#i just dont even feel like i exist at all like its so bad to the point where when i look in the mirror and see myself

[the-bleeding-weave]

My headcanon posts are doing some numbers it seems, dont worry i got yall

CW!! there will be some nsfw stuff in this, nothing descriptive but suggestive enough that i feel i should put a disclaimer. Mostly just describing their sex lives on a surface level

Heres some curlya and ansuke headcanons :D

Curlya (in a happy au where nothing bad happened :) )

Curly always carries at least 2 condoms in his wallet at all times, both for obvious reasons and also a past incident involving an egg sandwich (no i will not elaborate)

Anya has a decently higher libido than curly which means she initiates most of the time but hes perfectly fine with that, it works out for both of them.

Their sex tends to be pretty casual and playful, experimenting and joking around

They love going for long drives listening to music and singing together

They love listening to podcasts in the morning while they both do chores and make comments and jokes about it to each other

They do this so often theyve considered starting their own podcast

Curly thrives on physical affection, he loves giving hugs to everyone but especially anya. He always greets her with a hug and holding her hand or rubbing her arm

She adores this and leans into it a ton, literally and figuratively

She shows her affection mostly through quality time, she just loves existing in the same room as him

She likes leaving little notes for him everywhere, affirmations and jokes and sometimes just little doodles

Anyas favorite places to be kissed are her lips (obviously), her forehead and the tip of her nose. She also loves doing kunik (a traditional inuit kiss where you nuzzle your noses together), some of her family members are inuit and she grew up doing that a lot to show affection to them. Its a really personal thing for her and he adores it

Curly loves being kissed on the cheeks and shoulders, the ladder being deeply intimate for him.

They love cuddling in the morning and kissing even with morning breath

Curly specifically uses beard oils that have her favorite scents, mostly argan oil

Curly got into photography as a hobby and loves having anya as his muse. He takes candid pics of her in the mornings but also has her dress up and pose for him sometimes

Anya has POTS, a cardiac disorder that causes you to faint as well as episodes of intense fatigue. Curly is well trained to help her with it thanks to her tutoring. And yes he has caught her from falling mid faint numerous times.

She secretly adores when he catches her, it never fails to give her some butterflies when she wakes up in his arms

They like doing what they call "check-ins" with each other when theyre in public where one person will grab the others hand and ask "whats your color?" Green means perfectly fine, yellow means they need to decompress or discuss something privately, and red means they need to leave that environment now. They do this mostly cus anya is chronically ill as stated before and curly has depression and can get easily overwhelmed in loud environments like supermarkets

Ansuke

Anya is 32 and daisuke is 23 and they like to joke that anya is a cougar

Daisuke has been in a relationship before but anya hasnt

Theyre both living autism vocal stim compilations

They have to echo each other whenever one does a vocal stim, their favorites are just meowing at each other, the walter white confession tape, jesse pinkmans voicemail from season 1, the gas station sushi monologue, "dancing, walking, rearranging furniture", the some of main chorus to Closer by nine inch nails, among a myriad of other stims

Daisuke plays guitar a lot and he LOVES singing, but he especially loves singing with anya. Its not just a fun silly thing like it is with curlya, they take it seriously as their own unique bonding ritual

Daisuke loves anyas voice so much and he will literally beg her to sing for him, though most of the time he doesnt have to

He likes making his own music and has her sing for them regularly. Her voice range is very similar to ethel cain and amy winehouse.

His favorite song for her to sing is punish by ethel cain

They love singing mostly folk punk and indie stuff

He also knows how to play the khaen and its become her favorite instrument because of him, shell just listen to him play it and look at him with stars in her eyes

Theyre both very physically affectionate even in public, walking around holding hands or daisuke playfully having his arm around her shoulder, they dont hide their affection and they wear their smiles proudly

Anya is actually taller than daisuke, shes 5'10 and hes 5'7 and he loves to joke that he has a titan for a girlfriend

Daisukes ex was, in his words, a textbook evil twink. He obviously doesnt talk about them a lot but anya likes making jokes about how his ex is gonna call him a class traitor for being straight presenting if they ever learn about anya being his girlfriend

Daisuke is pansexual and anya is bisexual and demi. Daisuke also identifies as gender nonconforming and uses any pronouns, people mostly just use he/they for him tho, but he loves when people switch it up

As for their sex lives, anya and him are pretty sexually active, but for daisuke sex is actually very intimate and personal to him. He feels incredibly vulnerable when he wants to make love so theyre a lot more tender and gentle with each other.

