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just thinking about how they ended the episode with tom laying in bed with his 'i'm going to call greg' face that is like. almost identical to what happened in s03e06 â which is the episode where tom agrees to take responsibility for greg's corporate wrongdoings for nothing in return â and i am burning not knowing if it was just to show tom and shiv going to bed separately or if if the parallel was intentional and something similar is going to happen again
#tomgreg#please do not tell me the 'people making the show know what they're doing' lmao i never want to see that phrase again#the bbc sherlock writers 'knew what they were doing' and we all saw how that turned out#succession#g.txt#i hope everyone is still awake
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so hi.. i keep thinking about how hot (and probably hopefully rough) sex wouldâve been after last nightâs game. you do with that information what youâd like.. i just thought iâd share my thoughts yâknow completely and utterly innocent like.
ⶠhope you had the best day alli, baby!! âčđč
oh harls, my beautiful, beautiful quinn lover.
of course quinn would be in the need of someâŠrage activities once he got home. heâd be seething the entire bus ride back to the hotel, thinking about how cocky those assholes on the kings were all night. i mean, the hit on brock? the multiple intentional penalties? the cheap move from clarke?
it was all he could do to contain himself until his penalty, finally having had enough of the nasty plays. and while he was letting himself seethe and stew in his hatred, all he could think about is the fact youâre going to be waiting in his hotel room for him.
when he walks through the door, youâre laying on the king sized bed, having received his text he sent you from the locker room directly after the game.
naked. on the bed. now. absolutely no touching yourself (trust me, iâll fucking know). donât move until i say so.
he made you send him a picture for confirmation, wanting to know youâll be so worked up in anticipation by the time he walks through that door youâll be putty in his hands.
and while heâs already worked up and agitated from the game, the sight of your hand snaked between your legs, head thrown back onto his pillow, soft pants falling from your lips, has him seeing red.
he drops his bag loudly, seeing as you were so lost in the feeling of your own fingers you didnât hear the heavy door open and shut.
the sound finally startles you out of your blissful state, arms flying up to cover yourself in a panic, dropping them to rest on your stomach when you realize itâs just quinn. the look on his face, however, does nothing to calm your racing heart.
âthought i told you specifically not to touch yourself,â he grits out, clenching his jaw so tightly he could barely speak.
you still, having been so ready and needy you completely forgot about the rule. sitting there, bare pussy exposed to the chill of the room, was torturous in the best way. you could feel yourself drip onto the freshly made bed, so the initial contact was simply the swipe of a finger to try and prevent any further mess. but the warm contrast of your finger on the cold slick of your cunt felt too good, spurring you to give your clit just a brief touch. just enough to hold you over.
before you knew it, you heard the thud of quinnâs bag and clearing of his throat, not even remembering how you ended up knuckle deep in your own core.
âi-iâm so sorry. itâs just, it was cold, and i was so wet, so i tried to clean myself up a bit, but my finger was so warm, and then i thought just one touch wouldnât hurt,â you ramble out one long run-on sentence trying to plead your case.
âoh, i seeâ he starts walking towards you, quickly stripping himself of his t-shirt. âyou were so ready for me, that you couldnât wait on me, is that it?â
your face heats, realizing how pathetic it all is, really.
âwell, when you put it like thatâŠâ you canât even make eye contact with him, looking down at his hands instead.
quinn starts to untie the string on his sweatpants, letting them drop and walking right out of them as he comes to a stop at the end of the large bed.
âyeahâŠthatâs what i thought,â he smacks his teeth at you in disapproval, shaking his head back and forth.
you take in the sight of him before you. toned body, pale skin, and my god, the hair. youâve always been one to love body hair on a man, but seeing his large, exposed thighs, and the perfect dusting of the thick, dark hairs all over them, has your hand itching to find its way back between your slick folds.
he starts to palm himself over his boxers, earning a whimper from you in return. the noise piques his interest, eyebrow raising as he looks down at you.
âohâŠyou want this?â he reaches down to free his thick cock, sighing at the relief of the cloth restriction.
you donât know if you should respond or not, scared of the consequences either way. you decide on an eager nod, mouth nearly watering at the sight.
