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walrus150915 · 6 months ago
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cw: discussions of nonsexual grooming
There is one thing that has been spinning on my mind ever since I watched the movie. This conversation isn't that popular in the fandom, probably due to its uncomfortable subject matter, but it needs to be discussed. I'll be the one to start
The Director has groomed Ambrosius and it affected him far into adulthood
(A really long analysis post)
Warning: I'm not a psychologist neither am I really educated in this sphere, and I never was a victim of grooming, so don't take my words as 100% truth. However, I'm a literature student, so I can analyse a few scenes and make a conclusion lol
So, to start off, let's share the definition of grooming, shall we?
"Grooming is when someone builds a relationship, trust and emotional connection with a child or young person so they can manipulate, exploit and abuse them."
Now, of course Ambrosius is an adult in the movie, and we can't exactly know his entire history with the Director. So this analysis will take a few things as truth despite them not being confirmed
- the Director has been by Ambrosius's side throughout most of his life. Considering the fact that she's been around even when Ballister was a child, the same can be assumed about Ambrosius
- we as viewers do not see Ambrosius's parents (because this is quite unnecessary to the narrative, maybe we'll see them in a sequel Quane and Bruno were teasing buttt¯\_(ツ)_/¯), and he's been in the Institute since childhood, so it seems like the Director was the most reliable adult in Ambrosius's life
Despite Ambrosius being a grown man, the effect the Director has on him cannot be denied. His relationship to the Director is like half his character arc, the man being torn between his loyalty to the kingdom and his lover
I will take a few scenes from the movie where Ambrosius and the Director interact and try to analyse them
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Starting off strong, we've got the "acting like common children" scene. I could point out the obvious bias the Director puts in her words (villainizing an oppressed group of people as a rich white woman in power how nice of her) but we ain't coming to her throat for classism today. Pay attention to her praising Ambrosius and singling him out. "Thankfully, we have a descendant of Gloreth to lead us"
Are other knights happy to be around Ambrosius tho? The answer is no
(Text below is taken from the screenplay. The scene is after Nimona's and Bal's escape)
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Knights: I knew we never should have trusted Ballister./If Goldenloin hadn't trusted him.../Well, if Goldenloin hadn't helped him...
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Todd: This is his fault!
Knights: Yeah!/Tell him, Todd!
Goldenloin realizes all eyes are on him
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I think it wouldn't be wrong to assume Ambrosius's colleagues dislike him at best and outcast him at worst. Compared to Todd, who seems to be the more liked one amongst their peers (bro really is a jock bully high school stereotype in his 20s isn't that embarrassing), Ambrosius is isolated. He doesn't have anybody except Ballister and the Director. And as you all know Ballister and Ambrosius are separated for the most of the movie. So it leaves him with the Director as the closest person to interact with. Yeah...
Also in this scene she displays TWO tactics groomers use to manipulate their victims: isolation and favouritism
Another scene I'd like to pay attention to is Ambrosius's ✨iconic✨ freak out
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"What's on your mind, Ambrosius? You can talk to me"
"...I'm fine, Director"
This scene actually left me confused on the first watch because it looks like a perfect moment for the Director to seem at least somewhat sympathetic. It truly seems like she cares about him
Honestly it's pretty hard for me to surely say whether or not she's being sincere or not but her goal is definitely to win over Ambrosius's trust, to make him believe she's a safe person (now that his real safe person is away ajdjdjj). That is also another tactic for groomers to manipulate their victims
And I think it would be fair to mention Director's attitude towards Ballister's and Ambrosius's relationship. It's obvious she knows about them (...not like it's rocket science have you seen these lovebirds) and disapproves. She doesn't outright state it but it's really clear
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"Sir Goldenloin, is your loyalty to this Kingdom or to the knight who consorts with a monster?"
Again, amazing case of manipulation. She doesn't say Institute, nor "me" or whatever. She says kingdom. And she clearly knows that it works on Ambrosius, because he is, after all, Gloreth's descendant. Gloreth was the original protector, and Ambrosius is supposed to be the protector now. By choosing Ballister he betrays the kingdom, his bloodline and Gloreth
Now, I know this scene is not Ambrosius & the Director because it's Nimona in disguise but considering how good Nimona was in playing her part we might as well assume real Ambrosius would act the same.
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Look at these eyes. He's afraid of her. She has the complete power over him. And Ballister is aware of this (if that's how he told Nimona to act)
Off-topic but I watched Nimona with two of my buddies yesterday and during this scene they both went like "Wait, who is she to Ambrosius again? Is she his mother? Because she acts like she one" and they are so damn right???
Now remember the fact that during one of the interviews Eugene Lee Yang said that the Director is Ambrosius's parental figure. Do with this information whatever you wanna do
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I'm still not over her audacity in this scene. Her lip didn't even twitch and she's killing a person whom she praised for his bloodline. Saying "May Gloreth forgive you" while DRIVING A SWORD THROUGH HIM is beyond evil like??? Chill out Nancy Reagan???
I could say that this is the scene that debacles the American model minority myth (with East Asians being put on a pedestal and used to further reinforce white supremacy). A white woman killing an East Asian man while using a Christ-like figure to justify her actions (Gloreth is literally mentioned to be a Christ figure in the art book), and, if we take into account the theory that she wanted to set Ballister up so that it looks like he killed Ambrosius, BLAMING IT ON A BROWN ASIAN MAN was really a choice huh
The Director killed Ambrosius the second he questioned her, the second he wasn't useful to her
And how was he being useful to her? Allow me to introduce you to the scene which made me SUPER uncomfortable once I realized what was going on
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During most of the movie Ambrosius acts rather impulsively, reflexes play a big part in his body language. And what does he do? He protects her with his body
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"We need to get you to safety!"
Ambrosius was trained in a way that he needed to protect the Director with his body and his life.
Even in scenes where Ambrosius and the Director don't interact you can see how much Ambrosius is brainwashed.
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"She manipulated you. She manipulated both of us. But together we'll take her down, you'll be a knight again"
"Thank you. The Director can't-"
"The Director? Oh, no, Bal. I'm talking about your sidekick"
Ambrosius refuses to even think about the effect the Director has on him. He's insisting on Nimona being the manipulator despite him being manipulated
Finally, when Ambrosius realizes something is CLEARLY wrong, he still tries to talk some sense into her
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"But what if we're wrong? What if we've always been wrong?"
Despite him being a constant witness to Director's misdeeds he tries to do everything peacefully. Look at his face. This is a face of a man who doesn't want to harm. He gives the Director a chance to improve herself. I think he would forgive her after everything she's done
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...but being a conservative she'd rather explode than admit she's wrong. So she attempts to kill Ambrosius again
This, again, says that no matter how much mercy you show to hateful people, they'll continue to be horrible to you. Just because they think they have a right to
Analysing Ambrosius's and the Director's relationship I think it'd be more than valid to state that she has, indeed, groomed Ambrosius to exploit and use him for her own (political and other) benefits. Other knights were brainwashed and groomed too, but something about her attitude towards Ambrosius really bugged me the wrong way
She is an excellent manipulator and Ambrosius fell victim to that, which is no surprise
Thank you for reading this! It took so long to make😭 If you want to add on anything in the reblogs please do, because the discussion HAS to happen at some point
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ashdreams2023 · 1 year ago
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hello! I honestly never know where to request cause idk what submission means cause English isn’t my first language and the translation isnt really clear so I’ll just request here I hope u don’t mind<3 anyway I was wondering if you could do a harry j potter x fem!reader smut and I have 2 ideas (all takes place in hbp cause it’s legal to have sex at 16 there I think?$ so 1st one is that soft!harry and reader are dating but haven’t really done anything yet except for dry humping and heated makeouts but they want to go further and harry fingers her for the first time and she’s like afraid to cum cause she’s never done this before and he’s like “it’s okay love, you can let go” and he guides her through this cause he’s kinda more experienced so basically just very fluffy smut or the second one where soft!dom harry and reader are dating and they have sex for the first time only reader is a virgin and she’s very insecure and harry isn’t so she’s like very shy but he assures her like “it’s just me, don’t be embarrassed” and it’s like all loving and fluffy and cute<3 only if you’re comfortable tho! I hope you understood everything (I’m gonna get out of fucking Poland one day and learn English perfectly im telling you) sorry that’s kinda long, anyway, thank you!
I get you lol but for the sake of keeping everything together ima mush them up together 👌
Trust me
Harry James potter x female reader
Warnings: nsfw, first time.
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You thought finding out you’re a witch was the craziest thing that could ever happen to you but as years go by, it’s proven to be just the tip of the iceberg.
Just last summer you went on a one on one with death eaters in the ministry of magic and made it out alive.
After that summer came and with it came Harry Potter, who happened to live in the same little town your grandparents lived in.
You spent a lot of time together, he was heartbroken and felt alone, you tried to comfort him and take his mind off things, it took a while but he opened up to you.
One thing lead to another and he kissed you a few weeks after his birthday, fast forward to the end of the summer and things kept getting heated.
You didn’t know if it was because you were both hormonal or was it because he wanted something else to focus on but you knew one thing, you really liked the way he kissed and touched you.
It wasn’t a secret that you two were close either, everyone noticed the way he dozed off looking at you when he thought you weren’t looking, and the hand holding underneath the table, the subtle touches in the halls, a blind person could sense it.
"I thought I was gonna die in there" he kissed you then pushed you on his bed, the dorms were empty and he had the entire space for himself.
"Oh don’t be mean to old sprout, she was just trying to help" you pulled him on top of you and warped your arms around his neck then pulled him down, his lips touched yours in a heated kiss that made your fingertips tingle.
"I was dying out there" he smiled against your lips then dragged his lips to your neck and nippled on your soft skin.
You sighed at the feeling of his lips, his teeth dug into your flesh playfully and his lips sucked on the spot until you let out a desperate moan.
"Merlin you sound brilliant" he lowered his head, pressing his forehead to your chest and catching his breath, his heart raced with anticipation "Can I have you?"
