#i have hw to do so i shouldnt do this rn

[just-some-random-blogger]

good morning/day/evening, my lovely angel!! youre soso sweet and cute i cant TT 'i was bummed out i couldnt write' its ok dont worry about me! your comfort is the thing that matters the most! give yourself time. 'i havent written in 2 days' its ok. i cant state but do you think it may be burning out? bc you work really hard and have lots of work beside writing. you really owe nothing to anyone. ill repeat it as many times as i need. bc you do great, you study, do covers, you do a lot. thats more than great! you still worth the world and let down noone. and if anyone have the guts to say otherwise, i can have their tongue. you are the priority. if you dont feel like writing, maybe you shouldnt force yourself to do it to even lessen your minds ability to do it rn. give yourself time. tumblrs nothing when it comes to your mental powers. i dont remember if you say smth about 'kiss it better' later but id talk abt it here. i hope things will get better for you. hope your manifest works really well and ability to do creative things cutie. its very comforting. hope you enjoyed writing it. also the whole concept made me remember the song 'guard you' by young k. its just the most comforting song for me. its released on my bday but for some reason i ignored it for months? ill never forgive this. its really good to have someone to take care of you and 'guard you'. even if im not next to you, remember im always here for you and will always support you. 'i have to keep making art. i cant stop' its great if you cant and feel like it. but please dont force and overwork yourself. you are still you if you currently dont have strength to make art. 'i do love his name' your love for masc feminine names is so adorable TT hes not completely CRINGE meme but not a kind(?) meme either. its difficult to explain esp with how humor here is but yes. 'why didnt you put an episode number' i watched it like.. 2 years ago. you think i remember? im a grandcat myself. i need to do a research for it. maybe at weekends (basically its saturday even here rn but nvm). first epp with matt smith is pretty touching esp with karen gillah and a little drama they have but i also like peter capaldis doctor. esp the beginning of his era. well see. and i never watched davids seasons TT im sorry but its true, cant help you here. 'if i cant write this rn' and hows it? 'poor bb girl witch' nooo she shouldnt feel like it TT the point is she loves her love more than she loves the very daemon. 'sounds tiring' reasonable. ig it can be said abt all my ideas. btw, wfal isnt tiring you? or like a burden? ik you dont like writing long things so im kinds worried now. 'i need a cleanse fic' is it kiss it better? anyway do wild girl! 'but i’ll listen to it later' did you listen to it?... im not making you, just interested ghdjfj. also! ive only learnt abt 'Running up That Hill' by Kate Bush (in another witchy playlist...) and 1) i LOVE it sm her voice and the way of singing is so enchanting? 2) it gives me waiting for a lifetime vibes.. yeah its origin meaning isnt exactly abt it but its the magic of art isnt it? the opportunity to interpret it however you want. and the deal with god pretty much reminds me of the au. 'you’ve got such a beautiful brain' thanks TT take it after my catmom. ive got lots of things to do for the exams but my mental state has only allowed me to watch videos with kitties, cry cats and dogs and listen to this song of kate for the past week. theres the one i cried hardest over (subjectively) and theres the one i cried hardest (objectively). theyre just cute if you ever feel like it. and HEs so tiny i SCREAMED. thats it. just cute vids to bring your mood up. how are you? whats the weather like? hope you are or will soon do great. have a nice day/evening/night! ill try to find an episode and write down some ideas, maybe youll find some inspiration in them. good luck with all the hw and assignments! take care! love you<з *freezy kisses for you to not burn in your weather*

hello my love <3 <3 <3

meow meow muning <3

good morning/day/evening, my lovely angel!! youre soso sweet and cute i cant TT

wait why am i so sweet? what did i do?

anyway LOOOK I GOT A NEW OUTFIT FOR LISA!!!

here she is normally

that's all.

'i was bummed out i couldnt write' its ok dont worry about me! your comfort is the thing that matters the most! give yourself time.

