#i just want to kill myself hashtag

[inkats]

having a crush is like poison status effect whenever u have to think.

[villalunae]

the boiling hatred in my soul for nintendo for making zelda fridge herself. like how much do you fucking hate women. the girl kills herself for the narrative!! its plot important!! she humiliates her body mind and soul forever, destroys it and tears it to pieces ALL just so pretty boy can have his precious sword back all safe and sound bc ummm obviously theres no other plotlines we could have pursued for you losing the master sword </3 like. theres feminist ways to have this happen i promise you nintendo so why did you choose the most fucking misogynistic framing of it. "zelda disembowels herself for link" SoooO hashtag girl power nintendo. rlly shows how much zelda values herself and her autonomy and her dignity

[dog-girl-zezora]

normal people should not ask me any personal questions i will literally respond in the most insane way possible like i cant just be like "oh thats personal" hell no im about to make it your problem for asking you FUCKING IDIOT.

[piplupod]

what if i just stopped being mentally ill. what then.

[uhhhtestingtesting]

I thijk ill just eat lead actually

[southislandwren]

FUCK the girl who moved into apartment 1 i am going to fucking snap!!!!!!!!! WHY are you hammering(???) or knocking(??????) on the walls at 8pm!!!!!!!!!! this was my safe space and now its fucking not. ive put up with the loud walking and the mysterious thumps for like two months but i cant handle the knocks that i hear THROUGH my noise cancelling headphones + tunes from my phone. people always think its funny that i love my car so much but you know where i never have fucking sound problems??? in my CAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[umbralwaves]

Tinu has died. She had cancer and long covid. Read her thread.

— SaliWho 🏳️‍🌈 (@SaliWho) September 30, 2024

Thread:

Immunocompromised people: Any chance we could mask like, at least in healthcare settings

Liberals who don't mask: HOW DARE YOU REMIND ME I CONSIDER CERTAIN PEOPLE DISPOSABLE!!! IT MAKES IT HARDER FOR ME TO TELL MYSELF I'M A GOOD PERSON!!! THIS IS A BAD TACTIC! YOU'RE DERANGED!!

— Jolenta Greenberg (@jolenta_) August 3, 2024

Meanwhile I come home sick from chemo EVERY month.

My system has deteriorated so much I am now going to chemo on Monday

STILL SICK from the last time I had chemo.

It is literally, actively killing me that people don’t mask. No one cares. 😭😭#WearAMask

You have no idea how lonely the feeling is. If I ask nicely, no one cares. I know that because I asked politely, Now that it is an emergency I alternate between screaming and begging, No one cares. People not masking is literally killing me but if I beg for accommodation, somehow I’m the villain. Only the people already masking listen.

But when I die — people will say I didn’t advocate long enough. I might become a hashtag for a few days and people will move on. My friends will keep dying unnecessary deaths. Because no one cares. Because if people cared about disabled people, about people with long covid, about cancer patients? Instead of arguing with me They’d say let’s mask just in case. JUST IN CASE THE EVIDENCE RHAT IT IS KILLING HER IS EIGHT LETS MASK.

if I do die, this is what killed me, people not masking or believing long covid lowers your immunity and/or the cancer & /or the medicine.

Because you can’t always tell who has cancer, who is disabled, who is #HighRiskCOVID19. We are ALL at risk for COVID & long COVID & flus & colds. And the possibility of never recovering is random. It happens to the healthiest people.

DEATH is up 30% since COVID.

Why can’t I convince you not to play with your own life?

Not just mine? 😭

Because maybe you know someone like me. Maybe someone you love, maybe YOU are just like me but you don’t know yet.

And if I’m wrong, you wore a piece of fiber on your face for a few years while someone came up with something better If you can afford it. And are able. If you’re wrong the world and its ecosystem will be sick for decades. Because of the climate crisis timing maybe we just… die offs

— Tinu Abayomi-Paul aka Empress of Twerk. NO DMs (@Tinu) August 4, 2024

[caplanbuckybarnes]

Caplan's Disney Celebration

Rules:

You don’t have to follow me, but its definitely encouraged!

PLEASE use a summary!!

If the fic is more the 300 words, use a keep reading feature!!!

Tag the challenge as #

There’s no limit how many prompts you can chose!

Tag my url & the challenge name in the a/n’s note before the fic along with the hashtag please!

No due dates 

Any character you’d like to write for!

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If i do not respond to your fic within 24 hours of posting, PLEASE message me a link!!

