#i hope they get to do another fanmeet like this someday

[bevioletskies]

best of: ohm & nanon’s friend city fan meet ↳ our song by nanon korapat

Just a love song that you need to listen to Just lyrics that are nothing new But you and I know the meaning between the lines There are no perfect sweet words Just listen with your heart to find The answer I’ve been searching for Love is nothing else but you

[v-le]

Kmusic: My artists in 4 months

Foreword: PHEW this one took a while.... but I have really had so much on my mind lately that i knew i just HAD to churn this one out asap... I also would’ve tried to include videos rather than images but it’s a pain in the butt... I guess my vids will be top secret for now hehe. But really. a true blessing, these 4 months. Ah, I still really cant believe it..

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If you were to ask me how I felt about my first semester at Yonsei and simply the past 4 months in Korea, from August 21st to December 23rd, I would probably just emphasize how grateful I am. But to narrow down this deep affection for all the happenings, I would have to do so in a music context. It is such a fascinating and seemingly mundane thing to go on about: Why does my music mean what it means to me to this day? How have those values shaped my experiences in Korea so far? What does it mean for me going forward? These are questions I want to ask myself, reflect upon, and continue to explore as I await to begin another journey in Korea once again.

If I rewind to when I first started listening to Korean music, it would be when I was… I don’t even know. I was exposed to it since I was about 7 or 8 years old, when my sister was sucked into the very beginnings of OG K-pop: Wonder Girls, Big Bang, 2NE1, Super Junior, SNSD, SHINee, you name ‘em all. I’ve talked about this a lot, but during those days I was never particularly interested in that side of music. It didn’t make much sense to me and it just sounded mreh. But after several years of this exposure, I fell into my own K-pop obsession-hole starting with LEDApple, a very unassuming, catchy-music-making band. I was in it for the music. At first.

Okay, now fast forward past my kpop era: you can read all about it in my very extensive post from about a year ago here. But yes, lets leave that chunk of my life behind and think about where I stand from a “music maturation” perspective. Right here. Right now.

I cannot pinpoint the exact moment or day or time in which I fell into the “deeper” side of Korean music. I am pretty certain that it simply occurred naturally, gradually. What I know for a fact is that I owe so much of myself to my music. At any given point in my life thus far, my music has defined a large portion of my identity: it really does mean a lot to me. I am constantly listening to music. To narrow this down into my current self’s context, my music mostly consists of Roy Kim, Sam Kim, DAY6, Kim Feel, Fromm, Jung Sewoon, Eddy Kim, Kwon Jin Ah, and many many many others.

These artists, the music that they make, is not K-pop. It never will be. I don’t care what those stupid Spotify playlists call some of the songs from these musicians, but they are not and never will be K-pop. (At most DAY6 could come closest to fitting). My discovery of each and every one of these artists varies from person to person of course, but most of my sentiments remain the same all throughout. I would give my everything for these people. But I want to make it very very very clear: it is not necessarily these PEOPLE, these faces, these appearances, these artists themselves that I am oh-so enthusiastic about. It is their voice & music. That is honestly all it really comes down to at the end of day. It is and has always been about the music.

I owe my deep appreciation for my music to several various factors ranging from emotionally & mentally detached parents & family, my somewhat introverted personality, and my incessantly over-analytical mindset. However, what exactly constitutes this deep appreciation is what I want to explore. A certain fact is that I hated high school. As I grew up through the ages of 13 to 17, I completely despised the American public education system that was high school. Without getting into the complex details about my community that was the heart of Silicon Valley and the various cultural pushes, I just have to say that high school felt like a sort of mental torture for me.

And during all those times, when I needed it the most, when I felt so completely lost, when I felt like no one would listen to me, nothing could console my distressed heart and mind, I always fell back to many of those artists listed above. Particularly to Roy and Sam. I owe them SO MUCH. They literally changed my life.

Home. 영원한 건 없지만. Your Song. These three songs, my life songs. Their lyrics literally saved my life. They mean everything to me. Without these songs from Roy & Sam, I would not be where I am today.

All my artists that I mentioned make their own music. They write, compose, produce, everything. They are the true masters of their voices (see, not K-pop). And so, when I listen to them, when I absorb their voices & melodies, I can sometimes really feel their sincerity, their yearning. I am so thankful for what they have produced for this world and for my ears to hear. However, within the past 4 months, I got to see, know, understand, and FEEL these artists on a whole new level.

In chronological order, here is a list of the artists I saw live &/or in person during my time in Korea thus far:

08/31 Roy Kim & Son Seungyeon @ Picnic Concert

09/01 Monogram, Baek Yerin, Kwak Jineon, Paul Kim, Bol4, Crush, Urban Zakapa @ Someday Festival (Day 1)

09/02 Fromm, Jo Hyunah, Jung Sewoon, Roy Kim, Yong Junhyung & Yang Yoseob, K. Will @ Someday Festival (Day 2)

09/08 DAY6 @ You Made My Day Fanmeeting

09/20 Roy Kim @ SNU Fall Festival

11/02 Roy Kim & Kim Haon @ Daellim Univ. Halloween Festival

11/04 Nam Woohyun (& Jang Dongwoo, Kim Sunggyu, Lee Sungyeol) @ 식목일 (Day 3)

11/10 Fromm @ Seoul Music Forum Mini Concert & Free Fansigning

11/11 Eddy Kim @ Miles Apart Album Fansigning

11/22 Sam Kim @ "Sun And Moon" 1st Album Release Showcase

12/01 Sam Kim @ "Sun And Moon" 1st Album Fansigning

12/09 Fromm @ "Midnight Candy" Mini Album Release Concert

12/16 Roy Kim @ ROchestra Live Tour 2018 (Seoul Day 2)

12/21 Sam Kim @ Lotte Tower World Park Christmas Busking

12/22 DAY6 @ "The Present" Christmas Special Concert (Day 1)

Breakdown:

Free: 5 events

Paid Tix: 6 events

Album Purchase & Application: 4 events

🌹 Roy Kim: 5 times

🌚 Sam Kim: 3 times

🌓 Fromm: 3 times

🎸 DAY6: 2 times

As an avid fan of many of these artists for YEARS, like Infinite for 8 years, Roy for 5, Sam since his debut in Apr. 2016, DAY6 since their debut in Sept. 2015, Fromm for over 4 years, Eddy for over 5 years, etc etc. I NEVER thought I would actually get to see or hear these people live. Okay, granted I saw DAY6 live back in Oct. 2017 as well as Sam & the entire Antenna fam in Sept. 2017, both in LA. But doing 3 fansignings????? Meeting and talking with Fromm, Eddy Kim, AND Sam Kim???? Seeing Roy FIVE TIMES??????????? Three times for FREE, once at a festival, and then even being able to go his end-of-the-year solo concert???????? Y’all…. It was literally a dream come true. A stroke of luck tenfold. Twelvefold. I saw at least one treasured artist a total of fifteen times. Whether it was at a college busking event, the Someday music festival, a fansigning, a fanmeeting, or even a solo concert. I was somehow there.

Seeing Roy live was something I thought I would never ever ever in my lifetime get to do. As I explained in my 1st semester wrap-up post found here, Roy’s situation with school made my hopes seem very bleak from the get-go. But still, my luck persisted 5 times throughout. I almost, nearly, COMPLETELY failed to acquire a ticket for his ROchestra solo concert, Seoul Day 2 show. It was probably the most energy-draining, stressful, painful and TERRIBLE ticketing experience I have ever experienced. And trust me, I’ve done lots of ticketing before (unfortunately). But after 1 hour of staying glued to that PC bang computer screen, I managed. And I went. And maybe I’ll have to do a separate post for it, but Roy Kim’s concert on December 16th, 2018, was the best concert I have ever been to in my life. Easily. It was so breath-taking.

But yes, enough with Roy. Fromm is my ultimate indie goddess and she has a charm that is so indescribably perfect. She decided to release a mini album over a year since her last one, in the middle of November while I was there and I wanted to DIE. It was suchhhhh a solid release, and I even got to attend a free fansigning with her as well for her solo concert for the album release. I LOVE her cheeky personality so much. And she really is just sooooo kind. I couldn’t have much of a conversation with her due to the time constraint, but I at least got to snap a quick selfie heh (which i wont exposed bc privacy ya feel??). Her solo concert was gorgeous in every single way; I honestly would be willing to pay any price to go to it again in a heartbeat. Even though it was for her “Midnight Candy” album release, it was basically a Fromm discography concert because she sang EVERYTHING and I was THIS close to wanting to cry because I just felt so grateful & happy in those moments. I love her I really do. Ah, also, 2 out of the 3 times I saw her, I wrote to her & posted on Instagram and she liked both posts for me :”).

Sam…. My luck with Sam was out of this world honestly…. I still get goosebumps thinking about how blessed I was to see Sam 3 times, 2 times in very special instances. First off. He announced the release of his FIRST FULL album after a TWO YEAR & A HALF HIATUS. Y’all. This boy hadn’t released anything for 2.5 entire years since his debut and then suddenly WHAM he does it. Somehow right when I was in Korea. AH… I still….. I’m still screaming inside. I screamed aloud in my room for a good 5 minutes straight when I first saw the news, and yes, to this day I am still screaming. His three pre-release tracks were GORGEOUS & Sun And Moon, track 1, literally brought me to tears without even trying. I had been missing his voice and presence for so long…

And then, for the full album release, Antenna announced a post in which if you pre-order his album when it comes out & email the Antenna staff with the receipt showing proof, you will be put in a drawing to attend his live showcase on the night of its release. OHMYGOSH. I knew I had to do it. I struggled a little bit & even felt like I was doing everything so untimely, but I am SO blessed that I really was able to order & pay for it, shoot Antenna an email real quick, and then nervously await my results for like a week. That one Friday the results were to be emailed out, I remembering feeling extremely anxious all throughout the day. I desperately wanted to go…. And at 6:00PM…. I got the email!!!!! I was literally shaking, hands & knees trembling and everything. I actually got invited to the ‘Sun And Moon’ 1st Album Showcase!!! Y’all!!! It was so amazing. It was the night before I had to leave to Taiwan early in the morning so it was quite stressful, but still!!!!! I felt so honored to be there that night: the venue was extremely intimate and Sam was soooososoooo gooooddd and the tracks he sang were sooo beautiful and just… everything about it was like a dream. I was truly blessed.

A week later…. Antenna announced Sam’s first FANSIGNING & once again I was overwhelmed with this “OMG I WANT TO GO, but how, should I really, but what about….??”. It was a physical album-purchase-based application process which means I had to go to this specific bookstore in Gangnam, buy x-amount of albums, and based on that amount, my name will be put into a drawing that many times. Very basic fansigning grounds. I already pre-ordered his album for the showcase, so I honestly didn’t really need another one… but I decided to test my luck & just purchase 1 measly album & see if that ONE album will help me get chosen. And o boy. I GOT IN :”)). When I saw my name on that list in the official fancafe post, I couldn’t believe it….

