#i hope fish has dms open lol.

[twopoppies]

Hi Gina!! First of all, I wanted to thank you and Daisie and everyone else here for the amazing Larry masterlist. I'm a new larrie myself, though I've been around the fandom since 2011 (tho not super closely) when WMYB MV was released. I was deep diving on receipts, and as per usual, I took it all in with a grain of salt and kept all my conclusions rational and unbiased. I just wanna add something you might consider a receipt, connecting to one of the tour receipts ones I’ve read on Daisie’s tags (I dove into both yours and Daisie’s tags lol). This isn't so big and new at all but I thought I'd add. Sorry in advance if I am too vague with this lol

A quick context: I had worked with small event productions here in my country, and had become pretty close with suppliers (tech, security, venue, etc). I got curious about an entry I read from your receipts tag which happened in an international tour here. Anyway, I am pretty close with our security supplier, and I thought I'd check if there were traces of them working with the boys. After a few google search, I saw them with Louis on a video during his tour here - confirming that at least for that show, they did work with Louis. He has been very open to me ever since we met, so when I DMed him about being involved in the show, he enthusiastically answered that they did all 1D-related ones in the country.

Anyway, bottomline, I tried to ask if it's true that Louis was here during Harry's concert because I've kind of heard it somewhere (being the receipt I read from Daisies' account). That’s when he got weirdly super silentl and left me on ‘seen’/‘read’ (which had never happened EVER before). I waited with the chat box open; he se seemed type after a few mins - and then stopped completely. When I realized he (c)wouldn't reply, I didn't push it and said he doesn't have to respond and that I respect if he’s bound by certain contracts. After that, he immediately replied, basically just saying "Thank you" (for understanding, essentially). We just chatted a bit more before ending the convo.

So I guess I'd say it somewhat solidifies that theory in my head because I personally know them, and if there's really something super big they cannot share at all, they WONT. I knew there was something because it was almost comical for me how he suddenly left me on ‘read’. So if it's not a big deal at all he would've shared because we've talked about other works they've done in the past (he was so enthusiastic and shared all the names of the shows they've done with 1D a few mins prior lol) - but when I specifically asked if Louis was with Harry here for his tour, he immediately closed off and stopped replying - and THEN thanked me when I said he didn’t have to reply lol (I didn’t ask anything else, just that exact wording, straightforwardly asking if L was there during H's show, and I didn’t phrase it in a playful or teasing way like I am implying there’s smth gossip-worthy between them I'm fishing out of him)

ANYWAY, I’m not even sure if this is worth posting but I needed someone to share it with and I thought it could be like a backup info for the future hahahaha I am trying to be vague because I do want to protect myself and my (in a way) source (?). But if you need any clarification from me - I’d be open to elaborate more in the dms (I’m rusty with tumblr so I hope I can navigate this properly lol)

Ofc, a part of me wish I could've gotten something, but I also respect them for staying quiet. And even if they did share something big, I might've had second thoughts on sharing bcs I was mainly asking it for my own sanity tbh, knowing that I knew who the security team was lol So I guess my point of sharing this with you is to basically share that the usual NDA thing with H&L, whether as a whole 1D unit before or as solos, is definitely enforced here. That the silence somewhat solidified my belief of other Larry receipts such as 1.) in relation to the Argentinian security confessions, and 2.) the receipts pointing out that those two fly together sometimes in the tours.

Idk if this is worth posting at all, but I just really needed to let it because I feel like I might be getting biased but also not (it was very fishy for me for sure lol). Thank you!

Hi, darling. No, it’s totally worth posting! I agree with you that it says something without saying anything. Are you able to tell me what year you were asking about? Or what country? I won’t post anything you don’t want public.

I’m really glad to hear that people take their NDAs seriously and even if it was from years ago they would still be professional about it.

Thank you so much for sharing this. If you think of anything else you can add, LMK. Or send me a DM. I’ll keep it private. 🩷

[serickswrites]

Whumpas in July '24 Day 1

(Re)Introduce Yourself

Hey friends! I am once again doing Whumpmas in July (so grateful that you put the event on!) My name is S. E. Ricks. I go by any pronoun (as long as it isn't derogatory). I have had this blog for just about 2.5 years now, but I have been on tumblr since the beginning (my now defunct main isn't my first tumblr...i am an elder lol) and I started this blog to put my writing out there. I am still very sensitive about putting my writing out there, but am trying (REALLY trying) to be more confident in what I put out there since it seems like people enjoy what I write. (Or at least I hope I do). Asks/questions/submissions/dms are always open! (I do a little happy dance every time I get one). I mostly write whump, but I do pepper other things in there (for those of you following along with 'Make Me Your Villain', it runs the range and will have some nsfw chapters :D ). I am, sadly, STILL working on finishing up giant WIP (Burnt Offerings since I think people have asked me about it before). I literally have like 8 chapters to go. I just...I just am having a hard time saying goodbye to my characters.

Whump Things I like: just about anything as long as it is not on my ick list.

Whump Things I do not like: underage whumpees, amputation, and unfinished things (yes, hypocritical, please feel free to yell at me to finish things that you would like finish)

Fun facts about me: I run my own business, that I love very much, but it does take up a lot of time and can be kind of expensive. I am a huge animal lover and have 6 cats, 2 dogs, a pond full of fish, and a horse (who I now have under saddle and she's doing so great, so proud of my bb). I do have two pretty rare chronic health conditions which really take the wind out of my sails more often than I would care to admit and it really gets in the way of my writing sometimes simply because I do not have the spoons. My brain is going and has all the ideas, but my body doesn't always cooperate. It's super frustrating especially since writing is my self care. I'm trying to be better about knowing my limits, but things keep surprising me lol.

This is a pretty solid re-intro. But if I left things off or if you want to know, ask away friends!

[yoissu]

mega belated @opsecretsanta2019 for tumblr user fish-nut (it’s not letting me tag u fhhdsjdsj tumblr why....)

sorry it’s so late!! I underestimated how busy I was gonna be during the holidays but thank u for being so patient !!

[slytherbun]

hate the tie

pairing: draco malfoy x hufflepuff!reader

summary: you and draco have an explicit arrangement that has been kept secret for awhile now—or at least you believed it was until somebody started to become suspicious with your whereabouts.

word count: 1.5k

warning: sexual content.

tags: @specialagentsoftie

note: this is the first hp fic i've written so i hope draco is portrayed okay. characters are obviously aged up. if you'd like to be tagged for future fics just comment, dm, or send in a non-anon ask.

another note: this is basically just filthy smut and enemies with benefits. i'm perfectly fine with leaving it the way it is lol. but let me know if you'd like another part with a 'happier' ending.

the fingers around your neck pressed down gently. not enough to suffocate you but enough to have you gasping for air around his close hold. 

you didn't doubt he could feel your heart beating two times more than usual. it didn't help that the pace he kept was teasing. selfishly making it so you were unable to come yet.

your body was going crazy and you knew he was doing it on purpose with every thrust in your cunt.

his wrists were holding you securely in place so he could slide easily inside of you without care. 

just a few moments ago he pushed your skirt up and now it was bunched up around your waist. and your shirt was pulled down, you had no doubt that draco could visually see your chest heaving through your bralette. 

the yellow tie that was a part of your uniform and usually went around the collar of the polo—was a stuffed up wet bundle of mess inside your mouth.

