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strangerwheelerthings · 6 months ago
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Do you still ship Ronance?
This actually has funny timing, considering I just did a dive back into the ronance tag on tumblr and Ao3 yesterday!
Yes, I still ship ronance. Aside from not posting regularly recently, I dont think I've done anything to indicate otherwise? This has always been a ronance and jancy positive blog, with greater focus on Ronance.
I love anything that would make Nancy happy, and boy, does she gravitate towards Robin. Robin both supports and validates her in a way no one else in the show quite has yet, while simultaneously challenging her. She brings a quick wit and light to dangerous situations that perfectly compliment Nancy’s focus and drive. Robin's also another of my favorite characters in the show.
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dolconfessionsss · 2 months ago
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I wish dol discord went back to how it used to be, it felt more friendly and welcoming--especially to new people--They say they encourage discussion of the game, but they don't. If anything, it is the exact opposite since any wrong opinion is met with harsh ridicule and mockery. I've seen it happen multiple times and I feel bad for the victims because they're immediately treated like "stupid people" that ruined the space by being illiterate. The regulars immediately get so defensive, you'd think the original commenter murdered someone. All over one silly misinterpretation of a character. It's even worse when one of the mods join in. They don't defuse the situation, they continue to enable it until they chase off the new users or "idiots". I thought maybe it was just in my head until I saw others talking about it being a circlejerk... This behavior really bummed me out and made me feel differently about the fandom. It just sucks to see them act so patronizing towards someone who isn't hyperfixated on the characters and doesn't know every bit of canon information from the QnAs or contributors. They don't treat others with kindness, they act like everyone outside the group is the uppity asshole. One time, one of the regulars temporarily left and it wasn't on their own accord, the "stupid people" made them do it by saying Kylar is stinky 🙄-- I wouldn't be surprised if they developed a secret discord that's just making fun of other users not cool enough to be in the club. They act like they do.
Remind me of this one server I used to be in, and I'd say they probably have another server or group chat specifically for shit talking others. I've been both the shit talker and the one being shit talked. So, yeah. 🙂
On that note, is there no other fan-lead servers for Degrees of Lewdity? I also heard fans of this game can be found in general visual novel/dating sim servers and are usually more chill 👍
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emchante · 1 month ago
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I think it’s time for an appreciation post because you fully deserve it !
I’ve been reading your posts for months, only been active for a week or so because I’ve seen how kind you are towards everyone and you can’t imagine the warmth it gives me (and probably anyone else) to see your reactions to our ideas and rants ☺️
you’re a terrific writer and a really nice human being from what I’ve seen until now !
this past week has seemed to be a lot for you, and I can only understand seeing it’s the end of the f1 season and everything that happened with Dan and all so that brings me to the most important question:
How are YOU? how’s it going with your studies ? Are you looking forward to Christmas ?
Would absolutely love to know more about you as a person 🤗
-🐱
oh this has me 🥹🥹🥹
okay first off, this has made me so sappy 🥹🥹 this is actually the kindest thing ever and melted my heart, thank you so much :( i’m so so happy my little reacrions, rambles and answers can make you (and hopefully others) just as happy too. it really makes my heart happy knowing so!!
and i appreciate the compliments towards me and my writing so much. i’ve been writing for years now, but delved into this fandom just in august, as you know. it was such a nervewracking thing, but i’m so happy i took the step to do so. i’ve met so many lovely people here, mutuals and anons alike, and i’m so happy to have met you all. i hope you, and everyone else knows how much i truly appreciate you all coming to talk to me. it gives me something to do in my boring little life, and it fills me with so much joy<3<3<3
i’ve been very emotional this past week, that’s very true!! it’s mainly because of daniel, but my period hitting this week did not help— my mood swings and hormones are always so haywire at this time of the month. i’m honestly just super sad about this season for many of reasons, but the main one is daniel. as someone who hyperfixates/gains special interests (thanks autism) on predominantly celebrities, i find it difficult if the person my brain decides to latch onto, goes out of the limelight— whether it be temporarily or permanently. so i think you can imagine my surprise when i enter the f1 fandom in january, and my little guy is gone in september. i could go on a long rant about how emotional it makes me and how much comfort my interests bring me— but i will spare you all lol.
