#i hope this made any kind of sense lol my brain lately is just like
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misc-obeyme · 2 years ago
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MC Talks Back
This was another suggestion from @oakley-tree1 for MC being disrespectful/talking back. I was inspired to write this as a scene rather than headcanons. I did my best with the bros, I hope they're not too OOC lol. I felt like it made the most sense for MC to talk back to Lucifer, so that's basically what happens, but all the brothers are present.
Thank you for the request, I hope it's not too far off from what you were thinking!
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GN!MC
Warnings: MC getting sassy, but otherwise nothing.
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It had been a particularly grueling week in the Devildom. You had so many projects you needed to work on, things you needed to take care of, and a bunch of demons who constantly needed your attention. You weren't even sure how you managed to balance everything.
Not only had you managed to calm down Satan after a particularly intense bout of wrathful destruction, you had also waited in line for hours with Levi so he could get some limited edition merch. Later on in the week, you had given Mammon a bunch of Grimm when he asked, mostly because you didn't care to know what he was going to do with it.
It had been a long week and you were tired. So it was nice to finally be sitting at the dinner table with the brothers at the end of the week. You were eating some kind of weird Devildom cuisine, but it tasted good even if you weren't sure what it was. Didn't Beel say something about shadow hog?
You weren't particularly paying attention to the usual bickering and banter going on around you. At this point, it was comforting background noise.
You did notice when Lucifer put down his fork, mostly because this was usually a signal that he was about to start lecturing someone. The entire table would get to listen as he rambled at length about their image and so on and so forth.
"MC."
You looked up at him, surprised. You weren't expecting him to start lecturing you. You hadn't done anything wrong lately, right? You began wracking your brain, trying to think of what it could be.
"It has come to my attention that you lent quite a lot of money to Mammon," Lucifer said.
You blinked. That wasn't exactly unusual. You glanced at Mammon. He was sitting beside you and while he'd been acting normal all evening, he was now clearly sweating bullets. His eyes kept darting between you and Lucifer, not settling on either of you.
Okay, so this was about something Mammon probably did with the money you gave him. You didn't even know what he wanted it for, but did it really matter?
Although you could feel your irritation rising, you kept your cool as you replied, "I don't see how that's any of your business."
The room went silent. You could sense all the brothers staring at you in shock as you calmly took another bite of your dinner.
You looked over at Lucifer, as if daring him to say anything else. You were sure he was going to look angry, but to your surprise, he smirked.
"Allow me to clear it up for you," Lucifer said. "That money was spent on counterfeit Wersace bags that he has been attempting to sell online."
You shrugged. "What do you expect me to do about it?"
Suddenly you could feel Mammon gripping your leg beneath the table. He was squeezing so hard you could feel his nails through your clothes. You looked back at him for a moment to see that he looked absolutely terrified.
"That's right," Satan said unexpectedly into the following silence. "It really has nothing to do with MC. After all, how could they know how Mammon would spend that money?"
"They should know better by now," Lucifer said, frowning. He folded his arms. "And it was quite a large amount."
"Anyway, it doesn't matter!" Mammon suddenly burst out. "I already stopped tryin' to sell 'em! I got rid of all the merchandise like ya told me to. What difference does it make how I got 'em to begin with?"
You narrowed your eyes a little. This behavior was pretty suspicious.
From across the table, Asmo giggled. "He just doesn't want you guys to find out that he didn't know they were counterfeits."
"Shaddup!" Mammon's grip on your leg somehow got tighter. "I knew exactly what I was lookin' at!"
You pulled at his wrist to get him to let go of you. "If you've already gotten rid of them and everything, why are we even talking about this?"
"I'm concerned about your tendency to give in to my brothers' every whim," Lucifer said. "Especially when it comes to lending money to Mammon."
"Oi!" Mammon protested.
You rolled your eyes. "It isn't like it's a big deal. You just need to chill out."
You could hear the sound of Belphie attempting to hold in his laughter from the other side of you. Satan was also struggling to keep his expression neutral.
Lucifer's frown deepened. "Do you know what it was like for me to explain to Lord Diavolo why my younger brother was selling Wersace knockoffs?"
"I'm sure it was most terrible," you said, your voice dripping with sarcasm. "But honestly if Lord Diavolo isn't used to this kind of thing by now, he really needs to get with it."
Belphie was nearly shaking with laughter beside you. Mammon, on the other hand, looked like he was afraid for your life.
"I'm pretty sure Lord Diavolo doesn't care as much as Lucifer does," Levi said absently, his eyes on the video game in his hands. "He always just laughs when you tell him about this kind of thing."
"Anyway, what I choose to do with my money is what I consider to be none of your business. I'll give it to whoever I want," you said. You stood up from the table and pushed your half full plate across it. "You want the rest of my food, Beel?"
"Yes," Beel said seriously before he began demolishing what was left of your dinner.
Mammon caught up to you as you started walking back to your room.
"What was that about?" he asked, looking back over his shoulder as though he expected Lucifer to come after you both any second. "It ain't like ya to talk back like that."
You sighed. "I've just had a long week and I didn't want to listen to a lecture. Did you really not know that you bought fakes?"
Mammon flushed a little. "Course I knew!"
You gave him a look.
He folded his arms and looked away from you. "M-maybe I didn't…"
You laughed a little and bumped into him as you walked. "Maybe next time you'll be more careful about what you buy with my money."
"Sh-shaddup!" Mammon said and you laughed again.
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stephaniebrownslover · 6 months ago
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HIII! :D
I've read your Jeff and Liu's relationship hcs and I REALLY LOVED IT OMG
Soo can you please write a fluff oneshot about 'em?
(AND I THINK YOU'RE WORKING ON FOR TICCIWORK RELATIONSHIP PART 2 SO I'M SORRY IF I MADE YOU BUSSY THIS REQUEST CAN BE WAITED IF YOU WANT TO-)
I know I talked too much but thank you so much from now <333
HIIIIIIII!!!!!
I'm still surprised that people other than mt friends are reading and even liking my writing lol that means a lot really!!
And of course I can write about them since you asked! I love their bro-ship and it's cute and we deserve more Woods Family Fluff.
I'll write for Main AU, again, but this won't be lore related because everything important with them after the incident includes angst or other creeps but I want to write a dumb cute thing for you. Hope you don't mind, but if you do, please ask again for something lore-related like ticciwork oneshot.
NO NO I'M WORKING ON IT BUT I ALREADY MADE PART 1 FOR THAT FRIEND AND DON'T EVER WORRY ABOUT TALKING TOO MUCH OR MAKING ME BUSSY OMG NEVER PLEASE
Thank you so much for your ask and hope you like it too!!!
(I kinda wanted to write them stealing a tank lol)
(Also so sorry for late reply, my brain is so foggy lately which prevents me from writing)
Main AU Jeff and Liu Oneshot
Date: 2014
While Jeff was excitedly waving the board game box he was holding and trying to show it to Liu, Liu had his head buried well into the book in his hand, although his focus had not shifted. No, he might have loved his brother, but he definitely wasn't going to play monopoly with him.