T_T but i love you

'i havent written in 2 days' its ok. i cant state but do you think it may be burning out?

T_T ... i think youre right. T_T

bc you work really hard and have lots of work beside writing. you really owe nothing to anyone. ill repeat it as many times as i need. bc you do great, you study, do covers, you do a lot. thats more than great! you still worth the world and let down noone. and if anyone have the guts to say otherwise, i can have their tongue. you are the priority. if you dont feel like writing, maybe you shouldnt force yourself to do it to even lessen your minds ability to do it rn. give yourself time. tumblrs nothing when it comes to your mental powers.

thank you. this means a lot to me to hear this. you dont know how very much your words mean to me.

i want to write. but i cant. i want to write ideas outside my reqs but also i want to make reqs but also i cant. i dont know

i dont remember if you say smth about 'kiss it better' later but id talk abt it here. i hope things will get better for you. hope your manifest works really well and ability to do creative things cutie. its very comforting. hope you enjoyed writing it.

i dont know if i enjoyed writing it but while rereading it i was like 'damn im really good at writing' i hope i get out of this hitch T_T

also the whole concept made me remember the song 'guard you' by young k. its just the most comforting song for me. its released on my bday but for some reason i ignored it for months? ill never forgive this. its really good to have someone to take care of you and 'guard you'. even if im not next to you, remember im always here for you and will always support you.

omg this was yonks parting gift before enlisting. (i call young-k yonk cos thats what it reads like yonk HAHHAH) im so touched that you feel this way towards me T_T i feel the same for you. lol its so funny you ignored it but ended up loving it HAHAH. i want a hug from you for real i want to cry.

'i have to keep making art. i cant stop' its great if you cant and feel like it. but please dont force and overwork yourself. you are still you if you currently dont have strength to make art.

T_T i want a hug. i dont know if im forcing myself but maybe youre right i should stop T_T

'i do love his name' your love for masc feminine names is so adorable TT hes not completely CRINGE meme but not a kind(?) meme either. its difficult to explain esp with how humor here is but yes.

i have nothing else to say about him so heres him with a dog <3 i love the dog dog <3

'why didnt you put an episode number' i watched it like.. 2 years ago. you think i remember? im a grandcat myself. i need to do a research for it. maybe at weekends (basically its saturday even here rn but nvm).

grandcat T_T it ok i just assumed you had an episode in mind. you dont have to research

first epp with matt smith is pretty touching esp with karen gillah and a little drama they have

i'll watch that!

but i also like peter capaldis doctor. esp the beginning of his era.

ive seen crack edits of jenna coleman and him and i kinda wanna watch his too

well see. and i never watched davids seasons TT im sorry but its true, cant help you here.

LOL HAHHAH thats fine thank you anyway i love you

'if i cant write this rn' and hows it?

T_T i cant write it im sorry

'poor bb girl witch' nooo she shouldnt feel like it TT the point is she loves her love more than she loves the very daemon.

She loves her love for daemon more than daemon himself? or daemon lovers her more than daemon ???

'sounds tiring' reasonable. ig it can be said abt all my ideas.

its not your idea that tiring its the idea of writing that tires me. baby i love your ideas T_T please stop exploding on yourself

btw, wfal isnt tiring you? or like a burden? ik you dont like writing long things so im kinds worried now.

🙄 gee. i literally make mood boards for it, i wonder if its tiring. well ok enough sarcasm, it is very much laborious but its a labor of love. i have not enjoyed writing a... series in a long time. its not a burden. i promise you i will stop writing that fic once i feel like im done with it. i was partially joking about ending i at p5 but i do hope i manage to keep it short T_T asfhs/flhsd

'i need a cleanse fic' is it kiss it better? anyway do wild girl!

it was. but idk if i was cleansed

'but i’ll listen to it later' did you listen to it?... im not making you, just interested ghdjfj.

