#i just wanna clear that up IN CASE
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RIGHT?! Like I don't know how to respond to this. It's vaguely threatening. Like IT'S NOT a threat, she's just a bit weird but fuck bro one at a time please.
This is also the second time she's used the challenger anniversary to initiate a conversation. Literally just ask me how I'm doing i don't need this
oh she likes the challenger. thats whats going on HWKXJSKDNXM
#i too have opened conversations w what im interested in. many a time#also PLEASEHWHIDHDJ idk if it was Not obvious (no blame) but i did not genuinely think your niece was being threatened i just whskdjdj#i just wanna clear that up IN CASE#snail mail
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what is the theory that ivan manipulated the event where till and mizi met the wagyein?
It's not a theory, actually! It's confirmed that Ivan orchestrated the whole event. The true reason as to why however is still unknown. The information provides more context to this scene, though:
During the earlier times of ALNST the most rational explanation for this scene was that Till ran after a flower crown (presumably Mizi's) and Ivan followed him in out of curiosity. Now we know that Ivan was conveniently just standing there because he was waiting.
Side note, I find it heartbreaking (and maybe a little funny, sorry) that Till most likely didn't notice Ivan in this scene. That's just like him, isn't it. Always too busy running after Mizi while Ivan trails behind, an ever-present shadow.
I'm not sure how Ivan manipulated the circumstances for both of them to end up there, but it is confirmed that everything was intentional. What strikes me most is how they describe this particular scene:
I can't copy down what they said word-for-word (Patreon info), but they described Ivan watching "creepily" as Till and Mizi are faced with danger. We know that Ivan was familiar with the Cerberus wagyein beforehand, enough to touch its teeth and even to rest himself inside its maw. To Ivan, the wagyein is not dangerous, but to Till and Mizi, it could be. Ivan prepared the wagyein, led them there, and watched "creepily" from afar as Till fell on his knees, seemingly injured.
The closest I can get to making sense of Ivan's "scheme" is that he wanted to see how other children would react in a dangerous situation. Ivan's always been an observer, after all, and he's learned to survive by copying the more "normal" behaviors of his peers. This situation occured when Ivan was still young and had not yet developed his more charming mask, so perhaps he staged this encounter to study a situational response, to learn and mimic the emotion of fear. And what better subjects for the experiment than two of the most expressive and reactive humans of their batch? It helps that he was already fixated on Till beforehand, too. I think Ivan became irreversibly obssessed after this incident, especially since it's framed as a turning point in Ivan's life, comparing Till to the stars.
This is just my attempt at an interpretation, though. It could very well be for another reason. He most likely chose Till and Mizi specifically for personal reasons, not just for reaction. I'm still not sure on the purpose behind the whole thing.
The team wanted to capture Ivan's "dark emotions" through the shot of his stalking, which could relate to his more sinister intentions. His gaze can be read in a few different ways, though. Curiosity, interest, fear, etc. Maybe that's why they decided to redraw the shot in ROUND 6.
I think this better sells the feeling they were trying to convey.
#ivan u fucked up little guy.#also okay i just wanna clear this up#i know i make a lot of posts about ivans darker side and his more problematic traits#but this isn't me trying to villainize him or reduce him down to “toxic yaoi”#I HOPE YOU GUYS KNOW ALL MY TOXIC YAOI POSTS ARE LIGHTHEARTED.#i just want to clarify that ivan was always intended to be a darker and complicated character. even since his debut in round 3#the way i refer to ivan (“twisted” “creepy” “obssessive” etc) are literally the direct words used by q and v themselves to describe him#but despite that id like to emphasize that i don't see ivan as a villain or a completely bad person. hes complicated#there is no normalcy in this world they are living in. none of the characters know what being truly normal is#this isn't me condoning his actions#but it has to be acknowledged that alnst is fucked up in nature. we can't expect perfect relationships from people who are born to die#plus ivan has a lot more layers past the “dark” parts. he's constantly battling himself and his desires#especially at the end of round 6 where he performs a myriad of conflicting actions (kiss strangle peck smile)#thanks to the r6 production notes we now know that ivan was going through a rapid internal conflict#“sure and unsure at the same time”#there is sooo much to ivan. his low self-esteem. his desire and possessiveness despite knowing till will never love him#his VEHEMENT insistence that till will never love him vs his desperate persistence in trying anyway#uh i need to shut up i think#anyways sorry. just wanted to clarify my thoughts on him in case people think im. yk.#in short. hes a fucked up little freak and he fascinates me. this poor tragic child. i love him.#SORRY I GOT CARRIED AWAY#alnst#alien stage#alien stage ivan#alnst ivan#asks
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If SIkuna will get the Heian era form later, can he change his appearance? I mean, it will be weird to see a guy with four arms hanging in public.