On the day of the fansigning which was happening inside a mall, starting at a certain time I was able to walk in and choose a random number from 1-100 and since I arrived early, I got to choose pretty early as well. When I saw my number I literally gasped aloud: #7. I know it’s a corny & cliché favorite number but only bc infinite ok. Being #7 meant that I literally say FRONT & CENTER of the stage…not even stage. There wasn’t a stage... it was just an open area. My turn came around very quickly because I was early and let’s just say I was a fking mess, repeating thank you over and over & literally, incessantly telling him how thankful I am for his music and how grateful that after all that time he took to came back, he came right when I was in Korea and how I was at Antenna in LA & his showcase too and thank you thank you, yadda yadda. Yeah…..I suck at these things I really do. Then, at the end of it all, he took a picture with the crowd of fans and ended up sitting RIGHT NEXT TO ME LMAOOOOOOO. Okay here is a picture of maybe my biggest life accomplishment??? jk but no rly LOL.

look ma, i made it :”)

But really, the fact that I actually got to talk to Sam & just try to relay all my thanks that I have been owing to him for many years… wow… I’m still in shock and I am just so eternally thankful. I used to think to myself “damn, I wish I could talk to Sam one day” and damn…. I really did do it…

Eddy Kim was also another meeting that I could have only dreamed of before coming to Korea… His last release was 4 goddamn years ago oh my gosh… This fansign application was not a random drawing like Sam’s but just a “buy his album at this bookstore & u get in” sort of thing. To be honest I could blatantly tell that Eddy’s popularity is definitely not as comparable to the other artists that I cherish & I was quite shocked by this revelation. I knew for sure in America, who the hell would ever know him. But even in Korea, he seemed… just really not that well-known, especially from a music perspective. It was interesting and even a little disheartening to see. He was very kind & cutely impressed with my Korean skills and we literally just talked in a bunch of Konglish & once again I just kept repeating how thankful I was for his music in my life. How I waited for so long and his release literally matched up with my time there as well. Even though I never got to hear Eddy sing live, I am more than happy with the fact that I simply got to chat with him & relay my heart as best as possible.

After doing 3 full fansignings I have fully realized that as grateful for the opportunities I am, they are so difficult and stressful… To be given such a short amount of time to spill out my heart is essentially impossible for me LOL. I’d rather much LOVE to just to sit down with these artists not to fangirl or cry, but to have a real, genuine conversation about their music and why it holds so much sentiment for me. I would love to ask questions about their music and I would love to share with them how much it means me & why I am so thankful at the end of the day. That’s what I really wish I could do. Because even as I hurriedly expressed my countless thanks and probably sounded like a hot mess, I feel like I still just came off as a surface-level fan saying their thanks. But noo! In reality, I just wanted to relay how much their music means to me (I literally just typed this wow repetition is gr8). Which I feel like I really couldn’t do properly… I couldn’t get my heart across all the way ☹ but it’s okay because as I’ve been repeating, I am infinitely thankful nonetheless.

My first DAY6 event, their 3rd year anniversary 1st fanmeeting, was a bit of a flop for me simply because they talked wayyyyy to much & played stupid games & everything… and it was cute, but not what I was there for. I kinda wished I heard more of them singing, but it’s okay. In no way am I undermining this monumental day because I know it meant a lot to the boys & fans collectively. Jae could not participate due to health reasons & it definitely put a huge damper on the entire atmosphere, but the members tried their best and the entire audience even consistently sang aloud all of Jae’s parts during the songs when his voice was not there. They also sang a never-before-released track with Jae and they all just cried a bunch and me, sitting there, watching those light-wrist-band-thingies glow & beam & shine in-sync with the music, all sorts of colors, in a massive wave of lights & fanchants & music sewn together… wow it was honestly stunning & one of the most awesome spectacles I’ve ever experienced. Korean fans are really something else….

Speaking of which, attending 15 events during my 4 months there taught me many things about Korean concerts & fans that I find so extremely fascinating.

For most concerts, whether they are super hype-y & K-pop-y or a ballad one with minimal need for movement, when there are seats, fans with stay seated for the most part. In America, I feel like all fans tend to automatically stand (for basically all K-pop acts) regardless of the seating. But in Korea, at my experiences with DAY6 in particular (I also have heard that BTS in Seoul was the same), fans stayed sitting basically all throughout. The most like bodily movements they require would be the waving of their lightsticks. It was honestly pretty refreshing to see a generally calm & collected audience, at least where there was seating.

The fanchants are out of this world !!!!! Especially for the 2 times I saw DAY6, the fans were so on point with their fanchants: they were loud and clear and crisp AND THEY MATCHED WITH THE LIGHTS ON THEIR WRISTBANDS AND EVERYTHING wow was that so cool to see… The fans are super in unison & it honestly adds such a new level of energy to the experience.

SINGING !! Of course, since all these fans are Korean, they can actually sing all of these songs at concerts, unparalleled to international fans lol. One really cool moment at DAY6 that I will probably remember forever simply because this song is gorgeous & means a lot to me… but at day 1 of DAY6’s ‘The Present’ xmas concert series, Wonpil said “We’ve been on world tour for a while now and I’ve been wanting to try this out… if I play this song, can you sing for me?” and of course we all unconditionally said yes. And he started to play 그렇더라고요 on the keyboard & the ENTIRE AUDIENCE caught on immediately & we all sang the entire intro & first verse together in unison, as loud as we could, as the members joined in one by one w/ their own instruments, just watching us as we SANG FOR THEM. It was so cute & we even did it again with 장난 아닌데. This sort of stuff…. Wow…. Can only really happen at a domestic concert, which was honestly so so so beautiful. I LOVED IT!!!

No crazy, constant screaming during every part of the performance. Fans in Korea honestly only scream when necessary… ya feel? Sometimes at concerts, I feel like fans are just screaming at the top of the lungs the entire time, during every second of a song. But Korean fans chant when there is a chant, and cheer & scream when it really fits the situation. I really liked this more toned-down atmosphere from the Korean audiences.

I think that’s all I can really narrow down from my various experiences at Korean concerts compared to the ones in America… It really is quite different though, and I feel so honored to have witnessed this comparison countless times. I am really just honored to be there at those moments in general.

Which brings back around to this… upgraded level of connection towards my artists. After seeing so many of them in person and more than once for that matter, when listening to their music now… something definitely sounds different. When I listened to these artists before I saw them right in front of my eyes, their real, authentic voices blasting into my ears, I still felt moved, I still felt goosebumps, choked up, a bulging affection sometimes. And not that I have lost those feelings, no, definitely not. Now… now, when I listen to these artists through my earbuds or through my laptop… I can literally hear them in my ear. Does that even make sense? Well, duh… of course I can hear them. But like… it’s like… I can hear them on a much more intimate level than ever before. Now, I can really imagine & sense these voices in my head. I can pick up the sound of their breaths, picture their expressions, and really just HEAR their voices as if they were physically singing into my ear right there in that moment, in person. It’s such a peculiar and special and unique feeling that is honestly so hard to describe with just words…

But to be honest like… to this day I still cannot wrap my head around everything. I can barely count and keep track of all the artists I saw and when I saw them and what they sang. I feel like SO MUCH happened that my mind can barely grasp it all, as much as it wants to do so so badly… I still can barely comprehend it… years ago I would cry to Sam Kim, ponder how amazing he would be live… and then literally somehow, he sang two songs like 7 feet in front of me, and even sat right next to me. I thought Fromm was a goddess from another world: but I somehow got to talk to her & even take a selfie?? What?? I thought the world would never let me see Roy who always has his school life to manage as well…. But I got to see him live 5 times?? And even go to his solo concert?? WHAT??????? HOW????????? YOU GUYS, I could honestly go on and on and on because it still all feels like a dream…

In particular with Roy Kim… I say this to myself all the time, the irony is just… wow. Who would’ve known that after years of watching countless fancams, effortlessly memorizing his scarce yet existent fanchants, also memorizing set-lists without even trying, becoming all-too-familiar with things like the way he talks, addresses the crowd, sings specific songs, even all the way down to the way he does adlibs for certain songs… I unknowingly picked up & knew these performance aspects SO WELL through pure admiration, enthusiasm and just LOVE for every song he sings. And who would’ve known, that years later, I would have my very own fancams to cry over. After years of literally watching almost EVERY fancam of him on youtube, at all the various events he performed at, some years more frequently than others, today I can proudly say that I have my very own fancams of him, too. Ohmygosh, it’s still so hard for me to believe…

It really just….. *breathes deeply & tries to recollect self for the 24980164th time*…. It just goes to show… No, okay I don’t really know what it goes to show… But one thing is a fact: loving, cherishing, being thankful for, dedicating so much of my emotional & mental strength towards these seemingly-no-one artists has paid off tenfold. No, billionfold. I don’t even know. I just…. I just never thought I could do and see and hear and experience the things that I did. Never. These people…. These people have given me so much, and although I tucked them deep into the folds of my heart for years, I never thought I could truly open up these treasured feelings one day & TRULY support them with my very own eyes & ears & heart. IN person. I am just so so so blessed. So thankful. Really. Always.

Now, it’s time to bring myself to reality & to think about what this means for me going forward. I don’t want to believe in my passion for my music as a phase: Infinite & all things K-pop wasn’t simply a phase for me. It literally was a maturation, a self-realization, a loss of support for the things I never really knew or understood until time started to pass. I don’t think I grew out of K-pop. I think I simply grew with K-pop & got to understand more about it. And with that understanding came a change of heart. Which is literally the title of my post from years ago: “why I fell out of love with K-pop”. It’s not just “Oh, I am older now. So, I don’t want to like this seemingly childish stuff”. No, it was never about K-pop’s image or whatever. I can’t emphasize more, but it always comes down to the music for me.

Infinite has been and is a piece of my life that I will never forget. A piece of my life that has literally brought me to where I am today. I sit here, with my experiences and knowledge and feelings, in part, due to Infinite. I can guarantee anyone that much. And so, no, they really weren’t just a phase. Things change, people grow older, time flows. That’s just how it works. Does my heart ache over old K-pop like every day? Hell yeah it does LOL. But there’s nothing I can do about it. I can only thank old & 2nd-gen K-pop for the amazing memories that it has given me.

And so, with my music and my artists today, is this all a phase? Will I stop being as enthusiastic years later, like I did with Infinite? You see, with Infinite, I was always apprehensive. At the age of 12, I KNEW that time would eventually take its toll & my blatant love would not necessarily transcend the years that will drag on in the future. But that never made my appreciation for them dim: it only grew stronger as the days went by. I think I am always apprehensive. I think I always fear losing the feelings that I feel with great passion & love at this moment in time. Just as Roy says, 영원한 건 없지만. Nothing lasts forever (but...). I literally think about this all the time. It is such an important concept to me, and it is how I motivate myself to be thankful for everything and everyone and to just take things one step at a time. And so, to really answer my question: is this all just a phase?

I really, honestly, hope… No, I just think not. I really do not think so. At the age of say, 24, five years from now, will I still be loving Roy & Sam & DAY6 & Fromm & everyone else? I really honestly hope so. For as long as they can make music, I can keep loving them, right? Just as Infinite has done since I was 11, 8 years ago, up until today, I firmly believe that my artists can continue this long-lasting impression on my life. They instill a sort of magic & sentiment in my life that almost nothing else in this world can do for me. And for that, I will stay grateful for & only hope for the best.

Roy is currently back in school right now, finishing up his last semester before he finally gets to graduate! I am excited and proud and a bit sad all at the same time. But honestly, it really just comes down to the humanness of these people. When I first saw Infinite back in 2013 as a lil 14 year-old, I guess you could say I was starstruck. I was like “that’s them??!?? Those dudes ive spent countless hours watching through the computer screen?????? THEY ARE RIGHT THERE IN FRONT OF ME?”. I had similar thoughts at the LA K-pop Festival in Apr. 2014 when I saw many many many of the big, og k-pop groups at that time. It was hard to believe that these people are real. I would say that my experience with the “With Antenna” in LA concert back in Sept. 2017 made me come to this important realization. That was the first concert where I actually spent the entire time sitting down and just listening. Listening to these wonderful musicians playing their instruments & singing gorgeous songs & just absorbing all that godly magic in the air at that place in time.