"C'mon, L!"
"My name is not L. It's Liu."
That was the last straw. He knew that one Because Jeff was watching an anime called "Death Note" on the influence of his friends and Jeff had tried to make him watch it too. Liu would rather watch artistic films or something with real depth.
"Whatever, bet you're afraid of losin'."
"If it makes you feel better, then sure thing."
Liu wanted to continue reading his book, while Jeff senselessly waved one hand in the air. It could be read in his eyes that he had an unnecessary desire to challenge.
"Your loss, we all know I'm better at math."
"You did not."
"Oh yes, I did."
"Oh so you want to play a game, huh? Let's play a game."
Liu suddenly looked up from his book, he closed the object he was holding in one hand hard. It was hardly possible to say that he enjoyed being challenged.
Having a brother like Jeff who loves a challenge was a big problem for him.
Jeff looked in amazement at his brother, who had risen from the coach and was walking towards him with rapid steps. His green eyes were ablaze with an emotion that was not easy to understand.
"You in?"
Liu sarcastically crossed his arms, the menacing smile on his lips was enough to scare anyone, anyone except Jeff.
"Oh, how in that you would be surprised.
"Okay, so we're gonna play Monopoly, I know you like dumb nerd games, and I can rule kingdoms."
Jeff definitely didn't know how to play Monopoly. It was an even bigger problem that he talked more nonsense as if it was possible to do more, but it was Jeff.
Actually, Jeff didn't know how to play any board games. Of course, he knew, but either he didn't remember, or he was hitting the sense spot until the person he was playing with became really pissed.
"That's not- you know what? Just use the calculator on your phone."
"Which one?"
Jeff's rather confident disclosure of his secret caused Liu to pause in surprise once again.
What kind of idiot would disclose the application in which he kept secret photos and things that should remain hidden?
"... The one with numbers, not secret things of yours. God, I can't believe that I had to use this sentence."
"Why the fuck I need a calculator?"
Jeff's eyebrows were furrowed with anger. If it wasn't for Liu, he would have already responded with insults or attacked the person in front of him.
He might have been stupid, but he wasn't that stupid.
"Can you sum up high numbers?"
Or he could.
"... Fuckin' fine."
As Liu passed towards the table in the living room, Jeff followed him with a defeated attitude. While he pulled the chair out fairly and sat down, the fact that Jeff almost fell created a thin smile on Liu's face. It wasn't such a big deal.
He just liked that even after years later, he knew his brother next to him felt as comfortable as possible.
However, their feelings were not very mutual, because Jeff was a bomb ready to explode at any moment.
"You know how to play this, right?"
After Jeff sat down in the chair with a grunt, he shouted at Liu's question.
" 'course I do!"
Liu took the box from Jeff's hand and gently slapped on his hand when Jeff tried to reach out.
That's how Jeff realized that Liu was going to want something from himself first. Waiting for what he wanted, he responded only with a grunt.
Stupid nerd.
"Explain how we start the game."
He raised the index finger of his right hand in the air as he spoke confidently. With his other hand, he also pressed on top of it for emphasis.
"First, ya' choose a pawn to make your slave."
"Eh, kinda true. Go on."
Jeff raised his second finger and stepped on it, too.
"Then you roll the dice to occupy areas."
Well, that was where the mistake started.
But Liu didn't need to be so distrustful. Maybe his brother could surprise him, today could have been that day.
So he calmly made the explanation.
"No, you don't occupy the areas, you just pass them as you move just as the dice says."
"Told the same."
Jeff, on the other hand, breathed with an exasperated attitude.
"It's not the- okay, carry on. What happens when you stop on a point?"
"Easy."
The fact that he paused after saying this, didn't even deign to say anything, made Liu think that he was just bluffing.
And he probably was.
"Then explain."
"Um, you buy them?"
Liu raised one eyebrow in the air.
"To?"
"To... to throw them to the enemy!"
Taking advantage of Liu's confused moment, he pulled out the box and took out several household figures, which he threw at Liu. Although there was nothing to hurt, it was annoying.
"No, Jeff, stop."
Jeff was waiting for his brother to laugh like himself. Or to have an amused reaction. Or to be serious.
Anything, but not him getting off the table.
"I don't know why I trusted you with this. Clearly, it was a mistake."
While he was sitting at the table himself, he was almost begging for Liu to continue to stay as well.
"I was joking, I know Monopoly rules. Just don't go!"
"One last chance."
Liu took a deep breath and sat down at the table again. He really didn't know how long he could tolerate his brother's childish behavior, and he wasn't willing to find out.
There was silence between them for a while. It could not be said that it was a peaceful silence, although it was not uncomfortable either. This silence was more like the silence that occurs before something important.
Just when Liu was about to speak because he was starting to get uncomfortable with it, Jeff spoke by looking at his hands. And the whole time he was talking, he never lifted his head from the table.
"I was actually going to say that we can play Scrabble. I know you don't like this game and you can get bored or something and you shouldn't blah blah, somethin' somethin'."
Liu felt bad for a moment after hearing this.
It was obvious that his brother wanted to spend time with him. He was also aware that he had been neglecting him a little bit too much lately, but it wasn't his fault. He was just too busy and didn't have enough energy to deal with anyone. He definitely couldn't tolerate a hyperactive person like Jeff after a tiring day.
However, these were not an excuse.
He should have been a better brother.
"Okay, we can play both."
After Jeff heard this, he suddenly raised his head, quickly waved his hands in a way that meant no.
"No, no, you don't have enough time and-"
"I can always spare some time for my brother."
Jeff was relieved to hear this. After releasing his shoulders, he smiled. This was not a fake or sarcastic smile as usual, it was a real smile.
"Yeah. Me too."
Jeff and Liu were two brothers who cared about each other.
And nothing or no one could come between them.
It's awful lol sorry for that
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apprenticestanheight · 1 year ago
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you put the idea out there and now i cant stop thinking about it, any headcannons on how poly!chainshipping would go down?
Poly! Chainshipping headcanons
Hi!! I have had this idea on my brain for a while now and I posted the poll referencing it more than two weeks ago! If my memory serves right this came in around the time that the poll was posted, so I apologize for the wait--a lot of personal stuff has been going on as has planning for NaNoWriMo this month hasn't been the best in terms of my writing frequency lol.
Fic type- this is fluff mostly! Mentions of the bathroom trap, though
Warnings- mentions of smokes/smoking--the reader gets put into the trap due to a nicotine addiction in part so it's discussed a lot
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Okay, so
the way that the three of you meet is through the bathroom trap--Lawrence is put there due to a lack of empathy and for cheating on his wife, Adam is put there because of his spying on people via photography, and you're there because of an innate sense of cynicism and hopelessness that's reflected through your personality and the way that you move through life coupled with a minor nicotine addiction.
Adam takes the cigarette when you all find them but you refuse despite the craving because all that Jigsaw had said in your regard was to let go of former vices and trust those around you--let yourself have hope and be optimistic.
