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just a heads up, i'm gonna need to take a little step back from interacting so much in order to get ahold of my mental health. don't be alarmed, this isn't a goodbye post! i'll still be around, just a little less active. maybe you won't even notice the change. (who knows, maybe it'll even be a positive change with a higher frequency + quality of writings!) i need a bit of a cleanse from kinda the interactions/social part of this, but writing makes me happy so i'll still be doing that anyway. it's like i'm putting an insane amount of pressure on myself to talk a lot in this space instead of just write, and as a result that's making my already unmanageable anxiety (and other things) just skyrocket to heights i don't wish to test the limits of. maybe it'll be only a few days or longer, maybe i'll go back to chit chatting with yall loads eventually, i don't know. tldr: limiting chitchat, continuing writing. basically just had to make this for my own peace of mind. but yeahhh that's it, hope this makes sense and hope y'all understand :3
#feel free to keep reqs and thoughts coming though! just may take a bit longer for me to get to them#i have moments where i have the urge to delete everything but writing brings me joy so i dont think i could do that just yet...
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a distant dream (or was it, really?)
PAIRING: diluc x reader !!
GENRE: mindless, sappy fluff. mutual pining. listen, blame it on diluc okay heâs been living in my head rent freeâ
TW/CW: n/a.
A/N: no i donât like diluc *unlocks phone and accidentally reveals the thousands of diluc edits i have saved* do i look like i have a crush on him *drops notebook full of fanfic WIPs solely for him* thatâs stupid ahaha do i look like i would dream about him and then write a fic based off of that *discreetly deletes gallery folder full of my screencaps of diluc*
âExcuse me.â
The redhead gently prodded your shoulder, but you didnât respond. Or rather, you couldnât respondâ for you were soundly asleep, right on the bar counter of Angelâs Share. An untouched glass of ice-water lay just out of your reach, moisture already beginning to bead down the clear surface like raindrops on a window-pane.
Diluc sighed and slid into the seat next to yours, propping his arm on the countertop. âYou need to wake up. All the other customers have gone home and itâs closing time.â
Your eyelashes flutter once, twice, then returned to absolute stillness. The bizarre urge to gently prod your cheek with his finger crossed his mind, but he quickly nipped the thought in the bud; no matter how soft your face looked, it was ungentlemanly to disturb a person who was sleeping. Especially if that person was one whom he wished to courtâ
ââŚfive more minutes, âluc.â A voice murmured hazily, bringing him back to reality in the blink of an eye; for a brief moment, Diluc thinks that he wouldnât mind hearing you say that every morning for the rest of his life.
You frowned slightly in your sleep, fumbling blindly as you reached out to where you had heard his voice come from.
The crease in your brow disappeared as soon as your hand found its home in his, and you whispered, âJust⌠let me rest for five minutes, thenâŚâ Unable to finish, your eyes fluttered shut once more, lulled back into a peaceful rhythm of deep, steady breaths. After a long dayâs work, there was nothing (short of one of Kleeâs extra-large Jumpty-Dumpty bombs) that could wake you up now.
ââŚI did tell you to go ahead.â He said quietly, the sound of his voice echoing through the empty tavern. âYou shouldâve listened to me and gone home instead of waiting for me. Now weâre both stuck here.â
But then again, Diluc reflected as your fingers curl tightly around his palm, perhaps your reason of staying was the same reason he was savouring this moment right now. Perhaps, perhaps⌠could he really hope that you stayed simply because you enjoyed his presence as much as he did yours?
He dismissed the thought quickly; that was a question he would have to answer later. For now, the problem to solve would be the issue of how to get you home.
Gingerly, Diluc lifted your arm to drape it over his shoulders, bracing himself for the struggle of carrying a sleeping person without waking them. But to his surprise, your arms instinctively intertwined around his neck in a sleepy embrace, tightening ever so slightly as you curled closer to his chest.
He inhaled sharply; any closer, and you would feel the ever-quickening heartbeat that pounded against his ribcage. Surely, it wasnât loud enough to wake youâŚ
ââŚWarm.â You mumbled, and nudged your head into the crook of his neck (be still, fickle heart!). The dark circles under your eyes told him everythingâ you hadnât been sleeping well as of late, just as he had suspected.
âI canât sleep âcause I keep thinking of what I have to do,â You had complained only a couple of days ago, after getting chastised by Diluc about how sleeping late was bad for your health. âSo I just get up and work on those things instead, and only then I can sleep. But itâs fine, I promise! You wonât catch me dozing off at random places, no sir.â
A rueful smile curved upon Dilucâs lips; so much for that lofty statement of yours, then.
ââŚWhat am I going to do with you?â
#genshin impact#genshin impact imagines#genshin impact headcanons#genshin impact fluff#genshin impact x reader#genshin x you#diluc#diluc ragnvindr#diluc x reader#diluc ragnvindr x reader#diluc fluff#diluc ragnvindr fluff#diluc x you#diluc x gn reader#diluc x gender neutral reader#genshin x reader#genshin impact x gn reader#genshin x gn reader#aHAHA AAAA THIS IS PURELY SELF INDULGENT#IVE BEEN WORKING ON MY FINALS ALL DAY AND THIS IS MY REWARD#if you are childe or kaeya or diluc pls be my study buddy and motivate me to finish school thx#tellerluna.tales#tellerluna.rkive: genshin#btw yes this is based off of the dream i had the other day#it couldnt leave my mind ok
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Shall we dance?
The music keeps them together, even at a distance. A romantic moment for Jake and MC.
 Genre: Romance
 Doesn't contain any content +18
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After a long investigation, Jake finally told me that he could rest. I greatly appreciated it, putting the mobile aside listening to piano melodies.
 My mind can't stop thinking about Jake, would he be okay? I'm worried that he'll continue with the investigation or who knows what he'd be hacking without getting some rest⌠Okay, it's also because I feel like talking to him. I have become too dependent on his talks, where I like how I make him talk more about me and how happy he makes him.
 "Should I talk to him?" I bite my lip looking at my mobile âOr should I leave him alone?â
 Shyly, I pick up the item looking at the chat. I take a couple of deep breaths and write to him.
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Hey Jake Jake Excuse me, MC.
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 We speak at the same time. I can't help but smile, it seems that we have synchronized.
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 Jake I suppose we can call this synchronization. :) MC Hehe, yes
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 I cover my face with my phone, stifling a scream like a teenager. This couldn't be happening, right? Well, we had already talked closely... My heart is racing, I'm nervous. I have to calm down, I'm the one who has to make him nervous, not the other way around.
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 Jake Please, you first. MC I just wanted to talk to you, if you're not busy Jake I was doing a couple of jobs, but I couldn't concentrate. I wanted to continue talking to you.
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 I sit up in bed, picturing him blushing as he tells me. With Jake it is easy to know when something is embarrassing and surely it will have been as difficult for him to say something to me.
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 MC Am I so difficult to get out of your mind?
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 I dare to ask him, looking for a way to make him nervous. It takes time to answer. I guessed right. But I love it when he tells me, so I wait with soft music playing around the room.
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 Jake Actually, I prefer you to always be in my head. So I feel that you are by my side. MC There might be a way for you to feel closer to me Jake I can't help but be curious. Surprise me this time you, I'm always the one who shows you everything. MC Ok, wait a minute https://youtu.be/EaUQbQ2PL-4 Let's put this link together đ Jake Isn't it one of those joke links? I've seen quite a few posts related to that. MC Trust me, I'm not that much of a joker Well, sometimes⌠Jake And that's what I like about you. That you make me laugh. ;) MC Hey, here I am the one who must make you nervous, not the other way around Jake Make you nervous?
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 Is it too late to delete the message? I have written it without thinking. I don't want him to know that it was because of him that I felt butterflies in my stomach or the urge to shout how much I like it to everyone just because I needed to be able to say it. But I have to protect even my feelings from people, no one must know about Jake.
<<Someday I know that the situation may be different. >>
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 MC Let's not change the subject... Jake Haha, as you wish. :) MC Okay, at 3 we put it 1⌠Jake 2⌠MC 3! Jake 3.
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 I quickly rewind the video to bring it to the beginning.
The melody makes it seem to perfectly translate my feelings towards Jake. It seems like a happy melody, but slow. Just like our relationship when we talk about us.
 I close my eyes thinking that he is listening to the same thing that I am at this moment. Will he feel the same when listening to the melody?
I want to ask him, but I'm afraid to interrupt the music for him.
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 Jake It's nice. I'm glad I know what you like to listen to. MC Well, the melody has meaning for me Jake I understand. Somehow, listening to it makes me think of you. Is rare? MC NoâŚ. It is important for me to know. Because is also makes me think of you Jake I donât know if it was a good idea to hear this. It seems more like torture. MC What do you mean? Jake That I'm listening to this and that I can't invite you to dance.
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 My face burns, I'm sure I'm red. I swallow hard as my hands shake. It was not the first time that he said something nice to me, butâŚ. This time, imagining me dancing with Jake, itâs made me feel good.
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 MC I accept in advance that dance đ¤ Jake :) The bad thing would be that we couldn't go to a dance hall. MC Oh don't worry about that We could dance in my living room đ Or in your motel room Jake My room would be too small to dance. MC It is not a problem for me I would dance with you anywhere Jake But I warn you. I am very bad at dancing. MC I could teach you, there is not much to do either đ Jake Agree. Teach me. MC Is not difficult First you must take my right hand with your left hand Jake All right. MC Then place the other hand on my waist I would put my left hand on your shoulder Jake That easy? MC Yes I have danced enough Jake Any boyfriend? MC No Too many family weddings đ
Jake I understand. :) And then we move slowly, right? MC Yes, to the rhythm of the music
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 As I write the steps for him, I picture Jake and me in my living room.
He looked into my eyes with a smile, he would let out a small laugh surely embarrassed for not doing well. It would be beautiful...
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 Jake Should I watch the movement of my feet? MC Never, you must maintain eye contact with your partner Jake With you. MC Exactly đ Jake :) I don't have you in front of me and imagining that I'm looking at you already makes me nervous. MC I appreciate knowing that I can have that effect on you from a distance Jake You cause a lot of sensations, MC. All of them are too good. MC Now it's going to be you who makes me blush Jake ;) And now what to do, teacher? MC Just let yourself go I would surely end up resting my head on your shoulder, happy that we are like this Jake Your hair would tickle my neck. Your presence would make me more and more nervous. MC And I could feel it You know, I'm an expert at finding out đ Jake If it's you, I wouldn't mind. ;)
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 I laugh continuing to imagine what is written. I would have him too close... So close that...
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 Jake MC? MC Sorry, I was imagining the scenario... With you it's always imagining situations that I want to happen... Jake Iâm sorry. MC No, it doesn't bother me đ I think that's part of what keeps me going. Jake We are the same then. MC I guess so, hehe. Jake I have imagined something else. MC What? Jake I think that in the end I would calm down and dare to look you in the eyes. I would stop dancing for just a second so I could take a good look at them. MC Jake⌠That would make me nervous then... Jake You are much calmer than me. MC I'm serious In that situation, the only thing I could think of when you would kiss me I would like you to stop looking at me and dare to give it to me Because if not, I would be the one who dared. Jake I could ask you first. MC You don't need to ask me Jake Then maybe I should. MC You shouldâŚ
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 What is happening to me? Not that he was going to kiss me now⌠Now, the image of a sweet kiss appears in my mind. Jake would put a hand on the back of my neck, moving closer to me. I would turn a little, approaching timidly.
Ah⌠My face burnsâŚ
 I wait for his answer, will he say that he will kiss me? Will he write it?
 ââWhy is it taking so long?ââ I wonder, waiting for him to say something ââHe must have gotten nervousââ I smile to myself, amused.
 After a few minutes, he answers.
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 Jake I'm sorry, there's been a mishap. I have to go.
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 << There go my hopes and dreams. >>
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 MC Of course Please take care of yourself, okay? Jake Don't worry, I'll be careful. As always. ;) MC đ Jake And now I can have something to remind me of you while we can't talk. The music. And next time I will give you that kiss, I promise you.
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I look at the screen looking at his last message.
Blinking. One.
Two.
Three times.
Without knowing how, I scream so high-pitched that the neighbors next door yell at me, not realizing it was too loud. I take a screenshot, to record that he said it if it occurs to him to delete it out of embarrassment.
 I take the phone to my chest, hugging it tightly. One day we will dance together, without having to do it on the phone. And then I will have his real kiss.
#duskwood#duskwood jake#duskwood mc#duskwood jake x mc#story#romance#everbyte game#everbyte studios#duskwood everbyte#everbyte
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Stress Relief : Hawk x reader
Request: Can you write a hawk smut? Maybe heâs stressed out about karate and you try and him relax (anon)
+ Hawk smut? (anon)
A/n: there is literally no plot lol. pure smut. its my first time writing smut to this extent, hoping its okay đ
also!! i just posted this on ao3 too, going to be uploading my works there too (click here)! should follow if you like because tumblr has a history of deleting my blogs đ
Words: 814
Warnings: smut! :)
  âOh my God,â Y/n whined. âThere are weeks until the tournament, take a break!â
Y/n fell on to her boyfriends bed, exasperated. Hawk rose from his place on the floor once his push up count reached fifty.
  âYou don't get it,â he complained equally as whiny as he towered over Y/n. âI switched dojos. I have something to prove now more than ever. If Kreese -â
Hooking a leg behind Hawk's knees and pushing, the words were swapped for a gasp after his knees hit the bed frame, causing him to topple over his girl.
  âForget Kreese,â Y/n soothed placing her hands on Hawk's neck, her thumbs caressing his jawline. Hawk became quiet, simply staring at the girl beneath him with wondrous blue eyes. Suddenly it was very easy to forget about everything else.
  The sudden tilt of her lips to a smile set off a spark within the mischievous side of Hawk. âYou...â Y/n crooned, âneed some stress relief.â
  And the spark ignited to a flame.
Within an instant Hawks lips were on hers, devouring. He could not find it within himself to be gentle; the pent up stress and aggression were boiling up as the tournament grew closer, leaving him a nervous wreck, ready to implode at any moment. Y/n knew, and she accepted. She returned his kisses with fervour, wrapping her legs around his hips. Hawk took this as an invitation to grind down.
  âHawk,â Y/n gasped, her back arching at the feeling that ran through her upon the friction. Hawk left her lips to kiss down her jaw to her neck, nipping and sucking, making sure he left his mark on her. The trail of warm kisses kept venturing lower until it reached the lowest part of Y/n's cleavage, prompting Hawk to run a hand under her flimsy tank top to grab at the swell of her breast. Wordlessly, Y/n arched her back to take off the material. Hawk looked down her body like an animal waiting to pounce on its prey.
Y/n's hands slipped up the front of Hawks t-shirt, caressing his abs momentarily before bringing her hands back to the hem of the shirt, urging him to do as she had. Hawk needed no further convincing; he rose to his knees above her, arms flexing as they pulled off his shirt from the back.
Y/n couldn't help but stare; as he had just finished working out his muscles were still tense, slightly damp with sweat... and he looked at her from above, a meaningful fire in his eyes.
Rising to her elbows, Y/n kissed the top of his abdomen down to his bellybutton, looking up at Hawk before kissing the bulge in his sweats.
  âY/n...â Hawk groaned. Y/n smiled and pulled down his sweats and boxers, exposing him. Holding on to their eye contact, Hawk brushed his fingers in Y/n's hair pulling it back to get a good view as she licked around his tip, sending a thrilling shiver through him. Hawk groaned â she knew it was a warning. He wasn't in a mood to play games. Undeterred, Y/n took him in to her mouth, the rythm dictated by his hold on her hair, motioning her they way he craved. Y/n could feel Hawks breath becoming shallow when he moved her away from him and pushed her shoulder so that she lied on the bed once more. Gripping at the waist of her shorts, Hawk pulled them off her in a swift motion, climbing between her legs and pushing in before Y/n could take it all in. Y/n gasped at the intrusion, fingers gripping at the hawk tattoo at his back, fingernails leaving red trails in their wake. Hawks thrusts were unforgiving, pounding Y/n deeper in to the mattress.
Hawk snapped out of his own pleasure to trail his hand down Y/n's abdomen to where she needed him most, playing with her clit and muffling her sounds in their kisses.
  âEli,â Y/n sighed, earning a particularly hard thrust from Hawk. âI'm close-â
Hawk nodded. âCum for me,â he commanded in his raspy voice. Y/n obliged.
Coming down from her own high, Y/n looked at the man above her. Hawk was staring deeply in to her eyes, his gaze intense as he continued thrusting.
  âYou're mine.â he claimed, caressing Y/n's cheek.
Y/n gave a nod. âI'm yours.â
Soon Hawks movements grew erratic, and with a last few thrusts he finished, unloading within her with a raspy grunt. Y/n held him to her as he lay on top of her, spent.
  Hawk rolled himself off of Y/n, exhaling as he turned his face to look at her, a content smile plastered on his lips. âThat was amazing,â he said, voice still shrouded in pleasure.
  âI just hope you got your mind off things for a while.â
Hawk grinned. âOff of what?â
#cobra kai#cobra kai imagine#eli moskowitz#eli moskowitz x reader#eli hawk moskowitz#eli moskowitz imagine#eli moskowitz/reader#hawk imagine#hawk cobra kai#cobra kai hawk#hawk x reader
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AEV Deleted scene(s) immediately following the events of chapter 21 + commentary
I fiddled with the idea of giving AEV minwon a long talk followed by a smutty ending, but I ultimately decided to scrap it. Their relationship is too complex to neatly tie up all the loose ends within a chapter, or even two. Attempting to do so would just needlessly drag out the fic; itâs really material for a sequel. Mingyu and Wonwoo have been apart for many years. During their separation, theyâve grown and changed as individuals, and they will need time to re-learn each other. There are many insecurities regarding age and experience to address, and they will have to reconcile who they were with who they have become. Thereâs a lot they need to unpack before they get back together and I donât want to write that lmao (ah⌠the real reason appears⌠itâs too much work and Iâm tired ;w; writing longfic is hard). Anyway, I think the end of chapter 21 was an appropriate place to close.
In the bonus below, they fall quickly in to bed together because I was being self-indulgent. But Iâm not really sure if it makes sense for them to pick up right where they left off and bang in the car. At the same time, theyâve never been able to keep their hands off each other, so⌠I dunno! If you like the idea of them fucking, you can accept it as canon. If you like the idea of them taking their time, talking things through, that works too.
I will leave it up to your imagination <:
What happens next...
They kiss! Right there, in public, where anyone could walk by and see them. Because it doesn't matter nowâthey're both adults. Mingyu is no longer his student, hasnât been for five years.
The kiss starts chaste at first: two people who have been separated for years, unsure of how they will fit together. Their mouths meet, Wonwoo's lower lip slotting between Mingyu's. For a brief moment, they part. And then they're kissing again, and each time, their kisses grow longer and deeper. Mingyu cups Wonwoo's neck in his palms, hands sliding back to tangle into short locks. A firm yet gentle grip tilts Wonwoo's head. Wonwoo moans, and it flips the switch on everything.Â
Mingyu's tongue delves into his mouth. His body awakens under Mingyu's touch, fire surging in his veins and arousal roiling between his legs. They're in public, but Wonwoo can't help himself: the first dribble of slick leaks free. He can tell the exact moment Mingyu catches scent of it. A growl rips through Mingyu's chest; Wonwoo can feel the vibrations of it.Â
They don't even make it as far as his apartment. Mingyu slides into the backseat of his car, Wonwoo slipping in after him. It's reminiscent of all those years they had sex in a Walmart parking lot. Except this time, Wonwoo is the one who initiates. He's the one who presses Mingyu against the angle of the seat and door. He makes himself at home between Mingyu's legs and kisses him with all the hunger and passion that he has tamped down for years.Â
Meanwhile, he's fumbling with Mingyu's belt. The heel of his palm bumps against Mingyu's straining erection. Finally, he works the belt free. Pops open the button. Yanks down the zipper. He jams his hand down the front of Mingyu's pants, both of them breaking the kiss to moan. The burning hot and solid heft of Mingyu's cock feels so good in his hands. It's even better in his mouth.Â
Wonwoo wastes no time closing his lips around the head of Mingyu's cock, moaning as the salty taste of precum bursts across his palate. He kisses and licks and slurps, drinking up the ambrosial liquid bubbling up at the slit. And then he swallows as much of Mingyu's cock as he can down his throat. Above him, Mingyu groans, hands flying to Wonwoo's hair and hips jerking. There's a thunk as his head falls back against the window. What Wonwoo can't fit into his mouth, he curls his fingers around. Sheathing his teeth, Wonwoo begins to bob his head up and down. Every time he rises, he swirls his tongue around the head of Mingyu's cock.Â
Mingyu is barely restrained energy beneath him: his stomach is taut as a drum. The muscles of his thighs flex and release and shake with tension. Mingyu plays with the short hairs at the nape of Wonwoo's neck, low murmurs of praise punctuated by groans when Wonwoo sucks and licks him just right.Â
Wonwoo is high with the knowledge that he is bringing his alpha this much pleasure. His head is blissfully empty of everything except for the sound of Mingyu's moans and the stretch of his mouth around Mingyu's cock.Â
"Fuck, I'm close," Mingyu grits out. Wonwoo responds by stuffing Mingyu's cock down his throat. Mingyu's hand on his hair tightens, keeping him in place. Tears spring to Wonwoo's eyes. Mingyu's shaft goes rigid on his tongue and then begins to pulse hot and thick spurts of come down his throat.Â
Wonwoo, moaning, swallows and swallows. There's so much of it. It spills out the corners of his mouth. Under his hands, Mingyu's hips spasm, and all of it is so hot that Wonwoo can't help himself. Without a single touch to his cock or hole, he begins to come, making a mess of his briefs. Wonwoo pulls off Mingyu's cock with a wet pop, cleans it up with laps of his tongue. Doesn't let a drop of come go to waste.Â
Mingyu groans. âGod, how are you this fucking perâ" He cuts himself off and hauls Wonwoo up by the collar and kisses him, hard.Â
They make it back to Wonwoo's apartment, the edge of their hunger slaked just enough to make the commute. Mingyu can't keep his hands off him. Kissing and mouthing at Wonwoo's neck and jawline and generally being very distracting, as Wonwoo fumbles for his keys. He's not in heat, but it sure as hell feels like it. At this point, his hole is so ready to be filled that it hurts. Slick drips down his inner thighs. Wonwoo wants to cry, he's so frustrated by his stupid door. Mingyu's making the task even harder by setting a proprietary on his ass, finger slipping between his asscheeks to rub at his clothed hole. Mingyu's grinding softly on him; Wonwoo can feel the hard ridge of Mingyu's erection on his hip.
Mingyu lays him down on bed and undresses him. Tugs down his trousers and finds out that Wonwoo has soiled his pants. "When did this happen, hm?"Â
Wonwoo, embarrassed, throws a forearm across his eyes. âWhile I was sucking you," he mumbles.Â
It isnât long before Mingyu is pumping three fingers in and out of Wonwoo's ass. His other hand plays carelessly with Wonwoo's cock.
Mingyu still knows exactly how to touch him, how to make him squirm. His hips swivel of their own accord, bearing down on the fingers inside him.Â
Wonwoo is lying on his stomach, a pillow beneath his hips, when Mingyu slides into him. Wonwoo reaches behind him to grab Mingyuâs ass, forcing him closer, urging him to go deeper.Â
"So good," Wonwoo moans, voice thick with pleasure. He needs to know: "Is it good for you too?" The words are stuttered, punched out of him with each thrust.
Mingyu drapes himself over Wonwoo's back, planting a forearm by his head so he doesn't completely smother Wonwoo beneath his weight, but Wonwoo wants to be smothered. Mingyu drops a kiss on his shoulder. "Yeah," Mingyu breathes. "S'good for me too. You feel so good."
Their first fuck is hard and fast and exactly what Wonwoo needs. Mingyu ends up hauling Wonwoo up onto his hands and knees to better pound him. He digs his fingers into Wonwooâs waist, pulling Wonwoo onto his cock every time he plunges inside.
