#i haven't been on tumblr in like 2 years i've forgotten EVERythinG

[the-blind-assassin-12]

20 Questions for Writers

I was tagged by the lovely @maggiemayhemnj - thank you!!

1. how many works do you have on AO3?

Ten. I was cross-posting everything for a minute there, but I lost steam and now I only post here - except for Aphelion, which I am co-writing with @something-tofightfor. That still gets posted in both places.

2. what's your total AO3 word count?

68,449 - not counting Aphelion. My tumblr word count is... a lot higher.

3. what fandoms do you write for?

Right now just Pedro Pascal characters.

4. top five fics by kudos?

Gonna go by notes on tumblr instead because that's where most of my stuff is:

Bes'laar Din Djarin x F!Reader (based on artwork by @stealyourblorbos!)

Survivor Blues Joel Miller x F!Reader

Forever Din Djarin x F!Reader

The Cold Offends Me Oberyn Martell x F!Reader (The Viper & The Wild Thing universe)

Point of No Return Ezra x OFC Clara

5. do you respond to comments?

I try to respond to all comments because I appreciate them SO MUCH MORE than I can accurately convey. I love hearing from people about what they liked or what shocked them or what made them feel things, and I really love the chance to sort of have a micro mini chat about it in the comments. That being said, sometimes I completely check out and miss a whole batch or a whole fic worth of comments goes unresponded to for far too long. And I always feel bad when that happens, which sometimes results in me responding to things WAY after the comments were left, to the point where it wouldn't surprise me if the person has already forgotten the fic/what they wrote... but I haven't forgotten how much it meant to me that they read and commented on my work. So even if it's 6 months to an eternity late, I intend to respond to them all.

6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

It Pours From Your Eyes Joel x Tess

7. what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I feel like most of them have happy endings, but we'll go with A Little Christmas Magic - Frankie x F!Reader as perhaps the fluffiest happy ending.

8. do you get hate on fics?

I have gotten non-fic specific hate directed at my writing before, but that was a few years ago and it hasn't happened since. Which is cool because the fewer people wasting their time and energy on being unnecessarily mean about things - let alone about stories about silly little fictional guys - the better.

9. do you write smut?

I do, but I do not consider it one of my strong suits, and I typically only include it if it fits with the overall story though a few times I have written smut just to be filthy as a challenge... and as a treat.

10. craziest crossover?

I've been slowly spinning a True Detective x Tim Rockford crossover like a rotisserie chicken for months but I've only managed to jot down a few unconnected snippets thus far. And a title. It's gonna be called (maybe, if I ever actually write it) Flat Circle, Twisted Game.

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

No, but if I did I would be absolutely PISSED. And I can't say I'd be nice about it.

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope, but that would be cool AF.

13. have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yes! I am currently co-writing Aphelion with @something-tofightfor and it is so much FUN.

14. all time favorite ship?

In all honesty it's probably Leslie Knope and Ben Wyatt. I was straight up ready to stop watching Parks and Rec if they didn't end up together.

15. what's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

lol what kind of passive aggressive, self-doubt feeding question is this? I'd like to finish them all and I try like hell to believe that I will.

16. what are your writing strengths?

I think it's probably describing natural settings? But maybe dialogue. Idk.

17. what are your writing weaknesses?

Smut. Also keeping the momentum to finish things in a timely fashion, but mostly smut.

18. thoughts on dialogue in another language?

I try to only use it when it makes sense or when it benefits the story and not just as like... a novelty or an afterthought.

19. first fandom you wrote in?

Teeeeeeeeeeechnically? Like first one I ever made content for? I guess that would be the Twilight series. But I will not be sharing where to find that here. And if you find out where it is, you take that knowledge to the grave with you, you hear me? DO YOU HEAR ME, FRIENDS?

20. favorite fic you've written?

Even though it's nowhere near done, I love and am so very proud of Survivor Blues. But then again, even though it's a few years old now and I feel like my writing has grown since finishing it, Point of No Return will always have a very big piece of my heart.

Tagging: anyone who sees this and wants to play! Please tag me so I can see your answers!!

[bigfrozenfan-fanfics]

Announcement: The Broken Bridge continues soon

Dear followers to my fanfic blog and to my fanfic "The Broken Bridge".