"i hate you." draco hissed into your hair under his breath while balls deep inside your cunt. he didn't want to look at your face while pounding mercilessly inside of your tight hole.

with elbows were bent, and your hands pressed up against the cold wall—you tried to keep yourself upright. but every time draco pulled back with his cock, you were struggling to keep steady with shaky limbs.

when pushed back inside of you roughly just now, you almost tipped forward and when he noticed your failure to keep up with his thrusts—he rolled his eyes at your uselessness.

draco paused still inside of you to adjust his position and pulled you closer to him. he placed one hand on your hip and gripped it rather tightly. after grabbing a fist full of your hair with his other hand, he chuckled.

you whined at the sensation of his calloused hands pulling at the strands from your scalp. "of course the tie isn't enough to shut your bloody mouth up. somebody will hear, come in and then you won't get to finish if you don't stop yapping your pathetic mouth."

his hushed words had you biting down on the tie more swiftly then you'd like to admit. your cheeks flushed from embarrassment with that astonishing thought.

he took the opportunity of your pause to shove his cock even deeper inside of you. you didn't think it would have been possible but this was draco. 

quick thrusts rubbed your g-spot and he had you seeing white spots through your vision. you could feel every inch of draco's penetrating length.

he tugged the grip he had on your hair back, this so he could hold you closer like a doll for his own use of pleasure. draco had you in the exact position he wanted and left a small kiss on your collarbone before slowly making his way up your neck nipping on your neck and leaving love bites.

"you feel so bloody good around me, y/n." he breathlessly spoke and you couldn't help yourself but taunt his earlier statement. "i hate your guts malfoy." you muffled as best as you could through your lips, hoping he'd know what you said through the tie.

the statement you gave him must have been manageable to hear. and it angered him because one second he was holding your hair and the next he was letting go of it to grasp ahold of your cheeks.

he pushed them open so your lips looked like a fish out of water. leaving you no choice but to push them out just like he wanted.

draco pulled the tie out of your mouth and instead used it to tie your wrists together. after securing your wrists back, he whisked two of his fingers inside your lips and hoped to further quiet your moans and whines.

"good girl. suck on them and i'll play with your clit, hmm?" draco whispered and you licked his fingertips with your tongue as a response. he couldn't help but groan and think about your warm mouth wrapped around him.

you knew the hand that was still placed on your hip would leave fingertips with how much his grip was digging into your soft skin. you felt relief when he moved it and circled your clit instead. 

he felt your body drop into his at the intense release of tension but he couldn't help himself. draco pinched your nub while smirking deviously and you shrieked around his fingers still wrapped around your lips.

your tummy jolted and he quickly moved his hand there so he could feel his cock inside. "shit, y/n do you see this? i'm fucking you so bloody hard that i can see my cock." he muttered. 

your eyes widened when you tilted your head down. you could see clearly what he was talking about. his bulging cock was really pressing against your tummy from inside. 

he coddled you to his chest and pushed your head back so he could watch with every push and shove into your pussy. your eyes rolled into the back of your head at the pleasure. he flicked your puffed clit and your eyes opened back up immediately. 

"i'm gonna come." you managed to utter and you felt the shake of his head. "not yet slut." you tried squeezing your thighs together due to the pressure but he slapped your pussy. "keep them spread or else i'm going to withdraw from your cunt and find another."

you wanted to come so bad that you could feel tears falling and checked to see if you could tell how close he was. his face was leaning down and still watching the view.

you used that time to take in draco's features. blonde pieces of his hair stuck up in different directions from the sweat on his forehead. his eyebrows were scrunched together and lips screwed closely into a thin line. 

he was awfully close too.

you could see the pleasure thickly on his face and he pushed down your bralette to squeeze your nipple harshly. "your cunt keeps bloody squeezing me y/n. come now." he hushed into your ear and completely bottomed-out inside of you.

you thought you heard draco murmur a "please" but you weren't sure if you were hallucinating from the intense pleasure.

the knot from your belly finally unraveled and you moaned around his fingers loudly. he groaned around your cunt, pounding a few more times before dropping every drip of cum he had inside of your bruised hole.

after a few minutes of feeling his warm cum and trying to keep it inside of you as long as possible, he pulled out and you hissed at the empty feeling and cold air around your pussy.

using the two fingers he just released from your mouth, he curled them in a scissor like motion before pushing them against your hole. he scooped up the cum dribbling out and pushed the drops all the way back in with his knuckles dangerously close to your sensitive clit.

he smirked at your breath hitching from the cold rings around his fingers pressed against your skin. he pulled his fingers out, he put his cock back inside of his pants and buttoned it back up. 

he took one look at you. mascara dried down your face and stained your cheeks with black streaks. he laughed and you bit your bottom lip and held up your wrists. "release my arms you arrogant bastard."

he made a "tsk tsk" sound and rubbed his neck as if he was thinking if he should or not before moving forward to untie your hands.

you instantly backed up from him to rub your wrists then snatched the tie from draco's hands. giving him a cue to leave, you looked away from him to grab some toilet paper to wipe and clean yourself up. 

when you adjusted your skirt he finally snapped out of his trance from watching you and unlocked the bathroom stall's latch. 

"you may want to get a new tie before showing your face in the great hall. i might have lent you one if you weren't a hufflepuff." he snickered—looking at the color in disgust and left without glancing back.

that's one thing you could agree on.

yellow wasn't your first pick either but you favored the hufflepuff attitude more than the slytherin's. you wouldn't have it any other way despite the shade of green you often fantasized wearing.

thirty minutes later you walked into the great hall about ten or so minutes after draco did. you made your way over to the hufflepuff table for dinner and sat down on the bench by cedric and your other two friends.

he raised an eyebrow at an oblivious draco that glanced over in the hufflepuff area and watched you gingerly sit down. 

cedric has been your best friend for a while now. he figured out easily that something was definitely up. with a knowing tone he asked, "where have you been?"

you bit your lip and put some food on your plate before looking at cedric with a shrug of your shoulders. "just around."

[dreaming-of-assclass]

So, um, hi. I've sent in askes before, and usually wouldn't be shy to let you know who I'm am, but I've had a really crappy day (my mom made me legit burst into tears) and my birthday is in two days, so I've decided to cheer myself up.

Do you have any hc for the 3-E boys (specifically underestimated Okajima/ Okajima is more than his flaws?) Thank you!

Aww baby I’m so sorry :( That sounds awful

I hope it gets better, and happy birthday love!! I hope you have a great day! My dms are always open if u wanna talk!!! Wishing you tons of love 💕

Okajima is always in a rush every morning because he has to have long morning showers. No, he’s not forced to but he’s a huge diva and it helps him feel/look his best everyday

And because of that, he’s often doing random things on the way to school or in first period. Like putting lotion on, hair gel, eyebrow tweezing, etc 😭 Everyone clowns on him so much lmao

Mimura has a lot of old collectible film stuff, like Star Wars ship models, stuff like that. He gives away some of the less valuable ones to some of the kids at the school they help in canon.

Sugino and Maehara get into origami together, to prove to the other athletes that they can be “delicate and dexterous and not at all clumsy.” They end up getting addicted and make a million paper animal figures that end up in every corner of the classroom

This tiktok is literally Okajima and Maehara energy (Okajima is the one on the bed lmao)

Itona is always wearing a million layers because he’s used to it :( from when he was homeless and had to conserve warmth somehow

Yada, Kurahashi, and Nakamura film makeup videos for fun, and the most frequent of their victims clients is Okajima. He always volunteers if they need someone, and it’s fun for him. He likes learning about new hacks and how to use it.