It isnât until their next round that they slow down. Mingyu lies atop him like a heavy blanket, his groans and ragged breathing hot against Wonwooâs ear. He fucks Wonwoo with slow and deep rolls of the hips. Under him, Wonwoo has fallen apart into a moaning mess.Â
His whole world narrows down to the place where they are connected. He swears he can feel it, the pounding of Mingyuâs heart against his back, the way his own heart beats in resonance. He canât believe how good it feels to have Mingyu inside him, around him. Itâs overwhelming. Wonwooâs eyes go hot with tears. He buries his face into the sheets below. The next moan that leaves him almost sounds like a sob.Â
Mingyu stops moving. Nuzzles against the nape of Wonwooâs neck. âHey, are you okay?â
Wonwoo nods. Doesnât trust his voice.Â
âWonwoo?â Mingyu tries again.Â
Wonwoo exhales shakily. âIâm okay. Itâs just a lot. But in a good way.â
Mingyu hums an unconvinced noise.
âItâs good, I promise. Oh, godâplease donât stopâŚâÂ
Afterwards, they lie curled on their sides, pressed chest-to-back. Mingyuâs knot is lodged inside him.Â
âI swear,â Mingyu says, nuzzling his neck, âI just wanted to talk to you, but you are irresistible.â
Everyone can smell it on Wonwoo when he goes to work the next day: an alpha's claim. No one mentions it because as teachers, they are nothing if not tactful. But Wonwoo catches the subtle flaring of their nostrils as they detect a new scent on him. Some of the nosier teachers even watch him as he limps down the hallways, wrecked by Mingyu's knot.Â
They get their honeymoon. Mingyu fucks him over every available surface in his apartment: in the shower, over kitchen counters, up against a wall, over the back of a couch. Mingyu even holds Wonwoo suspended in the air as he fucks him, Wonwoo's legs wrapped around his waist. The position has Mingyu's cock reaching deep, and the display of alpha strength has an orgasm shaking out of Wonwoo within minutes.Â
But as amazing as the sex is, what Wonwoo loves the most is the aftermath: Mingyu holding him and kissing him softly. Wiping him down with a washcloth and then carrying him to the bathroom. Mingyu prepares for them a post-sex meal. Even feeds him.
They spend a lazy Sunday afternoon together. Wonwoo's belly is pleasantly full from the lunch Mingyu had made: soy-glazed pork belly and stir-fried vegetables on rice.Â
They're lounging on the couch, Wonwoo curled up against the arm of the sofa with a book in hand. Mingyu has fallen into a food coma and is using Wonwoo's lap as a pillow. Mingyu isn't even doing anythingâblissfully asleepâand he is still distracting. Wonwoo has read the same sentence in his novel twenty times.Â
With a sigh, he tucks a bookmark between the pages and lightly tosses the book onto the coffee table. He gazes at Mingyu, eyes following the straight slope of Mingyu's nose down to his lips. The years have been kind to Mingyu, turning him from a boyishly charming kid to a devastatingly handsome man. He is truly the alpha of Wonwoo's dreams, and Wonwoo thinks, with a thrill of excitement-fear-anticipation, that he might be able to fall in love with Mingyu, if he hasn't already.
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Can you write something where the shyest boys finally kiss their crush at a party in a human au. But then some other mischievous character catches it on camera. Then they try to show it to everyone to tease them? (Not really maliciously more playfully. More like a trickster.) Sorry, but I am a sucker for shy characters since I am shy myself.
So my shy boys in my human AU are Japan, Canada, Russia and England (I'd put Romano but he's just a lone wolf who tends to bite when he's disturbed. Metaphorically.)
A/N: I HIT ONE OF MY NOTIFICATION POP UPS AND IT FORCED ME OUT OF THE FIRST DRAFT! I had to redo Japan and Canada's scenerios â˘Ě J ,â˘Ě
Human AU: Shy Boys kiss their crush! On TAPE!?
Japan:
He wasn't really enjoying the party Alfred was throwing. The only reason he was there was over the fact he promised to record some footage for a homemade music video, and he knew his crush was going to be there.
At some point he found himself watching his crush as they danced away with their friends. Was it kind of creepy? Yes. Did Kiku realize this at the moment? No.
He just about jumped out of his skin as his crush made eye contact with him, and his heartbeat quickened as they started dancing towards him.
"Hey Kiku! I thought you didn't like parties?"
"H-hai! I do not usually partake in such events, but I promised Alfred I'd get footage for one of his YouTube videos..."
His crush's head tilted, not hearing him through the loud music and talking. Even with him shouting he wasn't loud enough. So naturally he had them follow him to the porch.
He could have sworn that every star in the night sky was reflecting in his crush's eyes as they were waiting for him to repeat his anwser.
"I have to admit to some urges that have been occuring..." (Not what he was hoping he'd say)
Kiku cringed at his wording, and cursed himself for cramming so many english classes in before he transferred to America. He only calmed back down after hearing his crush laugh and egg him on to continue.
"I... kisu si te ii desu ka?" (Can I kiss you?)
Even though he was rather nervous, he was pretty close with his crush. During their lunches they asked him to teach them japanese so they can help him with translations. Even after two years they still had trouble with it.
"... What about a kiss? oh! Did you kiss someone at the party!"
His face turned red, and he shook it rapidly.
"No! You!"
"What do I have to do with a kiss and you- Oh!"
Kiku covered his face as his crush slowly caught on to his question. Soon enough they had taken his hands away, and lightly pecked his lips.
Flash.
That looked like the flash of a camera. Sure enough Alfred and England were standing at the doorway, polaroid camera in hand. Al being his usual loud self.
"I saw you bring them out here and just KNEW something was going to happen! Didn't I tell you, you had it in you! Now the whole class must know of your bravery!"
By the time Alfred finished his speech, Kiku was already after him. Sadly he was no match for Al's speed due to tripping over everyone, and everything.
Canada:
It wasn't like he was exactly shy, but he didn't have many friends since not many people in his class had much in common with him. His only real friend was his crush, so of course he was terrified to ruin that friendship. Though the constant jokes the others at the party made didn't help, since most of it revolved around them dating.
He was also getting more and more frustrated with the amount of attention his crush was getting. Some of it they welcomed with open arms, some of it not so much. The thing that really annoyed him was seeing Alfred himself flirt with them.
This was the final straw that gave him the courage to walk up to him, and accuse him directly.
"Why are you flirting with my date?"
"Date? I thought you said they were just a friend?"
Mathew had turned his head towards his crush, and planted a light kiss on their lips.
"There. Now we are!"
Matt's face went pale as he realized the scene that was playing out got the attention of some party goers. Phones already recording in case a fight broke out. Leaving no possibly way to get everyone to delete those videos.
Not realizing his crush had a hold of his hand to prevent any conflict, he tugged them out the door, trying his best to shield his face.
Once outside they both sat on the stone slabs of the sidewalk. Matt's crush clearing their throat to help stop the akward moment.
"You know... If you wanted to kiss me, you should have just asked..."
"Oh maple leaf! I am so sorry! I didn't even know I had it in me!"
His crush shook their head, chuckling, then leaned in for another kiss.
"There. Now we're even."
All matt could do was repeat their words with a dreamy sigh.
"Now we're even..."
Russia:
Ivan was already pretty shy, but he really wanted to hangout with his crush. So he let them rope him into going to the party Francis was having. It was a small party, so it wasn't all bad. Other than no one wanting to talk to him due to his lack of English.
His crush was certainly doing plenty of talking through out the night though, and they eventually pulled him aside to ask him something.
"Hey, Ivan? You okay? You don't look like you're enjoying yourself much".
His crush knew to keep sentences as simple and short as possible since he struggled with English. But he still managed a good enough response.
"Da. I am... Not good at the parties. Not one person, speeches? To Ivan..."
His crush smiled, reaching up to playfully ruffle his hair, earning a small giggle.
"You mean to say 'no one speaks to me'. I'm sorry. It can be hard, da?"
He nodded at them. Giving a smile knowing his crush at least tries to conversate with him. But there was something else on his mind. The more they talked, the more he seemed to stare at their lips. He was struggling more and more with hiding his blush. Eventually his crush took it as a sign he was overheating and they dragged him to the bathroom to splash water to his face.
"It is too warm for a turtle neck and scarf! Your face is very warm!"
Ivan shook his head, face getting redder from the embarrassment.
"Nyet!"
His crush gave a look of confusion, and Ivan took this as a sign to try and explain.
"You do much of the talking. I... Do much of the seeing. Nyet. I do much of the-"
He gestured his gaze to his crush's lips, unable to convey his message and when it still didn't sink in for them, Ivan did the next best thing out of pure frustration.
He kissed them. It felt like forever, but it was cut too short as the sound of a gasp interrupted them. Breaking away he spotted Francis standing at the door that was left wide open. A phone with the light on, signalling it was recording them.
"Oh ho ho! This is quite the confession! A love that goes beyond language barriers is just as strong as love itself!"
Ivan couldn't seem to follow Francis' words, especially because he was more concerned with the phone footage.
"You take video for just us, da?"
Francis gave a smirk and took off without another word. Ivan wasn't dumb when it came to body language, and he took off after him. Taking no time at all to corner Francis, scaring everyone else as the two of them bickered over the phone.
"Throw out the phone!"
"I will do no such thing!
"I will throw you instead!"
It took his crush snagging the phone and deleting the video for everything to finally settle back down.
England:
He was kind of popular in the sense everyone knew him as the punk kid who could play the electric guitar. But so did others students so he wasn't exactly special. So yeah, he was wicked shy and insecure about how everyone viewed him.
But his crush seemed to treat him differently, and honestly? He was secretly hoping that meant they really liked him. Maybe even more than liked!
The best part is, he wasn't even expecting his crush to show up at some random person's party. He, himself, was only there to help a band entertain. But there they were, his crush, dancing and bopping along to the music.
He found himself making a lot of eye contact with them, and when the first break came around, he bounced off the makeshift stage. His crush immediately walking over to him to pester.
"That was amazing! I didn't know you played so well!"
Arthur pulled at his bangs.
"Thanks love. It means quite a lot coming from you. Especially because you didn't expect to see me here, of all places..."
"Actually I-"
Before they could continue, they were dragged off by some of their friends to be introduced to someone. He decided to follow, wanting to know what the fuss was about. And of course his crush's friends were trying to hook them up with... Francis...
He gave a verbal sigh, watching his crush shift uncomfortably as Francis did his best to act all suave. His crush looked back at him with pleading eyes. This gave him an idea.
He walked over, slinging an arm around their shoulder, speaking up and over their conversation.
"There you are darling! I've been searching the whole bloody house for you! Oh, hello Francis. I didn't see you there!"
Things got intense, and before anyone knew it, Francis and Arthur had gotten into a fist fight. There wasn't a particular winner, but Arthur certainly left the fight with the only bruised lip. Sitting at one of the spare couches, his crush tended to the bruise.
"I can't believe you did that! Are you nuts? Why do you two fight anyway!"
"I'm sorry love... It's just... He gets in the way is all".
"In the way of what? Some male pride?"
"...you"
Silence filled the space between them, only to be broken by the chaste and airy kiss from his crush.
"I didn't know..."
"Part of me didn't want you too..."
Neither of them knew someone had recorded them until the day they returned to the college. Someone had thought it was funny to make a "fancam" of Arthur "fighting for his loved one". The only words his new lover could mutter was:
"At least no one is going to have to ask us if we're together now..."
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The four times JJ almost said âI Love Youâ and the one time he finally did.
A/N: first fic on tumblr ayyy uh let me know what you think??
Warnings: uh some fighting n injuries, underage drinking and lots of pining. also probably just pure shit writing, this isnât proofread itâs deadass 2am i wrote this up randomly and really fast iâll probably just end up deleting it but anywho enjoy and be kind please bye
The first time:
It was a nice day, the weather warm and sunny, and what better way was there to spend it on the HMS Pogue with your best friends. The five of you spent your time in the marsh swimming and drinking the beverages that Kie had so graciously brought along.
It wasnât long before you all became pretty tired - or intoxicated - and sprawled around the HMS.
You laid next to JJ, your head in his lap as he lazily played with your hair while he and the others talked and teased one another. He looked down at you every so often, taking in your features while you just kept your eyes closed and bathed in the warmth of the summer, and the urge to say those three words grew bigger each time.
But, instead, he just brushed it off and laughed at whatever joke John B had said, though in reality all he could think about was the day heâd finally get to say what heâs been longing to for years.
The second time:
The party was in full swing, filled with a numerous amount of kooks, pogues and tourons, but all he could focus on was you. Kie had drunkenly begged to dance with her and you being you, couldnât refuse the offer. He watched as Kie squealed and dragged you by your arm, smiling to himself as he watched you clumsily trip, but soon you were dancing confidently to the beat of the song, lost in your own little world.
His eyes didnât leave you for a second as he watched you move, your eyes soon catching his and you smiled that beautiful smile of yours, beckoning him over to you. At first JJ just shook his head playfully and stayed standing where he was, but once you pulled the puppy dog eyes and pouted your lips, he couldnât resist.
And before he even realized, he was twirling you around to the music, blind to the world around him as he focused on nothing but you and the way you looked so effortlessly beautiful and carefree.
He swore to himself in that moment that heâd never loved someone as much as you, but as much as he wanted to say it, he couldnât bring himself to.
One day, he told himself. But not today.
The third time:
The whole gang was hanging out at the Chateau. The weather was a little more on the cloudy side that day, but it didnât stop you guys from having fun. Especially you and JJ, who you were currently running away from. âOh I am so gonna get you!â He yelled, his whole body soaking wet from the bottle of water you dumped on him seconds prior. You squealed as you ran, JJ not far behind.
It wasnât long before he caught up to you, which wasnât surprising considering he was taller than you. He tackled you, pinning you down on the ground and laughing as he did so. âSay youâre sorry!â He demanded in a mocking tone, ânever!â you chuckled along. JJ raised his brow, turning his head to John B and said âpass me a water bottle.â
Dread instantly filled your entire being as John B played along and grabbed the cold water bottle from the cooler. Your eyes went wide as he began to walk over, slowly stretching his arm out to pass the bottle to JJ, who was about to take it before you screamed out, âokay I surrender! Iâm sorry!â you apologized. JJ smirked, âapology accepted, princess.â He chuckled before getting off of you, pulling you up with him.
Him arm was around your waist and you shoved him off, flicking him your middle finger and walked over to Kie, not before playfully spitting out âI hate you!â
JJ bit his lip, deciding weather to retaliate by finally saying it, but instead he just scrunched his nose and said âI hate you most!â
Heâd get around to saying it one day.
The fourth time:
You couldnât believe you were actually here, but somehow Kie convinced you to be her guest at the Midsummers party, and who were you to leave a friend in need? Especially when Kie so desperately pleaded for you to go, not wanting to be alone with the Kooks for a whole night. Thus, bringing you to where you are now, sitting at a table with people you didnât know, drinking a drink that tasted like privilege and ignoring the glares from Rafe and his goons.
You were really starting to regret coming now, if not for the uncomfortable dress and the judgmental stares, it was because you were in distress over the whole situation with JJ that occurred the day prior, when Shoupe arrested him.
Your heart ached for the boy whilst your mind worried for him, wanting nothing more than to just have him here, safe with you by your side.
Little did you know, that silent little prayer was going to be answered just seconds later when said boy suddenly came crashing out of the house, being dragged by a security guard. He was rambling, making a scene and you laughed that angelic laugh he loved so much, which caused JJ to immediately find your smiling face in the crowd, which made him break out into a smile of his own. âY/N!â he cheered, winking at you. âCâmon, ladies, power hour at Rixons letâs go!â He beckoned for you to follow his lead, so you did.
You got out of your chair and bounced up to the boy, waisting no time in throwing your arms around him and hugging him so tight, afraid he mightâve disappeared from your arms if you didnât. Tears sprung in your eyes as you spoke in soft whispers, âI was so scared. I thought I was going to lose you, JJ.â you mumbled into his shoulder, causing his to squeeze you back even tighter. âThatâs never going to happen, princess.â he whispered. âYouâre never going to lose me, Iâll always be here.â JJ promised, over and over, saying he wasnât going anywhere.
And that was true, he wasnât. Because he still had to say those three little words, and until he finally gets the chance, thereâs no way in hell heâs letting you go.
The one time where he finally says it:
No one really knows how or why Rafe and Barry found you guys, but they did. And neither of them were happy. Barry didnât waste anytime in attacking JJ, making you and Kie scream. You tried to rush forward, stop Barry and help JJ, but Rafe was quick to grab you and throw you on the ground, delivering a painful kick straight to your stomach. You groaned out in pain, curling into yourself as you cradled your stomach.
That didnât stop your assaulter from continuing, Rafe repeating kick after kick as you laid on the floor, helpless and bloody. Pain surrounded your entire being now, and you could faintly hear yelling throughout the buzz of your ringing ears, but as to who was yelling and what they were saying was a complete mystery to you, but your guess was JJ.
He was the only thing that went through your mind before you blacked out entirely, the world fading to nothing...
When you finally came to, you saw JJ hovering over you, his face even more bruised up than before, and it was contorted into a look of pure concern, though he tried to mask it with a smile once he saw your eyes open up and a broken âJJâ left your lips. âHey, pretty girl.â JJ cooed, âdonât talk or move, alright? Just stay still baby and weâre gonna get you help as soon as possible, yeah? Yeah, youâre gonna be okay. Iâm gonna make sure of that, everythingâs gonna be alright. And Iâm gonna make sure that no one ever hurts you like this again, okay? Ever. I love you, you know that? So Iâm gonna do everything in my power to make sure that youâre alright.â
In the midst of his rambling, he didnât even realize what he said until you cut him off, âI love you too, JJ.â you whispered tiredly, smiling softly at him with all your strength. It was then that the realization of what he said sunk in, and what you said, and that the words heâd been dying to say and hear, had finally been said. JJ looked deeply into your bruising eyes, which he still found so beautiful even when purple and swollen, and thatâs when he knew, there would never be a love stronger than the one you two had.
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Hypothetically,
Ao3,  MasterPost
Relationships: Romantic Intrulogical, Platonic Logince
It is about! Damn! Time! That I wrote some Intrulogical! Also, yâall already know my stance on platonic logince,,,, guys they ARE best friends iâm sorry I donât make the rules.
Warnings: Angst (with a happy ending). mentions of stuff like autopsies and nuclear explosions in the context of like experiments- they do stuff in The Imagination, basically. Panic attack (?). Hurt/comfort. Pretty heated kissing; Itâs more intense makinâ out than I usually write but it isnât anything explicit at all, donât worry! ADHD Remus and Autistic Logan. Cursing- like So Much Cursing. Mentions of space, deep sea, etc. Food mention.
Word count: 6,769
There was a conundrum.Â
A., Logan needed to use the Imagination. B., He could not use it on his own, considering that he was Logic. C., Roman was nowhere to be found. The answer to what was frustrating Logan at that moment would be all of the above.
To be clear, he didnât like going into the Imagination. It was simply the only suitable place to perform his âexperimentsâ. His very necessary, very distracting experiments. But, as stated, Roman was God-knows-where doing God-knows-what.Â
Logan sighed at the door, as though it was the inanimate structureâs fault. The cracks gleamed obnoxiously bright, golden light pouring out from behind the door in a somewhat eerie manner. It was a nonsensical, unrealistic, completely insignificant place, and he wanted in.
Logan was contemplating asking Janus for help (lies took imagination, right?) when, out of nowhere, an arm was thrown around his shoulders. Literally an arm, disembodied and oozing sick-smelling blood onto the carpet. Ah. Wonderful.Â
âHello, Remus,â he pulled the appendage from around him, holding it at armâs length (no pun intended, dammit).Â
âHi!â Remus took his arm back and reattached it with a disturbing crunch, a grin stretching his face. He sidled up to Logan, imitating the sideâs stance in front of the door.Â
âCan I help you with something?â the logical trait tilted his shoulder away from where Remus had pressed against him.Â
âNot unless youâre willing to get really messy- but I can help you!â
âIâm afraid I donât know what youâre implying.â
The Duke rolled his eyes, promptly flinging the door to The Imagination open. An encompassing energy radiated into the common room, corrupting the usual neutrality of the space. It didn't last long before Remus grabbed Loganâs wrist and dragged him along through the entryway, movements as sporadic and fast-paced as everything else about the creative.
âItâs not very logical to just stand there staring at the door all day, in my opinion. I dunno what you need Imagination for, but whatever it is, I can help! My half is much more interesting, anyway.â
âOh,â Logan blinked, narrowly ducking his head under a branch as he was pulled forward, âThank you, I suppose.â
He politely didnât mention that he doubted Remusâ capacity for helpfulness. Beggars canât be choosers, after all.Â
The door from the commons was quite a walk from the darker half of The Imagination, but at the pace its owner had them going they were there in minutes. The border was marked with tangles of densely thorned shrubbery, which parted for them, as if they sensed the approach. Logan just barely avoided snagging his shoe on one as they passed.
There was forest, twisted and shadowy, for only a minute. After that, they were in a city, with tall buildings and winding streets and dark alleys. Another switch, they came into what seemed like an amusement park. Nothing was consistent in theme, and none of the scenes held up for more than a minute or two. Remus shook his head and tisked. With a snap, a good portion of the ever-changing scenery was erased, leaving blank white space. The Duke turned to look at Logan with a satisfied smile.Â
âTa-da! What do you need?âÂ
Logan blanched for a moment, surprised at Remusâ willingness to completely delete Imaginings without a second thought. It usually took Roman ages to find a spot that he was okay with giving up on for Loganâs âprojectsâ- which he always had thought was a little silly, seeing as he could bring it back when they were done. The change of pace was a pleasant one, though, so there was no need to dawdle for long.Â
âI need a miniature fully-functioning model of our solar system. If itâs not too much trouble.â
âOh, totally,â Remus waved his hand and the request appeared suspended in the air, spread out to be the size of a dining table. All was accounted for- sun, moons, eight planets plus pluto- orbiting and spinning around each other. Imagination, by nature, had no real limits, but the detail was still a sight to behold every time. Logic smiled, surveying the set-up, before gesturing to the edge of their blank section.
âThank you for the help, you may go.â
âMay I now?â Remus conjured a seat for himself, staring at Logan with his chin resting on his hands, âYouâre not even going to tell me what this is for? Thatâs just rude.â
Logan glanced up from the tiny earth he was inspecting, tilting his head to the side in confusion.
âYou are welcome to stay, if you wish, but your brother usually leaves at this point. He says my experiments are-â he summons his notebook, ââBore-ifyingâ, which I assume is a portmanteau for âboringâ and âhorrifyingâ.âÂ
âRomanâs a big baby!â
Logan shrugged, not disagreeing, and resumed his careful observation of the tiny model earth. Remus made no move to go, wheeling his chair even closer. The scientific side carried on before his new audience of one, hovering a hand over the little planet. Abruptly, it stopped spinning. Logan made a gesture with his hand that magnified the model significantly.Â
The results were immediately catastrophic. Logan jotted a few observations down in his notebook, watching closely at the ways torrents of wind ripped up trees and buildings. In the back of his mind, he was faintly impressed by just how well-rendered âDarkâ Creativityâs earth was, down to the individual humans, brutalized by the storms.Â
âWhoah, what the fuck?!âÂ
Logan looked up briefly to see Remus craning his head over the destruction of the stilled planet. His eyes were wide and bright with curiosity.
âOh- I should probably explain. I come here, usually, to run some improbable scenarios as a sort of stress-reliever. Specifically, this one is what would happen if earth stopped spinning on its axis. As you can see, due to the earth no longer rotating at its usual speed, the wind would continue on at-â he cut himself off abruptly, sensing the beginnings of a ramble, âIâm sorry, Iâve been told that I have a tendency to âgo offâ when a subject particularly interests me.â
Remus rolled his chair even closer, looking much like an excited animal (more so than usual, anyway).
âWell then, go off! Donât leave me hanging! Is that really what would happen, just if it stopped?â He gestured enthusiastically to the way that the oceans had begun to crash against and consume shorelines. He looked interested- genuinely interested.Â
Logan bit back a smile. He didnât have to be told twice.Â
 It was one of those particularly restless nights. For no foreseeable goddamn reason, Logicâs mind had become alight with enough half-formed thoughts and barely sensible ideas to fill a very, very weird book. The Imagination did wonders when he got like this, but it usually wasnât two in the morning when he needed to use it. That wasnât to say the circumstance was unheard of, but all times prior he could push the urge to investigate away with the reasoning that he could just ask Roman in the morning, and that the Creative side needed his âbeauty sleepâ, as he called it. There wasnât anything he could do about that, was there?
