#i have no strong opinions about this but i think the hourglass is fun

[pyrosomatic-metamorphosis]

look what i found in my wips last night lmaoo

[red-pill-to-swallow]

How to be attractive to men and my goals

Hey babes,

like I said – I want to incorporate RPT (Red Pill Theories) into my daily life immediately.

A few things that every women within the community seemed to be content with were:

1. You are never finished with glowing or leveling up. Never stop learning. Never stop trying to better yourself.

2. Pretty privilege is real.

I agree that pretty privilege is very real. I mean, I get affected by pretty people like everybody else, even if I don’t do it on purpose. It’s just something that is ingrained in our brains and I need to learn how to take this to my advantage.

I think I have a decent starting base, because I’m a skinny white woman in her twenties with long blonde hair. I am not really tall – even short men are at least 5-7cms taller than me – but I’m also not extremely short.

I have a petite frame but my body-shape is something between an hourglass and a peach. My face is average – I don’t really have striking features or am a natural beauty model – but my features also aren’t hideous. It’s really just something you can look at without thinking too much.

On a scale, I would rate myself a 5,5-6/10 on an average day and I guess that’s great!

But how can I make myself look better on a daily basis? I really took hours to research how I could make myself more attractive to wealthy and high value men.

Obviously, no man is like the other and every man prefers something different. One man might like tattoos and piercings while another man with the same social status thinks they are hideous. I don’t want to completely change who I am and I don’t want to spend thousands of dollars for it.

However, I really like this whole clean girl and old money aesthetic that is going viral on Tiktok right now – and I think those two aesthetics could fit me and my personality really well.

Most wealthy men seem to like this traits in women:

1. great skin without obvious pimples or enlarged pores

2. long and healthy hair in a natural color

3. straight white teeth

4. clean nails on both hands and feet

5. hairless legs, armpits and at least trimmed pubic hair

6. wearing clean and wrinkle free clothes without any holes

7. wearing a nice smell that is fitting to your overall appearance

I think those are the basics and they can be achieved by almost anyone. If you can’t afford braces make sure that your teeth are always perfectly brushed and that you’re keeping up with your dental hygiene in general.

In fact – if you have problems affording certain beauty procedures, research how to get as close as possible to them with DIYs.

For years, I always wanted to be the mysterious woman in the room. The woman with a dark aura, the woman that doesn’t speak much and remains most of her life a secret.

Well, I am not this woman even if I’m trying very hard. It would be an act that I would put on and I am sure that everyone in the room would notice.

I am naturally very bubbly and I love having conversations with people in general. I would also say that I have a broad knowledge on different topics and that I’m able to talk to almost everyone.

I am also very welcoming and I enjoy making people laugh and have fun in my presence. I tend to have strong opinions and I’m not afraid to take on a discussion.

With everything that I know about myself now, I made some points that I need to tackle in order to level up:

1. stop oversharing. Being bubbly is great but not everyone needs to know everything about my business. Sometimes it’s just better to be silent and to listen.

2. start with exercise again. I am happy with my weight but I am extremely weak and I have almost zero muscle mass. My breath is getting heavy if I have to take the stairs and my legs start to hurt after roughly 15 minutes of walking. I plan on going for a walk every day and doing pilates 3x a week.

3. start doing my hair and makeup again. My hair is long and blonde – so it is an eyecatcher. It’s also very healthy but I usually just throw it up in a bun or in a clawclip, so no one is really seeing it. I have multiple styling tools at home and I need to start using them. The same applies to makeup. I have so much great stuff that looks really beautiful and natural but I am just too lazy to use it. I plan on taking 20 minutes every day to do my makeup and to suck it up – because I usually always do a double cleanse at night, so it’s not really a struggle to take it off in the evening. It’s just inconvenient in the morning.

4. taking better care of my skin and of my dental health. I have high quality skincare and I love doing my skincare but sometimes I’m just too lazy. Let me just say that it doesn’t happen often – but still too much for my liking. Also my dental health – I need to make a dentist appointment asap. I think the last time I went was around 3 years ago!

5. buying better fitting clothes. I don’t like shopping for clothes but it is what it is. Right now I only have cute lounge sets for being at home but when I go out I usually only wear jeans with a basic top and sneakers. I want to look more polished and feminine. I want to stop wearing jeans and focus more on pants, skirts and dresses. Also literally any other shoes than sneakers.

6. go out more. I’m your typical homebody. Movie night? Reading a book? Ordering food? Count me in! I always have fun when I go out but I’m still mostly at home and I want to change that. I want to have a group of like minded friends that want to hang out with me. Maybe even at home. Lol.

I really thought hard about those six points but I think those are the first things that I need to tackle down.

In the end – I was asking myself: what could I do to feel the most comfortable with spontaneous outgoings and meeting new people?

It came down to wanting to look my best. Obviously. I want to make a good first impression and maybe even profit off of pretty privilege.

I’m sure we all know those times when we’re dressed like slobs and suddenly an opportunity to go out arises and we decline because it would take hours to get ready.

That’s the reason why I want to get ready in the morning – so I would only need to touch up if anything came up.

see you soon!

[evillemons]

TAEHYUNG’S IDEAL TYPE (V pt. 1)

~ a manifestation of his ideal girlfriend. Continuation into part 2 and part 3. Masterlist here.

Key words: Unique, artistic, opinionated, spontaneous, exotic, charismatic, sensual.

Her personality:

• As a whole, Tae's ideal type is a liiiitle tricky because he is such a dynamic, multi-faceted, and unpredictable individual. This is my best guess regarding the type of person he might be drawn to.

• She definitely has a strong and defiant personality. She is extremely vocal about her opinions and is completely unafraid to be herself.

• Like Tae, she is one of a kind and often misunderstood.

• She would no doubt be creative in some way, and would very likely have a career in the arts. I could especially see her as a tango dancer, model, or actor.

• Definitely a crocheter/knitter/sewer/DIY hobbyist on the side.

• While she may have a hot temper at times, she would generally be kind and good-hearted. He would not be attracted to someone mean or condescending.

• Warm, bubbly, and outgoing in an almost childlike way.

• Generally energetic, with a sense of wonder and excitement for life.

• She would also need to be silly and adventurous enough to keep up with his antics (he wouldn’t want someone too rigid or who constantly turns down his spontaneous date ideas).

• I see her as not necessarily raunchy or outwardly sexual, but sensual in a subtle and teasing way.

• MBTI: ENFP or ESFP. Fun-loving, charismatic, expressive, and sympathetic.

• While I don’t see her as an intellectual in the traditional academic sense, she would have strong world views and be perceptive of people, cultures, and relationships. She would be “people smart” and sensitive to others’ emotions and heavy topics.

• She might be an advocate for social justice or animal rights.

• Tae can sometimes get pretty emotional (and maybe even a little illogical). Even though I see her as a “feeler” type, she would need to have the ability to ground him and remain calm and rational for the relationship to be healthy.

Her looks and sexuality:

• Although he wouldn’t get tooo caught up on looks, Tae would definitely be attracted to someone mixed or exotic. European (especially French), Middle Eastern, or Southeast Asian.

• Tae would probably be the most likely to try to learn his s/o's native language.

• She could be unique looking or have a strong defining feature, such as long curly hair, large round eyes, or an interestingly-placed mole.

• I don’t think he would necessarily be averse to any body type, but I could see him liking someone with a slim-hourglass figure; large breasts, small waist, and wide hips.

• She would not be particularly athletic, but not unhealthy either.

• He would think someone short is cute and would love to be taller than her (maybe 5’3-5’5 or 160-165 cm)(I know this is not that short, but he is pretty tall at 5’10/179 cm and any shorter would just be awkward).

• Similarly, I don’t see him preferring someone older than him, as he would like to feel protective and as if he can take care of her.

• I see her being straight, but very open to “experimentation” or a threesome with another woman.

• She’s very sexual and would not like someone who’s shy or nonchalant in bed.

• I actually don’t see her with many tattoos or piercings, if any (for more of a classic/vintage look). She might have one small tattoo in a promiscuous position such as her lower back or bikini line.

• The way she dresses and carries herself would have a big impact on him, much more so than her physical characteristics.

• He would love someone with a similar fashion sense to his - somewhat formal, but also colorful and artistic. Feminine (but not necessarily modest) with lots of prints, skirts, and items that drape over her curves in a flattering way.

• Her makeup style might be mostly minimal but with a statement focal point, such as a bold lip or a cat eye.

• Like Namjoon and Yoongi, even though Tae might have an ideal type or be drawn to certain types of people, personality and compatibility are much more important at the end of the day.

[skyloftian-nutcase]

In regards to that ask about Legend, I've always liked the idea of him being Fable's half sibling or something, because it is a different Link/Zelda dynamic. I also think Legend wouldn't really be interested in relationships after the whole Marin thing. It does get tiring when Link is always paired with Zelda.

That being said, what are some of your favorite Link/Zelda dynamics? Or who might a Link be interested in instead? Sky and Sun are the only ones I can't see with anyone else, and I know you like Mipha/Wild. Which if I had actually taken my time with BoTW I probably would too, but I don't know enough of the story there to really have an opinion

There are some who like the whole “Link & Zelda are destined to be soulmates no matter what and that means romance all the time,” and if that floats your boat, sure. But I do definitely prefer variety. Also I could make a really cursed observation about Zelink through the ages based on the reincarnation that’s mildly implied, but for the sake of my lovelies who adore all the Zelink, I won’t 😂

I’m probably just gonna sound like I’m repeating myself from other asks, sorry, I haven’t played all the Zelda games so I can only truly speak to the ones that I have, but I’ll throw in my two cents for the ones that I’ve at least seen play through snippets/vibes I get from LU/ideas I liked.

Skyward Sword: They’re definitely, 100% in love, and they are adorable. 10/10 pairing

Minish Cap: They’re childhood friends to my knowledge, so it could go either way, I think. They’re so young in this game, I can’t say what’s gonna happen to them. Definitely would stay friends though.

Ocarina of Time/Majora’s Mask: It’s so complicated. I can see Adult timeline Zelda having an attraction to him, having hoped and prayed for his return to see a handsome young man appear. I can see Link physically being attracted to her while not entirely comprehending what that means because he’s still nine, and I can see than becoming an issue when he does naturally grow a little older. I can see Link being unable to separate the Zelda in the “nonexistent” timeline he fought alongside from the Zelda in his current timeline, who didn’t have to endure the same trials and therefore isn’t exactly the same, and I can see that messing him up too. So I feel like they’d be friends at best, have a professional relationship with maybe some fondness being likely, or cold and distant at worst. It seems most likely that they’re friends but Link keeps her at an arm’s length… by Majora’s Mask he seems to keep everyone at an arm’s length, tbh.

Twilight Princess: Eh. They could be friends, they could become lovers, it could work. But there definitely isn’t enough in the game to say for sure with the latter option. Link very clearly finds her beautiful based on his reaction to seeing her the first time, but he also had the same reaction to Midna lol, boy just goes :O with every pretty girl he sees. 😂 I think he had more chemistry with Midna but he also had time to develop that relationship, and since she’s gone that’s a sadly moot point anyway. But most likely, I think he’ll either end up with Ilia (he does seem to genuinely care about her, and you can see she has some strong feelings for him… you can make them a sibling dynamic or romantic, I haven’t played through the entire game yet so I can’t say for sure, but I can see them getting together) or someone completely different, despite his restlessness at the end of the game, he seems very much a guy who would settle somewhere quiet and have a family eventually. He’s very domestic and gentle and stuff ☺️ And honestly it would be interesting and fun to see the quiet, regal, stoic Queen Zelda get invited to middle-of-nowhere country village to wind down, or for her to invite Link to the castle and his kids sneak along and cause chaos or something 😂

Wind Waker/Phantom Hourglass: I’m pretty sure Tetra and Link found New Hyrule together, so it’s heavily implied they’re a thing. From what I’ve seen they have cute chemistry together, so I’m down for it.

Spirit Tracks: I’ve barely seen anything about this game, but given Zelda is the companion for this one she at least is one of the likelier Zeldas to be in a romantic relationship with Link. Dunno 😅🤷🏻‍♀️ everyone seems to think they are, so I guess I’ll go with it

A Link to the Past/Link’s Awakening/Oracle games: I honestly really like the implication that Zelda and Link are siblings. It’s very different from the others and could have so much potential for either fun or angst! Or both! Link obviously has feelings for Marin, and I do think he’d definitely need a break from romance after Koholint. I can’t say he’d never be interested in another relationship after that, but definitely not for a while.

A Link Between Worlds: 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️ not a clue, never seen an interaction between them

Four Swords: Also not a clue lol

Legend of Zelda/Adventure of Link: I mean, clearly they’re at least friends if Link’s still helping her out six years later, that’s all I’ve got 🤷🏻‍♀️😂

Hyrule Warriors: Ugh. This game lol. They give each other lovey dovey looks, so sure. Why not. At least make Zelda interesting if you’re (general you, not specifically you) gonna write it though. Idk. Honestly, them being war buddies is awesome. But the way this game portrays Zelink grinds my gears so I usually struggle to get beyond that. Link honestly should probably just be left alone after he has Cia’s creepy self stalking after him while simultaneously trying to kill him (girl did not know what she wanted, nor did she know what clothes were). Of Link’s options, he definitely wouldn’t want Cia, Lana would be sweet and loving and kind but he probably couldn’t get beyond her being a part of Cia (RIP poor girl, I really do like her and she genuinely loves Link), and Zelda would be ok. Both Zelda and Lana could be war buddies with Link, which is fun. I don’t think Link/Lana could happen because Cia, and I can see the war and politics after the fact impeding Link/Zelda. LET LINK JUST FIGURE HIMSELF OUT DANG IT HE’S A TRAUMATIZED WAR VETERAN WHO HAS BEEN SEXUALLY HARASSED.

