#i joke that im falling back into my emo self from highschool but literally i feel so comfortable in the alt scene | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

fortunately-bi · 1 year ago

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Do the followers know I'm a metal head? Do they know that I want to be covered in tattoos with an alternative look who listens to obscure metal bands and stuff? Or do I still come off as like, the nerd in the basement lmao

#i feel like such a nerd on tumblr tbh #if im being honest none of my social medias show me anything i care about anymore #i hate to say it but tiktok is the only thing ive been able to trick the algorithm into showing me things i actually want to see #youd think tumblr would be the place because i can just follow people but like #theres not a metal scene or a tattoo scene or anything i really want to see anymore #i rarely see art i actually enjoy its just text posts and memes and its just...... boring #i joke that im falling back into my emo self from highschool but literally i feel so comfortable in the alt scene #like some people are absolute assholes and thats just par for the course in a scene like that #but like literally went to my first metal festival and was like ok i finally feel like myself #idk i always wanted to be alternative and i denied myself really going over and into it and like #even just little things like getting my first tattoo wearing edgy earrings dying my hair again #shaving my head to the scalp for some reason????#i paint my nails black i wear rings and bracelets and necklaces i started getting more shirts from hot topic lol #i was never allowed to buy shirts from hot topic!!!!!!#but now im like oh shit i can do these things!!!! and its making it easier to look in the mirror!!!!!!!!#im finding music im falling in love with that i feel in my chest!!! i want to learn how to design tattoos!!!!!#im loving myself its great #if i didn't work with kids not gonna lie id even try to get my hands on some matte acrylic stilleto nails #not super long ones but thats like my one feminine thing ive admitted to myself that i love having my nails painted and i want to try nails #just nothing crazy #anyway #my wardrobe isnt really caught up to my style but i also need to replace like all of my wardrobe nothing fits anymore #one day i want to be a scruffy tatted alt guy idk what i will be doing in life at that point #I don't know if i will be in the same career field so i will have to adjust my looks around it or if i will be somewhere else #i spent a long time especially as a transmasc person trying to fit like what i thought being transmasc looked like i guess?#and i didn't care about my appearance at all i just wore plain t shirts hoodies and sometimes a flannel #not that i don't still love these things but im going back towards graphic ts and trying to be stylish with my flannels #i try not to wear hoodies too often and actually wear my jackets tho i dont have a reason to often lmao #and tiktok has opened me up to sooooo many new metal bands god its been so refreshing #anyways i hit the tag limit sorry for going off lol om just weird and happy to be embracing who i want to be

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