azalea bushes for her in the front.

-Who reads the newspaper? Who wants to see the cartoons? Matty: Cartoons Sebastian: Newspaper

-How do they wake their S/O up? Is it difficult to rouse them? Matty isn't a heavy sleeper, and auror camp did NOT help with that. It's really easy to wake her up. Sebastian usually wakes her up with kisses on her cheek or forehead. A gentle way to rouse her and start the day.

Sebastian on the other hand sleeps like a ROCK. It's so hard to wake him up sometimes. Matty will try to wake him up in a sweet way and give him kisses, hugging him, etc... But that only works every so often. So if she really needs him up, she's jumping on the bed till he's awake HAHA.

-Who would burn the world down for who? They'd both do it if they'd have to. But Sebastian would definitely do it first.

-Who gives off "they said no pickles" energy. Matty, honestly. They both kinda do but Sebastian would just get over it. Matty however is gonna make sure he gets what he asked for LOL.

-Make a meme of this ship.

A lil cringey but I love them :)))

Wow if you read all of that, hi!! Thank you so much for reading and I hope you enjoyed! <333

[crazysodomite]

finally gonna answer that asks thingg. long post

3. your favorite piece(s)?

i really, truly fell off since making these 😭😭😭😭 im honestly not even confident i could create something of this quality ever again #felloff

these older portraits also just go to show how much i fell off. lol 😭😭

i like some of my newer art but its nothing to really write home about. my art has become more self-indulgent compared to squeezing the most 'skill' and 'detalization' out of each piece. i think in the end the process makes me happier (?) but i don't the same pride as looking at some of my older art. to be fair i also spend far less time on art compared to spending like 20 hours straight or days on a piece. frankly im not even sure i could replicate my old pipeline anymore and replicate my skill <- because i fell off!

i cope with the fact i fell off by saying 'im just exploring my own unique artistic vision' <- words from a guy who is simply not that good anymore

4. piece you wish got more love?

idkkk i dont really pay attention to numbers. i only really care/look at comments. i want more taur fans to follow me and talk me about taurs.

7. easiest thing for you to draw?

furries and creatures

8. thing you struggle to draw?

human faces.... this is sad because humans can be so diverse and interesting to draw but personally every time i draw a human it just looks incredibly ugly and bad (unless heavily stylized and simplified) and i just don't enjoy it as much as furries animals creatures monsters etc.

11. do you listen to anything while drawing?

yes... for my own detriment. especially when i dissociate i just turn on something in the background to 'help me focus' but idk if it actually helps me focus or just makes the dissociation more comfortable

13. talk about a wip you like!

i cant show you but it's a piece with lace and hornet (hollow knight)... i think i actually have a lot of wips with angels actually but i dont wanaaa show anybody

14. whats your favorite thing about drawing?

i dont know. gets scared. i enjoy feling proud and enjoying the final product. recently i also enjoy just drawing bodies and forms and volume. the process of 'god this looks like dogshit' going to 'i actually like this :)' or 'i love this and im proud of this' (if im lucky) is very enjoyable.

17. what is something youre confident about in your art?

i dont knowwwwwwww.... im gonna say im confident about something and someones gonna just tell me that im actually really bad at it. i think maybe volume and 'ambient occlusion' !?

21. what do you think your artstyle would taste like? I dont knowww.... from what people say it would be gummies or candies. but tbh that's just my more 'cutesy' art. i contain multitudes. some of my art probably tastes like dirt from the ground at a factory.

22. do you have a favorite color palette to work with?

i pretty much use these colors (for some reason i rarely use green or yellow. the circled colors are especially common. looking at my art it's a lot of purple, pink, blue, red, some oranges. idk why i gravitate to purple so much. i guess i just like red and blue a lot and ourple is a nice middle ground

(and this doesnt mean i dont like green or yellow my immediate reaction to drawing a creature is just making it these colors. for some reason)

24. whats a compliment about your art that has always stuck with you?

I always feel guilty that i dont like. save peoples comments to a folder so i can remember them better (maybe i should do this). i have a bad memory so i can hardly recall what people say word-for-word. I think I'm very humbled and happy when people say that my art has been meaningful to them in some way or helped them or even just made them happy or more willing to explore things about themselves. I also enjoy the 'i look like this and this made me happy' on my art ❤. that's definitely a part of why i enjoy drawing bodies so much. seeing a comment like 'this made me cry because i've never seen a body like mine represented before in a positive way' is really sad honestly and i wish the world wasn't so unfair and cruel man.

25. what size canvas/paper do you use?

i usually use a preset in photoshop for A4 or A3 paper. so about 2000-5000px range

30. whats something youre proud of about your artstyle?

i dont knowwwwwwwww... i think recently i like the way i paint bodies and i've been enjoying the orb heads as a stylistic choice even if some may think its ugly and boring. i also enjoy stylizing body hair. i also also want to adopt a more elaborate brushwork style but idont really know how to do thatttt

34. whats something you still like from your old art?

im just gonna talk about my olllld baby art. i love how innocent and cute and sweet it is. like you can really see my soul was not corrupted by evil yet. sighs

[conanssummerchild]

i was just thinking about the look on down from the bridge moments in rick and morty bcs im obsessed with them and i started like way overanalysing shit (as always tee hee) so im posting it here

so like while both are following a really traumatising moment for one character that doesnt feel traumatic for another (morty being absolutely horrified seeing his own bludgeoned dead body, rick unphased, just another day in his life lol. and rick killing the man hes destroyed himself hunting for half his life and realising he doesnt feel any better, while for morty it was just another adventure) but then there's also differences, lets break them down >:)

sorry for the shitty image quality as always lmao

morty's look on down from the bridge moment:

okay so right before it starts the last thing we see is rick being very dismissive of how horrifying this is for morty

im not sure tbh if rick is really aware of how traumatic this is for morty (clueless little man <3) but morty does quite clearly express his horror and rick dismisses it, kinda showing how morty is often pushed to the side and ignored by characters on the show

next we see morty looking down at the corpse with his traumatised look and rick nudges him to get moving, instead of comforting him or smth

again showing that morty is like dismissed and kinda emotionally neglected, especially by rick, but also by other characters

the next bit is just him burying the body, just showing again what it is that has him in this dissociative state

pretty self explanatory

then, and heres where it starts to get interesting, we see morty watching his parents arguing

(sorry, hes not watching them in that specific shot but he does when the angle changes yk)

obviously he's having a Moment about them not being his original parents and how hes in a whole new dimension and no one even knows except him and his emotionally inept grandpa, but also he stands there for a good moment and his parents don't even notice hes there, they just ignore him

after that, we see summer and rick sitting on the sofa, rick watching tv and summer on her phone

morty just stands there and stares at them and summer doesnt even look up (we've already established rick isnt going to) its like hes invisible to the people around him

and then we just get a zoomed in shot of morty's horrified face aaand roll credits

(no picture attatched, sorry, i think we all know what mortys face looks like)

morty is highlighted here, the focus is on him for the audience, we are supposed to see how shaken up this has left morty. no one else is in the shot because no one elses reaction is relevant right now

also i'd like to point out that everything being done by others in mortys lodftb moment is completely mundane, beth and jerry arguing (pretty regular for them) rick just watching tv, normal tv not even interdimensional cable, and summer on her phone. none of this is special or different, this is an average day being ignored for morty, except this time he needs his family more than ever, but still nothing changes

mortys problem portrayed is that ppl dont value him enough or dont pay attention to him. his parents can be emotionally neglectful, he and summer don't have a super close relationship (in later seasons theyre a bit closer), and rick is, well... rick. he pretends not to care about morty, ignores most of what he says, dismisses his feelings, etc.

