#i have lived 47 lives

[ninelivesastrology]

tw: sex trafficking, sex slavery, human trafficking, bribery, racism, domestic violence, child endangerment, gun violence, coercive control

I just realized where the expendable money was coming from with my abuser because he would overcharge his cousin for rent and turned around and bribed people within my proximity with it, I think?

This dude threatened me with sex trafficking which is an insidious form of financial and sexual torture—Not abuse, torture.

Even the way he would talk to me about rent money, he was clearly inspired by pimps. "Where's my fucking money?" like sometimes I think my rent money was going straight to drugs because he would start fights exactly 6 days before I had to give it to him. You know how people go into withdrawal and start acting intolerable to the people around them? Clockwork. I'm not for certain, but that's what I think.

I remember him binging those 70s Blaxploitation films and of course, he got that book that all pimps learn how to traffick. I destroyed the first copy and he bought another just days after my ex fiance rescued me. My ex fiance told me he was showing off the destroyed book like a trophy and laughing until he saw my ex fiance's face. It ultimately doesn't matter whether or not he intended to, I mean, "I want you to work for me," with a evil smirk is a threat no matter how you twist it.

Then of course, he got a gun right after we had an argument because he was making me do everything in the house despite not being together and even if we were, that's not fair. The gun sent me running to be honest because the statistic goes that homicide in a domestic violence situation go up by 500% with a gun in the house. How higher is that percentage with alcohol and drugs involved. Like 800%.

And speaking of the gun, it was a T1911 with 45 ACP bullets, which is larger than what the police use. The police used these bullets before according to my ex fiance, but they were killing way too many people and switched to a smaller caliber. My fiance said it would literally maim you if you were shot. My ex fiance explained that the bullets could go through the wall and hit someone in the next townhouse.

The night following the purchase, my abuser brought his friends over and it was loaded, safety off and he was showing it off and passing it around with his friends. He didn't buy a gun safe and his cousin's daughter (10-12 years old, I don't know) would come by the house and go through his shit. That night, his best friend pointed the gun at my ex fiance's head. We both stepped outside because we were scared. Like at any point, that could've gone off by accident or on purpose.

The last time I saw the gun, my abuser was at work and I was with my ex fiance and we found it under a stack of mail on his computer desk. We didn't touch it. Omg, you can never put your fingerprints on someone else's gun. My ex fiance looked up the schematics of the gun and could see that it was loaded with the safety off. Man, I love shooting games and stuff like that, but that's fictional? Being around a gun in real time is just unnerving, I've never been that stressed out before.

This is why capitalism is scary in this context because people are looking for vulnerable people to exploit, like my abuser wanted to be a landlord, then got obsessed with being a pimp and more specifically being my pimp and I don't think he ever let it go because the coercive control is just... like I can't come up with another reason. Landlords and pimps make expendable income with ZERO effort.

Mind you, sex trafficking is domestic violence. The person likely to traffick you is not some stranger in a white van, it's someone you know (friend, family member, current or past romantic partner) who will groom you into it or force you outright. And being that this was an interracial relationship, it is basically a hate crime.

[courtney-deserved-better]

actually i think it would be really funny if wayne had lesbian moms because it would make him worrying about raj thinking he's not an ally really funny because he just. forgets raj knows he has gay moms

[tblsomedoodles]

I thought i escaped sims 4 but it's dragged my dumbass back again.

I hate this game. I need so many mods just to be able to just to fix it so i can play without being frustrated. but no matter how frustrated i get, i keep coming back : /

Anyways! Like my new little me? (i forgot what they're called. Avatar? *Shrug*) I'll put some more stuff (and doodles) about them under the cut

They're a candle! The body and oversize hoodie are all the wax and the undercut ponytail is the little flame (like Ember from Danny Phantom lol). Her feet are kinda goopy and her hands never show b/c the sleeves of the hoodie drip over them (sometimes driping off completely.)

i got kinda bored with my old one (drawing me but purple) so they got a little upgrade for my silly little personal doodles.

That is all : )

[ellenchain]

Another random Hitman question. Since it was on sale, I bought a pack of Flutschfinger. Which ice cream does the Hitman fam prefer? Gelato, sandwiches, sorbet, cola ice?

First of all: Flutschfinger are such a strong childhood memory for me - I hope they were delicious!