I really got to feel how human artists are at the end of the day. K-pop is always built up to be this larger-than-life dynamic, but real artists… No, they’re so much more different. They are simply people, like you and me, with a passion for their music & they wish to share that passion with the rest of the world. That’s it. The sincerity & genuineness that goes into my artists’ music can literally be felt from all the way across the world, just through a few audio snippets, fancams, and grainy Instagram videos. And that is seriously so beautiful. They are so amazing at what they do, they truly are.

Roy’s last two songs from 2018 were purely love song ballads, and I am not complaining or anything. As solid and classic as these tracks were, I still miss that acoustic, healing tone from him. Before he left for school again, he mentioned several times that he wants to come back with music that will console listeners. I was honestly so genuinely happy to hear this. He knows, he honestly, really does. He has even said it before, but he knows that his music can literally lift people back up from the dead. He wants to do that for them. For you and me, who struggle in life when the going gets rough, he wants to be of some sort of help, no matter how minuscule. He knows, he really does. And that is just so beautiful. I am so proud of him & I can’t wait to see what he will have in store for us in the coming months (after his grad, that is).

To all my artists that made these 4 months feel like a literal dream: Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart. Sincerely. Thank you. Always.

늘 고마워요.

[fatrainbowmermaidunicorn]

Can We Dance? (Hoseok x You ONESHOT)

A/N: My first Jung Hoseok fic! Im so sorry for being super late with this request but... HOW DO YOU KNOW THIS SONG IS UNDER MY MOST PLAYED PLAYSLIST IN SPOTIFY? hehe. this is another one of my attempt at fluff, I hope you enjoy this! 💜

MASTERLIST

I know I don't know you, But I'd like to skip the small talk and romance, girl. That's all I have to say so, baby, can we dance?

"So... still havent found your balls to talk to her I see?"

Hoseok lick his lips, tasting the bitter taste of the alcohol he just gulped down and turned his head to the source of the mocking voice he knows oh so well. Who else other than his emotionless best friend, Min Yoongi of course.

"Shut up. I have two perfectly working balls and I would gladly show it to you if you want," he glared at his friend who just chuckle.

"No thank you. Already seen it and ler me tell you, I am not impressed," he take a swig of his drink and turned his gaze on the dancefloor, where Hoseok has been looking at ever since he entered this club for the after party. "You know... you are bordering stalkerish creepy right now, staring at her for hours and at every other parties too?" Yoongi softly told him as he looks at the girl who took his friend's attention dancing happily with her friends. "You are Jung Hoseok. The talented rapper from Bangtan, and the fact that she attended most of our after parties meant she already probably knows who you are Hobi. It wouldnt hurr to just talk to her for real. Just use that balls you are so proud of and ask her out,"

"I didnt say I want to ask her out. I just want to ask her to dance with me," Hoseok mumble making Yoongi rolls his eyes.

"Isnt that the same thing in your dictionary?" Hoseok kept quiet. There's some truth in what Yoongi is saying. Yoongi knows him the best out from the rest of Bangtan, meaning he also knows that Hoseok has a very weird way of finding his next 'soulmate' as he put it. He has to feel some kind of a chemistry when he dances with her. Other man may asks a girl out to get to know her better, but Hoseok is confident he can feel if they are right for each other just by dancing with the girl or watching the girl dance.

And he has been watching Y/N dance for a countless of times.

And everytime she did, his heart beats faster and faster, it almost burst out from his chest.

And he is aching to just dance with her... and finally get to know her for real.

"Come on Hobi. Man up. What do you got to lose, right?" Yoongi patted his back and walked off to the rest of the boys, swirling his drink, hoping for once, his best friend would take his advice.

Everything Yoongi. I will loose everything if she rejects me.

Here we go again, another drink I'm caving in, And stupid words keep falling from my mouth.

Y/N has managed to catch his attention from the first moment he saw her entering the club for one of their after parties months ago. His eyes followed her throughout the night and after subtly asking around, he found out that she is some kind of a VIP, a daughter of some rich conglomorate. She is not a fan, they told him, she's only here because of her friends, which explain why he never seen her at any of his concerts or fanmeets, but always around at the clubs and parties. He admit that her beauty is what caught his eyes at first but the way she danced and looking like she is having the greatest time of her life is what hooked him in.

Finally trying to take Yoongi advice and determined to atleast get close to her tonight, Hoseok made sure he finishes a few more glasses of whatever alcohol he could get his hands on, feeling the liquid courage making his adrenaline pumping.  He looks around and see his hyungs and Namjoon are settled in a corner booth while the three maknaes are goofing around on the dance floor by themselves.

Ah, he wished he is as carefree as those three childish maknaes, and not sweating his palms off with just the thought of going up and talking to her. He straighten the crease on his shirt and swiped his hair back, after deeming himself presentable enough, he makes his way to the dancefloor where Y/N is.

As he stumble within the first few steps that he took, he soon realized that maybe he took too much liquid courage, more than his nervous self can handle and there's nothing he can do to stop himself now when he is already directly standing in front of her. He cant turn back. He would look like a fool! He can hear the squeals coming from her friends at his presence.

This is a Bangtan party and a member of Bangtan is standing in front of them, of course they would squeal, Hoseok thought. But not her.

Y/N stopped dancing and looked at him, her head cocked to the side, confused as to what he is doing just standing there in front of her in the middle of the crowded dance floor.

"Yes? Can I help you? Do you need anything?" Her soft voice sounds like and angel to him and as he smile to himself he realized something.

Shit. She's talking to me!

"Hi. Y...Y/N," was all he could managed to mumble out and Hoseok feels like slapping himself. He never even talk or make direct eye contact with the girl before and the first word he said to her is her name? Stalker much Hoseok?

He can see Y/N's eyes widen in confusion as the rest of her girl friends giggling, shoving her closer to him before they suddey dissappeared to the other side of the dance floor.  What supportive friendsn Hoseok remind himself to thank them if they ever got together one day.

"You look hot... and extremely sexy when you dance," What the fuck did I just say?

Instead of getting angry or looking appaled, or thinking that he is some creepy pervert, Y/N tried to hide her smile from the obviously intoxicated man in front of her.

"Urmm... thank you?"

"You dance really well. I wish you would grind with me someday," the words came out almost as a slur from him but his wide eyes that is looking straight at her makes Y/N know that he is indeed talking to her.

"Huh?"

"Dance! I mean dance!" Hoseok quickly correct his words. Shit, what did he drink just now? And how much did he drink? Stupid words that he never knew he could even say are tumbling non stop from his mouth. Y/N laughs, a sound that seems like music to his ears. Even more when he is in his intoxicated self. Hoseok wants nothing more than a meteor to hit right now, just so he could be taken out from this embarassing misery.

You know that I mean well, My hands were meant for somewhere else.

However, Hoseok takes her laughter as a sign to proceed and gets closer to her. He puts his arms around her waist and starts to sway their body slowly to the music, carefully looking at her, gauging for a reaction. Y/N just smile and placed her hands on his shoulder, deciding maybe she should give this drunk male a chance. He doesnt look like a pervert... more like a dork? An extremely cute dork.

"Are you sure you are capable to dance right now?" She laughs. Hoseok cant focus on anything else other than the close proximity of their faces. He studied every curve of her face, her nose, her lips, the way her eyelashes touch her cheeks when she closes her eyes... and her scent. God, its more intoxicating than the alcohol he has been consuming. Hoseok cant believe he is holding her right now. That she is actually smiling at him. Without realizing his hands starts to roam around her body, slowly carresiong her sides seductively and occasionally moving lower and lower, right againts her ass as he grinds himself on her.

"Urm..." Y/N moved her hand that is on his shoulders and grab his arms that is encircling her, all the while pushing him nack a little to stop him from continuing to grind on her.  "I dont think we are that close yet,"

Hoseok try to understand what Y/N is probably talking about, but with the mixture of alcohol in his body and the still unreal feeling of being this close to her, his mind is clouded and dizzy, not being able to digest anything that's really happening around him.

"What do you mean?"

"Urm..."

"Oh for fucks sake," Hoseok felt his hands that is encircling Y/N's waist, or more specific, carressing and roaming her entire body like some starving man gets pulled away by none other than Min Yoongi.

"Hey Yoongs! What are-"

"I'm sorry. He is not a good drunk. He  cant handle alcohol well. But you know he meant well right? He's a sweet guy when he's sober. Really," Yoongi cut him off and look straight at Y/N.

"Yes. Yes. Dont worry. He didnt do anything too bad. But I think you should bring him back now. He needs to rest," Y/N giggled before turning around and walk away to find her friends.

Yoongi dragged Hoseok across the floor to their private booth where the other members are already seated and laughing like crazy, fully witnessing what just happened.

"I was finally talking to Y/N Yoongs! As per your advice! Why did you drag me away?" He grumbled as he sat down, looking around bewildered, still not understanding why the others are laughing.

"I told you to talk to her. Oh I dont know, maybe properly ask her to dance or buy her a drink or something. Not grope and grind on her like some horny teenager who just hit puberty in a strip club!" Yoongi snarled.

"Huh?" Hoseok is throughly confused to what Yoongi is saying. Did he really do that?

"Hyung is so wasted he dont even know what he did!" Jimin was laughing like crazy, his hands slapping Taehyung's thigh who is seating besides him who is also laughing like crazy, holding his stomach.

"Why did you get so drunk for anyway?" Jin questioned as the realization hits Hoseok. He remembered that he only hold her waist... right? Did he do something more? To the point Yoongi has to come out and drag him away?

"Shit. I need another drink,"

Oh, oh, one more drink and I should go, Oh, oh, but maybe she might like me though. Oh, oh, I just can't think of what to say, Should I go, should I stay? Just can't let her slip away.

"I think you have had enough Hobi," Namjoon give a small warning, giving his friend a little pat in the back.its rare to see Hoseok gets drunk, especially during a party. And what just happened is exactly the reason why.

"Nope. Really need this one. Just one more and maybe I should just head back," he mumbled as the waitress placed a few fresh bottles and mixtures in a glass on their table.

"Are you sure hyung? She's still here," Jungkook points to the far end of the club where Y/N is sitting down in a corner table laughing with her friends. "She looks like she's having a hard time, doesnt seem angry or traumatized to me. Maybe she liked what you did just now," Jungkook winked at Hoseok while making a provocative grinding move, intending to copy what Hoseok did earlier, making Jin frowned.

"I really dont want to hear you talking about all the nasty things your hyungs do Kook. Im not ready for you to grow up," Seokjin grumbled and down his whole cup making the whole table laughs, except for Hoseok who is still eyeing Y/N's table.

"I dont know what to do. Should I go and try again? Or should I just go home and forgot this whole night ever happen? She seems to like me though. Doesnt she? What do you think? She was laughing and smiling the whole time I was talking to her right?" He rambled on, eyes drifting from one member to the other, asking for answers.

"Its really up to you Hobi. If you want to talk to her, she's right there. If you dont plan to, lets all just go. I'm hungry," Jin grumble, laying out the choices for him.

"I really want to talk to her again. To make sure she knows I'm not some drunk pervert," he lowered his gaze to his lap. "But I wont know what to say when I'm standing in front of her. I will just act stupid again,"

"That... I'm sure you will do," Yoongi agreed without hesitation. Hoseok glared at his friend who is definitely not helping his nerves right now.

"What should I do guys. Should I leave? Should I stay? Urghhh," Hoseok wailed out loudly as he continues to stare at Y/N. "I really dont want her to slipped away..." he added softly. The table turn quiet as they realized how serious Hoseok's feelings towards Y/N are. They all know he has been checking her out for month, but no one other than Yoongi knows how severe his feelings are for her. But there is nothing they can do for him, really.

"I really like her though..."