I know it's been a long time since I've published a new chapter or even been active on Tumblr. Believe me, I haven't forgotten you guys and I'm not someone who gives up on a big project just like that. But normal life unfortunately intervened, with a lot of work, new worries and also the fact that I was sick for several weeks, including a hospital stay. Still, I made time for my story and continued writing as much as I could and my mood allowed. My beta reader and friend also had a lot on his plate in the last months and could hardly work on the new chapters.

But now it's almost time and I'll put the rest of my fanfic novel online. "The Broken Bridge" will soon come to an end and you can look forward to it.

Next month there will finally be the next chapter and around every 2-3 weeks another one. Depending on how I get on. It remains exciting and thrilling with many new twists and turns and a few surprises.

Unfortunately there is some bad news. Tumblr has abolished the old text editor and so I had to use old HTML codes to format my chapters properly. Another problem could be the music videos, at least in draft mode the sound suddenly breaks off when reading and the video stops when scrolling. I will only see this when the next chapter is online. If this happens, your only option is to open the video in the background on YouTube and possibly stop it in time after the end before some other title starts automatically. Tumblr always wants to "make everything much better for us". Haha!

And to all Frozen fans out there...

Happy 4 years Anniversary to Frozen II

[quinloki]

Update - no longer sick \o/

Hey it's been a hot minute since I've made a post - lets do an update.

This is mostly about my open multi-chapters. I do my work pretty raw on Wattpad before it ends up on Tumblr or Ao3 (check out my pinned post for links, and for the sideblogs where I post to here.)

I have a LOT of open wips - my apologies to people who aren't fans of that, but it works for me. Don't worry, all wips will be completed. (Most are at least mapped out to completion.)

Heart of Gold - Priority one - Once I complete Heart of Gold Book 1 I'll be setting up to release Quicksand: Warlords, Thrice Prophesized Book 2, A Light Touch: Emperors and Heart of Gold book 2. (Family Ties book 2 is somewhere in there too)

Secondary to Heart of Gold, I want to complete Just Like Fire (book 1 >.> ahem) because it's probably only got another 4-5 chapters.

EVERYTHING ELSE will be worked on as I have musing/time/focus for them. Meaning, there's no real schedule (those of you who have been dealing with me for the last year know schedules don't really work for me anyway).

I'll try not to let them go for more than 90 days between updates, but I also don't want to force a chapter and have it be less than what I want.

Hat Trick, Mafia Ink, Family Practice, Famous Last Words, Elevated, Royal Pains and Booked are fairly well planned out.

Honeysuckle Red, Souled Out, Unseen (ah crap I haven't posted Unseen to tumblr yet, I forgot! it's a Killer x Reader fic), and two as yet released titles are more Fly By the Seat of my Pants, and thus will get what they get when they get it.

But I'll do my best to be more consistent with the planned out titles at the least. Expect to see 24-26 titles by the end of the year just for multi-chapter stories . (I'm hoping my NaNoWriMo goal of 100k words will help complete Hat Trick and Family Practice at the minimum.)

Lastly - next week I will not be updating as much as usual - there's some personal stuff going on and beyond just work I'll be unusually busy. So don't panic if I go dark for a few days ♥

Ah, LAST LASTLY - I haven't forgotten or abandoned the Birthday Requests xD - getting sick knocked me off working on them, but they'll still be getting love this month =3

[televinita]

I decided to read through some of my oldest used-book-sale posts last night, like from 2010-12, and I have (re)learned so many things! A sampling:

1. Can confirm I've owned both Moonrunner and Alpha Dog, two (unrelated) titles on my perpetual "I'll read this soon probably definitely," since 2011. One, in my defense, is in a box somewhere and I have no idea where. The other is literally on my bookshelf in the apartment with me right now, the one that's not even double-stacked, where it's been since I bought it, and I have no excuses.

2. The Hanged Man was the first Francesca Lia Block book I ever read.

3. The paperback copy of Inkheart that I own is beaten up/wrinkled to hell, because this was back in my "earning $10k a year and spending at least half of it on student loan payments" era and also I had so little book sale experience that I was just excited to find a copy of a book I liked at all. tl;dr next time I see a nice copy I should feel free to upgrade.

4. I bought so many friggin' awesome computer games I never had time to play because fandom ate up what little time I wasn't spiritually crushed by my terrible paid-by-the-completed-piece job, and now my computers are too new to play them. (side note: the fact that this is even how computers and ~upgraded systems~ work is incredibly stupid. I'm so jealous that video game consoles don't die the way computers do.)