Age of Calamity: Link/Mipha all the way! It’s heavily implied in BotW canon that they were a thing anyway, and here they get the chance to actually live! And be together! As such, I feel like Link is a very caring friend to Zelda, and I also think a strong friendship/siblinglike relationship between Zelda and the Miphlink couple would be adorable (and very beneficial for diplomatic relations between the Zora and Hyrule). I know in botw Zelda had a crush on Link prior to the calamity after he rescued her, not sure if that’s the case in AoC because I haven’t finished the game but it seems less pronounced. Either way, a crush isn’t the same as a strong friendship changing into a romantic one. Also I had this idea that Zelda, being the scientist she is and far more interested in just helping rebuild her kingdom (and perhaps not knowing how to cope with being alone when the guy she crushed on is married), announces some kind of competition or presentation for eligible bachelors and Link and Mipha are facepalming and Link (and Urbosa) is 100% gonna vet all the men by glaring at them from behind the queen and Mipha’s gonna be the Vibe Check girl (Daruk thinks they’re all nice, mostly; Revali is like “keep me out of this nonsense” but will low key stalk all the bachelors to make sure they’re up to snuff)

Breath of the Wild/Tears of the Kingdom: Given the fact that these two traumatized beans only have each other for points of reference/mutual understanding of their trauma and entire viewpoint, they very likely get together. I have a hard time with it only because people are so insistent on botw Zelink that they completely disregard Mipha and ship Link with Zelda before the calamity as well, which I do not. But honestly, botw/TotK Zelink is fine with me. Though TotK keeps it so vague sometimes, I feel like you can reasonably imply that maybe they haven’t gotten together yet by that point but they’re very close to doing so. Or it’s early in their romantic relationship.

Echoes of Wisdom: TBD! They haven’t interacted much yet from where I am in the game (Gerudo Desert), but considering (MILD SPOILERS) they didn’t even know each other until he rescued her, it’s gonna take a lot to convince me they’re gonna fall in love. Also, it’s hard to tell how old they are with this chibi style but I get the vibe they’re on the younger teenager side? Nothing’s set in stone for relationships at that age.

…I think that’s all of them?

[tinylittlemexican]

Not me screaming “make me feel like a woman” to no one while fucking myself stupid. This just in, fantasizing getting fucked by a stud reaffirms your gender. HDKDJFJF

I think really what I’m realizing is I have unfortunately surrounded myself with too many white queers and I think that’s what’s been stressing me out lately that and my OCD decided to hyperfixate on my gender and sexuality so that’s fun. But recently I’ve been thinking a lot about how I view womanhood and how even tho I am not part of the white cishetero idea of a woman I am part of Mexican American womanhood and how integral finding that part of myself is. In my culture and in my family, being a woman was to be strong, independent, hardworking, determined, and loving. The women in my family had all been through so much and it was the women in my family that uplifted us and lead us to prosperity. Of course my womanhood comes from that love and sacrifice! I had been saying a lot how I felt outside of the non-binary identity recently and maybe it’s like when I found my home again in my femme identity after rejecting my love for wearing dresses and feminine clothing but also filling in my eyebrows and mustache (my very very very pathetic wisp of a mustache BUT SHES THERE). It just didn’t feel right since my womanhood is so important to me and such a deeply ingrained part of me. And I think also when you grow up a Catholic Mexican there is this suppression to be strong but not too strong, to always sacrifice for your husband and family but then the Chicano revolution happened and the Mexican American identity was born out of the rejection of white cishet culture and the ridged norms of our cultural identity! Pachucas were out there wearing men’s suits and perfectly bouffant hair and dramatic bold makeup for gods sake!! It is the type of womanhood I was raised on to admire! There are times I still don’t feel like a woman but it’s more to do with dissociation being trapped in a white American world then it does with my own discomfort of being identified as a woman. I think it’s also why going on T for me was a way for me to bring those worlds of masculine and feminine traits into one entity within me so I can feel more comfortable in my femininity. I didn’t feel “cool enough” by other queer peoples perception of gender. Because how does that make sense? I want to take T to express my femininity more? I feel like I was trying to cut off bits of myself that I treasure too! But it does make sense to me! And isn’t that what matters? I feel lacking in my womanhood and femininity because I can’t grow body hair, because I have dysmorphia over my genitals, because I am not an hourglass curvy type of fat and because I am afraid that my womanhood and femininity will be denied once I embrace my masculinity and once again leave me feeling like I have no identity. I have broad shoulders and take up space, I am loud and rambunctious and I have desires and dreams and strong opinions like the Mexican women before me. I realize I cannot find identity in white spaces because they were never crafted with me in mind or how I perceive myself or my personal complex relationship to my gender. I don’t know, maybe this is stupid and maybe I’m wrong about something but for now this is how I am voicing my feelings about myself and my identity. It’s my own personal bullshit and damnit I’m just trying to figure it out. I also think I should have voiced more about how I feel about gender so maybe one day someone other brown queer would see it and say “hey I know how you feel!” And at last I wouldn’t feel so alone

[dynananarmy]

REPUTATION|| Min Yoongi

Summary:

You were in the top. There was no person in the world who didn't know your name, either for your success or your reputation, believing that the only thing you should do is smile, be a good girl, don't force your opinions on people, and NOT for any reason deny the dating rumors. But then a gummy smile and a sweet accent came to change all your believe system, from a friends with benefits to falling in love, you encounter a new fear: would he love you despite your reputation

Pairings: Idol!Min Yoongi(SUGA) x singer!reader   

Warnings: distorted body image and unwarranted fear of gaining weight. Unhealthy habits like starvation, underage alcohol consuption. Mild smut and age gap (Yoongi is 25 and reader is 20) but everything is consensual). If i miss something please let me know.

Gorgeous

You should take it as a compliment That I got drunk and made fun of the way you talk You should think about the consequence Of your magnetic field being a little too strong And I got a boyfriend, he's older than us He's in the club doing, I don't know what You're so cool, it makes me hate you so much

You make me so happy, it turns back to sad, yeah There's nothing I hate more than what I can't have Guess I'll just stumble on home to my cats Alone, unless you wanna come along, oh

Anxiety was a familiar feeling, a daily occurrence even before you knew how to call it. The constant fear of making the wrong move, not filling everybody's expectations. But it never gets easier, walking a red carpet was nerve wracking at 20 like it was when you were 13, but expectations were higher, every single album need it to be different, different  sound, different style, you need it to be more mature but not to sexy because then you were to provocative for kids who follow you, but not to demure because then you are a prim. And then, you were too fat, and then too skinny, or you would have the nice flat stomach that people expect but you didn't have the hourglass figure. So everything you stand in an outfit risky enough for you, you would shake like a leaf, praying that the apple and the water that you had eaten would not somehow make you look bloated. That you contour was blended, that the powder under your eyes would not flash in camera. 

You were about to promote your second single of your album, a song who was for a ex manager and ended up seeing as a call out for war for a singer whom you were friends but ended up splitting ways when she started dating an ex boyfriend, an ex boyfriend that you don't actually love but it was still awkward going out with the new girlfriend of your ex. Your team takes it as publicity, even if there was not an actual feud, good or bad, publicity is publicity, and so the music video only seems to spark even more fire. Still you invited all of your friends, friends that you met through other friends, in fashion shows or while performing in lingerie runways, the kind of friends that you partied with in your mansion in Coney Island or the one in Malibu. But that only sends a spark of worry, appearing in a music video with models with perfect bodies only makes you even more insecure about your own, and you were scared about what people would think about it.

A tug in your arm pulled you out of the dazed of the camera's flash and your thoughts, Calum King was a producer, a handsome embodiment of masculinity, a strong build body, a short beard, barely there but enough to let you know that he was a man. He was older than you by a lot, not enough to be scandalous but enough to raise a few eyebrows.

 He smile and you copied and hold his arm to the cameras, the lady assisting the red carpet gesture you to move and once you were out of the sight of the camera you let a shaky breath a pound in the head and the emptiness of your stomach make you feel dizzy and your publicist move quickly, holding a hard candy to you.

“Are you okay?” Calum asks, still holding you, you nod immediately and put the candy in your mouth.

“I´m good, the lights make me feel light headed but nothing that a little bit of sugar does´n fix” you say tasting the candy, feeling a little bit less tired, he nods but his sight was already far away from you. 

“Baby, i´m going to say hello to a few friends, I¨ll see you in our seats, okay?” He doesn't wait for an answer, his manager following behind, you let a sigh of relief, relieved that you don't have to keep pretending anymore, Calum and you met a few months ago while visiting a friend of your to the studio, a paparazzi saw you having coffee and after that you kept seeing each other, he would be your date in events and to the world, you were official, but you didn't even be intimate,barely hold hands while walking in the streets, or kiss each other more than a few pecks when winning a prize, but even that, it felt forced. Your publicist looks away from her phone to look at you and gives you an indifferent look.

“A new korean band is in here, apparently they are very famous and are contending against you for one of the awards, maybe you should go and see them so people see that you support new talents”

Curiosity sparks within you  “Korean band, is it BTS?” you asked, sipping your water you publicist arch an eyebrow

“Yes, did you know them?” she looks rarely interested, you nod reminiscing how  a few weeks ago you had stumbled on a fan edit of you and one of the members titled “1997 golden babies” seeing the dark haired boy dancing and performing with that much passion caught your attention, looking at his name and thus his group, fascinated enough that you had expend a few hour looking at the music videos and some of their performances, a bubble of excitement grew in your stomach making you feel energized again and you started to walk knowing your publicist was going to take you to them, skipping to some people you got to the corner where a group of at least 10 men stand, you immediately felt short and tiny and intimidated but you put your confident face and wait for your publicist to talk with one of the men, who yo assume was their manager, he look surprised and his gazed fall to you where you standing sandwiched between your bodyguards, he nod and went to say something to the remaining men 7 of them wipe their heads instantly to you and you smile, you make the remaining and they scatter in formation, pushing the taller men in front, he gives you a smile and flashed with a set of dimples.

“Hii, is so nice to meet you guys” You break the ice, you scanned every single one of them, from the tall broad shoulder one to Jungkook, the one of the edit and then your eyes fall to one of them, instantly draw for the way he looks at you, like he knew something your eyes goes back to the taller guy as he start to talk.

“It's so incredible to meet, we are big fans of your music” he says, you had heard that a lot but he sound genuine and the rest of the boy nodded, your eyes went back to the guy with the feline eyes and you see something that you had seen before but rarely from another artist, admiration, but also understanding, like he understanded something and he was fascinated by it. 

“Are you performing tonight?” you asked trying to shake the feeling that he was reading you like a book he understands the language. 

“Ummm, no, not tonight, hopefully someday”  he looked a little ashamed but that only made you feel more admiration for them, they are escalating little by little.

“Id watched some of your performance” a chorus of ��whoas¨ breaks their silence and you smile wider “You would have made us look like kids beside you, you are truly amazing” you compliment, the words flooding with ease, all of them let a ¨thank you¨ and when you meet eyes with the feline eyed boy he gives you the most beautiful and shy gummy smile, something inside you felt warm and fuzzy and you enjoy it so much that you wish it never went away. Your publicist asked for a picture and you stand with them.

The flash was quick, you changed the pose and at the same time you felt a delicate brush of fingers in your back. Tingles run down your spine and your hair stands, how was it possible that a man could make you feel that way without talking, without knowing him? You didn't even know his name, or how he was, he could be an asshole. 

The camera stop flashing and the warm fingers leave your trembling body (you didn't know if it was of starvation or the adrenaline running through your veins) You look at him, the man with the gummy smile, cat-like eyes and the rose petal lips, he bow and you did the same as a reflex, that make him smile fully and the giddy, warm feeling bubble in your stomach all the way up your chest. You broke eye contact and with warm cheeks you went to hug the taller guy hugging all of them (not without almost melting in gummy smile boy, and breathing deeply his mainly citrus smell).

Your entrance was cut out by your manager, who led you backstage and you hope you bump into them, to talk to him, to hear him and let his fingers pay with your skin, but you were immediately trap in the changing room pulling other set of clothes and when you get out your publicist was waiting with a mint and a glass of ice you chew while letting the makeup artist  retouch your makeup.

You had already stood up 5 times to receive an award and Top Social Artist was the last nomination before going to change for your performance. Sitting on the front row with Calum on your side being the perfect supporting boyfriend and with Zendaya on the other side beside her a bunch of other models friends, big names in the industry who appeared in the music video that had already premiered a few awards ago. And although you should've be worried if you would win the category you were already seeing black spots, nausea and heavy eyelids accompanying, and sitting beside with the most beautiful, tallest, slimmest, women of the moment didn't make you feel better, you could barely hear anything but the sound of blood pumping through your ears but after hearing your name and the loud cheers of your fans a smile appear in your clammy face, you wonder if you could even stand to get  the award if you win, a louder cheer broke in the arena and looking to the screen you saw the south korean band announced and when it disappears it took a few seconds for the screams to stop, the announcers opened the envelope, two seconds of silence in the speakers and then...“BTS!” You jump clapping finding strength out of nowhere and with a smile you saw the band walk in front of your eyes with wide eyes, open mouth and smiles, a single hand sticking out for you and knowing who it was you brush his hand with yours. 

Then you turn back and with a bodyguard in front and another in your heels, you walk into the main stage of the arena. 

Everything was blurry, you followed the guard into the hallway and crouched to get in the elevator, holding the mic and letting your head go over the choreography. And when the voice in your in ear says “one”you feel the lift move and stand.You felt like you were going to faint, but still make your moves as smooth as possibly, it felt like forever but when you give the final move and look at the camera you give the most convincing smile ever. Wait for the count to end and the light to ade out to let your body fall to the ground. But the light did not fade, and the camera was still on you. 

The host appeared to your side to announce that your music had already broken a record and that you had won another 2 awards. You accept the award and let the host hug you and unintentionally your body stumbles, your eyes give a turn and feel almost lost conscious.“It's okay” you said to the man and pulled out with a smile, looking to the worried crowd,”It's okay” you repeat in the mic ” I very excited, to be here and to win this awards, thank you to everybody that make this possible, my fans, my family, my team, everybody that listen my music and the art i make, thank you so much, i love you” You said, making well rehearsed words leave your mouth, you leave following the lady with the awards, numb. 