Tonight was different. Logan could hear the occasional snap or tear or cackle from the room across from his. Remusâ room.Â
It had been less than a week since The Duke let him use the darker half of the Mindpalace, and that was pretty much the only meaningful interaction theyâd had in as many days. They werenât close, Logan wasnât even sure if they were friends (not that he was a good judge of that, given the first time Roman referred to them as âbestiesâ he had all but cried), but Remus was at the very least an option. He was also unlikely to mind, given that he was already awake and had exhibited excitement previously.Â
Logan made up his mind after yet again failing to fall asleep. Quietly, he opened his door and took the few short steps across the hall, raising his fist. Remusâ door was open before his second knock.Â
âOh, hey! What are you doing, coming knocking at this hour?â he didnât even try to whisper, accompanying his statement with an over-exaggerated wink. Logan didnât waste his time trying to shush the side.Â
âGood evening, I hope Iâm not interrupting anything-â
âYou know I donât mind your âinterruptionsâ, Twunk-y Megamind!â
â-But I was wondering if you would⌠Help me, again. I seem to be having a hard time getting to sleep, and I think that getting out some of my ideas could help.â
Remusâ face lit up dramatically.Â
âOh hell yes! Are we gonna blow up more planets?â
âSomething like that,â he kept his voice monotone, disguising the relief and hint of pride at such a positive reaction.Â
âWell, come on!â
Logan let himself be dragged into Remusâ room, barely having time to make note of the surprisingly organized layout before he was pulled through a sleek black door.Â
âBut you have to tell me about it,â he ordered, twisting them through narrow paths in his half of The Imagination. Logan suppressed a smile.Â
âIf you want to hear it, then Iâm happy to.âÂ
Without warning, they stopped the breakneck pace that Remus moved at. The trait seemed appeased with their surroundings, though as far as Logan could tell it was just another piece of ever-shifting ominous landscape.Â
Remus snapped his fingers. The scene remained intact.Â
âSorry,â he glanced around nervously, âThings get stuck in my head sometimes. Canât get âem out. Iâll get it, I just-â
âItâs no trouble.âÂ
Logan rolled up his sleeves. He didnât like using his âabilitiesâ much, as every side had some set of special skills, and all of them were much too ostentatious. But they were helpful, at times. He waved a hand, gesturing carefully so that he didnât dismantle any more of The Imagination than was absolutely necessary. With a small stutter, the landscape shifted to a blank slate.
When he looked back up, Remusâ expression was not unlike that of a Cheshire cat.
âWhat was that?â
âI am Logic, therefore it follows that I am the antithesis to any Imagination creations. Itâs very easy to erase them with just a bit of rationality.âÂ
âNo clue what a lot of those words meant, but itâs still cool that you can destroy shit.â
Laughing was unbecoming, to say the least, and so the logical trait tended to avoid it at all costs. The snort that escaped him was entirely involuntary.Â
If Remus noticed the noise, he said nothing about it. He was too busy bouncing from foot to foot, expectantly waiting for instructions. Logan cleared his throat of the outburst and clapped his hands together.
âAlright, letâs start with something simpleâŚâ
 At his request, Remus would construct immaculately detailed creatures, settings, and models, watching gleefully at the ordeals Logan put each one through. They tested various and progressively elaborate ways to sink populated cruise liners, they simulated the effects of falling from the Empire State Building, dissected approximations of obscure marine animals (a shared special interest of theirs, apparently), and any of the other unrealistic questions that occurred to the typically rational Logic.Â
The only way to get such questions from his mind, heâd found out a long time ago, was deconstructing them one step at a time, to see them in their full ridiculousness.Â
It was also, he was coming to realize, incredibly fun.Â
Before the two knew it, the already late hour had turned unreasonable. Logan blinked owlishly at his watch, distracted from the tiny supernova that heâd created.
âOh, I must have lost track of time,â four in the morning. Four in the morning!Â
âAw, does that mean weâre done?â Remus whined, yet he still began unmaking his small star system.Â
Logan was suddenly very aware of the heaviness of his eyelids and a rubbery feeling in his limbs. God, was he tired.Â
âIâm afraid so. I really shouldâve gone to sleep hours ago.â
âFine,â Remus dragged the word out with a groan, âBut let me know next time you wanna fuck with space, or deep sea stuff, or anything like that.â
Next time.Â
As much as Logan adored Roman, there was something very nice about having the more grim brother help him out with these experiments. For one, his creations were often much more accurate to the real world- likely because gore and destruction were that much more impactful when they were realistic. For two, he actually seemed to enjoy the work.Â
Loganâs deliberation was brief.Â
âI will.â
 As it happened, the night spent delving into dozens of ideas had purged Loganâs need to use The Imagination, for the time being. Clearly, Remus was not patient enough to wait for him.
He popped up, unannounced, in Logicâs room.
âLo!!!â
The trait in question fell out of his office chair in a very undignified way. Not that thereâs a particularly dignified way to fall out of a chair, but if there was, this definitely wouldnât have been it. He âate shitâ, as the saying goes.
Out of pure embarrassment, Logan made no move to get off the floor.
âHello, Remus,â he greeted, âHow may I help you?â
The Duke laughed raucously, sprawling into the now-unoccupied chair and leaning over him.Â
âYouâre a riot, Dork,â then, added with glittering eyes, âDid you break anything?â
âNo. Given that I am metaphysical, Iâm not sure that I have bones.â
âI have bones!â
âAre they your bones?â
âThey are bones and they are in my possession, yes.âÂ
Logan let the subject drop and repeated his first question.Â
âRight, I forgot! I have an idea for an experiment!â
Logan thought that, despite his mild humiliation, it would probably benefit the conversation if he wasnât lying on the ground, so he stopped doing that. Brushing mostly imaginary dust from his clothes, he shot Remus a bemused look.
âThatâs nice. But I was asking you why you were here.â
The Dukeâs face fell, almost imperceptibly. Â
âI thought youâd wanna know, because of what you said last time. Isnât this, like, a thing we do now? You know how shit works, and I know how to make that shit, and then you can tell me about it!âÂ
Oh.Â
âRemember when you were talking about radiation the other day? You canât just say stuff like that and then not expect me to want to try it out, so really this is on you. Itâd be dumb not to let you in on it.â
Oh.Â
Heâd been listening to that rant? Moreover, heâd remembered it, and now had his own ideas and follow-up questions about it?Â
Logan felt light-headed.Â
âYouâre probably too busy with work, huh? I guess my explosions don't have to be accurate, if youâre set on being boring,â Remusâ tone was nonchalant, but he was obviously lingering for attention. Logan then remembered that words are a thing, and people use them to communicate.
âNo! I mean, yes- I mean, Iâm not busy. I can join you, I- Iâd like to, even,â the intelligent side heard a small voice in his head, his own miniature Virgil, screaming- what the fuck was that, get it together, Jesus, because he, despite what his fellow sides insisted, was absolutely nonfunctional when trying to form a friendship.Â
Remus didnât seem to notice or care much past his own cheer.
âCool!â he, yet again, wasted no time in seizing Loganâs arm and yanking him away, âI wanted to see what would happen to animals and plants and stuff bunches of years after lots of radiation! Do you think theyâd mutate? Get all twisted and fucked up so that they arenât even recognizable as, say, a dog?â
Logan considered the question as he was led through the Mindpalace.
âWell, nothing would be able to live there at all. Additionally, anything within a little under a mile of the nuclear fallout- depending on a few variables- would be completely incinerated upon impact.â
âLike, flesh-melting incinerated?âÂ
âMore like vaporized. The fireball would burn 10,000 times the heat of the sun.â
Remus went starry eyed, bringing them to a halt a mere five feet from the door.Â
âI wanna see that,â he waved his hands around at their surroundings, âCan you do the white-out thing?âÂ
Logan, much less hesitant than last time, obliged. A small smile escaped him at the wondrous look on The Dukeâs face. It was another form of expression he didnât particularly care for, but containing his emoting was more trouble than it was worth by now. He couldnât find it in him to care much either, for once.Â
âWhere do we start?â Remus prompted.
âYou tell me. I will help you make it as accurate as possible, and provide any insight that you want, but it is your idea,â and he wanted to hear more about those ideas. Odd and violent, mesmerizing and clever. There was so much that he wanted to hear about, to talk about, to puzzle out together.Â
Logan couldnât remember the last time heâd had someone to share such interests with. Maybe, despite how deeply he cared for his âfamilyâ, as Patton called them- maybe it was never.
Remus chattered as he worked, disrupting the train of thought. Logan almost tuned it out- after all, everyone had grown perfectly used to The Dukeâs rambling- but he caught himself. That was hardly how he should treat the side that was so strangely considerate to him, wasnât it?Â
Logan listened from then on. He began to add on to the conversation, corrections and elaborations and actual questions, because he actually didnât know some of it. He didnât regret the choice.Â
By the end, Remus and Logan were sitting together in the smoldering ruins of their make-believe test town, exchanging notes for different variables they could use in the next trial. They only stopped when Logan was abruptly summoned away by Thomas. He excused himself, a bit apologetic, promising to visit again soon.
As he helped Thomas (with what really should have been a simple task, honestly), Logic wondered briefly about the origins of the hollow feeling that grew in his chest. Something distracted, longing, and unfamiliar.Â
And then the oven caught fire, and the only thing he felt was annoyance with the man that he was somehow a component of.Â
 So, that was that- Logan and Remus were friends, now spent regular time together, and shared interests. By all accounts, it was a simple and obviously positive development.Â
But then there was Roman.Â
âWhatâs wrong with my work? Youâd really prefer whatever edgy 12-year-old DeviantArt account nonsense that he thinks up?â
Logan set his book down with a sigh and looked over to his doorway, where Roman stood with his hands on his hips.
âCome in, Roman, and thank you for knocking,â he snarked. The Creative side made a vaguely sassy noise, trotting right in and flopping backwards onto the bed. Without closing the door, the monster.
âI thought that building your Weird Science contraptions was our thing.â
Logan made a show of standing up and manually shutting his door before responding.Â
âYou donât like my âcontraptionsâ, as you call them.â
âYeah, but I still made them for you! Because weâre friends, but I suppose youâve forgotten all about that!âÂ
He really should have expected the melodrama. And yet, Logan had lived in a delusional world where he didnât care about the most Extra being on earth.
With an eye roll, Logic dropped down beside Roman on the bed- though he wasnât half as flamboyant about it.Â
âI can have more than one friend.â
âYeah, but Iâm supposed to be your favorite! Weâre supposed to hang out together! Do the friendship bracelets I made mean nothing to you?â
He flung his arm across Loganâs chest, a âfriendship braceletâ clearly visible on his wrist (a loose usage of the term, given that it was a solid gold band with inlaid sapphires, because of course it was).
Logan held up his arm as well, showing that his (silver with inlaid rubies) was still very much in use, despite his distaste for jewelry.
âWe hang out plenty. It wasnât my intention to hurt your feelings by spending time with your brother. My reason for doing so is that he seems to take active enjoyment in building and learning about these things with me. He also makes very good conversation, in regards to the more, ah, eccentric experiments.â
Roman tossed his head to the side to watch Logan with narrowed eyes. After a pause, he linked their arms at the elbow.Â
âYeah, you would think that. Youâre secretly just as much of a weirdo as him.â
âI wouldnât go that far.â
âOh please, I can barely keep up with a word that either of you say,â Roman headbutted Loganâs shoulder in what was likely another of his odd displays of affection. He let his head rest there for a minute, a rare instance of peace before he inevitably resumed talking.Â
âAnyways-â
âAnyway,â Logan corrected.
âAnyways, if you nerds wanna talk about your weird, creepy experiments, then I guess thatâs fine. But he isnât allowed to co-opt anything else that we do together that we both actually like- no making fun of movies together, no Crofters jams, and no poetry-slash-rap battles.â
âOf course not, Roman. You will always be my favorite person to disagree with.â
âLove you, too,â Creativity bumped him again, then sat up to stretch. Logan snorted a laugh and considered shoving Roman off the bed, watching as he raised his arms up and straightened his back. Before the trait had the chance, unfortunately, his friend was already standing.Â
âLeaving already? Werenât you just going on about spending time together?â
âNah, that was all I wanted to yell at you about for now. Iâve gotta go help Pat with dinner.â
âWell, donât let me keep you.â
âThanks, I wonât.â
âI hate you.â
âDitto.â
Halfway out the door, Roman threw a glance over his shoulder.
âOh, and whatever you two end up doing, do not give me the details. Please.â
Okay, finally, that really was that. Friendship established, blessings given, the end. A simple symbiosis.
Logan was thinking about the practical uses of medieval torture devices? Remus. He wanted to see exactly how long it would take your average healthy adult to succumb to drowning? Remus. Logan wanted to just rant, about anything and everything, his brain moving a mile a minute? Remus. They spent an inordinate amount of time together.Â
Occasionally, when he didnât even have the energy to converse, he would sit down with a book in the commons when he knew Remus was there and let the traitâs never ending word-vomit wash over him. It was an odd sort of intimacy, but that fit within the theme of their dynamic. Like he said, simple symbiosis.Â
And that was when the not-very-platonic fondness grew. And Logan, to his own surprise, allowed it to.Â
After deep consideration he had seen no reason not to; Remus wouldnât judge him, not ever. It put a name to the hollow longing that occurred whenever he, eventually, had to get back to work and part from their talks.Â
He hadnât sorted out what to do about the feeling yet, but he felt no urgency.Â
Loganâs book lay forgotten in his lap, that morning being one of the quiet ones as he reflected on his unfamiliar emotions. It was almost nice, letting such affection curl up in his chest and settle there.
His contemplation was broken by a sharp jab to his shoulder.
âAre you listening to me?â
He tilted his head at Remus.
âSorry, I got distracted.â
âWhat were you thinking about?â his eyes lit up, very obviously hoping for it to be something disgusting. Logan glanced away, given that he didnât even like eye-contact in the best of circumstances.Â
âNothing important. You have my attention now.â
Remus rolled his eyes with a huff, apparently genuinely irritated.Â
âWell now I forgot what I was saying.â
âLetâs backtrack: what were you talking about before?â
âI donât know.â
âThatâs fine, we can talk about something else.â
The irritation had grown to something unrecognizable to Logan- frustrating, given how closely he tried to study body language. He felt a stab of guilt as Remus stood up from his spot.
âIt probably didnât matter. Iâm gonna go annoy Janus.â
âOh,â Loganâs voice was small, âAlright, then.â
He was already gone.
That was⌠concerning. Not to mention bewildering; Remus didnât just pass up opportunities to talk! He didnât just leave, not even when he wasnât wanted! Logan really hadnât thought his zoning out would earn such a reaction.Â
But he was far from perceptive about emotional problems. There was no way to know if it was anything to throw a fit over. For all he knew, it was just an off-day. He couldnât always expect his friend to be rambunctious and energetic, even if that was a big part of his personality.Â
The issue would likely resolve itself.
 The issue did not do that. It did the polar opposite, speeding from mildly concerning to downright frightening at a whiplash-inducing pace.
Remus barely asked questions and almost never offered insight, as he usually did when they spent time together. In fact, his contributions had become rare and unenthusiastic enough that he could have passed as neurotypical, however disturbing the thought was. And that was when they did end up spending time together, which was becoming less and less often, much to the dismay of one significantly smitten smart side.
Something was very clearly wrong with Remus. Not the demented, destructive, mildly endearing and unhinged sort of wrong. It was the wrong sort of wrong.
Logan was hesitant to confront him outright. After a couple weeks of careful consideration, a more subtle solution occurred to him, as he idly flipped through a very graphic murder-mystery late into the night. Something bloody, and awful, and very much Remusâ taste. He set the novel down, knowing full well that his friend would be wide awake as he made his way across the hall.
âRemus?â he knocked at the sideâs door, wearing a smile much wider than he usually liked. He was more than willing to express exuberance, if there was even the slightest chance that it would be infectious.
The door decidedly did not fly open. Rather, after a good deal of wrapping at it, Remus slowly pulled it back and poked his head out.
âOh. Hey.â
Logan didn't dwell on the concern that reaction brought. He had something that would cheer Creativity up, of that he was sure.
âI have a test tonight- itâs going to be very messy,â he began, searching the impulsive traitâs eyes for any signs of interest. There was the slightest glint, but not much more.Â
âSo, you want me to make stuff for you?â His speech was monotonous.Â
âYes, that was the idea. Itâs going to be gory.â
Hardly a reaction. All Remus did was open the door the rest of the way to allow Logan inside. Clearly, he had underestimated just how poorly his friend felt.
âAlright, Iâll set it up for you. Just donât take too long, I was actually hoping to use my part of the Mindscape today.â
Logan nodded, very taken aback. He couldnât ignore the slight hurt at the cold, dismissive tone (the irony of that wasnât lost on him).
They stepped foot into The Imagination and immediately Remus stopped, destroying whatever had been in front of them- which was usually fine, it was just how he operated, but normally out of enthusiasm, not apathy. Maybe this was more than could be fixed with some blood and guts.
âWhat do you need?â
Logan conjured a tiny notebook, giving a tentative smile. Still, he was giving this plan a shot.
âOperating table,â one appeared before him, sleek metal with rolly legs, âA standard set of surgical tools,â he looked up to gauge Remusâ interest, but his expression still hadnât changed as he continued to create, âA human corpse, and then we can get started.â
With a wave, a perfectly generic body fell onto the table, but Loganâs attention remained on The Duke.
âGreat, have fun, let me know when youâre finished.â
Logan faltered, watching him turn to leave.
âYou- you arenât going to stay and do this with me?â
âYou want me to?â Remus crossed his arms over his chest and fixed Logan with a gaze that could (figuratively) wilt flowers.
âI- Yes? If you arenât at all interested right now, then I can save this experiment for another day?â Yeah, this wasnât working, but Logan had no backup.
âNo, no, donât wait for me, youâve already got everything you need, right?â
âI mean- technically, yes, but it- it wouldnât be the same.â
Remus cackled, sounding quite like the cartoonish villain that he often acted as. It hurt to listen to.
âSo thatâs what this is about! Let me just fix you up, then!âÂ
He snapped, and a blank humanoid form appeared at his side. It tilted its faceless head curiously at Logan, who recoiled.
âNot good enough? Is a hunk of nothing too unrealistic for you?â he snapped again, and the being suddenly transformed to match its creator exactly.Â
Nearly exactly: it wore an enthusiastic grin, eyes wide and sparkling, rather than the steadily building fire that raged in real-Remusâ eyes. It spoke in a disgustingly cheery tone.
âWow, tell me more! Show me that again? What happens when you do that? Youâre just so interesting, Lo!âÂ
Remus watched the creation, a look of one part pride and a million parts resentment.
âIs that what you want? Itâs just like me, but without any of the hassle of being another person that you have to deal with! And this one, you really can get rid of whenever you want, isnât that great?â
Logan looked between the two, a fearful understanding creeping up his spine. There was something he was missing here, wasnât there?
âNo,â he muttered, half to the fake-Duke and half to the real one.Â
âNo?â Remus spat, circling his mirror, âNo, of course, youâre so right. This isnât nearly enough.â
He made an elaborate gesture, and about a dozen more Creativities appeared, surrounding them. Logan stumbled back from them, nearly tripping on the operating table that theyâd previously made. When he looked up, the real Remus was approaching him with an expression that fought its way between guilt and indignation. It was all at once heart-wrenching and frightening.Â
Logan tried to right himself, tried to look unaffected and certain of himself, as he raised his voice. He would not let this go a step farther, despite his confusion.
âStop,â and with that, a wave rocked across The Imagination, and all was erased. In the aftermath he stood before a teary-eyed Remus (just the one, though), uncharacteristically looking like a stiff wind would knock him right over.
âWhatâs wrong? I gave you what you wanted!â
Logan reeled.
âWhy would you think I wanted any of that?âÂ
âYou wanted an experiment, I gave you one! You wanted a willing audience, I gave you twelve! But I guess I just get everything wrong, right?â
âYou know that isnât true,â Logan felt choked, his words clumsy. It was foreign and horrible and disgusting, but heâd trudge through it all if it meant fixing whatever heâd done wrong. It couldnât have just been him losing focus once? Could it?Â
âOh, of course, I do just enough to be useful. So Iâve got that right; Iâm a good utensil. Is it so much to ask that people would care about me, not just what I can do?â he posed a rhetorical oozing with vitriol, but it quickly evaporated into something much more desperate, âWhat if itâs my fault? It was my idea, I wanted to help. I donât know why I thought youâd care past all that, did I give you a reason to? I can���t remember. It might make more sense that way, if I were the problem, wouldnât it?â
Logan was running out of time to fix this, watching Remus curl in on himself, barely keeping from falling to the floor. He had no clue how The Duke had reached the conclusion that he didnât care about him! They spent nearly all their free time together: sitting next to each other just to have the company, throwing each other tricky and often troubling questions to answer, constantly toiling away at things in The Imagination. Sometimes, they didnât even need to talk, they just worked together in rapt silence; Remus did the creating and Logan arranged his work just so, and- Wait. Wait. Wait.
Logan didnât need to talk, or touch, for that matter. Perhaps it was a mistake to presume the same for such a needy, affectionate, boisterous side?Â
No, not perhaps, it was a huge mistake. A major fuck-up, if you will.Â
Heâd thought, if the blunt side had needed such comforts, surely he would initiate it? He hardly shied away from anything, except, well.Â
Except. Feelings.Â
God, he was the dumbest smart person in the world.
âOh, RemusâŚâ
The Dukeâs head jerked up, continuing his back-and-forth of desperation and rage.Â
âI don't need your pity!â
Logan sighed, twisting the end of his tie in frustration.Â
âThat isn't what I'm offering,â he took a breath before continuing, linking the words together so it would come out right. âI'm so sorry, I didn't take into account how you would interpret our interactions. I thought it was obvious that I cared for you, that I didn't need to say it outright. Clearly⌠I was wrong. So, if you need more than what I previously expressed- which I'm now realizing was very little in the eyes of someone who is not me- then I am happy to provide that for you.âÂ
Remus was shaken, a good deal of his ire slipping away. Whether that was good or bad remained unclear.
Before it could be overthought, Logan crossed the remaining few feet between them and brought his arms around The Duke in his loose approximation of a hug. The trait froze, but he didn't pull away.Â
Physical affection, check.Â
âI value your companionship more than I'm entirely sure how to verbalize. You understand me in a way that most others donât seem to. While your ability to make detailed creations is very helpful, it is hardly the only thing I appreciate about you.Â
âFor one, you make me laugh. A lot. More than I'm used to. Additionally, you can easily match the pace with which I speak, or change topics! And, you are so much smarter than you make yourself out to be,â Logan finished the spiel with a smile, genuinely proud at his ability to articulate such⌠sentimental things, with relative ease. Words of affirmation, check.
He snapped back to attention when Remus brought shaking hands up to Logan's chest. For a moment, he worried that Remus would shove him away. The fears dissipated when all he did was bunch the front of Logan's shirt in his hands and hold on tight.Â
âDo you mean that,â his volume was low, âOr do you just want me to calm down?â
Logan tightened his grip around him and, following a motion that he'd seen Patton employ many times to great success, he rubbed up and down his back.
âI understand that it might be hard for you to trust me, but I promise I'm not lying to you. I would have to be pretty awful to do something like that, wouldn't I?â
Hesitantly, Remus nodded against his collar. A good sign, but there was one thing left he had to say.Â
âAnd- If you need further convincing- then you should know. I love you.â
Remus stilled. He then unfisted his hands from Logan's shirt. It was an anticipatory second before he threw his arms around the logical trait and finally returned the hug. His hold was crushing, and it was the most comforting thing that Logan had ever felt.Â
They were okay.
âI'm sorry I-âÂ
Logan didnât let him finish the apology.Â
âDon't be. You didn't know how I felt, because I hadn't communicated it in a way you understood. That is hardly your fault.â
Remus nodded again, remaining much quieter than heâd probably ever been in his entire existence.
