#i have played a total of one pokemon game and i havent finished it <3

[glitchbirds]

there are three major video game genres to me- "total focus", "foreground noise", and "spreadsheet games"

"total focus" games pretty much require my complete undivided attention, maybe with some moments of downtime (ex: lobby load times, pausing the game) sprinkled in, but otherwise they are the main thing i am invested in the entire time the game is open. most story-driven games are this by default, as are most multiplayer games. under most circumstances these are not easy to make myself sit down and play unless im fully in the mood for it, because i have to carve out a block of time to dedicate to whatever the game is, and if i have anything else thats even slightly engaging to me going on that requires less energy thats often going to be what i gravitate towards. dead by daylight is one example of this, since its a multiplayer game that i will play in several-hours-long chunks of time "foreground noise" games are ones that i normally play while doing something else, usually putting more focus on the other thing than the game, with occasional exceptions. these are games i found myself playing while listening to pre-recorded lectures for classes, or that i turn to while struggling to keep my attention on a movie or video without either pausing every few seconds or otherwise ignoring it, or just so i have something to do with my hands while rewatching something. while they CAN be played with full undivided attention, thats a bit of a waste of mental resources, but they Are very easy to just pick up again and again at any time. most pokemon games (after ive played through them at least once) fall under this umbrella, gen 3 games in particular i have replayed from start to finish more times than i can count (mostly as randomized roms these days) "spreadsheet games" are the hardest to commit to playing at any given time and often the easiest for me to burn out on and feel like im not actually enjoying them and just pushing myself through (and yet i still somehow want to play them and will normally just take significant breaks). with these games i get caught up on optimization and will completely ignore story-related content for as long as physically possible while grinding for the best encounters, best items, getting as close to 100% completion as i physically can, etc. because of this i rarely can play the games casually without fretting about whatever stuff im missing, and have to have some sort of document keeping track of what im looking for open or easily accessible at all times. not all of these games involve me using actual literal spreadsheets but, for example, i have MULTIPLE files related to the game pokemon conquest and my efforts to get every single character to match with their perfect link pokemon;

the oldest of these files was last updated in 2015 and is just a notepad document of sentences like "takatora[charmeleon] needs litwick, kanemori[gurdurr] needs croagunk, nobuchika[panpour] needs gyarados"... this information corresponded to a ROM file of pokemon conquest that i lost the save file to at some point, likely while changing computers in 2018. my CURRENT file, though, is an actual spreadsheet using a base made by someone else Similarly Insane about pokemon conquest and corresponds to a physical copy of conquest that i own, which is in the early stages of the very long postgame (i have never actually finished conquest's postgame because of my perfect link quest). it was last updated late 2022 and looks like this:

(my past self did not make a color key and im not digging up the cartridge right now to double check, but after a few minutes of deliberation i believe blue = "i have this character but not the perfect link", yellow = "i have the link but not the fully evolved version of the pokemon yet", and red = "i have the fully evolved version of the link pokemon". white ofc means i havent recruited the character yet)

anyway all this is background information so i can say that rdr2 is slowly becoming a spreadsheet game to me because i am obsessed with getting as close to 100% game completion in chapter 2 as physically possible so that from now on whenever i decide to replay rdr2 from the start, i can play the game normally until the end of chapter two THEN make a copy of This save and go on playing from that point so i can have all the pearson camp stuff completed, all the trapper items, all weapons unlocked, all challenges complete, all collectathons done, etc and play stress-free. but also i really wanted to actually replay rdr2 from the start right now so these two parts of my soul are at war. and yes i have an rdr2 spreadsheet open (keeping track of all perfect pelts collected for pearson and the trapper) as well as an interactive map of the game so i can keep track of collectables, easter eggs, etc

[sunshineram]

hehee pokemans :))

[windypenguin]

About Me

i was tagged by @ikallawrites​ so lets gooo bc i havent done one of these in a while whoops

Name/nickname: michelle, penguin, mistral/mist

Gender: female

Star sign: gemini

Height: 5′3″

Hogwarts House: gryffindor and thunderbird

Favourite animal: cATs and birbs :3

Hours of sleep: uh dont hate me but uh it varies a lot...can be as little as 4, average is 5-6, but sometimes i sleep in for like 8?

Dogs or cats: both (but if you make me pick, cats)

Number of blankets: one...just change which one if its cold (or okay fine 2 if its freezing and you wanna layer)

Dream trip: im not really interested in travel tbh lol

Dream job: doing nothing? does that not count? okay then programming something fun like games or something i care about

Time: 7:32pm mst

Birthday: june 10 

Favorite Bands: i dont follow specific bands but uhh fall out boy is cool

Favorite Solo Artists: uH

Song Stuck In My Head: seagulls stop it now (go look it up on youtube if you havent seen it yet ehehe)

Last Movie I Watched: airplane!

Last Show I Watched: the current volume of rwby :D

When Did I Create My Blog: man uh was...early-mid 2013 i think?

What Do I Post/Reblog: did you think there was like...a theme?? bc there sure as heck isnt! basically anything im interested in at the time?

Last Thing I Googled: best day of my life minor key bc it came up on my spotify discover and i NEEDED to share it

Other Blogs: ...i totally made a side blog that i posted on like twice and never again. also a couple group blogs that kinda died

Do I Get Asks: i used to get a few but i havent been good about answering them so they stopped

Why I Choose My URL: i like wind and a hero of breath and i went by penguin for a little while.

Following: 383 :o god i didnt even realize

Followers: 543 whERE DID YOU ALL COME FROM AND WHY ARE YOU FOLLOWING MY MESS (esp when i know i blocked a lot of bots???)

Lucky Number: mm idk if i have a lucky number per se but i love the number 5? its so nice to count by??

Favorite Instrument: clarinet for lyfeee (but god listening to any instrument being played by someone who knows what theyre doing gives me chILLs)

What Am I Wearing: long sleeve shirt i wore to work earlier bc its cold now :c

Favorite Food: lately, belgian waffles. i got a waffle maker now :3

Nationality: half and half. the end.

Favorite Song: this varies so much thoooo -- mm crazy = genius is fun, tho i have in the miller mood in my head atm bc we played it at my concert this weekend (it was a mess tho)

Last Book Read: i finished the will of the empress by tamora pierce literally yesterday

Top Three Fictional Universes I’d Like To Join: uh something fun uhhh pokemon, harry potter (who doesnt want to do magic????), rwby if i were more confident...maybe ill be like velvet and just surprise everyone with badassery

Tag some folks: @nymphofnovels @narukamirelampago @jewishdragon uhh the ohter people id tag have already been tagged lol