Dialogue Prompts

"Take it with you so you'll always have a way to look back ... and remember me."

 "Have you ever seen something so wonderful in your entire life?"

“How did you survive being locked up in a castle for all this time?”

“What do you mean, you’re the lost princess?”

"Family means nobody gets left behind or forgotten"

“It’s called a cruel irony, like my dependence on you.”

“I warn you child. If I lose my temper, you lose your head. Understand?!”

“Perhaps you shouldn’t turn your back on me.” 

 “A true loves kiss. If only there was someone out there who loved you.” 

"Today is a good day to try"

"Love is putting someone else’s needs before yours"

"If you ain’t scared, you ain’t alive"

"Any day spent with you is my favorite day. So, today is my new favorite day"

"He fell into despair, and lost all hope. For who could ever learn to love a beast?"

“You really shouldn’t come back here, you know. It’s not safe.”

“I told you to stay away from this wing!”

“He was this close—just staring at me.”

“Do you trust me?”

“(And) You will always be in my heart.”

“I especially love his smile.”

“New and a bit alarming.”

“Now kiss her.”

“How can I prove myself if no one will give me a chance?”

“People around here think I’m crazy, but I don’t care.”

“I’m a damsel. I’m in distress. I can handle this. Have a nice day.”

“Guys….I want a castle.”

“If you can’t say something nice, don’t say nothin’ at all.”

“When I look at you, I can feel it. I look at you, and I’m home.”

“Put that thing back where it came from or so help me.”

“There’s no one I’d rather be than me.”

“It was worth it…if you learned something from it.”

“You deliberately disobeyed me.”

“I’m surrounded by idiots.”

“How could you do that to me?”

Song Lyric prompts

“And I’ve got friends on the other side.” - Dr. Facilier, “Friends on the Other Side”, 

“But you’ll be rewarded when at last I am given my dues. And injustice deliciously squared! Be prepared.”

“I admit that in the past I’ve been a nasty. They weren’t kidding when they called me, well, a witch.”

“If she doesn’t scare you, no evil thing will.”

“I’ve reached the top and had to stop and that’s what botherin’ me.”

“Ain't got time for messing around”

“People down here think I'm crazy”

“I put a spell on you, and now you’re mine.

“Don’t forget it, you’ll regret it.”

“Every hour we spent together Lives within my heart”

“Never thought she'd look my way And she smiled at me and held me”

“I was the master of my fate.”

“I learned the truth too late.”

“I let her steal into my melancholy heart.”

“I'm where I'm meant to be”

“He has never been one of us.”

“Now I know she’ll never leave me.” 

“I should thank you...but it’d be more fun to kill you.”

“This crown gives me a feeling of power!”

“It’s not my fault, I’m not to blame”

“He asked for trouble the moment he came”

[myinnerartist]

Hello everyone, It is i, load!

And I have a question for all of you My Inner Demons fans! How would you feel if I made a month-long prompt-challenge list (akin to that of Smaugust or Mermay) but for My Inner Demons? For any of y'all to participate in if you so want to!

Specifically, a prompt challenge…

for designing a fauna or flora (aka animal or plant) that you would imagine (based on each prompt) would live on daemos!

I thought this would be a fun little challenge for myself as a part of my creation process for further worldbuilding of my reimagining, but then I realized… Why just for me? Maybe some people would want to use this prompt list for themselves as well, and so! I decided to do just that! make this for anyone who wants to participate in this prompt-challenge for themselves as well!

This prompt challenge isn't strict though, and is loose in its “rules,” or more accurately guidelines?...

Anywho,

the Guidelines!;

You can either do both a fauna and flora design for a prompt, or do a fauna design for one prompt and a flora design for the next one! Or you can do all fauna OR all flora! use this prompt list however you like! As long as it's making a design for either a fauna or Flora lifeform, it counts!

Don't feel pressured to make a fauna/flora design every day! It's alright if you skip, don't finish, or extend this prompt challenge into december. As long as you're having fun and enjoying yourself, that's what matters more!

Submissions don't have to be drawings!! They can be written submissions as well! Whether it is just an explanation and informative submission of the creature or plant, or like a Daemon’ recording their findings or knowledge of said lifeform. OR even if it's in story form! As long as it explains the Fauna or Flora's Appearance and Behavior!

Though that leads me to more of a suggestion/recommendation than a guideline;

Consider the appearance, behavior, and place in the world your creature or plant would have, as an example; what does it do? How does it act? What is its most identifiable feature? How can it be used? What sort of environment or climate would it live in?

