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dimonds456 · 1 year ago

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Hey I'm just curious where the info about nile crocodiles possibly going extinct due to the bombings came from because I can't find that information anywhere or even evidence that nile crocodiles live or lived anywhere near the area

Good question! I found a couple articles that talks about it. It seems the Nile croc USED to exist there and no longer does (because of Britain, not Israel). So they have just completely left that area, and have been gone since the 1930's. Still misinformation on my end, I'm sorry.

Another amendment: I put that in my post because I had just seen a Tumblr post about the last croc being mourned by Palestinians, and with everything going on, I thought it was related to the genocide. It wasn't. It was recent art about an event that happened a long time ago. Here's the Reddit version of that post as well.

I should have done more research beforehand. I was frustrated and just reciting information I'd reblogged onto my blog. The crocodile thing was actually what pushed me to make that post in the first place, so that is 100% on me. (And yes, even that post said "1930s", so I don't really have an excuse on that one besides I was tired and frustrated, but yeah. I still am, but y'know.)

Between Extinction and Dispossession: A Rhetorical Historiography of the Last Palestinian Crocodile (1870–1935) by Elisabeth Bentley

On Killing Crocodiles: Colonial Zoology in Late Ottoman Palestine by Elisabeth Bentley

I would like to note that both my sources are from the same person. Bentley appears to be an expert on the topic, and also the only one talking about it. Her essays keep being re-used on different websites over and over again, so it looks like I'm not the only one who can't find any other sources. But her work is well-written, and definitely worth a read.

I'm gonna be more diligent about this going forward.

#dimond speaks #at least bentley isn't being plagiarized over this but it is upsetting that she's the only one focusing on this #idk. the post was a vent that i shouldn't have tried to make it anything more than that #fortunately not many people have found that post so I can take it down #but yeah.#i'm still really fucking upset over it #i just wish i could DO something y'know?#so i thought maybe making a post would be SOMETHING #but i really dropped the ball on that #I'm gonna make another one and this time i'm gonna do some SERIOUS research #i wanna compile everything in one place and keep adding to it as shit goes down #i think that will be MUCH better than the other post.#again sorry for just making that post without doing my own research and just reciting things i'd heard #hearsay is never good especially about stuff like this #this now sounds like a youtuber apology video oh god GFHJDSAK #but yeah. not doing that again. if im gonna vent it's going to be A VENT not a serious post

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the-punforgiven · 10 months ago

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Hey, I'm really sorry to have to ask y'all, but my family and I are being evicted from our home and we can't really afford to live anywhere else.

We've been saving up for a while and we've found a place we can almost afford, but we're still short about $4,400. So like, if you have anything you can do to help I'd greatly appreciate it, but like, I get that times are tough all around so I totally understand if you don't

Here's a link to my paypal, but like, please only donate if you've got the cash to spare, I don't want anyone to go hungry on my account

#I'm sorry to have to do this y'all ;-;#Idk what else to even do though #like this shabby little trailer we're looking at is like the second cheapest place in the entire town #we're getting kicked out of the first #the rent was dirt cheap due to the asbestos and ghosts and even then we could barely afford it lol #I wish I could offer emergency commissions or something but I've been so paralyzed by the stress of this whole situation #it's hard to do shit like draw and I'm afraid if I do the emergency commissions thing the stress'll just crush me #as if it hasn't been already lol #and I feel bad because there's like #so much more important shit in the world going on rn #and more important voices that need to be heard than mine #but also like #we need a place to live #y'know?#sorry for this again ;-;#pun's text posts #help

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bredforloyalty · 3 months ago

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can somebody who has too much hope and joy transfuse some of it directly into me

