#i havent had apple soda in years i miss you.. (could probably just go to mexican store at any time and find it) i miss you so sad

[desiresign]

miko’s birthday is on a tuesday this year so that makes it trans girl tuesday so everybuddy YIPPEE!!  i want to give miko an apple soda to enjoy

[shakingsphere]

this is not my questionnaire lol 

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?

i literally just told him that i dont want to hu anymore lol

2. You talked to an ex today, correct?

nope! ive been blocked for a year :)

3. Have you taken someones virginity?

no  4. Is trust a big issue for you?

no 5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?

im not really interested in anyone 6. What are you excited for?

spring semester 7. What happened tonight?

i watched pokémon and ate dinner 8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?

no i just worry about them 9. Is confidence cute?

yes ofc 10. What is the last beverage you had?

diet coke  11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?

4 or 5 idk this one is dumb 12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?

no they broke when i was jumping a fence in january  13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?

probably nothing 14. What are you going to spend money on next?

probably coffee 15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?

no lol 16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?

yes i think people are constantly changing 17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?

my best friend 18. The last time you felt broken?

idk 19. Have you had sex today?

no 20. Are you starting to realize anything?

i dont think so 21. Are you in a good mood?

im neutral 22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?

no lol 23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?

theyre a brighter shade of blue 24. What do you want right this second?

to have gone to bed earlier 25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?

its none of my business bc im not seeing anyone 26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?

no its a couple shades darker 27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?

no ew 28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?

something my friend said yesterday 29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?

yea.  30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?

no 31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?

no i kinda just pity him 32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?

i dont have feeling for anyone rn  33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?

no i drink diet coke like literally everyday 34. Listening to?

nothing rn, i honestly only listen to music to concentrate 35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?

no not even for my russian class lol  36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?

yea at his house... 37. Do you believe in love at first sight?

no 38. Who did you last call?

um my best friend i think 39. Who was the last person you danced with?

some random kid 40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?

sex 41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?

idk i hate cupcakes 42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?

no 43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?

ofc 44. Do you tan in the nude?

i dont tan 45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?

no  46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?

no i took a trazodone 47. Who was the last person to call you?

probs my dad 48. Do you sing in the shower?

no but i talk to myself 49. Do you dance in the car?

no but i sing sometines 50. Ever used a bow and arrow?

i dont think so, no 51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?

my senior photos.... so like 2 years ago 52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?

yes.  53. Is Christmas stressful?

i hate christmas 54. Ever eat a pierogi?

i’m eastern european studies major and they were v popular at pitt... so yes lol 55. Favorite type of fruit pie?

ummmmmm apple? 56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?

animator 57. Do you believe in ghosts?

yes 58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?

no 59. Take a vitamin daily?

i take antidepressants daily.   60. Wear slippers?

nah 61. Wear a bath robe?

nah 62. What do you wear to bed?

t-shirt n shorts 63. First concert?

LMAO it was a bob dylan concert my dad had an extra ticket and im his favorite 64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?

target, walmart is too chaotic  65. Nike or Adidas?

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm probs nike 66. Cheetos Or Fritos?

fritos 67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?

neither 68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?

uhhh love story? 69. Ever take dance lessons?

yes when i was little i was awful 70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?

lol yea i can see me being w someone in academia 71. Can you curl your tongue?

yee 72. Ever won a spelling bee?

no 73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?

no i am rarely ever happy 74. What is your favorite book?

uhhhh the bell jar? 75. Do you study better with or without music?

with 76. Regularly burn incense?

i have never burned incense 77. Ever been in love?

no i dont think so 78. Who would you like to see in concert?

mitski or doja 79. What was the last concert you saw?

lorde on the melodrama tour 80. Hot tea or cold tea?

cold 81. Tea or coffee?

coffee 82. Favorite type of cookie?

um oatmeal raisin i think 83. Can you swim well?

i used to swim very well but i havent in a long time tho i can swim and not be scared of drowning so im gonna say yes 84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?

no? 85. Are you patient?

usually but not when im in a mood 86. DJ or band, at a wedding?

i hate weddings 87. Ever won a contest?

yeah once when i was like 8 88. Ever have plastic surgery?

no im pretty 89. Which are better black or green olives?

black ofc green ones are nasty 90. Opinions on sex before marriage?

its fine i think waiting until marriage is obnoxious and out dated 91. Best room for a fireplace?

living room 92. Do you want to get married?

yea but its not like a life goal of mine i really just want a good relationship

[hpfangirl13]

50 questions you’ve never been asked

tagged by @chasethesun18 

What is the colour of your hairbrush? white and black

Name a food you never eat? olives and raw sushi

Are you typically too warm or too cold? i am constantly hot. i open the window to my room when it’s cold at night so I feel like I’m sleeping in a fridge.

What were you doing 45 minutes ago? eating an apple and watching youtube

What is your favourite candy bar? hmmmm... close tie between reese’s and butterfingers

Have you ever been to a professional sports event? yes! we love the chicago cubs in our family and i’ve probably been to about 20 mlb games. I have also been to 2 nfl games for the bears.

What is the last thing you said out loud? “i’m ordering the pizza, chill” @ my dad

What is your favourite ice cream? cookies and cream 100%

What was the last thing you had to drink? water- very bland

Do you like your wallet? yes. its michael kors and my dad bought it for me as a 10th grade graduation present.

What was the last thing you ate? an apple (im bout to eat pizza so don’t think im that healthy)

Did you buy any new clothes last weekend? no cuz nothing is really open and i havent been to the mall in a hot sec.

The last sporting event you watched? damn idk. sports have been off for so long that i dont really know.

What is your favourite flavour of popcorn? the movie theater kind with a shit ton of butter

Who is the last person you sent a text message to? @chasethesun18 aka ryan. talking about how when she comes over to watch mpi tonight and coughs she has allergies and not corona.

Ever go camping? i guess. i went to a summer camp for 2 years when i was like 12 and 13. we did a “pack out” one night. wasnt really a fan. i like sleeping in a bed thx.

Do you take vitamins? yes my mother yells at me every morning to take my gummy vitamins. (yes, i am 5 years old)

Do you go to church every Sunday? no, not really religious at all. i don’t really believe in that kinda stuff.

Do you have a tan? ehhhhh kinda but not really? i cant really tan tho cuz im part irish and polish white.

Do you prefer Chinese food or pizza? pizza. i gotta be in the mood for chinese.

Do you drink your soda with a straw? in restaurants yea at home no.

What colour socks do you usually wear? any kind really, i have harry potter socks all the way to adidas socks

Do you ever drive above the speed limit? yep. i speed and its really bad. especially when im on the interstate.

What terrifies you? losing my parents, being all alone in life, snakes, spiders, and dying in a car crash.

Look to your left, what do you see? my closet door with pics on it and my “i ship it” sticker. (miggy im thinking of you)

What chore do you hate? walking my dog and folding laundry.

What do you think of when you hear an Australian accent? shrimp on the barbie

What’s your favourite soda? sprite or cherry fanta (but you can never find it anywhere)

Do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive-thru? drive-thru lately cuz that’s all you can do

Who’s the last person you talked to? my dad

Favourite cut of beef? i guess burgers? idk what that “cut” of beef is called tho

Last song you listened to? macho man- the village people-- dont ask me why.

Last book you read? a fanfic. havent read a book since harry potter and that was like 6 years ago

Favourite day of the week? friday. cuz my shows are on and i get littyyy

Can you say the alphabet backwards?i probably could but it would take too much effort and i dont want to.

