#i have to keep reminding myself of this shit

[fuctacles]

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looking for dog-themed songs for the fic playlist

They sit facing each other on the warmed up concrete, having given away the lawn chairs to the girls. Steve is sliding every piece of onion off his skewer and onto Eddie's plate, which sits right next to his for easy sharing. It reminds him of cafeteria meals and swapping snacks with friends, something he never had with Steve, because of how different they were in high school. It makes him wonder if what he's feeling could really be mutual. 

"Are you staying for the movie?"

His eyes snap back up to meet Steve's, waiting for an answer. 

"I guess so. What are we watching?" It might not be the wisest to keep around while figuring himself out, but what is he going to do? Not spend time with his friends? 

Steve rolls his eyes. 

"The jury is still out," he answers dryly. "But I can guess some nerd shit will get majorly outvoted."

Eddie snorts.

"What would you pick? A baseball game?" he asks, chewing on a piece of meat. His fingers are getting greasy, but they forgot to grab napkins and standing up sounds like too much exercise. 

Steve moves the grilled bits on his plate with the now empty skewer. 

"Not really..." he says, all quiet and shy, which immediately grabs Eddie's attention. Wary of the food and drinks between them, he leans in conspiratorially. 

"You can tell me, I ain't a snitch," he reassures, and when Steve looks up, he adds a wink. Steve huffs out an amused breath.

"I like romantic comedies," he admits, watching Eddie warily, like he's awaiting judgement. 

"Huh." He sits back to properly take him in. "That kinda makes sense."

"Yeah?" Steve raises an eyebrow. 

"Yeah." Eddie shrugs, and now he's feeling self-conscious. "It suits you. We could watch something one day, your pick."

Ohmygodsohmygodsohmygods, do not invite Steve for one-on-one romcom watching—!

Steve's face lights up with a wide smile. 

"Oh, I'm going to hold you to that one, Munson," he teases, but it's obvious he's genuinely excited by the offer. 

"Already regretting I said it," Eddie teases back, but offers Steve a strip of bacon so he knows he doesn't mean it. 

Without thinking, he starts licking the grease off his fingers, and it takes him a moment to realize Steve stopped moving. He looks up with a questioning hum, fingertip in his mouth.

"You need a napkin?" Steve asks with a raise of his eyebrows. 

"Nah, I'm good," Eddie mumbles around his finger just to be difficult, and pushes it deeper, sucking with gusto. For once, Steve doesn't look into his eyes, too focused on his mouth. His cheeks are colored the faintest shade of pink, and Eddie finally realizes what he's been doing. He slides his finger out with a wet smack and smiles apologetically. "Sorry. Want me to lick yours too?" he offers, like the good friend that he is. 

Someone nearby chokes, but he's too focused on the bit to check who. Their fault for listening in, right?

Meanwhile, Steve's face turns tomato red. 

"Uh, I'll manage myself. I'm good at licking," he cringes as soon as the worlds leave his mouth, and Eddie almost chokes himself with how hard he laughs.

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After the party, comes more cleaning. This time, as there's more people and everyone gets forced into using their two hands and opposable thumbs, it goes faster, though with much more complaining.

Sometime in the middle of filling the trash bags, Robin has changed the music. Steve sighs, when the first song plays, but by the next two, his head is nodding to the beat. On the chorus, his hips sway, and Eddie almost drops the plate he's holding. 

"Your song, dingus!" Robin yells when the next song starts, making Steve roll his eyes. But he's shimmying his shoulders and mouthing along to all the lyrics. 

They tie away their bags at the same time, which gives Eddie the misfortune of watching him free his hands and make a silly little dance.

"Well, you ain't never caught no rabbit, you ain't no friend of mine!" he mouths along, and when he catches Eddie staring, he gives him a sheepish smile and a wink.

"Should I find you more dog themed songs to dance to?" he raises his eyebrow with a smile.

"No—"

"Yes!" Robin pops out from behind him, seemingly out of nowhere. "I'm constantly on the look out, but there aren't many good songs. I want to make a playlist." She grins. 

"Oh, I'm in." Eddie smiles back, extending his hand. Their palms slap together, and Steve shakes his head.