He has cried on more than one occasion from sheer joy at being able to share himself with anya and she adores how emotional he gets about intimacy

After the tulpar daisuke starts going to the gym a lot and actually builds up some good muscle mass, developing a serious sleeper build (much to anyas chagrin)

Anya gets into dancing as a hobby and loves teaching daisuke what she learns

They love playing with each others hair and dyeing them together

[deoidesign]

Someone killed my boss last night and he sent me this I'm so fired

god I can't wait to make this comic.

[skunkes]

not an ask, but I saw ur post and relate a lot to it.

anticipatory grief sucks. people will tell you not to think about it, not to let it steal from today, but some days are just so hard. sometimes it feels unavoidable, like it’s some goliath mountain in the distance or even the sky and you can’t not look at it. it’s like you have to keep trying to distract yourself not to think about it, and it’s exhausting, and you’re so fucking scared of the inevitable.

like how does anyone even function? the idea of the world continuing to spin when there’s this terrible, horrible thing that will happen some day is unfathomable but it does, and it’s horrible. Some day will mark the before and the after. nobody can ever be ready for it.

I hope the love you have keeps you strong. wishing you the best.

this is literally it. i know thinking about it Now wont make the actual day it happens any easier. but it's impossible to not think about it, especially since there's no tangible way to preserve memories or feelings or the like forever. i cry easily and get emotional over most anything and everything, which is another layer of difficulty wrt it because I spiral. I want to squeeze out of my body. im not meant for any of it

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[simcardiac-arrested]

no actually I’d like to hear your thoughts on the isat ending

Like i said it felt really tropey and by that i meant that it’s just Everything Good Happens forever and…..that’s it ? like idk we were building up to this huge catharsis sort of thing and then we got to it and it was so sudden and not a good payoff and just kind of nothingburger of an ending . the fact that everyone just forgives siffrin bothers me, or at least the fact that they don’t confront them about the shit they’ve said and done. call me a mental illness villainizer but i think if you’re a fucking asshole and doing the most insensitive things to the people you care about then hey, i think those ppl have a right to fucking tell you off for it. likeeee idk being at your lowest point …… not an excuse …. not feeling it chief ……. like sure the message is to move past your mistakes or whatever but ? that doesn’t mean just getting away with it ??? and i just really don’t understand Why everyone forgives him. honestly at the end of the day the ending is just one problem, the root of which are the characters. everyone feels like trope cardboard cutouts. oh, this is the smart one. this is the smol bean. this is the himbo. and they all care for each other btw. Did u hear that? they all care for each other. we’re not really going to explain to you why these people are so close or what they went through together but just trust me man they’re sooo found famy. like …. okay. i’ve played 30 hours of this game and not once did i buy that any of the characters really cared about each other. like??? why???? You’re telling me everyone super cares about siffrin even though they barely know them?? you’re telling me siffrin cares about everyone sooo much even though he never even bothered to find out their problems before ? Wat ? and this just breaks the ending more because literally whyyy do these people care about him so bad. and then it’s just whyyy does siffrin Have to tell them anything he doesn’t even seem to know them that well. everyone feels like colleagues and Just Friends at best. and so the ending just seems really forced. like it was written by that type of tumblr user who’s always talking about aww why does the found family have to break up after the end of the journey :( which is like fiiiiine. i guess. but u guys know that u have to build up to it right?? you can’t just tell me they’re Family Members(tm) 102829 times and that they super care about each other source: trust. you can’t just do that and then expect me to believe it ….. It feels unearned. the ending feels unearned and i don’ttttt understand what i’m supposed to take away from it . that it’s ok to fuck people up because you’re traumatized and insecure?? that you have to talk about your deepest problems with people you barely know??? i just dont know. Like i said if im being honest the problems with this game’s writing are more than just the ending, it just stands out so much because there’s a lot of build up and then just …… That

[steeltwigz]

Saw a post abt the Sonic movies that was like "plz filter negativity posts better" which is GOOD AND TRUE you should be doing that. Ok. But then they kept going to imply that the criticisms of the Sonic movies are all entirely Personal and Ignorable and not like. Usually abt the horrific copaganda, misogynistic writing, and Paramount's disgusting zionism.... Guys a lot of ppls problem w the Knuckles show wasn't JUST a bastardization of Knuckles' character or thinking Wade was annoying or whatever, but like was focused on the grotesque Zionist message from that one episode 😭😭😭 you can enjoy something and still recognize that it has intrinsic and huge glaring flaws and talk abt them. I think actually you Should be speaking up abt the misogyny, zionism and propaganda the SCU supports and discusses, ESPECIALLY if you like the movies! Its important to be able to recognize these things in media and admit that even media you personally enjoy can be deeply problematic, instead of hiding it away and pretending those HUGE FLAWS aren't issues actually....