I talk a lot of shit when I'm drinking, baby, I'm known to go a little too fast. Don't mind all my friends, I know they're all crazy, But they're the only friends that I have.

After a few minutes of contemplating, Hoseok finally decides to just leave the club. He is never going to find the courage to ever face her again tonight anyway. And he definitely needs to sober up right now. No more stupid drunk mistakes.

Just like Jin had suggested, the boys asks their manager to stop at a restaurant as they are all starving. Partying was never really their scene anyway. They always prefer laughter with each other paired with bottomless good food at their comfort restaurants. Hoseok is finally sober enough now for coherent conversations and as they are busy stuffing their faces and laughing over Jin's lame jokes, Taehyung elbowed him in the ribs.

"Ouch. What the hell Tae?!"

"Look," he points towards the door and Hoseok's heart almost stop beating as he saw Y/N and few of her friends, lesser than the group she hangs out with in the club, entering.

"Oh fuck," Yoongi cursed under his breath as all seven boys looks at the door. "This is really fate Hobi,"

All seven of them duck their heads, and since they were seated at the back corner, its impossible for Y/N or her friends to see them once they sat down, which is a relieve for Hoseok still unsure about his next move.

"Shit. What should I do? Should I try again? Or should I just ignore her?" Hoseok is panicking and sweating, making the rest of the boys quietly smile and laughing at his disheveled state. He is always the mood maker, the happy one. Its weird to see him in constant panic and rambling to himself like this.

"I think you should talk to her. You are all sober now. She can finally see how much of asunshine you are this time," Namjoon suggested.

"But I dont know if I can do it sober though..."

"Of course you can hyung. Just think of it as... performing. As if you are dancing in front of millions of people!" Jimin smile at him, giving him the encouragement he needs. Jimin knows as much as he do how dancing is always able to calm him down. He smile at the younger boy and close his eyes, trying to calm himself.

"Okay. I'm going to do it. I'm going to wait until she finish eating and I'mq going to do it. I will find out once and for all if she likes me back or not," Hoseok finally state with utter determination.

"That's the Jung Hoseok we all know and love!" They shouted and whistle happily.

After about 30 minutes of the most nerve wrecking dinner he has ever had, he saw Y/N and her friends stood up and making their way out after paying and bowing to the cashier.

"Lets go guys. Lets get Hobi her girl!" Jin excitedly pump his fist as he stood up.

"Really hyung?" Yoongi rolled his eyes.

"Well, excuse me for being a supportive hyung!"

They start to bicker, throwing comments back and forth as they walked out, not realizing they are already outside of the restaurant, stsnding in the cold walkway where Y/N and her group is also there, eyes already looking at them because of the noise.

"Shut up guys!" Hoseok said through gritted teeth and motioned towards the group of girls who looks surprised in front of them. Who would have thought they would meet the whole of Bangtan in the middle of the empty walkway on this cold night.

"Hi... 1.2...We are Bangtan!" Namjoon suddenly said and Hoseok face palmed himself. He definitely feel like jumping into a black hole and dissappear when the three maknaes followed the leader, bowing at the cue, impulsively doing their official greeting.

"What the fuck are you doing Joon? Now she will think we are weird!" Hoseok hissed at his friend who is standing beside him.

"Im sorry. I panicked okay. We are all just standing here looking at one another not saying anything. I should at least greet them!" Namjoon defended himself, all the while both their eyes are on Y/N and a smile plastered on their faces.

"Yah! You could just say hello like a normal person!" Hoseok hissed back.

"Urm.. guys? We can actually hear you..." Y/N interrupted their conversation, smiling while her friends are giggling like there's no tomorrow. Hoseok shoved Namjoon away, taking a few steps foward toward her and smile.

"Urh hi,"

"Hi. Urm. You are the drunk guy," she points at him making him nodded shyly. "I dont know if I should introduced my self, I think you already know who I am but still, I'm Y/N," Y/N feels obligated to introduced herself since the boys had so nicely did their introduction to them earlier. "We dont have a group. Sorry, no fancy introductions from us. By the way, that was a nice way to introduce yourselves," she teased and waved behind Hoseok's shoulder, acknowleding the other members.

"Thank you," Hoseok nodded sheepishly before he close his eyes in embarassment to hear a chorus of "Hiii Y/N" and excited giggles behind him. He can also hear faint questions such as 'Are you going to be Hobi-hyunf's girlfriend?' which followed with a smack and a 'shut up'. He turned his head slowly to see his six brothers grinning and waving back like crazy to Y/N.

God, why are they doing this to him? Is embarassing a fellow brother in front of their crush a life mission for them?

"Please guys, shut up and behave!" He hissed between gritted teeth, hoping Y/N wont hear him but he guess she did since her laugh got louder.

"I'm sorry for theit... strange behaviour, " Hoseok bowed apologically. "They are not normal. Most of the time crazy and unwell, but I am proud to day that they are my friends. And-"

"And you love them," Y/N finishes for him with a smile. Hoseok smile softly at her, happy that she understands and being extremely okay with it. He can already see getting along well with his brothers in the future.

"Its okay. I understand. My friends are not normal either," she motioned to the group of girls behind her who is still giggling and teasing them as if they were not there. "But what can I say, they are the only friends that I got,"

"That's great then. We already have a similarity!" Hoseok tried to joke to ease the tension but the road fell quiet. His eyes flickered behind Y/N and noticed that her friends has slowly walked away, as their effort to leave them alone and he glanced over his shoulder, hoping his brothers would do the same.

But of course, being oblivious and shameless as they are, all six are still there, now sitting too comfortably on the sidewalk, with Taehyung and Jungkook obviously trying to listen it. Hoseok huffed and turned back to Y/N. It doesnt matter if his brothers gives him privacy or not, he's going to talk to Y/N properly tonight and no one is going to stop him.

"Listen... Im sorry for what happened earlier in the club. I didnt mean to do that. I was drunk," Hoseok finally managed to get the words out. He felt better seeing Y/N is still smiling and standing there, not showing any signs of running away like he expect her to. Could it be that she likes him too?

"Its okay. Its pretty obvious you were drunk. Do you feel better now?" She asks and touch his arm in a friendly manner, which only send tingles through his whole body. Hoseok cleared his throat and try to focus on the conversation.

"Yeah. I feel a lot better after eating. But what I did is not okay. I dont want you to think of me as a drunk pervert. I'm normal I swear," he raised his hand in a swearing motion. "Its just that... I start to do and say weird things when I start drinking. I am not a good drinker. And I'm really sorry," he smile at her. The same bright smile that Y/N usually see on TV or images that her friends will show her.

The smile that she dont know how or why, makes her heart beats faster in her chest.

I was nearly in, but then came the pushy friend, Killed the vibe and took my perfect ten away.

"Its okay. Really. I forgive you,"

"Thank you Y/N," Hoseok replied quietly and the walkway become silent again. After a few awkward moment of just staring at each other Y/N finally speaks up.

"Well, then... if that's all you have to say... then I better get going," she bowed and start to walk away.

"Wait!" Hoseok grab ber hand and immediately lets go when she turns and look at the arm that's holding her. "Sorry... but would you like to-"

"Y/N! Hurry up!" His words were cut of by her friends who suddenly showed up from the corner, looking cold and tired as they waited for her.

"A moment!" She shouted back. "You were saying?" She turned back to Hoseok, hoping and wishing the male would finish asking whatever it is that he wanted to ask.

"I was about to ask you-"

"Seriously Y/N. We need to go. Han Mi really need to find a restroom!" The friend who was shouting for her just a while ago came over and pulled her hand, giving her no choice but to forcefully go with them. She gives him an apologetic smile and bowed her head a little to Hoseok, leaving hin standing there speechless and dissapointed at what just happened.

"Damn, what a cockblocker!" Jungkook makes his way beside Hoseok who is still confused over how rapid things are happening tonight.

"Language Kook!" Jin snarled from the back.

"Sorry hyung," Jungkook scratched his neck sheepishly.

"But Kook's right though. What a cockblocker! Cant she sense the vibe that's happening here?" Yoongi chimed in. "Too bad Hobi. Maybe next time? At least you have successfully talked to her tonight," he patted Hoseok's shoulder, trying to comfort his sad friend.

"Yeah... maybe,"

"Okay kids. Lets go home," Jin ushered them all towards the van that is parked across the road. "Hobi? You coming?"

Hoseok turns towards his brothers who are huddled together in the cold, waiting for him. After a moment he smile.

"No hyung. All of you can go ahead,"

"Where are you going?"

"Im going to do it tonight. Im going to get my girl tonight," he hastily replied before running off into the direction Y/N was hauled into, leaving the six boys surprised but with smiles on their faces.

You know I need you, girl, My heart's not made for someone else. So save me here 'cause I can barely stand. Should I stay? Should I go? It just can lead back to her door.

"Y/N!" After about 15 minutes of non stop running he finally saw her, walking slowly... and alone. Y/N turned around, shocked to find a breathless and panting idol calling her name.

"What... what are you doing here? How did you find me?"

"Isnt it obvious? I ran here," he laughs between taking long deep breath. Y/N rolled her eyes but still smiling at him.

"Thats not what I meant. Why are you here?"

"Wait, where's your friends?" Hoseok looks around to find there is no one else in sight.

"We go separate ways from that corner. My house is that way," she motioned down the street.

"Do you usually walk home? Dont you know its dangerous to walk alone at night?" He frowned, worried for her safety. Its past midnight and the streets are empty. How is she walking alone?

"I know. But I dont usually walk. I send my driver off since I wanted to get some fresh air tonight. My house is not that far from here. Dont worry," she giggled as she finds it amusing how a stranger is worried for her.

"But really, why are you here?" She cocked her head to side as she looks at him, confused.

"Y/N..." Hoseok finally found the courage he needs after all these months of watching her and took her hand in his, rubbing small circle on her soft skin. He is going to do it. He is going to say it. "I think you already know...  but I want to make it clear to you tonight. I... I like you,"

Y/N's eyes widen at his confession. How? When? Why? How?

"But... we dont know each other. You... you dont know me. How can you like me?"

"I know this sounds weird. And I swear I'm not creepy," he laughs. "But I have been watching you since the first time you came into one of our after parties. And I was hooked," he looks straight into her eyes now, he himself surprised by his own confidence. "I saw the way you dance and from that moment I know I need to get to know you. I just know there's something about you Y/N, somethinf that attracts me to you badly. I know you probably wont believe me, and its way too early to say this when we just talk for the first time today, but I think my heart is made for you," his words came out so soft as he continues to stare into her puzzled eyes. "I'm not forcing you into anything. I understand all this sudden and surprising... but I just want to ask you to give me a chance to get to know you," Hoseok held his breath once he finishes, nervously waiting for her answer. It probably took her only a few moments but it feels like a million years to Hoseok.

"May I... Y/N? Get to know you?"

Hoseok felt her hand that he's holding suddenly gripping his back, making him look up from their entertwined hands to her smiling face, which is now nodding softly.

"Want to walk me home?"

I know I don't know you, But I'd like to skip the small talk and romance, girl. That's all I have to say so, baby, can we dance?

"This is me," Y/N stopped in front of a mansion, making Hoseok's mouth fell wide open. When people told him that she's a daughter from a wealthy family, he didnt think her family is this wealthy.

"Let me walk you inside," he motioned for her to go in as the automatic huge brass gate opens. Hoseok was amazed once more when he saw the magnificent water fountain near the front door. The lights decorating the fountain shoned lightly, making Hoseok's heart beats faster than it ever did the whole night as it illuminates Y/N's face softly.