aaand moving on

rick's look on down from the bridge moment:

this contrasts morty's moment where he is not okay but rick ignores it bcs here morty directly asks if rick is okay and rick lies about it (if u look closely u can see his pants are in fact beginning to catch on fire /j), so morty is chill now bcs he believes him

morty then goes in for a hug (im not attatching an image, im sure you've seen it 100 times) and this is our first sign ricks lying (well i mean. apart from context clues) beacuse usually he would push morty away or complain or be awkward (like in fear no mort lol) or uncomfortable but he just remains completely passive, his expression barely even changes

morty then goes on to ramble excitedly about their epic adventure because rick said hes fine but very quickly mortys voice is drowned out and lodftb begins to play. here morty is blurred out of focus and the camera zooms into rick

okay, so preceding it we have morty asking rick if he's okay, to which he responds yeah (liar 🤨)

this is, again, different from morty's moment because while morty's issue is being ignored, rick is very far from ignored, his issue is that he just like goes through life and the people around him don't realise how much he's hurting. morty isn't seen at all, rick is seen plenty, but he's never understood, not really. does this make sense? idk

anyway, going on, morty keeps contentedly talking in the ship whike rick stares blanky ahead, but when he realises morty expects him to answer, he gives him a nod, since it's whats expected so morty wont think somethings wrong (also the cinematography of the broken ship really adds to the scene i feel.

again, the contrast here is clear, morty is like completely frozen in his scene, and no one notices or cares at all. rick on the other hand contines to go through the motions as he's expected to despite his strong emotional turmoil going on, which we as an audience can see

morty keeps talking as they get back home, but eventually does leave and go idk to bed ig, leaving rick standing in the garage, looking blank and empty

i couldve picked a better picture sorry i just. tell me he doesnt look like the pixar lamp here, im sorry lmao back to serious ok

so next we see him shutting off the power to his rick prime hunting room

this ofc shows its finally over, but the fact that they leave him stanfing in the dark there shows how he doesnt feel better or fufilled like he wished he would

okay, now we get to his family being shown, first up is summer, theyre sitting on the sofa much like in mortys moment, but morty isnt in this one and also summer is not on her phone (unusual) but watching a movie with has popcorn, and she seems happy, she seemingly asks rick to grab some drinks, which he does silently without even complaining (not usual for the whiniest man in the universe lol)

anyway here summer is more cheerful than usual, not just on her phone like she normally always is

next we see the two beths and jerry washing space beths ship, theyre having fun, laughing, messing around and spraying echother with the hose playfully, while rick watches from the window, away from them, actually right when the lyrics playing are "everybody seems so far away from me"

again, this isnt like mortys scene, where everyone is just having an ordinary day and not seeing how everything has changed for him or even looking at him, here everyone seems to be having a lot of fun, without rick, summer and morty both address him directly, but neither realise how Not Okay he is

and lastly we see the whole family at the dinner table, everyone is smiling and chatting amicably, rick is just sitting there still, not even eating. however, he is then addressed and seems to need a moment to zone back in, but when he does he grins and (assumedly?) cracks some kind of joke/says smth that makes everyone laugh (except jerry, who just looks kinda confused this whole scene lmao) and everyone goes back to their meals, rick also taking a bite of his own. however when everyone looks away, his smile drops again and cut to creditssss

the shot doesnt zoom back in on him now like it does for morty in his scene, because the fact that rick is not well has already been established now, instead the angle shows the whole family beacause the point is to show how everyones happy and think he is too because he's putting on His Act, so like the smile fades to show he is not okay but the angle and zoom stays the same to show that it is not seen or like understood to be that way. ykwim?

so here its portrayed that ricks problem is that people dont realise that hes hurting. he comes off as a jerk all the time because of how much suffering he holds inside, how much is going on in his mind (or i mean a lot of the time he just. is a jerk, but this isnt abt that rn), like when bird person tells morty rick is in great pain and morty says "come on bird person, rick isnt that complicated, hes jist a huge asshole" people dont realise it bcs of how much he struggles being vulnerable and talking abt his feelings but my boy is hurtingg :(, so this scene is kinda showing that they assume hes fine but really hes in a lot of emotional turmoil

idk im kinda losing the thread here but i mean i hope this makes at least a little sense, im obsessed with look on down from the bridge :3

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Alright lets see what Ampherus is all about and I hope that's the right name because I just remember something on A and that there's a p somewhere but I am not completely sure.

TLDR after finishing it:

Story: great. I think its well written and the mysteries are interesting.

Budget allocation; 85% cutscenes, 15% dialogue scenes. Honestly the difference in quality is STAGGERING and it is VERY noticable.

The bossfight: fucking awful because its %maxHP def-ignoring AoE damage. No I am not kidding. Let me repeat that: the boss has %maxHP def-ignoring AoE damage! Who the fuck thought that was a good idea?! Honestly good luck because unless you can out-DPS it there is actually NOTHING you can do. (except switch to easy mode. That drops the boss' level to 63. My Jingliu 3-shot it)

Its AmphOrEus. Eh I was close.

Ah if only we could have some characters sitting or leaning on a table. Presentation is a big part of the story after all, and this is a complaint Im brining with me from all of Hoyo's games lately.

What's the point of custom music on the Astral Express if every time I load it the music resets?

This cut???? Pre- and post- cut arent even close!

Was probably because Sunday was blocking the window. The lack of the window made me really confused about where we were even standing.

That forehead touching black screen is WHY YOU USE 3D MODELS SO YOU CAN ACTUALLY ANIMATE IT. Sorry, HI3 actually started using 3D models as 3D models again and now it just feels very lazy when HSR does black screens instead.

Oh my god was that "Some time later" black screen REALLY necessary?

We're right next to the train and nothing happened! Just cut that some time later screen it completely killed the momentum of the cutscene!

Okay I actually took a shower and got some time to think. So far I really like this! We kinda go to a place nobody knows anything about for fuel reasons, but as soon as we arrive mysteries start up. It made me more curious about Amphoreus.

I KNEW IT. I KNEW THE STATUES MOVED.

The budget gap between the cutscene and dialogue is STARK

There's so many missed oppertunities to really show the strength of 3D models and Hoyo has barely been doing it for years now. How does PGR with its VN style of story show their story better than Snowy not even able to toss our baseball bat back to us?

I really like the whole memory of the past thing, makes sense with Remembrance here and clears up the confusion I had earlier, being that I though it was switching from night to day. But actually its present and past. That's cool.

Also Tribbie just poofed into thin air lol.

Wow the low budget "we cant even show Stelle on the Dromas" into a high budget cutscene really caught me off-guard. I know Im repeatedly bringing it up but the difference in quality is staggering.

Wow they sped up the "turning around" animation and it didnt look horrible. Good job. I like. Improvement.

The Furiae Praetor completely ignores taunt. Uuuuuuh okay then sure I guess.

I was just gonna bring up how I like Castorice but Hoyo brought up birds again and just please dont go philosophical with it...

These water physics are fantastic holy shit is this where the budget went??

Wait the upper water physics are worse? Why? Come on! The downstairs water was great!

Ooh Stellaron is here too. I hope they bring back that we can hear the Stellaron, that was really cool when it happened in Belobog.

The intrusive thoughts win again!

I think Im also gonna stop my budget complaints here. Its allthrough around every corner except every 6th corner where theres a high quality cutscene or fantastic water physics.

Ah shit March is here and she just leaked that the universe exists. She lacks critical information!

Our own bath has the good water physics lets go!