as for me, i’m overall doing okay. life has been a bit up and down lately, a big part of it being forgetting to take my tablets. when i miss a day, it can send my emotions and mainly my thoughts haywire, so when i’ve been forgetting i’m usually 3-4 day intervals, i’ve been struggling a lot :’) thankfully, tumblr manages to keep me distracted most times, so while i wait to get back into routine, being on here is super helpful. apart from that, life has been good. i’ve rekindled with friends, i’ve became closer friends with people on here, i’ve gained a little community i can talk to— life at this point is very good. i wasn’t in the best of places the start of this year, so for things to be so different? i’m so happy and grateful.
studies are going okay, thankfully!! the workload is still pretty heavy, even as an art student, but i’m getting there. i’m almost done for this term, only a week or two left until winter break which is great!! can’t wait to relax afterwards, as i just churned out around 20-30 pieces within the last 2/3 weeks, varying in sizes and media’s.
and god, i am SO excited for christmas!! it’s my favourite event of the year!! i love how cozy it feels, how nostalgic it is and it makes me happy, makes me think of family and friends. my room is decorated in some christmas lights which i love, and i have a little family of winter animals that reside on my desk beside my little snoopy!! i’m so ready for christmas, and cannot wait to celebrate with everyone!!
thank you for asking about me and chatting to me, it’s a nice change of pace!! i love chatting with you all and getting to know you all, it makes posting more fun, that i know i’m not posting into an endless void. i’m always open to questions and general chatter and discussion, so please never be afraid to drop in to ask about anything!! and thank you for being so lovely, this really made me happy and made my night to know i have such caring people on the other side of the screen, who want to know about lil ol’ me :’)<3
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wasflypaw · 4 years ago
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Yeah I'm genuinely just. Not having much fun in the DSMP fandom anymore
My hyperfixation is keeping me here and the fact that I enjoy posting on this blog n interacting w followers
I barely even watch lore streams anymore n I focus on recaps. I'm no longer the person who would sit n watch every single POV of every event bc I'm just so Burned Out
Different opinions of different characters with different POVs is such a cool idea and I love the DSMP for it but,,, when my hyperfixation is centred around L'Manberg and c!Tommy lore,,,, and the fandom has grown so large there's apologist discourse around every corner,,,,, its impossible to escape the constant hate on the characters I enjoy. Like I've watched every single OG L'Manberg stream from Wilbur Tommy Tubbo Niki Fundy n Jack and I've watched every Tommy DSMP stream all live and while I do watch other streamers These are what would bring me the most joy
I do participate in apologist discourse a lot and I Would like to tone it down but I genuinely just. Dont know why I engage myself with such negativity. It's not like I Want To? I would love for this blog to be filled with non negative analysis and opinions and just clips and fanart and positive things
I see hate on the things I enjoy and I just feel the need to refute it bc I cant get rid of it. I have been Blocking everything that makes me even slightly uncomfortable on Twitter and even Then I cant get rid of everything
I say this as someone who has been here for like 9 months and has been watching the DSMP since Tommy had like 2k viewers. This fandom has gotten so large and overwhelming and negative it's just Not the same anymore
Whenever anyone insults something I have a hyperfixation on it's like I take it personally when I shouldn't. It's not just the DSMP its with other hyperfixations as well, like with cats its me getting defensive if someone says something as simple as "dogs are better than cats" or "cats suck / cats are evil"
Its ultimately a Me problem n me being so painfully neurodivergent and never learning how to deal with it bc I was diagnosed so late and learned all my info off the internet
Hyperfixations are such a fun but painful thing 😔
Though if I'm being completely honest this may just be me being temporarily overdramatic and emotional bc it's That Time of the Month
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meggtheegg · 4 years ago
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for the fandom meme asks: F L N S (evan :D) U Y Z (deh!) (if that’s too many, just pick a few to answer)
F - What’s the longest you’ve ever been in a fandom
If you count on-and-off, I’ve been into Marvel since 2016, but if we’re talking consistent, uninterrupted hyperfixation, probably DEH, which I got into in August of 2017 and stayed pretty consistently obsessed with until midway through last year. (I still love it with all my heart, but the ol’ hyperfixation well has run a tad dry as of late.)
L - Say something genuinely nice about a character who isn’t one of your faves (chars you’re neutral on are fair game, as are chars you dislike)
Tony Stark is a staple of the MCU, and without him, the whole thing probably never would have taken off, in the first place. For all I complain about him, he was the one who started it all and RDJ has made the role as iconic as Indiana Jones or James Bond or any other immediately recognizable action hero, when fifteen years ago, nobody knew/cared about Iron Man beyond hardcore comic fans.