Okajima always offers to sharpen any of his seatmate’s pencils if he’s getting up anyways for his own. It’s a little sweet gesture!

Muramatsu, Nagisa and Okajima help each other pick out beanies whenever they do online shopping in class.

Karma texts Isogai at the most random times saying the oddest things just to bother him lmao. But jokes on him bc at this point, nothing fazes Isogai lmaooo

Karma: would you still be friends with me if I were a worm?

Isogai: please leave me alone it’s literally 4am, also the answer is yes

Speaking of texts, Okajima texts like the girls. He uses a lot of “heyyy” and “omggg” and it’s completely unironic. 

Basically I feel like Okajima is a very fluid individual lol. He doesn’t care to conform to gender norms. He has no shame, except for when he does something obviously wrong. But I mean, he’ll crossdress, wear facial masks, try out makeup, etc.

The guys definitely go on a fishing trip in the future, either right after graduation or sometime during college. Actually no, they do it once every summer after graduation. And it’s very chaotic every time 😭

If there is a plan to hang out, you best believe Okajima will invite everybody he can lmao. He cannot keep word down. He always protests that “the more, the merrier!” But really he doesn’t want anyone to ever feel excluded. And if he has to throw himself under the bus for that, then so be it

He also has a really soft spot for nature. He’s always had it, but wasn’t really around people who would encourage it. After getting in 3-E and hanging out more with someone like Kurahashi, he grows to unabashedly adore bunnies and cats and everything.

He also definitely gifts cat-themed stuff to Hayami. He plays it off like his mom bought the wrong ones or something like that, but really he loves seeing Hayami’s face light up.

Okajima’s love language is acts of service, hidden under words of affirmation and big over-the-top gestures.

[xoxo-ren-xoxo]

Just a small thing that you can definitely ignore if you want and I know this might be bad to say or even selfish but I just.. miss the old Schlatt? not the one who's now doing this content and making hurtful jokes just for money. because every day I'm losing more and more hope that off camera, he's a genuine person?

Or I just want him to improve and become better? I don't know, I know I might be selfish for being like that and I do recognise that parasocial relationships do exist and he is merely a stranger to me but I just want him to become better and to be better. curse me and my heart where I just want the best for everyone, even if I don't know them. c': I think I miss the old Schlatt - because I feel like even this persona he has is not doing him any good?

This might be a thought but you know when you look at someone and you can just see or feel that their mindset is affecting them - especially when it's affecting them negatively? I noticed that with him. Again, I know I'm a mere stranger and I don't know anything about him but even with strangers you can notice this? When he was on a break from that sort of content while he was moving, on the update "I'm Back" video he had a better energy? But when he started to embrace that persona again, his energy is just becoming worse and worse. the only times his energy was better again was when he had the moments with Jambo?

I don't know. I'm just going on a ramble at this point but I just wish he became better?

This is the exact reason I still watch the guy! I completely get where you're coming from, and it can be hard to have these sorts of conversations without speculating about what goes on 'behind the scenes' (something we know Schlatt is uncomfortable with and is possibly one of the reasons he puts on such a contrary persona).

I agree that his content has taken a downturn lately. But I don't think it's the fault of the persona, I think it's the fault of him misusing the persona. Of course he can do whatever he wants, I don't really care cause if he decides he wants to keep being a bastard then that's his problem and I'll stop watching cause that content isn't for me. However, I have some ideas about why the more recent videos have been 'worse':

His heart isn't in it. Jackbox games are fun and all but they aren't the kind of content Schlatt likes to make. In my opinion. His old channel had videoessays, but he's said before that they don't make enough money for him to keep doing that. I think he likes the little slice of life videos more because they're easy and because they're fun. I think the Wii videos were great, well-structured and good examples of well-done satire, but I feel he got a bit bored of it so he tried jackbox, which just isn't the same.

The satire doesn't work with jackbox videos. In the Wii videos it's just him and the game and some props. He plays his character and clearly makes fun of the kind of person he's portraying, or he just makes fun of himself, which is cool too lol. For example in the Wii fishing video, he plays the character of a misogynistic guy who loves fishing and hates his wife. Then proceeds to be terrible at the game and get angry to the point of making himself look like a fool. That's why we laugh! We laugh at the dumbass he's portraying. And obviously this is the same for most of the bits he does. The classic one being the gay Catholic patriot. The unexpected clash of traits makes it funny. With the jackbox vids you don't really get that. It's him and some friends. And yeah, they make fun of themselves and each other, but it has the unwanted side effect of being easy to turn into something that starts to make fun of other people, such as minorities or victims of tragedy, which isn't okay.

Mans is just trying to get a rise out of people. We all know this. The last video was purposefully offensive to try to scare the dream stans away. Which was dumb, and he shouldn't have done it, but I get why he did it. With everything that's happened recently, I'm sure Schlatt doesn't want to be associated with that sort of fanbase. Unfortunately, he went the wrong way about scaring them off.

Moving, the entire thing with lunch club and cmc, getting a cat, and Connor moving in, all while making near-weekly videos, two podcasts, and being on streams. That's a lot to think about, which is probably another reason for the lazier content and falling back on 'easy' jokes that often turn out offensive.

What I'm saying is that I feel he's in a rut. He hit a dead end, tried to fix things, then fell off and made a shitty video as an attempt for controversy. If I'm right, then I feel that he's gonna take a bit of a break (he's already taken a pretty long break if you look at how long it's been since the last video on his main channel) and come back when he's actually ready to do some better content.

The video was bad, and I get why people don't feel comfortable watching him anymore. I've made my peace with it and I'm hoping for some better content soon. But not too soon!

Lots of his friends have spoken about the whole thing, and the general consensus is that yeah, it was bad. I think Connor talked about him and Schlatt seeing a kid watching The Video and Schlatt having this 'oh shit' moment? I might be wrong, if anyone has a link to the clip or stream where Connor talks about this lmk. But regardless, I think mans is taking a break and sorting himself out. There are also rumours he might stream soon but idk idk.

I feel that off-camera he's a completely different person. Minx said she sees it that way, Ty also said he's very respectful and chill off-camera. So I don't think he's a bad person (I don't think he's racist or anti-Semetic, he fucked up but I highly doubt he believes that shit irl and I think claiming that he does is just performative and kinda weird. I understand microagressions are also very bad and can be used by racists/be racist but on their own they do not make you a racist especially if it's poor taste jokes that went too far etc).

You're right though, he definitely wanted to make money. That didn't really work out for him though (if you look at the stats on The Video, it performed terribly) so I doubt it's a mistake he would make again.

For now, if you want to see better content that (I think) reflects Schlatt in a better light (aka he's still doing a bit but he's much more chill and less of a bastard about it) I recommend the chuckle sandwich podcast and sleep deprived podcast. He's on OTK streams a lot too but that sorta thing isn't really for me.

Also stan connoreatspants bringing us Jambo content all the time. 🙌

Idk if that was helpful, but it's more a gesture of solidarity since I agree with and feel everything you're saying. Of course, this is all speculation, please don't spread this as fact because I don't know Schlatt any better than you do. He's just a comfort CC and guy I think is kinda neat when he's not doing dumb shit.

Sorry for the long post. Also, you can disregard the shit I said about racism if you want cause I'm not qualified to talk about it really. There are good points for calling someone a racist for jokes like the ones in the video, but I feel like the rest of the factors should be looked at too since this is a complicated situation. Again, just my opinion, please no hate. If you have a complaint DM me or send an ask. I'm open to hearing other povs.