And what a difficult question, because at first I can imagine everything with everyone. But on second thought, they might have different favourites …

47. He probably eats what you put in front of him when it counts. But if he's allowed to choose, he might have an ice cream sundae that he particularly likes. With lots of fruit on top or some chocolate. There is an ice cream parlour in Italy that serves just the right amount of cream and ice cream. I think he enjoys sitting outside in a café in the quiet hours of his life and having his espresso with a sundae.

Diana. In fact, I can imagine that she's not that much of an ice-cream fan. When it's very warm, she'll probably have a Magnum or go to a special ice cream parlour where they still make the ice cream themselves. But somehow she strikes me as more of an iced coffee type (European style with ice cream and not just ice cubes), should it come to a visit to an ice cream parlour.

Olivia. I can imagine that she likes all these cool ice cream types like Flutschfinger. Or ice pops in general. An ice cream sandwich for sure as well. She probably just loves ice cream in general and would get the craziest flavours. There's an ice cream parlour near me here where you can order currywurst or pizza ice cream. Or beer ice cream. Or schnitzel ice cream with cheese spaetzle ice cream. Olivia would eat it, for sure.

Lucas. In my headcanon, he has a weakness for sweet things. This includes ice cream, of course. But as he seems to be a bit of a cheapskate (he only spends money on useful things and not on luxuries), I can imagine him going to the nearest discount store and buying an XXL pack of some off-brand ice cream. This pack will last him a week at best. He only goes to the café or ice cream parlour when everyone else is dragging him along. And then he might order Spaghettieis.

But now I'm curious to know what you think!!

[dennisboobs]

GLENN JUMPSCARE

[mistystarshine]

AU where Denji is able to defeat and save Aki because the gun fiend doesn't have any fucking eyes and is, consequently, blind as a bat

[wethecelestial]

doing an unhinged amount of research for a fic for the first time in years. nature is truly healing

[cynical-tuba]

You're out of line, but you're right.

Inspired by the USA states poll I just reblogged! Take this quiz to see how many European countries you can name in 8 minutes :^)

[jadeseadragon]

@jewishvoiceforpeace

"Today marks one year since the death of the People’s Bubbie Shatzi Weisberger. Before she passed, she said, “I’ll fight like hell for a free Palestine until the day I die. Then I’ll keep fighting. Your queer ancestor is with you.”

If you’ve been rising up in solidarity with Palestine these past two months, your queer ancestor is indeed with you, along with countless other antizionist Jewish ancestors. For many, family and community rifts may be especially painful right now. No matter what, you are not alone. Remember that you have a long lineage of elders and ancestors at your back.

Last night, Israel resumed its brutal bombing of Gaza and has already killed dozens of people. Shatzi would encourage all of us to do everything we can right now for a permanent, lasting ceasefire. To mourn the dead and fight like hell for the living.

Shatzi died on World AIDS Day, which was b’sheret ("destined”) because in addition to being a lifelong organizer, she was a nurse for 47 years who cared for people living and dying with AIDS.

From ACT UP’s organizing to end AIDS to the movement for Palestinian freedom, we honor the ancestors and movements who made us possible."

We will be forever grateful to the ancestors who paved the path before us. May their memories fuel us to work towards freedom for all people — no exceptions."

[vers-1]

Also music I’ve been really into lately

[ellenchain]

I love the concept of an Olivia spinoff.

I can so see that. Maybe her girlfriend or someone else is the audience character, the one who asks the questions and is a newbie to this world. Olivia does her job and fairly early on, like episode 2, her father gets mentioned. Like a mutual contact goes 'tell your father I said hi'. But Olivia brushes it off when someone asks her about it. A couple of episodes later, he is again alluded to. Maybe she gets off the phone with him, you can't hear him, just her goodbye. Again, nothing more is said about him. Then, his reputation alone gets her out of trouble. Like she is in a hopeless situation, gun to her head, but manages to talk her way out of it by mentioning her father. 'You can shoot me, but my father knows where I am. He is going to start looking for me when I don't get back to him in 24 hours. Do you want him to come looking for you?'

At this point she has to admit he's a hitman (title drop!) but you still don't get to see him. Maybe a shadowed silhouette in the 'next episode' stinger.

Then she gets into trouble. Like a bounty on her head, multiple assassins gunning for her, she's on the run. That kind of trouble.

She makes her way to the safehouse.

The other person(s) is scared, but excited. Finally they're going to meet Olivia's dad, the hitman with a reputation so fierce it stopped someone from shooting them; the terrorist, the mastermind, the man who brought down the ICA and Providence.

Cue 47 opening the door in his pyjamas.

Whiplash. Is that her dad? The fierce assassin?

He asks them to come in and Olivia asks where her father is.

