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Hi! Welcome to my blog! I'll try to keep my pinned post fairly short!
My main is @microwavedfishsticks. That's where I like/follow from!
My carrd has my names, pronouns, and all my current f/os! I'll post when I make changes to it(though, will probably be a bluemoon):
I am 17(will be 18 on Dec. 19)
My tag system for my F/Os(as of right now) is just their name with a heart emoji or few at the end for colors I associate with them!! "Anyđ" will be used for posts where it could apply to any of my romantic F/Os. [Check featured tags on my blog under the search option, they will pop up. If you do not know what this means let me know, I won't mind at all clarifying!]
Tags for incorrect(or correct?) Quotes between me and my F/Os will be tagged as "TrueBloggingđ". Most of these are just things I think of off the top of my head or things from our stories/interactions together, but if I ever take some from another person I will add credit.
All of my art drawings are tagged with #kaneart
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Please do not talk about F.naf with me, especially p.urple guy and don't show any images. I don't care if you indulge in that stuff or cover your blogs in it, just don't talk about it directly with me in my inbox. You can decorate your house however you'd like, just don't come into my house and try to decorate it like it's yours.
I selfship with a lot of P.ixar C.ars characters. When I talk about them, unless specified otherwise, it is all in a humanized context. Not that there's anything wrong with doing a car s/i x cars, but I do it all as me x humanized character! They're silly humans doing human thingies.
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I highly encourage interaction!! Feel free to send in asks or randomly pop in my DMs. I love talking and making friends, regardless of if we know the same media or not! If you want my discord just let me know! :)
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I'm just documenting my time with my F/Os<33 do with it as you please
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I am not comfortable sharing F/Os, sorry. I am not comfortable with any ships of them, either. (With exception to Grem and Acer, Bob and Darrell, and Sarge and Fillmore).
My F/Os are very real to me, they are my partners. I take them very seriously, and I don't want an irl partner as I just prefer to be with my F/Os. What you do with this information is up to you, but it's something very important to me, so I wanted to mention it here.
Call me what you want, but for the sake of my comfort please DNI if you reblog or heavily engage in doubles who share my F/Os. If that upsets you, then all the more reason to DNI. Regaurdless of how 'silly' it sounds it really upsets and distresses me.
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MY F/OVEMBER INFO!!
Please read that just so you know how I'll be doing my F/Ovember! It'll be left here through all of Novemeber and if you have any clarifying questions you want to ask totally feel free to! It is just a fun little thing but I am very excited for it and care about it a lot so I am being a little extra silly over it :)
#IF YOU RECOGNIZE ME FROM MY MAIN BLOG. NO YOU DONTđ
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#i havent made one of these blogs in ages. ive been so nervous about it yall please take it easy on me#selfship#selfshipping#self ship#self shipping#selfship intro
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6, 12, 14, 15, & 21 for the writing asks? -megs đ
hachi machi okie dokie how many more nonsense rhymes can i say ok that's it great let's go
6. What fic is on your back burner, waiting to be written when you feel your skill matches its potential? answered this one here! i'm SURE there are more though let me check my fic ideas doc (fun fact my fic ideas doc is still called "Malum fic ideas:" from back in the early days of this blog when i was chiefly writing malum because of helen). oh! well. the major league baseball au is still uh, kinda back burner-y. that's another one that i started and then ran face first into a wall known as The Wall of Trying To Realistically Represent A Situation I've Never Been In But Also Include Romance Which Would Not Typically Exist In This Setting So I'm Really Setting Myself Up For Failure Here it's a really annoying wall i know hazel hits it too so i'm just ignoring it for the moment. i also think a castaways fic (the concept, not the song) would be really awesome but tricky because, once again, i've never actually BEEN a castaway, and my knowledge of the topic is pretty heavily based on the book hatchet so like. yeah. i have a lot.
12. Where do you commonly find inspiration for your stories? everywhere! i saw in your answer you said you hear song lyrics and think they'd make good fic titles, i do EXACTLY the same thing (hence the doc "good lyrics for titles"). one day ill make that doc into a prompt list and post it on here and just fuck myself over. previously ive gotten some inspiration from movies but i shortly after completing baby driver au i realized that was a fluke and that in general i am pretty bad at making fics out of movie plots because i am very bad at remembering salient details about movies in the order that they happen. like i started a robin hood (2018) au but barely got anywhere with it because i realized i had never actually understood the plot well enough to write it. i would say the things that inspire me the most are songs (we know i loooove a songfic, mostly bc they make the job so easy by just laying out the plot and vibe for me) and also things that happen to me and feelings i have about those things. unfortunately many of my experiences are not universal (hello jewish summer camp) which may be part of why i've had so much trouble coming up with ideas lately. but as soon as i'm back at school i get the feeling i'll be doing fine again.
14. Share a few sentences of what youâre currently working on? what AM i currently working on? technically speaking i'm kinda sorta working on two things but one of them just doesn't have a good snippet and i don't wanna do a Reveal yet so ill give you this one instead, from a fic i might never even post:
âOh, I meant to tell you, my mum called earlier, she asked if youâre okay.â Ashtonâs mum always asks if Luke is okay. Exactly that way, is Luke doing okay?, like Luke gives off some kind of not-doing-okay vibe. He suspects itâs a leftover instinct from his and Ashtonâs mutual breakdown a few years back, but honestly, heâs doing better now. Itâs sweet of her to ask, but she could just ask about him the same way she asks about Michael and Calum. Howâs Luke? would be fine.
âI am great,â Luke says. âHowâs she? Is she okay?â
âYeah, sheâs okay,â Ashton says. âSheâs started taking Harry to look at some universities.â He pauses. âUniversity. You know? What the fuck?â
âNo way,â Luke says, and tries to work out if heâs meant to be surprised by that. He canât remember how old Harry is. Clearly almost uni-age. Ashtonâs told him this a million times, but Luke canât keep track when the answer keeps changing. He doesnât want Ashton to think heâs forgotten, so he just says, âThatâs insane.â
15. What are some of your favorite tropes to write? Do they match the ones you read? answered this one here as well! i've managed to get unbelievably long-winded answering every single one of these questions so far so i won't write another answer for this one
21. Do you have any stories youâve written completely but never posted? Why? Please tell us about them? yes!! i have a handful. let me hunt them down. okay final answer, i have five!