i listened to the first part of the first song and i ejected i dont remember why but i guess i didnt like the vibe T_T

also! ive only learnt abt 'Running up That Hill' by Kate Bush (in another witchy playlist...) and 1) i LOVE it sm her voice and the way of singing is so enchanting? 2) it gives me waiting for a lifetime vibes.. yeah its origin meaning isnt exactly abt it but its the magic of art isnt it? the opportunity to interpret it however you want. and the deal with god pretty much reminds me of the au.

ive listened to this song before. she does have a very strong and enchanting voice. im honored that my fic reminds you things T_T thats so sweet and so nice of you. im honored to have such an impact on you <3

'you’ve got such a beautiful brain' thanks TT take it after my catmom. ive got lots of things to do for the exams but my mental state has only allowed me to watch videos with kitties, cry cats and dogs and listen to this song of kate for the past week.

you and i are so same. our mental capacities are overloaded. i think i might really just stop writing for a while T_T idk ive got these ideas i want to get out of my brain though

theres the one i cried hardest over (subjectively)

T_T PUMA PUMA <3

and theres the one i cried hardest (objectively).

LOOONG BABY FLOOF <3

theyre just cute if you ever feel like it. and HEs so tiny i SCREAMED.

ive seen this before T_T theyre SO tiny i squishhhhh

thats it. just cute vids to bring your mood up.

thank you they mean so much <3 this post is really cute too. im luv

how are you?

im currently in class not listening because id rather reply to you. dw its a concept ive studied before. my head hurts and im hungry. i also want to pee so badly but i cant leave my desk. i want to read fics to badly

whats the weather like?

its so hot my head hurts

hope you are or will soon do great.

me too i hope you are also well.

have a nice day/evening/night!

i love you i hope you have a nice day too <3

ill try to find an episode and write down some ideas, maybe youll find some inspiration in them.

thank you so much <3 the fact you care enough to do that. T_T thank you.

good luck with all the hw and assignments! take care! love you<з

me too T_T i want to graduate. i dont want to fail. i cant fail. T_T i feel dumb sometimes even though i know deep down im not T_T

*freezy kisses for you to not burn in your weather*

thank you <3 i love you

i also wanted to share this video about wolves. i love it so much. it makes me love nature so much. it makes you realize how important it is to allow animals to stay in their habitats.

also this tiger series. i used to watch this so much. i love tiggers love love love

i love you bye bye my love

xxx

[artnerd1123]

... hmm... soft...

[melto]

oh isaac i am not a stage manager i could never do anything you have to do but i directed a show this summer (amongst other things) during a Nightmare Internship and was pulling 14 hour days every day and Suffering and that thing you said about how people minimize the work because you love it and you're lucky to be working at all is so real and ALSO the whole thing about how they can keep piling on work because they know you won't let it fail????? because you care too much and love what you do???????? that's so real that was so infuriating and upsetting because it's like. there's nothing for you to do but take the work. because that's just what it's like and you can't let it fail. anyway all this to say i sympathize i'm sorry you're going through that but for what it's worth i'm sure you're a great sm and i hope that not all of your productions are like this

i love you sm thank you<3 luckily im technically still an intern for this show so the work load it divided in a really specifc way bcuz i have class and my job and hw still it just makes me so fustrated to think about .  like isnt it just crazy. how they can like do that to people. its like awww u love this? well then, im sure u would love even more rn<3 what do u mean ur miserable i thot u loved this...do u not love it? if ur not gonna make sure its best it can be did u ever really love it? and then its like oh gee i guess ur right! i love it i better make sure this goes well so everyone can see how much i love it and i shouldnt complain bcuz i love it! like. HELLO??? its so shitty and its like u cant do shit abt it or Else. im shaking ur hand in my head rn so much i hope any of ur future work u dont have to deal with it again bcuz its literally the worst part</3

[mememan93]

hwaoc playthrough part 5

Woah ok so i was right there were yiga pretending to be sheikah

No purah he has a knife to your throat dont move????

