#i know emma wouldnt text and drive but still

[incorrectccrp]

Emma (texting): only cause you dot joke the score

Paul: What?

Paul, 2 hours later: Emma whenever you send a really poorly written text and then don't reply forever I worry you were texting while driving and died while sending it and that I'm gonna have to be on a commercial holding up a sign saying 'only cause you dot joke the score' and tearfully say "my wife died sending me this text. I have no idea what it means."

[imakemyownworld]

When The Party’s Over

Fanfic

So, I started writing this out of the blue. It was supposed to be smut but I decided to do it differently.

I usually write about things that Im familiar with and things I cant talk freely about in real life and well, this is it.

Plot: Isabella struggles with drug use, Ethan is her best friend and always there to help. Lucas is a guy she parties a lot with.

(English is not my first language and theres probably some bad grammar in here sorry)

Warnings: drug use

Part 1

Im a mess. Once again I was barely awake, sitting on a sidewalk waiting for him to pick me up. This happened countless times already. 4,5,6,7 AM calls for him to pick me up because Im too fucked up to even go home alone.

“Just send me your location, Ill be there” Ethan sleepily said through the phone. I needed a few minutes to send that location but he was there within 15 minutes already.

“Jesus Christ Bella” he got out of a car to help me get in. He brought a jacket with him and made me put it on.

“Im sorry” I tried to get up but he picked me up and lay me down in the backseat.

“Puke through the window” he said getting in the driving seat.

“I dont puke. You know this” I was half asleep already.

“What did you take?” Ethan was glancing at me in the rear mirror while speeding down the Hollywood boulevard. “Youre pale as fuck”

I didnt answer so he sighted.

“Im sorry” I repeated quietly.

Ethan was my best friend for my whole life and he hated to see me like this but he made me swear to call him every time I feel like I need him. I would hate if something happened to you while Im only one call away. He would say and I understood him because it was the same way around, just with some other things. Im mostly a good citizen, a good student and a good friend but I need to let some steam out from time to time so I go to parties and use some drugs. Nothing major, ecstasy or coke and I wouldnt go any further than that. Ethan didnt support this whatsoever but he learned to deal with it when he realized he couldn’t help.

I dont remember the drive home but I remember Ethan carrying me inside.

I sat down in his bathroom and smeared face wash all over my face then dragged myself in the shower and turned the water on while still sitting on the floor letting it drip all over me.

I woke up in dark, glass of water next to Ethans bed. I felt fine, drugs dont cause that much of a hangover as alcohol but more of a depression. Come down, they call it.

Are you home? I texted Ethan and he shortly entered his bedroom.

“Hi, you hungry? We’re ordering postmates” he asked

“Pancakes” I replied. He sat down on the bed and peddled with his phone for a bit.

“Im sorry” I looked at him. He was wearing his red pants and a gray hoodie.

“You’ve e apologized ten times already and I told you that you dont have to”

“I did? Sorry” I laughed “Was I stupid?”

“Hm” he lay down “You talked some gibberish in the car. About someone stealing your face” he looked at me and I looked at him confused.

“Fuck” Im such a mess. Hallucinating is pretty normal, but rarely happens to me.

“Who were you with?” E asked and I knew why.

“Emma, Rob, Ivy, Harry” I avoided the conformation.

“Lucas” he continued. I stayed silent so he rolled his eyes. “That guy is big trouble. Why do you have a thing for damaged goods?”

“Because Im damaged goods”

“Youre not” E sat down. He knew me but he didnt know my inner thoughts and struggles. He didn’t understand how all I want is forget the world for a few hours and have fun. Empty brain and a happy soul even if caused by chemicals in my body.

I got up slowly and went into the bathroom to look at my state. My pupils were still huge and I had black all around my eyes. I decided to shower again.