More importantly; how would daemos interact with it? Would they hunt it or gather it for food? Would they raise it like livestock? Would they farm it? Would they tame it like a pet or familiar? Would they avoid it at all costs? Is it used in medicines or poisons? Would they go out of their way to kill or harvest it in a rite-of-passage/age ritual? (The possibilities are endless!)

These questions are optional but recommended! :3

With that aside, this prompt-challenge will begin in November! The hashtags for said Prompt-Challenge are; #Daevember and #Daevember2024! I hope to see you and your submissions if you choose to participate!

(The prompt list will be revealed on the first day of November! So remember to keep a lookout for that on Friday!)

Have a good day/noon/night! (& have a spooktacular Halloween!)

[lebensmudewing]

I don't agree with people that says that "neuroatypical people are making their whole personalities around their neurodivergency" because "they put the hashtag #autism or #adhd on Tinder". While at the same time they claim that those conditions impply illness and disability.

Yes, a big portion of my life revolve around the fact that I'm disabled and I think that a potential partner or friend should know about it. The behavior that I expect is "Wow, that person interest me, and says she is ND, so I will read at least the fucking DSM-V page about her condition so I don't end up acting as an ableist asshole".

I only see constant NT projection over ND people behavior. In order to understand people I have spent my whole life trying to imitate, understand, analyze and incorporate NT behavior and rules and codes and everything. And my logic is that people will do that for me.

Like, if I say I'm anxious when talking with a new person I'm not wanting to be seen as "omg quirky uwu <3" but just as a person that will potentially mess up things or struggle more because I can barely breath and articulate my ideas out loud.

If I say I want to kill myself I'm not exaggerating. I probably thought about killing myself the whole week before telling you and the last thing I expect is people concluding that I'm attention seeking.

If I tell you I'm autistic is not because I'm expecting for you to sexualize me or see me as a "crazy girl" or an "human machine genius 3000", but be aware that I'm different, that I could have a meltdown over stuff that NT people see as normal stuff or tolerable stuff, and have needs that normal people don't have and...just please get that my brain works different and me telling you is not an attempt to look cool.

[queerly-autistic]

My dad just messaged me going "seeing all this 'Save OFMD' stuff made me realise some things never change" and attached a load of pictures he'd dug up from fifteen years ago of me in my 'Save Ianto Jones' fan campaign era.

As much as it made me laugh, it also made me think about something that I've not talked about before: the fact that this is what introduced me to campaigning.

I was a very lost queer (undiagnosed autistic) kid, bullied and lonely and keenly aware that there were a lot of bad things happening in the world, but I had no idea how to begin to even try to change things, or even any awareness that there was anything I could do to change anything.

And then my favourite show killed off my favourite character, and I suddenly accidentally found myself swept up in the mobilisation (without even realising that that was what was happening) of the fan community around me. It's where I learned about the idea of campaigning as, y'know, a thing that I could do. It introduced me to the concept that I could actively try and do things to make a change I wanted to see in the world.

And now that's my actual literal real world adult job. This is what I do in my 9-to-5. Some of the skills I learned and developed at seventeen (and the lessons from the fuck-ups - oh boy there were many of those because I was seventeen) trying to get the BBC to un-dead my favourite bisexual welshman are skills that I now use every day to actually create change (such as writing persuasive emails to influence a specific target).

And I've also used them outside of the 9-5 in the smaller grassroots campaigns I've been involved with. For example, the skills I learned from a fan campaign when I was a teenager helped me play a small part in stopping the deportation of young autistic man, and potentially saved his life.

There's a HUGE amount of crossover/symbiosis between fan campaigns and 'real world' campaigning. A huge number of people involved in these fan campaigns are already involved in organising (or at the very least supporting/donating) for 'real world' issues. And, if they're not, then a fan campaign may well be their introduction to campaigning - a 'wow ok so I can actually do this' moment that inspires them to start pushing for change on other issues too.

It's fantastic if someone goes 'hey, I managed to call Netflix about picking up Our Flag Means Death, which has made me realise maybe I can also cope with picking up the phone to call my political representatives about [insert other issue here]' - and if the strategies they put in place to help them do the Netflix phone call also help them do the political phone calls as well, then that's absolutely brilliant.