How do you like your coffee? at home i will drink anything decaf with flavored creamer. my fav is from starbucks where i get a  decaf venti iced hazelnut latte with nonfat milk and 4 pumps of hazelnut. (very complicated i know)

Favourite pair of shoes? prob my nike ‘07 air force ones

The time you normally go to bed? ehhhh sometime between 11 and 2 normally. kinda depends on how tired i am and what time i have to get up the next day.

The time you normally get up? when i work i get up around 8. on the weekends i get up around 10

What do you prefer, sunrise or sunsets? sunsets cuz im not a morning person.

How many blankets on your bed? like 8. i really like blankets

Describe your kitchen plates: we have had the same damn blue and flowered plates in my house since before my birth. no lie.

Do you have a favourite alcoholic beverage? im 19 and i dont drink. ive had a sip of beer and wine from my parents before and i hated it so i dont feel like im missing a lot.

Do you play cards? we play uno like once every 6 months

What colour is your car? bluish grey

Can you change a tire? nope

Your favourite province? well my mom is from montreal, canada so imma have to say quebec.

Favourite job you’ve ever had? babysitting! for the first family i ever babysat for in my neighborhood. theyre in middle school now. *sheds tear*

How did you get your biggest scar? the only scar i have is on my right foot on my second toe. smashed it in a pool when i was 7

What did you do today that made someone else happy? well i deliver groceries for a living so hopefully i made people happy by bringing them food?

THE MAGNUM PI FINALE IS ON TONIGHT AND MY BODY IS READY!!!! @chasethesun18 and I are bout to get litttttt

tagging: @juliethiggy @jenscorpion @theblacksiren @jennie-may

[whaleyoufeedmenuggets]

Im too lazy to look at the questions so DO ALL OF THEM. (if you dont wanna then go on a random number generator and get 5 random numbers)

ITS REALLY LONG BUT I DID IT KJSHADJS HERE GOES i love oversharing my lifealso im putting a read more line bc its hella long

1. coffee mugs, teacups, wine glasses, water bottles, or soda cans?

water bottles

2. chocolate bars or lollipops?

ehhh depends on my mood. i’d say it’s (dark) chocolate most of the time (love that 70% dark chocolate mmMmMm)

3. bubblegum or cotton candy?

cotton candy!! except when it gets all over my face and hair o no

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you?

common report book comments included

- very active

- bright

- “the live wire of the class”

- usually distracted but still does well

- mischievous

- playful

5. do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups?

bottles so that i can close it and save the rest for later and not have to chug it yeet

6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear?

sportswear #sweatpantsalldayeveryday

7. earbuds or headphones?

def headphones but they’re inconvenient sometimes :/

8. movies or tv shows?

tv shows!! (also, my adhd ass can’t get through a movie without zoning out oops)

9. favorite smell in the summer?

i haven’t experienced /real/ summer (thank u singapore’s tropical climate) but i rly like the smell of rain :”)

10. game you were best at in p.e.?

making up excuses to skip pe

11. what you have for breakfast on an average day?

belvitas before morning practice

croissant sandwich and chocolate milk after practice

if there’s no practice, then scrambled eggs from the dining hall lolol

if i’m too lazy to go to the dining hall, then cereal

12. name of your favorite playlist?

it’s literally called jams and the description is “a clusterfuck of stuff i’ve jammed to at some point”

13. lanyard or key ring?

key ring

14. favorite non-chocolate candy?

gummy bears/sour patch kids

15. favorite book you read as a school assignment?

death of a salesman - arthur miller

16. most comfortable position to sit in?

with one foot up on the chair and the other leg sitting normally

17. most frequently worn pair of shoes?

a pair of asics sneakers

18. ideal weather?

15ºc/60ºf when its like cool but not too cold but also not ridiculously hot and also when theres no insane wind (a light breeze is fine)

19. sleeping position?

on my left side and hugging a pillow/bolster/soft toy

20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)?

i like the feeling of pen and paper but im disorganized as hell so an apple pencil + ipad makes a good enough substitute

21. obsession from childhood?

frogs (i’ve loved them since i was 3 hehe)

22. role model?

a dude i used to train with for a while in 2014. he retired last year but he’s always looked out for me like an older brother since we trained together (he’s 8 years older than me lmao) and even thought i’m so far away rn he still checks in on me and stuff and idk he’s probably one of the swimmers i respect the most.

23. strange habits?

i cant fall asleep at night if im not hugging something.  like. it could be a pillow. or a soft toy. literally anything. once on a school trip i hugged a pair of sweatpants to sleep bc i legit cant fall asleep if im not hugging something.i have no problem falling asleep in class/on buses/cars/planes though.

24. favorite crystal?

idk i never really paid enough attention to crystals to actually have a favorite and know their names. they’re all rly pretty tho.

25. first song you remember hearing?

uhh h h i honestly can’t remember. probably some classical music bc i played the violin and that was my first experience of music that i was actually aware of????

26. favorite activity to do in warm weather?

switch on the aircon and take a nap / sit in bed on netflix/playing on my nintendo switch. and swimming outdoors i guess.

27. favorite activity to do in cold weather?

switch on the heater and take a nap / sit in bed on netflix/playing on my nintendo switch.

do u see a pattern here

28. five songs to describe you?

jet lag - simple plan (bc time zones suck and i miss my fam & friends)

avalanche - bring me the horizon (pretty much sums up how tf my brain feels)

high hopes - p!atd

astronaut - simple plan

the reckless and the brave - all time low

29. best way to bond with you?

doing dumb shit with me

also Quality Time™️ like idk even if we’re chilling and doing our own shit i like just spending time with people im comfortable enough with

30. places that you find sacred?

idk

31. what outfit do you wear to kick ass and take names?

a hoodie and sweatpants

for no reason other than that’s what i wear 90% of the time

32. top five favorite vines?

I AM CONFUSION!!! AMERICA EXPLAIN

this bitch empty. yeet.

im in my mom’s car VROOM VROOM

the one of that dad playing the saxophone (???) and the kid slamming the oven door open and shut

road works ahead “haha yea sure hope it does!”

33. most used phrase in your phone?

either lmao or lolol or LMFAO or yeet

34. advertisements you have stuck in your head?

gOD i had spotify ads stuck in my head all the time before i switched to premium and now i cant remember any of them (thank god)

35. average time you fall asleep?

i’d say 12:30-1ish

36. what is the first meme you remember ever seeing?

the tROLL FACE MEME LIKE those rage faces idk what they’re called but BASICALLY THOSE 2010-2012 era memes

37. suitcase or duffel bag?

suitcase!!! i like sitting on them and yeeting myself around on them or getting people to push me around and then falling off

38. lemonade or tea?

lemonade

39. lemon cake or lemon meringue pie?

ngl i havent had either of them before

40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school?

so in jc2 (aka 12th grade), for some reason PEOPLE WERE PUTTING PRE-PACKAGED HARD BOILED EGGS ALL OVER THE SCHOOL. like they were still in their wrappers and all but u could open ur schoolbag and find like 5 eggs in there. and no one knew where they came from. i think at one point there were even eggs hanging from the pull-up bars. all i know is that they were everywhere and people in my batch still remember it as the egg invasion of acjc.