5. I bought the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants soundtrack?? What is even on it? Where IS it?? I can't possibly have decided to get rid of that...? But I have no memory of seeing this among my collection. Maybe I was still in my "I don't have room to keep everything" era and didn't like enough songs on it to justify keeping for the booklet and charm.

6. I bought (and didn't read or keep and in fact explicitly picked up in a bag sale to flip @ Half Price Books) a hardcover-with-dust-jacket vintage juvenile novel that didn't interest me at the time (Bridge of Friendship -- and tbh, the plot summary still doesn't excite me), but...Mabel Esther Allan! Who would later become dear to me via Home to the Island.

7. I considered giving 5 stars to The Fault in Our Stars in spite of my John Green Vendetta. I know it's because I got swept up in the giddy fandom rush on Tumblr in 2012 -- everyone in the Glee circles talking about The Land of Stories also was in love with this one -- but LMAO. "I will definitely buy the first copy I see for $2 or less." False. By the time I see one a few years later -- a special edition with an author Q&A and everything -- I will have forgotten almost all of the plot details and said, "Meh." (I left it 4 stars on Goodreads for The Memories tho)

8. I bought Double Trouble by Doreen Tovey in 2013, never having heard of her. It would take me fully 7 years to actually read one of her books (a different one I bought later). I still haven't read this one. Though in my defense, which is minimal since the first book I read was #7, I have only otherwise read book 1 and this is #6 in her set of memoirs.

9. As an aside -- in 2007, after losing my one precious flash drive at college, I finally bit the bullet and bought a replacement. This one held two gigabytes AND it "only cost $20."

(Sometimes you just gotta appreciate the rare thing that doesn't cost more now than it did in the past, you know? While we're at it, remember how gas prices were so bad in 2008 that sometimes minimum wage jobs weren't worth driving to, but they're basically still that price if not lower today? Just little gratitude things.)

[skinnidreamss]

Fuck tumblr

I've been scrolling through this blog for the past 2 hours. I don't even know how to feel. I guess the word "nauseous" would come to mind first. Ana tumblr has taken my fucking childhood from me and I gave it away happily.

I was fucking warned and I didn't listen. I would do anything to be able to stop my 13 year old self from ever discovering this place. I wish I could tell her that she really wasn't that fat, but the adults around her were trying to live through her and feeding her lies about how "dangerous" her very much healthy BMI was. I was just chubby. I was just a kid. I trusted everyone around me because they were adults and they were supposed to know everything, but it turns out that they were even more clueless than me.

I guess maybe when I found out that ED Tumblr, a place that is literally based on toxicity shared a few of the beliefs that these people would tell me, I should've been a bit concerned. But I wasn't. And I just fell into this rabbit hole that I don't think I will ever get out of. The things you learn here follow you forever. I can be happy and having a good day, eating something and the part of my brain that developed under the influence of this hell will remind me of some idiotic quote I read in a pretty font at 14. "once on the lips, forever on the hips", or some shit like that. And just like that, my day is ruined.

The truth is, I haven't been on here for a full year. My last post is from february 3rd 2023. It's february 6th 2024 now. I've been trying to heal, sort of. About 6 months ago, I started losing weight in a healthy(?) way. I think. I can't even tell at this point. After all these years, it's impossible to think about weight loss without triggering some horrible memories and starting some old habits again. I've had some close calls, but I haven't relapsed. I haven't starved myself the way I used to in a year. It's getting better.

I logged in today thinking I might delete this account once and for all. I decided to scroll through it and to my horror, I realized that I have repressed a lot of memories about my eating disorder. I had forgotten very big parts of my life and what my diets used to look like. I don't even know how to react and I don't have anyone to talk to about it. It's stuff that was happening a year and a half ago. One of the things I regret a lot is not journaling throughout my teenage years. But this blog has a ton of journal entries that reminded me of stuff my brain tried to erase. Like, for example. MY FUCKING THERAPIST TOLD ME THAT IF I TRULY WANTED TO LOSE WEIGHT, I WOULD???? WHat the actual fuck??????? I remember being very hurt about that and thinking about it a lot for a while, before getting back on tumblr and finding some crazy diet to do, after a while of actually doing better. If I hadn't found the post I made about it at the time, I would've probably forgotten about it forever. And there's probably so much shit that I will never remember again. The crazy thing is that although I had pretty much forgotten all of the things I wrote on here, they still hurt me somehow.