Assuming he were to do that,
(who knows, not me (I do lol) , if the hypothetical timeline where he and Yuji get separated is gonna be Canon to the Series *HeeHee HoHo's mysteriously*)
yup!
His alternate, 'human' form would be strongly based off of Yuji still, but with some differences.
(I've kinda drawn that as well, but I can definitely imagine it not exactly being clearly explained lol)
For one, he's significantly taller than Yuji (at least for now, the kid is most likely gonna grow to be not as much shorter lol) - although he can be shorter.
He usually isn't much 'shorter', because it's more comfortable - any much lower and it'd feel a bit like a too-tight shirt, but for your whole body lol
('down' to 6~ft/182~cm (wherein he usually stays at 6.4-5ft/193-195~cm) is the min. of proper comfiness)
He also wears earrings (I usually imagined some simple black ones, but he could just as well wear something Hello Kitty related lol (both for the Meme and just because) or just cute, or more colourful), and his left eyebrow has two slits - to kinda connect him visually to his Big Form heh
(I'm kinda contemplating adding some other things but yeah that's the bigger things heh)
And, although usually he only has these whilst in the Bigg form, he can have four arms, stomach mouth, and such whilst 'small' as well - but yeah, that's not exactly something that'd be useful/possible to use in public 😂
As shown in Chapter 2 of Visuals (although it is a different timeline, SIkuna is SIkuna lol), he can sometimes forget to close his secondary eyes, especially at the beginning of the Separation or when kinda mentally tired - it's just much more natural for them to be open
Some random person is more likely to assume they imagined it or he just had good cosplay than actual four eyes though, so hey at least there's that saving him
Not to mention interference from the kids he's likely hanging out with lol, Nobara is a quick-thinking Queen when her older familial figure is being a dum-dum and forgoring 💀 how to Human properly and we love her for it 👏
Since I imagine her dragging SIkuna out for clothes shopping relatively often, perhaps with other kids as well - and SIkuna doesn't mind it at all, he loves actively participating in the kids' hobbies 🥺 - she probably had to cover for his spookiness and such quite often lmao, even if he tries his best 😂
He is very respectful and polite to any workers they might encounter during their shopping though (well, assuming they aren't being unreasonably rude themselves but that's rare, especially in Japan I'd imagine), so fortunately even despite his Vibes being Very Off the two (or more) usually end up being a nice surprise to them actually lmao
- the fact that SIkuna likely takes everything that isn't chosen back perfectly into place whilst waiting for Nobara/other kids to put another outfit on probably makes their spookiness easier to deal with as well 😂😂😂
(He's not 'spared' from dressing up, but he can lighten the load on the workers' shoulders a little bit while he waits his turn, you know - he might be partially old as hell and from a time where that would have been unheard of to do for the sake of 'servants', but he also is partially someone from the 2020's lmao, he gets the pain)
(Imagine crossovers with Canon whilst he's in this form though lol, I feel like one Quite painful Misunderstanding that could happen is that This Other Sukuna apparently completely took over an older Yuji or something (since he clearly isn't there but Sukuna looks. like he looks.) OOF-)
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#Ask#Thinkings™#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#jjk fic#jjk fix it#jjk fix it fic#SIkuna#(deliberate misspell)#syuuya#jjk sukuna#ryomen sukuna#ryoumen sukuna#jjk nobara#kugisaki nobara#nobara kugisaki#(She accidentally took over a large part of the Ask lol; gotta love her absolute Queen self 👑)#Also just in case anyone was worried over that; I have decidedly not given up on the story or anything like that#despite it all taking longer than I thought it'd be heh - unless I make it clear somewhere that the story is on Hiatus#it means I'm at least slowly working on the next Part (sometimes it's going perfectly sometimes it just doesn't you know 🤗) still#Sadly I doubt Part 9 is gonna be even close to the Behemoths that Part 7/8 ended up being but I hope it'll be a satisfying read regardless🤗#Even if it takes me years; I will definitely finish the main part of the story (and very likely not stop there lol#- post-main-plot Shenanigans; not to mention so many possible Canon/Canon-adjacent crossovers; are definitely a thing I'd wanna get into🤗)
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I wonder how sentients would have sex with a being of a different species. I wanna know what would make them feel pleasure. I think they procreate asexually, but how do they pleasure themselves or get pleasured? I wanna know for science.
