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Pairing: Jake x Fem!MC
Genre: Post-Episode 10 Duskwood, Post-Episode 1 Moonvale
Words: 8,916
Summary: It's been three months since the explosion in the mine. Three months since Hannah was found. And MC's accepted that Jake is never coming back. When she gets roped into another missing person's case, it makes for the perfect distraction. Jake is dead. It's fine. That is, until she finds herself on the phone with Alan Bloomgate who says he has something to show her. But it's fine. Jake is dead.
Until he's not.
EPISODE-1 MOONVALE SPOILERS AHEAD (MAYBE)!
[ A/N: Hello! :)
I know it's been a while since I've done this, but I finished Moonvale Episode 1 and if you've seen the ending (and used its Duskwood code), you know what happened and how excited I was to receive that bit of Duskwood. So, I took it and ran with it, and out came this extremely long fic. I did not proofread this as it took me literally almost 12 hours to write so it is completely and 100% me and my love for Jake and I hope you love it.
Side note: I suck with anything related to timelines, so I made one up on my own. I know Episode 1 of Moonvale takes place over the course of a day or two, but for the purpose of this fic, it made sense to make it longer, so it's not a typo, or me losing my mind, it's just the way my brain processed this.
Enjoy! :) ]
Itâs been three months since the explosion in the mine.
Three months since Richy had been killed. Three months since Hannah was rescued. Three months since I had last spoken to Thomas or Cleo or Lilly orâŚor Jessy. I didnât blame her then and I donât blame her now. Any of them, really. I didnât share the bond they had with each other. I wasnât from Duskwood. It didnât matter that weâd experienced a tragedy togetherâand yes, perhaps them more than me, but I loved Richy too. I had lost Richy too. And Jakeâ
But mostly, I think they just wanted to forget. To move on. They didnât want to remember that their friend had been capable ofâŚof that. And I was a constant reminder of that to them. So I understood why we didnât necessarily talk anymore.
The one person I did keep in contact with from Duskwood, oddly enough, other than the occasional update from Alan Bloomgate, was Dan. We werenât best friends or anything, but he allowed me to check in on our friends in a way that I didnât know how to do with anyone else. Maybe because I thought he was the least affected among them. I knew he cared about Hannah, but he wasnât to her what Thomas or Cleo or Lilly were. And he wasnât to Richy what Jessy had been.
Iâd learned from him that Thomas and Hannah had broken up. There was no bad blood, but Thomas hadnât quite figured out how to accept the things heâd learned about his girlfriend when sheâd been gone, and Hannah hadnât quite figured out how to re-trust someone after Richy. Even if that person was Thomas. But Iâd hoped they would find their way back to each other in the end.
I thought about reaching out to Jessy every once in a whileâeven just as an apology for everything that had happened. Iâm sorry that Hannah was found at the expense of Richy. Iâm sorry that he did this to you. Iâm sorry I didnât realize it sooner. We should have. We should have. We should have. I miss you. But I never send it. Iâm not all that sure sheâd respond anyway.
Cleo and I were never all that close. She has her best friend back, so I think sheâs probably as okay as she can be. Helping Hannah find a new kind of normal in a time where her childhood friend had kidnapped her in order to prove a point. I donât know how you come back from thatâI donât know how you come back from knowing that you killed somebody at all.
I hadnât found the courage to ask if somebody had told Hannah about Jake.
Not that I think it would matter anyway. I hadnât heard from him since before the explosion in the mine, which was, like I saidâthree months ago. I waited the appropriate amount of timeâtwenty-five daysâbefore I broke down and concluded that maybe he hadnât survived. Which just piled a shit-ton of guilt onto my shoulders because it was supposed to be me in that mine. He had gone in place of me and now he was dead.
It was the only explanation that made sense. I was used to Jake disappearing for days at a time, but never as long as he had been now. And he didnât seem like the type to tell me he loved me and then leave without a single explanation. Not unless he had to. But it had been three months and as much as I missed him, as much as my chest ached with the thought that we would never eat Chinese food out of shitty motels and have that on-the-run ending we talked about, I had accepted that he wasnât coming back.
I wonder if he had known about Richy or if he had died still thinking Michael Hanson was the one who had kidnapped Hannah. I wonder if his last thoughts were of me. Maybe itâs selfish, but I kind of hope they were, because Iâm pretty sure Iâll think about him for the rest of my life.
I wonder what it would have felt like to run my hands through his hair. To kiss him. To spend every waking moment with him and know it was because I loved him. Because I would have. Talking to Jake became about more than just finding Hannah. It became a part of my day I looked forward to more than anything else. He confided in me in a way that told me he never had with anyone, maybe not even Hannah, and I needed that from somebody. I needed somebody to trust in me the way that Jake did. I needed somebody to love me the way that Jake did.
It was strangeâand maybe a little ironicâthe thought that something so beautiful could come out of something so tragic.
Anyway, my point is: itâs been a long couple of months. Of thinking about my friends. Of thinking about Jake. Of wondering if I should have done things differently. I should have gone to Duskwood to help. Not even with the mine, but sooner. I could have. I couldâve gone when Jessy was attacked on the way home. I couldâve gone when the group made plans to cut out of town and hide away in the house Richy had found. Selfishly, I should have. In that moment, when they were settled around the fire and Lilly called me, I had never remembered wanting anything more. I should have grabbed Jakeâmetaphorically, maybe even literallyâand rode it out with them to the end.
I donât stop missing them after three months. Of wishing things could have been different. Wishing I could have done more. But exactly ninety-five days after the explosion in the mine, seventy days since I had accepted that Jake was never coming back, twenty-two days since I had last heard from anybody from Duskwood (Dan included), my phone dings with a new message.
And the cycle starts all over again.
Itâs somebody named Eric, who claims he needs my help to find his friend Adam, who disappeared while he was waiting for a ride in someplace called Redlog Pines. And much like with Duskwood, I have never heard of Redlog, and the case reminds me way too much of Thomasâ first message to me, so much that it makes my chest ache, but I canât say no because thereâs somebody missing, and if Iâd say no the first time, God knows where Hannah would be.
So, I say yes, and I help out where I can, and Eric decides he needs to bring about four more friends in on his little plan and I try my best to stay emotionally unattached because I remember everything that happened the last time and I canât go through that again. I offer up information when I can and keep my words short and careful because Iâm not ready to get attached to somebody else I know I might never meet.
I know how this ends.
Two days in, Ash, one of Ericâs friends, brings up my Duskwood past and the unhealed wound Iâve been trying to mend breaks open again. She asks about Richy, and about the mine, and then because Iâm me and I canât help myself, I tell her about Jake. She tells me the news never mentioned another body and I shove that thought to the back of my head because hoping for something that will never come true will kill me.
Four days into Adamâs disappearance, and the police not giving a shitâas Charlie, somebody who reminds me far too much of Richy for comfort, points outâmy phone beeps with an incoming call from somebody I havenât spoken to in a while.
âGo for [MC].â I answer my phone.
Ever since Hannah had been found in the mine and Jake hadâŚyou know, my phone had been more silent than Iâd gotten used to. Until this new case. But even thatâit was only a few days old and I didnât want to go down the same path with them that I did with my friends in Duskwood. We didnât really know each other that long, sureâeven though sometimes itâd felt like itâbut it felt like Iâd finally been a part of something. Like, I had found these people who had chosen me for me.
And originally, maybe they had. Maybe theyâd had every intention of keeping me around, but then Richy was the Man Without A Face and Alan Bloomgate had rescued Hannah and nothing was the same as it had been when weâd met each other. We knew too many secrets about each other by the time the town settled. Secrets we would have to take to the grave.
Or maybe Iâm losing my mind a bit and I had really only been a means to an end.
Either way.
âAlan?â I raise my voice when thereâs nothing but breathing on the other end of the line. âDid you mean to call me?â
His tone is clipped. âI found something.â
âYou found something.â I repeat.
My heart clenches. For all I know, it might fall into my stomach. As far I know, from watching the news, from what Ash told me, Jakeâs body was never found. Richyâs was. Or what was left of him to find, anyway. I had assumed that there just hadnât been enough of Jake left. The thought left me nauseous, but it was better than hoping for something I knew I could never have.
âIâm sending it to your phone now.â He responds. âLet me know what you think of this.â
And then he hangs up.
That was a riveting conversation, I think as my phone dings with a message. I do my best to ignore my other messagesâcontacts from Duskwood Iâm still not ready to acknowledgeâand click Alan Bloomgate. He sent me a video that looks likeâoh God.
Immediately, Iâm overcome with emotion as an all-too-familiar forest pops up on my phone. Itâs a video of Alanâs bodycam footage. Heâs searching the Duskwood forest. A forest Iâve seen too many times in the background of other video calls.
I watch as he stumbles upon an object thatâs too dark to make out at first. When he gets closer, itâs clear that itâs a backpack. Itâs simple. Black. Nothing about it that screams this is mine and I left it here about anybody in particular. You stupid, stupid idiot, I tell my heart when it rattles against my chest in hope. Heâs dead.
Alan stands and treks away from the backpackâI want to scream at him to go back, to open it and look through it and tell me if itâs what my heart aches to believe, but I canât, because this is a video and Iâm simply watching with wide eyes, waiting forâŚfor something. But then. But then, he moves further into the forest and I watch as he stumbles upon an object that makes my knees tremble and tears rush to my eyes and my hands shake. A black hoodie. It looks like itâs been through hell, with holes scattered up the sleeves and dirt cakes into the hood, but itâs unmistakably his.
And thenâAlan lifts the hood and picks up something that makes me sink to my knees with a sob that wracks my entire frame. Because Iâm staring at Jakeâs mask. The mask he doesnât go anywhere without. The mask that protects him. And so my relief is short-lived, because I realize that even if heâs aliveâwhich seems like a very big possibility at this pointâheâs alive without the things that he needs to survive.
And then the anger kicks in. Because if heâs been alive, on his own, for three monthsâwhy has he not contacted me? Unless he survived the mine but he didnât survive the after. But that didnât make any sense. So, okay, he wasnât dead. But that didnât make any sense either. He told me he wouldnât let them catch him. Because catching that meant he would be apart from me. Did something happen that prevented him from being able to reach out and tell me he was at least okay? A quick text that said didnât die in the explosion in the mine, you donât need to mourn me, by the way, going off radar for another year. Did he think I would have given up on him?
I wipe my eyes and shoot a message to Alan.
ME: Recently?? Did nobody search the forests before?     Â
ALAN: Searched the forests for what, [MC]? The logical assumption seemed to be that if anybody was inside the mine when Richy set the fire, they would have perished alongside him. Officers were stationed outside every known entrance and exit. Besides, after the story you and your friends spun around this town, do you think anybody would have gone back into its forests?
ME: But itâs possible?
ALAN: I would say these items had been there for some time. But I would say it is likely he ditched them when he fled the mine, yes.
Another sob tears through my throat. Jake is alive. I donât know quite what that means for us as of now, but I know itâs the best news Iâve heard since Hannah was found. Jake is alive. Heâs out there somewhere. And even if itâs been three months, and even if Iâm a little bit mad at him right now, I know that if he was here, I would throw my arms around his neck and hold on to him until someone dragged me off, and even thenâI would fight kicking and screaming.
I close out of my messages with Alan and pull up a conversation I havenât had the heart to look at in quite some time.
ME: Jakeâs alive.
LILLY: âŚ
LILLY: Have you spoken to him?
ME: Alan called. He found some of Jakeâs things in Duskwood. I donât know a lot of details. But I know he made it out of the mine.
Lilly types for a long while, but she doesnât respond. I donât take it personally. I think itâs probably hard for her to be happy that her brotherâs okay while also trying to accept that her sister may never be okay again. Her sister, who had once-upon-a-time been kind-of-sort-of in love with their brother she didnât know she had. I think that would probably mess with any familyâs heads. And on top of all that, you throw in manslaughter and a kidnapping. I wouldnât wish anybody, not even my worst enemy, to have had to go through what the Donforts had.
When it becomes adamant that Lilly isnât going to respond, I start scrolling through messages with the rest of the group in Duskwood. I click on Jessy. Iâm here if you need me. That had been the last thing I sent to her, a couple of days after Richyâs death. She hadnât responded. I click out of Jessyâs contact and click on Thomasâ instead. Thank you for everything. That had been his last message to me after we found Hannah. Iâd liked it. I hadnât expected at the time it would be the last thing weâd ever say to each other. I click out of Thomasâ and click on Richy. So, you want to turn yourself in? Iâd asked. That was before he called me. Before he lit a match and burned himself and the mine to the ground. Some people would call that heroic. I mostly call him a coward.
I click on Jakeâs name. Itâs been a while since I read messages between the two of us. Maybe before I had acceptedâthoughtâhe was dead. In that twenty-five-day period when Iâd hoped with all Iâd had that he would come back. I love you. That was the last message he sent me. Iâd responded with I love you too, Jake. Then, four days later: Are you okay? A week later: Jake, please, youâre starting to scare me. I know you said you would contact when you could, but itâs been a week. After twenty-five days, when I had finally accepted our fate, Iâd sent one final message: I hope you know that I love you, and I will always care about you, but I think itâs time for me to move on. Iâm so sorry that I sent you into the mine. It should have been me. And I will probably feel the guilt from that for the rest of my life. Thank you for everything. Take care of yourself, wherever you are.