Letting go of former vices was obviously in reference to your nicotine use, and you fought the cravings you were dealing with despite the fact that fending them away made you want to bite off your own hand.
in the end, as the story goes, Lawrence cut his own foot off. He told you and Adam that he would be back with help, and you had no choice but to trust him.
The following days were pretty bad--you and Adam would talk through the darkness, telling each other about your lives and reminding one another of Lawrences promise.
Eventually, John Kramer came around with one of his apprentices. They knocked you out with the top of the toilet, which Adam had used to kill Zep Hindle, and you were taken to separate hospitals in the Jersey area.
You give a statement to the police and book a hotel for a week--you were taken from your apartment and going back kind of stings, so you prolong the fact that you'll have to do so anyway.
In the week you stay at the hotel, your manager at work gives you paid time off rather than unpaid because you're traumatized and they feel guilty.
It's not a dampener on your paycheck, either, as they did something that's probably a little illegal and wrote off the shifts you missed in a way that still lets you get paid for those days.
You start going for walks and eventually wind up at the Jigsaw support group. You know Adam would find it stupid but Lawrence would probably appreciate it, and you know that a support system is what you need
even if the support system is made up of strangers, even if your trap is a hell of a lot more tame than some of theirs, it's still nice.
Lawrence ends up at the support group, and when you see him it's like your world completely flips over.
Adam also shows up that day and you're startled to realize your world has flipped over twice in under twenty minutes.
Your conversation goes something like this:
"Lawrence! I didn't expect to see you here--I've missed you lately, how've you been?" and then you look at Adam and you're like "You are the last person I thought I would see at a support group. I've missed you, though. A lot."
Lawrences response is "things aren't so great. Heard about this in the paper, figured I'd see what it's all about."
Adams response is: "Heard about it on the news. Thought I'd come around for some half decent free food, but seeing you guys again is a nice bonus."
And things just kind of...develop from there?? Afterwards Lawrence is like "let's grab a coffee--my treat!" and you and Adam both agree because you never thought you'd see him or each other again but holy fuck is it nice.
Things are a little stilted for a few weeks as you all develop feelings for one another. You're all distracted because you're deeply in love but haven't told one another yet and so the conversation comes and goes, but like--it's obvious from the get-go that you support each other and are consistent in that support.
After the trap, you decided to quit cigarettes cold turkey. A bit of a rash decision in hindsight, but Adam and Lawrence devise a system where they learn what your tells are when the cravings kick in and they do something to distract you instead.
Lawrences mode of distraction is to tell you about his day or, when the weather is cold, offer to go on walks.
You end up adopting a cat that you leash train. Adam finds that HILARIOUS because you genuinely take the cat outside on leash for a solid half hour once every few days. Lawrence even laughs a little to himself when he suggests a walk while the cravings are getting so bad that you're starting to shake because--
it's a cat. on a leash. Actively enjoying time outdoors. It's not the norm in Jersey so seeing it is kind of a spectacle.
Adams way of distracting you is like his love language--physical touch
especially after you've all confessed your feelings to each other and are actively romancing it up
Adam will pick up on one of your tells--grabbing the lighter you have and flicking it a few times is your biggest because the lighter is what you grabbed first, then you'd find your cigarettes and go out onto the porch for a bit.
Adam just kind of,, grabs the lighter from you while pressing a kiss to the side of your head and pockets it while saying that you're stronger than your addiction.
You give in because there's no point in fighting against him, let him smother you in kisses and affection instead while trying to avoid thinking about the fact that you'll have to go into work the next morning
There are two ends of the scale. Lawrence sits on one side of it while Adam sits on the other--Lawrence is a law abiding citizen who regularly makes a point out of sleeping eight or nine hours, makes sure he eats healthily and doesn't engage in anything like drinking or smokes too often.
Adam is the opposite--because he doesn't have insurance, he's not been to the doctor in quite some time (other than the trip post-trap, which he spent several hours contesting the bills for to get it down from nearly $7000 to $250) and he likes his cigarettes and takeaway food.
You are somewhere in the middle--you have insurance because you worked the mandatory 2000 hours and two years of work to become eligible so all of your current health records are up to date. However, like Adam, you had to spend several hours calling the right people and getting your charges reduced because there was no way you could afford $7000 in medical bills if you were paying it out of pocket. You don't really care enough to watch what you eat, so to speak (you, too, are a semi-regular enjoyer of takeaway but you monitor things like your hearts BPM and you try to avoid stuff that will just make living more difficult via health issue) and because of your addictions you avoid cigarettes vehemently but you don't mind things like weed or the occasional glass of brandy
It's like--Lawrence isn't chaotic at all. Adam has moments where he's chaos incarnate. You?? you bounce between neutrality and chaos somewhat infrequently.
Generally, though?? it's a very nice existence. You watch SO MANY SUNSETS together and you and Adam somehow convince Lawrence to smoke weed with you which is a fun experience
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fallen-faerie · 3 months ago
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I noticed you haven't been as active on social media as you were even a few months ago.. is there any reason? I hope ur okay🖤
aw thank you for checking up on me🥺 honestly i've been struggling on and off with my mental health and trying to find medication that works. i've had it switched a couple times recently and even had a super bad reaction to one that landed me in a mental hospital. (well it was a combination of medication and other stuff.)
i think ive finally found one that works but as most psyche meds do, they've been making me act different. i've grown a bit tired of the kind of content i've been making for a long time now. my interests haven't changed at all. i still have the same interests, i'm just bored of the way i've been presenting them and myself if that makes sense😂
idk if bored is the right word. the "aesthetic"/overall vibe of my social media usually reflects the way i feel. and right now when i log on i see all the things i like but its presented in a way that doesn't feel like myself. its still me but i think in the last couple months i've grown a lot now that i've actually taken steps to learn about my newly diagnosed autism and started getting legitimate help for my bipolar disorder.
what it really comes down to is i just need to organize my brain and my pages on here a lot. i plan on revamping my tumblr and all my other social media to fit how i'm currently feeling. but i just haven't felt like doing it because the smallest tasks like that have reaaally been draining me mentally. it fucking sucks. but its been a lot better since i've had a bit of time to adjust to all the changes i've made for myself.
so i'm thinking i'll probably do a big "update" to all my social media either within the next few days or soonish lol sorry its taken me so long to answer ur anon. like i said, i've been mentally exhausted for a long time now and i just didnt know what the problem was until i was able to start thinking more clearly. having bipolar disorder is so difficult. because its both mania and depression. and it makes it extremely difficult to organize my thoughts when i'm struggling. idk if "regular" ppl deal with that but its always been an issue for me.
my content will most likely still be the same. i just might start adding some new stuff here and there and incorporate a lot of the new styles and aesthetics i've been into as of late. and perhaps diversify my content a bit too, because i have a lot of interests and fascinations with many things that i don't even post about online! 🥰
i hope i was able to give u an answer in the least confusing way possible. i'm terrible at explaining things. especially about myself😂 hence why most of the questions i answer always end up being paragraphs 😭
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daemon-in-my-head · 5 months ago
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I liked your thoughts in the latest post and I agree with the whole "Gortash was on board with Orin's plan" take. But did Durge really have a reason to go soft? What if he actually was the opposite. What if Gortash really wanted that blue tongue up his ass, but Durge was too busy having fun with corpses cause that's the only way his father allowed? Then, if Orin's plan goes well, Durge will no longer be the chosen and Gortash might have a chance (especially with the "i am your only ally now" act)? But Gortash underestimated Orin's madness so all he got from her is loosing any contact with his now lobotomized bhaal babe. And then his return but with a new fucking lover 🥴
yea.. I am sorry if I throw too much attention your way lately
Please don't stop throwing the attention I'm a whore for talking about these vile vile lovely gremlins. I'm thriving lol
Either way back to topic; yes yes mutually assured destruction and hubris being his down fall my beloved. Long story short; I can see it, I agree, and my personal HC/the dynamic between my Durge Elli nd Gortash is a mix of both of these things lol.