one is an au based on the prompt "weâre at a party and someone asks what your type is and you describe me perfectly while staring right at meâ which i never posted because i wrote it a while ago and honestly i don't think it's good enough to post. also i kinda don't like the background character i made jack barakat. i could edit it. but. ehh
one is a fic that is set in the daydream jalex fic 'verse, but the only way it's relevant to that 'verse is because it has ace!jack, and it's highly personal and probably the most projection-heavy fic i've ever written and i never posted it because i'm nervous to be Known like that lol
one is technically emo lashton, but not actually set in the emo lashton 'verse that i've created, and that one is ALSO one of the most projection-heavy fics i've ever written. it's usually the fics that are full of projection but in a specific way that i think isn't really relatable that i write but don't end up posting. it's a good fic honestly i wouldn't be against posting it i just never have. also partially because i'm between two titles for that fic lol
one is.......something that was originally going to be set in a different fic universe (for a fic i havent posted or finished writing lol), but now i don't know if it will necessarily fit in that 'verse, so it's kind of its own very short but complete thing. i never posted it because (1) it's super short, less than 1k, and i don't like to post stuff that short, and also (2) just in case it DOES fit the fic 'verse, i don't wanna give away the ending, lmao
and lastly there's a fic i wrote in an excited haze when sam and meghna and i made the ssf and the aces plans, which is like, ot4 meeting but they're all internet friends. guess what inspired that. i'll never post it because it really wasn't written with the intention of posting it, i sent it to sam and meghna and they were the only people i wanted to read it and they have so <3
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#the snippet posted here is ALSO from a veeery projection-heavy fic and that is why i may never actually post it#it took me so long to finish answering this because while searching for completed fics that ive written i got distracted#rereading the robin hood au#dude it's so good i'm so mad#there are also a handful of fics in my docs that are like. probably 89% finished#and the way i could finish them is if i just edited them by deleting the last like three paragraphs in each#because i think the place where i took the plot in a couple was like. wrong. and if i undid that then i could finish the fic#but i'm too lazy#plus i hate deleting paragraphs of writing when it's good writing#yowza this is a long answer lol#megs#roommate#ask#anonymous#igarbagecannoteven
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OK A) pls sleep soon !!! but b) SAME !! men r so scary i cannot ,,,, i cant even talk to them at this point its like,,, im generally not good with talking to people bc selective mutism is a bitch and its kicking me in the ass BUT ALSO men are doubly scary ?? like i rmb i have a male tutor once,, and i just,,, couldnât take it i quit after like 2 mths ?? like i thought if i forced myself to go through it i cld âbreakâ the trauma ? but i just had mental breakdowns lolol and made the trauma woRSE !! anw if u figure out how to get over this pls contact me asap thank youu and C) how do u peel a garlic also d) HELLO we havent talked in a while but i am still lurking on your blog please sleep sOON !! - pomegranate đđâ¨
POMMY,,,,OMG HOW IVE MISSED U ITS SO SO GOOD TO HEAR FROM U AGAIN ILY
Also I TOTALLY get it!! I feel the same way about one on one situations w men and romantic situations!! I get REALLY awkward when itâs just me and some guy unless I really know them well. Tbh Iâd rather just not talk to them??
I actually do remember this one guy I had class with who I thought was really cool, but he was like 7 years older than me and like...made it clear he had no intentions besides being friends with me (he called me a baby once when he figured out my age and always called me love,,,𼺠but like it was never weird he was just genuinely sweet and never expected anything from me)....so thatâs a random positive experience I guess.
BUT LIKE still I cannot?? Trust men who like romantically...itâs a dumb bias but like I cannot control it I get SUPER shaky and nervous I am just a mess...đśi lowkey just wanna cry. Iâve talked about it (sparingly) with friends and theyâve just advised me to âget out moreâ or âwork on myselfâ but like? Idk how man. And just getting out more doesnât work...itâs these niche situations that make me like that yknow?? Itâs like I wish I could control it but I just canât :( Iâm just like u, these situations just make the trauma seem worse...
but I hope!! One day it gets better for us!!! Through therapy or whatever!!!
also the proper way to peel garlic is to crush it under your knife! That way the peel just comes right off đşđ Iâve been peeling garlic like a dummy this whole time by painstakingly peeling it....smh
#AHHH IM SO HAPPY TO SEE U AGAIN POM POM#promise Iâm going to bed now!! love u!!!đđđâ¨â¨â¨â¨#suck my ask.#pomegranate anon
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AP web exclusive: All Time Low tour diary
Posted by Scott Heisel on 08-Dec-06 @ 04:43 PM
Last month, Baltimore pop-punkers All Time Low took to the road with Sugarcult for a series of shows on the West Coast. Here's some of what they saw, in words and pictures. Learn more at www.alltimelow.com.
#1------------------------------------------------------------ Ooohooo So last night we celebrated two awesome occasions...well 3 since matt's molars finally grew in...anyways yesterday was Haloween and our first night of our tour with Sugarcult. I must say, it is pretty strange touring with a band who I spent the better years of my middle school life watching on MTV. Regardless of where this band has been, it definetly didn't eff with their personalities. They were all super nice to us and each came up and introduced themselves. The show went pretty well but it wasn't a good judgement of our the whole tour is going to be because Sugarcult didn't even headline, the Eagles Of Death Metal did, and the tickets for $25 on Haloween night :) I'm sorry but I would never go to a show if those were the circumstances...I'd be out expanding my collection of holiday treats. Tonight the 'real' tour begins so we will see how it goes. We are playing Washington State University in Pullman Washington. We haven't done too many college shows, so this should be interesting...anyways before we got on the road a couple days ago we were couped up in Ben Harper's (formely of yellowcard, now in amber pacific) house/studio in long beach, CA working on our new CD :). We demoed some hot licks that were going to send over to our producer matt squire so that he can put in some input. I heard my blogs are going to be posted on the Alternative Press website for this tour, so if that's the case then...helll yeah! Well I just woke up from sleeping in the van so I am gonna walk out into the freezing streets of Pullman, WA crack my back and grab some Qudoba. Much Love, Jack --jbstar #2------------------------------------------------------------ Yoo dooodds, So I'm gonna update you guys on the passed couple shows...on Wednsday we played Washington State University. Those kids are freaking crazy! Everyone seemed to be having a good time and we made some awesome new friends. I cannot stress enough, how cool the Sugarcult guys are. Which is really cool because I have been listening to those guys since 6th grade! Anyways before we played, matt thought it would be a good idea to have a fork and knife fight backstage...yeah it turned pretty ugly and we should have some footage online soon enough. That night we partied at 'The Christmas House'. Lets just say that I'm pretty sure alex made out with a dog...I really miss Hit The Lights :( Anways...we played Seattle after the college show and it was offf the hoooook. Everyone in the room was dancing and it got pretty redic. As soon as we told them the alex/dog story they went nuts. We met up with the Pink Spiders that night. We were nervous