Have a nice day !

[bonsaiiiiiii]

100 Weird AU's? Yes.

So, I had these AU prompts on my phone for quite a while, and I was actually thinking about using them. And what better way to do it than using them with the Tracy's?

Reading and reading these prompts again (and under the gentle guidance of @willow-salix ) I thought that these prompts doesn't exactly match the brothers' everyday situation, but what if we push it past its limit? Yes, biting more that you can chew can be a little difficult, but I don't think it will be impossible. And that's where this challenge is born!

Get the Tracy's out of International Rescue's bubble and let them live an everyday situation as normal people! They can also be medieval nobles or even futuristic robots, the choice's up to you! You can choose from soo many things others don't even think about (and not even me, for a while)!

Many thanks to @tag2060 for the cover and @willow-salix for the support (both emotional and 'fic-ical'. I love both of you💚

NOTE: THESE PROMPTS AREN'T ALL MINE. I TOOK THEM FROM A GIRL I'M NOT IN CONTACT WITH ANYMORE, BUT I WAS TOLD I COULD USE THEM. ALL CREDITS FOR THESE AU'S GO TO HER, WHATEVER IS HER NAME (lmao). THE GOLD MARKED ONES (7, 11, 20, 23, 39, 47, 63, 64, 70, 83, 89, 91, 93, 96, 100) ARE ALL MINE, IN SUBSITUTION OF A FEW THAT WERE THERE, SO CREDIT FOR THE GOLDEN MARKED ONES GOES TO ME, BUT NOT EVERY ONE OF THEM.

NOTE²: SOME OF THE PROMPTS CONTAIN STRONG THEMES, LIKE DEPRESSION AND SEXUAL CONTENT. IF YOU'RE SENSIBLE TO THESE THEMES, DON'T DO THEM, NOBODY FORCES YOU IF YOU DON'T FEEL COMFORTABLE.

(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ:･ﾟ✧(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ:･ﾟ✧(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧

To participate in this challenge, all you have to do is take one of the AU prompts from the list, one or more (or all) Tracy characters, and post your fic (can be a ficlet, or a series) under the tag #100weirdTracys and #100weirdAUs.

If you don't want to participate, please don't harass/bully me. I made this challenge just for fun, and I don't want for it to feel like something bad. In fact, I don't even regret doing this thing, even if it's strange.

Ah, I almost forgot: this challenge will be over in December, so you have 4 months to choose a prompt and make a fic about it. On December I'll review all the fics, but I'll always be reblogging and reading during these 4 months lol.

If you want to tell me something, hit me up on DM's! I hope you have fun with those prompts and those bois!

(づ￣ ³￣)づ(づ￣ ³￣)づ(づ￣ ³￣)づ(づ￣ ³￣)づ

TO RESUME:

• Swearing is allowed.

• You can write as many words as you want!

• Oc's and muses can pop in too!

• Make sure to tag your fic(s) under the '#100weirdTracys' and '#100weirdAUs' tags, so that I can find them easily.

• Always tag or contact me if you need help with anything! I'll be more than glad to help you!

• If you decide to do the mature prompts (19, 90, just to state an example) please refrain from using a too mature language and don't go further than making up. I don't like that kind of language, so it would be peachy to just avoid writing so they make wild sex behind a bush. Any kind of very mature fic or language won't be read by me, I'm sorry. You can still use those prompts, but don't work their bed life too much.

• Any dialect or first language apart from english is more than welcome in this yard! I would love even to read snippets of foreign language in fics, as long as there's a translation near it, but you're not forced to write in another language. If you don't feel comfortable doing it just don't do it, even if I'm telling you. (For the record, I love Irish so much I could listen to a person speaking this language for hours and you won't hear me complaining).

• I will accept this challenge in whatever form it takes, be it a fic, a drawing, a song, etc. I’m open to anything and I watch everything that comes before me!

φ(．．)φ(．．)φ(．．)φ(．．)__φ(．．)

That said, you can find the prompts down here:⬇️

 #1 I saved you from drowning!AU

#2 I broke into your house at two in the morning because I was drunk and I thought it was my house!AU

#3 I am a door-to-door seller please buy something!AU

#4 I grabbed the wrong luggage at the airport!AU

#5 I know we hate each other, but a wedding would be more convenient for both of us!AU

#6 I accidentally poured you a love potion!AU

#7 I sent you 12 messages but you left me on read!AU

#8 I am your secret admirer and I leave you anonymous cards!AU

#9 Sorry, but I was first in line!AU

#10 We don’t know each other but let's pretend to be together because someone is bothering me!AU

#11 We pack up to do a funny trip but we end up in Bolivia without fuel!AU

#12 Locked in quarantine and we're bored! AU

#13 I do everything to find out the identity of this superhero and you try to mislead me because it’s really you!AU

#14 I got into a taxi just to find out it was already occupied!AU

#15 I called the wrong number!AU

#16 I got into the wrong car OMG I'm ashamed, but while you’re there why don’t you give me a ride!AU

#17 I found a wallet and my business is to find the owner and return it!AU

#18 I am a street artist and you complain that I play in front of your house at night!AU

#19 I caught you watching porn!AU

#20 We're two strangers that start chatting while waiting for the bus!AU

#21 Nosy and sloppy roommates!AU

#22 Old childhood friends who come back after years!AU

#23 I got shot to the arm/leg but you're there to save me and OMG ILY!AU

#24 We’re sitting next to each other on a plane and please don’t throw up on me!AU

#25 We accidentally switched phones!AU

#26 We are both contestants in a reality show and let's pretend to be together because the audience will ship us!AU

#27 I am a wedding planner and my ex’s wedding had to happen to me!AU

#28 I learned sign language to communicate with you!AU

#29 Professional model and novice photographer!AU

#30 Sorry I ran you over!AU

#31 We make out and then I find out that you are my roommate’s boyfriend!AU

#32 I’m quoting aloud the last book of a series and I’m spoiling you!AU

#33 It is a universally acknowledged truth that a bachelor with a large fortune must be looking for a wife!AU

#34 I am a Partisan and you are a fascist!AU(Italy during World War II!AU)

#35 I am the blood of the dragon!AU (Iron Throne!AU)

#36 Your dog is hitting on mine!AU

#37 I’m depressed and I decide to call a hotline!AU

#38 You are my soulmate but I am in love with someone else!AU

#39 Strange encounter at tattoo shop!AU

#40 On my mark, unleash hell!AU(Roman Empire!AU)

#41 I am an Elf, don’t look at me for ears I am ashamed of!AU(The Lord of the Rings!AU)

#42 Maybe my life should be more than just survival!AU(The 100!AU)

#43 I am an activist and I am trying to convert you to the cause!AU

#44 We are occupying the school but you are a spoilsport!AU

#45 All our friends are drunk and we're not!AU

#46 We’ve been together for three months and now you’re telling me you’re a werewolf!AU

#47 X has to go into a rocket to the moon and Y has to train X!