After that, I had closed out of our messages and hadnât looked back. Partly because I couldnât bear the pain of it. It felt like I had given up on him. I hadnâtâif I had thought for a second that he was alive, if I knew then what I know now, I would have never sent that message. But holding out hope for somebody who I thought was a ghost at the time? That was slowly killing me.
Itâs only then that I notice the screen flickering. Much like the way it used to whenever Jake would hack into my phone. I donât think heâs much in the mood to be hacking right now, but somehow, I know itâs him. When had he done this? Recently? If I had opened our messages, would I have seen this tenâtwentyâeven fifty days ago? It hadnât looked like this the last time I texted him. Did he see my last message about needing to move on? Was that why he hadnât reached out to tell me that he was okay? Because he thought I was moving on happily without him?
No, my brain supplies. He wouldnât. He would reach out anyway, because he knows how much the thought of him not being okay would have destroyed you.
The screen flickers once more and then a message pops up, bright and blue-tinted and clear as day on my phone.
[MC]
I WILL FIND YOU
And the world around me shifts.
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Maybe it sounds crazy, considering Iâve never seen his face before, but I always thought that if Iâd ran into Jake one day, maybe on the street or at one of those motels he stayed at or maybe even in Duskwood, surrounded by all our friends, I would know it was him. I would, because itâs him, and itâs me, and weâre the only two people who understand each other quite the way we do.
I still believe that.
I believe it when I book my flight to Duskwood (or rather, twenty miles outside of town, which is the closest airport). I believe it when I board the airplane and find a seat next to a mother with her screaming child and when I shoot off a quick text to Eric to let him know Iâll be MIA for the next few hours, but to message me if he needs anythingâand I think about how much easier this case would probably be to solve if we had Jake.
Maybe it would have been harder to find Hannah without me, but I know damn well they wouldâve never found her without Jake.
Dan picks me up from the airport. I havenât told the others yet. Something about it felt offâlike I shouldnât message them and say hey, I know we havenât spoken in a while, but Iâm booking a flight to look into why my maybe-slash-not-really boyfriend left his belongings in a forest we really wish we could forget about, and by the way, can I crash at your place?
Itâs quiet on the car ride back into town. Iâm looking through my messages from Eric and the group from Redlog Pines and thinking about how Iâm Duskwood with this group and I want so badly to laugh because itâs ironic, but Dan wouldnât understand. He might just call me crazy. Better yet, he would ask how I manage to get myself into these situations, and really, I donât have an answer for him.
âHow have you been?â I ask, just to break the tension, as Charlie, in my messages, tries to persuade his friends to head back into that creepy cave in the middle of the forest. Heâs going to get someone killed, I think.
Dan looks over at me. âAre you still with Hackerman?â
My chest squeezes. âHis name is Jake, Dan. And we were never really together.â
âHm.â He nods like he doesnât quite believe me. âYou already know mostly everything thatâs been happening here. Thomas and Hannah called it quits. They say it was some mutual decision, but itâs hard to find them in the same room together. Jessy hasnât been out with us since. I think we remind her too much of Richy. The groupâs all changed.â
âAnd you?â I ask.
He gives me a cheshire-like grin that doesnât quite meet his eyes. âIâm always the same.â
We make it to Duskwood just as the sunâs going down. Much too late for me to try and trek through the forest and retrace the steps Jake might have taken that night. Not that I think it would help give me any clues as to where he might have gone, but mostly because I wonder if it will make me feel closer to him. Weâve never been in the same place before, and even if heâs not there nowâhe once was.
âCan you drop me at the police station?â
Dan blinks. âThe police station.â
I nod. âYeah.â
âWe answered their questions for weeks, [MC]. I donât think anything you have to tell them at this point is going to help. The investigationâs closed. Everybody knows Richy did it. He died with the fire in the mine. Everybodyâs trying to move on from that.â He works his jaw. âDid you come here to open old wounds after all this time?â
I try not to show the hurt look on my face. âThis isnât about Richy. Look, Alan called me. He asked if I could look at some things. I figured it was better for me to do it in person. Thatâs it. Nothing to do with Richy. Nothing to do with Jessy. Nothing to do with you.â
He sighs, and Iâm not entirely sure heâs going to abide by my wishes until we pull in front of a tiny buildingâtinier than mostâthat says Duskwood Police on the sign. Duskwood must not have that much crime. Well, not until this, I suppose.
âThank you.â I tell him as I reach over to undo my seatbelt and climb out of the car. âThis is a nice ride, by the way.â
He raises a hand in some mock-salute. âNeed me to pick you up?â
âNah.â I shake my head. âThink Iâll explore the town for a little bit.â
âSuit yourself.â He shrugs and then heâs off.
I square my shoulders and take a deep breath before opening the door to the police station. It wasnât like Alan asked me to come down here. He hadnât. Even during the investigation into Richyâs death and Hannahâs kidnapping, when he questioned us, he never asked me to come to Duskwood. Weâd done way too many video calls and phone calls and at one point, I had asked if he thought it would be easier for me to come to Duskwood, to which he responded back, are you ready for that?
No, I hadnât been. Iâm not even so sure I was now. But knowing that Jake was alive, that here was the last place was, I had to try.
âCan I help you?â The woman at the front desk asks.
I clear my throat. âI was wondering if I could speak to Alan Bloomgate. Iâm one ofâI was involved in the Hannah Donfort case. My name is [MC].â
Her eyes widen. âGive me a moment.â She stands and heads to some back officeâwhich looks to me more like a closetâand then returns with a clipped smile. âHeâll be right out.â
Apparently, she isnât lying, because not two minutes later, Alan is stepping out from the same door and staring me down. I hold his gaze and hope it says that Iâm not here to argue. I will tell him my truth, but only my truth, not Hannahâs, not Jakeâs, not anybody elseâs.
âI was wondering when I would see you.â He says.
I shrug one shoulder. âIsnât a few months later better than never?â
âLetâs go into my office.â He says, and leads me around the desk and back into the closet space he had come out of. He sits behind the desk and motions for me to take a seat opposite him. âIâm just going to guess youâre not here to talk about Miss Donfort.â
âI want to see them.â I tell him. âHis things. I want to see them for myself. And whatever you want from me in return, Iâll give to you.â
âYouâre playing a dangerous game here, [MC].â
âHe isnât a game to me.â I snap back and then sit back and try to relax. âI appreciate that you called me. ItâsâI helped you find Hannah. I would do it again. Even with knowing the things that we do now, I would do it all again. Thatâs how much that group means to me. Thatâs how much he means to me. Iâm not asking you to break any rules or to lie for him or toâto let him hide in your basement for the next five years. Iâm just asking you to show me what you found.â
He stares me down for a moment. Then, he sighs, says âwait here for a minuteâ and disappears to another room. When he comes back, itâs with an evidence bag in his hand filled with the objects I saw on his bodycam footage. My breath hitches in my throat.
âI canât let you touch them.â He says as he lays them in front of me.
I stare into the eyes of the mask. âDid you tell anybody that heâs alive?â
âI donât know that heâs alive,â is all the answer he gives, which is an answer to my question. I slide my gaze down to the black hoodie, to the dirtied sleeves and muddy hood, and think about the fact that Jake wore this. Iâm so close to him.
And yet Iâve never been further away from him.
âThank you.â I tell him. âForâfor this. And for listening to me about Hannah. If you hadnât, IâI donât know what would have happened. How much longer he would have gone on for. If he would have ever stopped.â
Alanâs silent for a minute. Then, he clears his throat. âYou know, it was strange to me. Both Hannah and yourself swore to me that neither of you knew the other.â
âI donât.â I swear.
It was one of the (albeit many) things that didnât make sense to me. How Hannah got a hold of my number. How she sent it to Thomas. Sheâd told Alan she hadnât really remembered texting him my number at all.
âI believe you.â He reassures. âI just think itâs strange. One mistake, if you can call it that, and you throw yourself into a missing persons case to help a stranger.â
âTheyâre not strangers.â Even though Hannah is kind of still a stranger.
âBut they were.â Alan reasons. âYou had no reason to say yes to helping Thomas. I doubt anybody would have held it against you if you turned the other way. But you decided to follow this until the end. To make sure they found Hannah. And you care about them. Maybe thatâs why I find that Iâm more lenient with you than maybe I should be. Why youâre sitting across from me right now calling the shots. Why Iâm not asking you about the hacker.â
âI wouldnât tell you if you did.â I look him in the eye so he knows Iâm telling the truth.
He returns my gaze. âMaybe thatâs the other reason.â
âHm.â I acknowledge before I turn my gaze awayâfrom him, from the objects that I know belong to Jake and it takes everything in me not to snatch them up and run. âWell. Thank you for allowing me to steal some of your time. For letting meââ I cut myself off before I say something that makes me break down in a fit of tears in front of him. ââjust thank you.â
Leaving the station is easier than coming in. Iâm still not any closer to knowing where Jake is than I was when I arrived here, but thereâs a comfort in knowing he walked these streets. I wonder what he would think if he knew I was here. He hadnât wanted me to come to Duskwood when everything was happeningâŚbut now that it was over, would he be happy that I was here? That I had come to Duskwood to piece together where he might have gone? Would he track my location and come to find me andâŚor was I grasping at straws?
It felt like I had just gotten him back. Not really, not entirelyâŚbut knowing that he was alive, that he was out there somewhere, maybe thinking of me and looking for ways to come back, to live the life we talked about when he asked me if I was sureâŚthat was worth it. The thought that we could maybe someday have thatâeven if it was a twenty percent chance.
I check my phone again to see a new message from Ash. Sheâs asking me if Iâve heard from Charlie in the last few hours. Apparently, heâs AWOL, and I want to help, really, butâŚit doesnât really feel like thatâs where I am at the moment. Not just physicallyâobviouslyâbut mentally. We got lucky with Hannah. And that was really only because we had Jake. Adam didnât have a Jake. OrâŚmaybe he did and I just hadnât met him yet. But I already had a Jake and I didnât want another one.
Maybeâif I found him, I could convince him to help. That was a big maybe. Not because I thought Jake would say no. He would say yes to anything I asked of him. The maybe was whether or not I could find him. More likely, the maybe was whether or not he would find me.
Three months ago, I would have been able to come to Duskwood and have no shortage of things I wanted to do and people I wanted to see. Now, as I stand outside Duskwoodâs police station, I feel nothing but loneliness. Nobody knows Iâm here. I could pass Thomas on the street and he wouldnât even know it. I could run into Jessy at the library and she would walk by me without even a second thought. Why would they? I hadnât told them I was here.
So, with nothing left to do, I walked. Toward the town center. Toward the library that Jessy showed me on our walk through Duskwood. Toward the Rainbow CafĂŠ where I knew that Cleo and Hannah had spent a lot of their time. Toward the Black Swan. Towardâ
Ah, what the hell.
I had nothing better to do and The Aurora seemed like a great place to drown my sorrows. To think about my next steps. To figure outânow that I was in Duskwoodâwhat I planned to do. The thing about Jake being so secretive (and on the run) was that I couldnât retrace his steps. I wasnât able to ask if anyone had seen him. One, because he would make sure nobody had. And two, because three months was a long time to forget somebodyâs face if you didnât know who you were looking for.
I pull open the door to the bar and step inside. Immediately, Iâm hit with the stench of whiskey and a handful of chatter. Duskwoodâs a small town. And The Aurora definitely proves it. The bartenders move melodically around each other, serving patrons on the other side of the bar. If you walk down further, thereâs a handful of tables.
And dead in the center is a table with my friends. Or, some of them. Dan and Cleo and Lilly. Could I still call them my friends? Ex-friends, maybe? Acquaintances? I didnât know what they were. Or how to address them. It wasnât like we had gotten into a fight. We didnât stop talking for any reason other than that we did. We stopped talking.
I make a beeline for the bar to avoid a confrontation and plant myself on one of the stools. One of the bartendersâa girl cute with bleach blonde hair and brown Bambi eyesâasks what I want and I channel my inner Dan to order a whiskeyâneat.
Looking over my shoulder, I focus on the table of them. On Lilly, whoâs smiling at something Cleo said. On Dan, whoâs the only one of them who actually knows Iâm here. But even heâs focused on the conversation theyâre having. Itâs strangeâto see Dan a part of something Iâm not sure he would have been before. Itâs nice.
â[MC]?â
I turn my head away from the table of my friends and focus my attention across the bar on someone I shouldâve expected to see. âPhil.â
âI thought I recognized your voice from when we talked.â He smiles. âI wasnât sure, but I saw you staring longingly at themââ He nods towards Dan and Cleo and Lilly. ââand I knew. What brings you around here? I expected you to show up maybe a few months ago, but by now, I thought youâd moved on without us.â
I was tired of the words move on. Like Iâd had a choice. Like the people from this town might open their arms and welcome me back into their lives. So Iâd been part of the group whoâd saved Hannah Donfort. So had a lot of people. It didnât make me special and everyone here knew it.
I offer him a smile in return. âIâm looking for somebody.â
âAnybody I know?â He asks.