about that because we've heard some stuff...but for real those guys are the shit. There all super nice and we have no complaints about them. We have yet to tour with a band who we don't get along with (fingers crossed). We also heard that we may be doing a few shows with Cobra Starship in Dec, if that happends that would be sick. I'll keep you guys updated. Someone made us a bucket of the craziest donuts ive ever seen at the portland show last night!! They were reallly good. Sorry for the lack of pics, I'll make sure my next post has more, its just hard to take good pics on a sidekick :). Talk to you guys soon!!Jacko #3------------------------------------------------------------ Yo Babaayyss, Last nights show was off the hook! I love playing at The Boardwalk in orangevale calii. The crowd was as wild as usual and a bunch of kids were singing along. A lot of the same kids who saw us there on the Amber Pacific tour came back. Its always cool to see so many familiar faces,,,cough cough hint hint nudge...you get the idea folks! The next couple shows should be interesting...reno and vegas. I wont be able to gamble but at least ill be able to look at a lot of lights. We all have family comming out, so that should be exciting. I havent seen my brother and sister in ages and i know their gonna be wasted so that means they will be even more friendly :) Also Meg n Dia join up in vegas which is sick, SO SIKED FOR THAT!!! We met them on warped and their super nice. anyways i think its time, i go to In and Out because after this tour im not going to be able to go back for a while :( im going to eat there everyday twice a day until we leave Arizona. Ive attached pics from our set on the Epitaph stage at this years Bamboozle Left and also some pics of our acoustic set the 2nd day! Thanks to everyone who watched us either/both days :) love you peace peace n a bottle o' hair grease, jack #4------------------------------------------------------------ Wow...vegas has to be one of the strangest places on this earth. First of all we showed up in Reno (shity city) only to find that only sugarcults crew was there and the show probably wasnt going on. We were welcomed by a hooker in a pink tanktop and no teeth asking if we had any shirts we could give her...Thankfully we have power windows and middle fingers. Thankfully zack was asleep or he might have took her up on some of her offers...he's getting desperate you know..just kidding! Anyways we decided to hang out with sugarcults crew for a little then start the drive to vegas early since it was 8 house. We got to go over the Hoover Damn which was sweet. It's seriously Vegas Vacation all over again! Anyways, we got to vegas around midnight and it was a fantastic site! My bro and sis were staying at the MGM so thats where i headed. Rian to the Excalibur, Alex and Matt to the Venecian and Zack to the Luxor. We all split up and hung out with our fam for the evening. My brother took me around vegas and boyyy was it interesting. I was approached by numerous drunk people. It was basically like an Ocean City, Maryland for older people. It's just a place for adults to drink, walk around drunk, act like teenagers and maybe gamble a bit here n' there. it was Akward to say the least. Anyways the next day was the show at the House Of Blues at Mandalay Bay...probably one of the nicest venues we have ever played. We introduced ourselves to the Meg n Dia folks and got to know our new tour mates as we shared a dressing room. We soon found they are awesome people and they share a love for getting wild! The show was pretty cool, and the crowd was big. It was weird though because the merch was not in the venue, it was in the cassino haha. Anyways Vegas was an experience we wont forget, and I cant wait till we go there again. I hope the next time we go, were 21...actually nevermind because that would be three years :)stay rad, Jack #5------------------------------------------------------------ Lame! Tonight was our last show on the Sugarcult Tour featuring The Pink Spiders and Meg n Dia :( Damone will be taking our place on this great lineup. I am jelous that they get to join up! Anyways we made some lifetime friends on this tour and it was a great experience for everyone. Every single show was amazing and the fans never let us down. Traveling to bumfuck arizona and hearing a couple hundred kids sing your song is the coolest feeling ever. Sugarcult was very warming towards us and their personalities suprised the shit out of me. they were such cool guys and even when zack was sick they made him soup and gave him Emergen-C. WHO DOES THAT !?!? Thats like something my mom does...so in a way Sugarcult are our parents. They actually reffered to us as their younger brothers on stage. At the last show of the tour in Little Rock, Arkansas us and Meg n Dia ran on stage during "Bouncing Off the Walls" and started bouncing around and took over Tim's Guitar n Mic, Marko's (my twin) guitar and Airens Bass. It was so fun to bro down with a band that ive been listening to since middle school haha. Alex also got to soundcheck with sugarcult at Texas AM College because tim was at the hospital taking care of his sickness (i think he had a nasty cold). It was so crazy to see alex soundcheck with a band who for the past few years have held a special spot on my ipod and in my cd player :) I attached a pic of him sound-checking for fun. At the end of the show we said our goodbyes and gave our hugs. This is'nt the end of these friendships though, only the beggining...now we head home to write a new cd. Catch us on the road in the northeast in december when we head out with Cobra Starship! Stay safe, Jack
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I was tagged by @euthymiclurker to do this thing, thanks lol
I tag from the people i think havent been tagged already @nikoni and uhh, idk, maybe you, the one who is reading this right now
1. What takes up too much of your time? Studying basically, and if im in like my free time, vidyagames and anime
2. What makes your day better? Sleeping a lot, watching anime and just inactivity in general
3. Whatâs the best thing that happened to you today? My doctor gifted me some meds i needed just because he wanted to get rid of some medical samples
4. What fictional place would you like to go to? Uhh, i never thinked of it, so idk
5. Are you good at giving advice? I try, but i never find the words to make good advice
6. Do you have a mental illness? Last time i checked i was diagnosed with anxiety, but it has been a long time since ive gone to a psychologist, i should tho
7. Have you ever experienced sleep paralysis? I think not
8. What musician inspires you the most? No one
9. Have you ever fallen in love? Twice, the problem is since idk what to do when i fall in love i just kinda suffernot knowing what to do and not trying to do anything since i dont expect anything anyways
10. Whatâs your dream date? Going to eat somewhere special and then walk over a park, or maybe just stay at home and watch movies under a cover in winter while drinking hot cocoa, i imagine thet must feel nice lol
11. What do others notice about you? I tend to be nervous about every academic stuff that happens, and maybe that i fall sleep like everyday in classes and nothing can stop me
12. Whatâs an annoying habit you have? I tend to evade people even if i dont want to, involuntarily. I tend to think pessimistically. And maybe bouncing my leg, but that annoys some other people, not me
13. Do you still talk to your first love? I cant if i havent had one
14. How many exes do you have? zerooo~
15. How many songs are in your playlist? A lot maybe? i never counted them, i just add them to an unique playlist and hope i will find that song later by luck
16. What instruments can you play? Triangle maybe? I was never good with musical instrument, i should have gone for arts in highschool lol
17. What do you have the most pictures of? Notes of classes ive fallen asleep from my classmates, memes and anime grills
18. Where would you like to go before you die? Europe (any country basically) to visit historical places, national parks in the south of Chile or maybe japan because im a weeb.