"Wow. Traitors." 

"Oh, I'd never betray you, Hound Dog," Eddie declares with a hand to his heart. Steve flips him off.

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They pick The Battle for Endor, which Steve accepts with a sigh and a quiet "At least it has teddies," something probably only Eddie can hear, since he's sitting right next to him. He starts dozing off halfway through anyway, but Eddie doesn't wake him up until the movie ends and they have to plan how to get the younger lot home. It was a busy day, after all. 

"I'm going home anyway, so I can take them," Nancy offers. 

"Don't be stupid," Steve mumbles in his half-asleep state. "You won't fit them in your car."

"I can get Max and Super Twins," Eddie says, and the grasp around his arm tightens. He looks down at Steve, suddenly awake and frowning.

"You're not staying?" he asks, audibly upset. 

"I'll come back," Eddie reassures him quickly, patting his hand. "Okay! Mad Max, Wonder Twins, grab your shit. The sooner we leave, the closer I am to getting wasted," he commands, gently prying himself out of Steve's grasp. He scratches behind his ear as a consolation. "Should I grab anything while I'm out?"

"No," Steve says quickly, even though Jonathan has already opened his mouth, most probably with a request.

Something twists in Eddie's chest.

"Okay, buddy, I'll be back as soon as I can, no detours," he reassures again, with another scratch. 

"Okay, thanks." Steve closes his eyes briefly, but then blinks them open and pushes at his thigh, like his mind has suddenly cleared from the remnants of sleep. "Be quick, but without breaking the law." He smiles up at Eddie.

"Ugh, fine." He rolls his eyes. "Be right back," he nudges Steve's head before motioning the kids to follow him outside. 

It's suddenly silent, with the movie over and most of the people gone from the room. Steve clears his throat, watching Robin crawl over the carpet to rewind the tape. 

"So only Nancy isn't staying?" he asks, looking around the room. 

"I already told my parents I'm sleeping over." Robin shrugs. 

Jonathan and Argyle look at each other, like they are communicating in a way not dissimilar to Steve and Robin.

"It's good vibes here, man," Argyle says, his hair swaying as he nods. 

"Eddie promised we'll compare the goods," Jonathan adds. 

"Oh, right!" his friend perks up, his eyes sparkling. "Almost forgot about that."

Robin makes a face. 

"God, I really hope you mean the weed," she says. "You think I can still persuade Nancy to come back?"

The boys start snickering, but Steve quickly collects himself to answer her question, no matter how unserious it is. 

"I think she wouldn't be comfortable," he winces, because they all know why. "But I could drive you to hers if you want to?" he offers instead. 

She shakes her head. 

"Nah, just give me a beer and I'll lower my joke standards to yours."

"Okay, you don't have to be mean, Robs," Steve rolls his eyes, but he's smiling. On his way to the kitchen, he tugs on her hair. "Beers for everyone?" He turns to look at each of his remaining guests.

Jonathan nods, but Argyle shakes his head. 

"I don't mix my substances," he says, pulling out a joint out of his pocket instead. 

When Eddie comes back, he makes a beeline upstairs, hoping he hasn't been spotted. He doubts his van hasn't been heard, her old-lady coughs being a part of her charm, but maybe he was stealthy enough inside not to be traced. 

But once he's back down he realizes how foolish that thought was. Because somehow, Steve is ridiculously attuned to him and has his eyes on Eddie immediately, like he's been expecting him. A cold bottle of beer is pressed into his hand when he sits back in the seat that's been waiting for him. 

"Dropped some stuff upstairs, since I'm sleeping over again," he explains quietly without prompting, his nervousness making him yap unnecessarily, as usual. "Uh, are we bunking together too, or...?" It was probably stupid of him to assume, considering there are more people in the house today that need a place to sleep. 

Considering his own freak out this morning. 

"Of course," Steve says with a smile that tells him no other option had crossed his mind. "Unless you don't want to?" he cocks his head, almost like he's tilting curious, pointed ears. "I promise to wear pants this time." 

Jonathan chokes on his beer, and when Eddie snaps his head that way, Argyle gives him a supportive smile and that weird surfer gesture, while patting Jon on the back.