The same with getting experience/confidence writing emails, or learning how to create and push a hashtag on social media, or realising the power of taking mass actions (like signing a petition). It even goes so far as inspiring people to follow up a fan campaign donation with an additional donation to a good cause, and helping direct them to some good charities/initiatives to donate to (because sometimes knowing which are the right ones to send your money too is very hard). These are all skills and experiences that can help build both confidence and understanding of how to get involved with campaigning for change, and these are absolutely transferrable to an infinite number of causes.

It's about people feeling empowered to take action: feeling like they can do it, that it's tangible to them as something they can do, and giving them the tools to do it. The endgame in real world advocacy and campaigning is getting stuff done: petitions signed, phone calls made, emails sent, donations collected, rallies attended.

And no one (outside of the internet moral purity police) cares if your journey getting there started with a fan campaign.

[imraespace]

HIGIHI biting chigiri is so real honestly i would too.. and now that i think about it id probably bite rin as well bc id wanna see if hes gonna kill me or just walk away awkwardly HELP

im currently at school n my science class sucks 💔 the girl that i dont really like (she doesnt like me as well) and she hasnt said a single word to me I MEAN IT MAKES SENSE WHY but idk i feel like i should talk to her or smth bc we didnt even resolve our problems w each other but either way i dont think i can be her friend again ☹️ i also unfortunately have the last lunch so I LEGIT HAVE NO FRIENDS W ME?? EITHER I MAKE FRIENDS W THE GRADE ABOVE ME OR IM EATING ALONE

i feel like im probably gonna eat in a corner and read bluelock at this point hashtag bachira before bllk HELP 💔 im hoping i find my own isagi somewhere in this school because all my friends are weirdly across the globe like why are the best people not in my city??

anyways another random question 😈🙏 what bluelock character do you think would start selling feet pics if they got kicked out of bluelock

- 🐙

HIAJAHWIIQ HELP SAME I WOULD AS WELL

I'm stuck in school as well it's lunchtime for me tho so I'm just hanging out with my one friend rn bc I have a friend group drama that apparently IM INVOLVED? A GIRL IN THE GROUP SAID I DIDNT WAVE AT HER and now she hates me idk if we're in high school or kindergarten.. so now she gives me bad looks, she tried to take some of the friends i have but two of them told her no (heheheheh) but she stole one out of the two friends I have in this education facility and when she does she stares at me in my eyeballs😒 like I'm sorry for not waving at you? IDK.

ALSO I HATW THAT like me personally I like communication bc I don't want anyone to think bad of me so I'll get upset if I can't fix something with someone😕 (that girl I literally mentioned but she was just straight toxic and took my anti social as a bait to make fun of me so I hope she trips on a stone!)

ALSO SADLY I DONT HAVE THAT PROBLEM lunchtime is lunchtime for everyone for schools in my country so all grades are out but still I always stay by myself mostly unless someone calls me I SAY READ ALONE AND HOPE SOMEONE SEES BLLK AND BECOMES YOUR ISAGI‼️‼️ the friends I have DOESNT EVEN WATCH ANIME OR PLAY VIDEO GAMES or the ones who do DONT LIVE IN THE CARIBBEAN.

erm answer to your question is shidou! he yells straight into the womb on the field what is feet pics to him😕😕

odd thing to say but in my class ppl take off their shoes to compare toes.. WHAT

[wulfhalls]

dune part 2 delayed to march 24 😐

IM FINE ITS FINE ITS NOT A WHOLE YEAR ITS JUST A LIL LONGER ITS LICHERALLY FINE IM MENTALLY DOING SO WELL WITH THIS IM FINE PSYCHOLOGICALLY IM A WALL IM SOLID IM STONE THIS IS TOTALLY OK TO ME AS A PERSON HASHTAG WGA STRONG (wants to kill myself sooooooooooooooooooooo bad because dune delayed but can't because dune delayed I can't believe this is happening again paul atreides girlies all we do is suffer we are like paul in that sense. the universe knew I'd be so insufferable as soon as mania messiah paul dropped so it went. pause. AGAIN. whatever killing myself until march see u then.)

[lyloneliness]

Okay, so someone pointed something really interesting and here's a new theory

Since they tuned off the answer option and answered to my post with hashtags I couldn't answer to them and I don't know if they wanted to... But I need to talk about it. (If you see this and want me to mention you just say so in the replies 😸)

(I put the link on my first theory for those who see this post first and don't understand why I'm so sure crime and punishment are two personalities)

And here is the answer I got to the theory :

It's exactly as explained here, sigma has a unique chance of getting something from fyodor, and fyodor knows it. He also knows that his alter gave sigma new pieces of intel about himself and the knife. And fyodor's blabbering and proposition/intimidation to take the info by touching him (i didn't mention it but he says at last "if you have the courage to do it, that is...") has obviously for goal to perturb and scare sigma as I said before, but i don't think he will waver this easily.