41. last person you texted?

my mom

42. jacket pockets or pants pockets?

def jacket!!! especially when they have zips hehe

43. hoodie, leather jacket, cardigan, jean jacket or bomber jacket?

hoodie

44. favorite scent for soap?

idk man depends on my mood

45. which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero?

sci-fi bc im a fricken nerd

46. most comfortable outfit to sleep in?

shirt and sweats

47. favorite type of cheese?

cheddarrr also i like mozzerrella sticks

48. if you were a fruit, what kind would you be?

a fineapple B)

lmao jk ummmm maybe a watermelon bc when u hit it it sounds hollow, just like how my skull would sound if someone hit it (h a)

49. what saying or quote do you live by?

here for a good time not for a long time

never give up without a fight

50. what made you laugh the hardest you ever have?

idk probably some dumb meme. i laugh at a lot of stuff like i laugh anything even mildly funny. some that i can think of off the top of my head are:

- i was tryna type ducky but typed fucky instead and sOmEOnE (could be the person who submitted this ask, idk tho) changed my facebook messenger nickname to fucky and the notification was like ”poopy butthole changed your nickname to fucky” and i think that’s still the funniest sentence i’ve read in my whole life

- one time we went to mcdonalds and a friend said mcfluffy instead of mcflurry and idk why but i laughed so hard at that

- once @doduo and i spent half a chinese lesson cutting out random faces from the chinese newspaper and sticking them randomly all over the classroom and idk. it was the funniest thing ever. until the teacher came over and confiscated my scissors rip.

51. current stresses?

- an essay draft (that i am procrastinating rn by doing this, oops)

- CANADIAN TRIALS (but thats a good kind of stress)

- submitting a proposal for a group project but none of my groupmates are freaking replying my texts ugh

52. favorite font?

avenir next!! i find san serif fonts way easier to read than serif lolol.i like helvetica neue too.

53. what is the current state of your hands?

dry af but also i just got my nails done so they pretty rn hehe

54. what did you learn from your first job?

i…havent had a real job yet

55. favorite fairy tale?

idk i was never rly one for fairy tales even as a kid.

56. favorite tradition?

chinese new year when we get CASH and we spend 3 days just eating junk yEET im rly sad im gonna be missing it the next few years tho

57. the three biggest struggles you’ve overcome?

hh h h hh hhh hh hh they’re pretty personal i don’t /really/ wanna put it out here but i can text you the answer to this if you want (i’m perfectly fine with that!!)

58. four talents you’re proud of having?

- i think i’m pretty intuitive!!! i can guess anyone’s mbti if i’ve spent enough time with them/gotten a detailed enough description of them /winks/ and i can read people pretty well in general and i can draw links to themes/symbols in lit pretty well….???

- i’m somewhat decent at lettering…i think

- i’m good at pull-ups and also vertical jumps i’m secretly a froge

- i’m decent at photography…i guess….

59. if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be?

yeet

60. if you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be?

pokemon !!

61. favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.?

/sweats/ i’m not very good at remembering lines from books/movies/shows WELP

62. seven characters you relate to?

JAKE PERALTA - b99

rosa diaz - b99

linguine - ratatouille (he’s permanently confused and he let a ratto take over his job bc he had no idea what he was doing like damn what a big mood)

dory - finding nemo/finding dory (i relate to the forgetfulness)

percy jackson

kale bae /winks/

mitt (during bad phases) /winks again, but sadly/

63. five songs that would play in your club?

idek man i wouldnt even be at my own club i’d be at home taking a nap i’ll just ask someone else to handle my playlist

64. favorite website from your childhood?

club penguin !!!

65. any permanent scars?

yE one of them was from jumping onto a treadmill going at 13km/h 2 years ago bc i thought i was a good idea

66. favorite flower(s)?

i dont have any

67. good luck charms?

i eat pancakes for breakfast on meet days!!!! altho i think this is more of a habit than a good luck charm tbh lmao.

also i guess pip???? he’s my emotional support narwhal :’)

68. worst flavor of any food or drink you’ve ever tried?

durian. i cant stand the stuff or anything flavored like it ugh.

69. a fun fact that you don’t know how you learned?

red food coloring is derived from beetles

70. left or right handed?

right

71. least favorite pattern?

overly-floral patterns i guessssss. also i hate wearing stripes.

72. worst subject?

chinese

besides that, math and physics

73. favorite weird flavor combo?

i rly like vanilla ice cream and fries

also i would eat ketchup with nearly anything

74. at what pain level out of ten (1 through 10) do you have to be at before you take an advil or ibuprofen?

i usually just suck it up and go to sleep when it comes to pain but i guess an 8??? idk. i usually take advil/ibuprofen only for fevers

75. when did you lose your first tooth?

i got my first loose tooth on january 11 2005 and it fell out on january 18 2005 & it was a tuesday (pls don’t ask me how i remember this bc i dont know)

76. what’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)?

tater tots

77. best plant to grow on a windowsill?

cactus i guess. idk im not good at plants.

78. coffee from a gas station or sushi from a grocery store?

grocery store sushi (it was pretty decent in singapore so yeeeee lmao also i ate a lot of that as a kid)

79. which looks better, your school id photo or your driver’s license photo?

its the same photo for both so yeAh

80. earth tones or jewel tones?

earth

81. fireflies or lightning bugs?

idk i always called them fireflies

82. pc or console?

console I LOVE THE FEEL OF BUTTONS

83. writing or drawing?

drawing (more like doodlign for me bc i cant draw for shit)

84. podcasts or talk radio?

neither but if i rlllllly had to choose then podcasts i guessss s sss

84. barbie or polly pocket?

neither LMAO i gave all my barbies haircuts when i was a kid bc i didnt know what to do with them

85. fairy tales or mythology?

mythology for sure!! i love greek mythology (may or may not be bc of percy jackson lolol)

86. cookies or cupcakes?

cookies

87. your greatest fear?

losing those i love and care about (could be drifting or actual death it goes both ways)

88. your greatest wish?

rn, for my essay to write itself

for the short-term, to make the olympics (and WUGs…and worlds…and sea games…and asian games…and commonwealth games lmao)

for the long-term, uhhh idk. i just wanna live a life i’m satisfied with and to have a job i actually like and to be able to support my parents

89. who would you put before everyone else?

my mom

90. luckiest mistake?

i always say that i regret doing a year of college in singapore instead of coming here for freshman year but if i’d come in a year earlier like i was supposed to, i proba wouldn’t have made it past swim team tryouts and i made some pretty great friends in my first year of college soooo it all worked out i guessi cant think of any others rn

91. boxes or bags?

bags

92. lamps, overhead lights, sunlight or fairy lights?

fairy lights are rly pretty!!but i like natural light :”)

93. nicknames?

deb

debs

debo

debbo

alpha childuhh h h i think thats about it??? i cant remember any others

94. favorite season?

spring’s pretty great rni like fall too (before it gets cOLd)

95. favorite app on your phone?

insta/tumblr/telegram

96. desktop background?

a photo of me looking rly cool at the starting blocks before a race B)

97. how many phone numbers do you have memorized?