I shake my head. âNah. At least nobody you would recognize.â I pause. âHowâs Jessy?â
âSheâsâJessy.â He answers, like that is an answer. âI donât know if sheâll ever really be okay with the way things happened with Richy. I wouldnât expect her to. Obviously. But I donât know. I think I just thought she would have gone back to her normal life by now. And then I remember that most of her life revolved around him. He was her best friend. She worked for him. And Iâm trying to be patient about that. Butââ He shakes his head. âMaybe you should talk to her.â
âShe doesnât know Iâm in town.â
âOkay.â He hums. âSo, youâre not in town for my sister. And youâre not in town for your group of friends because theyâre over there and you look like youâd rather be anywhere else. Thereâs always Hannah, but I donât think you knew her that well. Or at all. Would I be right to assume this is about a certain hacker who helped to find Hannah?â
âHe didnât help find Hannah.â I defend. âHe was the entire reason we found Hannah. I would have never been able to do it on my own. Even with the othersâ help. Heâs the only reason we found out aboutââ I pause before I say something I maybe shouldnât. âIt doesnât matter. Heâs the only reason we found her. Everything I did was just dumb luck.â
âThat wasnât what the news said.â A voice cuts in and I turn my attention from Phil to focus on the stranger that slides into the seat beside me. Not too closeâa couple inches away. I donât recognize him. I donât know him. But I donât know every person in Duskwood. Maybe a total of like nine or ten. âIâm sorry to interrupt. But I heard you had a lot to do with finding Hannah Donfort. The news said you were some kind of hero.â
I offer him a tight smile. âThatâs nice of them. ButâŚif they knew myâfriendâknew what he did to find her, I donât think I would be as much of a hero as everybody says.â
âThatâs noble.â He says, eyes meeting mine, and it strikes me at once how handsome he is. He has dark hair. Bright green eyes. Focus, [MC]. I scold. You have aâŚa someone.
My phone buzzes.
ERIC SENT A PHOTO.
ERIC: What do you make of this?
I sigh and click on the photo. Itâs ofâsome object. Much like the one that was addressed to me on the envelope in Adamâs glove compartment. The image is a bit differentâbut I donât know enough about what it means to have an answer as to why.
ME: Was this one addressed to me?
ERIC: Nope. Ash.
âAre you okay?â Phil asks.
I clear my throat. âIâm a popular personâapparently.â A thought strikes. âHave you ever heard of a place called Redlog Pines?â
Phil frowns. âNo.â
I turn to look at the stranger. âYou?â
âRedlog Pines is a small town about two hundred miles north of Duskwood.â He answers. âKnown for their wooded forests, much like Duskwood.â
âWhy are you looking into a place with forests as creepy as ours?â Phil asks, incredulously. âDidnât you get enough of that with Hannahâs case?â
âYeah.â I sigh. âYou would think.â
âHey, [MC]!â
I wince at the sound of Danâs voice. Shooting Phil a look that screams please help me to which he shakes his head amusedly, I turn and plaster on a fake smile as I take in the shocked looks on Cleo and Lillyâs faces. I should have known better than to come to The Aurora and talk to Phil when the three of them were having a conversation across the room. I should have known they would sooner or later see me. I just hoped it was later.
âHey.â I hop off my stool and make my way across the bar to them. âItâs, uh, fancy seeing the three of you here.â
âWhat are you doing here?â Cleo asks.
âI havenât really figured that out.â My eyes meet Lillyâs. âIt sounds crazy to say it out loud. But I was hoping thatâIâm not sure if Lilly told youââ
âThat Jakeâs alive.â Cleo nods. âNone of us ever really thought he wasnât.â
I donât think she means it as a digâbut it still feels like one. Like sheâs saying you gave up on him you gave up on him you gave up on him even though sheâs not and she didnât really know him and the only person I can talk to at this table who even might understand is Lilly and evenâJake didnât confide in her the way he did me.
âRight.â I acknowledge. âSo I thought that maybe if I came here, I could trace his steps from when he was here andâI havenât really thought that far ahead. Itâs not like I thought he left me any clues in the forest or anything like that. I donât think he expected me to be here. He hadnât wanted me to be the last time we talked. But that was before everything happened.â
Lillyâs eyes track behind me. âDoes Jake still have Nymos on your phone?â
âUh.â I furrow my brows. âI think so. I hadnât heard from him in a while, but I went back and read through our messages after I talked to Alan andâŚmy phone glitched, like it used to when Jake had hacked it. And then this message appeared on my screen.â
âAnd by chance, can Nymos track your location?â
âWhatââ I shake my head. âMaybe. I donât think I ever really asked him. It didnât seem necessary at the time.â
âUh huh.â She focuses on me once more. âLetâs say, for one minute, that Jake has access to Nymos who has access to your location.â
Cleo must catch onto something Iâm not sure of. âJake didnât want you here.â
âUh, thank you?â
âYou know thatâs not what I mean.â She waves me off. âHe didnât want you in Duskwood. He had been adamant about that when we were talking about the mine. Thatâs why he went. If you showed up in Duskwoodââ
âNymos would have alerted him.â Dan finishes.
âOkayâŚâ Iâm not entirely sure Iâm on the same page as them. âSoâyou think that Jake found out when I came to Duskwood.â
âCorrect.â Lilly beams like she just solved lifeâs greatest mystery.
âAnd you think he wouldâcome find me?â
She smiles sympathetically at meâlike Iâm the worldâs biggest idiot for not realizing what she has been trying to say sooner. âI think he already has.â
âYou think Jakeâs in Duskwood.â I deadpan.
â[MC].��� Cleo grabs my shoulders and turns me around. âWe think heâs in this bar.â
Stranger, as I had nicknamed himâAKA the guy sitting beside me at the bar, with Phil and Redlog Pines (which he probably only knew about because of me) and the whole Hannah being kidnapped and not taking any of the credit thingâwas looking back at me. So was Phil. Like they thought I was the crazy one. Like it wouldâve been so hard for him to look and me and say itâs me or anything that might have clued me into the fact thatâ
âJake?â I whisper, because Iâve lost quite a bit of sleep over the past couple of months and Iâm not one hundred percent sure whatâor whoâIâm seeing is real. âAre you here?â
He tilts his head and smiles at me. Actually smiles. A bit shyly, like itâs something heâs not used to doing, but maybe like itâs something he could get used to. And I think about how terrible I probably look right now because Iâm not wearing makeup and my hair is tousled from constantly pulling at it and my clothes are wrinkled from the plane and the police station and I look like a mess. But our relationship has never been about looks. Clearly. I didnât even know the person Iâd been talking to until Lilly and Cleo and even Dan pointed out the obvious.
âIf Iââ I close my eyes and open them again. Nope. Still there. âI need you to still be there by the time I reach you because itâs been aââ I sniffle. ââitâs been a rough few months and I donât think I could handle you disappearing again.â
He stands from the stool he was sitting on and shuffles his feet. Like heâs not quite sure where heâs supposed to stand. If he thinks about moving, Iâll tackle him onto the floor of The Aurora and then apologize to Phil later. It feels like everything I wanted is right here in front of me. And Iâm scared to death that itâs not real.
âWhatâs one thing you would take with you if you were stranded on an island?â
His smile stretches. âMy computer.â
And thatâthatâs what breaks me. I think I might start blubbering like an idiot but I donât remember the time it takes for me to cross the measly twenty feet between us. All I remember is grabbing his black hoodieâbecause of courseâand dragging him to me. I donât kiss him, despite how much I want to, because I donât want our first kiss to be tainted with my snot and tears. Instead, I bury my face in his collarbone and wrap my arms around his neck and hold on for dear life.
Because I can. Because he isnât dead.
âYâYouâre here.â I pull back and cup his face with my hands. âHow are you here?â
âYou came to Duskwood.â He responds, and thenâhesitantlyâhe presses his lips to my forehead in a kiss. âAlan called you.â
âHe found your things in the forest.â I whisper back. âHe said theyâd been there a while. The police hadnât searched the forest because they assume you died in the mine.â
âThey arenât looking for me here.â He confirms. âI didnât expect it to take so long for them to find my belongings, but I anticipated that you would find out. At the time, it wasnât safe for me to reach out and contact you. They kept on my trail for a while before they assumed I died in the mine with Richy.â
âWhy didnât you contact me then?â I ask. âIs it because of what I last messaged you? I didnât mean itâI swear, I thought you were dead. If I had known you were alive, I would have waited, however long it took. I wasnât trying to give up on you.â
âHey.â He places both hands on either side of my face. âI know. I know that, [MC]. That was never why I didnât reach out to you. I know you said you wanted this life with me. But I didnât want that for you. But I was selfish. I couldnât let you go. So I was trying to find a way to make both of those things true. But I was always coming back to you.â
âAnd did you?â
âCome back to you?â He asks.
I sniffle. âFind a way to make both of those things true.â
âNot entirely.â He admits. âNymos alerted me you had boarded a plane headed in the direction of Duskwood and Iââ He shook his head. âI knew I would find you here.â
âYou could have found me sooner.â
He lets go of my face and he feels like he takes my skin with him. âIt wasnât that easy.â
âIt could have been.â I demand.
Iâm angry again. Now that I know heâs alive and okay and that he could have found me, Iâm angry that he didnât. I told him I would choose that life with him. Over and over and over. He didnât need to make the decision for me. He didnât need to try and protect me. And yes, maybe the fact that he did makes my heart flutter a tiny little bit, but thatâs besides the point.
âI told you before you left me.â I tell him and Iâm aware it sounds like weâve been in a relationship for five years and Iâm aware that everybody in here is watching and listening in on our conversation and they probably all know weâre who we are, two people involved in helping to find the kidnapped Hannah Donfort, and maybe thatâs all weâll ever be in this town. But I would rather be the girl who found Hannah Donfort in Duskwood with him than be me anywhere else. âYou told me you would let me go with you.â
âThat was before I told you I loved you.â
My heart skips a beat. It screams I love you I love you I love you back, but I sayâ âWhat does that have to do with anything?â
He looks somewhat amused. Like he knows I would never hold it against him. Itâs clear to both of us that I wouldnât because even though Iâm glaring up at him with my furrowed eyebrows and my lips pouted, Iâm still pressed tightly against him. His handsâeven though theyâve moved from my faceâare now resting on my hips. Pulling my tighter to him. Thereâs no space in between us. If it was up to me, Iâm pretty sure there never would be again.
â[MC].â He says, and oh god I wish he would say my name every day for the rest of his life. âHave Iâin the short time we have known each otherâever struck you as the type of person who says I love you? But with youâŚâ His words are a whisper against my lips. âItâs easy to fall back into old emotions with you.â
âI want to be angry with you.â I tell him.
He shakes his head. âNo, you donât.â
âNo, I donât.â I agree. âBut I might be if you donât kiss me.â
He brought one finger underneath my chin and tilted it up until our lips were separated by a fraction of an inch. My eyelids fluttered. I didnât care that everyone in here was about to see just how much Jake meant to be. I didnât care because I had waited too long for this. And thenâjust as Iâm leaning toward him to press our lips together, he whispersâ â[MC]?â
âHm.â I acknowledge.
âWhoâs Eric?â
My eyelids crack open and I shove at his chest. âThatâs what youâre worried about right now? Here I am, in front of you, covered in snot and tears and who-knows-what-else because youâre here right now, and youâre worried about some guy I donât even know?â
âWhoâs Eric?â He repeats.
âUgh.â I run my hands through my hair and take a step back. âI donât know. Heâs the other side of Thomas or whatever you want to call him. If we lived in a different town.â I glare back at him and try not to admit that I think his jealous side is a little cute. âHe messaged me. Thought I picked up his friend from some parking lot and I didnât, but his friend sent him my number, and it was Hannah all over again. Iâm trying to help them.â
âThis Adam has been sending you a lot of videos.â
âYou know I hate when you hack my phone.â I complain, even though I really donât. Even though I had prayed for him to help me with this case. âI really donât know Adam. Likeâeven less than I know Eric.
âBut you know Eric.â
âFor like a week.â I reassure. âHe added me to this group chat with him and like three other friends of his. Theyâre desperate to find Adam who has apparently dropped off the face of the earth and I donât know what to do. I had you with Hannahâs case. And you knew her. And theyââ I look over my shoulder at Cleo and Dan and Lilly, who are pretending like theyâre not listening in even though I know and Jake knows they are. ââthey knew her. And obviously Adamâs friends must know him but I donât and you donât and there is no Jake in Redlog Pines.â
âI donât trust him.â He shakes his head. âAny of them.â
I laugh. âJake, you didnât trust half the people in this bar when we first started talking.â I look over at Phil and then Dan. âIt doesnât mean they committed a crime. If I had backed off when you asked me to help you find Hannah, we may never have.â
âI thought that was all thanks to me.â He sounds smug, like that little smiley face he loved to annoy me with (AKA make me fall in love with him). âDid he flirt with you?â
âNo.â I deadpan. âI think he was focused on his missing friend.â
âI was focused on my missing sister.â He shoots back.
I close my mouth. Alright. He has a point. But I wasnât flirting with Eric. He was focused on finding Adam and I was focused on mourningâand then findingâJake. Maybe it felt like Eric and I were two sides of the same coin. Maybe thatâs why I agreed to help him. Because I didnât want to happen to him what I thought had happened to Jakeâto me.
âYouâre being ridiculous.â I say instead. âHow do you think I could ever entertain the idea of being with somebody else when for the past three monthsâmore than that if you count the time we have actually had togetherâIâve been focused on you? On discussing Hannah with you and then talking to you about anything and everything and then worrying about you and then hating you a little for convincing me you should me the one to go into the mine and then mourning you when it was hard to even think about you and then finding you?â
His eyes are wide. I think Iâve rendered him speechless. Whichâserves him right. I know heâs not somebody who serves their feelings up on a silver platter. I know that. Obviously, I knew that from the first time I spoke to him. Back when he was nothing more than ??? and I was almost convinced that Dan was right and he was the Man Without A Faceâa thought that I now hate with everything in me. But I need him to trust me. Jealousy streak and FBI and the missing persons cases aside, he needs to trust me.
