#i have wcs tonight but im scared to go because they (somehow) dont know about my tics yet and i dont want to start now

[revenge-of-the-assbutt]

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[escapewriter]

Silence Before the Storm

pairing : felix x reader

genre : angst, some fluff at the end

type : drabble

wc : 662

warnings : lying lol

prompts : “i was afraid. im sorry, i was just so afraid of losing you.” “you betrayed me.”

a/n : this is for the ficscafe dialogue prompt event thingy!! i wrote it at 11 at night so dont pay attention to typos or sentences that dont make sense lmao. thank you and enjoy

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You sat silently on the couch, waiting for your boyfriend of two years to start explaining. The tension you felt surrounding you was suffocating, finding it difficult to keep your composure. Your boyfriend didn’t know what to say or the right words to begin to tell you how sorry he is.

Felix kept his eyes on the floor, too ashamed to look you in the eye. He shouldn’t have lied to you in the first place.

Finally, he looks at you, capturing the hurt and disappointment in your piercing orbs. The guilt he felt when going behind your back when he really had no choice because it was for work.

“I’m so sorry,” you clenched your jaw, looking away from him as flashes of images from this evening's dinner appeared whenever you closed your eyes, “I know I have no excuse, and I should have told you about-”

“-then why didn’t you?” Your eyes returned to his, tears pricking at the corners. “Do you know what your coworker said when we,” you quote with your fingers, “‘coincidentally’ bumped into them at that restaurant?”

Felix’s gaze trained on you, fighting the urge to look away because he knew he had to face this, face how hurt you were. “Yes,” he spoke softly, “I know and I’m so sorry.”

You sighed, leaning back on the sofa as you controlled your tears. There was a long and uncomfortable silence in the air, but somehow it felt loud. It could have been the ringing in your ear, or the busy cars you heard on the streets, but it wasn’t.

“Is it true?” He never stopped looking at you, his eyes red from holding back his tears of guilt. You knew he was forcing himself to look at you, it was his way of punishing himself, knowing that he has hurt you and to see what he has done. “What they said to me tonight, is it true that the camping week you went with your friends was actually the week you went on a business trip with them?”

He finally breaks eye contact, shutting his eyes as tears finally fall. He nods his head slowly as it falls to look at the floor. You slump back, letting a single tear fall, gliding smoothly along your cheek and down to your jaw. “I’m so sorry-”

“-did anything happen?”

His head shoots up, eyes wide. “What? No! Of course not!”

You sat up straight, painfully looking at Felix. “Then why did you lie? You betrayed my trust, my love, my pride; you betrayed me.”

He looks at you with shame in his eyes, his brain working a mile a minute to think of the right thing to say. “I was afraid. You two are ex-friends and don’t get along, especially when you found out they were my coworker,” he pauses, gulping as he searches your eyes for a reaction, “I’m sorry, I was just so afraid of losing you. I was so scared that something like this would happen and that you wouldn’t give me a chance to explain.”

You scoffed, the tears beginning to fall once again. “When have I ever not listened to you explain?”

He smiles softly. “I guess you’re right.” He stands up, walking over to you and sits next to you. He places his hand on yours that was laying on your lap. Intertwining them, he brings it up to his heart. “I promise to never lie about these things again. I’m so sorry I hurt you.”

Your eyes twinkle, happy that everything is better and that you both worked it out. You lean your head on his shoulder, sighing in relief. “You have no idea how much stress I was in.”

He giggles softly, kissing your forehead as you felt his thumb stroking the back of your hand and playing with your pointer and middle fingers. You knew that in this moment, the silence before the storm turned into a beautiful rainbow.