#btw. i am not sure the progesterone test was done correctly/on the correct day or that it means anything (cause different people ovulate #during on different days of the cycle like it's simply hard to tell what's normal for you and how your body works)#but the results came but and it looks like my progesterone is like very low. for the 21st day #which could mean. i didn't ovulate. you know how i said this month i didn't feel energized like i tend to do i just felt like shit?#well. maybe it meant something? you know what low progesterone is associated with? mood swings. depression. anxiety #and you know what can cause it? stress ofc. and you know what else. high prolactin levels. which is also true for me #so who's the fucking culprit. thyroid? pituitary gland? can i do anything except the usual “just eat healthy exercise eliminate all forms o #stress and lose all bad habits and maybe that will help“#:/ whatever y'know i wish i could ask cosmo and wanda to remove my uterus #kata.txt

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stop-breaking-my-heart-dragonage · 10 months ago

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Me, when Sebastian joins my party for the first time: Okay, this time I'm not going to forget about you, Sebastian. I'm going to make an effort to use you a lot this playthrough so I can better understand you.

Also me, immediately forgetting about Sebastian while finishing Act 2 and making it halfway through Act 3 before I finally notice his Faith quest: ......................Oh. Right. My bad.

#da2 #dragon age 2 #sebastian vael #listen in my defense..........i don't like bringing sebastian anywhere sksksks #okay look i seriously tried but every time i bring him somewhere i always think man i wish i had brought someone else #and also i do just forget about him! i finally added him to my party at one point and he had 24 points to spend...#that's how long i neglected him after i promised myself i was gonna use him more and then i didn't #it's not that i don't like sebastian as a character though i do tend to side eye him A LOT... it's just that i like everyone else more #even aveline like i'd take aveline over sebastian any day and that's saying something... or is it? i have a lot of feelings about aveline #whereas my feelings about sebastian could maybe fill a thimble...it doesn't help that in my canon run as a mage hawke #i romance anders and well... sebastian wants me to kill anders and my hawke is like 'do i approve of blowing up the chantry? complicated.'#'am i breaking up with anders for this? absolutely. do i still love him? mmhmmm. am i going to kill him sebby? i'd sooner set varric aflame #then sebastian threatens to bring an army to kirkwall and leaves so i can't say i have the greatest opinion on him #even the time where i did kill anders and he stayed in my party he was just... there #and then he glitched out and started t posing while asking if ed ever found out what anders wanted to do in the chantry so..... yeah #but even this playthrough where i'm playing as a lady warrior with a different personality and everything... i'd just rather use anyone els #also keep him away from bethany i do not approve sksksks she's too good for him #i want to understand and see the different angles of him like with the other companions but i've yet to convince myself to do it #also sebastian romancers out there can you like... explain? genuinely can you explain the appeal? i'm curious #because of all the love interests in da2 i look at sebastian and you'd think i'd maybe be more interested? but it's like...#i know about the chaste marriage and everything like that's fine i don't need sex to be a thing in the relationship but it feels less like #an asexual romance and more like... y'know... being with a priest and i guess that's just not one of my kinks? sksksks #i guess there's also the prince angle but i romanced alistair in dao and kept him a grey warden i don't really care about royalty power #and i don't have issues with him being a part of the chantry [well i do but yknow what i mean] since i romanced cullen in dai #and his whole deal with the chantry and magic and shit makes his romance interesting to me but sebastian is just.... a bit too much i think #i don't know i'd like to understand because i really don't but i also keep forgetting about him

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forest-hashira · 3 months ago

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instagram has shown me the same ad for an online master of arts in museum studies program THREE TIMES today

it sounds like fun but i don't have money, i don't wanna take out more loans, and i am soooo bad with online classes. i just straight up forget i have to do things. i know trying to do this would probably not be a great decision rn (especially since i tried grad school once before and it thoroughly whooped my ass) and i'm... actually pretty sad about it, and i don't know why.

#fallon rambles #it's not like i miss being a student #in fact the longer i'm out of school the more i realize i really like not being a student #but... idk. it just sounds like fun. i wish it was something i could just do for kicks y'know?#sigh. it is what it is ig. not everything is gonna be something i can do even if i want to.