19. Whatâs your zodiac? Leo
20. Do you relate to it? Not at all, its hard for me to be sociable even when i want
21. What is happiness to you? Uhh, idk, maybe having friends and enjoying the things i do, i never tought of this really lol
22. Are you going through anything right now? Take a wild guess
23. Whatâs the worst decision you ever made? Trying to study engineering for 3 years and not enjoying life at all during that time having no friends and no motivation to study
24. Whatâs your favorite store? Theres a cheese store somewhere in this hell city, its nice
25. Whatâs your opinion about abortion? Pro without restrictions
26. Do you keep a bucket list? Not really lol, maybe experiencing love? finishing my career at least? finding some self-esteem? idk
27. Do you have a favorite album? Not really lol, i never group songs by albums, i just go with whatever order i found the song
28. What do you want for your birthday? Money, maybe a book, idk
29. What are peopleâs first impressions of you? Intelligent
30. What age do you seem according to most people? Like 20-22
31. Where do you keep your phone while youâre sleeping? On my nightstand next to my bed
32. What word do you say the most? Uhh, i dont know, ehh, maybe, ugh, i think
33. Whatâs the oldest age you would date? 26-27
34. Whatâs the youngest you would date? 22
35. What job/career do most people say would suit you? Doctor, basically because im studying for that
36. Whatâs your favorite music genre? Funk, Disco, Rock and OST from series and vidyagames. After that it comes anime music lol
37. If you could live in any country in the world, where would it be? I would be good even if i just happen to live in the south of Chile lol, but if i had to choose another country anything but Chile and EEUU lol. Canada and northern europe seems like good places tho lol
38. What is your current favorite song? âHe barrido el Solâ by âLos Tresâ.
39. How long have you had this blog for? I have no idea, but it is definetively since before than 2015
40. What are you excited for? September holidays, some animes and series, maybe even some vidyagames
41. Are you a better talker or listener? Listener i think
42. What was the last productive thing you did? I was studying before i started doing this
43. What do you want for Christmas? Idk really lol, something nice i guess? i never expect anything to recieve as a present lol
44. What class do you get the best grades in? I have basically 1 giant class every semester, so i guess semiology it is
45. On a scale of 1-10, how are you feeling right now? 5? -2 right now because im sleepy
46. What can you see yourself doing in ten years? I hope that finally practicing as a doctor finally lol
47. When did you get your first heartbreak? Like 1,5 years ago lol, it wasnt fun actually
48. What age do you want to get married? I have no hope for that, but idk, maybe before 35? 40?
49. What career did you want to have as a child? Gardener, teacher, scientist, a lot really lol
50. What do you crave right now? Sleep for the love of god
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Imma just need you to answer every one of those OC questions. I thirst for more information.
STOP this is so sweet omgâŚive answered some already but ill definitely answer the ones i havent for u!Â
this is super long by the way so for yalls sake im putting it under a cut lmao
1. Is there any OC of yours you could describe as a âsunshineâ?Â
i think id definitely say amara and jeanne fit this description a lot. jeannes favorite color is even bright yellow, like the sun!Â
12. Name an OC that isnât yours but who you like a lot
i LOVE @elliexerâs ocs⌠like all of them. every single one. theyre amazing
14. Introduce an OC with a tragic backstoryÂ
ill talk abt dominiques! basically, in my story she becomes queen at age 20 after her own parents (the previous monarchs) died tragically. she married her then-boyfriend, marius, and he became king. in their universe, the king and queen rule jointly, and one can override the others actions, etc etc.
she was really in love with him at first, and she did her best to be a just monarch, but power corrupts and marius, whose family were nobles always aching for more, became more and more evil the longer he ruled the kingdom. it got to the point that he was killing innocents based on his whims, like just because he felt like it. dominique had loved him, but after seeing what he became, she knew what she had to do, and had him assassinated.Â
on top of that, she had been sick for many years and was dying of her illness, she had no family left, and none of her children were interested in ascending the throne. she had to give her entire familys lineage away to her closest lady-in-waiting (actually annaliese) because of her husbands evil ways. and thats ALL JUST THE BACKSTORY⌠not even starting with what happened to her in-story lmao
15. Do you like to talk about your OCs with other people?
yes omg i fucken love it⌠i get worried when i do tho cause i feel like i talk too much lmaoÂ
16. Which one of your OCs would be the best at biology (school subject)?Â
annaliese definitely, and probably mathilde as well! also dolores because thats literally her job (shes a doctor)
18. Any OC crackships?Â
i think takako x aurelie would be cute!
19. Introduce an OC that means a lot to you (and explain why)
all of my ocs mean the world to me, but i gotta give special mention to annaliese and marianne! i first created them when i was figuring out my sexuality, and initially they were just the queen and her lady-in-waiting. around the time that i was starting to embrace my gayness, i made the switch from that to them having been good friends (but still the queen and her lady-in-waiting), and finally i changed it from that to them being joint rulers together and also married and in love. thats definitely the first time i began to accept that gayness was ok and good!Â
20. Do any of your OCs sing? If they sing, care to share more details (headcanon voice, what kind of songs they like etc)?
i like to think that all of my ocs sing! itd take so long to go into the details of it LMAO but i definitely imagine different voices and musical styles for each!
22. Is there any OC of yours people tend to mischaracterize? If yes, how?Â
not to my knowledge :oÂ
23. Introduce OC that has changed from your first idea concerning what the character would be like?
most of them! i think, of all of my ocs, annaliese has changed the most. initially, she was supposed to be a cruel tyrant that, at the end of her story, was going to be deposed and possibly killed. she was also russian i think LMAO⌠and she had the throne by birthright
in the current story, annaliese is queen not by birthright, but by choice. in her story, she was initially a servant in the castle of the queen and king (dominique and marius), and worked her way up the ranks to being dominiques closest confidant. after a long time, dominique, who was dying, sent annaliese to kill the king, and, because the princesses were not interested in ruling, she was given the crown as payment.
while annaliese does still have a bit of that âiron-fist rulerâ type thing, its not NEARLY as bad as it was, and shes certainly not a cruel tyrant anymore. shes also not russian now, shes french
24. If you could meet one OC of yours, who would it be and why?
i think i would meet elyse! shes cool and can do magic
25. The OC that resembles you the most (same hobby, height, shared like/dislike for something etc?)
amara for sure. the only real difference between me and her is that she has violet eyes, which i decidedly dont lmao
26. Have you ever had to change your OCâs design or something else about them against your will?Â
not to my knowledge!