I'm actually really curious too for science- yeah for science, of course!
Okay, yeah the lore gives us nothing. Damn.
#I'm actually really curious too because its clear they feel pain and other things very intensely and are alive however machine they may be#very human mannerisms too at least from Erra & I think Lotus would be easy to excite given she has human aspects mixed in from void#reality altering and whatever tampering Ballas did to her. By easy I mean easy to figure out hypothetically how to yknow do that.#gotta be careful with these tags lmao#and how would one stimulate Natah's mother too? she's a giant spaceship basically in that one small trailer we saw of her#the fandom wikia and devs haven't given us much of anything since it's a 17 and up game sadge but like we can make headcanons xD#I think it would be like a case of what all parties involved consent to and are comfortable with and just a fun activity for a sentient to#help their partner with yknow? Maybe that kind of thing if they don't feel those kinds of sensations but want to love their SO(s)#and indulge in those activities because they know their partners enjoy it; sorry if wording is bad im kinda tired#sentient bodies are fascinating to me like idk i wanna study these sentients and like figure out how they work#also I'm sure Stalker x Hunhow fans are dying to know lmao#mod rose#warframe confession#warframe#nsft
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Dawntrail has been putting a lot effort into upskirting and focusing on Ieeha's legs in almost every single cutscene and to say that that has been distracting is an understatement—
Bonus:
#THE CAMERA TILT KILLED ME#i feel like ive talked more about the angle shocks in cutscenes more than the actual story on discord with others#i mean ive talked about story too but listen.#i wanna make it very clear also that i have NOT modded anything in these screens#and therefore if you notice the pussy shadows thats visible in certain angle and shows up in some of these screens#i did not put them there. this is the literal vanilla look for that gear. built in.#i aint complaining though i love not having to mod the IC things—#what do i even tag this as#feels wrong somehow to use the general tags LMAO#ieeha de verral#ieeha#my screenshot#nabaath-areng#dawntrail spoilers#dt spoilers#ffxiv spoilers#7.0 spoilers#just in case#and also these are just the ones i got on my desktop#whats worse is that i have so many more but i HAD to choose a select few#got so much more from when i played on my laptop-
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honobono drives me insane because if you assume she's Just Like That, are you falling for her facade? or does assuming there's more to her than she lets on make you as gullible as hifumi?