You bit down on your bottom lip, the warmth on your skin was permanent "Yes."
He quickly took off his shirt then helped you with yours, his eyes lingered at your exposed breasts before cursing under his breath and taking the rest of his clothes off.
He’s seen you half naked before but this was different.
The second every article of clothing was on the floor, you latched onto each others bodies, his hands explored every part of exposed skin he could reach, but paid special attention to your breasts, they were just perfect and he was just a guy.
"Are you sure you want this?" You suddenly blurted.
Harry paused and looked down at you "are you uncomfortable with this? Do you want me to stop?"
You shook your head then looked away "it’s just…I haven’t done this before and I’m not sure I’m appealing enough to-"
"Are you naked underneath me or not?"
"Yes I am…"
"Do you see me doing this to anyone but you?"
"No but-"
"Shush then, I like you and only you…I’m glad I’m doing this with you, you don’t have to continue if you don’t want too"
You stared up at him with wide eyes, you hadn’t expected this reaction, Harry was the chosen one, many girls swooned over him and thought he was quite cute.
"I want too"
"Then do you trust me?"
"Yes."
His hand slipped down to your clit, rubbing it with his finger and riling you up slowly, your body tensed and begged for more.
His fingers felt like magic.
You moaned and gripped his shoulders tightly, digging your nails into his flesh and marking him.
"H-Harry!"
"Does it feel good?"
That was the most confident you’ve seen him off a broom, Harry was usually awkward and sometimes it was just unbreakable.
"Yeah…" your mouth opened when he pushed his finger in, slowly. You reached your hand and touched his dick, it was hard and he hissed when you touched it.
You were soaking and wanted to go onto the next step already but Harry seemed to enjoy torturing you.
He pushed the second finger in and groaned when you clenched around his fingers, your hips moved up and the filthy moans spread in the dorm room.
Harry licked his lips then licked your nipple, it made you shiver.
His cock twitched in your hand.
"I’m going to" your breath hitched when he pulled his fingers out and climbed completely on top of you and slid himself inside of you.
You throw your head back on his pillow and moaned, his hands held you tight by the hips.
Harry groaned as he moved inside of you, you felt amazing, perfect around him.
"So good…you’re so good" he moaned loudly as he kept pushing.
Your body moved along his, it wasn’t uncomfortable but very strange feeling, something new, you felt so full.
"Are you ok?" He breathed, his face was flushed and his green eyes shine with something almost dark.
"Yes" you replied warping your arms around his neck and kissing him, you felt heat build up inside of you and your legs felt weak, shaking slightly as he pounded inside of you.
"Perfect, bloody hell you’re perfect" Harry mumbled kissing your cheek and the rest of your face with breathless butterfly kisses.
Your body reached it’s limit but you didn’t want to let go yet, what if you ruin it? What if Harry regrets doing it with you because of that?!
Thankfully your boyfriend noticed your panicked expression and pressed his lips to your forehead for reassurance "it’s ok, everything is ok, just let go, you can cum" that’s all it took to loosen up your nerves and release on his dick with a silent scream and arched back.
He held you close as the climax road your body and made sure that every muscle in your body would remember this for a while after.
Harry sighed in relief as he pushed inside you a few more times then pulled out and came on your chest.
He laid next to you and pulled the blanket over you both, his face seemed peaceful and the without the glasses, he looked somewhat different, he didn’t look like his father, he was more mature, his face was sharp but soft around the eyes, he was very handsome.
"Thank you" he said.
"For what?"
"For trusting me"
You smiled softly at him then scooted closer to him, at this moment he wasn’t the wizarding world’s young hero, he was just Harry, your Harry.
"I think…I love you" you said ever so delicately.
A boyish grin spread on his face "Little old me?"
"Oh shut up!"
"No say it again!"
A/N: sorry if there was any misspelling or grammar mistakes, I wrote this in one go, so hopefully it’s good enough!
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charmedbystars · 6 months ago
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Hii can I request 1610 Miles x f-reader who both go to different schools and she doesn't know he's Spiderman. So on the night of her graduation, Miles didn't show leading to an argument and spilled hurtful words. But Miles confesses who he is and comforts her best he can :(
(Got dumped on grad lol🫠)
pairing: 1610! miles x reader
summary: it's your grad night and the person who said they wouldn't miss it for the world, misses it.
content: angst and fluff
a/n: i am sososooo sorry you got dumped on the day of ur grad. that's such a mean move and they def don't deserve you :((( i hope you're doing better and just know you got this <3 congrats on ur grad tho! u worked so hard to get where you are remember! ( i did not proof read this since i wrote it at two am ;()
it sucked going to different schools as your boyfriend. knowing that you guys won’t be able to see each other as often and missing even doing the most mundane things, such as just walking to class, you made it your priority to build your relationship on communication. it was all going well and you guys would try to fit into each other's schedule the best you could… up until recently. miles has been showing up late to all dates recently, or just completely canceling at the last minute. sometimes, miles makes it up to you, but it still hurts. you don’t want to make a huge deal out of it, especially since you are both graduating soon and going to college. being the optimist, you try to think of the future with miles, maybe schedules clearing up before college and maybe even choosing college classes that’ll allow time slots to see each other in between. 
although right now, you aren’t focusing on the future. it’s graduation day. it’s supposed to be perfect. celebrating a milestone, a moment where you are congratulated for everything you’ve worked for over the past years. all your family and friends are there, beaming with pride. all except one person – miles. 
you had been waiting for this day forever. planning what you were gonna wear to walk across the stage weeks before. giving out tickets to who could come and save seats to watch you. it’s all you and miles talked about recently. him being excited for yours and his graduation. he double pinky promised that he’d be there when you asked him to check a hundred percent that he’d be there. miles responded verbatim, “i wouldn’t miss it for the world.”
and you believed him. 
so when it was time for the ceremony to begin and miles wasn’t answering the texts you sent over an hour ago, you started getting anxious. 
sitting among your classmates, waiting to line up, and eventually walking across the stage, you eventually collect your diploma with a smile and a handshake. 
mingling with your friends and taking tons of pictures, you kept your composure well, but your heart wasn’t in it. the person who promised you was absent, casting a shadow over everything. you were so confused as to why he wasn’t there. 
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cap and gown hung up and diploma up on display. you were home. 
dinner went well and your friends were there to distract you. although when your parents asked where miles was, the bubble that you were in popped, not knowing how to respond and just shrugging your shoulders. your parents understood and didn’t bring it up. 
so you’re in your pajamas and getting ready to climb into bed, when you hear tapping on your window. walking over you see miles in a big jacket and eyes downcast. you wanted to just leave him outside but you wanted to hear what he had to say, so you slid open the window to let him in. 
“i’m so so sorry, my love,” he started, but you quickly cut him off. 
“sorry? that’s all you have to say?” you snapped, voice trembling. “you promised miles! you promised you’d be there and wouldn’t miss it for the world! do you know how embarrassing it was to keep looking around for you? even my parents asked for you!”
he looks at you with a pained expression. “i know, and i can’t tell you how sorry i am… but something important came up. you need to understand.”
“i need to understand something more important than my graduation? huh?” you shot back. “what could possibly be so important that you couldn’t even send a text?”
a pause or two went by. his silence was deafening. tears of frustration and sadness well up in your eyes. “you always do this miles. you just disappear without a trace and i’m left here wondering what’s going on. do you even care about me? about us? or whatever is left of this one sided relationship?”
the words were harsh as they left your mouth. any other day, you would’ve regretted your words but you were so hurt today that you didn’t care. 
miles was left stuttering and choking a response up. “i… i do care,”
“i care more than you know, but things are so hard right now and you know i hate keeping things from you.”
confusion was written all over your face. “miles, what are you talking about?”
“this is going to change everything, but know that none of this was to hurt you.” he said as he slowly took the big jacket he had off, revealing his suit beneath. 
seeing the spider emblem in the middle made your eyes widen in shock. 
“i’m spider-man,” he softly said. “that’s why i wasn’t there tonight or the other times i cancelled… just know that i wanted to be there for you so bad, but i have a responsibility to the city too.” 
hearing those words made the world tilt as you tried to process his words. spiderman. miles is spiderman. your miles is spiderman. and slowly all the pieces start to fit together. the disappearances, the excuses, the exhaustion in his eyes.
“miles… you’re spiderman?” you repeated back, still trying to wrap your head around it. “why didn’t you tell me?”
“i wanted to,” he said, stepping closer. “but i was so scared. scared of putting you in danger, scared of what you’d think of me. but i’m so sorry, my love. i never wanted to hurt you.”
tears fell out of your eyes, anger subsiding with understanding but still hurt. “i just wish you told me sooner. i thought you didn’t care.” 
more tears started falling and he took the final step to pull you into a tight embrace. you both clinged onto each other, feeling the weight of everything at once. “i care about you more than anything,” he whispered. “and i promise, from now on, no more secrets. i want to figure this out together.”
as you both held each other, a sense of relief washed over you two. it wouldn’t be easy overcoming everything and he still broke his promise, but at least you knew the truth now. you could now face everything together.
he took a step, leading you both to the bed and wrapping yourselves under the covers. miles threw an arm around you and you leaned into him, resting your head on his chest. his heartbeat was steady, a soothing rhythm assuring you that he was there. 
“you know,” you tilted your head up, “you still have to make it up to me. i don’t just graduate everyday.” 
he chuckled, the sound vibrating through his chest. “i know. i’ll try my hardest for you.” your eyes caught each other before he ran a thumb against your cheek. “i’m so sorry, but know that i am so proud of you.” he said, voice filled with sincerity. 
you shifted closer to his face, giving him the softest kiss. his fingers gently traced patterns on your back, lulling you into a state of peace. the weight of the night’s emotions melted away, bringing tiredness to the couple. 
“thank you for telling me, miles.” you murmured, eyes growing heavy. 