#48 Knight in shining armor and damsel in distress!AU

#49 We reluctantly team up against the zombie apocalypse!AU

#50 I’m a vampire and your smell is driving me nuts!AU(Twilight!AU)

#51 Monsters have attacked the Earth and the only way to save humanity is aboard giant robots piloted by two people who must maintain a mental union!AU(Pacific Rim!AU)

#52 My timer stopped as soon as I saw you!AU(Soulmate!AU)

#53 I need a lawyer and you are the best!AU

#54 I’m a Viking and I plundered your ship!AU

#55 I’m a classic dandy from the Regency Age and you’re just a silly girl from the lower middle class!AU

#56 I’m a policeman and you’re an intrusive journalist and I really shouldn’t give you any information about the new murder!AU

#57 You are a wannabe actress and I am a theatrical director who is losing patience and health!AU

#58 Due to a computer error, X and Y become college roommates!AU

#59 X wants to see the world of Y, how he lives and what he usually does, and ends up spending a night in prison!AU

#60 I attend the yoga course just to watch how flexible the instructor is!AU

#61 I am a bounty hunter and you are my prey!AU

#62 I am a secret spy and pretend to be your friend only to get information about your father!AU

#63 I discuss with you about a thing but you have in mind another!AU

#64 We are forced to be best friends just because our moms were best friends too but you're too bossy for me!AU

#65 We broke up but I never changed emergency contacts and now I’m in the hospital and they called you!AU

#66 I am an angel and you are a demon!AU

#67 I hit you on the balls during a game of paintball and oh my god I am so sorry!AU

#68 We live in a dystopian world where your partner is chosen by society!AU(Matched!AU)

#69 I’m a dragon trainer I’ll prove to you that they are peaceful creatures!AU(Dragon Trainer!AU)

#70 Date at japanese restaurant!AU

#71 You’re a cheerleader and I’m a punk and we live in two different worlds!AU

#72 I was a zombie and I was "re-animated" but you treat me like I’m still a monster!AU(In the Flesh!AU)

#73 I am your son’s teacher and I am calling to talk to you about his conduct, would he also come to dinner with me!AU

#74 I am an Achaean warrior and you Trojan and we are fighting the Trojan War!AU

#75 I met my asshole boss at the bar but I found out he’s pretty cool!AU

#76 It was not my intention to touch your ass, it’s just that the bus is crowded, it’s not my fault ok!AU

#77 I went fishing and accidentally fished a mermaid!AU

#78 I just committed a crime and I need to use you as a hostage!AU

#79 You’re the bastard who always parks in front of my door and in spite I’ll scratch your car!AU

#80 I accidentally went back in time and fell in love with you, too bad you’re a barbarian!AU

#81 I urgently need you to fix my computer but please don’t judge me for my chronology!AU

#82 I work on the cruise ship where you are spending your holidays!AU

#83 I'm out in the rainstorm without an umbrella because the weather forecast was sunny!AU

#84 I hugged the wrong person from behind!AU

#85 Celebrity on the run and ordinary citizen confused!AU

#86 Stuck in a ranch cleaning horse poop but it doesn’t matter because that cowboy is a badass!AU

#87 We got married in Vegas, but we’re total strangers!AU

#88 But, officer, I wasn’t doing anything wrong, I was just smoking a joint, want a hit!AU

#89 X is an astronaut and Y is a weird but funny alien that likes to scream, overreact and laugh!AU

#90 I slept with you for a bet but I loved it and I’d like to keep seeing you!AU

#91 I reveal to some friends that you wear boxers/underwear with green aliens on them but you're behind me and oh gosh total shame!AU

#92 Oops I accidentally entered a busy dressing room!AU

#93 You're a stranger but I keep crossing paths with you and I'm kinda confused right now!AU

#94 X is a medium and Y a ghost!AU

#95 X is a guardian angel and Y wants to die!AU

#96 X accidentally enters in a cat and Y has to rescue it from up a tree!AU

#97 X risks losing the house because Y’s company wants to buy the land!AU

#98 I’m an artist and I need a model do you want to pose for me!AU

#99 I’m not really sick but the new doctor is so beautiful that I found out I have a disease with an unpronounceable name!AU

#100 A strange job application!AU

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If you find them more practical, I also have some photos down here with all the prompts organized:⬇️

That said, enjoy! Hope it brings you joy and makes you happy while you do it!💙💚🧡💛❤💜💖🖤

[haikyupid]

Order from Lunatrix B,

Hey there! First of all THIS IS SUCH A GOOD IDEA! I can only imagine the time and dedication it took you to think this through and make the orders! (Also I am lowkey so shy doing it off anon like AAAAH) May I please order a Dalgona Matchup Latte? (If it's possible to go with more than one drink then it would be nice to have the Strawberry hearts frappineccino as well!)

So I am an ENFP capricorn and my enneagram is 7w8! My behaviour with other really depends on my mood and on their personalities so other's image of me goes from "wow she is so friendly" to "wtf she is so conceited and manipulative". But most of the time people describe me as crazy, outgoing and bubbly! Since my height is on the shorter side and my cheeks are always red and freckly, I look younger and more innocent than I actually am.

I'm adaptable, super spontaneous and hate overthinking stuff. Also I am shortsighted lol but I don't really like wearing my glasses in public, they make me look so serious and studious when LOL no. I don't really care now but when I was younger I hated the 'honor student' label it gave me. I am a TROLL, super sarcastic and my sense of humor is hard to understand for some people since it's super ironic and kinda dark sometimes.

I have many hobbies and love learning new skills but the most important ones to me are definitely drawing/painting, cooking/baking, piano, reading, acting, swimming, travelling and learning new languages (I am fluent in 5 and learning 2 more). I used to be super passionate about martial arts and reached a black belt but had to stop due to health issues 😭. I'm ambitious, mischievious and cunning. I laugh super easily and smile a lot! I laugh at really inapropriate times, and since I don't cry easily my friends and family call me insensitive oupsii.

I have a super flirty personality but since I do it unknowingly or ironically sometimes, when people take it seriously I freak out and run away. I am hella oblivious to people flirting with me though like even if I notice I go nah there is no way they are serious, so when cute guys confront me about it and say it straight out all my confidence crumbles I BECOME SO SHY and speak in tiny font (and deny it like haha wow you're funny).

 I am really honest about my 'positive feelings', like I compliment people a lot and am the type of person to text others saying that I am happy to have them in my life, that I had a great time hanging out, etc. But I SUCK with my negative feelings?! Like I just ignore them and never voice them out. Friends and family sometimes blame me saying that since I never confide they feel like I put a wall between us and that our relationship is kinda unequal since they tell me everything (I am a really good listener) but I really don't do it on purpose... I kind of feel obligated to be the 'strong' one who does not really feel anything...

I am sorry this is so long, thank you for taking the time to read it! Good luck for all your other orders i'm sute you'll do great!)

Thanks a lot for sending in your order here at Kyupid's Love Shop. One Dalgona Matchup Latte coming right up!....... where’d the side effec— oh, here it is! I matcha with ˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥

➞ this relationship thrives on the fact that you’ll both feel like you’re on top of the world when together; but honestly though, boring is not a part of this couple’s vocabulary like whew— (lemme be a part of this, ples, like i’ll third wheel)

➞ don’t get me wrong, it doesn’t mean that you and nishi are immature (it’s actually quite the contrary) it’s just that you both don’t feel that societal pressure that most do, you’re both just so free and that’s not something the majority of the population can afford

➞ so to say that you’re both beyond lucky to have found each other is a huge understatement; this be the type of relationship that iconic romance anime movies are based off on 

➞ nishi will be the first one to make a move for sure, like bby did not even hesitate for a second — i want it, i’m gonna try to get it typa man

➞ it won’t even matter if you push him away or if he has to court you for a year or so, he’ll only stop if you actually say that you’re not interested but i mean WHO in the world would reject him?! 