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lupismaris · 1 year ago

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I have four (only four) photos of the party (a handful of guests around the fire taken well after dark) not counting post party bathroom selfies that might be salvageable and a bunch of photos of my parents' Christmas tree (taken because we aren't doing a tree this year and I got emotional when leaving)

Not a single photo of food, not a single photo of wine, not a single photo of me with anyone, not a single photo of the guests together or who came, not a single photo taken for social or for myself to prove the day even happened

Just a fleeting moment burnt out like a joyful ember filled with food, music, and people spending time together

I like to think that makes it a successful party

#this. this is a special kind of high.#like i don't think i could cut it as say a line cook y'know but a clam bake? pig/lamb roast? Crawfish boil? oh. oooh im king.#ok maybe not king but i feel untouchable rn. there was only one moment yesterday where I saw ppl on their phones n shit #yes i wish groups had merged a bit more and if I'd scheduled my time a bit better i could have done that #but for a first time ever hosting anything and having 25-30 people total ilthe fact that everyone said and seemed to enjoy themselves #and was engaged in conversations with people and connecting with each other and hanging out without having to put on facades #and demolished the food. absolutely demolished it. i had enough for a second round but by the time it was worth putting out #people were telling me to stop cooking tho i did pull out some for late arrivals #god i want to do this all the time holy shit. just. oh my god i need to figure out to do this regularly. my parents wont be up for it.#but maybe something. ill figure it out.

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maretriarch · 6 months ago

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getting my nails and toes done in a full lisa frank themed square tip set and using them to latch myself into the drywall

#like a koala #im not an acrylic nail guy but i kinda wish i was i bet i would have some really fun ones theyre just y'know #inconvenient and uncomfortable i don't understand how you do literally anything with them on also the fact you couldn't really match them #with any outfits would annoy me a lot too cus id want something really crazy and multi colored and artsy if im spending like what 80 bucks #on them #and i dress pretty monotone and color blocked. clashy clashy just not my style #i got a lash lift then immediately had to go outside and do yard work and could feel them melting and pissed myself off so bad

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skrunksthatwunk · 1 month ago

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really fun letting all of my favorite shows take turns being the "i can't think about it i can't think about it i can't think about it!!" bingewatch during finals season/associated crunch times. they're being inducted into a society

#so i watched s1 of the funny ballet show. AGAIN like i think this has literally happened in this context before #'oh man i have so much to do for today and i can't skip woahh' (watches 4.3 hours of ducky content)#not the only unproductive thing i did this weekend. there were several #anyway gonna keep this brief for obvious reasons but gahhh i love the funny ballet show #idk how i keep forgetting how cute ahiru is. like her slapstick in the first few eps is way more prominent #and i just like it!!!! shes a silly goose!!!!!!!(duck) and i like her very much she's great #rue's stepping into kraehe's shoes (literally) For Real On Purpose stemming from wanting things to stay the same forever. aughh #like mytho's her one escape from it all he's the one thing/person she feels safe with #and to stick to something stagnant and loveless just so she can have someone to project those feelings onto who won't leave is. gahhhh #i also always forget how much i love rue like. YOU'RE GONNA BE OKAY #i wish mytho changed more with each shard but it's always fun to see how the prev episode's shard affects the next when it happens #which is decently often #early fakir's comedically evil toxic bf thing is still shocking to me. they turn him around so fast and it starts when mytho regains fear #imo. once mytho can Undeniably Suffer the negative effects of fakir's treatment he can't quite bring himself to do it #fakir resorting to these awful authoritarian abusive ways of keeping mytho under his control bc he's desperate and scared and overwhelmed #is like. augh hes so interesting to me. night and day swap though it's crazy how much work those like 4 episodes before akt 12 do for him #anyway. i love it it's great it's always great. comfort show indeed + i gotta get back to work now + bye #no but fakir doubles and quadruples down on never budging on his treatment of mytho bc again hes scared but also i think it's a little like #he suppresses all his feelings so he doesn't lose control over mytho and justifies it with mytho's lack of feeling #when he tells mytho to forget about it and that emotions are useless and stupid he's talking to himself too y'know #i think there's a squishy sentimental part of him he tried very hard to crush out of himself to better protect mytho (from himself + tutu #+ the raven etc) and once it's clear (though not immediately) that mytho has feeling and a will to regain his heart he starts helping him #he embodies warped devotion and loyalty as much as rue and similarly to tutu. fakir and rue devalue their own and mytho's feelings #while ahiru only devalues her own. her brand of self sacrifice is something to be challenged and overcome in the same way #but shes able to start all this because she cares about what mytho's feelings Would/Could be > what they currently are (nothing)#ANYWAY. good show. i forgot about the greenscreened in/obvious live action effect fire/fog in a couple episodes that was funny