âTrust me.â I cup the sides of his face again. âHeâs nothing like you.â
He swallows. âSome people might consider that to be a perk.â
âI donât.â I say.
And then Iâm kissing him and it feels like coming home.
#duskwood#duskwood everbyte#duskwood game#duskwood jake#duskwood jake x mc#moonvale everbyte#moonvale#duskwood fanfic#duskwood mc#everbyte game#everbyte studios
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guys, guys, guys. jax isn't an npc; he's a game dev/mod who got trapped in the circus.
i'm sure someone has already put forth this theory, but with the series still being in its early stages, it's hard to say exactly which direction it's going. while i don't think the npc theory is bad, i think it lacks a foundation and is more so the fandom's attempt to justify jax's moral greyness or give him depth where there currently isn't any. i just wanted to share some of my own thoughts about what his deal might be.
firstly, his design, which is honestly just my own speculation but bear with me. i know goose made some jokes about his clothes being farmer's overalls, but when i look at him, i almost get mechanic vibes? like if he wasn't such a prick, he'd be in charge of fixing any bugs that crop up during the adventures, which is pretty much what a moderator does.
speaking of which, he has keys to all the rooms, which is already pretty sketchy in itself, but it makes sense if you consider that he helped make the circus. naturally, he'd have them on hand in case he needed to access any areas of potential danger. to me, it's a bit like having cheat codes, which definitely gives him an upper hand above the other circus members. (but again, it's not like he's ever going to do his job.)
there's also the "figurine thing," which is probably either a throwaway joke or a thinly-veiled attempt at foreshadowing the npcs-- since their models resemble figurines-- but it's still worth noting. if we assume that the "figurine thing" is referring to the npcs-- which it probably isn't, but again, bear with me-- then it shows just how much jax knows about the circus. as far as i remember, none of the other characters have ever brought up the outside of the map, but obviously, if jax made the game, he's going to know its layouts and inner workings like the back of his hand. i won't go so far as to say he's all-knowing, but i'm sure he knows a lot more than he lets on, and i have a feeling we're going to see that in later episodes.
if he really can predict caine's adventures and whatnot, since he designed them, it explains why he's so unfazed by everything that happens at the circus, from zooble getting taken by the gloinks to running into the gloink queen. the only time he really seems to be surprised is when the game glitches-- when the one gloink started bugging out, when kaufmo abstracted, etc.
i think the mod theory explains jax's personality and motivations. when he first arrived at the circus, there might've been a time when he acted more responsibly, fixing all the bugs, trying to stop the abstractions, etc. he could've been caine's right-hand at keeping everything under control. but maybe he slowly gave up these responsibilities when he realized that people were going to get abstracted no matter what, as we can see from the crossed-off doors in the pilot. it's very possible that he became consumed by his mod privileges when he began acting more recklessly and faced zero repercussions for his actions. essentially, he's a step above everyone else in terms of knowledge, awareness, and grants of power-- probably just below caine on the power ladder, though pomni could also rival him as she comes to learn more about the circus. depending on how jax uses his abilities, he could either help everyone find the exit or slowly lead them towards abstraction, and given what goose has said about the future of the series, it's not looking very optimistic for anyone involved.
but what do i know? this theory could be completely nonsensical and riddled with plot holes. i just like to hyperanalyze jokes đĽ˛
#the amazing digital circus#the amazing digital circus jax#tadc#tadc jax#tadc pomni#the amazing digital circus pomni#tadc ragatha#the amazing digital circus ragatha#tadc caine#the amazing digital circus caine#glitch studios#tadc theory#character analysis#tadc gangle#the amazing digital circus gangle#adding a ton of tags bc i spent way too much time on this#tadc kinger#tadc zooble
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The fact that Iâve seen a few people try to analyze I Saw the TV Glow through a lens of it being about like, fandom and obsession with media and nostalgia being bad ?? is genuinely blowing my mind. Obviously thereâs the fact that this movie is as unambiguously about being trans as it can possibly be without just saying outright âthis is a movie about being transâ but I also think this is crazy because I would say it actually has one of the most unambiguously positive relationships with concepts like âmedia consumptionâ and ânostalgiaâ that Iâve seen in a movie.
Like, to say itâs a shallow interpretation of the film to call it âabout media/fandomâ (and especially a negative depiction of such things!) is putting it quite kindly because I kind of feel that anyone who utters such sentiments didnât actually understand the core element of the entire movie: âThe Pink Opaqueâ is not a show. Commentary the film makes about watching âThe Pink Opaqueâ cannot translate to commentary on watching shows broadly because the movie spends half its runtime making it explicitly clear that âThe Pink Opaqueâ may be a show that exists in a literal sense but is not one in a figurative sense. âThe Pink Opaqueâ represents the possibilities of childhood and innocence. Innocence that still is not free from judgmentâOwen gets told the show is for girls, Maddyâs friend accuses her of sexual harassment on account of her sexuality while they were watching it togetherâbut itâs the moment in your youth (or any time! it doesnât have to go away!) when the possibility of queerness and more explicitly queer utopia feels real to you. The external pressures to conform are still there but you can tune them out if just for a moment to envision a future and a life for yourself free of it and living authentically. I think this is an experience all LGBT people can relate to, but in the case of ISTTVG itâs very explicitly primarily focusing on queer femininity, predominantly transfemininity, but in Maddyâs case as well she is a queer woman (Iâve seen some interpretations of her as transmasculine but I disagree personally). Hence the on-the-nose nature of it being PINK.
What feels very genius about Schoenbrun making it about a show though is that itâs so generational, right? For all of us LGBT people who grew up in the age of screens that WAS where a lot of that early imagination going wild resided. The first time you explore a new name is on anonymous forums. The first time you explore your masculinity or femininity is with which character you relate to in a show, or which gender you select in PokĂŠmon. Movies and shows with âqueer subtextâ or even without give young LGBT people the chance to envision relationships and futures for themselves, what many grow up and call âshipping.â You have your first gay crush while watching your favorite movies. You envy those of your true gender while watching your favorite movies. Amongst many other things when Maddy watches âThe Pink Opaqueâ sheâs given access to a world where two women share this intimate connection and overcome obstacles together. When Owen watches âThe Pink Opaqueâ theyâre given access to a world where femininity is a real option for their future.
The relationship these characters have to âThe Pink Opaqueâ is a net positive and the movie makes that so incredibly obvious when Owen goes back to rewatch it later and finds that itâs nothing like how they remembered, it feels childish and immature and dumb. That is a bad thing. This is a bad thing. The movie wants you to see this as a bad thing. This is the result of repression, of conversion therapy, of violent coercion into normative lifestyleâThat sense of limitless possibility is destroyed and the idea of accessing oneâs transness, of imagining this utopia where you CAN be yourself and live as a woman, strong and beautiful on the other side of the screen as said in the film, is lost. Now you tell yourself it feels silly, it feels childish to imagine such things, itâs not nearly as deep and meaningful as you believed it was when you were younger and less inhibited, or itâs at the very least easier to tell yourself that. Owenâs feeling embarrassed is of note here. If it werenât for these external pressures that have been internalized they very well may have been able to still enjoy the show, even as theyâve aged and grown and matured, even if their perspective has changed a little. But they canât. Not yet, at least.
I feel kind of out of my mind seeing people try to approach it through a lens of commentating on media consumption because itâs so deeply missing the layers of whatâs actually being said⌠and not even in a wildly obfuscated way. The movie is ABOUT the relationship these characters have to âThe Pink Opaqueâ and how the loss of that is a bad thing. How you can possibly watch it and see it being about some kind of growth from obsessive media consumption is mind boggling to me. Seeing multiple reviews and posts in tags about it is crazy. One thing I really like about this movie is that it so confidently argues for a more positive interpretation of being obsessed with âfantasyâ and the childlike wonder of the limitless possibilities of fiction. I think thatâs a very very trans narrative, as I mentioned it feels tied deeply into Queer Utopia, and I find it much more bold of a stance to take. In a world where people tell trans individuals (and especially trans women) that their identities are works of fiction or products of the imagination or even caused by excessive media consumption, to embrace these things and turn them over and use them as a symbol of the whimsy and innocence and excitement that first ignites that spark as a positive, thrilling, beautiful thing is very cool.
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Luke coming home one day (after moving in together) and finding reader in bed with a mountain of pillows in his spot so they won't feel lonely when he's gone (Roxy is there too somewhere)
pillow pal
pairing; luke alvez x fem!reader
summary; luke comes home to you snuggled up to his pillows.
warnings; pure fluff, luke draws a gun bc he is worried but no danger, just pure fluff
notes; just a short little fluffy piece of luke coming home and finding reader asleep in bed. it's so cute, he's so cute, AHHHH
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It had been a long day and Luke could feel the exhaustion in his bones. He was used to being tired, he was used to being forced to be alert at all times but it was exhausting. So, when he returned home, all he wanted to do was crawl into your arms. When he was wrapped up with you, his mind finally slowed down and he was able to stop being so alert. He could just focus on you, in the present and thatâs all his mind was craving.
When he walked into the house, it was quiet. The two of you had moved in together a few weeks ago and so, he had become used to the sounds of you cooking or baking or singing or just simply existing in the space. But it was quiet. His body - still on red alert - went straight to the worst case scenario especially when Roxy didnât appear. He grabbed his gun from its holster and lifted it up, walking through the house.
He cleared every room but nothing looked out of place. At least not downstairs. He wasnât sure if that was a good or bad sign and so, he headed upstairs. He took the stairs slowly, avoiding the steps that he knew would creak underneath his heavy feet.Â
Once he was on the landing, he headed slowly towards the bedroom. He nudged the door open and in the mid-afternoon sun he saw you. You were curled up in your shared bed, your arms wrapped around the pile of pillows that you seemed to be using as a substitute for him. His heart melted and he slipped his gun back into its holster.
You were safe. You were fine. You were just tired. He didnât blame you.
Roxy was lying on the end of the bed, snuggled up to your feet as the two of you slept contently. But when Luke closed the bedroom door, Roxyâs head shifted up. Her eyes blinked open and Luke smiled softly as he walked over to give her pets and scritches behind the ear.
âHello, my sweet girl,â He mumbled as he scritched under her chin. Roxy was constantly pushing her head back into Lukeâs hands, desperate for any sort of attention from him and when Luke drew his hands away so he could get changed, Roxy stood up.
She jumped off the bed and trotted up to Luke who couldnât help the soft chuckle that escaped his lips. He knelt down and while he gave her the proper attention she deserved, you woke up. Your eyes blinked open, barely remembering what century it was, let alone what was going on. Your head turned from side-to-side. The sun was still up but where was Roxy? The familiar warmth was gone and in your daze, you looked to the end of the bed to see Luke knelt there, stroking her.Â
You let out an involuntary gasp of excitement before you sleepily yet quickly clambered off the bed and threw yourself at Luke. He managed to stand up just in time to wrap you up in his arms and Roxy barked excitedly. You chuckled, nuzzling your face into his neck.
âYouâre home. I missed you,â You mumbled against his skin as you held him tighter. Your arms wrapped around him so tightly that if it was anyone else, it would have been painful.
âI missed you too,â He muttered. You didnât want to let him go but when Roxy was still barking and jumping up at the two of you, you pulled back and grinned down at her.
âYour daddyâs home, isnât he? Are you happy? Iâm very happy,â You said to her as you knelt and she pushed her face into your body, wanting attention too. You chuckled and hugged her, stroking her fur as you looked up at Luke. His shoulders had been rigid but they were relaxed now and an easy smile made its way across his face.
âBack with my best girls,â He mumbled. You grinned and nodded.
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#queued post#luke alvez#luke alvez x reader#luke alvez x you#criminal minds#criminal minds x reader#criminal minds x you#luke alvez fluff
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i'd like to say sth abt the x gender marker thing. i've just started getting the paperwork done for it myself, and although its an exhausting grueling bureaucratic pricess, it's filling me w the kind of joy i last felt when i got my first hrt prescription. i know i will have constant difficulties in a system of institutions that have no official way of dealing w nonbinary identities, and i fully expect the openly white nationalist party in my country to become a significant influence in national government within the next 10 years. i also have an escape plan of sorts, but i'm fully expecting that i may be legally detransitioned again. i would still be betraying myself fundamentally and stealing joy from myself, something that i get to have very little of, if i didn't do it anyway, bc i already cannot access plenty of services including healthcare bc i'm simply too dysphoric and institutionally traumatized to show up and be misgendered. there is no such thing as stealth or passing for a nonbinary person in the society i live in, only erasure; i might as well exercise this tiny amount of power i have been given for a brief time to force them to acknowledge me as who i am. i agree that having one's gender be irrelevant to one's personhood, including legally, would be vastly preferable, but i don't see how me getting an x in my id detracts from or otherwise influences that. my government already has plenty of ways of getting lists of trans ppl if they ever want one. i may be painting a target on my back, but as far as i am concerned, it is already there bc i am already incredibly vulnerable and restricted as a trans person for whom passing or stealth is not an option. i might as well get marginalized for who and what i am and make them look me in the eye at a doctor's office while they awkwardly tell me they don't have the infrastructure to process me as a patient than cringe and stammer while i tell them that actually i'm transgender and i would prefer for them to address me as this or that while knowing damn well they just see me as a quirky woman that they may or may not humor for hashtag diversity's sake. they may still do that ofc, but for all the risks and trouble i am incurring, it also corrects the scales of institutional power just a tiny bit in my favor by giving me legal grounds to argue. i'm also terrified of the police for good reasons, but i'm more terrified of them as a misgendered and scared but not out trans person unsure if and how much to advocate for myself than i am as someone confident enough to at least get hurt for who i am, rather than for who i am not and hiding out of fear of worse punishment. i am not advocating for anyone else to do or not do the same bc it is a subjective and highly varied set of risks and rewards that must be personally evaluated, and above all i'm very aware that as a white (not us) person, for all the institutional violence i have previously endured, i would be risking far worse if i were not, but as far as i am concerned, it feels like one of the best, most powerful things i can do for myself right now is to get the damn papers even if in the worst case they end up taking them away from me again.