Hoseok has been looking at her for months now, but to him, Y/N has never looked more beautiful than she is tonight, in this moment as she stands in front of the fountain smiling shyly at him who has gone quiet as he stares openly at her. Her long hair softly falling over shoulder, her long eyelashes that touches her cheeks when she closes her eyes, the way her eyes lit up when she smile, the sound of her laughter, everything about her is just ethreal.

Hoseok has no doubt that he has fallen in love hard with this girl in front of him. He dont need to get to know her to be sure of that fact. His heart already recognize her as his. And as he smile softly at her and she looks back at him, eyes wide and sparkling, both hearing the same music that's beating softly from their heart, Hoseok knows there is only one thing left for him to do.

"Y/N, may I have this dance?"

[kyaappucino]

Where Did The Party Go

Pairing: Hakyeon/Taekwoon

Words: 1,938

Rating: PG-13

Summary:  If a doctor opened his chest right that minute–he wouldn’t be surprised if Taekwoon’s name was imprinted over and over again. And yet…no matter how much his body ached, his hands ached to touch–he was kept at a distance.

Notes: Written from Hakyeon’s point of view. I hope I wrote Hakyeon with enough honesty.

Warnings: mentions of sex, hungry Hakyeon is hungry

“We’re luckier than most, my Hakyeon.” That’s what his mother always said when people would fight over him.

Constantly admired and mocked for how he looked: a misfit with tan-colored skin, sinewy limbs and a waist so small it bordered on girlish.

The first time he feels untouchable by the teasing is when his mother signs him up for a summer dance class. Standing on a raised platform and surrendering everything for the sake of the music and for the performance–that was when Hakyeon felt the most right.

So when the kid from Changwon makes it into Vixx, made as a leader of the group–he’s surprised and ecstatic. Scared that he’s responsible for five other lives, five boys who are equally wide-eyed and unsure of everything. Ecstatic because it’s his dream to sing and dance in front of an audience—always has been, always will be.

They need each other, and he’s determined to make it work. They crawl into the limelight with their songs and feel their hearts flutter when people buy their albums, when they hold their first fanmeet.

It’s for them, and for each other that they work, losing sleep and foregoing food in the name of making their fans–their precious Starlights–proud of them.

When they finally win during Voodoo Doll they allow themselves to swell up with love and pride (repaid their fans’ love and unwavering hearts with chicken) and Taekwoon embraces him for the first time, crying so hard he can’t even whisper—that’s when, Hakyeon thinks—that’s when he fell in love with Jung Taekwoon.

+

It takes awhile before Taekwoon warms up to Hakyeon again. After that evening of watching the younger boy embrace his SpongeBob doll tightly and moving back each time Hakyeon moves forward—that’s the thing that gets him the most. How Taekwoon doesn’t want to touch him, doesn’t want to do anything to him. All he gives Hakyeon is this distance, a gaping maw of sadness and disappointment. He supposes its punishment.

“I don’t understand.” He says again during the next night, cold and empty despite having the comforter pulled up all the way to his chin. Taekwoon says softly, “I want to be the only one.” As long as Hakyeon comes home bruised and bitten with the scent of another’s cologne on his body, his neck, his heart—Taekwoon continues to back away from him, even during the daytime.

He’s had to endure breakfasts where Taekwoon’s eyes are pointed elsewhere, his laughter swallowed up, words clipped whenever they locked eyes.

He’s burning for Taekwoon, needs his touch to function properly. But all Taekwoon ever sees are the marks others have left on his body–never seeing the mark that Taekwoon burned into Hakyeon’s heart.

If a doctor opened his chest right that minute–he wouldn’t be surprised if Taekwoon’s name was imprinted over and over again. And yet…no matter how much his body ached, his hands ached to touch–he was kept at a distance.

That’s what hurts Cha Hakyeon worst of all. So much that he needs to leave, needs a warm body to press kisses all over his bare chest, so he can pretend it’s Taekwoon. He’s lost count how many times he begged his partners to bite him harder, until the pain squeezes all the desire he feels for Taekwoon, until all he can utter is Taekwoon’s name as his hips are assaulted, bruises dotting his body all the way to his neck.

It was like trying to wean himself off of a potent drug and committing a relapse each time.

“You really have it bad for this guy.” His latest partner is a lawyer with hair darker than a raven’s wing. His eyes were what sealed the deal–they were sharp, missed nothing and he didn’t particularly care that Hakyeon doesn’t even know his name.

Hakyeon chooses not to comment and goes to the bathroom to brush his teeth when they’re done. When he comes back he stares at his partner of the evening and says “Yeah. I really do.”

“Does he like you?” The man asks as he gets out of bed and opens a window, lights up a cigarette. Hakyeon frowned. “Would I be doing this if he did?” There’s a shrug and the smell of vanilla-scented smoke as it drifts outside, to the lit streets of Seoul. “Do all your partners mind that you keep screaming for this guy?”

“They all know.” He thought of all the boys and girls who’d seen it fit to punish him for calling out for someone else, someone that wasn’t currently in bed. He swore it was like second nature now, calling out Taekwoon’s name in the heat and haze of pleasure. The intensity of want and shame filled him to the core and he thought, “Why am I still doing this?”

For the first time in his life, Hakyeon wants to disappear. He grabs his clothes and prepares for the long walk of shame back to the car, back to the dorm.

+

So when Taekwoon was the one who started pressing into his back, when Taekwoon declared his love for Hakyeon–well. Hakyeon had been fucking over the moon. It was like a dream, touching the smooth planes of Taekwoon’s chest, nuzzling into the column of his neck and tasting body wash and salt and feeling so, so hungry.

Everything he’d ever wanted, but he knew that his heart’s friend–your lifelong friend, he kept reminding himself as he spoke to interviewers and forced himself to hold onto another member–might just run for the hills if he tried anything.

He tried to find a solution, really. Hakyeon cuddled Taekwoon until he felt that he would burst with want and left to find the nearest body to fuck, until he felt drained of all the desires to touch Taekwoon. If he didn’t return to the dorms sated and sleepy, he was terrified of what he would do. Of what he wanted to do. He desperately wanted Taekwoon to be comfortable and didn’t want to pressure him into anything.

In the end, Hakyeon just craved Taekwoon’s touch and when the younger boy would push him away, whispering “…someday…” the fire inside Hakyeon just kept burning brighter and hotter and he just needed release.

He always got it, because Hakyeon never really asked for anything–but the thought of Taekwoon’s sad eyes and empty smile lingered afterwards. Instead of feeling indignant, that he and Taekwoon didn’t really have a serious relationship Hakyeon felt shame blooming on his cheeks, over his heart.

Taekwoon deserved more than a boy who just wanted, a boy whose hips would sway and grind, a boy who searched for fingers that would mark him—long and spidery, like Taekwoon’s.

Taekwoon deserved the world and Hakyeon couldn’t give it to him clean. He wanted to give the younger boy the chaste, pure love he seemed to be searching for.

But it often meant that someone else had to throw him down onto rumpled bedsheets before he was devoid of all the things he wanted to do to Taekwoon. And whenever he came back, lips swollen and body bitten (but his desire is full and the thought of Taekwoon lying back on his side of the bed is no longer as erotic) he had to face the sad eyes and the widening gap as the main vocalist refused to be touched.

The mountain that Hakyeon climbed just to be closer to Taekwoon came back, taller and sturdier than ever.

So when Taekwoon tells Hakyeon “I hope you’ll stop sleeping around,” all Hakyeon thought was, “If I can’t touch you I’m going to fall apart.” What he actually asked was, “Why don’t you forbid me?” It wouldn’t have been the first time, really. The difference being, after this he usually wanted to let go, to break up.

The answer he got was surprising, and Hakyeon could feel the sadness coloring Taekwoon’s soft, soft voice.

“Because I want you to choose not to do it, Hakyeonnie.” This boy was just full of surprises. Hakyeon whispers in a broken voice, “What if I keep doing it, Taekwoonie?” He just wanted to know how high the stakes were, how much Taekwoon was actually willing to risk just so Hakyeon would try.

“Then…you can’t touch me.”

He thinks he’s going to combust.

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Touch is important to him. It’s how his family—how he—expresses their love. He isn’t used to this, not used to the introvert contented to sip a cup of coffee and eat beside him with a soft smile that makes Hakyeon so, so hungry.

He wants to keep touching Taekwoon, wants to be allowed to come closer. The other members keep asking him if he’s all right. Hakyeon plays it off as stress due to his busy schedule, the lack of sleep making him restless.

One night after filming for his web drama, he goes straight home, enters the dorm taut and hungry for his roommate, a burning desire that nothing else can quench. He’d received invitations to another party, but he turned them down saying softly, “I need to go home. Somebody’s waiting for me there.”

It’s probably the most honest he’s been in awhile.

He comes home to Jaehwan and Hongbin on the couch, iPad in hand and sharing earbuds. “Hyung!” They both smile. “You’re home early.” Hakyeon smiles tiredly and pats their heads as he walks towards his bedroom.

“Filming finished early. What are you doing?”

Hongbin holds up the iPad and says, “Monitoring. Everyone else went to their rooms.” Hakyeon yawns and replies, “That sounds like a good idea. Don’t stay up too late, you two.” Jaehwan winked. “Of course not, hyung~” Hakyeon laughs and as he nears his bedroom door, he hears a slight sucking sound, and shakes his head. “At least wait until I’m inside!” He called out, and there’s a resounding “Sorry mom!” from the living room.

He opens the door and Taekwoon is there, lying on his side of the bed. Eyes him fully and when Hakyeon strips his chest bare, free of bite marks—there’s a small smile on his lips. He walks over to the closet to find his sleeping shirt and is surprised when Taekwoon’s arms wrap around Hakyeon, the main vocalist’s head nuzzling into the back of his neck.

He’s pretty sure he smells a lot like sweat and whatever dinner the staff gave him before he left for the dorm, but that doesn’t seem to matter. His senses are on fire and there are goosebumps on his arms, on the back of his neck as Taekwoon breathes in and out, his breath smelling of toothpaste.

“You’re home.”

It’s so simple, but enough to make him cry. “Yeah…I’m home.” he says softly as Taekwoon holds him in place, arms tight around Hakyeon’s middle. He still wanted to touch Taekwoon–all of him–but somehow this was more intimate than being fucked. The fire inside of him dims until it’s nothing more than a quiet flame, small and soothingly warm against his chest.

Hakyeon feels Taekwoon’s heart against his back, and it’s beating quickly, mirroring his own. He chuckles and says softly, “I make you nervous?”

Taekwoon whispers back, kissing his shoulder, licking the sweat gathering at the base of his neck, “You always have.” He feels one of Taekwoon’s hands leaving his waist and he breathes out a soft whine, trembling.

“Soon,” Taekwoon promises as he pushes one of Hakyeon’s white shirts into his chest.

When they sleep that night, there is no gap between them.

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Skin Talk [VIXX, Leo] ||2||

Characters: VIXX’s Leo || OC

Soulmates au inspired by @animeotakupooh / @vixxscifiwritings ‘s soulmate au “Your Words on My Skin” as well as the discussions we had while she was writing it.

General concept :  In a world where the marks on your skin also show up on your soulmate’s.

Warnings : trash writing after a long time

Length : two shot

Taekwoon wasn’t entirely sure he regretted his action to be honest. Not that his soulmate had prodded further about his identity even though the person on the other end was aware of his initials. The response, which came a few minutes later amused him no end.

“I am not the property of anyone. I’m my own property -_-”

 “Right.”

 “You know I’m right! I’m a strong independent woman who can’t be owned!” the writing dragged over his arm almost like someone had snatched the marker away from his soulmate. He glared at his arm before sighing.