i mean it was smart but also

ok so no lanayru i guess

*gaurdians are active* aw shit, here we go again

oh nvm i forgot that like... i was level 3 during the second level, that will make things easier

oh the sanctum? *flashbacks to botw*

*thinks secret passage is invisible and runs into wall for 5 min before noticing the press y prompt* yeah thats on me lmfao

oh a white mained lynel HECK

oh is the king dead...? i mean he was an asshole but RIP

Woah did they just pull a xenoblade on us and like... make quests unavailable?? i mean i might get them back post game

*oh that level wasnt to long, maybe the next one will be fast, then ill do my hw* “lee spends 15 min on 1 level”

ok so its adding 2 characters to my roster

BHJBJKHVHJKVHGCGHC WHat IS that voice acting for sidon??? i think they changed his voice but i cant tell, i shouldnt be laughing rn but

yunobo? can he even fight?

oh boy malice swamps

*forgets i have another playable charatcer* *spends 5 min looking for eyes*

Wow the blights look so cool actually what if there were like this in botw

oh boy sidon time *instanly gets toppled by lizalfos and almost dies*

thank GOD for the hotspring

*well now its over, my brother can play* DIVINE BEAST TIME (i feel so bad he really wants to play)

oh boy im stuck on a rock

ok so thats... uhh... i guess ill leave it here

i did like the music in that level tho

[scarecrowbutch]

this is a long rant but hey im super upset and this is my blog anyways so here you go im on the verge of a mental breakdown if anyone wants to comfort me feel free to idk if ill be able to reply but i love you guys if you do sen dme reassurance or even if you dont

please lms if you read tho so i know how many read it

so as a kid ive always been put at extremely high levels of expectations and i was literally that stereotypical little kid who hated weekends (i said that aloud once no lie), lived for school alone, and needed perfection in order to live. i had very few friends and was so so incredibly naive abt everything esp like w friendships and just general human relationships and i was so starved for perfection and had no social life whatsoever and literally i was just thinking abt how i would make myself sick over schoolwork (kinda like whats going on rn) and needed everything to either be in the 90s or be a 100 bc i literally remember CRYING over getting an 80-something grade on an exam when most of the class got in the 50's and being super depressed about it for days on end and this is probably a core reason im such a perfectionist and i always do this i always put my work off until the very last minute and then rush bc im lacking motivation and am worried that im going to fail im worried im going to be a failure and i hate it i know im smart i know im capable i just always underestimate myself and doubt my own knowledgelike it can be someone asking me what 1+1 is and i know the answer is 2 but i dont want to be so confident in my answer and then look like a complete fool and send me into a downward spiral of self loathing bc whenever someone points out smth i did wrong i get so defensive and mad over it bc i hyperanalyze everything i do and like "yes thank you like i didnt already fcuking know that" and i hate myself an di hat ehtat i do this and i hate that i procrastinate so much bc i just need to get it done but i second guess myself and doubt my capabilities and only do it at the end when its like a life and death situation bc honestly in my head still school is a main priority and since im not in honors or skipped to a sophomore level even tho i dont even want to like i want to be a damn freshman and live college how im supposed to ppl around me are as smart as me and doing sophomore stuff and getting their work done and i get so damn self concious when i work bcim in a state of vulnerability when that happens and im always so afraid that ill be doing smth wrong n tho id likely fix it id feel ppl would judge me when doing it therefore i only work on sketches that are like complete and only work on work that is complete in front of anyone bc im so damn terrified of their judgement and yes its irrational and stupid and idek what that means i have but i hate it so so so so so so so so so so damn much and thats why i havent been able to work as well bc my roommate is here and i hate this and i hate life i hate myself i hat ehat im like this im so fucked up and irrational like why the fuck do i get so overly concerned with it and am literally unable to function properly w others around like hownestly what the fuck what the fucking fuckin guvkcufk i shouldnt care what ppl think but ive literally been unable to do hw today bc my roommate is here and i feel so pressured and upset by it and dont want to work on my art bc i feel that it would look like im slacking or smth idek i just i really really hate this

[ratcoochie]

the only hw i have is to read like 6 letters from The Color Purple and i can do that in the morning so im just chilling in bed trying to block out the depression and anxiety that shouldnt even be here rn

[diomdes]

all questions for the ask thing!! (or just the ones you would like to answer)

ahhh let’s do this !!! 