Ig spoilery territory for that longfic but here's what's going on in my personal dynamic cuz it's way easier to explain this way rather than my usual round about posting:
Sooo, I should begin by saying that Gortash has been trying to get rid of Orin for a while. She's a loose canon, most definitely distracting, and she can nd will influence Elli whenever he's showing a bit too much favor to the local tyrant.
All in all, though, they were somewhat okay with the current dynamic, at least up until everybody reunited at Moonrise. Not only did my Durge grow ever more unstable with the whole 'embracing the life he wishes to have with his equal vs glory for his creator and master'- bit as things got increasingly serious, there was also the whole kinda running from trauma stuff still going on. And now, on top of that, lovely lil Orin was absolutely fed up with being 'banished' to Moonrise by Elli, so the first thing she did was a pretty open and honest assassination attempt. Granted, it failed, but Elli didn't do anything to get revenge or smth either. Didn't even confront her about it besides ridiculing her a bit for her too-slow reflexes when anyone else would've lost their life for such audacity.
And welp. That kind of caused a certain somebody to snap. Gorty found out about her plans, and decided Elli can't see reason unless she corners him even more as clearly he's way too soft on her. So he kept his trap shut about what he knew was going to happen despite some more shit he found out that rly, rly, rly should've caused him to intervene but alas. His own obsession won over the reason he wanted to see in his equal.
TL;DR Gortash wanted Elli to make a choice and stick with it as Elli's old self would've done, but Elli didn't and instead he was oddly neutral so Gortash snapped and let it happen cuz my guy can't possibly communicate about what's going on. Also he does reason with himself that no matter the outcome, either Ellis death or his choice, would be in his favour and he'd finally fully surrender and his own plan could be accomplished just the way he wants it.
So I guess soft isn't quite the right word but it also is cuz technically yeah Durge is much softer than he used to be or is with anyone else but also Gortash is being absolutely 100% unreasonable but also he is reasonable cuz Orin IS a threat to their plans and idfk. It's a mess, I adore your take, in fact I've had a similar one but I choose to make it complicated LMFAO I hope my brain made sense for this one
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pupuyvs · 4 months ago
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so im rereading goal for like the 100th time (lol its like my comfort read rn) and i dont think i caught it before, but it seemed like jihye was hella uncomfortable with chaewon getting yena kicked off the basketball team? like maybe it didnt sit right with her that chaewon has connections/power like that (she didnt know yeonjun did it but it was still indirectly through chaewon) i mean shes been going through years of yenas bullying and never said anything for the sake of jimin winning class president every year so she could get a good scholarship, then suddenly chaewon does something to retaliate against yena and it probably made jihye hella uneasy (plus shes such a lover not a fighter so my girl hates conflict in general)
and now on a funny note, i love how many times yunjin misses out on things 😂 like girl missed building wall-e, missed jihye and chaewons first kiss, and ningrina making it official lmao like girl cant catch a break 😭😂
-🦖
(also reallllly looking forward to this *final 😭* update and i cant wait!!! 🙂‍↕️ hope alls well with life and the writing 🫶🏼🩵)
honestly im happy yall keep rereading means ive created an au with good readability (which is why im stressing these last two chapters)
regarding jihye reaction to chaewon retaliating its definitely a mix of discomfort and being too kind
see jihye is truly someone too nice for their own good so even though yena was nasty to her and deserved to have sumn happen to her, her getting thrown off the team especially in her last season of the school made her feel bad
regarding discomfort i think anyone would feel someway if their s/o was powerful enough to just get someone kicked off the team, especially if the player is good
i think the fact that chaewon could also do sumn “mean” like that probably shocked her a bit too because she never had chaewon be mean to her or any one in front of her so seeing that side of chaewon ofc put her off
i hope this makes sense my brains been a bit everywhere lately
(ty and i hope all is well with u too 🫂🫂🫂🫂)
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divorcedwife · 8 months ago
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hi! i love your art SO MUCH and i check your blog like the morning newspaper to see if you’ve uploaded anything new (you always have and I LOVE IT!!! thank u for keeping us fed) anyway i was just wondering if you had any advice for actively creating so much? i used to draw all of the time but i find it so hard lately to make even one tiny thing, especially something that i like…..but when i look at your work and how much you create i am always so inspired! i hope this makes sense eeeek anyway have an amazing day and thank you for sharing your incredible work with us!!!!