The act seemed innocent and so quickly and random that nobody should have noted, but it set something, pieces clicking in place, for you felt illicit, scandalous, it ignited something that you have never let your body cave in, lust. A sin so impure that only thinking about it makes you flustered, but it only took a couple of glances, some brushes of skin and a hug for you to continue the seduction game he started. And you wanted him to win, to ditch all the circus and let him take you to the hotel, seeing him all in black contrasting with his soft creamy skin, a fallen angel.  

Wanting to feel something, did you deserve the awards? Your music had moved so much from your original goal that  you barely felt it was good. So you didn't feel proud, and you did not feel happy, or sad, or angry. You felt hungry, and tired.

 How dare he be so cool? With the glinting earrings and the necklaces and the deep voice and side smile, a dream, you never thought he was just your type. Was it possible for you to have him? A quick internet research let you know his name, his position on the group and his age, he was a little over five years older than you, younger than your “exes” but so much different, he felt real, a real man, but at the same time he was surreal, to perfect,  to gorgeous. And you wanted to know all about him.

You sit alone in the buffet of your hotel, with other people who also went to the awards, munching on a chicken salad with some delicious sauce and bread sticks and a glass of orange juice. Your orange juice, of course, was spiked with alcohol by your manager, a way to make you last giggly and awake for the rest of the night. Feeling already full with your second plate and with already a certain amount of alcohol in your system, you felt better, enough to keep looking at the table in front of you. Where 7 boy sit holding a camera laughing at one of them knocking the glass with the camera gummy smile boy who had, just like you, been looking at you smile with you and you hold the big stack of tissues at him, he walk to you and brushing fingers he take it from your hands “thanks” he said with a deep voice, one that you had already heard in his music videos but never compared to the real thing.

It took you 30 minutes to shower, dry your hair, put light makeup and a flowy black dress, that fall above your knees, do a quick google research of what to expect at losing your virginity and chugging the mini bottle of wine of your mini fridge, cleaning all of the clothes on the bed and quickly fix it. And when you thought that he wouldn't come a knock was heard. You look for the last time in the mirror and open the door.

 And he was there, his hair now completely straight  and soft looking and his face was bare, no necklace and simple cotton shirt and black cargo pants. Like he couldn't be more gorgeous.  Oh wait, he could, looking at you with the damn smile. “Hi” you said, already losing the game “Hi”, deep voice and cute accent, you can't help but giggle, boozing  alcohol in your veins.

“Please, please come in” You open the door all the way “ I´m y/n, by the way” you said and he looks at you, “I know, I´m Yoongi” he says laughing “I know” you respondHe lifted an eyebrow “you do?” he said with a smug smile, “of course i know, i'm not that  dump to hook up with a guy i don't even know the name of” you widen your eyes and blame the alcohol by your blunt remark, but feel relieved when he laughs. He let you lead the way to the living room and when he sits on the couch he notices the object on the coffee table, an unopened copy of BTS 'latest album you had.

They said goodbye and you broke contact, gulping the last of your orange juice and immediately got replaced, you looked back at your manager and publicist, talking to their manager, using the translator that look flustered, and you knew why, after yourself had talked with your manager about your request, voice confident but cheeks flushed, your manager didn't even had to approach BTS manager before he was already on his way, at that you felt a weird feeling, a territorial frown in your eyes, but you couldn't blame him. Every celebrity you have met has done this.  A simple deal, a way for celebrities to keep their affairs as private and publicly clean, both sides agreed to keep it quiet and not slip ups. When they finally look at you, turn again to him, his manager walking to him, and slipping a black plastic card. A key to the room to one of the suites. Your suite.

“I thought you could signed for me” you explained with a shy tone “I found it on the airport bookstore and since i kinda collect music album i thought it was a nice addition” 

He grabbed it “can i open it?”  he said with the cute accent, you nod excited and he carefully start to unwrap you sit by his side to get a better look, when he finished it, he looks at you

 “it has a photocard” he explains and you giggle again at the way he pronounce the last word, feeling the warm feeling in your stomach and he send your favorite smile at you.He opens the book and stop at the page with the card stuck to it “It's random so is a surprise, go, turn it around” he gesture to the book, you grab it and turn it around,

 “Oww” you let out a disappointed sound when you look at the man that clearly wasn't your Min Yoongi, he laughs and you pout “what can i do if i want one of you?” you ask with a distressed look. He dares to look flustered and he reach to his neck and the his hair, you wanted yours in its place, you licked your lips and look at lis face, “You could buy lots of album until mine come out” hmmm

“That's a good idea” his stare became intense and his eyes darken, his tongue brushed his bottom lip and someone must move forward because your lips replaced his tongue was now kissing his lips. 

Your fingers grab his shirt while his palms was cupping your cheeks, thumb brushing against it, the darkest desires in your mind, the need to be touch to be taken care of,taking his hand in yours you put it on your thigh, where your dress had lift and he complied to your silent request, pushing the fabric up and caressing your skin, but not where you need it him.

 You lean in the couch bringing him with you, but he pull from the kiss, leaving you gasping, “are you sure?” he ask, with his soft, dark eyes, lips swollen and flushed cheeks, you nod, but he shakes his head “are you sure?” he repeats, you think for a second looking at your giddy, boozy brain, “yes, i'm sure” you said with the most confident voice you could muster, he kiss you again and then its your turn to pull away from the kiss ”wait, wait, i,  i haven't, i never have i ever before, i mean, i never had done this before” you confess and he looks at you still panting, he nods, and ask again “are you sure?” and you are.

He didn't let you lay in the couch.

He let you run your fingers through his torso and take his shirt off.

You let him pull down the strips of your dress.

He let you know how much he desires you.

You let him touch for the first time against the wall, making you see stars and blow away in a climax.

He takes to the bed, carrying like you were a leaf.

You let him stole sweet moans out of your mouth

He takes it slowly, touching skin like you were fine china.

You feel like a confident woman when you whisper “you are so gorgeous, I can say anything to your face.”

He lets a deep chuckle and gives a deep thrust making you scream of pleasure.

A mix of sloppy kisses, discreet love bites, nails against skin and pasional hip thrust between the sheets you let yourself think for a second that is not a one time thing, that euphoric feeling you were experimenting and that it was the most happy you had been in years was going to finish the moment he finish panting against your neck.

You tried to not look disappointed when he stood up and walked to the bathroom, closing your eyes, letting yourself feel the remnants of your climax.

He came back a few minutes later, cleaning between your legs and leaving a soft kiss in your thigh before slipping your underwear in its place, holding you in his arms.

You cried for the first time in front of a person. 

He tells you that he knew you were hungry, he had felt it before. Not by his own choice.

You tell him about the empty feeling in your stage while on stage.

He kisses your face while rubbing circles in your back.

  When the morning sun came up you watched his sleeping figure, his back up and belly down, face facing you and his arm around you.

You mindlessly start writing invisible letters, your name. Wishing he could be more than a stranger.

He lets you a note. His number. Breakfast. And a single pink flower and a book from the souvenir store “ The meaning of flowers”

Azalea

 The azalea is the flower that ushers in springtime in the southern United States. That’s one reason it’s so closely associated with beauty and rebirth. 

These blooms are often given as a symbolic message to, “Take care of yourself,” which is an important sentiment to extend to the bereaved.

Little-Known fact:

 Azaleas are celebrated in festivals throughout the world, especially the U.S. and Asia. In Chinese culture, the azalea is known as the “thinking of home bush” and was immortalized in the poetry of a famous poet during the Tang dynasty.

HIIIIIIIIII

SO 

I FINISH THIS CHAPTER

It took years, but my mental health has been bad lately and also was hard to write the first meeting, if it look to rushed, dont worry its kinda the point, they are not in love but definetly know that they felt something. But they dont know each other,  i like to think of them as soulmates. 

We see how she was physically and mentaly hitting rock bottom and her team is not as innocent as it look.

If i was vague about everything, when the managers were talking, they were basically negociating the one night stand, that way the public wouldnt found out. A normal ocurrence in this AU.

Everything you feel courius about, please let me know.

Thank you so much for reading, i love you

[bransles]

🔥 for roleplay, 🔥 for legend of zegend or your fandom of choice, 🔥 wild card, opinion on whatever you want !

accepting.

for roleplay.

i think everyone was so scarred by the days where every female muse got branded as a mary-sue, that people are afraid to give the same amount of writing for their female muses that they do for their male muses, even despite claims that they’re doing so. like. some female ocs i see on here are just. fucking boring. it’s like they try to avoid possible mary-sue accusations so much they end up writing this flat, boring character that just. isn’t fun to interact with? and like i worry actually posting this that someone is going to take my words in bad faith and just accuse me of disliking female ocs when that literally isn’t the case at all. i do agree that female characters often do not get the appreciation they deserve in media in general, but sometimes i see someone posting like “nobody wants to interact with my oc because she’s female ughgghgh” when in reality she’s just. boring. if a male oc was written like that i wouldn’t want to interact with him, either.

and also there’s a lot of people who take the statement “write strong female characters” to mean writing female characters who are Literally Physically Strong and nothing else mfmdssjkg. you can have a physically weak and mushy female character and still have her be. A Strong Character. please

also somewhat related but really an entirely different opinion but along the same line of thought. i do feel like a lot of ppl with female muses tend to ignore gay male muses because there’s no hope of a ship. like octavo has so much that he relates to more with women than men, but sometimes it feels like pulling teeth for him to get female friends lol

for loz

SPIRIT TRACKS IS A GOOD GAME AND SPIRIT TRACKS ZELDA IS A GOOD ZELDA AND I’M GOING TO TELL YOU WHY. zelda in st is your companion throughout the game, and it’s because of that, we get to see her develop as a character, similarly to midna. that said, i don’t think zelda has anywhere near the amount of writing and nuance that midna has like. nintendo really outdid themselves with her. whoever wrote midna’s character needs to come back. but i digress. she’s so unique in that she is initially portrayed as... kinda unsympathetic. she’s rude, kinda stuck up, a stereotypical princess. we (as in, link whose eyes we are experiencing the game through) initially help because like. we have to. but over the course of the game, she becomes more humble and charismatic, and we help her because we like her and she is our friend. and spirit tracks actually having zelda be a major character that isn’t just in the background as an entity we can’t interact with that we have to save? amazing. revolutionary. do it more, nintendo. botw zelda WISHES she had half of st zelda’s swag.

spirit tracks is also a good game in general, the ds games got curved as fuck. granted, i wasn’t amazed by phantom hourglass either — i liked it and i think it was a good stand alone game. as a sequel to wind waker? admittedly it’s awful as that. spirit tracks however has such a unique world and likable characters! and companion zelda!!!!!!! the world did feel very very restricted and sometimes the train thing and working around the uhh. Evil Trains. could be really annoying. but, the ds had a really limited capacity for what it could do, and i think st did it’s best with its limitations. the dungeons were fun. rabbit hunting was fun. the soundtrack was good. it deserved better

wild card / pokemon cuz it’s on my brain

i think it’s really interesting seeing people post about how much they miss gen 5′s pokemon designs, when gen 5 used to be the go-to punching bag for Ice Cream Pokemon or Garbage Pokemon. like. whenever someone would talk about dumb pokemon, they would ALWAYS drag down poor vanilluxe. and like, i’ve always liked gen 5, it gave me some of my favorites (cofagrigus and garbordor). it’s my favorite gen. but when it came out and a few gens later, people still loved to shit on it

i think people are way to harsh on objectmon in general. a lot of them have such unique designs! i do like the more animal designs, but saying pokemon should just be filled with hundreds of parallels to real world animals is just. boring lol

[opbackgrounds]

Hi there Sarc' ;) I am sorry if the question has already been asked but I thought it could be interesting to have your opinion about this. While I love most of the female characters in OP and think that most of them are well developed and can be truly good role models for girls I still feel that Oda sometimes has a sexist view on female characters (the jokes about the naked bath scenes for example or Kororo being considered ugly make me really uncomfortable). What do you think about it?

Ah, I wondered when I would get this question. 

When people talk about sexism in One Piece they typically are referring to two different things: How women are drawn, and how they’re treated within the narrative. While there’s some overlap here, there’s enough distinction that I want to address them as two separate points in two separate posts, because I guess I had Opinions, and by god there should be a limit to how much text one tumblr post can be expected to hold. Consider this an introduction.

Buckle up, kiddos. This is gonna be a long one. 

Nami Face Syndrome Isn’t the Problem...

An important thing to remember with Oda’s art and storytelling style is that almost everything is hyper exaggerated for effect. You don’t go into One Piece looking for realism. You don’t go into One Piece expecting the characters to act like normal people. Everything--from the art to the humor to the battles--is stretched and pulled to its absolute limit in hopes of garnering a particular reaction. When a character is sad they cry big bubbly tears with dribbles of snot coming from their nose. When they laugh their mouths take up half their face. 

And when a girl is hot, her tiddies are two great big watermelons stuck to the center of her chest.

What is often dubbed “Nami Face Syndrome” within the fandom is somewhat misleading. After all, why was Wanda, who is a literal dog that walks on two legs, decried as yet another Nami clone at her introduction? I would postulate it’s less to do with her face and more to do with the fact that from the neck down they are virtually identical, something that’s made more obvious because Wanda is literally wearing Nami’s clothes

What makes this frustrating for a lot of people, myself included, is that it’s not that Oda is incapable of drawing more diverse body types, but that he often chooses not to. Take for example the Kuja tribe

or the Charlotte family daughters (thanks to Arthur at Library of Ohara for the resource). It’s pretty clear Oda has the chops to make his women as weird as the men, and he often does! For important characters, even. And yes, as the Kokoro example given above sometimes the gonkness is brought attention to, but for others like Lola and Chiffon it’s...not. 

(more on mermaids later)

But Sarcasticles, one might protest, even Oda’s “ugly” characters have ginormous boobs! Where is my itty bitty titty committee representation >:(

To which I can only shrug. For Oda, boobs on a woman are like abs on men. It doesn’t matter if it makes sense, they’re gonna have ‘em

Seriously, Oda. What the fuck.