Sigma was told by dazai what information to take before, and it is fyodor's plan for the airport, and he let it slip while talking to fyodor in chap 107. But now he has two more choices...

That's while thinking about this that I told myself : wouldn't it be in fyodor's interest to keep sigma's focus on something else than the airport..?

That would lead to a possible 'faking of a dissciative personality disorder' and a 'it's really a guard's knife' theory but the thing with 僕 and ぼくis something we can notice because it's written, orally, it's unnoticable, so it's probably a hint asagiri left us and I won't go this way.

However, Sigma DID find the memo on the floor. The new fyodor didn't know when (in term of timeline) he had appeared, so he didn't do it. Which means fyodor dropped the memo. Do you really think he'd drop something as important as a trigger to his second personality? Well, I don't. And even if it's in this chapter that sigma told him that his goal is the airport intel, fyodor could have just expected it, or at least expected dazai would be able to make sigma join the agency's side and make him get an intel with his ability. So the whole interraction can very well be intentional from fyodor to get sigma's focus on his alter and the knife.

It goes the same way for the knife. I wrote in my precedent post that he tried to get sigma to think of something else than the knife and blabbered and lied... but what if he didn't panic? What if he told a obvious lie to actually get sigma to focus on the knife instead of the airport?

I think sigma is capable of doubting the "it's a guard's knife" and I think fyodor does too. So what if that was deliberate? That makes much more sense. Cause these two pieces of intel are very important as they both can end fyodor in some way, but honestly? Even if the knife is real and sigma confirmes it with his ability, he still need to take it, and stab fyodor with it. As for the airport, fyodor couldn't do a thing to stop the info of getting to the agency... Well, he could kill sigma (and I hope not) but that's way harder to keep in hand somehow.

So yeah, fyodor IS manipulating sigma, but not by faking a DID... He doesn't need to fake since he just has to make sigma show him a trigger to see the real thing and accomplishing his goal anyway?

So what will it be? What will sigma chose to know?

(Spoiler : he did...)

[hypogryffin]

genuinely curious by what you mean by "jewish (factual)" in your tier list. i can assume for a couple what you mean (sophia as an example) but i dont see how the others could be like jewish-coded! interested in hearing your thoughts

link to the first post for claritys sake, but this is the tier in question:

ok so for clarification: i made the tier list a little while ago and then scheduled it for later to keep uploads consistent, something i usually do all the time but am not for this discussion for now. this means that by the day the tier list posted, i was already a few weeks or so divorced from the actual creation of it, so some of my opinions have changed (as i said in the og post, i was unsure on a good portion of the characters even when i first queued the list), and some of my reasonings behind placements have been lost to time and my silly little goldfish memory.

bc of this, as of now as im trying to find a distinct line between "jewish (factual)" and "jewish (based on vibes)", the criteria for "factual" is sort of murky. some placements in the category were serious, but a lot of them were also entirely for joking reasons, and i had moved on as soon as i was done laughing to myself without coming back to it.

all this is to say, i have no idea how to summarise it, so im going to explain everything i can remember about my thought process at the time so you can see where i was coming from.

SOPHIA:

yup 👍.

ok so for the uninformed, sophia is the name of a gnostic figure and the specifics change depending on the context of which ur referring to her in, but in judaism specifically sophia was given as a translated name for chokmah which is like a being thats like really important in kabbalah and considered like. this sort of i guess personification of divine wisdom?

anyways this is a concept that i doubt im anywhere near the first person to bring up, so im not gonna spend a lot of time on it like i will the things i havent heard other people talk about. like the whole "good friend of humanity" thing! judaism puts a lot of emphasis on kindness and care for other people and i think its important that thats so big for her character and for how jewish she can be read as. she is also jewish because i like her :^).