They held each other for longer than either would like to admit, speaking softly.Â
âThanks,â was muttered against Loganâs shoulder.Â
âOf course. Just so you know, I'm more than willing to do this again whenever you need reassurance.â
âIt might be a lot,â his tone was turning more mischievous, more him, âAre you sure you can handle that?â
âAbsolutely.â
Logan hardly minded having an opportunity to gush about Remus to Remus. Not to mention, the physical affection was even nicer than he'd imagined it being. And oh, had he imagined it.Â
Remus' face returned to his usual ever-present zeal, and he ended their hug to bounce in place.Â
âGreat! I'm good now! We can get on with that autopsy you wanted to show me- there better be buckets of blood!â
Logan shifted his weight.Â
âMaybe we should save that for another day.â
âOh,â Remus' face fell the smallest bit, âOkay.â
Logan was quick to amend:
âBy that I mean, I have something better in mind.â
 Remus curled himself up in Loganâs lap, his eyes barely focused on the TV as the side carded his hands through his tangled mop of hair. Final Destination 3 played on the television (he had assured Logan that they didn't need to see the first two, and he was mostly right), serving as an excuse for the two to drink in each other's company.Â
It was right in the middle of a particularly graphic rollercoaster scene that Remus took Logan's hands from his hair to hold them, twisting around to face him.
âIs something wrong, Remus?â
âYou told me you loved me,â he stated blankly.Â
âYes, I did.â
âI didn't say it back!â
âNo, you didn't,â it hadn't been the most important matter at the time, really. âYou don't have to say it. It's perfectly okay if you don't feel the s- Mmph!â
Remus smashed their lips together, holding the sides of Logan's face (disrupting his glasses in the process) and pulling him forward harshly.Â
Logan, for less than a second, was floored. And then Remus tilted his head to deepen the already heated kiss, and the situation properly clicked. Logan reciprocated, slightly uncertain in his movements, wrapping his arms around the otherâs waist.Â
Remus smiled against him. He nipped at Logan's lower lip with sharpened teeth, eliciting a very embarrassing yelp. Logic let his lips part in response as his thoughts grew fuzzier by the second.Â
The (somewhat clumsy) open-mouthed kiss lasted right until they absolutely had to break, separating for air. Neither moved very far, letting their foreheads rest against each other and all but panting for breath.
âI love you so fuckin' much, nerd,â when Remus spoke, their lips brushed ever so slightly, âJust so you know.â
âI picked up on that, yes.âÂ
âA little clarity never hurts, right?â
Logan chuckled at the reference to his own sentiments, but the sound was abruptly cut off when Remus kissed him properly again.Â
When they broke apart, he explained how 'stupid-cute' that laugh was. And Logan, only half-joking (since when did he joke at all?), said that heâd have to do it more often.
Banter came easily to them, despite the raw undercurrent that still laced their conversation. Although, neither of them had ever found it difficult to talk; talk about the first thing that came to mind and the last thing that would come to anyoneâs mind, talk about exceedingly simple nonsense and topics so intricate that they wound up sounding like nonsense, just talk.
So things would stay mostly the same. They would ramble to each other when no one else could stand to hear such disturbing things. They would sit, working side by side, running through plans and ideas and results at rapid-paced speech. Theyâd speak, and they would listen, when even their closest friends couldnât manage such patience.
Only now, sometimes the rushed words might turn soft. Now, all that ranting might be more substantial than anyone would at first see. Now, theyâd still listen, but leaned close together, gazes impossibly fond.
But then, on occasion, they would find that there were things far more fun than talking to do together.
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#I've got a vendetta against neurotypicals#my writing#sanders sides#ts#sanders sides fanfiction#ts fanfic#fanfiction#fanfic#intrulogical#platonic logince#roman#remus#logan#ts roman#ts remus#ts logan#adhd remus#autistic logan#fuck yeah bb#tw cursing#remus does the fuckin 2 am to 10 am sleep schedule that adhd fuckers do#so i don't count it as sleep deprivation?? so thats why i didnt warn for that i guess#and by adhd fuckers i do mean myself
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Maybe one where Ian and Barley have been kidnapped and they want to hurt Barley, but Ian offers himself in Barley's place so they take him instead? And while they're hurting Ian, Barley breaks free and has to go save him? (I know you've written a lot already, though, so if you want to you can delete this post.)
WARNING: Abusive relationship mentioned.
First off, I will never delete any requests unless it involves something that truly makes me uncomfortable. I'm recovering from some hospital time and I'm bored, so I really don't mind. If anything this is helping me go to sleep. I enjoyed writing this one, though! This AU character I've been working on for a minute for a different series I was thinking about uploading. I was thinking about a quest, but this one came a little easier for me to write. I hope you like it, but if you would like it changed, let me know!
Dammit, Barley thought, as he woke up with a splitting headache. When he tried to get up, he realized he was tied up. That woke him right up and he heard a groaning beside him. Ian.
He looked over and saw his little brother's forehead bleeding slightly. He tried to break free from the ropes, but couldn't. What the hell was going on? What happened last?
"Ian, are you okay?" he asked, but only got another groan. "I'll get us out of here, don't worry."
"I wouldn't be sure about that," a familiar voice said and Barley's blood ran cold. Drew. They broke up about a month prior because Drew wasn't just jealous and controlling, he was dangerous. He would hit Barley when they were arguing, threatened him, did anything to make him feel like Drew had dominance. Barley started to wonder if his mom and brother were safe when his boyfriend was around, and he knew he had to shut that down. He still had nightmares of Drew's hands on his neck when they were fighting one day and Barley was too drunk to defend himself. He hadn't drank since.
Drew was taller than Barley, but not quite as burly as him. Though he didn't look it, he was strong. He could easily overpower Barley when they fought. His dark hair was rare for an elf, and it was one of the things Barley found attractive at the beginning of their relationship.
He should have known this would come back and bite him in the ass.
"Drew, what are you doing?" he asked, trying to keep his cool. His ex came down from the stairs. A basement, Barley realized. They were definitely in a basement.
"I told you, you can't just leave me. You don't get to decide that," Drew snapped. He picked up his knife from the table nearby and put it to Barley's throat. He tried to hide his terror, but he knew he was probably failing.
Him and Ian had been driving in the van. He remembered a crash, but that was it. Did this guy hit them?
"What do you want?"
"For you to suffer, Barley. I tried to give you another chance, but you've tied my hands. I don't know when you thought you had any say so in us, but you didn't. You are nothing. You don't get to chose who loves you," Drew sneered.
"Leave him alone, you jerk," Ian snapped. When did he wake up?
"Ian," Barley said. He never liked Drew, another reason Barley had to end the relationship. He trusted his brother more than anyone.
"Well, well, if it isn't Ian. Truthfully, I had no idea you were in that van, too, but hey, work with what you have, right?" Drew laughs. His attention turned back to Barley, looking at him with cold, blue eyes that sent a chill down the oldest Lightfoot's spine.
Barley told himself this is how he would die.
"Now, Barley, as I was saying, you need to learn a lesson," Drew said, but before he could cut Barley, Ian's voice cut through everything.
"Leave him alone!" Barley never heard such confidence from Ian before. Drew turned away from Barley and focused his attention to his little brother.
"Wow, Ian, never expected this from you. Tell me, what is your goal here? Why should I spare him after everything he did?" Drew asked.
"Because," Ian paused, as if desperately trying to think of anything to save his brother, "because you can do whatever you planned on doing to him to me instead."
"Ian, no! Stop!" Barley ordered, but it was too late.
Drew's eyes fixated on his brother, then back at him. He saw the panic in his eyes. Anyone who knew Barley knew he loved his brother and mother more than anything in the world. He would take any physical punishment over something happening to Ian. And he wasn't in a position where he could act as the protector.
"You know, Ian, for a bright kid, you sure are stupid. But, we can have some fun," Drew said, finally. He cut Ian free, but before he could do anything, he grabbed a fistful of his hair and looked at Barley. "Enjoy your brother's screams, love."
"I'm going to kill you," Barley snapped. His fear faded away and was replaced with anger. He looked at Drew like the most disgusting thing in the world. "Leave him out of this."
"Where's the fun in that?" Drew teased, and then proceeded to drag Ian up the stairs. His brother tried his hardest not to show any sign of pain or weakness, but Barley could feel it anyway. It seemed like the moment that door shut, wherever they were filled with Ian's screams.
"Ian! Ian!" he called over and over. He felt tears pouring down his face, but he didn't care. Ian was in danger. He had taken Barley's punishment. He was paying for a stupid mistake Barley made. He never should have gotten with Drew. It was a fling that turned into something poisonous and deadly.
He continued to struggle with the ropes. He was so angry he felt the adrenaline coursing through his veins and he slammed his body against the other side, trying to break free. He would kill Drew.
He heard Ian cry out again and tell Drew to get the hell off him. He heard Drew tell Ian that he should prepare himself because he was just getting started.
Why the hell did he have to take Barley's place? The older looked around the room once more and noticed that Drew left some tools on the table. He probably planned on torturing Barley right here, but saw the opportunity to take Ian from him and knew that would be the worst punishment.
He managed to pull the table forward with his foot and then had to struggle and get a pair of scissors in his hand. It took awhile and Ian cried out more. Drew yelled from upstairs that he was worried about Ian losing blood. He heard him tell Ian to scream all he wanted, no one was around to save him.
"You're going to die alone and then I'm going to let your brother see what I've done. I'll tell him everything right before I kill him slower than I've killed you. I want him to relish your death," Drew said once Ian went quiet. Barley's heart raced faster and he managed to cut the rope. He grabbed the scissors and ran up the stairs. The door was locked, but he busted it down no problem. He saw Drew and Ian in a living room. Ian was covered in blood. His flannel had been taken off and revealed cuts along his body. His jeans were torn and soaked with red.
But Ian was alive. He still managed to set up, but Drew yanked him up and held the knife to his throat. He glared at Barley.
"I told you that you didn't get to leave me," he warned.
"Just leave Ian out of this. Let him go. I'll stay if that's what you want. We can be together again, just leave him alone," Barley said. He would stay here forever if it meant saving Ian's life. All he needed to do was get to the van. He had nectar from a healing flower there. He and Ian grabbed it a few weeks ago during a quest and agreed to save it for an emergency.
"You really are useless, huh? You're a shit son and horrible boyfriend and the one person left in this world that loves you and even admires you, you've failed to protect," Drew said. "I could kill him right now, you know that right? I could slit his throat and that would be that. He would be gone. Could you live with that?"
"You know the answer."
"Exactly. Yet I've been up here, putting a scar on his body for each time you rejected me," Drew said, running the knife along Ian's throat. He was barely awake and couldn't even look at Barley. The older felt like he could be sick. He wanted nothing more than to pull Ian out of this nightmare.
"Drew, please. Just tell me what you want me to do and I'll do it," Barley said. He resisted the urge to bring the scissors out of his pocket.
"You'd be willing to stay here to save him?"
"Yes."
Drew dropped Ian. His abuser for months on end, who manipulated him into doing things he didn't want to, who beat him on multiple occasions, who made him feel like he was absolutely nothing, approached him. For a moment, Barley felt paralyzed. Drew walked over and kissed Barley.
He looked over at Ian and again, his fear turned to rage. Within a moment that Barley found to be a blur, he brought the scissors out and stabbed his ex in the chest. He watched his eyes widen with horror and he collapsed. Then he ran to Ian.
His brother was barely breathing.
"Ian? Ian?" he shook his shoulder. The youngest opened his eyes and smiled at the sight of his brother physically unharmed.
"Barley, are you okay?"
"Really? You're worried about me?" Barley asked through the tears. Ian had been around him too long. He lifted him in his arms and got him outside. Drew towed the van with his old truck. He knew damn well Drew thought this plan out. He wanted to be sure no one knew the boys were missing. He got him to the edge of the van and cried in relief when he found the nectar in the jar without a scratch.
He kneeled beside Ian and forced him to drink. Then he held on to him, whispering how much he loved him, how brave he was and that everything was okay. After a few minutes, the wounds healed, but left several scars that Barley imagined would either be there for awhile or the rest of Ian's life.
"Barley?" the younger asked. Barley cried and hugged him again. "I'm so sorry, I just- I wanted you to be okay."
"You scared me, why would you do that?"
"I love you. I get you want to protect me, but I don't want anything to happen to you either. Especially that guy, I mean, I just wanted him away from you. I didn't care if that meant I got hurt."
"Ian, in all seriousness," Barley said, "never take my place like that again."
"Barley."
"No. I can handle a lot, okay? I can take pain, I'll get through it one way or another. But what I can't handle is someone taking you from me; I can't handle losing you," Barley cut in, his voice betraying him and cracking at the last part. He placed his hands on his shoulders. Both of them still had tears in their eyes. "I-I thought I lost you. I was so scared."
"I know what Drew did to you, Barley. I couldn't let that happen again. If the roles were reversed, we both know you would have done the same."
He pulled his brother into a tight hug. He placed a hand in his hair and held him close.
"All that matters is you're safe. He can't hurt you again."
Barley made himself a promise that he would never let anything hurt Ian again.
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LERning New Things About Ourselves -- Pineappleâs Fics!
Note From August: With Pineapple taking a break from tumblr until sheâs an adult, I will be hosting her fic on my blog for the time being. You can find them under tags like pineapple fics and pineapple writing. Once she is back, they will be deleted from my blog and reposted to her own. Thanks for being understanding to her during this time! Donât forget to show her your love!
Word Count: 9111 words
Characters:Â lee!Virgil, ler!Roman
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Virgilâs heart thudded out of his chest as he stared up at the maliciously coy smile leaning over him. He had never been so excited yet so terrified in his life. âSo, darling,â cooed his captor. âShall we begin your destruction?â
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It all started on that fateful day when Virgil Anthony decided to post an ad for a new roommate. His previous roommates, Patton and Logan each got married and moved away, leaving Virgil with an empty apartment and no friends.Â
 He was surprisingly content with that reality had it not been for a silly little thing called ârentâ that incessantly found itself worming its way into Virgilâs life, and grew impressively large throughout the months. So, deciding he wished to eat this month, he begrudgingly settled on posting a chipper little advertisement on their community collegeâs website requesting a new roommate, provided they could come up with $450 a month. Weeks passed by and he was starting to lose hope until finally, he got a reply. After a quick online interview, he found himself with a new roommate. Before Virgil knew it, it was moving day.
 And that was when he met Roman Prince. Roman was⌠eccentric.. to say the least, but despite their slightly awkward interview, Virgil knew he was the one. And maybe it helped that he made twice what Virgil made in a week, and brought with him a flatscreen TV and a Switch. Just a little.
 âAhh! Hello!â greeted the man as he set down his suitcase on the steps leading to the apartment. âYou must be Virgil!â He stuck out the newly freed hand to shake Virgilâs. Virgil accepted.
 âHey, dude. Yeah, and you must be Roman,â he acknowledged with a smile. âDo you need help with your stuff?âÂ
Roman waved his hand. âNah, a couple of buddies of mine are coming by later to help me. For now, itâs just me and my suitcase,â he answered, pointing to the suitcase he left by the staircase. Virgil nodded.Â
 âOkay, cool. Well, why donât you come in, and we can chat.â Virgil wrung his hands slightly as he spoke, his nerves lit up from the social anxiety. He was trying his best to be friendly and not scare this guy off. Fortunately, Roman seemed to do most of the talking for the both of them. Only a couple hours in, the two found themselves seated on the sofa, sipping wine, and getting to know each other. Well, it was mostly Virgil getting to know Roman.
 âSo, how long have you lived in Cheyenne?â Virgil asked him.
 âAbout three years now! We moved right after I graduated highschool, my parents grew up here, and I decided to go to college here too,â he answered, pointing to the east side of the apartment in the direction of the community college.
 Virgil smiled. âThatâs nice you all can live in the same area. You get along with your family well, I take it?â
 Roman bobbed his head. âOh yeah. Iâm an only child, and itâs safe to say they spoiled me,â he chuckled, and Virgil joined him. Roman shrugged, smiling wryly. âI mean, Iâm sure you figured that out considering no sibling should ever feel this confident,â he joked.
 Virgil snickered. âYeah,â he agreed. âComing from a kid with three older brothers, I know.â He poured some more red wine into both of their glasses. âSo, where do you work?â he inquired, ignoring the urge to ask where he makes so much money,
 âI work at the bar across the street, Rattlesnake Juice Bar. Iâm the manager,â Roman said, bringing the glass up to his lips. Virgilâs eyes widened slightly in surprise.Â
 âWow, thatâs impressive! Normally at twenty-one, employers don't offer management positions at bars,â commented Virgil, sipping his own drink. Roman swallowed his drink and shrugged.
 âI guess it was because I had some experience, you know? Iâve been in management since I was seventeen.â Virgil nodded his head with a smile.Â
 âYeah, thatâd do it,â he chuckled. Virgil shifted so he sat on his knees. âSo, are you going to do management for a major?â he asked.Â
 Roman shook his head. âNo, actually, although itâd probably be a better career plan. Instead, Iâm majoring in Journalism with a minor in Creative Writing.â Virgil brought the glass up to his lips, preparing to drink again.Â
 âOh wow, thatâs cool. What do you like to write?â
 âTickle fanfiction.â
 Virgil coughed violently, and spit the wine he just had in his mouth onto his shirt. Romanâs eyes widened in panic. âOh, oh my gosh, are you alright?â he asked, hurriedly grabbing paper towels and handing them to the still sputtering man. Virgil snapped back to reality and finally noticed the spill.
 âOh, for heavensâ sake-â he muttered, graciously accepting the towels and dabbing at his shirt. Roman furrowed his eyebrows as he helped Virgil clean up.
 âAre you alright?â he asked again, his voice laced in genuine concern. Virgil looked up at him for a moment and examined his eyes for any signs of malfeasance. Nothing.
 âUm, yeah, I-â he coughed again, his cheeks turning a light pink. âYeah, I just, you know, went down the wrong pipe,â he stuttered, gesturing vaguely to his throat. Roman nodded in understanding.
 âYeah, that happens to me all the time. Are you sure youâre good?â
 Virgil nodded a bit too earnestly as he got up to go throw away the wine-soaked paper towels. Once safely in the kitchen, he refocused his breathing and tried to calm his beating heart. It was a good thing too, because as soon as he returned, Roman continued the conversation right back up where it had left off.
 Virgil barely had time to sit down before Roman began speaking again. âYeah, so anyways, back to our conversation, I write tickle fanfiction,â he explained with a smile. âItâs super fun. I have quite the following on Tumblr too! Over three hundred followers and they're growing by the minute!â Roman raved. Virgil just started in utter disbelief.
 âOh, well. Thatâs, uh, cool.â
 Romanâs face lit up in excitement. âI take it you know what tickle fanfiction is?â he asked eagerly.
 Virgilâs face heated to a thousand degrees. âNo! I-I mean, no, not really. I just, I was being supportive. Yeah.â Virgil cringed at how painfully obvious he was being. This guy had to know his slip up. At least he clearly didnât have to worry about being judged with Roman. But alarmingly, Roman actually appeared to believe him.
 âOh! Well, itâs the coolest thing. Basically-â he paused for a moment. âHm, actually, I guess the best way to explain is to start at the very beginning!â
 And there Virgil sat, for an entire hour, as he listened to Roman in great explicit detail explain every aspect of the fixation of tickling, the community he was in, and everything he wrote about without a single stutter or slip up. And Virgil listened the whole way through, flinching at the subconscious wiggling of fingers as Roman discussed teases, and thanking whoever the genius inventor of foundation was, for it was the only thing keeping him from blinding his new roommate with the power of his flush as Roman described lees and lers.
 Virgil also found out that apparently Roman was a ler. HowâŚinteresting.
 Finally, mercifully, Roman stopped talking. âOh goodness,â he laughed. âIâve been talking for almost an hour, havenât I!â
 Exactly fifty-six minutes, thought Virgil.Â
 âSorry, I just get really excited and passionate about tickling and writing! Writing is my biggest hobby, and I love it so much. I try to be in touch with all my followers too, you know? I message back to anyone who messages me first, and reply to comments when I can.âÂ
 âUm, yeah. Well, I, uh, better throw this shirt in the wash,â Virgil interjected, leaping from the couch and scurrying out of the room.
 Roman stared, watching his roommate in confusion, but ultimately shrugged it off and went to go find his new room.
It had been a week since the incident, and frankly, Virgil had not fully recovered yet. He didnât even know how to begin to process the fact that a proud, confident ler was now living with him. He desperately wanted to know what Romanâs Tumblr account was to see if he could follow him. But discreetly of course, because even though Roman may be secure and confident in his quirk, Virgil was not, and that was just how it was. It would be easy, right? Just ignore him when he talks about it. Virgil was sure Roman was probably used to it.
 Later that afternoon, Virgil was sitting at the kitchen table with a cup of coffee, and was intensely scrolling through Tumblr on his phone trying to find Romanâs blog, when the man in question walked into the room.
 Virgil all but threw his phone across the room in a panic when he heard the heavy footsteps behind him. He spun around. âUh, y-yes?â he asked, closing his eyes in an attempt to slow his pounding heart rate. Roman didnât seem to notice the odd behavior.
 âHey, Virge! So, youâre an English major, right?â He pulled up a chair at the dining room table and sat down. Virgil nodded, happy for the change of conversation.
 âYep. Whatcha need?âÂ
 Roman pulled out his phone and scrolled for a bit before handing it over to Virgil. âDo you mind proofreading this for any grammar or spelling errors?âÂ
 Virgil nodded and accepted the phone, squinting to try and read the tiny print. This wasnât uncommon for Virgil. Many of his acquaintances often asked Virgil to proofread their emails and letters to bosses and businesses. It wasnât until a few seconds of staring until he noticed.
 It was a tickle fic. Virgilâs face blossomed into a bright red, as he glanced up at Roman who was sitting stone faced and calm.
 âWhat-â he cleared his throat, âWhat is this?â he asked, trying to appear nonchalant.
 Roman tilted his head. âOne of my fics! Iâm not the best with grammar, and I was really hoping you could help me edit. You know, as a writing major I really want to get better,â he responded with a smile. Virgil took a shaky breath. No, this was fine. Completely and totally fine. He was just reading a fic in the direct presence of a ler, and then giving him pointers on how to make it better.Â
 âWell, um, you could, maybe, reword this better,â he finally said after a minute.Â
 âWhat part?â
 Virgil pointed to a sentence on the screen. âThat one.â
 Roman looked at him and giggled. âVirge, do you really think I can see that? Just read it to me, silly.â
  Virgilâs face felt like it was on fire. âOh, um. Okay. So you w-wrote, âHe laughed, squirming all over the bed, as Chuni followed him, massaging his r-ribs.â Yeah?â He glanced up at Roman to see him listening intently. Oh, this was hard. âUm, so, to make it flow better you can reword it slightly by changing, changing the order.â He cleared his throat again. âFor example, âHe laughed and squirmed all over the bed and Chuni followed him, m-massaging his ribs.â Does that, um, make sense?â he clarified.
 Roman smiled and nodded. âYeah, it does! Thanks! Anything else?â Virgil shut his eyes in an attempt to control his breathing.
 âWell you, um, spelt t-tormenting wrong,â he grimaced. Roman leaned over.Â
 âOh did I?â Virgil nodded, propping his head up on his arm in a weak attempt to hide his face. âCan you go over the rest with me?â
 Virgil pinched his arm. âYep, sure thing,â he squeaked.
 That was by the longest afternoon of his young adult life. But if he thought that was bad, nothing compared to what happened a month later.Â
Virgil had still not yet found Romanâs blog, and he kicked himself for not checking to see what the title of the one fic he proofread was so he could search it up later. Regardless, he was still very closeted in his secret fantasy, and somehow managed to keep his cool throughout the many conversations where Roman brought up his ler moods, and writings, and such.Â
 âVirgil!â exclaimed Roman, bursting into the room. Virgil jumped slightly from his seat on the couch, nearly dropping his phone.Â
 âUm, yes?â He turned to see Roman holding a ukulele. âWhy do you have a ukulele?âÂ
 Roman smiled excitedly. âWell, so you know how I talk about teases, right? How theyâre essential to the wreckage of a lee?â Virgil forcefully shoved the embarrassment panic creeping up down his throat. âWell, I thought how cool itâd be, as a new type of tease, to write song parodies of nursery rhymes, but make them tickle related!â
 Virgilâs stomach twisted in a pleasant coil as he sat in complete shock. Surely not. âI, uh-â
 âYou wanna hear some?â he asked, bouncing up and down excitedly on his toes. Virgil continued to ogle as he begged hisÂ
voice to work.
 âUm, s-sure,â he stuttered out, his voice cracking at the end.