thank youuuu thank you so much!!! ;___;
i totally get that, and it used to be my number one problem, creating at all. i remember being in art school surrounded by people who were always drawing, and me, i just couldn't, and i couldn't explain what made drawing so difficult for me
and i think what blocked me is that i was paralyzed by indecision - too afraid to waste my time making "bad art" to do anything, or the wrong type of art, art that' won't look good in my portfolio, art that's too silly and specific to me. so in the end i made nothing
what's really been helping me lately is that i have dramatically lowered my standards for myself. i sketch every idea i have, even if it's just putting down three lines, even if it's self-indulgent and silly. anything that excites me and makes me want to draw, i follow that excitement as far as it will take me. maybe that's a fully completely illustration, maybe just a sketch, or maybe somewhere in between
if the goal is to have fun and not making a masterpiece, i feel less pressure and i end up drawing more. and drawing more leads to drawing better! if you make 10 sketches and really pressure yourself to make them great, that's torture. if you draw 1000 sketches, some of them will turn out amazing
when i have ideas i sketch, and when im low on ideas, i have all these already made sketches to revisit, and as i draw i find new ideas! this avoids me having to face a blank canvas and desperately scratch around my brain for ideas. creativity does not like being scrutinized like a bug, it vanishes under pressure in my experience
i find that creativity can be a negative or a virtuous circle. not drawing leads to less ideas and more pressure to deliver something good which will keep someone not drawing. but if you find something that gets you excited enough to draw again and keep going, then you will get more ideas along the way. follow them! draw the same character 1000 times in a row. i tend to focus on mostly one of my characters at a time - i draw her, i think about her, so i want to draw her more, and so on. that's fine
if there's any part of drawing that you like more than others, maybe try leaning on that more, and remember you don't need to do anything you don't want to do. if doing lineart sucks, don't do that. if coloring makes you want to stop drawing, use black and white
but also, where i've also been very lucky is having people like you around! :-) having people respond and connect to my art with such enthusiasm and such kindness, it's incredible
genuinely i owe more to people online who like my art than anyone does to me for making it. i would probably still make art if i had no one to show it too (which is what i did in middle school lol), but it's very lonely. it's harder to create something if it feels like no one will care. and i've been there, i spent years on deviantart having zero followers and attention. so i think every artist needs supportive friends they can show their art to for encouragement
some people feel shame that they don't do art just for its sake, that they want followers and likes and all, so i just want to say it's normal to want that :-) like i do make my art for an audience, if it was just for myself, i'd look at it in my head
i hope any of that helps!! in conclusion, i think any kind of art is worth making. and it should be fun. i also hope this makes any sense - i have to go to work soon but i wanted to reply before that. and thank you again for your kind words!!!!! <33333333
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alicedrawslesmis · 7 months ago
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I hope my presence here hasn't been just me complaining, cause I haven't dedicated myself to art in a while lol I am Burned Out... I don't like being a negative presence
in the Positivistic sense not in the new age sense? you know? not pretending to be happy when things are bad, I want my presence to be pulsating with life even if I'm sad or angry or numb. I try not to fall into negation. Most millennial humor I grew up with is this kinda ironic 'haha I'm so depressed 🤪' thing I just don't vibe with at all. I like feeling all my feelings. If I'm depressed and numb to it all then good, lets explore that. If I'm lost and aimless then good, let's be aimless and see where this can lead me to. I want to feel the full breadth of human experience and not live life negating it. I want to reflect on what I'm doing I want to create new things! Work with the world and not despite it
but unfortunately cause I'm totally lost at sea rn this means my posts are lacking and so the internet "persona" ends up being only someone who complains. That's not where I'm at. I don't even know if this makes sense to other people who can't see my brain, am I even making sense. Anyway
I am experimenting with a lot of things art-wise to get my groove on. I've bean reading a bunch. I've been lifting weights which is turns out is super fun and I should've started ages ago. Like I didn't believe the gym could be fun, I thought people were just faking it but it turns out like. It's just self expression like any other activity. And I love to see number go up. And I love making that face you do when you're lifting heavy weights you know the one? And grunting. It's very freeing to just be able to do that. Like all my life I've been bogged down by thinking the gym is for assholes and that I should try to do the Normal Sports that I honestly fucking hate. I hate ball sports. I don't understand swimming as a sport you're trapped doing laps in that freaking pool it's the most boring sport of all time. Sure I liked thinking about nothing and swimming but laps in a pool?? Devil invention. Running is kinda the same although you can run interesting places and aren't trapped in a blue rectangle. Just do the sport you actually want to do. Go to a fight club idk. Learn to kickbox. Punch some stuff. Do push ups, I love doing push ups.
What else? I've been walking my dog for 2hours every day late in the afternoon and getting to hang with his friends at the dog park. He isn't very friendly but he's also not aggressive so it's mostly chill. He's made a friend named Draco Malfoy (she made sure to tell me it was her kid daughter's idea) and everyone calls my dog Sirius Black cause he's got black fur and is, and this is the technical term, giant. Kind of annoying that Harry Potter is still the main thing people go to to describe him. Except for one security guard who I thought was gonna say he looks like Sirius but then said he looks like Sam from Twilight. This was an awesome day
I've been trying to sew and mend my clothes. I replaced the buckle in my bag cause it was broken and I feel kind of amazing about it.
I've been writing some stuff. All unfinished yet. I want to see if I can finish the short story I've been trying to work on besides the Les Mis scripts. I have trouble finishing things I write, which is a problem that, if AO3 is any indication, is probably the world's most common roadblock in writing.
Went to the satanic themed goth club on good friday, that was so fun. We had a blast. Place was PACKED. All goths have the same sense of humor.
I guess that's it for life stuff. I do feel kinda bad that I can't get myself to make fanart right now. I'm just having thoughts on the nature of art and of fanart and the impact of it on the world as a whole. And particularly thoughts on social media and the internet and what it even *is*. What is it for? We really need to work that out.
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arllanaeats · 9 months ago
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Aaaaaaa god I love your art sooo much it’s so colorful and cozyyy,,,,,
I’m currently learning art right now - so far just the fundamentals since I gotta know ‘em in order to break ‘em after all, lol - and I was hoping (if you don’t mind of course) if you had any advice you’d like to give?
(Specifically in regards to fat art, but if you also had some input on dealing with the process of learning art then by all means do share!)
Aaaaa thank you!!! I really try to make it be such!
I bet you'll do great and I wish you best in your journey, learning and studying is wonderful but don't forget to have fun and go wild a bit too!
I don't have a ton of, like, proper wisdom, and my brain has been kinda fried lately but...
I know the obvious one is to observe how fat behaves on bodies; even when I'm drawing very exaggerated shapes, it's very informed by what I understand of actual fat bodies, I owe so much to feedist models tbh!
If that's too obvious, I also like to play around with proportions by drawing a base simple body shape and maybe pose of any kind and over it on another layer or with a bolder pencil messing with the growth of different parts. I try to think of all the possible and impossible options! Tweak the different body part bit by bit to see how you understand the way fat wraps the body.
Sometimes the base body I draw is fairly thin and in various layers on top I draw over the structure and pose as if it was a WG sequence and for studying it helps because I see how I'm "adding" the fat
IDK FJFBFJ I hope that made sense, I don't feel I'm a shape expert, but I try!!! I hope this helps somehow
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inahc3 · 1 year ago
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Yesterday felt awful. I knew it was mostly just PMS fucking with me, that dopamine had taken the day off but would be in tomorrow. I did my usual things to take care of myself, distract myself until it passed. Still, every time my mind went "but we should be writing!" I thought about what I'd intended to write next, how pointless and boring it felt now, and worried that it might stay that way. That I'd used up all my ideas, or that the creative bits of my brain would inexplicably flee again and leave me holding the bag of unfinished story fragments.
I'd been afraid of writing for so many years that these last few weeks I've been afraid to *stop* writing, afraid that the spell might be broken. Trying to walk a tightrope of keeping momentum without burning myself out, gently prodding myself forward, artfully dodging my many mental blocks.
I spent the day with the back of my mind scared of both writing and not-writing, too unfocused for any but the simplest of tasks (because of *course* PMS makes ADHD worse too). I did my best to metaphorically sit with it (fuck actually sitting) and be kind to myself. I distracted myself until sleep finally arrived.
I woke up remembering fragments of *three* highly entertaining and detailed dreams (a party, a beach and a silly song). They made absolutely no sense, because dreams, but the creativity and wonder was right there, as if to say: "I'm coming back. I won't leave you on your own."
And that... that gives me hope. :) Hope that I can cultivate this seed, this fire inside me, and help it grow into something stronger. I've spent so long learning how my mind works, outright rebuilding it in places after chronic pain swept through it like wildfires have through Canada lately, and I think maybe, just maybe, I have the tools I need. Maybe I've got this.