Thanks for sharing your experience. I remember that when I was nonbinary and not medically transitioning, I felt much the same way. I was ready to really throw myself on the pyre for the sake of just actually being seen as not the gender I had been forced to be, for once. And honestly? Nothing short of medical transition did that. All the changes to my personal style, hair, comportment, voice training, the pronoun pins, the asserting myself, the putting pronouns in my email signature, the changing my medical forms and documentation at work to make me nonbinary, none of it made what felt like any lick of difference in how i was treated, because nonbinary identities are so thoroughly erased. The ONLY thing that got people to start treating me as gender ambiguous or to they/them me was to begin to transition as a trans man and use he/him pronouns, lol. (And eventually, most people did switch over to actually gendering me correctly as a guy, tho I still do get the they/them once in a while which annoys me and it's always VERY telling who tends to do it).
I don't know your situation or if you have medically transitioned in any fashion or not, or if you even want to, and our stories are different, but all of which is to say, I know how immensely frustrating it is and how confining it is to interpreted as your assigned gender seemingly no matter what you fucking do, and that sensation of being willing to take on serious risk to be seen. if anything that was part of what tipped me over into self conceptualizing as a gender nonconforming man rather than outside the binary altogether. different risks that i chose to take on, but still, the decision to take on risk rather than be locked away inside how people saw me.
I think structural nonbinary erasure runs so deep that very few individual level actions can make a dent in it and it's maddening. Of course there's all the intersections with transmisogyny that also impact who is visible as trans and who is not and who finds themselves yearning for greater visibility and those for whom visibility is nothing but massive vulnerability that itself cannot be escaped. But I understand that you've considered everything carefully and are aware of the risks in what you're taking on, and I hope that it does mean you don't feel that confined unseen feeling anymore. Because as much as I'm qualifying things I do know how fucking awful that sensation is and how few avenues there are for doing a damn thing about it that people will take seriously.
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Cal, get the fuck out of the frame. You're obliterating the vibe.
GG: ummmmmm hey guys i hope im not interrupting!!! TA: well, yeah, y0u kind 0f were [âŚ] AA: sollux try to be polite [âŚ] AA: jade is very nice and she did nothing wrong AA: none of them did so when you wake up maybe you should try to reconcile with them [...] TA: did Y0U? AA: did i what TA: be nice t0 them 0r whatever bef0re y0u expl0ded. AA: well no [âŚ] [Robo]AA: what actually happened after i died it sounds complicated
Not significantly moreso than your life was.
Although, this is additional evidence that Aradia had no idea she was going to resurrect on Derse. Even our most knowledgeable Player is less clued-in than she thinks.
GG: i have just been enjoying these little naps more and more lately! GG: each time i go to sleep i meet more new people and learn so much GG: but i still cant get karkat to take a nap, boy talk about a guy who is anti nap! TA: ahahahah, yeah, what a d0uche! GG: seeeeeriously!
A more pissed-off Jade meets a less pissed-off Sollux, and they're meeting in the middle for some Mage/Witch solidarity.
The guy's been free of his Voices for about two minutes, and he's already bonding with the humans he used to hate. Here for it!
GG: [âŚ] i should really thank feferi again for setting it up so we could meet like this! TA: wait, ff is here? [âŚ] TA: 0h g0d, why didn't that 0ccur t0 me, where is she?? GG: ummm probably in another bubble GG: but youll find her! maybe during your next nap⌠TA: well shit, why can't i just g0 glub ar0und 0ut there in the ring and find her n0w? [âŚ] AA: navigating between bubbles is difficult here AA: its better to drift between them naturally as they intersect AA: not spatially but through common points in memory
I'm starting to understand the mechanics here. You start out in a bubble simulating one of your memories, but you can move to adjacent bubbles if they're simulating the same scene, regardless of who is remembering it.
So, initially, you can only visit people that you share memories with - but after that, you can visit someone they share memories with, and so on. Eventually, you can visit anyone in the Ring, provided you're linked by some chain of memories.
It's easy to imagine how Jade arrived here. She wasn't originally present for this memory, but she has spoken to Aradia before, and probably joined her bubble while it was simulating one of their Pesterchum conversations. You don't get kicked out of a bubble when it changes, so Jade was able to stay after it morphed into Alternia. If she wanted to find someone she'd never met, such as Dad Egbert, she'd have to visit John's bubble as an intermediate.
Aradia's a special case, since she can circumvent normal bubble navigation by flying out of bounds - presumably because, unlike all her companions, she's here in the flesh.
AA: to navigate the furthest ring you need to have mastered the flow of time! AA: that is why i am here AA: i am alive again so i may assist the dead in this way
It's poetic, I think, that the ex-ghost is the one managing the affairs of the dead. I guess she knows how disorienting it is to be suddenly disembodied.
#homestuck liveblog#full liveblog#act 5.2#s137#3593#assuming dad gets a bubble at all which I'm not completely convinced is the case
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Admit it
Word count: 1.9k words
Description: Sherlock believes that lingerie is pointless so y/n decides to prove him wrong, no matter the costs.
Warnings: 18+, very angsty, BJ, P in V sex, choking, slut shame
A/N: this is my apology for not posting as much hope you like it! But chapter 11 is about halfway done atm.
âI donât get it!â Sherlock shouted at the television screen, jolting you awake with his movement, you had fallen asleep on him again, which of course he didnât have a problem with.
âW-what now?â You ask dazed from your sleep
âThese adverts look at those women.â He pointed to the ad you had seen thousands of times for a designer company showing off their new lingerie.
âIts just an ad?â You say confused, this is your punishment for letting him get to intrigued in the reality tv shows you watch, his attempt of proving he could be a normal boyfriend.
âYes but I donât get why lingerie is so amazing.â He turned to you
âBecause its a way to feel pretty, seductive almost.â You laugh
âBut you donât need lingerie to look beautiful.â He added
âYou know you should use that line more often.â You laugh
âI really donât understand society.â He sighed and turned his head back to the screen.
âSo you wouldnât care if i wore something like that?â You ask
âI prefer you in nothing, we both know that.â He squeezed your thigh
âNo but its meant to make their partners want them more. A treat i would say.â You thought how you ended up explaining the use of lingerie to your boyfriend who was very much experienced by now in the arts of physical relationships with you.
âThat doesnât make sense.â
âIt does.â You laugh âits like when you wear that purple shirt thatâs slightly too tight for youâ you smirk as his brow raises
âThat actually explains a lot.â
âNever mind the show is back on.â You point to the screen
âYouâre just going to fall asleep again.â He smiled
âWould that be a problem?â You ask
âNever.â He added, and as usual he was right. You woke up the next morning in you shared bed trying to work out how youâd gotten there but then remembered your conversation from last night, maybe he would like it if you wore lingerie. You hadnât exactly tried that before, you knew he was probably out on a case so you got dressed with your mission clear. Finding the perfect lingerie to seduce the great Sherlock Holmes, who also happened to be the man who never had physical relationships with anyone, in a physical relationship with you.
You started out with a few common clothing shops with nothing really taking your fancy so you decided it would be better to look in the expensive shops, like the one from the advert. You browse the isles being amazed by the different styles and colours in all shapes and sizes before finally seeing the perfect set.
On a mannequin in front of you was a purple laced bra and panties set. It was almost the same colour as his shirt so you knew it would be perfect, the bra was lace and obviously see through and the panties would fit your figure just right.
It was early evening by the time you got home, and Sherlockâs violin could be heard throughout the apartment. He smiled when he saw you, but didnât stop playing. It was obvious whatever case he was on was really toying with his mind mind.
âIâm just gonna take a shower.â You yelled not expecting a reply, it was time to put your plan into action. You showered and washed your hair, whilst also performing for the various bottles of shampoo that probably wished they didnât need to hear the same verse from careless whisper three times over. You towel dry your hair enough so it wouldnât be dripping wet, without getting too frizzy the next day and slipped on the lingerie. And god it was perfect, there was no way in hell even Sherlock holmes could deny you didnât look good, you weren't one for loving yourself too much but this made it difficult.
You left the bathroom wearing only the lingerie and Sherlock was still playing, but upon hearing you enter the room he began playing a careless whisper mocking your singing.
âWas I really being that loud?â You laugh
âIâve heard worse.â He still hadnât turned around, dam his stupid mind palace.
âSo what case are you stuck on?â You ask moving to the kitchen and ignoring the severed human limbs to make tea.
âA soldier was murdered, found dead in the shower, no way in, no way out and no signs of a struggle. Just dead, it appears as if a ghost killed him.â He still hadnât turned around, god he was arrogant sometimes.
âWould you like a cup of tea?â You ask
âYes and is there any biscu-.â He stopped and finally laid his eyes on you. Your back was to him, your ass clearly showing.
âEverything okay back there?â You smirk
âW-what are you wearing?â He asked, you could have swore you heard a gulp.
âOh this little thing? I picked it up today. What do you think?â You tapped the tea spoon on the cup and turned around, he watched your every move as you entered the living room. You place the tea on the table and walk over to him, now he was intrigued. It was time to play your game. âSit pleaseâ you push him back into his chair and he falls back with a huff his eyes scanning every part of your body.
âI- I think its n-nice.â He watched as you teased him moving your hips as you turned around allowing him to look at everything.
âBut you see Iâm not sure about it, could you have a closer look?â You step towards him, and place yourself in his lap straddling his legs, with your chest in his face, his hands slid up your legs towards your hips, but you pushed them away. âAh ah, remember I thought you didnât see the point in clothes like this. In my opinion iâd say theyâre pretty effective.â You could feel him twitching beneath you,
âMaybe they are helping a tad bit.â He shuffled in his seat trying his best to do as you said but he wasnât going to admit you were right.
âPitty, I thought they were working.â You began circulating your hips, grinding yourself against his growing length, letting out small moans of pleasure. You watched as he gripped the arms of his chair tightly at the sensation of you rubbing against him. You moved your hands to his chest and unbuttoned his shirt. His fingers moved closer to you tracing along your leg, but you stopped your movements and tutted. âAdmit I was right and maybe Iâll let you touch.â
He grunted frustratedly he wasnât one for admitting he was wrong, but here you sat in his lap grinding against him and he couldnât even kiss you. âShitâ he sighed âfine you were rightâ you smiled at your win and pushed your lips against his and began moving faster.
âI canât help myself around you, fuck baby.â He trailed his lips along your neck going in between the crevice of your breast with his tongue, he pulled down the straps of your bra and pulled your tits free. He took one into his mouth, nibbling the nipple slightly while gripping the other with his hand.
You gripped his hair pushing him further into your chest letting out more moans edging him on. You pushed your soaked cunt harder on him, making his cock rub against your clit beginning to causing the knot in your stomach to grow tighter, growing closer to your release. He purred into your chest as your wetness soaked through his trousers, which grew ever tighter with your work. You couldnât hold it back any longer your hips jolted as you came,
âOh fuck Sherlock yes, fuck youâre so hard its s-so good.â
âMmm fuck i canât wait any longer.â He stood up and carried you through the hall towards your bedroom, his lips still locked to yours as he kicked the door open and carried you to the bed. He dropped you there watching as you knelt below him, wiping the hair stuck to your sweaty forehead.
âWant your cock, baby, I need it.â You whimpered as you unbuckled his belt. You pulled down his boxers and watched as he moaned as you licked a stripe down his length before gently sucking on his balls as your hand pumped him slowly. His head knocked back with a sigh of relief as you reached his tip again, and slowly began bobbing your head down over it, working your tongue around him before sinking down a little farther. You tried your best to swallow around him he helped by pushing himself in gently letting out deep moans the further you got. His hipâs jolted again as you pulled back and worked on the tip again, he was becoming too sensitive and he hadnât even fucked you yet. He pushed your mouth away and brought you to his gently gripping your throat.
âDon't think I forgot you wouldnât let me touch you, I wonât let that go unnoticed. Iâm going to make sure you canât walk for a week.â He pushed you onto the bed and positioned his frame over you, he practically ripped off the panties and entered with a hard thrust causing you to yelp and grip to the bed sheets. He pushed hard into you the sound of skin slapping skin filled the room accompanied by your moans, you clawed at his back as he fucked you
âLook at you so cock drunk, you think you can parade yourself around like a little slut in my apartment and get away with it. Do you?â He asked
âN-no.â You whimpered, leaning your head back as your back arched
âNo what?â He grabbed your chin making your eyes level with his dark blues
âN-no sir.â
âGood.â He flipped you over and knelt over you, slowing his pace, taking more time to push harder into you. âNow say youâre sorry.â He slapped your ass, hard smiling as a pink gleam appeared
âIâm sorry.â You whimpered
âGood girl, now we can enjoy this.â He sped up his pace and placed one hand under you, his thumb rubbing your already swollen clit. The pulse of you clit sent waves through you as you squirmed, he fucked you hard through your orgasm
âOh fuck, sherlock just there, thats right!â Your voice was muffled as you buried yourself in the sheets pulling them from the corners.
