#i know a lot say ‘nonny’ but... i wanna be ORIGINAL!!!!

[beefrobeefcal]

Some angst??? Idk. Maybe there’s something here. You decide.

This is after Frankie tells mouse that he is as big as he wants to get. Mouse, being the wonderful partner she is, listens to his request and stops encouraging any extra ~indulging~ to help him maintain/lose weight.

BUT each time they pass a gelato shop without going in or mouse says no to a dessert menu, it stings. It’s as if he’s been left hanging for a kiss or like he’s been left on read.

Food has become an avenue of affection, and now that it’s closed he’s realizing how much it means to him. And even though he’s the one that asked for this, he feels like he’s going crazy being denied in this way.

To Nonnie, Love Beefro

The bitch is back. Need we say more?

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Beefro Proudly Presents:

a Chubby!Frankie one shot

The Catfish & The Mouse: All Pent Up & Nowhere to Go

Pairing: Frankie Morales x Pregnant Fem!Reader

Summary: A communication breakdown causes a lot of angst.

Rating: Explicit 18+ (MDNI)

Word Count: 3,546

Content Warning: weight talk, angsty angsty, self esteem issues, communication breakdown, allusions to oral (f-receiving), feederism talk, car smut, masturbation, p in the v, established relationship

Author's Notes: I know this deviated from the original ask, but I hope this suffices, Nonnie. It's not as sweet or innocent as I think you were looking for. Thank you @xdaddysprincessxx for beta'ing & offering ideas! Thank you to @neverwheremoonchild for also beta'ing & being their every awesome supportive self.

Things were rough, that much was true. After the night that Frankie had confided in you that he felt he was big enough then thinking out loud about how maybe he was getting too big, you’d done your best to keep his meals at standard portions and not offered anything indulgent to him. 

On a Saturday, Benny had stopped by to return the snow shovel he’d borrowed from Frankie. Having not seen him in a while, you stepped back into the house to let the guys catch up. But you heard everything through the kitchen window as the guys chatted in the backyard. 

“Fish! Holy shit! You losing weight? Last I saw you, you looked... you were bigger!”, Benny chirped with a huge smile on his face, patting Frankie on the shoulder. 

“Yeah... well, you know... was getting pretty big... wanna keep the Mrs. Happy...” 

You almost dropped the knife while you were chopping vegetables.  

You peaked out the window and saw Benny’s face twist in confusion as he looked at Frankie. “I... dude, I thought... I mean, if you’re serious about it, I could always use your help. Trying to become a personal trainer... you know, I need to personally train someone...?” 

It wasn’t like Frankie hadn’t specifically said to you that he might be too big, but the way you jumped at his words and completely changed how you fed him – how you cared for him – was jarring. To see his portion sizes shrink so quickly and not be offered a dessert was disappointing for him. At the rate you changed everything, he couldn’t help but feel that you had wanted him to lose weight. Were you embarrassed to be seen with him like that? Were you glad to have a smaller partner? Did his body disgust you and were you doing a good job being supportive?  

Frankie’s mind would churn and whirl through every insecurity almost nightly as you slept peacefully next to him. When Benny offered to help him slim down further, he thought you would be happier, but it only made him feel worse about himself, and he didn’t know how to tell you. He didn’t want to disappoint you.  

Almost four months since Benny offered, Frankie had shrunk. Not by mass proportions, but enough that his silhouette was definitely smaller. It could have been because he wasn’t constantly heaving around a big, full belly anymore, but his clothing was no longer pulled tight across his middle. You did your best not to say anything about his body or comment on his eating, and despite your disappointment at his changing physique, you kept up a supportive and positive attitude. You had no idea that withholding that was eating Frankie up inside. 

The positive side of this was that Frankie’s broad shoulders were definitely broader and his arms were thicker and more muscular. But Frankie was miserable; he missed how you looked at him adoringly as he ate, or how you would squirm under his weight. He’d pulled away and was irritated almost all the time when he was home. He'd barely touched you in the past two months, and it left you wondering why he had become so removed. You’d tried talking to him, crawling onto his lap in nothing but a smile, but he’d declined, saying something along the line of being tired. Needless to say, the dejection had caused your vibrator and dildo collection to increase. 

Frankie texted you on a Friday evening and said he was going to the gym with Benny, and you could eat without him.  Your heart sank when you read the message and you ate your pathetic peanut butter and jam sandwich alone at the table. Your sadness quickly turned to anger with a smack of horniness; he’d gone from needing to make you scream his name and come on his hands, mouth and cock almost daily to barely looking at you, and you had only done what you thought he wanted you to. Not bothering to clear the table, you stomped off to your bedroom and grabbed one of your toys from the drawer. It was a newer one that was specifically used on your clit, and it was the closest thing to his mouth you could get. Not bothering to look at the time, you got to work, making yourself whine and pant, starting the ritual you’d created every time you missed his touch.  

You were so engrossed and close to climax that you didn’t hear Frankie’s truck pull up or the door open. You didn’t hear him come down the hallway because he no longer called out your name; he had stopped doing that a month ago. You didn’t hear him standing in the hallway, rocking between his feet anxiously, listening to you pulling those sounds that he used to out of your mouth. You didn’t hear the hurt that was boiling over into frustration and anger in his mind.  

You did, however, hear the bedroom door open as you came, and when your eyes met his, you barely recognized the broad, angry man standing in your doorway. 

“What. The. Fuck.”, he snarled through gritted teeth. In his heightened state, he couldn’t differentiate whether his anger was at you for what you were doing or at him for not willing to do it to you himself. 

“Frankie... baby... hi...”, you said softly, reaching your hand out to him, beckoning him to join you. 

“What the FUCK is that?”, he barked, clearly hurt, and pointing to the vibrator in your hand. 

You jumped at his harsh, loud tone, then closed your legs and pulled your knees to your body. Swallowing hard, you tried to find your voice, “Honey... I just... I needed...” 

He stepped into your room, his hulking form at the end of the bed. His eyes darted between your face and the vibrator. For the first time ever in your relationship, he felt unneeded and replaced. Betrayal broke out on his face, and he yelled, “You needed what? To replace me? Let me know I can’t keep you happy, so you put of a fucking show for me to come home to?” 

This was not your Frankie. Why was he mad? He’d never been angry before when he’d walk in on you masturbating in the past. He used to take it as the warm up act before he got to the main event, even telling you to finish for him before he got involved.  

“Baby... honey, no! I could never replace you! I just... I wanted a release... I didn’t think it was a big deal!” 

“That’s why you had to hide it then, huh?”, he yelled again, this time, sadness and hurt clearly in his voice. He didn’t know how to tell you the deep hurt he felt, thinking you were hiding this from him; thinking you didn't want him anymore, “Wait till I’m not home and then fuck yourself? Don’t need me anymore?” 

You saw his body language show more than his words could say. He was hurting and had been hurting for a while. You had no clue that he was making this whole big change for you, and now you’d basically told him that after all that hard work, you’d replaced him. No, you had no idea what was running through his head. All you knew was that you were tired of being rebuffed and ignored and wanted to give yourself some much needed pleasure and release and he was mad at you for it. 

“How fucking dare you! You barely even look at me anymore – let alone touch me – and you want to give me shit for wanting to-to feel good?”, you yelled back, standing up from the bed. His face fell and his big brown eyes widened. Your emotions were getting the better of you, and you could feel the hot tears begin to flood your eyes. Your voice cracked. “What is happening, Frankie? Talk to me!” 

He said nothing. He just turned and hurried out of the room, and you heard the back door slam shut and the garage door open. You waited to hear the truck start, but nothing came. You grabbed your things from the bathroom and bedroom and settled into the guest room. 

After having a shower in the guest bathroom, you’d crawled into the guest bed and tried to sooth yourself by scrolling through your phone. It was only once you heard Frankie come back into the house that you put your phone down. You saw his shadow pass the guestroom door, heading to your room, and then come back out and hover in front of the door. You wanted to call out to him, but it seemed fruitless. He’s turned down so many of your advances and chances to open up, you figured this was it. If he wanted it, he had to make the move. 

Your heart broke for a second time that night as the shadow retreated back down the hallway, and you heard your bedroom door close. 

Your night was restless; you tossed and turned, never able to find a spot that was comfortable. By the time morning light was pouring in through the window, you’d resigned to the fact that you were not going to get more than a few hours of sleep.  

As you laid in bed, trying to decide how to tackle the awkwardness that was sure to come from your next interaction with Frankie, your phone buzzed and your heard his buzz, too, from the next room.  

Calendar Reminder! - 12:00 pm – Taste of the Town! Food Truck Festival 

You groaned quietly, turning off the reminder. You’d bought tickets months ago for this, before Frankie’s health kick, at his request. You’d already made up your mind that he wouldn’t want to go – you weren’t going to make him – and opened up your messages to ask the group chat if anyone wanted the tickets.  

As you typed, a notification popped up from Frankie.  

You still wanna go? 

You were stunned. You knew he knew you’d read the message, and you wanted to answer, desperately clawing at any shred of attention he was willing to give you, but he was still on your shit list. 