1: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?

probably? i haven’t smoked a cigarette yet but i could prob last without giving it a go (i do like occasionally smoking a tobacco pipe tho, like a hobbit)

2: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused?

im single ive always been single bc im Abhorrent 

3: What if I told you that you were pretty?

id prob say “shit u right” cos im vain :/ but honestly it would make me v happy !!! i just. don’t know how to respond to compliments lmao

4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”?

nope!

5: Are you interested in anyone right now?

eh, on and off. i dont know a lot of ppl i wanna date

6: What are you looking forward to in the next week?

goin to psych class and thats like, it

7: Do you want to be single?

not really but c’est la vie

8: Did you go out or stay in last night?

i stayed in 

9: How late did you stay up last night?

FUCK i was up til like 5am

10: Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot?

sure can :~)

11: Last three things you had to drink?

water, coffee, and either wine or a smoothie whom can say 

12: Have you pretended to like someone?

i pretend to like people almost every day cos i work in customer service 

13: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it?

eh, not really? except for if i ever said that to my grandma lmao she’s. evil

14: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months?

nah

15: Is it hard for you to get over someone?

depends honestly?

16: Think back five months ago, were you single?

bitch i am ALWAYS single lmao ! i was like. emotionally enveloped by someone but i wouldnt go so far as to call it a romantic entanglement

17: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon?

i was just waking up honestly my life is a mess

18: Hold hands with anyone this week?

NAH 

19: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?

nope i love wine so much 

20: What would you name your future daughter?

im not sure but i like the name august? i like unisex names a lot idk

21: Do you miss anyone?

yeah :/ shouldnt tho

22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night?

i dont even interact with ppl and u expect me to be Kissing people....

23: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?

whom is kiss

24: Are you good at hiding your feelings?

Nope they are ALL OVER my face

25: Have you ever cried from being so mad?

ohhhhh my god so many times

26: Who did you last see in person?

my mom cos she’s sitting right across from me rn

27: Are you listening to music right now?

i am not but i would like to be

28: What is something you currently want right now?

to be not in a geo class and also to have all of my homework done and to know Everything but that’s asking for a little much

29: What is the last thing you said out lot?

i think just the single word ‘bitch’ but i could be wrong

30: How is your heart lately?

she’s confused but that’s normal

31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?

very very rarely

32: Are you wearing socks?

i Am

33: What do people call you?

britt or brittany usually

34: Will you talk to the person you like tonight?

prob not

35: Are there any stressful situations in your life?

my life is a stressful situation, thanks to that Anxiety

36: Who did you last share a bed with?

NoBody

37: Did you do something bad today?

i procrastinated a lot and have like 7 hrs of hw to do tonight so like. i guess that

38: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?

a while i dont really hug people

39: Do you get stressed out easily?

oh my god yeah

40: Will you sing today?

i was singing tainted love while i was driving earlier so yep

41: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t?

this is so vague but yes absolutely

42: Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone?

usually nancy or blaire tbh? or my buddy brianna. or m’mom

43: Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance?

nope!

44: What are you listening to right now?

the bachelor lmao

45: What is wrong with you right now?

cannt focus on shit

46: What is on your wrists right now?

a hair bow on one wrist and a little band my therapist gave me on the other (for CBT things) 

47: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing?

goodwill lmao

48: What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider?

depends on the mood honestly ! but usually im more about hot chocolate

49: Do you make wishes at 11:11?

nah

50: Are you a good artist?

n o lmao

51: Love really is a beautiful thing huh?

that’s what ive heard !