“no, thank you for understanding.” he replied, pressing a kiss to your forehead. 
as sleep began to claim you, you felt a sense of contentment. despite the events and surprises, you were happy that you had miles by your side. with him, you could face anything. 
as he held you close, you drifted off, feeling safe and loved.
(PLEASE LMK IF THERE'S ANY MISTAKES)
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transmascaraa · 6 months ago
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NYX💃🏻 bet you didn't expect me here did you? (You probably did)
Anyways remember that one time you wrote this><
Could you maybe do that with Xiao?? Anyways gotta go back at texting you at discord lmao
Love you<33
bf!xiao headcannons!
you're not used to such kind words of affection...
bf!xiao x adeptus!gn!reader
author's note: OFC OFC I LOVE YOU TOO💗💗 i hope you guys enjoy this one as well as you enjoyed the one with gaming lol^^ (in the end it came out as smthn like js comfort but it includes praise soooo)
"is this what mortals call— praise?.."
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-okay so where do i startttt
-at first, when he met you, he didn't understand AT ALL what showing affection meant
-so whenever you showed him affection(which you never received yourself) he felt warm but weird
-since he never kinda received it himself
-i mean after losing so many friends what do you expect lmao
-and he never really understood "love" as a whole
-the only reason you got with him was because YOU confessed, and he said he felt the same way, unknowing that it was literally love itself
-so after quite some time of him asking zhongli what it is and for his help, he understood it pretty much finally
-and seeing you a bit down one day was his chance to do his best to help you.
-you sat on a high cliff, your knees pressed to your chest, in which you buried your head.
-feeling somebody's presence, you lift your head only to see xiao sitting next to you, putting a hand on your back, gently rubbing it.
-but he didn't look at you, not yet, he just kept looking straight into the horizon.
-"i see you don't feel as... good.. as you usually do." to which you just hummed.
-"and... i understand that it can be tough sometimes.." he continued.
-"but i still think that doesn't make you any less of what you already are. the brave and... kind adeptus you are." now you were a bit surprised, to say the least.
-"you're.. beautiful/handsome/fabolous just the way you are and..." he paused to turn his gaze towards you.
-"you're really sweet to me." that's when he noticed your surprised blushing face that replaced the one of despair just a while ago.
-"n-no, xiao... but i'm not-"
-"you are. you're... how do they say it again... perfect..?"
-"i'm not, i swear-"
-"i swear on the powerful and almighty rex lapis. you... shouldn't change for anyone but for yourself. your role as an adeptus like me... i understand your struggles, but you'll get through it, just like i did. you're too strong to look at yourself so lowly."
-"xiao, no-"
-"i promise."
-you were a bit stunned by those simple 2 words.
-"huh?"
-"i said, i promise, if that's how it's said."
-you just hugged him tight, burring your head in the crook of his soft neck, letting him gently hug you in return.
-and even tho you didn't accept his praise and words of affirmation at first, they slowly grew on you after some time.
-you gradually got used to them, just as xiao got used to saying the phrases using them with you.
-and he always kept his promises.
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i haven't written for one character individually in quite a while but damn this is long
in fact i think this is my longest one-character writing😰
it's not a bad thing smh if only every other was as long as this one lmfao
| @mariaace <3
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hyuckswoman · 10 months ago
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“hey lol” you heard a voice speak. removing your headphones you turned around to face who ever was talking to you and- wait
“mark?” you asked curious as to why the man was even speaking to you. you had hoped that he would avoid you since you made him uncomfortable and could not figure out why on earth he’d be talking to you let alone standing next to you.
“yea, sorry to disturb i just wanted to apologize for jaemin’s behavior yesterday, i don’t know specifically what he told you but it’s jaemin so whatever i imagine won’t be half as awkward as the actual thing” he starts rambling while tugging on the end of his sleeve, he’s feeling awkward.
you looked at him puzzled for a second, if you made him feel so awkward why was he here? he was starting to make you feel awkward too
“oh no don’t worry it’s fine, i’m glad you came to see me so that i could properly apologize for my behavior, i’m really sorry about making you feel uncomfortable” you start chuckling a bit hoping to loosen up the atmosphere
you can tell he’s about to deny your statement so before he even gets the chance to open his mouth you speak again
“jaemin told me you felt uncomfortable, i would too honestly, like i said i’m really sorry about my behavior hopefully we can move past it?” you ask
please say yes-
“guysssss hiiiiiiiii” your friend jaemin enters the conversation, where did he even come from?? you can see mark letting out a sigh of relief upon seeing his friend
“hi nice to meet you, i’m jisung” you hear and see that jaemin had dragged brought one of his friends along with him
“it’s nice to meet you as well, i’m y/n” you smile a bit
mark and jaemin way too into the conversation they just started
you hear jisung angrily sigh and shoot him a questioning brow
“none of my friends have watched the five nights at freddys movie, i have no one to debrief with” jisung says mumbling the last part as he realizes how his words might make him seem like a loser
“dude oh my god i loved the movie so much, especially josh hutcherson like that is one fine man” you say as jisung smiles, finally finding someone to debrief with
“yea and so- wait- when did jaemin and mark go?? did they seriously leave without me??” jisung looks around as none of his friends are near him anymore
“oh my god i’m going to be late for class, I can’t believe we spent so long talking” you say
“right, I’m usually super introverted but you’re nice, can i have your number?” jisung asks, then realizing how his question might have come across as
“NOT to ask you out i just mean- wait not like you’re not pretty or i could never ask you out i just asked because the conversation was nice and none of my friends like this kind of stuff but you seem to and you’re friends with jaemin so i’m assuming you’re nice and from our conversation i could picture us being friends” he rambles waving his hands slight blush on his cheeks from the awkwardness (that only he felt) of the situation
“it’s okay!! no problem haha i understood, and yea here’s my number! i really gotta go to class tho so byee” you say waving to him as you headed on your way to your next class
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dropthedemiurge · 7 months ago
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Boys Be Brave [EP.3] // Translation notes
Alright, I got prompted by @turndon100-blog @okiedokie2216 @lurkingshan and the ending of Ep.3 gave me hype boost so I'll try to write some clarification and translation for the scenes from my phone while I still remember everything xD Sorry if this is not going to be as well formatted as my other language posts tho...
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Kiseob wants to prove to Jinwoo that he perfectly fits his entire "My ideal type" checklist and he lists all the things he nails. This might've been confusing to many in subs, but the thing is - 첫눈 (chot nun) in Korean can both mean "first sight" and "first snow". So Jinwoo immediately argues that Kiseob failed to achieve being perfect in all to-do points because Jinwoo hasn't fallen in love with him at first sight (as he mentions it in the beginning of the episode). But Kiseob confidently argues that no, there was no first snow this winter yet and shows the December article that says first snow is late this year and might only fall in January.
So technically Jinwoo can still fall in love with Kiseob at first snow and achieve perfect 10/10, therefore no failure yet! Poor Jinwoo can't argue with that logic... (That frustrated little jiggly stomping lmao)
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This message also said that he better pay that credit back until Friday, otherwise there will be extra fee.
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He said "Choi BalgEum. Look at me" (or focus on me) 🥺
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눈�� 없어 (nunchi opseo) is a phrase that literally means "have no sense" (it also was formed from 눈 - eyes, as I can guess), but it's used in the context of being perceptive (눈치 있어/nunchi isseo, having sense), feeling the subtext or nonverbal clues - and, well, the lack of it on the opposite, like being clueless.
So Balgeum actually means "Can't you see? Don't you understand the implications?"(of him holding Kiseob's hand) "I asked, don't you realize?" Stop following me around like a clueless fool" (he said that "having no sense" phrase 3 times in a row, who are you trying to fool here yourself, my guy lol)
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Balgeum also curses twice at his piano not-friend-situationship. Here he says after asking to stop following him: "It's fucking embarrassing". Probably, the fact that he keeps showing up and asking to talk to him, but can also mean doing this while he obviously "has a boyfriend".
When they meet in evening, he also curses again "why the fuck do you keep appearing?" Balgeum is just definitely trying to hurt him as much as possible :(
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This translation works but just to clarify - Kiseob says "Why do you often hide?". So he doesn't just ask why Jinwoo were still hiding under bed while he was talking to him, he was asking why Jinwoo was running away and hiding from him all the time (while he likes him).
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"I hated you back then and I hate you now, that's why I run away."
And I just love the phrase 아니잖아... (anijanha) that he gets in response. Because it means "That's not true... (and you know it too)". There's literally a grammar point in Korean that lets you insist on something you know that the other person also should be aware of. So Balgeum angrily claims he ran away in the past and he runs away now because he hates Inho (I hope that's his name, forgive me if anything), and Inho counter argues that no, he doesn't hate him. And implies they both know it. That's why Balgeum resorts to less angry "Think whatever you want".
And the fact that even after this, Balgeum kept playing up his masquarade and saying he wants to vomit even thinking about that they had something, that he regrets it every day - no wonder Inho finally snaps and calls him an asshole/scum when he didn't use cursing before, unlike Balgeum, and so the i-dont-wanna-hurt-you-but-i-am-emotional "fight" begins.
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But here we have a silver lining!
"- Meet me only three times... - I got it (what you want), so... (let go of me)"
알겠다 (al'getta) literally means "I know/I understand" but (going with my intuition) it's used naturally in cases that you understood the information you were given, received instructions and will follow them.
I'm not sure what Ep.4 will bring, but I won't be surprised if Balgeum and Inho actually will go to 3 dates because Balgeum sounded like he was giving in, after letting out his anger/fear/frustration/etc through wrestling with Inho. His final verdict for Inho pleading him to go on 3 dates with him is: "Let me go. I told you, I understand (your request and I will consider it most likely in a positive way)"
Here you go! These guys grow on me more and more with every episode. I am fascinated to see Jinwoo ditching his perfectly planned schedule, Kiseob finally refusing to follow where other people drag him, Inho fighting to make his love exist despite brutal rejections and punches, and Balgeum's carefully crafted defense walls breaking as he lets a glimmer of hope and love return to his life.