I had countless conversations with him about this subject. Ethan is the perfect boy. Hes smart, funny, handsome and good at everything he does. Im a fuck up. My family is fucked up, all my friendships and relationships were fucked up. Im depressed and anxious but somehow still manage to be good at college and everything I do while everything around me is falling apart. Or at least thats how it seems to me. I feel like I deserve this occasional indulgences to blow off some steam.

When I got out Ethan was still there.

“E we talked about this already. You cant do anything about it” I took a shirt from his closet and a pair of leggings I left one day for this kind of occasion.

“I know. But I feel terrible. It hurts me to see you like that”

That was the last thing I ever wanted to hear. I wish he could just leave it be. I love being able to count on him on nights like this because I need safety and love but I know it hurts him. I almost wanted to cry. I stood in the middle of the room just looking at him not knowing what to say so I just shrugged my shoulders.

“Dont cry. Its fine. Lets go, Gray and I were playing switch” he got up and pushed me in front of him.

I knew it wasnt fine and it wasnt fair of me to keep calling him so I promised myself this was the last time.

Gray was on the sofa scrolling through his phone.

“Hey party girl” he glanced at me and back to his phone.

“Hola” I took the sparkly water out of the fridge.

“Odyssey?”

“Smash bros”

“Meh, fine.” he threw me the controller and started the game. He was excellent at acting like he didnt know I was trashed the night before.

Soon after our food arrived and we were eating, watching netflix almost like a family. I loved these guys. I dont want to keep disappointing them.  

[mysfitalyss]

Do all of the unusual asks 😎

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora?

Spotify

is your room messy or clean?

Messyyyyy whoomp

what color are your eyes?

poopy brown :/

do you like your name? why?

Not entirely, I wish my nickname was my name instead

what is your relationship status?

Engaged

describe your personality in 3 words or less

Loud, clingy/obsessive, and full of love (i know thats more than three words but ya know)

what color hair do you have?

Blackish brown

what kind of car do you drive? color?

Silver malibu

where do you shop?

Uh…. anywhere?

how would you describe your style?

“The heck is this shit?”

favorite social media account

Tumblr, all my friends are here

what size bed do you have?

Queen

any siblings?

One

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why?

Colorado Springs, i love the mountains

favorite snapchat filter?

I dont have one

favorite makeup brand(s)

I dont wear makeup enough to have a favorite brand

how many times a week do you shower?

Twice or more if needed

favorite tv show?

SUUUUUUUPERNATURAL

shoe size?

uh…9?

how tall are you?

SHORT AS HELL

sandals or sneakers?

Sandalsss

do you go to the gym?

Occasionally

describe your dream date

Pretty much anything so long as we’re together

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment?

absolutely none

what color socks are you wearing?

Im not wearing socks, im wearing slippers

how many pillows do you sleep with?

Two, one for sleeping, one to cuddle

do you have a job? what do you do?

I work in insurance

how many friends do you have?

Like…six? Seven?

whats the worst thing you have ever done?

Im not sure, but i wouldnt describe it here. 

whats your favorite candle scent?

Anything warm and comforting 

3 favorite boy names

Adam, Toby, Neil

3 favorite girl names

Ellie, Delilah, Emily

favorite actor?

Misha Collins

favorite actress?

Emma Stone

who is your celebrity crush?

Chris Pratt

favorite movie?

hhhhh I dont have a favorite

do you read a lot? whats your favorite book?

YES My favorite series is the Lunar Chronicles

money or brains?

brains

do you have a nickname? what is it?

Ally or Alyss

how many times have you been to the hospital?

Twice

top 10 favorite songs

Emperors New Clothes - PATD

Tonight I Know - Chester See

Shut Up And Dance - Walk the Moon

Love The Way You Move - Slightly Left of Centre

Save Rock and Roll - FOB

Can’t Sleep Love - Pentatonix

Warriors - Imagine Dragons

I Can Talk - Two Door Cinema Club

Freaks - Timmy Trumpet

Color of the Game (Game grumps remix)

do you take any medications daily?