4 - mine (singapore & US), my mom’s and my dad’s

98. favorite historical era?

uhh h h idk the ice age seemed pretty cool haha sike it was actually coldmedieval times seemed pretty cool too like damn i want a suit of armorWHEW I SPENT WAY TOO MUCH TIME ON THIS but i had fun so yeet

also if you read all the way down here ily and you’re cool

[insarations]

random questions just cause...hereeell we go

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? *chuckles* yup

2. You talked to an ex today, correct? yes

3. Have you taken someones virginity? ya

4. Is trust a big issue for you? no in fact I trust people way too much

5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently? don't really like anyone atm

6. What are you excited for? hmm idk really. I guess my week off of work in a few weeks

7. What happened tonight? not much, just chilling, rainy day

8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted? ehh..idk it's just not my thing. but I wouldn't call it "disgusting"..if that's fun for them then cool

9. Is confidence cute? for sure, just not tooo much..fine line there

10. What is the last beverage you had? water and an iced vanilla latte

11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? hmm. not any really besides my dad

12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? yes a couple

13. What are you gonna do Saturday night? I'm not sure yet. Probably go somewhere with a friend or see a movie

14. What are you going to spend money on next? probably either food or coffee

15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed? no

16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months? not significantly but I feel like I'm always changing in some way, even if it's gradual

17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? not gonna put a name but one of my best friends

18. The last time you felt broken? that's hard to answer cause like i still do, i have for a while now but I mean it's not as bad as it was. about a year ago

19. Have you had sex today? sadly no lol

20. Are you starting to realize anything? a lot of things every second of every day. adulthood has a lot of fucking wake up calls

21. Are you in a good mood? not necessarily in a good mood but i'm not really in a bad mood either..it's just kinda like meh lol

22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks? hmm.... maybeee... depends

23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s? no. his is brown, mine are blue

24. What do you want right this second? not to have to go to work tomorrow XD and idk maybe a good ol makeout session and/or cuddles

25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy? uhhh well like if i were in a relationship with them then wtf, no no lol not good. but like if it was someone i'm not together with then...cool, do whatever the hell you want

26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? pretty much

27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh? noo.. like i mean they don't gotta be some sorta jokester/comedian or nothing but just..don't be so serious. laughing is the best

28. What was the last thing that made you laugh? probably one of my cats lol

29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now? always do

30. Does everyone deserve a second chance? for the most part. but idk...I don't think I could give someone who cheated another chance. that's just crossing a line of trust that like..I could forive but I wouldn't be able to be with them again. I just don't understand anyone who cheats

31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to? that would be my dad so no XD

32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do? hmm hard to answer. but I suppose she does

33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda? nooo I love soda. with that said though, since the beginning of the year i've cut back on it alottttt for my health. but i still drink it maybe once a week. i used to drink it literally every day multiple times a day.

34. Listening to? currently juice WRLD

35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore? sometimes at work but not often

36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is? yup

37. Do you believe in love at first sight? yes and no. i hate that question, it's old lets move on lol

38. Who did you last call? i cant remember, probably one of my parents. i dont talk on the phone much

39. Who was the last person you danced with? I dont dance really except in the car with my friends..our own version of dancing XD

40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? cause she was my girlfriend. girlfriends do that lol

41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake? a few weeks ago i think

42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today? no..we don't hug often really lol we're just not that way but i do hug my mom every now and then

43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush? probably a million times

44. Do you tan in the nude? noooooooo. i burn so easy i'd probably turn into one giant tomato

45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss? never

46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? nah :/ I miss that

47. Who was the last person to call you? a million car sales people cause i'm stupid and entered info on a website and now it's like the neverending fucking story of sales people calling me like heyyyy buy a jeep and its like yes mam id love to but i'm poor so how about not right now stop calling me thank you bye

48. Do you sing in the shower? heck ya. except not really lately cause i shower at the gym...they don't wanna hear that XD

49. Do you dance in the car? yasss

50. Ever used a bow and arrow? yes, I did archery at camp as a kid. fun times

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? 10th grade highschool photo. or if it counts, my aunt took my graduation photos..she perty professional

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? there definitely can be cheesy ones but those are usually the ones i love XD

53. Is Christmas stressful? these days yes -_- never as a kid. I miss those days

54. Ever eat a pierogi? I don't think I have actually

55. Favorite type of fruit pie? not a huge fruit pie person but I guess...apple or lemon. I really don't eat fruit pie though. If  it's gonna be pie then I prefer something like chocolate or peanut butter

56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? so many different things, that's why i never settled on anything XD

57. Do you believe in ghosts? I think so..in a certain way.. like not in the way they show on tv and movies. just idk, i do believe in spirits. There's some stories in my family they are kinda hard not to believe or explain

58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? allllll the time

59. Take a vitamin daily? nah, probably should ?

60. Wear slippers? not anymore, I used to alot

61. Wear a bath robe? same as above. I get way too hot for that now lol

62. What do you wear to bed? usually just shorts or boxers and a tank top or tshirt. sometimes sweatpants dependning  

63. First concert? reba mcentire lol

64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? target. walmart for certain things. but target is just fun

65. Nike or Adidas? neither really but adidas if i have to pick

66. Cheetos Or Fritos? cheetos

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? I like both, but peanuts

68. Favorite Taylor Swift song? back in the day, crazier. then it was blank space or shake it off...but recently, delicate. many different taylor eras XD

69. Ever take dance lessons? when I was in elementary school and 6th grade yes

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? umm hmm honestly no. whatever makes them happy :)

71. Can you curl your tongue? nah, i dont got nothing special like that XD

72. Ever won a spelling bee? nahh

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? yesss

74. What is your favorite book? several...looking for alaska by john greene, the pawn series by robin roseau, and look again by lisa scottoline

75. Do you study better with or without music? havent studied in so long O_o but probably with

76. Regularly burn incense? not regularly. I do from time to time but not as much anymore, my mom hates it lol

77. Ever been in love? yes

78. Who would you like to see in concert? so many... fleetwood mac or just stevie nicks, ben howard, maroon 5, pvris, ariana grande, lana del rey, the weeknd, pink, coldplay, imagine dragons lady gaga, andrew belle, adele, lorde, gwen stefani even though I already did lol...i could go on all day. bottom line, i need to see more concerts

79. What was the last concert you saw? Gwen Stefani a couple years ago

80. Hot tea or cold tea? cold

81. Tea or coffee? coffee

82. Favorite type of cookie? alllllll the cookies. lately m&m. but chocolate chip is always a winner

83. Can you swim well? yes

84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? nahh

85. Are you patient? yes and no. depends on the setting and circumstance lol. I think I'm fairly patient compared to other people but sometimes at work..if the right people push my buttons then oohhh boyyy no

86. DJ or band, at a wedding? hmm.. neither honestly just put on the damn ipod playlist XD

87. Ever won a contest? a couple when I was little lol

88. Ever have plastic surgery? noo. no thank you

89. Which are better black or green olives? greeeeeen

90. Opinions on sex before marriage? go for it. I used to think alot differently when I was younger cause I'm a christian, grew up with traditional values. but *sighs*... things change lol sex is great, go for it but be safe people XD

91. Best room for a fireplace? ANY ROOM. omggg. they should have fireplaces in the bathroom. what a great idea you can just warm yourself while you sitting there haha genius

92. Do you want to get married? If I meet the right person but if I don't ever get married that's fine too lol it's not a priority for me really but if I do meet the right person then for sure

[urscottsdale]