Was gonna ask the guys and Hannah if they wanted the tickets. Assumed you wouldn’t want to.  

Through the walls, you heard him get out of bed and rip open the bedroom door. You got out of bed and waited for him to come bursting through the guestroom door, but instead he knocked. 

“Mouse? I-I think... I want to go with you. Might be fun, baby...” 

His voice was soft and pleading, and it made you melt. But you wanted an apology, an explanation!  

“It’s okay... I know it’s not your thing anymore...” 

The door opened up and Frankie stood in front of you with an adorable pout on his face.  

“No. I want to go. With you. I want to go with you.” 

You’d conceded and now that you were standing outside in the sunshine with Frankie as he ate a hot dog, you were glad you did. While the conversation was a bit awkward and stilted, he was at least talking to you.  

You mind wandered, watching the other happy couples walking hand in hand, when Frankie’s voice pulled you back.  

“Mouse? You gonna eat that?” 

You turned to him, then looked where he was pointing – at your hot dog.  

“Oh... no. Go ahead.”, you said quickly. Then as he grabbed it and was about to take a bite, you blurted out, “Are you sure you want another one?” 

You knew it was wrong as you watched Frankie’s eyes fall. He closed his mouth and put the hot dog down onto the picnic table, and sulked. You felt horrible. 

“Honey... I didn’t mean to stop you. I just thought...” 

“Thought what?”, he interjected in a cold, quiet tone. “Thought if I ate that you’d have a fat boyfriend again?” 

You froze, feeling the lump in your throat start. Is that what you had become? That girlfriend? “No... No, I thought it’s what you... I - never mind. You enjoy it, okay?” 

He didn’t look up at you. You did your best to keep the tears at bay, but it was quickly going to be a fruitless endevour. You got up from the table, trying and failing to keep your voice from breaking, “I’m going to get us something to drink, okay?” 

If he tried to stop you or say something, you didn’t know; you were already moving away from him, discreetly wiping your eyes.  

The rest of the afternoon was quiet and somber. Frankie had eaten your hot dog, but avoided anything else except the lemonade you brought him. You were exhausted, physically and emotionally, and you didn’t want this to go on any longer. 

“Frankie?” 

“Hmmm?” 

“I’m sorry. I’m really, really sorry. I don’t know what I did to fuck this up, but I want to make it better.” 

He stopped and looked at you. You felt his eyes look over your face, examining you. And he was. He was looking for his Mouse; his sassy, hot tempered, spitfire Mouse. Instead, he saw you looking the way you had for months, and he’d ignored it – sad and scared. He pulled you into a hug and it felt different; not just from the bit of weight he’d lost, but the emotion behind it, and you couldn't place what it was be it felt final. 

“I’m sorry, too, baby.” 

The ride home was quiet; the only sound was the radio on a low volume. You noticed up ahead that traffic was backing up on the highway, and as Frankie slowed the truck to a stop, he swore under his breath. 

Then you heard it. His tummy grumbled. Frankie was hungry. 

“Do you still keep snacks in your truck?” 

Your quiet question broke through the silence and was met with an irritated sigh from Frankie. 

“No. Benny helped me clean it all out.” 

“I have a granola bar in my purse.” 

You pulled out the little, wrapped bar and held it out for him. After a brief hesitation, he took it and ate it. 

Silence. 

“You... you got any more?” 

You smiled to yourself and pulled another one out of your bag, handing it to him, and just as with the first, it disappeared quickly.  

“Can we talk? I feel like we haven’t had a real conversation lately... and I just wanna know how you're doing.”, you pleaded softly. You took a risk and placed your hand on his shoulder. 

He let out a huff. “I hate this.” 

You pulled your hand back and faced forward, and he quickly turned, grabbing your hand. 

“No! No no no! Mouse, no, honey! That’s not what I meant! I mean... I hate this diet!” 

“This diet?” 

He turned back, hand returning to the steering wheel. “Yeah... I hate it. I’m always hungry and I just feel like shit, and I don’t feel like myself and I know this is what you want, but - “ 

“Whoa! Wait... what I want?”, you interjected, sounding almost offended. 

“Yeah. You want this. “, Frankie eyed you before finishing, “... don’t you?” 

“I... no! I thought you wanted this!” 

“Why would you think that?!”, he snapped. 

“Be-because you said you thought you were getting too big so I asked if you wanted to make a change and you said yes! I was trying to be supportive!” 

You didn’t mean to yell that at him, but you were so wound up and just as confused as he was. 

You stared at each other until a horn honking broke the silence. Frankie quickly turned and got the truck moving again. 

“You did this for me? Not because... not because you hated how I looked?” 

You stared at him aghast. “How are you even asking that?!” 

“You made me do it so quickly! Like all of sudden you... you just stopped. Stopped everything! It’s like you wanted it and as soon as I said it, you were elated!” 

“Oh my god, no! Frankie, no! I always felt selfish giving you all this food, and then you said you might not be happy with it... I love how happy I can make you with food and I never stopped! I put the same energy I would have into feeding you into... into not doing it as much!”, you said frantically. “Why didn’t you say anything?  Is this why you’ve ignored me? Why you’ve-you’ve cut me out? Is this why you don’t like me anymore? Don’t want to be around me?” 

Frankie slammed on the brakes and the whole truck lurched. He looked at you with wide eyed, his mouth open in shock. 

The horn behind you sounded again, and if not for the moving traffic, you were sure that that Frankie was ready to jump out and punch the guy behind you’s lights out. 

As soon as an opportunity presented itself, Frankie exited the highway and pulled into a parking lot. He threw the truck into park and ripped his seat belt off, then jumped out of the truck. You stayed put, watching him stalk around to the passenger side and rip the door open.  

“What?!”, he barked, breathing heavily with a panicked face. 

“What??”, you asked back, just as panicked as he was. 

“You think I don’t like you?! That I don’t want to be around you?” 

“Yes!”, you cried out softly, grabbing his face. “You keep pushing me away and I don’t know why!” 

His eyes searched yours before he spoke. 

“Tell me you want me to enjoy eating again.” 

“I... what? Frankie, I’m trying to be serious here!” 

“So am I! Say it! If you mean it, say it!” 

“I...” 

“Tell me you want me to eat everything on my plate.”, he growled, reaching around and unbuckling your seat belt. “Tell me you want me to hit my fucking limit every day at dinner.” 

You felt heat pooling in your core. This was the most animated and hottest you’d seen him in so long.  

“I want -” 

“Tell me you wanna watch my clothes get too small again.” 

He pushed you back and crawled up on the bench and shoved his knee right up to your cunt as he hovered over you.  

“Tell me you want a fat guy to fuck you.” 

“I want you to get fat again and fuck me.” 

From the outside, it was clear what was happening in the truck. The door was wide open and your only saving grace was that you were in a parking lot for a nightclub, and it was 2:30 pm. Regardless, Frankie ate you out in the front seat of the car and you finally made it home around 5:00pm – just in time for dinner. 

You made sure he finished everything you made – lasagna of course! Then, instead of Frankie hoisting himself to the couch, he backed you down the hallway to your bedroom.  

“Never wanna go that long again without your pussy on my mouth, princess...” 

You whined as you gripped his full – albeit smaller – belly. He grunted and one of your hands slid down to his hard cock in his jeans.  

“I don’t want these jeans to fit you anymore, Frankie...”, you cooed as you palmed his cock. “Wanna watch you struggle getting them up... got too skinny for me...” 

Frankie made a groaning sound as his eyes rolled and he shoved you onto the bed. You got your clothes off and frantically helped him remove his and you pulled him down on top of you.  

“Fuck! I missed this!”, you growled, biting his ear lobe.  

He shifted and laid on his side and pulled you into a feverish kiss. As your mouths danced, his hand slid between your legs. He groaned again with how wet you were. 

“Can’t wait... need to fuck this pussy... need to feel it, princess.” 

You nodded dumbly, shoving him to his back and crawling onto him. You spat in your hand, gave his cock a few pumps, then positioned yourself over him and sank down.  

You both let out long, low moans, finally feeling like the missing puzzle piece was found. You started moving and his hands gripped your hips, keeping pace. 

“Say it, princess... say it” 

“I’m gonna make you so fat, Frankie...” 

Benny pulled up to your house, determined to find out why Frankie had started coming up with excuses to avoid work outs. It had been almost two months since the last time he showed up and he’d looked like he’d put on a little weight then. 

“Fish? Mouse? Anyone home?”, he yelled, banging on the door. 

Frankie was sitting on the couch, letting dinner settle, and smiled at you then motioned for you to stay seated.  

“I’ll get it.” 

As soon as the door opened, Benny knew exactly why he wasn’t coming to work outs. Frankie’s stuffed belly was almost nearing where it was when Benny started working with him, and the shirt he was wearing looked to be at its maximum tension.  

He grinned and gently elbowed Frankie’s belly. “See you’re putting in a different kind of work, huh, Fish?” 