27. Any OCs that were inspired by a certain song?Â
annaliese was inspired by dont mess with me by temposhark, and i DONT wanna hear ur judgment.
28. Your most dangerous OC?Â
probably elyse⌠shes a wild card!
29. Which one of your OCs would go investigate an abandoned house at night without telling anyone theyâre going?
definitely jeanne, probably elyse30. Which one of your OCs would most likely have a secret stuffed animal collection?Â
jeanne, dolores, ophelie, and aurelie!
31. Pick one OC of yours and explain what their tumblr blog would be like (what they reblog, layout, anything really)
i think takako would have a really minimalist blog, like, just a black and white transparent theme, and sheâd only reblog aesthetic pics
33. Your shyest OC?
i think that would be ophelie⌠shes VERY quiet and nervous a lot, but shes really nice!
34. Do you have any twin characters?
yes!! i actually had a bunch of twin ocs back in the day, but the only ones i still actually use are mathilde and aurelie! theyre identical twins and are the children of dominique and marius, which makes them the princesses!
35. Any sibling characters?Â
yes! mathilde and aurelie, of course, and marianne and jeanne!Â
36. Do you have OC pairs where the other part belongs to someone else (siblings, lovers, friends etc)?Â
as in, i have an oc in a relationship with someone elses oc? if so, sort of! @agithahime and i used to be really into rvb, and so we made rvb ocs that did everything together lmao. their names are charlotte (hers) and marceline (mine) !
37. Introduce an OC who is not quite humanÂ
definitely the goddess of night, who is more like the physical embodiment of night. she actually doesnt exist on this plane, but whenever she does arrive on earth, the night follows her wherever she goes. she looks roughly like this (also designed in rinmarus dollmaker!):Â
38. Which one of your OCs would be the best dancer?Â
i think marianne and aurelie would be really elegant dancers!
39. Introduce any character you wantÂ
this is mathilde! she is one of the princesses in annalieses story. shes a really sweet girl, and very beautiful, but also very shy. shes also trans! and she decides against taking the throne because, apart from having no interest in ruling, she wants to travel the world and find her calling. shes a very intelligent girl and i love her
(also designed in rinmarus dollmaker btw!)Â
40. Any fond memories linked to your characters? Feel free to share!
honestly i just get so happy writing their stories⌠it feels good knowing their tales are being told!Â
41. Has anyone drawn fanart of your OCs? If yes, maybe show a picture or two here (remember sources & permissions!)
not to my knowledge, but id be SO HAPPY if someone drew one of my ocs⌠id honestly sob my eyes out LMAO
42. Which one of your OCs would be the most interested in Greek gods?Â
elyse!! she LOVES greek mythology, but like. to an unhealthy degree almost. aurelie also really enjoys greek myth!Â
43. Do you have any certain type when you create your OCs? Do you tend to favour some certain traits or looks? Itâs time to confess
i always give my ocs wavy or curly hair, without fail. the only time i ever give an oc perfectly straight hair is if their hair is short, because then straight hair looks cool LMAO
44. Something you like about your OCs in general
theyre always really creative and intelligent!Â
45. A character you no longer use?
i have SO MANY characters i dont use lmao⌠a lot of them were either ocs for a work that im not interested in anymore, or their stories just made no sense. of all my ocs that i dont use, my favorites are definitely the two twins! their names are momo and naruka
in their story, momo was shot and killed, but because they had been switching clothes that day, everyone thought it was naruka who had died and naruka decided to keep the charade up, too scared to tell anyone the truth. its really fucked but anyway! heres a picture i drew of them, but never finished:
46. Has anyone ever told you that you treat your OCs badly?
thankfully no lmao⌠i love my ocs!
47. Has anyone ever (friendly) claimed any of your OCs as their child?Â
im sure sam has a few times LMAO
48. OC who is a perfect cinnamon roll, too good for this world, too pure
definitely jeanne. she is a ray of sunshine and i love her
49. Which one of your OCs would most likely enjoy memes
ABSOLUTELY JEANNE LMAO⌠also i think probably aurelie tooÂ
50. Give me the good olâ OC talk here. Talk about anything you want
of all my ocs, only one thus far is straight (marius) - the rest are all same-gender attracted in some way!
as for gender, thus far 4 of them are trans, but i definitely plan on looking at some characters again and maybe changing that :^) if ur wondering, the trans characters are elyse (agender), mathilde, dolores, and ophelie (trans women) !
#anya's anons#long post#this is SO LONG... it should be under the cut#but if its not coming up as it ive tagged it as long post just in case#thank u so much for sending this ask by the way anon! i love u!#oc tag
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**2018 READING STATS**
 Number Of Books You Read
200
Number of Re-Reads
6
Genre You Read The Most
fantasy by far, followed by contemporary
1. Best Book You Read In 2018?
Omg, there were so many, Fellowship of the Ring, Kingdom of Ash, Tower of Dawn, Obsidio, Two Dark Reigns, My Plain Jane. SO MANY! I CANT DO THIS QUESTION
2. Book You Were Excited About & Thought You Were Going To Love More But Didnât?
War Storm by Victoria Aveyard. I loved Kings Cage and was really looking forward to War Storm but ultimately was very disappointed.
3. Most surprising (in a good way or bad way) book you read?
Iron Gold by Pierce Brown, Morningstar was amazing so many things happened and I was pretty excited about this. Then I started it, and my enthusiasm dwindled with every page. I was very surprised by a long of things that happened and my disappointment was also surprising.
4. Book You âPushedâ The Most People To Read (And They Did)?
American Gods by Neil Gaiman
5. Best series you started in 2018? Best Sequel of 2018? Best Series Ender of 2018?
Start: Mistborn Sequel: Godsgrave Ender: Kingdom of Ash
6. Favorite new author you discovered in 2018?
Brandon Sanderson, I read the Mistborn trilogy and Warbreaker by him and Ive since bought 6 more books by him to read this year, its gonna be the year of Sanderson and feels.
7. Best book from a genre you donât typically read/was out of your comfort zone?
I donât usually read adult paranormal romance and I only read one last year so Iâm going with the Darkest Night by Gena Showalter
8. Most action-packed/thrilling/unputdownable book of the year?
Kingdom of Ash by Sarah J Maas
9. Book You Read In 2018 That You Would Be MOST Likely To Re-Read Next Year?
The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo by Taylor Jenkins Reid, I loved this so much.