 Roman beamed. âPerfect! Okay, so you know the song Tiny Tim, right?â
 Virgil coughed. âT-the turtle song?â Roman nodded.
 âYep! But I changed it.â He did a strum of the ukulele before beginning to play the catchy tune. âI have a little feather,â he sang out, his voice ringing out with the chords of the instrument. âHis name is Tiny Tim, I used him on my lee, to see if he would grin!â Virgil blanched at the teasing lilt in his voice. âI drank up all his laughter, it made him buck and squeal, and now heâs nice and flustered, his smile oh so real!âÂ
 Roman finished the song and looked at Virgil expectantly. Unfortunately, at that moment Virgilâs voice decided to duck out and leave him. Roman giggled at him. âAre you speechless at my talent or something?â
 Virgil, horrified, frantically willed the embarrassment away as he finally found his voice. âOh, no, sorry. Uh, yeah no. It was good. Good,â he took a breath while rubbing the back of his neck. âJob. Yeah,â he finished lamely.
 Roman pumped his fists in excitement. âYessss! I was super proud of it! You wanna hear another one?â Rather than wait for a response, he strummed the ukulele again. âOh, so this tease requires a specific name for it. Do you mind if I just use yours?â
 Virgil swore he was going to have a stroke.
 âOh I know a little lee,â he sang, this time playing a new tune. âHis name is Wiggle Virgey,â he paused his singing to look at him. âAdding yâs at the end of names makes it teasy,â he explained.Â
 Virgil said nothing.Â
 âHe is so very nice, but oh he is so giggly, and so goes his arms, and his arms go like so, and his arms are always so-oh-oh!â
 Yep. Virgil was going to die.Â
 After two more verses, Roman finally finished his song and Virgil was all but willing to sell both his kidneys to disappear from this conversation. Â
 âSo, what did you think? That one isnât my best, but I liked it!â Roman commented nonchalantly.
 Virgil simply stared and nodded. Roman furrowed his eyebrows in concern. âAre you feeling alright?â
 Virgil blinked. âYeAh, why?â His voice cracked as he tried to speak. He quickly coughed to cover it up.
 âI donât know, you just seem sick or something. Youâve been coughing an awful lot. Your face is like bright red and youâve been oddly quiet,â said Roman. That only made Virgil blush even more.Â
 âNo, yeah, no Iâm fine,â he answered, waving him off. âYeah, but I really gotta go work on, um that thing, for school, see ya around.â And with that, Virgil darted out of the room for the second time, leaving Roman standing alone in utter bewilderment.
Virgil had done his very best to avoid Roman after the whole tease incident, which was difficult considering they lived under the same roof. And even worse considering Roman was the most oblivious guy on the planet.Â
 Virgil was in bed, scrolling through Tumblr on his phone, when he saw another post from his favorite writer, TheLeringPrince. He felt his lee mood spike as he saw it was a new tease post. Eagerly, he tapped the post and began to read. Slowly as he read though, something seemed off. The tease post was various nursery rhymes all modified to fit into the theme of tickling. And Tiny Tim was one of them.
 Virgilâs heart began to race and his mind started spinning as he hurriedly tried to calm himself down. âNo, Virgil,â he breathed out. âNo, itâs just a coincidence. Roman probably stole it from this guy or maybe just thought of the same idea.â Ironically, he found himself wishing his roommate was a thief who stole credit from his favorite Tumblr userâs work, rather than admit that Roman was said favorite Tumblr user.
 But right at the bottom of the post, there was a little bold sentence that truly made Virgilâs heart stop.
 âAnd many of you have been wondering about my sudden improvement in my grammar and spelling. Well, you can thank my brand new roommate for helping me proofread all my new fics and teases!â
 What was Virgilâs luck? Of all the people on this planet of seven billion, he gets a roommate who, not only is a confident and charismatic ler who happily reads his teases and fics to Virgil, but is also the specific ler that Virgil had been daydreaming about being destroyed by for years.
 Virgil wasnât sure if he wanted to hug whoever ordained this or punch them.
 Virgil contemplated it for a while before finally deciding to tell his anxiety to hit the road, and take this glorious opportunity by the horns. So with a deep breath, he clicked on TheLeringPrinceâs profile, then DMâs, then opened his keypad.
 Immenslee_Ticklish: Hey, just wanted to say that I really like your stuff, and that you seem like a pretty cool dude. Would you want to chat sometime?â
 Immediately, he received a reply.
 TheLeringPrince: Why thank you, Immenslee. And yes, I would love to chat ;)
Days went by, and Roman and Virgil were talking through their blogs constantly. Roman had taken to teasing Virgil quite thoroughly on the platform, and Virgil obviously ate it up. Roman even mentioned wanting to meet up sometime. Virgil would be lying if he said he didn't nearly pass out at that.
 Of course they still talked in real life, only Roman didnât know who Virgil was. Oddly enough, Virgil almost felt safer talking to his Tumblr handle rather than to him in real life. He had to laugh at that. Six months ago, Virgil would have fainted at the idea of living with his favorite ler. And now, here he was, finally having something to satiate his ever present, insatiable lee mood! And he was hiding.Â
 He just wasnât sure how to tell him! Leave his Tumblr open? Text him? Tell him through Tumblr DMs? For goodnessâ sake, what was he so afraid of? This guy was clearly accepting and non judgmental about the whole thing. Most people would kill to be in this position. Well, most lees anyways.
 Little did Virgil know, but Roman was already pretty suspicious. He didnât have any evidence of the fact, but he was pretty certain that Virgil had to have some lee in him somewhere. His blush and stutters were getting increasingly obvious and even though Roman could be an idiot, he wasnât stupid. It took him a while to figure it out, but once he did, there was nothing stopping him. Except of course, if Virgil for some reason just didnât want to be tickled. That was fine too. But there was something in him that made Roman sincerely doubt that was the case.
 Roman had never had a problem about being open with his fixation. He figured that if people were going to judge him based on a silly little liking, then they werenât worth being in his life. He could understand why some people hid it, sure. It was scary to be so open about something other people found weird. But Roman just never had that fear.
 But one day, Roman got a message. It was from a follower named Immenslee_Ticklish. Now Roman recognized this user, as they often commented, liked, and reblogged alot of his works. They were great fans, and apparently very much lee themselves. And all of a sudden, after two whole years of following Roman, they decide to message him.Â
 Interesting.
 But Roman ultimately decided to keep quiet about his suspicions because if Virgil wasnât saying anything, then he didnât want Roman to know. And Roman respected that. Even if he really wanted to tickle him.
 Turns out he didnât have to wait much longer.
Virgil had practiced it for weeks. He knew exactly what to say, and how he was going to say it. But that all flew out the window as he stared at Roman.
 âVirgil, buddy, youâve been staring at me for three minutes now,â commented Roman, raising an eyebrow at the man in question. âYou came to tell me something.â Virgil inhaled deeply and tried to speak, but the words got caught in his throat. Roman gave him a sympathetic look. âHey, itâs okay. No need to be scared.â Virgil just stared at him. Romanâs heart broke for this kid, who was obviously scared out of his mind. âI promise Iâm not going to be upset, or judge you, or do whatever your pretty little head is thinking might happen.
 âIâmImenseleeTicklish!â he spat out suddenly. Roman jumped in surprise, but as soon as it hit him, he grinned.
 âOh, are you now?â he hummed, a sly smile watching the flustered boy with great amusement.
 âWait, no, I meant like the username. Iâm the user Immenslee_Ticklish. I didnât mean it like Iâm immensely ticklish, well, I might be, but-â
 Romanâs amused look caused him to stop talking. âSo, yes?â
 Virgil nodded. âIâm, uh, Iâm a lee. Yeah.â The two of them stared at each other, neither one breaking the deafening silence or the intense eye contact.
 âWell thatâs very valuable information,â Roman stated calmly, being the first to speak, and before walking away and into the kitchen.
 Wait?! Before walking away?!
 Virgilâs mouth dropped open as he watched Roman walk off. âWait!â he called indignantly. Roman paused, smirking away from Virgil.Â
 âYes?â
 Virgil just stared for a minute, waving his arms dramatically as if it would help him speak. âArenât you going to, um, do something?â
 Roman turned around to face him, as Virgil paled at seeing Roman smile darkly at him. âLike what?â
 Realization hit him like a truck, and Virgil gaped in absolute horror. He was going to make him ask, wasnât he? Oh, this was mean. So, so, so mean.Â
 But at this point the lee mood was so bad that his dignity was going to have to leave him.
 âI- were you, um,â he covered his face with his hands. âWere you gonna tickle me?â
 He could hear Romanâs evil grin. âDo you want me to?â
 âUm, yes. Please.â He swallowed harshly.
 Roman clapped. âWhy look at those manners!â he praised, gleaming at the whining boy in the living room. âI would love to. But to be clear, what exactly do you want to happen?â
 âW-What do you mean?â Virgil asked, peeking from behind his hands.Â
 âTell me exactly what you want for me to do. In explicit detail, or I wonât do any of it,â cooed Roman.Â
 âYouâre so mean,â Virgil whined into his hands again. Roman laughed at his expense.
 âIâm waiting~âÂ
 Virgil glared at him through his hands. âI want you to wreck me and tease me and destroy my resolve, and I want you to do it now! Please.â He added, lest he be made to repeat his request in a more polite manner. Roman reeled back, a tad surprised at the direct request.
 âWell, good for you. Iâd be happy to,â he nodded, impressed. âVery well. Meet me in your room in ten minutes~â he teased with a wink.Â
 After he left, Virgil let it sink in. He was about to be ruthlessly teased and broken by his ler idol in ten minutes.
 Oh he was going to die.
Virgilâs heart thudded out of his chest as he stared up at the malicious coy smile leaning over him. He had never been so excited yet so terrified in his life. âSo, darling,â cooed his captor. âShall we begin your destruction?â Romanâs voice lowered significantly into a husky tone that sent shivers down Virgilâs spine. He tugged on his restraints, waves of excitement and panic flooding his body, and feeding his lee mood from before. He had waited years. Years and years and years for this day. To be in this position, and about to get wrecked into oblivion. He had no idea what Roman was going to do, but he was excitedly terrified.
 Roman took a single finger and began aimlessly swirling around Virgilâs belly, going in zigzag patterns, curlicues, and idle shapes while he rested his head on Virgilâs chest. Virgilâs breath hitched, the gentle touches not quite tickling, but was setting an amazing precedent for what was about to take place. Roman let out a deep breath, purposely aiming it for Virgilâs neck, rewarding him with a satisfying squeal as the man scrunched up his shoulders as much as he could.
 âI have a dilemma, Virgil,â sighed Roman melodramatically. âI feel like, since youâve waited all this time for some expert ler to completely wreck you, destroy you, and undo your very resolve, that you ought to have a good experience, hm?â he commented, glancing up to look at Virgilâs wobbly smile. âI mean youâve been so patient! Itâd feel criminal to deprive you of the best possible experience. Donât you agree?â He paused, waiting for a reply while still mindlessly twisting his finger on the pale expanse of skin, but all Virgil did was squeak softly in embarrassment.
 Suddenly, Roman snapped his fingers, causing Virgil to flinch slightly. âIâve got it!â he announced, smiling darkly. âLetâs let you choose.âÂ
 Virgilâs eyes widened in pure horror. âWhat?âÂ
 âWhy choose your own teases, of course! Who better knows exactly how to tease and fluster you, and turn you into a giggling blushy pile of goo then yourself?â Roman enunciated his point with a few teasing pokes to his chest. Virgil squirmed in an attempt to get the pokes to hit his stomach but he had no such luck. âSo, Giggles, you want to try it?â
 Virgil bit his lip and bounced his legs anxiously. âNo!â he whined, his wobbly smile growing by the minute.
 Roman grinned. âNo? But itâs like a choose your own adventure! You choose your own teases and tools! Wonât that be fun?â Virgil shook his head violently. Roman mock pouted. âBut I think it will be fun!â
 Virgil made a strangled guttural sound in reply. âI-â
 âYes, dear,â he urged, resting his chin on Virgilâs chest once again.
 Virgil sighed and closed his eyes in frustration. âI-I canât tease,â he mumbled under his breath.Â
 âWhat was that?â
 âI canât tease!â he repeated, only slightly louder this time. Fortunately, Roman heard him.
 âOh well, thatâs not a problem, silly. You arenât saying the teases. I am!â he replied with a smirk. Virgil peaked one eye open.
 âBut I thought you said-â
 âOh, I know what I said,â he answered, cutting Virgil off. âNo, I already know what teases you chose. You donât have to say a word.â To Virgil's confusion, he pulled out his phone. It wasnât until Roman started scrolling and grinning that Virgilâs eyes widened in panicked realization.
 âNo, no, no, NO!â Virgil called out, bouncing in anticipation. He tried lunging for the phone but his bonds held him back.
 Roman pretended not to hear him. âHm, letâs see. Posts, then notes, then-â Roman grinned up at Virgil. âAh yes, reblogged by Immenselee_ticklish! Oh, look thereâs a comment too!â
 âNo! No, donât read the comment!â
 âIt says, âAhhhh!! Oh gosh, Iâm blushing so hard!!â Hold up.â Roman turned to look up at Virgil who was fire engine red. He smirked. âWould you look at that. Anyway, it continues to say, âI would die if anyone said this to me!â And then thereâs a blushing face.âÂ
 He smirked again as he faced Virgil. âSo, would you say youâve died?â Virgil whined longingly. Roman nodded while looking back at his phone. âIâd say yes.â
 Roman continued to scroll only for his eyes to light up in delight. âOh looky here!â Virgil slammed his eyes shut, not daring to.Â
 âNo, no, no, no.â
 âVirgil look! Itâs a gif! Oh wow.âÂ
 Oh yeah. Virgil definitely wasnât going to look. He was strong, he was resilient, and nothing could break him!
 âAww and theyâre getting their bellybutton tickled! Isnât that your most favorite spot in the whole wide world?â
 Um, yeah. It was easy, mind over matter. He wouldnât look. Easy.
 âHey! And itâs your best friend! Mr. Toothbrush!â
 Yeah, he... What was he saying?
 âRoman, please,â he begged, eyes still clamped shut. The endless teases were killing him. His ever present lee mood had grown into a ravenous monster that he thought would never be satiated. His body screamed for tickles. It was more than a want, or even a craving. It was a need at this point. And Roman knew that and it only fueled his evil ler facade all the more.Â
  âAw, poor baby. Donât worry, weâll start soon,â he cooed.
 Roman made Virgil lie there, flustered and helpless, and oh so terribly lee, and wait as he read out tease after tease that Virgil reblogged from his Tumblr, and even read the comments from the lee himself. Virgil wished with every second of every minute spent lying on that bed he had never made that Tumblr account.Â
 After ten or so teases, Roman finally, mercifully, put the phone away. Virgil sighed in relief. Finally! He was going to be tickled to his limits, then past them, then have them pushed even further. He didnât just want to be broken. He didnât just want to be destroyed. No, he wanted so much more.
 Roman marched up to the table and placed both hands on Virgilâs thighs. âSo, a little birdie told me you like baby talk,â he teased. Virgil blushed, which Roman took for a yes. âSo would a, oh I donât know, little kitchy, kitchy, coo would get you all flustered, hm? A little-â his voice dropped an octave. âTickle, tickle, tickle~â his face morphed to a maniacal grin.Â
 Virgil's face turned crimson as he wiggled around on the table. âNoho!â He barked out a laugh. Roman raised his eyebrows in surprise.
 âNo? Hmm. What about nursery rhymes, huh? You sure liked the ones I sang to you earlier this month! Do you want to hear some of those? âCause I got some good ones~â Roman whipped out a feather seemingly out of nowhere and waved it teasingly in front of Virgilâs nose. Virgil yelped at the sensation.
 âI have a little feather,â sang out Roman, his voice rising and falling with the feather. âHis name is Tiny Tim. I used him on my lee, to see if he would grin.â He winked at Virgil who just blushed deeper. âI drank up all the laughter, it made him buck and squeal, and now heâs nice and flustered,â Another wink. âHis smile is so real.âÂ
 Virgil was already softly giggling at the song, and it only encouraged Roman to keep going. âYou got a little giggle button, right? I have another fun song, just. for. him!â he cheered, punctuating each word with a poke to his bellybutton, making Virgil squeal each time.Â
 He took the feather and ran it in a large teasy circle all around the vast expanse of vulnerable tummy. âRing around the belly, a button full of jelly,â he heard Virgil snort when the feathers hit a particular spot on his waistline. â-tickle, tickle, they all fall down!â Roman ended the verse with several flicks of the fluffy feather to Virgilâs bellybutton, causing him to buck and laugh, but it was still technically soft tickles. Virgil didnât want soft tickles right now.
 âRohohoho,â he whined through the giggles. Roman ignored him.Â
 âLetâs see. Oh, hereâs another favorite of mine!â He cleared his throat and lifted the feather again. âOh head, shoulders, knees and toes, knees and toes! Head, shoulders, knees and toes, knees and toes~â He ran the feather all over the respective places, and it didnât tickle much, but Romanâs plan was working. Virgil was getting more and more flustered, and more and more ticklish.Â
 âOh feet, tummies, arms and chins, arms and chins. Feet, tummies, arms and chins, arms and chins~â Roman watched in glee as Virgilâs face turned darker and darker with each song, and how even though the tickling was so light, his giggles were still sharp.
 All of a sudden, with zero warning, Roman ditched the feather and attacked Virgilâs tummy with all ten fingers. âOh, sheâll be tickling Virgil senseless when she comes! Sheâll be tickling Virgil senseless when she comes-â Virgil fell into deep belly laughter as he thrashed and pulled desperately. âSheâll be tickling Virgil senseless, sheâll be tickling Virgil senseless, sheâll be tickling Virgil senseless when she comes!âÂ
 Virgil had never felt more embarrassed in his life, but that made the tickling so much more fun. After two more verses, Roman stopped. Virgil whined again at the loss of contact.Â
 Roman chuckled. âYou really are a hopeless lee, arenât you?â
 Virgil scrunched his nose. âShut up.â
 Romanâs eyebrows raised in an accusatory way. âDo you want to say that again?â
 âWhat? Shut up?â snarked Virgil, trying to wind him up to get wrecked and forced to apologize, but unfortunately, Roman saw right through his plan.
 âWow. You really are desperate. Stooping so low as to provoke me to lash out and wreck you right this minute?â Roman tisked lightly. âImagine! You honestly think that Iâm going to fall for the oldest trick in the book? I hate to break it to you, Stormcloud, but Iâm far more experienced than you think I am,â he added, shaking his head in disapproval. âI ought to make you wait longer just for that.â
 Virgil gasped and shook his head desperately. âNo, no, please no! Iâm sorry!â
 Roman shook his head again. âPoor little lee. So desperate youâve lost your dignity. Here you are, begging like this for me to so horribly wreck you until you canât even remember your own name.â Despite his words of disapproval, he smiled. âOh course, I donât blame you. I am very talented so I understand your eagerness. For that reason, I will grant mercy and not punish you for your lousy attempts at brattiness.â
 Virgil let out the biggest sigh of relief imaginable. At last! He was going to be wrecked!
 âBut I still have one more game before we start.â
 Virgil threw his head back onto the bed with such a force it almost hurt. âOh my gosh, Roman please,â he begged, whining at a new frequency.
 Roman sighed. âOne more! You can do it. I have to make sure your ticklish little body is at optimal sensitivity! So, hereâs an easy game to finish you off.â He walked around to the side of the bed. âJust gotta warm you up,â he winked before wiggling his fingers menacingly above Virgil. Virgil asked, and sucked in his stomach, but Roman simply drew in closer. The fingers were so tantalizingly close to the tickle spot, and Virgil swore he felt them already. And in his mind, he pleaded and begged with Roman to hurry up and get on with it already, but on the outside he was completely stunned into silence.Â
 Until Roman did a fake out.
 Roman launched his wiggling fingers at Virgil full speed without any sort of warning, and Virgil lost it. He laughed, he snorted, he cackled, and he squealed. He jerked and thrashed all over his limited free space for a whole minute until he realized. Romanâs hands were behind his back, as he watched Virgil with the most evil look you could imagine.
 âYou're awful!â screeched Virgil, both mortified by his own reaction, and furious at Romanâs trick. Roman laughed out loud.
 âHmm, okay, okay. Iâll wreck you now. Besides, I canât just keep you here, endlessly teasing and torturing you forever?â He paused with a smirk. âActually-â
 âRoman!â Virgil cried out, laughing in both frustration at his lee mood, and anticipation from what was coming.
 Roman laughed at his panic. âIâm just kidding, jeez. You poor lee. Alright, Iâll wreck you, on the one condition you tell me your worst spots.â
 Virgilâs eyes turned to saucers. âI-what?â
 âYou heard me! Give me those death spots or else no tickles~â he sang, thinking the nerves were from his tease.
 But strangely, Virgil turned more bashful, rather than flustered. It was almost a sheepish look on his face that replaced the embarrassment. That certainly got Romanâs attention.
 âWhatâs wrong?â he asked, eyebrows furrowing in slight concern. Virgil scrunched his face up and looked down.
 âI-I well, I donât know what my worst spots are,â he replied with a shy smile.
 Roman was confused for about two seconds before it dawned on him. âYou-â he stared in utter wonderment. âYouâve never tickled before, have you?â
 Virgilâs face flushed under the attention. âWell, yeah, no not really,â he mumbled sheepishly.
 Oh, this was a game changer. Roman beamed. âYou mean to tell me, Iâm your first time?â Virgil smiled again, and nodded hesitantly. Roman had never been so excited in his life. âWell then, I guess we have work to do!â he commented, a wicked grin and a twinkle shining in his eye.
 Roman turned and walked down to the end of the bed, clicking his tongue as he examined the body in front of him. âI suppose the best thing to do would be to either go bottom to top, or top to bottom.â He tilted his head up at Virgil while smiling. âWould you by any chance have a preference?â
 Virgil huffed. âI guess, I donât know. Bottom to top?â he suggested, more or so not caring as he really just wanted to be wrecked already. Roman clapped.
 âPerfect! That means I get to play with your cute little feet!â he cheered. Virgil blushed. Roman held tight of the right footâs ankle and took the same pointer finger and carefully slid it from the tippy top of the toes all the way down to the heel. Virgil immediately started his giggles anew, wiggling his upper body at the light touches. âOh good! It seems youâre ticklish here! What else can we try?âÂ
 Roman soon added the other four fingers into the fray and began ruthlessly scratching up and down and all around the soft tender arches, making Virgil snort and fall into deeper laughter at the feeling. He tickled all around the foot, being very thorough and detailed in his methods, making sure not one inch of ticklish skin was left unscathed. Then, without warning, he moved up to the toes. He wiggled each little toe and scolded them if they curled up. Eventually, he pulled them back and gave them a good scratching underneath as punishment for their misbehavior. Virgil thrashed like nobodyâs business, finally getting exactly what he wanted, and it was so much better then he had ever thought. And he certainly didnât complain when Roman informed him that his other foot was getting left out, and needed the same tickly treatment.
 After both feet were thoroughly assaulted (Roman may have had to go back to the right foot again, it seemed to be getting lonely), he spidered his fingers all the way up to Virgilâs knees. Virgil smiled in anticipation, bouncing his leg as he waited.Â
 âAh yes, the knees. Such an underrated tickle spot! Very few people think about the knees being so terribly ticklish, but they can be! It all starts with this little pressure point, riiiight here.â Roman began rapidly wheezing the muscle right above Virgil knee, making him fall into deep laughter. âOh wonderful!â shouted Roman above the loud laughter. âIt seems as if your knees are just as horridly sensitive as I thought!â His squeezing fingers quickly switched to spidering ones, and darted right on the underneath of his knees, sending Virgil snorting.
 Roman awed at the adorable sounds. âAww, arenât you just the cutest little thing? Are my tickly, tickly tickles making you giggle, hm?â he cooed, relishing in the deep red color that was Virgilâs face and the tiny snorts mixed in with the hysterical giggles.
 âNohohohoho!â Virgil giggled out, trying to kick his legs but the restraints keeping every inch of ticklish skin in place.
 âNo?â questioned Roman. âWell, thatâs a shame! Why donât we try something else then,â he pondered and immediately grabbed the young manâs thighs, squeezing sporadically and rapidly every area of muscle. Virgilâs eyes bulged out as he flung himself to sit up right and cackle.