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[ctheathy]

Hi I love your story and I read your secret histories story and I love it, I wanna ask if your not busy how about a yandere secret history tails x reader where she is a kind and sweet person who never judge someone by their appearance and she dotes and pampers him a lot

Yandere Secret History Tails w/ sweetheart!Darling

Secret History Tails x Reader

Yandere Headcanons

Short Concept

Author’s note : Why hello, Nonnie!! Of course you may, my darling, hope you’ll be able to enjoy<3<3 My apologies for slight inactiveness, I assure each and every one of you that more headcanons of our lil ol’ psycho and other characters are also coming up; things have just been a teensy tiny bit busy for me lately, but I do try keeping up with the requests. Don’t want to let yall down💞

Quick note that I do not write for gendered Readers much though!! Accidents can happen when requesting, and I promise I am not upset, but just so everyone understands that gender is not something I’m going after.

Due to the request describing identical characteristics for the Reader as the one in my A Once Innocent Act of Tenderness fic and no specified choice of content was asked for, headcanons with that particular darling were chosen =} Just see it as a minor backup continuation of the story.

A Once Innocent Act of Tenderness ➷

[Gender-neutral Darling|Female Darling|Male Darling]

Potential ⚠️TWs⚠️ :

Delusional mindsets • Obsessive + Possessive behaviour • Murder + Torture mention • Forced relationship • Co-dependency • Kidnapping • Worship • Psychological abu$3 • Brainwashing trauma [On Tails’ part] • Tails may as well get his own TW tbh

Outwardly there doesn’t seem to be all too big of a difference between yandere Secret History Tails and his neutral version. They’re both still very much sociopathic, show clear signs of unhinged behaviour and may get obsessive streaks from time to time, are manipulators at heart, can remain atleast somewhat delusional about both of your relationship with one another and they too view you as something much more above than any other mobian that might have their ways in their pathetic unworth of a universe. And although he normally could have recovered from this mindset slowly with the help by his side, his full on yandere form however, does not. And all honestly speaking, it wouldn’t even be likely to occur in the first place without a specific darling that is kind and has been there from the very beginning; when his trauma of brainwash has developed into something else ...and certainly not something in a positive light. It’s safe to say that this version of his may even be more disturbed than the sanity of his usual self, and that information alone is enough to bring in that you’re going to be stuck on quite the bumpy ride.

While his usual worshipping behaviour would hold nothing malicious behind it, this case is a little more ... interestingly different to say the least. Unlike his casual form who most easily said puts you in the place which was originally meant to be taken by Sonic after you’ve came along and properly earned it; this state of his and his already existing delusions have caused him to literally believe you to be his own personal guardian angel, being there for him in order to protect him from all the wrongs, misery and injustice in this existence. Unlike usual, at an early point he knows that the “real” Sonic of his dimension doesn’t want him, just letting the hedgehog take advantage of his seemingly non-lucid state and torment him to no end; causing him to both grow incredibly touch starved for any kind of gentle offering and worsening his already unstable mindset. And the one simple change that makes all the difference between the two is how he’d normally find himself giving in over time torwards your doting nature with him in particular, while this version of his had already emotionally snapped before he even got the chance to do so. Now the only motivations being left to linger in the back of his mind being the one entity that’s been sweet to him right from the start, and the desperate desire to just take them in as his own--His property. The others have been able to keep you and your dearing behaviour all to themselves for far too long by now, it’s only fair.

As information that’s been given before, a darling like this has him fairly taken aback, the sweet demeanour being, quite sadly said, totally foreign to him. On one hand he wants to give in, wants to achieve the gentleness that’s right on the end of the line and so easily accessible, the desires for the consideration and care becoming close to unbearable to him; but right at the same time, he feels suspicious torwards the close to angelic aura around them, feeling as if it’s nothing more and nothing less than some mere act. This distrust being caused by the harassment he’s got back when he wasn’t even in this position as Sonic’s best friend, despite the lack of memory from it. You’re too sweet for your own good, too perfect; of course it couldn’t be genuine. Another thing potentially stalling him is the fact how Sega has quite literally made him believe how his existence is meant to be surrounded by Sonic, it becoming closer to convincing him farther how it holds absolutely zero meaning without the blue hedgehog being in the picture. But even despite these thoughts of protest, the fox can only take so much. there’s gonna be some point where he cannot suppress these feelings anymore.

Even though his usual self is no exception to causing deaths of those that just so happened to cause immense discomfort or pain to you; another thing that can be written off as a big change is that he’s a whole lot more violent torwards any potential rivals, quite literally going off for torture right off the bat, unlike his casual self who just wishes to get the job done with by blowing the said mobian into hundreds of little bits by his excellent yet dangerous explosives. His yandere form however ... Is absolutely not comparable; his actions now being much more similar to how he treated his victims at the end of secret histories. The two-tailed fox absolutely has zero restraints over himself and is often completely out of control when doing so, the blood of his nemesis covering the floor and walls and psychopathic laughter filling the air. Another important aim being how unlike he would have behaved with Sonic’s case, he would be a whole lot more secretive about the entire murder thing around you. He wouldn’t want to upset his precious and divine admirer now, would he? You’d slowly notice those around you starting to disappear into thin air, each and every acquaintance vanishing only to never see the light of day ever again.

Something else I could picture is that he specifically holds immense grudges against any other Tails counterparts of his, going as far to just take care of the little issue almost immediately after notice. Despite being the filthy imposters they are, he’ll likely feel as if their chances with you rival his own, knowing just as well that they’re close to identical in appearance and intelligence. And if anything, he likely feels the most threatened by them, knowing they could all charm and lure you in all the same way you were captivated by him to begin with.

As for his behaviour torwards his darling after legitimately cracking and taking them in out of said ‘‘protection”, it could mostly be written down as both having a rather clingy and worshipping attitude, yet surprisingly distant right at the same time; not wanting to scare them off. You’re not going anywhere, he knows that much, but having them dreadfully fear him to no avail in improvement over time would absolutely crumble the fox to pieces. He absolutely doesn’t mean any kind of harm torwards his darling, to the point of quite literally not daring to lay a finger on them; but if it wasn’t already obvious before, he has clear limits to his patience. Although not directed torwards them, he can be found growing aggressive due to the lack of emotional touch and is often one to take it out on the unfortunate bystanders nearby, gifting you their still beating hearts as his own little way to show his graciousness torwards you, not realising in the slightest how terrified it truly makes them.

Don’t get me wrong, he adores you with your entire being, he really does; but he has never learned to express them the right way. And I cannot really help but see him as a whole lot more repulsive and abominable as a yandere due to one particular reason. The core of his delusions stop him from thinking properly while it causes refusal torwards the evidence literally laying in front of him; being blinded by unrealistic beliefs and inflicting them onto his poor darling in a sense of purification, all while holding them hostage in a cold and dusted basement. He’d also be a whole lot less obedient to what his darling has to say, feeling as if he’s protecting them despite their protests. You’re silly, of course your naiveness wouldn’t let you catch up with all the potential threats--those rubbish imposters just wandering around you throughout the day. And although the confidence in his beliefs has caused them to become close to being the actual truth in his own unhinged headspace,

that hasn’t stopped him from psychologically harming his darling over and over again.

[screampied]

Hello!! I hope you are doing good nowadays.

Your sugar daddy! Gojo is always on my mind. I think, I wake up and the first thing comes to me is him, and when I go to bed he is the last thing I think about. Yeah, I maybe went a little bit crazy over him, but, do not judge me!!! The way you are writing him is so freaking delicious, I keep rereading your works and not because I love your smut(still the best), I adore the personality you created for him.

I enjoy dreaming about how sugar daddy! Gojo will be happy to be in real relationship with reader, not just some fuck here and there for money, maybe, sometimes he really wants to create family with her. The man literally found his reason to live in her and I cannot blame him.

He would be a great dad for their children. He is the type to spoil his child a little bit, but still be the strict one. He is the one to teach them how to be a good man or how a real man must treat a woman. Maybe, he will be too much happy when his first child is a daughter. He will talk about her a lot and always call her “my little princess”.

I just wanna keep him in my pocket🥹🥹🥹🥹 He is probably the one, who gives the best hugs and always say “everything will be okay, sweetheart, I am always here for you and only you” or something like that.