Now, he's there.

Sitting on the couch with a half-knitted sweater going 'just finishing this cable section, I'll be right over there'.

Whiplash complete.

47 and Lucas bicker over dinner while Olivia wants to sink into the ground and her friends wonder what the hell is going on.

omg yes yes exactly like that!! You really described it the same way as it was in my head!

I would loooove a spin-off show! Preferably in a cartoonish-style (like Arcane?) and then our well-known voice actors - that would be soooo cool!

I always wonder why billionaires spend their money on yachts and stuff like that. I would just throw a lot of money into a studio and then some money to IOI so we can get the rights (they don't seem to care much about their Hitman rights when films like that one from 2015 are made…)

You know? Just finally have the game/series/movie you've always wanted. As a real millionaire, I wouldn't care if the medium makes any profit in the end. It can flop, the main thing is that the fandom is happy 😶

oh sigh I would love to learn more about Olivia, give her a girlfriend and have Papa Lucas Grey in the background grumbling "OLIVIA" all the time like he did in the game whenever she does something wrong lol

[fremedon]

I had heard of rip tides, but I would never have guessed they were the calm-looking part. If I had been looking for a safe space to wade, I would have avoided all of the white parts (turbulent! terrifying!) and gone straight for the rip.

As someone that has grown up surrounded by beaches and done surf life saving, I know how the sea works. Lots of people dont. Every summer multiple tourists die here because they don’t respect the sea, if you’re going to the coast, here’s a thing I saw on Facebook.

[neil-gaiman]

I found myself having, not exactly an argument recently, but a highly opinionated conversation with someone who did not believe my assertion that once upon a time there were official Hello Kitty vibrators. With the aid of the Wayback Machine, I found this article, and thought the world at large might enjoy it too...

Here's the text of the article:

The history of the Hello Kitty vibrator

By Peter Payne October 4, 2004

Sanrio is one of the top character licensors in the world, having more or less created the business model of doing business by creating something that doesn't really exist and licensing its use to other companies. Sanrio produces nothing -- all their characters, like the Little Twin Star, Minna no Ta-bo, Bad Batz-Maru, exist as legal entities and nothing more. Their most successful character, Hello Kitty, or Kitty-chan as she's known in Japan, is now now thirty years old.

One of the many companies that license Sanrio's characters for their products was a Japanese company called Genyo Co. Ltd. Genyo made a wide variety of products, from bento boxes to children's toys to chopsticks, many with the Hello Kitty character on them. They scored big in the late 1990's with an off-the-wall hit, a series of Hello Kitty toys which featured a different Kitty figure from each of Japan's 47 prefectures, each representing something the prefecture was famous for. (The figure from Gunma Prefecture, where we live, represented a wooden kokeshi doll.)

In 1997, Genyo designed a product that would live in infamy: the Hello Kitty vibrating shoulder massager, which really is a shoulder massager (trust us -- it says so on the package). Sanrio approved this design without batting an eye, and the product enjoyed modest sales in toy shops and in family restaurants like Denny's and Coco's. It wasn't until 1999 or so that people began to catch on to the fact that the Hello Kitty massager had other potential uses, and with amazing speed, they started popping up in adult videos in Japan. The next thing anyone knew, they had changed into a cult adult item, sold in vending machines in love hotels -- after all, what self-respecting man wouldn't buy his girl a Hello Kitty vibrator when she asked him for one?

The emergence of the Hello Kitty vibrator as a cult adult item caused friction between Sanrio and Genyo, and Sanrio ordered the company to stop making the units. Genyo refused, since it had paid a lot of money to license Kitty for their products. There seemed nothing Sanrio could do, since they had approved the item for sale (see the official Sanrio sticker on the boxes). The answer came when the Japanese tax authorities raided Genyo on suspicion of tax evasion. It seems that some creative accounting was going on between the president of the company, a Mr. Nakamura, his vice president, and the owner of the factory in China where the units were made. All three were arrested, and Sanrio had the excuse needed to yank Genyo's license. They seized the molds used to make the vibrators and destroyed them.

And so, the sad, weird chapter of the Hello Kitty vibrator is at an end. The last of the Kitty vibes are gone, so now what will the world do for wacky comic -- and sexual -- relief?

[pulsedmaggot]

every day i thank the good lord that tag replacer exists

[sagxshi]

i fucking hate everything about applying for mcat fee assistance this shit fucking sucks fuck the aamc

[nervousyoungtwinfantasydog]

when i come back, you’ll still be here