No

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc)

Dry

what is your biggest fear?

Everyone leaves in the end, and I’m alone

how many kids do you want?

Two or three

whats your go to hair style?

Just down

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc)

Small apartment :/

who is your role model?

Misha Collins, his kindness and love know no bounds

what was the last compliment you received?

Someone said my art was good, and that about killed me

what was the last text you sent?

Nope its really bad.

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real?

SHIT SANTA’S NOT REAL???

what is your dream car?

67 Impala

opinion on smoking?

I hate cigarette smoking. (sorry if you’re a smoker… i grew up breathing second hand smoke all my life, it makes me sick.)

do you go to college?

Yes, working on a master’s degree

what is your dream job?

Professional Author

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs?

Rural

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels?

No, i dont like their shampoo/conditioner

do you have freckles?

Not that i know of

do you smile for pictures?

I try to

how many pictures do you have on your phone?

Waaay too many

have you ever peed in the woods?

Probably? Camping as a kid?

do you still watch cartoons?

HELLS YES

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds?

McDonalds, Wendy’s has a bit of a spice i dont like

Favorite dipping sauce?

Ranch

what do you wear to bed?

Teeshirt and shorts

have you ever won a spelling bee?

No i got anxiety and panicked, failing out

what are your hobbies?

Drawing, reading, and writing

can you draw?

No but i do it anyway

do you play an instrument?

I used to play Clarinet

what was the last concert you saw?

FOB, first and only

tea or coffee?

Tea

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts?

Never had dunkin

do you want to get married?

I will be in less than 6 months 

what is your crush’s first and last initial?

MM

are you going to change your last name when you get married?

I dont want to but probably

what color looks best on you?

Blood red

do you miss anyone right now?

Yes… a lot… painfully so.

do you sleep with your door open or closed?

Closed

do you believe in ghosts?

Yes

what is your biggest pet peeve?

When people bother me when I’m in a mood

last person you called

My dad

favorite ice cream flavor?

Cheesecake

regular oreos or golden oreos?

Neither i hate oreos

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles?

Again, neither, i dont like sprinkles

what shirt are you wearing?

Tie dye

what is your phone background?

Junkenstien for home screen, Avyn and Genny by Fara for lock screen

are you outgoing or shy?

Shy as fuck

do you like it when people play with your hair?

If i know them

do you like your neighbors?

No, they smoke and make the apartment smell bad

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning?

Sometimes, if i remember

have you ever been high?

No

have you ever been drunk?

Loads of times

last thing you ate?

Minestrone soups

favorite lyrics right now

Maybe if i call asleep i wont breathe right, maybe if i leave tonight i wont come back, can nobody hear me? i got a lot thats on my mind, i cannot breathe, can you hear it too?

summer or winter?

Summer, i hate cold

day or night?

Night

dark, milk, or white chocolate?

Milk

favorite month?

July

what is your zodiac sign

Virgo

who was the last person you cried in front of?

My fiance

[jennywillsaveus]

10.05.2018

I have nothing to say but I just logged in and saw this so I’m doing it

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? None

is your room messy or clean? Both

what colour are your eyes? Green

do you like your name? why? No. Reminds me of my dad

what is your relationship status? I think we’re getting there

describe your personality in 3 words or less fucking lame

what colour hair do you have? blonde

what kind of car do you drive? color? don’t

where do you shop? for what? I have morrisons deliver my food

how would you describe your style? lazy

favorite social media account i mean... i only have this and facebook

what size bed do you have? Double

any siblings? 4

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why? Arizona if it weren’t in America. Because it feels like home but also guns n Trump

favorite snapchat filter? don’t use it

favorite makeup brand(s) Elf

how many times a week do you shower? about 5

favorite tv show? That 70s show or Friends..some shit like that

shoe size? 4 UK

how tall are you? 5′1

sandals or sneakers? Uhhh i’ll go with trainers for my crappy ankles

do you go to the gym? No but i should

describe your dream date Not waking up lols

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment? 0

what color socks are you wearing? I’m not

how many pillows do you sleep with? Well..there’s 4 on by bed with 2 throw pillows but i don’t sleep on any

do you have a job? what do you do? I work with substance misuse patients

how many friends do you have? AhahAHAHAHA FRIENDS??!?!?!