Wait a minute, why did the thread tremble? It only trembles at a lie! What part of what I said was a lie about the Stellaron in my body?

Lol you can just leave and the credits roll

Aaaaaand it stuck my game on mute forcing an actual relaunch. What the fuck Hoyo? OH WIAT NVM I just had to manually quit to title and its back.

No, trust me, my Fire TB can tank a star. We wont be having issues with me tanking damage. I just hope that the team is just me and Phainon.

How the hell did this bridge stop anyone from entering? Sure, leaving might be a problem, but I could make that jump down and then just walk up the other end. This bridge just exists to be fancy, not to actually serve as a bridge considering if they just built the lower section slightly higher, a bridge wouldnt be needed at all.

PLeassseeeeee just give me trial charactersssssss

It would be so so so fitting for this partttt.

WE REALLY FIGHT STRIFE WITHOUT TRIAL CHARACTERS COME ON

Did they really have to clarify that Mydeimos is Mydei? They're having way too much fun with this over-the-text clarification.

Its a race against time! We have to warn them and get ready right away! Lets play the normal calm music the city normally has :) that will fit the tone! :D

Imagine a world where we could actually see the TB jump onto the scale...

I like that all our past memories were of the Stellaron Hunters. Definitely feels like we're being set up to work alongside them. And if Hoyo wants to go wild (which they havent been that much lately) they could temporarily make us leave the Astral Express in order to work with the Stellaron Hunters to achive something. That would be really cool but also very wild. It could happen, as long as the writers dont write on shit and make Stelle forget again once I click away the "new path" screen.

Also wow we just got Remembrance just like that? I mean, it was fitting, but its kinda crazy how Belobog is still the best in regards to giving us a new path. Belobog > Amphoreus > Penacony for me. The weapons have REALLY gone downhill tho. The hat was fun but now we just have a pen? Give me a blade or a gun next time, I want to see Stelle with an assault rifle in her hands.

Oh shit Remembrance is a new playable path. I have no light cones!

Well at least I have something new to spend my stamina on! Remembrance stuff!

Oh wow I just looked through TB's and Mem's skills and oh boy I need to build some other tank units because Mem sounds like an insane support for my Jingliu

Oh my god IceTB makes me want to run Jingliu Bronya Mem and Sparkle because oh my god I want to let her go on an absolute rampage

Oh it never hit me that Mem can fucking die until Luocha healed her.

Also Mem is so close to both Meme and Emm I cant what is this help-

...You get a free Victory In a Blink after the section is over. I could've saved some currency...

Okay kinda late on this, but I wish Agy would've actually been ready to kill us if it meant protecting the city. It just, feels overly safe to have her go "yeah I never actually inteded to kill them, it was just to put them under pressure :)" like, Hoyo used to give us playable characters that killed other people. It just feels overly safe, like as to alienate as few people as possible from liking her. I dont think it would change Agy's character much at all, and its not like TB and Dan ever finds out she never meant to kill us, Agy just told Tribbie that little fact. Just, remove that little scene and nothing changes about her - except that it doesnt feel like she was written as safely as they could write her.

Whohooo they gave us Story Agy! Finally! Do they not have Phanion ready yet or what? Please do this more Hoyo it used to be so immersive.

Well they just used the exact same black screen 3 times in a row...

I like the puzzle mechanics but do they really have to put a marker handholding you through how to solve it?

I know I said I wouldnt bring up the budget... but they couldnt even animate Castorice coughing. Just have a visual novel for dialogue moments at this point...

Gnaeus is one of the best characters ngl

The refight with Strife was not made with the IceTB in mind. She keeps getting oneshot during Strife's turns right away due to not having enough HP from relics. Whoopdedoo here comes FireTB again.

Kinda sad that the only way this fight is hard is because it deals % max HP damage that ignores defense while cutting out max HP by 50% constantly.

Like, what the fuck?

...... and the boss attacks before using the %maxHP def-ignoring attacking.

I think its safe to say that this is the worst designed boss in the entire game.

You're telling me that we did all that and it still attacked the big statue guy? Like yeah it couldn't keep beaming it forever, but we couldn't even stop it in time? Cmon now. You cant just make a bullshit boss and then not even let us finish it.

Yeah that was the only boss I ever turned on Easy mode for in any Hoyo game. I am not going to try to figure out a way to beat motherfucking %maxHP def-ignoring damage. If casual mode didnt lower its levels by like 20 so my Jingliu could 3-shot it, I would've just put down the game and concluded my playthrough there.

I hope to fucking god it doesnt have that move in the weekly battle, but I have a feeling it just fucking might.

Suddenly Herta feels... very random. But I cant be too mad since it seems that FINALLY something is happening while we aren't there. Now here's to hoping that they dont blow the fuse too early and Herta comes to Amphoreus, because why the fuck would she?

(deep sigh)

So how does the Astral Express travel? Because I dont know what low on fuel means for it, but I dont think trips back and forth across the cosmos would be good for the fuel situation. If those teleporting points are actually used by them, 1. How the fuck do they work? 2. That is a massive security issue if someone can just warp into anywhere.

Whatever. What is the difference of us being glanced by Aeons and Herta being glanced by Aeons? Because we're getting casually glanced at left and right, but for Herta it could incinerate anyone and anything near her.

Okay its been rubbing me the wrong way for a while now; what the hell is this prophecy? Most prophecies I usually hear in stories is like, this character is destined to be great! or something like this. But this prophecy literally dictates what they do. These chants and rituals include the mention of the prophecy in them, its like the entire world of Amphoreus is dictated by what the prophecy says. Its not like "oh this great boy who came from nothing will rise up and become a god" no, its "the prophecy chose this boy to grow up to become a god" like, what? What the hell is this prophecy?

Its really rubbing me the wrong way.

Hello Elysia Voice Actor.

Whaaaat the hell is happening to March? She's returning to her ice state!

Honestly the most interesting thing about Amphoreus is what is happening to March, but I actually hope that it isnt resolved at Amphoreus because Hoyo DESPERATELY needs some plot points to last longer than in just one section. Like I dont want March to be back on her feet and happy by the end of Amphoreus. I want this to drag out so that we can have some reason to go to the next area other than to just Trailblaze.

[drawcupidsbow]

Hi i made a post on instagram about the top five games i played for the first time this year and thought id share it here! none of these are in any particular order. except the last one. my favorit....

first up is oneshot! it took me wayyyy too long to play this game. oneshot feels kinda like one of the staple rpg maker games, yet i went into it pretty much completely blind, "finished it" in one sitting, found out there was over half the game left, played the rest, and cried real hard. such a good game that breaks the fourth wall in really interesting ways. and also it has niko who doesnt love little fella niko

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second is halope! this is a game i had never heard of before my friend ángel (@raccoonlover333) told me to play it and i feel like i still dont really see people talk about it? it has a very unique style i think and each of the areas have their own atmosphere and feel to them (aside from the fact that all of them have distinct color palettes lol). very lovely game i enjoyed it a lot. also one of the first times i played a game with multiple endings and felt satisfied not going out of my way getting any i missed ? i enjoyed what it had to offer and didnt feel the need to pry for more (good thing)

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hard shift from story based rpgmaker games but next is webfishing. webfishing is good. its so good youve probably heard a lot of people say this by now but its just so fun and calming to sit around with friends and fish for hours. theres something special about the kinds of online games where theres a physical space you share with people, especially those you havent met in person. makes you feel like youre there with them. and also you can get a man i love fishing shirt whats not to love