1-92

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? no
2. You talked to an ex today, correct? nope i havent
3. Have you taken someones virginity? not that i am aware of
4. Is trust a big issue for you? yes
5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently? nope havent talked to them in weeks
6. What are you excited for? tennessee whiskey
7. What happened tonight? idk tonight hasnt happened yet
8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted? depends on what they do when they get really wasted, but just them drinking a lot no idc do u boo just stay safe
9. Is confidence cute? it can be
10. What is the last beverage you had? dr. pepper
11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? not very many
12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? yes
13. What are you gonna do Saturday night? im not sure yet but hopefully go get some good food
14. What are you going to spend money on next? probably food
15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed? no
16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months? i hope so
17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? n, a, m and whitney
18. The last time you felt broken? right now
19. Have you had sex today? nope unfortunately
20. Are you starting to realize anything? many things
21. Are you in a good mood? surprisingly yes im content
22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks? yes that would be awesome
23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s? yup
24. What do you want right this second? m
25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy? id be upset but i cant control them. i just want them happy.
26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? nope
27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh? its pretty hard to find someone who cant make me laugh
28. What was the last thing that made you laugh? my dog
29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now? yup
30. Does everyone deserve a second chance? depends but usually yes, not third and fourth chances tho
31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to? my dog? never
32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do? i would assume they do since i told them i did idk if they remember or care tho
33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda? lol
34. Listening to? scar tissue by camila cabello
35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore? i rarely write anymore tho
36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is? nope
37. Do you believe in love at first sight? nah love at first words38. Who did you last call? my mom
39. Who was the last person you danced with? cant remember tho
40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? sex is fun
41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?
 cant remember42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today? not today
43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush? always
44. Do you tan in the nude? nope
45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss? probably not
46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? yup @susceptibly
47. Who was the last person to call you? my doctor and also my grandpa
48. Do you sing in the shower? sometimes
49. Do you dance in the car? no just sing
50. Ever used a bow and arrow? yup a few times
51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? family pictures at the old football stadium a few years ago
52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? most of the time yeah
53. Is Christmas stressful? more stressful than it was when i was a kid yes
54. Ever eat a pierogi? i dont think so
55. Favorite type of fruit pie? apple pie
56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? architect, astronaut and an actor 😂
57. Do you believe in ghosts? im not sure
58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? all the time
59. Take a vitamin daily? i need to but havent in awhile
60. Wear slippers? yup just got some for christmas!
61. Wear a bath robe? nope
62. What do you wear to bed? shorts and a t-shirt
63. First concert? trace adkins and kenny chesney i believe
64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? walmart
65. Nike or Adidas? both
66. Cheetos Or Fritos? cheetos
67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? seeds
68. Favorite Taylor Swift song? back to december, white horse and fifteen
69. Ever take dance lessons? kinda
70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? whatever makes them happy
71. Can you curl your tongue? yes
72. Ever won a spelling bee? nope
73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? a few times
74. What is your favorite book? harry potter and to kill a mockingbird
75. Do you study better with or without music? with music
76. Regularly burn incense? no
77. Ever been in love? yes
78. Who would you like to see in concert? demi and selena
79. What was the last concert you saw? cody johnson, sabrina carpenter and nick jonas/demi lovato
80. Hot tea or cold tea? ice cold sweet tea
81. Tea or coffee? both
82. Favorite type of cookie? chocolate chip
83. Can you swim well? yes
84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? yes
85. Are you patient? sometimes but not usually no
86. DJ or band, at a wedding? both
87. Ever won a contest? i have
88. Ever have plastic surgery? nope
89. Which are better black or green olives? both
90. Opinions on sex before marriage? used to be against it but idc tbh. everyone has needs and as long as its a mutually desired experience between the two then its fine to me.
91. Best room for a fireplace? living room
92. Do you want to get married? yes

[spiffysixxsense]

1-92 for the entertain me asks

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? 

i have already, so yes

2. You talked to an ex today, correct? 

nah, nice try though

3. Have you taken someones virginity?

yes. (2 in fact lol)

4. Is trust a big issue for you?

a little bit. My instinct is to trust,  but then my past experiences stop me in my tracks like WHOA MAN DONT DO THAT. 

5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?

I saw Alex and Ariel yesterday, I kinda like both of them. 

6. What are you excited for?

4 months of no school

7. What happened tonight?

Well tonight hasnt happened yet, so how would I know?

8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?

no, you do you girl. 

9. Is confidence cute?

To an extent. Its a fine line.

10. What is the last beverage you had?

green tea

11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?

one, really. (maybe 2.)

12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?

yes, only for boot purposes. 

13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?

Next saturday? stay up til midnight to see all of Ariel’s birthday speeches lol

14. What are you going to spend money on next?

Ive spent way too much in the last couple weeks, im taking a break lol

15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?

yes i am

16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?

Ill be a year older? does that count?

17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?

Alex and Ariel

18. The last time you felt broken?

like a week ago

19. Have you had sex today?

I have not, but hey it’s only 6.

20. Are you starting to realize anything?

nothing comes to mind

21. Are you in a good mood?

Im okay. 

22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?

uh no? jeez

23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?

yes

24. What do you want right this second?

maybe more tea

25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?

what the ACTUAL FUCK

26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?

yes

27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?

no

28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?

Alex fucking up the timing to SOB in the car

29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?

not really. 

30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?

Depends on what its for. 

31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?

No

32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?

I am pretty sure he’s gotten the hint at this point. 

33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?

never, no. but i think i drink it less than others (i live off tea)

34. Listening to?

The sound of my own typing

35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?

no

36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?

pretty sure hes home.

37. Do you believe in love at first sight?

no. attraction at first sight, sure. 

38. Who did you last call?

Alex, probably.

39. Who was the last person you danced with?

Alex in my living room, probably my ex at prom if that doesnt count

40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?

I like him?

41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?

I have absolutely no idea.

42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?

No, I havent even talked to the one i live with

43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?

I dont think so, but im pretty embarrassing so probably. 

44. Do you tan in the nude?

no, Id get fired.

45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?

no

46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?

Until he fell asleep at least, yes

47. Who was the last person to call you?

My insurance company, im super popular

48. Do you sing in the shower?

sometimes

49. Do you dance in the car?

sometimes, sorry Alex and Ariel

50. Ever used a bow and arrow?

Maybe? maybe not, i was offered but i probably said no

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?

If Michael & Zarhaa count, then a couple weeks ago. If it has to be a professional with a studio, then my senior pictures 3 years ago.

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?

yes, and annoying. 

53. Is Christmas stressful?

yes, everything is stressful

54. Ever eat a pierogi?

yes, i approve

55. Favorite type of fruit pie?

apple i guess

56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?

Scientist, i know thats vague af now but thats what i would say. (I think i meant a chemist)

57. Do you believe in ghosts?

I want to, they seem neat

58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?

Im sure at some point in life

59. Take a vitamin daily?

No do i look that put together to you

60. Wear slippers?

no

61. Wear a bath robe?

no

62. What do you wear to bed?

Tank top and shorts

63. First concert?

Nickelback

64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?

target 

65. Nike or Adidas?

Nike

66. Cheetos Or Fritos?

Cheetos

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?

Sunflower seeds (pumpkin seeds are better)

68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?

shake it off? lol

69. Ever take dance lessons?

god no

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?

As in what I want him to do? no

71. Can you curl your tongue?

yes

72. Ever won a spelling bee?

Ive never been in one so no lol

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?

I don’t think so.

74. What is your favorite book?

I used to have an answer for this and now i cant remember the name of the book lol

75. Do you study better with or without music?

Depends on what Im doing. actually reading? no. making flash cards/reviewing? yes76. Regularly burn incense?

no

77. Ever been in love?

yes

78. Who would you like to see in concert?

Who I havent before? uh. Well after checking spotify, thousand foot krutch is the first one that comes up that i havent seen before 

79. What was the last concert you saw?

A year in new york? maybe

80. Hot tea or cold tea?

cold

81. Tea or coffee?

tea

82. Favorite type of cookie?

the chocolate chip walnut one i had yesterday was pretty lit. 