I am just so fucking angry at everything and anyone. I hate tumblr and everything about ed tumblr. My brain feels rotten from all the shit I learned here. I am getting better, but I've been having a shitty day so I guess I needed someplace to rant. I am angry at the complete lack of attention that everyone in my life gave me when it came to my diet. I used to be scared that they would find out and try to stop me from starving myself. But I slowly realized that I could show as many signs of an unhealthy diet as I wanted. Nobody ever noticed, or if they did, they just didn't give a shit. I was doing stuff that if a skinnier girl did, it would've raised a million red flags to everyone. But because I was fat, I guess it was fine.

I'm not gonna get into any more of my trauma anymore because if I start, I might just never stop writing.

I'll be 19 in two months. Everyone else I know has discovered themselves, bettered themselves, found friends and even love. All I've discovered in the past 6 years is how to lose and gain back the same 10 kg over and over and over again in the most disgusting and painful ways.

But whatever.

Life goes on. I owe it to my younger self to get better. I truly believe it's possible to do this in a healthy way. I will keep trying to be better and hopefully the anger will fade away in time and I will finally be able to heal from all of this. Someday.

[stars-after-dark]

however many months later and i am finally TAGGING along (ba dum tss)

can't even remember if i've already responded to this but no harm in doing it again if i have!

Thanks @fourth-quartet for the tag!

1. How many works do you have on AO3? A nice even 10!

2. What's your total AO3 word count? 48,623

3. What fandoms do you write for? Currently TDJ (The Devil Judge), Beyond Evil with some dabbling in Half Bad: TBSATDH (The Bastard Son and the Devil Himself) and Good Omens. I have an ongoing (4 years in the works...) unpublished marvel wip that may never see the light of day, and I've fallen out of writing for a lot of other fandoms.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos? - Angels on Earth - The Afterhours of Sunlight - Demons Were Always a Selfish Creature - In My Palms, a Trace of Heaven - Stars, Hide Your Fires 5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? Yes because I enjoy interacting with people part of the fandoms I'm in and want to show my appreciation to my readers for actually engaging with my fic.

6. What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? What a question. Where do I even start?! I'll only discuss my published fics, but the true answer is likely one of my fics that I deleted a few years back, or a personal fic I was making with my best friend. Of my published fics, it's probably Slipping Through My Fingers although that does have a more ambiguous ending. Come to think of it, my published fics don't have angsty endings right now! That may change very quickly though 😏

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? I'm inclined to say Everything and Nothing (When the World Is Quiet) purely because of the pain and the torment the main character (Jeong-je from Beyond Evil) went through to finally be given reprieve and a proper chance to continue with his life without such an overbearing, oppressive guilt and responsibility on his shoulders. It's cathartic, which yeah isn't what we automatically assume to be the happiest, but I think it's the happiest ending for him.

Stars, Hide Your Fires is very joyful too.

8. Do you get hate on fics? I do not, thankfully. 9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? I don't write smut. Not comfortable writing it and don't think I could do it properly without it coming out all wrong? if that makes sense

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written? I don't, but am not averse to the idea of a crossover in the future. 11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? Not to my knowledge.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? I haven't!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? Yes! Most of them didn't get very far due to life life-ing and other things, but they were a ton of fun during the process

14. What's your all-time favourite ship? My brain is telling me that I don't have an answer but I feel like I've just forgotten lmfao. I don't really have a favourite come to think of it, I read quite a few ships for different fandoms.

15. What's a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will? That marvel fic I mentioned before. I love it as a fic I'd read for myself, but my god is it taking eons and the audience just isn't there for it anymore.

16. What are your writing strengths? Characterisation, writing style, dynamics between characters.

17. What are your writing weaknesses? Effective worldbuilding, setting description

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic? I used to do it but now I try to avoid it because I don't like the way it sticks out in some of my writing. Plus, sometimes translations are finnicky. In other works, it won't put me off the fic and can be a really nice addition.

19. First fandom you wrote for? bts

20. Favorite fic you've written? There is something about Everything and Nothing (When the World is Quiet) that hits the spot for me. I do love that fic.

i don't have anyone to tag who hasn't already been tagged (and my tumblr social circle consists of 3 people) so anyone feel free to jump i on this! Thanks again Took!

20 questions writer meme

Tagged by @killerandhealerqueen thanks dear <3

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

Oh, god, currently? Across 7 accounts? Probably around 80, give or take?