This show isn't deep at all, it's foolish and yet I'm starting to see layers and development and I'm intrigued where they all will go.
If you've got any other questions about this or previous episodes, let me know! (With timecodes preferrable)
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rc-writes · 1 year ago
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𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐢𝐬𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐮𝐭𝐥𝐚𝐰
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𝙢𝙖𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙨 | 𝙩𝙖𝙜𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙩 𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙢 || 𝙥𝙖𝙧𝙩 𝙩𝙬𝙤
pairings: jj maybank x reader
warnings: none that i’m aware of
a/n: this is a bit different then what a have been writing, but the idea popped into my head and i just had to write it down. this may or may not just be a writer insert tho lol. i feel like i’m allowed to do that at least once lol. but anyways, i hope you all like this!
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Spring was a beautiful time of year on the island. Garden flowers and wildflowers alike all began to bloom painting the town in a rainbow of colors. And while it was very pretty, most people in the Outer Banks on weeks like this could not wait for summer to fully hit so they could go swimming without having to freeze. While the air was getting warmer the water seemed to stay at the same freezing temperature. The spring air made it too hot to wear a nice hoodie, but too cold to jump in a pool.
You on the other hand could not have been more grateful for the cool temperature.
Less than a month ago a local restaurant on the higher society part of the island put out an ad looking for artists willing to paint a mural on the side of their building. It was to be a paid deal and they would throw in a few free meals. Normally many more known artists would jump at the chance to have their art featured on such a well known establishment, but the very short timeframe of two weeks deterred many away. It normally takes a while to come up with an idea good enough for such a big project. And it takes just as long to actually paint said idea.
And while the strict time restraints deterred many away, the offer of money and free food brought you in. That was why you were currently halfway up a ladder, paintbrush in hand, after coming up with a design two hours ago. The design in question being a giant version of the restaurant’s menu with a little painting of each dish next to its name.
“I'm all for defacing public property and all that, but I gotta say that is a weird way of doing it.” A voice from below suddenly called out making you jump and nearly drop your brush.
“What?” You called out, currently trying to catch your breath from being spooked. When you looked down you were met with blonde hair and blue eyes. Now you might have been catching your breath for a different reason.
“Most people just use spray paint if they want to cover the side of some building.” Oh he thinks you’re vandalizing or something.
“Oh, no. I’m actually getting paid to do this.” You correct the guy.
The blonde’s eyes looked around on the wall and spotted very purposeful sketch marks. “Yeah, yeah that makes more sense.”
“I don't think most people would want to spend all day on a ladder painting an entire wall without getting paid.” You joked.
“Definitely not with all those details and stuff. Possibly without the ladder part many would without a second thought if they were just using spray paint. Not that I have much experience with that.” The way he said the last sentence made you think he did in fact have much experience with it. “Anyways, how long have you been at this?”
You pulled your phone out of your back pocket to see what the time was. “About two hours-ish.”
The blonde shook his head in disbelief. “You did all of this in two hours?”
You shrugged, “The building already has a flat color on it, so I only had to mark out where I want to paint and what I want to paint in thin lines of white. It’s a fairly easy design so it didn’t take much effort.”
The blonde looked at you like you were crazy. What do you mean it didn’t take much effort? You drew an entire outline of the place’s full menu in two hours! Never in a million years could he have understood how anyone had enough talent to do anything besides draw a few stick figures.
“I’m going to pretend you didn’t just say that, that looks easy.” You laughed at this. “But how long do you have to finish the whole thing?”
“Two weeks.” You sighed, nerves setting in when you remembered again just how quickly you have to do this.
“Only two weeks? To paint an entire wall? Man, rich people are just plain weird.” He then remembered that school was still in and you looked about his age. “Wait, don’t you have school or something?”
“Yep, but I moved a grade ahead so I only have to go half a day now.” You replied. “So I’ll spend half a day in school and the other half here working on this.”
So you were smart and talented, were you sure you were even human at this point?
“Can I help then? You know, to speed up the process?” He had absolutely no artistic ability but the offer just kinda slipped out.
You were taken back by the sudden offer. Why would anyone want to spend hours on end just painting the same wall if they’ve never had any interest in art. Which from how taken back the blonde was by the whole ordeal you assumed he didn’t know much about painting.
“Well,” You began after taking a moment to think. “Considering I'm getting paid to do this and kinda need all the money I can get, I'm going to have to decline the offer.” It was true, you did need the money.
“Oh I'll do it for free.” Normally those words were only reserved for doing something stupid shit like jumping off of something but now he found himself wanting to spend more time with you.
“You’d really want to help?” You questioned. “Have you ever even painted anything before?”
“Well no,” He admitted. “But really, how hard can it be? Since you already have the outlines it's just like coloring in a coloring book, right? Just stay within the lines.”
You laughed at the naivety but decided to give him a chance anyway. Worst case scenario you just have to go over what he did. And even if that had to happen you still potentially made a new friend.
Over the hour the two of you talked about any topic that came to mind. You found out each other’s names, that you both grew up in The Cut, you had dreams of making a living making art, JJ was more of a “living in the moment type of guy” so he didn’t have a big dream as of the moment, you both had the same mindset to go wherever there was free food offered, etc.
By the end of the hour JJ decided that the little area he was working on was as good as it was going to get and looked up to see what progress you had made. Any and all confidence in what he did went out the window once he saw what you were working on. You didn’t think what you had painted was much of anything but in his eyes, it was absolutely amazing.
“How the hell did you get yours to look like that!?”
“My entire life’s worth of practice.” You laughed.
“Yeah, that's just a little bit more time that I have.”
“Just a little?” You questioned.
“Wow, that obvious?”
“Well…” You noticed that the chicken he was supposed to be painting didn’t exactly look like a chicken. “Just a little.” The both of you burst into a fit of laughter at this.
“Well anyways I should probably get going.” JJ spoke up once the laughter between you two died down. “Sorry for wasting your paint on this… uh, abstract chicken.”
“Oh don't worry, it's not mine. The owner had all of this paint and more just sitting in the back room from when they thought they could paint this themselves. They said it's all free game for me to use and that they'll get more later if needed. Well actually that very last part depends entirely on how they like this.”
“Well If they see even half of what I can see I’m sure they'll love it.” The both of you held similar shy smiles at this. “Anyway, I'm glad I got to talk to you before you go all kook with your paintings in those fancy museums in the mainland. Remember who ‘helped’ you paint your first wall when you're rich and famous!” The last line was yelled out as JJ made his way down the street.
You only hoped for one of those things to be true. Having your art hung up where so many people could see was a dream, but you hoped to see JJ again long before that became a possibility.
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itzsana-kiddingmenow · 1 year ago
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Alien:
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𝒍𝒆𝒆: Alien!Jisung
𝒍𝒆𝒓: Reader
𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘪𝘤 𝘪𝘴 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘵𝘪𝘤𝘬𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘰 𝘪𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘴𝘯'𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘤𝘶𝘱 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘦𝘢 𝘪 𝘴𝘶𝘨𝘨𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘰𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨! 💗🧋
 ⚠️ I choose to keep some element of surprise to the story, so read at your own risk! THERE ARE SOME MENTIONS OF VIOLENCE!!!⚠️ 
I DIDNT INCLUDE THE PROMPTS IM SORRY 😭😭😭
OH MY GOD THIS IS SO LONGGGG I HOPE YALL ENJOY BUILDUP 🤞🏼 ALSO IDK HOW TO FEEL ABOUT THIS cause it’s just more story than tickling lol, i think it’s cute tho
𝕥𝕒𝕘𝕝𝕚𝕤𝕥: @someone-who-loves-kpop-saranghae @jeonginsdiary @leeknowstan33 @v--143 @wereallgonnadieonedaybutnottoday @inkytornpages
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“What are you doing?” Your voice cut through the air, clear as day. 
The boy you were watching clearly didn’t understand you. He tilted his head, looking almost innocently at you. 
Your voice shook. “I said, what are you doing?” You were honestly scared.
You had come home from a long day at work, just to find someone in your house. 
Now, the boy understood. “Who are you?” You asked. 
“My name is H-Han Jisung.” The boy spoke in muffled English. Clearly, it wasn’t his first language. 
“Han Jisung, why are you in my house?” You asked, practically shaking in fear.
“I don’t know where I am. I saw your human…house and I wanted to ask for help.” He replied. 
“What? Why would you break into my house if you wanted to ask for help?” Your body was shaking, Jisung noticed. 
“I wasn’t aware that it was wrong to do. Why are you shaking, are you hurt? Let me help you…” You immediately jumped back away from his touch. 
Han looked hurt, but you couldn’t care less. He had broken into your house, and now he was trying to take care of you?
That’s when you backtracked completely. “Wait wait wait. What do you mean, human house?” You took two steps back, pressing your hand to your wrist to check your pulse. 
“I mean…human house.”  Han Jisung pulled off his beanie, and you clamped your hand over your mouth to stop the terrified scream from leaving your throat. 
The antennas dangled over his head, wobbling and tilting when he spoke.
 “I know this might come as a shock to you…” He was cut off by his own loud scream when you suddenly grabbed a vase, throwing it at his head. 
“Wait WAIT!” He yelled, raising his wrist to block the hit, and the vase shattered against his wrist, blood dripping from the cuts. 
The blood was blue. 
That only spurred your actions as you continued throwing whatever you could reach at the boy, pool balls, picture frames, your record player, which Jisung luckily swerved. 
The boy dodged your hits, you were just throwing things and your limbs at him. 
He tilted his head to avoid a spatula, and caught one of the pool balls as it soared past his head. Talk about reflexes.
“Please! Just hear me out!” He yelled, ducking when your record box flew over his head.
He kept walking closer to you, which honestly just scared you even more.
Then you ran out of objects to throw. You grabbed your phone from right next to you. 
You were planning to call the police, but Jisung caught your wrist right before you were able to raise it, a dark look in his eyes as a stream of his azure blood flowed down his face. 