TATSUYA:

suffers endlessly because g-d hates *him*, specifically, and he hates g-d right back. jewish.

that was a joke. ok so right out the gate i think the whole "fighting hitler" aspect of IS should count for something during the discussion of which characters are jewish. like just putting that out there. anyways tatsuya is jewish because of eternal punishment. specifically, you know how hes like super into "atonement" and repentance? bro would really have benefited from going to a high holidays service lemme tell you. and he does it in a specific way thats like. his atonement is actively trying to repair what hes fixed right like hes not doing what hes doing to be redeemed, hes doing it because its his responsibility to fix whats been broken. i just idk how to explain it properly but thats a thought process your rabbi talks you through in jew school yknow?

also theres this thing called tikkun olam, which literally translates as "repairing the world". so it means more like. doing ur best as a citizen to improve community and country, or general social work. but just considering it as taking the literal translation, then its just like... yep. that sure is what hes doing isnt it

also, killed hitler. hashtag work

KATSUYA:

placed here mostly because being tatsuyas brother, theyd probably be at a similar "level" of religiosity. however there are some unique things i want to point out here;

katsuya like embodies the idea of "tzedek tzedek tirdof" like. its unfortunate hes a cop but for a cop hes a pretty good person? hes pretty uncompromising on right and wrong, and in a way that totally lines up w tzedek tzedek tirdof as its described in the torah.

extra emphasis on his compassion, as in theres like that core facet of judaism, the tikkun olam, where people have a moral obligation to help others; not just do good as oneself, but also stop other people from doing bad. that last bit doesnt really matter, cuz im bringing it up so i can talk about katsuya as a police officer to clear his dads name and try and ensure a better future for his brother. he gave up his dreams for them.

i mean, when i say "giving up his dreams", im kinda laughing to myself bc theres no way he ran it past his parents bc if he looked his jewish mother in the eye and said "i want to be a pastry chef" he would not make it out of the room alive. hed go "my dream is to become a pâtissier" and his mom would immediately be like "no its not its to be an accountant" and that would be the end of the discussion

also, i think he would make some of the best fucking challah in the world. hed make matzo ball soup that could make you jizz your pants just looking at it. look me in the eyes and tell me that he doesnt actually go nuts at rosh hashana when he gets to make the round challah with the raisins in it and stuff or whatever else. there is such a crystal clear vision in my mind of him rocking this apron my dad used to have that says "real men make latkes". it was pink and ugly as sin and i think it would be katsuyas most prized possession.

LABRYS:

her name is fucking labrys obviously shes a jewish lesbian. next.

/j i will actually talk about this. like not mentioning the only survivor of her upbringing, which isnt a one to one considering the death match portion of her backstory but still close enough to feel um. relavant to jewish culture. she acts very...stereotypically jewish?

its not entirely the accent, but it is...part of it. so like i know its like a new jersey accent and that the stereotype is new york, i guess? but im not american and i dont rlly know the difference. they look close enough to each other on a map tho so i think it counts

but also shes like kinda confrontational in a way i specifically associate with jewish people or jewish characters? like not really bitchy but argumentative right, shes got this really sarcastic or mocking sense of humour. and girl kvetches with the best of them.

(also, side note: since i made the original list, i found out that the voice actress for aegis in p3 reload, dawn m bennett, is actually jewish! if i were to remake the tier list, aegis would be moved up from "vibes" to "factual" because of this. mentioning that here because of the sister thing :).)

JOKER:

kills g-d which is the jewish dream. this is a another joke.

someone in the replies of the tier list said something abt a possible reason being that he has an "abrahamic figure" as his ult. persona, which could be a good point if satanael was actually an abrahamic figure! but it is not. like ok im not a history guy but satanael is a name used in the 2nd book of enoch, which arguably could be part of jewish "canon" (i know this is actually the term for it but fandom has rotted my brain and it sounds terminally online to use it in terms of real life religiosity) but most rabbis agree it like is not, and theyre kind of who im listening to on this, and quick google search says even in christianity, enoch is debatable? idk

so like satanael isnt in the torah. and if anyone says "oh its just like another name for satan so technically--" shut up i know. satan isnt real in the torah either. ok like "satan" is used as a term, but not as like the specific dude that like rules hell. hes just like at most a specific dude who is not a devil/cast from heaven or whatever, but instead is a lawyer. more often its a concept, something representative of like the urge to go against g-ds will or a kosher life, this "evil inclination" which everyone is born possessing and grapples with when trying to be a good person. NOT THE SAME AS THE CHRISTIAN SATAN. WHICH IS WHAT P5 WAS GOING FOR. SATAN IN JUDAISM IS NOT A "super demon lord" or whatever they call it in the text of the game

satanael isnt an abrahamic figure and i dont think satan is either cuz its so different between religions and honestly i think calling things abrahamic religions, at least w the context i hear of it, is like kind of a misnomer or just kind of generally misleading cuz judaism christianity and islam are all so different and if were talking about this i think whoever invented the term judeochristian should eat a sheet of glass for it because whenever i hear those terms its very clear the person saying it means just christianity but theyre trying to be inclusive without actually putting the work in and thats not the point of this.