 What he didn’t expect was to meet another Han Sanghyuk right when Mydol began.His soulmate had been incredibly excited when he had told her that he had gotten into an entertainment label writing daily encouragements to help him get through the tough times. But the name Han Sanghyuk triggered him. Sure, there were several Han Sanghyuks around the world and it made no sense for him to feel annoyed with the presence of the young trainee who had joined them.

 Clearly the stress of debuting was getting to him. His soulmate was graduating from high school and joining a college and he was trying to break into the tough entertainment industry. The exhaustion of everything drains him as it drains his soulmate. Yet they wrote on each other’s skins late into the night till they ran out of space to cover. He liked waking up to patterns across his thighs, stretching onto his belly some days, tattooed onto his skin, just a reminder of how he was never alone even when things got tough.

 The day he debuted, he found a little black heart appearing on his chest right where his heart was beating. He swiped the little “made it” from off his hand with moisturiser as his finger traced the little heart on his chest. A small smile spread across his lips.

 Minah was nervous, Sanghyuk had asked her to come for their first fanmeet. With all the groups that had debuted, her soulmate could be anyone of the groups that had debuted that year. School had kept her far too busy to follow Sanghyuk’s journey on Mydol, but she had watched their music video several times (finding that her friend had far too little lines) and yet her eyes fixed themselves on the man with the dark spikey hair. Sanghyuk had told her about his bandmate Taekwoon being terrifying; yet she didn’t understand why on earth her eyes fixed themselves so firmly on him.

 Fixing the loose sweater that hung on her shoulders, she tried to peer over the crowd of people spotting Sanghyuk sitting in the corner, tapping his marker on the table nervously. She eyed the other members, there was an incredibly beautiful man, Hongbin, she assumed by Sanghyuk’s descriptions. While she identified all the other members well enough, her eyes simply stayed on the silent man who seemed to be brooding. She hadn’t heard from her soulmate the whole day so she had assumed that they had a busy schedule.

 She noticed said brooding man nudge off an over-cheerful member, Hakyeon, if she remembered correctly as the latter attacked the man with his marker. Sanghyuk had spotted her and he grinned as she smiled back at him and waved as the crowd thinned and she approached the table she found herself face to face with Sanghyuk who chuckled and scribbled in her album promising to catch up with her soon.

 Taekwoon felt a jolt when their fingers brushed when she passed the album to him, he had noticed her when she had walked in with her gaze fixed on him before she turned to Sanghyuk with a wide smile. She was a little taller than the people around her, her features were soft almost rounded, there was wisdom in her eyes as she took short steps forward, watching the fans around her curiously. All of the sudden he hoped that she was his fan. His heart fell when he saw her speaking to Sanghyuk for a long period of time before. Clearly she was the fan of the maknae.

 “Thank you for your hard work, you have a wonderful voice.”  he was started to hear her voice and looked up at her. She had a small smile on her face as he set the album down on the table, uncapping his marker. She eyed the doodle on his arm made by Hakyeon, who was chatting with another fan, it zig-zagged down his arm and ended in a circle. Yet she couldn’t get over how absolutely wonderful this man looked up close.

 “What’s your name?”

 “Minah.”

 “Thank you for your support.”

 Minah nearly fainted when she found the exact same mark down her arm when she rolled up the sleeves of her sweater. It was the exact same mark. The zig-zag lines ending in a circle. Her jaw nearly dropped to the ground as she stood outside the fansign trying to process exactly what had happened. The exquisite man who had sat across her, the brooding man with the incredibly large number of fans was her plain old self’s soulmate.

 There was no way in hell she could let him know.

 She managed so well for over next four years. She had just moved to Seoul to attend college and his increasingly busy schedules made communication difficult, but he would still write. She would tell him about college, feeling like she was having some otherworldly experience where her soulmate was Leo (or Jung Taekwoon which a quick Naver search told her). He would respond too, telling her to take care of herself. Some days he’d find lipstick and lip tint swatches on his arm much to his amusement. He’d but a tick mark next to the colour that appealed to him the most. There would be days when lyrics would appear on her belly, thigh, forearm with words that scorched her being and sometimes brought tears to her eyes.

 “You need to rest.” the words appeared on his skin at 2:00AM, he sat in the practice room exhausted from the practice session. He searched his bag for a marker as he tiredly moved it across his skin.

 “Says the person awake at 2:00AM”

 “I’ll sleep if you do.”

 “I need to get back to the dorm.”

 “You can do this, you did well today, but you can’t function without the rest. You deserve it.”

“Come on”

“Get up.”

“Up and off to bed.”

The words appeared in succession and Taekwoon found himself somewhat convinced, picking his tired body off the floor, he picked up his things.

 “I am heading back to the dorms. You’d better be asleep when I get back.”

 “I have an assignment to finish, so ha.”

 “It can wait, you said you’d sleep with me.”

 “Your sleep addled brain is perverted.” he chuckled, shaking his head as he read before writing out “That’s not what I meant.”

 “Go to sleep.”

 “Only when you do.”

 “Finish my assignment for me then.”

 “What is it on?” Taekwoon scribbled, shutting the studio door shut behind him as he headed out.

 “Applying Structuralism to Local Myth and Folklore.”

 “Wouldn’t say that is my specialty, but nice to know that my soulmate is an intellectual.”

 “I’m not that smart, I feel incredibly stupid in most of my classes.”

 “Having known you for the entirety of your life, I could not disagree more.” 

“You’re just sleepy.”

 “I’m telling you the truth; that is all. There are things that may not make sense to you right now. But that doesn’t make you stupid, you’re wise, strong, and kind.  That counts for more than any structuralism or whatever.” he wrote furiously. He couldn’t stand it when his soulmate felt insecure. Every now and then they would have arguments about this and it pained him to see that his soulmate’s worst enemy was herself. So he did everything in his power to make sure that she knew exactly how much she meant to him. He pulled the sleeve of his jacket down with a huff as he jogged to the dorm, already exhausted by the exercise of VIXX’s dance practice.

 His heart skipped a beat when he saw the response in tiny writing as he was changing. He had suspected that his soulmate had fallen asleep while he returned to the dorm but the words stood in stark contrast against his pale skin.

 “Thank you. I love you.”

 She wasn’t sure for how long she could keep up with knowing that her soulmate was Jung Taekwoon. It wasn’t like she could go across during a fansign or break into his dorm, no, that was very odd. But on the fourth year after finding out his identity, she was still unsure as to whether she was worthy of him and yet, she loved him, she always had, whether or not she knew who he was.

 “Have you ever thought of what would happen if we meet?”

 Taekwoon’s heart stopped for a second. He had thought about it a lot in fact. Patience was not something he was well known for and yet he had been incredibly patient for twenty one years. He knew they were both people who needed time and yet his heart yearned to see the person who the universe had destined him to be bonded with forever.

 “Honestly, I have been waiting for it for a while.”

 Minah bit her lip. She hadn’t expected that response from him, but she needed to buy time. Just enough to steel her nerves enough.

 “Maybe someday, definitely not today, I have some foolish graduation party to go to and watch my friends get mad drunk.”

 “Clubbing? I thought you hated that.”

 “I do, but I’m being forced to go.”

“Well, it’s your graduation party after all.”

 “That is the general excuse, yes.”

 “Keep safe.”

 “Yes, my love.” the words appeared and even though he had seen them several times, he felt a blush creep up his cheeks.

 He knew where she was, the location had been clearly stamped onto her wrist. It was a lounge a few blocks away from where he was, not very well-known within his crowd, but was popular amongst college students.

 “Kim Minah.” the name was scribbled right under the stamp. Not a-typical for a party of such large proportions, he was aware. He stared at the name, softly whispering it out as he tasted it on his tongue. He knew her name and finally, after so many years, he could say it out loud. He fought the urge to hurry over and meet her, but he had the new Mata Hari script reading in fifteen minutes. He sighed, entering the room with the rest of his cast members.

 A good hour later, the words appeared on his arm.

 “This is really...uncomfortable.”

 He looked around at his cast mates before surreptitiously picking his pen up.

 “What’s wrong?”

 “I don’t feel safe here.”

 “Where are your friends?”

 “Dead drunk.”

 “Can you leave?”

 “Terrified. Really creepy man.”

 His pen clattered on the floor attracting the attention of his cast members.

 “Everything okay?” the director asked watching Taekwoon turn pale.

 “I have a bit of an emergency.” he breathed out, causing the rest of his cast to frown in worry.

 “We’re wrapping up here anyway, if you need to be somewhere, you can go ahead.” the director smiled kindly, Taekwoon was glad he had a good rapport with the man as he got up from his seat and promptly bolted.

 Minah bit down on her lip as she looked for an exit. The man had been incredibly persistent and she had no idea who on earth he was. He had been searching around the club for her. She found the entrance, but her jaw fell to the ground as the Jung Taekwoon came through it, panting like he had run a mile. His eyes searched the space and all she could do was stare at him, feeling relief fill her bones and tears prick her eyes.

 His eyes landed on her, she looked so incredibly familiar as she stood across the lounge, a beam of light cast on her soft rounded features. Taekwoon prided himself on remembering his fans faces and there she was, the same woman who had left such a visual impression on him from their first fansign. This was the same person who he had known and loved for the whole of her life. It suddenly clicked, the fan from the first fansign, Sanghyuk’s friend who he wouldn’t shut up about. There were so many signs and yet he had missed it all. But one look in her eyes and he knew that she hadn’t missed them at all.

 “Minah.” he mouthed as he crossed the distance and she nodded. His hand reached out for hers and they fit together perfectly as he caught hold of her and led her out.  

 There was silence as they walked down the streets. He hadn’t let go of her hand either and she couldn’t ignore how much it made her cheeks burn. He shoved the door of the nearest coffee shop open and led her in.

 “Macchiato?”

 She blinked as he shot her another look indicating that the question was directed to her. She nodded, astonished that he remembered her coffee preferences. Then again she knew about his fondness for a good latte. He sighed as he sat down in front of her.

 “How long have you known?”

 She was confused again but she assumed that it was about the fact that he was her soulmate.

 “Four years.”

He cursed softly as she worried her lip with her teeth.

 “Does Sanghyuk know?”

 “No.”

 “No one does?”

 “No one.” 

“Why didn’t you tell me?” he wondered out aloud, gazing at her face. Four years had made a difference. Her features were a little more defined, her eyes wiser, she had a glow about her that made him want to reach out and touch her. 

“Because…” she looked down at her lap “just because.” 

Taekwoon knew exactly what that meant. He had known her long enough to know. Her insecurities had eaten her alive before she could even think about telling him. She looked startled when his hand slid over hers. 

“You have the whole of our lifetime together to tell me. For now, let’s start with a better introduction. I’m Jung Taekwoon, your soulmate. ” he smiled as tears threatened to flood past her eyes and she choked out her name. Their fingers laced together almost on instinct and there was an odd familiarity to the movement. 

Just like there was an odd familiarity to the first time they embraced a month later. It was right after her convocation and the instinctive way his arms wrapped around her made her feel whole and her insides to feel warm. Yet it was sparks when they first kissed right after the Shangri-La music video was released. She remembered parting for a breath and Taekwoon’s forehead resting against hers as he breathed out. 

“We have to make up for the four years lost.” before kissing her soundly again. 

They would write on each other’s skin, tracing out absolute nonsense on lazy Sundays, leaving burning marks of love on other days. They would trouble Sanghyuk and Hakyeon on off days just because they could (“Excuse me I knew her before you did!” Sanghyuk would exclaim only to be ignored).They would take their time with each other, they would bicker, nag, rant, laugh, cry, and love endlessly. 

After all, they had their whole lifetimes.