 Romanâs eyes lit up with mischief at the extremity of Virgilâs reaction. âOh, what's this? Does this tickle? Are you ticklish here?â he asked, the teasing lilt in his voice making the ruthless squeezing at his thighs all the worse. Virgil fell back on to the bed to wheeze with laughter when Roman moved up closer to his hips. âVirgil!â scolded Roman. âHello! Iâm talking to you! Does this tickle?â he asked again, not for one second stopping the wretched attack on the loathsomely sensitive muscle.
 When Virgil still didnât reply, Roman felt a spike of worry, and slowed his squeezing fingers just a little. Virgilâs wheezy laughter died down, until it was more or less hysterical giggles.Â
 âYes!â Virgil called out. Roman was confused for a minute until he remembered the question he had asked a few minutes earlier. He took his hands off his legs, leaving Virgil limp and giggly.Â
 âOh good! See I guessed it did, but I was just checking,â he winked. âCongratulations, Virgil. I think you might have your first death spot.âÂ
 Virgil weakly held up a thumbs up, his giddy smile bright enough to blind someone. Roman smiled at him softly. âHow about we take a break?â So he sat next to Virgil on the bed, gently rubbing his shin comfortingly, waiting for Virgil to regain all the breath heâd lost until finally-
 âUm, I think Iâm ready to go again,â piped up the younger man. Roman grinned.Â
 âYou sure?â Virgil nodded eagerly. Roman leaned next to Virgilâs ear, making him squeak. Oh heâd have to remember that.Â
 âWell then,â he purred, his voice sending shivers down Virgilâs spine. âAllow me to continue your destruction.â He peered down the bed where Virgil was stretched out, and examined it carefully like a puzzle. He walked down the side to the right of his hips. âNow if my memory serves me, correct me-â Roman began, but Virgil barked out a laugh. Roman glared at him. âWhat?â
 âDude, what did you say?â he asked, laughing again. Roman crossed his arms.
 âIf my memory serves me, correct me. Itâs a saying!â Virgil burst out laughing again. âWhat?!â
 âThe saying is, âIf my memory serves me, correctly,â not correct me,â he teased, still laughing at Romanâs miss interpretation.Â
 âOkay, yeah, laugh it up, Virgil,â he retorted, immediately squeezing his right thigh again. Promptly the teasing man burst into laughter at the feeling, and proceeded to howl on the bed. âDonât correct me again!â he playfully scolded before ceasing the tickling.Â
 Roman crawled up on the bed in between Virgil legs in hopes of being able to navigate better. âNow, I say we try hips next. Some people overlook it, but they look wonderfully ticklish to me~â he sang, already the tone giving Virgil the giggles. Roman grinned at the pink color once again rising to his cheeks. âAww, does mentioning the tickly tickles making you a little neeeervous?â he sang again, whilst skimming the skin of his waist and pant line. Virgilâs giggles greatly increased from both the tickling and the teasing alike, as he began wiggling around in the bed.
 Romanâs scratching fingers followed the wiggly hips with great ease, smiling in adoration as he listened to the sweet soft giggles come from his captive. âYouâre adorable,â he commented without really thinking.Â
 âNuhnuhnuhuhu uhuhuhuh!â the giggling man protested, yet his denial only further proved Romanâs point.
 âYeah huh!â argued Roman. âAlright enough softness, I want to watch you scream.â He put on his best evil ler face as he watched Virgil turn a bright crimson at the threat.
 Roman crawled up further until he was practically sitting on Virgilâs hips. âSo, letâs test the waters for what are the vast expanse that is Virgilâs tickle spots, shall we?â Virgil pulled up his legs out of reflex, but they were blocked by Romanâs back. He whined.
 âOh, whatever is the matter, dear?â he cooed, leaning in so close Virgil could feel his breath on his neck and ear. The man made a strangled noise in reply. âIâm sorry, darling, I donât speak lee. Would you mind rephrasing your statement?âÂ
 Virgil just shut his eyes, trying to smother the wobbly grin that was slowly creeping up onto his face. Roman took that as a sign to continue.Â
 He spidered his fingers up to Virgilâs sides, and kept them there, smiling as Virgil shuffled all over the bed in anticipation. âGohohoho ohohohon, alreheheady!â he giggled out.
 âIs that anyway to ask for something?â Roman playfully scolded moments before digging into the boyâs sides. Virgil bucked and burst into giggles, thrashing and pulling. Roman didnât stop for even a second, mercilessly tickling, squeezing and scratching all over the sides and even migrating to the soft skin of the belly. Virgil was in proper hysterics and was loving every minute of it.
 âAww, arenât you just the cutest thing! What? Whatâs the matter? Are you ticklish?â Roman teased, digging into the lower belly. Virgil squealed, and fell into even deeper laughter as Roman took to blowing raspberry after raspberry onto Virgilâs poor ticklish tummy. Virgil was in tickly heaven, for sure, but he still hadnât been broken yet. And that was fine, but his growing hunger still hadnât been filled, and he couldnât help but wish deep down that there was somewhere to truly make him scream. He contemplated asking Roman to go for his thighs again.
 But then.
 As Roman paused the tickling on his sides and began to feel around, something happened.Â
 Virgil could only possibly describe it as maybe a jolt of euphoric electricity that shocked him into the pit of his stomach. Something that found the roaring lion that was his lee mood and slapped it in the face. Something that sent shivers to his spine and butterflies to his stomach. Something that made him shriek at the mere feeling of Romanâs presence. If Romanâs dastardly laughter upon finding the spot was any indication, Virgil was screwed.
 âWell, looky here,â he noted, looking up at Virgil with a gleam in his eye, further confirming the reality that Virgil was about to experience. âIt seems weâve found something.âÂ
 Roman tested the spot again: a rib, nestled warmly in between a tiny layer of fat, and the beginning of his armpit. He sharply poked the rib, eliciting a similar shriek as before. Virgilâs eyes grew like saucers as he fought with his own mind on how he felt. Was he terrified? Was the overwhelming amount of ticklish sensations about to course through his body like an electric current terrifying? Or was he excited? That after all these years of begging and pleading for someone to come into his life and do this very thing to him?Â
 Virgil didnât have time to decide, as Roman promptly dug in.
 Virgil said he wanted to scream, and scream he did. His body was too overwhelmed to even thrash at this point, no, it merely fell limp and took every bit of torture Roman was giving to it. Roman took his pointer finger and thumb, making them into a claw motion, and pinching all over the bone. He pinched up and down, left to right, and repeated the sequence, soaking in every plea and beg and cry from Virgil. He wiggled in between the bone, and even took to scratching the armpits as well. Virgil was happily losing his mind. But it wasnât over.
 No, because out of nowhere, Roman pulled from under the bed a bottle of oil, and immediately began pouring it into his hands. Virgil greedily sucked in the oxygen as he waited for Roman to start again. His eyes followed him, watching Roman complete his moves with an eagerness about him. He was ready.
 Virgil only had to wait a minute longer before Roman took his sweet time, slowly covering every inch of both armpits in the slippery liquid, purposely sliding his fingers and nails in such a way to make Virgil start to laugh. And then with both hands, he dug in again.Â
 Oh, if he thought it was bad before, no, this was true torture. The oil made the fingers glide pristinely on the sensitive skin, and thereby ticking seemingly everywhere at once. Roman still concentrated on squeezing both top rib bones on either side at the same time, while allowing the nails to scratch along the armpits and other ribs as he did it.Â
 And Virgil screamed. He screamed and screamed louder than he had ever before. He couldnât even be concerned at the fact they were living in an apartment, and if they neighbors would be worried. Virgil screeched at the top of his lungs, his voice no longer even saying words or please at this point, just pure unshackled ecstasy in waves unmeasurable. He screamed and laughed his voice hoarse, kicking and tugging in desperation to escape the torture he was being subjected to.
 âSo,â commented Roman nonchalantly, yet very loudly to be heard over the booming laughter. âI was wondering if you could give me a quick performance review. You know, it is my first time and all.â
 âAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA-â
 âOkay, so thatâs not too bad. Anything else?â
 Virgil silently screamed as he felt Roman vibrate his fingers into both bones once more.
 âOh good! Well, I appreciate your input, thank you.â
 Virgil was loving every solitary second of this, after all, this is what he had wanted. He wanted exactly this. But, unfortunately, he needed to breathe. So he called out.
 âYEL-â he stopped mid screech, his own laughter cutting him off. Roman stopped immediately.Â
 âWas that yellow?â he asked, face contorting with worry. Virgil didnât answer at first, only focused on taking in as much oxygen as he could get.Â
 âYeheheah,â he replied, the leftover giggles still dying out.
 Romanâs evil ler face melted as a fond one replaced it. âWow, Iâm impressed. Thatâs definitely your death spot, and you only called out yellow. I could never last as long as you did,â he marveled.Â
 Even with as winded as Virgil was, he was still trying to tease back. âOho, so you have a death spot, then?â he teased with a smirk. Roman blushed.
 âOh shut up. Just so you know, you still technically havenât called red yet,â he retorted cockily. Virgil nodded before laying his head down for a minute to rest. âDo you want water?â Roman asked him.Â
 Virgil shook his head. âNo, Iâm almost done. Iâd rather not get up then get back down.â His insatiable lee mood was shrinking drastically. But, there was one more thing he wanted. âSo, um,â he looked up at Roman sheepishly. âCan I do a request?âÂ
 Roman smiled fondly. âOf course. This is your session after all.âÂ
 Virgil fidgeted as much as he could despite his hands being tied. âSo, I kind of have a favorite spot. Like, after you tickled me. I realized I might have a favorite.â
 Romanâs heart practically burst on the spot. âOh yeah? Let me hear it.â
 Virgil wrinkled his nose in embarrassment, and stayed quiet for a minute. Roman chuckled. âCome on little lee, I canât help you out if you donât ask,â he cooed, gently spidering his fingers on the tops of his feet, making him let out a quick giggle at the touch.Â
 âOhohokay, okay. Um,â he looked away bashfully. âCan you go back to, back to my stomach? You, you can tease. Too. If you want, or whatever,â he added quickly, still refusing to look Roman in the eye. Roman beamed.
 âWhy, I would love to.â
 Roman sat down next to Virgil, and actually undid his cuffs, much to Virgilâs surprise. âAlright, now keep your arms up,â he whispered, sending a pink flush to his cheeks.Â
 âW-what?â he giggled shyly. Roman poked his tummy.Â
 âYou heard me. You gotta keep them up aaaaall by yourself.âÂ
 Virgil giggled again, and cautiously raised his arms above his head and gripped the headboard. âOkay, Iâm ready.âÂ
 Roman nodded with a smile and began lightly skittering his fingernails all over Virgilâs quivering tummy. Virgil immediately burst into soft, sweet giggles, the ones he could probably stop if he tried, but definitely didnât want to, and rocked back and forth onto the bed. Roman kept the fingers teasing his sides gently, then lifted up his shirt slightly and started peppering cute little kisses all over the pale skin. Virgil squealed lightly and giggled slightly harder at the wonderfully maddening feeling, drinking in every bit of feeling he could.Â
 Finally after about ten minutes, Virgil slowly lowered his arms from the headboard and Roman stopped. Overwhelming exhausted overcame him like an ocean and he yawned. âThank you, Roman. This was the best day of my life.â Roman smiled at the compliment.
 âWhy Iâm so happy it was, Virgil. We will certainly do it again.â He stood up to leave, but Virgil grabbed his arm.Â
 âStay with me?â he asked, pulling on his arm like a child. Roman chuckled.
 âOf course.â
 And the two of them napped together, each so peaceful and happy in that they found each other, and waking up wondering if it was all just a dream.
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Where Is Your Guilt || Kyle and Bex (ft. Morgan)
TIMING: Current PARTIES: @darkh0wl @inbextween and @mor-beck-more-problems SUMMARY: Bex and Kyle meet up at the campus cafÊ to try and relieve each other of their guilt. Narrator voice: It went poorly. CONTENT: PTSD flashback, Panic attack, Sad wolf boi and sad witch gorl
Bex paced. Her chest was pounding with nerves. It didnât hurt so much today, it was getting better, really. It didnât hurt so much. She could do this, she could see Kyle. She could, really. She just had to keep telling herself that she was safe, that this was okay. That he wasnât going to hurt her. Of course he wasnât. This was nothing like the circumstances that brought the incident on. There was no mind link, no essay to write, no panic attack. No anger, no moon, no night. It was the middle of the day, in a crowded cafe. Well, not crowded. Bex didnât like crowded places and she assume Kyle wouldnât either. Especially for this. She paced outside because sitting seemed too hard right now, even if her chest was beginning to hurt from all the movement. She rubbed it and paused and tried to collect herself. She needed to calm down, lest her magic go haywire again. She couldnât let it hurt him again. A familiar voice, Bex looked up. Across the way, Kyle was heading towards her. She wanted to run to him, to hug him, to reassure him everything was okay-- but something glued her to her spot and her entire body froze up.Â
Kyle had debated not coming. He had debated laying in bed forever and deleting Bexâs number. That was stupid. Of course he had to come, he nearly killed her. The least he could do was show up (in a well lit, well populated area,) and apologize to her face. If he could even look her in the eye after what heâd done. He had sat in his Jeep, staring at the wheel and willing himself to get out of the car. He had taken his time making sure he didnât look like the sleepless zombie he felt himself to be. When he thought he could keep Bex waiting no longer, Kyle took a deep breath to ground himself, and he headed toward the cafe on the UMWC campus. It wasnât as heavily populated as he had hoped. Maybe extra eyes on him could have been incentive enough to keep his shit together. That was fine, he would just have to keep himself calm. That was doable. As he approached, he called out. âBex! Hey.â At least she knew he was coming this time. He hoped that when he waved, she couldnât tell how badly his hands shook. He shoved his hands in his pockets to try to mask the anxious shaking. âHow are you?â he asked, as he closed the distance between them, concern written across his face.
Bex stepped back as Kyle approached. She didnât mean to, but she did, and her back hit the door as someone pushed it open and she jumped away, apologizing profusely. She turned back to Kyle, her hands were already shaking. She immediately knew-- this was a bad idea. This was a terrible idea. She looked at him and she saw red eyes glowing and she heard his voice in her head-- Prey, hunt, kill-- and she felt claws in her chest. She tried to open her mouth to respond but couldnât get anything out. Drew in a breath in an attempt to calm herself down. This wasnât that. This wasnât then. She was fine. She was fine. âIâm-- okay. Iâm doing-- Iâm-- fine.â She withdrew her arms and tucked them tightly over her chest, folding into herself. âI--â her eyes tried their best to scan the boy. He looked okay, physically, but she knew he wasnât. He couldnât be. He was hit by a car. He was forced to change into a rabid animal. He had almost killed her. Bex took another step away. âAre you? O-okay? Please just...tell me y-youâre not taking all this on a-alone?â
Something about Bexâs body language was off. Kyleâs brow knitted together and he listened carefully to her. He swallowed the lump that was forming in his throat and nodded. âFine,â he said, his voice sounding more hoarse than he expected. He cleared his throat, looking down at his feet. âIâm doing fine.â Kyleâs hands were clenched into fists in his pockets. It was hard to look at her because some animalistic part of his brain still wanted to see prey. He had to take a steadying breath when he looked back up at Bex. âIâm-- I mean I guess Iâm alone. Itâs okay. You-- How are you doing with things? Are--are you healing?â His eyes drifted over Bex. The way she hugged her own chest broke his heart. He did that to her. What if they had never been in the library at the same time? Would things have shook out the way they did? Would Bex be better off? He looked down at his feet again in an attempt to make Bex feel like she wasnât staring down the barrel of a loaded gun. âDo you want to sit?â he mumbled at the ground.
So they were both liars then, huh? Bex didnât know what to do anymore. Morgan had been right, this was a bad idea. Wasnât she always right? Had Bex really not learned that lesson by now? She shook off the thoughts and looked over at Kyle. He looked almost as afraid and in pain as she was. He hid it better. She tucked her chin into her shoulder. âYouâre not fine,â she muttered, turning to look around at the patio outside. Did she want to sit? No, she wanted to leave. Her heart was beginning to pound in her chest again. Her throat felt tight. Her body shook in a cold sweat. âYou shouldnât b-be alone. Itâs not fair. I-- you deserve to have people helping you. Please, please donât--â she paused, swallowed, âdonât take this all on yourself. It-- itâs my fault, t-too. Please.â She begged, finally feeling brave enough to step towards him. She reached out, unfurling her arms. She wanted so bad to reassure him, but, instead, a vision flashed before her eyes. The alley, the angry wolf. Running. Cold, hard ground on her back. She saw his eyes and his teeth and claws-- and she screamed.Â
âNo, no,â Kyle began, shaking his head. âI donât want to hear about how itâs your fault. Itâs not.â He could hear the way her heartbeat picked up. He hadnât even been listening for it, but became aware of it as it sped up. She wasnât doing okay, and it was his fault. She was panicking and it was his fault. Kyle was ready to call the whole thing quits. He wanted to turn and walk away right now. This had been a bad idea, and he shouldnât have agreed to it last night. Truthfully, heâd only agreed because it seemed like it might make her feel better. He had hoped sheâd bring Mina or Morgan or, hell, even Nell. He hadnât wanted her to come alone. But here they were, and Bex was trying to tell him not to take this on alone and that it was her fault. That hurt to hear. Kyle had sincerely fucked this girlâs whole life up in one go, hadnât he? He took her whole world and just flipped it on its head because he couldnât keep his cool for five fucking minutes. âBex, this isnât your fault,â he said, closing his eyes. He opened his mouth to say something more, but then Bex was screaming. Kyleâs eyes flew back open and he froze. The same feeling started rising in his chest; he began to feel that familiar, but pressing, urge to shift. Breathe. Breathe. âBreathe.â Was he saying that outloud? Fuck.
No, this wasnât happening. This couldnât happen again. This wasnât the same. Breathe. Bex put her hands over her ears and sank to the ground. It was happening again. It was happening again. It was like waking up from all of her nightmares of it again, and again, and again. There was a pressure on her chest again and she gasped for breath. Breathe. Who was saying that? Was she saying that? Tear filled eyes looked around wildly. She saw faces, but they blurred into street lights. She remembered how they flickered above her. Remembered how theyâd cast shadows onto the wolf as it charged from the alley and right towards her. âStop it!â she shouted, reaching out and shoving whoever was in front of her. Hands found purchase on something solid and she pushed herself up, trying to get away from the alley-- the building. She needed space. She needed to breathe. She collapsed just shy of the grass, on her hands and knees, clutching her chest. Had she made it far enough away? She could feel magic seeping from her hands. The grass in front of her decayed in an instant. The sidewalk cracked under her fingertips. She needed to calm down. She couldnât calm down. She put her head in her hands again and curled into a ball. This had been such a bad idea. She wished sheâd never came. She wished sheâd never met Kyle. She wished she didnât have magic.
The push was unexpected, and Kyle stumbled backwards, landing on his butt. He barely felt it, eyes locked on Bex. At this point, Kyle was aware that spellcasters existed. He knew the effects magic could have on two people; the way it could make two divergent paths become one. He knew that Nell had healed Bex, too, and that it wasnât always destructive. But something about seeing it right in front of his eyes--the way the grass just up and died, the way the sidewalk fractured like fault lines--made him feel as if he werenât real. Mouth agape, Kyle stared at her for a long moment, before he jolted back to his senses and went to her side. âBex? Bex, itâs--itâs okay, Iâm--I wonât hurt you. I donât want to hurt you.â That sick little instinct at the back of his mind called him a liar. He did want to hurt her. He wanted to attack her again. But watching Bex curl up like that had him shaking his head. He had to stop thinking and do something about this. He knelt down beside her and tentatively put a shaking hand on her shoulder. âI wonât hurt you again I--I canât hurt you again. Itâs okay!â Should he call someone? Should he leave? He couldnât leave her like this, right? This was his fault, he needed to fix it. He needed to do something.Â
She knew. Logically, she knew. He wasnât going to hurt her. He wasnât. Really. Hadnât she told Morgan that? And Mina? And Nell? So, then, why didnât she believe it. Her heart seized again at the sound of his voice. Bex doubled over, clutching her stomach. She felt sick. Her body was shaking, she couldnât control her thoughts anymore. âGo away!â she shouted into the grass. Her body shimmered, glowed, a hazy piece of herself breaking away for only a moment. She wanted out of this moment. She wanted to run away. âDonât touch me!â She didnât even notice the bystanders at the cafe staring them down. Discussing whether to call campus security or the police or the medical staff. Bexâs breathing began to wheeze, as if she couldnât get enough air to her lungs. The nearby lamps began to hum with the low pulse of energy. She needed to reign herself in, she was going to hurt someone again. But every time she opened her eyes, she just saw the wolf atop her. Teeth sharp, eyes full of bloodlust. He wanted to kill her. He was going to kill her. She could remember the thoughts echoing in her head. Prey. Hunt. Kill. âStop, please!â she cried out. âPlease, I donât want to die, please.â And she hadnât meant to, but she couldnât control herself, could she? But her mind, her magic, it made them all see. Everyone nearby. Flashes of the wolf. The pain sheâd felt as claws dug into her chest. The fear sheâd felt when she was sure he was going to kill her. Now, she wasnât the only one screaming. âMake it stop,â she sobbed, âplease make it stop.â
Running his hands through his hair, Kyle stood up and backed away from Bex. This was bad. This was really, really bad. She hated him, and that thought was making him spiral. He dragged his hands over his face. âFocus, focus, focus.â He had to call someone who knew what they were doing. His hands fumbled for his phone, and he called Morgan, thanking the gods that heâd saved her number the day he was in the art studio. The second Morgan picked up, Kyle was already speaking. âMorgan, itâs Kyle. The campus cafe, you need--Bex--sheâs-- Get here. Now.â He couldnât keep the feeling at bay for much longer, though he was surprised with himself that heâd been able to at all. He was going to shift, and it was going to happen soon, if he didnât calm down. He just needed to wait for Morgan to get here. Then he could go. Morgan just had to get here.
Morgan was in her office when she got the call. She didnât pack up her things so much as she shoved as much as she could with one sweep of her arm, and everything left, books, charging cables, Pyrex, papers, whatever the hell, didnât matter. She took the steps two at a time, shamelessly shoving students and faculty out of her way until she could sprint down the quad to the cafe.Â
âBex!â She called. Kyle paced fastidiously nearby, his body hunched and tense. Which made the shape face-planted in the ground Bex. âBexley!â She dropped her bag, tired of it banging and rattling uselessly against her side. Then she threw herself onto the girl, wrapping her up and pulling her up. âBex, hey-- Honey, hey--â Bex thrashed in her arms, shaking with panic and terror. Morgan bundled her tighter against her chest. She looked up at Kyle, pleading for answers. âWhat happened? Is she hurt? Did you do something?â Around her, lights groaned and flickered. Sparks flew out from the nearest lamp. At the cafe tables, students were trembling and whimpering, an eerie chorus, out of tune in a way that reminded her of the worst of fae magic. âTell me whatâs happening!â
Bex felt something pulling her up and she lashed out, thrashing. âDonât!â she cried out, not seeing who it was, not knowing who it was. âDonât touch me!â But the grip just tightened. She cried out in anguish, lost in the memory that was consuming her mind. Pressure, like on her chest, claws digging in. She pushed and shoved and squirmed but she couldnât get away. She couldnât get away. She was losing control. She didnât want to hurt anyone. She didnât mean to hurt anyone. She inhaled sharply-- a lamp finally shattered. Exhaled-- the sidewalk splintered more, like tremors in the ground. Her body shook inside the vice grip she knew she couldnât escape. âPlease donât,â she begged, she pleaded, her eyes seeing straight through Morgan, straight through Kyle, and looking up at the wolf, âplease donât kill me.âÂ
There wasnât time to answer Morganâs questions. Not with all these innocent people around. Not with Bex reliving what heâd already done to her. Not with the kindness Morgan had shown him when he least deserved it. âShe-- I donât know, Morgan! I donât know! She was screaming and sheâs--Itâs me! I-itâs happening again, and I canât let it.â He couldnât breathe. His eyes glinted in the light cast from the sparks that showered down from the lamps around them. âI have to go,â Kyle said breathlessly. He was already discarding his jacket and shoes and phone and keys beside Morganâs bag. He couldnât afford to buy new clothes every time this happened, and it was happening with an unexpected frequency as of late. He had to go. âIâm sorry,â he whimpered, turning and running for the forest as quickly as he could.Â
It hurt. His body was still so sore, his skin still so raw. No time. Canât breathe. Kyle hadnât made it more than ten yards into the woods--his shirt and pants discarded just beyond the treeline--before he was stumbling to his knees. His claws dug into the earth. What if he was still too close? He could hear Bexâs screams in the not so far distance. What if he turned around to go back after them? What if he couldnât stop this time? There wasnât enough time to follow that line of thinking all the way to the conclusion before Kyle was fully shifting. It took him a few minutes to recover. He took in a deep breath and he could smell fear. Kyle rounded on his heels, ears pricked as he listened intently. Please donât kill me. He stilled. Head up, eyes darting around in search of an easy meal, Kyle slowly stalked forward. Suddenly, a twig snapped behind him. He whipped around, spotting a wolpertinger crouched under some low brush. The beast took off, Kyle took off after it, and he was gone.