...So What Is?

I have a theory that’s impossible to prove, and that the problem isn’t so much Oda’s character design so much as the ratio of his male to female characters in general. It’s not that every female character is a Nami clone, but Oda has a template he uses for attractive female characters ages 16-25, the same way he uses Robin as a template for attractive women ages 26-35, which is how you get cases of mistaken identity like Viola for Robin or scenes during Reverie where one could be forgiven for thinking Nami’s supposed to be an identical triplet

 Oda does this for his men, too. It’s not as obvious because 1) Even men with similar facial features can have a wider variety body types due to Oda having a sliding scale of buffness he’s willing to attach to a pretty face and 2) There are more men. 

There are a lot more men.

In groups where the male to female ratio is more or less equal (Baroque Works, Big Mom’s kids) you get a wide variety of designs. But there’s only one female Supernova. There’s one female Warlord. CP9 only has one female agent. Only one of the Revolutionary Commanders is a woman. There are very few female background characters in crowd shots, especially among marines. Big Mom might be the only female Emperor, but she’s not young, In fact, when drawing her at age 28, Oda defaults to a much more generic “pretty girl” face before giving her much more striking, memorable features in her 40s

If you look at Oda’s male characters, the ones that are supposed to be hot are often given the same square jawline and the thin-bladed nose that at one point in time was reserved for Robin. Both Coby and Sabo had very distinctive noses before their glowups, while Ace must have had a laser treatment done on his eyebrows sometime between Alabasta and Marineford. 

But the biggest difference on the men has got to be muscle mass. The overgrown noodles of early One Piece are lost to the annals of time. Shanks alone must have gained 30 pounds of pure muscle from the time Luffy got his first bounty to his appearance at Marineford. 

Now, I will acknowledge that there is a difference between the increasing sexualization of female characters and the male power fantasy of giving Zoro bara tiddies post-timeskip. While I do think there are certain male characters specifically designed to be the Hot Dude, what I’m trying to emphasize here is that Oda works with templates for both men and women, and both of those templates have been exaggerated over time. Bigger boobs for women, more muscles for men. And when you’re only slotting for one girl in any given group, and that one girl has to be The Hot One then you’re going to have a lot of ladies that end up looking the same. 

My love for Otohime on this blog is well known, and I want to use her as an example of what Oda can do when he works beyond this template, because it’s really freaking good  

Otohime is neither conventionally attractive nor gonk. She’s dressed in very conservative, traditional clothing and has a narrow waist and small chest. 

There are no sharp edges on Otohime. Not her eyebrows, not her jaw, and most of the time not even her hands, emphasizing her gentle nature. You don’t see it as well in this panel, but Otohime’s head is often drawn wider than her shoulders, emphasizing her frailty. Oda gives her a longer neck to compensate, and the overall effect is a very soft, willowy figure. 

Her headpiece looks like a sunburst. The audience never sees her fins, so Oda gives her a scale patterned kimono-dress-thingy (my knowledge of Japanese clothing is, uh, not good) as a visual reminder that she’s not human. The sash that circles around her head harkens back to Japanese mythology as a symbol of divinity, similar to a halo in Western culture. And fun fact: Otohime is named after a god, just like Neptune, while her goals and ideals are pure enough to be heaven-sent. 

I’m not an artist, but this is a really damn good character design. A lot of Oda’s older female characters are. Dandan, Tsuru, O-Tsuru, Shakky, Kureha, Big Mom, and Nyon are all instantly recognizable and have strong designs, even if a few of them fall into the hourglass figure that Oda often defaults to. It’s just...there aren’t that many of them.

So the question becomes why aren’t there more women, and I think the answer is because, ultimately, One Piece is a series geared at boys. While I wish there were a few more important ladies, I can understand why there aren’t. 

Note, that doesn’t mean I think it’s right or that Oda is obligated to include more women. It’s just one of the facts of the shonen manga industry at this point in time. 

A more important question, I think, is why does every younger woman have to be attractive? And why do the attractive ladies have to wear outfits that are blatant fanservice? This is something I don’t have an answer for. Oda has said on more than one occasion that he writes One Piece with his twelve year old self in mind. It could be that it’s a calculated move to appeal to his audience, in which case it’s certainly worked because said Hot Ladies are constantly used in marketing and merchandising. It’s the Hot Ladies that top the popularity charts (although, to be fair, who’s there for competition?). In the most recent chapter a new Hot Lady was introduced, and the fandom went batshit crazy for her.

Even the fans who are very vocal about how Oda sucks at drawing women. It’s interesting how that works out sometimes.

Or maybe I’m giving Oda too much credit, and he’s just horny. Not having direct access to Oda’s mind, I don’t have an answer. If I had to guess I’d say it’s a little of Column A, a little of Column B, because that’s usually how life is. 

But in a vacuum big tiddies are just a design choice. An exaggerated aesthetic, in a series full of exaggerated aesthetics. It’s when that design choice is paired with in-story comments, actions, and decisions where things really start to get heated. But that’s a whole other ball of wax, and there should be a limit to how much one tumblr post can be expected to hold. I promise I’ll get to the meat of your question next time.

Thank you so much for your patience. I really do think it’s important to start here before diving into everything else, if only because it helps keep my thoughts organized. I hope you’ve found this helpful, and if not, I hope to do better next time. 

[kazuwhora]

🎃 Leaving this emoji here so I know it's me

can I get a matchup?

I'm an INFP Gemini, 1.57m, and I use any pronouns, mostly they/them and she/her

I'm really pale and I wear glasses 24/7 bc without them I can only see things up to 10cm away from me.

my hair is wavy (the kind that if I don't style it correctly it will get straight but a frizzy kind of straight) and I keep changing it all the time.

I've had pink/blue hair, purple/blue, blonde ends, only pink, ginger for 2 years and now it's bright red. normally i like to let it grow and then cut it short, same with my bangs. so there's a lot of combinations here.

I love my hair and I take care of it obsessively, not only mine but my friend's too baji drop your hair care routine

what else... ?

you know that person that is in college but everyone assumes they're on middle school bc they look 13 and act like they're lost everyday everywhere like wth is going on? that's literally me everyone thinks I'm 13 I'm 19 people asked me if I'm a teacher's child too many times now it was getting annoying now being baby-faced is my personal joke

my body is??? hourglass shaped?? I guess?? I'm not thin enough to tell exactly

my back and shoulders are quite large bc I used to swim when I was little, now I take dance classes so all my body strength is in the lower part of my body ((bitch im thicc 😎😎

art I general is my hobbie, so dancing and singing and painting are my thing

I also used to take fighting classes when I was younger but my parents only took me for three months and then they stopped bc I would be wanting to fight god and the world

i still want to fight god and the world but now I don't have the tools to do so. how unfortunate.

I dress mostly in what makes me feel confortable? crop tops shorts and slippers every day. if not, hoodies and baggy pants. all black with rainbow socks.

about my personality I'm just-- idk?

bleh?

my whole childhood I was just the smart kid and now I'm not so I don't have a sense of personality.

my friends say that I have strong opinions and don't hold back

which is kinda true?

I do have a sense of justice and I will defend it until the end and somedays I will step up and defend them with words and physically if I have to.

but most of the time i just don't have a filter

most of the time my Inside Outs are staring into space like 😐 and just letting everything happen. so will say something like "Thats dumb. you can do better. I respect that you have a opinion. but I think your opinion is dumb" while having no expression in my face. I'll notice 3 seconds later how RUDE that was and start laughing bc omg that was mean.

other days I'm just a fleeing sunlight being excited about everything like a child would.

idk what else to say

my favorite avenger is natasha, I love genshin albedo my beloved rerun when, loona stan. lactose intolerant but I don't give a shit bc I love ice cream.

I feel like I talked so much but didn't say anything. cool. I'm awful at talking about myself but I tried.

bye 💜

ok so one of my best friends (probably my only friend ngl) is an infp and I feel like struggling with defining your personality is 100% an infp thing but u did a good job and ty for providing me with so much information!!!

im definitely matching you up with hanma idc if you love him or hate him this a ship I can get behind 👏🏻

first of all lets both take a moment to appreciate how fucking hot that man is like god fucking DAMN that first picture never fails to get me smfh

second of all. ur an infp. hanma is an entp. y'all have barely anything in common cognitively and its fucking AMAZING. I live for infp (and also intp for u intps there) and entp ships because the way that us entp's are in nature is completely opposite from an infp, while still sharing the perception function that allows both types to understand each other to some extent that just makes for a really fun match ok?? trust me on this.

he is obsessed with your individuality. as an extravert, not only does hanma benefit from your ability to access an introverted aspect that works to ease him from the burnout extraverts can face when they are unable to enable an introverted mindset every now and then, but he also learns to laugh both with you and at you- and genuinely. like you make him laugh. he thinks you're hilarious and as an entp who are typically known to be a little self obsessed, he didn't think it was possible to think anyone was hilarious except himself? he's like damn this girl is really like a kinder surprise.

he also really loves your art and finds that he's a little annoyed that he's not artistically inclined so he'll beg you to paint something for him and he wont stop until you do. just dont paint an ugly portrait of him on purpose or he's gonna get butthurt about it going on about how "damn is this how you see me?? </3 rip me I guess" and he wont shut up about it until you make it up to him and apologize for making a mean joke.

and then he just makes a joke towards you that's like 10x meaner and he WONT apologize for it. wallow in the revenge because its not going to end anytime soon.

lets be honest tho, when the two of you are together around others its a little overwhelming for people. hanma's entp-ness really brings out a side of you that leans on the extroverted side. you feed off his energy and the two of you are lowkey a little mean to people. but they deserve it, right? its their fault for being idiots. you enable each other hardcore here but its fine. they all know you're just being you and hanma is happy to have someone on his side.

you and hanma can fight god together btw <3 he's a little delulu

[nev3rfound]

leaving the guardians : chp.8 - b.b

brief summary: being a guardian of the galaxy and falling in love with bucky. - endgame spoilers ahead!

chp.1 / chp.2 / chp.3 / chp.4 / chp.5 / chp.6 / chp.7 / chp.8

* masterlist of sorts * 

thank you for all the support on this series, I hope you’ve enjoyed reading this as it was so much fun to write. 

After the snap happened, I could feel it in my body. I felt the pieces that had fallen apart return and fit back together like a jigsaw puzzle. I looked at Steve, smiling brightly as we realised it worked, they were back.

But the relief was short lived as Rocket tugged my leg, seeing a large weapon firing toward us. “EVERYONE GET DOWN!” Steve yelled and before I could react, it hit. 

Opening my eyes I can feel something pressing against my body. “Fuck.” I mutter as I try to turn my head, only to see rubble surrounding me. “Guys?” Yelling I wait for someone to respond, a sound or cry. But nothing follows, no one else is here. 

A low growl echoes and I tilt my head up. Panic rises through my body as I shuffle, but the weight suppressing me is too strong to budge. Curling up my fists, I try to channel my powers, but as I glance down they keep sparking out. 

As the creature gets closer I can feel it’s warm breath hovering over my body. “Come on! I can’t die here.” Aggression rises in my tone as I clench my fists, ignoring the pain that rises through my body as I lift them up, watching as a flash of light sends the creature flying back. 

“Y/n?” I freeze as I hear my name being called out. “Doll, you in here?” My breath halters in my throat as I listen, hoping I’m not hallucinating the entire thing. 

“B,Bucky?” I stutter, hesitant to allow my brain to give in, to realise I’m dying and imagining what I want more than anything. 

Within seconds I listen as the sound of footsteps becomes more urgent and I feel a hand resting on my cheek. “Doll, open your eyes.” He mutters and I shake my head.

“I can’t because this is just a twisted dream. I’ll wake up in the jaws of some god awful alien and never see you again Bucky.” I can feel the tears falling down the side of my face, hitting the rocks my body is weakly lying on. 

A small laugh sounds from the figure above me. “It’s okay, Y/n. I’m here, I’m really here. Just, just open your eyes.” 

Letting out a shaky breath I feel the weight keeping me down being lifted, the sound of a heavy grunt as I whimper. I slowly open my eyes, looking down as crimson stains my skin, but I can still feel a hand resting on my cheek.

My eyes rise until I see blue, a shade of blue that cannot be replicated. It’s his blue, the blue I once woke up to that provided comfort, the soft words I needed to hear as I thought of my family light years away. The blue that would push me to my limits but would love me all the same despite the awful things I’ve done. 

“Bucky.” A watery laugh escapes my mouth as he smiles brightly, wiping my eyes.

“Hi doll,” He chuckles as he lifts me up. “miss me?” 

*

Bucky’s arm remains around my waist as I stand alongside my family, nearly all of us reunited. “She’s not coming back, is she?” I turn to see Peter lower his head, shaking it slowly. I reach out, giving his hand a light squeeze. “I’m sorry, Pete.”  

Peter smiles softly. “It’s okay, kid. Nothing we can do.” He sniffs as we look straight ahead, seeing Pepper walk away from the flowers she pushes into the water. “The Gamora out there doesn’t know us, she’s not our Gamora.” 

We all stand in a moment of silence, remembering those who couldn’t be here, who didn’t make it out. 

Vision, Natasha and Tony. Three of the bravest and most willing people I’ve ever met. 

Tony was the first person I met when we crashed. He might’ve been hesitant, but he was willing to give me a chance, let me prove myself as I was kept as an Avenger. 

Natasha had the wit I could bounce back and forth with. She helped me train, forcing me to not use my powers in case I was ever restricted. I can still remember the pep talks she gave me, the late night conversations over beers on the roof. 

I didn’t know Vision well enough, that is one of my regrets as I look over, seeing Wanda stood with Sam. He gave up everything to try and stop Thanos from happening, we all saw the pain in Wanda when she lost. 

Three people who gave up everything. Vision gave up his mind, Natasha gave up her soul, and Tony gave up living to save the universe. 

Bucky brings me closer, kissing my cheek as I wipe my eyes, watching Pepper take Morgan back inside as Happy follows. “What’s the plan now then?” I ask, letting out a heavy sigh as Bucky remains by my side as we stand in front of my family. 