âyeah, figured you did. always so needy, so ready to be whatever i need you be,â he says dismissively. âand lucky for you, i need this tonight, too. or iâd make you sit here and watch me stroke myself until i couldnât take anymore, spewing everything i have all over you and this bed before making you go to sleep needy and unsatisfied. your punishment for touching yourself before i could get here.â
he must be able to see the panic in your eyes at the possibility, knowing heâs upset but surely heâs not that upset with you.
âbut,â he starts, rubbing his thumb over his pink tip, âi think what i have planned is punishment enough. plus, i need you tonight, my sweet girl. need you to be my vice, my cure for all theseâŠfeelings i have pent up.â
you feel the physical jolt your core does, causing your body to flinch.
quinn discards his underwear entirely, placing one knee on the plush bed to start making his way to your body. youâre still sprawled out, skin buzzing at the thought of his touching yours.
once heâs hovering above you on all fours, he brings his head down to place a feather light kiss to your lips. when he pulls away, you chase him, pouting at the barely there contact.
ânope. only kiss youâll get tonight, iâm afraid,â he sits up on his knees, in-between your open legs.
you whine out, always loving the hot, open-mouth kisses you two share while heâs inside of you.
âehh, no more whining, either. shouldâve thought about that before you broke the rules,â he scolds you, bringing his hands down to move your legs up, bending both of your knees so your feet rest flat on the bed.
once your knees are bent, he takes your hands that were resting on your stomach and splay them out on their respective sides.
ânow, since you didnât do like i asked you to so nicely, even though iâm so, so mad tonight, no touching me,â he looks down into your eyes as he says it, making sure you understand his rules.
âso, no kissing, no touching, no whining? what, iâm basically your sex doll tonight?â you sass him, rolling your eyes.
now, you expected a reaction out of him. it was your intent, actually. you expected a small smack to the leg, or a wagging finger with a stern look.
what you didnât expect was to feel his hand come up and grasp your face, squishing your cheeks together so hard youâre forced to bite them just to allow any sort of give from the pressure.
he jerks your face to look at him, bringing his own so close you can feel his hot, angry breath on your face.
âthatâs exactly right. youâre my doll tonight. mine to use as i see fit. however i want. you know why?â he pauses, heaving breaths in and out as he waits, as if youâd actually be able to answer him. âbecause iâm mad. iâm mad that the stupid kings thought they could beat up on my team tonight and get away with it. iâm mad that brock was taken out during the first period because of a purposeful hit. iâm mad, because the one thing i asked you to do, you couldnât fucking do it.â
heâs seething at this point, an animalistic kind of anger radiating through his body.
your heart races in both fear and excitement. you hardly ever get to see this side of quinn, and you donât know exactly what all was said or done on that ice tonight, but youâre sure youâre going to be able to feel the effects of it all for the next few days to come.
he releases your cheeks roughly, standing tall on his knees.
âsince you claim you were so wet earlier you just couldnât resist starting without me, too drunk on your own fingers to know what you were doing, you shouldnât need any help then, should you?â he asks, reaching down to feel the arousal pooling in your exposed heat.
you want to whine. you want to whine and protest and complain, but before you can even think about breaking another rule of his, your breath is knocked from your lungs.
without any warning whatsoever, quinn slams into you completely, leaving no inch of your canal untouched. on instinct, you start to reach your arms up to grasp onto him, needing to ground yourself to him.
âi wouldnât, if i was you,â he growls out, pulling out completely before slamming into you again, gripping one of your hips for stability.
dropping them back down to the mattress, you grasp the sheets so tightly you worry youâll rip them.
your body jolts with each slam of his rigid cock into your hole, completely removing himself each time before snapping his hips so forcefully you swear you can feel it in your throat.
âgod, have no clue how fucking angry iâve been tonightâ, he huffs out, not faltering his pace. âall night, watched those smug goons think they could do whatever they wanted, to whoever they wanted. then the refs wouldnât even let me return the favor when given the chance. itâs bullshit,â he spits with a particularly harsh thrust.
youâre trying your best to lay there, unmoving, occupying your hands with the soft cotton underneath you. a choked sob of pleasure makes its way out when he hits a spot so deep inside of you, you had no clue it existed until this moment.