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

Probably around 500k? I can't be bothered to log into all of my accounts.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

You can primarily find my fics for The Devil Judge and Strangers From Hell, but I do also write for Vincenzo, Dimension20, Critical Role, Hannibal, RPF stuff, and Harry Potter.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

(again, only on the main account because I'm too lazy to log into other stuff)

envious of the musical sounds of my name from your tongue, whispered in the folds of being

imagining the integration of our images

a place to be

owed grief and promised IOUs

in the wounds we gave each other I find forgiveness

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I try to, because I know people like replies. I struggle with replying to them though and tend to only reply after letting it pile up to 50+ comments.

6. What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

All of them? LMFAO, there was one way back in the day where a character stopped taking his meds because he thought love was going to solve all of his problems, and the implications... weren't fun. I also just like killing characters.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Probably any TDJ fic currently published, because y'all are weird about not liking angsty fics.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I haven't in a hot minute.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I have written it before but I'm not super comfortable/confident in writing it.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

I do not.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

No, thankfully.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes! wish I loved you (better) was translated into Spanish here

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

So so many. My ex and I used to co-write everything, probably a good 20+ fics.

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

... Tom Riddle/Harry Potter.

15. What's a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

LOL most of my TDJ fics? Specifically before, after, and the void in between. Also and soon we will fly (like birds in the night)

16. What are your writing strengths?

Dialogue for SURE.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Subplot, foreshadowing, world-building

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

Depends on the language, whether or not I speak it, the relevance to the plot.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Harry Potter

20. Favorite fic you've written?

Things that will Disappear are so Beautiful

Tagging @stars-after-dark and @thedeviljudges as well as anyone else who wants to do this.

[kitiwrites-blog]

Coffee Shop - David Dobrik

Summary: You’re working at your local coffee shop and a fluffy-haired boy walks in. You know exactly who he is.

Word count: 2.2k 

(welcome to my new blog! it’s been a while since i’ve been active on tumblr - or written anything that’s not academic writing for that matter -  so please forgive me! enjoy :3 )

~Requests are open~

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It’s absolutely pelting down with rain and you’re frantically trying to pack away the salt and pepper shakers from the outdoor tables. Your uniform is completely soaked and you’ve barely managed to collect half of the damn things. 

“Fuck fuck fuck, as if this day could get any worse,” you grumble. You’ve had a frankly awful day, littered with entitled asshole customers left right and centre.

A tall figure rushes to help you, collecting the remaining shakers and depositing them with the rest of your collection which are protected on a table sheltered by an overhang. 

“Oh my gosh - thank you!!” You shout over a clap of thunder, squinting through the rain to face him, ushering him through the cafe door and back into the warmth. 

“You’re welcome!” He shouts back, his voice oddly familiar.

It’s not until the two of you are inside that you realise who exactly just came to your rescue. David Dobrik is smiling at you, his dark fluffy hair soaked and plastered to his forehead. 

Your brain short circuits for a second. Holy shit. You’d been watching this guy’s videos for years and now he’s standing in front of you with the same goofy smile on his face.  You panic a little, not knowing how to react.

“You didn’t have to do that!” you settle with, “You must be freezing! Here, sit down.”

You pull him over to the cozier side of the cafe near the fire place, rushing off to grab him some blankets that you keep in the back. “They’re not towels, but I’m sure they’re better than nothing.” You say as you hand one to him, quickly wrapping the other around his shoulders. Your face is hot and you can tell you’re blushing. 

‘Smooth, Y/N,’ you think to yourself.

He laughs at your frazzled state and accepts the blankets, “Thank you, now I’ve gone from drowning in rain to drowning in blankets.”

You giggle, he does look a little ridiculous. “There are worse ways to go.” You reply with a smile, “Can I get you something warm to drink?”

He grins, “I’d love a hot chocolate.”

“Done.”

You return to work, heart racing as you clear tables . The David Dobrik was in your cafe.  Most of the customers had made a mad dash through the rain to their cars to miss the worst of the storm, so it was just you and him left in the cozy LA cafe. 

You watch him over the top of the coffee machine. He’s pulled out his laptop and is frowning at something on the screen.

When you drop off his drink with a smile, he grins back and pulls off his headphones, “Thanks!” 

“Anytime.” you say as you plonk yourself down on an arm chair nearby, wringing your hair out and letting the fireplace warm your soaked body. You may as well take your break now, there’s nothing else to do.

“Here,” says David, offering you one of his blankets.

You take it gratefully and wrap it around yourself. It smells like boy and you definitely don’t burrow into it a little. No sir.

David closes his laptop and turns to face you fully. “So who do I have to thank for the best hot chocolate I’ve ever tasted in my life?”