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edith-is-a-cat · 1 year ago

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Fuck.

I wish I could help.

#lmao hey tumblr vent post time #vent mostly in the tags #tw sucidal ideation #sucide attempt #< not from me from a friend #I won't be naming them since y'know privacy and all that jazz #but it's an online I fucking love them so much #and I don't know how to help #i don't know them as well as i did my previous best friend since we aren't really close #i and others have been trying to get them to stop trying as they document it in vent #ive been doing my best but i don't know what else to say since im just an online friend no one to really be attached to #online acquaintance would be a better term for me ig.. idk #I think the other have been/are suicidal so they are much better than me for helping #and im just some guy who can't relate so i don't know how to help..#im so upset that i can't bc what if they do i can't stop them #reason number 9 to be able teleport to prevent a suicide and be a better support system #im too silly to be of good use litterally told them if they do and when i die in my 40s ill lecture them like a mom #wish i could lecture them like a mom rn #im going to cry in the attic or something i feel like my brain is pre grieving or something #no im not putting my organizing tag on this feels too ..wrong

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bittershins · 2 years ago

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having a bit of a rough evening:

it's been feeling like more and more lately that I'm acting a part around most people I spend time with and I'm just feeling. verytired. Also i have so many hangups like good fucken god.

ANYWAYS farewell transmission is a beautiful song. in case anyone was wondering

#WE'RE A-FUMBLING FOLKS #I may or may not have done something this weekend that was maybe a poor decision #and i cannot tell if that is the case or not and i feel like i can't relax #and i GET why i am the way i am #and for the most part I've managed to unpack a lot of my bullshit #but god sometimes i really wish I could just fall in love like everyone else manages #I'm very much of the philosophy that intent is the basis of different types of relationships #but i just wish I was able to loosen up sometimes #sincerity is scary and all that jazz #i feel like i manage to talk a lot about everything besides the stuff I file away y'know?#and I'm trying to not linger on it because it's not gonna do me ANY good #but i worry that people just see me at a surface level and never feel inclined to want to get to know me further #I'm good with casual friends #deep friendships are where i get tripped up

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kyouka-supremacy · 2 years ago

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Well. the new chapter!!!!!

#Finally read it 🥰🥰🥰#Dostoyevsky doing something I missed you so much 😭😭😭#And hurray for Chuuya lives (kind of) of course!!!!!#Though c'mon. there were a thousand and one ways they could escape #Dostoyevsky is just so cute‚ my beloved 😭😭😭 So unfortunately I can't get to work to make any edit right now–#because I have to study because instead of studying I spent the whole day in anxiety for the chapter and now I pay the consequences 😔#SIGMA WAS SO PRETTY TOO #Anywaysssss glad we're back at the Meursault pov I'm excited for the next chapter! I hope Dazai drowns <3 #“I"m wet and cold” HE WAS SO FUNNY FOR THAT #I LOVE HIM SO MUCH #Edit wait more: it was nice but seriously I wish this chapter would have come immediately after ch 101...#It would have made the pacing much better in my opinion to turn the tables immediately like #“AH. YOU THOUGHT IT WAS THIS TEAM DROWNING BUT IT'S ACTUALLY THE OTHER”#But now the effect of thinking one was drowning kind of faded... I can't explain it well but y'know ://#Edit edit 2: btw what about the time limit. No way all of this happened in less than 30 minutes. c'mon.#And what about Gogol!! Where's the clown!!!#bsd #bsd ch 105.5 #random rambles #mine #fyodor dostoevsky #chūya nakahara #sigma #osamu dazai #nikolai gogol