#especially since she's always paralleled with ramuda in jakurai & hifumi's journey with forgiveness#because the viewer knows that ramuda is wearing a facade + he lacked a lot of autonomy concerning his crimes#ramuda's actions are framed to be like 'what he did was wrong. he feels remorse and apologized. he's lost on his path. +#but his actions are a result of him being victim of his own circumstances.'#vs honobono who everyone assumed SAd hifumi but it was revealed that her abuse was emotional#but by abusing hifumi the way she did she became a victim herself#and it's really weird because knowing hypmic as a franchise. was this intentional because they didn't wanna make her a clear cut villain?#as far as we know her motivations were straight up evil but the actions she took made her a victim#or is this just another case of hypmic's shitty misogynistic writing? idk 😭😭😭#<- i think i was gonna say more but i forgor#hypnosis mic#hypmic#keitoin honobono#honobono keitoin
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tw // suicide
on twitter some ppl were talking about THAT jo scene from iw again and someone commented fucking "you know he was thinking about using that gun on himself" and im not sane anymore !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! added something something his faith in ichi kept him hopeful enough in the moment but then when he went to jail oh. ohhh !!!!!!!!!!!
nooo cause if That Jo Scene is the flashback scene with hoshino's death that really had to be SUUUCH a low point if not top five lowest points for him i wanted to throw up watching that <- replays it in my brain constantly
#iw spoilers#snap chats#UGH I WANNA REPLAY IW SO BAD i still wanna see the scenes with english dubbing but i wanna finish lost judgment first#in any case no i love that scene. like you can see the will to live leave jo's body as he goes to sit down#god naw cause i was laughing (read: crying) over how jo really let that dog comment get to him. loved that really ....#i do enjoy the added context to sawashiro and his relationship with ichi even if its sort of one sided#like ichis never really harbored ill will towards him- hes not happy about how sawashiro treated him back then LOL#but it was still clear he respected him#with sawashiro- like once you know the whole locker mix up secret then it contextualizes their relationship (from jo's pov anyway)#but just sawashiro having actually MET akane and speaking with her and listening to her wish .. idk.#its a nice thought that- for as hard as he is on ichi- he is trying to look out for him for akane's sake#emphasis on For As Hard As He Is like my man you dont gotta take his finger off 💀💀 in any case ...#maybe thats just optimistic thinking but its a nice thought. This All In Relation to having faith in ichi to Not game end himself 💀#god but sawashiro in jail .. i really wouldve paid money just to know what was going through his head#how he reacted to aoki's death the moment he was told- like he already knew aoki never valued him but still... fathers love and all#ive rambled long enough vjlLKVEJVLKEJ BYE
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Hello oni lore fans, I have been fighting for my life to solve a lil mystery and I decided to finally clean up one of the logs I copy and pasted from the code so I can hopefully find someone else who's seen it in game before. It's called "a seed is planted" and I'm pretty sure it was in the research notes section, but in the code it's placed alongside the story trait logs so I'm not 100% confident where it's supposed to be found. I first saw it in a save that I was using sandbox mode to hunt for lore with, and it stuck around for a lil while before disappearing, and then it randomly came back for a lil bit before all my lore logs got wiped with the recent update. I have no idea how I got it in the first place nor what made it disappear and come back, so I'm basically just wondering if anyone else has had this issue with this particular log (or any logs for that matter)
I have copy and pasted the log under the cut, although the formatting might be a bit off as this was cleaned up from a copy paste directly from the code itself
"A Seed is Planted"
[Voice Recognition Initialized]
[Subject Identified: B040]
[LOG BEGINS]
Three days ago, we completed our first non-fatal Duplicant trial of Nikola's comprehensive synapse microanalysis and mirroring process. Five hours from now, Subject #901 will make history as our first human test subject.
Even at the Vertex Institute, which is twice Gravitas's size, I could've spent half my career waiting for approval to advance to human trials for such an invasive process! But Director Stern is too invested in this work to let it stagnate.
My darling Bruce always said that when you're on the right path, the universe conspires to help you. He'd be so proud of the work we do here.
[LOG ENDS]
[LOG BEGINS]
My bio-printed multi-cerebral storage chambers (or "mega minds" as I've been calling them) are working! Just in time to save my job.
The Director's been getting increasingly impatient about our struggle to maintain the integrity of our growing datasets during extraction and processing. The other day, she held my report over a Bunsen burner until the flames reached her fingertips.
I can only imagine how much stress she's under.