You tried to scream for help, but his hand slammed over your mouth before your throat even gained the courage to make a noise. 
“Now, just lis-OW!” He yelled when you kicked him in the shin, ducking down and overthrowing him just like you had learned in your karate lesson. 
You flipped him to the floor, straddling Han’s waist and pulling his arms above his head. You had learned about pressure points, but you were unsure on whether it would work on…whatever he was. 
You tried anyway, and true to your word, it didn’t work. 
He kept struggling, and no matter how much your tried to keep him down, you knew that soon enough, it would be fruitless, and he would overpower you.
So you started hitting wherever you could. There’s no way he didn’t have a pressure point. 
True to your point, you hit riiight underneath his neck, and he slumped underneath you.
You made sure to pick him up gently, only to find out that he weighed barely anything, and you could feel his ribs by just touching. 
You felt wrong for sympathizing with an alien who broke into your house. You should be calling the police. 
But maybe, seeing the cuts from the objects you threw at him, you wanted to know more. 
Aliens exist.
The reality only hit you now, and the shock from the thought almost caused you to drop the unconscious boy in your arms. 
You looked down at him, and felt kinda bad. You had asked him a question, and when he had tried to answer, you had hurt him. 
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Jisung opened his eyes, and then promptly regretted it. 
Bright lights flashed in his eyes, and he immediately started struggling, just to find out that you had tied him to a chair, no doubt that it was so he couldn’t escape.
Han whimpered in fright. What if you had called the police? 
He would be sent away to some government lab, where they would run experiments on him like some rat.
Jisung immediately tried finding any way to escape, any backup plan, anything. 
His antennas drooped disappointingly as he accepted his fate, leaning his head back and breathing heavily. 
He noticed, however, that you had wrapped up his wrist, and all the other cuts that littered his body. 
He was also wearing different clothes, a thin shirt and black sweatpants.
He could feel his anxiousness flare up as waves of panic took over him, like water in the sea. 
Jisung tried to keep his breathing regulated, he couldn’t afford to have an attack where there was no one to help. 
The door opened, and the appendages hanging above his head perked up. 
He tried to keep his breathing steady, and he gulped and blinked his frightened tears away. Maybe you would let him go?
You walked into the room, instead, carrying a lamp. 
It was clear that you were incredibly afraid and worried that he was going to hurt you.
“What…are you?” You asked, prodding at his side with the lamp end. 
He twitched and bucked away from the feeling. “Ummm…I’m a really weird…human.” He responded. 
You gave him a very sarcastic look before handing him a mirror. He gulped when he saw his own face, littered with sparkles and stars. 
“Your makeup rubbed off a little, so I used some makeup remover. You’re not even human, are you? Are you an alien?!” You asked. 
Jisung gave you a very sheepish look. “Umm. I guess you can call me that…” He grinned at you, and you couldn’t help but feel happier inside, even if you kept your stoic attitude outside. 
“You’re gonna tell me everything. Or else.” You waved a baseball bat around, clearly threatening him. 
However, he just leaned backwards, a little smirk playing on his lips. He stared at the bat. “That’s cute.” He added, laughing when your face turned a stubborn red. 
You lifted his chin with the bat. “You’re gonna speak. Now. Unless you want those little antennas to get smashed into your head.” You practically growled. 
He looked slightly more frightened. You knew you weren’t actually gonna bash his head in, but you felt bad. 
You watched as his chest heaved, tears flowed down his face, and his breathing become unsteady. 
You knew what was happening. He was having a panic attack. Maybe you should’ve been a liiittle less graphic with your threats. 
You ran out of the room to get some water for the hyperventilating boy, feeling terrible and trying to find a way to apologize. 
Soon enough, you had gingerly untied the alien, and he was sitting criss-crossed on the floor, sipping at the water. 
“Water tastes different here…” He commented quietly. 
You nodded. “I bet…”
You both sat in silence for quite a while. You decided that it was probably the right time to apologize. 
“Listen, I’m sorry for threatening you earlier, I was a little frightened-” You started, but Han waved you off. 
“Dont worry about it! It must have been quite a shock for you, huh?” He gave you a wide, toothy grin that made your heart soar. 
“Yeah.” You giggled, poking his side, just to hear him squeal and jerk away. 
“Ticklish?~” You tease. 
“What does that mean?” He asked, rubbing at his side. 
“You don’t know what tickling is?” You gasped. Jisung thought for a few seconds before shaking his head. 
“Well, i’ve got to teach you now, don’t I?” You ask, sneakily straddling his waist as he gives you the cutest little confused look. 
“Hm? What are you doi-NG AGH! THAHAHAT’S SOHOHO WEIRD!” He squealed and bucked as your hands dug into his sides through his thin shirt. 
“Weird how?” You asked through his laughter. 
In reality, you found the screaming boy beneath you incredibly adorable, and you constantly resisted the urge to squish his cheeks. 
“HAHA WHY AHAHAM IHI LAHAHAUGHING?!” 
He squealed loudly and arched his back when you attacked his v-line, however, one scribble to his back and he was back on the floor. 
“HAHAHA! PLEHEHEASE! DOHOHON’T STAHAHAHAP!” He screeched. 
You had a double take. Wait, what?
Don’t stop?
“Why don’t you want me to stop?” You continued the tickling, making sure to give small breaks between each spot. 
“It feels so good and tingly. And I feel happy. Why would I want it to end?” He asked, and you only saw sincerity in his eyes. 
He doesn’t understand how flustering it was for a HUMAN to admit the same though. 
“Oh! Okay!” You smiled. Even you kinda didn’t want it to end so quickly.
You started on his ribs, counting each one, just to come to a shocking discovery. 
“You only have ten ribs?” You made sure to count again.
“HAHA YEA! EHEHE WHY?!” He asked, tears pooling up in his eyes as they squeezed shut. 
“Um I don’t know. We have twelve.” You informed him. 
“twehehelve?!” He yelled, arching his back yet again. However, you took care of that.
You wormed your fingers into his back and flipped him over, smiling when he giggled in anticipation. 
You immediately attacked his back ribs, laughing with the lee as he let out a desperate cry for mercy. 
“NAHAHAHAHA!” Jisung cackled as he tried his hardest to keep his hands at his sides, not wanting to hurt you in any way. 
Jisung shook his head wildly when you attacked his sides yet again, and he lost himself in another round of mirth. 
What you find incredibly endearing, however, was how his antennas wobbled and shook as he was tickled, and whenever you stopped to give him a break, they drooped in exhaustion. 
You nonchalantly attacked his knees, digging into the sensitive skin beneath them, not really expecting a response, however, the area had him screaming like he was getting murdered.
“NOAHAHAHA! PLEHEHEHEASE I-IHI STOOOOP!” He yelled, unable to take the tickles anymore. 
Of course, you stopped. You didn’t wanna kill the first alien you had ever seen. 
Jisung gasped for breath, smile still wide and bright as he sprawled onto the floor. 
“Wait! Can I do one more thing? I just wanna try it out I swear…” You reached over to stroke an antenna, making sure to be gentle as to not scare the boy. 
He didn’t seem to mind, in fact, he leaned into the touch. 
“Mhmm, sure.” He sounded almost…sleepy. 
You made a mental note to give him tons of aftercare. 
You lifted his shirt up while he was still vulnerable to the head rubs, and his antennas were perking up with happiness. 
You ducked down and suddenly pressed your lips to his bellybutton, blowing outwards in a ticklish raspberry. 
He immediately squealed and tried to curl in on himself, but a simple push onto his ribs had him on the floor again. 
“IHIHIT TIHIHICKLES SOHO BAHAHAHAD!” Jisung squealed cutely when you attacked his v-line next. 
You littered his flat belly with kisses and raspberries, absolutely murdering the boy with tickles. 
“NOOOO! HAHAHAHA IHITS ENOUGH PLEASE! I CAHAHANT BREAAATHE!” He screamed with the last of his breath, tears had dampened the collar of his shirt, and his hair was considerably disheveled. 
You finally let up and admired how pretty Jisung looked when he was wrecked, face flushed and wet as his antennas hung above his head, thoroughly shaking. 
You pressed a kiss to his cheek as they puffed up, watching as he blushed a deep red. 
“Sorry, I couldn’t help it.” You grinned sheepishly and pulled him into your lap, stroking his hair as he fell asleep. 
Later, when he woke up, the smell of food wafted through the air. 
Han realized that he was laying in a bed, in a cozy-looking room that was most likely yours. 
He slowly opened the door, walking into what he assumed was a kitchen. 
He watched as you danced while you cooked, humming and twirling as you mixed whatever was inside the pot.
He suddenly felt very relaxed and fond. Jisung wanted to hug you. 
He walked up behind you and wrapped his arms around your waist, eliciting a loud squeak from you. 
“Ticklish?~” He teased the same way you had done earlier. 
“N-NO JIHIHIHISUNG!” You screeched as fingers dug deep into your waist. 
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i hope you enjoyed! please check my intro post before interacting! love ya! 💕💗💖
not the anon saying i can do it as a drabble but i end up making it my longest and most favourite fic-
it’s 2171 words lol 🤡
if you guys want a part two with some story line to it pls gimme some ideas
also no lee reader thx!
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moonspirit · 2 months ago
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hi. assigning lana del rey songs to ships.
eremika: how to disappear
from mikasas perspective, so “joe” would be eren. i can’t even begin to explain how perfect this song is for them.
“i know he’s in over his head. but i love that man like nobody can. he moves mountains and pounds them to ground again” I MEAN CMON MAN!?!?
“this is how to disappear, no one’s going anywhere.” post erens death.. SIGGHH i miss them
aruani: when the world was at war we kept dancing
could be from either perspective it doesn’t matter. anyway, i think from the title alone u can see my vision. not elaborating.
eremin: dealer
armins perspective in season 4. now i don’t like to ship them in season 4 (season 1-3 is good) but this is too perfect.