➞ your looks will definitely remind him of a tropical paradise he’s visited, which is what he feels whenever he’s around you, so best believe this man won’t let his walking paradise go; he’ll probably also call you his lil’ firework

➞ he values the fact that you both can view the world the same, but if there’s a difference in your viewpoints, it doesn’t lead to arguments like most do, but instead having each side doing their best to understand one another — nishi is the type to be very open-minded and always fights for what’s right, i also get that vibe from you

➞ nishi is up for anything; so when he found out about your abundance of hobbies, he will bombard you with questions about them, your advice to get the hang of them, and always asking if he’s doing them right 

“look babe, i tried to draw something for you!”

“aww, yuu, this cow looks so cute.” 

“.......”

“...it’s a baby bear, but thank you so much, baby, it’s definitely an improvement from the last one. i love you!”

➞ he has a very innocent type of humour... maybe sometimes perverted, but that’s not the point— so if he does find one of your jokes to be too dark, he will ask if you’re okay, but he definitely won’t be like ‘wtf is wrong with this betch?’

➞ you two would always be traveling whenever your schedules allow you two; and you guys would always be learning something new! surfing, atv riding, bungee jumping, hunting, fishing (durh), learning some catch phrases in the place’s native language, cooking their national dishes, and so so much more

➞ with nishi, there’s never a time where you’ll be bored, everything will just be perfect when you’re with him; literally you’ll both be the couple who probably doesn’t even plan their days unless it’s like something so important

➞ ‘there are some flowers you only see when you take detours’ type of life motto/vibes

➞ oh, and you always complimenting him and telling him how much he means to you? mans could die from to much heart palpitations... uwu, just pure uwus

➞ he’s not very romantic all the time, so most of the compliments he’ll be giving you will be like:

“baby, you’re way cuter than this. you’re the most beautiful person i’ve ever laid my eyes on. you’re perfect!”

“...but you’re holding a fish i— y’know what, thank you... now can you throw it back in the water, please?”

➞ loves, and when i say loves i really mean it, when you wear your glasses, but he definitely will be cheeky and say, ‘oh, sorry, i didn’t know this was the library. i was looking for my very beautiful girlfriend... oh, that’s you? well you look a lil’ too gorgeous to be her’ but foreal, pls wear you glasses more often, he literally melts when you do

➞ he’s always telling you that he loves you; and when he’s in another country, expect photos and vids from him that look like those tinder fish-boys (idek if this’ll make sense to you) but he has the most beautiful smile a man could ever have and such a sincere paragraph of how much he misses and loves you to follow along with it, that it doesn’t even matter anymore that he looks like a dad

➞ a relationship that make the people around you, whether they’re strangers or not, go ‘they’re the main characters’ — to them you two were in your own beautiful world, and no one would ever dare to interfere with a love so magical and true

Kyupid hopes that you enjoyed your Dalgona Matchup Latte! Here’s the view from the top of the world with your out-of-this-world relationship with Nishinoya Yuu: he always does things that end up turning you as red as a tomato, but he doesn’t even intend to, mans is just naturally smooth... so you either malfunction or just straight up push him away; when he wants you to listen to his 3 AM thoughts/honestly just some weird shet he probably does all the time with you; when he tries to make you talk about how you’re feeling when he knows your ‘i’m fine’ reply is a straight up lie; and when he finally comes back from one of his trips around the world, just wanting you to be safe in his arms again.

Thanks very much for ordering — Kyupid hopes to see your cuteself again at the shop in the future! Have a magic-filled day ⁀➷

an: henlo, i hope you didn’t mind too much that i bombarded your dm’s with questions 😅 thank you so much for being patient with me!

i didn’t know what to do about the url thing, so this was what i resorted to in a short amount of time, i hope that’s okay with you. i almost lost your submission twice, huhu. also, is the gif working??? tumblr’s being a bitch again, so idk if it’s working and i’m freakin out.

btw, now i can’t stop being jelly over this ship like— this is too cute and i feel like this kind of relationship only exists in movies 😔

[shytiff]

Jan 2021 Wins

ive “journaled” for 6 months now. it started as small ___ wins because when you feel rly empty, even doing the bare minimum feels like a win. written down some of the wins. i think until now i’d like to keep the “win” part. a win against my shadow sometimes. a win in life. some things to be grateful for. a win for remembering it later in the future. i know some days im just basically doing nothing.  there are a lot of wars not won by me. but im still tryna ✨manifest✨

1 - woke up. watched bts’ 2021 seasons greetings. read trap city. afternoon nap. pupuy’s mbah passed away. i got DOMS in my body even though i did the barest of exercise yesterday (frail, i know). shower, matcha latte.

2 - the x banner atikah and i sent for racil post thesis defense has arrived lmaoo. mom made delicious (and sweet) fried banana. did some studying (more than usual, bcs the bar is on the floor)

3 - ate muesli, 3 risols. Kopsus coklat at flavola. Stayed there from 12-ish to 17:30 lmaooo. weekly bahas soal w/ fi. Rapat nemo

4 - first day of collab module. Barely cicil ukmppd. My mood is normal-ish but i hardly have the will to study. Dinner is fried fish with mentai sauce, potato wedges, and saladdd by mom

5 - collab module, qa presentation for rsui reps. finished reviewing tryout 2 solid. did padi pretest (got 66,5). ate chicken porridge, a bit of muesli and vsoy, tan ek tjoan bread, matcha latte, fish and chicken and potato wedges and salad, fried banana. i ate well today lol.

6 - slept during collab webinar, went to clara’s place to study osce and attended padi together. i ate well at clara’s placeee lol. ate nastar, kusuka, white kwetiaw with soup (?), and lele goreng. went back home @ 9 pm. i feel refreshed. even though we’ve half studied half mukbang all day. human interaction rly does heal me. i need human interaction more than i think. at night i dreamed about going to bali, to waterparks, seeing sea creatures, watching a movie displayed on a concert-like stage and screen at the front row. 

7 - woke up at 07:55, finished my part for collab group work. felt a bit tired today. the rest of fam went to DM, and when they were on the way back i HURRIED my way out, not even taking a shower lmaoo. got pistachio matcha latte at starbucks dm. now im more skilled in searching the best spot in a cafe to distance myself from people lmao. the matcha latte is served with some sort of pistachio cream and sprinkled with nuts on top. its like when sbux had taro matcha latte and it had purple cream on top. the pistachio taste is quite strong. reviewed TO 1 padi, sent proposals for nemo sponsorship.