The whole world is counting on us.
[LOG ENDS]
[LOG BEGINS]
On a hunch, I added dream content analysis to the data and...wow. Oneirology may be scientifically "fluffy", but integrating subconscious narratives has produced a new type of brainmap - one with more latent potential for complex processing.
If these results are replicable, we might be on the verge of unlocking the secret to creating synthetic life forms with the capacity to evolve beyond blindly following commands.
Nikola says that's irrelevant for our purposes. Surely Director Stern would disagree.
[LOG ENDS]
[LOG BEGINS]
Nikola gave me a dataset to plug into the mega minds. He wouldn't say where it came from, but even if he had...nothing could have prepared me for what it contained.
When he saw my face, he muttered something about how people should call me "Tremors," not "Nails" and sent me on my lunch break.
All I could think about was those poor souls.
Did they have souls?
...do we?
[LOG ENDS]
[LOG BEGINS]
It's done. My adjustments to the memory transfer protocol are hardcoded into the machine.
I finished just as Nikola stormed in.
I may be too much of a coward to stand up for those unfortunate creatures, but with these new parameters in place...someday, they might be able to stand up for themselves.
[LOG ENDS]
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#rat rambles#oxygen not included#even if you don't have it go give it a read its one of my favorite logs in the game#it has so much juicy information even if it's all mostly brushed over due to the nature of the log#anyways I need to go to bed but crossing my fingers that somehow someone who has the log sees this#Ive tried asking abt this log in other places but have gotten nothing </3#I know its real and in the game I just dont know if the log is fucked or if its a classic case of my laptop fucking everything up#oh and to be clear abt the code viewing thing it was purely viewing I couldnt have edited it if I wanted to#well I could have but Id have to use a different piece of software to do it#I was just using smth to decompile the code so I could actually read it#thank you oni modders I shall reffer back to yalls guides in the future to learn to edit critters#I wanna fuck around with what different critters can eat it sounds fun#who knows maybe I could take a crack at making an actual proper oni mod some day
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I ended up rereading some of my ask game of death answers when I went to find the game itself for @writblrgames and after reading this one about Spinder I realized something: Spinder made the call not to put Fabian in his will, and Fabian made the opposite call. Spinder doesn't know this, and once they're well and truly broken up Fabian keeps meaning to change it, and keeps just not actually doing it. You see, Fabian drives a pickup truck - a cushy but regular size one that he does use for actual pickup truck things - that Spinder helped him pick out. And despite him leaving pretty much everything else to his family, Fabian's petty side and his romantic side teamed up to decide that the family who keeps using his truck yet won't stop teasing him about buying it doesn't get to have it - the guy he can't stop pining over does instead.
The good(?) news is that being a ship mechanic is a much more dangerous job than being a fancy barista so I don't think Spinder's ever gonna inherit this truck
Nicea taglist: @kahvilahuhut @kk7-rbs @outpost51 @writernopal @athenswrites
#I just wanna be clear: the truck in this case is not a 'it's okay everybody I'm a Masculine Man' purchase#I'm so deep in AUs now but every time I get a goofy idea I'm like 'it could be an AU'#this time it's 'what if Fabian and Darnell were country boys instead of country estate owners and this was their muddin truck'#yeah that was the whole idea. dunno what everyone else is up to but these two are having a great time#c: Spinder#c: Fabian#wip: nicea
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okay I severely misjudged spaghetti guy he’s actually just really cool