âKyle, no. Kyle, wait!â Morgan cried. But he was long gone and as much as it pained her to see him retreating, shamefaced over something he couldnât carry, it was a lot easier to deal with one superpowered oversized kid than two. Morgan sighed, lamenting silently. (Someone had to do better for him, someone had to care for him, show him that he didnât have to make such a mess or be so alone.) Then she turned the rest of her attention on Bex.Â
âHey,â she cooed. âYouâre safe, Bex. No one is going to hurt you. Iâve got you. Youâre safe, and youâre here with me.â She spoke her words softly and steadily into the girlâs ear, the way Deirdre did for her during her worst moments. âYouâre with me. Youâre safe. And youâre not in that alley, youâre here. You have to breathe until you find your way back to me, honey. Can you breathe a little slower, like I showed you?â Morgan tapped the rhythm on her arm and squeezed her tighter still. If she dislocated something, sheâd pop it back into place and apologize later.
Words began to break through her facade. Youâre with me, youâre safe. Youâre not in that alley. Bex slammed her eyes shut and did her best to listen to them, panting with exhaustion as she tried her best to breath. In for three, out for five. A steady rhythm being tapped on her arm. The grip around her tightening, shifting from a painful reminder, to a place where she knew she was safe. The arms were cold, the grip was warm. Morgan. Bex inhaled sharply as she suddenly snapped from her flashback, blinking rapidly. She tried her best not to hyperventilate, sucking in air, collapsing into Morganâs arm from the stiff, frightened ball sheâd tried to curl into before. She let her entire weight lean against Morgan, clutching her chest as she tried to breathe. Just breathe. Kyleâs words. Just breathe. Sheâd done it again. Sheâd ruined everything again. She shouldâve just stayed home. She didnât cry this time, just let her body grow limp against Morgan. âIâm sorry,â she wheezed, finally finding enough air in her lungs to speak, âI made it worse. Iâm sorry.â Monotone words mumbled into her shoulder. âIâm sorry.â Her eyes lifted to the treeline, off behind Morganâs shoulder. Kyle was spiraling into a world of hurt and loneliness and it was all her fault. Sheâd find a way to fix it. Sheâd do better next time. Sheâd fix it even if it meant tearing herself apart.
#chatzy#wickedswriting#too much too soon#chatzy: kyle#chatzy: morgan#kyle#morgan#//OKAY this is probably the last one for now#/for now/#anyway it's short and sweet :)#so soft :))
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EXO D.O.:A little Jealous Part 2! (D.O. POV)
Previously I mentioned I might or might not do Ksooâs but I started writing out of fun and decided to complete it! I really liked this one, hope you guys will like it too! You might wanna do a fast read at part 1 again so it wouldnât seem too abrupt~
And for those that are new here, thereâs a Part 1 and Part 2 (Your POV) to this scenario! The part 2s can be read as a either or if you donât really wanna read both.
Part 1 Part 2 Your POV
Here it goes!
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Kyungsoo walked straight out of the door without thinking, letting his legs bring him to wherever was quiet. Heading for the elevator, he punched for the ground floor. Seeing an empty cafe as the elevator doors open, he sat down at an empty table trying to sort his thoughts.
The comments he saw kept running through his mind:
âCute!Ship ship!â
âLast long! Was waiting for you guys to make it official!!
âafter so long, finally?!â
A part of Kyungsoo wants to believe in you, surely this was a misunderstanding.
Yet the comments he saw didnât make sense to him. It made him afraid to give his trust, not wanting to feel like a fool if it turned out for the worst.
Kyungsoo canât help but compare himself with that guy in the picture. The guy sure looks taller than him and better built . He even had those looks that guys would take a second look at..
Pulling out his phone, he thought to type a text to you, but not sure what to say. Typing then deleting it again and again. Just then, Suhoâs call came in:
S: Kyungsoo-ya, the photographerâs wife got into an accident. Heâs postponing the remaining shoot to rush to the hospital. Weâre heading off , are you coming with us?
KS: uh okay. Hyung could you take my bag for me? Iâll meet you guys at the carpark.
â
In the van, everyone was tired after a long day and the van was quiet. But at the back, jongin and junmyeon sat beside Kyungsoo with some sort of tense silence.
âHyung, are you not going to ask Y/N about what happened?â Jongin asked
âKyungsoo ya, jongin is right. You sitting here and overthinking isnât going to solve the situation. Even though that guy is really handsome, youâre not goin to lose to him if y/n loves you. Text her or look for herâ
Junmyeonâs words hit kyungsoo right where it hurts. Making a decision, he asked the manager to drop him off when the van passed by your living estate.
Kyungsoo walked nervously to your apartment, not really sure what he should exactly do when he sees you. Before he knew it, he was already right in front of your door. Taking a breath in, he pressed the door bell.
âMinho ya!!â Came your voice from behind the door.
Hearing his girlfriend call another guyâs name so frantically made him feel just a little strange.
Looking up at you as you opened the door, he saw your look of surprise, or was it shock(?)
âOppa, why are you here ? Did your photoshoot end early? You didnât text me back tho...â
Though hearing your questions, he was not being able to hold back that feeling of discomfort bugging him to ask
âUh are you expecting someone? Minho?â
âOh right, speaking of which I dont need him now, let me drop him a text. Oppa come in and kill the bug for me please!!â His eyes dropped to your hands that were pulling his arm, making him feel fuzzy in a moment, then downcast again. How long as it been since you guys last met? So long that he almost forgot this feeling of warmth only you could give him.
With thoughts clouding his mind, he killed the bug, dumping it away without even speaking to you. Not because he didnât want to , but he doesnât know how to. Just then, you gave him a hug suddenly ,
âThank you, for killing the bugâ
Seeing that smile on your face reminded him just how lucky he was to have you and how much he hated these feelings of uncertainty and anxiousness right now.
Sitting down on the sofa together, you linked your arms with him, then suddenly breaking the silence.
âOppa, do you have something to tell me? You donât look particularly excited or happy to be here todayâ
Kyungsoo felt his throat going dry, thinking, itâs scary how easily you knew him inside out even though he was so indecipherable to other people...
Setting his mind to stop avoiding the issue, he reached for the water on the table, almost hoping the water would clean up his thoughts for him.
âI saw that picture. The one on instagram.â Not exactly having the courage to look at you, he glanced over your eyes quickly and waited for your reply.
âAh that.. sorry oppa, it was a dare I had to do at the team dinner, I tried so hard to avoid it but I couldnât say I was attached either.. â
Choosing not to be convinced just yet, kyungsoo added quickly
âBut the string of comments sure made it sound like you guys are the most popular ship in your school?â
He saw a small frown on your face briefly and his heart was pumping so loudly in his ears. What if .....
âOppa thatâs actually Minho in the picture. And you know we are just really close friends.â
At this Kyungsoo was a little taken aback. He did not expect that to be Minho. In your description, Minho was an over competitive loser and one thatâs always up to dumb things. This absolutely gave Kyungsoo a false impression that heâs just another childish guy out there or some lanky guy in the track team.
He tried to convince himself to be understanding afterall he knew deep down you both were just friends. But who was he kidding, he suddenly really hated the idea of you and Minho hanging out together everyday, giving everyone the false impression that you both are a couple.
Not being able to contain that internal conflict, he blurted out without thinking âI donât really like you hanging out with minho.â
Crap. Hearing his own voice saying it, he felt selfish and guilty, yet also raw and vulnerable because thatâs how he truly felt.
âOppa, you were always okay with minho and i hanging out. Why does us taking a picture change that!?â Seeing you suddenly getting up and raising your tone in exasperation, he knew he hit the trigger button.
But similarly, he was almost at his breaking point now. Not being able to keep his emotions under control anymore, he shot back
ây/n do you know how i felt looking at those comments?! I am not okay with the whole school thinking you both are together when youâre supposed to be my girlfriend!â and he too got up from the sofa in frustration.
âYa! Even if i am not friends with minho, I canât always avoid such situations! Because i canât tell anyone iâm attached, guys still hit on me and people think they can pair me up with random guys because they think iâm single!
To me, they can think whatever they want but minho is just a friend. Oppa, shouldnât you of all people understand this the most?â
Understand ? Is this how idols who date non idols communicate with their partners when they face scandals and what not? Who would have thought the situation would be reversed this way for himself ?
âYouâre asking me to understand when minho actually looks your ideal type? And i never knew about it?â
The words left his lips, seeming to surprise both you and him. He tried so hard to bury this insecurity inside him. But feeling all hurt and angry with himself, with this situation, he couldnât really hold it in to deal with it himself. When he first saw Minhoâs picture, even he had to admit minho was good looking. And now knowing someone like him was your close friend, he struggled to handle this truth.
âMy ideal type? If we wanted to get together, we would have long ago ok! Why would I get together with you then him?!â
At this it rendered him speechless. That âassuranceâ was not assurance at all as you both reach the peak of your argument and let silence rule the house. Scenarios of you and Minho hanging out together, having fun kept passing through his mind. How Minho was far better looking than him, far more fun than him, maybe even far more compatible with you than him were thoughts that rudely barge through his mind.
Feeling like this was more than what he could bear at the moment, he was about to walk away, but right there and then your hands wrapped around his waist, in between his arms, and leaning unto his chest. Though you did not say a thing, he understood your gesture of love. Overwhelmed with emotions, he muttered
âWhen I saw that picture, it felt like my nightmare came true. Every night i get worried that you would one day get tired of dating an idol.. Or even dating someone like me..
we donât spend alot of time together but you always get to be with minho.. so much that people think youâre both attached..â
He knew this sounded weak and clingy , someone he doesnât ever want to be in front of you. But your hug gave him courage to be honest, knowing that sometimes he doesnât have to pretend like he can hold everything together when he really couldnât. Through your hug, he knew that some of these insecurities were unfounded because he felt loved right at that moment. Yet the battle with his inner demons has not ended.
You pulled kyungsoo back down on the sofa and started
âoppa, i cannot promise you people will stop misunderstanding minho and i, but i will be more careful to draw a clearer line in our friendship for you.
and i never thought of minho as my ideal type or saw him in a way more than friends. i know it might not put you at ease hearing me say this, but can you trust me?
I have been friends with minho for many years and have met many guys too. But itâs you for me ok?â
Looking into your eyes, he quietly let the words you say sink in and thought inside âitâs you for me too, donât leaveâ
Poking him at his stomach, you continued
âthough you may not be the most attractive looking man out thereâŚâ
He knew you were joking, but he canât help feeling a little down at your words, until you gave him a peck on the cheek and continued
âbut you make me feel comfortable and special all at the same time. saranghae oppa, youâre the only one.â
At your words, he couldnât hold back his urge to pull you closer, resting his chin on your head he said
â Though i still donât feel the best about our situation and about minho, but i know we canât help this.. Just promise to stay with me pleaseâ
You raised your pinky finger and turned up to face him, replying brightly
â i promise you oppa!â
Linking your pinkies together, the storm inside kyungsoo finally cleared up today. Smiling back at you, he says the words he longs to say to you everyday till forever
âna do saranghaeâ
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Bnha x trans woman reader
A/N: I decided to write an x reader where the reader is a trans woman. To any trans woman reading this I just want you to know thAT I FĹŞCKING LOVE YOUđđđ¤đđđĽ°đđĽ°đđĽ°đ YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AND I WILL LITERALLY FIGHT ANYONE WHO HURTS YOU.
Warning: Cursing, Transphobia, mentions of Sex Reassignment Surgery, Gender Dysphoria. Karen
(Y/N): Your name
(D/N): Your dead name
Summary: It took a while for your parents to accept you for who you are, you just hoped your classmates and teachers would accept you as well.
- Before the first day, you had recieved your school uniform, but it turned out to be a mens uniform. To which you had to âpolitelyâ ask them to send you the correct uniform.
- Once you made it to class you were immediently introduced to a green haired male who youâd later find out was named Izuku. Then you met Uraraka, Iida, Asui, etc.
- Eveything was going well until your teacher showed up and immediently had you all sent to change into P.E uniforms.
- It wasnât the uniform that was the problem, it was the fact that none of them knew you were trans and had to share a changing room with other woman. And even though they seemed friendly at first, you still were unsure howâd they react.
- In the past you had to learn the hard way that a smile can really hide someones true colors and that not all people are willing to accept you for who you are and not what you are.
- Itâs worth noting that you havent had Sex Reassignment Surgery yet, because you couldnt afford it. (You did take medication though)
- And even though you were generally confident about your Gender, you still had your moments where you started to doubt yourself abd even questioned if you were a real woman (WHICH YOU FRICKING ARE OKAY!!! đ¤đđ¤đ)
- Once you were in the womans lockerroom, you tried your best to find a place where you could change without any of them seeing you. So far it was going good until Uraraka came looking for you. She blushed and in a panic you told her you were a trans woman.
- You froze for a few seconds before hearing Urarakaâs voice âOh...okay, well just so you know, I think youâre a very beautiful woman!â My god you had to hold back from giving Uraraka a hug right then and there.
- Later down the line you had come out to the rest of the girls as a Trans woman, to which they all responded with hugs and affection.
- âWe donât care if youâre trans, youâre still the same (Y/N) we know and love.â -Hagakure
- âIt doesnt matter whats in your pants, if you identify as a woman, then youâre a woman.â - Jirou
- âI am literally pink, and you think Iâd judge you because of your gender? Hell nah, get over here and let me love you!â - Mina
- âIf anyone tells you otherwise you come to me and I will have a âfriendlyâ chat with them.â -Momo
- âRibbit, Youâll always be our friend (Y/N), no matter what.â -Tsu
- They would die for you
- With the help of the other girls, you eventually came out to Aizawa, and he promised that you would be treated the same just as any other student. And if anyone gives you any problems you bring it to him for him to deal with. (Protective dad tm)
- Eventually the entire class knew and you felt the biggest weight fall of your shoulders.
- âIt doesânt matter, youâre still (L/N) (Y/N). And we all care about you. đâ -Izuku
- âI donât give a damn about your gender! So stop it with that self-concious shit.â -Bakugo. Although his words may seem harsh, he really cares about you and is willing to blow up any wall, building or mountain to chase away any Dysphoria you may have.
- You had to exaplain it a couple of times for Todoroki since he was never educated about that kind of stuff, but once he got it he immediently replied âI didnât know people could do that. Thank you for telling me, and Iâll do everything I can to support you.â đ¤â¤ď¸
- Of cource there were going to be some students who felt the need to belittle you...
- One time in the Caffiteria, Monoma had walked up to your table and desided that today would be the day he would be the biggest dick in the world
- âItâs shocking how people say Class 1A is one of the hardest courses to get into, yet they let someone like you in.â He said
- You looked at him âExcuse me?â
- âIâm just saying when you think about it scientifically, youâre still a man no m- â Monoma didnât get to finish his sentence before Kendo slapped him, knocking him out cold.
- âHey, sorry about him (Y/N). I knew he was low but I didnât think he was that low.â She then smiled at you âDonât listen to him, heâs just desperate to finding ways to make his class seem better because of some imaginary rivalry thatâs only exist in his head. Anyway, I need to take him to Recovery girl to get his brains checked, but Iâll see you later!â
- Kendo was the best, and she made sure that Monoma got a stern lecture from Vlad later that day.
- Then there was the Mall incident, when the class was going on a trip to the mall to buy supplies for Summer training camp, but then you ran into an Ex friend.
- Emphasis on the word EX
- â(D/N)?â They said. To which you froze, you recgonized that voice anywhere and you could already tell that this conversation wasnât going to be friendly.
- You slowly turned around âHey Karen...â She didnt look that diffrent, fake nails, fake jewlery, fake personality...what?
- âWhy are you dressed like a woman?â She said.
- You groaned before responding âBecause I am a woman, Karen.â You tried to walk away from her in order to avoid confrontation, the last thing you needed were hundreds of eyes on you. You made a note to yourself to come back tommorow when you wouldânt have to deal with her. But youâre taken out of your thoughts as you feel someone grab your shoulder and spin you around.
- âDo you think itâs funny? To make fun of mental illness?â She said.
- There was a point in time when Karens words didnt offend you anymore, they just frustrated you because of how dumb and ignorant she sounded.
- âKaren, I have told you multiple times that I am a woman, I am not mentally ill, I am human. I get that it might be confusing for you but itâs not for me. I am happy the way I am okay?â
- âYouâre the one thatâs confused. You think youâre a girl but youâre a boy no matter what? Thatâs just how the human body works.â She shot back. At this point multiple eyes were already on you two. Some looked uncomftorable, others look confused and then there were a few that looked disgusted. Just a few people had the power to send Dysphoria crawling back into your mind.
- You started to hear fast footsteps before hearing âWHAT THE FUCK DID YOU SAY YOU BOOTLEG BARBIE BITCH?!â
- Oh hey bakugo (weâre gonna pretend him, Kiri and Shoto came along aight)
- âBakugo, It is unacceptable to call a woman by such a deragatory term! Even though she was being rude to (Y/N) there are better ways to-â Iida was cut off by Bakugo
- âSHUT THE HELL UP FOUR EYES!â Kiri then had to hold bakugo back while Todoroki and Uraraka steped in between you and Karen.
- âDonât ever talk to our friend like that, she is more of a woman than youâll ever be. Iâd suggest that you walk away right now, our friend can only hold back Bakugo for so long.â Todoroki said
- Uraraka helped calm your nerves and whispered to you âDonât listen to her, sheâs just jealous because you can wear a dress better than her.â
- AIGHT, now the training camp.
- During the training camp, Tiger had not only helped you get stronger, but also helped scare away any Gender Dysphoria that remained inside your head.
- âDonât ever let peoples harsh words get to you! You are doing this for yourself and thatâs what matters!â He said
- When it was time to take a bath, you didnât hesitate to get into the hot springs. The encouraging words Tiger gave you along with the constant support of your friends had made you feel safe and happy. You couldânt ask for better friends.
Bonus:
* IF YOU DO NOT PLAN ON HAVING SEX REASSIGNMENT SURGERY THEN YOU CAN IGNORE THIS PART
- One moment that stuck out was when momo dropped the question âHey (Y/N), you dont have to awnser this but I was wondering, why haveânt you gone through Sex Reassignment Surgery? Are you not comftorble with it or...?â
- âOh, I just dont have the money for it.â You responded
-Way way later on.
- your birthday was finally around the corner
- On the big day you woke up to your friends Uraraka and Midoriya at your door and they dragged you to the main room where the rest of the class along with Mr. Aizawa were.
- You noticed a large envelope on the coffe table and they looked at you before Hagakure urged you to open it.
- When you did you found two gifts, one was a shirt
- And the other was a smaller envelope with the words Class 1A written on the back. You opened the envelope and pulled out a card and opened it to which a small keychain fell out that said âtrans woman are real womanâ and if that wasnât wholesome enough...
- You looked inside the card but before you could begin reading Aizawa interupted and asked you to read it outloud.
- âDear (Y/N), words can not describe how wonderful you are, how brave, how strong, or how amazing of a person and classmate you are. We all love you! When you came out to us as a transwoman, we all immediently wanted to make sure you knew you were valid and loved. Itâs come to our attention that you havenât had sex reassignment surgery because you are unable to afford it. So we banded together and decided we would help pay for your surgery-â you couldnât finish as you were allready in tears and you looked at Aizawa and the rest of the class to confirm that they were not messing with you.
- âIâve already talked with your parents all you have to do is set up an appointment and all that fun stuff.â Aizawa said.
- Your tears turned into water falls and your classmates all went to give you hugs and affection. You thanked each of them through your tears of joy and hiccups.
- Definitely a Birthday that would be remembered.
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First Line Tag Game III
Hey hey hey tagged by @gaytaiga this time, tysm my dude! (ALSO tagging you back if you want to list more!!)
Rules: List the first lines of your last 20 stories (if you have less than 20, just list them all!). See if there are any patterns. Choose your favorite opening line. Then tag 10 of your favorite authors!
This will likely be more finished works than wips because I deleted wattpad all other writing accounts that had wips a long time ago. I might throw in some excerpts from my unfished webcomic series though!
Tagging anyone else who wants to do this again, so make sure if you do it to tag me!Â
1. Pollution  â Character Bible Series [Christian Cavanaugh/Luca Braun wip]: The brain's ability to remember and conveniently forget is a peculiar thing. It often represses the bad memories, trauma's strange like that. Someone could live an entire lifetime without remembering anything yet the slightest sensation could trigger the worst memory locked away in the darkest depths of the psyche and worlds could come crashing down. [2019, Original Work]
2. Pollution â Character Bible Series [Benjamin Keller/Parker Madison/Oz Hellsinger wip]: His skin is sticky beneath the mask; mouth and nose obstructed but his eyes are not. Still, it serves its purpose of concealing his identity-- or at least Benji hopes it does. The heat from his breath rises while beads of sweat swim down his brows and into his eyes so he canât stop blinking rapidly. The contact in his right eye starts to shift and his vision is blurred momentarily before he's able to blink it back into place. Someone beside Benji urges him to hurry up. [2018-2019, Original Work]
3. (I Found You) In a Melody [galahau/abandoned]:Â The ivory beneath his fingertips is cool and smooth, making the stroking motion of his fingers waltzing across keys as easy of an action as breathing. Mellow notes flood the lounge as the cello kicks in, and Galahadâs eyes slide shut so he can tune into the music; the slow rattle of the snare or the bass drum kicking in at the perfect intervals, the taper of the cymbals and the resonating pluck of the cello strings. The sharps are chiming off the airwaves like dewdrops and finally the soft-silk flow of the lounge singerâs voice is the finishing touch to round off the harmony. [2015, Gangsta.]
4. Binding Patience [galahau]: Perhaps anyone with impatience wouldn't waste the time, but Hausen has all the time in the world when the end result is Galahad trembling on his knees at the edge of the bed, arms and hands bound in intricate patterns of rope behind his back, tethered and wound thick around his ankles like cast iron fetters. [2015, Gangsta.]
5. Radio Silence [galahau]: There's an audible click as the playback device ejects Doug's tag, and despite Galahad doing his best to clean off the blood, his eye still catches laces of it tarnishing the shineless metal. [2015, Gangsta.]
6. Turnaboutâs Fair Play [Worick Arcangelo, character study]:Â It starts with him splayed out and down on his knees, covered in the grime and filth of Ergastulum still clinging to his bruised and broken skin. He should have known better than to leave the sanctity of home by himself, but itâs getting harder and harder to look Nicolas in the face when all he sees is the shadow of his familyâs blood splattered across it. [2015, Gangsta.]
7. The Aftermath [XS/1029]: Long after the chaos dies down and everyoneâs left the hospital, Squaloâs not supposed to leave his bed but it doesnât stop him from sauntering off to Xanxusâs private room. He suspects to find the other propped up against the many embroidered satin pillows he demanded from Lussuria with his brows drawn pensively, a miserable scowl on his face despite him supposed to be at peace in slumber. [2015, Katekyo Hitman Reborn!]
8. The End of Things [8059/yamagoku]: It starts with a kiss, slow and sensual, warm like the rising sun and just as bright. Yamamoto's pretty sure this will be the most memorable kiss of his life, knows it'll be the best kiss of his life, with the spicy smoke lingering off Gokudera's tongue etched into his brain; that's something he'll never forget. [2015, Katekyo Hitman Reborn!]