He hopes the dim light of the room hides the flush of embarrassment on his face. 

"Well, since you promise to be decent, how could I say no?" he says, rolling his head back to Steve. 

Steve, who gives him a relieved, dazzling smile, and presses their thighs together, flooding his whole body with warmth.

It's terrifying, how good it feels. 

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[narcissisticpdcultureis]

For the non-NPD's out there, here’s a front-row seat to what a mental breakdown can look like...

TW: Suicidal ideation, self-harm, manipulation, toxic relationships, emotional abuse, existentialism/nihilism, gaslighting/deception, abandonment issues.

NPD (questioning) + BPD culture is...

WHY ARE YOU LEAVING??! Every single word I said was to KEEP YOU HERE. I DID SO MUCH to try to be good for you, despite HOW I AM. I masked so much of myself just to keep you in my life, to be the "good person" you and I wanted me to be.

SO WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU LEAVING NOW?! After everything I’ve done and tried, I don’t understand what you think I did wrong! PLEASE, for the love of God, just TALK TO ME LIKE A GROWN PERSON for five fucking minutes. I chose to let you in, validate you, and keep you close. So why are you walking away?! You’re just like the rest—a fucking liar. You couldn't even tell me i was nothing to you.

And now, what? Is it your toxic ex? Is that who you’re running to to suddenly ghost me so much and hurt me?

Oh. Someone new now, huh? called [🩸]. They’re talking shit about me? Saying they “don’t want to cause issues” while kicking me out of a server for venting ON MY VENT BLOG they shouldn't have had access to—and it's not even about them?

Haha. Good luck, [💧]. They’re worse than me. They can’t even handle me venting without me naming names, let alone deal with anything real. At least I try to be better. I know what I’m dealing with. I face my pain with depressing music on loop; they deal with it by lashing out at me with lies and projections.

Cue the Hamilton song: "You'll Be Back." Looping. Fitting.

You make me wish I did end it, [💧].

If I wanted your attention, I would have done it in a way that left my blood on your hands—a permanent reminder for the rest of your life. But I’m better than that. Did you know if [🩸] is the same? No? You ran into [🩸]’s arms so fast. And when they hurt you, you’ll just run to someone else—just like you did me. Just like you did your ex before me.

None of us are good people. Not me. Not you. Not [🩸]. But you? You hurt me. For what? For caring too much about someone I once thought was worth it?

Fuck. I’m mad at myself for still hurting over you. You weren’t worth it. You were a liar. And this? This is why I know humanity is a failure.

Love, [🌌] Specifically, [⛓️] the host from that system.

-🌌⛓ (if not taken)

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[nukecommacomrad]

Yeeah my fist impression of there silly guys. The first impression I got was when I saw them

Von Kaiser - No comments. I just love old, military (possibly injured), in good shape men. That is all.

Great Tiger - that funny, but when I see such mockery, he reminds me of that:

I don't see the difference. He's the classmate who has everyone's opinion and influence, that's for sure. And I don't think he finds someone better than himself, so he probably only spends time with himself all the time, or rather with his clones.

Category "Omg, hiii...😍😘" It speaks for itself. These guys are so cute that you wouldn't even think they were boxers. Like, literally-..

Hondo bows during the fight, did not sprinkle threats on Mac, but only said some of his own wisdom and listed a set of sushi😭 Hugger also didn't say almost any threats, but only "I love raw fish" and the fact that he is a lover, not a fighter...What are you doing in the ring then, buddy? You're too sweet to keep it up. Disco kid is a positive guy by himself, and even warns before hitting that he's going to do it now... Damn😔❤️‍🩹 What a Glass Joe...He's just a good guy. like, 99 losses and 1 win, and this buddy is still in the ring and acting silly, and also this is his performance in the cutscene... it looks like the beginning of a schoolboy's presentation, I'm sorry, he's good, ye. I love them all 💗

Don Flamenco...When I saw him for the first time, I immediately realized that he was a show-off. Perhaps he really has one love in the form of Carmen, but his constant praise from other women interested in him calls all this into question (Well, Carmen herself was noticed with a Macho man, so I don't think they're canon). It bothers me what kind of energy he radiates, so at first glance I was not very enthusiastic about this guy. But I like to draw his silly face, so I don't have a complete aversion to him. ٩̋(๑˃́ꇴ˂̀๑)

Soda P. I'm just stressed out by half-naked people. Man, woman- it doesn't matter, as long as the body is covered with a minimum amount of clothing, it bothers me. Of course, it's a sin not to brag about such a body, but I like it better this way.