âbut knew i was gonna get to come home to you,â he continues, distracted momentarily by the bounce of your tits with each thrust. âmy sweet, sweet girl who always listens to what i say. whoâs always so ready to do what i need her to do for me.â
he reaches up to pinch one of your hard nipples. you flinch, but remember to keep your hands down.
âand imagine my surprise, when i walk in the door to see you already making yourself feel good after i told you to wait on me,â he switches his hand to your other nipple, show it some attention. âmade me so fucking angry all over again. was so prepared to come in and take care of you, low and slow all night. a treat for you and for me. but you just had to go and ruin it, didnât you?â
at this point, even if you wanted to speak you couldnât. youâre quite literally being fucked dumb right now. the effort of keeping your body still isnât even a challenge anymore, limbs so heavy with pleasure youâre basically his to manipulate and use as he wishes.
you donât even feel your orgasm approaching. one second youâre listening to his frustrations, the next youâre half deaf and seeing stars.
quinn stutters only slightly, abandoning his touch on your tits to move his hand to your throbbing clit.
âgod, this was so fucking easy. this turn you on? me mad at you, not letting you do what you want, just like i didnât get to do what i wanted?â he talks you through your bliss, watching your body shake and shiver while he continues his deep thrusts.
his fast circles on your clit donât ease up, even after youâve come down from your high. you try to wiggle your body away, your sensitivity making you squirm.
quinnâs grip on your hip tightens, halting your movement.
âdonât fucking move,â growls at you, basking at how easy it is for him to glide in and out of you, his dick covered in your release. âyouâre gonna give me another one, i donât care how sensitive you are. know you can do it. my own little slut.â
the name surprises you, quinn never really has been one for using stuff like that in the bedroom. youâd be lying if you said it didnât cause the feelings of another release to start swirling again, though.
his resolve starts to deteriorate, but heâs determined to milk one more from you before he enjoys his own release.
âcâmon. itâs the least you can do fâme, really,â he grunts, somehow rubbing even faster circles on your swollen bundle of nerves. âafter no one at the game would let me retaliate, and after i had to sit in the fucking box for two minutes for just returning a little bit of what they dished out all night, giving me all youâve got isnât a lot to ask, is it?â
you try to shake your head, but the increased pace of his forceful thrusts causes your head to bob all over the place.
he can feel your walls starting to flutter again already, knowing it wonât take much to send you over the edge.
keeping his hand in between your legs, applying both pressure and friction to your clit now, he bends his body over to attach his mouth to your tit, showing the the area attention once again. he swirls his tongue around your sensitive nub.
the feeling alone is delectable, causing you to writhe in pleasure. but the second you feel his teeth encase the delicate bud, biting down, you explode yet again.
you donât think youâve ever come so hard in your life. you cry out, so loud and so pornographic quinn worries someone will complain, but loving every second of the sound.
youâre convulsing underneath him, tears leaking from your closed eyes at the intensity of the pleasure radiating throughout your body.
âfuck, thatâs it. swear your pussyâs trying to trap me in there, doesnât want me to leave,â quinn groans, feeling like his dick is literally being suctioned into your body.
after a few more sloppy thrusts, his balls tighten and he coats your walls with his release. he moans out, mixing with your perfect whimpers and whines as the shocks of his own orgasm cause you to twitch.
after heâs sure your body has sucked him dry, quinn pulls out of you, pushing your knees down so he can roll over to the side of you, throwing his own tired body in the mattress.
you both lay beside one another, panting and letting your bodies catch back up to you. he reaches over to grab your hand, every ounce of anger having left his body through his orgasm.
heâs back to being his usual, soft self, as he rolls over to place a kiss to your temple.
youâve come to a little bit, turning your head to look over at his smiling face.
âmaybeâŠmaybe i should start a pact with these teams you play each week to make you mad and rile you up during games more often,â you softly speak, voice slightly hoarse from your orgasmic screaming. âif this is what i get in return, think itâd be worth the price,â you smirk at quinn.
he lets out a quiet chuckle at your words, bringing a hand to brush some hair out of your face, finally placing a real kiss to your lips.
when he pulls back you open your eyes to admire him, but are met with a serious, stern expression.