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o yea baby farming sim. this game is so charming and has a lot of quality of life features that i feel are missed in other farming sims. it is still in early access so i cant be too harsh on it, but i will admit that the characters feel a bit too flat currently. a lot of nothing burger dialogue which isnt always a bad thing but when 20 characters tell you Hey this weather huh? must be good for farming! its hard to differentiate their personalities in your mind lol. im sure thatll be added to in the future though like i said its still ea and only has enough content to last you about a year in game. what it does have is very fun though and i would recommend it

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You knew it was coming be honest. where do i even start. technically i Did play isat for the first time last year, however, it was for like one hour and then i didnt pick it up again for half a year. so it counts to me. and also i take any excuse i can to talk about this game

in stars and time is a game that portrays characters and relationships in such a realistic light to a degree ive never seen in any other game. it makes it so easy to immediately become attached to this group of friends despite knowing them for less than ten minutes. its a very emotion heavy game. and who can forget the time loop Ohhh yes the time loop. siffrins slow decent into hopelessness and anguish after failing to escape time and time again is something rarely shown in time loop media i feel. at least to this degree. madoka magica comes pretty damn close though lol. also looping in time and zoning out through dialogue (and doing so having consequences) is such a cool game mechanic

while im talking about isat im slipping its prequel game in too, start again start again start again a prologue (or just start again). this one, though much shorter and more of a proof of concept, feels much more harrowing in the ways it pulls it off, especially without a certain characters presence. but i wont say more than that as to not spoil it teehee

this game changed my life for the better. and has been causing me psychic damage every day for 8 months. heart ♡

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and thats some of my favorite games i played this year! there were more but not enough for it to be 10 and 5 was a nicer number than like 7 lol. happy new year! i hope this year treats you all well and i cant wait to draw one million fanarts as i have been doing for the past 5 years. Yayyy

[bones-of-a-rabbit]

status of babbit's life yeehaw

tl,dr: busy moving and a couple of other big life things that just complicate things, but well on the way to being back to normal! new fic chapters and better quality art coming soon.

tl,wr (too long, will read):

Helloooo what's up its me, Babbit. or Rabbit. or Bones. or Idiot Moron Menace Child, idk im not picky lol

i know a lot of you guys have been wondering wtf is up with my upload schedule lately and the extreme lack of even basic content and also i am extremely aware that i have not updated my fics in a few millennia and for that i am very, very sorry. this post is to answer a few questions you might have, if anyone was curious about the 'reason' instead of just the 'when.'

my family and i have had a hell of a year, y'all. like, jesus christ, i really hope things level out and calm down for a while once we're moved in to our new apartment bc god damn we are so tired. the list goes: 1. we got kicked out of the house we were renting-to-own bc we wouldn't be able to afford the new rate, so they gave us two months to find a new place to live (not long enough, it turns out) and then foreclosed to get us out. 75% of our belongings were still in the house when we had to leave. that includes all of our christmas ornaments- including the ones kept for decades, and the ones made by me and my siblings, and the fancy ones made from blown glass. 2. the first night out of the house, one of our dogs, freaked out by the strangeness of the situation, panicked and slipped her harness and ran off. that was over a year ago. we haven't seen her since. 3. my cat got very ill and became unable to eat. she passed away almost exactly a year ago. she had been 14-15, and had been my baby since i was maybe 8. 4. one of the tires on my dads car blew out. during the night, while it was parked on the curb so he could put the spare on in the morning, one of the in-tact tires was fucking stolen LMAO 5. we applied to rent at so many places and got rejected so, so many times. it costs money to apply, btw. we're talking like $200+. no, u don't get that money back. 6. i lost my job bc knowing i would have to work 8 hours at a job that stresses me out to the point of exhaustion (at a place where no one takes me seriously and would actively laugh at me when i try to express my need to step away for a minute) sometimes paralyzed me and made me sick to my stomach and made me feel unable to leave the house, and i called out one too many times. a day after my birthday, too! 7. just recently, like within the last week, my dad's car got fuckin totalled!!!!!

THE GOOD NEWS IS WE OFFICIALLY, FINALLY, AFTER A SOLID YEAR, HAVE AN APARTMENT!!!!! I'LL HAVE MY OWN ROOM AGAIN!!! THERE'S AN ENTIRE KITCHEN!!!!!!!

the 'oh god' news is we still have to move in, and replace a lot of the stuff that we just couldn't take with us when we moved out (mostly stuff like bookshelves, dining table, dressers, etc) AND get the few things we could cram into a storage center out and moved into the new place, which isn't a lot but at the same time is more than we can realistically handle on our own. and then, we have to get my mums cats (a pair of kitty sisters that we had to temporarily house with my aunt, who got tired of looking after them and let them outside to be outdoor cats a few months ago. yes, this was an extremely shitty thing to do, and we've been working hard to get them back safely) AND my gecko (who my cousin has been looking after, even tho feeding him worms freaks him out LMAO yes i plan on compensating him) moved in, as well... basically oh my god there is so much to worry about but at the same time it's nice to have to worry about it bc it means we're making progress sdkfhsjdkfhdsjfh

basically i am just so tired but so busy and also thinkin abt so much im so sorry for lack of stuff but i am so looking forward to being able to bounce back, pls stick with me, it'll be sorted out soon i think and then i'll hit y'all with some good stuff i promise!!!!!!!

anyway thank u guys i love u and appreciate u all for sticking around

[beautifulpersonpeach]

BPP, am really really interested to read your thoughts on Seven!

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Ask 2: Hey bpp, can i be honest?? Ive been checked out of the fandom but still keep track of any music releases. So i didnt know abt any rumors abt 7. Imagine me being kind of disappointed that it’s another english song from jk when i watched the mv😅 it feels like his most promoted songs since last year has been all eng song… idk i wanted & expted something diff… i didnt like l&r, dreamers and now 7… it’s back to back lol. Tbf i didnt like My You too and thats in korean. At least not enough to listen!again after the first listen.

Im happy that still with you is finally on spotify tho. I’ll still be waiting excited for his album whenever it comes out. Hopefully ill find something i like in it!!

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[BPP Note: Both asks above were sent before my "I don't like it..." post. The asks posted below were sent afterwards.]

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Ask 3:

Same here

All the hype didn't matched with the song

1. rest members songs had so much depth and substance to it while this was the cliche boy chasing a girl song. Like we always dont need deep songs but the quality could be so much better. This was like just another pop song.

I think I'll put this on same level as BAD DECISIONS. But for bad decisions, atleast the chorus was staying on my mind while for this nothing was catchy enough for us to humm. Just because it's JK it will get hype but otherwise it's so generic. I think I liked LEFT and RIGHT way better than Seven. Even the rap portion felt so unnecessary and boring.

2. MV was kinda nice because of the production but concept was too shallow, the stalking and chasing was so outdated. In my country we have like 9293928843837 MVs in this same concept that not many make the same theme songs again.

3. The choreography. We haven't seen the full version. But for tiktok they do the highlight portions if that's so mediocre idk how rest will be. It was again giving the same mediocre showing off choreography and for me backdancers ruined it with their awkward moves.

4. they wanted this song to be played everywhere around the world. But there was nothing catchy enough to attract gp or go viral on tiktok, even if we sped it up. The only way to make everyone listen is to shove it down their throat but doing payola. But idk if investing in payola is worthy for the song. I also doubt the longietivity, as for me it was boring after 2 listens. I'll rather listen Like Crazy or wildflower or closer 20 times than listening this once.

5. I HOPE he'll bring something fresh to the table for his album and don't involve this mediocre producers who uses the same formula and same superstar persona to make a song successful. He is so much talented to sing a song which is so rich in melody and lyrics. And he can produce way better songs by himself.