9. Pyrexia [aokise]: When Kise wakes, it's to a throbbing headache and dull pain behind the eyes. His throat is burning raw and his joints ache, his muscles ache, everything is sore. He groans, feeling the heat of a fever spread through his skin like the heat of an unforgiving July sun is bearing down on him. [2015, Kuroko no Basuke]
10. Once. [deliyang]: He doesn't think before he moves, he just does. It's with snap-quick reflexes that he rips his gun from it's holster and aims it at the men in front of them. And Erica. Erica's there too... but it's not really Erica, is it. Things are never once what they seem. [2015, Alter End Series, Gangsta.]
11. Lightweight [D18/dinohiba]:Â It's quarter to four in the morning when Dino hears the scrape of metal against metal, the dragged out clinking of the keys against the lock. He's a little irritated, if he's being totally honest. It's not unusual for Kyoya to come home at this hour but it isn't unusual for Kyoya to not keep in contact during the day and explain himself or his whereabouts either. But perhaps there's a good reason as to why he's arriving home at four in the morning. In their line of work it's not like it isn't possible, but it had better be good if it's going to keep him in Dino's good graces. [2015, Katekyo Hitman Reborn!]
12. Mood â Permanent Petals Epilogue [8059/yamagoku]: It isnât that Gokudera wakes up in bad moods, in fact for the last few years waking up has been as pleasant as getting a full nightâs sleep; no more shadowed insomnia plaguing the soft pale underneath his eyes, no more jittery and short cut patience â he is currently very content with his sleeping arrangements in this moment and all other moments that have passed and ones he has to look forward to in the future. [2015, Permanent Petals Gift Fic, Katekyo Hitman Reborn!]
13. Domestic [deliyang]:Â The house smells of eggs and rice, the heady aroma of rich-brewed coffee clings to the air. With an appreciative inhale, Delicoâs lips slide into a smile easy as he makes his way downstairs.
14. : Advice [aokaga/abandoned]: Kagami isn't fond of days like these, no practise or games to keep him busy and the lack of a distraction leaves his mind to wander to thoughts that end up leaving a bad taste in his mouth.Aomine has been avoiding him lately, he's been distant and more acerbic than usual and Kagami can't bring himself to ask Aomine what the problem is. [2015, Open Spaces Series, Kuroko no Basuke]
15. When Time Stands Still [8059/yamagoku]: Sometimes you sit there for hours, your expression blank and your limbs numb and everything around you is eerily quiet but you canât turn the volume down on the static noise that buzzes frenetically inside your head. You grit your teeth, you cover your ears but that canât stop the sound. You get drunk, you take pills â despite your hatred for all things medicinal â but no amount of haze can muffle the shrillness. [2015, Katekyo Hitman Reborn!]
16. Broken [imahana]: It ends with Hanamiya on his knees, scuffed and scabbed and bloody and Imayoshi canât be sorry for choosing the blacktop thatâs as cracked and overused as Hanamiya is. Thereâs something about having him out here in the open, stripped of his clothing and dignity that sets Imayoshiâs skin on fire, gets him hot and irritated and he needs Hanamiyaâs raw vulnerability to ease the itch whenever he gets it. [2014, Kuroko no Basuke]
17. Living the Dream [sourin]:Â Sousuke's shoulder aches and the near scalding hot water does little to soothe the pain. He's an idiot, he knows without a certain redhead having to tell him this, but determination is something that's bred into him and he just doesn't seem to know when to quit. He grits his teeth through the blinding white when he moves his shoulder just slightly and it jars him with enough force to make him nauseous. It makes him angry, makes him wish for a time machine so he can go back and do things differently. [2014, Free!]
18. Youth [S80]:Â It begins with standing on a ledge, too high to come off from for it's your only salvation now that you no longer have the resolve to live. But it's when the no-good boy with the large, round eyes saves you and tells you there is hope that you begin to believe. It's the smell of the baseball diamond, the warm sun and the air of dirt and sweat and perseverance that make you feel like you're where you should be. It's the fleeting feelings when you dash from base to base and slide in to home plate that make this age in time seem like an eternal stretch that you never want to leave. [2014, Katekyo Hitman Reborn!]
19. Rewind > Pause > Play [aokaga]:Â They had been fighting all day. Stupid, trivial, bickering arguments that had mounted into several, major shouting matches which in turn, had nearly lead to the end of their relationship. The months prior to this, Daiki thinks, should have been a warning of what was to come. [2014, 2021 REVISED, Kuroko no Basuke]
20. The Sidelines [aokaga]:Â Everyone thinks because you're stubborn that must make you dense. Everyone thinks because you're so self centered that all you see is you. Perhaps that were true in the later years of your Teikou run, perhaps that were true until you met him. You're curious about that enigmatic red head that has managed to surpass Kise and Midorima. You're intrigued of Tetsu's new light. When you find him out on the court that day, it isn't just coincidence. You need to know what this guy is all about. So you offer up a game of one-on-one. [2014, Kuroko no Basuke]
#gaytaiga#tag meme#ru.writes#galahau#deliyang#8059#sourin#aokise#aokaga#S80 (khr)#imahana#worick arcangelo#i skipped over a lot of 8059 and gangsta. stuff lol#and all my old aokaga fic bc i hate them lol#thanks for the tag! looking forward to seeing more of your fic! ^^#i have so many outlines and just word vomit in docs but nothing in fic like form so thats why this has significantly less wips
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written â peter parker
a/n: phew! so this is a repost from my old blog which i regretfully deleted (a story that i will go into another time) but iâm back! since all of my college courses are online now, i have been writing like crazy! expect to see some familiar and new stories soon. i have a lot planned. itâs good to be back (:
You admired the faint stars scattered across the night, winter sky as the bus slowed to a stop. The fluffy snow covered everything in its track, making it impossible for you to appreciate the true New York beauty. Your grip on your shoulder strap loosened, grateful that you didnât have to carry the thousand pound backpack any longer. The tension in your shoulder throbbed as your carried textbooks begged to be put down, massaging the area once you plopped down in an empty row.
The cold air from outside contradicted with the warmth inside the vehicle, making the windows fog. You scooted yourself towards the edge of the bus and tugged on your hoodie sleeve so you could wiped the glass, leaving thin lines of water droplets behind.Â
The blinking street lamps you passed by barely illuminated the area around it. The light reflected off the pure, white snow so effortlessly, making the dark night seem a bit brighter. It was a sight you would have loved to appreciate, but the radiance was blurred by the fog and your eyes squinted at the difference in brightness.Â
You twiddled with your fingers, memories of the last few hours replaying like your favorite movie. A smile tugged your lips the more you thought about it.Â
Open textbooks were sprawled out all across the library table, your laptop resting among them along with a few bags of chips and power drinks. Your cheek rested against your palm, strands of your y/h/c hair falling in front of your face. Attempting to blow them out of your face, you glared when the seemingly easy task was failing.Â
Your arm fell against the table as you rested your head against your upper arm, wanting to let your eyes flutter close so badly. Studying for over 6 hours had taken its toll on you and it was very evident. The darkening under eyes and pale complexion gave you away.
A cup of coffee was exaggeratedly placed in front of you, forcing your eyes to open. Peterâs hands were on either side of him, resting against the table as he tilted his head to the side to look at you, a small smiling forming at the sight.
âYou look like complete shit.â His lips were forced into a hard line, trying to muffle his laughter from other surrounding students.
You groaned, a fake cry leaving as you sank into the uncomfortable chair, the cushion no longer giving you the support you desperately needed.Â
Your hands covered your tired face, âGod, I know. You donât need to remind me. Iâve been here for over 6 hours.â
âWhich is why..,â he scooted the coffee closer to you, âI got you that.â
He pulled the remaining chair from under the table, forcing you to place your feet back on the ground and unmask your face from him. Hesitating for a bit, you couldnât resist his offer and slowly started to grab the drink, keeping your eyes on him. His eyebrows raised at your reaction as he slowly took a seat, crossing his legs and intertwining his fingers.
Your eyes examined the outside, squinting to make sure there was nothing off about this specific drink. His eyes were locked on you, an eyebrow raised as to why you were acting so strange. Perhaps the coffee would wake you up a bit. Your lips met the plastic cover, a slight burning sensation coming over your tongue as you took a small sip. You were truly too tired to panic.
The bitter taste lingered in your mouth, slowly approving the drink by smacking your lips together and giving a slow nod. He sighed in relief as you went to take another sip, thankful that he had made the right call on what coffee to get you. He turned around the books to see what you had been buried in the past few hours, asking questions about what your upcoming exam was about.
You werenât listening.
Your eyes examined every part of his face as your lips softly brushed against the coffee lid, taking in every detail one by one.
His freckles replicated the bright stars above you, scattered in the most beautiful way possible. The red tint in his cheeks slowly began to fade into his pale skin, growing more comfortable with the temperature change. A few loose curls fell in front of his face seamlessly, your urge to run your fingers through his locks becoming stronger. His brown orbs exhibited small gold flecks as they scanned the pages, your lips parting at just how mesmerizing they were to look at.
He was breathtaking.
âY/N?â
Your eyelids flickered as you shook your head, the coffee taking its time to fully sink in your system. Forcing your eyelids to stay open, you took a deep breath in as you fully gave your attention to the boy in front of you. âHm?â
âAre you okay?â His eyebrows pinched together in concern, âYou zoned out.â
âJusâ exhausted.â You lied, taking another sip of your coffee. He gave you a small, sympathetic smile before forcing his lips into a tight line.Â
His eyes scanned the many books in front of you, developing a headache just by looking at them. He gripped the wooden arm rests and pushed himself up, closing each book and began to pack them in your bag.
You stood up as well, placing your cup of coffee on the table with your eyebrows furrowed in confusion. âW-what are you doing?â You grabbed the books from his grasp, immediately deeping a deep breath when you felt how warm his touch was. A flustered laugh begged to escape but you bit the inside of your mouth from letting that happen.
âI am helping you pack up.â He gently closed your laptop and slipped it in its case, placing it in your backpack and zipping it up nicely. âYou need to get some sleep.â
You opened your mouth to protest his actions and to try and convince him that you were fine, but it was no use. Waving his index finger at you, he held the strap of your backpack and encouraged you to take it and go home. A groan left your lips as you rolled your eyes, exaggeratedly grabbing the strap from him and throwing it over your shoulder. Your hand gripped around the coffee while the other waved at Peter, his face displaying a look of âyou know iâm rightâ.Â
He was always right. It was a love/hate relationship with you. The boy never seemed to answer any question wrong, and his morals and values were ones youâd dream of in a partner. There was truly nothing wrong about the boy, and it was no shocker that youâd fallen head over heels for him.
You had been lucky enough to become his friend over the last 4 years. Having the same communications class definitely sparked a flame between the two of you, instantly becoming partners for every project and studying together. The chemistry you had with each other was undeniable, and it made it even harder not to fall in love with him.
He was everything you aspired to be. His aunt, who is the sweetest lady youâd ever met, received so much affection and love from her nephew, you couldnât help but smile everytime you saw them together. He tutored other fellow students and volunteered with charities in his free time, truly surprised that he had any.Â
Peter was a busy guy, and the fact he still made sure to check up on you was the cherry on top.
Heat rushed to the apples of your cheeks at the thought of him, your hands covering them as much as you could so no one could see how flustered you had gotten. You bit your lip to prevent an excited squeal from slipping through, your eyes shutting close before slowly opening, staring out the glass.
The previously wiped area on the window had developed a new layer of fog, covering the entire area again. Water droplets stood still despite the the movement of the bus, your eyes admiring each and every one of them. Downtown New York was barely visible through the fogged glass, but the sight, nevertheless, was still breathtaking.
Colorful lights illuminated the night sky, the light peeking through the fog and displaying on your lap. Your hand peeked through the sleeve of your hoodie as you held out your index finger, meeting it with the freezing glass and traced Peterâs name with a little heart next to it.
A few droplets formed on your side of the glass, sliding down the newly written name. The wet residue resided on your finger before you wiped it off on your jeans, smiling at the letters on the window. The bus had slowed to a stop, and the surroundings indicated that this was your stop. You took one last look at the window before grabbing the strap of your backpack, thanking the bus driver, and stepping off the bus.
Peter sat a few rows behind you, his eyes following you as you departed. A small smile tugged at his lips at how carelessly beautiful you were. A few pieces from you bun were curled, framing your face perfectly. A rosy tint colored your cheeks, either from the frosty weather or being flustered. The way your corners of your eye crinkled when you smiled made his heart pound against his chest, butterflies fluttering in his stomach. You were unlike anyone he had ever seen.
His eyes trailed back to where you were previously sitting and landed on the fogged glass. The letters you had written were slowly disappearing but it was legible enough for him to read. He had watched you trace your finger along the frosted glass, seeing the slight flinch you made when you realized how cold it was, but you had placed it just right where anyone behind couldnât see it.Â
The butterflies in his stomach intensified by 100, and his heart seemed to have beat faster when he comprehended what you had wrote. You, a beautiful, intelligent, and compassionate girl, felt nearly the same way he did about you. Time played a big role in this particular moment. He had met you years ago, unsure of his feelings for you and never really tested the waters. He remained close friends with you, bringing you coffee during your late study sessions and advising you to do what was best.Â
He was scared to break that wall, not wanting to change a relationship he was very appreciative of. The last thing he wanted to do was lose you, but now he was going to fight for you until his last dying breath.Â
#i have forgotten how much i loved tumblr#and writing#and just everything in general#tom holland#tom holland fic#tom holland x reader#tom holland fluff#peter parker#peter parker one shot#peter parker fluff#peter parker x reader#tom holland one shot#peter parker fic
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Eleven
.05 - Girl Almighty
synopsis: the number Eleven had always appeared in milestones of your life. it was a constant, and you didnât know why. but you would soon find out when you study abroad in japan and meet Him.
pairing: tsukishima kei x fem!reader
warnings: mentions of death, depression
masterlist: here :)
a/n: this honestly was such an endearing chapter to write. we finally learned what happened in y/nâs past, and her bond with mizuki grows strong. also, for this chapter and the next, Iâm doing a lot of cultural research to try and incorporate it in the story, and it feels really cool to be exploring the culture! hope you guys enjoy this one đĽşđ yes I cried at one in the morning finishing this and what about it
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Her light is as loud as as many ambulances as it takes to save a savior.
Sleep. School. Practice. Home. Repeat. Soon, you were nearing the end of September without even knowing it. As the weeks had flown by, the tension between you and Tsukishima had only grown. Only, it wasnât a âbadâ or âawkwardâ kind of tension. It was more like a âsomething-is-happening-between-us-but-neither-of-us-know-what-it-is-or-how-to-address-itâ kind of tension.
As if the universe was tired of this âtip-toeing around each otherâ crap, a special event was coming up that was definitely going to stir the pot. The Harvest Moon Festival.
âTsukiiiii! Are you excited for Tsukimi tomorrow?â Yamaguchi teases. Tsukishima knowingly groans.
You look up from your camera, contemplating whether you should keep the last shot even though Tanaka photo-bombed it. âThe moon-viewing? You guys do the festivals here, right?â
Yamaguchi nodded. âYeah, itâs kinda ironic, isnât it? The festivals usually fall around Tsukkiâs birthday, so we usually do a joint-celebration! But this year, itâs a little earlier, so we wonât celebrate his birthday at the same time, but itâs still exciting!â
Tsukishima peers down at your camera, pressing the delete button faster than you can react. âShouldnât you know about it? You are Japanese, right?â
Pettily, you recover the photo from the recently deleted section. You were going to delete it anyway, but you just wanted to spite him. âI did celebrate, but Iâve always wondered how much more authentic it would be to celebrate it in my motherâs home country. It sounds like a lot of fun!â
Yamaguchi realizes you havenât gone to the festival before, so he cheerily invites you to come along with him and Tsukki, to which Tsukishima replies, âMy mom would probably force me to drag her along anyway. Might as well.â
His statement and tone implied that he didnât want you to join, but you felt his gaze on you with a slight glimmer of hope in his eyes.
You agree, but are quick to come to a devastating realization.
���But I donât have anything to wearrrrrr!â Cue two clueless-looking boys not knowing how to react.
Upon hearing distress, Yachi comes dashing to your rescue. âY/N!! I heard your cry! Iâm actually going shopping tonight for a new festival outfit, did you want to go with me?â She really was a savior at times.
You throw your arms around her in gratefulness. âYouâre an angel! I would like nothing more than to accompany you! Iâll just text Mizuki to let her know where weâll beâŚâ
Yachi ponders for a moment. âActually, do you think she would mind coming? I donât want to bother her at all, but my momâs staying late again, and I like having an adultâs second opinionâŚâ
Fortunately, Mizuki was more than happy to bring you two to the downtown shops later that night. Once practice was over, you and Yachi bid your farewells to the boys and met up on the street corner, with Tsukishima trailing behind. Mizuki began to wave from under the streetlight, letting Tskishima know that dinner was already made, and that you won't be back too late. And so, the three of you were off!
                 âââ シ ・ďžâ: *.â˝ .* :âďž. âââ
Although your current location was quaint and serene, downtown was the opposite. There were endless amounts of shops, stands, and everything in between. Shoppers were bustling about, kids were frolicking in groups, and the smells of various foods wafted in the air. The energy in the downtown district was definitely lively and contagious.
Mizuki took a deep, content breath and turned to the two of you. âAlright ladies! I have a few shops in mind, so we can stop by those first just to ease into it. Let me know if you need anything! If you want to even stop for a snack, I certainly wonât hold you back, not when it smells as good as this! Alrighty, letâs goo!!â
The first shop was very quaint, but you were a bit clueless as to what you should be looking for. Good thing Mizuki and Yachi was there to guide you! You apparently were in search for a yukata, a more informal traditional robe that is similar to a kimono, but not quite. Great! Now that you knew what you were on the hunt for, how were you supposed to decide what color or pattern? Every shop you stopped by were overflowing with more patterns, colors, and combinations than you can possibly imagine.
By the third shop, Yachi had already picked hers, and was currently being fitted. She chose a radiant yellow, decorated with white carnations and pink morning glory flowers print.
âYou look like a ray of sunshine, Yachi! Yellow definitely suits you,â you and Mizuki shower her with praise, causing her to flush pink.
You laugh as you admit, âThis must be what prom dress shopping feels like, haha.â The two ladies curiously look at you, and youâre quick to explain how back at home itâs a huge deal to find the dress, since prom is the most anticipated formal event for American high schools.
Needless to say, the pressure of finding one that spoke to you began to worry you. You bring your hand to your locket. Mizuki noticed this, then eyed your locket for a brief moment.
âI think I know the perfect one that would go along with your locket. Weâll stop by once Yachiâs fitting is done,â she offers you a warm smile to calm your nerves.
Once Yachiâs outfit was purchased, the three of you head to a shop that was in an easy-to-overlook nook. The second you step inside, youâre greeted by two eager women, ready to meet your requests. You browse, but begin to feel a bit of gravitation towards the back of the shop. The invisible force brings you to a halt. In front of you is an absolute masterpiece.
The overall color was navy blue, as dark as the night sky above. But the design was what made it stand out. The yakuta was sprinkled with constellations, and thousands of silver stars were scattered around the fabric. Around the waist was a deep red obi, a wide silk sash designed with light moons and stars lined all around it.
You were speechless. It was perfect.
Mizuki looks over and finds you with your jaw slightly agape, looking entirely mesmerized.
She turns to the women and tells them, âThatâs the one for her.â And they get to work on your fitting.
During your fitting, Yachi went to buy a couple of snacks for you to share, leaving you and Mizuki alone, with the two women helping. You raise your arms over your head as they measure your waist. Suddenly, you catch her drying what looks to be a couple of tears.
âWhatâs wrong, Mizuki? Are you alright?â
She tenderly looks over and chuckles, wiping another tear that managed to escape.
âItâs nothing, really. I just always wondered what it would be like to go dress shopping with a daughterâŚâ she looks down at her hands, wringing them deep in thought. âMy sons are wonderful, and I wouldnât give them up for anything in the world, but I always loved shopping with my mother, even if it was buying a mere hair accessory. Her calling me beautiful... and, I donât know...it kind of felt like that for a moment.â
She looks up at you and smiles. âYou havenât been with us for too long, but I speak for both myself and my sons when I say we are grateful that youâve been led into our lives.â
You jump off the pedestal and tackle Mizuki into a tight embrace. âIâm glad I came, too.â She hugs you back, and you look at each other, and suddenly burst into laughter at your tear-stained faces.
âAlright, thatâs enough baby tears. Now, get on up there so we can see the finishing touches,â she gently urges you. Just as the last details were being made, Yachi comes back, just in time.
She does a dramatic gasp. âY/n, you look beautiful! Itâs like all the stars wanted you to wear them!â She almost drops her snack out of pure shock, but manages to catch it.
Mizuki helps her carry them and agrees. âSheâs right y/n. It also matches your locket color perfectly. I can see that itâs important to you, so itâs like both a piece of home and a piece of here going hand in hand.â Even the two women who fitted you were quick to offer their praise.
You look down at your outfit and tenderly put a hand on your locket. âItâs perfect.â
                 âââ シ ・ďžâ: *.â˝ .* :âďž. âââ
The three of you drop Yachi off at her house, and once you were sure she was safely inside, you and Mizuki begin your trek home. Thereâs a comfortable silence between you two. The stars in the sky were glistening and drowned you in tranquil light.
Mizuki thoughtfully looks over at you. Sheâs carefully thinking of something she wants to say.
âIs there a story to the locket?â
You stop in your tracks and look up at the stars twinkling above you. The moonâs serene appearance gives you the courage to respond.
âThis is the first gift my parents gave me, on their official wedding day. And now itâs the first and last thing I look at every day. Itâs one of only things remaining from them that I own.â You look over to find sad eyes.
Mizukiâs eyes were not viewing you in the sense of pity, which you have always gotten for the past year. Instead, she was looking over with the most wholesome look in her eyes, wanting to help and protect you.
That encourages you to go on.
âMy mother and father went out on one of their weekly date nights. They liked to go out on Friday nights to get ice cream down the road. Theyâve done it since even before they got married. It was normal. Nothing out of the ordinary.â
You choke up.
âAlmost a year ago now. My parents were on their way home. They got hit by a drunk driver. Eleven at night. I open the door to complete strangers telling me that their passing was instant, that there was nothing that could be done. November eleventh was the day that my life fell apart.â
You look up at the stars again.
âMy relatives took care of me for the rest of the year. I wallowed in depression. Hardly moving, hardly eating. Hell, it even hurt to breathe. Knowing that my dad wouldnât pop his head in my room just to tell me a joke to annoy me on purpose. Knowing that my mom wasnât there to drink tea with me while she told her favorite childhood stories. Knowing that I wouldnât see them dancing in the kitchen to their cheesy love song. Knowing they werenât there.â
Your eyes are so clouded with tears your vision is extremely blurry, but you manage to lock eyes with her in understanding.
âMy relatives thought it would be a good idea for me to transfer somewhere new for the start of high school. I had always wondered at the beauty of my motherâs home country. The way she would light up whenever she mentioned something as simple as the cherry blossoms floating in the breeze, or how the stars seemed to shine differently. Well, she was right about that,â you chuckle at the thought.
âSo here I am, in Japan. Here to discover myself, but more importantly, Iâm here for them too. I know they are always watching me from above, but this locket keeps me grounded at times when I need them the most. It reminds me of the times weâve had. I think of the future they wanted me to strive for, it pushes me forward. I would give anything to heal the heartache, to fill up the emptiness of their missing presence. But I know they want me to be happy. Itâs why I was brave enough to travel to a new place Iâve never been to, because in the end, I know Iâm not alone. This locket reminds me of all that.â
More comfortable silence follows. Mizuki puts a warm hand on yours.
âY/n, you are the bravest soul I have ever come to meet. If fate is what brought you here, then I am glad for it. You have such a bright, intelligent, endearing and determined soul. And I know for a fact that your parents are looking down on you right now and are smiling at the sight of their brave little girl persevering the odds. And there is absolutely nothing in this world that could demolish the love your parents have devoted to you. You really are special, y/n, donât you ever forget that.â
The two of you embrace once more. You check the time, and the lateness caused the slow trek to a brisk walk back home.
It was Eleven oâ clock.
Thereâs something happening here. I hope you feel what Iâm feeling too.
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