83. Can you swim well?

define well. I wont drown. but i cant swim faster than you either. 

84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?

Anyone can? just stop breathing. 

85. Are you patient?

no. 

86. DJ or band, at a wedding?

band i guess

87. Ever won a contest?

no

88. Ever have plastic surgery?

Have i? no. will i? probably not

89. Which are better black or green olives?

NEITHER HOW DARE YOU

90. Opinions on sex before marriage?

go for it

91. Best room for a fireplace?

Living room? maybe bedroom if its big enough

92. Do you want to get married? 

someday

[transssexualheart]

Hey b I know you like asks so answer all 200 because I'm just that nice :^)

FUCK THATS SO MANY 

200: my crush’s name is:as if you all don’t know at this point. it’s sarah

199: i was born in:2002

198: i am really:gay

197: my cellphone company is: i’m so fuckin stupid i’m not sure what the question is asking

196: my eye color is: brown

195: my shoe size is:eight and a half/nine

194: my ring size is:i don’t wear rings

193: my height is:5′5

192: i am allergic to:nothing

191: my first car was:never had a car

190: my first job was:never had a job

189: last book you read:hitchhiker’s guide to the galaxy

188: my bed is:small

187: my pet:is a beautiful orange cat named danny and i love her

186: my best friend:is lovely

185: my favorite shampoo is:i don’t care 

184: xbox or ps3:i’ve never played a ps3 so i guess xbox

183: piggy banks are:ok??? why are we trying to start piggy bank discourse

182: in my pockets:are trash

181: on my calendar:i don’t use a calendar

180: marriage is:alright?? i’d get married if my partner wanted to

179: spongebob can:?? exist??

178: my mom:is not very nice

177: the last three songs i bought were?uhhh i havent bought music in a while idk

176: last yt video i watched:for him.

175: how many cousins do you have?fuck dude. so many. i don’t know.

174: do you have any siblings?two, a brother and a sister

173: are your parents divorced?well my parents tried to get divorced but my dad died before it actually got worked out and my mom and my stepdad aren’t married and have never been so

172: are you taller than your mom?i believe so  

171: do you play an instrument?yeah, piano

170: what did you do yesterday?not much, just sat around and then walked in circles around my house for hours and then hung out with my siblings in the yard

[do you believe in]

169: love at first site:no, what if that pretty girl u saw on the street is an asshole?? what if she’s racist and homophobic dude u don’t know her

168: luck:sure

167: fate:yeah i guess

166: yourself:haha no

165: aliens:ya

164: heaven:idk

163: hell:idk

162: god:idk!! 

161: horoscopes:idk they’re fun to look at 

160: soul mates: i’d like to believe in soul mates

159: ghosts:idk

158: gay marriage:gay marriage isn’t a fuckinhg cryptid, yes i believe in it i’m gay and i’m gonna probably get married

157: war:god fuck i don’t know

156: orbs:??????????

155: magic:could be real, might not be, who knows

[this or that]

154: hugs or kisses:kisses

153: drunk or high:never been either so

152: phone or online:phone, can text my friends whom i lov

151: red heads or black haired:black haired i guess

150: blondes or brunettes:someone’s gonna get sad when i answer this but brunettes

149: hot or cold:i don’t know actually

148: summer or winter:summer, it’s better than having seasonal depression added onto my normal depression

147: autumn or spring: spring

146: chocolate or vanilla:vanilla

145: night or day:night

144: oranges or apples:apples

143: curly or straight hair:curly!!!!!!!!!!!!!

142: mcdonalds or burger king:don’t really eat at either but if i had to choose, mcdonalds

141: white chocolate or milk chocolate?white chocolate

140: mac or pc:pc

139: flip flops or high heels:high heels

138: ugly and rich OR sweet and poor:wtf 

137: coke or pepsi:don’t really drink soda

136: hillary or obama:man i don’t know too much about politics all i know is that i’d choose hillary over trump any day

135: buried or cremated:man i’m not sure,, i guess i’d prefer to be cremated Please Rid The World Of My Horrible Body

134: singing or dancing:singing

133: coach or chanel:i have like fifty cents do you think i can afford that shit

132: kat mcphee or taylor hicks:who

131: small town or big city:i love the city, maybe that’s because i live in a small town but i love the city

130: wal mart or target:target

129: ben stiller or adam sandler: idk

128: manicure or pedicure:well i don’t want anyone touching my feet i don’t even like taking my socks off around friends unless i very much trust them

127: east coast or west coast:well i live on the east coast so

126: your birthday or christmas:my bday bc we go on vacation for it bc it’s over the summer

125: chocolate or flowers:flowers

124: disney or six flags:never been to disney so six flags

123: yankees or red sox:sport???

[here’s what i think about]

122: war:didn’t another question p much ask the same thing

121: george bush:idk??

120: gay marriage:p much already been asked bud

119: the presidential election:not my president can’t believe u fuckers let trump win

118: abortion:if someone wants an abortion, they should be able to get it. no one else should have a monopoly over that, not even the father, because their body does not belong to him.

117: myspace:never used it

116: reality tv:eh

115: parents:some are good, mine i am not fans of

114: back stabbers:i don’t think i’ve ever really been backstabbed

113: ebay:it’s ok?

112: facebook:don’t really use it

111: work:don’t have a job

110: my neighbors:i don’t talk to them much but everytime we go near their dogs on the otherside of the fence they call the dogs back or pull them away one of the kids went “haha you can’t touch our dogs” and?? idk why??

109: gas prices:i don’t drive

108: designer clothes:can’t afford them

107: college:haven’t been 

106: sports:Throw Ball

105: my family:my sister is lovely, my brother is really mean, and my parents are also p mean like i don’t realize sometimes until i tell something they said and they’re like “??? that’s really not ok??”

104: the future:hasn’t happened yet how would i know

[last time i]

103: hugged someone:earlier today i hugged my aunt because she’s over for easter

102: last time you ate:just ate a tootsie roll a lil bit ago

101: saw someone i haven’t seen in a while:i guess the only person i haven’t seen very recently is spence and the last time i saw him was a few weeks ago

100: cried in front of someone:long time ago

99: went to a movie theater: went to see beauty and the beast a while back but i don’t remember exactly when that was

98: took a vacation: last summer

97: swam in a pool:last summer at my aunt’s probably 

96: changed a diaper:many years

95: got my nails done:i painted a clear coat on them a lil while back does that count

94: went to a wedding:year or so ago?

93: broke a bone:never broken any bones

92: got a piercing:when i was like five

91: broke the law:idk

90: texted:a few mins ago

[misc]

89: who makes you laugh the most:hahah. u

88: something i will really miss when i leave home is:oh man. all my friends, hubbard hall, the school playground, as much as i wanna leave this town i’ll probably cry leaving it behind

87: the last movie i saw:moana!

86: the thing that i’m looking forward to the most:death

85: the thing i’m not looking forward to:school starting again

83: the most difficult thing to do is:tell someone you’re in love with them

82: i have gotten a speeding ticket:never??

81: my zodiac sign is:leo

80: the first person i talked to today was:probably my mom

79: first time you had a crush:seventh grade

78: the one person u can’t hide anything from:apparently you because u always figure me out

77: last time someone said something you were thinking: yesterday, spence was talking about how his bf had big hands and i said “u know what they say” and i was about to say “big gloves” but he beat me to it

76: right now i am talking to:i’m not talking i’m typing

75: what are you going to do when you grow up:idk

 74: i have/will get a job:i don’t?? know??

73: tomorrow:is easter

72: today:is not easter

71: next summer:??