Surprised at him making conversation, you chuckle and reply; “Do you see anyone else around here?”

He smirks, “I was asking for your name.”

“Y/N,” you reply with a blush, “and if that’s best hot chocolate you’ve ever tasted, I’m concerned; the owners make us use a packet mix here.”

He gasps, “Y/N! How could you expose your cafe like that!” he exclaims with mirth in his eyes.

You laugh and launch into a rant about proper hot chocolates - the melted chocolate kind. The good shit. He smiles, listening to every word.  Eventually you sneak off to the back and pull out a Lindt chocolate bar that you’d bought on your way to work (initially intended for a late night snack), and bring it over to the machine. He follows you and watches as you melt it and froth some milk to add to it.

When he tastes it, his eyes go wide and a contagious grin etches onto his face. 

“Holy Shit.” He laughs.

The two of you move back to the fire to drink the rest, while you wait out the rain.  No one else joins you in the shop, the weather outside is just too awful to even contemplate leaving shelter. You tell each other about your lives and the banter between you is so easy that you don’t want it to end.  

You tell him that you’ve seen “a couple” of his videos and he gets excited and asks which ones.  You nervously list a few of your favourites and he tells you some of the stories behind them. 

You sit talking for hours, the sun has gone down and the shop should have been closed at least half an hour ago. It’s only when you stifle a yawn that David eventually unwraps the blanket from himself and moves to stand.  This hair is now dry and even fluffier than it usually is in his videos.

“Thanks for having me for so long, I should probably get going.”  He sounds sad, but somehow; you know he’ll be back. 

You smile, thank him for the chat and downright refuse to take his money.

“But Y/N! I drank like all of your chocolate!” He says, his wallet is out and he has cash in hand, but you’re adamant.

And that’s how it goes for the next few months.  Every afternoon he comes alone into your cafe and you make him his special Lindt hot chocolate. If it’s a quiet day, you’ll sit with him and the two of you will talk each other’s ears off until a customer comes in. When you’re busy, he’ll normally just edit videos on his laptop and wait for you to finish your shift; then he’ll walk you to your car, chatting the entire way about video ideas or asking you about your university studies. You never let him pay, even though he tries to every time.  

Sometimes he gets recognised.  It’s adorable watching him interact with his fans, he’s slightly awkward but manages to remain gentile and kind.  Sometimes when he’s uncomfortable he’ll catch your eye over the counter and send you a pleading look.  With no idea how to help, you normally just laugh and fake swoons behind the fans’ backs until he laughs and doesn’t have to fake his smile anymore.

It makes your chest feel funny.

He’s so different to the person you see in his vlogs, he’s focused and driven, yet has the biggest heart.  You’re too nervous to ask for anything more. You don’t want to ruin what the two of you have going on, even though you want so much for there to be more.  

That is until he comes in with a girl latched to his arm.

You recognise her immediately from his videos. She’s just as gorgeous as ever.  You tense a little when you see her at his side, but relax as they come closer and you can hear what she’s saying.

“David! You’ve been sneaking off somewhere every afternoon to somewhere and wont tell any of us where! There has to be a girl involved I just know i-” Corinna is whisper yelling at David when she sees you.  A shit-eating grin gracing her beautiful features.  It feels good knowing that he’s been sneaking away to spend time with you.

David looks uncomfortable and has a slight blush tinging his cheeks. 

“Look what the cat dragged in!” You greet them both with a wink to Corinna.

“Hey Y/N,” David says with a laugh, looking more relaxed when he sees your ease with the new-comer.  “This is Corinna, she sort of stalked me all the way here.”

You come around the counter and greet Corinna with a friendly hug, she turns and gives David a look you can’t see that makes him stick his tongue out at her.  

“Nice to meet you Y/N!” She beams, turning back to you. The two of you hit it off, she’s hilarious and the two of you have similar humour. David, with a relived smile on his face, slinks off to his usual table and begins editing.  Before you know what you’re doing, your hands are making his usual hot chocolate whilst you chat with Corinna, sliding it over to his table when it’s finished. 

“I should get going,” Corinna says, “but it was lovely to meet you Y/N!” 

She turns to David, “David, Y/N should come to our party tonight!  They guys would love her!” 

David wipes his milk moustache and blinks up at you, gauging your reaction to see if you’re comfortable with the suggestion.  You give him a quick nod. “Sure, why not.” he says,  “Would you like to come over to mine tonight Y/N? You can meet some more of my friends.”