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PS: what I haven't got is tumblr skills, lol. My usual writing process involves adding words mid-paragraph a lot, but my cursor here keeps jumping to the bottom and putting the new words there instead. And now the whole background of this post has changed and I don't know how or why 😂
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idle-soliloquy · 9 months ago
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Heyy! I was blessed and stumbled upon your cheating fics and it was so beautifully raw and messy and painfully human. I honestly adore your writing it’s so engaging and it just makes me as a reader ✨ feel ✨ so much.
Reg’s train of thoughts is so realistic, like so many people do cheat despite having the “perfect” partner because they’re just addicted to the high of living on the edge and sometimes of the power that they have, the power of knowing that they’re hurting this completely oblivious person and can easily destroy their partners life. Yet the way you write it, it is so humanly that I can’t hate him, I sympathise with him in a way even though at the same time I wish karma would just get him.
The Christmas cheating fic was also very interesting, because I feel like most of the time on the jegulus dynamic, James seems to always been the one hurt instead of hurting. It was really interesting the way you portray Reg’s reaction to James infidelity which is more desperate in an angry, gnawing and broken way, contrary to James’s usual ones which is more desperate in a sad, begging way (?) idk if I’m making sense sorryy.
Anyways english is not my first language so I don’t know if everything I said made sense but I just want you to know I love your writings. If I may ask do you have an idea of when LoY, the Christmas cheating fic or Soul would be updated
Also so sorry if this is too long :)
Hello!
Thank you so much for the lovely lovely message, and don't apologise for length, it was a treat to read! ❣️
Regulus in Soul... Damn. I must say, you're a bigger person that I am, 'cause I'd struggle to feel any kind of sympathy for him. I am actually so flattered that you feel he's realistically portrayed, considering he's meant to be verging on psychopathy, not to mention his complete lack of remorse. You're totally right, he is getting off on the cheating and the lies, and on the power he has over James and his ability to control him to the point of forgiveness.
I do love writing him! It makes me feel like I'm truly stepping into a brain of someone who's so drastically different (cause I'm pretty chill, lol, definitely not a psycho).
The Christmas fic! I've done a bunch of cheating fics, but never one where it's James cheating on Reg. The fic is a collaboration with @mlupin97, so we're taking out time drafting it. Life's been kicking my butt lately, and I've not had as much time to write, but I promise, next instalment is coming!
When it comes to Soul, I hope to have it updated soon! But I will let you in on a secret - next chapter is Barty's POV (hehe).
Lost on You will be updated in the next couple of months, hopefully. This upcoming chapter will be heavy, so I'm taking my time.
Again, thank you for the lovely comment! Have a great day.
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aggressive-almond-cookie · 10 months ago
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Lately I've sort of gotten my second wind in wanting to get better at anarchy. I thought that setting myself an ambitious rank goal might push me into working harder for it, but it actually just made me over-focus on winning which made it hard for me to want to take risks, experiment, and learn, and ultimately stressed me out and made me too nervous to play much. I ended up avoiding it, and then feeling bad for avoiding it, and then feeling worse when I did play because I was so out of practice due to avoiding it. So... lesson learned, I need to not do that. I still need to set goals, but stick to personal learning goals.
To some extent, it's mentally easiest to just trust that rank will naturally put me wherever I belong eventually. I don't need to focus on getting rank to put me in a certain place as much as I need to focus on 1) cultivating enough skill to belong there, and 2) then play enough games for the randomness factors to even out well enough that my placement is accurate. I don't know if that makes any sense, but it sort of lets me relax and not get too stressed out about results of individual games. I trust that I'll get to the next rank when I'm ready, and I don't know what 'ready' means-- that's up to the games to decide. All I can do is keep learning.
The last several times I have played anarchy have been pretty demoralizing. Some of that is because now I have friends that are willing to do open with me, but they are far better than me and it's a difficult environment to learn in. We get matched against teams way above my skill level and everyone is just sooo efficient and aware and precise; it's hard to get practice in when I take two steps into mid and die immediately. Additionally it's hard feeling like the weakest link on the team. I am making the majority of the mistakes that cost us games and when the knowledge of that starts to weigh on me I start inwardly tilting pretty quickly. My friends are patient and kind with me but I'm not sure they know how to help me, and I think the only way I can realistically start helping myself is in solo queue.
So I was dusting off and tuning up my old system of tables and spreadsheets that I was using to track my learning progress last season, getting ready to put them to use again. And once thing I did find very heartening, I realized, as I was going through my list of things I wanted to improve on, that I actually had improved on quite a few of them. I retagged more items to the 'improved' list than I expected to, and it gave me some faith that.... I am still improving, ultimately. even if it doesn't feel like it compared to others. I guess since others are also improving at a similar rate as me, it's a lot harder to notice my own progress. Even though I am improving compared to my past self, I have been perceiving my progress based on how much I am closing the skill gap between myself and others, and that's not really an accurate metric.
So I've added to and reformatted a bunch of stuff in my learning systems specifically to help me better track my own personal improvements more objectively. I am hoping having the numbers in front of me will keep my morale from tanking too badly next time I'm on a 5+ loss streak. Plus tables and spreadsheets and data just make my brain happy. I just need to be careful to avoid the trap of spending more time fine-tuning my learning systems than..... actually using them to learn things, lol. I know I'm prone to that, especially when I'm nervous about practicing.
Meanwhile, well, I'm still stuck in B+ where I was when the season began, and with my win/loss ratio I haven't moved the needle very much. So.... maybe this weekend I can put these systems back into action and see where I end up by Fresh Season.
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mistergoddess · 5 months ago
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absolutely petrified to take 1 day off work even though i am experiencing burnout to the degree it's become physically taxing... extreme clumsiness and brain fog and so completely drained and fatigued and nauseous and headachey so like at this point i am physically ill from it. and mentally i fear for myself if i keep going like this. because work has been so fucking awful lately and it's starting to show up very much in my mental wellbeing. and ive called out maybe once every TWO months ive worked here, so that means in 8 months ive taken like 4 sick days, but ive caught major shit for it every time (despite the fact that there are other people who call out like every other day) and i don't trust myself to not just go "ok then i quit good luck covering the next 3 weeks of closing shifts i was scheduled on" if they try to say shit over me taking one day off.
also i wasn't even scheduled to fucking work on tuesday and they changed it on like... sunday... with no notice, did not ask if i was available, just changed it, right before the week started... which is such a dick move. the other day one of my coworkers was checking out the new layout and was like "this is on purpose to make people miserable so they quit and they can get new people in" and i was like you're so fucking real for that because ever since the change i've been just miserable coming in because it's so awful and poorly thought out by these idiot managers who don't actually work there and just moved shit around willy nilly and made it so inefficient and frustrating and brutal and idfk like non-ergonomic to work like this...