[dykedvonte]

you make really good points, I think I used the term karmic wrong sorry. I think of it more as not how I personally think he deserved all that happened to him (which thinking back os exactly what karma means, I messed up sorry), but as his fate being directly tied/parallel to anyas. I handnt noticed the toxicity of jimmy and curlys relationship, from the first playthrough I watched and the first interactions I had w fandom I saw so many ppl just. dismiss the terror Anya went through and focus too much on him as the "ultimate victim" and that just didn't sit well w me. I really dislike seeing ppl go "oh well nothing could've been done" I think it's much more complex than that. also I forgot to mention in the last ask that I really appreciate you bringing the point that this game isn't just about the harm of patriarchy but also very very critical to capitalism, I haven't seen too many ppl touch on this. I hadn't thought too deeply about how it makes "he deserved to become disabled as punishment" come up and I agree that's really messed up. I'll try watching a playthrough again with all of this in mind. but either way thanks! I really appreciate your answer 🫶🏼

I guess this is just part of being in a fandom like this. I've noticed a lot of people don't actually see posts outside of their curated view. So some people only get like anya posting or jimmy or curly and it can make it seem like that is what is saturating the conversation.

I mainly just follow the general tags and look for anything new because I'm like obsessed but I know some are only looking for what they want or believe to be the case and can get weird about other ideas.

Sorry if I came off mean its just a last few of the asks have been like circular conversations like this and its not draining per say but seeing all the nuance and details get overlooked to fit a straightforward and basic narrative really sucks cause there's a lot to explore character and theme wise.

[jackass-jones]

Just the way Shin Tsukimi’s “mask off” moment is him becoming increasingly frustrated to the point of having a nervous breakdown where all he can do is laugh maniacally because he’s so done with everyone acting so incompetent and not seeing things “as they are” (aka how he sees them) is just. Mwah chefs kiss hes just like me fr 😰

[sampilled]

just remembered how hard life is for omegas

[maxadieu]

hi! this may be a weird ass question but I saw your tags on the “I hate virus” post and got very curious! Why do you like virus? Do you have interesting facts about them to share? (idk how to explain but I enjoy learning new things on tumblr when passionate people explain them lol)

HII HII THANK YOU FOR ASKING!!!

i think viruses are very lovely things and i like them a lot!! of course i'm not an expert on them, but i'll list some resources if you want to learn more!!

first of all, the post is right about the fact that viruses aren't alive. but also, can we appreciate that first? even if they were only bad (which they aren't), they aren't alive and have no cognizance of doing any bad. isn't it cool that these things can even exist, and not only exist, but affect all living organisms?

which can actually be a very good thing! while the post says that their only purpose is to fuck with us, that's not true at all! not only are they incapable of ill-intent, but also in a lot of ways they are extremely beneficial to us! (and there are sooo many viruses that are in our body that don't do anything at all to us!)

because they affect every organism, and viruses are everywhere, it affects things that are harmful to us. we have a gut biome filled with viruses in a similar way it's filled with bacteria.

which means, while there are viruses that negatively affect us, there are many that aid us by killing bad bacteria! if we didn't have viruses there might be an overabundance of well, everything. i dont think we'd be here without them

they don't always kill mindlessly either, otherwise they wouldn't have something to keep them replicating. this Kurzgesagt video goes more in depth about it, and they link their sources! i'll also link a lecture about it if you're interested!

[thoughtpeek]

I'VE FINALLY FINISHED BROTHERSHIP IT WAS SOOOOO GOOD!!!!!!!

[penisbilt]

the bittersweet but absolute flood of relief that comes from admitting defeat at living independently, to have to move back in with parents. we tried! we gave it our best shot for almost 3 years! but living like this (being on our own) is just not possible for us at this time of our lives. we've finally proved it to ourselves that we can't do it. it'll be okay to let ourselves rest now

[widevibratobitch]

omw to play emotional support for my mom disguised as ✨fun family bonding time✨ for the rest of the week <3333 there's something so deeply wrong with me uwu teehee

[mauv-the-bluest-cat-ever]

i have my benefits of not being out as trans (which is. only one really but it is not being harassed because i dont attract attention) but it fucks with my sense of self

[echo-s-land]

It's insane how most of the time I don't get how ppl interact and I also Don't Fucking Care

[the-knife-consumer]

Forgot just how upsetting gloomed korok forest is