“i gave u all my money, gave u all my money, gave u all my money. i don’t wanna live. i don’t wanna give you nothing, cuz u never give me nothing back. why can’t u be good for something? not one shirt off your back.” must’ve been very draining for armin to d ride eren in season 4.
jeankasa: doin time
jeans perspective. now i don’t ship this cuckold with my majestic queen mikasa HOWEVERRR i can see mikasa settling for him post rumbling. like a “sighh i suppose” instead of an “i do” typa marriage. anyway to the song
“she spreads her lovin all over and when she gets home there’s none left for me.” it’s about how she’s still attached to eren, sure she likes jean. he’s a very good friend. she should love him, he’s her husband/boyfriend/side hoe. but she just can’t get over her love and devotion to eren.
eremika again: did you know that there’s a tunnel under ocean blvd (yes that’s the real name i’m not fucking with u)
erens perspective. the song is about legacy and not being forgotten.
“don’t forget me like the tunnel under ocean blvd.” tunnel under ocean blvd = there’s more to me than what u see on the surface. eren, during the rumbling, couldn’t be understood by anyone. his actions were too.. well.. genocidal. except for mikasa (and armin but this ain’t bout him) she doesn’t forget that there’s more to him than being the devil of paradis.
“open me up. tell me u like it. fuck me to death. love me until i love myself.” CMOONNNNN
reiani: norman fucking rockwell
annie’s perspective when they were in paradis. toxic(ish) reiani my beloved. let’s be real annie doesn’t like him. at all. (ok just a little bit but she won’t admit it) and reiners terrified of her.
“you’re just a man. it’s just what u do. ur head in ur hands as u color me blue” warrior-personality reiner was very toxic, look at marcos death scene.
“goddam man child. u act like a kid even though u stand six foot two.” she just hates him lol
tell me what u think. bout my choices and the songs themselves (jus spreading the gospel. hoping to turn u into a lana fan)
Ahahhaa hiiii xD I needed some time to properly listen to all these lovely songs! And I believe @kensingtonbae would really enjoy these picks, you two love Lana on the same wavelength I think?
"How to Disappear" is really very beautiful, woah! I like the melancholic melody and tune - but it's not overwhelmingly sad somehow, it's... comfortingly sad, if that makes any sense xD Very fitting for Eremika as a whole because post-rumbling she's really the saddest person in the whole story, the only one who didn't get what she wanted. Still, Mikasa continues to love him despite all the destruction and irreversible damage he caused and well, now that sort of ties into "tunnel under ocean blvd" tho? It was her determination to not let go of Eren even at the very end that brought everything to an end finally T^T This song captures that emotion perfectly! *siiiiiiigh* I miss them too :<
Now "Dealer" really fucking hurts T^T Because season 4 Eremin is p a i n f u l as hell. I like to imagine Armin promised Mikasa he'd bring Eren "back" (y'know, from the distance that kept growing between them) but that was easier said than done. Try as he might, Eren would NOT let Armin get close, the way he would've, just some time ago! What changed? Nobody can convince me Armin didn't find this infuriating and incredibly difficult - boy was MAD! Boy was mad and just holding his temper on a light leash... but sometimes, he did snap! Alone! This is the song for those moments - very raw!
"Norman Fucking Rockwell" has those minor-key tunes I really love in any song. I guess it suits a toxic ReiAnnie vibe quite well. Tho it's the lyrics that do it too hahaha xD Manchild sounds like something Annie would call Reiner several times in a single day, welp. Her general frustration with him can't be any higher. They have a difficult relationship - I like this song, I think it suits!
With Jeankasa, I like the ship because it's full of complicated emotions! I do hc Jean has some trouble with easily becoming comfortable in the relationship... it's all very sad #_# The song is nice! It's got this cynical vibe, kinda like this constant undercurrent of emotions in their relationship.
Wrapping up on Aruani as always T^T Great song title for these two hahaha xD Feels like an "Love during the apocalypse" type of song which I suppose it is... in a way. Fits Aruani especially during the high notes - beautiful!
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funnymemesandreblogs · 8 months ago
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So I posted something about telling my friend I'm a lesbian some time ago and I must inform you of today's events. Few days/weeks ago I sent my friend, let's call her L, that I gotta tell her something but deleted it right away. Doesn't matter - she still saw it. She asks me about it the next day and I say I can't tell her right now but I will tell her after a few days/when I'm ready. Today, my fellas, we were ready to go outside. But I (as always) took much more time to get ready than expected, even tho usually she's the one that's even more late than me. Anyways, she came to my house because of that and asked me when will I tell her. But it was literally like my body doesn't let me say it out loud. I told her I will tell her outside so we went outside. First park - full of children, second park - full of children, found some benches and sat there talkin' bout some shit when she asked me again. I couldn't answer even tho I wanted to so I consitered writing it down but that would've been really weird so I waited a bit more. (I also was smiling awkwardly and uncontrollably, I just be like that when I'm embarassed.) I started saying some random shit about how it's not really that important so she better not be expecting something amazing but that it also could be a really big deal. L talked a while and when she stopped for a moment I felt that I could finally say it and was like, fuck it, if I don't say it now, who knows when will I so I just blurted out an "I'm a lesbian" in the middle of a conversation about god knows what. L then says that she actually expected that and asked me WHEN DID I DECIDE TO BE LIKE THAT, LIKE NOOO, WHAT THE FUCK, YOU THINK I WOULD JUST CHOOSE TO SUFFER LIKE THIS??? overreacting rn, anyways I explain to her I do not decide that and that it comes to me naturally and she's like "Oh, ok", and I. Think. She. Maybe. Understood. But I was so fucking wrong. L said "I support you (amazing, right, that's what I thought, too) BUT I DO NOT SUPPORT OTHER PEOPLE. YOU'RE MY FRIEND SO YOU ARE AN EXEMPTION." I was sad, also she will probbably have the best reaction out of all my friends so I. Am. Fucked.
Some time passed and she asks me, how did you think I would react?
Me: ...
I actually thought you'd react exactly like this.
L: Yeah, I think I reacted too casually/relaxed.
Me: [?????? what the fuck]
Haha, not really..
L: What do you mean? See how relaxed I am? [points at her way of sitting]
Me: Yeahh, but... (mumbling some random shit because I'm too sad and overwhelmed to even tell her about what I don't like.)
L: How do you think P (other friend) will react?
Me: I guess same as you.
L: When will you tell her?
Me: I don't know, probbably after a few weeks (definitely not, lol).
L: Any crushes??
Me: Nope. (Even tho I like this one girl soo much but I know L hates her.)
I am sorry. This post is so messed up and makes no goddamn sense, especially now at the end, but that was literally our conversation till P came so I guess it's okay. Also, my whole class thinks LGBTQ+ people are mentally sick but I'm still in a better position than some other people because she didn't discriminate me (even tho she will probbably soon). :D, bye my dear gay stranger, hope you enjoyed and didn't suffer much in life or through this post, :D
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sothischickshe · 8 months ago
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I was tagged by @bourbon-ontherocks (ty! 💛💛💛) to answer 20 questions for writers:
1. How many works do you have on AO3?
21!
2. What's your total AO3 word count?
278,245
3. What fandoms do you write for?
The only fandom I've ever published fic for is good girls
4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
Bringing down the neighbourhood
waiting for someone who needs me🧞
What a sight to see🧛🏻
(a) time to kill
yourself and others
I'm not sure the middle 3 would def be there were it not for the anon kudos bombing but w/e it's nice having some single chapter fics in the top 5 🤘
5. Do you respond to comments?
Yes! 🥺🥺🥺
6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
A time to refrain (from embracing) methinks!
7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
Both installments of the Are you afraid or is it true series are pretty fluffy. Maybe the second part (Through the park and by the tree) wins out? 🤔
8. Do you get hate on fics?
Not generally. There was someone in the gg fandom leaving mean bookmark notes tho 🙄🗑️
9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
Yes. What are the kinds? 👀
10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?
I haven't, and I don't imagine I would?
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
Not that I'm aware of.
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
No, not that I'm aware of. It could be interesting to see how it would go!
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
Yes actually, as kids me and a friend co-wrote a tortall 'verse crackfic.
14. What’s your all time favourite ship?
Ooof. Maybe spuffy? That met me at a very formative time of my life, and I didn't expect it to become so canon (as opposed to like under a spell etc) and I think that experience really reshaped my brain 🤯🤯🤯 but fundamentally faves questions are immoral thus this is a very rude question.
15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
I hope I'll finish all of them, and do intend to! I'm not sure I'll ever write the hilarious abortion fic tho.
16. What are your writing strengths?
Mm, a love of language/interesting prose. A love of brevity/somewhat chiselled sentences. A love of editing/willingness to improve. Interesting stories. Dialogue, tho brio get little bc theyre annoying. Characterisation!
17. What are your writing weaknesses?
Well I violently dislike plot. I don't feel super strong on creating original characters. I'm slow! I'd rather let things be confusing than beat readers over the head with info, which I think can be detrimental. I wouldnt say my descriptions are super strong, though I think they've improved a lil. Sometimes there's too much internal monologue at a go which breaks up the pacing of an eg dialogue scene (though again think that's improved somewhat). My love of planning and love of pantsing are at constant war lol, I get grumpiest abt stuff not having been established earlier and thus needing to state things which couldve been well demonstrated. Blocking, sometimes. I love short stories and oneshots but I'm apparently prone to writing long fics & continuing things into series which I consider a real weakness, lol.
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?
I'm not against it in principle, I've read a lot of books which contain a lot of eg French or Spanish (often untranslated). We've got access to Google translate or w/e right? I do appreciate it when translations are provided bc lazy (and I think Ao3 does poss let you do hyperlinked superscript?). I feel the same way abt it in fic as in other media I think -- if you're happy for it to be a bonus to those that understand and everyone else needs to work to figure it out, I concur. If you think it needs to be understood, then providing translations (even if just as notes @ the end) makes sense.