Thank you for creating my everyday meal and I send you the best kisses on cheeks and forehead🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

ANON BABY, UR GONNA MAKEME CRYYY 🥹🥹 i meant to answer this yesterday but ive been drowning in last minute assignments but im here now !!!!!

first i just wanna say — THANKYOUUU for reading lap of luxury !!!! like, genuinely :( im glad u enjoy sd! gojo. i should really be thanking yall bc i had you all vote for what series to write and everyoneee voted sugar daddy gojo hehe. he’s really fun to write and it’s crazy the lil mini series has been up for about maybe what, seven months now?

also icl🕴️ you guys are on me and i do apologize for the slow updates h- haha.. don’t stone me. more content should be coming soon whenever i feel like it’s ready to be posted !! hopefully before this month ends bc ive been dyiiiiing to expand more on their sugar relationship <3

noooo i understand u !!!! i want him too 💆‍♀️ oh to have a rich, loving sugar daddy that’s literally the gojo satoru. the dream. but i’m so glad you like his personality :((( AH i honestly get scared because i think gojo’s my most hardest character to write bc i have a fear of being too ooc sometimes but hearing u say that makes me happy. 🎀

YESSSSS YOU GET IT ☝️. in the first fic in hell on heels, satoru def probably gave the vibe where he’s just in for a quick fuck n to spoil reader but u can kinda see them develop. like i think after bon appetit n harley’s in hawaii he’s really starting to feel more than just the sugar baby dynamic :’))) and idk if i mentioned it in the au !!!! but reader is his first sugar baby, satoru’s a powerful ceo businessman but just couldn’t help but sweep her off her feet when he met her in first class.

i think in the next installment, he’s gonna introduce reader to his parents — that’s what i’ve originally outlined so we’ll see how that goes 💆‍♀️. mhm, you’re right though. i think sd! gojo would definitely be a family man, a sweet loving dad for sure. throughout your whole pregnancy he’d be supportive. i can really see gojo as a girl dad n he’d be so protective for his daughter, giving her the childhood he never got growing up. (i kinda wanna expand more on his lore, maybe give satoru a kinda sad upbringing hmmm. . )

but “my little princess” KMGONNA SOB. gojo loves his girls <3 i teased a bit about starting a family with him in the last fic, so who knows !!! imagine him taking you to your doctor appointments :(((. doesn’t mind calling off important business meetings to spend time with his family, oh im sick. he does give the best hugs n im callin it ☝️

really though nonnie, you don’t know HOW much this sweet message of yours brightened my day 🥹💗. i dunno how to express my love n gratitude to you, but im soso glad you enjoy sugar daddy gojo! he loves you !!!! and he’ll be back soon ^.^

[lloydfrontera]

Days late but i'm reading the Q&A and i cannot tell if this guy is just Taking The Piss it slowly going mad from adapting it or if he's actually semi-incompetent

I saw a post about it and lots of people were. super mad abt it especially since the adaptation made so many changes. i have no strong thoughts but i also do not think generally so I Have No Input. ultimately i don't even know how much creative control he has, or what "the original author approved of the changes" means.

i genuinely. from the q&a cannot tell if he is trying to take the piss or just does not know how to read. i'm trying to be neutral because I Know Nothing. but this is more like the political side of webcomic discussions and you're probably more the socio-economic side so

oh don't worry nonnie! i have plenty of strong thoughts about it for the both of us :))

i hesitate a lot to criticize anyone's artwork because i know how hard art can be. and i personally have no real experience adapting from one medium to another so i'm even more apprehensive of speaking about something i know very little of.

but oh boy did the q&a dash away all of my reservations.

forgive me for taking your ask as an excuse to rant about it but i wanna thoroughly dissect it (derogatory)

i cannot tell if this guy is just Taking The Piss it slowly going mad from adapting it or if he's actually semi-incompetent

i don't think he's taking the piss. i think he's being completely earnest about thinking he's doing a good job at adapting tged. i think he genuinely thinks he's cracked the code on how to make a good adaptation.

i think he's completely wrong

here's what i mean. this is his answer when asked what's the most important part to keep in mind when adapting something:

now, this doesn't sound bad at first. i'll give him that, at first glance, this looks like pretty decent advice. when making something, especially a work of fiction, it's pretty tempting to guide yourself by a 'what will the audience like?' mentality. and it's not a bad thing to want your content to be engaging, that's half of the challenge of making anything made to consumed.

but to consider it the most important part of the creative process?? to create or adapt a story based on what it's 'entertaining' instead of what you're trying to convey to your audience??

especially when this is what you think is what you should be focusing on

like. sir. is that really what you're worrying about. really.

that last panel is especially infuriating to me because. why does he care so much about making the episodes funny. why is that his most pressing concern. there are so many things that are way more important than the comedy, like character development, relationship building, plot foreshadowing, a million other things and instead he just. cares about whether the latest episode was funny or not.

tged is a fun novel, it has so many funny moments but if asked i would not say it was a comedy. and it certainly never seemed to make an effort to make sure all of its chapters were funny.

so why on god's green earth does he seem to believe the adaptation needs to be over all other things funny.

why was that the direction he decided to take.

and i for one i'm almost absolutely certain it was his decision to go that route.

especially because this was his answer at being asked if he felt any pressure regarding the characters or plot development.

nunca quise madrear a alguien mas que a este pinche monillo

he does go on to say all the changes were approved by bk moon but like. god what a way to confirm that he didn't a single shit about the characters and plot beyond making something he personally found funny lmaooo

and then this!! this!!

the way he's admitting that he's changing whatever he feels like because as long as he 'doesn't stray too far from the central storyline' it doesn't matter,,,, because he already knows the ending and so as long as he can check off some boxes regarding the plot it doesn't really matter what happens in between,,, i wanna wring his neck so bad,,,

i already ranted about it in the tags before but you can't take a story and assume that as long as you get from point A to point B the parts in between don't matter. that's not how it works.

the ending of a story is the culmination of all the emotional and narrative build up you've done through the entire length of your work. is all the character moments, relationship growth and plot development that you've carefully sown in your story coming together to finally deliver what you've build up.

yes, the ending is an absolute masterpiece. because it has en entire novel of build up before it. because it took its time to make the audience engage earnestly with its characters and its plot. because it didn't make fun of itself at every moment possible and instead took itself seriously when the narrative called for it.

because the novel was telling a story and it wanted us to be invested on it beyond a superficial 'haha funny man makes ugly faces' reaction.

and because lee hyunmin is too busy wondering if every chapter is as funny as possible he's not doing the work needed to make sure the ending delivers the absolute gut punch and emotional catharsis it does on the novel.

he thinks he can just fuck around his way through the plot and still reap the same rewards bk moon did with the novel.

and if he keeps going like this he's not gonna be able to.

but that's just my opinion of course <3

[melodygatesauthor]

Big Announcement Regarding Requests

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Hey guys. As I’ve been working more and more on fulfilling regular requests (this is in no way related to the 1k follower celebration drabbles, and I’ll address that further down) I’ve come to the difficult decision that I won’t be opening my requests again after I finish the ones that have piled up in my inbox.

Explanation below the cut if you care as to why:

For starters, let me say this: this doesn’t mean that my inbox will be closed. I’m still around if you wanna scream at me about a thot you had or say something about a fic I wrote or whatever! - I just won’t be taking requests for regular fics.

When I first started this blog I was trying really hard to get more involved with the community and I was THRILLED to have my inbox open to any and all requests that came my way. I had less projects I was working on and a LOT more time to work on fics.

As I gained popularity (which like thank you so much to everyone who is following me you have no idea how much all this means to me) I got so many requests that I had to shut down my requests temporarily. When I shut them down temporarily, my intention was to open them back up again at some point, and I thought it would only take me a month or so to do that.

It’s been almost 3 months that some have been waiting.

I know a lot of you (and oh my god do I appreciate you) are willing to wait ages for me to get my act together, but the amount of stress it gives me is making it less fun. I know it shouldn’t, but it does. I am going to reiterate here - I’M GOING TO FINISH ALL THE REQUESTS I CURRENTLY HAVE IN MY INBOX - (excluding Anonymous requests. I will be removing those just to cut down on the long list I have. I'm sorry, I just need to. This does not include ones I asked for like the 1k drabble requests and the nonnie who requested Nathan Bateman after I specifically asked for NB requests.)

This benefits both of us in the long run

It’s obviously going to help me feel less stressed which is good. But when I’m tied up with requests, you’re missing out on the original ideas I’ve got stashed away for when I have more time to work on them. Less requests means more time to work on those ideas.

I’m a fast writer, we all know this, but I still haven’t figured out how to write two fics at once lol. There are so many ideas that I’ve had to put on the back burner to get through requests and I don’t want us to have to wait even longer.

This doesn’t mean “requests” are done permanently.

One of my favorite things to is set up events where I write drabbles for the community. I’m going to still have events here and there for different milestones (follower celebrations), life events (birthdays, etc), holidays and more!

When those are happening, just check the rules and submit one if you want!

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This was tough because I really do enjoy serving the community, but I have to worry about myself too. This is something I do for free and it’s supposed to be fun. If I’m not having fun, and my hobby is causing me stress, then I know I’ll start to suffer from burnout and none of us want that.

Who knows, I might change my mind and re-open them at some point, but as of right now that is not my intention.

Thank you all for understanding ❤️

P.S. If you're a writer with open requests, please feel free to mention it in the comments so readers looking for open request writers can find you!

[palomahasenteredthechat]

https://www.tumblr.com/palomahasenteredthechat/759609884224471040/lol-not-gonna-bother-asking-anonymously-since

your original post didn’t link, but i did look at your profile and find it!

regarding everything you put in both your reblog and the tags, i just want to say that i understand you and appreciate you expressing your thoughts.

it still bothers me immensely too. what he said is inappropriate and you shouldn’t be getting shit on for expressing your very valid opinion. the perpetrators should be made to feel guilt, not us disabled folks.

i just wanna say that you are loved by a lot of people here! even though i don’t know you, i respect you and your food choices. i would never force you to eat any food that makes you uncomfortable, unwell or is genuinely just something you aren’t keen on.

just wanted to let you know that we are out here and we support you ♡

Aw, thanks for lifting them up, Nonny.