Macho man is an interesting character in himself, but his aggressive display unsettles me, so yes... mhe, sorry not sorry

Aran Ryan - Cool person. But if I were in Mac's place, I would have shit myself a few times. This Irishman is crazy in the ring and clearly bullying in everyday life. But that's why I love and fear this asshole.💓😏

Bald bull and King Hippo scare with their non-human behavior. Bald bull clearly has a problem, and hippo, he is..I don't understand what he is. Like, damn, bull, stop banging your head against everything and chasing the referee around the ring, it's weird.

And, Mr. Sandman, he behaves like that success-obsessed athlete. These guys can sometimes go to great lengths. And he smashed the damn building down with his fists, wow, that's fucking awesome, wtf dude, chill bitte

[teethcore]

thinking about how "it would be completely okay with me if we literally never had sex btw!! like that's fine :)" is something that is said to me on the regular by the person who turns literally any physical affection or nudity into a sex thing & constantly pressures me & has coerced me in the past

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Thank you all for voting in the poll to decide who was going to be the leader of the band! It turned out to be such a close race!

[necrotic-nephilim]

in lieu of having posted any writing/headcanons/asks in the past few days because i have been *so* busy and unable to do anything fandom-related which is terrible and evil, i have a poll out of morbid curiosity and self-indulgence. i've been meaning to ramble here about how i feel about DC's lack fo Deaf representation and which Batfam members i would personally make Deaf, but i am mildly curious about the larger opinion and now i will subject you all to the question, i would love to hear thoughts/opinions/headcanons on any specific choices. (would love d/Deaf/HoH opinions esp but i'm mostly expecting this to reach the hearing crowd, so opinions from hearing ppl are ones i'm very curious about. if you've never given it thought before you are going to now or else /lh)

[pleasedontcareaboutme]

It's missing my father hours rn so imma just dump a bunch of pictures here and cry

( sorry i don't know the source of anything I just had them on my phone)

(also dont read the tags i just need to let it out lol)

[fernfreakingtastic]

If you're having a bad day but think you don't deserve someone or even yourself being nice to you:

Shane, even at his lowest, has the farmer want to see him and care about hearing how he's doing. Even when he was at his meanest/lowest points in the game, everyone that collectively put in the effort to see those hearts with him rise up knew what they were walking into. They still came by sometimes every single day they could to give him something they hoped he liked and talked to him to see how he was doing. They genuinely wanted to see him smiling and happy with his aunt and niece and get better. Whether platonically or romantically they care for him

You deserve your own farmer.

You deserve to treat yourself like how the farmer treats Shane when they're trying to get his heart events

[neonbodyache]

so so excited for the fresh start that is october. im gonna try harder this time. im gonna do better this time ☆

if you’re like me (someone who often obsesses over the apathy of time, specifically the way it’s ever moving forward whether you want it to or not) it’s okay to latch onto the idea of beginning again, it’s okay to allow yourself the simple miracle of approaching the world anew, just because you can

[secretarysong]

2:40 in the morning... Ideal time to work meticulously on my seventeen different nsr character spotify playlists

[spr1ng]

i feel so at peace but at the same time so chaotic and drained

[maxfieldparrishes]

me going through the notes and replies on caitlyn posts so i know who to clock and block for brain-dead takes

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

use these wisely, now

[haven-gum-rockrose]

The constant battle in my brain of "I feel like I'm not doing enough for this person" and "oh my god stop, you're clinging and intruding and making people uncomfortable"

[butnotbubblegum]

using the tags to vent my current emotional state into the void bc ig story feels like a bad plan for this, read at your own risk.

[memorys-skyscraper]

fuck the new year, everyone say happy birthday ichiban kasuga!!!!!