8 - did syndrome try out and padi 2 web try out. studied for osce and padi @ clara’s place. wanted to order pizza since clara bought me food before, but she insisted in ordering lmaoo. so dinner is pizza hut

9 - woke up at 11.00 lmao. havent had breakfast. lunch is muesli with the brand new delishhh chocolate granola and cimory banana milk. did one shot try out, got 71. had a google meet with Prof Agus (that ethics book ghostwriting job from a year ago is not finished until now huaaa) that went from 20.00ish and finished at 22.30,,,,, reviewed syndrome try out along the way. havent made my collab self reflection hhhh. i also need to study for osce. also havent edited article for bukang solid. and there goes my saturday nooo

10 - i swear i keep waking up late lmao. Flavola w atikah, racheel later came with wawa. Kopsus coklat and ukmppd class w dr yudo. After class i just talked at flavola (and ended not studying osce at all for sunday). Went to racheel's to pray and talk some more. Hurriedly went back for booty call with fi, watched konser dies natalis first. Tryout and sum study with fi and clar that went from 20:30 to 00:10. Powered by left over kopsus and 2 snackit pia. Rip my sleeping schedule

11 - woke up at 10:30 ish, the lack of meal and horrible sleep pattern (for my standard) produced stuffy nose during the day and a bit of headache that went away for a bit after i ate. Late bfast is muesli, drank protein, ate tan ek tjoan, plus 2 brownies in the evening. Tht coaching w dr niken. Did self reflection for collab. Had dinner without rice, as usual. Ukmppd class w dr ayu. Finished reflection at 21:30 lmao (deadline is 23:55). Tryna sleep and my nose is still itchy and i sneeze a more often. i hope it goes away 2mrw

12 - DV coaching, scele tryout, took a nap before padi cause my head kind of hurts. Les padi while drinking matcha with vsoy less sugar and no added sugar. I can withstand the horrible sugarless cy matcha taste bcs theres a taste of soy. Didnt do anything else. Havent studied osce on my own until now. Astagfirullah

13 - my head still kind of aches. Its goes away when im eating. im eating so well during the weekdays that i gained 2kgs lmao. lazed around the first half of the day. padi. finally tried saint matcha and damnn its an amazing upgrade from Cy matcha. the green color is super different yall. Cy’s green looks sick and tired compared to saint matcha. the taste? immaculate (although coco deli is more fragrant). caffeine? hits. awake and feel normal? yes. messaged an ao3 author and got replied and turns out she’s making a sequel for my fav fic of hers. yay

14 - osce practice w ara ren ness. bedah and anak osce coaching. had 3 of mom’s cinnamon rolls and matcha latte for the afternoon. cicil osce DV. edited some pld articles. did nothing else basically

15 - wasted my day, didnt have the courage to study osce (i feel like i procrastinate on it bcs it feels overwhelming to me), TO FKUI 2, hurriedly reviewed to 1 before, les padi. i feel like this is the least focused im being in a les. maybe its the too few matcha powder.

16 - woke up at 9 am. breakfast is muesli. reviewed to 2 fkui w apa salahku (finished at 12 pm, there goes half of my saturday). tried fried chicken master. its good and tender but i still prefer moon chicken. 

17 - breakfast is muesli, banana and 2 martabak tahu. snack is keripik pisang aduuu wenak (and picking bits of meat cooked by mom). went to devi’s place w/ racheel silvi. brought RJ to be wrapped. we watched okay madam and its super fun, hilarious and full of twists anddd a bit of cutesy romance. just the right balance to enjoy and let the stress out. late lunch is moon chicken yay!! went home after maghrib, did to padi 6 w/ fi and matcha latte. talked about a senior’s wedding and eating healthier til 22:30

18 - To fkui 3, wasted my afternoon playing my phone, finally mustered some will to study after ashar. My progress is rly slow today. Watched hilarious jessi interview with eric, heechul. Im telling u, i thought tiktok is the funniest internet content but i was wronggg. Seeing heechul flustered is hilarious. Tried to study again at night but only learned 1 disease hiks

19 - had no idea what i did before dzuhur lmao. went to racheel’s to surprise atikah. actually napped at her place lmaoo why do i feel so sleepy. gifted rj to atikah. we ate fried chicken master and pempek on a small green table and talked. its like korean movie lmao. we talked while im simultaneously listening to padi lol.

20 - woke up at 8, chicken porridge + muesli and low sugar vsoy for breakfast. arrived at clara’s @10am. to fkui 4. reviewed it. reviewed general physical exam. finished up to padi 7. tried bombo donut. studied osce. i felt sooo dumb in osce (and clara is already super smart). superrr motivated to learn after going back home (arrived at 7) but i ended up opening youtube and drinking protein lmaooo and its suddenly 9 pm

21 - matcha latte at starbucks dm. Studied osce. Obgyn coaching w the super kind dr ilham. Les padi. Read angel buddy and played with my phone til 12 pm

22 - to fkui. padi as usual. had low motivation, so i did the tryout that day close to the actual course.

23 - left home at 06:30 to study together in capitol. had breakfast in mcd first. thank god i ate rice + chicken and breakfast wrap cuzzzz. studied osce together w ara, ical, kelvyn, dio and kak ilonka til about 2 pm. WALKED to bk bcs my parents are there. apparently simply driving to capitol is too much for them. immediately ate muesli at 4 pm cause i didnt eat anything in capitol. did nothing else after that. did not pray maghrib together lmao somehow mom had mercy on me and let me sleep som more. mom bought sate padang but i didnt eat it. i cried in bed because as yoongi said, “this is the real you and this is the real me”. did not shower/wash my face at night bcs i felt like shit lmao rip my face (its a week before bukang photoshoot)

24 - i feel tired, lazy, and just wanted some sleep. like all that’s in me is drained. ate muesli with strawberry milk. tried fitmee beef. its better than i thought. because the noodle is chewy you spend more time to chew. also ate fried chicken and daun singkong. usually i cant wait to go to flavola but even at 12 pm i just feel like laying down. finally mustered the will to shower and go out. its raining a bit on the way. colddd. 

25 - to fkui 6, osce briefing, covid lecture (that was actually for ppds), padi

26 - spaghetti for brekkie, coaching neuro and ophthalmology, cicil osce

27 - cicil osce, the second to the last padi omg. the fastest padi ever

28 - obgyn osce practice at kak ilonka’s place (that nice kosan at forkabi) with ara, ren ness, kelvyn, dio with mannequins from og dept, tried meokja salemba that serves bulgogi rice. quite good. after arriving at home, studied neuro together with menno til about 20:45 an and i just dont have the energy lmaooo so i gave up and slept

29 - today is bukang photoshoot at bintaro. put base make up on the way. even put glue on my eyebrow. got eyebrow, eyeshadow and blush done by renata. took lots of photos. nebeng om coro afterwards to bxc to meet mom. we ate at genki sushi (renata ara kris mendel oca regan geordie eka). i missss road trips hua. did tryout fkui on the way back home. after shower and prayer proceeded to review TO with apa salahku. Last padi (havent done the questions beforehand so i sprinted it out while on the actual course). Muhasabah osce with kak widia afterwards lmao. Studied osce with clara

30 - studied osce with ara ren ness @ merra. I ate eatlah, moms muffin, kemplang, tango. I ate so welll. Its a productive sesh, neuro and infectious disease. At home i studied osce w clara til abt 22:15 ish. I feel like i miss my me time lmao its been 3 days. I can still go on w clara but i dont wanna get myself sick

31 - simul osce in the morning. Osce study with clara almira. Cicil osce alone. Played my phone at 10 pm even though i still have mental clarity post matcha latte -___-

[rebeccahaithcoat]

I usually permit myself one and only one look back, because we all know what happens to people women who look back*. I know this cellularly now, because due to what happened on New Year’s Eve last year and The Thing I Am Too Scared to Write About Yet, for the first time in my life I spent this whole year looking back. I barely escaped the fate and I’m going to tell you about that when I stop being too scared to write about The Thing I Am Too Scared to Write About Yet. 

Suffice it to say, mostly because of what happened on New Year’s Eve last year,  I did not post my Year in Music 2016 and I know I was pretty torn up about it. So, I’m going to post that, plus what I remember about this year -- which isn’t much due to what happened on New Year’s Eve last year plus The Thing I Am Too Scared to Write About Yet -- in the hopes that I’ll come back and fill in the gaps ... soon. 