[arcane-vagabond]

Hello, helloooo! All of the obscure questions! Or just 9, 10, and 17 please and thank you.

https://www.tumblr.com/sailor-aviator/758631397485314048

Hey, Nonny!!

Hehe I'd answer all of them, but let's leave some in case anyone else wants to ask 😅

9. Do you believe in ghosts? This isn’t about writing I just wanna know

This is such a complicated answer lol I believe in spirits and supernatural things to an extent, I guess. But for how they mean "ghost" here, I would say more that I want to believe, ya know?

10. Has a piece of writing ever “haunted” you? Has your own writing haunted you? What does that mean to you?

A great question!! Hmmmm...I think there are several pieces that have "haunted" me. To me, "haunted" means a piece that I think about and revisit often, and I have several of those that I think about a lot in terms of my own writing lol

And there's definitely pieces of writing that have haunted me that aren't my own. The Star Child by Oscar Wilde is one that I think about fairly often. I saw it as a stage production while I was in Galway, and I think about it all the time. Another one is The Giver by Lois Lowry. It's always been one of my favorite books, and it's another one that I think about a lot.

17. Talk to me about the minutiae of your current WIP. Tell me about the lore, the history, the detail, the things that won’t make it in the text.

Oooooooooo, now y'all KNOW how much I love talking about the minutiae lol

Let's see.....I think I'll talk a little bit about We Abide lol So, originally, it started out as much the same, except that Tyler's character was a lot more....quirky? Idk, in my head he was originally based off of like Stiles Stilinski. Hatch is still very much the same so far, and Mars was originally like a German Shephard or something iirc. But, at one point I also had a third character join them on their journey west, and I'm not sure if that's happening in this fic yet lol

I do have two sequels planned for a total of three stories, but who knows if those next two will see themselves as fanfic because I fully plan on going back and rewriting this as an OG story for publication.

Weird Questions for Writers!

[em-writes-stuff-sometimes]

okay hiii!! I’ve actually never sent an anon message before but I just had so many questions abt the future of your series (which I’ve been reading since the early days btw and have loved every installation). very silent reader over here!!!

but I wanted to ask, if you’re able to share (and i sincerely hope no one’s asked this yet, if they have I’m sorry for the repeat!!) did you have plans yet for how you’re going to handle Daeron moving forward?

ofc he’s not in the show (yet? at all? who knows!!) but within your series you have reader babey take daeron as a ward on Dragonstone, which places him far closer to team black than he originally was in the books. so I was just wondering if you had any plans yet (that you’re able to share) about Daerons allegiance moving forward.

so these are just a few little questions I have, totes understand if you can’t answer them cause of spoilers: do you plan to have Daeron switch sides so that he stays true to his Green-allegiance in the books, or will you have him diverge from his book counterpart and swear fealty to Nyra? would Daeron go back to Alicent and the greens at any point so that he would be loyal to Aegon once Viserys kicks the can? does Tessarion exist within ur fic (sorry if it’s already been stated that she does and I’m just forgetting) and do you have plans for her?

also a lil more overall and totally understand if you can’t answer this but do you think your fic is going to have the dance end the same way as it does canonically (within the books at least)? and can we expect to see Babey fighting at all?

OKAY that’s a lot I’m sorry but questions have built up over so long of being a silent reader!!! love your work so much you truly are such an inspiration when it comes to writing, especially HotD writing!! Can’t wait to see where it goes!!!

-the biggest die hard Rhaenyra stan nonnie you will ever encounter

Hello, Rhaenyra Stan! It's so lovely to hear from you! I'm so thrilled you're reaching out, and I'm so happy you've been enjoying the fic!

To be quite honest, my plans concerning Daeron tend to fluctuate between him remaining a somewhat neutral party (think sending him to the Vale with the lil kids) or as a fully-fledged Blacks member. I think it'd add some really interesting additional conflict and a cool sub-plot in that Daeron has to war with his full-blood relatives in favour of his half-blood relatives. Tessarion does exist! She's mentioned in the third instalment, I wanna say.... Chapter 9? In the convo Reader has with Alicent on Driftmark just after the funeral.

I can't spoil the end of the fic, unfortunately, but I think the ending will be a just one for our principal character. That's all I'll really say there. And I do want to have Babey fighting given who she rides, but I'm still thinking through where exactly I want to place her in the grand scheme of things. I'm hesitant to have her replace anyone's role in any notable conflicts, but that also means I have to come up with some sort of sub-plot or deviation to give her a meaningful battle scene that doesn't detract from the original characters, but ALSO does justice to the Cannibal given his aggression and intimidation factor. To kill someone or not to kill someone? And who? Is it tides-turning? Hm. I'm not good with military planning, so I'll probs be bugging the audience with random questions at 4am on a Saturday about it, lol.

Thank you so much for this lovely ask, nonnie. I'm so grateful that you've been lurking for so long, and it's always amazing to me to see peeps enjoying this silly little brain fart of mine. I am pushing out updates slowly, but by the end of it all I hope it'll be a behemoth of swag I can come back to and think happy thoughts of. I hope it'll continue being enjoyable for you, too.

I hope I've answered these questions as satisfyingly as possible! Love ya!

[khaire-traveler]

hey! just wanna know, how do you feel about hellenism related media? do you like something?

Hey, Nonny, thanks for the ask! I appreciate that you're curious about my opinion.

Personally, I don't engage with modern media about the gods much. I've had people tell me about it, and I've read about it, but there's a lot of stuff out there that I haven't really interacted with. I try not to be too judgemental, although I used to be a lot more critical of how modern media depicts the gods, but it's still not something I often enjoy. As a worshipper, my opinion is always bound to be biased, but I try my best to judge modern media for its story-telling rather than its accuracy (although that doesn't always happen, if I feel the depictions are egregious enough).

Below, I'll state my thoughts and opinions on the media I have interacted with (or at least have heard extensively about which is the case for Percy Jackson, as I haven't read the books).

I did like the Hades game! I felt it was really fun to play through, and as a game, it kept me engaged. I genuinely had fun with the game mechanics and the relationships you can build with other characters. It has its flaws, but so does every game. I've recently heard some grumbling about the way it depicts Greek mythology, but honestly, I think that if people are basing all of their knowledge of Greek mythology on a video game, it's up to natural selection at that point (this is a joke).

Along with Hades, I did find myself enjoying Immortals: Fenyx Rising. I was surprised with how similar the gameplay was to Genshin Impact, actually, but I'm not gonna talk about that lol. Fenyx isn't as widely known, but the way it handles Greek mythology is adequate and intriguing. The characters are pretty fun, and I enjoyed helping them in their main quest. The twist at the end (I will not spoil it) rubbed me kind of the wrong way, but I understood that it's just a game trying to tell a story, you know? It was fun, engaging, and interesting. Oh, and the monsters were pretty cool! I loved how they included monsters that you wouldn't really expect to see. The Hydra was a bit underwhelming to me, though.

Then there's the God of War series. Listen, I LOVED the recent additions to God of War that centered on the Norse pantheon - beautiful graphics, interesting story-telling, and a fun use of the mythology - but the original games that take place in Greece kind of bothered me. Mostly, yes, it was the representation of the gods. The way pretty much all of them were villainized (and the way they did Hermes so, so dirty, imo 💀) was a bit comical and strange to me. It felt like it lacked nuance to their characters (even Aphrodite was kind of there for one main "purpose" if you catch my drift). I also wasn't too big on the character designs of all the gods. Some were interesting, but others didn't land for me (mostly Hermes; he looks like he should be Apollo or Helios, and I just don't understand what they were trying to do with his design). Overall, it's a VERY fun series, but I find myself not being able to enjoy the original games as much because of their depictions of the gods.

Other forms of media (that are more popular), however, aren't really my thing. Percy Jackson isn't something I'm too big on. It plays into a lot of harmful tropes about the gods, and unfortunately, I've had some bad experiences with the more disrespectful side of the fandom. Not every PJO fan is an asshole, though (most aren't), which is extremely important to keep in mind (I see a lot of hate in the HelPol community towards them sometimes, so that's why I say that). I felt the plots were creative, for sure, but I didn't like the way Rick handled some topics or the way he sort of twisted the mythology for his own purposes. Like, some of these major plots throughout the series are absolutely bizarre; they make certain gods out to be massive assholes, tbh. Also, I didn't like the way Rick stated that the Greek gods "left the dangerous Mediterranean"; it just felt like a really weird and uncomfortable way to refer to Greece. I think if Percy Jackson brings new people into HelPol, then that's great, but people definitely shouldn't base their knowledge of Greek mythology on the books which is something I've unfortunately seen happen. If you enjoy the series, that's cool; it's just not my cup of tea, personally.