N - Name three things you wish you saw more or in your main fandom (or a fandom of choice)
1. Respect, towards both each other and especially the actors
2. Long, well-written fics that don’t turn into smut, because that kills the vibe for me, personally
3. More fanart of the characters in mundane, everyday situations. Bonus points if it’s 40s Steve and Bucky
S - Show us an example of your personal headcanon (Evan)
This boy is for sure autistic (and perhaps ADHD as well), I’m more certain of that than I am of my own diagnosis, at this point. He has also internalized every little moment of rejection he’s experienced in his life and basically convinced himself that he is inherently less-than, at the start of the show. That’s what comes back to bite him, as the story progresses and he swings way too far in the other direction, being smothered with positive attention and ending up with kind of a temporarily inflated ego
U - 5 favorite characters from 5 different fandoms
Bucky Barnes - Marvel Cinematic Universe, Connor Murphy - Dear Evan Hansen, Enjolras - Les Miserables, Paul Matthews - The Guy Who Didn’t Like Musicals, the EPCOT Ball - Disney Parks, Oliver - Lucids (Nicholas Podany)
Y - What are your secondhand fandoms (fandoms you aren’t in personally but are tangentially familiar with because your friends/people on your dash are in them)
Just answered :D
Z - Just ramble about something fan-related, go go go (DEH)
I feel like it should be positive rambling but I just remembered the DEH movie is going to be a thing and how much it truly infuriates me, like, first of all, rushing a movie to get Ben Platt into a role that was done better by Andrew Barth Feldman (someone who actually looks Evan’s age) anyway, is such an immediate red flag. And then making Larry into Connor’s stepdad entirely shifts their conflict from a very real, interesting, complex one into the clichéd “you’re not my real dad” type of thing and removes the emotional gut-punch of his breakdown in YWBF. And SPEAKING of that, there is no way to translate most of these songs to screen. The stage and the projections, in their chaos of their crushing emptiness, are what make the emotional moments of DEH work. It doesn’t matter how or where you shoot it, there is no possible way to make Words Fail nearly as powerful on film as it is live. Not to mention how ridiculous Evan’s chats with imaginary Connor are going to look. The stage musical is one of the most beautiful, moving pieces of art I’ve ever been lucky enough to experience, and if they wanted to put it to film, they should have either released a proshot of the show and/or adapted it into a non-musical movie. Because a direct translation from stage to screen will not work, and it drives me up the wall that the majority of people’s only legal access to DEH will be through the inevitable dumpster fire that this movie will be sdfghjk
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awkwardtaco056 · 5 years ago
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so now that i’m no longer in the Hell that was school and after finding the lovely blog @endcringe i’ve decided to talk about my own experiences with cringe culture, bullying, and why it’s Really Bad to not let people enjoy inherently harmless things, especially neurodivergent people (read more because this is gonna get long and triggering at times, TW for mentions of bullying, suicide, child abuse, a brief mention of incest shipping. I won’t be naming any of the peers that I discuss my experiences with, because my point with this post is Not to “cancel” anyone, I just want to speak out on my experiences)
I’m neurodivergent; I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was 8 years old. I didn’t know a lot about it, and a family member even painted it as “oh it’s nothing blah blah blah just apply yourself more. Because of this, I had no idea about the concept of hyperfixations until I was in my late teens. Due to that, I would obsess over random things and my family would shame me relentlessly for it. My mother said I had an “addictive personality” and that she feared I’d end up a drug addict or alcoholic because of it.
I look younger than what I am, I’m short, and small. AKA, the perfect candidate for being picked on by people bigger and stronger than me. People made fun of my art when I was around 13, but fortunately that was an instance where spite fueled me to improve drastically. However, just because I happened to take the shitty comments and have it fuel me then does NOT mean bullying people will have that effect all the time. At some point someone put my old South Park fan art on a cringe blog. I was temporarily hurt, and a little angry, but I realized that if someone was making fun of a 15 year old’s art, they probably didn’t have much going for them in life, so I moved on.