“Yeah I’d love to!” you smile.

And that’s how you ended up at David Dobrik’s house a couple of hours after your shift that day.  He’d given you his address so that you could go home and get changed out of your work clothes before you came.  You’d changed your outfit so many times when you were getting ready that it was frankly embarrassing how nervous you were. 

What if they didn’t like you? What if they thought you were weird and told David? Would David stop coming into your work to see you?

Eventually you’d settled on a cute top and some high-waisted jeans. You were so nervous you were about to turn around and get back into your car when someone appeared behind you.

“You must be the lovely Y/N! David told us you were coming!” Zane swoops you into a bear hug, you giggle a ‘hello’ and small squeal when he squeezes you too tight.  Health comes up behind Zane.

“Oh my gosh and she’s just as beautiful as Corinna said she was! Baby why has David been keeping you a secret this whole time?! He throws an arm around your shoulder and guides you inside.

The rest of the ‘Vlog Squad’ welcome you with just as much enthusiasm, it’s a little overwhelming so it’s a huge relief when you eventually see David and he pulls you in for a tight hug, camera in hand for the first time since you’ve met him.

It’s strange at first because you normally don’t hug each other, but you quickly find yourself inhaling and giving him a light squeeze. He smells delicious. 

The party starts and drinks are passed around.  You take a couple of shots with Corinna and turn down Dom’s suggestion of doing body shot’s off each other with a laugh. 

Each of David’s friends pull you to the side at one point in the evening and try to get to know you.  You feel so welcomed that your heart is about to burst with relief.  Matt even tries to pull some moves on you, though you brush him off good naturedly. You have your heart set on somebody else.

The booze is also doing it’s job of easing your anxiety and you find yourself laughing more freely.  You even contribute some jokes of your own to the group, one of which Jason turns to David with tears in his eyes and exclaims; “Please tell me you got that on camera that was too good!”

Eventually, as the night is starting to come to an end, David puts his camera away and pulls you outside near the fire pit.  It’s chilly out and the two of you sit close.

“Thank you for coming tonight, the guys all love you in there. Dom and Matt maybe a bit too much.”

You laugh, “Dom’s certainly an interesting one.” you tease, “But for real, thank you for inviting me, I’ve had a really great time.”

David smiles down at you, “I was a bit worried actually.”

You frown, “Why? That I wouldn’t like your friends?”

“No, not that.” He chuckles, “I was actually worried someone’d try to steal you away from me.”

You look into his eyes, they’ve gone soft. 

“You see,” he says, fiddling nervously with his hands, “I kind of really like you Y/N and I was nervous one of them would try to make a move on you or something.”

Your heart is racing, “Even if they did, I’d turn them down.” 

“Why?”

“Because I like someone else.”

He looks down at his feet, “Oh... I-”

“I like you David,” you say with a small smile.

His head whips up so fast that you’re surprised he didn’t give himself whiplash. “Really?! Did you really just say that or am I dreaming?”

You laugh, repeating your words from the day you first met; “Do you see anyone else around here?”

He beams. “I’m going to kiss you now.”

“Get on with it the-” and his lips are on yours.  They’re softer than you imagined, and somehow sweeter too.  One of his hands comes to rest on your cheek while the other pulls you closer by the small of your back.  His tongue brushes against your bottom lip which causes you to gasp. He uses the opportunity to deepen the kiss slightly.

You bunch your fists into his t-shirt, suddenly feeling happier than you ever have before, smiling into the kiss so wide that it almost doesn’t count as a kiss anymore. 

Hollers come from behind you and you break apart to see the whole Vlog Squad squealing in glee at the sight of you two.  You burrow your face into David’s chest to hide and he hugs you tight, laughing at his idiot friends.

You guess they’re your idiot friends too now.

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🎄HAPPY HOLIDAYS, GUYS!! 🎄 2020 was quite a year for everyone, man. i'm so glad i decided to rejoin tumblr and because of that, i got to meet some super cool people. and i drew a fair amount of handsome 2D boys!! things slowed down in the last few months but i hope i'll learn to juggle uni and personal drawing better soon. fingers crossed 🤞

there was this post where people mentioned the ones they’re thankful for in 2020 and well... i thought it’d be nice to give a couple of shoutouts myself. “you”, you ask, “the one who is terrible at words and also expressing their feelings?” yes, absolutely. (also aaa thank u to @/otonymous @/scummy-writes  for tagging me back then ; ; )

TIME TO TEST THE LIMITS OF HOW MANY PEOPLE I CAN TAG?