so that, and then this week the incidents of 1) random new lady just wandering up to me and starting to follow me around... only for a while into it for her to go "oh yeah i'm here for training" and it was just like oh that's cool i would have really loved to be mentally prepared for that in any way at all and not just have someone kinda walk up and start staring at me like wtf am i supposed to do with that like just??? assume i'm supposed to train her? tf?? and it was LATE in the shift too like i was in clutch closing duties time like. absolutely mind boggling and infuriating. that a manager couldn't even come over and be like oh hey by the way this is so and so can you just show her shit for a while and have her help you close... like NOTHINGGG she just came up and didn't say anything and started just following me and looking at me. and then the second incident 2) changing my off days randomly at the LAST minute before the week starts... just fucking DISRESPECTFUL. those two disrespectful ass things happening on top of the first week of the new layout which is making working my station incredibly brutal and difficult has made it such a miserable time when up until now i've LIKED this job and now i feel like im going to flip the fuck out and have a panic attack at work and quit on the spot and make a big scene about it any day now.
so. ugh. i'm really doing rough and experiencing very clear burnout and i need to quit but i don't have the energy to job hunt while working here but i definitely can't quit first with no other plan and just be unemployed on the job hunt because that's risky boots so like... idfk what to do. gonna try to stick it out a lil bit but i need to be trying to look for smth else :( i need something that pays more and well. i can't really hope for better management in this city lol i get the sense that kind of everywhere you go bosses are going to be psycho. also like everyone i know is always jobhunting even tho theyre looking for the same shit i do and that worries and weirds me out but i also think theyre just being really selective and not taking the kind of garbage i would... but anyway if i could get something that pays a lil more and has a more consistent schedule/better hours then well :/ that'd be nice at least...
but i'm super scared it's fucking scary i do not have that dog in me to hustle in this city lol i just took the first really crap big chain hospitality job that was easy to get, but up until this week at least ive liked it :( and the commute is easy and i get so much free food which is pretty much the only way i can afford to work here... and i like the people i work with a lot :'( and the shift leads are fine, it's just management that's fucking awful and SO stupid and neurotic and unfair. and our customers kinda suck dick bc they're hella stupid rude stressed out asshole big groups big families tourists and i'd love to be somewhere where the clientele is a little less of a shitty demographic.. and the being in weird half closeted limbo at work is rough lol. and also closing my specific station is fucking grueling and exhausting as hell so it's not particularly easy work...
like :( all signs point to i gotta get the hell outta here pretty soon but im soooo scared <3 i do not want to job hunt <3 especially with burnout <3 i am in a bad position <3 bc if i quit rn i'm gonna need time to recover from burnout and historically that's taken me a little while and we ARE NOT IN MY HOME TOWN ANYMORE TOTO I CANNOT JUST CHILL FOR A BIT IN BETWEEN JOBS I DO NOT HAVE A SUPPORT SYSTEM HERE *AT ALL* OR EVEN FRIENDS AND IT'S TOO EXPENSIVE TO JUST LIVE OFF MY SAVINGS FOR A FEW MONTHS... so that'd be really stressful and bad to have no time to recover from burnout and have to try to find something new right away... but also if i just idk stay... i'm just gonna go nuts from the burnout getting too bad and quit anyway like i'm not gonna recover if i just stay. so i'll be in the same if not a worse position... so idk what to do... lmaooo........
but oughh ok yeah i'm so scared and hesitant to call out which is such a clear sign it's such a toxic workplace :/ but also i don't wanna lose tips that day :/ but i'm gonna have to suck it up it'd be all of like $20 less so whatever i have paid sick hours so i need to get over the slight paycheck loss of tips for ONE day real quick bc i need that day so much more than i need the $20 (i do need the $20 too) so really the only fear is gEtTiNg iN tRoUbLe... i'm just gonna tell them i'm going to kms if they don't let me have a mental health day idk no matter what i have to stick to my guns and not grit my teeth and force myself to go in i need to just call in sick because fuuuuck
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unlimitedhorsepower · 5 months ago
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lol sure, thanks for asking @ensom-lillebror.
though the more i think about it the less special it is. while drawing this i realized his jacket is a really typical japanese souvenir jacket, shiny fabric and everything. i referenced some 80s souvenir jackets for changing it a little, wanted it to look kind of cheap but he loves it anyway.
underneath he is wearing a gundam logo t-shirt, which is his idea of a tasteful anime reference.
he also wears loose parachute pants, and the original fit of these was originally quite tight but i wanted to reference his looser pants and the later looser fit. parachute pants were very in style with young guys for a moment and he is really trying to be a little stylish but hes kinda late to the party, and maybe the pants are a bit loose on him because theyre a little ill-fitting, hence the belt.
the material is quite thin so its easy to tuck into socks for some extra security, like, thats how you make your pants tick-proof. its a reference to camping/outdoorsy activities and i think a reference to him also being somewhat practical, same with the sturdy boots.
he also has a couple of sentai and general japan-related pins on his jacket, which he considers a tasteful reference. i was thinking its in line with his "please notice me but dont notice me" dilemma, where he kinda hopes someone will ask him about his merch but not actually. he would like to talk about his interests but would also like to explode if someone actually asked him
last but not least, i gave him more of a mullet, classic 80s moment. its my headcanon that he can effortlessly change the cut and colour of his hair, and he probably is naturally dark-haired, but shapeshifts it into blonde to appear a a bit "cooler". i think sometimes he goes a bit daring and makes his hair appear dyed at the tips and sometimes when hes anxious his hair gets just a tiny bit longer and shadows his eyes better so he doesnt have to see.
i also adjusted his design otherwise a bit, i wanted to make him look younger than he is, which ties into his feelings of cringe around himself and how he hates himself a little bit and has anxiety and fares better when he pretends to be someone else
ryan goes "haha i thought you were 15 lmfao i was really surprised youre older than princess is. its crazy dude" and ivans entire year is ruined
ivans japan obsession is also just a weeaboo joke as far as i know but weeaboos werent yet a real thing in the 80s so he would just self-describe as an otaku...
i also thought it would be interesting if there was some other reason than just a joke for this, so i imagined him to have north asian indigenous heritage.
he is also embarrassed of his heritage and parents and especially of being a "rural" kid (i think he moved to sternbild for school. if i was ivan and my family was near i would live with them instead of alone in a funny NEET cave. bc every time i remember seeing his living quarters theyve been 100% japan-themed), because as far as he knows its not cool, whereas japan IS cool, his favourite media is from japan, so hes kind of substituting japan for his heritage. its safe and "cool" and he doesnt have to actually divulge anything real about himself. even if he kind of wishes someone would ask. but he would also die before he talked about any of it.
we dont see anything about his family in canon as far as i know besides them telling him like "ivan dont show off your power to random people it can be scary.stay safe", so source: i made it up. mightve forgotten some ivan canon lore on the side but i hope not
much to ponder about ivans i want to be noticed/ i hope nobody ever notices me ever brain worms and issues over his sense of self
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another of my more 80s redesigns. had so much trouble before i remembered his camping backstory. japan merch included of course
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henrik-von-schneeplestein · 5 years ago
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Did you happen to see Sean's latest message about fanfics? Would love to hear your thoughts if you'd be comfortable with that, no pressure of course! ILY! 🦋
Hi anon!! ILY too, and it’s ALWAYS ok to ask my opinion on anything, I’m generally pretty opinionated but in this case idk if I have a hard take on the matter. I was at work all day, so while I did see the post, I do worry that I might have missed a bit of context.