Fast forward to high school. Everything was horrible and I’m not exaggerating when I say I barely made it out alive. I was living in an abusive household up until January 2018 and I found comfort in many different interests. I’ve always found great comfort in music and the arts in general. In 2016, I drew a picture of a mermaid. I was inspired by the chocolate opal gemstone, and I thought it’d be fun to draw a gay chubby mermaid with dark skin and a rainbow tail and freckles. Junior year was lousy and I wanted something that sparked Joy. I was immediately told that “scientifically, mermaids wouldn’t look like that. Mind you, my take looked like this:
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Obviously I wasn’t going for realism, I just wanted to draw a cute mermaid. However, they continued to tell me that they wouldn’t look like that, going as far as writing so on the back of said drawing. When I got angry at her for taking it too far (as I’d established before that I didn’t like it when people wrote on my art without permission), they got angry back, accusing me of being unable to take criticism. Heated by the accusation, I went as far as asking my art teacher if it was fair for them to say that, and she said no, stating that constructive criticism would be talking about how I could improve my lineart and coloring in the digital version. I took her actual helpful criticism and since then have improved Drastically in digital art. Even with that being said, I found myself hesitant to participate in things such as MerMay because I was leery of hearing that peer berate me for having cartoony mermaids. 
 During high school I grew to love many musicians, a lot of emo/alternative stuff, a couple being Twenty One Pilots and Melanie Martinez. I love how unique TOP’s style is, their open discussion of mental illness, and as someone who had a rough childhood, I connected with every single song on Cry Baby. It was like nothing I’d ever heard. I started listening to mashups featuring all these different artists I love, adoring how they could change the tone and sound so drastically. A peer Bully of mine in junior year condemned these two artists, declaring that they made “Bad Music” simply because it didn’t fit their tastes. They’d throw my drawings on the ground, write over them in pen, steal my headphones so I couldn’t listen to music, push me around, complain that mashups sucked and gave them a headache, and in general shit all over conetnt that was actively preventing me from committing suicide. 
Some family members were no better. Once high school hit, I began listening to Fall Out Boy, Panic! at the Disco, and My Chemical Romance. Their deep complex lyrics stuck with me. I would write down quotes from my favorite songs and thanks to hyperfixating, I remember each studio album in order My mother resented when I fell in love with the “Emo Trinity” because “the Columbine  shooters were emo and that event traumatized me” Despite that, not only did the Columbine tragedy occur in 1999 and none of the bands got together until the early 2000s, but I have a pretty good feeling those groups aren’t For gun violence. The other side constantly criticized the fact that I love FOB, P!ATD, and MCR because I’m black and “why must you listen to that white people music.”
 I grew fond of Dan and Phil in high school (and I’m still a fan to this day!), I loved Phil’s kindness and positive aura and I deeply connect with Dan’s sense of humor and personality. Their content made me happy during some very dark times in my life. It’s November 2017, I’m over a close peer’s house at the time, and notice PINOF is upon us. I drew the PINOF whiskers on my face, my plan being to quietly watch them in the corner of peer’s bedroom on my phone through headphones, the others were doing their own thing and I knew they didn’t like them, so I thought they’d respect it if I silently indulged in it. Unfortunately, the complete opposite happened. I was immediately shunned and locked out of the bedroom, told that I’d only be let back in if I washed the whiskers off because “absolutely not”. Me, being stubborn, washed them off temporarily but drew them back on in the room. Life during then was especially bad for me, as the abusive household I was in was getting worse. They noticed, of course, and even though all I wanted was to enjoy this small tradition in a time during a deep depression, I was immediately shoved out the room and locked out, only to have said peer’s family members notice. I’m a relatively shy person, so this was honesty a really harrowing experience that had a lasting effect on me. 
I grew to adore Sanders Sides as well, but the moment I found out most of my peers didn’t like Thomas, I was terrified.  I stopped watching Dan and Phil’s content for months and shied away from other fandoms too, only occasionally indulging in times of complete solitude. One time when said peers were due to visit my house for the first time, I saw the Phandom and Fander stuff I’d hung up on my wall in my little sanctuary that was my bedroom (it was the first time in years I’d had my own room), and I was filled with panic and fear. I took them down and hid them away, genuinely terrified of what they’d do to me if they saw. It’s still incites so much anger in me to this day because they turned around and ended up shipping incest, but somehow liking D&P and Sanders Sides was So. Much. Worse.
They were baffled by my actions, despite having humiliated me Twice by going on a private blog of mine separate from everything so that I could fully indulge and laughing at everything on there, once at a peer’s house, once right in school. I don’t think they realized how traumatizing it was to have a large group of people in public laughing at something I was deeply self conscious about for all of my life. I put on a brave face at the time, but ended up crying in the bathroom after first period began. I continued to be treated as lesser until things came to an ugly head August 2018 when I ended up in the hospital because I nearly attempted suicide. Years of child abuse, bullying, and being deemed “cringy” made me feel like I didn’t deserve to be alive, that everyone would be happier if I were gone.