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wereh0gz · 3 months ago

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Started replaying sonic frontiers and have been having a blast but also why is the switch version so fucked

#ramblings #the graphics......#i forgot just how bad they were. how did they fuck it up so bad for this version specifically #bc i KNOW the other versions don't look like that #it's baffling #sonic frontiers is my favorite 3ds game #i mean it's not that bad. there's worse looking games on the switch. probably #i am also playing on a switch lite #but still other games still look wonderful on my switch why is frontiers specifically Like That #sonic also feels really finicky to control sometimes but like that's a problem with most sonic games so. whatever #i might need to just adjust my settings or something #still. aside from that. been having fun :]#i needed to see sonic just interacting with his friends again #and running around the islands doing random stuff #it gets me thinking about what future games could be like. bc looking at sonic x shadow gens #it really feels like they're building upon frontiers' foundation. at least with how their making the main hub an open zone #makes me excited for when they make a new standalone game #i hope we get news for something like that soon. not rushing for them to pump out a game right after sonic x shadow gens but y'know #like an announcement that they're working on something. a teaser maybe #i wanna feel the same insanity i felt when frontiers was first teased basically #tho it might still be a bit too soon to ask for that #aghhhh i wanna know what comes next so baddddddd i wish i wasn't so impatient #wow i went completely off topic. anyway

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primatechnosynthpop · 6 months ago

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There are a few later-seasons trgb eps I wish had been made when the show was still good, but "spacebusters" has gotta be one of my top picks. I know there already was a space-themed episode in season two but I honestly think this one has a more compelling plot and it could have fucked so hard if a) the animation was done in the first few seasons' style so it could have a more legit creepy atmosphere; b) the writing was a little more competent in places; and c) we didn't have to have slimer around constantly killing the tension with his interjections. That said, I don't think even the better era of the show would have given me what I really want, which is to spend more time on the fucked up survival horror scenario winston was in for however long it was before the others got there

#like imagine. you're so excited to go on this trip and fulfill a lifelong dream (...never mind the previous time you went to space)#but then people start vanishing right out of their spacesuits #something is hunting you down one by one and you're trapped on this space station without any real way to defend yourself #and the people you normally rely on as partners aren't there. then finally it's just you alone on the station #only surviving thus far thanks to a piece of technology you have but that mysterious thing is still on the prowl and hungry #and when your partners do show up they don't immediately believe it's really you!!#like that's some horror stuff right there dude. it's fucked up. i want to explore that in detail #wish more of it could have been shown rather than just told about. y'know?#and like i say even the early seasons probably wouldn't have delivered on quite such a thing #BUT if it was a better episode it might have inspired fanworks that would properly delve into the space horror potential of it all #who's to say

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xviruserrorx · 8 months ago

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I don't understand why people get frustrated at things they knew were gonna happen because someone else is chronically I'll and it's happened multiple times before so it's not like it's new, like oh yeah sorry for existing like this