@op-peccatori nanaaaaaaaaaa ;__; 💖 i'm so so glad i got to start talking to you this past year. i feel like we can relate on a lot of things, and somehow a few short sentences always evolve into walls of text???? like. bruh. how. 💀 💀 i know i take a while to respond sometimes but getting to read your replies is a joy every time. hope you're doing ok and please give Theo lots of kisses from me HAHA  💖

@beni-draw-ikemen-please BENIIII you're The Sweetest Ever™ 🥺 i mean it!! you're also so genuine and v v fun to talk to, i hope we get to do that more often in the future! ; v ; thank you for sharing your thirst and wonderful art with us all. ALSO ALSO: don't forget to take care of yourself. OR ELSE 😤 sending lots of virtual hugs your way! 💖 💖

@scummy-writes we're both shy beans but whenever i see you around or on on the occasional messages to eachother, you're The Sweetest Ever™ #2 🥺 for 2021 (and beyond) i wish you more confidence in yourself and your writing, because you're amazing! sometimes u just gotta channel ur inner Shea LaBeouf and Just Do It! i believe in u!!!! 💖

@littlegrrl7 hi! i appreciate you and the things you make!!! a lot!!!! you're a fic writing machine, haha. yours were the first longfics that i read and honestly, your writing is so engaging in that you keep it interesting and it's also fun and easy to read and with a healthy dose of smut cough cough. thank you for sharing! 🥰

@dear-mrs-otome Mrs O! i might or might not have been slightly intimidated at first hahah orz ANYWAY our Best Boi venn diagram might have the thinnest overlap ever but thank you for the support all the same, and i'll also always BE thankful for Drained Dry which feels like a sorta ikevamp themed discord home for me 🥺 🥺

@maanawa HELLO U!! thank u for becoming my first penpal in years!! 🥰 for some reason u always seem like such a unique person to me?? if u put a gun to my head and asked why, i wouldn't be able to answer bc i have no idea, but like. i mean it in the best way 0: 👌  

@hideoutpastel HI PASTEL, i'm glad i get to interact with u a bit more bc of twitter! u are a delight!! 😤 also i think u already know but like. ur art is so ✨ sparkly ✨ and bright and beautiful ok. kthx #bless 

@yenanng i might not always reply or interact, but seeing your twt updates is somehow v cool haha. i hope you get to rest and work on personal art soon! i'm cheering u on!!! \o/ 💖

@nan-chi @weird-profiterole HI HI! 🥰 we haven't talked to eachoter much but you guys seem super genuine and fun, i hope we get to interact more in the future!! also your art is so cute i cri 😭💖

@mikotomizuki LEO HOES UNITE 🤝 🤝 thank you for being hilarious and bringing your tiddy memes everywhere you go LMAO. let's keep our fingers crossed for more amazing Leo content in 2021 🤞💖

@pseudofaux you are delightful!! thank you for all the support always. you're an angel and we don't deserve you 😭💖 (also hello ur writing skills? y e s)

@pickle-scribbles Faa, I LIVE FOR YOUR THIRST COMMENTS. SERIOUSLY HAHA. and i die bc of your masterful smut 😭 just,, thank you 🥺💖

@otonymous i've probably mentioned this before but your fics were one of the first ones i read when i got back into tumblr, and honestly? what an amazing author to start with. #thepowerofthirst 💀 i kinda stopped consuming MLQC content so i haven't kept up w everything you put out but i know that you're still AMAZING and also so funny and just. 10/10 man 

@tacogawa @savourthelittlethings u guys are just. so cool!!!!! that's all thank u for coming to my ted talk 🥰

@akirafanarts ​ hi!! i haven’t forgotten u!! hope you’ve been doing ok!! 💖

@meowlayn-art you are v sweet! your art is gorgeous! and your OCs are amazing!! 🥺 i'm cheering for you! 💖

@incorrect-ikevamp-quotes​ a lil random but like. thank you for your insights on a bunch of idiots under one roof aka the ikevamp boys!! 💖 and also for the Top Notch 11/10 memes. bless  🙏 🙏

special shout out to everyone on Drained Dry that i haven't yet mentioned, u guys are v cool ; v ; 💖

and lastly, thank you to everyone who liked, reblogged or interacted with my posts or just took a second to appreciate my art, really. drawing 2D boys is a joy, and i'm glad if it brings even the tiniest bit of happiness into other people's lives too! you guys are the best 💖💖💖