But I also think pls don't write it via Google translate... If u don't speak the language/don't have someone who can help u translate it, don't write dodgy shite Spanish or w/e 🙈 not everything needs to be literal dialogue u can just say 'he explained to his grandmother abt the change in plans' or w/e I swear
...o wait I'm guessing the q meant me as a writer not reader 🤦 I don't think I've done much of it? Altho I do always seem to imply that every character speaks French, a language I don't really speak so who the hell knows 🤷🏼‍♀️🤷🏼‍♀️🤷🏼‍♀️
19. First fandom you wrote for?
Published for: good girls. Wrote for hmmm I guess tortall books maybe? 🧓🤷🏼‍♀️
20. Favourite fic you’ve written?
Ooof, immoral question! Let's say upon your ignorance (and the gray despair) of your ugly life tho bc every time I remember I wrote a fic where rio & Dean swap bodies I giggle 😂 there's so much abt this fic which is very funny to specifically me teehee
Tagging🔖🔖🔖🔖🔖: @hereliesbb @nakedmonkey @nottonyharrison @inyoursheets @bensonstablers @blizabrth @delicatelingon & U right in the middle of your forehead if u wanna play 😚🎯
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mikuni14 · 10 months ago
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Pit Babe - Ep 13
I don't have much to write about this, because with the exception of Way and his potential partners, nothing else really interested me in this series. And it's good that people who know the novel were throwing spoilers left and right without warning, because thanks to this I could mentally prepare for what will happen to Way 😶 Thanks to the fact that Way in this episode just stood there, then jumped, and then died, making it all about Babe anyway, and thanks to spoilers, his death didn't really affect me. It was oddly funny tho, when I thought wistfully again how great Pavel and Nut are together and how I wish they were together as a pair (this is my unfulfilled ship in this series). I watched for a bit after that scene, hoping that maybe Way had somehow survived, hehe, but it was a vain dream 🤡 I honestly chuckled in disbelief when PeteWay was reduced to Pete's little sadness and a montage of some 4 of their scenes, and when I realized that they didn't even have Kenta there to mourn his brother. Tbh I skipped through the rest of the episode, and since I wasn't interested in the rest of it in the first place, that was the end of my adventure with Pit Babe 🥳 Despite knowing the spoilers, I had quite high hopes that Way would survive, because he was actually VERY popular in the Pit Babe fandom, and killing off a fan favorite is always a risky move. Way could have been punished for what he did in many ways, he could have left the team, cut off contact with Babe, left the country, anything. Even go to jail, like in History 3: Trapped! And yet they chose something so final. Nobody even called an ambulance for him....
I liked that it was Kenta who ended The Tony problem, and that he wasn't overwhelmed by his own actions, didn't lose control and stopped Tony when he tried to hit him. It was actually my fav part of this ep. (and the whole Winner and The Boys scene lol) As I understand it, Kenta didn't have any more scenes after that? Even to cry over Way? Am I wrong? I ask, because maybe he did appear after all, and I have missed him by skipping scenes.
If you are a Charlie fan, don't read this part: Even though I'm allergic to Charlie and CharlieBabe, I forced myself to watch their scenes at the beginning because I was curious how Babe would deal with the fact that Charlie was alive, he lied to him in a most fundamental way, broke his heart in the worst possible way, sending him into mourning and a destructive need for revenge. Babe handled it with flying colors like a model grief stricken patient 👌 Can't help but wonder, why there was a ENTIRE episode about the grieving Babe when he acts now like Charlie came back safe and sound from visiting his mean family during Christmas. I don't know if I could be with someone who actively chose the most cruel way to hurt me but "for my own god", I certainly couldn't just forgive it, but that's just me 🤷‍♀️ Babe was used, abused, hurt, never asked for his opinion, for what HE wanted by everyone around him, over and over again, and everyone knows it and everyone continues to use him and hurt him because they know they CAN and there won't be any consequences. When Charlie, beaming happily, announced the reason for faking his death and traumatizing Babe, and Babe was liked, oh ok, I thought to myself, haha, ok, guys, you know what, I actually envy you this simple life of yours. This scene confirmed only one thing for me: yep, Charlie and this pairing irritate me just as much now as at the beginning 😏
I don't know if I understood correctly, Jeff had a vision and knew that Way was going to die? As I recall, he tried to stop his previous visions from becoming reality, and now he did nothing? Can someone confirm this for me or have I missed something here?
So. PeteWay and PeteKenta have carried this series for several last episodes, these ships have been heavily promoted by the series and the show's cast. The ending of these ships with Way's quick death, which is not even about him but about Babe and the disappearance of Pete and Kenta from the plot, in my opinion, is an insult to their fans who have invested their time, energy and emotions in this series (this is not about me, I mean all those people whose hard work I furiously reblogged, I love you besties). It sort of looks like baiting now , I thought Thai BL series of all were above that 😄
Sending hugs and kisses to Pit Babe fans and fans of things that could have been 😘 As for me? I hope there will be a lot of content with Nut from now on 💖
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imagineitdearies · 5 months ago
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Hello! Just finished PS. I cannot praise you enough. Its easily the best thing ive read this year, and my resolution was to read multiple books a month. You surpass ALL OF THEM!
Saw ur authors note at the end abt an original queer vamp novel- is there anymore info yet? Im sure you've got ppl begging already but id truly love to beta when the time comes- or be first in line to preorder.
I feel like i read this at exactly the right time of my life.
The story was so painful yet rewarding bc i see so much of myself in Tyrus. Astarion and Tyrus truly feel like two different exstensions of my healing self. I wont go into it, but im a survivor to. Like tyrus, it happened when i was a young. Seeing his transformation throughout his decade of enslavement, his hatred towards himslef and the world, all bc of one man hit home. I kept telling myself that if it didnt have a happy ending id have to burn my phone or smthn lol. Seeing Astarion amd Tyrus not just defeat Cazador, but do it together, do it solely through their love of one another, broke me. The power of love, hope, and goodness. I havent cried over a fanfic since middle school. Im in my 20s now. I adored the final 2 chapters of the aftermath- im so grateful we got to meet his sister! And with Halsin, no less!
Im so thrilled you'll be adding oneshots and other stories to the universe. Tyrus is so real, so alive, id hate to see him contained in one story.
I love how Tyrus, ultimately, changeed. He didnt change into a monster like he feared, but what happened to him did changed him. Thats not a bad thing, tho. He's still Tyrus, simply a new version. And im still me, simply a new version.
I dont know if ill ever be able to reread, even skimming over the rougher parts was hard, but im so grateful i was able to see Tyrus and Astarion's journey. All of their triumphs felt like mine, all of their failures. Their never wavering love and trust in one another, that they understood it was Cazador that made them do those bad things. Ur right, pain and love must be intertwined, which is why this fic was so amazing. The highs would have never felt so spectaular without the lowest of lows.
Im rambling, i apologize. I do hope you read this, even if you dont respond. I hope my thanks and praise can give u something in return for what you've given me.
If you've made it this far, have you made any content on ur process? Ur planning? The flow was amazing, ur description, the flashbacks- did you go to school for writing? As a writer myself im almsot jealous at ur talent- but mostly curious :) id love to know anything you're willing to share.
Again, thank you. This was a gift, you know. I wont forget it.
Hi turtleurtle!! Great to see you over here, thank you so much for your kind words 🩵🩵 it means a lot any time I hear people enjoyed PS as much/more than published fiction!!
Speaking of, yes, since you ask I do have a little more to say now on my original story. I took a small writing break for a week or so but have now jumped back into the saddle for the next adventure! Lots of plotting, character creation, worldbuilding, and research happening right now.
Reuben, our first main POV, is almost fully fleshed out as a character and I’m so excited for you all to meet him (he’s an eloquence bard, for starters)!! The first book/part is almost fully outlined and I’ve written the first few pages. I’m really starting to get inspired by where the storyline is going.
Back to PS though—I’m so glad you felt seen with Tyrus’s character. He did inevitably change, but by the end he is (mostly) at peace with that and can still forge a good life and happy relationships. Meeting Cynda again was that last little piece of hope he needed to believe it 🥹
Haha the light does always seem brighter when you’re stuck in pitch darkness! On the other hand, it’s something Tyrus only thinks once, but I would argue love is not intertwined with pain more than anything else. Pain is just an inevitability. No matter what you do, you will experience discomfort, sorrow, loss, physical suffering (see Cazador, with absolutely zero love in his life). While love is not inevitable, it’s a choice. Love is a gift we choose to give and to receive in the midst of inevitable suffering and that is why it is so precious. Having that perspective has really helped me heal and have more hope for the future 🩵
Haha never apologize for rambling about PS! This thing has consumed my soul for the last 8 months so I love the chance to hear from/converse with people especially now that the full story is posted and all is revealed. Honestly wish I could sit down with you all and just discuss everything!! But seriously thank you for this message.
As for my writing, here’s a few writing advice asks I've answered, but i haven’t gotten too in-depth on my chaotic process yet. I will say long walks talking to myself, bullet lists, and brackets are my personal recipe for success (besides just writing for years and years) 😂 I did take a lot of classes in school too! If people have specific questions, I’m happy to give my best go at an answer.
Thanks so much 🥰
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eyothings · 1 year ago
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Myths of the Realm (spoilers)
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Now that we can talk freely about it: What can i say? I think i have been served from the beginning to the end with it.
Not only the best music of the whole raid is the Uldha one, where my wol is born and has lived for many years, but Deryk is none other than her deity Oschon (I knew he was him all along so it was super funny to read his lines when he pretended to be human, especially at the beginning when he tried to avoid the wol as much as possible) and he is the only one who gets to stay - thanks to a monkey (that are my favorite animals) and us (heh) I have been served so well - it even managed to help me unlock some dark areas in my OC lore. As for the Deryk shippers, congrats you've won big time here haha The story is super romantic whether it's platonic or not (On my part i see more Oschon as a big mentor or a brother for my Wol, someone she'll always feel very close to, like a soulmate but not on a romantic level)
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For the story, at first i didn't understand why they really wanted to die, they could have accepted their condition as deity and stay with us, but then i realized everything they might have been through all those centuries, not only changing physically but having to deal with weird stories like the whole incest family tree - talk about awkward situations - i believe at some point i'd have wanted to die asap just to keep whats left of my dignity.