After arguably one of the lowest points in my life, I cut them off and slowly began to embrace the Real Me. I started letting myself enjoy the things again, made true friends and even found love, my first boyfriend ever at 18. I still get choked up retelling it, but when PINOF 10 dropped, after he found out how much I’d been hurt over the incident in 2017, I was greeted with a photo of him with the whiskers on his face. I cried for a while, blown away at such a pure act of kindness. He listens to me ramble about my interests, he compliments my taste in music, he watched K-12 with me. 
This got incredibly long, but my point is this: Cringe Culture hurts people. You might think it’s whatever if the Thing doesn’t apply to your interests, but content you’re denouncing as cringy could be something that’s keeping them alive, that one flicker of light in a void of darkness. When I was contemplating suicide, I listened to The Black Parade, repeating Gee’s words to myself over and over, that nothing in the world was worth hurting yourself over. Some friendly joshing here and there is okay, but actively ripping someone to shreds constantly to the point where they have a mental breakdown in front of you and later on plan their own demise is disgusting. Nobody should abuse anyone for having harmless interests, no one. Unless you’re participating in p*dophilic/inc*st/s*xual assault/inherently abusive ships/content and pretending it’s not bad because “Fiction doesn’t impact reality!”, you have every right to like what you like and be happy. Read homestuck. Play Undertale. Draw up the Wildest OCs you can imagine. And stay away from people who try to rob you of innocent fun, life is too short and in this cruel, unforgiving world, you deserve to be happy, whether you’re a 13 year old who draws cute furries, a 16 year old cosplayer on TikTok, a VSCO girl, a 30 year old who writes/draws self insert art or a 20 year old who adores Invader Zim. 
Cringe Culture is just bullying under a different name, and it can lead to many instances of people, especially fellow neurodivergent folk to feel isolated and ostracized. Attempting to bully someone out of an interest they have isn’t going to fix them; it’s more often than not going to cause more damage. I suffer from diagnosed C-PTSD, anxiety, and depression, and sometimes I still find myself trying to over-justify my interests. To all who are roped up in bad homes and lousy “friends” who berate you for your innocent passions, I’m sorry you’re suffering, things will one day get better even if it doesn’t feel like it, and fuck those people. I’d also like to note that sometimes even if it seems more terrifying, it’s better to have one or two close friends you can truly trust than a whole group that walks all over you. You have every right to call them out for treating you poorly, and if things don’t improve, you also have every right to leave.
You have a right to live your True Self.
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vacuousauto · 4 years ago
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tysm for tha ask molli!! ill talk abt kny here bc its takin over my life rn qwq
spoilers ahead 4 tha whole series!!
📃 what is the plot of your hyperfixation? and is it a movie, game, show, etc?
kny is a manga w an anime adaptation thats had 1 season so far n a movies bein made of my fav arc!! (also this plot desc may not b perfect bc i havent read it in like 4 months)
its abt a boy called tanjirou whos whole family got killed by a demon, n his sister nezuko got turned into a demon (which fun fact: in kimetsu theyre man-eatin creatures w different powers called blood demon arts!!)
hes sent by giyuu (a demon slayer!) 2 join tha demon slayer corps so hell become stronger n mayb get a little revenge. as a treat (and also mayb find a way 2 turn nezuko human?)
as he trains he learns how 2 do water breathing (a sword technique taught by him n giyuus mentor, urokodaki) n his final challenge is 2 cut a massive boulder in half w his sword
its real hard 4 him (as u can imagine) so 2 kids in fox masks named sabito n makomo come n help him, but after tanjirou cuts tha rock n tells urokodaki abt him its revealed theyre dead???