I think the one piece of modern media about the gods that I genuinely hate - and I really do mean hate - is Lore Olympus. That shit has harmed even the pagan community which is kind of wild. I've literally had people call me an "Apollo sympathizer" for worshipping a god who is NOTHING like the damn comic. It is an extremely disrespectful representation of the gods and mythology, and it's something that gets under my skin quite a lot. And honestly, it doesn't need to happen with the Greek gods. If you took the characters out of the setting they're in and placed them somewhere else, it wouldn't really change much, in my opinion; the Greek mythology part of it is really just used for the dramatics. It doesn't have much to do with Greek mythology besides just wanting to make Persephone and Hades the main focus. I have other complaints about it, but I will save my Lore Olympus critique for another day lol. I could go on forever about what bothers me.

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I hope this answered your question thoroughly! Feel free to ask more if you're curious about anything else. Have a great day/night. ☺️🧡

[killian-whump]

I know it’s an old post, but like genuinely fuck you for that post about how it’s bad for people to like whump on female characters and whump is only a term for male characters.

If a woman wants to read about characters like her being hurt and then being taken care of, there’s nothing fucking wrong with that and you have no right to tell us that there is. Whump is not exclusive to make characters and people who write whom for female characters have every right to use that term.

I've never once in my life said it's "bad" for people to like whump on female characters, so I guess... whatevs? Work on your reading comprehension, maybe? Double check I even said whatever it is you think I said? I mean, I'm not gonna say something I don't believe, and I sure as hell have never believed that, so... 🤷‍♀️

And anything I ever have said about female whump belonging in the whump community was said LONG ago, when the community was still young and yes, it DID start as an entirely male-centered thing that has evolved into something WAY bigger than it originally was and way more complex and nuanced than I think any of us ever even dreamed it could be in the beginning. A lot of my opinions have changed over the years (yeah, years) since we all started congregating here on Tumblr, and I don't think the argument itself is even still relevant, let alone what any one blogger's opinion on it was back then. But whatevs. I said whatever I said back then. Can't change it now; it's history. Be mad if you wanna be, Nonny.

I do still think that female whump should continue to be labeled as such, just to make it easier for folks to find/avoid it. I mean, if I was into it, I sure wouldn't want to have to wade through all that male whump to find it. But whatevs, maybe you like wasting your time. In fact, you probably do like wasting your time, since you're reading old ass posts about ancient debates that are no longer relevant to the community at large and sending anon hate mail about them. So... have fun?

I dunno. Maybe you'll unlock an achievement for futile fury or something. Hope it's rewarding for you.

[orlissa]

Hi!))

Hope you are feeling better now and I just wanted to say that your fics are great, greater, the greatest! Terrible, beautiful, unsaid things is the first darklina fic I've ever read and it just captivated me in this fandom and revived the love for the books. I hope this helped even the littlest bit and that your writer's motivation is a little bit more alive today)

Hi Nonnie!

First of all, I'm sorry it took me this long to answer this -- I think, when one gets such a heartfelt message, it's hard to find the right words to express the gratitude we feel, to compose it in a way that is worthy of the original note.

But yes -- thank you! It warms my heart to know that my words touched you this deeply.

As for me... I wanna say I'm okay. I got a lot of support, both here and on other platforms, and I want to say that I've consciously decided to let the whole thing go, but the thing is that this person found me just between two translation projects, and now having started the next one I keep finding myself hearing her (imagined) voice in my head. One of her complaints against me was that "when a word has 5-6 synonyms, I somehow always end up using the worst one", so now I constantly keep questioning myself and my word choices. So, yeah... it's not fun :'D

[worldsmostcasualmpregfan]

I know nothing about football but I'd still like to hear about the au :3

see bc i complain and then i don't even know where to start LOL

ok so ig i'll start with the title From the Sidelines and a little description i have, to pique interest heh

Arthur is Camelot FC's star striker and captain. Merlin is the kitman. Life is hardly ever fair.

anyway . i suppose that's. a little misleading. that being said i think this grew into something waaaaay larger than i originally planned @.@ like it was supposed to be a fun little addition to the surprisingly small amt of footballer arthur fics we have but now this fic has double daddy issues (balinor my beloved...), coming out, sports injuries, shitty coaches (aredick die by my sword) and never making the national team. HUH??? i just wanted merthur to fuck on the pitch... (joke) (just in time for fuck him on the field friday)

also there's side stories. like one is when the players get handcuffed tgt for 24hrs but they've got an uneven amt for it and merlin gets roped in

and then there's the valentine's day arwen special that i somehow accidentally made into a statement about arthur's attitude toward his sexuality?? and feelings for merlin??? through his anxiety about his date with gwen????

“All good?” Merlin asks. “Never better,” Arthur replies, then pivots and walks directly into his closet. He stares at his barren shoe rack before he feels hands on his shoulders, and Merlin is turning him around and guiding him back out. “Wrong way,” he hears him say. “Right.” This time, Arthur marches out his room then down the hall to the front door. “I’ll be back.”

i'm allowed to give this info bc i don't know if i'll ever actually post the extras. i dont' even know when i'm gonna finish the main story sjkdfhgjkf

oh yeah another side story takes place in 2007 (that might be the title for it idk) and it's about uther buying camelot fc for arthur's tenth birthday LOL dont question the legaltiy of arthur playing for his father's club. i dont know and i dont care. this is fiction SIMILARLY dont say shit abt arthur being a striker and captain. it's happened before. it's literally fine. dont even worry about it

there's like. ik i rly only talked about the side stories but u have to realize just how much has already gone into this fic and i wouldn't even say i'm halfway done. i don't think i've written out a single match which is also funny bc i've been keeping up with the prem and actually think i can do it now. i just keep dragging my feet abt it lol

i think the hardest part for me is when im gonna have to seriously injure arthur. i didnt want to but i think it's an important way for his and merlin's relationship to progress and also would explain merlin's attitude toward him in january. its less abt injuring him and more abt him having to sit out of games not for like. lineup stats/compatibility reasons

oh my god typing this all out made me realize we haven't met like. half of the guys on the team yet. i was sitting here like "i need to rewatch eps with all the knights bc i dont trust myself to write percy and elyan accurately" but now i just realized i dont even know if mordred is on the like. squad yet or if he's still with the u18s (after a brief check with my info page he is. i'm gonna be sick)

like i said there is a LOT of info on this . sorry this was so long i just needed to ramble a bit and it also made me realize some info i still need to include so yayyy :3 thank you nonny if u have anything u wanna know in specific like fr anything PLEASE ask. i'd love it so much if u asked. u saved my life <3

[cescalr]

When you get this, please respond with five things that make you happy! Then, send to your last ten people in your notifs (anonymously). You never know who might benefit from spreading positivity <3

Giggling. This is either one hell of a coincidence, or i know out of 3 people who this has gotta be (I hadn't even gotten to the fifth one yet <3). Hehe!! hello totally random mysterious nonnie who sent me this out of the blue!!! Also I've done this before and am about to do another one that is. Stored away in my askbox.... so I'll try for no repeats, but I can't promise that. My memory type is of the sieve classification.

Fanvideos!!! I never shout this out publicly for fear of The Evil DMCA but I adore fanvideos. [LA/G/P/Etc]MVs, Edits, whatever you wanna call em. Fanvids are the bestestest. <3 Soooo cool. so cool. Have a link!

Also sometimes I make terrible anvs myself!! This is the only one truly worth watching It Is My Magnum Opus, I love that vid. It Loops!! These are my most recent WIPs before I lost access to SVP and therefore all my hard work and understanding of editing software in one fell swoop. Yeah.... Learning Davinci is. Slow. Going. Like a snail. Stuck in molasses. I have so many ideassssssss ugh. Ugh! moving on. I love fanvids. They bring me great joy. Next!

2. I loveeeeeeee graphic design. it's a passion of mine /referential joke, but yeah - I do it a lot, or at least I used to; haven't had a need or a chance in the past couple years. Shameful, really. I need to find some time and an excuse to make more of them. Have more links!

CescaLR - Hobbyist, General Artist | DeviantArt

Graphics Galore!

3. kind of obvious, but writing! 1,389,937 is no random number; it's my wordcount on AO3! Wowzer. Hadn't checked that in a hot minute. I got a degree in this shit [Creative and Professional Writing, and absolutely to brag, 1st class with honours! I earned that shit. My 3rd year sucked so bad I had to repeat it, and my first two years were 2020 and 21. Yeah. I'm proud I stuck it through! Bunch of stuff went down I'm not gonna ramble about on main, but damn that was not a super fun 4 years of my life. Met some cool people though! Always a plus.], I better enjoy it lol.