Prolly a 4/10 for me

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Ask 4: troye sivan's rush (which also came out last night) is exactly what I wish Seven was. I don't mean that in a 'I expect the things JK to make to be gay' way just in the way it's a fun, very danceable, sexy summer song that doesn't pull its punches. Something about seven feels too run through a commercial sanitizer a few times, even with the explicit lyrics.

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Hi Anon(s),

Jungkook likes to fuck.

Rather, Andrew Watt likes to fuck and thinks Jungkook can relate.

JK has been talking about wanting to show more mature and explicit sides of himself for a good long while now. So I’m glad he’s finally gotten to do that, confirming for us why he keeps getting noise complaints from his neighbours since the mattresses all over his apartment don't help.

BTS has made songs explicitly referring to sex before (though it's been mostly the rapline doing so). So it's nothing new but I guess it's cool JK gets to share with us that he too has sex.

The question I posed to my friends immediately after watching the MV is, “Do you know who's been doing A&R for BigHit since 2020? I really need to know who is doing A&R for BigHit in America because they’ve been doing an appalling job lately. I'm starting to wonder if it's an inside job cause this song is kinda ass.”

That was me ~11 hours ago.

I didn’t like the song.

I’ve streamed Seven about 20 times since then I think, took a break from the song for a few hours, watched his GMA performance, caught a few minutes of the Wlive, then listened to it again just before writing this post and…

I still don’t like it.

Jungkook did a good job on the song, Latto's verse wasn't terrible, and while the song itself isn’t bad… the song isn’t good either.

It’s painfully, and at this point it’s a pattern so I have to add, predictably, mediocre.

Reserving judgement for the album, but Anons, I agree with you for the most part. The suits at BigHit are trying but they are woefully out of touch with the reasons BTS blew up in the West in the first place. I don't even feel like spending any energy doing a review or even trying to explain what I mean. So I'll just ramble on for a bit but try to keep it brief.

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I have to give BigHit some credit because I can see what they're going for here. Andrew Watt is a very celebrated producer in the US, he won the Grammy award for Producer of the Year in 2021, he's got A listers in his portfolio. So, he's not a cheap name to book and I can see why the suits at BigHit thought he's the genius to gift them a song clinically designed for American radio.

But that pandejo phoned it in. There isn't a lick of creativity to be found anywhere in all 3 minutes and five seconds.

It reminds me of VIBE by Jimin and Taeyang, as the closest analog to the vague dissatisfaction morphing into annoyance and then pragmatic rationalization I experienced in that same sequence when listening to it the first few times.

The song is disappointing because we've all heard it before. Too many times, and we're bored of it. We've heard JK sing this sort of song for years, as covers mostly. So on one hand, while I guess it's nice JK gets to have an American summer JB-reject pop tune of his own, it's not good enough to be the track that introduces him to the world as a solo artist.

It's fine for any white, blonde, blue-eyed heartthrob that can ride on a pretty face and implicit bias to rack up accolades, it's not good enough for Jungkook.

And BigHit needs to start using whatever leverage a US$10.6 billion market capitalization buys you in Hollywood, to insist for songs that are at least as good as the songs made by BTS members and produced by their in-house team. It's a waste of money and everybody's time to fly a battalion to LA just to record 2014's summer hit in 2023.

In my opinion.

Still With You > Stay Alive > My Time > Stay > Left & Right > My You > Dreamers > Seven

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All that said, I can't ignore JK has a taste for songs like this, and it's not his fault the song is shit (he didn't write, compose or produce it), so technically he shouldn't be punished for it. And the song is made for radio, while it's not my personal taste a lot of people really like the song (one of my friends likes Seven the most out of all the BTS releases so far), and it will catch on with some support. So, ARMY will support it including me, just to a lesser degree than I've done so far. Fingers crossed JJK1 has something solid on it.

[blkkizzat]

Okayyy so we had otaku gojo, nerd geto, how about a virgin nanami fic x bimbo reader. You two are enemies ever since you interned at the same time. He can't stand the fact that he has to work with someone who exhibits none of the workplace qualities he prides himself on- ur always late and wearing those too short skirts with too tight shirts, absolutely no concept of personal space, and he swears he's seen you come out the bathroom the same time as some of the other male workers, especially that pesky gojo. What he hates the most? You do damn good work, almost better than his. AND THEN THEY FUCK SOMEHOW hdjsks i have so many ideas on how it can go about, stuck in an elevator, having to share a hotel room at a conference, idk idk i just know reader finds out he's a virgin and sinks her claws in hehe. OMG maybe she finds out somehow in private and she makes fun of him by humiliating him infront of everyone (plug!choso war flashbacks) and he snaps and brat tames her 🥵 IDK JUST VIRGIN NANAMI SUPREMACY

Also can i be an anon pleaseeeee (not me going from never interacting because i was afraid to be hated or bother you, to sending an ask now because the topic of virgins came up :3)

Can i be 🍒 anon? (Bc i wanna pop some cherriesssss 😈)

Omg yas! welcome 🍒 nonny! I'm so happy you decided to interact!

I absolutely love that idea of virgin!nanami. I wanted to do one with him but didn't really know what to do as the virgin/nerd!reader x satosugu story kinda took some elements from my orginal nanami idea.

but them being coworkers is absolutely rich with those dynamics you listed! ahhhh im obsessed with it. [sidenote: just wrote down like four paragraphs of notes/dialogue cause the ideas kept coming, omfg bless your beautiful brain]

Will totally be sure to link back to this post and credit ya when I do post it (you getting me more excited for this now then virgin!toji lol)

tysm again pookies welcome!

p.s. i totally yelled out loud at "plug!choso war flashbacks" cause i didn't really realize until i got y'alls reactions hoe much i really put him through it LOL

[cellsshapedlikestars]

ganymedeee im cringing so hard and i have no one to talk to about this so i have to share with you anonymously

unnecessary background info just for context: when i started reading fanfiction over 10 years ago i started on fanfction.net and im never on there anymore because i discovered ao3 which is definitely superior but anyways i for some reason entered a weird depressive state and i guess reverted back into my 16 yo self, stopped reading jonsa (i miss them 🥹) and started reading my first ever ship again, somehow landed on ff.net, remembered i had an account, found it and discovered that i posted stories??!? im pretty sure i wrote them for the same reason that i ended up on ff.net today: because there are in total 3 well written stories for that fandom. i just spent an hour reading comments laughing my ass off at some of them starting with "this is STUPID" and going on to explain the loopholes in the story. yes honey it is. i wrote it when i was 16.

on a tangent - the quality of jonsa fanfiction is actually insanely good. its strange to actually have to go looking for "well written" fanfiction after spending the past 5 years on the jonsa tag where mostly everything has the quality of published novels.

alright sorry for the huge ask! question: have you ever forgotten a piece you wrote and read it like it was written by someone else?

Anon, I adore everything about this except that you entered a depressive state. I'm not sure when that was and if you're still in it, but I hope things get better. I have absolutely been there.

First of all, yes the jonsa fandom is extremely talented. I don't actually read a lot of fic for other fandoms. I get obsessed with one and that's all I care about. I like other ships, and sometimes I'll go try to find fics to read, but I end up getting bored pretty quick. And yeah, sometimes I give up because the quality isn't great

I find your ask so interesting, because I also wrote fanfic as a teenager, but then dropped the hobby for probably over 10 years, until I was in a very bad depressive state (brought on by starting a new birth control lol) and started reading fic again. Went to ao3 because I wasn't satisfied with the ending of GOT, and found the jonsa fandom. Started writing fic for it 8 months later.