@ final selection (basically a demon slayer entrance exam where u win by surviving on a demon-infested mountain 4 seven days) he learns from a real fucked up demon that hes exclusively been targetin urokodakis students n that not even sabito could slice its neck open?? (thats how him n makomo died)
after tanjirou kills tha demon n basically puts all tha water breath students’ souls @ peace he passes tha exam!! its been 7 days n now he gets his nichirin blade (the only kinda sword that can kill a demon, tha only 2 ways they can die is thru a slice 2 tha neck from a nichirin blade n sunlight)
turns out nezuko was turned by the strongest demon of all, michael jackson muzan kibutsuji, n so he sets out 2 hunt him down n try 2 kill him
but he aint so strong @ first so he needs 2 try 2 take down tha twelve kizuki first (the 12 strongest demons besides muzan)
another reason he needs 2 kill tha kizuki is 2 gather their blood for a demon named tamayo n her assistant yushirou!! tamayo can make a cure if tanjirou can gather blood samples 4 her (the stronger tha demon tha more of muzans blood they have so hes gonna have 2 aim high)
he meets a bunch more slayers along tha way, includin zenitsu (a scaredy cat thunder breath user who basically simps 4 nezuko n becomes a badass when hes asleep) n inosuke (a rowdy beast breath user who wears a boar mask n lived in tha mountains)
after lower moon 5 gets killed by giyuu, nezuko unlocks her blood demon art (exploding blood!) n tanjirou remembers how 2 use tha hinokami kagura, him n nezuko get captured by a slayer called shinobu qwq
turns out she n giyuu are 2 of the nine hashira, the strongest of all tha demon slayers!! but theyre all havin a debate over whether they should kill tanjirou n nezuko 4 goin against corps rules n travelin w a demon
eventually oyakata-sama (tha leader of tha slayer corps) comes in n tells em its ok, urokodaki sent a letter explainin that nezukos never hurt anyone n if she does, tanjirou giyuu n urokodaki all have 2 die basically
oyakata-sama also tells em that tanjirous met kibutsuji, at which everyone goes feral at (and understandably, none of em had ever even seen him before hes that elusive)
so they get 2 live bc theyre like. tha best hope the slayers have @ findin kibutsuji
the rest of the hashira are kyoujurou (flame), muichirou (mist), mitsuri (love), obanai (serpent), gyoumei (stone), tengen (sound) n sanemi (wind)
theres also kanao (shinobus pupil, flower breathing) n genya (sanemis brother, eats demons 2 gain power n basically become a demon temporarily, also He Has A Gun)
ive gone on a lot here so ill try 2 keep it brief now but i HAVE 2 explain infinity train or ill die (slight suicide tw but no one actually does that outside of dreams)
BASICALLY the lower 6 moons have a meetin @ kibutsujis infinity castle, muzan decides 2 dismantle tha lower moons bc they keep fuckign dying
all of em get their shit wrecked except enmu, who avoided death by usin muzans “dont tell me what 2 do” rule against him n beggin 4 death basically
so he gets a metric fuckton o blood n goes off 2 kill tanjirou
turns out he keeps killin people on his train n kyos gone 2 investigate!! the main gang (the kamaboko gang as the fandom calls it) are there too bc tanjirou needs 2 investigate what hinokami kagura really is (turns out its sun breathing, the og form and ones that only folks w the same mark on his forehead can use) n if anyone knows abt the alleged “fire breathing” as they know it rn its the fire hashira!!
so they get on tha train (inosukes lovin tha experience bc hes Literally Never Seen A Train Before) n kyo basically adopts the whole group
they take some tickets n promptly fall asleep HERES WHERE ENMUS DEMON ART COMES INTO PLAY!!! DREAM MANIPULATION BABEYYY
BASICALLY he can make people fall asleep in a buncha ways (the mouths on his hands, his weird eye thingies, the tickets) n once thats happened he n his henchmen can access said dreams (he can even control em!!) n if they find tha “spiritual core” they can destroy it n essentially leave em as an empty shell thatll never wake up!! yaaaaaay /s
he fails bc tanjirou realises a way out n its by cuttin his own head off in his dream, eventually everyones awake again n tanjirou finds enmu on tha roof(?) of tha train
after a while he does manage 2 decapitate him but surprise!!! hes not dead
turns out he literally FUSED WITH THA TRAIN n is plannin on eatin everyone inside, includin kyo n the gang
but he doesnt bc Main Protags Cant Die(tm) n dies while complainin that he wants a redo (sorry enmu, ily but u cant turn back time unless ur yoshikage kira)
also sidenote enmus tha only kizuki w/o a canon backstory as far as i can remember and????? H??