70: next weekend:idk man??

69: i have these pets:one cat, two fish

68: the worst sound in the world:chEWING

67: the person that makes me cry the most is:haha

66: people that make you happy:my friends

65: last time i cried:about a month ago

64: my friends are:the best!!!

63: my computer is:alright

62: my school:is the fucking worse

61: my car:is non existent

60: i lose all respect for people who:support trump

59: the movie i cried at was:i cried over the shitty mario movie when i was seven

58: your hair color is: dark brown

57: tv shows you watch:i don’t really watch tv

56: fav website:i dont kno

55: your dream vacation:to go to the beach with friends

54: the worst pain i was ever in was:emotional

53: how do you like your steak cooked:well not burnt

52: my room is:alright

51: my fav celebrity is:does dan avidan count? he still holds a special place in my heart

50: where would you like to be:my answers for these kinds of qs are always so gay 

49: do you want children:used to not want them, but i guess depending on the person i’d have them with i MIGHT

48: ever been in love:ya

47: who’s your best friend:asdgkjgf

46: more guy friends or more girl friends:many of us are nb

45: one thing that makes you feel great is:being loved

44: one person you wish you could see right now:u know, u all know who

43: do you have a five year plan:???????

42: have you made a list of the things to do before u die:1. kiss a girlthat’s it

41: have you prenamed your children:no

40: last person i got mad at:probably my brother

39: i would like to move to:nyc

38: i wish i was a professional:animator

[my favs]

37: candy:sweedish fish and jolly ranchers

36: vehicle:idk

35: president:i only remember obama

34: state visited:idk

33: cellphone provider:also idk

32: athlete:don’t pay attention to sports

31: actor:i don’t freakin know

30: actress:well,

29: singer:wELL,,

28: band:not sure

27: clothing store:idk

26: grocery store:hannaford??

25: tv show:no idea

24: movie:so many good movies

23: website:i think this was already asked??

22: animal:not sure

21: theme park:only ever been to like one

20: holiday:xmas

19: sport to watch:uhh i guess soccer?? i’ll actually understand whats happening so

18: sport to play:also soccer

17: magazine:don’t read them

16: book:carry on

15: day of the week:saturday

14: beach:no specific one i just like the beach

13: concert attended:only ever been to one, it was a top concert

12: thing to cook:grilled cheese

11: food:not sure

10: restaurant:idk

9: radio station:don’t really listen to the radio

8: yankee candle scent:??? idk???

7: perfume:don’t really wear it

6: flower:roses or tiger lillies

5: color:blue

4: talk show host:i don’t know??

3: comedian:bo burnham

2: dog breed:shiba inu

1: did you answer all of these truthfully?ya

i didn’t move the whole time i answered all 200 help me

[imlovedandalive-blog1]

First Journal Entry.

I wrote this today but on another platform. Just making this to keep track of my life.Just going to paste it here.

“   I want to leave some sort of trail to look back on in a few years. Ill just sum up the last few years. From 2014-now 2018. In 8th grade I really started to make lifelong friends. It was one of my favorite years of school with Ms. Cooper as my ela teacher. My friend Diego also became one of my best that year and he still is. Same with Bryan. I am much closer with Bryan today. I also was really good friends with both Zachs. Although I have compeltely lost contact with them. Havent talked to either of them since 9th grade. That year kinda sucked. I barley had any good classes or classes with friends. I did start talking to my other really good friend Tyler that year. Also my friend nick who I havent really seen recently. Nothing eventful happened that year. Skip forward to the end of 9th grade and I started talking to kara. I was so fucking happy that a girl actually liked me and wanted to date. I was super nervous but we went out on a date and it went really well. I felt on top of the world. I always had a weird vibe about her. She a few months in became controlling and abusive. Made me bleed a few times. My whole family hated her. And her own family were mean to her. After all she did to me, I still felt bad for her and I still do in some ways. When she was nice she was the nicest girl in the world. When she was mean, she was evil. I dated her from the end of 9th grade to the end of 10th grade to almost the start of 11th. She broke up with me after a year and 2 months. August 8th. When she did I has a panic attack and almost fainted. But being the cruel person she is, she led me on for another month or so making me think she was going to get back with me, I had my hoped up so high and I missed her so much. Eventually she just said its over for real, but always left a little hope by saying "one day". It had me fucked up for months after. I should have cut ties sooner. It only hurts more. That is one big lesson I learned. Do not keep in touch with your ex if you want to get over them. Then in may I made the mistake of going to see her at the mall. Which only ended terrible. She made me pay for her food and tried to kiss me. i wanted to so bad but i didnt. I dont know why. She got mad. I forget why. She left and i was alone in the mall crying in the corner bench where bestbuy used to be. Rewind a bit. Start of 11th grade I started a band with bryan. it was called out of breath and it was me, bryan, diego and george. Diego was only in for a day. I love diego but he just was so bad and didnt practice the songs at all. He isnt as into music as me and bryan are. Which is ok. one whole year later we finally got our first show. By that time we had made about 30 songs. Only of which 5 actually made it onto the demo we are proud of. So now its 12th grade. In the july before 12th started, This girl jessica messaged me. She said I was cute and she wanted to keep talking to me. She was In florida at the time with her dad. I waited a whole month for her to get back. But just before we went on a date I got really sick after spending a few nights at jimny peak for my grandpas birthday. My throat hurt so bad. I didnt eat for 5 days. barley drank. I finally got better and ate and drank as much as i could. When i went to the hispital i had dreams about drinking apple juice and soda. It was the worst. I probably lost 5 pounds. Finally I went on the date with jess. i really did like her. She was only 15 however. We saw anabelle or something. I forget. I had a realy nice time and the feeling of someone else laying on me and holding me was something i really really missed. I was so happy. She was just really immature. She had depression and lots of problems. We broke up after she got drunk with a bunch of 20 something year olds. I cant stand drinking, smoking or drugs. And I am so fucking serious. I am done with that after what she did. A few days about a week before that happened. This girl krystal had moved back from florida. In 9th grade I would always see her. apprently we used to talk in homeroom but i dont remember that at all. She was one of those girls i just didnt think i was allowed to talk to. There are still those fucking people. The ones you cant talk to. You know what i mean. Thats all she talked to too. All the girls i had been friends with and now i wasnt. For the better honestly. They turned into druggies and whores. But she moved back after a few years in florida. i didnt think much of it. The  she liked all my pics on ig and i did the same. She also sent me a pic on christmas eve. I almost replied. i didnt tho. The next night she actually messaged me. She sent a heart face to my snap story. we started talking and i really started to like her even tho I had a girlfriend. Within 5 days of the breakup we started dating. We saw insideous. I was beyond happy and had never felt this before ever. Its also sad and tragic that the week leading up to that all my friend just roasted the shit out of her and called her a whore and said i shouldnt feel bad if i just ignored her. That made me a little sad but whatever. She then explained that she used to party get drunk and did xanax. Talk about a fucking turnoff. It still bothers me and sometimes i cant sleep. Why the fuck would you want to drink poison? I swear people who drink are fucking retarded. When you all have liver failure youll see whos right. And she claims that her step dad is dope for giving her weed money. Parents who love their fucking kids dont give them weed money. Literally fuck off with that shit. Weed is also the drug of choice for many LOSERS. I guess she doesnt anymore. But still the fact that she was a fuck up partier whore who slept with 2 people she wasnt in a relationship with. pisses me the fuck off. If you dont wanna almost get pregnant dont take xanax when youre drunk you fucking cunt. Sorry. i love her. And i feel like shes fading from me honestly. Yesterday at lunch we just didnt talk. And we barley have since then. we used to all the time. Shed leave me paragraphs. None of that anymore. She also always has a fucking attitude when I ask anything any boyfriend would. And she never comforts me when Im sad. She never fucking talks things through or tries to see my side of the fucking story. My feelings dont matter when we argue. If shes mad, im wrong. If shes sad, im wrong. It hurts me beyond belief  and we never accomplish anything. When you argue you need to see each others side. Maybe just both say sorry and move on so you both feel like you win. When she cries i hug and kiss her and say its all gonna be ok. When i cry. She looks away. When im sad she doesnt do anything. She said she sucks at comforting people. How hard is it to kiss me or hug me when im sad? you dont need to say anything. She really hurts me sometimes and makes me feel like i dont mean as much as i did. i also really dont want her to leave for the navy. Because if that happens. you know what happens. You grow apart. You fall out of love. Thats the sad truth. I dont want that. I also still feel like shes cheating or shes goig to cheat on me with someone when she goes to florida during break. With one of her guy "friends". Or smoke weed or drink. if i find out she smoked or got drunk. i am leaving her. no trace. "sober eyes are the truest ones" and i refuse to be with someone who smokes or drinks for fun. Poison. Ok thats allup until now. Im sitting her and have been writing for 30 min. Today was weird. But I still feel sad. She doesnt seem into me at all. She doesnt ask to see me. She never even messages me first. I know its dumb, but it hurts me.”