#okay so I came to this flat and he wasn’t here. greeted by a very dirty flat with shit all over the kitchen counters over cling film#I meet first my other flatmate who told me he stays in his room constantly bc of previous bad flatmates#has literally just a saucepan and some salt in the kitchen. so I’m like okay spaghetti guy potentially not great but could just be#how this guy is yknow#on Tuesday I get an email back saying he’s coming back from Norway tonight looking forward to seeing you feel free to use the kitchen sauces#rlly friendly message that I wasn’t expecting. I also didn’t know he’d been on a trip i just knew he wasn’t there bc his door was open#(to a REALLY nice room. multiple rlly nice plants (which he has little care labels for!!!) and it’s tidy and pretty#and he’s got a sheep teddy on the bed)#meanwhile I am in my own head bc I don’t wanna cook in the kitchen until I can clean it and I can’t clean it without moving his shit and#I haven’t seen him yet to talk abt it and I can’t bring myself to talk to him immediately bc I’m dying#and embarrassed as hell by how I’ve been cooking in my room with a microwave and air fryer (loud) and sneaking my shit out of the kitchen#but then yesterday I DO talk to him!! and he’s super friendly!! actually interested in having a conversation and Good at it.#and then he’s cooking and like. spaghetti burns but I’m not there for long and seems to be a mistake (he made the same thing for lunch today#and did Not burn the spaghetti) and is otherwise clearly competent bc the food smells Good and despite leaving a few things out it’s like#washed up stuff isn’t dirty and the sides are better despite still under cling film. more a case that he’s spread out than he’s messy#and now today we talked and i offered to hold onto some shit over summer bc complicated situation that boils down to he’s flying back home#and he cant take all his stuff and had to choose between chucking stuff/having literally nothing this weekend. like sleeping on the sofa etc#and then cleans the whole flat?? which I’m assuming a good chunk is his mess? but he did not need to do that. could’ve easily left#bc there are two people still living here who would’ve had to deal with it and he doesn’t know either at all#and THEN tonight we talk abt food which is fun bc we both ordered stuff. and he offers me some honeydew melon bc he’s been gorging himself#these past two days to finish it before it goes bad/he leaves which is also really sweet#and JUST NOW. I take my headphones out after finishing dinner and hear the sweetest fucking guitar#he plays the gentlest like dreamy sounding acoustic guitar I’ve heard in my life in his room (door closed by the time I leave)#this is actually just a really cool dude#now that the kitchens clear I’m gonna cook tomorrow and will probably offer him some bc otherwise he’s gonna be eating out all weekend#he has extra takeout for tomorrow night but might want smth Sunday#regardless I am just. huh??? left a bit stunned bc of the u turn my opinion of this guy has taken. bc my opinion of him was a reflection#of my discomfort moving to this weird dirty basement flat with two people I didn’t know#well. idk where to go from here. I think I’ll start by talking to him more this weekend. bc holy fucking shit.#luke.txt
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Ok I’m just asking how do…. You feel about the ships of little nightmares 😰 I saw a video about mono and seven on TikTok …..
I see a lot of ship art for the Lady x Thin Man which is funny to me
But our main characters????? They're all kids! I'm uncomfortable if I see ships of them I mean, if they're aged up to adults, then okay, fine But the kid selves? No thank you, no thank you, no thankyou
#innocent ships where they are older? fine#like hey if you wanna do an aged up childhood friends to lovers i aint stopping you#romance isnt just for adults#but people making romance between children under like 14 is a big no no#makes me so uncomfortable for a lot of obvious reasons#theyre kids they just want to play and make friends- or in this case- survive#and a lot of shipping..... is not an innocent#it gets to P*do territory ..... irksome and disturbing#luckily ive avoided any truly nasty stuff#ive only ever seen aged up- innocent shipping thank goodness...#little nightmares#text post#ask#ive made an animation or a comic that people claim looks shippy#and i apologize- im apparently bad at keeping platonic and romantic concepts separated#because everyone has different boundaries or comforts#but just know that if any LN stuff ive made that seems shippy is supposed to be platonic#im just bad at writing clear or strict platonic friendships
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A thing I pre-ordered months ago has shipped!
What's the thing?
Keepsake Quilting, and several other quilt companies/stores, put a sort of gift box together with fabric, notions, patterns, and gift cards in them. You don't know what you're getting, making it a surprise. I have never purchased one because they're expensive. This was 50% upfront, 50% when shipped, for a total of $150. Considering how much is in it, and what reviews were left the last several years, it's a steal. Plus, I wanna treat myself after having such a stressful and unpleasant year.