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Interview with Japanese fashion and entertainment news source Model Press:

The 3 reasons why K-pop girl group GWSN are commanding attention: “extremely handsome” viral Japanese member Miya talks about the response they’ve received

Rising K-pop girl group Girls in the Park (GWSN), who became the topic of much discussion for their incredibly handsome Japanese member Miya, have given an exclusive interview to Model Press. Just what kind of group are they? The members talked to us about their appeal from their own perspective.

Who are GWSN?

GWSN debuted in September of last year. The group is composed of seven members hailing from Japan, South Korea and Taiwan, and their sole Japanese member, Miya, has been a hot topic since before their debut for her boyish visuals.

Following the theme set by the title of the trilogy beginning with their debut album, THE PARK IN THE NIGHT, their mysterious songs which evoke the atmosphere of a park at night are impressive. They’ve also been gaining attention for their dances as well as the vocal members’ skillful and stable singing.

THE PARK IN THE NIGHT part two, their second mini-album and the second installment of the trilogy, was released on March 13th. Their appearance at the world’s biggest K-culture festival, KCON 2019 Japan, scheduled to run from May 17th to the 19th, has also been announced, making them a group to keep an eye on even in Japan.

The three points that make GWSN stand out

―― Please tell us three things you think GWSN excels in compared to other groups. Seoryoung: First of all, we have a story that differentiates us from other groups. Our debut album is where GWSN starts. This second mini-album tells the story of us running towards our dreams. We hope to continue sharing this story of positivity and growth with everyone going forward. Also, I think we have a distinctive style of music that’s unique to us. “Puzzle Moon” and “Pinky Star (RUN)” are both based on the genre of electro-pop and incorporate various sounds into their production, but we’d like to keep building on this unique sound to create a genre all our own. Miya: Lastly, just like the park in our group name, we’re always able to connect with our fans through a close and friendly image no matter where we are. To the fans, please don’t forget that GWSN are by your side. Please keep supporting us in the future. We’ll do our best!

―― As a multinational group, please tell us anything you do to strengthen your unity as a group or look after one another. Anne: We all talk a lot as a group. We sit in a circle in the living room of our dorm and talk things out like a family meeting, not just about our activities or stage matters, but also our personal lives and all sorts of subjects. I think that time we spend together makes our teamwork stronger. Miya unnie and Soso are from different countries, so there are many times when they struggle with Korean, but luckily, I can speak Mandarin, and Seokyoung unnie and Seoryoung are able to speak some Japanese, so we can communicate without many issues. Minju: The seven of us get along well without even really making a special effort. Even when we’re tired because of activities or schedules, we intentionally play funny jokes, give each other compliments and go about our work like friends.

What does Miya think of the reaction she’s gotten in Japan?

―― A lot of people even in Japan have been talking about your Japanese member Miya’s boyish looks since before your debut, but have you been feeling that response coming from Japan? Also, is there anything you’d like to challenge in Japan in the near future? Miya: Whenever we come to Japan, many people know us and sing our songs. It was a very strange feeling and I was thankful. Many people also came to our recent first official fanmeeting in Japan and that made me think I need to work harder so I can live up to all the love and interest they’ve given us. I’m still a rookie, so instead of challenging a different field, I want to concentrate on the work I’m doing now and improve myself so that our music and performances as GWSN can be recognized. As well, my dream is for GWSN to hold a solo concert in Japan someday. I’ll work harder so that day might come!

GWSN’s memories of Japan and their excitement for KCON Japan

―― Since you’ve visited Japan a few times now, please share any memories of Japan that left an impression on you. Lena: For me, “GROO MY WORLD,” the first official fanmeeting we held in Japan recently, stands out the most in my memories. We met our fans in Osaka and Tokyo, but at the Osaka date, there was a surprise birthday party for Seokyoung unnie and me. Being wished a happy birthday by so many fans made that an unforgettable memory. Seoryoung: “GROO MY WORLD” sticks out in my mind for sure as well. It was our first official fanmeeting here, so we didn’t just perform but also prepared a lot of games and special events for our fans. We received a lot of bright, positive energy through that time we spent with the fans, so we hope to keep creating more opportunities to meet with them in the future.

―― You’ll be appearing for the first time at KCON 2019 Japan. How did you feel when it was decided that you’d be attending? Seokyoung: Because it’s going to be our first time there, we felt very nervous, but we were also really excited to think that we’ll be together on such a big stage with so many other artists. Right now, we’re practicing with all our strength so we can show our fans a wonderful performance. Miya: I think it’s an incredible blessing to be given the opportunity to stand on stage together with the members at KCON, the largest Hallyu convention in the world, in my home country of Japan. All of us are making preparations in order to show everyone there a new and special stage.

―― At KCON, you can enjoy not only K-pop, but beauty, fashion, food and many other Korean products. What kind of Korean content would you like to recommend to everyone in Japan? Lena: I recommend Korean beauty products. K-beauty is widely beloved just like K-pop. I’m also interested in beauty and research it by myself while looking at various different contents, but at KCON, I think I’ll be able to learn a lot about brands and beauty news I didn’t know before. I want to recommend KCON to people like me who are interested in beauty. Soso: My recommendation is for Korean food. Korea has a variety of food-related media like cookbang and mukbang that are loved by a lot of people. They aren’t just interesting to watch, but they give you a chance to learn about cooking ingredients and recipes, so I recommend Korean food content.

Finding out GWSN’s beauty routine

―― Please tell us about your daily skincare routine, tricks to maintain your figure and any other beauty secrets you have to share. Minju: All the members, including me, are devoted to cleansing. I think cleansing is more important than makeup. I want to give myself as much no-makeup time as possible, so when we’ve completed our schedules for the day and are going home to our dorm, sometimes I even take my makeup off in the car. Soso: Everyone uses sheet masks frequently in the dorm. Just a 15-minute sheet mask before bed gives you dewy skin, and I also feel like it helps your makeup go on better the next day.

GWSN’s secret to making your dreams a reality

―― Please give some advice on the key to making your dreams come true for our readers at Model Press who are mostly in their teens and twenties. Seokyoung: The title track “Pinky Star (RUN)” from our second mini-album is about dreams. If all you do is wait, your dream will quickly slip away, so the song has a message to always do your best and keep moving forward. Just like the song says, I think making your best effort until the very end without giving up is the #1 way to make your dream come true. GWSN will keep working hard too, so to all the readers of Model Press, let’s push forward together! Anne: Like Seokyoung unnie, I also believe having the perseverance to chase after your dreams is important. Next to that is courage, I think. When it’s hard or you feel like giving up, I think having the strength and courage to say “I’m okay, I can do this” will give you the motivation you need to make your dreams come true.

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I've seen you around on incorrect twice quotes and I was wondering if you can drag me down to ioi hell I've listened to their songs and they're good, I just need help knowing the names of the members and all that fun stuff ;-;

Okay so first of all I feel very freaking honored that you come to me for this so I’m going to try my best to introduce you to IOI as best as I can :) (Warning beforehand: I am very sorry if my gay was showing through at some moments. Istg it wasn’t my intention, it just happened)

Second of all, I am very sorry that it took a while to answer you. When I received your ask I was in the middle of my testweek and I didn’t have the time to fully answer you. Now that I do, let’s go! (I’ll be adding a ‘keep reading’ so I won’t fill up peoples dashboards too much because holy heck I never meant it but this ended up being looong)

First of, the members! IOI consists of 11 very lovely girls, but before IOI became IOI, they all participated in Produce 101. I highly recommend watching this,  

Lim Nayoung (Pledis Entertainment)She is the leader of IOI, often times also called ‘Stone Nayoung’, ‘Stone Buddha’, ‘Buddha Nayoung’. Outside of being the leader, she is the Main Rapper, Lead Dancer and a Vocalist for IOI. Wow. Not to forget that her visuals are ON POINT.

If you want to check out more of Nayoung, than here are some videos of her! We have 1 2 3 beautiful 1:1 eyecontact videos of her performances in Produce 101, as well as her official practice video for Pristin! She will also get her debut with Pristin on March 21st so make sure to look out for that!

Kim Chungha (M&H Entertainment)Honestly, if you watch one video of her dancing, you’re hooked. She is such an amazing dancer and I’m still planning on stealing her skills someday, but anyway. Not only is this beauty the Main Dancer, she is also the Lead Vocalist and one of the rappers! Sadly we don’t see this last part of her often, but when you do, expect to be slayed by her.

If you want to check out more of Chungha, than here are some videos of her! We have 1 2 3 beautiful 1:1 eyecontact videos of her performances in Produce 101, as well as her absolutely slaying in the first round where they had to show their talents. Believe it or not, this wasn’t practiced or anything, she came up with it on the spot. How, I don’t know, but I am jealous of her skill. Chungha will also debut soon as a solo artist. Although the date hasn’t been announced yet, M&H officially announced that it will come soon!

Kim Sejeong (Jellyfish Entertainment)This girl is both low-key and high-key gay at times, and she is seen a lot either teasing/pranking the other members or helping them when they are having troubles with something. She is the main vocal of IOI and daaaaammn can she sing.

If you want to check out more of Sejeong, than here are some videos of her! We have 1 2 3 beautiful 1:1 eyecontact videos of her performances in Produce 101, as well as her solo debut Flower Way that absolutely slayed. And if you cannot get enough of her performances than don’t worry! She debuted with Gugudan in June of 2016 and they recently had their first comeback that is definitely worth checking out!

Jung Chaeyeon (MBK Entertainment)From what I heard there was a lot tumult when Chaeyeon came on Produce 101 because she had already debuted with another group, DIA. (I cannot say for sure since I wasn’t a fan of kpop back then and didn’t know this all existed) Despite this she still got to debut with IOI as a Vocalist and the Visual of the group (honestly that last point is some kind of universal fact. I know that Chaeyeon wants to be known for her skills rather than her looks but we just cannot deny those of her, tho I would love it if at one point when her name gets mentioned, people talk about her skills before her looks). Let’s also not forget that this girl is super dorky, even when we don’t see it at first.

If you want to check out more of Chaeyeon, than here are some videos of her! We have 1 2 3 beautiful 1:1 eyecontact videos of her performances in Produce 101, as well as a video of her during fanmeets with food. I know that this one is less focused on her skills, but let me assure you that you fall in love with Chaeyeon when you see this adorable side of her. If you want to see more performances of her, make sure to check her out in DIA! They are having a comeback soon, and it is definitely one to look forward to!

Zhou Jieqiong / Pinky (Pledis Entertainment)Ahh, our talented Chinese unnie! Jieqiong is a dancing machine, has pretty amazing vocals (her highnotes during Whatta Man prove that), can play Pipa and she is someone you easily start to love. There is honestly no chance that you don’t and if that ever happened to someone can you please tell me how cause are you sure we are talking about the same person here?!?! She is the Lead Dancer, Vocalist and Visual of IOI, as well as the member who is best in Chinese. Talking about that, by the way, because I sometimes still cannot believe that she is Chinese because her Korean sounds so good (judged from Korean speakers, not me. I’m not Korean nor know enough of the language to state such things).

If you want to check out more of Jieqiong, than here are some videos of her! We have 1 2 3 beautiful 1:1 eyecontact videos of her performances in Produce 101, as well as a video of her playing the pipa! She will also get her debut with Pristin on March 21st so make sure to look out for that!

Kim Sohye (Redline Entertainment / S&P Entertainment)Ah, Sohye. During Produce 101 she was kind of the odd one out, coming from an acting company and having no vocal or dance training before starting the show. I strongly believe that they put her in as the ‘comic relief’ to have her send back home after the first ranking. Sohye however, decided to take none of that shit and use Produce 101 to grow and get better and BOY DID SHE GET BETTER. She got first during dance evaluations in her team and second of all the dancers overal, and her strength and her never giving up, only continuing to grow are definitely what got her in IOI, and she freaking deserved it. She is a Vocalist and Rapper, and is now focusing more on her acting.