[angrymuffin16]

all the questions? only if you want to lol

Fuck yeah! Thanks so much!!!1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?The only person I ever wanted to have sex with actually lol2. You talked to an ex today, correct?Don't have any ex's lol3. Have you taken someones virginity?Nope4. Is trust a big issue for you?Oh yeah definitely. It's hard for me to open up, because I think that people won't love me5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?Just saw my bf yesterday6. What are you excited for?Currently... moving in with my boyfriend, which will probably be next month. 7. What happened tonight?I napped after work, ate snacks and hung out with my family a bit, texted my bf and talking about things with him, but he went to bed, so I'm just on tumblr and listening to music now, lol not much obviously.8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?Eh idk no, just people getting wasted in general probably lol9. Is confidence cute?Sometimes, yeah I guess. 10. What is the last beverage you had?A monster11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?Like maybe 4? My bf and a couple family members probably.12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?That's like all I own lmao13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?I have a work meeting thing ugh14. What are you going to spend money on next?I need some new clothes, so probably that I guess.15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?Indeed. I'm going out with the only person I've ever kissed.16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?Yeah probably. I hope to be a bit more mature and taking better care of myself and more independent17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?My boyfriend18. The last time you felt broken?Lol yesterday and today probably 19. Have you had sex today?No lol20. Are you starting to realize anything?Starting to realize that I'm terrible to myself and it affects people important and close to me.21. Are you in a good mood?Not really.. no22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?... No. I'm afraid of large bodies of water anyway lol23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?No. My dad's are brown and mine are kinda hazel 24. What do you want right this second?A break from work and people... and just to sleep and be with my bf. Also, money... But I always want that25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?Honestly I'd be so heartbroken I couldn't function. Actually it'd be worse than that probably. 26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?Yeah, but with highlights27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?No definitely not. I'm mostly attracted to someone's sense of humor, so I honestly couldn't date someone who couldn't make me laugh. 28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?Idk probably something odd my brother said lmao29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?My boyfriend. And especially since he keeps going to sleep before me, I get all lonely and miss him more cuz we usually text and call each other more at night.30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?Ehh... Idk probably not31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?Not at all 32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?Yep lol33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?HAHAHA. No. I live off of soda at this point34. Listening to?Danganronpa 3: Despair opening35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?No I really don't like pencils36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?Yeah lol. Unfortunately he's not with me though37. Do you believe in love at first sight?Eh.. yeah probably38. Who did you last call?My doctor's office lol39. Who was the last person you danced with?Can't say that I've danced with anyone40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?Cuz I love him41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?Honestly can't remember42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?Nope43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?Yeah lol. I especially embarrass myself in front of my bf of course44. Do you tan in the nude?Uh.. I don't tan in general lmao45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?No46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?Nope47. Who was the last person to call you?My boyfriend48. Do you sing in the shower?Sometimes yeah lol49. Do you dance in the car?Yeah probably lol50. Ever used a bow and arrow?Probably? I can't really remember51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?Idk.. I hate pictures of me being taken52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?Yeah usually not my thing53. Is Christmas stressful?Incredibly. I stress so much over Christmas. I never know if what I'm getting people is enough or if they'll like it and if I'm being fair to everyone. And then the stores are fucking insane and people are fucking rude as hell and everything pisses me off lol.54. Ever eat a pierogi?PIEROGIS ARE FUCKING FANTASTIC OMFG55. Favorite type of fruit pie?Not a big fan of fruit in dessert, personally. But I guess I'll say apple56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?A vet as a young kid. And then ever since I was like 12 I've wanted to be like a detective or some kinda crime job57. Do you believe in ghosts?Yeah kinda. I'm pretty superstitious lol58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?Yeah kinda often actually, it's very odd. Sometimes I have moments where I'm like "did this happen before?? Or maybe I dreamt this? Wtf"59. Take a vitamin daily?I have to take prescription vitamins to live, so yes lol60. Wear slippers?No61. Wear a bath robe?No62. What do you wear to bed?Hmm it depends on the temperature. Sometimes I wear pajama pants and a t shirt cuz I'm fucking cold. Usually if I'm sleeping with my bf, then just big t shirt and no pants, cuz I'll probably be really hot. Just depends on how cold I am usually lol63. First concert?A Panic! At the Disco concert. That was almost 4 years ago64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?Fucking Target man! I love target65. Nike or Adidas?Neither lol66. Cheetos Or Fritos?Hmm cheetos probably. Well my favorite is cheddar jalapeno cheetos. And if not those kind, then I'd say fritos67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?Neither, no thanks!68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?I don't listen Taylor Swift lol69. Ever take dance lessons?No70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?Not really71. Can you curl your tongue?Yep lol72. Ever won a spelling bee?Lmao no73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?Yes. Happened many times. The times I can definitely think of is when my boyfriend told me he had a crush on me, or when he first told me he loves me 74. What is your favorite book?The Perks of Being a Wallflower is still important to me75. Do you study better with or without music?With definitely76. Regularly burn incense?No77. Ever been in love?Currently in love! Lol78. Who would you like to see in concert?Linkin Park and Caravan Palace are two that I'd love to see.79. What was the last concert you saw?Panic! At the Disco, almost 3 years ago80. Hot tea or cold tea?I prefer cold usually81. Tea or coffee?Tea. I don't like actual coffee flavor, but I love cappuccinos and such. But coffee and the creamer hurts my stomach, so I prefer tea82. Favorite type of cookie?Chocolate chip83. Can you swim well?Not really. Havent gotten in the water in probably 6 or 7 years.84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?Yes85. Are you patient?Not at all.86. DJ or band, at a wedding?Hmmmm... I dunno. Probably band?87. Ever won a contest?I don't think so?88. Ever have plastic surgery?Nah89. Which are better black or green olives?Jesus Christ no olives at all, thanks.90. Opinions on sex before marriage?I have no issue with it91. Best room for a fireplace?Living room 92. Do you want to get married?I didn't used to want to, but I think I'd like to someday