4. Again, obvious, but video games! As a measure of how many I've played since I was a wee babe, 41,851 is my xbox gamerscore alone [I remember the original 360 UI, which I liked much better compared to it's later iterations], not even glancing at steam stats, or the amount of time I put into the various nintendo consoles I've owned (every DS up to 2DS, which I thought was stupid. I want to close that thing! It has a lid for a reason!!), plus the brief possession of a ps2 then a ps4 several years later (I used a ps3, but never had one in my house). I own a VR headset. I Love Gaming So Much. Oh and I have 2k+ hours in the Sims 4. Somehow. And roughly an equal amount in all the versions of skyrim Xbox+PC->Present. Yeah. I don't even play them that much! Which sounds insane to say, but I really don't. I spend more time writing, watching youtube vids, randomly browsing the internet's various fun time wasters, and I used to spend a hell of a lot more time reading - literally lugging around A4 copies of books to school to read in like the 5 minutes between classes. Lol. Lmao. People will really have the wildest conversations in earshot when you're Just Trying To Read, Here, Bud, Do You Really Want Me Knowing That Secret Information About Your Family?. So. Yeah I really don't know how I manage to be as prolific in this as I am, but it's true!! I love video games!!!!!! When I was 10 and my dad told me people make their livings writing stories for video games I started crying tears of absolute wonder. It's one of his favourite memories lmao I just seemed so awed at the prospect lmao! Don't remember that. Glad he does! Video game link thing; currently having my absolute entire soul drained trying to figure out rinworld despite being unable to see a single bit of that HUD. (861) Lore Harbor - YouTube is doing some pretty fun storytelling in the engine [which is what it's for; RW is sold as a story generator moreso than a game, though it's absolutely a colony management sim at its core its also very reliant on your own ability to improv a narrative, which i adore. i love improv so much.]!

5. My favourite evil little creature is the black footed cat, who is a dangerous little adorable killing machine <3 every time i see one of these i immediately start beaming. I'm forever cursed with overactive tear ducts so it's likely they'll start burning too. they're so cute. oh my god. They're teeny teeny tiny. Baby. Murder baby, but still a baby.

Bonus;

Some extra graphics under the cut, namely book covers and tumblr stuff from the archive (my decade-old files stored religiously on SSDs. *slaps PC* this shit can hold fanfics over 14 years old, babey!).

Covers!! Some for use on FFN, some for use on Rolescape (which does not exist yet), made for testing purposes! I'm on the creative team. It's Neat.

FFN; 2 covers and the profile pic:

Rolescape; three potential front covers and the chapter covers:

As always, iterate iterate iterate. I definitely like the mirror one most, though. Also no they're not cropped, it's just that the Hourglass one is a different size (I used that one on FFN, I think, which has different ratio req for the images than RS).

Blog graphics!

^unfortunately this last one is broken atm on the actual page, which is why the screenshot is so.............. wide. I have a normal widescreen 16:9 monitor aspect ratio, not an ultra-wide. Ah well.

Grace remains my one actual singular ever blog graphics request!!!!!!!!!!! So she holds a special place in my heart. I learnt to manip for her. If you can't tell what the manip is That Is The Point (It's her vampire mouth/teeth. actress doesn't have those). I wouldn't do it the same way now but these were the requested colours. I made icons and everything and it never got used LMAO oh well. Good practise nonetheless!

The braeden one was just for fun, saw a cool PSD and really wanted to use it [In A Crowd Of Thousands by someresources and cotton candy by anamakes, who has moved to anasbobashop]. Wanted to see what I could do with this tumblr code floating around that has a funky angled posts scroll... or at least the idea of that as the code itself appears to have disappeared into the aether or presumably the JavaScript ban, alas. Technically the image is the promo but like, that's what I was trying to sell - the blog would have looked basically identical. Don't know why I just said 'sell' i will do anyone whatever graphics they want for free all the time. I love Design TM. [well. Not whatever they want. I have limits! And boundaries! but for free, for sure.]

Youtube:

Can you sense a uniting colour scheme or-

^ first proper 'promo' graphics I made for Malia, I think! On her own blog, anyway. Plus it's sibling multi-promo for my several blogs. Damn. I forgot the order of creation... manymuses was made before don, I think. Hold on Oh my god!!! Baby cesca's graphics!!! I found them!!!

wow that looks so bad <3 I love it

world's worst multi promo. I nailed malia's icon though ngl.

ANCIENT stiles blog!!!! Compare with the current look. I've come so far <3 Do ignore some of the side pages. Tumblr fucked me over when they removed JavaScript and yes, I've asked. they simply refuse to give a girl a break I'm afraid </3

good lord why did i even save that

???

Goddamn. very proboards rp forums of me (that's where I come from!!! the homeland!!! I was FFN -> Proboards -> Tumblr in my trajectory. Probably explains a lot about me.) Also yes I was doing all my work in paint.net, it's an excellent programme.

I found the REAL og malia promo!!!! god. wow. You know i was like ... 16 when I did this. Max. 2016, 2017? Around then. And I was 15 in 2016. So.

Crossed Coyote my beloved <3 I made this PSD colouring in literally 2018 and I never looked back. Perfect Malia colouring.

Last two;

The absolute OG Stiles graphics. Oh my god look at those. Cackling. Could you tell I was a teenager that wrote predominantly angst fanfic or what?

Anyway. That's all the images I can give. Yeah! Graphics!! Since I ran out of images and I still kind of want to gush about this, have my links:

it's crowded here.

Casual and simple style blog, because I needed a less specific look than I usually go for given it's a multimuse and not more.... specific. I don't love the main page but I think it gets interesting in the side pages. Or it *used* to, before Tumblr revoked everyone's JS rights.... sigh. Please forgive that I was in the middle of reworking some pages that had broken due to updates or just needed changing (the other blogs page, mainly, for the latter) when I was suddenly unable to save any changes anymore. Lol. Lmao. Fs in the chat. This is a common theme for the rest of the blogs. I'm going to start with the more underwhelming ones.

Magus Museum

This one didn't even get it's feet off the ground. Sadge. VERY happy with that background image/header image, though!!!!!!!!!!! Seen best on the rules redirect page... which takes you to manymuses' broken ass rules page. tragic.

Poseidon; 'Lord of the Earth.'

I am SO HAPPY WITH THIS ONE. I think it's SO GORGEOUS. AAGH. Tumblr i am pleading at this point give me back my beautiful girl javascript I promise I won't kill your servers

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a semi-recent partial revamp of this one has occured! Sort of. Several side pages are still as they were before, and thus a little borked. I'm slow, but i am working on it. My fella <3 Making the colouring was pretty fun! Aly at * /themes & resources. has made some truly excellent codes! To note: on every page on every blog all codes should be credited, but a lot of authors use fonticons for that and sometimes those packs break, and as they tend to put the links as very tiny little things, I can lose track of them if they break :(. So at least once a year I go through and check. But rn I think they're all functional! Fingers crossed. Anyway: Don's great. I make a lot of manips for him.

Not sure why I could upload that! Hope it works. These scenes are kitbashed together. It's like playing with action figures but via video. <3 There's... a little visual glitch in this one that bothers me only a tiny amount because im pretty sure i only know it's there because i stared at this for weeks on end. Don't ask. It's mostly because very few editing software UIs are made with blind people in mind. Funny, that! Wonder why a visual editing tool might not think about blind people using it. Lol. Ah well! Such is my lot in life. In the last shot of Don the colour on the side of his head in shadow noticably changes. Sighhhhhh. Still very happy with it though <3

maiden-hours

silly little extra sideblog to the next up on the list (one the earthshaker is also a sideblog to!) that's not even a little done </3 but it's closer than magusmuseum <3. Which is not saying much </3.

вιя∂ѕ σƒ α ƒєαтнєя ƒℓσ¢к тσgєтнєя

you might be able to tell that coffee has made one of my favourite themes (another one is Knuckle Sandwich; the one I'm using on ShadowedStilinski, by 𝔣𝔩𝔬𝔴𝔢𝔯𝔰 𝔟𝔩𝔬𝔬𝔪, [Shiloh]). It's soooooooooo versatile. I adore it. And yes, I did fc Stewart and Pattinson as siblings. I found a picture where they looked eerily similar and rolled with it. Lots of manip making needed for this one! And cool little banners. I love the... like, shattered mirror effect on the main page. My greek blogs are the prettiest bunch IMO. I love mythology <3.

Last! RP blog. You're not getting away that easy.

Not So Holy.

Had to do a quick fix to the main blog page with a new code when the old one broke, so it's not looking it's most polished atm as I didn't have time that day (and then neglected) to do it properly. Still; I like the colouring I made! It suits the Vibe of SPN well. I also dabbled a bit with the carrd trend going on in the RPC when making this, so that's something unique abt this one... redirecting you to a completely different website for no discernible reason. Lol. Lmao. Will probably not change this, but I do think it's kind of silly in retrospect. It looks fine, its easy for me to read, I'm lazy. It's funny half the pages just take you right back to where you came from (the hellsite itself) though! Why did i do any of that. Most of the links back to the tumblr are to unfinished pages...... sigh. JS ban really put a wrench in all my plans and motivational cogwheels.

Cesca's RP Resources.

my first rph blog. No, I don't know why I have two? The whims and throughlines of past cesca's mind are a mystery to all and sundry, especially present cesca. They're also not my problem! That's for future cesca to figure out, if she ever decides to. RN i just assume shadowedgraphics is for my work, while scresources is for things i find that i use and-or like. Which makes sense to me! Anyway; really quick and lazy blog revamp which I literally forgot! I did! i was expecting a worse looking blog than I got. Silver linings? Anyway. At least it's cohesive with my style for personal blogs, now.