âdonât push it.â
#alliyaps#harls#my sweet sweet harls#you ask and i deliver#hope everyoneâs still awake#đ€đ€#hockey#nhl#quinn hughes#quinn hughes fic#quinn hughes fanfiction#quinn hughes fluff#quinn hughes one shot#quinn hughes x reader#quinn hughes blurb#quinn hughes smut#quinn hughes imagine#quinn hughes x you#qh43#vancouver canucks
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Samurai and Ninja in crappy pics because December here is under a constant cloud and I just want y'all to see them all golden and cute without learning how to take aesthetic pictures đ„Ž đâ€ïžđđ„°
linktr.ee/Mezzy
#klance#can i tell everyone to look away before i write tags to someone privately lmao no? damn#anyway yes i meant music!! and thank you for sharing something!!#baking seems like a hyperfixation#like i know you said you baked once but then look at me#...i was thinking if i could make salads.... i gotta be medicore at least at one food thing#its a joke its a joke#i will one day get used to focusing on more complicated kitchen work than heating up meat or cooking things in salt and water#anyone else had trouble getting out of bed this december?#once i do i try to pick physical activities that dont require creative thinking because man#at the post office i had small talk with a lady waiting in line she didnt speak polish so u know me it happened#and she recommended light therapy lamp#im very tempted to try it becase i had record bad thoughts sleepless nights and jerking awake this month#it might be rooted in economic instability growing inflation costs of living and shitty working conditions while still trying to buy gifts?#but hey there are things we cant have control over and there are things we can#ive got winter wonderland comic coming though#i will try my best to speed-finish it as a christmas gift aight#i hope its going to be a nice thing!!#wow thats a long set of tags
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if i get up tomorrow and wind waker/tp still arent coming to switch ithink im going to mail a pipebomb to nintendo hq
#actually i will very likely already be awake/working. but the message still stands#anyway slash jay or whatever. but ill be doing it in spirit#hope everyone had a good day today ^_^ been chipping away at some wips myself đ#will be coming back to this tomorrow and seeinh where we stand#personal.txt
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Writer & Artist ask game!
Iâm creating an ask game because people need compliments. If I tag you in the comments you have to reblog this so your followers can send you love! >:D
Followers, go on anon and submit an ask saying what you love about my writing/art!
#this ask game does not apply to me btw#Iâm making it for everyone else#I am now gonna drug myself with Benadryl because itâs 7am and Iâm still awake đ„Ž#night night#yâall better reblog and everyone go send them compliments! â€ïž#Iâm hoping I formatted this correctly so it makes sense lol
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jumps up and down!!! good afternoon everynyan :3
#dialogue#i am so very sleepy still but! more time awake means more time with the people i love hehe#i hope everyone is having a lovely day!
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sigh. i would fling myself upon flansburgh of that era like a rabid frothing hound. obviously nowadays one must take a more suave approach. but in the 90s you could carry him off like a large bird of prey i thiunk.
#ignore me#hi everyone ive been awake for 26 minutes#[MARRIED MAN KLAXON GOING OFF]#[PARODY SATIRE PARODY SATIRE IN MINECRAFT IN MINECRAFT]#but let us dream. let us hope.#everyone still feeling good about having hit that follow button? awesome. great. i will continue to post.#they might be giants#<- FOR ARCHIVAL/BLOCKING PURPOSES. SORRY
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goddd botw makes me a little bit insane. link going through the story and meeting all of these people who use to know him. he doesn't remember. but they talk about him, "you used to train me!" "we were kids together" "I always looked up to you". they have lived a whole life while he's been asleep. he has not changed.