52: Do you miss the way things were six months ago?

NO

53: Ever been on a golf cart?

i sure have

54: Do you have trust issues?

uhhhm. sometimes

55: Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who?

ive skyped all night with someone but they arent shit so

56: Do you own something from Hot Topic?

listen 

57: Do you use chap stick?

religiously 

58: Have you ever slapped someone in the face?

lmao Yeah

59: Do you have a little sister?

nah nah 

60: Have you ever been to New York?

yes ! i love ny :>

61: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?

yeah i guess

62: Have you hugged someone within the last week?

i. think so?

63: What were you doing at midnight last night?

staring at a fire in the fireplace doing literally nothing 

64: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?

l ma o no

65: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?

ye

66: Were your last three kisses from the same person?

odysseus? yeah

67: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days?

jkfgm,dfsd,mnmfd i havent kissed anyone in the last five DECADES

68: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?

prob alone? just cos im not the biggest fan of touchin

69: Will next Friday be a good one? 

prob not cos i fucking Work

[nedpng]

I'm sorry I just really need to vent if u don't wanna hear it u can delete this I'm studying abroad rn and I'm so so lonely here and I do nothing all day in my little room band I've been cutting again but I can't tell my GF.. I don't want her to tell my mom and I can't go home bc I need to be abroad to graduate. And I gotta do well in school so my GF doesn't leave me shes so much better than me in every way I'm terrified of her finding out I'm shit and leaving sorry again

no dude its okay i understand.

 where are you studying abroad? most people find studying abroad a really fun and exciting experience, but i can easily see where the loneliness might pop in esp if its in a place w/ a language u dont understand. i mean i’d say try to establish a system of communication w/ur gf. like not just texting back and forth (bc time zones) but have this thing where you can send eachother messages any time of the day and get the response back at any time. or like ?? let her know youre feeling lonely, dude. 

and if you can, i would probably suggest taking a walk or going to a park or going to a restaurant or cafe or just getting out of your room in general. refusing to leave your room isnt going to help bc a being enclosed in a small space by yourself is only going to keep you lonely. so even if u just go sit in the lobby of your dorm/apartment/house to read or do hw.  

and dude, let her know youre feeling lonely. she probably misses you. she’s probably thinking about your nonstop and worrying and all that. and dont worry about her being “better than you in every way” there’s most likely things abt you that she wishes she could do/also had. your emotions shouldnt be detrimental to your relationship. like i said earlier, try to create a response system. i knew some dude whos gf went overseas for a semester and they had this thing where they would write a story/passage/journal entry about their day/what theyre feeling/or make something up to eachother and respond to the messages they’d send. 

[oflgtfol]

im in such a bad mood rn because of stupid physics. i really have 2 homeworks due saturday. im trying to get some done now but god i shouldnt be doing this at mindight but god fucking damnit i dont wanna spend tomorrow and saturday rushing to do actual homework. i dont fucking care about the kinetic theory of gas i honest to god could not care less about this. this textbook chapter made me fucking fall asleep so i retained nothing and now the hw is only 5 questions and im getting the stupidest shit wrong and you know im gonna get a shit god damn grade on this assignment and im just SO ANNOYED RIGHT NOW

[uwantsome]

25FEB2019

i really want to cry rn 

idk like when i cant give myself so “me” time to chill and be on my own, it makes my days much more exhausting. I just need my time alone . I didnt get that today and by the time i got to my room, it was so late which gives me less time to sleep bc of the hw i have to do. i know i shouldnt have done the play if i had other things to do but like everything just piled up and it just frustrates me so god damn much. 

also like i tend to let ppl take my energy for some reason that once im in my room, im aggravated and annoyed and so emotionally exhausted. i wish i knew how to fix it.