Sherlock groaned, he loved the sight of you being this way around him, so cock drunk you couldnât even hold yourself up. He too was reaching his end the way your pussy clenched around his cock was enough to set him off, spewing thick white ropes deep inside of you and collapsing onto you.
He took a moment to cat his breath, his cock still inside you before pulling himself off the bed,
âLooks like you need another shower.â He held out his hand as you turned and sprawled onto the bed
âI canât, too tired.â You say breathlessly
âI told you you wouldnât be able to walk.â He smiled while wiping the hair stuck to your forehead.
âHmmâ you groaned as your eyes fell closed. Sherlock fixed the sheets around you before wrapping your body in a cover and allowing you to sleep. He showered before going back to his violin, this time thinking only of you. Though he would never tell you, maybe just this once you were right.
#bbc sherlock#benedict cumberbatch#sherlock holmes x reader#benedict cumberbatch x female!reader#sherlock x reader#sherlock smut#smutty#sherlock bbc#y/n x sherlock#i am sherlocked#sherlockedit#spotify
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Spotlight on the Murdoch House
One of the things I wish I could do on this blog is to share with you the artwork that I am making right now. But because I work on a TV show, I canât do that, I have to keep it secret until the show airs. Now I wholeheartedly agree with this, not just because it lets me keep my job but also because I know how shitty spoilers can be. But what I can tell you about is the work I did on previous seasons. Today I want to revisit the drawing of the Murdoch House.
This project gave me the opportunity to imagine things that don't exist and fill in the gaps using problem-solving and creativity, which i love to do. And in my art, I want to include and celebrate people just as they are, in this illustration, I got to do that in a bit of a sideways way. I was able to celebrate the work of Bob Sher the production designer for Murdoch Mysteries. He had designed a really beautiful interior set for the Murdoch House and with this drawing, I could help show that off. I wasn't drawing his portrait, I was drawing his work and I think his work is an extension of himself.
I really wanted to do this justice because I wanted Bob and anyone else who had worked on this set to feel proud of what they did because it was beautiful! I also really enjoy imagining spaces that don't exist, I got to fully imagine what this fictional house is like, filling in the gaps that were left after filming.
My task was to draw the exterior view, and a plan view (the top-down architectural drawing) and highlight a few of the architectural features.
The exterior view is based on a quick establishing shot of the front door of the Murdoch house. I got to do a little bit of Architectural design as I changed the proportions of the actual house filmed in the show to match the story we were telling. There seems to only be one shot that is reused over an over again for the exterior and the shot only gives a glimpse of the front door. It was filmed on location in the outskirts of Toronto and as far as I know, we will never return to that location again. There was also an old pixelated photo of the same house. So what I had to go on was this one piece of footage, a pixelated photo, the interior set layout and the verbal description of how Bob envisioned the exterior.
Sets are not built like a house, one room doesn't logically lead to the next and could be on the opposite end of the studio. The different rooms are pieced together in how the actors move through them and the editing process. So I needed to alter the plan view of the set to match how the audience perceives the Murdoch house and not how it is actually built. I based what I drew on the actual set, but made changes to the layout, moving rooms around to make sense like a real house.
Going on the deserted set of the Murdoch House and taking reference pictures was really enjoyable. Being on that quiet and darkened set felt so peaceful and I got to see all the lovely details that the designer and build team had put in. It's wild but it feels like a real home and that isn't always the case with sets. Finding the details that would accompany the exterior view and elevations was easy. The hard part was whittling them down to just a few that would fit on the page. Showing off the doors was a specific request and those were designed by both Ryan O'Connell the set designer and Bob the production designer.
This drawing was for one of the early episodes of season 17, it was supposed to be placed above the mantle in the Murdoch living room. But I don't think it ever made it to camera! I remember there being some issues in regard to continuity from episode to episode. (We film out of order) And in a later episode, there was something scripted that had to take its place above the mantle. But I got a great deal of satisfaction from making it. I got to imagine a place that doesn't exist, helped to tell a story and I got to celebrate the hard work of creative people. And I know that it made Bob happy because it now has a lovely home in the hallway just outside the art offices.
#artist on tumblr#illustration#digital art#my art#Artist Journey#ADHD Artist#traditional art#architecture#architectural drawing#art for tv#Murdoch mysteries
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AITA for taking part in testing a stranger a few years ago?
Sounds worse than it is but I just want to ask. Long story bear with me. Fake names, all of us were 19-21 when it happened.
I'm in a very close friend group where we all share multiple fandoms, went through all kinds of discourse hell and fandom drama together for years. We're closeknit and we only get closer with time. One of the pillars of this group is Pearl who I deeply admire. Pearl is popular because she has good meta analysis and she's a vocal progressive just like everyone else in the group. All of us are popular to some degree but she's the most eloquent among us.
A few years ago we were hosting a group chat session to discuss a new show, Pearl was the host and she posted the invite for anyone to join. A new account named Ruby who was following some members of our group for a while, joined the chat along with a some other unknown people and a few mutuals. The chat had about 20 people, don't remember the exact number. So it was Pearl, her friends including me, some mutuals, some new people- all from Sauce fandom.
We were really happy to see so many Sauce fans like the new show. We were having fun until Pearl brought up shipwar from Sauce fandom for the sake of a mutual who was out of the loop. It was a mayo/ketchup vs ketchup/mustard drama and we were fans of mayo/ketchup. We were all shitting on the delulu ketchup/mustard shippers when Ruby said she was one of them. Pearl immediately showed her shitty takes from mustard fans, screenshots of anon hate Pearl got and some other things I can't remember. She asked for Ruby's opinion on those.
I admit Pearl was a little bit condescending, but at that time I was too busy agreeing with her and laughing about mustard/ketchup shippers' idiocy. I was giving more examples to support Pearl in case Ruby decided to counter. Ruby on the other hand laughed and said she also thought those anons were obnoxious and said she was only a casual fan. Pearl said she was relieved because these days you can't trust mustard/ketchup shippers to be normal. We went back to the original topic.
That was over, but I kept an eye on Ruby and I remember she unfollowed Pearl after a few days. I brought it up later a couple times when new members of our group became mutuals with Ruby. And one of them was outright making fun of her for being a little simpleton but we grew up and had other things to talk about.
Then I saw Ruby left Sauce fandom for Fruits fandom where she became a little more popular for meta discussions. She's still friends with a couple people from my group who are casual fans of Fruits. She sometimes shows up on my dash for general fiction takes I agree with. All good. But yesterday I saw her talking to her friends about something friendship and virtue signalling related, she said it was weird how many times she's been "tested" by fellow fans including people who she knew for years, and she thought maybe it was because she came off as dumb and oblivious. She implied She never needed to test anyone.
Now I don't know about other times Ruby was tested but I remembered the story from above when I was one of the strangers testing her and I'm wondering if it was a bad thing to do? I can see why she thought it was maybe rude. But it is true that many shippers happen to have dumb takes and I'd rather not waste my time, rival shipper or not. It's not even a big deal.
So Was I the asshole?
PS thank you for reading the full story and sorry I will not say the real names of Sauce fandom or its ships, none of us go there anymore.
What are these acronyms?
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Hiyah! Do you have any Persona fic recs? đ
Long ago I made a Rec List, but that's lost to the abyss of Tumblr's awful search mechanism, so here's a new one. You didn't specify, so I included a little of every game. Each game is indicated by a specific color: đ for P2 (both of them), đľ for P3, đĄ for P4 and đ´ for P5. Each one of these fics really stayed with me for a reason, so I heavily recommend you at least give them a chance.
Dust in the Air Suspended by @stealthnoodle đ
The dead timeline lives on, and Katsuya Suou stubbornly persists in it. His brother is determined to do better.
Gardenia by LunaDePlata đ
Jun can't sleep, and neither can his thoughts. A short vent piece.
heaven by [Orphan :(] đ
Lisa didnât understand how Tatsuya could trust Jun so easily while she still woke from nightmare after nightmare of Jokerâs piercing stare and twisted grin. She didnât understand the pain in her chest when she saw the two of them linger at one anotherâs side, either.
under the mask by gaytimetraveller đ
Joker grants wishes, Joker receives calls (not always pleasant), Joker despairs.
maybe Death wants to be saved, too by @senblades đľ
In December of 2009, Makoto Yuki slits Deathâs throat in his bedroom. --- In January of 2010, Makoto Yuki meets an odd boy in a yellow scarf, haunting the entrance to Gekkoukan like a phantom. (The world is ending, and all Ryoji Mochizuki can do is watch)
No Ghosts, No Mistletoe by @stealthnoodle đľ
If anyone asks, Junpei is technically spending Christmas Eve with a girl. It's just not anything like a date.
Threnody by @laora-ryn đľ
In February, Nozomi shares a meal with Minato. [You know,â Minato says suddenly, âI had a twin sister.â]
All That Remains by @laora-ryn đľ ft. đĄđ´
An exploration of the end of Persona 3, its aftermath, and those he left behind.
Equal or Lesser Value by Lisse đľ ft. đĄ
The wrong family dies on Moonlight Bridge.
A Barrel in the Sea by signalbeam đĄ
Post-game. Yukiko tells her parents about her relationship with Chie, and after the resulting fight, takes refuge in the Dojima residence.
First Impressions (Seventeen Variations) by jackdawq đĄ
It sucks to be the new transfer kid. Right?
Fusion Inheritance by @rabbitprint đĄ
In your first life, you're an asshole. There's no other way to describe it; even you would call it that.
I Have My Dead by signalbeam đĄ
Eight letters written from the Investigation Team to their families in the event of their deaths.
sentence by @corvus-corvus đĄ
Adachi rises to the balls of his feet for a better view. Yu knows theyâre visiting a woman from the case files, but itâs only when Adachi mimes an exaggerated whistle that he knows itâs going to be a problem. "She told us to leave and we have other witnesses.â Yu holds out a light. Adachi breathes smoke until it ghosts over the beating sun. âShe doesnât know that.â
Lost Kingdoms by jackdawq đĄ ft. đľ
Every girl in Inaba likes Teddie; Port Island's no different.
A Year To Fill An Empty Home by @lostozian đ´
The officer who came to explain the terms of the probation had a sad smile on his face the whole way through. He seemed like he was trying to be sympathetic at first, telling them about the mandatory school transfer and the probation terms, but when he got to the part about âremoving Akira-kun from bad influences,â Chou couldnât see the smile as anything less than sadistic. âI know youâre facing a lot of pain right now, Kurusu-san,â the officer had said. âBut perhaps better parenting would have helped Akira-kun know that he shouldnât assault people in the street.â OR, Takeshi and Chou Kurusu aren't bad people. They never stopped loving their son, not for a single second.
Falsities by Raaj đ´
They keep saying you were sold out by a teammate. You canât remember which one.
Killing Hope by Raaj đ´
Akechi stops by Leblanc once after assassinating Amamiya, looking to find the last Phantom Thief.
Stumbling on the Chopping Block by vivvav đ´
Even after Yaldabaoth leaves, the executions go on.
The Trickster's World by vivvav đ´
The game has not played out how he imagined it would. Could the Trickster actually prevent humanity's ruin? Is it possible that Ren Amamiya truly poses a threat to his ascension? Only a journey into the boy's Cognition will tell.
marigolds by colbub đ´ ft. đľđĄ
Akechi meets a mysterious being chained to a door after death and gains a second chance.
Reflections by @senblades đľđĄđ´
In the space between dreams, there's time to think. And so, the attendants reflect; on the tragedies and triumphs their guests have left in their wake. On the saviour, the seeker, and the tricksters, and what facets of humanity they supposedly held in their depths. ___ The Velvet Room is a place of guidance. But what purpose does a guide serve once their role is complete?
Smart Kid by [Orphan :(] đľđ´
A troubled kid is brought into Officer Sanada Akihiko's office in the juvenile department, and Akihiko does his best to set him on the right path.
#no fic rec list of mine is complete without marigolds#sorry dudes. no p1 this time#persona 2#persona 3#persona 4#persona 5#not tagging all of them
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BTS have always been the group to set their own course. Theyâve achieved success beyond their dreams and dealt with their feelings about how to âlandâ successfully. Why not break the rules again and let Jikook come out after military service? Sure, itâs scary and somewhat risky. But this is what theyâre all about, right? Jimin, in particular, is getting louder and louder in the queer coding. This travel show promises yet more questionable moments. Maybe next year really will be the year for him to address âall the things we couldnât say beforeââŚand I think the majority of ARMY can handle it.
I swear we just had this conversation a week ago right? Lol read these, my thoughts and opinions about this haven't changed in the last 6 days lol
I'll just put the paragraph from the last post linked that deals with this topic here for all of you too in case you don't want to read through the whole thing...