10. Favorite cover of a book you read in 2018?
Girl Made of Stars by Ashley Herring Blake This cover is stunning.
11. Most memorable character of 2018?
Kvothe from the Name of the Wind
12. Most beautifully written book read in 2018?
Beasts of Extraordinary Circumstance by Ruth Emmie Lang
13. Most Thought-Provoking/ Life-Changing Book of 2018?
Salt to the Sea by Ruta Sepetys
14. Book you canât believe you waited UNTIL 2018 to finally read?
The Fellowship of the Ring by J.R.R. Tolkien
15. Favorite Passage/Quote From A Book You Read In 2018?
âIn an age of information, we chose to live in ignorance,â
16. Shortest & Longest Book You Read In 2018?
My Shortest book was Opal by Maggie Stiefvater at 38 pages My Longest Book was It by Stephen King at 1,156 pages
17. Book That Shocked You The Most
Little Monsters by Kara Thomas
18. OTP* OF THE YEAR (you will go down with this ship!)
I donât think I have one
19. Favorite Non-Romantic Relationship Of The Year
The friendships Amanda makes in If I Was Your Girl by Meredith Russo
20. Favorite Book You Read in 2018 From An Author Youâve Read Previously
Voyager by Diana Gabaldon
21. Best Book You Read In 2018 That You Read Based SOLELY On A Recommendation From Somebody Else/Peer Pressure/Bookstagram, Etc.
Sadie by Courtney Summers
22. Newest fictional crush from a book you read in 2018?
I donât think I have any
23. Best 2018 debut you read?
Sky in the Deep by Adrienne Young
24. Best Worldbuilding/Most Vivid Setting You Read This Year?
The Bear and the Nightingale by Katherine Arden, Arden writes amazing atmosphere.
25. Book That Put A Smile On Your Face/Was The Most FUN To Read?
Josh and Hazels Guide to Not Dating, I loved Hazel and the humor was everything.
26. Book That Made You Cry Or Nearly Cry in 2018?
Obsidio by Amie Kaufman and Jay Kristoff
27. Hidden Gem Of The Year?
The Kings Traitor by Jeff Wheeler, I loved this prequel trilogy, itâs setting up a King Arthur retelling that Iâm excited to get into.
28. Book That Crushed Your Soul?
Hero of Ages by Brandon Sanderson
29. Most Unique Book You Read In 2018?
Warbreaker by Brandon Sanderson, that magic system is something that I still think about.
30. Book That Made You The Most Mad (doesnât necessarily mean you didnât like it)?
Maybe Now by Colleen Hoover. First of all, the story easily could have ended in 5 different spots, I also hated the actual ending since it kind of reminded me of the ending for Beautiful Disaster. Iâm really nervous to reread Maybe Someday because this just made me hate everything.
 1. New favorite book blog/Bookstagram/Youtube channel you discovered in 2018?
I donât think I really discovered anyone new on youtube but Iâve been really loving PeruseProjects videos, I donât think Iâve missed one and it always makes my day to see her upload a reading vlog.
2. Favorite post you wrote in 2018?
Moxie Book Review I still think about this book frequently and I still really like this review/only review of 2018
3. Favorite bookish related photo you took in 2018?
4. Best bookish event that you participated in (author signings, festivals, virtual events, etc.)?
The summer round of the Biannual Bibliothon, I had so much fun participating and I read so much!
5. Best moment of bookish/blogging life in 2018?
I got nothing
6. Most challenging thing about blogging or your reading life this year?
I think it would be trying to gather my thoughts and actually being vocal with them. Thatâs something Iâm going to try to work on more in 2019, posting opinions and just trying to use my voice more.
7. Most Popular Post This Year On Your Blog (whether it be by comments or views)?
January 2018 Wrap Up: aka my best reading month ever
8. Post You Wished Got A Little More Love?
I kinda wish my NaNo updates got some more love
9. Best bookish discovery (book related sites, bookstores, etc.)?
*shakes head*
10. Did you complete any reading challenges or goals that you had set for yourself at the beginning of this year?
Yes, I completed my Goodreads goal and Iâm so happy about that!
 1. One Book You Didnât Get To In 2018 But Will Be Your Number 1 Priority in 2019?
My top priority was Muse of Nightmares and I already read that one just a few days ago, now itâll be Skyward by Brandon Sanderson
2. Book You Are Most Anticipating For 2019 (non-debut)?
On the Come Up by Angie Thomas
3. 2019 Debut You Are Most Anticipating?
Again but Better by Christine Riccio
4. Series Ending/A Sequel You Are Most Anticipating in 2019?
Darkdawn by Jay Kristoff
5. One Thing You Hope To Accomplish Or Do In Your Reading/Blogging Life In 2019?
I really want to post more quality content and maybe get 350 subscribers.
6. A 2019 Release Youâve Already Read & Recommend To Everyone (if applicable):
I havenât read a 2019 release yet. I need to get on that. If I had to predict a book I would say Slayer by Kiersten White.
2018 End of the Year Book survey **2018 READING STATS** Number Of Books You Read 200 Number of Re-Reads 6 Genre You Read The MostâŚ
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i dont really know why im posting this on my public blog instead of privately or probably even more sensibly with people i care about (although i just feel so alienated, iâve become good friends with people in college and i love them a lot but iâm not sure despite how open some people have encouraged me to be, if my relationships are close enough to talk about this kinds of stuff seriously, which might be a weird concern because i overshare all the time but i just always feel really guilty for it) i guess i mind less about people hearing this and more about burdening anyone in specific, idk!!
but yeah ive just been really emotional this week, or really ive had the same range of emotions as usual but ive just been crying a lot again. i used to cry almost every day and have like weekly panic attacks in high school when my relationship with my parents was really toxic and i was harassed every day at school my senior year, but since freshman year after my dad was diagnosed and then my nana passed away and then my dad passed away too for the most part iâve just been holding in so much and iâm finally starting to let that out this past month or so but in really weird ways where iâll burst out sobbing even in public over the stupidest shit
and thats started to happen multiple times a week as of this past week and its made me realize how i feel alone all over again. i have one person at university i would consider to genuinely be a close friend even if he may not consider me a best friend, iâm not sure, but we only see each other around every other week when we actually plan to hang out because weâre no longer in any of the same classes or dorms or anything. beyond that i feel most comfortable with people from work, and consider many of them to be my friends, but recently some of my co-managers have been speaking out about how they feel unwelcome in our work environment and it can feel cliquey and it makes me so upset that i didnât pick up the cues that shouldve made me realize that, i feel like iâm not doing my part and if i am misinterpreting my relationships with my coworkers, then maybe they dont even consider me as much of a friend as i do them.