It was the question I’ve been thinking about, allowed it to circle in my mind since I saw Peter return. Bucky was holding my limp body, and then I saw my family in the midst of the battle. 

Peter shoves his hands in his pockets, looking to the others for a comment, but no one speaks up. “Well, we know Gamora is out there and she might not be our Gamora, but she could be dangerous.” Sorrow lines Peters face as he forces a half smile. 

“I am Groot.” Groot speaks up and I let out a small laugh.

“Exactly what we’re wondering,” Rocket comments. “you coming with us, kid?” His ears rise up, waiting for an answer as he stands by Groot, leaning against the tall figure who looks at me quizzingly. 

Letting myself go from Bucky’s embrace, I glance to him and he gives me a knowing nod. “Mind if I have a moment with my brother?” 

Peter steps away from everyone else, walking alongside me as we head toward the lake. “So, you two on good terms then?” Peter nudges my arm and I laugh lightly. “Okay okay, time and place I get it.” Holding his arms up in defence we stop as we reach a large oak tree. 

“Remember the oak tree down in the park when we were kids?” I focus on the ripples in the lake, watching as a light breeze winds through my hair. 

“How you wanted to climb it and Mom said no? But you proceeded to anyway and cried for help?” Peter recalls and I roll my eyes. 

“I remember it differently, but sure.” I mutter as I cross my arms. “Even though Mom told me not to, you encouraged me as I would learn a lesson.” 

Peter nods along. “And the lesson was to not disobey Mom, obviously.” He huffs, thinking back to how you screamed for help despite the short jump down. “What’s that got to do with anything?” 

“Well, I always did as you said. Disobeyed everyone else to listen to my wiser older brother,” Sighing softly, I glance back seeing Bucky stood by Sam and Steve whilst my family remain together. “and I need your opinion now more than ever.” 

Lifting my head up, Peter furrows his eyebrows together. “I can’t make that decision for you, sis.” He states softly, shaking his head. “You know what you want to do, just admit it.” 

Taking my hands in his I close my eyes as I take a deep breath. “I don’t want to lose you, Peter, not when I just got you back.” 

“Hey,” He places his hand under my chin, lifting my head up to see his soft green eyes, just like Moms. “you’ve done us all proud, Y/n and you always will. And I’m sure you’ll need our help sooner or later.” He chuckles and I join in as I wrap my arms around him tightly.

“Thank you, Pete.” I whisper as he rests his hand on my hair, kissing the top of my head as I let out a shaky breath. “Guess this is it then?” 

“Don’t say goodbye, Y/n,” Peter mutters as we head back to everyone. “we’ll see you again.” Wrapping his arm around me he mutters to me, “I saw the way you and Bucky were when you found each other, I knew you couldn’t leave him.” 

Standing alongside Peter, everyone can just tell. No words have to be said. Bucky glances over to see me and smiles softly. “This isn’t goodbye, okay.” I say to everyone as they wear sad expressions. 

Groot holds his hand out, a flower blossoming as he hands it to me. “I am Groot.” He mumbles and I laugh softly, taking the flower. 

“I’ll miss you too Groot.” Bringing Groot into a tight hug, I hum softly. “I’ll miss all of you, but the galaxy isn’t my home anymore.” Pulling away I see Bucky walking toward me, taking my hand in his. “Earth is my home and I’ve got a new family here.” 

Rocket nods, wiping his eyes. “I’m not cryin’ I’ve got dust in my eyes.” 

“It’s okay, Rocket.” I kneel down in front of him. “It is pretty dusty ‘round here.” 

“I’ll keep Quill in check for you, make sure he doesn’t do anything too dumb.” Rocket looks up to Peter who rolls his eyes in response. “Just look after yourself and if you get the chance, steal his arm.” Motioning to Bucky I look up to see Bucky giving Rocket a blank expression. 

“I probably won’t Rocket, but I’m sure there’s some bounty out there waiting for ya.” Rising to my feet I stand back beside Bucky, resting against his chest as they begin to walk off. “You better visit!” I yell as they walk away, and Peter reaches into his pocket and places something in my hand, once again. 

“You better listen to this one, it’s called a zoom.” He smiles brightly as I see a small device in my hand. “It’s got all the classics, you’ll love it.” 

Closing my hand I slip it into my pocket. “I’ll make sure I’ve listened to them all before I see you again.” 

Peter turns around, heading back. “If I’m not an uncle next time I see ya I’ll be pissed.” 

I laugh lightly, looking to Bucky who squeezes my side lightly. “We’ll be okay, won’t we?” I question and he pulls a questionable face. 

“Course we will, doll.” He leans down, kissing me softly. “I’ll always be by your side. Til the end.” 

taglist for this series (thank you for the endless support)

@iheartsebastianstan @vgirl10123 @just-a-littlebit-of-everything@hour-to-hourglass @caitsymichelle13 @londonalozzy

[eyebeastposts]

Preferences/Patreon Survey Results

I want to thank you all for voicing your opinions. Rather than give detailed breakdowns of everything, I’ll be grouping each section into either a major yes, major no, or if said category was practically even.

Expansions

Yes-Weight Gain, Breast, Butt, Slob

No-Belly, Muscle Growth, Giant/Giantess Growth, Berry/Fruit Expansion, Both forms of Genital Expansion

Even-Inflation, Pregnancy

-Surprised that belly and berry were on the no list considering how often I’ve written about it.

Transformations

Yes-Male to Female Transformation,

No-Himbofication, Clown TF, Age Progression, Full Animal TF, Humanoid Inanimate Object TF, Non-humanoid Inanimate Object TF, Female to Male Transformation, Buttface TF, Fuck Plant/Succ Plant TF, Dorse TF

Even-Bimbofication, Nerd TF, Shortstack TF, Anthro Animal TF

-Out of all the categories, the only one that could get a definite positive response was MtF TF. Didn’t realize how divisive transformations can be.

I want to thank everyone who gave their feedback on this. Keep in mind, even if something isn’t highly favored, doesn’t mean I wont write about it. I might make this survey an annual thing to continuously gauge my audience as it grows and I try out new things.

Now let’s address a few expansions and transformations that you suggested I missed.

IQ Loss: Do a lot of it already and it’s more of a side effect rather than a main focus of a story.

Vagina mouths: A little weird, but not off the table.

Multi-breast: Definitely something I’ll do if the story calls for it, especially with certain animals.

Age Regression: Absolutely not. Gets way too close to that iffy territory for me.

Deflation: Considering most of the things I write are about things getting bigger, I can’t say this one has really piqued my interest.

Cultural/Racial/Social TF: The social status changes I’m all for, but making a fetish story about someone’s race changing is something I’d rather not touch with 10-foot pole.

Lip Expansion: Can sometimes be attributed to the Bimbo TF and I don’t think it would be enough to make up entire, full-length story on it’s own.

Hourglass Expansion: An excellent suggestion, which I have done in the past and seems relatively popular.

Stronfat: Double-edged sword on this one. Yes, strong fat is fun to write about, but it’s usually people’s work around for when ever I want to do pure muscle growth.

Merging: Not a big fan to be honest.

Canon TF (One character turning into another character): Highly situational.

Big Baby TF: Depends a lot on the situation, but is almost always no since it usually entails scat or piss, a.k.a. stuff I don’t have any desire to write about.

Robot TF: I like working with soft bodies over metal, considering the former lends itself to natural growth of various types. That being said, I’m not against using a little robot TF here and there.

Shrinking: Been trying for a while to figure out a good opportunity to mix this with a weight gain thing. As for vanilla shrinking, it’s not really a major interest for me outside of certain scenarios.

Patreon Stuff

My own fault for offering the answer “depends on the rewards”, but it’s to be expected that was the most popular response. As for the rewards themselves:

1. Early access to stories-55

2. Patreon Polls-50

3. Previews of stories I’m working on and Weekly writing prompt request drawings-47

4. Discounts on commissions-44

5. Discord server access/privileges- 27

6. Patreon exclusive stories-24

Again, I want to thank everyone who gave their opinion. Still haven’t set in stone the Patreon stuff, but I’ll definitely be considering this information if I choose to pursue it in the future.

Miscellaneous Comments/Questions

“Please less body hair stuff (Or more slob stuff without it).”

-That all depends on the story itself. My own personal use depends on what I’m feeling for that particular story. As for commissions, that’s based on the preferences of the commissioner.

“Just please don't make commissions patron-exclusive. So many writers do that. ): “

-If I do open a Patreon, I don’t intend to make anything exclusive to the platform. At worst, I’ll just put up stories a day or two early for Patreon supporters before releasing it publicly.

-Special thank you to the people who gave general words of encouragement or advice when it came to a Patreon.

Now for something a little less savory. I received the following suggestion over the course of the survey over TEN TIMES:

“robotization (robot/machine tf), monster tf, alien tf, costume theme tfs, perception tf/reality warping, transformation through time travel, brutification (brute tf), Upside down tf, possession tfs, toon tf, devolution tf, twinning (clone tf), weird conjoinment and cock conjoinment, molded tf (a living person's body is molded into a different form), mascot tf “

Considering the low probability this same suggestion, along with matching poll votes, were from 10 different people, that means a certain someone tried to discredit the voting. I deleted all but one of the above answers to retain some of the credibility of the survey. This survey was meant to be a fun way to gauge audience interest, but instead it’s making me question the credibility of both this survey and all the others I’ve done via this method. Might have to try something else should I attempt a mass survey in the future.

[orsino-the-enchanter]

THE POSITIVE & NEGATIVE; Mun & Muse - Meme.

fill out & repost ♥ This meme definitely favors canons more, but I hope OC’s still can make it somehow work with their own lore, and lil’ fandom of friends & mutuals. Multi-Muses pick the muse you are the most invested in atm.

My muse is:   canon / oc / au / canon-divergent (the mere existence of a post-canon verse is diverging from canon)/ fandomless / complicated

Is your character popular in the fandom? YES / NO. It depends on what you mean as popular. Whoever has ever played DA2 knows Orsino because he’s important to the plot (especially in act 3) but the opinions on him are conflicted. like they are on any morally gray character. Still, he is a side character who has like 5 scenes in the entire game, so I believe he’s not getting the attention he deserves.

Is your character considered hot™ in the fandom?  YES / NO / IDK. Orsino certainly is not everyone’s cup of tea, I can say that much. Physical appearance-wise he is very attractive for what he is: a stressed/depressed middle-aged DA2 elf who has seen SomeShit™ in his life. He has aged way more graceful than what he could have, but still, he is in his late 40s/early 50s, which can be a deterrent factor to some; also, the elves in this game have distinctive inhuman-like features that people either love or hate. Personally, I think that there is harmony and beauty in his features, which makes him weirdly pretty to look at and i love the fact that they gave him an hourglass body shape. However, Orsino’s true beauty lies in his personality and his calm, collected, polite demeanor. His voice is another huge bonus.

Is your character considered strong in the fandom?  YES / NO / IDK. I mean... he’s a First Enchanter who keeps his knowledge on blood magic and necromancy a secret, there are hints that he’s a somniari mage throughout the game, he has some very badass scenes where he kicks the asses of bigger/stronger opponents than himself when he’s outnumbered AND he has one of the 2 boss battles in the finale of the game. There is no doubt that he is a force to be reckoned with in battle.

Are they underrated? YES / NO / IDK. I think he’s criminally underrated not just by the fandom, but even  the creators of the game, who gave him no backstory, only a handful of scenes and butchered his character just to add another boss battle.

Were they relevant for the main story?  YES / NO. Meeting him along with Knight Commander Meredith and Viscount Dumar earns you an achievement (the “friends in high places” one). He is one of the main antagonists in the third and most crucial part of the game and you can either choose to side with him or oppose him.

Were they relevant for the main character? YES / NO / THEY’RE THE PROTAG. Lots of elements in the storyline depend on the protagonist’s political views on what’s going on in Kirkwall, and since Orsino is a prominent political figure, he is relevant to the protagonist’s views. He can be either an ally or an opponent, depending to what the protagonist’s views are. Also, he had been involved to the protagonist’s tragic loss of their mother -albeit indirectly-, since he was an informant of the murderer.

Are they widely known in their world? YES / NO. He’s a controversial but VERY well-known public figure, to the point where he can be recognized in the streets -even if people have never seen him before, they can recognize the staff he carries, his distinctive robes and the fact that he’s an elf (an elven first enchanter is news in itself, so he doesn’t go by unnoticed). The protagonist has heard of him -along with rumors and gossip surrounding him- before he had the chance to meet him in person. He has such influence and people skills that he even carried out a rally to overturn the Knight Commander’s rule of the city and almost succeeded.

How’s their reputation?  GOOD / BAD / NEUTRAL. Depends on who you ask. Mage sympathizers see him as a brave advocate of his people’s rights who wouldn’t hesitate to put his life on the stake for them. The common folk and the city authorities see him as a potentially dangerous troublemaker and rebel.

How strictly do you follow canon? — I try to follow canon mostly in my canon verse, while taking some artistic liberties due to the lack of a concise backstory. In post-canon verses and au’s, I have taken all the insights on Orsino’s personality, views and way of thinking and I have adapted them to fit each verse’s context.

SELL YOUR MUSE! Aka try to list everything, which makes your muse interesting in your opinion to make them spicy for your mutuals.  —  For him ‘mage’ is not just a term describing his abilities, it is also a term describing his personality as a whole. He has that elegance, cultivation and mystical charm about him; he is morally grey yet charismatic; witty yet cunning and certainly not one to be toyed with. Despite the exterior of a powerful yet restrained scholar he maintains , however, there are many layers to him and each is darker than the last. He can be both the erudite conversation partner you’d like to have an existential conversation with over a glass of good wine, a trusted advisor you’d confide your problems to and a force to be reckoned with who would obliterate you or your enemies in battle, depending on the situation. Still, the First Enchanter has some very vulnerable sides too, but he tries to keep them to himself.