And ooooooh boy, I have a whole backlog of fics for my old fandom. A few years ago, I re-posted them from ff.net (in case it died) to ao3, because while a lot of them make me cringe hard enough that I couldn't even read through them again, I checked my ff.net stats and people were still reading them a decade later. And for a very, very small fandom. So I might cringe, but clearly some people were getting enjoyment out of it.

There were a few I did re-read and enjoyed again, because while my writing style might be different now, the ideas were good and some were even decently written. Some were not. Some I wrote in first person POV, which I DESPISE. I also wrote so much smut. Like a lot. Or, I did at first. I absolutely wrote less smut the more confident I became in writing plots/relationship dynamics/character studies. Actually, looking at the account now, it turns out I did not transfer a bunch of my earliest fics because they were just bad smut lmao

As for forgetting a fic/reading it like it was written by someone else? Alas, no. I have a very specific memory, fortunately or unfortunately. I still remember the Sailor Moon fics I wrote when I was eleven, that I never even posted online, I just wrote for myself.

Anon, I have to say I really want to read your cringe fic, but I will not ask you to share it. I know I've never shared my other username on here (though someone from the jonsa fandom did find my stuff because I named the ship outright at one point, and it wasn't hard to find my stuff in the 113 fics for it on ao3 - 24 of which are mine. It was very funny when they commented, and I responded with my ganymede account, so perhaps someone else will come across it in the wild at some point).

And I'm sorry you got critical comments! I was very lucky that my fandom was so small and everyone was SUPER supportive of each other, which I will always appreciate because I absolutely would have given up writing if they'd been mean to me lol

Anyway, TL;DR - I love this. Cringe at your own writing. Love that 16 year old who wrote it.

[celestie0]

hello again ellie 😁😁😁

just saw a vid saying guys like to be given the princess treatment like when theyre standing in front of you or youre standing behind them GRAB those hips and pull them close and theyll be so flustered because they are not used to this treatment. also, taking them out on a date saying something like let’s go im taking you out on a date it’s on me 😈 i just KNOW kickoff gojo would fein after this treatment. he’d be probably be really surprised at first but he would go along with it 100% and would also enjoy it. ihm gojo would probably just think it’s funny cuz reader is usually never that bold. the reader also prob did it just to annoy gojo cuz if he can just kiss her she should be able to do that. l&l reader this kind of thing would come naturally to her i think 🤔 i dont think that kind of thing would happen with around the clock gojo and reader though.

anyways, i also saw this post comparing fanfic word count to actual books. most ya romance books are like 60k-80k!!! isnt that crazy??? kickoff is like 100k while ihm is around 60k i think? so yeah i hope youre proud of yourself ellie ;)) cuz that’s a LOT and all those words are an absolute BEAUTY to consume i would snort it up like coke if i could. also i know i said your writing is always amazing but i hope it doesnt stress you too hard to like please the readers to reach a level of “amazing.” your work feels very sincere and i think that’s what makes it so amazing to read. your level of “not good enough” is probably our level of “ im gonna tattoo this on all crevices of my brain so i can reread it 24/7 👅😈🙏” so yeah we tend to be the greatest critiques of ourselves so i hope you arent judging yourself too hard because a lot of your readers will enjoy your work no matter waht!!

anyways i think kickoff gojo would be the type to cuddle in the morning and reader has classes so she’s trying to pry himself out of his death grip and then kickoff gojo is like pleaseeee just stay for a bit longer dont you lovee meee??? you dont love me anymore :((( he is clingy af 🤣🤣

this was supposed to be a short ask but it got so long lol sorry 🐸 i hope youre doing well and staying safe! have a good day 😏😏😏

interestinggg i feel like kickoff gojo would def enjoy princess treatment but i don’t think kickoff reader would ever give that to him LOL…..or ihm reader to gojo tbh. but l&l reader absolutely would cuz l&l gojo is her bb boy. and you’re absolutely right that wouldnt fly w atc gojo 😂😂idk why but atc gojo is giving me toxic masculinity vibes

awwhh thanks darling you’re so sweet 😭💕 i knowww its crazy that i’ve written so much haha i always think that i am not updating often enough etc but i think about it i’ve published close to like 200k+ words so far within the past year! and i appreciate you :) i’ve been learning to let lose a little w the quality of my work so i can enjoy myself better and i think it’s working!

thanks darling <3 you have a wonderful day as well!

[sukunapleaseeatme]

Uraume SFW alphabet

this is my first post lol ; pls be nice. im incredibly sorry if uraume is sort of OOC in this, i tried to make them as canon as possible. (not Proof read!!)

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

everything depends on how close you and uraume are. their a bit hard to open up, but once you do, their one of the sweetest partners you can have. uraume shows their love through cooking, acts of service and quality time. uraume will cook you the best 5 stars meal. (if not better)

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

we already saw this with sukuna so..

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

uraume would prefer the traditional spoon, they woudnt mind switching between little and big spoon.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

due to uraumes job, uraume is not able to settle down completely because of sukuna. we already know how fire uraumes cooking is

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

uraume would be sympathetic if they have been with you for a long time, they’d be honest and grateful for the times youve spent with them, they’d ask you to chat in private, either blaming their job and not being able to spend enough time, or that it is just too dangerous to be with them.

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

uraume would not mind commitment as in their eyes, commitment does infact not last forever. (because of sukuna) but, if you both cherish eachother DEEPLY, (like more than sukuna) uraume would like to be committed to you, but you will have to bring it up first.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

uraume is very gentle. learning a lot from their job, they are also great at handling emotional situations.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

uraume surprisingly dosent mind hugs as long as its from people they trust, if you want a quick squeeze, run to uraume. they give one of the best hugs. if your shorter than them, they’ll engulf you in their haori and squeeze you a little.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

it would take not too long for uraume, if you say it every day, uraume will start to pick it up and say it back.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

uraume dosent get jealous. its very rare infact, but if they do? they would probably glare at the person or try to make small talk with you to get you out of the situation. again, its very unlikely because uraume trusts you will never go behind their back to do something horrible.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

uraume prefers quick kisses when their on the job, either on the lips or the cheek. but in private? their much more affectionate. their favorite spot is their forehead and their cheeks. but uraume’s kisses are soft and prefers them to be with more love than quick.

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

it depends on how old the children are. uraume has a surprisingly long temper unless it involves their trusted ones in danger (ofc.) uraume will always find a way to de-escelate the situation.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

uraume is a morning person, as they like to wake up early and serve breakfast. they enjoy the morning breeze and sit outside for a while after their work is done.

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

uraume falls asleep pretty quickly. if you want to have a movie night? uraume will cook up the best meals and drinks, but will

probably fall asleep in your arms halfway through the movie.

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

for uraume, youd have to be sukuna for them to open up, unless you genuienly manage to get under their skin. uraume prefers to start slow and at once, not at different times.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

uraume has a shit ton of patience, but that goes away quickly when it comes to threatening.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

uraume will always remember even the smallest detail about you, you had a broken pinky nail when you grew up that NOBODY knows about? uraume suddenly knows.

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

uraume’s favorite moment is when you decide you wanted to cook meals with them, they were secretly extremely flattered, but they probably only had you doing the dishes.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

uraume is always used to protecting, not being protected. they think its loving when you try to protect them from danger, even if its the smallest things like covering them from a pot thats spitting hot oil around.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

they like to take their time to make everything perfect and know that whatever their cooking up, makes you happy.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

uraume is not the best at having time, as their always either in the kitchen, serving sukuna or getting ingredients for their meals. but if you convince sukuna, you might be able to spend a bit of time with uraume.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

uraume dosent care what they look like, as long as they have their signature look that sukuna and you will recognize.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

it depends on how long you have been together. a couple months? they will easily move on. but somebody who has been there for them for a long long time? uraume will have a lot more trouble moving on, they will never forget you, but they will probably try their best to move on.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

please do not ask uraume rudely when dinner will be made. they will probably poison your meal.