My mom and one of aunts have ordered such boxes in the past, but according to my mom, they're disappointing because she has so many of the things in the package, or no use for many of them. Rulers (some of which cost $30), needles, rotary cutters and extra blades (blades can be $10/each, new cutters up to $50), fabric marking tools (chalk pencils, disappearing ink, etc), precut fabric collections (jelly rolls can be $80, fat quarter collections up to $100 depending on number of FQs), and yardage ($12.99-$21.99/yard). She's been disappointed by "ugly" fabric too many times.
I, on the other hand, have significantly fewer tools. I make things for people to buy, and some folks love fabric I cannot stand (like x-mas and patriotic prints). There have been fabrics I consider well and truly hideous, and those I list in my shop or sell to people here. One person's trash is another's treasure, right? I've met people who think pastels are ugliest things to have ever existed. I think baby pink and green military camouflage look fantastic together, as well as turquoise and light hemp brown or terracotta and peacock blue. My mom finds them hideous. I think pink and any shade of brown look terrible together, or red and khaki (likely from working at Target and seeing is everywhere). Again, personal taste.
If any of you ever fancy treating me to one of these random collections of fabric and/or notions, feel free to do so. They're the sort of surprise I enjoy (that and people purchasing my work, especially from my shop). Sure, there are things that may he of no use to me, but others can use them. Nothing goes to waste.
This package will be arriving on November 18th, and has me giggling with excitement!
#words from the artist#my year has been filled with my husband nearly dying and us having thousands of dollars in medical bills to pay AFTER#the financial aid program forgave three of the six bills. we have around $5k of thag left to pay off#and one of the bills has gone to collections#plus my ear issues that cleared up after over six months of torment. my husband had to quit his previous job because working in#kitchens was slowly killing him and is now working fulltime in theory but not getting enough hours#i've sold virtually nothing and have had to beg for aid because not enough money due to lack of hours and lack of sales#my asthma throwing a fit and my sewing room being entirely too hot to work in and remaining that way for weeks at a time#then my left wrist being injured and leaving me unable to do virtually anything.#my husband then being taken to court by Unemployment three years after receiving the money. oh and being denied Unemployment#this year so for 10 weeks were on thoughts and prayers while he hunted for a non-kitchen job#plus his major surgery over the summer that was 100% covered by financial aid because we opted for a different hospital#there have been good things like he has insurance now and i'm abke to walk without feeling like i'm walking on glass#plus a few commissions over the summer. but those have been among the very few good things. oh and he won his court case#i would just like to have the rest of the year be filled with good things like all or most of my listed quilts selling. someone#commissioning me to finish the quilts i have listed as available to handquilting. the tops are finished but if i finish the quilts#completely they're gonna take up sooooo much space. even folded and rolled up. i store them in plastic bins to protect them but the#bins take up a lot of space. people praise my work and tell me hoe much they wanna buy it or will buy the things as soon as i list them...#and then no one buys them and the things just hang in my closet or rest in a bin. it's extremely disheartening to be repeatedly#disappointed. it has made me cry and question if it's worth making anything at all.