whats the worst thing you have ever done? I once let my sister get in trouble for a hole in something when it was me

whats your favorite candle scent? Anything fruity

3 favorite boy names Billy, Dylan, uhhhhh....i used to like Nick but then I met a shitty person called Nick.  Ellis

3 favorite girl names Aisha, Billie, and Elsie

favorite actor? Gosling...but because I like his films

favorite actress? Emma Stone

who is your celebrity crush? Gemma Arterton duh

favorite movie? Right now i like Blue Valentine

do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? yes and no It’s Kind of a Funny Story

money or brains? 50/50

do you have a nickname? what is it? I do not.  People call me Jen but i fucking wish they wouldnt

how many times have you been to the hospital? Uh a few

top 10 favorite songs I really can’t calculate that right now but you can bet The Maine is on there a few times

do you take any medications daily? Several

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc) Dryish

what is your biggest fear? Loneliness - ironic I guess

how many kids do you want? A whole 0

whats your go to hair style? Shove it on top of my head

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc) A converted church

who is your role model? Jac

what was the last compliment you received? Sandra had a big sit down talk with me and just sat and sang my praises at me the other day. It was cringey 

what was the last text you sent? “No she ma babe”

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real? I think about 6/7

what is your dream car? One driven by someone else

opinion on smoking? Ew

do you go to college? No

what is your dream job? Uh I also can’t calculate that right now

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? Rural

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? Always 

do you have freckles? Some

do you smile for pictures? I’d rather make myself deliberately ugly so I’m not shocked at my grossness

how many pictures do you have on your phone? 164

have you ever peed in the woods? Probs but i don’t remember

do you still watch cartoons? Uh James likes Simpsons

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds? Neither

Favorite dipping sauce? None

what do you wear to bed? Uh well tonight Matthew I’m in a nice outfit consisting of: a shirt I bought when i was 14 and some shorts

have you ever won a spelling bee? I’ve never been in one

what are your hobbies? Being home alone any crying

can you draw? I mean yeah but it aint good

do you play an instrument? Used to

what was the last concert you saw? Oh man I don’t even remember - Mayday Parade poss

tea or coffee? Water

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts? I guess Starbs

do you want to get married? I don’t know

what is your crush’s first and last initial? JW

are you going to change your last name when you get married? fucking yes

what color looks best on you? Dark colours usually

do you miss anyone right now? Oh plenty o  peeps

do you sleep with your door open or closed? open for the kitty to come and go

do you believe in ghosts? no

what is your biggest pet peeve? being called JEN

last person you called` Emily

favorite ice cream flavor? Mint choc

regular oreos or golden oreos? Whats a golden oreo? Like pissing on an oreo?

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? Uh chocolate i guess

what shirt are you wearing? Some old shit from topshop

what is your phone background? Sparkie-RIP

are you outgoing or shy? I’m a weird mix of both

do you like it when people play with your hair? Yeaaaah

do you like your neighbors? They’re not the worst

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning? Yes, both

have you ever been high? No

have you ever been drunk? Tipsy

last thing you ate? Eezy Freeze

favorite lyrics right now I recall once on the church steps, When I moved to kiss your chest, How we paid such close attention To each sweet and stuttered breath, I should've stopped to paint our picture, Captured honest pure affection, Just to document the difference between attraction and connection.

summer or winter? summer

day or night? day

dark, milk, or white chocolate? milk

favorite month? Uhhh I don’t know

what is your zodiac sign Pisces

who was the last person you cried in front of? The cat