#is it obvious i just got to zoras domain. be honest#SORRY IT JUST REALLY GETS ME!!!#hearing so many people say how they trained with link when they were young and how he taught them and was always a mentor#how much they strove to be like him and now here they are#and it makes me claw at the walls thinking about link who doesn't remember them or any of what happened and who also is now#awake and at the same point he was 100 years ago#while everyone else has grown and aged and improved. maybe even surpassed what he taught them#but they will still view him in their minds eye as the person he was to them as a kid#and he still is!! that same person!!! but they aren't the same as they were#theyve changed while hes been stagnant sleeping unmoving#big 'you died and came back the same but the act of bringing u back has changed me irrevocably' vibes#and also like. i know the point of the game is that link is the hero and he's going to save the day#but god could you imagine waking up with no memory only to be told you died 100 years ago failing to save the world#and now you have to try again. the people who helped you died and arent coming back its just you#and despite how you failed the people of hyrule still revered you and so they are overjoyed to see you again#they are relieved they look at you with hope they talk about your success like its guaranteed like there is no other option#they dont doubt you. they put all their trust in you#but you don't even remember them. youve been asleep for 100 years. you dont even have your sword#sorry for writing a novel in the tags i just have a lot of feelings about this#like the prevalence of cycles & reincarnation in the franchise overall makes me froth at the mouth but the way it shows up in botw!!! MAN!!#loz#botw#k rambles
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Similarities between the themes of Hollow Knight and Disco Elysium; discuss
#vu's posts#hollow knight#disco elysium#am i reaching? maybe. did i think of this while i wasn't fully awake? yes.#anyways... let's see what i can think of#both games' settings were essentially destroyed and terrorized by colonizers#(revachol was bombed by the moralintern and also invaded 300 years prior)#(hallownest was overcome with infection after radiance came in and decided that she wanted to control the place)#the original rulers and just the upper classes in general were cowards and left everyone else to rot#(this is more obvious with pale king but i'd say that it also applies to the suzerain(s) both before and during the revolution)#both games have characters who are kinda just... stuck in the terrible place they live. but they go about their lives anyways#both have themes of hope despite all the tragedy also. the world is broken but in time it can still slowly heal#...also the overarching themes of both games are made physical via a giant bug#i know that one's a cheap shot since hk's characters are mostly bugs... but i had to#that's all i got for now
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I was dealing with the emotional impact of pasithea 33, listening to the credits and knowing that it would be the last Iâd hear of this amazing podcast and- hold on a second. Harlan Guthrie???
#hi everyone! it is hour 41 in my whimsical journey to get home. I am in hell. I am in misery. words cannot describe what I am feeling rn#the pasithea powder#Iâve been awake for. a long time#I also fell asleep while listening to hfth but like a weird half asleep that Iâm not really falling sleep#damn what happened to agent blancâŠ#ROWLEYYYYYYY#screaming throwing up etc etc#I love Morbius#MOREAU#they have the weirdest thing going on#anyway. I hope wherever Jane Sophie Moreau etc are theyâre happy. maybe even agent blanc too even though I still hate him#can we all just hope I donât have to stay awake much longer
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Feeling a lil vindictive, a lil nasty this morning
So context, my brother had a work do last night and before he left he told my mum he'd becoming back here and doing so alone. So tell me why he called me at 3am when I'm trying to sleep but travel anxiety and says he's bringing two mates back? I tell him he can't I'm leaving at 6 tomorrow he just goes yeah they'll just be passing through your room. No I've gotta get up in 3 hours you can't be keeping up, yeah it's fine. The fuck it is not
Anyway so my alarm goes off 3 hours later I've barely slept, my brain already woke me up several times prior but that doesn't mean I'm turning my alarms off immediately or getting ready quietly after the prick disturbed my sleep