(im joking)

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

uraume would not date anyone who cant accept their routine or respect sukuna. but, if you respect sukuna but not completely, thats okay. but they will most definitely try to get you to respect him.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

uraume sleeps like an absolute angel, they barely toss in their sleep. if you have trouble sleeping, ask them to hold you, their hugs while their asleep are to DIE for. (they will also stop you from moving if you toss and turn a shit on at night.)

[starlazergazer]

Hii!! I’m the anon who asked if u had an ao3, and I’m sooo glad I can have all your fics in one PDF thank u so much 🙏 I can quickly pressed the download button so fast. youre genuinely one of my fav anakin fic writers in the entire galaxy (far far away). Your writing is so so gorgeous and complex, and it just feels soooo real—how each person has their own depth—so much thought is put into every word and how it’s framed.

I just read your latest fic, Separated, and my god I SOBBED. It was SO good. I was listening to sad songs too, to get more into the mood, and it made me cry even harder. My heart just dropped out of my body when Reader and Anakin were saying their last words towards each other through the call: they were so emotionally close but so physically far from each other. How they were imagining a different life where everything was more softer and happier, that living handle their souls more gently, when in reality one was killing her, and the other was walking towards a path of destruction? AARAAGGH IM GOING CRAZY WITH YOUR WRITING (COMPLIMENT). I can’t wait to see the second part and how you plan to execute the follow up.

Btw. Do you have any tips on how you can finish writing stories? You write so much and it’s all such high quality. How do you do it? I have so many ideas but I never actually commit to it. I have this idea where Reader is also on par with Anakin’s skills as a mechanic except she gets extreme motion sickness, which I think would be so funny considering she’s good at building ships but not flying them.

(I really hope you’re okay with me posting this I know your first message was sent anonymously so I wasn’t sure but if you’re not definitely just let me know and I’ll get rid of it) but Oh my god I sobbed reading this 😭. Genuinely this is the biggest compliment I’ve ever received and it means so much to me I’m positively overflowing right now and a little upset I cannot find the words to properly express how much this means to me. I already go back through some of the messages Ive received periodically as a little pick-me-up but I already know this one will be revisited weekly it just means so much to me the way you’ve picked up on everything I’ve tried so hard to do well in my writing making the dialog and situations and characters feel real and complex and messy ugghhhhh I love you so much this means the world 🫶🏻

As far as writing tips for finishing stories I have many cause it’s definitely something I struggle with all the time lol! I’d say the biggest thing for me is to focus on just getting something down rather than finishing a certain work. At any one time I have four or five word documents open on my computer because I’m regularly only writing a scene or a piece of dialog or literally just an idea. A lot of the time I get halfway through something and decide I hate it but keep it there anyways. What usually ends up happening though is I take ideas or scenes from all the different pieces and drop them into my “main story” if I think they fit well so it all works out in the end but just writing (even if it’s not related even remotely to what you feel like you ��should” write) is ultimately what’s important.

I also regularly skip around when I’m writing. I find I like writing the big plot points or bits of dialogue the most so a lot of the time I write those first then fill in the gaps later. Finishing a story is a lot less daunting when you already have all of the big pieces in place and just need a few tiny bridges to bring everything together.

Lastly I would say again just get something down on the paper. I’ve written a lot of really bad stuff lol and sometimes I can feel it while I’m writing it and there’s a part of me that wants to just delete it and start over but having the ideas down on the page is always 100% better than having nothing and editing the crap out of what you already have is way easier than starting over from scratch.

Anyways that’s probably way more than what you wanted lol but I really hope it helps! I think just remember this is supposed to be fun, if you’re getting frustration or exasperation out of it more than anything totally feel free to take a step back. I’m known to go MIA for months at a time cause I have periods where I just am not feeling it and forcing myself through it does nothing for anyone.

Seriously though thank you thank you thank you I’m so absolutely overjoyed that you like my writing enough to want to keep it in any form it means the absolute world to me! Also good luck with your potential fic! Tag me if/when you finish it! I’ve been wanting to do a mechanic reader fic forever but never gotten far enough into actually planning it out to start writing anything so I’d love to see your take on it

[tinywitchgoblin]

Hey wassup, I’m delusional (and insane) and I saw your past posts, so which bad batch member would you ship me with?

Im Hispanic (Dunno if that’s important lol). Brown curly hair and brown eyes. Tan skin but I have low iron so I kinda look pale but not too pale. I got two little moles on my chin that I’m insecure about but sometimes I’m confident about them. I’m 5’5. I struggle with anxiety but I’m coping with my depression, I occasionally have really bad depressive episodes. I’m bipolar. Sometimes I act so confident in myself and other times I get insecure and try to hide my stomach.

Some things about me is that I love to write and make poetic shit, like I will sound like a insane hopeless romantic. I like to use cheesy pick up lines when I get comfortable enough. Music is my life and savior. Will legit make a whole playlist or CD dedicated to someone. I LOVE to dance to literally anything, usually if I try to get someone to dance with me is because I just wanna have fun with someone and be able to laugh and feel alive. Dancing is just a way to express myself and have someone alongside me. I love painting, cooking and reading. I adore romantic poetry. My friends consider me as the mom of the group. I’m loyal and I’ll always put other before me ( it’s a curse). If you need anything, honey I’m right here like a genie. I hopelessly devote myself to others. I LOVE taking care of others though, maybe it’s because that’s what I’ve been doing for majority of my life.

I Love cinema. Like deeply love cinema. I’m always up for a night or day full of movies and shows and being lazy on the couch or bed. My definition of Netflix and chill is to literally Netflix and chill, we are watching movies only! Will use quotes from movies on a daily basis and expect someone to get it and finish the quote. Kind of a introverted but I can be social if I know enough people in one space. I’m always up for adventure and thrill in life, like wanna go on a roller coaster? Heck yeah. Wanna dance? Aint gotta ask me twice. Try new things? Might be nervous but I’m up for it.

My standards for love and a relationship can be described as Melanie Martínez’s song High School Sweethearts.

Alright that’s it. Thank you and have a blessed day! <3

Thanks, you too 💚

I ship you with...

Wrecker!

You'd actually met Omega first, but once she introduced you to her brother Wrecker, the two of you were inseparable. You would write him love letters and make playlists for him, and he would shower you with compliments and support you in every aspect of your life. Once, he tried to write you a romantic poem back because he loved the ones you gave him, but it... didn't go as well as he wanted. When you asked him about it, he told you he wanted to make you feel the happiness he got when you gave him a poem or a playlist, but nothing was working. You reassured him that you felt his love in other ways, that his love was as unique as him.

One of Wrecker's many love languages is quality time, and he wants to spend it all with you. Sometiems you'll end up in the kitchen, attempting a new recipe (or maybe just dancing while some pasta is boiling away in the background). Other times, you're just relaxing on the couch, watching something on Netflix. If you're into it, he'll pull you into his lap and keep you close especially if you're watching a horror movie. Both you and he get super frustrated when Hunter has to drag Wrecker away because he needs help with something, but there's always the promise of hanging out again later.