and then ive started to get closer with a few people ive only really talked to since school started and they really all are just such wonderful people and i want to get to know them better but i worry the way iâm opening up to them is disproportionate and unfair to them but i really donât know how to navigate this all.
its making me realize i dont think my avoidant personality disorder shit ever actually improved for the most part, it was just that my two best friends, shannon and burke, and my girlfriend, jacqueline, have been a constant in my life for so long now that my constant anxieties about my relationships with others and my interactions didnât feel as prominent because at least logically i knew i could rely on them
and of course i can, i love all three of them so much and they have been for me through so much, but since college i donât get to see shannon every day and burke multiple times a month, when we catch up its wonderful, and iâm sure its all natural to how long term friendships work, but not having them here physically sometimes makes me feel a bit more lonely, because regardless of how many seemingly positive interactions i have with someone who isnât them or who iâve met in the past couple years, based on experience i can never have the reassurance that i have with them that they have explicitly given me throughout the years for ages after where i currently stand in all my irl friendships, and who knows how much of that all is mutual even now weâre those newer friendships are at. and even jacqueline, who i try to talk to as much as possible, this past year has been so emotionally draining that iâve slipped into not talking at least once a day like we used to and i feel like i dont have nearly as much time as i want to be spending with her having fun. and for all three of them i worry i just am not there for them like i want to be.
and just specifically with romantic stuff it makes me so upset iâve only ever got to visit jacqueline irl once, which was almost a year ago now, and that most of that memory even though i loved the short time we had i also associate with my dads health turning even worse because his legs becoming paralyzed while me and my mom were in oklahoma of course meant that we cut the trip short because of course we wanted to make sure my dad was safe and okay.
and yeah just after crying again today, my new friends hugging me was really nice, but when i went into my room right afterward i burst out sobbing, and i have no idea how to recover from this or comfort myself effectively, i only know how to sleep it off and feel like shit when i wake up halfway through the next day. so now thats why iâm writing this to vent and have been for like the past 45 minutes and still havent really gotten to all of it. i donât know how to comfort myself but i know right now i just really wish i had someone that could just lie down with me and comfort me, maybe even a bit romantically.
and i feel really goofy for saying that, i get really self conscious about how immature i feel compared to so many people my age, sometimes i think its in part an autism thing but also i know other autistics at my university who arenât like this so i really donât have a decent excuse but like . iâve never even done that with someone.
me and jacqueline only got to see each other essentially a day before i suddenly needed to go back to ohio, we were both so nervous, we took a while to even hold hands, and that day and a half we saw each other i had my first kiss, and later my last kiss iâve had since. both of those and the ones in between being just a peck on the lips. iâm not complaining about that, i donât think we shouldâve rushed our pace, but i think it goes to show how lost i feel in navigating this all if even after knowing her so well and dating her for over 2 years at that point, i froze so much.
iâm comfortable with jacqueline with stuff like that because sheâs expressed shes in a similar boat, and i really appreciate that understanding. i think its wonderful how weâve been together for almost 3 years now, but also thinking about that is wild. i was in such a different place back then, i donât think i really knew what dating someone or being in a relationship entailed. iâm happy with how we go about our relationship, but also i get really lost when comparing how i define and go about romantic things versus most people iâve met in college. iâve never been in a relationship with anyone but her, and iâve never been in a relationship that wasnât long distance. i love her and i wish she were closer so maybe we could begin to figure that out together. also ive had a lot of casual crushes on girls at college in the past couple years and i think it would be really nice to explore that too, but honestly i have no idea how to go about that and its so daunting to try to think about so i just resign it as unrealistic unless something extremely significant changes within the next few years, and then iâll be really pathetic for not knowing anything as a fucking 23 year old maybe in grad school or something. and so i just get to feeling more lonely and having more anxiety about my interactions and relationships with others.
i know its a common thing apparently for lgbt people to be âlate bloomersâ but im surrounded by so many lgbt people who are so far ahead of me with relationship stuff, and i donât think iâve met a single lgbt person in college besides myself who is quite this inexperienced/naive/etc.
i dont know how iâm ever supposed to learn this stuff at this rate, even if i feel slightly less bad about stuff like my appearance and personality nowadays (or more like, i know i look weird but i care less now because i dont care enough any more to try changing my appearance over it, and then iâm still terrible with communication and social cues and oversharing and all my weird shit etc etc etc but i guess at least i try to be compassionate and that must at least be somewhat noticeable if other people sometimes remark on it), even if people are fine with that and find me interesting enough, i really donât see how almost any girl who got that far would then find it worth it to deal with how fucking stunted i am in that regard. like thats just not fair to have to have someone guide me around so much because i just have no idea what to do and no idea How to figure that out.
so yeah im just . having a rough time im very emotional and expressing it physically (which while somewhat cathartic after feeling so empty, also makes me feel worse because the context in which i last was like this is not one i want to dwell on now that my dad has passed and ive been in the process of forgiveness) and i have so much love for so many people but also i feel so so so so so lost and alone and stunted and i really just donât know how to begin working on that and its really embarrassing to admit.
#cpost#uhhhhhh big vent post some upsetting stuff i guess but i really just dont want to tag anything rn im sorry
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my first entry
all of these entries will be more or less stream of consciousness
Im watching queer eye. SO I felt like writing a blog and starting a blog bc im emotional and severely depressed. ( if the fab 5 could re vamp me and my life omg)
I'm trying to grasp this concept that i am 28 years old
and i STILL have no idea who the fuck I am or what the fuck am i gonna do.
what i do know is I am a single. I am straight-ish haha (no one is straight these days eff lables and gender norms) I live in a basement. The neighborhood I live in isnt the best in my opinion for me. I know I enjoy cities and hustle and bustle and noise. this area is not where i want to spend a long period of time in. I have my drivers license but dont have a car. I'm on a fixed income. I am very very poor. I've been struggling with money my whole life. My mother was struggling with money and work my whole childhood ive come to learn. i feel like my mom maybe didn't give me all the right tools i needed to make it in this world.