#Demon Spawn#travel tag#the rest of my siblings got a nice goodbye but im not a morning person on a good night sleep let alone when i havent been able to sleep#like i wouldnt have gotten much sleep regardless because of anxiety but i woulda been able to fall asleep sooner if i hadnt been dragged out#of bed kept awake by the rage induced adrenaline and the sounds of sports being played on tv and chatter in the next room#and hes gonna spend all day in bed anyway so i dont feel guilty particularly when hes had guests over constantly for the two weeks ive been#home which denies me access to the ensuite and kitchenette thats accessible from his room and he constantly keeps me awake#i dont get to enjoy my comfy non student accommodation bed because the fcker never lets me go to sleep and my mum wont let me sleep in#i did fix my sleep schedule minutely was getting tired at 12 instead of 2am from where i fcked it during assignment season so small mercies#had to wake my littlest brothers up to say goodbye and the babby started crying đą my mum wanted me to wake her and the baby up too#but the baba was still half asleep and definitely not processing that i was leaving đ she was so unbothered guarantee ill have to facetime#my dad dropped me to the bus stop and hes as bad at small talk and emotionally constipated as me but he was just coming back from a night#shift so i appreciate that that was him putting in extra effort and him checking i had enough money is as close to sentiment as he can do#everyone else? cute goodbye. my sister was already awake when i got up to the house pretty sure she had an alarm set.....#my oldest younger brother? i hope the hangover sucks
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Why am I a fucking dumbass. Like genuinely
#okay waiting until almost one in the morning to go to bed was already a stupid decision when i know my body wakes me up routinely at 8#or before. and being on my phone until right before bed was also fucking dumb#especially as i was blasting videos directly into my frontal lobe#but then. even STUPIDER. i decided âoh iâll read a couple of chapters of my book before bedâ#what am i reading? the outsider by stephen king. what is it? a fucking HORROR NOVEL#in my defence the first half was pretty much a straightforward mystery with just some slight weird shit#itâs only when the detective (and everyone else really) starts to realise that something is Off that the supernatural shit starts to happen#i.e. two completely separate people âhallucinatingâ the same creepy bastard#so tell me why i pick this book up thinking âoh what a great nightcapâ. and the kicker is that just from the first paragraph of the chapter#i was at; i somehow KNEW some shit was going to go down. i was like âthis feels like the turning point. this man is about to have a very bad#timeâ. SO WHY DID I KEEP READING#i probably wouldâve been fine during the day but at one in the morningâŠâŠ. i then had to turn my fucking mood lighting on#bc i was creeped out by the darkness. and iâve lost the remote for my mood lighting somehowâŠ.. so it was sitting at blue light#and the brightest possible setting. fine. still fairly sleepable actually#it just didnât do enough to assuage my fears so Then i had to read a romance novella#and when i say âread a romance novellaâ i mean i read the whole romance novella. so that took me an hour#THEN at 2am there was a very loud downpour and THEN at 2:30 some bastard on a motorbike decided to tour the neighbourhood as loudly#as possible. and then my bladder was like âoh weâre awake? pee every hourâ#to summarise; i feel like absolute shit now#iâm hoping i will be able to take a nap this afternoon because this sucks#personal
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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I may or may not have been awake all night trying to do Art Fight attacks and drank some g fuel. Then I decided to watch some YouTube videos to go to sleep to.... Then I saw something... SOMEONE'S PLAYTHROUGH OF THE RUIN DLC AND I HADN'T JUMP ON TO A VIDEO THAT FAST BEFORE NOR SQUEAL SO DAMN HARD AT 7 AM!!!
I'M GOING FUCKING FERAL AND SCREAMING RN!!!!
#punny speaks#fnaf sb#fnaf#fnaf ruin#Don't worry I ain't planning on spoiling ANYTHING#Its no fun spoiling others' fun! Hope everyone gets to see this DLC's glorious glory!!!#I just wanted to express my absolute excitement while I am still awake#I'm 100% going to draw art in both celebration of the DLC's release and to try to calm down my excitement#CUZ HOLY SHIT I AM SHAKING LIKE CRAZY AND I'M PRETTY SURE IT AIN'T THE ENERGY DRINK THIS TIME
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HeLLOOO <3 I just wanted to pop on here and let yall know that I might be quiet for a few days to a week, depending on how things go - but primarily because I was caught out in the rain on friday and caught something jgfdjdfg so !! I don't have much energy to expend both ooc or ic atm, i apologize; I'll try n do some things here and there but don't be too surprised if I dip for awhile or like, randomly while we're talking (im so sorry LOL)
#( ooc )#( tbd )#my brain is absolutely all over the place rn#I slept til like 1?? then took another surprise nap around 4 til 6 kfksfdjf OOP#if I still feel yucky I might just call into work tomorrow as well honestly so I can just rest some more#all that being said tho!! always accepting memes and the like - if u have any ideas in particular that u wanna plot out hmu as well!!#I might be a bit slow but I am awake (for now FJGDFg)#ALSO THOUGH +++ i have my first endocrinologist appointment this thursday so heres hoping ??#all goes well there as well???#thatll be a stress thing eating my brain space til it happens jfdgfiddf#but !! boy juice in the near future!! woo#it only took like 12 years of people pleasing to decide to do it for myself and fuck everyone else JYHDUJJGF