ANYWHO after that whole debacle basketball akaza (UPPER moon 3) shows himself!!! FUCK
n after all that struggle against the 8th strongest demon of all time now they gotta deal w tha 4th strongest????? damn,
so yeah it goes how youd imagine, its a tough fuckin battle n its Not Fun but it turns out kyoujurou fucking dies n i genuinely didnt realise until he said “kamado my boy, lets have one final chat” bc i was so in denial n lets face it i still am now
long story short idk how im gonna manage 2 get thru the movie w/o breakin down @ the end
anyway after that horrible horrible time tanjirou goes n meets senjurou, kyos little bro, who gives him kyos sword guard thing (its shaped like a flame!!) n i havent read it in a while so i cant FULLY remember but i think this is where he learns abt sun breathing??
after that they end up goin on a mission in tha red light district w tengen, his 3 wives are there 2 serve as spies (theyre kunoichi, which i think are ninjas of some kind??) n the boys have 2 find em
they do manage 2 find em but not after runnin into upper moon 6, who are 2 twins called daki n gyuutarou
after that fight tengen has 2 retire bc he got fucked up p bad from that fight n he wants 2 make sure tha girls are ok above all
so after that arc tanjirou n nezuko go down 2 tha swordsmith village (bc the guy who usually makes his swords is fuckin tired of repairin it) n run into mitsuri!! she tells tan that theres smth in tha forest thatll make him stronger
ngl this is tha arc i remember tha least abt so this desc is prolly SO inaccurate despite havin 2 o my favs in it)
but muichirou shows himself too n hes mean 2 tanjirou >:/ (he does get nicer eventually but 2 him specifically)
a 10 y/o kid named kotetsu shows tan this 6 armed trainin robot called yoriichi type 0 (based on tha first slayer 2 use sun breathin) n tanjirou breaks it by accident qwq
but he keeps trainin thanks 2 kotetsu but tha kids a harsh fuckin trainer ill tell u that
anyway so we have a whole buncha demons 2 deal w here except most of em are 1 demon split into different parts
hantengu n gyokko, upper moons 4 n 5 respectively!! mui deals w gyokko while mitsuri genya nezuko n tanjirou deal w hantengu
in these fights mitsuri n mui get their demon slayer marks!! these are marks that they get when they surpass the limits of tha human body n they look like tha marks demons have (muis looks like clouds on his cheeks n mitsuris is 2 hearts on her collarbone)
next up is tha hashira trainin arc!! everyone gets trained by each of tha hashira 2 try n unlock their slayer marks
each have a dif trainin style that focuses on dif stuff (for example gyoumei focuses a lot on physical strength n stuff like that, obanai is more abt accuracy) n this is where giyuus backstory gets revealed bc he doesnt think hes worthy o bein a hashira :((
basically him n sabito were absolute besties!! they both trained together n sabito basically told him not 2 die ever
but it all goes wrong @ final selection- sabito manages 2 take down every demon on tha mountain but one of em, that bein the hand demon that exclusively targets water breathers (theyre easy 2 distinguish bc of their blue haoris n custom made fox masks)
he manages 2 save giyuu n everyone else from tha selection except 4 himself (this is why giyuus haori is like that- its made from his sister n sabitos haoris)
giyuu blames himself 4 both of their deaths bc he failed 2 protect em n says that he doesnt deserve 2 have passed tha selection let alone b a hashira,, but tanjirou convinces him otherwise!! ^^
then one day while giyuus trainin w sanemi disaster hits- oyakata-sama, his wife n two of their kids just died
the 2nd to last arc- the infinity castle!! thingsre gettin real n muzans revealed himself
in tha infinity castle EVERYONES there but can u really blame em theyve been workin up 2 this 4 millenia
shinobu runs into upper moon 2- douma, aka the bastard that killed her sister as well as inosukes mum
she is. justifiably pissed. n she gives it her all but he kills her :(( douma ily but also FUCK YOU.
so perfect timing!!! heres her adopted sister!! as well as inosuke!!!! revenge battle time >:0
in the end shinobus poison is what kills him- her whole body is filled w wisteria poison thats deadly 2 a demon so he basically consumed her whole body weight in poison rip
but ofc word gets out via messenger crow that shes dead n its just a real sad moment tbh :( but theres no time 4 that bc giyuu n tanjirou just ran into akaza >:((
so tanjirous pissed as hell now n w their combined efforts they take down tha basketball lookin bastard (bastardball??)