If you want to check out more of Sohye, than here are some videos of her! We have 1 2 3 beautiful 1:1 eyecontact videos of her performances in Produce 101 (you can definitely see her grow in this), as well as not one, but two videos of her in the SS 360 episode with Seventeen, acting with both Wonwoo and Mingyu! (Truthfully I wanted to put only one of those but I just couldn’t choose they are both gold) You can see how good her acting is here, and we can look forward to her acting debut which will be soon!

Yu Yeonjung (Starship Entertainment)Yeonjung is another powerhouse vocal who can honestly slay my entire existence whenever she hits these high notes. She is the Main Vocalist and currently in Cosmic girls, where she just keeps continuing to be amazing and sing wonderful and wow sometimes I just need to stop to fully appreciate her amazing voice.

If you want to check out more of Yeonjung, than here are some videos of her! We have 1 2 3 beautiful 1:1 eyecontact videos of her performances in Produce 101, as well as her performance in King of Masked Singer! Her promotions with Cosmic Girls for their latest comeback have just ended so we have to wait again until their next (I hope that Starship lets the girls rest cause they deserve it) but in the meantime we can just look back on all their amazing songs and moments and look forward for the next!

Choi Yoojung (Fantagio)This smol bean is a talented ball of floof and the Lead Dancer, Lead Vocalist AND Lead Rapper of the group. I mean like, wow, that’s a lot of leading positions, and she manages to slay any of those. She is also best friends with Doyeon and believe me when I say that they are cute together. She was an MC for the program ‘Golden Tambourine’ and boy did she slay there too. (I have now officially come to the conclusion that no matter what she does, Yoojung freaking slays)

If you want to check out more of Yoojung, than here are some videos of her! We have 1 2 3 beautiful 1:1 eyecontact videos of her performances in Produce 101, as well as her performance of BTS ‘Fire’ during ‘Golden Tambourine’!  Although not much is known about her debut with Fantagio, we know that it will be during the first half of this year!

Kang Mina (Jellyfish Enterainment)This talented girl is the Lead Vocalist and Rapper of IOI and I hate it so much that we had to wait for their semilast comeback to see that part because Mina as a rapper = amazingness. Luckily Jellyfish realised this too and added a rap in Gugudans latest comeback so now we can see her being amazing even more. She is also the squishiest girl you will ever meet. Ever. Even if that squish is now mostly gone *glares* she will still be the squishiest. She also loves eating a lot, which is honestly super relatable and makes her even better

If you want to check out more of Mina, than here are some videos of her! We have 1 2 3 beautiful 1:1 eyecontact videos of her performances in Produce 101, as well as a video of her being absolutely adorable! And if you cannot get enough of her performances than don’t worry! She debuted with Gugudan in June of 2016 and they recently had their first comeback that is definitely worth checking out!

Kim Doyeon (Fantagio)Kim Doyeon is apparantly only a Vocalist for IOI, something that I do not understand because this girl is amazing in literally everything she does?! Why is she only a vocalist?! She was a freaking cheerleader for three years, the captain and she led her squad to a freaking national title. She is best friends with Yoojung, the amazing tol&smol duo and if you ever want to talk to me but don’t know about what than Dodaeng (their ship name) is guaranteed to start a conversation.

If you want to check out more of Doyeon, than here are some videos of her! We have 1 2 3 beautiful 1:1 eyecontact videos of her performances in Produce 101, as well as a video of her showing of her cheerleading skills!  Although not much is known about her debut with Fantagio, we know that it will be during the first half of this year!

Jeon Somi (JYP Entertainment)You might recognise the Maknae of her time during SIXTEEN where she almost joined TWICE but then was send away because her dancing wasn’t good enough, only for her to come on Produce 101 and end up as number 1 of all the 101 trainees. Wow. That’s seriously insane to think about. She is the Lead Dancer, Lead Vocalist, Rapper, face of the Group AND the Maknae, and although she is pretty young she is incredibly talented.

If you want to check out more of Somi, than here are some videos of her! We have 1 2 3 beautiful 1:1 eyecontact videos of her performances in Produce 101, as well as her collab with Eric Nam. Although there isn’t much known about her joining a new JYPE group or a possible solo debut, she is currently starring in season 2 of Sister’s Slam Dunk, which is a very fun tv show that is definitely worth watching!

If you want to watch some more programs with IOI in them than here is a list with all the shows they have been on! A big thank you to @knqyebin for sending me the link to her post, which also links towards every episode which makes it a bit easier to get to the eps to watch them :)

I hope that this will help you! I’ll add the link to this in my bio so if you ever want to look at it again you don’t need to search that far. I hope that this will also help any other new fans when they are just getting into IOI. If you have any more questions you can always message me and I’ll answer!

*This seriously took days to write and put together which is one of the reasons that posting this got delayed. I AM SORRY FOR THAT!! I’ll try to answer asks like this earlier next time!**Also rip me this was, excluding gifs, pictures and links 4 pages long in google docs*

[putanginamoian-blog]

Yung FS na ginawa ko para sa'yo dati.

“Yes I love it! (idk what they say next)

Each member deferently bowed in front of the people in queue and made their way to their respective chairs. Beams form on the faces of each and everyoneㅡfor Somi and the rest, they were heavenly.

The fanmeeting was held inside a huge mall; yet it’s not an ordinary one. The building’s base floor was made particularly for special events that are to betide. And the fanmeeting was worthy of being called as sui generis.

IOI was a cynosure. They were strangers to some of the passerbys yet they get allured with each member’s visage. Congenial they were.

Thousands of people cameㅡbringing their delectation with themselves. Hoping to get a glimpse of the members is adequately to consider to find them in a state of utmost bliss. The members looked enthused with the fact that they get to grasp more of the people who bore feelings of esteem towards them. However, Somi looked dejected; her eyes wandered all throughout the vicinity, it’s as if she’s anticipating for someone’s arrival.

Doyeon, who sat beside her, noticed this unusual demeanorㅡand gave her a look as if she got her baffled. "Why are you looking at me like that?” Somi uttered with an inquisitive look on her face. She hoped that Doyeon hadn’t descry of the unusual demeanor of hers.

“You’re idling.” Doyeon responded. “Aniyaaa.” Somi pouted and she and Doyeon grin in unison. “Waiting for the arrival of someone?” Doyeon made a query regarding someone who she suspects is the one whom Somi is anticipating for.

Somi shot her dirty looks. She didn’t like it when Doyeon talks that wayㅡall giddy and intistigating. “Don’t talk to meㅡ” Somi’s words were held back by a sonorous sound, which was the crowd’s voices.

They were taking turns in asking IOI queries and requests that are non-identical from each other. IOI members were glad; they were the reason for the felicity the people were feeling.

A person made an assay of requesting Somi to do. Somi smiled in return, “What is it?” she queried. The girl, who was anything but peccant and vile formed a smile on her face. “Can you please dance through BTS’ newly released songㅡBlood, Sweat and Tears?”

Surely, Somi did understood what the little girl said. She graps more of the language than what we expect from her. Somi made an assay of dancing along the chorus, and she looked goofy, which resulted in a sonorous cackle from the crowd.

She stopped and blushed a crimson red and just laughed her embarassment offㅡseeing and hearing the fansㅡwhom she lovesㅡlaugh, is dulcet to her. Yet because being looking and doing goofy is in her nature, her hands danced through the song another time around.

Oblivion to Somi, a guy in a hood made his way behind the stageㅡwhere IOI goes whenever they feel uncomfortable or drowsy and what-not.

He then tried to compose himself before seeing Somi; he was sorry for arriving overdue. And of course, for making Somi feel dejected.

Somi, who was back in aforeidling, seems sumberged in a myriad of thoughts. The sonorous noise from the crowd seemed chaffy to her at this point. All she cares about for now is the arrival of someone. Out of boredom, she reached for the book in her bag and read through each page.

“Remember when we promised we wouldn’t let any day end without forgiving each other? But maybe the promise you made when you’re seven no longer count when you’re teen. The years cancel out our conviction like watching the sand washed away by a frothing wave. Remember when we said we’d always tell the truth-if not to other people, then at least to each other? These days you dont even look me in the eye when you say there’s a party you can’t invite me to. l wouldn’t like it there anyway. I wouldn’t like the guests. l wouldn’t like the music, I wouldn’t like that version of you anyway. We hide parts of ourselves in desk drawers and underneath sheets, far too many places to keep track of. What happens if we read those parts back someday?”

Somi closed the book and massaged her foreheadㅡshe felt aswoon by the words she had just deconstructed. A question mark was dancing at the tip of her tongue.

She turned to face their manager and requested to go back to the room wherein they supposedly take basks. She sighed as she reached for the doorknob, and leaned over the door. Unaforeseen, the door suddenly detoured and she almost fell.

Good thing, someone caught her hand. Somi looked up to see who it was, just to see it was who she was anticipating for.

Kim Taehyung.

Somi shot her a dirty look and proceeded to a refrigerator near the sofaㅡto take a drink.

Taehyung followed her, a grin forming on his visage. Somi leaned over the mini table she’s facing, and took a profound breath. Taehyung called over her, yet she acted like a deaf woman. He also tried to get her by hand, yet she constantly avoid his touch. Taehyung’s grin got wider.

“What’s that face for?” He asked and chuckled. “Shut up.” Somi responded. Taehyung tried to go near Somi yet she ran straight for the door and back to the vicinity where the fanmeeting was held. She sat down on her respective chair cursory. The members, however, didn’t notice her.

Taehyung laughed at the fact that the girl he liked, or rather love, was a preposterous one. As he walked near the vicinity, a blaring noise from the crowd was heard. Frivolously, it was for Taehyung’s arrival. Taehyung hurriedly went to Somi’s place and grabbed her hand. The crowd’s noise got a lot more earsplitting. The members laughed for Somi’s reaction.

On the other hand, Taehyung, still interwined with Somi’s hand, hauled the silly girl to a café store nearby. As Taehyung opened the door, some of the people inside heaved. Taehyung just smiled on them and made their way to the counter. “What’s your order?” The cashier asked.

“I’ll take an iced green tea.” Taehyung bowed with regards, and Somi, still ignoring Taehyung, made her orderㅡ"An iced cappuccino will do.“

Somi headed straight to a vacant seat and ofcourse, took a seat. Taehyung did too, as well.

"So, what’s the sitch?” Taehyung asked. Somi stayed placid, which made Taehyung discombobulated. She stayed that way until they had received their orders. Somi alacritously grabbed her drink and took a sip. Taehyung smiled at the sight of seeing her girlfriend act like a child, and was utmost blissedㅡfor they have the same attitude.

“What?” Somi asked in disturbance. “What is the reason behind your actions?” Taehyung asked. Yet, there’s no hint of vexation. Only diversion.

Somi crossed her arms and sighed and pouted. “You should have came earlier.” Taehyung grinned, “What for?”

Somi was stuttering; “I granted a request given by a person in the crowd.” “What was it?” Taehyung’s eyes crinkledm

“I danced through your song; Blood, Sweat, and Tears.” Somi said and looked in another direction.

“I got to take a video of that.” He formed a beam.

Somi was surprised, yet Taehyung said before Somi can even say anything; “No, I was there, all along. I even came really early.”

“Then why didn’t you show yourself up?” Curiosity made it’s way on Somi’s face.

“I just wanted to know how you would react.”

“Therefore, I assume you got the chance to watch me?”

“Yeah, I did.” Taetae made a face.

“I hate you.” Somi uttered through an irked face.

Taehyung just pinched her cheeks and went to sit beside her. “Here, let’s watch it.”

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