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People in the notes have said physical therapist Akihiko and ohohoho you fools you fucking clowns you donât even know. Imagine Shinji getting out of the coma and all the rehabilitation shit heâs gotta do all the physical therapy like you just know Akihiko is so fucking over the moon heâs done so much research heâs so excited to see Shinji have a âtraining regimeâ he infodumps about whatâs happening with the muscle recovery process and what stretches work best hes just way too invested he talks over doctors and Shinji is just like âgood god if you know so much why donât you just be a physical therapistâ and Akihikoâs like đ
Akihiko becoming a cop is something that simply doesnât happen in the coma route cuz Shinji would see that shit and be like Aki what the actual hell is wrong with you
#like he does feel upset seeing shinji in such a vulnerable state and struggling with everything#but it does get overshadowed by excitement mitsuru is like âplease he just got out of a coma stop being so pushy đ”âđ«â#hes just so invested he gets to learn so much shit he never even considered before its so interesting#and i think itd be very important that hes much more aware of like limits this time cuz a big strain in his relationship with shinji was#aki being pushy and not understanding shinjis limits and shinji being bad at letting himself have limits and communicating them#and like its very important not to push too hard when recovering from a coma cuz itll just make things worse#its a big adjustment for both of them cuz akihiko definitely has always been told to push harder past limits and to always try to be#stronger and not let yourself stop and its more important now than ever to unlearn that attitude#and shinji is so all or nothing like he either quits too fast or pushes to the point of destruction without communicating anything#so its very easy for him to get trapped in a hopeless spiral when things take time and then get desperate and try too hard#but he gets a lot of encouragement from everyone this time and its sooo weird and annoying and overwhelming but it is nice#also quick tangent like really pisses me off when ppl write shinji just like MIRACULOUSLY SPRINGING OUT of the coma like he just pops awake#gets up and starts running to do shit which tbf the game does it too but its like dude hes been in a like 6 month coma#im not an expert i still got a lotta research to do but i mean theres so much shit hes gonna go through#even if theres no like brain damage youre still gonna have to relearn basic stuff like eating breathing walking and like. general awareness#of your surroundings and who you are and what happened to you and 6 months is so long too so its gonna be rough#im not saying you gotta give him like brain damage but damn at least establish that recovery is lengthy and difficult#his ass is not walking around!!!#also hes still got a lot of mental illness and like did get shot fully believing he deserved to die so like hes also gotta lot of mental#health recovery to be doing like unless he somehow has some magical therapy coma dreams things arent gonna be perfect peachy for him#i get wanting to make everything happy but idk personally i think id rather it be gradual and a struggle cuz its more realistic and like#i think having this character just miraculously be fine is such a disservice like i think he deserves to have love and hope for him even#when its difficult cuz his life will never be easy heâll never be free from the trauma but that doesnt mean his life isnt worth living#and him being loved unconditionally even though hes a âburdenâ is so so important to me#i just hate the laziness like wheres the love man wheres the genuine character appreciation#anyway physical therapist aki its canon now hed be so so good at it and hes got personal experience
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not only did I just have a really weird and depressing dream, I only slept for an hour and a half. wadda hell :(
#it was a dream that I was sleeping in the basement of my house (I already sleep in there actually but it was an older version)#and there was a bear in there for some reason? and initially it wouldnât let us (me and my sister I think? and maybe my dad.)#(even tho this is my moms house. Ok)#I think maybe this was actually a forest outside. the bear doesnât let us leave. and then we go back in time to when#the bear doesnât attack us and itâs just my sister and I in the basement. where the bear also is#Yknow dream logic#well anyways the sad part is that I start going through this older version of the basement and start crying because of all the old stuff#which good thing the stuff was made up for the dream and was dream logiced into being familiar otherwise itâd be worse#and then the dogs we do have and a dog we donât have anymore showed up (heâs not dead we just donât have him anymore)#which was sad but he also peed on the floor immediately which. yea#then I woke up#obviously it was more depressing in the dream and the more awake I become Iâll forget and become relieved it was actually ridiculous#but now Iâm not gonna sleep for the next six hours and still fuck up my sleep schedule. damn it#anyways. hope these tags stay in the preview mode for everyone sorry this is so damn long for no reason
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