"As for KM coming out? It won't happen. And as much as they deserve to just love whoever they love, if that person is each other, that will firmly be kept a secret. Maybe one day after they disband and KM are possibly still living together and not changing their behavior or hiding it, it will be even more obvious. But I don't think they will ever confirm anything. And they shouldn't really have to. But if nothing else, it 100% will never happen before disbandment. Not only do they both still have to go through military service, where if you are caught engaging in homosexual activities, you can be jailed. Why give them more reason to look for that? Don't ask, don't tell. They probably won't come out after that either. As much as it SHOULDN'T matter if two members of BTS are dating each other, it would. It would take over headlines for months. It would be all anyone is talking about. It would be asked about in all the interviews. Their relationship would become world gossip fodder. And the focus would be less on the 7, less on the music they create and more on the social and political upheaval their coming out would be. That isn't fair to their hardwork, their passion and their life work. It also isn't fair to the rest of the band. Their sexuality would for a while, overshadow their music. I don't think they would ever take the risk of being remembered for who they love, rather than for what they loved doing. Hopefully that also made sense. Maybe one day they will feel comfortable sharing whatever their relationship is with the world, but they are under no obligation to ever do so and I personally don't think they will."
It would be wonderful if they ever did feel comfortable coming out and sharing more with us. That would be an ideal world. I just personally don't see that happening.
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Miss Missing You
Sonny Carisi x Reader WC: 974 AO3
This is my first time writing a reader fic in literally several years but this man is ruining my life and Iâm here to make it everyoneâs problem. This was actually going to be smut but then feelings happened and I didn't get there (lol), if anyoneâs interested there will probably be a part two. Very unbetaâd and very rough donât judge me Iâm literally just a girl.
It had been nearly two weeks since youâd seen Sonny and youâd decided enough was enough.
You werenât blameless, youâd unfortunately had your fair share of your own shit come up recently that meant youâd had to apologise on your way out of a date just a few nights ago. A sour ball of disappointment settled heavy in the pit of your stomach carrying you through the next few days and it seemed like no matter what you both did your schedules just wouldnât line up. Sonny himself had ended up cancelling your third attempt to reschedule, voice thick with regret as he called and let you know heâd had a case come up that needed his immediate attention and instead had to spend the foreseeable future chained to his desk and whatever relevant case law he could get his hands on.
Youâd only been dating for a few months, and while things had been casual for the most part you felt that the time apart was only making you realise how much you actually liked the man, leaving you with two thoughts as you set your phone down. One, you didnât want to spend another two weeks chasing each other's voicemails and existing only on goodmorning and goodnight texts no matter how sweet they were and two, from the tone of Sonnyâs voice you were sure he felt the same way.
It was with that in mind that you now found yourself standing outside of 1 Hogan Place, biting your lip as you tried to remember if Sonny had ever mentioned which floor he was on. Thankfully the security guard allowed you to fumble your way through your explanation, bag of takeout helping your cause as you mentioned you were just innocently bringing one of the ADAâs dinner. You found your way to Sonnyâs office, sighing when you saw that his was the only light on this late on a Friday night. Dating someone who cared so deeply about their work was a blessing ultimately but obviously came with its drawbacks.
You took a deep breath trying to push down the panic that suddenly gripped you, that you were intruding or being a fucking weirdo just turning up out of the blue. What if he thought this was weird? What if he actually didn't want to see you at all and was just using work as a handy excuse to let things fizzle out between you both. You shifted your weight in front of his door, weighing up your options before biting your lip and knocking quietly on his door.
'Yeah?' came an uncertain reply and you pushed it open, all of the apprehension you felt melting away at the look on Sonny's face.
Shock and surprise quickly turned into a wide disarming smile, the same one that had made you very quickly fall for him in the first place and had you relaxing against the doorway now, relieved at finally being able to see each other after a monumentally shitty week.
"Oh man, are you a sight for sore eyes?" he said, sitting back in his chair and looking at you for a moment before jumping up and hurrying over to you, placing hands on either side of your face to kiss you softly. You felt a telltale swoop low in your stomach as you pulled away feeling pleased. âNot that Iâm not happy as hell to see you but what are you doing here?â He led you into the room, closing the door behind you.
You held out the plastic bag in his direction, âI know youâre too busy to leave the office but that doesnât mean we canât still have dinner together?â You watched nervously as he looked at the bag and back to you, feeling that unease spread again, your face feeling suddenly very warm, âUh but if you are too busy I can just leave this here and go I donât want to get in the way itâs just-â you stopped at his raised hand, watching warily as he grabbed the bag from you and placed it gently on his desk.
When he turned back to you his eyes looked so bright and happy it near knocked the breath out of your chest. He moved in front of you, grabbing your face again and kissing you so tenderly you felt yourself sigh into his mouth, the tense part of you that was desperately missing him uncurling slowly with every brush of his lips and tongue. He pulled back, huffing a laugh and rubbing your cheek with his thumb, âIâm sorry Iâve been so busy lately.â
You shook your head, âHey Iâve had my own stuff to deal with, I just missed seeing youâ you said by way of explanation, âIâm not above taking the subway for you.â
âWow how lucky am I?' Sonny looked at you for a moment and you could swear his eyes actually twinkled, 'You didnât have to come all this way but Iâm not gonna pretend like Iâm not happy about it.â
Leaning up on your tippy toes you pressed another brief kiss to his lips before turning to the desk, pulling containers out of the plastic bag, âWell I donât know about you but Iâm starving, I got a little bit of everythingâ you took a seat at his desk, grinning as he sat down in front of you, âAnd Iâve been dying to tell you about my week, youâll never guess what happened at work.â
âIâll show you mine if you show me yours.â He muttered, taking a bite of food with a satisfied sigh.
âDonât make promises your ass canât keep Counselor.â you said, sending him a quick smirk.
The look he gave you in return was a promise that while you'd bought dinner he was definitely going to bring dessert.
#*throws this at you all and runs away*#sonny carisi x reader#sonny carisi x you#dominick sonny carisi#svu reader#posting this is so stressful its been so long since i've posted my writing#i'm still working on my barisi fic i've got lik 6k written but want to have another chapter written before i upload works just been so busy#anyway bye lmao gonna go cry in the corner
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The article does make u give it side eye.. no usual ppl are writing such abo type things.
Also do u think jkk thinks that ppl take interest in their friendship or look at it more closely than other pairs? I remember there was this interviewer who asked jk if all BTS has the same friendships among others like how he has with jm or not. while mentioning to jm the interviewer also referred to that one moment in BTS's book. don't remember if it was regarding Tokyo trip or if it was the bar scene when jm goes after jk. leaning more into the later one. the interviewer seemed more like he wanted some controversy regarding BTS's friendships but jk handled it well.
Then when that other interviewer in US asked jk "I know jimin's in town too right?" the question ain't odd but looks like jk wasn't expecting it lol. he looks baffled there for a sec and given how they were acting secretive i wonder.
This is an interesting question and I'll admit I was intrigued a bit by each of those situations when it happened.
But first, I do want to look at it from an outsider perspective because I do think there's an answer here as well that has nothing to do with them as a romantic ship.
Jungkook being asked live during an interview about Jimin shouldn't be shocking. The interviewer was a BTS fan and for her, knowing there's another member of the group freshly arrived in the city, of course she'd briefly ask about him. It was entirely plausible during that interview. But Jungkook was caught off guard because the remark wasn't probably part of the previously established set of questions, which means he wasn't prepared with an answer in English, hence the awkwardness.
As to the other situation, that ended up a written interview for an American magazine (Variety, Vanity Fair? I don't remember, but I do know it was one with long history in the entertainment business).
If the interviewer mentioned a passage from the book in the context of Jungkook's friendship with Jimin, it shows that the person has done their research. That's the bare mininum and going as far as finding that particular source (which is mostly for the fandom circle), it shows there was a bit of digging. But even if that entire source wouldn't exist, I believe (and this is where my heavily biased perspective comes into play) that for an outsider, it becomes obvious very fast that Jungkook and Jimin have a close relationship just by observing them even in group settings. It is less complicated and less debatable for those who are not heavily involved within shipping/fandom spaces. We can sometimes lack perspective or see the bigger picture because we're too close to it. For a person who probably dedicated just a couple of hours of research because they had to do an interview with Jungkook, Jimin most likely stood out in terms of friendship/relationship of any kind.
Was the question asked in order to create controversy? It is possible of course, but in this case, I doubt it. The stakes are low. Even if the interview would gain traction given the subject, the usual readership of the magazine is not the fandom of a kpop idol. It wouldn't be worth it and I doubt anyone dug deep enough to know that group duos and dynamics can be a sensitive topic.
Lastly, apart from the short piece in W Korea being slightly weird, it does make me pay attention even more to the type of coverage and reactions that AYS is getting ahead of its release. If for almost a year, the excitement was contained in jikook circles, it seems that ever since the first teaser a few weeks ago, it has captured the attention of the fandom at large and beyond.
Factors such as their popularity as soloists do come into play to a various degree, but I believe that the footage we got so far is really appealing to a wider audience. They are simply fun to watch! You don't need to ship them or to believe they are in a relationship to be able to enjoy it. They have chemistry together and people are drawn to that.
To answer your initial questions, all these inquiries over their relationship or mentions have always remained neutral, without an actual hint at something else. Yes, there was talk about couple pjs, a Japanese website calling their announcement of the show as them looking like a couple, or using the word bromance in the headline. But all these are small details that are used as fun ways to attract/cater to audiences, while remaining in the platonic sphere. It's good for business, but everyone is keeping a safe distance. Which I believe will be entirely fitting with the actual show.
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Do You Have The Time?
A Thorough Dissection of What Past Aevium Means For You
So I've been reading through @/jazz-kitty's rejuv playthrough (not actually tagging them bc this will contain spoilers for shit they've not gotten to but if you're reading this Jazz, keep up the good work! It's super fun to read through your playthrough :>), and I've realized we got some concrete dates (in a fashion), meaning that, we might be able to figure out when Storm 9 happens, within a couple months! As well as some other details.
Anyways even if you don't want to hear my rambling about dates, there's gonna be something I really want to share underneath the cut, I'll put some big bold header text so you know where to scroll to.
Now, it all starts here, with Melia's Mimikyu, which we are there to see caught, giving us a concrete date, October 10th, 198X.
Now you may be asking yourself, but Sparkie, the screenshot says 1984? That's because my buddy Nym, who is on the dev team, stated that to its memory, the year is calculated based off your system date. Meaning that the year will change depending on the year you play Rejuv in. However, Jazz's post that I got this from does mention in the tags how the rest of Melia's pokemon are caught from 1981-1983. I had an old save file kicking around that was near Blacksteeple, and checking "Emma's" Pokemon in that I can also say that these dates are variable based off system time. Being 198X-3 through 198X-1. For simplicity's sake we're going to be based off of System Time being the year 2024, mostly because shit like 198X-1 is hard to read. But just keep in mind that as Rejuv is set in 202X these dates have about a 10 year range they can vary by, this will come back later, take note of this.
I want to establish before we go forward, you can also see how this works for yourself rather easily, if you go into the past and catch a pokemon, the date it's caught at will be your system time, minus 40 years. This, combined with some plot elements such as Melia's birthday being after she catches this Mimikyu confirms that the past segments take place exactly 40 years before present day, with the Time Crystals not sending you back or forth to a specific time and date, but rather a set amount of time forward and back (in this case 40 years).
Anyways, this also lets us know that Storm-9 happened a little over 39 years ago as of the game's start, and at some point during the game's time span we will hit the 40 year anniversary. I always thought it was 50 years before the game's start, I don't remember if I got that from somewhere in game or it's just one of them things I got in my head, but between the wiki and a reply from Zumi on one of my tweets it's actually 40. If anyone has the same misconception I had, I hope that clears it up.
But through what we can gleam in game, we can actually tell (roughly) when Storm-9 happens! Judging by the fact we can still visit the past at the end of the .karma files, Storm-9 has not hit the past yet. It's going to happen very soon, but it's not there yet. Thankfully, we have a very concrete date on when that would be, December 25th, 2024, as the Xen Raid is just one day later. Meaning, that as of December 25th, 1984, the Aevium region is still fine. This combined with the fact that there is a note on the door of the house occupied by the A-Gang near Hyoshi City that says they'll be out until the Summer means that they are going to be at school until late May, early June, assuming it runs at similar time frames to a school in the U.S.. Meaning that, at some point, most likely in Early 1985, but possibly for about a week in Late 1984, is when Storm 9 hits. You could extrapolate more (i.e. no teachers/other students in the academy during the Interceptor's Nightmare Realm means people might've been on break, meaning it was Late 1984 and the gang was just hanging out at the academy) but as that's explicitly stated to be not entirely accurate to how that day actually was, I'm not going to do that.
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Anyways, now that you've heard me ramble about dates like your history teacher, we get to the fun part! That being I get to tell you about the A gang! That being we know the protag choices are 17-18 years old, and given that we know Storm 9 happened in either very Late 1984 or Early 1985, we can assume that the A-Gang were those ages during Storm-9. Meaning their birth years could range between 1966-1968, placing them firmly in Gen X, meaning they are chronologically old enough to be some of the people reading this's parents!
But that's not all, do you remember how I stated that Rejuv took place in 202X, meaning it could be any year of the 2020s? And thus, the past segments take place in any year 40 years before that, in the 1980s? If we were to say, put the year Rejuv takes place in in 2020, then that would mean the A Gang would be born in the years 1962-1964.
The general consensus on baby boomers is that they were born between 1946-1964.
The A Gang could, conceivably, be baby boomers.
Have a nice night everyone.