I'm not a good cook, but i enjoy cooking and wish I was good. I eat very unhealthy. I dont know how to shop for groceries or clothes. i eat fast food,microwaves meals and snacks, cheese and crackers, cereal, deli sandwhiches, pb & j, fruit snacks, ice tea, juice and water. (thats basically it unless i go out to eat which is bad bc i have no money for it.)
i cannot grasp the concept of money i dont know how to budget or balance a check book or keep track of spending. i need to put money a side and save and i just cant seem to do it. The money is always being used. i feel like im always in debt or owing money that i never get in front of this wave to start earning actual income every dollar i make is always spoken for and the $1 to 80 dollars that i actually get left over is for cleaning supplies hair products medication condoms tampons pads basically things i need. and im honest in saying i do spend money on food and great craft beer bc its my way of treating myself for actually making a payment or actually getting out of bed, for going hungry for a few days or for having a good mental health day.
My hobbies include filling out job applications, fighting with doctors and secretaries, bill collectors debt collect companies and creditors, watching youtube videos, vloggers and youtubers on my phone and my freinds old old laptop the basement has pretty difficult internet connection and it is freezing cold but other than that its nice it works its a place to sleep and shelter, other hobbies are watching movies and tv, and lastly SLEEP. i sleep 10-14 hours most days or i go 2 days without sleep. i am always over sleeping or i just cant turn my brain and stress and anxiety off just to shut my eyes and sleep. I almost never talk with friends or see other people or go out and hang with friends. the only times i do go out is if someone offers to pay for me or otherwise i cant.
i am addicted to social media. i cant go for more than 15 seconds without checking instrgram or snap chat or youtube or facebook. i can easily spend 11 hours going back and forth between those 4 sites. it is very bad for my mental health and its stunted my success bc i cant help but compare myself. and its vicious negative cycle that i cant seem to break.
i have to walk or use uber or lyft or public transit to get around which gets very expensive over time. walking and being out waiting for the bus or train is very triggering for my mental health. People who are fortunate to have the luxury to own or lease a car please realize the people who cannot afford a car or cannot drive for whatever reason are not second class citizens. People and humans are very nasty and rude and more terrible than youd imagine. having to walk everywhere and be in with the public as much as i have turns you into a cynical abrasive aggresive hateful and rageful person. for example a few weeks ago a car turned on the street that i was walking on and the walk sign was lit and he had a yellow switching to a red, her turned quickly to beat the light that he didnt see me or the walk sign and was inches away from me so i ran after his car and punched the shit out of the passenger window. i spazed out like that bc i had a week of walking in the freezing cold (and living in a super cold place) being rained on and splashed by the puddles being ran thru by cars, teenagers on busses making fun of me throwing things at me, people in cars yelling shit at me and the others standing at a bus bc we dont have a car and we have to wait in the cold assuming that we were all bums or homeless.
I am not happy or passionate about things i use to be obsessed with. I grew up loving comedy. stand up sketch improv.
i use to perform. i would go see it all the time it meant the world to me it is what i wanted t0 do with my life.
but now I dont and i think its was stupid. and a waste of time. same with college it was a waste of time and money to get a degree in something i have no passion about anymore. and a degree in something in which there are no jobs for you.it was terrible decision i made. one of the billions of terrible decisions i ahve made in my life
I have zero self confidence and i barely care what my appearance looks like anymore. i glance in mirrors but never really look at myself. I dont look people in the eyes anymore. I think so hard about what i am saying for i say that it comes out more often that not weird or incorrect bc i am so worried about what others are thinking about me so then that leads to me getting made fun of for how i talk or how i say things. I am always the butt of my friends jokes im always being poked fun at or pranked or messed with.
I dress like 15 year old skate kid. i have nothing that is appropriate for like an office or an audition or job interview or business meeting or family event or a formal event or cocktail party. i dont know how to dress for my age or for my gender.Â
I am super lazy and messy but i have been working on it.
i use cannabis recreationally not everyday but definitely multiple times a week. when i can afford it. it helps clear my head and use the same way a person uses a nice glass of wine at the end of a long day. i dont think its wrong or inhibiting me as a person. sometimes it even helps with motivation and helps get me out of a depressive funk.
I am severely depressed and have an anxiety disorder.
I over think about everything. i make plans and lists for every scenario that i am going to encounter on a daily basis its almost obsessive. my train of thought before entering a conversation with anyone is âdo not say anything weird dont look at them for to long, dont fidget, omg what are they thining about when they are looking at me, am i ugly and i coming off as weird or immature or nervous.âÂ
I lost alot of very important people in my life bc of death or from people and friends and family just cutting me off and people to live the rest of their lives without me. it makes me judge and hate everyone.
I am constantly worried that i am gonna become homeless live on the streets and become a junkie. I actually think about this so so so much. i actually shocked from what i have been thru that i havent become a junkie yet.
I dont want what most white women in their late twenties want and crave. i dont relate or most girls in my age range. its hard for me to find things in common with my peers.
I dont want to buy or own a house. renting forever is fine by me
I do want to buy and own a car preferably a truck but a small suv could work too.
I dont want a family. I dont want children my own or adoptive. I dont want to live in the suburbs or in a neighborhood with tons or old people and families.
i dont want marriage i think its problematic and dumb thing to subject yourself to.
i enjoy soccer and skateboarding and true crime movies and tv shows and horror movies and tv shows.i like some funny things but its selective. i love the sims.
i want to try out living in other states in the us and maybe even try living in the uk.
if i was rich i would want 2 small apartments in central city locations on both coasts of the us one on one and one on the other. and ill use my money to travel. i am craving to travel so badly its all i have been thinking about lately. but again no funds
i want to meet someone who just totally sweeps me off my feet. somone who knows how to be a real man and real boyfriend im tired iof these boys i need a guy who calls me out on my bs, gives constructive criticism, incredibly supportive and KIND. i want our respectfulness to be at an 100%. i want to feel worshipped and adored. i want them to be succesful and be able to bring me up and boost me forward. great listener. not sleepy or annoyed very easily. insane dark weird goofy sense of humor. id love them to be outgoing and be able to command a room and be comfortable around people new and old. great sex and adventures. currently im giving my ex a chance and its prolly a terrible idea.
i want a makeover i want to learn how to dress myself correctly and figure what my style is, make money and keep money, how to cook, how to skateboard, how to surf, how to take care of my skin and my hair. I want to learn how to work out where i wont make my current ailments and injuries and medical issues flare up and put me out of business for few days. id like to have toned arms back shoulders and legs and to not be winded dont everyday tasks.
if i had to make a dream cocktail. and the final result would be the new me i would throw in the blender: confidence of a drag queen, the wit and sharp tongue of joan rivers, the comedic timing of sean hayes, riley reids sex skills, the intelligence and maturity of michelle obama, pinks hair and singing skills, kat dennings body and dgaf attitude. that would be the perfect me in my eyes.
I want to make everyone proud of me. and I want to be proud of myself.Â
idk what this was but its on the internet
-GE
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