I find that very funny that Menphina is the only one who felt the need to clarify her relationship with Oschon, but not Althyk and Nymeia nor Azeyma and Thaliak! (I see what you did there writers!)
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Each of the twelves stories were amusing and touching (especially Azeyma TT-TT), and the whole ending made me cry so hard, i think the last time i cried like this was for Elidibus with Pandaemonium story line.
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I read people saying that there was no more deities in this world, and i kind of disagree with it, i think the twelves will be back some day - If i understood correctly, they all decided to go back to the aetherial sea but they left behind some benedictions on Etheirys, meaning that, those benedictions will now receive the prayers instead of the twelves - and then i remember the primals and what happened before we board on the ragnarok and it gives me the hint that some day, those benedictions might just take the form of the twelves - Thats only a theory tho I'm also sad, people who have Thaliak and Llymlaen as a deity didn't get the chance to have a private moment with them (it could have been added after the final fight before they left as a special cutscene tho, but at least they added a special line for them, as Oschon did too and it made me cry lol)
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Now when it comes to the raid and fight itself: • I think it was way too easy, the final boss really should add more random mechanics that we learned from the first raids • Aglaia was the hardest of them 3, and i really loved the vibes there, especially with Azeyma and Nald, the landscapes were amazing ! • I wish Sharlayan would look more like Thaliak's place too ! • I do love the secret mechanic they added on Llymlaen and seeing people spamming emotes on her • The hardest part of Oschon's fight was to manage to stay focused - This man is so beautiful, thats insane (and his japanese voice is incredible) ↓ This is the manliest mechanic i've ever seen ↓
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In conclusion, Myth of the realms is one of the best alliance raid to me (Construct 7 will always stay my favorite boss tho) I'm sad to know that there are no ancient anymore, and i hope Dawntrail will give us an amazing story as profound as what we got from ARR to EW, as much as amazing characters too !
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osatokun · 10 months ago
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(for charlie - sry i love malkavians so much lol) wound, midnight, monster, heartbreak
So do I! my fav clan for sure and I stopped blaming myself for picking occult heavily based characters that are often malkavians. Enjoying what I love hehe.
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wound: How does your OC handle being wounded? Are their wounds mostly physical? Mental? Emotional? What's the worst wound your OC has ever experienced?
Physical? Easy. Once he got sick, he experienced the unbearable pain that could not be stopped. It was a mental disease and it slowly degraded kindred to being mindless creatures that could only kill and destroy, absolutely destroying their personality. Luckily, a salubri healed him. But after that he stopped fearing any physical pain, for better or worse. During the game he got his hands broken, he got his both legs chopped out, he got his tongue removed, his eyes got burned down several times etc etc. He has 0 fear. He understood that this is not alright, this is scary and painful for people around him too, when Glinda got sad because he was in pain. She grounds him well. As for mental and emotional.. well, he killed himself because he couldn't bear the betrayal of his trust in his family. The thought that he's lonely and family not always loves each other as you imagine. Reality crushed him, he started to take drugs, drink, and then killed himself trying to escape. So he doesn't deal well with feelings. But it's been 200 years, he's very slowly healing. He will never be entirely healed tho and he accepts it.
midnight: What keeps your OC up at night? Do they have nightmares? Fears? Anxieties? What do they do in the small hours of the morning when they should be sleeping? I mean, he can't be up because of nightmares, he's a vampire after all.. but he have nightmares all the time. His past fears, his current fears, and glimpse of upcoming future haunts him. He dies over and over again. He loose his loved ones over and over again. He fears for his new found family the most. He's pretty predictable and simple I think? Understanding that he can't save everyone is also haunting him. Understanding how many people died because he let a demon escape. Because he lost hope to save someone and didn't even try. Because he wasn't brave enough. Because he wasn't quick enough and instead of saving, he enjoyed his new happy family life. Because he was weak and got too emotional. He has so many blood on his hands. He saved many, but so many died.it will always haunt him. And before Glinda, he feared to be completely alone. He locked himself from everyone because of fear being wounded, so no wonder he was alone. She showed him that he's not alone but now.. now he is afraid SHE will get wounded or killed.He believes in her, he wont bother her with his fear, but he knows the fear is here.She knows it too. monster: Is your OC monstrous in any way? Is there something that makes them monstrous? Are they aware of their own monstrosity? Do they accept it or reject it? He learned to accept himself as a whole. I'd say, he even love his Beast as a part oh himself. However he asked Glinda to kill him if he'll fully become a monster one day. She rejected saying she is no different. heartbreak: Have they ever had a relationship that ended badly? Experienced some other kind of heartbreak? What happened? ...many. His first ever gf, Caroline, was a vampire. He is very stupid when it comes to emotions, he was sure it's going to be forever and ofcorse she likes him just as he likes her. However she used him while he was useful and easily guided. gaslited and manipulated him for almost 15 years. His sires didn't point it out, they wanted him to learn everything the hard way. But even now, when he understands what happened and that it wasn't love at all, he is grateful for the years they've been together and has no hard feelings. (even tho he run away from her in the end and still kinda fears her a bit)
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Then he didn't want to meet with anyone and avoided romantical contacts with people for 10~ years. But Caroline opened something new in him, desire to be loved, to be wanted, to be with someone. And once he saved a man who didn't want to die by giving him his blood. The man mistaken new feelings with love and wanted to posses Charlie. He seduced this little stupid malk who desperately tried to run away from the need of being loved. However when Charlie understood that when he's around the blood bounds wont get weaker, he broke up with this man. But it didn't end here. This man, David, was no little fluffy bunny. He stalked Charlie, manipulated his exes ( Charlie started to meet people, but quickly break up with them) into starting a Charlie-hate club where they started to learn magic and trying to make his life a nightmare. And when people started to get hurt. Charlie had to kill David. He fooled him that all these years was just a test and he passed, now they going to be together forever. At this point David already understood that Charlie is a vampire, but he believed that all this painful need inside was the need for bites. He let Charlie bite him, and malkavian drank all of his ghoul's blood, while reading his thoughts in the process. David was a criminal, a cruel and manipulative person, but Charlie mourns him still. He visits his grave and take care of it. And also thinks he had to let David die in the first day they met in the clinic, when they were just a patient and a doctor.
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hayakawalove · 4 months ago
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Would satoru really get bored with his partner or find them boring 🥺🥺🥺
Like if their personality is more on the chill side like shoko/suguru and they’re not as thrill seeking or keep him on his toes all the time
Would he like try to find someone better and more fun :(
Since his life IS pretty hectic and always thrilling with curses left and right for him to exorcise idk if he would need that same energy in a partner tho :(
I personally feel like he wouldn’t find that necessary and once he’s in love he would love his partner however they are and wouldn’t feel bored irregardless since the concept of romantic love would be new for him and he would seek solace in his partner and like he wouldn’t find them boring or ever get bored of them once he fully trusts/opens up and loves someone <3
ALSO if someone finally understands him even if they’re the most boring person on earth like nanami (sorry nanami 😭) he would still love them
Hope I didn’t blabber lol but yeah 😭
Your opinion pls 👀💕
PERHAPS I SHOULD HAVE EXPANDED ON THIS A BIT MORE.
I don’t know if “bored” is the right word, I just think Gojo is more prone to becoming stir crazy. He’s constantly doing stuff, so I think if that were to ever stop that he would become antsy.
I feel like he’s just always doing “interesting” things, sort of like an adrenaline junkie, so perhaps he craves doing crazy stuff. You could also take it completely the other way though, where he just wants to finally relax since he constantly is doing crazy stuff.
I think both headcanons are fun and I could see both being true.
But in terms of people, like you mentioned if it were someone more “chill” like suguru or shoko, I think gojo would still love them. I mean, they were the two people closest to him. So he definitely doesn’t mind that stuff. I don’t think you have to be an “exciting” person (whatever that means) to keep his interest. I just mean that I think he would want someone who keeps him on his toes. Whether it’s by teasing him back, constantly giving him praise like he wants, etc. I don’t think he liked Suguru because Suguru was a thrill seeker, I think he liked Suguru because Suguru understood him, and he was a shithead in the same way KDJKDJDKDKKD like they both teased people and had this funny dynamic between them. So like. He wasn’t a thrill seeker, but there were aspects of his character that gojo found interesting. Whether or not a person is “boring” is entirely subjective. I think Gojo would even be able to find a nonsorcerers interesting, as they would provide a completely different outlook and life experience than him.
Gojos a bit like a puppy to me…. I think he’s easily excitable and will nip at you until you play along with him. Whether that’s by being stern with him, I think he’d find that stuff funny and maybe even refreshing, or by cooing at him until his face turns red. I think there isn’t one personality type that he would like the most. I just think he’d love having fun with his significant other, in whatever way that ends up being.
Like you said, he still finds Nanami interesting even though some people might find him a bit bland. I think it’s because he likes to tease Nanami, gojo has a good time with it. Nanami and Suguru and Shoko are all very different characters to me, and in my opinion you could say all of them don’t fall under the category of what people would call “excitable” characters. I don’t think any of them are boring, but I can see how some people might because they’re calm. I DONT AGREE WITH THIS OBVIOUSLY….
I just think he wants to have fun with who he’s in love with, and wouldn’t have as much fun talking to someone who wouldn’t be engaged in the conversation, he likes reactions. Whether it’s you being pissed off, you complimenting him, you going along with the joke, etc etc. When I said boring, I was thinking more of if someone was just like stand off ish and didn’t engage in the relationship at all. BECAUSE WE’RE ALL GOJO GIRLIES (gn) I think he would have fun with all of us because I think all of us would give him reactions.
Does this clear it up? I hope it does!
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