ok if im honest, as i think abt it joker isnt like. really... super jewish, in a way that you can point out? its just like... this overall vibe im having trouble explaining which is probably also like super influenced by how much i like him. i want to say that this strict sense of right and wrong that remains uninfluenced by the rest of society is something that clearly creates or maybe just intensifies this like. empathy for other people that reminds me of this concept in judaism which i cant remember the hebrew name of rn but i think its most commonly translated to english as "lovingkindness", one word? or that the whole idea of the phantom thieves can be contributed to tikkun olam. but, on the other hand, even if lovingkindness is what i personally consider one of jokers core character traits, the other one is pure, blinding rage.

im not going to go super into it, because im a few years rusty of torah study bc its only really consistently done in my community for kids preparing for bnai mitzvah cuz of how few people we have in our congregation. but from what i remember, my interpretation of the exact limit between righteous and sinful anger is a bit more... lax than the average jew's, or at least the average rabbi's, meaning mine, lol. either way anger is almost always seen as sinful because its an emotion that can like. turn you from g-d, its the same thing that invokes that "evil inclination" we just talked abt. so, joker textually feels this rage that arsene, his other self, literally refers to as "sacrilegious", something that very clearly states that he is willing to *knowingly* commit sins for this rage and is perfectly capable of causing undue harm to others for it, which is exactly the reason why judaism warns of anger. this means jokers anger is distinctly against jewish teachings.

again, im really lax, my familys reform (/lh) and i think there are some parts of this characterisation that make me feel this rage is overall constructive, especially considering that is what feeds his constant practice of lovingkindness and tikkun olam, but it being such a huge facet of his personality (made worse bc as a silent protagonist, you really have to search to get away from this trait) brings him down on the Jew Scale(tm).

in short, now that im really discussing this id probably move him to incredibly jewish based on vibes or even to just "jewish" no further classification. but even w the undying sinful anger thing i cant not think of him as jewish and i dont think its just bc hes one of my favourite characters of all time.

also that hair texture looking really familiar is all🤔🤔. all im saying that is in the tutorial, instead of "frizzy hair", morgana deffo should have been calling them blondie and jewfro /j /j /j

EDIT AND JOKERS KITCHEN!! JOKERS KITCHEN!! FOOD AS A LOVE LANGUAGE!! IN P5 YOU MAKE FOOD FOR YOUR FRIENDS AND YOU PUT LOVE INTO IT

MORGANA:

i know i put morgana before joker in the tier but i think in order to rlly discuss morgana we needed joker first bc part of my reason for putting them in the same tier is because they really are a pair, do not separate.

anyways, morgana does have a lot of the same problems as joker when it comes to being difficult to pin down. his inclination to tikkun olam is similar, sort of even greater than jokers depending on personal characterisation of joker, but instead of this discrepancy of his jewishness being anger, the ethical conundrum with morgana is sort of. arrogance? like, i have trouble figuring out how to really put into words how i feel abt morganas "lovingkindness", because it is so hard to understand where hes at in terms of empathy?? like. fucking. idk hes definitely a very caring person but its not exactly like

ok i cant figure out how to say it moving on. i used the word arrogance even though i dont really think thats right, because morgana has never seemed haughty. his "arrogance" is really just him making up for an inferiority complex caused by the amnesia thing, its not as if he genuinely totally believes himself to be above the others. but like no matter what it stems from, the way he behaves and his personal pride hurts people. ie the okumura arc, or his entire relationship w ryuuji. he speaks ill of others, belittles them to bring himself up, etc. arrogance and excess pride is as condemned as anger in judaism if not moreso, since its even less useful/constructive to be "arrogant" than it is to be angry. OH ok so what i meant with the hard to figure out his empathy thing is this actually!! hes very caring and has a really notable respect for human life but its always at war with his need to prove himself, so even if when you think about it its like Oh Morgana Is A Really Caring Person, which makes sense because he was created from human desire and as such is really in touch with what people need, the desperation he has to be seen as "worthy" comes off as wanting to be seen as "above", even if it means trying to get the people around him as being considered "below" him.

tldr so if it was just those two traits i think id have to move morgana lower on the list, alongside joker.