Now the OPPOSITE, list everything why your muse could not be so interesting (even if you may not agree, what does the fandom perhaps think?).  — In the main verse he’s a minor character; with not as much involvement in the protagonist’s life as other characters (such as the companions). He’s also kind of secluded and not in touch with whatever happens in real life -not just because he lives in the Circle, but because he has been institutionalized, like any other person who has been brought there from a very young age. Also, there is the age gap which can make him a bit harder to reach than someone younger.

What inspired you to rp your muse?  —  When I played DA2 for the first time, Orsino piqued my interest because he was the very definition of a tragic figure.  He was the only voice of reason in the madhouse that is Kirkwall; yet he was fighting alone for a just cause that was doomed. He had the whole city and the authorities against him; still, he did not give up trying to protect his people; and he did his best to refrain from violence until the bitter end. His death -a suicide, no matter how you cut it- was equally tragic as the life he led; it was seeing the bringer of hope for mages losing all hope himself and deciding to go fighting and not on his knees. That, combined with his sarcasm and sophistication convinced me that I had to do justice to this poor underappreciated soul and dig deeper into his character -even try to write an alternative ending for him. Hence, this blog was created.

What keeps your inspiration going?  —  My amazing roleplay partners with all the good work they put into their characters and the love they have shown me and my character so far. I love you guys <3

Some more personal questions for the mun.

Give your mutuals some insight about the way you are in some matters, which could lead them to get more comfortable with you or perhaps not.

Do you think you give your character justice?  YES / NO / I SINCERELY HOPE I DO? i have my doubts sometimes, but i think i do ok. Still, I would love to have more feedback to see how i can improve even more.

Do you frequently write headcanons?  YES / NO / SORT OF Headcanons, metas, the works.

Do you sometimes write drabbles? YES / NO. I am not sure what is meant by ‘drabbles’ but sure, I’d love to write more of those.

Do you think a lot about your Muse during the day? YES / NO. All the time, especially before going to bed. That is where all those rp ideas come from.

Are you confident in your portrayal? YES / NO / SORT OF? Again, i don’t really get much feedback, so i am not that sure if I am doing any good and if my Orsino sounds genuine

Are you confident in your writing?  YES / NO / SOMETIMES. I like how i have written some threads more than others, I’m not gonna lie.

Are you a sensitive person?  YES / NO / SORTA. I am a sensitive person in general, but not someone whose feelings are easily hurt/triggered or someone who takes things that are not my business to heart.

Do you accept criticism well about your portrayal?  —  Criticism is welcome only when it is constructive; in the sense that there are clearly stated arguments as to what I do not do right and suggestions on how to improve. If someone sends me an ask like “i don’t like x just because” or anon hate, I am just going to ignore it.

Do you like questions, which help you explore your character?  — YES!!! YESS!!! YESS!!!!!!! I cannot stress enough how helpful it is for me to receive suggestions and questions that help me explore sides of my character i have not thought about so far! Even if your questions are the randomest things ever, i’d still LOVE to answer them. I have received some asks like “what would Orsino do in x situation” in the past and they were SO fun to write!

If someone disagrees to a headcanon of yours, do you want to know why?  —  Of course! As I said, so far the opinion is supported beyond the ‘just because’, I will be happy to consider it. Anything that helps me broaden my perspective is welcome.

If someone disagrees with your portrayal, how would you take it?  —  same as the above.

If someone really hates your character, how do you take it?  — I do not really mind; i am the first person to recognize that Orsino is a controversial figure and people may hate him for whatever reason. I might not agree with the hate, but each to their own I suppose.

Are you okay with people pointing out your grammatical errors?  — If they do not do it in the typical ‘grammar nazi’ style i’m chill with it. Grammatical errors tend to happen more often than not, just because i almost never proofread. *shrug*

Do you think you are easy going as a mun?   —  I think so, yes. As I said, I am not easily annoyed, triggered or have my feelings hurt, and i am very excited to interact with new people. Still, i do recommend reading my verses/about/rules pages, if anything, to know what to expect from my portrayal and activity patterns.

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[shadow-princes01]

My OC

So, I can’t draw for shit so we are going to use our imagiation. I have never written an oc but there’s a first time for everything. Let’s start:

Her name is Nerea Flores, Nerea means “the one who commands the sea” in ancient greek. Her hero name is SIREN

Her quirk is called Empress and it’s not a normal quirk, it’s the spirit of an ancient godess, who was cursed to depend on human vessels. Everytime the vessel dies she reappears on a newborn she chooses. For a while before quirks became a thing she couldn’t use her powers around humanity, so she took over her vessels and lived in the sea, with the few other merpeople that still existed. Now that powers are accepted she coexists with her vessel and only takes over in extreme situations.

Empresses powers are: controlling water in any form, tansforming into a mermaid (but not the preety ones, her whole body grows scales, her hair disapears, she’s almost grey in terms of colour and her eyes are like a shark’s, her teeth become very sharp and gills apear on her neck), and she can also communicate and command sea creatures to do whatever she want’s. She can swim very fast, knows how to orient herself and use currents to her advantage.

Shes 19, but depending on the story I will change her age.

She’s bisexual and demi.

She has black long straight hair with a few white hairs that appeard when her quirk maniffested, she’s very pale and has freckles all over her body. Her eyes are a mix of colours but mostly green. She’s 1,68 cm tall and weighs around 55 kg, she has kind of an hourglass figure, but her boobs and ass ain’t big, they are there, but she’s not a D cup, more like a B (I feel weird describing boobs like this but I don’t really know how to do it). When you see her you can tell she’s thin, not much muscle there, but is very strong, which usually confuses people. 

She’s usually dressed in black, wearing chains and chokers, flanel shirts and leather jackets (very much into the e-girls aesthetic because I was an emo-punk bitch in my early teenage years and I haven’t really changed that much) but sometimes she’ll do a 180º and go full dark academia for a week or cottage core. Can’t stick to one aesthetic, you can imagine the confused looks she get’s when she decides to wear a dress one day after having scared little children with her make up the day before.

Personality wise she’s a bit of a mess, but people don’t usually see it. She has very strong morals and is not afraid to voice her opinions, but she will cry if you yell at her. She’s a bit agressive at times and will fight a bitch, but only if necessary (Avatar Kioshy vibes). She’s very caring by nature and wil do ANYTHING for her loved ones, but usually they don’t have the same energy with her. People have ususally told her thet she’s too much, too loud, too opinionated, too anoying, which caused her some self-confidence issues. She’s very passionate about what she likes, but has episodes of apathy were she won’t even get out of bed. Her humour is based in self-deprecating jokes and some dark themes (that don’t mean racism, sexism, homophobia or transphobia, that’s not humour that’s being an asshole). She holds grudges for a very long time, years even, if you mess with her she will remember. Very much touch starved, if you hug her there’s a big possibility she’ll catch feelings. Her love language are phisical contact and quality time, sometimes words of affirmation work too but she usually prefers actions over words, because people lie all the time. 

Likes: music (goes from rock to celtic music, then from opera to reggeton, no in between), singing (she does it all the time), dancing (not very good at it but it’s fun), whatching anime or other TV shows (specially the crime ones like CSI or fantasy). Her favourite movie is Mulan, because it was the first time she saw a woman with a sword commanding people and decided that she wanted to be like her when she grew up. She spent her early teenage years devouring books, now she can’t even read two sencences, but still says she likes to read. She really likes swimming, not just because of her quirk, but because she was born on an island, water has always been an important part of her life. She really likes cooking, specially sweets. She also likes photography and making short films. Loves tatoos, piercings, dyeing her hair... 

Dislikes: Horror movies, liers, people who think they are better than others based on their tastes (I’m looking at you independent music boys), people who interrupt her, mensplaining, any type of discrimination, bullies, not being good at everything, bland food and uncomfortable silence.

Onto her backstory, she was born in Mallorca, Spain, and maniffested her quirk at the early age of 2. Her parents saw her fall into the sea and started panicking until they saw her gills and reallized she was perfectly fine. She was bullied in school for her quirk, one day when the other kids were showing their’s she transformed and they started calling her a monster since then. Even tho she didn’t have many friends she did whatever she couls to help those around her, helping clean the coasts from plastics and pollution, helping calm down sea creatures in animal treatment centers, helping when there were floods... Because of this she decided to become a hero, and was given the oportunity to study at UA in Japan. She didn’t want to leave her family behind, but it was a great oportunity so she ended up going. After graduating she became kind of an underground hero, because there were still people who feared her appearance when she transformed. But after saving an entire city from a tsunami provoked by a villan she became one of the most popular heroes in Japan.

These are all I’ve got for now, I think I’ll start writing the fanfic tomorrow. I have a few ideas and also love many characters from bnha so I might write different ships and change some things in each. If you don’t like shipping don’t read it. The first one will probably be ocxshinso, but I also want to write one with Hawks and one with Aizawa. We’ll see.

[rasoir-national]

@ghostplantss​  tea is such a fine luxury to have! i never know where to start with teas. which ones do you like? oolong is awful lovely i don't think i knew it was blue before

Oh boy, I am as glad you asked as you’re about to be sorry you did. I humbly present to you :

A GUIDE TO MOTHERFUCKING TEA

By Raz

A Very White European

Part I - Basics

Okay the great thing with tea is that you can take any of them and make them taste like crap. It’s like a superpower that everybody has. I’m not going to make a lecture out of this, but there are two basic rules to respect if you want to actually taste what you bought.

1) THE WATER MUST NOT BOIL !

Fun experiment : put a teabag in cold water. Nothing happens. You’ve wasted your time. Tea works because oxygen trapped in hot water opens up the leaf which frees odouring particles. But if you boil the water, then there’s almost no oxygen left. It will still sort of work, but it won’t even be close to the actual taste of the thing. If you’ve had a oopsie, just had a bit of cold water into the teapot.

2) Respect infusion times

I used to think I was too good for those. If you go over, it will still taste like tea, but most of the secondary flavours will be gone, and it will be much more bitter. You don’t have to buy fancy hourglasses like *some* people, but still respect the basic guidelines : 2 min max for white, 3 min for green, 4-5 min for oolongs, 5-6 min for black, 7-10 min for infusions.

That’s it. Contrary to most purists, I’m not opposed to teabags. Yes, loose tea tastes better, but you know, I’m on a budget too. Onto actual recommendations.

Part II - Brands

Look, I may lose my french citizenship over this, but I’m the most basic shopper when it comes to “gourmet” products. To me, there are only four wines (fruity red, bitter red, fruity white, sink-unclogger white) and three cheeses (gruyère, gooey and gross). Tea is the only thing I’m willing to spend money on, because really, if you don’t aim at least a little bit for quality, you might as well be drinking hot wet garbage. Do yourself a favour and stay away from Lipton, which is owned by Unilever - really, all you need to know.

The upside is that it really pays off to go to an actual tea shop and pick something you really like. Also, one of the rare socially accepted opportunities to go around sniffing everything like a goddamn pervert.

When it comes to luxury brands, I don’t know what will be available to you where you live ; personally, I’m most familiar with french brands, of course. My favourites are L’autre Thé, le Palais des Thés, Mariage Frères and Damann frères.

If you don’t want to spend objectively way too much money on loose leaves, there are plenty of middle-range brands : Kusmi Tea, Lov, Clipper. I’m personally not a fan of their blends but they’re perfectly fine.

And if that’s still too expensive, my advice is to look into green/fair-trade brands. In my own experience they have the best quality/price ratio. Also, the mysterious tea from the quote unquote “ethnic foods” aisle of the supermarket with google-translated info on the box ? The one you’ve never seen anybody buy ? It’s good, actually.

Part III - Actual recommendations

I tried to make a ranking of my favourite teas, but that quickly proved impossible, so instead I’m presenting these in increasing order of how insane you’d be to trust me and try them. I’m a stranger on the internet. Remember the PSAs.

0) Infusions !

This one doesn’t really count since it doesn’t actually have tea in it, but for that reason it’s a good entry point into hot beverage + taste. You have classics, like my personal fave apple&cinammon, and less so, like thyme, which feels like chugging a sunday roast. Also, contrary to popular belief, they’re not just for sleeping : I’m fairly convinced those pills they give US seal teams so they stay awake are just concentrated hibiscus infusions. It’s what I use when I do an all-nighter.

1) Perfumed green tea !

It’s light, usually fruity or flowery, and it’s great for everybody. I’m partial to Jasmine and Lily of the Valley, but you really can’t go wrong with green tea.

2) Green mint tea !

I’m putting this one separately, since it’s the only case in which I take sugar in my tea. I was lucky enough to have an Algerian friend who showed me how to make it : you take basic Chinese gunpowder tea, put it in water, then throw the water away to wash away the bitterness, pour again, then put fresh mint leaves in it, and then just a BUTTLOAD of sugar and you don’t stir. Then you pour it by doing the fancy trick with the teacup super high that my friend did perfectly and that I’ve never been able to reproduce.

3) Perfumed black tea !

We’re starting to get in the zone. You can basically make any flavour with those. Sweet, fruity, flowery, spicy, woody, musky... I personally prefer those last three categories, but there are all sorts of fun blends you can find. This is where we find Christmas teas, the best thing in the universe : they usually have a sweet/fruity base with spices (usually cinammon & cardamon). Since it’s the time of the year, I really encourage you to try those. They’re a good indicator of the sort of flavour you might like.

4) Oolong tea !

This is actually my favourite kind. It’s not usually blue, but it’s recognizable by its slightly burned taste, usually coupled with a secondary flavour like roasted chesnut, fried rice or hot milk. My favourites are from Taiwan (especially the Dong Ding) and Vietnam, but the Chinese ones are great too. I’d say it’s a good entry point into tea that mostly tastes like tea, it’s really easy to like and it goes great with any meal. It’s also quite good iced.

5) Rooibos !

This kind of tea has a fun rust colour and comes mostly from South Africa. Its base is very woody, with secondary flavours that are usually “exotic” fruits. It’s caffeine-free, and a good entry point into “harder” flavours.

6) Raw black tea !

This is where you find all the classic British breakfast types : Earl Grey, Ceylan, Darjeeling, Assam... I personally prefer the last one for its spicy taste. Ceylan and Darjeeling are a bit too bland in my opinion, but I do like a good bergamot Earl Grey. If you’re looking for something a bit stronger, I recommend Chinese varieties : Yunnan and Qimen are my favourite.