Wrecker doesn't know much about mental illnesses in the clinical sense like Tech does, but he's really good at not only telling when you're not feeling well, but sussing out what the underlying issue is. He's very in touch with emotions (both his and yours), so he's usually able to tell if you're anxious, depressed, insecure, or any of the above. Wrecker doesn't like seeing you in any type of pain, so he will do anything he can to make you feel better. He'll sit with you, talk with you, make you some good, make sure you take your meds and/or get appointments scheduled (if applicable), etc. He isn't someone who does things halfway, and that includes loving you; making sure you feel your best is only a small fraction of that.

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Thanks for reading! If you want a ship request like this one, drop it in my ask box, and don't forget to reblog 💚 it may take a little bit, but I'll get to it eventually!

[gloomyglosse]

Hi there! I recently finished my six ocs fanarts! I'm really happy with how these came out, and I especially love the characters! :D Everyone here has such cool OCs and I really loved drawing them :)

Sa' Turnus - @legogeek33

Ayah - @paprikko-lol

Hanan - @giftofjay

Chat - @pangolinsandnewts

JMN - @roguendeavor

Viridius - @fiddler-sticks

Sa'turnus (Legogeek33)

Hi there! I know we've never really talked before, but I was the one who sent you an anon about your ocs! I was looking for a sixth character, and a friend brought up your characters, so I sent the ask! All three of the characters you sent me were sooooo pretty, and I'm super curious about their lore. If you have a post about them that I missed, or you just want to tell me in the tags, please tell me! This character was sooo pretty and fun to make.

Ayah - (Paprikko-lol)

I love ayah!! Her powers are so cool- I always thought smoke was such a cool power, and shes just. WOW shes cool and pretty! If you want to infodump on me ever, I'm all ears! Her clothes are really cool too, but I actually found out when drawing her my pencil pack comes with NO purples, so I had to find an itty bitty crayola pencil instead 😭. I love her design though!

Hanan (giftofjay)

Ok. Minor confession: when I got to your character you had deactivated your account by then, so I had a little bit of trouble finding your character's ref again! Still, I'm really glad I found it, because your character has such a cool design. A master of healing is such a cool idea- why haven't they made one yet!! I'm starting a petition to make Hanan canon, haha. I also read the info posts about her, so I gave her painting supplies because shes an artist! I love her so much 💛⭐

Chat (Pangolinsandnewts)

Chat has such an awesome character design- im totally jealous of her hair. As I was drawing her the hair was the most fun part I'm totally obsessed with it! As for her lore, I'm super curious about her relationship with the other SOG members 👀. Also, it was my first time drawing sunflowers, haha, so they might be a little wonky! Still, Chat totally rules, and she was super fun to draw- especially her hair! The ombre is soo pretty <3

JMN (Roguendeavor)

I'm soooo sorry about his skintone- my gray pencil was having the worst day of its life and i erased it like twelve times 😭. Still, theres some extra stuff I tried to put in there. The skeleton guy is supposed to be an angel, and the necklace his hand is on is supposed to be angel feathers! (I was thinking they might be remnants of his wings 👀). I was inspired by priest clothing I found online. JMN is a really cool character and as I was drawing him I kept thinking of stuff to add- I love the idea of fallen angels!

Viridius (fiddler-sticks)

Viridius is such a goofy goobster I love him SO much. I drew him in the midst of a water balloon fight with his classmates (ten bucks says he started it, haha!). Its so sad that other kids dont like him- I hope he gets a cool power it better friends to make up for it lol. But hes such a fun character. Drawing a snake man was a little difficult, but I had a lot of fun drawing him, and I liked the detailed descriptions you gave alongside them!

Thank you everyone for letting me draw your wonderful OCS- theyre all so cool and I can't express how much I love each of them! These are not the best quality, so I may try to post them again at another time! :D

[iantimony]

yay tuesday is back

return of tuesday! i had two weeks in the UK which was very fun but i am definitely vacationed out - i miss my routine. longer trips like that are only fun towards the end if you have a home base that isn't just a hotel room.

listening: newest coral bones ep is very chill. it's only three songs and they're all very vibey but i think my favorite is 'seatac'. i wish they were still posting on bandcamp. alas.

SeaTac - Coral Bones

also got back into listening to the altogether - their album 'when we were kids' is very travel-coded to me for some reason, it was on loop my entire train ride from london up to edinburgh. (i'm also pretty sure brian david gilbert of all people is featured on this album haha)

Billy & Anne - The Altogether

finally, i saw st. vincent live in london this past weekend!!! it was a really good concert, lots of fun, interesting venue. she's definitely got an insane stage presence. the opening act (heartworms) was fun too, my brother and his friend weren't interested and described it as 'moody goth bullshit' and i was like well. that is right up my alley. you boys enjoy the bar im gonna go be moody and goth. it was good!

i think if i do standing room tickets again i need to invest in some platform shoes, at least two or three inches, because some of that was a struggle to see Anything ... i did manage to find a spot where i had a decent little corridor between heads to see the stage, however i was directly behind a guy in a bowler (?? fedora?? idfk) hat and his boyfriend who kept moving around and dancing (fine) and gyrating (also fine ?? i do not consider st. vincent particularly gyrate-able music but what do i know) so i also had to do some leaning side-to-side to see around them. one of her songs has a line about jumping off the london bridge and the way they both looked at each other and pointed gleefully at themselves while going "meeee" was very funny. i bet they're on tumblr, they had the vibes. hello gay guys at the london st. vincent concert, if you're reading this.

reading: i read 'when the angels left the old country' by sacha lamb in the two days that i was alone in edinburgh before my brother came! it was good, speedy read, i enjoyed the characters and overall conceit well enough. probably not on the to-buy list, i'd just rented an ebook for my trip.

some miscellanous articles from my pocket emails:

How to Coexist With a Belligerent Catbird by Caitlin Gibson (<3)

The Last Kid in Ninth Grade Without an iPhone by Liz Kreiger (this was relatable as a kid whose parents did Not let her get anything more complex than a flipphone for emergencies until i got myself one as a senior in high school and i think i was better off for it)

The Case for Doing Laundry Every Day by Rebecca Onion (insane, IMO)

watching: mostly fallow, did watch one of the dunmeshi eps that came out when i was gone with the boy yesterday and will probably watch the second one tonight.

i have Opened the jenny nicholson star wars hotel video, not yet watched, but saw in my patreon emails from friends at the table that the tablefriends did a related episode on their star wars podcast, which, i then noticed like [leo decaprio pointing meme] xeecee spotted in the credits for the cover art ?? i'm not surprised they are aware of each other but i thought it was funny

playing: fallow! completely, for once! no ttrpgs, no video games, etc. i guess i played a Lot of solitaire on my flight back from the uk, maybe that counts lol

making: i did a lot of sketching on my trip! i made a watercolor travel journal that somehow doesn't have enough pages so i'll have to rebind it but oh well. no watercolor pics for now but i'm excited to share those as i go! in the meantime, some sketches i did in the east princes street gardent, the scottish parliament, and the victoria and albert museum in london respectively:

i think once i finish the travel journal ill try to do a higher quality scan of it and upload a pdf somewhere, i feel like that will be fun.

eating: ough i ate a lot of good food in the uk. mostly the non-british food unsurprisingly but i Did have some really good fish & chips moments. last meal of the trip especially we got a recommendation from one of my brother's friends who goes to cambridge and ouuuugh that shit was So good.

misc: it's good to be back ... now i'm back in The Grind (work) but i don't mind it. despite the jetlag i'm feeling refocused and excited to get moving on stuff again. i liked a lot of stuff about the uk (trains, vibes) but i also did not like some stuff (why are the cold meds So weak there lmfao) and overall i'm glad to e home :)