HOWEVER. speaking directly to the other jews in the crowd, but morgana is totally textually a golem, right? like not exactly, obviously, but think about it. morganas a being of the velvet room because he was created from "the dregs of human hope" (canonical line from yaldaboath that i think about more than what can be considered healthy tbh), whose job is was and always will be to protect and guide the trickster and his community, the phantom thieves. hes a golem right? am i insane? am i seeing things? i dont care, im not giving up on this interpretation, so morgana is factually and canonically jewish cuz of it.

ZEN:

i do not remember.

as of today id probably move him to either jewish no other classification or not jewish. my b guys. anyways

JUN:

life is indescribable torment, and then hes also got additional, mostly unrelated, mommy issues. judaism 101.

also his suspenders when he was a kid are the most young jewish lad shit in the history of ever like i have seen that exact outfit on a young boy every time i go to temple, and each time it is a different kid

ok more seriously, i really do think juns story-- specifically his relationship with memory-- can easily be extracted into a jewish narrative. like nyarlathotep messed with his memories and convinced him that the other members of the masked circle killed maya right. and so the way he fanatically reminded himself of the past was a mix of trauma and active manipulation. but if i think abt it a certain way i also can see it as like. ok so in judaism memory is really important and like a lot of the time during for example passover, youre meant to refer to yourself as being a jew in egypt, saying "we" instead of "them" and such. but im specifically meaning how important memory/remembrance is in grieving. jun in his grief for mayas perceived death "kept her alive" in a way. she was never forgotten, and so she never died. even though the entire masked circle forgot, from trauma or fear or guilt or whatever, jun held on, remembering her, and so she survived. joker took peoples dreams but his actions also caused them to be completely be forgotten. they were alive, but they were robbed of their ability to be remembered at all, and so they were as good as dead even still breathing and talking.

retroactively, this idea enforces tatsuyas jewishness, considering the entire story of eternal punishment. he refused to forget the masked circle, even though it hurts.

anyways back to jun, i also think the whole repentance thing is important too. he hurt people in his anger and sorrow and spends the rest of his life (until the world is reset at least lol) atoning for his wrongdoings.

also, i know i said kid him is super jewish looking, but he has not gotten better as hes grown up. 17y.o him is exactly the guy your bubbe will pull up on facebook and be like "this is the grandson of my friend or whoever! you should go on a date with him, hes your age! he looks a bit gay but hes a very successful doctor! ...and hes JEWISH YAKNOW...." and ur like "ok bubbe"

ERIKO:

i actually do not recall exactly why she is in this tier specifically. the only thing i for sure remember was that i at least partially placed her here bc of her fascination with the occult.

HIKARI:

ok this one was kinda me goofing. its the whole extended family thing like whats more jewish than being actively discouraged from a creative career for something "safe" and "normal?" bro the aunt might as well have dropped the "being a doctor is very respectable" line in the song.

but like even without that, wanting to be a director or associated with film? hitting her with the jew beam. mazel tov babygirl.

[carolinayourspiritmaster]

Attention Customers: Announcing My Artober / Witchtober / Paintober 2024

This week, I created a whole new Gallery Page on the website, so I can go back at showcasing and selling my art regularly. I thought it was just the perfect moment (yay for synchronicity!) to join one of the many October Art Challenges. I already did one Inktober in 2021, which was a very interesting, but also very demanding experience – since I do not wish to repeat it, I am writing my own rules this time. Here is all the info:

Dates: October 1 to October 31.

Medium: I work in many different mediums, so all of them, as I feel like it.

Prompts: none, because I've never needed them. Expect lots of Visionary, lots of Botanical, lots of Spirit, lots of Witch.

How Many Drawings/Paintings: as many as I can, within the limits of my schedule, and with reasonable rest. I want to do a good job, but I'm not going to kill myself for a post, and neither should you!

Goals: to have lots of fun, to work on preliminar ideas for future paintings, to experiment with colour and light, and to flex the muscle a bit by challenging myself to show and sell more work.

Will They Be For Sale? Absolutely! They will be put for sale in November, once the challenge is finished, so if you fall in love with any of them, consider reserving them once they are posted.

Where will they be posted? On all my social media, on the website's Gallery Page and on my Flickr. Just stay tuned!

Do you want to join? I'm not giving any special hashtags to this, because there are already too many versions of this challenge, so I will be using the following ones on social media: #artober #artober2024 #paintober #paintober2024 #drawtober #drawtober2024 #witchtober #witchtober2024