#pokemon rejuvenation#pkmn rejuv#rejuv#Look even if you don't like this boring kind of stuff I BEG YOU to at least scroll down to the bottom bit with the header#It is VITAL that I get this information out there
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The Coruscant Detective Unit
This was really just a silly little idea I had a while ago and I ran with it. Anyways, I thought Iâd share with the masses (tho not sure if anyone will see it akskdk) Be warned, it does contain my personal headcannons on the Corrieâs and their commanders
Shoutout to @varpusvaras who has enabled all of this and helped me figure many things out akdjfj
Commander: CC- 4477 âThireâ
Captains: CT- 6687 âSpadeâ and CT- 6799 âNoirâ
The CDU is a secret unit of Coruscant Guard troopers living deep inside Coruscant. At the beginning of the war when the first clones were assigned to Coruscant, this unit did not exist. It was only about half a year into the war that it was even ever considered, only after the Commanders realized that the CSF handing off cases to them wasnât just a once in a while thing. That combined with the unrest growing under the surface was something that would only continue to get worse, and eventually affect the Senate if the people down below grew restless enough.
With Fox already busy handling everything at once, overseeing everything that happens on Coruscant, he wasnât able to be personally responsible for this unit. Thorn, practically being SIC while also handling most of the patrol duties, was also unable to take the responsibility. With Stone off world most of the time it wouldnât make sense to have him handling a unit of troopers he would never get to see. Thire, being stationed over the prisons and the youngest, therefore having been kept from taking too much at once, offered to take care of it. And so it was decided that Thire would be their commanding officer.
Now the question was, where would they get the troopers? This unit wasnât supposed to exist and any attempt at asking for it got shot down by Palpatine since âthey did not have a need for one. They oversaw Senate security and nothing moreâ. They had to have multiple troopers to form this group so the process was slow, subtly sneaking troopers declared KIA down to the lower levels one at a time.
Thire can't be there at all times, or at all really, to directly lead any missions so he would need someone to help him. Luckily he had just the trooper for it. Or rather, he had the troopers for it. ARC twins Spade and Noir were then elevated to the status of Captain. The rest of the Guard knew about this but none of the GAR could. No one really wanted to deal with what would come out of that conversation.
Most of the unit's source of supplies comes from whatever they can steal, salvage, and buy (the last being rare). Anything they get from the Guard is used sparingly. With the limited resources all of them have to begin with, the last thing Spade and Noir want is to put more stress on their commander by making Thire figure out where they got everything they needed. They donât complain even when the shinies get lightheaded or when breathing gets a little harder.
But when it comes to technology and some extra help outside of their capabilities they have a good friend made a couple months after this unit was formed. Her name is Kasai Cyra, a human from Corellia whoâs really good at hiding and even better at putting together scrap. She lives on some of the deepest levels of Coruscant, why that is no one knows. She took one look at them and for some reason couldnât ignore the fact they needed help.
These three combined are a chaotic mess that somehow are able to succeed more often than not. Of course every mission comes with its casualties that the twins have to bury down deep to keep themselves afloat. Neither can remember how long it had been since theyâve cried with how much they blocked out their emotions. Cyra isnât much better but the main things she blocks out is the overwhelming helplessness. The fear that sheâll be found, that sheâll be killed, that she will lose everything if she isnât careful enough.
The only way any of them do not get any terrible side effects from a vitamin d deficiency is by helping out those who run the circle of the supplements. In exchange they get gummies that are easier for the whole of the unit to eat (also Noir is picky). The masks they have to help them breathe down there arenât really top notch either though. Basically everyone is barely surviving.
They (try) to keep as much peace down below as they can, whether that be by taking care of a group that needs to go or striking deals and helping out those that really need it. The entire unit knows that if they see a teenager stealing any kind of necessity on the street, no they didnât. Life is hard enough for everyone down there as it is and they donât want to make it worse for those less fortunate.
Thatâs all Iâll share for now (I have soooo much more but that can come out later after I am ready) but I hope you like it!
Taglist: @homemade-clones @kimiheartblade @the-bad-batch-baroness @thestarwarslesbian @the-toskaverse @techs-stitches @matchademi @shahrezaad @commander-sunshine @orange-twilek-guy @king-chaos-world @wackylurker @dukeoftheblackstar @kairakara101 @tazmbc1 @sunkissedclones @galaxyofjedi
#star wars#the clone wars#tempestâs ocs#the cdu#coruscant guard#corrie guard#corrie guard oc#oc: spade#oc: noir#oc: cyra/kasai#my ocs <3
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Undertale/ISAT crossover thoughts
Don't really want to write one myself (already got enough fics I'm failing to write XD) but ever since I finished In Stars and Time I've been thinking how I'd write a crossover between these two amazing games and I figured I'd share my notes in case anyone needs a bit of help/motivation in writing their own~ =D
Warning: These will mostly be in 'order of thought' as it's all barebones stuff. Also contains FULL spoilers for both Undertale and In Stars and Time so er, if you're still looking to play those/still getting through them don't read this and please play this incredible games.
Mt Ebott is located on The Island and the shattering of the Barrier brings the ability to see color back to all those on the (ISAT) surface.
Humans losing the ability to see color in ISAT was due to them/the 'wish wizards' of The Island sacrificing it (along side their seven strongest 'colour casters') in a Wish Craft ritual, naturally leading to humanity losing most of their 'colour magic' knowledge.
Undertale's 'sepia flashbacks' were all Chara's memories of how the world looked to them, BUT once in the Underground they were able to see (and remember things on the Surface) in color (hence the whole 'golden flowers' bit; it was still mostly just a cover story but Chara genuinely wished that they could see their favorite flower field as the 'gold' they realized it was rather than the 'mid tones' they saw it as on the Surface).
...The 'erasure' of the Island I'm thinking might've been accidentally poor Chara and Asriel's fault: with Chara's 'ritual' killing of themselves via buttercup taking three days to happen, Chara being from the Island insisting Asriel always give them flowers in groups of three, seven and thirteen, and an entire Underground filled with tons and tons of 'trapped' wishes from monster kind for their freedom combining with Chara's self loathing/desire to hurt those who hurt them trapping them in a loop that Just. Wouldn't. End. until Chara eventually snapped and pulled a 'May these people, this Island, EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE WHO'D EVER HURT THE MONSTERS I LOVE including me BE ERASED UNTIL THE MONSTERS ARE FREE!' and um. Welp. There went an entire nation... (also Flowey eventually remembered some of this but only after going back to being Flowey post Asriel and probably it took a while for him to sort through all that).
Which er, means in this fic, that the people of The Island and the Island itself are still 100% there but they've all spent roughly 8 years or so all blitzed out of their minds: Need to think of Chara's exact wish wording so its not just 'corpses everywhere' but very good odds the people on the Island were either running on full automatic for years or able to remember some stuff but only if they very very carefully did not think of themselves as their own countrymen/used the languages of elsewhere/were careful not to think of where they were as any actual location within their country...
...Which naturally would effect the kids by far the most as their very language is basically a brown note (bilingual types could at least swap over to a different language but likely most of The Island was rendered silent) and well, pretty hard to remember Mt Ebbot is the mountain that must not be climbed when you can't think of the locations around you by name and the adults may or may not remember the kids exist half the time so... Yeah. Cue a lot of kids climbing up the mountain due to both lack of warnings and increased chances of feeling ignored/isolated/hurt.
Aka why in Undertale we can never hear/read anything Frisk says, why the monsters outside of Flowey/Asriel never refer to Chara by name and why no one remembers Frisk's name until after the Barrier shatters: Chara's 'Wish' couldn't be broken until then.
Not sure where all the anime and high tech that's washing into the Underground is coming from but either The Island used to be a massive tech hub prior to memory erasure, a LOT of tech was lost along with the loss of color or The Island's memory erasure in the ISAT world color magitech? maybe the wizards tried to seal away more than just monsters?, or IDK maybe the Underground barrier techincally had them displaced outside of Space and Time a bit and the garbage that was washing in was from literally everywhere thanks to the Universe wanting to help them or something (side note: realizing the memory erasure from Chara may have accidentally snipped Universe worship from the monsters as well since they clearly venerate the stars also but well. That longing for the stars DID cause them pain so..).
Imagining that Siffrin and party are in Bambouche meeting Bonnie's sister (or idk, having a vacation or reunion there if you wanna give Siff a bit more recovery/'explaining his issues to his family' time) when the Barrier is broken and all the colors come rushing back. Best first sunset ever (right before the entire Surface world kinda flips out over color, and to a lesser extent those familiar with The Island start remembering more and more details as the 'curse' weakens a little with every monster leaving Mt Ebbot) followed up by Siffren and the others absolutely losing their minds over how beautiful the stars are with just a tiny bit of color to them (the stars no longer being passively pushed out of people's awareness helps).
Anyway next day the party realize they have to investigate: Partly because Siff is well, kind of losing their mind over being able to see and remember home a little, but also because W.T.F and the Island is clearly the epicenter of everything going on. ...Also Siff may remember childhood stories about colors being locked away to serve as warning for if the Monsters returned so um. That's could be a thing.
Meanwhile the Monsters are getting a MUCH warmer reception from the local humans than they ever could've imagined (accidentally saving a nation from enforced amnesia kinda does that) and are also very confused as to why no one knows who they should get in contact with for formal alliance stuff (not sure if The Island has much of a government left at this point honestly...)
Would Flowey and the ghosty Chara acompanying Frisk count as Sadnesses???
... And er, that's all I got plot/setup wise. Most of my brain energy had been spent on imagining what soul colors all the ISAT cast have and also 'What Pokemon would they all be if they ended up in a Pokemon Mystery Dungeon game?' so have a list with my reasoning on that front! =D
Siffrin: Blue/Integrity - Might seem like an odd choice given his constant lying/acting but like. Given all of the memory erasure and the torture of the loops Siffrin's absolute refusal to compromise his family's happiness/safety or use the loops for literally anything not 'helping family/ending the loops' based (even when he's basically losing his mind and could really use just... Taking a loop or three to goof off or something) just screams how devoted he is to what he believes in and well, the amount he lies syncs up well with how insane he's going so yeah. Siffren is an Integrity soul who's having a really really hard time being true to himself due to all the wobbie breaking he's gone through all his life. Specifically I like to picture his soul as a very dark, deep black/blue with little pinpricks of other colored light (mostly green, red and yellow), like a tiny heart shaped starry night's sky <3 (And er, bet that soul went very 'red/bleeding sky' as he was losing it in Act 5; Determination isn't his color by nature but they were not well at that point at all).
Isabeau: Cyan/Patience - Isa is super kind and all sorts of things but what really sets him apart is just how patient he is about everything (in ways both good and bad). I like to imagine his soul looking like a blue daytime sky, maybe with the odd white cloud and yellow 'sun' dot: partly because it fits him but also partly to cutely contrast Siffrin's. *cue me humming Like Morning Follows Night from the RWBY OST because I mean. It kinda fits honestly
Mirabelle: Orange/Bravery and/or Yellow/Justice - Again another 'you might not think so' but like. Mirabelle is hella gutsy despite her anxiety and I admire her so so much (also JUSTICE BARRIER REFLECT AGAINST THE KING YAAAAGH! XD) Not super attached to it as Isa and Siff's but the orange/yellow glow of a sunset (maybe with some pink/purple along the edges to show her Perseverance <3).
Odiel: Green/Kindness - She's hella awkward about how much she cares and not the greatest at reading situations/reacting gently but like. Her sheer affection towards the others, her always watching and coming out with the bandages and how she point blank tells Siff 'nope, not angry at you nearly blowing up the world. Also you trying to do that because you love us is cute' means I can't really see her any other way~ Not sure if her soul would be dark green (for more Integrity) or more light green (for more Justice) but all in all, very very green, like light/dark speckled leaves <3
Bonnie: Purple/Perseverance - This kid endures so much so well I swear (they're also really brave so a little orange would work well too but despite everything I don't think bravery is their main characteristic). I like to think of their soul as very 'purple evening clouds with bits of brave orange gold/setting sun on the edges'.
And Loop has a White boss monster soul for reasons; thinking that in this crossover that Monsters believe that they were born from the Universe's compassion (with The Islander's myths claiming they're the result of failed/'cursed' wishes like the 'brother who can understand my suffering Wish Craft' fairytale Siff finds in the Orary room) and both Monsters and the Islanders believing Sadnesses are born from forcing a wish of cruelty/sorrow that goes against the will of the Universe (cue Chara and Flowey who probably were Sadnesses in this until the breaking of the Barrier grumbling that yeah that sounds about right and The King from ISAT proving to even more aaagh than he already was).
And yeah. I'm out of babble thoughts now so hope that this was interesting for you all and please feel free to yoink any ideas that snag your interest <3
#fais fanfic rambles#Undertale#In Stars and Time#fanfic#fanfiction#crossover#crossover fanart#ut#ISAT#undertale spoilers#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#I love Chara (narraChara FTW) but like ISAT's setup is perfect for innocent child's wish to get turned into country ending nightmare fuel#just imagining how the people of ISAT react to the world suddenly being ALL THE COLORS is far too fun to imagine honestly#budding fashion designer Isabeau is both more excited and stressed than he's ever been in his life (well discounting Siff stuff anyway XD)#Siffrin is... Probably having a time of it remembering so much#On the bright side possible little sibling figure/'looper's understanding' with Frisk?#Most of this is just world building rather than any kind of plot or character interactions honestly#Where DID the anime come from???#First night post color return was probably a world wide Event though for both humans and monsters#Siff probably in tears stargazing and REMEMBERING that night#fanfiction ramble#fanfic notes#undertale fanfiction#ISAT fanfic#In Stars and Time fanfiction#there its out of my head#may other find it useful for their own fanfic ideas
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