7) Smoked Chinese tea !

I’m putting this black one separately because I love it so much I could cry. There are a few different varieties, but you gotta try the Lapsang Souchong. It’s what it says on the tin : very smokey, very excellent.

8) Korean Maesil-cha !

I only tried this one recently. You know how I said green mint tea was the only sugary tea I drink ? This one does it one better by adding fucking plums and leaving the skin in the cup. It probably gave me diabetes, but it’s quite amazing.

9) White tea !

This is tea with minimal processing that is only left to infuse for a very short time, resulting in a strong grassy scent. I recommend working your way up to those, but they are of course excellent. I’m basic : my favourite is the Baihao Yinzhen.

10) Raw green tea !

The only reason I’m putting this so high on the insanity list is those freaking Japanese green teas. You know macha ? That thing every white person loves ? Well real macha is thick as hell, it has weird bubbles, sticks to the bowl and tastes like fish. I’m not kidding. I’ve been a vegetarian for 5 years and it gave me whiplash. It’s not my favourite thing in the world, but I’m gaining more of an appreciation of them. I fell in love with the Sencha Yabukita variety last year. Taste the sea.

* I should note, if you’re a vegetarian as well, a lot of those (as well as some black teas) did indeed involve animal products at some point in their making. This is personally the one exception I give myself in my diet, but do check your tea ingredients if that’s a problem for you.

11) Pu Erh !

Technically speaking, Pu Erh is tea that’s rotting in dirt. Now that that’s out of the way, let me tell you about Pu Erh, the best thing in the universe. It’s mossy, it’s heavy, it’s powerful, it costs 25€ for 100g. The one I own (Mariage frères’ Pu Erh Supreme) is more expensive than most of my clothes, but it’s really the kind of thing you have to try once. Plus, if you’re that high up the insanity scale and you still trust me, you owe it to yourself to see this to completion. Every single person I forced to try it hated it. It delights me. I’m not hardcore by any means, by the way, I just have very white friends. Also it looks like this :

So that’s my unnecessarily complicated recommendation list ! I know you probably didn’t want something that detailed, but talking about tea is one of the things that make me happiest in the world. Thanks for indulging me !

Also, if I didn’t make it sufficiently clear at this point, I’m very white and therefore open to any and all corrections/additions by someone who didn’t just fall into tea when they were 16 the same way white girls get way too much into hip-hop.

[sundara--karma]

Conversation with Sundara Karma

(Boys By Girls, 22 July 2019)

"You could say time is one of the worst measurements we could give to the passing of moments. Imagine if there was no idea of time, or if we measured it differently? Life would be very different. Your general outlook, your world view would change. All of it is governed by a sense of time". - Oscar

The last of the sand just slipped through to the bottom of the hourglass, hence my hour with Sundara Karma was up and in the past tense. 'Everything comes to an end', we say - time requires a beginning and an end to make sense so we rely on the past, present, and future to guide our perception of reality. In the past, I look forward to meeting the band, in the present, I connect with them, but here I am, in retrospect, reflecting on my time spent with Oscar, Dom, Haydn, and Ally.

Time is relative because we measure time in relation to a time that was or is to be. Sundara Karma's debut album Youth is Only Ever Fun in Retrospect and this year's follow-up Ulfilas' Alphabet both tackle the notion of time. With their debut, they surveyed youth from the present, but with Ulfilas' Alphabet, they sailed the borders of life, contemplating the span of a lifetime through the specs of time's finality: what would you have done differently?

As Wanda Martin captures the British band in frames to be remembered, the day we spent with Sundara Karma lives on in our vivid minds and in these words and images - it's the evidence of who we were back then. We asked many questions but as is, the universe has yet to return with any coherent answers. So, is time an illusion, and the safeguard of control? The band and I attempt to clear up some things in regards to the abstract nature of time whilst exploring the West's inherent fear of all things final. With additional knowledge tucked into our back pockets, we realise how little we actually know about the complexity of all this; everything.

Tick tock announces the clock with every second passing. Time creeps up on us as we close in on Sundara Karma's next performance 23rd August at Richfield Avenue in Reading, UK.

I would say this is sort of like the first day of school type question - but just a bit more advanced. Who are you?

Ally: My name is Ally and I'm no one. And there we go. Neeeext. Nobody and everybody.

Everyone: Hahaha.

Ally: I'm still trying to figure out who I am, so I can't tell you. Come back in a couple of years maybe, and I might be able to tell you. Dom: My name is Dom and I'm an alcoholic. No - my name is Dom and I like to see myself as a happy, positive person. I love painting and anything creative - any output that might have a positive effect on myself or other individuals. I love giving and helping others; I think I get a massive kick out of that. Being a good person is the aim, as good as I can.

Haydn: I'm Haydn and I'm a person. Most of the time I'm pretty miserable - except for when I'm around these people and my friends. I don't like most people in the world. Pretty grumpy.

You're making me nervous.

Oscar: He is a sweetheart.

Haydn: Yes, I am a sweetheart. I like long walks on the beach. I don't like the underground.

Ally: Tell me something about yourself: "I like long walks on the beach. And I don't like the underground". Haha.

Haydn: Hmm, I don't know what more to say about me. There is not a lot.

Ally: You're good at making doughnut mixes.

Haydn: I like cooking.

Dom: He is a great chef.

Haydn: I'm a great cook. I like food - that's one of my big things.

Oscar: This is such a first day of school question!

Ally: Imagine asking primary school students this - so mean haha!

Everyone: *fake crying*

Oscar: I'm Oscar and I suppose I'm a bit of a quiet person. I'm quite sensitive at times. Fuck it - that's probably it. I really like peanut butter.

Everyone: Hahaha.

Maybe this is an easier question. What do you like about each other?

Oscar: I'm not sure, thinking about it now.

Everyone: Hahaha.

Ally: Be careful mate. This is how friendships die haha.

Dom: This is like dangerous!

Oscar: I don't know what the word for this is but something like happy-go-lucky, easy-going for Ally; well-tempered and a real anchor. He is my rock. Dom I would say is sensitive, caring, and incredibly generous. Haydn is an absolute sweetheart, as I said before, and one of the funniest people I know. Probably the biggest heart here.

Haydn: Aww.

You're going to make me cry!

Oscar: Alright, now you do me.

Everyone: *dying of laughter*

Ally: I like that Haydn is always the life and soul of the party.

Oscar: Yeah, so true!

Ally: If you're lucky, you’ll be able to witness that. I like how Dom goes out of his way to do shit for myself and others - stuff that I wouldn't do because I'm lazy. Oscar, I like that if have something like a dream or anything - could be something quite practical - but you'll get it. Do you know what I mean? You'll try your very best. You decide that you've got something before you've even got it. I think that makes sense. Does that make sense?

Oscar: I think so.

Dom: Ally has always been a very good listener. He is always there if you find yourself in a bit of a pickle; he'll always be there to give his advice and opinion. Sometimes that's all you need. It's never as in "You should do it"; it's just sharing his side of it. It's always caring. Haydn has cooked me some of the best noodles of my life. Hands down. Great back rubs when we're sharing hotel rooms. When you feel like something is impossible and you don't know how to go about it, Oscar is always able to break it down and remind you that nothing is impossible - the only restrictions that you have are your own.

Ally: We should do this more often.

Dom: These guys are literally like family. I see Oscar as my mum, Haydn as my dad, and Ally as my sister.

Haydn: We've known each other longer than we've known our real families now. I'll start with you, Oscar. I like how wise you are; I've learnt a lot from you and will continue to learn a lot from you. You are a wiser, older brother in a sense for my juvenile mentality. I'm not that juvenile... I like Ally's juvenileness. I don't know, juvenility? Creating words here...

Love it! Boys by Girls is all about inventing new words.

Haydn: We become immature when we’re together. We bring out that side of each other, I think - we go back to our 13-year old selves.

Everyone: Yeah.

Haydn: And then we can turn it on and be serious sometimes. Rarely but sometimes.

I find that when I'm really good friends with people, it's kind of hard to concentrate. How do you get over that and get to work?

Haydn: We haven't yet...

Well, listening to your new album, it seems like you've got your shit together.

Oscar: We were able to record some shit, but yeah, that's not something I've thought about, to be honest. I just think it happens naturally when you're required to do something, so we haven't found that to be a problem.

Haydn: I like your strength as a person. You are a strong person who gets things done when you need them done. And physically strong as well. Strong like wood. And I'm also liking your new haircut.

Oscar: Aww, thank you.

I love listening to you complimenting each other.

Dom: We've never done that!

Haydn: Now you have to do the one where you ask what we want to change about each other...

Everyone: *dying of laughter*

Ally: That would be such a good interview prank!

Haydn: Like marriage counselling.

Oh dear.

Ally: You could literally break up bands just by interviewing them. Nooo, this is all lovely and everyone loves each other. Positive vibes. Like your album - there were some really positive vibes going on. Probably because of the pop-y sound to it, which I really enjoyed. Why did you choose to take that direction with it?

Oscar: I think it's the headspace thing. Where we were at in the lead up to recording the songs. Compared to the first one, I think there was a little bit more clarity, and with clarity, can come joy, sometimes. Not always. We wanted to explore the joy. We're quite playful as people, so I think we wanted to be a bit more truthful to that.

Definitely, I think that came across. I could feel that my whole body sort of wanted to engage while listening. How did you end up naming an album after a Greek bishop? I'm going to try to pronounce it haha: Ulfilas’ Alphabet.

Oscar: I think there is no particularly correct way to say it, we're kind of just winging it. I'm sure there are scholars out there that will know the exact pronunciation. We're not intellectuals... Haha. I think in terms of why we chose that name for the album was because of the two words aesthetically. They are very pleasing.

I think you're sort of like word geniuses. I love how you name things - just considering the name of your band, Sundara Karma. Original. What comes first when you approach a song, do you name it first or do you come up with the lyrics first?

Oscar: It really depends. Sometimes a song comes about from a name that I've written down because I really love it, and for others, I have to really dig deep to find a title. Sometimes it's easier, sometimes it's not.

Looking back at your debut album Youth is Only Fun in Retrospect, to compare the new one and this one. The new one felt more mature in terms of sound, you took it to a new level, there was a retro feel to it but also new and refreshing. What did you want to say with the album?

Oscar: I think it was just to appreciate life if there was any kind of message. It's not as if we had a slogan or something to measure this. It's a collection of lots of different sentiments concerning life and death. I was talking to a friend about it and he made an interesting observation about our first album. He said the old one had scenes of retrospect in the title or nostalgia or looking back at things but more so looking back on youth, but it feels like the new one is looking back but from being at the end of your life. With a lot of these songs, I was in the headspace of thinking about the supposed finality of life and how transient it can be. Not in a depressive way but more in terms of how much more you can do with your life, in an everyday sense - how precious it is. That lives through all of the songs in some sort of way.

I think it's quite interesting to tackle the theme of death; it's quite a scary topic to approach. 

Oscar: Especially for the West it is. We haven't done very well in educating ourselves on death.

I think most people find it very uncomfortable to talk about.

Oscar: Yeah, but it is guaranteed. It's one of the only things that is guaranteed.

What do you feel about death?

Oscar: It's very scary - but I don't think it has to be. It's scary because people don't talk about it enough. It's such a taboo thing.

Dom: It's the fear of the unknown, I guess.

Oscar: It ultimately doesn't matter as well. What matters the most is what you contribute whilst you're alive, not what happens after death.

It's a brave topic to approach, and I think you did it in a way which opens the conversation.

Oscar: I'm glad you picked up on that. I wish more people actually asked about it, to be honest with you. We've done a few interviews and no one has really brought it up.

It reminds me of Swedish filmmaker Ingmar Bergman and how he tackled the topic of death.

Oscar: That's amazing - very flattering.

I was looking at the pictures of you from BBG print issue 10 (which was back in 2016) and comparing that to now, and it’s clear that you’ve changed a lot. I feel like you’ve really come into yourselves. With your song The Changeover in mind, which discusses change and development. Looking at yourself in retrospect, how do you think you've changed over the last couple of years?

Oscar: My view, of let's say reality, is that it's an illusion to think about anything as permanent. Everything is changing from second to second. The person I was when I walked through the door - this is a little bit metaphysical - but I don't necessarily believe that is who I am right now. Also, in terms of mood - I go through about 12 different personality changes throughout the day, you know. It's a very hard thing for me to gauge - like how much has changed. But that's on a surface level. Maybe it's also kind of searching: I think we're all still figuring out who we are, and I don't know if that ever stops?

Ally: You're constantly learning. Every day you learn something new. It changes how you think about a certain thing. If someone thinks everything is right and perfect, they're not looking deep enough or opening their eyes wide enough to see what's around them.

Oscar: Or, they're 'woke' as fuck.

Ally: They're just so far ahead of us...

Haha. That's true. What are your thoughts on, say, time?

Ally: We were talking about this literally last night, didn't we? You're already dead if you think about it. Am I correct in thinking that no scientist knows why time moves forward? There is nothing in science that means it should move forward.

Dom: Time is just a measurement.

Oscar: Yeah, it's a man-made concept.

Dom: It's the measurement of everything of which we know. I had an interesting conversation with my friends the other day: what if in our wallets, rather than having money, you have time?

Ally: It's a film!

Dom: Yeah, I know it's a film.

Ally: It's Tim Burton right? I love that film.

Dom: Or, what if you wore a watch on your wrist that would tell you the amount of time you were given at birth. You look down and you see how much time you've got left. Would these people do certain things? Would you go to that meeting? Would you go to the beach? I think it's an interesting mindset to have. The time I'm using here, at the end of the day, I can't get it back.

Ally: Would you say yes if someone asked you: "Do you want to know the day you die?". It won't change if you know or you don't know. I would. Then you could start planning out your time.

Dom: I wouldn't. Hang on. What if you got told the day, but not the year?

Ally: Fuck, no! Every time it comes around... But I would honestly want to know - I think. I think...