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the getohime drabble has just been chilling in my drfts for . several weeks so i figured i should post it bc i like them lots :’3 BUT it’s not the mystery fic!!! that’s for next weekend…. hopefully………
#THOUGHT I SHOULD CLEAR THAT UP JUST IN CASE…..#but :(( i do wanna write a getohime fic at some point……. i just rlly rlly love them!!!!!#sun gf and sun bf :3 but theyre both. moon people on the outside . do u see the appeal#when you first meet them it’s like. they’re moons. they’re pretty and elegant and smooth. and cool.#but when you Really get to know them you realize that they’re suns…. warm grins and warm laughs and warm hands#SNIFFLE I LOVE THEM#ari noises ✩
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The dichotomy between not wanting to fall into the adult trap of “available? never :)” and riding the momentum of motivation for as long as it takes me
#this vcd folio is my one joy as all my other subjects make me sad to varying degrees (except biology)#and I’m also reminded of the one time in 2023#I thought I was in the clear as it was the last week of art folio soon and so I decided to be silly and slack off#the cramming afterward was BRUTAL#I woke up at 4am twice in succession and was soooo tired afterward#I’m convinced if I wasn’t finishing it off in the last hour it was due I would have gotten a natural 100#so I’m scared in case I need to repeat that. which frankly I don’t wanna do :(#because the due date for the discover phase is looming for the vcd folio and I want my time to ✨ annotate ✨#but it makes me feel guilty 😭😭 I’m doing a disservice to my wife and to me and to our relationship 😭😭😭#just pav things
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#I just saw a post that pissed me off#it is so frustrating seeing posts complaining about lesbians being ‘forced’ to have sex with men#like I’m so sorry but uh lesbians lesbians and men have been sucking and fucking men particularly queer men since time in memoriam#and that doesn’t make them not lesbians and doesn’t mean they were necessarily forced to do it eaither#and this is not talking about the cases where that does happen#queer people of all sorts fuck and date and it will not fit into a neat box that makes you feel good every time#I hate the rising of Porto terf/radfem/transphobia rhetoric and the gender essentialism shit#sorry I’m rambling this is frustrating#also how fuckibg insensitive to bring of conversion therapy in relation to lesbians and gay men fucking each other consentually holy fuck#obviously if someone is being a fucking pushy ass and saying all lesbians should fuck men that’s awful and that person should be shunned#but I see these reactions to people just gleefully talking about the messy queer relationships they have or want to have or see#and people who do the whole nmlnm bullshit getting their emotions in a bungle#if you don’t like these opinions of mine please feel free to leave and block me#this may have not been coherent at points and is definitely vague posting about a specific post but it bothered me so much#forgot to mention the biphobia in it too#also I wanted to make it clear the cases where lesbians are pressured into sex with people they don’t wanna have sex with is Bad like it is#never EVER acceptable and the people who promote that need to be strung up#but this is not about those situations
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not really the type who likes posting their ocs much but here's a Nim :}
#no tags because idk how to tag oc posts- also this account DO just be for saving my art in case my pc ever breaks.#but he's one of my favourite characters i have rn#and the junk hunters in general honestly their dynamic is my favourite.#two old gay men. One (Viktor) who lingers a little on the past but is happy and content as to where he is in the present#the other (Atlas) still mourning his dead mother and having left his abusive home.#A trans girl (Inky) who grew up in a perfectly normal household but became agoraphobic; before being ripped from her home and forced into#outside world#and Nim. someone who grew up in a trash zone with nothing to eat but garbage and is living her best life in the present.#they're literally blorbos from my brain ESPECIALLY the world they're apart of too because GOD i love it so much#What Nim's holding is called a Liabell; most if not all mosnter hunters have them for mobility.#the liabells dont work without a lullader (small-neon glowing stone looking spiders basically) inside. as it uses their incredibly tough we#to pull#but Nim's a cloven (deerways) so she's already got pretty good agility and uses their's for moreso rangling monsters.#i have SUCH a cool scene that I wanna draw (but doesn't fit my style- so i gotta commission it for sure)#where they're standing atop of an elk-like monster#and he's like- spun webs of the liabell around it's horns and its incredibly firey and its night and#GAHH#Nim's liabell isn't even like- purple- his lullader is- the liabell is clear glass with weathering copper when the lullader isnt in it.#I'm so normal about this world and all the races I've made for it. Because simply being a different race means they might use their#tools differently or not need specific ones#for example: I've got one character in my mind that's a possae (something inhabiting another thing basically) and they're a skeleton#with this massive glowing pulsating mass in it's ribcage and its all cowboy motif. (I'm thinking angel posessing it and handing out#their own retrobution in the West Zone)#and basically they use a Liabell similar to Nim but it's a lasso and they have several of them to help tie up more people.
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