#family wanted me to go to this restaurant and to try their shakes and they've talked about it multiple times about going #and they kept mentioning it and just yeah so the said 'were going' and i just shrugged and said okay #we've been to restaurants times before and it goes the same every time with me getting fries or some type of potato or salad #because their safe foods and indont want to be sick and most of the time i cant eat almost all the menu so this isn't new #but they want to eat before we get these shakes (the shakes that are going to inevitably make me very sick) so we order food #surprise enough i order cheese fries that say they just have cheese on them on the menu but of course they lied as always #so the fries have bacon and chives and olives and a bunch of stuff and the cheese isnt even a cheese sauce #but cheese from the store thats been melted in a microwave on the fries and is very very oily and y'know great these are gonna make me sick #i force down the food as fast as i can and act like its fine but of course family gets mad that im doing this #they then ask after me trying to force down this food what flavor of shake i want and im probably gonna end up throwing #up half of the food i just ate and so i say no to the shake which is a gurantee of me being up all night throwing up #they get frustrated because 'we came here for the shakes' and i dont even know im so tired like #i font know what people want me to do i cant exist the way they want me to and eat the food and interact with the world how they want me to #like how do they want me to do thing? i wish people would tell me how they wanted me to do things and then i could do it #and i really can i can play pretend i do it sooo well i can eat the food you want me to and do what you want me to #but we literyjoked how i couldn't eat barely anything on the menu and we still got in the car and left and like #family is a bust my friends are too busy living and being with their other friends who arent sick so thats always hood to think about #literally got told to my face that she made a new friend (which is always good) but that this new friends reminded her exactly of me #and that they talks to them every single day and they've gone to movies and this and that and... i texted her multiple times #and she hasnt texted me back in months... infont think that lerson reminds me of who i AM i think they remind her of who i WAS #when i was sick very sick but still more abled and able to just exist #but yeah so im gonna write some fanfic - im gonna mod for something - then mod for another thing with really sweet mods in it #i wanted to rewatch a spn episode with the angels in it so ill do that and maybe work on a bracelet #and yeah... and then ill do it all over again and eat my safe foods and do the things that make me comfortable because fuck them #virus rambling

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sapsolais · 1 year ago

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#do you ever wonder if you're missed?#i'm sure everyone does #i was making breakfast n #i was just thinkin of someone i loved #it's funny that i'm so So into something that they also are. n it just had me thinking 'yeah they Would enjoy this'#it's funny that i can still think fondly of someone that hates me so much #or. did at the time. not quite sure where that stands #but it hurts my heart and it tugs at my stomach a bit #or maybe i'm just hungry. i stopped making breakfast to write this down #HDJDHFKGHG #i can't help but wonder or worry. i wish we could talk about it y'know #but they left. so #y'know you know everything about someone n they want nothin to do with you but you still can't help but hope they're doing well #that the things hurting them have eased up. that maybe they've changed (and maybe they haven't shfkgjgk)#s'not my place to assume #i was going somewhere with this #i think. it's just #there's something that makes me want to cry #something in loving the same thing parallel to someone whose life used to be intertwined with yours #would've loved to talk about it together if things had gone different.#sap says

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blackkatdraws2 · 3 days ago

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[Toon x Mobster] Ticklish

Actually it'd be funnier if Jack was somehow the only person who could tickle him. Everyone else tries and Gavriel has no reaction but when Jack does it he's screaming bloody murder. It would explain how he's never been tickled before despite Grace (his little sister) literally being there... who knows, it's just an idea though. Toon logic or something.

[Yapping here for a bit:]

This is a bit specific, but I wish there were more fics/art about tickling... :(

Like, pure childish fun tickling, one that makes you thrash around like a worm until you're screaming at the other person to stop with tears in your eyes from laughter.

ESPECIALLY WHEN IT COMES TO THE BIG BROODING CHARACTERS! There's something so deeply entertaining and endearing about these scary dudes absolutely folding when it comes to something as silly as being tickled of all things.

It makes me feel 🌺🪷✧˖° o(〃＾▽＾〃)o ⊹ ࣪ ˖🌸💮, y'know?

Do you see what I mean, do you see the vision here, tell me you do.

#toon x mobster #txm #jack desmond #gavriel huffman #oc #ocs #oc art #original character #original characters #original character art #my drawing museum #cough. anyway.

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