Haydn: And if you could be made to forget it after? You could take it back.

Ally: There is no point then.

Oscar: I would have to disagree with you there. Let's agree to disagree.

Dom: Sorry, what was the question again?

Everyone: Hahaha.

Time haha!

Oscar: What do you think about time?

I think we use time because we need a sense of control. It's not something physical so it feels very abstract, sort of like: a minute has now gone by. When you've had a really good time with someone, but then time just flies by - it feels a bit sad somehow.

Oscar: I suppose so. You could say time is one of the worst measurements we could give to the passing of moments. Imagine if there was no idea of time, or if we measured it differently? Life would be very different. Your general outlook, your world view would change. All of it is governed by a sense of time.

Time can be a bit stressful.

Oscar: Time can be so stressful. It’s because there’s an end. The reason time is stressful is because we're told that at some point, it will end.

Haydn: It would be the worst time every being immortal. Never be allowed to die.

Dom: If you had the choice of when you leave, I guess.

Haydn: I would rather be able to die than live forever and ever and ever.

Dom: But then again... I guess it's because our lives are literally just a spec within what we know. What we see as the greatest thing - knowledge - we try to gather all this information to learn as much as possible: about the planet, about where we come from, about why we're here. I'm going way down a road here...

Such great answers. I think my favourite song from the album is Symbols of Joy & Eternity - because the rhythm, melody, and the lyrics are quite quirky and different. What is your personal favourite and why?

Dom: It changes. Sometimes I'll be playing a song live, and at that moment, that will be my favourite.

Oscar: A Song For My Future Self - I think that's my favourite. I don't know why. As I said earlier, there are some songs that you really need to fight through while others are just given to you, and that one was... I remember the exact place that I was when I wrote that song - and with the others, I can't remember. I was in Idyllwild, California. There are a lot of sentimental memories. I think that's the one I'm proudest about lyrically.

Cool. What's the writing process like?

Oscar: There are some songs that can take so long. Explore is a song I started writing long ago - this is going to sound like bullshit - but the early stage riffs I wrote when I was 15. I just had it saved for years, and I didn't take it anywhere - but then I looked at it again when I was 20, I think. There are some backs of tracks that I chip away at, that's how I prefer to do it rather than finish one then go on to the next one. I like to build on 20 songs at a time. Some leap forward and others are slow. It tends to be the music that leads the way first and then maybe if I'm writing some silly poems or an entry to a journal, they can fit in - but sometimes they overlap as well.

In the album reviews I’ve read, people are drawing comparisons to Bowie due to your voice Oscar. How does that feel?

Oscar: It's very flattering. I haven't got much to say on this, honestly. I think people are unaware of how conscious the decision to sound like Bowie was on this record. I think people may get confused... I think a lot of people think they are really clever making that observation.

Yeah, I feel people love to compare.

Oscar: Yes - but art is derivative of art at the end of the day.

When I went to see you play at Brixton Academy in April, I was amazed by the stage design and outfits. What was the idea behind this?

Oscar: Well, after making the record, we put ourselves in the position where we obviously had to perform it live - and we thought hard about how we could best present these songs in that kind of environment. We did a little warm-up show but we didn't really think it through too much. I think we played some of the new songs there, but we felt they weren't packaged in a cohesive enough way. I was introduced to Rob Sinclair who collaborated with David Byrne for his latest show, and he does the Kylie Minogue show. Rob introduced us to Jeffrey Bryant, a costume designer who has worked with Lady Gaga and Duran Duran. We didn't have that much money for the live show - a lot less than we were hoping for. We thought the best way we could make this visually stimulating and different from all the other shows was to use a little more fabric than light. A lot of references came from Tibetan theatre and kind of Tibetan architecture as well. And monochromatic lighting. There had to be a theatrical element to it - that's the short answer.

It was very cool! At BBG, we think it’s important to have active discussions around masculinity and gender identity - what are your thoughts on society's labels?

Oscar: Again, it's a control thing. You can understand things easier if you categorise them; label them. You feel a bit safer; calmer. It's pretty unnecessary. We've all been conditioned to do it, so it's a tough thing to get away from. I think we would probably be happier if we didn't feel the need to label things - and if there were fewer borders and boundaries, in terms of self-expression. That would be a good thing.

Do you think society is changing?

Oscar: I do and I don't. I think there are some pockets of society that are determined to not change, and the more different parts of society change, the more freaked out some people can get; the more aggressive they might get or dogmatic. It's easy for me to say. I live in a sort of bubble where it seems like it's changing. I think there has definitely been a lot of positive change, in terms of the mainstream picking up on acceptance of people's wants and needs; individuality; what's deemed okay and what's not deemed okay. The majority of that has come so far. It seems to be heading in a positive direction so I don't think it's going back on itself.

I feel like we always end up on the theme of control somehow. What kind of feelings or thoughts do you want people to leave with when listening to your music or going to a show?

Oscar: Lightheartedness. Not to take things so seriously. And to love yourself a little bit more. Love your friends and family. To appreciate all the good stuff - which is hard to do. It's hard to really have gratitude to all the amazing things that you have.

Where would you like to take your music next? Or, would say you're sort of comfortable with where you're at now?

Oscar: In all honesty, I've moved on from these songs already. It's weird. Once you record them, you just leave them. You have to live with them for a long time. But that's me personally...

Ally: They haven't gotten old for me yet!

Dom: I brush my teeth to it, to be honest.

Ally: I think I could finish 2019 still liking playing these songs live.

Dom: We as artists have had the songs for a longer amount of time than everybody else. We held the tracks for a bit longer. I'm still at the beginning of it. I never got bored of them while recording them, and now that we've come to touring and actually playing them to people, it gives a whole new life to them and I'm absolutely loving it. For me, I don't think it's going to get boring yet. And also this album is just a lot more honest in terms of us. That's why I think we enjoy it.

Haydn: Agreed. I could easily play new ones now, but it's not that I'm not enjoying this right now. We are very comfortable in where we are right now but the vision is always to move forward.

Ally and Dom: ... in time.

Ally: Forward to death.

Dom: We've done death, we're on the next one now.

Ally: We're all going to die. That's it. (x)

[thatyanderecritic]

Mystic Messenger

Title: Mystic Messenger

Media: Game. Maker: Cheritz

Yandere(s): Jumin Han, Yoosung Kim, Ray (Real name: Saeran Choi)

Yandere Scale (In order as shown above): 1/5, 3/5, 4/5

Criticism written by: Kai

Editor: Julie

The Review:

Hey there everyone! Kai here and I’m coming back with another yandere review. This time around, I’ll be reviewing the incredibly popular otome game, Mystic Messenger. It’s one of my favorite otome games out there and I’m highly opinionated about this game. Cheritz is known to include at least one yandere in their games; Mystic Messenger being no exception to that rule. For Mystic Messenger, they have a whopping three yanderes and I thankfully played all their routes on my free time for fun. Now let’s check out their yanderes, hm?

(I’m just going to assume that everyone knows the story but if you don’t, you can read the summary here)

Jumin Han:

I’ll be upfront for everyone here: Jumin is my least favorite route out of all the guys in the game. I found it to be boring, too overhyped by the fans, and Jumin’s personality to be rather lame. That being said, take some of my opinions with a grain of salt.

Now then, is Jumin a yandere? Eeeeeeh, I guess?

I describe Jumin as “baby’s first yandere”. He’s very lowkey about it and anything to suggest he is a yandere is so vague that it just went over my head. I found myself having to scrutinize everything he does and say with a goddamn microscope. Spoiler alert: if your readers have to try really hard to look for evidence that he’s a yandere, then he’s not a very good yandere. Instead, I found the other characters having to tell me that Jumin, is in fact, a yandere. Every single chatroom that have the other characters talk about Jumin in his route all go: “Oh!!! You better watch out!!! Jumin is super possessive and obsessive about you MC!!!” or “Oh man!!! Jumin gives me the creep vibes!!! There’s something unsettling about him!!!”  

I mean… I guess? Spoiler alert 2: If you have to have your side characters tell the MC that the male lead is a yandere (instead of just showing it), then he isn’t a good yandere. Like jesus Cheritz, what happened to you? You used to be pretty good in including yanderes in your games… Jumin is just… pathetic. It’s felt like they put up a bunch of neon signs around Jumin then forget to write him as a yandere. The only “yandere part” about Jumin was how he locked up the MC in his penthouse. But to be fair, the MC’s life was in danger and she willingly stays there. In fact, the whole “Locked up” part seemed rather half assed. Besides that, there wasn’t anything else about Jumin that makes him a yandere… well, besides the other characters telling me he is. Can you believe that Cheritz had the gall to compare Jumin to Jisoo from Dandelion (their other otome game)? That’s like comparing apples and oranges… just because they’re both fruits doesn’t make them the same thing.

Jumin’s route is so not worth to play if you’re hoping to “woo a yandere”. It’s honestly a waste of time and you’re better off googling Jumin’s bad end 2 CG if you want that yandere aesthetic. If you want to see some better yanderes, just check out the other two… Let’s talk about Yoosung.

Yoosung Kim:

It might come as a surprise by Yoosung was a far better and stronger yandere than Jumin. While the game was focusing so hard on portraying Jumin as a yandere, they never realize that they struck gold with Yoosung. Funny enough, I think the reason why Jumin was such a bad yandere was because cheritz concentrated on him so much that they fucked up and since they didn’t focus on Yoosung, that’s why he came out as a better yandere. But the only problem with Yoosung is that…

… He isn’t a yandere for you.

Yes, that’s right. Yoosung is a yandere but he is not a yandere for you. He is obsessed with his older cousin, Rika. Throughout his route, he won’t shut up about her. It’s “Rika this” and “Rika that”. Yoosung really tested my patients on how long I’ll stick to his route. Eventually though, Yoosung starts to the MC as his replacement for Rika. He sees Rika in the MC and start comparing the two… even thinking that they’re the same person. At some points, Yoosung really wants to turn MC into Rika. Yoosung likes you… but not THE you but the Rika version. Of course, for his good end he learns to differentiate between you two and learn how to love the MC as she is but it doesn’t change the fact that Yoosung was a yandere at certain points.

In the end, Yoosung is a yandere for his cousin. The only thing about him is A) he tries to end up with someone else by turning her into his cousin and B) he ends up loving someone else (the MC). Regardless on how you look at it, Yoosung broke our loyalty rule. I say go ahead and play his route if you want a yandere story and don’t mind being a cuck for 75% of his route. Yoosung got some pretty good yandere moments and bad endings.

Ray:

Oh my god. Ray was the best yandere I’ve seen throughout Cheritz’s games. He was damn near close to being the perfect yandere (well… my taste. But also he clicked off the ideal yandere check marks). Right off the bat, we see his clinginess to the MC, his mental instability, fear of losing the MC, and his jealousy to the other characters. He was such a sweetheart and to top it off he risked his life in saving the MC. Ray was *muah* the perfect recipe for an ideal yandere (my type). But unfortunately… Cheritz just had to ruin it.

Towards the middle Ray had a personality switch. Fearing that he wasn’t strong enough to protect the MC, Ray sort of… “killed” himself and created his alternative personality: edgy Saeran. I was absolutely heartbroken with Ray leaving for good and leaving behind that asshole. Immediately the new personality treated the MC sadistically. He starved her, spoke down to her, and was all round a piece of shit. BRING BACK MY BABY BOI CHERITZ, YOU FUCKING MONSTERS. COWARDS.

This was my last straw. I deleted Mystic Messengers right at that point and never opened it since. Ray was such a good yandere and they had to ruin it. Ray’s route is only good up to the point till his personality switch. After that it went down hill and he doesn’t even have any yandere bad endings. Fuck that.

Final thoughts:

Yoosung is the only route to play for completion if you want a yandere story. Ray was ideal but Cheritz ruined it and don’t even bother with Jumin’s route.

I have a love/hate relationship with Mystic Messenger. It was an interesting story and the concept was good in theory, but in the end the Cons out way the Pros. For one: the game is almost unplayable if you have a social life. The chatroom, phone calls, texts, and emails were a neat concept for interactive storytelling. But the issue lays in the fact you have to wait for these things to pop up. I don’t know about y’all but I have family, friends, a job, and school. Ain’t nobody got time to wait for that 2 PM phone call or that 1 AM chatroom. That’s fucking ridiculous. And don’t you tell me I can miss a couple of chatroom or phone calls. For one, it’s not like I’m missing one chatroom but multiple. I can have a pretty busy day and never have a chance to pick up my phone. Some of those chatrooms are pretty important if you want to get a good ending. There’s also the fact that I’m a completionist… I want to see ALL the content in the game. Not pick and choose what I have time for. And don’t bring up that it’s free or the hourglasses. I rather pay the game for the full price than do a microtransactions… and grinding for hourglasses is a bitch and you know it. I recalled I calculated how much it cause to complete all routes (The main cast. Not including V or Ray or the phone calls) by paying for all the missing chatroom or paying for the day… it was over $300 folks. $300 in microtransaction. Cheritz is fucking crazy. Thank god I fucking hacked this game.

There’s way more complaints about this game (like the emails. I’m tired of having three different walkthroughs up just to get through this god damn game) but I’m just talking about the main function for those interested in playing after read this review. Gameplay is really fucked and unfriendly for those with personal lives. Be ready to waste 7 days of your life to finish this game. All I’m say, Cheritz (even though I know they’re not reading), you guys should have two modes for Mystic Messenger: one where it’s like a standard otome game where the chatroom come one right after the other and you don’t get a penalty for missing chatrooms (the game actually pauses on where you stopped) for a flat rate price of what the entire game is worth… and then the free option where you play the game in the usual default state. That’s all I’m asking and it makes logical sense.

Anyways. That’s my gripe about the game and the yanderes. Play at your own discretion.

Overall Score: 7/10

(Side note: Honestly, I love the Mystic Messenger fandom but at the same time I wonder if we played the same game sometimes. The worst part is how some people won’t criticize Cheritz and their game. Like damn… some of y’all are more forgiving than Jesus Christ himself.)