I do agree with Jack that the length of fanfiction is sort of an unavoidable problem. I’m not blameless here; I don’t have as much time as I’d like to read fics, and I always feel bad but there’s fics that I’m behind on. I wish I was better and more consistent about supporting this community’s writers. I also think it’s valid if some people, including Sean himself, just don’t like fanfiction. It’s ok to not like reading, it’s not the hobby for everyone. No one HAS to read fics.
I think my main issue is what my issue always is, which is why people in this fandom act like only a certain kind of fic has merit, or like there’s some scale of legitimacy that makes some types of fics ‘more’ valid than others. Even in the original post Sean reblogged from, the person was like “ok so putting aside ships, what about REAL fanfiction?” Like homie... bruh... absolutely take so many seats. Where did y’all get this delusion that angsty fics and/or fics where the egos are (for some reason??) brothers are somehow more valid, more acceptable, more correct? A fanfiction is a fanfiction is a fanfiction - that’s true in any fandom, but ESPECIALLY in this fandom, where you can’t justifiably pull the ‘well it’s closer to canon soooo...’ card. The JSE ego canon is, like, a few sticks held together with twine. Don’t none of us know what’s going on here. There’s plenty of room within canon for ego shipping, for a range of subjects, emotions, and characterization. And as I said, a fic’s validity isn’t determined by its closeness to canon. You as a reader may have a preference between the two, but a fic that attempts to fill in the gaps of Chase’s canonical story, careful to stay within the lines Sean’s painted, and a fic that makes all the egos high-school age buds swapping memes and doing theater are equally valid to each other. Each is a JSE ego fanfiction - plain and simple.
And I think that’s the main issue with the JSE writing community - only a certain type of person is made to feel welcome in it. As I said, you may have a preference for a certain type of fic, you may only want to read & reblog a certain type of fic, but you have to RESPECT all JSE fic. I personally get a little bored with the types of fics that are popular in the fandom, but I hope the people making them continue to make them for a long time, that they have fun doing so, and they get more and more success and recognition for their hard work. Literally all I want is for people to stop telling people what’s “ok” to write, what’s “ok” to share in the jacksepticeye tag (y’know, the tag that’s meant for content related to jacksepticeye). This dividing line between ‘cool, Real JSE ego fics’ and ‘weird, sideline, noncanon JSE ego fics’ is a concept that the community has made up in its collective mind, and all it does is damage creators, especially smaller/newer/queer/out-of-the-box creators who have something amazing and different to offer.
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lliminall · 2 years ago
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Hello hello I am the same feitan loving anon from before!! I just had to let you know that the line “power wash 3000 sloppy toppy” absolutely killed me and I was reading this in the car with my mom 💀 I forced myself to read it multiple times because it made me giggle so damn much 😭😭😭 also loved Paku and Machi 🥺 they wouldn't treat me right but I love them anyways 💙
I figured since I'm here I might as well ask this too: how tf would yanderes deal with a darling during their period 😔 feel like feitan would just be so mean about it! Mocking my pain and pawing at my boobs even though they hurt 😭😰 mean, mean man right there
Anyways, periods are homophobic and I hate them but lovely writing as always!!
anon!! thank you for the kind words, I’m glad my dumbass sense of humor landed well with you lol 😭
the power this question holds…our brains must be syncing because I’ve been thinking about period sex with the yans lately, so I had to take this as an opportunity to write out some headcanons for some of my faves hehe
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Feitan is absolutely an asshole about it but he’s also very, very into it. Firstly because it allows him to indulge his sadistic side a bit more, given how sensitive your body is. You’re absolutely right about the boob thing, he’d be kneading the tender fat on your chest and pinching your tits just to see how your face twists up underneath him.
He also loves how needy you become during that time of the month. You can try your hardest not to show it, but he’s more than aware of how good an orgasm feels when you’ve been miserable in bed with cramps all day. Maybe he can even pat himself on the back for it later, when you’ve come three times and the endorphins have numbed your poor body enough that you can finally drift off to sleep. Good boyfriend behavior if he says so himself, you should show a little more gratitude to him for it tbh. (not that he’d ever EVER call himself something as sappy as your boyfriend but you get the point lol)
And of course the blood is nothing he’d shy away from, if anything it’s an added bonus. Not only because it works as a natural lube, but also because it creates such a raw, carnivorous experience for him. Cutting people down is a hobby of his. He’s done it for long enough that the smell of blood becomes exhilarating, and to smell it while he’s driving his hips into yours only gets him that much more worked up. It paints such a striking mess across your torsos, smearing down your thighs, the sheets, and everywhere his hands touch after he fingers you to climax. It’s Feitan lmao I hope y’all weren’t expecting it to be wholesome 😭
can I be extra gross and say that he’d even be willing to eat you out, if you got him riled up enough? hm maybe another time lmao
Chrollo doesn’t mind the blood. It isn’t particularly off-putting or attractive to him. What he loves about period sex is the opportunity it gives him to prove how well he can take care of you. Your cramps are keeping you up? And the painkillers aren’t working? How unfortunate. Lucky for you, he knows just the thing that will take your mind off of it :)
You just don’t have the energy to talk back and refuse him when you’re like this. And…it does make you feel better. He’s so gentle with your body, asking you what feels good, what hurts, bringing you to climax as many times as you’ll allow him. He’s basically a dream boyfriend through all of it. It’s confusing and frustrating, and 100% intentional on his part. He wants to show you how good he could be to you, how prepared he is to give you everything you want (minus a few minor things like, uhh your freedom) if you’d just behave for him.
He’ll take care of you in any way you’ll let him. Ordering in comfort foods, bathing you, throwing a heating pad in the microwave, putting on any dumb show you want to watch and cuddling on the couch. In the beginning I think he would offer all of this himself, but after you two have been through it a few times and you get used to it, I can see him being a little shit and making you ask for it yourself. You’re looking at him all expectantly and he just plays dumb. You’re going to have to ask for it and he wants you to be very specific. Tell him you want him to fuck you or it’s not happening. Ugh
Machi feels a little bad about it, but she comes to almost look forward to your periods. She’s a high-level nen user and hers don’t bother her much, but the same sure can’t be said about you. You just look so pitiful lying on the bed with your heating pad clutched to your belly. So when she comes to offer you help, she can act like she’s doing it for your benefit, obviously. If it’ll get you to stop moping around then fine, she’ll finger you a bit, if she must 🙄✋
It lets her feel like she’s doing something good for you. Getting you painkillers, bringing you a hot pad, refilling your pads and tampons without being asked. She feels more guilt than she’d like to over forcing you to be here with her, and providing for you like this soothes that ache a bit. Of course, she’ll never admit any of it. You’ll probably feel like you’re a burden to her, like she does it all out of begrudging obligation. Maybe someday you’ll be familiar enough to see through the act.
Don’t call her bluff though. It’s humiliating enough to be so wrapped around your finger, but for you to become aware of that fact…it might be more than she can gracefully handle.
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