meanwhile obanai n mitsuri (n yushirou iirc?? he uses his own art 2 control her @ some point tho i cant remember when) deal w tha new upper moon 4 (nakime, whos also shiftin tha rooms around w her blood art n makin tha fight super fuckign annoyin tbh) n muichirou genya sanemi n gyoumei deal w kokushibou (upper moon 1, also tha original sun breathers twin brother so he gets moon breathin >:3)
mitsuri n obanai fake their deaths w help from yushirou n muzan falls 4 it, which comes in handy later ;3
zenitsu also deals w his former bully, upper moon 6 aka kaigaku aka dickhead supreme who if zenitsu didnt kill i would personally kill w my bare hands
so after everyones taken down all thats left is muzan >:( muzan kills tamayo real early on n everyones goin all out on him
we also learn that he has multiple brains n hearts in his body eww
also the hashira have their marks now!! but all but sanemi n giyuu get killed n giyuu loses his arm :((((
genya also gets killed noo
eventually ofc the battle is won thanks 2 everyones relief, it took for fuckin ever bc the only way muzan can die is tha sun so they had 2 kill time n keep him out in tha sun 4 a long time
also nezukos been cured!! shes a human!! n shes comin 2 help!!
but OH GOD OH FUCK MUZAN TURNED TANJIROU INTO A DEMON N GIYUUS CRYIN N INOSUKES CRYIN THRU HIS MASK N ITS GOIN SO FUCKING WRONG but he gets tha will 2 turn back bc Fuck You Muzan, The Power Of Friendship Defeats All
the 2nd to last chapter is tha happy endin, the kamaboko gang visit tanjirou n nezukos house, giyuu cuts his hair n SMILES n tha hashira have their final meetin w oyakata-samas son kiriya
i cried readin it ngl their sufferin is finally over...... it cost a lot but now theres no more demons,,,
chapter 205 is set in tha modern day! kanao n tanjirous descendants are shown, as well as zenitsu n nezukos
everyone who died/never had kids get reincarnated (for example gyoumei is now a daycare worker, kyos reincarnation toujurou is besties w one o tans descendants n giyuu (giichi) is friends w sabito again!! makomos their friend too!!
ALSO KIRIYA IS STILL ALIVE hes the oldest man in japan!! this is huge bc the ubayashiki family dont usually live past 30 bc of a curse that was put on em when they had muzan
yushirou is still alive too but thats bc hes a demon n he paints tamayo for a living qwq
it just made me cry so hard bc waaah,,, everyone gets 2 live a demon-free life now,,, anyway typin this took me like an hour im sorry mint (as well as anyone else who read this)
🎥 do you have any favorite scenes from your hyperfixation?
tha infinity train arc as a whole tbh??? its basically enmu n kyoujurous big moment and. i care them sm. i cant wait 4 tha movie qwq except 4 their deaths ofc
🏳‍🌈 do you have any headcanons (lgbt, race, neuro, etc) that are important to you?
i have a lotta headcanons really!! outta my f/os favs tho i hc:
giyuu is trans bi n autistic
kyo is gay n has adhd
muichirou is nb n pan
mitsuri is pan
douma is gay
enmu is nb pan n autistic
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5/13/2022: Back to Basics
The good news is that the "old school" anxiety has faded for the most part. The bad news is that the dissociation is back. I guess if my brain drops one "flavor" of anxiety, it moves on to the next one. I wouldn't say one is better than the other--they're all equally bad, especially when you're in the moment.
Anyway, I'm going to try to take a break from my current special interest. My maladaptive dreaming is honestly just...getting old, lol. I rehash the same stories and characters over and over. The hyperfixation is also getting stressful (nothing bad happened, it just happens after a while), so I need to back off.
The entire point of maladaptive daydreaming is to be comforting, and if it's not doing that, then I need to find something else. Likewise, special interests are supposed to be fun, and if they become stressful and anxiety-ridden--well, I need to move on, at least temporarily.
But as I've said in other entries, it's hard to move on when it's become a habit. Still, it's not impossible. I've done it before under worse conditions. I'm thinking about writing a fic for a different fandom, so maybe I'll create an inspiration blog for that.
And I could always just...find other hobbies. There's so many things I need to do but don't have the energy for. Constant anxiety wears you out and leads to depression on top of that.
Speaking of that: my depression has been worse. It suddenly hit me last night that I'm alone. And OK, that's an exaggeration--I have friends that I can reach out to any time. But like I said, it's hard to think rationally when you're in the middle of it.
Boy, I wish I could just hit a button and turn a special interest off for a while. That would make it a lot easier. I was going to say I wish I could forget it for a little while, but eh--whatever mechanism causes that could go wrong and make me forget about it altogether. Still, that might not necessarily be a bad thing.
Man, I need to hang out with friends sometime and just push through the anxiety.
Thanks for reading,
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