Mythos!

For my original fiction <3 worldbuilding and scraps not intended for publishing otherwise. Alas i actually need to be able to finish the blog to use the damn thing, and tumblr hates me personally /joke. oh well! I still think she's pretty even if she doesn't display properly <3

Cesca's Simblr.

nukl sammitch again!! <3 My simblr, atm. Thinking of revamping it........ again. Do like it though! <3 just want to use a newer, better sim of mine as the mascot. Thinkin of my c!joel one.............. he's one of my best. Anyway; it's not like i'd have much to revamp, most of the pages aren't finished thanks, once again, to our reoccurring nemesis the javascript ban. Grr arrgh shake my puny fist up to the sky as if something exists out there to witness my impotent rage /frustrated joke to feel better about this grave annoyance! Also you can tell it's been ages since I worked on most of these because i am 20 no longer. 4 years......

Noli pati a scelestis opprimi

ANCIENT BLOG. ancient! I forget she even exists! By the way that's the latin for don't let the bastards keep you down but grammatically correct when compared to the usual latin version people throw around. The more you know! Anyway. I made this a long time ago and honestly she's a dead blog. a corpse. I just believe in archival so I've left her be. Like in a museum or something. Or more like taxidermy. My eyes hurt looking at this these days </3 the curse of degenerative eyeballs.

This Tumblr Thing.

Ye ol' faithful!!!!!!! The blog you're currently visiting. My enjoyment of neon is at constant war with my light sensitivity, thank you for asking! I make it work. The tag page is really pleasing to look at for me. Colours <3. Thank tumblr itself (for once in it's lifetime) for the colours i use the most for everything - the goth rave tumblr theme changed me fundamentally as a person /joke but yeah for real i yoinked my palette straight from the dashboard. I love goth rave so much you don't understand

[venusvity]

seeing the post mentioning venus originally being got7's sister i feel kinda nostalgic... how would be the current lineup (baebi, chloe, sena, jiah and possibly bliss) if there was no angelico but they were "just" a group under jyp? like success-wise and even more plot-wise? (it's crazy how much i loved them back then and still love them even though they are sooo different now)

back in the day when they were just under jyp, venus was very successful! like, they surpassed twice and got7 and we in the leagues with blackpink. there was a point were they were so successful, they were isolated from their jyp peers which constellations didn't like as they really liked seeing twius and v7 interactions. they were not a fan of venus x skz interactions as there was a big scandal involving chan and yoonah that they completely blamed on chan when it was literally all yoonah's fault but skjdfnsd just know if stray kids had no haters constellions were dead lol 😭

a lot of venus' plots back there were more focused on like .... who i wanted to write fanfic about at the time lol! like I'll be blunt, i used venus as a way to write smut about my faves simply because i didn't wanna write reader inserts anymore and wanted to explore "darker" storylines which i don't think were that dark? idk my threshold for dark has risen over the years but i did want to explore toxic relationship more (yoochan + yoonah x jaebeom + chloe x johnny) while still having an outlet to project and kiss kpop boys fictionally sfdsfsdf.

i want to say the main storyline back then, was yoonah and her depression and drug abuse as well as chloe and johnny navigating their relationship post him cheating on her. i will say those plots, while good and still dear to me, were most def me working through my own experiences with mental health and toxic relationships which truly i still do in my writing to this day, but idk i like to think I've grown as a writer since then.

hope this answers your question, nonnie! i started rambling toward the end lol 💓

[coralsgrimes]

It’s just really funny that Kevin has a new song coming out and a small gig tour in a couple of months, and Ben has completely ignored both of them. Kevin barely posted Ben’s album party disaster, and his was the only comment on Ben’s post that Benny ignored. Now he’s got a new song and a few gigs lined up with someone else in late April, so it doesn’t sound like he would be available if Ben was planning anything for Europe if he’s there for reshoots and that S&B convention mess.

Calahan’s also releasing a spoken word album later this year, and has been posting short films from it, which Ben has also ignored. It’s mediocre crap, but it’s still better than Benny’s writing, and you can tell that song Stolen Time the other poster was talking about them both working on was mostly Calahan.

And other mutual friends of theirs have commented on both, so it says a lot that Ben hasn’t acknowledged any of it. I wonder how often people just get tired of him. Forget partner, he doesn’t even sound like this wonderful friend he claims he is either.

See despite them calling each other friends or whatever glue to life Benny's smart mind came up with, I do think Kevin still is/was boy's employee as much. And I doubt he can make a living off of Benny cuz as we know Benny likes to cash on freebies, is extremely cheap and has no real job.

THO! This brings me to 2021 when he first released the music. He was very obviously trynna cash lotsa favors then and he was getting friendly (or more like look at us we are besties) with Jonathan Nolan and Lisa Joy. Remember that premiere where he looked like he got lost and showed up there by accident lol?

So back then me and a few muffins brought back some more instances of Benny being a climber. Majority was obviously based on his social media activities and whatnots but the conclusion was that he was 'friends' with whoever could take him higher or offer him something. When he was done, the friendsy vibes were gone in an instant.

And many muffins were like - ye gotta ease on them shrooms cuz this is getting ridiculous Coral. Which I get, skepticism is good. Honestly I actually can see it being half assed back then from where Imma currently.

THO LO AND BEHOLD! It is happening again, clear as day. I'd say no surprise here lol

And lemme add. He is either friendly with people who he works with but their friendship works to his advantage mostly (see gymbros, breddy, bessie), he is 'friends' with people who are professionals who he actually employs (see kevin, and that piano guy I wanna say Charlie??), and finally among these two groups he is friends with people who are younger than him, or I would even add some of them are significantly younger than him.

And then ye know, his old friends, who he never can be seen with or he looks like deer in them highlights lol ye know the old crowd. The original lion face lady, or Jules herself. OH or the latest exhibit. He hid Zelda so well that a while back a nonnie send me an ask asking who is that girlie with him. And it was Zelda lol

Oh and obvi then there's the cool cali kids club that he wanna be a part off. But that's like another can of worms lol

TL;DR yeah he is a bad friend and he is being a good one when he needs something. Just another one into the how Benny really is like portfolio.

[joemoibackup]

can i share my reasons for believing without being attacked?

someone stated she was on the guestlist for the hoard premiere. they arrived and left separately but his fans were there so this isnt as insane as it sounds.

she knows has interacted with the hoard producers and luna

she boasts about her favourite birthday present, a ‘k’ intial from our boys favorite shop the great frog

during the festival, she somehow bumps into lorn who attaches onto her. lorn knows about her and joe through a or millie

she posted a picture from the underground on her way to a date

she posted ‘this must be the place’ which is from one of joes favorite bands

she immediately put things to rest saying she wont post about her personal life, which she doesnt, she doesnt post her friends or family

she is allegedly spotted with him at a restaraunt and a fan uploads this to twitter. it shows their current location so it is removed

wesley follows her, she removes it

alicia becomes more insane knowing he has moved on

he is alledgedly spotted at the streets gig with her

she posts a photo of beautiful flowers

he is announced for a northern comic con, his first which is coincidental considering she is from the north originally

people start thanking her for getting joe to the north

she follows joe keery and ridley scott the weekend before jk is due to visit the uk

joseph cancels the con and flies to malta with his dad

joseph flies to malta to finish filming, she travels to malta a week later

she addresses posts as ‘we find this funny’

she defends herself without addressing the elephant in the room.

i think that is my extensive list but to me all signs point to something happening

Nonnie I’m gonna try not to be rude here, and I’m sorry if any of it comes off of rude but here’s my take on all of this

A lot of this sounds like a girl who is just dating. The flowers could be from anyone. I’ve gotten flowers from a man before, and I’ve gotten flowers sent to my office from a client before. Those could be from anyone.

I don’t ever remember seeing anything on Twitter about him being on a date at a restaurant. That would’ve made the rounds. And if he was spotted at a gig with her… That also would’ve made the rounds. And it didn’t.

I don’t know about that but she has a very wide variety of songs on Spotify. Somebody sent me her Spotify link and I did look at it. I’m not saying that I didn’t look at it.

Following Joe Keery doesn’t really mean anything. She clearly likes his music that’s very obvious based off the Spotify. And following Ridley Scott, if she’s trying to be a Director, or a writer, he would be somebody to follow.

The worst thing was never confirmed. In fact, it’s like 99% sure made up by fandom. Nobody ever has proof of that.

People are thinking Joe for getting her to the north because they are assuming things. The only reason he was going to the north was because he was getting offered a lot of money for it. And he didn’t end up canceling it.

We find this funny, could definitely be about her friends, or it could be just her fucking around.

There are answers to a lot of this, and I don’t wanna go through all of them because I don’t wanna hurt your feelings or for you to feel like I’m attacking you. We’re allowed to have different opinions, but I need to play devils advocate here.