What I will say is that music saved me at least twice this year (both times, I was taken by surprise, but I don't know why. Music is the shape of water**, it has always swum to me and seeped into the cracks of my heart until it was swollen again). Once was when I stumbled upon Derrick May’s “Strings of the Strings of Life” while reading Adam Haslett’s Imagine Me Gone*** in an apartment off the Las Vegas Strip, and the second time was a couple weeks ago when I went to see Syd downtown. Near the end of her show, she got choked up and said, “It’s been a hard year, but I’m learning to love myself.” Me too. 

Songs I Heard in 2017 and Loved Enough to Add to a List 

“YUNGXAHOE” —playboi carti (dylvinciGTC edit)

“pull up wit ah stick” — sahbabii

“that’s out” — 2eleven ft. earl swavey and mitch slick

“in my studio,” starfoxlaflare

“we ain’t homies,” arin ray

“can’t hang” — preme ft. partynextdoor

that mike will ransom song with pharrell on it 

“come down” — mike will, rae sremmurd, chief keef

“bambi,” jidenna 

“t-shirt,” migos

“each and every day,” kingdom 

“big fish,” vince 

“feels,” calvin harris 

“frustrated,” r.lum.r

“what you like,” 24hrs

"anti,” sobxrbe

“crew,” goldlink ft. shy glizzy and brent faiyaz

“east coast,” asap ferg

“oh na na,” gizzle 

“why you lying,” show me the body 

“butterfly effect,” travis scott

“bring dem things,” french montana ft. pharrell

“keep the faith,” moon boots ft. nic hansen

“unravel me,” sabrina claudio 

“sky walker” — miguel 

“rules” — bbymutha

“875 dollars” — de lux 

“we don’t luv em” — hoodrich pablo 

“dawsins breek” — ty dolla $ign

“stare” — ty ft. pharrell 

“neon guts,” uzi vert ft. pharrell

“no way” — tokimonsta

“don’t call me” — tokimonsta

“drip” — luke james 

“tap in” — bobby brackins

“say a” — boogie wit a hoodie

“pick it up” — famous dex

2017 Albums I Listened to All the Way Through Many Times

HNDRXX, future

tears in the club, kingdom

4:44, jay z

culture, migos

ocean and montana, buddy and kaytranada

self-titled, playboi carti

nu religion: hyena, THEY

self-titled, mura masa

2017 Best New Lingo

“massagin,” bay bay 

2017 Best Video + Song Combos

“sticky situation,” quin ft. syd

“P.O.W.A.,” m.i.a.

“the story of OJ,” jay-z

2017 Favorite Dancer 

delaney glazer: 

1) ”pills and automobiles,” chris brown

2) “i miss the old u,” blackbear (2scratch remix)

3) “butterfly effect,” travis scott

2016 Songs I Loved and Still Do TBH

“Timed Out,” Kyle Dion 

“No Masturbation,” and "Saydaat,” Nef the Pharaoh 

“Rich Friends,” Kanye 

“Eastside Jace,” Jace 

“Glo Girl,” Ballout

“Energy,” Tinashe 

“Felt Like Cappin” 2 Chainz

“Green light,” Ro James

"Kung Fu," Baauer ft Future and Pusha T

“With Them, “Young Thug 

“Party on Me,” Father

"Oh Shit," Buddy 

“NADA” Kari Faux

“Ran Off on the Plug Twice,” Plies

“Bankroll,” Skooly 

“Ain’t a Damn Thing Changed,” Tate Kobang ft. aaron lacrate 

“Sorry,” StunnaJune

“I Do This,” Nipsey Hussle (THUG’S FEATURE!) 

“Gangsta Shit,” Young Thug

“Girl” Joey Purp 

“German Leather,” Wes Period (production)

“Go Off,” M.I.A.

“1990x,” Maxwell 

“Be Nice,” Dash Machete

“1 Up Top,” Mozzy

“It,” Christine and the Queens (2015??)

“Time Moves Slow,” BBNG

“Slappin,” Nef and E-40

“You Could Be My Lover,” Diddy and Ty$

“Day Ones,” Ezale 

“Learn From Each Other,” Majid Jordan 

“Money,” Leikeli47 “xxx angel dust xxx,” lsdxoxo

“Pnuemonia,” Danny Brown 

“Cross Me,” WNC carlos ft. jmm larry and sog sherwood flame 

“No Shopping,” French Montana

“Little Bit of This,” Vince and GTA

“All Caught Up,” Tinashe and GTA

“Ran Up a Check,” Cash Out 

“Lovesick” Mura Masa ft, A$AP Rocky 

“Pull Up,” Abra 

“Milion Dollar Mission,” G Perico 

“Can I,” The Team 

2016 Songs I Loved Until Radio Ruined Them 

“Body,” Dreezy ft Jeremih

“Pick Up the Phone,” Travis Scott and Young Thug

“Controlla,” Drake // “For Free,” Drake // “4 pm in Calabasas,” Drake 

“Broccoli,” DRAM and Yachty

"Dang,” Mac Miller and Andersen.Paak

“Girlfriend,” Kap G

“Caroline,” Amine

Favorite Music Memories of 2016 Dancing with YG to Still Brazy in a studio in the Valley tied with going to Ace of Diamonds for YG’s birthday party

Morphing from a quiet gallery (well, as quiet as a gallery night where Shia Labeouf is waiting in line can be) and wine night to hopping behind the booth at Bar Marmont (RIP) with Liz and a 24-year-old asking me very formally, “Would you like a vial of coke?” It’s always the nights you least expect. 

My full-blown impersonation of Axel singing “Patience” while driving along the mountains in Mexico. It’s special, trust me. 

92.3 B-Day Bash with Drew — Nicki being the bad bitch she is by opening with “Down in the DM” and then bringing out YG.

RIP the GOAT, Prince. I have never cried so hard over the death of someone I didn’t know personally. Then I danced so hard sweat matted my hair to my head at Adam 12′s secret loft Prince party.

I was totally over Coachella by Saturday. But then, the flower crown goddesses saw fit to plop a dude from Venice holding a vial of pure MDMA in my path while I was “reporting” on drugs for Cosmo. The high lasted through Vince and even GNR (!), who I still can’t believe I saw. Nate picked off a ton of hipsters like a fullback and got me in square in front of the sound booth. Take me down to the paradise city indeed lol. 

Bribing the bouncer to get in the Layover in Oakland on a tip from a Berkeley bartender after he played an Andre Nickatina song I’d never heard. I went to the bar after dancing to one song, and the bartender shouted, “You have [gestures to my face].” I snapped open my compact to see mascara streaming down my cheeks. 

Gay Night at Chico’s in Montebello. Friend: “I see you standing outside talking and next thing I know, I come out of the bathroom to you literally flying around the room salsa dancing with some gay Mexican dude.” 

The stripper grinding on me at Snoop Dogg’s listening party at SAM’s 

Walking home under a star-smeared sky after seeing Ryan Adams play the Greek

Watching the sun turn into melty orange sherbet with my little brother from the Ninja Tune rooftop  

Slim Jimmy shouting me out from the Whiskey stage

Chills pricking my entire body during the opening riff to “Gimme Shelter” while watching the Rolling Stones as close as you can get with some old dude named Jack, who pulled out his phone exactly once.

*Genesis 19

**Pretty good movie! 

***Affecting book. Reading is the great escape and I post little reviews with the hashtag #bookswithbex on Twitter, if you wanna check it out.